actually was invited to wedding for first time in almost 3 years. i was nervous because i have always been an acquaintance and never really a superfriend. in theory i dont mind the idea of meeting new people and i know most normies are generally nice, especially at something like this, but its still Stressful to be around a lot of people who are all talking to each other.
but it wasnt so bad, in fact it was good. but still i noticed how all the normies have a SENSE OF HUMOR and are CONSTANTLY JOKING with each other. the guy i was sitting next to, who i sort of knew, well he is also really funny and i like his jokes and i generally like him, largely because of his funny jokes and his good natured personality. but then i compare myself and think wow i wish i could be as funny as he is.
or this other guy i know who is also pretty funny but also a god damn true chad alpha male. i mean he absolutely has SLAYED the pvssy for over 10 years and still does. he is basically an alpha male and has the skills to pull basically every woman he wants. but he is also a great guy, not a douchebag or joo. he is very loyal to his friends and always tries to do the right thing.
but yeah i like him too and if i imitated him i would certainly have more success with women. he really should start a School For Incel KVs. He might have been a beta white knight briefly around 18, but he quickly learned how to deal with women VERY well.
i really should make an effort to get more friendly with him. i have technically known him for like 12 fooking years. real nice guy. but not nearly as nice with the ladies. and he shouldn’t be. niceness is not how you deal with women.
but i would LOVE to see him find a GOOD woman and get married and have many beautiful white children, simply because he would clearly make a GREAT father. and he is handsome and smart and charming and his children would be too. but if he, who can have any woman he wants, can’t find a good woman, that is discouraging.
and he has medium and long term GFs as well as banging sluts. he was with some gurl for 2 years and i thought he might marry her but then that ended, she moved across the country, got an ambitious career, got married to some other guy. im not sure who dumped who there. with him its hard to tell because he has the power to get bored with women and has dumped his fair share of women.
there was a qt 24 year old woman at our table, i couldnt tell if she was dating this total niceguy beta who was sitting next to her. he seemed like a truly nice guy, and not in the bad way, but i knew this would be big trouble for their rel, if they indeed had a rel, because he was clearly not exerting ANY dominance over her. he was WAY too nice and sweet and meek to have a young qt GF. maybe a fat ugly slob.
now this gurl didnt seem like a huge whore. no tattoos, not obnoxious, not bitchy, not dressed like a whore. probably n<15 hahahahaha. maybe even <10 hahahaha.
yet my first thought was, wow, this guy is going to get eaten alive by her, even if she’s a decent woman, AND my charming alpha chad friend would be able to totally steal her from him if he wanted. then he would bang her 50 times and get bored with her and dump her hahahaha.
but overall the wedding was nice and good and fun, i am just making observations of people i like and respect and should try to hang out with more.
i had a hard time being witty because i have no sense of humor that doesnt involve gassing kykes and bullwhipping blacks and enslaving women and hwyte sharia raep gangs and women being awful rats, and really this type of humor understandably comes off as bitter and creepy to normies.
i took a valium before going to the church, and then a second valium while about 90 minutes into the reception. it worked all right.
a big win for me was when i went to the pub with a guy in between the wedding and reception and essentially just had a conversation with him for an hour one on one. now he did 80% of the talking at my probing questions about his exciting, top tier, alpha male, elite ubermensch career job where he has to be making at least 80k a year if not 100k and has ridiculous benefits. funny that you have to be in the top 5% elite for the company to Take Good Care of its employees in terms of health care, work life balance, time off, sick days, retirement, etc. that is a world i will never know.
but he is a really smart guy. but also insanely leftist. ive mentioned him before hahahaha.
what i learned is that i may not disagree with him so much on the idea that income inequality is a little ridiculous, and that real life global capitalism leads to wealth filtering up and up rather than benefitting society as a whole. we would just disagree on methods of “redistributing” income/profits and of course on race. he would be like a bernie sanders socialist and i would be a histerian racial volkisch state nationalist socialist hehehehe.
but he knows his stuff really well on Econ and Statistics, which I appreciate. I mean I liked muh econ classes too. he just did a much more business major and is able to use his econ and stats and marketing knowledge on a daily basis as part of his career. i cant even explain a bell curve to a normie. but he sure can hahaha. in fact that was a topic we discussed.
so yeah that was a big achievement. just an hourlong conversation with a guy in a pub. i was started to get a little tired near the end of that though, even though i only did 15% of the talking. shit just LISTENING is pretty exhausting hahaha.
then at the reception i was able to Crowdsource all those social interactions and conversations, where basically all conversation is short term brief witty exchanges with the person next to. i have a hard time being witty to. So I am just Nice instead and laugh at their jokes and make lame follow ups on their jokes.
but at least i am fairly confident the people fairly like me and dont scorn me like when i scorn women in the abstract. shit when i meet women in real life im not scornful to them. shit probably if i WERE, they would be more secsy to me. you have to do it in the right way, not in a butthurt bitter way. ive seen people make that mistake too.
also my other big win was dancing at the wedding. i really dont dislike dancing that much even though i cant do it, i just go up and make a fool of myself with autistic, virginal spazzing.
but honestly people dont care, theyre not judging you on how shitty you are dancing, if anything, they’re really happy that other people are out there with them.
i guess i started doing this when i was a young man getting RAGING DRUNK at college parties, and the drunkenness helped. unfortunately i didnt do Dance Parties ENOUGH to actually get action out of them with muh drunken dancing.
the actual good news is that i can still be bold enough to do ridiculous dancing WITHOUT drinking. valium prob wouldnt hurt tho hahaha. i did take some valium.
actually got invited to a function tonight which i quickly agreed to going to. i will bring 10 dollars worth of beer for the others to hopefully drink.
went to store and got a bar of dr bronners natural vegan organic castile soap. i avoided it last week because dr bronner is an admitted joo. and there is super hippie “branding” on their label. but aesthetically i liked the label. and i liked the list of ingredients better than the j r watkins soap i got last time. i just got a small one. there were larger ones of the bronners i might get after i finish the other ones. obv i will use the larger watkins and the smaller bronners i have now. just saying i have a better feeling about the bronners. even though bronners is jooish as FOOK.
but he seems like a hippie dippie kind of hippie who is serious about using purely natural ingredients, which is exactly what i want in muh soap. unless those are all jooish lies. i mean the only way this could be a jooish scam is if the dr bronners soap is basically the same thing as dial.
should read some reviews. but they had good scents like lavender, tea tree, rose, peppermint. i got the tea tree.
check the amazon reviews. this is a large bottle of the liquid version. i just got a small bar.
amazon reviews seem pretty good.
tried the dr bronners joo soap and was very impressed. will buy again. just wish it wasnt so jooish.
but i kinda like “socially responsible” companies up to the point that they probably treat their employees well and dont try to screw their customers or employees. the hiring women and nonwhites, thats just stupid tho. but if you can be successful enough to be a successful company, and then make a point about not maximizing jooish greed, thats good.
of course, companies like this are impossible to get a job with unless you have the most impressive of resumes with top college, extracurriculars, internships.
nobody ever told me that extracurriculars are even MORE important in COLLEGE than they were in HIGH SCHOOL!
in high school i knew i HAD to do a minimum of extracurriculars to get into college and to get into National Honor Society. those things were never questioned and i didnt really protest too much.
but once i got to college i never realized you HAD to do even MORE extracurriculars to get a JOB or grad skool.
how was i so stupid, naive, and immature not to realize that? because i was young, dumb, and full of jizz, and a young, dumb, stupid, naive, immature 18-21 year old!
also used the dr bronners soap on hair as i am now using Natural Soap as a Shampoo and staying away from jooish chemicoshampoos and sticking only to jooish natural soaps hahahaha.
i strongly recommend buying semi fancy “organic” or “natural” soaps as opposed to the more mainstream soaps.
this reichsmark is awesome. so glad i bought that. so worth it. i might buy a 5 reichsmark which has a higher silver content at 90% but it is at least 25 dollars if not 30. would just as rather buy an official currency coin (with silver of course) of poland. cuz i like poland and have blood there. but i also like AH and AH’s germany and wish they got along better with the poles. ideally a polish german reich would have been awesome. god damn that would have been great. so who was the asshole there. germany or poland. 625/690 pages into MK and he still hasnt talked at length about poland. he talks about how france is germanys natural enemy but hasnt said a damn thing about poland.
well even more ideally, a german polish russian block to fight against the degenerate globalised jooified west. but of course much of the east was jooified with gommunism for a very long time.
you can get jooed with jooish global capitalism or jooish global gommunism. your choice goy. actually not your choice at all.
i would recommend something more like a nonjooish, totally hwyte form of capitalism, where all employees were paid good wages, good benefits, and given a chance to buy ownership in the company, and as little was done “globally” as possible.