sat feb 24 ITS NOT ABOUT PLEASURE, ITS ABOUT MAKING YOUR WOMAN A GOOD WIFE AND MOTHER.

july 19

JUST FINISHED MK.

that neverending, disappointing, boring book hahaha.

well its good to FINISH WHAT YOU START.

and its good to say you read it, when you are a card carrying VVN who luvs AH.

but yeah it was overly long and boring and didnt really learn anything or have my eyes opened to anything. other than the book was a lot less evil and deranged and Mad than the joo press would have you believe.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/women-with-iphones-lose-ability-to-love-tinder-hookup-study/121873

https://www.girlsaskguys.com/sexual-behavior/a22977-girls-on-tinder-do-smash-a-lot

goddamn sluts but this is what women our. we as MEN are FAILING in our RESPONSIBILITY to CONTROL these SLUTS and KEEP THEM IN LINE.

just because i dont know any young women to control is no excuse. i should be going out FINDING young women to control! hahahahaha.

http://www.dailystormer.com/radio-stormer-men-lead-women-support-and-children-learn-from-both/

podcast from 2015 with anglin and longshanks re women

sheeeeeeeeit

but yeah really being a huge omega loser, i dont DESERVE a good women. i GUESS i can hate on basic average women for being such dirty sluts….but i can’t say i DESERVE any BETTER than a dirty slut! i mean they are very WEAK-WILLED women who cant keep their legs closed right? and i am a very WEAK WILLED MAN who can’t STRUGGLE and FIGHT and WORK and EARN anything of VALUE!!!!

i mean im just butthurt that i had a person of great value and lost them very dramatically.

ok fine.

also men are programmed by NATURE to WANT WOMEN.

but yeah it just SUCKS to think that THAT WOMAN was TOO GOOD FOR ME, even though she had fooked at least one black guy. what the hell do I expect? really i deserve an unattractive single mom who has been with MANY black guys. not a solid 25 year old 6.7/10! but rather maybe a 35 year old 5.5/10 is more my League!

yeah im probably not wrong that she WAS out of my league. but just because i didnt deserve to Be With her, DOESNT MEAN that I DESERVED to have muh heart brutally ripped out! she could have sent a person! she could have sent a beta orbiter to deliver the message!

shit if she had a father, maybe the father would have taken pity on me and been like listen. sorry about my daughter. she’s just a dumb gurl and doesnt know how to deal with shit. but this isnt looking good for you man. just give up on her and dont take this too personally.  you’ll find a woman someday. you’re not a bad guy and my daughter is a basket case. besides ive already arranged a marriage for her with andrew anglin hahahaha.

john mccain has brain cancer. well he almost certainly needs to retire but i cant really get HAPPY about a white man getting cancer even if he is technically a ZOG traitor hahaha.  so just retire and hope whoever replaces you is just a little bit better.

july 20

hmm chester bennington from linkin park K’d himself

imho this is more interesting than a rockstar dying of a drug overdose.

but he was probably into drugs. but he was also clearly in despair. and people in enough despair to K themselves, well thats interesting.  as someone who has a lot of despair.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/mudshark-hoor-sets-up-gofundme-after-parents-allegedly-withhold-tuition-in-protest-of-her-coal-burning/122062

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/i-love-my-husband-but-heres-why-i-want-to-cheat/122149

surprise her husband is a whiny wimp. the woman probably cant be saved after writing such bullshit, but thousands of spankings would be a good start.

i mean honestly. did i say that i believed that Total Hwyte Sharia could be carried out by spanking alone? you have to do it right thought.

and i should be the salesmen selling and instructing peopel how to do it right. make spanking instructional videos hehehehe.

and really spend hours talking about and giving workshops on spanking. people NEED to do a lot of talking, thinking and doing if this INCREDIBLY VALUABLE TOOL. its way more than one weird trick to managing your woman.

but yeah it really is mens fault for letting women get out of line.

but that doesnt mean we cant shake our damn heads about how bad women have become.

and that doesnt mean we cant also blame the joos for pushing feminism and terrible (natural) women behavior.

hehehe. what is natural is not always good and WOMEN are the PRIME example of that.

but yeah hwyte men need to STOP joos and STOP women and men have stopped with this necessary STOPPING.

NO ONE’S GONNA STOP THEM BUT US.

WE MUST STOP THEM.

Nonviolently, and Nonillegally hahahahahahahahahaha.

anon.to/?https://muricaderp.wordpress.com/2015/02/27/dubai-porta-potty/

maybe chester bennington k’d himself because he found out his wife did a dubai porta potty hahahahahahahahahahahaha no that is pure speculation. i have no proof whatsoever. i dont even know if his wife was hwyte. i am 95% sure he was hwyte though.  most people who K themselves are.

unfort had a dream last night with That Woman. she only appeared for a minute but i spent the rest of the dream looking for her in a large mazelike house. she invited me into the house and then disappeared and i like an idiot spent the rest of the dream trying to find her. there were a few other omega orbiters trying to do the same. lured into her web hahahaha. where they dont even get eaten by the spider, just waste their whole lives trying to find her again.

it didnt ruin my day thank GOD but its never good to have a dream about her. but she wasnt even that big of a bitch. she was actually a very nice gurl. would not intentionally hurt men like too many women would. welp give a few more years on the c0ck carousel, im sure she’ll get there.

DONT DEFEND HER!!!!

hahahaha. i am the anti white knight. i go up to white knights and say DONT DEFEND HER!!!

sometimes what is natural is as beautiful and right and good and correct as anything could ever be. perfection, beauty, and truth. this is probably what leads us to the Natural Is Always Good Fallacy. because, many times, what is natural IS very very good.

but not all times. and the Nature State of WOMEN is probably the MOST important example of that we should NEVER FORGET.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/drug-dealing-colorado-celebrates-economic-windfall-from-weed-epidemic/122172

ooops i was literally going to send andrew anglin a birthday card today but forgot. i can still totally send it tomorrow hehehehehe.  i mean this is literally the only site i read. also i always use literally literally, so dont bitch at me for talking like a bitch.

spanking how to videos would be great, but i would not use a real woman in them, because that would seem degenerate. i would use a pillow or some kind of simulator. otherwise it would seem too much like fetish jooish porn. the idea of a real woman allowing herself to be spanked for the world to see. it’s a PRIVATE and INTIMATE and in a way kind of HOLY RITUAL, somewhat similar to SEX ITSELF. it SHOULDNT be shared with the world, but should be kept behind closed doors with REVERENCE.

REVERENCE.

i mean you CAN have fun with it; you CAN get some sexual titillation out of it; but just dont TAKE PICTURES of it. just like you shouldnt take pictures of SECS.

i mean i dont think theres much to be demonstrated. just take the woman over your knee and smack her ass with your hand at least 14 times, maybe even 88 times. also a great time to drill propaganda slogans into her, or tell her shes been a BAD GIRL and she’s really disappointed daddy hahahahaha and daddy is not going to LET his girl have an ATTITUDE like a LITTLE BRAT.

oooh heres a question. should you bang the woman immediately after the spanking? man thats tough.

yes: it will reinforce the lesson and the both of you will be chomping at the bit anyway

no: it will reinforce the idea of spanking as a mainly secsual act, and not a sacred ritual of discipline and control; will make it seem like some jooish foreplay fetish, rather than a Standalone Important Ritual.

so i’d say dont bang them EVERY TIME after spanking. i mean they need to learn this isnt a kinky jooish sex fetish. it’s actually about disciplining, controlling, and MANAGING their behavior, FOR REAL. NO JOKE. not everything is about sex. a good father doesnt BANG his daughter after spanking her!

so yeah i’d say dont bang her more than half the times you spank.

this is really the type of stuff id talk about during the videos. the actual physical mechanics are pretty straightforward. just dont do anything too degenerate, like insert brutal dragon dildos in her ass or something. ITS NOT ABOUT SEX. you need to realize that too, and a lot of guys, especially porn watchers, WONT.

IT’S NOT ABOUT SEX.

IT’S ABOUT MAKING YOUR WOMAN A GOOD WIFE AND MOTHER.

i of course mean its not about muh dick, hedonistic, jooish, pornified, getting off secs.

and yeah, right now, in this jooified, pornified world, most people DO associate spanking with SEXY SEX, (and NOT with the holy act of making more holy hwyte babies) so yeah, we have to BREAK that association by NOT banging the woman right after spanking.

one out of three times is ok tho hahahahaha.

yeah it sucks that women have no loyalty.

but did YOU have nearly as much race loyalty before YOU were racially awakened?

yeah but women just dont have ANY loyalty. race or otherwise. and yes it is disappointing. but this is just the way they are. dont hate a cat because it meows hahahaha. dont hate the cat because it K’s the mouse.

DONT BE A MOUSE!!!!!

but yeah. fook that jooish PORNIFIED MINDSET that says everything needs to be about secs. or everything is SEXY. how can you connect everything to SEX. how can you REDUCE everything to ANIMALS FOOKING. in a hedonistic masturbatory way. like oh i wanna rub muh dick and GET OFF on THIS.

why wouldnt i want to take pictures of the secs. its SECSY and HAWT.

why WOULDNT i want to take the woman right off muh knee after spanking them and then fook them hard? they OBVIOUSLY WANT it. and its HAWT. im GETTING OFF on the idea of spanking them anyway?

well, i admit, a little bit of getting off on the spanking IS ok.

but, just like secs, that is not its PRIMARY FUNCTION. its a BYPRODUCT which, through the help of the joos and their pornified mindset, people have CONFUSED with the primary function.

DONT CONFUSE THE BYPRODUCT FOR THE PRIMARY FUNCTION.

but what the joos are doing with porn is preying on a NATURAL WEAKNESS while also MAKING A BLASPHEMOUS OBSCENE MOCKERY OF THE SACRED. PROFANING THE SACRED.

the natural weakness is that our animal brains can VERY EASILY focus on the byproduct of secs, ie pleasure, at the expense of the primary function, because the byproduct is so strong, intense, and immediate.

so the joos spring on that, say isnt this fun to get off like this, OH YEAH THATS SO HAWT, OH GAWD I WANNA GET OFF ON THAT.

its very similar to jooish profiteers grabbing shekels selling fatty fast food in abundance. this stuff is very tasty and delicious but too much will turn you into a fat slob.

secs is very pleasurable but forgetting its main purpose will turn you into a degenerate pervert with no self control. a sensualist. a hedonist. a negro. a woman. a CHILD who cant CONTROL themself. a FILTHY ANIMAL. more beast than man!

so thats muh beef with porn. and especially turning the sacred into a sick jooish mockery.

the closest thing to a Sublime Ineffable Religious Experience I ever felt was when i was in luv with a Woman. this wasnt inherently bad, but i SHOULD have been more careful about who I Gave Muh Heart Away to like that. not to sluts who treat secs like jooish hedonist pornography for fun only.

i have sort of moved on from that, to the idea of RACE being muh new religious, transcendent experience. and i think this is much healthier than falling in luv with the wrong women.

but yeah RACE also gets you thinking a lot of Secs as the way beautiful, sacred white lives are created, and the sacred, holy, beautiful thing that bonds a white man and a white woman together in monogamy to create a white family with many children, and perpetuate our beautiful, sacred race. and so you quite RIGHTLY see sex in that perspective as something holy and beautiful, and hate the joos all the more for making a mockery of it with porn. and sorta hate women for playing into that. and all the weak men who watch and ENJOY porn.

you HAVE to stop watching porn. this is non negotiable. it makes you THINK LIKE A JOO. we CANNOT have hwyte people thinking like joos.

heh. the good news is, its actually REALLY EASY to stop watching porn hahahaha. 6 gorillion times easier than finding a decent hwyte waifu! or finding a 30k a year job and selling selling selling yourself and your economic value!

its simple, its easy, its very actionable, its not complicated, its not confused, you JUST DO IT. STOP WATCHING PORN.

its not as complicated as getting a career or getting a woman. well, getting a woman is not complicated, you just BE MASCULINE and BE STRONG but for me the actually TALKING to them is complicated, because i dont really like talking period.  well, not to people at least. cuz you always say the wrong thing and sound awkward and stupid. they wont give you an hour to ramble on to finally make your point completely and perfectly. you will just look like an autistic idiot and be completely misunderstood.

i hate how that woman treated me like i wasnt special at all, and i thought she was very very very special to me. and in the final analysis, i was much more special than that, and she was much LESS special. i mean theres thousands of other women out there just as good/special as her.

whereas i really am kind of a unique special snowflake. how many proud hwyte men are in this area? a couple but not alot hahahaha.

i just hate how normies can be so successful. i guess what i am most jelly of is kids like my colleagues son. just a total normie chad who was handsome and charming and athletic and popular in high school, probably banged gurls in high school, who then gets a stem degree at a good school. i dont think hes an autist virgin supergenius in other words, socially inept and spends his weekends coding. just a total socially adjusted normie who gets a degree and a career associated with neet virgins. but normies do it to. any white man of average intelligence can do it, and that i’m sure he is! and this is the best way for our white men to be, and im jelly im not it hehehe.

in other words, you dont have to be a nerdy virgin in high school getting beat up by The Jocks, so you can become a successful engineer later in life. wait 20 years from now, when the Jocks are Working For the Nerds.

that whole Paradigm is getting outdated for Millennials and later. now you can be a Normie Chad Jock Popular Chad AND a successful engineer. and we should totally encourage this!

an alpha male in every possible way!

this is EXACTLY what we want our young hwyte men to be!

but what about our 30 year old loser hwyte men? who lost their way for a good 5 to 10 years?

i mean a 20 year old kid in a good school in a good stem program pretty much IS guaranteed a good job. even in 2017 and more people getting redpilled on college. welp this is basically the best way to DO college: go to a decent one, get in a good stem program, and make yourself competitive in that program with plenty of extracurriculars and internships and be in the top 10%. 20 year old horny young men really DO need some kind of mature adult male COACH COACHING them through all this. and ideally that coach would be the father. spanking his daughters and coaching his sons.

muh fam had the best intentions and luv but they did not really know how to do the coaching and discipline. i was literally spoiled hehehehe.

can you spank boys to discipline them?

probably. probably. probably a better punishment is Hard Manual Labor like Roofing. or spend a month working in a Restaurant or Call Center. wow that would really be SADISTIC though. its not about sadism. its about a just punishment and really training the child towards good behavior. punishing bad behavior, rewarding good behavior.

i guess part of that involves sort of knowing the weird jooish world your children will be growing up in and realizing it may not be the same as the world you grew up in. may be a hell of a lot more complicated to become a successful adult who can get a 30k a year job and a woman whos taken less than 10 cox.

in 1984, that was 13k a year to equal 30k a year in 2017 dollars.

http://www.in2013dollars.com/

i was a weird kid though. i kept my bad behavior very secret (drinking alcohol, MJ, watching porn, being a jooish nihilist idiot) and muh good behavior, up to the end of high school at least, was pretty open. like oh he’s a great HS student, he’ll go to a good college and probably be PRETTY successful in life.

Or, Flame out and Crash and Burn. Burn out totally. i would have preferred to Fade Away hahahahahahaha. i burnt out AND faded away hahahaha.

all for a few years of alcohol, MJ, and porn. and a few minutes of making out with gurls. that was the best part. and was not inherently degen like the other stuff i did.

i mean at age 18, 19, 20, 21, i needed the strong iron fist of discipline.

i suppose i h8 da jooz for convincing me and muh fam that all i needed was (((College))) and then I would be all right.

everyone struggles but i seem to struggle and not get anywhere hehehehe.

so i just sort of gave up and resigned myself to a very mediocre life. very neetish.

so of course im jelly of any 20 year old young man who IS well adjusted and who IS on a good path and being steered the right way and is not making any big mistakes.

but yeah again i WAS a HUGE weirdo and i could have easily found a way to fook any situation up.

military, i prob would have K’d self like private pyle.

i like to think i would have been good if i had just not gone away to college, but i could have easily ended up a neet anyway. maybe never completed any degree at all. but at least i wouldnt have the guilt of having had a great opportunity and totally screwing it up. also i prob would have stopped drinking a few years earlier, OR ended up dead or in jail due to drunken driving.

cuz even living with the fam, i found a way to drink too much. hiding booze and also getting raging drunk when i went out with friends.

dunno maybe it would have been easier to get a 25k job with the city or something as a young kid who was in the middle of a degree, rather than aiming for those jobs as 30 year old weirdo with a degree. it just LOOKS WEIRD, and APPEARANCES MATTER a HELL of a lot when its a MANAGER deciding whether or not to HIRE you, for which you DEPEND on them for your LIVING.

so yeah, what people think of you DOES matter, a LOT.

but i was such a stupid rebel, i wouldnt have listened to reason anyway. the only things i LIKED were total jooish degeneracy. i liked only EDGY things. degen drug addict nihilist musicians and rockstars. no redeeming values.

so i was doomed from the start. never outgrew the teen angst.

well thats not true. i def outgrew the degeneracy and nihilism and jooishness. but it seemed to late to really replace that with a successful life. well i mean replacing it with 1433 race obsession was a good, smart move. but you cant make 25k a year being a NEO NATZI!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok see i have just been on this train of thought for the past 2000 words of regret and this is NOT GOOD. i should just stop writing and stop thinking about this because its not getting me anywhere. its not FIXING anything. example of what NOT to do.

i guess you should really get a SALES job at age 16. because everything is sales. convincing employers to hire you. convincing them not to fire you. convincing them youre doing an awesome job. selling yourself. selling your services. arguing with clients and managers and convincing them you are right. and ideally actually being right. selling yourself to women and convincing them youre the toughest badass strongman to walk the face of the earth. everything is sales, persuasion, convincing, arguing.

and yeah i was never good at that. not when i was 15, not when i was 30. and some people are born better than others at it, but its something any average hwyte man can learn to do better. average hwyte men can totally be middle class successful men with good jobs and good wives. they just need to keep the eyes on the prize and not screw up and not go astray. not party too much, not be too degenerate, get good at talking to people and arguing with them, get really good at something that is worth something to the richers. and then be tough. be strong.

banging a hooker or better a slut by age 18 if you havent already had the ideal of banging a young decent girl who will be your young wife, would prob be a good thing and teach you a very valuable lesson about women. namely, they are all whores and dont be a damn white knight supplicating beta hahaha. unless you found a good one by that age, then go ahead and get married.

spend as much time with people who are currently, actively successful, and get right in there alongside them as they do the things they do well. see how they make money and respect and success. you will hopefully develop a taste for that respect and success.

i didnt really hang out with people that were really successful winners. just hung out with some young kids like me. most of them went on to be successful normies! but so much of my time socializing i was drunk and or on MJ and couldnt have a coherent, meaningful conversation with people about How To Build a Successful Life through Education, Experience, Career, Mentors, Role Models.

i sort of thought that muh drinking and MJ were kinda maybe a problem. i knew i was using them to escape or hide or numb something. namely to avoid dealing with Life Itself in all ways. other people didnt do this. they just drank with their friends to have a good time and party and then 90% of the time i did not see them, they were being good productive normies.

it was good that i had friends and hung out with them regularly…..but i needed to not be drunk or MJ every time i hung out with them!

and then i had muh MJ friends where getting ridiculously blazed on MJ was itself a central point of us hanging out. we had a lot of fun but we really werent doing anythign that would HELP us in the long term.

well he did all right, makes good money, got a white wife, has white baby, hopefully more white babies. never really knew his wife but she is white and they have been pretty solid for like 10 years so hope it stays that way and she doesnt woman out. the guy is pretty masculine so he should be ok.

but i could just use him as an excuse to keep doing MJ because he did more MJ than I ever will, yet is also way more successful with women and jobs! funny thing is, he was not a particularly strong salesman hehhehe.  but the brute strength and toughness was enough to build a decent life all while doing pounds of MJ hahahahaha.

i was butthurt i couldnt drink ANY alcohol or do ANY MJ without going off the deep end.

i can live with no more alcohol, though it would be nice to get drunk like a NORMIE every once in a while, party a little bit during the summer, etc. ok fine thats not meant for me. ok fine. the mj bothers me more because every day i think about it and want to use it.

what made me stop using alcohol was Real World Consequences for it. like, blatant, and not just Missed Opportunities “passive” stuff, opportunity cost, etc.

in other words, i would have to be ARRESTED for MJ in order to make up my mind to never use it again.

and i really dont want to be in that position. i mean i fully intend to do MJ again some day. in a way i definitely do NOT intend to do alcohol again. unless i get a decent job and a decent wife. that was pretty much my litmus test for ever being able to drink again. to be a successful, respectable, proud hywte male adult. i realize that may never happen.

sheeeeit if i were motivated like, damn i better become a succesful adult as quickly as possibly just so I can DRINK ASAP…..well then whatever it takes to get motivated and DO THAT would be good.  so either i really dont WANT to drink, or i dont want to work hard like a maniac. its really kind of both.

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DEFEAT NEVER, VICTORY FOREVER! H41L VICTORY!

may 8

saw a 32 year old woman today who was attractive in the nerdy girl next door way, not in the attention seeking nerdy gurl way, but jsut an honestly nerdy gurl next door way. got the feeling she hadnt taken too manny cox. That Woman kinda had a similar “nerdy innocent gurl next door” look too, that is prob a type for me. the woman had a 1 year old white baby with her. i was glad she had a white baby who was very healthy looking. but she was purty and i was slightly jelly of her husbando. i would be happy to marry her (nonlegally) and make a beautiful white baby with her.

i liked her because she did not look like a high number whore and she looked like she was not drinking fro the jooish cup of the jooish filth culture and that she was probably happy to live her nerdy life with her nerdy husband and have a little baby. she looked younger than 32 and i hope she had more babies.

i wish i had met her 10 years ago and married (nonlegally) her then!

shit she prob wont even abandon her husband with a surprise ambush divorce!

i just hate to see people ABANDONING other people. parents abandonign their children, wives abandoning their husbands. they dont even want to work on shit. they just want you to disappear. they cant make you disappear so they just disappear.

i guess by the time it gets to the point where people are going to see the shrink, the other person has checked out. they dont want to make an effort. you’ll see one person who really CARES, who really wants to make an effort, and then the other person, who is on the verge of just WALKING OUT. ABANDONING the other person.

fine ok i get that you cant FORCE a person to want to be with you. but show the common courtesy of paying a professional to break the news when you know its gonna hurt them and you dont know how to handle that. so pay a pro to handle it for you. pay the shrink to dump your heartbroken buddy in a way thats not gonna break his heart even more.

show him the courtesy of attempting to not break his heart even MORE.

i mean what fatherland ryan’s wife did is just fookin EVIL. shit. try not to be EVIL. god damn. I hope I never do something that EVIL. and this is not some random person. this is your god damn husband that you made VOWS with. who you created new LIFE with. how can people DO this? would a MAN ever do this to a WOMAN?

yeah i guess they really do. and thats probably what makes the woman do it to the men in THEIR lives.

anyway. it was nice to see a 32 year old woman who was still datably good looking hahahahahaha. hope she treats her man and child well. hope she has 3 children. hope she never abandons any of them. she seemed like a decent woman.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/the-scourge-of-male-feminism-in-the-white-nationalist-movement/104856

good one on the wq from anglin. see i just dispute they want “ultraviolent porn.” 50 shades of gray is not ultraviolent porn, its just soft shit, its the SAME THING as ripply chested ravisher in harlequin romance, just a small step up in jooishness. i dont think its near the same ballpark as pure joo brutal blown out 4nal abuse dot com or something. there is nothing of the sort in that book. i dont think. most women are not interested in the idea of getting their asses literally blown out, in ways you couldn’t even imagine a human body was capable of, until you had seen a disgusting joo test the limits of the body in disgusting porno.

yeah women want to be ravished and thrown on the bed by chris hemsworth but how is that anythign new?

but i think anglin has calmed down so thats good. he makes the point that women are Nonloyal rather than disloyal, amoral rather than immoral.

may 9

saw a young woman today who was generally “nice innocent nerdy girl next door – good” rather than “nerdy girl next door – bad (attention seeking wh0re)” hahahaha. she was plain and not Drop Dead Gorgeous but she was wearing a kind of Dress which showed the womanly shape of her body in a not wh0rish degen way. so i was staring there Slack Jawed at a gurl who probably wasnt used to being started at slack jawed! at her age i would have refered to her as a plain jane, 7 at best, but now that i am an old incel, she goes up to like an 8 hahahaha. then i thought i should ask her out right now. but she is probably studying to be a nurse or businesswoman and at age 22 she will be making more money than i am now.

i found the mother lode, a document that contains WHAT PEOPLE MAKE. HOLY SHIT. names and what people MADE each of the past 3 years. apparently the shit is Not Private and Confidential, however this mysterious document is jsut an open secret that i guess people must gossip about.

there was a ton of people that made way too much. that was the general trend.

there was one person who didnt make enough, IMHO, at a scant 40k hahahahaha. this is the type of job i would be looking at.

yet this 25 year old kid in tech support was making 50k! well, 2 guys i knew. 1 guy had a CS degree, other guy just had any old degree.

this woman i know 3rd degree who has no more education than me is making 50k, she is a few years younger than me. i didnt like her because she was a slut hahahahahaha. now she makes 50k and would be Creeped out that I even know who she is.

all these fookin people making 50k!

that the person I know who is making 40k and i was like DAMN! they should be making 50k TOO!!!!!!

learned how much muh direct boss makes. how much the top person in the org makes. Hint: he is by FAR the highest paid person. he makes WAY too much. the second highest person only makes HALF as much. sheeeeeeit.

older FT people make a shitload. younger FT people make less. but i think they will max out at a lower grade once they get old. becuase those people are getting paid WAY too much.

annnnnddddd the list does not include the fookloads of part time employees. who are getting fooked up the ass hahahahaha making NOTHING.

hint: you can hire professionals with masters degrees on a part-time basis and pay them no benefits. pay them like 15-20 dollars an hour, 25 hours a week.

one of the guys making 50k, he’s been here a few years, i talked to him a little bit years ago when i worked another job here. he was dating/fooking a QT gurl from my department. she dumped him and i dont think he was happy about it. but he wasnt making 50k THEN. he is about my age. i wasnt really interested in the gurl other than i acknowledged she was young and qt but she seemed like an overly dramatic, high maintenance, more flaky than average, not chill at all, fairly high number. i much preferred That Woman.

but yeah.

the young guy making 50 was “only” making 44 2 years ago. got a BIGGGGGG BUMP.

matt heimbach in his speech at pikeville said, as our comrade bob mathews said:

DEFEAT NEVER! VICTORY FOREVER! HAIL VICTORY!

and i thought that was a VERY positive message. repeat it to yourself when you are getting negative thoughts.

like i do 6000000000000000000 times a day. thinking i could never pull a nice gurl like that qt “plain jane nice nerdy gurl next door” in the dress i saw in the parking lot. because im a huge loser, she’s in her prime, and she’s better at the game of life than me. not making any huge mistakes, doing well in college and career, making 40k by age 30 hahahaha. making 30k by age 25 hahahaha.

maybe im wrong that a woman wont care if you make less than them…..but i really dont think im wrong. and i make less than every woman except for fat opioid addicted mudsharks at walmart. americas best first job hahahahaha.

so IMPROVE YOURSELF! learn skills and market yourself to Jooish Capitalists hahahaha. Sell Yourself! BE someone WORTH selling and buying! make yourself into a valuable product/service/commodity!

stop complaining and DO something about it! youre not getting any younger! plenty of 40 year old men still pull 20 year old gurls! but they’re not broke ass ni99az!!!!!

tfw when the annoying dumb slut in the social circle who you sneered at because she fooked at least 3 gurls in the friends group, then later she gets a kinda useless degree but ends up getting a SWEET job making 50k when you are aiming at jobs there that start out around….34.  and you are at least 4 years older than her hahahaha and you KNOW she’s not anywhere NEAR as smart as you, she’s just a Better Worker and a Better Student and Tougher and doesnt give up as easily.

tfw when you get your 1570 calories of the day, you’re still over your goal of 1500, and you are STARVING and could totally eat a yuge 1500 calorie meal RIGHT NOW hahahaha.

but i wont hahahahaha. at least that much i can succeed at.

tfw when people talk about their college age kids who are on the path to being WAY more successful than you. but when you were THEIR age you went to a more prestigious univ and it looked like YOU were gonna be successful too! but now youre a nevergf, never30k loser hahahahaha.

negative thoughts!

DEFEAT NEVER! VICTORY FOREVER! HAIL VICTORY!

robert jay mathew.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Robert_Jay_Mathews

https://web.archive.org/web/20090202195252/http://www.supreme-white-alliance.net/rememberourheroes.htm

k’d in a standoff with the FEDS in 1984.

is this him?

yes it is.

may 10

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/tattooed-military-thot-who-killed-dog-for-facebook-likes-found-dead/105520

dear god these women are EVIL!

i really hope not all women are like this. i understand MILITARY women are a special breed of horrible. killing animals on camera. i cant even imagine the most desperate thirsty omega approving of that.

dear lord

oh gawd its that hideous beotch elle reeve who is vices “alt right expert” hahahaha she is SO BAD. sucking off the joo cox all day.

how ugly is she really? we joke she looks like she had fetal alcohol syndrome. is this an example of the nerdy girl next door?

her mouth just looks so weird. i dunno. maybe she would have been cute when she was 20, and if she didnt talk like a fooking child, and if she just had babies instead of being this disgusting journalist for vice. she got sort of shredded when she went on the daily shoah but she should have gotten VICIOUSLY VIOLATED a HELL of a lot MORE, and millennial woes answered some questions for her. really anglin should have an interiview with her and VICIOUSLY VIOLATE her (stealing that line from an anglin headline, he has a new mini meme where he writes headlines about how tucker carlson VICIOUSLY VIOLATES his leftist guests on his show)

listened to bob mathews 1983 speech. sound quality was good but it was not super rousing. i mean it was sincere and he CERTAINLY names the j but it wasnt the greatest speech ever. i mean even the “joo loving traitor” k1ke enoch gives better speeches. 1 minute of him screaming passionately at pikeville was sweet. enoch needs to give a minimum 5 minute speech that builds up to him screaming passionately, and with decent recording quality, so you can understand what he’s saying.

whats really terrible is the k1ke gersh b1tch is probably better looking than any woman i could pull atm waaaaahhhhhh

not really related other than ernst zundel speaks out against the j too. i guess he went to PRISON for questioning the you know what.

may 11

https://archive.org/stream/MienKampfAdolfHitlerTheStalagEdition/Mien%20Kampf%20-%20Adolf%20Hitler%20-%20The%20Stalag%20Edition_djvu.txt

just read the full text of the greatest book ever written hahahaha. the stalag edition does seem really close to the mannheim translation. real real close. it might even be the same damn thing hahaha.

HAIL VICTORY!

HAIL OUR PEOPLE!!!!

saw episode for new twin peaks on tv. got pretty excited. david lynch was always one of muh biggest influences, got me excited about Cinema in a way very few people do. and he has pretty much been DONE for a long time.

like i said a few months ago, yeah he’s still degen, the old twin peaks was degen and a bit jooish, but its still pretty good. i hope the new TP isnt super jooish and SUPER degen. im SURE it will be a little bit. probably too many tits. he loves his tits. but i think he loves them in an almost nondegen way, like the beauty of the female form. i mean yeah. fine. the female body is a beautiful thing when it is 20 years old hahahaha. i dont believe it HAS to look like shit at age 40 either. anyway thats a tangent.

should i go see sigur ros live. yes probably once in my life. but 55 fookin dollars? (mostly including shitty ticketmaster fees which were at least 15 dollars.) see i MIGHT pay 40 to see them but not 55. would rather spend the money on MJ hahahaha. and then you gotta pay for parking. working class people can not afford to see decent music concerts ahahha.

ok so sigur ros is degen ph4ggots but they had a great aesthetic for a while.

still pissed that tom petty is SOLD OUT.

like i like to say, getting a masters degree is harder than quitting smoking, quitting heroin, losing 400 pounds, quitting drinking, quitting meth and crack, quitting delicious fatty foods, all combined. and getting a normie chad job might be even harder! it is literally the hardest thing in the world! you’d have an easier time building the wall, throwing out all nonwhites, and building a pure hwyte homeland than just getting a normie 30k a year job!

and finding a nice waifu is almost as hard hahaha.

WE DONT DO THESE THINGS BECAUSE THEY ARE EASY, WE DO THEM BECAUSE THEY ARE HARD.

MAN CANNOT REMAKE HIMSELF WITHOUT SUFFERING, FOR HE IS BOTH THE SCULPTOR AND THE MARBLE.

Obstacles are placed across our path in life, not to be boggled at, but to
be surmounted, and I was fully determined to surmount these obstacles, says AH in beginning of Chap 2.

why SHOULDNT you compare future/present lovers to past lovers? if your present/future lover is obviously WORSE overall than a previous lover….then you havent gotten over the previous lover. and you shouldnt stay with the subpar current person.

i just see myself as a desperate 40 year old man that Settles For a 45 year old Hambeast Single Mom 4/10, and then being like, this woman is worse than That Woman in every conceivable way. i wish i were with That Woman!

OH WELL. IT DOESNT MATTER.

Oh my mind is thinking another “i’ll never find a woman as good as her” thought, don’t listen to those, my brain is always thinking those WRONG thoughts. wrongthink. WRONG. hahahaha

trump wrong.wav.gif

i read that on a stop negative thoughts site recently. to do mindfulness by saying, OH, thats just my brain thinking another one of those Category X thoughts, which are wrong. There’s another I Am a Loser thought, theres another I’m such a pathetic loser thought, theres another I’ll always been a Neet Virgin Loser Foreveralone Loser At Life thought, there’s another I’m Not Tough Enough to Handle Adult Life Thought, etc.

god damn midsomer mysteries with their god damn RACE MIXING!!!!! always a god damn black man with a hwyte woman!!! it’s INSANE!!!!! this fooking brainwashing. used to be a fairly good show but so much god damn race mixing, they are BLATANTLY forcing it down our throats. these COUNTRY FOLK white women are with these gentlemanly, nice black men, and thats perfectly normal. its like fooking tv commercials. race mixing in at least one commercial per 2 or 3 minute commercial break. DEFOO THE ELECTRIC JOO. i cant even watch this shit any more. like porn. i guess thats a good thing. but i just wanted some innocent entertainment FFS.  so i usually watch TCM turner classic movies. but i liked watching BBC mysteries like midsomer cuz it was nice small town brit countryside. so of COURSE you need to POZZ that up with some MUDSHARKING. god DAMN.

just tell me what to do and i’ll do it.

that’s not my job. your job is to figure it out and do it.

i can’t figure it out. i dont know what i’m doing. just please take a look at this and tell me what to say with them.

UGH. SIGH. oh god are you an annoying idiot. see, this and that is happening, so that’s why they see this and that, so just tell them that’s because that and this, and we can’t do anything about it. just move them along. that’s your job. maybe we shouldnt have hired you. maybe youre not smart enough. or maybe you just a damn DISABLED person with all your stupid ANXIETY and you should get disability neetbux loserbux disabilitybux. you’re not TOUGH ENOUGH for the REAL WORLD. some of us are TRYING to WORK, not clean up your messes.

NOBODY TOLD ME thats what all jobs are, 50 hours a week.

hehehe. but my current job ISNT like that! that’s my OLD job. which i dont have any more, which I HAVENT BEEN IN FOR ALMOST TWO FOOKING YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also pissed because I got AA twice within 5 hands and lost on bad river beats to the same damn guy. fooking flush with FOUR suited cards on the board and the other losing hand was….probably two pair. jeezum crow.

in other words, going ON TILT here hahahaha.

and we can go on TILT in our daily lives, not just at the card table.

took 1 benedryl at about 6 pm. might take another at 8 pm and another at 930. this is muh first night of the weekend ritual wher i try to substitute for doing MJ because i dont have MJ but have set aside 300 bucks to buy MJ right now if it were on offer. give me 300 bucks worth. i think you can get a full oz for around that! maybe 320. welp ill pay that too. i will buy an OZ of MJ RIGHT NOW.

i dunno. it just seems so counterintuitive for the mothers of LIFE itself – women – to not care about race. you’d think they would care MORE about race than me.

but really it DOES make perfect sense for them not to care about race – to care only about STRENGTH. find the strongest man regardless of race. that makes sense, right? yes it does. and yes that is a bitter black red pill to swallow hahaha. strength trumps race, for women at least. a white woman will choose a strong nonwhite man over a weak white man. and this is EXACTLYYYYYYYYYYYYYY what we are seeing in formerly hwite nations.

AA for a third time. got an all in after flop. other guy had TT and had flopped trips. buyin again. DAMN. i just moved some btc over into the casino last week.  and i am losing it all over again VERY quickly. on the lowest stakes tables. but bitcoin is SOARING to an UNHEARD OF 1800 dollars right now!

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Austria-Hungary

this is very relevant to AH’s first act hahahaha

ANOTHER MOTHER FOOKING GOD DAMN MUDSHARK on midsomer murders. white gurl with black man. good looking white gurl. TWO white mudsharks in literally TWO consecutive episodes. I HATE how these joos are just MOCKING us, thinking we dont notice or dont care. god fooking damn. i used to like the show!!!!!  but two fooking mudsharks in two back to back episodes is TOO MUCH. and I have seen AT LEAST THREE OTHER mudsharks in this show apart from these two!!!!!!

GOD DAMN FOOKING INFURIATING how they are trying to NORMALIZE this.

theres male oil drillers as well. absolutely ridiculous. yeah yeah blacks are awesome and all whites should mate with them. jeezus cripes.

here, a white man has a light skinned black wife. their son is the same amount black as the mother. this “mulatto” yuong man is with a white mud shark gurl. mother fooook. FFS. i dont even see this much race mixing at the local walmart!!!!!!!!!!

when youre on a Cold Streak, you cant help but constantly doubt myself: am i just on a cold streak? or am I fundamentally a BAD PLAYER. once again a great metaphor for life in general!

820 pm took benedryl # 2

very relevant map hahahaha i luv maps like this.

so are bosnians not an ethnic group? i thought they were. or were they considered serbs in 1910. many serbs LIVE in bosnia, this is the truth.

uhhh where is ruthenia hehehe. or are those just ukrainians. ruthenian is not an ethnic group, its a language spoken by galicians HAHAHAHAHA oh now theres a good joke

Remember and never forget: its not womens JOB to care about race. Becuase…………

THEY ONLY CARE ABOUT STRENGTH. STRENGTH. NOT RACE.

YOU CAN GET BUTTHURT ABOUT IT, BUT YOU CANNOT CHANGE WHAT WOMEN NATURALLY ARE.

DONT EXPECT THEM TO CARE ABOUT RACE.

DONT EXPECT THEM TO BE LOYAL.

ALOYAL or NONLOYAL would be the best word for them, rather than the active betrayal implied by “DISloyal.” they were never playing by that rulebook. loyal never entered the picture for them. loyalty is a MALE thing ONLY. its not FOR women. its FOR MEN, BY MEN.

yeah its hard to understand and accept because I probably place SUCH a high premium on loyalty, even for a man!

its the same as amoral vs immoral.

just as women are amoral, they are aloyal.

its better than being immoral or disloyal.

youre welcome for the hwyte pill hahahahahahaha.

 

YOUR FATHER MUST BE SO PROUD

apri 25

took a rare nap because i am doing a rare weeknight social game which will result in me getting not much sleep in prep of the Big Day of Job tomorrow. If I had a Normie job, i wouldnt even think of doing this, because being GRUMPY is the LEAST of your concerns when you dont sleep enough. its being ANXIOUS and PANICKING and feeling like you wont be able to stand the constant firing squad of people constantly watching you and measuring you and asking you questions and interrogating and interviewing you. grilling you.

like i dont know how any health care workers, esp nurses, do their jobs. i have great respect for nurses when they arent pill popping whores.

uhhh so being grumpy and tired is not my worry. my worry is being WEAK and running out of the room crying because I cant handle the pressure. its like taking a Big Final Exam without good sleep, because

EVERY DAY OF WORK IS LIKE A BIG FINAL EXAM.

Nobody told me! I just thought it was Boring Drudgery! Shit, I’d pay for boring drudgery, when its actually nerve-wracking tension!

but my current job is much different, very low stress, borderline boring even! and i say this isn’t a REAL job, because clearly real jobs JUST ARENT LIKE THIS. PLUS Im only making 11k a year and no benefits. its not a real job. it was never MEANT to be a real job. its MEANT for students who are working on their degree so in a few years they can get an entry level torture job for 28k a year and some health care.

you are constantly SELLING something to angry customers. even if what you’re “Selling” is the runaround and the bullshit jooish lies as to why your company thinks its too expensive to fix what the customer wants fixed. here’s why its not really broken goy.

as someone who genuinely wants to do a good job and actually help people, that kind of shit is VERY hard for me. especially when the shit is so confusing that i just dont KNOW. its very possible the shit is SO confusing that its NOT worth it for our company to fix their shit. soooo……can we escalate this to someone who knows how to handle it? do we have a Business Partner we can connect them with? What do I say to leave this person out in the cold? sorry, cant help you, it is what it is, next. no explanation because even i dont understand it, and you cant talk to my higher up who said shut it down, because he’s too busy saying shut it down to people like ME.  see, you get shut down, I’m actually getting shut down too, by him, now I’m shutting YOU down. thats all we do, we dont actually FIX things, hahahahaa.

i just hate it when every day has MORE pressure than a big exam, because you DONT understand the stuff, AND you have to explain it to angry people. why why why. i dont know why, i just know my higher ups said we cant. no you cant talk to him. because theyre too busy, and they will just tell you the same thing. you think youre gonna LIKE the explanation?

was this why our department was failing?

well, it was a symptom of a failing department, that was mismanaged, that was not given the time, money, training, and people it needed to BE successful. and hence we were shut down altogether, permanently. i’m curious what happened to the department afterwards. if anything they needed MORE people, not less!

well…..they needed MORE people during peak business times. just as importantly, they needed BETTER TRAINED people during these times.

its basically fight or flight all day long, every day. how the hell do people do this?

because they have kids to take care of and they dont have any real skills like being a nurse or a electrician and they have to make at least 30k a year to support their kids and they dont want to be a huge deadbeat and not support their kids. lots of single mothers there. sad!

and if i had just gotten a 2 year nursing degree at age 20, i could have been making good money at age 20 hahahaha. well hypotehtically. i never wanted to be a nurse because its stressful and thankless. i dont know how anyone wants to be a nurse except for the Money and the Job Security. but its not great money, theres not great job security, i guess its just kinda easy to get the shittiest of nursing jobs.

yet there are tons of gurls who really want to become nurses.

WHY DONT THEY JUST BECOME WIVES AND MOTHERS INSTEAD? you can  become a nurse when you are 45. literally. so many women are channeling this natural urge to be Nurturing, so they can help angry strangers for 60 hours a week to the benefit of jooish hospitals and health care companies and doctors and then become pill popping sluts, and shitty wives and mothers like nurse jackie hahaha.

so what then, have the wives stay home? you cant afford to do that goy? without a dual income you cant survive goy!

well you live in a shitty neighborhood with violent blacks and browns, that would save money and be a great place for your wife to stay at home with the kids hahaha.

no i say you go to the hwyte rural area like fatherland jim and the hwyte pride singlewide. go and do likewise, gents. his wife stays at home and i dont think he makes a TON of money.

so the trick is, you gotta commute 50 miles one way so you can live far away enough from your job in the city so you can have a nice safe hwyte home in the country. so be prepared to spend extra money on car, insurance. because you werent spending enough money on that stuff as it is, hhahahahaa.

so this was my FATE, my DOOM, my DESTINY, my MISSION from GOD, is that i live a completely un-normal life. that life itself is such a difficult struggle that i cannot even do the bare minimum of being an adult.

i mean its one thing to Not Be Normal. Who’s Normal, you say.

People who rise to the challenge of making 28k a year and living independently, even if in poverty. Being Working Poor and still paying your beels. THAT is normal.

so there was a “PROFESSIONAL CUDDLER” mentioned in parade magazine or AP Reuters news or something. it is definitely a thing now.

i started suggesting this about 2 years ago but as the far more unattractive name of “cuddle hookers” which I dont think would sell nearly as well. i dont know why I just didnt keep it simple and suggest str8 up professional cuddlers.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-4170962/Professional-cuddler-earns-17-000-snuggling-strangers.html

i mean i just didnt know what WORD to CALL it till recently. “PROFESSIONAL CUDDLER” seems to be the term people in the media are settling on.

wow that bitch is cray cray. she is NOT a touchy feely person, left her husband because she wanted to become a poly slut, then went to a cuddle party and discovered at age 37 she wants to become a professional cuddler and for 80 dollars an hour, but shes not really a cuddly person. wtf.

http://www.businessinsider.com/professional-cuddler-2014-7

platonic companionship service that offers professional snuggling

therapeutic, non-sexual, cuddle session with a certified professional cuddler.

alternative touch therapy

http://www.cuddleparty.com/

shit yeah i think its sad, because it means there is enough lonely ass fooking men that are so pathetic they cant convince a normal degen woman to cuddle them, so they have to pay for basic human contact. also that a man could get THAT autistic. its totally the atomizing effect of da jooz hahahaha.

i imagine if you are CUTE and YOUNG you will be in more demand than if you are a FAT SLOB of a woman.

just like with secs, its more fun to cuddle with an attractive woman than an unattractive woman.

at any rate i think this is still a market worth studying. also i wonder if some of the “cuddle parties” are actually FREE of charge, for weird cuddle nerds that actually like cuddling.

but why would you like cuddling with JUST ANYBODY? or with a LOT of people? or someone you just met?  really its just a lesser version of secs. I dont want to cuddle with strangers. well, maybe QT young 20 year old gurl strangers, hahaha. but what does it say when they gather up in parties to cuddle as many people as possible? that they are fooking NUTS. well DUH. were not looking to MARRY these sluts ahahha.

but like that article above says, the woman has to do a lot of Boundaries COnversations because a lot of the PTSD Veterans who havent touched a woman in 10 years, get ATTACHED and fall in LUV after cuddling with her for an hour.

actually 60 dollars an hour is not bad. i might actually do this if i can find an attractive woman.

so yeah. my big question, and ive wondered this for a while, is just laying there with your eyes closed and trying to sleep, does that have ANY benefit, does that Charge Your Batteries at All? i cant imagine it DRAINS you the same way being On during the Peak of your Day does.

but when i get ready in the morning, i have about 20 minutes of free time. i usually use this to lay down in bed, all dressed and ready to go, but just lay there and close my eyes for about 20 minutes. i dont actually want to go to sleep because i have to go to job. but I WANT TO THINK that this 20 minutes gives me a tiny boost and is almost like a 20 minute powernap, even though im not actually sleeping.

how accurate is that?

or what about if youre just having trouble sleeping at night. tossing and turning. one hour goes by. then another. then another. you worry because you are only getting 2 hours of sleep and you have to sell bullshit stories tomorrow to people.

i want to think that just TRYING to sleep has SOME of the effect of ACTUALLY sleeping.

citation needed hehehe.

like today i did my “pre nap”. i laid down for 2 hours but marked down only 1 hour of actual nappng. shit be lucky if it was actually 45 minutes! but I still hope that the nap i had will help me tonight and tomorrow.

no i will be ok tomorrow. its not like i have a job where i have to sell bullshit lies to people and push them off with bullshit excuses.

apr 26

ok survived the day with “only” 5 hours of sleep. i mean i have the easiest job in the world, its fooking stupid. i wish i could be more charming and interesting with the colleages. i mean i am NICE buy i am not very CHARMING. in the competitive world of Productive Enterprise where you always have to sell yourself and establish Competitive ADvantage. I mean the most INTERESTING thing about me are my HORRIBLE, NARROW MINDED, BIGOTED bigotry and racism! that I cant even DEFEND from SHITLIBS who believe in knapsack of privilege and Everybodys Equal! then raise your children and move your family to a nonwhite ghetto, captain save a thug hahahaha. oh whats that? you live in a 94th percentile charles murray superzip? hahahaha. yeah but there is plenty of diversity. indians and asians with masters degrees and phds. analysts and engineers.

wow actually doing good at poker table today, won 2 good hands and now i am up from buyin of 4 to…..8. and i do NOT want to lose it! at a higher stakes table than i like to be at. making my money from a loose aggressive player.

i probably linked this a few months ago and it deserves to be linked again.

i dont hate TRS, I dont think enoch is a j00, i just agree with anglin on pretty much everything he said about enoch and trs. they handled the situation TERRIBLY at the time, they still COULD fix it, it was STUPID how they banned so many people from the forum for simply asking questions about a serious issue. its not to late to apologize. its not too late to unban. i dont think mike himself is a joo at all. many people on stormer think he is, i think thats stupid. i dont mind if anglin links TRS. he should. i agree, TRS adds too much value to the movement and our RACE NOT to link them. i guess enoch still does great daily shoahs. i liked the 2 minutes he was speaking at the spencer speech. would love to see enoch do things himself and have heated arguments with college shitlibs for hours.

but ill always be a bit sour on how they handled the joo wife situation, meaning i wont be as RAVING of a fan of them, wont be as EAGER to gibs them SHEKELS, compared with how I EAGERLY gib shekels to anglin. i have a mancrush on him that hasnt been soured. i couldnt see anglin handling a situation like this. all they needed to do was be transparent and apologize and not act like they were HIDING something.

i KNOW they just made a mistake like humans very often do. but its still not too late to apologize for the mistake, and they havent done that, and it doesnt seem like they ever will! and I would be even MORE sour if they ban me from TRS forum just because I dont post, and took a break, and mainly lurk, and asked good faith questions on other sites, and wasnt THRILLED with how they handled it, AND I donated money directly to sven stating my username before all the doxings. it was right after sven was doxed and before mike was doxed. those doxings were very different because sven didnt have a joo wife. worse, i really liked sven and he was probably involved in a lot of the Unjust Bannings at the forum. I don’t blame him for not blabbing about the joo wife, i would be more butthurt at him for banning so many people and for not gently pushing mike to do more and say more and for letting him get off so…..easily. well. apart from losing his job, family, reputation, livelihood, hahahahaha.

it was a RIDICULOUS situation, it still is, MONTHS later. but mike is a great speaker and thinker and should totally do public events like spencer.

the lovefest i have now with anglin is like the lovefest i had for mike and sven before all the shit went down.

i still enjoy the fatherland and hope to hear no1 again.

just SHUTTING DOWN all discussion of an important topic is not super cool and I WISH the higher ups would understand that and mike would just suck it up for 1 hour and make a heartfelt statement. i mean, he’s lost EVERYTHING, what else does he have to lose? it makes so little sense its frustrating. cant even blame it on joos because i really dont think they are!!!

but yeah The Movement has ALWAYS had infighting and drama like this. ALWAYS. but this was the biggest deal for me, because TRS really changed the game for me, took the movement to the next level, brought it into the current year, became the full realization of VVN 2.0 we’ve all wanted.

yeah well thank GOD anglin is also doing that.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/dear-women-boys-do-not-like-a-little-bit-more-booty-to-hold-at-night/101967

hehehe fatshaming.

i do like “a little bit more booty”, but I think I’m basically just agreeing with anglin anyway. i dont mind a Kinda Big Butt in that we know women naturally have Bigger Butts and Thighs and Hips than Men, and thats FINE. andrew is of course talking about FAT SLOBS, which IS a BIG problem. and they SHOULD be shamed.

QUOTE For instance, if you see an interracial couple, you can stop and say, enthusiastically “wow, you guys are such a cute couple,” she will almost certainly interpret this as you giving her exactly what she wants – social approval for her brave social justice act. So then, while she’s smiling, look the stupid bitch straight in the eyes and say

“your father must be so proud.”

Then, start laughing, and walk away.   END QUOTE

he gives a lot of clear, actionable advice for young men who dont know these very valuable Life Lessons. I recommend doing these things. classic. anglin clearly knows his shit about women. see laughing is best because it shows total superiority, and that you are not BUTTHURT about it. even though it is justified to be butthurt about hwyte gurls being mudsharks. but you can just LAUGH at it because you know you can pull a better hwyte woman who isnt a mudshark.

QUOTE

Women have exactly zero desire to be “respected” by men who view them as “equals” – women desire to be dominated by men who view them as property.

I want my boys to get laid, I want my boys to sire strong white children with beautiful white women. And I am teaching them to be the kind of men who get that job done.

My agenda is to save the white race by helping men to become men again, and I don’t give a f0ck about the tears of you pussy-worshiping cowards who have abandoned OUR WOMEN to their own fundamentally self-destructive natures by refusing to give them male guidance through the mechanism of public shaming.

You white knight cowards are the ones who are destroying OUR WOMEN by abdicating your masculine duty to put them in their place where they are safe and protected by men who dominate and own them, while at the same time claiming that any man who stands up and does his masculine duty is the bad guy.

White knights are worse than J00s – they are traitors.

END Q

what a great writer! if he made a fiery SPEECH like this, people would be talking about it for months, yet this is just one of 10 articles he writes a day and prob will be forgotten soon. he needs to be doing articles like this in SPEECH form. this would start a fooking RIOT with antifa, and made the good guys look irresistable to women.

i don’t 100% agree that “white knights are worse than joos,” but i think this is andrew being provocative. i mean white knights ARE bad. but i think most are just naive and andrew is trying to wake them up. Get MAD, you sons of bitches!!!!!

good quote from poster: Simple experience with women teaches you this. Women never feel guilt for something they do, only shame for getting caught. Every cheating woman ever feels this way. As long as their man doesn’t know, then there is no problem as far as they are concerned. The courts also recognize the inherently amoral nature of women.  END

shame vs guilt. guilt is much better because it means you actually have morals. since women naturally do NOT have morals, we NEED to SHAME them.

EXTREME PROBLEMS DEMAND EXTREME SOLUTIONS. (not violence hahahahahaha but total verbal public shaming)

so some of the guys kicked off of TRS started a new forum around that time called the purity spiral dot com, look it up hahaha. i signed up for it but havent really read it, heard there are good effortposts there. thats the only thing i dont like about DS BBS, is some of the people seem SO RETARDED and have a huge chip on their shoulder. cant even tolerate a tiny difference in opinion with their white bruders.

hehehe my copy of MEIN K4MPF cannot be delivered fast enough hahahaha.

also i should really get a firearm, i would just like a basic bitch handgun, that’s it.

ideally i should get a concealed carry license just to essentially get TRAINING on how to be a Good Goy With A Gun. Although I really like Open Carry because of the signal it sends: dont even TRY to start shit here, ya filthy animal.

but i have no training on how to properly use, own, maintain a firearm. I’ve fired a firearm no more than 25 times in muh whole life.

apr 27

welp one day at a time haha. decided to start getting up at 5:20 am instead of 5 now. because it CHARGES THE BATTERIES MORE and gives me MORE ENERGY, even if only MARGINALLY, to  sleep an extra 20 minutes than just to lay there are pretend to sleep. although i hop that pretending to sleep does charge batteries a LITTLE.

actually changing that to 530.

this does NOT mean i can stay UP 30 minutes later at night. no. it means i STILL should go to bed at 800 and try to just get more sleep. try to aim for 8 hours and 30 minutes EVERY night.

so basically i was butthurt that women are not MORAL and women are not LOYAL. why cant women be MORAL or LOYAL. they just get to get away with saying sorry thats not how we were born, we dont have it in us, so manage expectations!

and you get butthurt to think that ANY HUMAN BEING, man or woman, hwyte or nonwhyte, NOT be CAPABLE of being MORAL and LOYAL. you just need the WILL.

so which is? can we expect women to be moral and loyal, or is that really TOO MUCH for them?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/National_Socialist_Program#The_25-point_Program_of_the_NSDAP

big dnation drive for daily stormer today as weev posted official article on splc lawsuit on anglin, set up a wesearchr for anglin, just hope that doesnt get shut down and he actually gets the money. i just sent him 5 dollars in btc hahahahaha. big dnator hahaha. because if the wesearchr doesnt actually reach 150k, then he gets nothing. that would suck!

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/abortion-and-subsequent-break-up/102137

abortion story on BBS. dont kill your babies! i dont think this guy fully appreciates the gravity of it. but theres a great point about how the woman will resent you if you go along with the abortion. its a giant shit test to get you to say DONT KILL MY BABY.

everything about women is so bad. its stupid to want women. they are SO MUCH NOT WORF IT.

really i hate not being STRONG enough to HANDLE just a normal, average woman. It’s mens JOB to MANAGE their women, and I can’t handle that job. not tough enough. not MAN enough. gotta MAN UP!!

there are a few guys on DS BBS that are such woman haters that they think that if you dont support BEATING women you are a WHITE KNIGHT beta Cuck hahahaha. if you are just a reasonable guy like me and only want to spank women. and sometimes the woman beaters make great points about women. but dont call the men who dont agree with beating women white knights just because they dont want to PUNCH a woman in the FACE. i agree with the white knights: we are white men and should behave more honorably than that. we dont need to beat our women, we dont need “SHARIA” we dont need to call women Things or Property. YES, we need to be IN CHARGE and LEAD our women. be the BOSS of them. but it doesnt mean we OWN them. really. they are more like PETS than PROPERTY hahahahaha. you OWN them but you LUV them too. like your children.

believe me, if anyone is open to extreme woman hating its me. and even i cant be convinced to be as EXTREME as some of these guys. even though i agree that EXTREME PROBLEMS NEED EXTREME SOLUTIONS. we dont need to PUNCH women (unless its antifa gurl hahahaha).

but the “toxic” woman-beaters DO have a decent number of GOOD points about women! alot more that the broken clock is right 2 times a day! these guys are right at least 10 times a day! they shouldnt beat women though! or hate them THAT much!

but the WQ is a huge deal because it affects us ALL, DEEPLY, EVERY DAY. except for the lucky few that have a halfway decent rel with a halfway decent woman. and you gotta be way above average TOUGH and STRONG to pull that off. but as NS VVN’s, this is is what we strive towards hahahaha. being super tough and strong.

BLESSED ARE THE STRONG! THE MEEK SHALL INHERIT NOTHING!

hehehe ive repeated that several times.

well i got well below 1500 calories today, got about 1200. so that was good.

i just hate not being a normie and being so far gone and so weak and pathetic that i can never BECOME a normie!!!!!! :rage: :crying:

even if anglin loses this case, he’s not going to go to JAIL. at worst he will have to shut the stormer down. which would suck. but i think he would find  a way to SOMETHING after that. i mean its amazing he keeps the site up at all anyway!

could the govt seize his BITCOIN??

i mean we have heard stories of bitcoin being seized right? like dread pirate roberts and silk road and all that.

AWWWWW YEAAAAAHHHHHH

GEORGIE BOY IS BAAAAAACCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK

seems like more of the same, except now he has wiped out his subscribers and all his videos! which kinda sucks. i also hoped he would be gone for longer so he could have a REAL break and hopefully make a change.

saved his new email address hahaha.

now all the stupid haters will be back. i am the most bona fide, good faith, honest supporter of george there is.

THE WQ

apr 1

had a not fun dream which featurely That Woman prominently. there was this prostitution section at a mall or something where the hookers had little rooms and you could look at them before signing up. like a brothel or red light district i guess. to my horror i found her in there. being a hooker. she still looked great, except now she had some shitty tattoos on her nice white body where before she had none. i talked to her for a little bit but couldnt bring myself to “hire” her. i came back the next day and was more determined to “hire” her but i guess she wasnt in that day. i talked to one of her Clients who also really liked her, because she was the best fook ever, she did EVERYTHING and was so GIVING and enthusiastic.

i recall one image of her bending over with her beautiful long hair going over her beautiful white skin which was now covered in white trash tattoos and i was like welp those tattoos are a shame, but i still want her. i am not over her.

then i woke up at 5 am and was like welp that sucks. i still want her. i am not over her.

andrew anglin is right. women are like children. i bet if i contacted her NOW with enough confidence and charisma, i could meet up with her and bang her and ideally make her my waifu. i could play this game just right and live with her happily ever after. hopefulyl she doesnt have any shitty tattoos or any damn KIDS, and hasnt been with TOO many black guys in the past 2 years. i bet she still looks good and has nice hair and nice skin and nice legs.

i didnt want to go back to sleep because i felt i would go right back into that dream. but i also kinda wanted to “see her” again. but i knew this would bother me all day. so i laid awake and worried about it for a while and said welp ITS JUST A DREAM, yes it sucks, but it doesnt mean i’m not getting over her, or that i’m not 80% over her, in a few days, i’ll barely remember this, and NO i should NOT contact her, or look her up on the internet. fook no. do NOT do that.

then i got back to sleep pretty well, and no more dreams of her hahaha. thank god.

but yeah. just that lingering thought that if i came at her NOW like a totally super masculine tough guy, i could probably “win” her. and i was tempted to play that act. but i could only play that act for so long and then she would dump me and i would be heartbroken again.

and wa wa wa i will never WANT a woman as much as this again. and this kind of WANTING, yeah its “just” a chemical drug, but it totally effectively bonds people together, makes commitment possible, and ideally you want to MARRY and have CHILDREN with someone you get that chemical for…..and if you dont…..should you have children with them? i mean its clear many people do anyway.

well you can still be a good parent even if you dont like your wife hahahahaha. but your wife has to still be willing not to be a hostile bitch to you, esp in front of the children.

thankfully i got a few more hours of decent sleep and no more dreams about HER, that helped.

heh that darn article. maybe it got me thinking i could “win her back” after all thsi time, if I just came back as a total tough guy, and never let the mask slip. it would be risky, but its a risk worth taking right? i mean she is the last woman i will ever luv right? hahahahaha. what do i have to lose?

now in the light of day i can thankfully see, nope not a good idea. btu right after I woke up from that darn dream, yeah i was tempted. oh i’ll take her back even if she is a literal prostitute.  she has a spell on me.

then i thought it might be good to go to an actual hooker. shit go to a FEW.

yeah it is troubling the thought i should try to contact her, present a totally different face to her, act like i am a total tough guy, that would be a enough to fool her, and maybe i could fake it till i make it long enough for her to become loyal to me.

i mean i’m gonna have to do this with ANY woman ANYWAY, faking it till i make it as a masculine tough guy. not just her. but HER i have actual feelings for, i want to be with! she actually MEANS something to me!

rational response: if ANY young qt gurl is NICE to me and shows Sweet Feminine Warmth and Interest in me, I would very well get feelings for her TOO. basically she was acting in a way that ANY woman can act – sweet and nice and kind and friendly. that wasnt unique to HER. its just a huge TRIPLE WHAMMY to get that from a cute young hwyte gurl who is fairly secsually INNOCENT.  IE, a low-number woman.  and then she continues to be nice to you for a few years and you get to know her and you see she isnt a total destructive degen baby monster.

maybe the dream was just a grim, totally unfunny april fools joke. note: april fools jokes are SUPPOSED to be FUNNY. not morale-destroying hahaha.

sheeeit the mudshark thread on DS forum i replied to and was scared to look at for fear of people calling me a untermensch race traitor phaggot, well i learned i got at least 10 likes on my post, and also the thread was REMOVED so you cant even read it, prob cuz it got too controversial, but i HOPE they didnt attack the principled hwyte man who was trying to teach his mudshark white young female employee a valuable life lesson about not being a dirty mudshark. stop now before its too late. maybe he got attacked for being a WHITE KNIGHT and they MAN SHAMED him hahahaha. which would be bad and worthy of shutting down the thread.

read a book on how to train a very catlike dog. or better yet, how to train a CAT. then you will be able to TRAIN women.

anglin’s women thread is growing and growing. somebody posted the picture of him with his qt blonde GF. her hair his covering her face so she is not doxxed, but clearly she is attractive, and he is looking smug, rightfully so. i am suspicious that she is a trifling thot and dumped him and broke his heart! maybe he didnt TRAIN her well enough, maybe he didnt pick a righteous enough woman, but god damn, i just hate that men have to do 99% of the work and women only 1%, or else the man is a shameful loser. can’t women do 25% of the work? thats all I’m asking.

i dont EXPECT them to do 50% of the work or even 40%. but 25%??? COME ON. YOU CAN DO THAT MUCH. EVEN A 14 Year old gurl could do that much.

the danger here is that i am convincing myself to contact her. i cant come up wiht a good reason NOT to. i have nothign to lose. well, other than i will be devastated when she dumps me again . yeah but that will be my FAULT because women have no FAULT or RESPONSIBILITY ever. they one dump you if you let them get away with it and dont TRAIN them properly.

stupid god damn DREAM making me even THINK contacting HER is a remotely good idea. shit. fook. just wait a couple days and i will be back to “normal.” hehehe.

i say just try to bang women as quickly as possible, and when you do, YOU dump THEM, because you dont want a SLUT who bangs quickly as the mother of your children, you want a decent woman. but by all means bang her 500 times so you get more natural at being physical and confident with women. that can only HELP you in the long run. which is maybe why i need to meet casual sluts from okcupid, or hookers from the erotic review.

shit i desperately WANT another woman to REPLACE her and break this CURSE she has on me, and i worry this will never happen. well then I’ll just be cursed again, is that really any better? YES, because its NOT HER! the memory of HER is like an evil jooish parasite in muh brain! there was more bad than good and I wish I could FORGET IT ALL. even the good. because the GOOD WASNT WURF IT.

there was more bad than good and i wish i could forget the good. there was a decent amount of good though. but a fookton of bad.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/dear-men-who-wish-to-be-allies-to-women-12-things-you-need-to-know/95757

anyway there was a time wheni was having like 3 dreams about HER a week. but the shitty thing about this dream is that it proves i’m not fully over her, and that i could still totally RATIONALIZE the idea of contacting her. i WONT, but.

i mean shit. this was TRVE LUV. OF COURSE it takes a LONG time to get over. AT LEAST 2 YEARS.

BUt yeah i thought she CARED about me more. thats all hahaha. near the end it was like she didnt care at all. when things were good it seemed she CARED about me quite a bit. I don’t mind being Cared About by a Nice Person who I cared about too!

oh well its been over for 2 years and i hate all women nao hahaha its all part of THE PROCESS. TRUST THE PROCESS.  would LUV some MJ though. LUV LUV LUV.

i dont think i would have gotten the Luv Drug Chemical Oxytocins and Vasopressins and Dopamines and Endorphins if That Woman had not been ATTRACTIVE. if she were UGLY, i don’t think anything would have happened. i wish she had jsut been ugly! she had kinda a horse face but any man would have found her attractive, if perhaps “a bit plain.” but then again, a bit plain is my TYPE if there ever was one!!!

a little plain, but not UGLY.

and believe me, many women are on the ugly side of plain!

anyway. right or wrong (probably wrong hahaha) i had deep feelings for her and that was the truth. they were not logical, but they were REAL, and by GOD is it taking FOREVER for them to go away, because that is the reality of these feelings. that’s NORMAL.

it didnt matter that she didnt care about me, all that mattered was that she was young and purty and a halfway decent person and that we knew each other. i mean if i hadn’t KNOWN her for 3 years then she would just be like some random young qt gurl I didnt know.

anyway who cares. just hope i dont have a dream about her tonight.

i mean really this is just normal. normies go through this too. Only its maybe only 60% as painful hahaha. what do they do? they DRINK and bang SLUTS. i cant really do either of those.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/mudshark-and-retard-trolling-with-ya-main-goy-heilkek88/95052/16

this has the potential to get really good, the kid doesnt seem too sharp but he has some balls ahahaha. anyway you can just ask these sluts how many partners they have had. the 20 year old gurl said 4.

thats really not TOO bad!!!!! I mean I normally would allow a max of 2 by 20 for a marriageable gurl but a fat slut on POF, 4 by 20, damn I would have thought 8 to 10 by 20 at LEAST!

chris cantwell is doing a livestream in blackface pretending to be a black guy. his stock is going up in my market hahahaha. i guess he was banned from doing streams on youtube so now he is on this thing called ustream. looks like varg is going from youtube to this thing called vidme. hope that works out for him, i mean he’s entitled to make money from his vidyas, no reason not to!

sent a 5 dollar dnation to DAILY STORMER because i donate to him once every 3 months and apr 1 is the start of another 3 months.

there is like 4600 dollars in his wallet right now. hopefully that will keep DS going for a few more months hahahaha.

apr 2

no dreams about that woman last night thank GOD.

sunday. nice sunny day. went for powerwalk at 11am, try to go for another.  weird irritated and congested feeling in throat which not sure if “allergies” to possible pollen from the Coming Spring, or if it is a Wirus of some sort.

Doing Just Sunday Things namely charging everything that can be charged; triming beard down to level 2.

if you slap a woman open handed in the face like sean connery or steve mcqueen in the movies, that’s probably ok. but to fully beat the shit out of a woman, thats probably never ok ahahha. no closed hand, no prolonged beatings. just one light slap on the face, open hand. it’s more SYMBOLIC than anything. you arent trying to physically hurt her. again, I am much much more comfortable with spanking. there you dont have to be so gentle. you can make it hurt a little. how much long term damage is a spanking going to cause anyway. now i’m not talking about WHIPPING them with a cane or bullwhip with 20 severe lashes that would break the skin like the black slaves in the movies have horrible scars on their backs. I’m just talking about 10 good smacks with your open hand.

i fully intend to do this and I fully expect it to work WONDERS. if i could have spanked that woman it would have worked wonders. but we never even hung out. getting in a room alone with her for 5 minutes was too much to ask.

also you should never ever do any spanking or slapping in public. that is some negro bullshit. i mean unfortuantely there ARE white trash men who BEAT and ABUSE their women, and unfort these women are too fooked up to leave these men, because they dont realize all they really need is a spanking, not having their head smashed against the wall. god damn. you think sean connery or steve mcqueen did that shit hahaha. nope. the thought should HORRIFY you as it does me. just one mild slap on the face to cool her off when she is starting to get hysterical. its easier to do quickly and tactically than a spanking, which is a long formal procedure and ritual. very time intensive. slap first, spank later.

also if i had slapped that woman i dont think it would have helped. dont slap a woman until you have fooked her at least 10 times hahahaha.

maybe practice slapping her in the face while you are spanking her, if, like me, you are much more comfortable with the idea of spanking than slapping. i mean slapping just seems much closer to “ABUSE.” it’s really NOT if done the right way: just one time, open hand, not super hard, again, it’s a SYMBOLIC gesture.

but would it have really ever helped me? well i might have been able to spank the sluts from 12-13 years ago because they let me get Physical with them. but still it was damn near impossible to hang out with them, spend time with them. i spent barely any time with them, barely got to know them at all before i was dumped hahaha. so basically no, spanking or slapping wouldnt have been the magic bullet there, because i didnt even know them LONG enough to get AWAY with spanking them!

The Female Question. The Women Question. it is god damn important and a good gateway into 1433. better that it leads to 1433 than to mgtow! which it easily can!

basically even by traditional patriarchial 1433 standards, i’ve never “known” a women well enough to be able to slap her hahaha.

well i guess you would be more entitled to spank than slap a woman you were just “casually dating.” just start off incorporating it into the degen casual secs. then once she likes you enough to hang out with you once a week you can slowly start Sl4pping her if she mouths off hahahaha.

i am not advocating VIOLENCE, the slapping is NOT VIOLENT.

spanking is a great idea….but it never would have helped me! damn!

basically i am just needily begging to hang out until i get dumped hahahaha. meaning they dont want to hang out any more ever again hahaha.

so how the hell do you make women want to hang out with you? BE MASCULINE. BE TOUGH. BE A MAN. at least FAKE being a man, that’s good enough for Most Women anyway hahahaha. maybe focus on asian or black girls hahahahahahaha no i kid. dont do that.

but yeah spanking is great and i would luv to get a chance to use it, but you cant just use it on casual broads. i mean you got to have enough skill to pull a woman in the first place.

but yeah. you need something else to keep you STRONG than some loving waifu at home to cuddle you and build you up. if she is your Rock, then she is gonna LEAVE you because you are WEAK. dont show her that weak side. better for you to find some private spot and cry like a bitch alone. or maybe run home and cry to your mama. literally! crying in front of your male friends is not recommended. maybe your female friends? hahahahaha. if they are totally ugly in every way, maybe. how about a shrink, or better yet, a PRIEST.

heh there is a guy on DS who makes AA look like a white knight woman lover hahahaha. he is complaining about the “feminist mods” and pretty much asking to get banned. i guess they DO ban people from DS and also remove threads. they delete threads pretty regularly. why not just lock them? probably because there is some suggestion of violence and that ruins the whole thread. how about just delete those posts and lock the thread? because i guarantee some of those threads were decent. some of muh favorite threads eventually got deleted.

so yeah i guess if you are having tough times and feel stressed and weak…..DONT LET YOUR WOMAN SEE YOUR WEAKNESS OR SHE WILL LEAVE YOU. go cry to your:

  1. mother
  2. priest
  3. pay a shrink to listen to you cry
  4. find a private place and cry into a Teddy Bear ahahahahahahaha i’m not even joking.

whats the difference between a woman and a teddy bear? you can cry to a teddy bear and it wont LEAVE YOU hahahahahahaha.

then go lift some weights and only go back to your woman when you are prepared to put on your tough guy face and fook her hard.

i wish the women had more tolerance for weakness, but they JUST DONT, so ADAPT or GET DUMPED. There are other people and things you can show your weakness towards.

traditional catholics say that Adoration/Exposition of the Host is a magic bullet for them. that it turns lukewarm pvssies into crusading warriors for christ. basically getting up and going to church at 6 am before your Job and kneeling in front of the Host.  mother teresa said that if everybody did this for an hour a week it would end abortion.

yeah but this could be a self selection thing.  i mean lukewarm religious people arent going to go to church at 6 am to kneel and pray silently for an hour when its not even an official mass. i dunno.

now many people say that we should outlaw abortion for whites and keep it legal for blacks and nonwhites.

now in the US getting any kind of anti abortion law  would be YUGE and i dont think you could distinguish on race. in other words, i think a wholesale ban on all abortions for all races would be worth it ultimately just for the cultural anti-feminist change it would produce. that benefit would be worth all the nonwhite babies hahahaha. also i think they would find a way to do black market abortions anyway.

also have a few high profile cases where a woman who gets an abortion is convicted for MURDER.

basically reestablish the ideal that All Life Is Sacred and Worth Defending. this would make casual secs casual no more.  make people treat the secs act much more with the reverence befitting what it is: the process that creates new human life. the end.

or, as Anglin said “abortion is the crown jewel for feminism” or something similar. it basically is. take away abortion and you’ve taken away like 60% of feminism at least. the majority of feminism. jooish feminism. so yeah. i would take that gamble. ban abortion for all races. even though nonwhites proportionally get WAY more abortions. just HAVING it be LEGAL is VERY damaging to the MIND and SOUL of hwytes. knowing that its EVEN LEGAL is too damn much.

april 3

this guy puts it nicely QUOTE: ” It doesn’t matter, but probably. Our women need to be mercilessly shamed for merely being alone with them. Publishing it, broadcasting it, is just the same principle as f00king one, humiliating us. They know we can’t stand it. It’s why they do it. “Look, boys, this guy has a place in my social circle. He’s fly, he cool, he has my acceptance, where are you?” It’s how I look at it, now. ” END

from http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/anti-feminist-conservative-lauren-southern-bangs-based-black-conservative/96264/26

it implicitly says, you’re not cool enough to hang out with me, but this black guy is.

and this is probably a talented tenth, trump hat wearing, maga black guy! you STILL dont want them with qt white wimmin!

there is an argument that lauren southern is part J tho. i would not be shocked hahahaha.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/how-can-we-best-keep-our-daughters-and-our-sisters-from-engaging-in-miscegenation/96344

hope this one doesnt get deleted hahaha

i mean you shouldnt have to teach it, but i guess horny young teens. when i was 18 i would have banged an 18 year old nonwhite probably haha. joos and some indians can sometimes be bangable when they are 18 year old gurls hahaha. so if were a Horned Up white gurl wanting to get fooked by secsy BBC tyrone, well i would hope my father would Chain Me Up hahahaha.

i dont fookin know, i havent talked to a woman under 50 in 2 years, hahahahahahahaha. not even joking.

ok i am joking, i think i said good morning to a 35 year old woman recently.

but yeah i barely interact with women under 30, so i forget how easy they are to get all RUSTLED about.

like i say, if That Woman hadnt been YOUNG and GOOD LOOKING, I NEVER would have got feelz for her.

and then if the woman is NICE to you, GAME FOOKING OVER. GUARANTEED that you will fall in hopeless luv with her.

the end. next chapter.

it was INEVITABLE! the only SURPRISING thing is why I didnt happen SOONER. because I RESPECTED the boundaries of her relship with her original whyte boifran. which was right and proper and i don’t regret being whyte like that. her making ANY kind of new male friends WITHOUT breaking up with the boifran showed TERRIBLE JUDGMENT on her part. a good father would have said dont do that shit, thats some n3gr0 bullshit. slippery slope to being a dirty cheater or abortionist or mudshark.

maybe i should THANK the first gurl I knew who mudsharked because her mudsharking was probably a Racial Redpill for me! in other words, i might have not been so vehemently, viscerally against interracial fooking, until i EXPERIENCED the ugly side of it, simply by seeing a slut i sorta fancied, fooking a black guy! and seeing pictures of her smiling face next to him.

and then i was like FOOK THIS. there is NOTHING good about this. inter racial fooking is BAD.

and i CERTAINLY didnt need to go through that TWICE. and boy was the second time a million times worse! cuz i cared for the woman so much more, we were closer, it felt all the more insulting and disgusting to me. shit I already KNEW mudsharking was disgusting, i didnt need to see THIS! good lord I must have been HITLER in a previous life hahahaha.

i’ll bet half of white guys have never experienced a white girl rejecting them and then openly getting with a black guy. because if they HAD, then more guys would be RACIST hahahahaha.

but yeah. THAT WOMAN being a mudshark was just karmically CRUEL to me hahahaha. i already KNEW mudsharking was disgusting, and it didnt take a woman I cared a hella LOT about to teach me that lesson. when That Woman did it, it was just HEARTBREAKING.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/why-women-destroy-civilizations/3837/

nice quote from goy on that thread QUOTE ” The above quote from the video is why I stopped trying to understand how White women could be attracted to black men. They aren’t! They’re attracted to the rebellious, alpha male, image of black men that has been manufactured by J00ish media moguls. If White guys were portrayed in the same way, they would be considered just as desirable by these gullible, idiotic women who are glued to TV and Netflix.  ” END

NEVER FORGET. yeah i know this is all old, in response to black pigeons influential video from around that time.  although i guess it doesnt name the J at all. which is a bit naive and stupid. if you forget or dont know the J is behind this, then you just become a mgtow mra phagg0t.

i mean shit. women arent SMART enough to COORDINATE all this shit.

hmm there used to be a pretty good smart reasonable woman on DS. i think she left because the place became too unreasonable woman-hating hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

yeah yeah so i hate women because I am not a real man. but I am NOT a real, full man. so yes i DO admit that contributes to SOME of my woman-hate. BUT NOT ALL OF IT. another part of it is da J’s, and another part is the women themselves.

oh well almost 8 o clock bedtime hahaha.

april 4

i just dont know. its real easy to get cognitive distortions about women. you hear about one woman and you think ALL WOMEN are that bad. women are bad, dont get me wrong, but they might not be THAT bad.

for example, ask a gurl if she dates outside her race, perfectly valid question, because you shun and shame mudsharks. woman responds: IM NOT RACIST, but I just dont date black guys. Im not racist though.

don’t sperg out over her saying shes “not racist.” thats not important. NO WOMAN IS gonna say she IS racist, no normie PERSON would say this! only the top 10% of red pilled, JQ people would admit to being racist as being a GOOD thing, so dont EXPECT it out of people.

getting a woman to ADMIT that she has a PREFERENCE to NEVER date black guys, that is HUGE. might as well marry that woman.

now Dive Deeper hahaha. ask clarifying quetsions:

  1. have you EVER been with a black guy, and that’s where you’re getting that?
  2. so you’re saying you WOULD date like arabs and mexicans? what about a needle dicked little chinee man hahahalol rorororor!

in other words, most women say theyre not racist, THINK they are not racist, but they still Just Wont Date Black Guys, never have, never will, and this is fookin AWESOME.

just make sure that extends to arab guys too. i would THINK most women who disappear to dubai for a week for 50 grand to get SHIT ON, KINDA LOOK LIKE STRIPPER WHORES and NOT qt gurls next door.

there was that one female poster gafarlichtesmadchen or something like that who was pretty good and not just Good For A Woman, but an actual qualityposter. i think she was disgusted by DS’s anti-woman tone tho hahaha. sad! well i think AA is a lot like me in that he can work himself into a real anti-woman lather. i do the same thing. and then i need to tell myself, women arent really THAT bad, and THEN convince myself im not cucking or “white knighting.”

ok got some Robotussin here, i wanted something without acetominophen. i guess i could drink the whole bottle here and got Robotripping hahahaha. i mean its because i have a cough and kinda sore throat and coughing and congesting and otherwise would be taking 90000000 cough drops.

so thats a great point. you can ask the woman during your first volley of questions, do you date outside your race, and how many guys have you been with, and sometimes they will tell you flat out. im 20 years old and i have been with (fooked) 4 guys. not ideal, but better than expected!

TRIGGER WARNING HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i also like how the woman is a fat slob with a terrible shape and rolls of fat

who the hell makes something like this.

i would agree something this degenerate takes a ton of communication, but how many of these stupid women really communicate about it properly, oh the surplus of willingly cucked husbands who are like please communicate with me baybee about our cuck threesome and shes like no im just gonna fook this manly man

i wonder if she ever uses her lack of communication as part of the power thing. like fook NO im not gonna communicate with YOU you pathetic CUCK! ill just let chad fook me hard tho!

and the cuck puts up with it because hes that desperate hahahaha.

in a sick way, all of this DOES make SENSE.

but the main thing is that you get PLEASURE out of being HUMILIATED. i mean its basic masochism 101. and i cant think of anything more jooish. well actually masochism is very huhwhyte, to flagellate and sacrifice and hurt and K and self destruct yourself? while being a sadistic monster is pretty jooish. torture porn and all taht.

heh. cucked for a manlier man by a fat potato shaped slob. good job joe hahaha.

heh. if a woman is willing to do all the WORK of accomodating the Laborious Communication needed to “respectfully maintain boundaries and acknowledge humanity” in a Cuck Rel…….she should use that energy into remaining LOYAL to her ONE man.

obviously im misunderstanding something hahahaha.

no i am not at all. its not hard to understand. either you think a cuck fetish is reasonable, or you are like me and you think its

ABSOLUTELY DEGENERATE.

NO i dont think this is MOST women. this is like 5% of women at most. those that are both super degenerate and super edj00cated. readers of everydayfeminism dot com, huffbo, buzzfeed, salon, slate, joo york magazine, vice. chapo trap house hahahahahaha.

terrible leftist shitswine. they already suck a lot of dicks. the least they could do, while they are sucking so many dicks all the time, is to suck ours.

i mean all these young women are constantly FOOKING all the time having SO MUCH SECS, it means NOTHING to them, they might as WELL set aside 5 MINUTES A MONTH to give some up to an omega neet hahahahahahaha

woops im doing it again hahaha

plus im getting downright communistic about it. doling handouts to parasites.

i am wondering if Cottage Cheese might be a bit of a miracle food. of course get the richest kind you can. like 4% or 6%.

full of protein and not a ton of calories. way better tasting than shitty YOGURT. yogurt is gay af. gayer than a feminized western male hahaha.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Father_Brown_(2013_TV_series)

I am watching this TV show currently and I am struggling to find anything disgustingly jooish about it. it is a fun mystery show with a catholic priest as the main detective. based on stories by the famous catholic convert gk chesterton, who was probably a decent moral goy and didnt cuck to the joo too much. that would be disappointing.

there’s probably joos involved in this show and probably the religious aspect is toned down from the books. but the actor and the character are very likeable and the mysteries pretty gripping, decent writing, beautiful location in the english countryside. remove the urbanite hahaha.

i have seen like 14 episodes of this show and cant find anything to not recommend it. watch it to relax with your waifu. good clean fun. i dont think the actor who plays father brown is a joo.

surprisingly non pozzed for something to come out of Current Year BBC TV. damn.

honestly I can’t find anything degenerate about it. this from the guy who stopped watching tv and movies because they were too JOOISH.

i mean its not religious ENOUGH for being about a damn PRIEST but really. it is not bad at all.

sheeeeeeeeeit there is a man dressing in damn drag for like 20 minutes on episode 2 though. wtf. sad! i think there is a story reason for this though, like he is in a play. i havent been paying attention, reading daily stormer and typing about racewar and degeneracy and jooish lies and mudsharks hahahaha while waiting for a degenerate poker table to open up.

honestly ive seen at least 15 episodes and thi s is the most degen thing ive seen so far.

ok i think there is a plot element here. its a fugitive dressing as a woman in order to hide.

 

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mar 29

ok survived the day hahaha now i am reaching my crash time of 330 pm hehehe when REALLY  should be working till 5 pm if i start at 8 am. anything less is PATHETIC.

heh well you know whats MORE pathetic, is being a jobless NEET hahaha.

whats REALLY sad is 50 year old hwyte men who are jobless neets and so they sit in the library for 8 hours a day Applying For Jobs. honestly guys. it only takes 550 applications and 320 hours to Get A Job. in other words, you should stop seeing these men after 2 months because then they will have found a job. but they DONT. this is, i fear, because the jobs just arent there, also, 50 year old hwyte men are being DISCRIMINATED against hahaha

i was trying to find some leftist thing i saw today on the shitty leftist site medium.com written by a white marxist on why no, the white working class isn’t really dying off, and if it WERE, that wouldnt be so bad, would it? but i couldnt find it, and found a bunch of other shitty leftist articles instead and “threw up a little in my mouth”.

there is this popular leftist hipster brooklyn podcast called “chapo trap house” which i guess is what all the super cool leftist kids listen to now . i guess you could listen to it if you want to Know Your Enemy. well, you don’t. you already know they are pvssy wimpy unmasculine joos. wimpy white writers who say UGH. WHITE PEOPLE. and then cant bang slutty brooklyn white writer women because they are getting used as cvm dumpsters by masculine alt right chad nationalists hahahaha. that or negros hahaha.

there was an interview with one shitlib 28 year old harvard sociology phd student who does a shitlib magazine called “Current Affairs”, and he said, the thing the alt right does better than us is that they make themselves look COOL to weird outsider kids.

he’s not wrong!

hey i say thank GOD. back when I was young, the right was losing this battle, and leftist shit joos still looked COOL to rebellious teens. now the pendulum has swung the other way. im happy about that…..but nervous about when the pendulum is just gonna swing BACK again. we wont be on top forever, lads. trvmp will sell out and or only be one term. 4 short years. we’d better have a REAL movement established by then because our fooking RACE is DYING. we dont have any more time to lose.

everything you read that was written by a woman is crazy shit. don’t read stuff written by women because THE GOOD WOMEN DONT WRITE. I wish they did! they need to make themselves HEARD just to say not all women writers are like that! not all women are like women writers!

these degenerate leftist jooed journalist wimmin writing with filthy language about all the cox theyve taken and how evil trvmp is and how abortion is so great and diversity is so great and whites are so lame and virgin men are so bad. not all women are like this!!!!!!!

but the good ones don’t write articles that get hugely upvoted and shared!

you gotta really dig to find the article by a low-number woman who enjoys her traditional life!

i mean if youre reading VICE or MEDIUM  what the fook do you THINK youre gonna find.  and there are not really lots of women on the Alt Right. not that i WANT there to be. we are still figuring out womens role hahaha. well not really. stay in back and support us. give us children. dont start drama.

but maybe you can write articles, non dramatic articles, about the joys of a traditional life. that would be some good moral support and just let us know there are good women out there.

ok heres what im thinking. these WOMEN are such good voices for the marxist joo, with this horrible marxist jooish writing they do. its clear they are true believers in this crap. no one can speak marxist jooish bullshit better than a woman. they might arguably be better than MEN at it!

so do you think a women could be equally good at writing for Our Side?

I tried to think of a good female 1433 writer and couldnt. maybe savitri devi. i dunno.  i mean who is the female GLR? or the female andrew anglin for that matter? i mean i dont think we NEED one though. that isnt womens JOB. thats MENS job. i’m just basically asking women to write some moral support articles and say keep up the good fight lads, we’ll stand by you, even the betas and omegas who dont have a woman to literally stand by you.

im not even interested in other women. i’m semi interested in BANGING young beautiful women, but I’m more interested in just FORGETTING about THAT woman. because i still want HER. want her more than other women, i and i dont want that. i would love to want another woman like that. please GOD hahahaha. and just replace that woman always and forever. stop wanting her. just forget about her.

rational response: when some beautiful young gurl is being NICE to you and showing INTEREST in you, it will be REALLY EASY to FORGET about THAT woman and to get feelings for a new woman.

and yeah about the women writers, there should be a few more women writers writing moral support articles to support the men who are out there fighting. show some god damn gratitude, especially to the men who won’t get actual gratitude from an actual woman. these are still hwyte men too, and we need THEM just as much as we need women.

i guess i just want women to show more respect to Beetas and Omegas. they way they treat you like the scum of the earth, its like a healthy man treats a dirty whore. and being a Beeta simply isnt anywhere NEAR as morally deplorable as being a flthy whore. its not even necessarily inherently immoral to be a beeta male! but these women sure treat you like it sure IS!

but yeah hwyte men need to rise up and be strong and lead again. and then they will stop being beetas and women WILL show them gratitude and loyalty. but we have to SHOW STRENGTH first. strong horse. nobody likes a weak horse.

and i have certainly failed COMPLETELY at being a STRONG man. and yeah that is frustrating.

so yeah i would say maybe some YOUNG leftists and joos cant be held liable for literally wanting to genocide the white race. because most leftists are NAIVE and dont think its about hwyte genocide, its about making a Equal World where we can all live in Social Justice. We’re not trying to EXTERMINATE HWYTE people! you sound like a crazy person when you say that!

in fact maybe just a MINORITY of jooish leftists are NOT naive and ACTUALLY realize its about hwyte genocide.

so you dont charge them with genocide or first degree mvrder, you charge them with manslaughter and sentence them to getting the fook out of our country.

didnt mean to K hwytes? oh well, youre still K’ing whytes and now you must do the time.

and here i am, i dont even want women hahahaha, i just want one particular woman i havent seen or spoken to in almost 2 years hahahah. get over it!

actually even more i wish i had a work ethic like most normies. to work 20 hours a day for years just for a CHANCE at a 30k a year job.

hint: get a engin degree and you will have an easy time getting a 30k job. electrical, mechanical, chemical. you even get a CHOICE hahaha.

and you can totally do it by age 20 or maybe even 19. this is what we need to sell to young white boys. like, younger than 14. because we want them to start COLLEGE at age 14. have the engin degree at age 18. start making 40 grand at 18. be making 80 grand by 30. damn. establish 49 employee companies and hire only whyte men. by acreage in rural areas. have the wives do a hwyte homeschool network.

shit could do homeschool college as well. shits all online anyway.

but i do think a 16 year old boy taking brick and mortal college classes with 19 year old sluts is perfect.

well, perfect is getting married to your High School Age Sweetheart. the next best thing is being a “fun project” for a 19 or 20 year old slut when you are 16.

but where you gonna meet them in engin classes, also if gurls arent going to college and becoming sluts in the first place.

easy, you meet them through their fathers when they see you as a promising young man making good money at age 18 who is looking for a nice 17 year old gurl.

i am very interested in education, but i just want to throw the whole jooed system out and start over. is there a masters degree in THAT? are there jobs in THAT? in destroying the system and starting anew? hahahaha.

well DISRUPTION is a big thing in companies now hahahahaha.

DISRUPT THE JOO.

START UP THE ROTORS.

FIRE UP THE OVENS.

you will know them by their handiwork.

funny that we goys see only their wreckage but never them themselves. so you come to hate women and hate negros and hate nonwhites when really none of them deserve your hate. father forgive them for they know not what they do hahahaha.

well, def the women dont. and the negros. pretty sure the arabs know what they are doing.

so youre saying an arab is smarter than a white woman?

NO, i’m saying that all women are easily cowed and swayed. they are natural followers.

unfort i am a natural follower as well, never was big on leading.

really i dont want to go through the STRUGGLE of MEETING somebody, getting to KNOW someone, putting in the two years to actually get to know and trust them, it takes a long time, and i already had that FAMILIARITY and TRUST and KNOWLEDGE with That Woman.

but heres the thing. me Getting To Know her didnt feel like a goddamn STRUGGLE. it happened so NATURALLY. there was no effort or heavy lifting or forcing.

and that probably contributed to me falling in luv, feeling like this was a SIGN from GOD, that she was the ONE, because i expected so much STRUGGLING getting to know a woman, as I do now, and that didnt happen at ALL. the struggling came later, in trying to deal with The End. basically just trying to confirm that i was not a horrible traitor who had done a horribly immoral thing. i had to do all those mental gymnastics myself hahahaha.

hey i admit it i was no innocent. i deserve to be ashamed for some of it, and god damn was i ever. i was a coward weakling. it LOOKED bad. and the timing was bad. i KNEW she was having some family issues and was pretty stressed about that. in the long run that is what i will feel worst about. but i will get over it hahahaha. the fact that i “waited” until she was facing something outside of her control in her family, to “spring” this on her, when she was already super stressed out about that.

but again i dont think this is betrayal or treason or warranted treating me as such.

and it was no single joo who turned her father into a muh dick hwyte negro deadbeat, but through the partially-covert actions of many joos and many accomplice goys who didnt fully realize the type of degen fatherless muh dick culture they were creating.

does anyone GO INTO education with the idea that, welp, i can’t DO, so I might as well TEACH? I think most teachers would violent protest that old Pejorative saying “if you can’t do, teach.” but i would GO INTO teaching with that defeatist attitude hahaha.

also theres a popular idea that you need ot fail to succeed. well not if you fail so god damn much that you stop wanting to TRY, or your attempts become so half-baked and half-assed that they couldn’t possibly succeed.

also i wish you could fail in the workplace more. but you cant, or then you get fired for losing the company money. thats why people are perfectionists who are afraid of failure!

maybe my dream job would be working in a Dual Enrollment program at a comm college. so i could get 14 year olds into college and not a thoroghly jooed one. def would need a masters degree for this job though. and there are damn sure not a LOT of jobs in this field hahaha.  there would be FIERCE competition amongst a group of people with masters degree in Dual Enrollment College Administration.

ideally it would be in a more rural area so as to maximize the number of Hwytes i would serve and minimize the number of nonhwytes. i dont want to HURT any nonhwytes, I just want to HELP hwytes MORE. serve and strengthen my race.

i wouldnt have to worry about any J’s because they simply dont go to these working class colleges. period.

would i h8 joos less if i knew any working class joos? if I thought there WERE any working class joos? but there ARE! though def not the norm for them. those people hahahahaha.

no more than 25% of joos are working class. and that is a VERY generous number hahahaha. prob closer to 5%. source needed hahaaha.

insanely cute and nice 18 year old hwyte girl working at local arbys hahaha. seems like a literally nice sweet uncorrupted unjooed gurl. also is 100% undeniably hwyte. nothing questionable at all in this one. if i were hanging out wiht her and she was being NICE to me AND showing that she would be interested in Monog Dating…..i would forget That Woman ever existed!!!!!

but honestly this gulr is way out of my league. when i was 20 i might have judged her for working at ARBYS hahaha. now i dont care.  i say good for her. as long as she doesnt use it as a slippery slope to degeneracy or opioid epidemic or mudsharking. if she has a good father all will be fine.

because of her nice and innocent demeanor i would assume she does has a good father. but i shouldnt do that. because That Woman had a nice and innocent demeanor, not even demeanor, she was actually nice and innocent but she had a horrible father!

anyway, i prefer nice, innocent women to bitchy, slutty women hahahaha. what a concept.

but yeah. i do hate the idea that SHE WAS TOUGHER THAN ME. she, who i held in such high regard, outcompeting me on TOUGHNESS, a quality i hold in the highest regard.

yeah but if she was REALLY actually tougher than me, she would have just told me, sorry, we’re done, you’re not a BAD GUY and i dont hate you, but I just dont feel that way, the end. we had a good run while it lasted. then i prob would have had months less of pain hahaha. had a better experience. wouldnt be so butthurt about her being TOUGHER than me.

language is powerful hahaha. lets stop calling it the jooish QUESTION and start calling it the jooish PROBLEM. daily stormer does this hahaha. so did GLR.

by page 80 in “whyte power” GLR names the J and he doesnt stop naming them after that point hahaha.

its FUNNY how the pro legalization MJ degenerates which i probably am, seem to think that MJ does not affect your driving AT ALL. they completely dismiss that out of hand the way people dismiss nazis. this is disingenuous, bad faith, and jooish af. how can you say alcohol impairs your driving but gettig blazed af doesn’t??????!!!!!!

i just want to get blazed as fook! i’ll even try not to drive hahahaha.

yeah i dont think it damages your driving ability as much as alcohol. but to say it has no effect is ridiculous. you might as well do away with dui laws hahahaha. which i might not be against hahahaha. but without dui laws i might start drinking again after like 8 years. i actually probably would.

so that proves these laws are GOOD?

i mean its terrible drunk drivers K people.

so HOW terrible is it when people have 3 drinks and then drive?

yeah but i wasnt having 3 drinks and driving. what i was doing WAS terrible, law or not.

but it is stupid you can pass out drunk in the drivers SEAT of the car and get a DUI. i actually did that once hahahaha. slept it off in the front seat. didnt have the keys in. is that a critical thing?

anyway i fully admit to drinking too much. having a medium Drinking Problem. I did it and i am not proud of it!

mar 30

found this chrome extension called onetab which sends all your tabs to one single tab which contains a list of links. the idea is so they are not running and eating up your memory with 31 tabs of jooish pron hahahaha.

really simple concept. basically have a list of your most frequently used links and then click on them to load the page rather than have them open all the time. but i like anything that can Reduce Muh Memory Footprint hahaha. OneTab. you can easily add and remove links. not add duplicate links. its basically like history or bookmarks but your top 20 pages.

and then just open like 3 or 4 tabs at a time rather than 14 hahahaha.

its EMBARASSING  I havent used this or a similar app before (there are several to choose from, i only picked onetab because it had a lot of ratings) but the chrome extention “store” is hard to browse like a power user. cant get a good buy in very well. it doesnt share out very well hahahahahaha.  cant really deep dive into there and share it out. hard to get a good buy in.

https://www.one-tab.com

try it out nd make your comp 95 times faster hahaha

i would dnate a dollar to them if they were hwyte, but they dont even beg for dnations! so they MUST be hwyte hahaha.

if you do something useful, valuable, or important, you SHOULD get paid joobux for it.

everybody likes johnny cash but we could all stand to be more familiar with the song that gave him his name:

listen to something other than ring of fire, boy named sue or hurt hahaha.

when i was a young man i played the song at a party, hope it didnt sound too shitty because i was drunk af. it certainly didnt help me get any action hahaha. but its weird. its a very SOCIAL JUSTICE, MARXIST sort of message, but I still think its a good, meaningful, sincere song. i felt it spoke to me, and also explained my own penchant for the Gloomy which i had somewhat a reputation for, hahahaha, and often wore Black, prob still do.

and i do generally agree with the social justice message of the song, that some people just get a raw deal, get shat on, and dont deserve it, and we should have sympathy for them and try to help those less fortunate.

wish i had played the song well enough to get some makeout action though hahahaha. i probably could have, but i had oneitis on some dame who wasnt the least interested hahaha. she was an ok person but i should have just avoided her. that was impossible though, i saw her EVERY DAY without even TRYING and she hung out with my friends. SAVAGE.wav.

i should have immediately gone to the shrink, changed muh major to engin, stopped drinking cold turkey, saw the shrink 2 times a week, got a nice suit, and gone to the career center every day trying to get a 28k entry level engin job. but noooooooooo.

my weekend has begun hahaha. some MJ would be ideal. instead i ate a big dinner, too many calories, and had 1 benedryl, and now 1 valium, plan on 1 more valium, and 1 more ebendryl. try not to drink too much coffee to NULLIFY it.

damn this onetab is GREAT. why didnt i do this YEARS ago. if there are 2 things i am obsessed with……..hahahaha its joos and women hahahaha. i mean tabbed browsing and Memory Usage.

i thought of doing a black metal album with great songs and great lyrics that were pretty much very fashy, alt right, VVN, 14ee, not degenerate, not morally subversive but morally upright, and very JQ  JP aware, but i would not name the j00 until the very last word of the lyrics for the album, but make sly references throughout. but wouldnt be able to be accused of being anti-semitic until that last line of lyrics was brought up because it actually use the word Joo for the first and last time to unambiguously name what i was talking about.

but i cant write good lyrics and I sure as hell cant write good music!

well thats false. i’ve written both before! just not a lot. esp in comparison with the bad and shitty and worse than mediocre!

just an idea, had no intention of actually doing it myself haha.

heh took bendryl #2 a little early. just gonna skip valium #2 and replaced it with a Benedryl. will take Benedryl #3 right before bed.

this is better than drinking. it is technically better than MJ too…..but i dont really believe that because i desperately yearn for MJ.

old GLR sneakily avoided naming the J for the first 80 pages…..i think i just said this yesterday. anyway point is, he is going fullblast on them now, thats for sure. nicely describes them as parasites and tapeworms.

heh. those son of a btiches kicked me off the TRS discord because i didnt go through the formal extreme vetting process there hahahahahaha. not that i ever used it! but discord is a potentially good chat/meeting/voice system.  might be a good way for me to Actually Socialize with people. i guess i already do that at my job, by getting better at being friendly and talking to the people there.

i guess like once a month i feel like being social hahahaha and not a total loner weirdo. the rest of the time i just want to be alone doing MJ. it was different with that woman. i liked spending time with her. it gave some hard competition to being a loner haha. made me want to reconsider that path hahaha. now i am just mainly content being a loner again. not even terribly LONELY. when i was 20, 21, etc, back then i got a lot more LONELY at the thought of being/becoming a loner. now it doesnt bother me nearly as much.

but i still might like to be somewhat less of a loner. hang out with friends a LITTLE more, and DEFINITELY have a special waifu woman. i think its much better to have a special person like that, than to not. yuge value add there.  makes life without seem very bland and boring and disappointing by comparison.

14BB hehehehe 14ee which one looks better

i might have to go back and relisten to david dukes my awakening. i listened to a lot of the audio book a few years ago and really enjoyed it. would totally recommend it. learned a lot. first learned about the evil degenerate talmud hehehe.

you can probably find a pdf or txt file on the internet hehe but its really much better just to read an actual paper book.

so whats worse? MJ prohibition, or MJ being legalized in a way where there are really really really jooish laws and taxes and regulations where people are still strongly attracted by the Black Market because the Legal Market is such a Shitty Deal? or you can go to jail for using too much hahahaha.

i mean im still wondering about the DRINKING laws. i mean yeah SHOULDNT there be laws against drunk driving, and public drunkenness, Open Intox, Open Container laws, disorderly conduct, etc.

so shouldnt legal MJ similar have a bunch of stupid strict laws? or is it better to have it be Criminalized? i dont see how i could POSSIBLY be BETTER. and its much more likely to be legalized if you can give govt and jooz a way to PROFIT off it.

i mean it doesnt take a super crafty joo to see that a lot of MONEY can be made here. follow the money. so why dont they do it? because it takes THAT long for govt and legislation to MOVE?

but the SCOTUS made gay marriage legal OVERNIGHT. couldnt they make MJ legal overnight? not that they SHOULD, but COULDNT they, and if jooz run everything, why dont they want MJ to be legal? what is the thinking here. so this proves joos dont run the US. because MJ isnt legal NOW. hahahaha.

yeah but they make money off it being illegal too.  i guess the jooish business analysts ahve crunched the numbers and determined they make more money off it being illegal than it being legal. and all the degen potheads say look at colorado making a whopping 5 million dollars a year for EDUCATION oooo this is doing SO MUCH GOOD.

of course as a born again fascist, im not so sure legalizing drugs or even just MJ is a good idea after all!

and i fully admit its for my own selfish degeneracy. it would certainly be bad for society as a whole.

besides, how many HWYTE people are going to PRISON for MJ? not a lot.  i bet even fewer blacks are going to prison for MJ. LEO probably want to bust dealers of harder drugs and just dont care about softer drugs so much.

so who do the crooked cops sell the seized drugs to? back to the mexican cartels? probably hahahaha.

how much of seized drugs are illegally sold by crooked cops? 50% of the drugs? i cant believe cops are THAT crooked hhaha. i mean i thought the drugs were SUPPOSED to be DESTROYED.

i just cant go to my local police dept and be like ay bros want to sell me some drugs?

i would be MUCH better off going to random shady negros in the shady negro area of town.

i mean i would pay a shady arab doctor extra money to give me a Non Extremely Vetted recommendation for an MMJ card. you pay extra money so they can be extra shady and say here you go, here’s a MMJ card for your insomnia and anxiety hahahahaha and i will just check chronic pain on the state application. i mean i would pay much higher than the going rate for that extra shadiness. like dirty sluts willing to suck off the doctor for more opioid pills. i wouldnt suck anybody off ever though hahaha.

mar 31

have been overeating a lot without even trying lately. so, prob will gain a few pounds. not a huge deal, but obv want to keep eye on it. friday in lent is perfect time to try a Fast hahahaha. cut cals. drinking warm coffee with butter. this is acceptable hehehe.

you could just use a folder of bookmarks in chrome to do the same thing as this onetab extension.

trying something a little diff with muh day off. instead of shooting right off to errands, i am immed doing laundry right now. will do the errands when they are either drying or out of the dryer. almost abotu to put in dryer nao.

10:55 of sleep last nite compared to the usual 7 hahaha. this is how i bring the average up to 8:30 hehehehe.

ok put stuff into dryer. havent left yet obv. just sitting here drinking butter hahaha that i wish had MJ in it!

nobody ever told me that every conversation, every PART of a conversation, every INTERACTION, every word you say, is a COMPETITION or a STRUGGLE, where if YOU don’t say something INTERESTING, or FUNNY, or VALUABLE, or USEFUL to them, or PLEASING to them, then they think you are an IDIOT or an ASSHOLE or a WEAKLING or a JOO.  or a terrible person. a child molester or a traitor or a betrayer.

my least fav are being thought of as an IDIOT, or INCOMPETENT, or a Bad Person. A Morally Weak Coward or Liar or Joo. or an Inferior MAN –  an omega male. a Bootlicker who could only pull an Inferior Woman – if any woman at all.

it doesnt matter what other people think of you……but yes it does when you are trying to impress employers, colleagues, bosses, clients, women, friends! of COURSE you care about how they perceive you!!!!!! perception is reality hahahaha.

left another encouraging comment on a new george feels video just now. good for me hahahaha but also good for HIM. he is pushing in a  good direction and i want to encourage that and see more of it.

also i think he might be sympathetic to 14BB but not want to come out and say it. which is understandable. so i want to signal to him that yep this is a good way to be bro but im not such a loose cannon that i would ever blow your cover. like come on your channel saying HH, 1433, defoo the joo etc. cuz he puts his real face out there for the whole world to see. this is pretty much totally incompatible with espousing pro-hwite views.

ok finished laundry, out of dryer. even put clothes away. so, absoutely time to go do the errands. 1240pm.

i got to thinking, all of “mental illness” is inherently jooish. and jooish are inherently mentally ill!!!!!! mental illness is the Mental Joo, basically a mindvirus mindparasite burrowing into your mind and destroying it from within. whether its derpression or anxiety, or something more serious hehehe. so yeah im not saying its not real. it’s real as fook just as these destructive parasites are real!

my bold claim is to view your own “mental illness” as a little parasite JOO that is very literally trying to personally destroy YOU and your mind and your life, and its up to you and your trusted ones to grip it and rip it out forcefully and finally!!!!!

you dont want a little hand rubbing merchant in your mind, do you!!!!?????!!?????

George’s video on JUNG is very timely, seems like a SIgn from PROVIDENCE to me!

did some quick googling on this essay only to find its very controversial hahahahaha. ie joos used it to say jung was a nazi and supported AH. shit i hope he DID! all the more reason for me to read and luv JUNG!

and all the more reason to read the essay and all the more reason to be glad that george is looking at it. probably him dogwhistling again, and i fully appreciate it, and again, im not gonna blow his cover. but the neet virgin liberatardians arent calling him a natzee yet and i dont want to clue them in. but george doesnt need these people on his side anyway. but he doesnt need people calling him a natzee right now, or ever, so i’m not gonna help them do it. as i say, his Real Life Face is Doxed, so he doesn’t need anything BAD tied to that.  so i want to be real careful with what i say to him publicly. i mean i can email him for private talks. not that i would do that more than once every 2 months hahahaha.

tired of honey nut cheerios, switching over to peanut butter crunch hahahaha. yes i know cereal is terrible. well its not as bad as pizza or ice cream or cookies or pie hehe.

http://www.philosopher.eu/others-writings/essay-on-wotan-w-nietzsche-c-g-jung/

theres the actual jung essay full text, and not a damn dissertation on why it is a nazi thing. looks like kerry bolton wrote a good thing on counter currents. which, of course, are nazis hahahahahahahahahaha. no im kidding. dr greg is a good guy and he wrote me a nice thank you note for my insultingly small donation to CC.

anyway that full essay, not sure about that translation, and DEF the formatting is fooked, with words being joined together and such. proofread that shit!

i guess david lane started his wotanism based on that essay. Will Of The 4y4an People was what he said WOTAN stands for hahahaha. no complaints here. Lane was the creator of the 14W after all! great guy! should get HIS books!

https://archive.org/details/TheJewishStrategy

by Revilo P. Oliver. I should read this hehehehe

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/brad-pitt-losing-weight-and-his-mind-after-whore-wife-ruins-his-life/95662

i am now courageous enough to return to the bbs after i made a post about a week ago, then afraid to see if people had responded to me. i havent read the thread, but i think a few people upvoted me!

but yeah AA shares muh butthurt over women at the risk of being called MGTOWish. no we are not MGTOWs, but god damn are women SO jooed that is is DISGUSTING. you cant be blamed for hating them a little bit, even when you KNOW its the j’s who made them this way. you wish they could resist the J even just a LITTLE bit and not be completely horrible people hahahaha.

http://archive.is/PfIWU

archive of Andrew’s article hehehe

QUOTE

This narrative of “you aren’t good enough for women” being reinforced by men is absolute poison. Our race is only going to continue to exist if we fix gender relations, and so anyone who promotes this type of a narrative is a traitor to the race. Anyone who sides with feminism in any way is helping to destroy our race.
So please, don’t allow this to continue.

Do not be ashamed.

If somebody claims that someone else is having trouble with women because he’s not a good enough man, call him out for supporting the feminist agenda against white men.

Nevermind the Sluts – Talk to Your Brothers and Never, Ever, Ever Man-Shame

The other big, BIG issue: don’t feel like you have to pretend you’re not having any problems with women.

Everyone is having problems with women, but we have a cultural climate where it is like saying “I HAVE A TINY DICK” to talk about it.

In fact, many men will engage in the above mentioned “man-shaming” of other white males. This is absolutely disgusting, and it is inexcusable.

It only helps the sluts.   ” END

NEVER EVER EVER EVER MAN-SHAME.

AND NEVER EVER EVER EVER BE AFRAID TO SAVAGELY SLUT-SHAME.

THANK YOU ANDREW!!!!!

i wonder if his qt hwyte gf left him and now he is sad and angry.

well, he SHOULD be sad and angry, and that only makes what he writes here even MORE correct!!!!!

read this article 10 times every day and give him your money hahahaha.

women are just 16 year old gurls, of COURSE they are gonna dump you and BLAME YOU for it!

trying to red pill your woman is like trying to red pill your DOG (or cat.) don’t try to get the dog to understand. just be a strong leader and your dog will follow you in your fight against the J’s. don’t expect them to understand. THE TYRANNY OF HIGH EXPECTATIONS hahahahaha

so really by acting like a 14 year old gurl and blaming me, That Woman acted exactly like how you’d expect a woman to act. i was naive and didnt know how to handle it. oh well. at least now i think i learned a valuable lesson about women. always be dominant. never expect more responsibility or maturity or wisdom out of them than you’d expect out of a 14 year old gurl IT’S JUST THE WAY THEY ARE.

some men would say slapping a woman in the face is every effective, i dunno, i don’t think i would ever be comfortable with that. i do think SPANKING them would be VERY effective and I would LOVE the cahnce to test that hypothesis. i mean slapping them in the face just seems TOO savage, too nonwhite. hwyte men don’t NEED to slap their woman in the FACE.

shit, negros and semites will brutally PUNCH their women in the face and bludgeon their skulls with blunt objects!

i absolutely showed no dominance whatsoever. i mean i was at a low point hahaha.

it just also really bothers me that i have to COMPETE with these 14 year old gurls for JOBS, and they get masters degree and outperform me in the workplace, sometimes doing honestly tough jobs, and being TOUGHER than me. 14 year old gurls arent TOUGH and dont WORK very hard!!!!!

anyway. i just esp like it when AA writes about women. his haters say he is a woman hater. i say he’s prob just been hurt by too many jooified, degenerate women, just like many of us. i might SPECULATE that he has had a recent drama with a woman that has left him extra hurt! which is FINE! it happens to us all, and these struggles and heartbreak build TREMENDOUS character in a man!

come on. do you know how many WOMEN are MAN haters? most of them!

but yeah i especially like when AA says never ever ever shame any man for being beta or whatever.

ol uncle varg borders on doing this. well you’re just not MAN enough to DESERVE a woman.

i will always luv uncle varg, but I am closer to AA’s POV here. like god damn, these women really ARE garbage, and we have to stand in solidarity with our white Brothers. BROES BEFORE HOES!!!!!!!!

oh youre just mad about not Getting Any.

Well, YES! a little bit. part of that is my fault sure, but a big part is WOMEN being huge sluts! or Slags, as the brits call them.

slores, sluts, slags, skanks.

i will white-knight on occasion. i just dont want to do it too much. and i never want to manshame unless the man is really actually doing something jooish or negrish or sinful or bad or bad faith and not just being a white knight niceguy lickspittle woman-loving beta. dont SHAME him for being INNOCENT.

i bet he did just get dumped hahaha. well i would be there for AA if he needed a manfrand hahahaha. i am concerned that he doesnt do enough real life socializing.  i thought he was back in the US. he could totally find decent men to hang out with, he just has to get out there. like there are TRS and DS goys even in my area and if I tried, I could probably meet up with them. but i would worry about being rejected for being a loser. or that the person would be a tattooed felon type.

so….youre makign fun of me for being an idiot for betting when i had the nut flush? why is it dumb to bet when you have the nuts and are guaranteed to win???? are you supposed to call and hope the other guy bets? how the fook was it dumb of me to bet????? youre SURPRISED that I “ACTUALLY” Bet with the nuts? am I not understanding something here?

is it stupid to bet on QUADS too? am i supposed to slowplay these all the time? heh i have been playing poker very recreationally for like 5 years and it looks like i havent learned a god damn thing about actual strategy. feels bad man.

maybe the guy was just bantzing me. everyone likes to shoot their mouth off about how they are the smartest poker expert ever.

i am playing at a higher stakes table than i like because nobody is in the lower stakes one.

i mean i dont get nut flush very often. about as often as full house or quads ahhahahahahaa. but i do get quads more often than i thought i ever would.

anyway i hope anglin is hanging out wth people rather than just sitting alone doing daily stormer stuff. a person needs to be a little social and have some friends to do real life stuff with. says ME hahahaha. if he had a GF and she was his only real life person and she dumped him, that could be extra devastating. just speculating.

you could say its stupid to get into the cult of personality but i think it’s actually natural and healthy. you read anglin’s stuff for years, you start to feel more attached to him, like you sort of KNOW him, and that they are KIND of your buddy in that you sympathize with them, want the best for them, sometimes donate money to them, and wouldnt’ mind hanging out with them sometime. doesn’t mean you stalk them. but you do kinda wonder about their life story. their family and friends and them growing up. and enough of anglins story is out there to put together something of a picture.

he says he gets along with with his parents, so that is good.

he is very tight lipped about where he is living now, and i cant blame him, because jooz have been protesting outside his father’s office lately. jooz have called and confronted both his mother and his father. disgraceful.

i know he’s not REALLY my buddy, but i have the greatest respect for him and want the best for him. and that includes being happy in his social life and luv life. i dont want him to be a friendless foreveralone! I guess you could say I CARE about him!

but yeah i dont have any sick fantasies or delusions that he is my buddy or anything.

i just think that when a person puts themself out there like that, they can’t blame other people for getting a little bit attached to them. like mike enoch saying you dont know me, you’re not my buddy, i’m just a guy with a microphone, i’m not a leader. when you start to get FANS and people listening to your content regularly, then yeah to me thats a kind of social contract. you are SOMEWHAT responsible to your fans. i mean, you WANTED people to LISTEN to you, right? you cant just shit on your audience.

not that mike REALLY did that. well, he sorta said some of those things haha.

shit im not even sure what anglin’s position is on all this. maybe he would try to WEASEL about being “held to a higher standard just because i am the creator of daily stormer.”

heh. just saying if I were the creator of the daily stormer, i’d kinda EXPECT to be held to a higher standard than some autist troll in the comments!!!

 

 

 

CAPTAIN SAVE A CHILD

mar 22

heh.  i was thinking about how ridiculous it is to be rejected by something you want to be part of. like i want to give you a donation, nope we wont take your donation because you suck. thats even worse than we wont take YOU, but well take your money. what about just stop sending us money. but you still do good work and i want to support you.

i mean with WOMEN, you say, welp, i tried, i struck out, you dont want me, i’ll just move on. but what if WEEV rejects me and says he doesnt want my money? that doesnt make weev’s work less valuable! i would still want to support it!

well this is not gonna happen, i just got amused because i thought it might happen hahahaha. no weev is not gonna reject me or my money. it would just be funny and ridiculous if he did!

well it would be CUCKY to continue donating to him if he did. so i would say i luv what he does but he doesnt want my money, so i stopped giving.

anyway its not werf talking about because it didnt even happen. it shouldnt happen. its worrying about absolutely absurd shit.

did you know you could get a DUI for passing out drunk and Sleeping It Off in the drivers seat of a car? this is what happened to chris cantwell, who i am kinda liking more and more. he is a better writer than i guessed he would be, and he is kinda like me in that as a young man he rejected the authority of the CHURCH and was very rebellious and he liked drinking and smokin MJ and didnt want to stop because it was too much fun. then he started getting DUI’s and seeing that drug people were degen losers. but he kept drinking because now he had a drinking problem. anyway he went to jail for 2 dui’s, that sucks. some states its 3, i guess in his state it was 2! damn! i might become a libertarian too hahahaha. but now he is moving away from that and is becoming more and more racist, which i like. he struggles like crazy and he is trying so hard. i can sympathize and Empathize. he always has trouble with some damn dirty sluts. probably because deep down he doesnt believe he deserves a good white women, so he gets these crazy dirty mulatto sluts.  but he does deserve a good hwite woman!!!!

holy shit. when i get up at 5 am, like CLOCKWORK i want to take a MAD powernap around 3:30, 4 pm.  i would not even be done with an Honest Days Work by then!

GLR’s “hwyte power” is quickly losing momentum. it starts off very strong in the first 2 chapters but then drops off. still very readable and not at all bad, but just a big dropoff in momentum. still worth buying and reading though. just not as fun as it was in the beginning. maybe a joo editor would have helped him with his pacing hahahaha.

there is a new autistic muppet starting on sesame street in april. i should not be surprised. actually i AM surprised theres not a Transexual Muppet yet. honestly. that would be the best way to sell such a thing to children. honestly! i dont even think there is a GAY muppet, that is REALLY shocking. i cant believe theres never been a gay sesame street muppet in the past 10 years. what a great way to turn hwyte kids into gay sissies who will never reproduce.

he spends a lot of time talking about Communiss in Cuba and china and the communist connection with oswald and the JFK assassination, whcih to be sure, were uge stories when he wrote the book. i think he is saving up most of his joo hate until like page 100 or so. just wish he’d get out with it earlier.

tempted to look at reddit relships but fighting the minor urge cuz i know its gonna be filled with leftist hamster wimmin and omega sissie bitchbois apologizing to them hahahahaha and begging for table scraps.

mean the relships arent rocket science when the gurl LIKES you and is WILLING to make an effort to be with you. thats all you need. then you can make all the mistakes you want and she will keep giving you chance after chance after chance after chance. none of this one strike and youre out shit. that just means you NEVER had even ONE chance. so i guess i should feel reassured by that. because once i thought i had ONE chance hahaha. you NEVER get just ONE chance. unless you do ahahaha. who cares. god damn negro fooking degenerate pig wh0res. nothings sacred with these degenerate jooish pigs.

ok ok i am being negative again. negative nancy. have to have a more positive attitude. it was an overly negative attitude and negative thinking that got me into this MESS.

how to stop negative thoughts? you identify the thought as negative, then say STOP! YOU SHALL NOT PASS!!!!!!! and just say that to most of your thoughts because most of them are probably negative. about how women are horrible, or how you are a weak soft untough neet virgin loser who cant handle the tough adult world.

you can keep the negative thoughts about joos because they really are awful hahahahahahaha. but i would recommend thinking about some pleasant things to balance that out.

some people feel about GOD and JESUS and RELIGION the way I feel about The Hwyte Race. Good for them I guess.  I wish I had that kind of faith but I dont.  as long as they have a healthy sense of racial hygiene they dont bother me. when you start adopting africans for jesus youve gone too far. or missionarying in africa . well i mean the mormons do that and then they STILL have 10 white kids by age 23, so…..good for them. hope they stay that way.  i have heard unsubstantiated rumors that mormons are darkening hehehe. i hope not.

nothing against the christians. i am technically one. its not an inherently bad message. i dont even think its inherently jooish. although some people make it pretty jooish. and that’s bad. obviously.

franco sinazi with his new song which is a parody of “strangers in the night” and is very very very catchy. play it for normies and see if they notice. negros beaners and skypes hahahaha.

just waiting to go to damn bed. i might not have done much but i probably did my best hahahahahahaha. well i guarantee you i didnt do my worst. and at least im not a neet anymore. and i am not a virgin hahaha.

mar 23

wow a metal show that i immediately said YES IM GOING I HAVE TO GO I AM EXICITED TO MAKE AN EFFORT TO GO because it was on a good night and most importantly, a good location. great location on a good night. the band taake. now i dont know much about current year taake, but I do know that the first 3 taake albums are very good. and that taake/hoest made insensitive remarks about mudslims and once got drunk and drew a SVASTICA on his chest hahahahahahaha. he is a drunk degenerate but I feel he might be a little racist.

he couldnt keep up the impossibly high average set by his first three albums, but for those he earned his place in the pantheon and I will gladly get high energy about going to see him live in a few months. a honest Black Metal show. haven’t been to many of those. closest thing would be I saw mayhem once. mayhem counts as black metal hahahaha. are you kidding, mayhem totally counts as black metal.

i dont see why black metal shouldnt be “live” music.  I would luv to see any of muh fav black metal bands live. i would gladly go see deathspell omega play a shitty sloppy show hahahaha.

anyway. eavesdropped on great conversation between successful professionals about their college age kids. you just assume the kids are gonna get masters degrees, get good jobs, get married, have children.

well what if they dont. what if they fook up one of those. or like me, ALL of them.

the kids all have IDEAS of what they want to do. well i wanted to go to MED SKOOL but got cold feet on that so i started an ENGIN degree instead. i know to get a good paid internship after my second year of uni.

im an 18 year old gurl and i want to become a physician assistant and i know i have to get all a’s in college and go to a good grad school to do that, and i am prepared for all that. i know to never get a B, never to do drugs, never to get less than 3 good internships. these middle class parents set their kids up to succeed hahahaha.

well i wasnt set up to FAIL. i was given all the CHANCES to succeed but I didnt have enough personal agency or pushing. I needed someone to make bigger decisions for me because i didnt know how to make big decisions. i didnt want to go to grad school, i didnt even want to go to college, i just wanted to sm0ke MJ and jerk off to porn all day hahahahahahahahaha.

i mean what do you do as a concerned parent when your kid starts to fook up. do you say, well he’s old enough to start making his own mistakes, and hopefully learn from them? what if he doesn’t learn from them?

i wish i had been more of a normie like this guys kids hahahaha. i bet this 19 year old engineer nerd is actually a normie chad who has had a gf hahahaha. he will prob be successful even though he as a 19 year old boy likes sleeping in till noon sometimes. oh. i thought the RULE WAS, you have to get up at 4 am at the latest EVERY SINGLE DAY if you EVER wanted to be successful in life, ie, outcompete all the competition and get a sick 30k a year middle class job hahahaha.

basically, i was weirder than i thought i was hahahaha. i was SUPER weird. SUPER jelly of the NORMIES.

and maybe for normies, its not such a god damn neverending struggle to succeed. its not easy, they still work hard, they struggle some, but its not like madly thrashign just to tread water. they are not always on the verge of falling apart. otherwise more normies would fail.

well there’s plenty of failures too!

anyway weekend nao. took a benedryl. will take 2 valiums later. wouldnt mind some MJ. but not craving it as bad as i did 1 month ago thank god. I am still prepared to buy a huge quantity of it should the opportunity present itself.

i dont like how women make you all competitive hahahaha. i had a dream about some old friends, some really great guys i remember fondly. it wasnt until i was hanging out with them as a group with WOMEN that I became aware of the idea that, damn, these guys are COOLER than me, and would totally have an advantage over me for women. yeah it MAKES SENSE, they ARE cooler than me, I just wish I could hang out with these guys apart from these women. These are good guys and I dont want WOMEN to cause any DRAMA. but why should I be mad at the GUYS? and i wasnt. i was butthurt at the GURLS hahahahaha.

There never was any real drama, thank GOD.  i mean this is just the classic broes before hoes situation.

taake live. thats pretty cool though. i wont know the majority of the songs but i bet it will be good. hoest is known as a Good Performer. Intense. im sure there will even be qt yung gurls there because qt young gurls like metal nao, they have for like 6 years hahaha. maybe i can get some of hoests sloppy seconds hahahaha.  i know better than to want to marry a metal grrrrl hahahaha. not interested. expectations status: managed.

ate dinner, back, took valium, now sitting here drinking coffee, play some cards, this is the best time to do MJ but i dont have any. prob should not take valium then drink coffee, may be like throwing valium in the trash hahaha. oh well. whats done is  done.

being able to SELL stuff. being TOUGH. these are good LIFE SKILLS that will be valuable in ANY and EVERY job. its simple. the better you are at these things, the better you will do in life. DIRECT proportion. direct relationship. really its full blown CAUSE AND EFFECT, not just corrolation.  the younger you are when you learn how to SELL shit and to BE TOUGH, the better, because the easier it will be for you to MASTER these skills quickly.

i was always pretty weak at both.  i cant sell myself to women, cant sell myself to employers, cant sell my damn RACE to other members of my race. and yeah being TOUGH will help you SELL better too. sales.

how jooish is casablanca. i often watch TCM channel and see oldass movies. most of them are more jooish than i would like. hollywood was jooed since like the 1920s. since movies began they were jooed. casablanca. heavy themes of the natzees are the bad guys. evil natsees. well shit. do you expect a movie where the natsees are the GOOD guys? theres never been a single one. expectations. manage them.

but yeah he is lovelorn for ingrid bergman. not bad. he never wanted to see her again. what the hell happened between them in paris? she dumped him for lazlo? but she really luvs rick?

wirrten by joos, directed by a joo. its def watchable though. good cuddler with a good waifu hahaha if she doesnt fall asleep because its so old and boring and then leave you for a more EXCITING man.

also its CONFUSING. thats my fault because everything is CONFUSING to me, i have a learning disability called everythings confusing because i sm0ked too much w33d 10 years ago, so i can’t make sense, understand, or explain anything.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casablanca_(film)

you know who WASNT jooish? HITCHOCK. WELLES.

bogart fought AGAINST the fascists in spain in casablanca. joos are always anti fascist. therefore, fascists are the good guys hahahaha. what was the most successful, long lived fascist state? how did croatia happen. was croatia ever “fascist”? what about sweden? norway was “occupied” but it wasnt technically an “axis” power. was sweden?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sweden_during_World_War_II

it was “neutral” and unoccupied

maybe norway resented this?

i dunno its impossible for me to learn and to answer questions and understand situations at all , hahahaha

NOTHING MAKES SENSE. NOTHING. hahahaha. you can try to make sense of it, but you will fail.

had some diet red cherry mello yello today. when i used to drink soda i used to get code red or code blue mt dew. what the hell was the blue stuff called. VOLTAGE. omg. i was notorious for drinking mt dew VOLTAGE. best soda ever. but they didnt make a diet version. i didnt see if they had blue diet mello yello but they had red and i was happy with that.

of course diet soda is so crappy you dont like it as much. i just had 1 because i was at burger king and had a drink and they had one of those touch screen 50 flavors sodas. pretty amazing that. how the hell do these minimum wage people fix such a thing when its broken. there were white kids working there. probably because fast food is actually such a TOUGH job only white kids are SMART enough to HANDLE it. nonwhites are TOO DUMB FOR FAST FOOD JOBS.

i mean these are not easy jobs folks. you have a TON of shit to do, with no fookups. dealing with disgusting fat degen customers stuffing their fat opioid degenerate faces and bitching at these poor white kids.

808 pm. taking second valium.

NORMIES can get MJ rather easily because they are SOCIAL. but normies also dont become total p0theads. they are happy to just partake once in a while, in moderation, or a huge binge every couple months. that’s basically moderation.

so im saying degen p0theads are not normies??? in a way they ARENT!

so are normies winners or losers? i would say generally they are winners compared to losers and nonnormies! 28k might not seem like a huge winner…..but it really is! and prob most normies make arund that. a fast food manager makes that.

oh well. at least i am not fat any more. and i have a place to live. and a good fam. it just sucks that at one time i had a halfway decent MIND……and now i dont.  i mean i am not batshit schizophrenic thank GOD…..but i just feel like a confused idiot child mcuh of the time.

and i want to do MJ????? you think that will HELP this mental state? fook no, itll make it 14 times worse!!!!!

heh. it would be really fun to get blazed as fook and then go to that taake concert! and then just stay in the back. or maybe go right up front and give Roman Salutes to hoest so he knows I am down with the 14 words hahaha.

MAYBE there will be ANTIFA protesting the show like antifa protested marduk recently at some of their US shows because marduk Is Interested in Semi Fascist A E S T H E T I C S.  and they were never photographed with a svastica on their chest hahaha. thats more than enough to get you protested by jooish antifa.

at their best, taake is much less boring than marduk. marduk has like 1 classic song. taake has several and they are much more creative and brilliant than marduk’s 1 classic song (“christraping black metal” which just relies on 2 very catchy riffs.) taake has riffs that are very catchy, but still somewhat “weird”, and they piece 1400 riffs catchy but weird riffs together in a way that does not sound like riff salad masturbation like nile hahahaha. he has a good songwriting sense and a great production sense as well. but again all this kinda declined after the first 3 albums. also he comes from the same town as b00rtzum hahahaha. also he wears super grim corpse paint and convincingly pulls off grim and hate-filled.  also he waves a large norwegian flag sometimes, which suggests sympathies to Nationalism. that or he supports the marxist zionist ZOG traitors who runs norway now hahahaha and is a total NEOCOHEN.

pretty sure he is a drunk tho and might do other drugs. pretty degen.

i am cautiously optimistic it will be a fun show even if i only know 1 or 2 songs. he might even have a new album out now, who knows.

ok i guess he had a us tour in 2016 but did not play near me so i didnt miss anything.

ok, shining is also doing a us tour with REVENGE. not big on shining but i think REVENGE would be an awesome live show. and i would prob stay for shining hahaha even though they are totally degenerate and ridiculous.

sheeeeeeit that show is coming to town but in the worst possible venue, a venue i will avoid for being in a black ghetto and just the trashiest place in the trashiest neighborhood, where i have missed GOOD shows just because i didnt want to go to that shitty shitty club that even by Metal standards is ultra degenerate. i would go if someone else were driving and i cannot really arrange that. well shit maybe i could park in the nearest hwite neighboorhood and get an uber from there and back hahahahaha.

oh shit i dont have a smartphone so i cant get an uber hahahaha.

i mean this place is just no fun and a huge buzzkill anyway. and shining is degen AF, glorifying drugs and suicide. whereas revenge glorifies death, destruction, power, conquering, slaughtering, hellstorm, very very ultra masculine. but kinda degen because of their total nihilism and unfocused hate. lets just get drunk and hate everything. hate all humanity equally kind of misanthropy that has gone beyond mere despair.

i would prefer just to see revenge headlining in a smaller, nicer club.

and j. read is a BEAST of a drummer and basically i would just be going to see him in person doing his incredible stuff. and sometimes the guy from angel corpse plays with them, pete helmkamp, and he is a kewl dude. and probably less degen, more principled, less of a drunk hahaha. not sure if helmkamp is on this tour.

its not cool to be a drunk you guys. its worse than you ever imagined. stop fooking drinking. you are doing untold damage.

mar 24

bought the taake ticket. not tickets because i am going solo hahahaha. really dont have anyone i would like to go with. none of muh acquaintances would be remotely interested in spending 20 bucks to see a show they are not interested in. its really amazing all people dont go to Shows Solo. that they can find other people interested and who have the time available. even if i still associated with That Woman, i couldnt get her to go to this, and if i did, she would probably dump me for a tougher guy at the show, or hoest himself hahahaha.

well ya know i could very probably find some MJ among the metal people in the crowd or parking lot.

sweet might be able to buy 10 dollars of MJ in 2 months from now hahaha

ok adding to muh spreadhseet of BIG DATA ANALYTICS re sleep times. i have been marking when i go to BED, then best estimating when i actually FALL ASLEEP (ABOUT 45 minutes after I get into bed). it would only make SENSE to then mark when I wake up, and then use that to calculate an  average of how much sleep i am actually getting.

so i have started simply adding the wake up time, which on job days is 5 am. very consistent. on nonwork days it is maybe about 9:30 am.  so how does THAT affect the AVERAGE in other words? it looks like muh average now is 8.5 hours of sleep. i knew 7 wasnt enough. on Work Nights i am averaging about 7.5 hours. and then getting 10 to 11 hours on non work nights. so what does it all average out to??? probably about 8.5 to 9 hours. but a few more weeks of Big Data Analytics will help me get a better number. I always needed and sought out a lot of sleep. absolutely more than 8 hours.

dont know who is playing with taake. in UK he played with fen, who i have been meaning to check out, and with winterfylleth on the london show, who are very awesome and i would love if they did a us tour. been liking the UK Atmoblack in 2017 hahahaha. and Fen is right in that scene but havent listened to them. never heard anyone say anything bad about them. they are on muh list when i get bored with winterfylleth which will take a while hahaha. esp since i dont listen to music all the time like i did when i was young. have more important things to concern myself with. music is inherently decadent and soft ahahaha.  real people have to WORK to SURVIVE. you think the great men of history sat around and listened to music for hours each day? they maybe listened to a MINUTE of WAGNER and then went out and conquered the world. made white babies while listening to SKREWDRIVER. listening to music for HOURS every DAY is DEGENERATE and probably means you sm0ke MJ for HOURS every DAY as well.

the only thing you should be doing for HOURS EVERY DAY is WORKING HARD and WINNING.

also WORKING OUT and pumping iron would be acceptable. and spending time with your CHILDREN, helping them to become winners like you.

day off. went to grocery store. got gas. doing 2 loads of laundry. drinking coffee. playing cards. slept 10 hours and 20 minutes last night after taking 2 valiums and 2 benedryl incl 1 benedryl RIGHT before bed.

men and women can SOMETIMES be just friends….but also BE WARNED, that if your female just friend is at ALL YOUNG and ATTRACTIVE, be WARNED that one day just friends could turn into Unrequited Luv at the drop of a hat, and one day you will wake up with it dumped on you like a ton of bricks. prepare for the worst. and tell her that too. listen baby, im not in love with you NOW, but tomorrow i could wake up and be in total luv with you. yeah i know its stupid as fook. just prepare for the worst and i will let you know WHEN it happens so we can end this shit as painlessly as possible, or even better, you could actually try dating me hahahahaha. im better than a negro or an opioid addict. i have very good intentions and i mean you no harm hahahaha. i am just soft and lazy and boring and short hahaha. ive lost a lot of weight though and i luv children! hwyte children! im just terrible at being tough, persuading, leading, selling, making money, being successful, being a man!

there have ALWAYS been pickup artists and seduction gurus and there always will be, because there are two types of men in this world: those that struggle greatly to get any woman and are huge failures with women always, and those that don’t struggle that much and are basically Normies who get GF’s and wives and married and children etc.

guys who can get a gf and guys who cant. guys who know how to Be Around women, and guys who Don’t, and i wonder if those who Dont are simply hopeless, and this is a sign telling them they shouldnt breed. and this is where pickup artists and seduction community and theredpill and Game comes from. these HOPELESS CASES desperately trying to learn. but i dont think it CAN be learned. just accept you were born without What It Takes to Pull Women, and you will never pull women. ever. you were born that way and it cant be changed. the end. dont look at porn because its degenerate. you still can go to hookers, or try to do casual rels with trainwreck sluts on tinder or okcupid. just work on your career and try to make money. start your own business. support your race in ways other than having children of your own. start your own successful business and hire nothing but hwite men who really need a good break in their lives.  give money to weev and anglin hahahaha. dont glorify banging sluts but you could prob still do it privately. maybe be a foster parent to hwite kids only. dont be captain save a ho. don’t save hos, save CHILDREN.

heres whats apparent, when you average our all my sleep, i get an avg of over 8 hours a night. people need 7 to 9 hours. looks like i need closer to 9 hours. NO SURPRISE THERE, i just like seeing the Big Data Science Analytic Empirical Evidence bear that out. had a bit of a 30 minute powernap this afternoon which brought up muh average to about 8:37.

DONT SAVE A HO, SAVE CHILDREN.

Hoes cannot be saved, children sometimes can.

DONT BE A WHITE KNIGHT FOR SOME SLUT, BE A WHITE KNIGHT FOR SOME CHILDREN.

It’s not bad to be a white knight. its a very noble, natural hwite thing to do. it sucks that its got a negative connotation. but for the good reason that unrepentant sluts take advantage of it. so dont use it on them. use it on someone who will actually benefit, and one day be thankful for it: children. not your own of course because you will never have children of your own because that is too much for you to handle and you would be a horrible father hahahahahaha.

no those are negative thoughts. but what if they’re true? i think we concluded that its better to not even think TRUE negative thoughts. maybe if you are a normie, yes then you can handle it. but when you are a weirdo who has ruined your own life with constant negative thoughts, it’s best to not even think realistic, true negative thoughts. ITS BETTER TO DELUDE YOURSELF!!!!!!! literally! honestly! tbhfam!!

8 and a half mfin hours of sleep a night is my average hahaha. and i am not even super active!

this varies between 7 and 11 hours hahahaha depending if i have to get up early or not.

anyway i recommend doing this just to Get To Know your own body better. and especially if like most people, you “catch up” on sleep on your Days off. but you really shouldnt because sleeping in is for lazy losers who will never make something of themselves ahahahaha.

DONT SAVE A HO, SAVE A CHILD.

YOU CANT SAVE A HO. YOU CAN SAVE A CHILD.

hehehehehe. how do you like my nietzschean axioms. aphorisms.

ho = wh0re = slut = skank = thot = n>4 at age 24.

oh well. WHO AM I TO JUDGE. what the hell have i done with MY life. wasted it. just as bad as these THOTS. like them i have no dignity. at least they got some secsual satisfaction out of life hahahaha fooking negros and opioid poppers. tough guys in the trailer park. its not gay for them because straight women love getting pounded by tough guy dick. its as much fun for them as it is for men to pound an attractive woman. well maybe a little less because they get it so often so its not as “expensive” and SCARCE. but they still enjoy it and have more stimulation in the clitoris region and such. nerve endings etc. for men to experience that much pleasure they need to bang an 18 year old 8/10 or above hahahaha or pop some opioids.

i wonder if taake pops opioids since he’s just been rehashing his work post 2005 when he was….28 years old.  and his best work he did between the ages of 22 and 28 hehehehe. and now that he is 39 he is just gonna drink and opioid himself to death and do boring rehashes of his first 3 albums but never reach that level of inspiration hahahahaha. and be very hateful and hate everything and everyone hahahahaha. hey man what are you so hateful about. youve written 3 great albums, you’re a handsome norwegian man, you’re not fat, youve probably pulled some qt gurls, you get nocturno culto and attila to do guest vocals on your albums hahahaha.

wait he did a cover of a CURE song? now that is compelling! that was on an EP semi recently. after his banjo album. he used a banjo on one song and its all anyone can talk about.

anyway. im not the biggest taake fan but this will probably make me a bigger taake fan. i wish it were a band i was more into at the moment, like winterfylleth or saor or iron maiden or…..mgla is awesome and i would totally see them, they did a US tour but no show in the area. if i were a real fan i would have traveled like serious fans do. drive 500 miles to go to a SHOW is what REAL fans do. so im not a real fan. OH WELL. i dont like metal CROWDS anyway. fookin stupid degenerates who are pissing away their whiteness on being drunken and st0ned idiots who care more about degen music than by being winners in life. reminds me of myself. except i was never as TOUGH as the avg metal guy which was at least enough to get them laid with dirty sluts once in a while.  and to not be MEEK and WEAK and anxious, but to be TOUGH and MANLY.

MEEK. TIMID. DONT BE THESE THINGS. BE TOUGH.

yeah i was always MEEK and TIMID. ever since i was a young child. i didnt think it would be such a bad thing. im butthurt it WAS  SUCH a bad thing, since there are people who are even more meek and timid who didnt do as bad at life. i just took an all in gamble at some point without really knowing it, and lost it all hahahaha.

 

JUST SAY THE WORD HUHWHYTE

mar 19

wazzzup world hahahahaha

sunday morning today as well, just drinking coffee and farting and reading new blog post and watching rare history channel program on WW2.

  1. actual historical content on the HISTORY channel is so rare. you are lucky to see one program a week.
  2. naturally its very by the book shit of hitler and germany being monsters who need to be wiped off the face of the earth by the valiant allies.

not denying the bravery and courage and toughness of the allied soldiers. just that we were jooed into the war. jooed by literal joos and cowards into fighting against our german brothers. never should have happened.

did hitler really want to violently conquer all of france? i have to wonder if this is just another one of those joo lies. the idea of lebensraum did not mean he wanted to conquer all of europe by force. or did he. am i being to nice to AH.

yeah well it probably would have been a good thing if he had. introduced race conscious NS to all of europe. i do bet he would have allowed European Ethnic IDentity to be encouraged, like yeah you’re still FRENCH and youre still DANISH and youre still POLISH and youre still ENGLISH. i guarantee he wouldnt have tried to make everybody “german.” prob would have been flexible in allowing each nation to develop whatever kind of fascism worked best for its people. he wasnt trying to make some kind of pan european euromutts. and violently subjugate other europeans.

i mean shit he was allies with italians and spaniards and croatians, you think he would have genocided POLES? he just wanted 10% of some polish land that was pretty inhabited by germans anyway. i think they could have worked something out. or were poles actually the assholes who started ww2. yeah wel if they were i still blame the joos who were lousy in poland just like they were in russia. where did these people COME FROM. khazaria of courshe hahahaha. which was closer to poland and russia than to germany for example.

was winston churchill an ALCOHOLIC???? AH sure wasnt hahahaha. also FDR was a marxist j00 who was so crippled that his even more communist jooish lesbian WIFE was essentially president for 8 years.

i will single handedly change the current course of history and stop our hwyte women from being stupid racemixing sluts!!!!! and make them GOOD again! i will rise to that challenge and CHANGE THE WORLD!!!!!

this is the Talk Of A Champion that you are supposed to replace negative thoughts with, hehehehe.

take negative thoughts and say NO!!! NO!!! YOU SHALL NOT PASS!!!! to them, and REPLACE them with POSITIVE thoughts of how you will WIN like a CHAMPION. HAIL VICTORY!!!!!!!

welp maybe i wont single handedly change the course of history, but i can certainly change one person. even if that one person is “only” myself. shit that would make all the difference in the world.

dont waste time trying to BE a womans father figure. THATS HER FATHERS JOB. and if her father didnt do HIS job, dont sacrifice yourself to clean up HIS mess. even if the gurl is not a huge whore hahaha. she will just find other ways to break your heart and be a huge disappointment.

better to not throw time and energy into a bad investment, and find a good investment, and find a woman you can have your own children with, and YOU can be a good father.

terrible few days for bitcoin, bad week for bitcoin, really a bad MONTH for btcoin hahaha. i mean its gone down 200 dollars just in the past 4 days or so. terrible.

ok. took huge dump, trimmed beard for weekly sunday #2 length beard. i guess #1 length would be The Don Johnson hahahahaha.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/no-fault-divorce-wife-leaves-husband-for-some-black-guy-media-praises-him-for-being-the-perfect-cuckold/92868

guy is a great father to his son but is a terrible cuck who lays down for his bitch ex who left him for a black guy.

if he’s such a great guy, YOU SHOULDNT HAVE LEFT HIM, MUDSHARK SWINE. she left him because he was WEAK and SOFT AND because she didnt have a father to slap some sense into her saying, whats WRONG with you? this guy is perfect and a great husband and father! DONT LEAVE HIM!!! EVER!!!! ya dumb broad!!!!

Sad!

although its not the paxil/prozac/AD’s that do it, i take AD’s and I fully woke and Luv My RACE.

theres this meme that AD’s make you a sociopath, AD’s make you a cuck, i want to rebut that. I still have sympathy for other people and though i am kinda a cuck, i would NEVER do what this guy is doing, i would SHAME my shameful x for being a shameful MUDSHARK. Mudsharks REALLY trigger the FOOK out of me. that woman hahahaha. i cant believe she was technically a MUDSHARK. that should be enough to turn me OFF of her, but it just made shit MORE painful, harder to deal with, longer to get over. this is what happens when girls dont have fathers. Sad!

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/i-have-a-chance-to-influence-a-young-mudshark/92888

this guy describes a young mudshark from a decent family, good father, but is STILL an unrepentant mudshark. will be watching this thread for replies. maybe some will accuse him of being a joo planting a bullshit story thats too good to be true, NO decent hwyte gurl with a good father would EVER be a mudshark, ALL mudsharks are disgusting fat slobs. but i know this is not true. this is the real tragedy of mudsharkery, is watching a young girl BECOME a mudshark, to first cross over that line from good to ruined. Sad!

my theory is the father is a successful but swpl liberal middle class guy who is so nonracist that he doesnt care if his daughter fooks blacks, esp if they are not super thuggish. light skinned blacks who go to college and have no felonies.

i just cant understand whites who WOULDNT care about their DAUGHTER dating nonwhites. thats where the rubber meets the road. thats where people who don’t think they are racist discover that they are indeed a little bit racist.  and they dont mind it, beucase they’re not gonna cave on their daughter fooking nonwhites.

the SAD thing is, many hwytes WOULD cave on this, and would STILL be totally nonracist here. im so nonracists i REALLY DONT CARE about my daughter fooking nonwhites, and as proof, she’s already fooked 4 by age 22 and brought them home and they were all gud bois who dindu nuffin!

if the idea of your DAUGHTER fooking nonwhites doesnt make your SKIN CRAWL……i just dont know what to say to you.

i dont know about women. i WISH the idea of race mixing made THEIR skin crawl too…..but it just doesnt/ manage expectations. welp, turns out some MEN are just as cucked.  many MEN just dont care about race mixing either. sad! disgusting! unmanly!

again, i dont EXPECT women to know better. MEN, i DO.

so thats probably whats going on here, and shows you dont have to be white trash to be a mudshark slut.

really. honestly. i guess i’ll never understand these nonracists. you mean you JUST DONT CARE. have you NEVER got your heart broken by a woman and then that woman went on to fook blacks and browns and you didnt feel just a little bit angered by that? you REALLY dont care if your GF has been with nonwhites before you or after you? No they really dont. i guess i really cant reach these people. and i sure as fook can’t understand them.  WOW. JUST WOW. You really DONT care, do you. your gf has fooked blacks and you dont care. your daughter is fooking blacks and you dont care. WOW. you really dont care. well i guess you showed me! just how nonracist you are! feels good doesnt it!

i guess there are two types of peopel in the world, racist and nonracist, and never the twain shall meet. i am pretty happy being a racist. i mean i would rather be a racist than a nonracist!!!!!

and the dead giveaway is, do you CARE about your daughter, or your GF, fooking nonwhites. or yourself for that matter. do you really have NO PREFERENCE when it comes to the race of who you date.

some people SAY they have no preference but NEVER ACTUALLY date nonwhites. thats probably ok hahaha.

some people SAY they have no preference and MAINLY date whites….but occasionally date a nonwhite. not good. NOT EVEN ONCE. then what? did you learn something? did you develop a preference? i should hope so.

heh. i hope you never fall in LUV with someone who breaks your HEART AND does some mudsharking which ALSO breaks your heart too.

but the good thing is that it reduced my tolerance for race mixing degeneracy to absolutely zero.

i’m not even sure its inherently JOOISH, although it’s obvious why the joos exploit it. but it IS inherently degenerate in the most basic way. it’s just fooked up. entirely.

you dont have to be explicitly racist! just never fook a black! god damn! is that SO HARD??!?!?!?!??!!

you could even SAY you dont have any dating preferences! just don’t date a black! is that SO HARD?!?!?!?!?!?!

apparently, hahahahahahahaha.

i  have met maybe 2 black women that were attractive enough to bang, and i’m glad i didn’t hahahaha.

i’ve met many khazar jooesses who were attractive enough to bang. well, when i was young i did. but i didnt bang them. i probably would have if i had any idea how to talk to women. but i didnt. but i’m glad i only race mixed with jooesses only a TINY bit and not a LOT. better to be CELIBATE than to race mix.

https://heathenharvest.org/2016/01/02/outcast-by-choice-an-interview-with-mikko-aspa/

have not read this one yet hahahaha

http://archive.is/6Bmu7

not bad!

but he has to know nicole 12 is degenerate. his past “pornographic” work is degenerate. i think he’s stepped away from this, has done less of them as time goes on, and more of Positive stuff like Vapaudenristi, but i still want him to SAY IT, say that yes i am making a moral judgment here, molesting children is wrong and degenerate, there’s a gray area where girls start to become women and start to become attractive that is probably younger than the legal age of consent, but we should still not “sexualize” them, and in general all pornography is degenerate, and race is real, and nationalism is good. this is what i want him to say rather than mental masturbation about “anti-anthropocentrism” hahahaha. just keep going in the direction of Ethno nationalism, and in saying mean things about k1kes hahaha.

i mean there’s NO DEBATE to be had on nicole 12 buddy. it’s not about studying a conditioned reaction like a “drooling dog.” i dunno. i think he should have just wrote a book about it because i just dont understand what he was trying to say with it. that everything is conditioned? that you can be conditioned into thinking pre-pubescent children are SECSY???? it just seems kinda JOOISH to try to say there’s nuances where there are none. yeah i KNOW he’s coming from the whole power electronics aesthetic, which has the same issues of jooish degeneracy.

i dunno. i guess i just want him to be something he’s probably not, and im gonna be disappointed with him in a few years hahaha. or maybe not! i mean over the past 4 or 5 years, he’s been doing more of the good things and less of the bad things!

like he needs to go into more specific detail about this “dynamic nationalism” and how he does NOT want a return to the past. how dynamic are we talking here? does race matter or not? i know he appreciates honesty but he talks too much like a damn………jooish academic artist???? thats just mean of me to say hahahaha.

no i think he’s just smart and autistic and this is the way he talks, he doesnt MEAN to sound jooish. he’ll be allright if he keeps hanging out with racist skinheads talking real talk hahahaha. also if he met a decent woman and had some children. i dont think he MEANS to sound so confusing, he’s not doing that on PURPOSE like the joos do.

he’ll probably be all right. i just dont want him to slip back into degeneracy and then make some jooish excuse about it when i KNOW he’s smarter than that! i dont want him to pull some FEDORA shit.

at any rate, he’s not really alt right and prob wont ever be as much as i would like him to be.

but would he let his daughter race mix? would he say NONE OF MY BUSINESS if muh gf race mixed before? hehehe i really dont think he would. i hope he wouldnt.

also i like some of the anti-individualist stuff he says in the interview. that these individualists are even more Conformist than normie Sheeple. basically suggesting that Individualism is Atomizing. Well….inasmuch as you can “understand” ANYTHING this guys says. I think he’s on the level, but this is why I want to TALK to him and get straight answers to straight questions. Would you let your daughter race mix? does race mean anything to you? do you care if Finns are wiped off the face of the earth? what do you think about Da JQ? Tell me what you really think about Da J’s. It’s ok m8, I dont like them either. I hope you dont like them hahahaha. what the FOOK kind of “discussion” do you think could POSSIBLY be had about nicole 12? its ok to say you have matured since that and maybe wouldnt do that again and maybe weren’t making the best statement with. molesting 12 year old girls is ALWAYS wrong and only a JOO would try to equivocate on that and it’s ok to say that. only a joo would WANT to have a discussion about the nuances behind wanting to Abuse Children.

which is totally not the same as saying, hmm that 17 year old gurl looks fairly attractive, and I would sign up to marry her when she turns 18.

just set up an email list for news on vapaudenristi and make english trans of the lyrics available so we know what you are talking about.

but if you listen to the albums of an RAC band like No Remorse and DONT say, OMG, these deplorable reprehensible nazi racist bigots! and instead say, hay I LIKE this, then you are kinda making a statement right there, aren’t you. Like how I realized that you can’t be a VVN Sympathizer without actually being a full-blown VVN and just not realizing it yet.

anyway me talking about That Man is even less interesting than me talking about Women or That Woman hahahahaha. if you want to have straightforward conversations about 1433, then there are a couple places you can go. like daily stormer. who i fully support. as of march 2017 hahahahaha. if andre turns out to be a joo i will cry mantears of grief and then move on somehow hahahaha. i really dont think he is though. also dont think he would marry a jooess.

however i wonder if k1ke enoch has divorced his joowife yet hahahaha. i aint mad at him. the shit is complicated. its still not good to have a joowife tho. but he is entitled to having a personal life. but none of us should be race mixing. he’s smart enough to know this is a problem. also its naive to do big things and say “im not a leader”. you have become KIND of a leader whether you like it or not, when you do big leaderlike things……and openly ask for dnations. i dunno. i think he learned something from all this. if anything i am more butthurt about sven banning people wantonly from the forums for weak reasons. and i still really like the hihg svenergy vidyas.  and there are still plenty of people on DS that crap on TRS for being j00 luvers. i still like em both, but i just had to take a break from TRS for a few weeks. to allow myself to not be so emotional about it.

NO ONE IS SAYING ITS OKAY TO HAVE A JOOWIFE. some of us just arent willing to believe it makes TRS traitors and shills and spies and plants and feds and mossad and controlled opposition and JFK MKII ULTRA hahahaha. it was just a guy in joo york and joo jersey who married a half-jooess before he was j00 pilled. it can happen. its not the end of the world unless they have joo children. AND THEY DONT!!!!!!!

basically how hard is it for mikko to just talk about HWYTES. just say the word. hwytes. europeans. its ok. its not a bad word. you can do it. say it. luv it. be it. huhwhyte. its a beautiful thing, its ok to FOOKING LUV being huhwhyte.

shit ive been saying it 14330000000000000 times a day for years.  no need to never say it once in years!!!!!!!!!! now THATS a little weird!

good luck finding a woman who says she prefers to date hwytes. just be lucky to find one who’s never “dated” a nonwhite YET. keeping the race pure is YOUR job. either the woman feels some kind of racial preference deep down inside or she doesnt, which will make your job of protecting the race and finding a woman who hasnt dated a nonwhite yet a little bit easier, if she’s not actively inviting them in like the sluts at the castle anthrax with a purpa drank shaped beacon.

HAIL VICTORY! THIS TIME THE WORLD! 14 WORDS!

but yeah. i just think its weird that not more hwytes are as anti-race mixing as i am. they just DONT CARE. or, worse, they say it’s AOK! no problem! i wouldnt care if i had mixed race kids!

that just seems weird and disturbing and unnatural to me. why WOULDNT you care? i want to find a woman who, on some unconscious level at least, CARES about this! and hang out with other men who explicitly care about this! become part of a mannerbund!

GLR prohibited drunkenness at ANP meetings. I think hahahaha.

andrew zimmern is pretty jooey but i also think he’s a good guy and i wouldn’t be against not deporting him hahahaha. but what is he teaching his kids at home? is his wife a joo? ideally she would be a latinx or something. why should we sacrifice a hwyte woman to make zimmern less jooish.

what about natives. injuns. there are rural communities where many of the hwytes are 10% injun. man i dunno hahahahaha. i figure if you are 13% or less nonwhite, then welcome to club hwyte. the hwyte race.  thats basically one fully nonwhite great grandparent at max.

it would be ironic if some nonwhite young woman was really really really really nice to me, and fell in luv with me, and wanted to be LOYAL to me and have muh babies. i mean that’s nothing to sneeze at when a woman gives you that loyalty. but i want that from a HWYTE woman, not a nonwhyte woman. go give that to a man of your own race. so what if they are shitty. the women of MY race are shitty. but i’d rather have no woman than a good woman of another race.

because i might be tempted! I have NO doubt that there ARE good women of other races. and being in that situation would probably be TEMPTING. oh ive been so lonely for so long, how can  REJECT this WONDERFUL woman who LUVS me just because she is not hwyte? come on. best not to BE in that situation to begin with.

GLR’s “HWYTE POWER” might be the better book for the beginner to GLR to read. i am kinda getting bored with TTTW hehehehe 65% of the way through.

https://archive.org/details/WhitePower_189

READ IT. BELIEVE IT. LIVE IT.

from the first page, we can see that stuff in the US is HEAVILY jooed as far back as 1965.

ever since i was a young child, one of muh favorite movies was “the blues brothers”, which i have seen more times than i can remember. at first i was happy because it was one of the few R rated movies i was allowed to watch and had a few filthy f-bombs. overall it’s still a well written and constructed movie, stands the test of time, although does seem a little dated, but in a good way, shows the skills of john landis, who i’m not sure is J or hwyte, and of the players, not least of all the genuine comedy skills of albanian belushi and canadian ackroyd. also i believe john belushi was moreso a hwyte albanian than a turkish mud albanian. his brother jim looks basically hwyte while john was a bit more swarthy.

belushi was a drug doing degen like chris farley, but like farley, he was genuinely funny.

and yeah MY POINT and I DO have one, is I can look back now with new eyes and see the jooification of even this Quaint Old Movie. The blues brothers were antiracist from the beginning, hanging out with tons of blacks and IDOLIZING black musicians.

MY POINT is this was one of my first exposures to NEO NATZEEZ, with the Illinois Nazis in the movie with….John Daniels? John Glover? the Laugh In Guy, as their leader. Even from a young age I was impressed by the impressive speech he made: “white men, white men, the svastica is calling YOU. the Joo is using the Black as muscle against YOU. so what are you gonna do about it, whitey? just sit there and take it? no! you will join us, the national socialist hwyte people’s party.” which i recently learned was actually the original name of GLR’s ANP. and i am sure the character was based heavily on GLR hehehehe.

i didn’t understand why there was SUCH an angry crowd against the nazis. was what he was saying so bad? why did the blues brothers HATE the illinois nazis? then we see that the fuhrer’s second hand man has been secretly in gay luv with him. there is also a scene where we see him blatantly smoking a corncob pipe, which has got to be a reference to GLR.

also look at the country rednecks in the country bar and the way they and Country Bob and the Good Old Boys are portrayed as Uncool Rednecks.

It’s all still pretty funny and I can never CONDEMN the movie, and I will never not want to watch it while cuddling with a Nice Hwyte Hwaifu…..but I will be sure to HWYTESPLAIN the parts of the movie is not so nice to hwytes.

plus i generally like the black music too: blues, old time rock and roll, etc. the band is SOLID. and you can’t crap on a classic performer like ray charles. well other than to say he was probably a horrible person who was a heron addict and beat his wife and cheated on his wife and was prob a horrible father hahahaha. some good songs tho! and that makes it all ok!

so yeah, still a good movie, but it has a lot of questionable stuff in there that you dont notice when you are young.

no i dont think seeing it 60000000 times since a young age really HARMED me. it still give me good feels of nostalgia of being A Young Child. I just want the Notsees to be portrayed more sympathetically hahahahaha. more stuff about blacks and joos bad nooz hahahahaha.

mar 20

it is easy to survive the low stress workday thank god, but i hate not being a TOUGH as a WOMAN, to handle a stressful job 60 hours a week. im surpirsed MORE peopel dont abuse drugs and alcohol. well because they would probably LOSE THEIR JOBS if they did. you cant just half ass your job, because then you lose your job.

but i was so tired upon coming home i immediately laid down, watched law and order, and took a bit of a powernap. maybe it was because i took a benedryl last nite.

normal people cant take a powernap after their job. they have to drink gallons of coffee and 10 monster energy dranks to get thru their busy 10 hours a day, then come home and crash but you cant sleep because your mind is reeling from the busy day but you need to sleep but cant so you have to take some kind of drugs to slow you down. either sleeping pills or alcohol is a very popular choice hahaha. MJ would not hurt either haha.

and i went to bed at a decent hour and drank a lot of coffee while i was there!

i do a decent job and act pretty normie while i am there. but i hate that at the end of the day, i am still not as TOUGH as a 22 year old GURL. very emasculating. its GOOD to feel TOUGH. its BAD to feel WEAK and SOFT.

i was thinking of “erotic fiction” which is kinda pornographic but not AS degenerate because you arent using and destroying actual live gurls in order to produce it. other than maybe perverting the mind of the person writing (and of course reading) it.  but its not a machine that destroys heaps of young women. so yes i think it is less degen than actual porno. still not ok though. MIGHT be useful to wean off a porno addict. thats a big maybe though.

anyway i dont really care. im not tempted to look at porno. i AM tempted to do MJ all the time. just think about it all the time like a gurl thinking of her loverboi and the day he can get out of prison and they can finally be togther again.

damn have this god damn ice cream and ate too much of it. thankfully this is not a regular thing. it is caramel ice cream which i really like. ate too much of it. is this “emotional eating” because i was feeling weak and soft and pvssy and weak? eating too much ice cream certainly doesnt HELP those things! thankfully i dont often buy or eat ice cream. so its not like im gonna eat the whole container in 1 day then run out and buy another. fook no.

my good idea for the day was to get a thick black marker and draw a huge Hakenkreuz on your chest like the tat sported by weev or american history x. do this before you bang a broad. that way she can see the beliefs of the man who is drilling her, and it is bound to have an effect on them, subconsciously at the very least. looking down at the man pounding you and see the symbol of the ebil natzees. wow. maybe it would make the woman less likely to be a race traitor in the future. i cant see any downside to it. JUST DO IT. i would seriously luv to do this myself. chip away at her idea of herself as a nonracist. well if you were such a nonracist, then you wouldnt be loving getting fooked hard by a natzee with a svastica on his chest staring right at you!

well, i guess this could backfire and she could say, welp now i HAVE to run out and fook a negro ASAP to prove im not a natzee.

then she would have done that at some point ANYWAY, you’re just speeding up the inevitable and can NEXT her quicker and save more of your valuable time for a woman who is worth your time.

fooking DO this. draw a svastica on your chest with a black marker and bang the woman. make sure she is facing you hahahahahahaha.

tom brady goes to bed at 8:30 pm because he is serious about his sleep. not that i idolize a feetsball sportsball negroball j00ball player, but he seems like a healthy goy. so what time does he get up in the morning? dont know. probably about 5 am.  that is when i get up. alarm rings at 5 am, i sip coffee till 5:30 and watch the news, see how negros shot each other, get the weather and traffic. the time passes very quickly. at 530 i get out of bed, continue drinking coffee, take a shower, get ready.

yeah you should start with GLR’s hwyte power book. it is written in a very weaponized style, to shake you up, from the very first page, for the next…30 pages or so. it has not stopped shaking me on every page and i am on page 23 now. just comes out with all guns blazing. describes the problem explicitly: disgusting degeneracy. describes the SPIRITUAL SYPHILIS which afflicts hwyte youth and how religion wont work on them. he hasn’t talked so much about the JQ yet, but I am 1433000000000% sure he will soon.

it is easy to imagine him reading this in the form of a powerful passionate speech. you could go around reading passages to people like speeches.

https://archive.org/details/WhitePower_189

READ THIS LIFE CHANGING BOOK NOW, IT WILL TURN YOU INTO A WINNER.

i have never read something written in the 1960s that reads like it was written TODAY. RIGHT NOW.

HAIL GLR! HAIL VICTORY!!!!!

hehehe. that feel that if someone asks you who would you want to meet of anyone who lived in history and you can’t even tell them. you can’t say AH. you can’t say GLR. people don’t know who GLR is but you can’t explain who he was without making you look like a psycho for wanting to meet him. i guess you could LIE and say He was a Political Activist in the 1960s. He was anti-Communist like Joe McCarthy!

why the hell would you want to meet joe mccarthy?

lemme google this rockwell guy- american NATZEE PARTY??!?!?!?!?!?!?! he’s as bad as HITLER! he has a SVASTICA on his arm!!!!!!!!!

believe me. i took AP US history in high school and they never mentioned rockwell. i never heard of him until a few years ago.

yeah they mentioned mccarthy. but by that time i think i was getting tired of skool. i recall AP history involved a ton of reading and i barely remembered any of that stuff.

i was getting sick of school and homework and reading stuff that wasnt important to me; i was starting to get interested in MJ and alcohol; i didn’t realize the importance of history like this.

shit i took AP european history and obviously SHOULD have enjoyed it, reading an in depth history of hwyte people. I started out enjoying it but a few months into it, i was like this is too much reading. i dont remember any of this stuff. what does all this matter.  didnt understand how the history of the joos mattered, the turks and ottomans and muslims, common law and all that. shit i still dont hahahaha. it was a lot to bite off and hard for a 15 year old to put into perspective. maybe if you explained to me, these joos are the reason gurls today are such stupid sluts hahahaha. and then traced THAT back to communism. and kinda worked backwards from the present, stuff that mattered to me at the time. which admittedly most of it was stupid and degenerate.

nonetheless the average kid in my high school did JUST FINE in life, so i was/am just an OUTLIER. a BAD SEED. I would have been a WEIRD CASE ANYWHERE I went to school. but i feel that in the “right kind” of “radical” high school i might have done better. like homeschool, or artsy fartsy high school, or STEM high school, or Manufactuing Machining Shop High School. really, any one of them would have been a GAMBLE.

would I have been less Angry and Nihilistic if I had been successful with Gurls from a young age? yeah probably hahahaha tbh. but MOST boys ARENT successful with gurls when they are 16, and they have to watch all the gurls their being sluts with older scumbag guys.

i bet i would have liked reading GLR at age 16 just for the SHEER EDGINESS of reading a NAZI. i know I was interested in the evil natzis, hitler, the evil svastica, because i was interested in The Bad Guys. Anything Evil or bad. serial killers. varg vikernes killing guys and burning churches.

pretty ironic that varg turned out to be a really GOOD guy who I would be sticking with 20 years later, an similar thing with AH and the natzees – they weren’t REALLY the bad guys. so even though I’ve outgrown my edginess and interest in Bad Guys, I’m more interested in these Good Guys than ever before.

I probably would have found mein kampf to not be a fun read, but I bet I would have liked GLR. I have even worse ADD now and his writing is very to the point and not a problem for people with the attention span of a fly. like me.

a book like “hwyte power” could have HELPED me at age 16, but I didnt really read ANYTHING back then. i did all my reading for school, i did ENOUGH stupid READING.  i never developed a LOVE OF READING like ALL Smart and Successful people do. Sad!

READ THIS BOOK RIGHT NOW. BUY IT and read it over and over again. give it to all young men you know. buy cases of it and go to the nearest middle school and give it to all the white boys. maybe even the hwyte girls too.

mar 21

hwyte power. this shit is real. saw something on local tv news of an ALT RIGHT WHITE SUPREMACIST NEO NAZI flyer at a place, the police are trying to figure out who put these EVIL NAZI FLYERS up. the photo was very nonthreatening. it just talked about how white population percentage has gone way down and gave links to two very awesome websites and contained the words alt right.

but the way the media reports on it, they are clearly trying to frame it so that the FIRST THING ANYBODY THINKS OF when they hear the words alt right is “EVIL NATZEE.” alt right? whats that mean? oh. even racist natzis who want to oven jooz and lynch blacks and genocide nonwhites.

well are they wrong? hahahaha.

yes because we dont advocate violence or genocide. like GLR we are willing to pay BILLIONS of dollars to Send These People Back. wouldnt you pay TRILLIONS of dollars in taxes for a Nice Hwyte Country? Transport the people back to africa, asia, middle easy, and give them each fookin 100k USD to make a new life with. why the hell not.

i hope the police are not looking very hard for these ebil natzees. as GLR said, the local police are not our enemy. they probably sympathize with us. i should be trying to JOIN this local alt right group. but they would prob say nope youre too big of a loser to join us, we WILL take your money though.

YOURE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR US, BUT WE WILL TAKE YOUR MONEY hahahahaha.

the real problem is me wanting to give money to a group that wouldnt have me as a member. the real problem is me not being good enough to join the groups  want to be a member of!

i mean i have come to the acceptance that i am not high quality enough to represent The Movement, but I want to SUPPORT and HELP the movement, possib by giving money. yeah i guess it does suck to think, well, YOU are not good enough, but your damn MONEY is. thank me for my money and give me a roman salute at least hahahahaha. LET ME STUFF ENVELOPES AT LEAST hahahahahaha.

well we dont stuff envelopes any more. thats VVN 1.0. there will be no flat earth renegade radio flyers hahaha.

yeah small business cards leading to daily stormer or TRS, that’s fine.

i mean thats basically a hate crime goy. let’s try to find the hateful natzees who left these tiny cards with a website on them. literally.

maybe i will be ARRESTED if i wear muh DAILY STORMER t shirt in public hahahaha. what a THOUGHT CRIMINAL!!!!!!

NEW WEEV VIDYA

its a big deal when he posts a 10 minute video from his toilet hahaha.  did he really have to call out richard spencer as a trust fund baby in the description. i’ll allow it as long as it doesnt turn into a high investment thing, but i think spencer is tougher than weev thinks he is. weev is prob tougher than spencer is though. well, nothing probably about it. he almost certainly is.

weev also had a good recent interiew with cantwell

i know i watched it and linked it but should watch it and link it again

weev should do vidyas every DAY

and yes you should send him dnations I DO hahahahahahahahah

and yes he certainly does NEED them more than spencer

went to bed early yesterday but took like 90 minutes to fall asleep instead of usual 45 hehehe.

i guess weev has a GF nao. well good for him, im sure she’s hwyte. i just didnt think i would see him settle down with a woman bc he is an alpha male and has hsi choice of women. well maybe he has made his choice now! obviously he SHOULD choose a wife and start having children. shit a man of his stature needs SEVERAL wives producing children SIMULTANEOUS so that he can eventually have 100, 1000 children.

create a new human life ERRY DAY!!!!

i would prob be okay with dating a single mom where her kid was weev’s baby hahahahaha.

so hypothetically let’s say weev responded to one of my semi-bantzy comments with possibly some own bantz of his own, and then i bantzed him back saying, yeah im already donating to you hahahahahaha. well WEEV I am only giving you like 20 dollars a year, maybe  WEEV is saying he is too good for my money. or he’s calling me a joo for giving him an OFFENSIVELY SMALL donation. that would be hilarious if weev bitched about that just like fatherland jim did when i gave him a TEENY WEENY donation.

although i would prefer weev’s approval because I respect and admire him , hahahaha.

but yeah not much we can do if the people we want NOT to reject us, reject us. wouldnt be the first time, wont be the last time. it sucks though. but its not like weev can BAN me from watching his videos and listening to his stuff. he can make me feel like an idiot for donating to him, since NOBODY is Cucky enough to Donate to the hand that Bites Who Feeds It!!!!

so i would just donate more to the daily stormer until something happened where they complained about me donating, hahaha.

oh well.at least i am putting myself out there, making moves, learning things. well, at least doing things. saying, i least i tried with so and so, and then they rejected me, the end.

im still scared to go back and see how people responded to my daily stormer post. still scared to see how george responded to my questions in his q&a vidyas. i have new evidence that he is a 1433 bad goy and i couldnt be happier. this is a great way to be, but i wont blow his cover. ideally i would like him to Come Out, but that’s his right to do that when he wants.

i just dont want people i admire to scorn and reject me hahaha. i want to be part of their club. but im not cool enough. im not tough enough. im not hardcore enough. i dont give enough money. im not interesting enough. i dont work hard enough etc etc etc always SOMETHING. FOOK it. FOOK it. no good deed goes unpunished.

i dont care, everyone i like can reject me, its not gonna kill me. i can always find another pro white thing to donate to. hey i can always give money to stormfront hahahaha. or vnn. or counter currents hahahaha. dr greg is nice enough to write me a THANK YOU NOTE for a tiny donation! HA!

bbbbut these are all old men in version 1.0 who are lonely and bitter and dont have wives or children because they were born too early! they were born during the dark ages when you were Too Weird To Mate if you advocated for hwytes.

Well I too lost my YOUTH to the joos. now all i can do is secretly donate tiny amounts of money to people who dont want it hahahahaha. and sm0ke weeeeeeed secretly. never be tough enough for a 28k a year job, or hwyte wife or children. damn. so what the hell do i look forward to? the fact that my RACE, with miniscule and unwatned help from ME, is finally turning the tide. that the sleeping goy finally woke up.

i am jumping to conclusions, nobody has said stop donating to me, weev hasn’t rejected me, he was just having ONE playful BANTZ, this is what men do many times a day. i wouldnt last a DAY in australia!!!! and probably they do this in russia and ukraine too, where weev is now. call each other cyka blyat all day. its a TERM OF ENDEARMENT!

i always forget this. i cant handle the bantz with real MEN!

i guess i can, it just takes longer and i have less tolerance for it hahaha.

i guess the MMPI is the most scientific personality test. it has 560 questions and measures 50 diff things, none of them good.

ok. chill out. take it easy. just say NO to negative thoughts. NO. STAHPPPP.  I will conquer negative thoughts and turn them OFF. I will be aware and Mindfull of the current year. I am watching “double indemnity” on tcm and  i hear this is a good movie, i should pay attention to it. i am playing .02/.04 poker when i usu like to play .01/.02.  i am charging mp3 player and have a new episode of fatherland on it which just came out today.

double indemnity. insurance scam. were insurance companies as jooish scams in 1938 as they are now? the idea is that they minimize risk for people so that entrepreneurs can take risks, start businesses, create jobs, make money, GDP Growth. not sure it happens this way. not sure gdp growth is an always good thing. who cares if you create jobs if they are part time walmart type jobs? or the jobs are so stressful you cant even handle them and snap like private pyle going postal? how does that improve your quality of life? because you’re not homeless on the streets sucking dick for a place to sleep indoors, or clean clothes, or a meal.

billy wilder was a joo, i do know that much, and “some like it hot” was pretty degen and jooish. and the stars of double indemnity are bad immoral and jooish, trying to get away with murder. but supposedly a classic movie. it seems pretty watchable. better with a waifu to cuddle of course hahahaha.