july 7 2014

ok son. today i go visit docker. prepare my arguments.

as i lay in bed last night, i got an epiphany: maybe i should ask him for MEDICAL MARIHUANA. holy sh1t. that would be ridiculous. absolutely ridiculous.

i mean, it can’t hurt to ASK, right?

he would probably say no…..but what if he didn’t? obviously MM is growing in popularity.

do you have to get that refilled like you do with regular prescriptions?

i KNOW you have to get a card from the state. could you or the docker just send in a little prescription pad thing saying “YES I APPROVE”?

was forced to shave my magnificent, majestic, confidence-building long beard. but i maintained a short level 2 beard all around for masculinity purposes. because i am such a nice sensitive guy, i need to have some kind of beard to prove i’m not gay. or weak.

“homophobia” is a stupid leftist / academic / media myth to slander / hate on whites and men, but my god i think some of the most truly “homophobic” people i’ve ever seen are women! not gonna say white women per se, but all women have contempt for effeminate men, kind of like how men have contempt (not hate! not violence!) for promiscuous women with loose moralz.

anyway that would be RIDICULOUS if docker approved me for MM, BUT I don’t think he would, AND I don’t think i’d have the ballz to ASK. but i should. i mean i am paying him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes dockerz are drug dealerz. little more than legal drug dealerz. pusherz.

i have no respect for dockers or nurzez. hehehehe. especially nurzez. little pill popping, methhead wh0res, thinking they are so compassionate and caring, as they destroy their own families with drugz and cheating hehehehe.

gotta get some hate on herre.

ok. go to the shoppe at… 1.15pm or 1pm; docker at 3.15pm. huge powerwalk later in the day.

if dockerz are little more than legal drug dealerz, nursez are little more than HOSPITAL H0REZ.

hehehehehe. fook u all!

but yeah it would be sweet to get MM.

but i would be happy with “merely” ZBX.

Zoloft, Buspar, Xanax. M. MM. ZBXMM.

ok. just got back from kohlz. spent around $100. 1 benjamin. yikes. thank god i can sort of afford this. i mean i did need new clothes. i got rid of perhaps more old shabby sh1tty neckbeard virgin loser clothes in volume, than volume new winner clothes i bought. so it is good to look like a winner rather than a loser.

2 nice button up short sleeve summer shirts; 1 nice polo shirt; 1 nice pair of khakis; kohls was real BAD with sales on pantz on july 7 2014; and also a fancy t-shirt.

anyway the sonoma pantz were like 27 bucks. the other pantz where buy one get one half off. all pantz were like 58 bucks. wow. so, 2 pairs would be…58 plus 29…. like 87 bucks. or like 43 bucks each. NO THANKS. i thought everything at kohls was supposed to be like 20 bucks always. fook you mr kohl.

if you get an rx filled/produced, and then you don’t like the price, do you HAVE to pay for it? will they send you to a collections agency or take you to court if you don’t want to pay?

prob wont have the ballz to ask docker for MM.

did i suggest that u simply deactivate your facebook for at least 6 months a year?

i would recommend keep it on during the summer and december, off during the rest of the year, def off during the chill of winter, but the 6 month schedule is up to you. maybe even 1 on, 1 off, etc. this is a great idea. will cut your time wasted on fb by half.

of course you can post a message before each break explaining why you are doing this, namely, fb is overrated and a time waster and everybody should cut their time wasted on it in half. you are still happy to talk to people at this phone number and that email. see you in a few months, SUCKERZ!!!

ok. back from docker. didn’t even take a good look at rx. i know i got paxil renewed for 5 months. couldn’t remember if he increased from 20 mg or not. don’t think so.

not real concerned about that, moreso wanted some sort of anxiety thing. well he gave me an rx for VALIUM which is good. no buspar. i really did not work my “now listen here doc, i want this drug and that drug and that drug” speech of “give me zoloft, buspar, AND xanax.” i mentioned and he mentioned buspar. but the ultimate rx is for valium, so, whatevs. i only wanted to take the benzo 3 days a week anyway so as not to get hooked.

hehehe. the old shave beard, buy clothes, see docker scheme, which means yer about to start work again. oy vey. it’s like going back to skool after summer vacation. BUT WORSE! but you do get paid. so.

never got valium before, this might be interesting.

hopefully not too expensive. i made sure to ask for generic at both the docker and the bharmacy. just dropped off at bharm, will return later today. generic low dose of valium cannot be TOO expensive!

it is amazing how reflexively one (I) can turn on the tv. wow. tv is anxiety and schizo inducing.


ideally calm classical or chanting music and not hateful, suicidal heavy metal hehehehe. that stuff will ruin yer life!

did not have the ballz to ask him about MM. i suppose i can try to get non-medical M from people at muh job, hahahaha.

or get it off s1lq r04d 2.0 hehehehe.

i think the trick to that is to take no more than one puff at a time. none of this passing it around and taking 10 puffs. just take 1 puff. by yourself. the end.

and make it a SMALL puff too, not a HUGE puff like you took back in the DAY. the DAY is not something you want to go BACK to.




friday feb 21 2014 7:30pm

well muh frandz, it finally happened, I got LAID OFF. knew it was coming. I really expected it to happen LAST week. the fact that I lasted THIS long proves that I am a BOSS at muh job. but they are looking to lay off EVERYBODY. I was hoping for it as past posts have proven. still have one week of work left. previous people they just kicked them out the door immediately. one week left. and today i also got off early and was able to come home and watch jeopardy for the first time in months. this is sweet. very happy. though we’ll see how happy i am after a month of joblessness.

good news then is that i WILL get hired back in a few months because i performed well. so guaranteed a job basically. just don’t know exactly WHEN.

IDEALLY would like to find a Chiller FT Job before then though, AND perhaps go back to my old crappy PT job maybe if I don’t like collecting Unemployment, hehehe.

hoping to show off muh new people skills in interviews and really shine up muh res very nicely.

or i can just go back to skool, get a masterz degree in brand ambassadorship hehehehe. internet technology marketing analysis systems. or go to TRADE SKOOL. welding, electrician.

so say something interesting already. this blog has got real boring but now I predict it will get better. again. so i can get back to Helping YOU.

However I was just starting to get USED to my job and it was becoming slightly less stressful, because I was getting real knowledge and confidence.  this is ESSENTIAL when you have to TALK TO PEOPLE ALL DAY, being nervous really hinders your ability to listen to them and Try To Solve Their Problems.

i also have a possible Gift From GOD regarding a SWEET FT Job I would luv to have, but not gonna JINX it, will say moar if I am rejected there. The odds are Not Great, but it could happen.

ok here’s a protip for ya: buy a bag of egg noodles at the store, and then add those to your cans of soup that you make to make your soups more noodly and Substantial. Warning: May Make You Grossly Obese. and sometimes too many noodles can overwhelm the soup. just put in like a handful and let the soup simmer for 10 minutes until the noodles get soft.

protip 2: watch The Cleveland Show, it’s actually pretty funny. i look forward to watching Cleveland Show and American Dad on Adult Swim every single day after getting out of muh grueling stressful job, to relax and take the edge off. King of the Hill too if I get home early. GREAT cartoon lineup on adult swim right now. prob won’t last long as they continue to do their insulting stoner bullsh1t like dr steve brule. john c reilly is degrading himself, he actually is a good actor.

heh you know you dislike your job when rather than make decent money at it, you choose to go home early at the expense of not getting paid, just because you want free time to neckbeard on the internet for a few more hours, and not get paid decent money.

it is also a not-so-subtle sign to the management that you do not like your job, hehehe.

next day, sat 2 22 14 1 pm. welp i drank a full nyquil dose and still could not sleep past 1220pm or so, which was pleasantly suprising. now making a fresh mix cd (must do at LEAST once every 2 months as a record of your musical life), chilling out.

drinking coffee and playing cards and will take a powerwalk and go to church and treat self to a Comfort Dinner, maybe “Chinese” food today.

yes when you get a day off, you thank the lord for the chance to sit around and do nothing. no homework, no chores, just sitting around neckbearding on the internet. no wife, no kids, no housework. well for a few solid hours at least. more tryhard f4gg0ts would be working on their MASTERZ DEGREEZ right now. SUCKERS.

heheh there is at least one guy AT my current job, on my current pay grade, who DOES have a Masters Degree. Real Nice Guy. But I feel SORRY for him that he cannot make his masterz degree pay off, and I tell myself I do not want to be in HIS position.  real nice guy, and real smart, and does his job real well, he is nice to me and i am nice to him and he is very likeable.  but he works this ridic job because he’s got an infant child to support, he doesn’t have a choice.

won a decent pot (came in with 4.00, left with 7.00) with the rightfully awesome hand AA, where I rightfully raised preflop. the guy I showed down with had KK.  lesson learned: if you raise preflop with KK, you may well get beaten by a guy with AA.  i should step the f away from the table NOW. or soon i will be losing it all and spending 40 bucks a month on gambling instead of 20!!!!! and have crossed the rubicon into official Gambling Problem Territory! NOT EVEN ONCE!!!!

sat 534 pm. skipped out 60% of the way thru church cuz it was boring, the sermon uncharacteristically lame (for the “turn the other cheek” gospel of tolerance and diversity and forgiveness), and i was starving, so got some “chinese” takeout and just gobbled it down and it was f00king rediculously delicious and i gave thanks to GOD. Sesame chicken, fried rice, extra soy sauce of course, nice greasy egg roll, and a QUART of egg drop soup, with a bag of “soup noodles”. No I did not eat it ALL. I ate maybe 57% of it all. but it was SOOOO GOOD.  I had been LITERALLY waiting all week for this delicious meal.

treat yourself to a nice meal like this once a week after a long hard godawful week of WORK.