A REASONABLE EXPECTATION OF KINDNESS =/= ENTITLED TO LUV

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well the men on the fatherland podcast said that to get a good woman you gotta be a decent man, ie not an omega basement dweller neet jobless fat neckbear doritos vidya fapping loser hahaha. you have to have your HOUSE IN ORDER. and i most certainly dont! so why do i think i DESERVE a decent woman?

because at heart, deep down, i am a decent guy with a Good Heart and Good Intentions who wants to be a good husbando and father. but i havent PROVEN myself worthy or capable of that yet. and of course the road to HELL is paved with good INTENTIONS. intentions mean NOTHING. ACTIONS mean EVERYTHING. the proof is in the pudding.

so i was surprised to even befriend a woman better than what i thought i deserved. the only women who should want to hang otu with me would be ugly old sluts with bastard mud babies. not young cute girls with a low number and no kids!

well the only reason she became friends with me was because she needs a father figure, and her LTR was stagnating/failing at that time. yikes. well thats humbling. and i thought she liked me as a person hahahahaha.

well i think she really did. but the no father and the bad LTR were influencing her friendship with me whether she knew it or not, and she prob did not. its always unconscious/subconscious forces with these women hahaah.

thats just what women ARE and i dont like it hahaha.

fatherland tacitly recommends athol kay, dalrock, and some rollo tomassi as advisers on “married game” which is IMHO the nondegenerate version of game. where you want to find and win and keep a good decent marriageable wife.

of course i am familiar with all these names from when i read GAME stuff, they have all been around for years.

http://www.salon.com/2015/01/10/the_plight_of_the_bitter_nerd_why_so_many_awkward_shy_guys_end_up_hating_feminism/

goddamn i dont want to link directly TO it, but archive.is does not archive the comments for it.

oh god. salon. arthur chu. defending dr nerdluv (i searched dr nerdlove sucks) against those bitter, lonely, shy, woman-hating nerds who got rejected because they are really creepy, woman-hating, entitled, niceguytms.

AT THE RISK of sounding like a Loser MGTOW, I agree with the hardcore mgtows, dr nerdlove is jsut as bad as arthur chu. they are MALE FEMINISTS. GTFO.

i am the first to admit i am not perfect. and i am the first to say yeah yeah i know im not OWED anything, im not entitled to anything from women.

but to sit there and eat shit and smile? to be cucked and disrespected and like it? to say YEP IM NOT EVEN ENTITLED TO BASIC RESPECT? that is a line too far. and that is what nerdlove is calling for.

i know im not entitled to secs or luv. TECHNICALLY im not entitled to communication or respect or kindness. but i think you can have a REASONABLE EXPECTATION of those things, and thats not the same thing as “ENTITLEMENT.”

i just get triggered and mgtowy when i see bitchy feminists making excuses for women to be total bitches. like just because youve been having secs with a guy for 3 months doesnt mean you OWE him to make an EFFORT to be kind to him when you dump him. because its just secs, its just a casual short term rel, you dont owe anybody anything, you can jsut throw people away like trash and if they get upset, thats THEIR fault. god damn.

ok i did not harrass her with constant messages. i sent one email per 10 days. after 3 emails i said welp she obviously doesnt want to respond so i am gonna go NIC. she has blocked me on FB, prob blocked me on the phone, prob blocked me on email. sending me a clear message/signal. so i will stop contacting her.

and i DID. cold turkey. never contacted her again after that final email.

but god damn, the pain still went on and on and on and on, and i fought the urge to contact her! because this shit aint right!!!!!!

but i respected her unrespectable shitty wishes to throw me away like garbage, and stopped contacting her.

respect their wishes. what a dumb statement. yes i RESPECT being thrown away like garbage.

no. rather, i will BE THE BETTER MAN by not trying to STRONGARM her, but i sure as hell dont have to be a HAPPY CUCK about it. you dont have to LIKE being treated like SHIT.

heh. i dont know if she was a 6 or a 7. as i fell in luv with her i was sure she was an 8. but in truth she was a 6 or 7. but there is a lot of difference between a 6 and a 7 hahahaha.

well in 10 years she will def be a 6 hahahaha. esp if she is fat and has bastard kids hahaha. but she might not get fat.

one nerd on those salon comments said, just do gurlfran experience GFE with a hooker, 300 bucks a pop, “a bunch of times”, and that is “much cheaper and more fun than going to a shrink.”

is it really 300 bucks? i assumed it would be much much more, cuz you;d want a good looking hooker, for essentially 2 or more hours. youd think that would be at least 800 bucks a pop.

were not saying we are entitled to a luving waifu. we just want to not be treated like SHIT, arthur CHU. ph4ggot.

the implication of these marxists is, YES, you DESERVE to be treated like a piece of SHIT, because you ARE a piece of SHIT, for thinking youre ENTITLED to being treated like anything BUT a peice of SHIT!!!!!!!

REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE MARXISTS GTFO!!!!!!!!!

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/

i should also spend some time with daily stormer board. they are seen as slightly less “intelligent” than TRS [citation needed] and perhaps more emotional, but in that case TDS (not to be confused with the daily shoah) should be right up my alley. plus its nice that anglin puts his name, face, and address out there. not all of us are that brave, willing to give everything like that! who cares if hes a manlet! who cares if he banged a filipina slut years ago! he has a reputation as a woman hater, but really he just believes women have the decision making capacity of children and need to be led/guided by their men.

heh and i was hoping even THIS wasnt even true, i HOPED for women that could be Emotionally Mature and be able to Handle Relationships Like Adults. who would be capable of some agency in their rels; who would make an EFFORT to not treat people like shit. in fact i still hope there are women who are Mature like this.

he’s been banned by paypal, banned by disqus, he’s got all the right enemies hahaha.

good goy / 10 hahaha. if i were gainfully employed i would give him some money. and TRS. and mill woes.

some say that “fapping” without porn is a slippery slope to “fapping” WITH porn. i respectfully disagree. i can separate the two quite easily thank GOD. but i am hestitantly thinking about doing “nofap” ALTOGETHER, teetotaling completely. not that ive been that horny. not at all as a matter of fact. the only thing is the thought that forcing myself to JO thinking of random women is a way to try to erase HER from my mind. and to that end, the negligible degeneracy of no-porn fapping is mitigated. justified.

anyway. sighhhh. if i had just been stronger and not dropped the ball. i guess the trick to that is, get out in front of it early, then you get more leverage. and wont need herculean strength to handle it later, after its grown to herculean proportions of shittiness hahaha.

i read on reddit that sam hyde got a film degree at RISD and then did “postgraduate” work at carnegie mellon prob in film production related stuff. not sure if he completed a masterz degree. they say he worked as a car salesman where he almost certainly made more money than in film. but RISD and CM are Good Schools, people have Heard Of Them.

anyway sam hyde really is on our side and should be supported and its sad he cant make enough money to have a white family, but what he is doing takes some balls.

i wonder how he did as a car salesman. his performance hhehehehe.

the same page said he only had 1 gf ever who dumped him in 2011 and he went into a despair.

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/1386-autoadmit-gleanings/page__st__120#entry172304

this made me lol, about a fatass that ate 37 big macs a day, turned into a funny story

ok the guy only at 20000 calories a day, which is……ok prob like 40 big macs hahaha

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/8300-porn-isnt-bad-for-you-its-good-for-you-dad/

hehe some triggering anti millennial stuff here:

quote ”

What’s wrong with ‘getting your s**t together’ at 26?

I don’t like the idea it but not much really. It’s just that most of the time “I have to figure things out and finally get my s**t together” is a bullshit excuse said by millenials going nowhere. What I said is not specific to marriage or being in a career either. I just expect by the mid-20s an adult shouldn’t be loafing around in their parents’ house without a plan in mind. I know a guy like this, 28, got his first job at 21 although he’s now jobless. He lives in the house he grew up in but his parents and siblings have moved out. His mother still pays for most of the bills and he recently inherited some money. He takes courses at community college but isn’t sure if he’s going to university. I asked what he’d do with the money he received and he told me he’d invest in some real estate. That sounds like something resembling long term thought but of course he still just NEEDED the latest iPhone :lolno:

For me that would be an unacceptable life situation (I would consider suicide) but I think it’s more typical for a mid-20s millenial to be living with a roommate and taking a shitjob to pay for rent and student debt, and/or doing grad school, than to live with mom while unemployed and taking 8 units at a community college…the point being that ‘not having your s**t together’ doesn’t necessarily equate to ‘lazy and listless’

” end quote

hehehehehehehehehehehehehehe hehehehehehe

too much of a neet loser to even take 16 creds at the CC hahahahahahahahaha thats me and you!!!!!

however MPC seems like a good community too of smart wise men we would do well to listen to. anti degen, etc. and a good read alongside TRS. not sure when MPC came about. this is the type of stuff you graduate to after leaving 4chan and 8chan pol, and have more of a focus, an actual community with usernames, more effortposts, reputation, etc, more of an ingroup/outgroup identity etc.

anyway i will give MPC a like but i would have to lurk there a few months to really understand the group. they would hate me for being a loser millennial with low moral fortitude. no courage. no guts. every man gets fear, but COURAGE is what you use to STAND UP AND FIGHT in the face of your fear. and i dont have that. no courage, no balls, no spine. so what if i have good intentions, a good heart.

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/8316-raped-in-the-peace-corp-now-i-post-on-mpc/

how people got into mpc

i mean theres gotta be a lot of overlap with pol and TRS. right wing, race realists, anti degen, often a little religions, like memes and funny pictures, anti marxism, etc.

https://encyclopediadramatica.se/My_Posting_Career

some good information, but i thought ED would be sympathetic. at least 2 years ago i said ED was kewl, i now take that back, since here they expose themselves as degenerate leftists and attack roissy and MPC and such.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cuckservative

wiki cites an SPLC article calling MPC “far right” and TRS “white nationalist” hahahaha well there you have it.

https://archive.is/Ywzje

i will defeinitely not link to SPLC hahahaha well the actual SPLC article doesnt specifially identify those sites as those things but they certainly would.

http://mpcdot.com/forums/best-content/

the most upvoted posts go to this page and get cute little gifs in the upper right based on how many upvotes. 100 seems to be very high. all a bunch of interesting, well-composed, well thought effortposts by obviously Successful Adult Men who did good at college and good at career and can Write Coherently and probably have to do so in their Bigboy Careers.

fooking mangina feminists. i am not dictating to her or saying im entitled to Closure. im saying that a decent person would TRY.

A DECENT PERSON WOULD MAKE SOME SMALL EFFORT AT LEAST to be nicer.

That’s all i expected. i know im not entitled to shit.

so…..are MRA’s as pathetic as MGTOWs? i dunno, i think MRAs do have very valid claims and i agree that feminism must be destroyed. so…..maybe i am back to being an MRA after going a bit too far off the reservation with MGTOW. but it was Race Consciousness which brought me back down to earth, by basically saying, without white babies, whites will lose.

and we need those damn white sluts to make white babies.

ideally they would be a noble pure virtuous shieldmaiden. but we can make some compromises considering the state of our world. how about basically any fertile white woman who hasnt already had a nonwhite baby. setting the bar bretty low here.

hey im not bitching AT HER. i stopped emailing her after 1 month and it was obvious she didnt even want to listen to me. i knew then that she didnt want to be contacted and she has to get whatever she wants otherwise its contactrape. and she doesnt need to have any accountability for being a decent person and im the bad guy if i want to hold her accountable cuz otherwise its contactrape because shes not CONSENTING to me contacting her.

the consenting adults bullshit. you think child molesters consent to going to prison when they get convicted? hell no!

well thats because we have a social and legal contract giving the legal system the authority to do things to convicted criminals that are against the convicteds consent. and she hasnt been convicted of anything except in my own mind. and perhaps other people would agree with me that she did not handle it well.

either way im not contacting her. although i kinda wish i had been less nice to her in the emails and said this is fooking bullshit, i dont appreciate this, i deserve some god damn respect, and i am very disappointed with you disrespecting me, this is not good karma, this is really shitty, you should feel bad, and you should apologise.

so yeah dr nerdluv, im not sitting here begging her for closure. i am done begging. i just dont think guys should stand by and LET themselves get treated like shit, without telling the other person. they should STAND UP FOR THEMSELVES.

 

 

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RODGER MANIFESTO 4

may 27

I TOLD you this was gonna be a big case / news item for me! and then I started actually reading the manifesto and now I am committed to it. almost done.

see i am concerned that I do have a sense of entitlement like this guy. and the relieving thing is to read his ramblings and discover that I really don’t. I do have a SMALL sense of entitlement, but 100 times smaller than this guy! really, only slightly bigger than average, and not Pathological!!

also, if i were like this guy, i would have run out and killed people long ago, in my earlier 20s, hehehehe. rather than making it to mah 30s.

the getting a grill part might actually be EASY compared to getting a damn JOB. but since grills don’t want to have anything to do with you if you’re not gainfully employed….

but we know that’s a lie, you can make up for that with masculine charisma.

but if you DON’T have that charisma, then you DEF need a good job to pull gurls.

ok so the kid would go on lavish vacations and then feel bad he didn’t have a gurlfran to share it with. def a little weird. i mean i def would have liked a gurlfran to hang out with and Share Experiences With, but that didn’t stop me from enjoying a nice walk in the park for example. Of course I did not go on any Lavish Vacations to Europe!

he was also very materialistic with his obsession on “excessive opulence and luxury.” anything luxury he liked. fancy clothes, cars, houses, etc. i never cared much for such things.

he seemed to have a fair amount of Class Consciousness, in that he hated being thought of as Low Class, because his mother lived in an Apartment or in a Low Class Neighborhood.

I don’t think I tried to suck up to the Middle Class the same way when I was around Middle Class kids at a Middle Class College. I thought it was interesting and weird and that I was definitely in between Middle and Working Class and they were both very different in their lifestyles and beliefs. i guess for a while i thought that middle class was BETTER and their progressive beliefs were better and more intelligent. but now I know that’s just BS and I am happy to align myself with the Working Class over the Middle Class, ALL DAY.

I was pretty fairly obsessed with gurls and Getting A Gurlfrand, but this guy puts me to shame!

I still would quite like a Young Pretty Nice Gurlfran, but I realize that I’m not ENTITLED to that, that I will have to do a lot of hard work to get it/her, (hehehehehehehe), and that there are many other wonderful things in life, like a good family, not having cancer, not being homeless, not being obese, enjoying time with friends, enjoying the summer, etc. it didn’t stop me from Really Really wanting a Nice Gurlfran, BUT not having that did not prevent me from getting some enjoyment out of The Other Good Things In Life!

And that has gotten better as I’ve gotten older, ie, I have less desire for a Nice Gurlfran, and more appreciation for Nongurl Related Good Things, thank GOD. prob has to do with the lower hormones, getting old, etc.

anyway. it is hard to make friends, let alone gurlfrans, when you are such an ANNOYING, angry little 4sshole. try not to be so ANNOYING. at least i had that good sense, and as a result, made some decent friends. i even get people contacting me out of the blue years later to invite me to weddings, that is how awesome i am. i touch people’s lives, hahahaha. never forget. because i am nice and not annoying. well, to men, at least. with women i don’t do so well, but I have had like 3 or 4 female friends in my life too.

this rodger made the BIGGEST DEAL out of the SMALLEST TINY things. he would take offense and want to kill you just becaues you looked at him the wrong way once. or the whole euro vacation was ruined because he saw one cute gurl. as a “Depressive” i have had trouble with “ALL OR NOTHING THINKING”, but this takes it to a whole new level.

i liked that rodger started “Standing up for himself”, ie, actually saying things to people and doing things to let out his anger, but he didn’t need to KILL people. he could have just kept it at stuff like “yeah that gurl you were with is a fat wh0re” and spilling soda on hot girls and boys, hehehe, or going up to dudes and being like “you’re a faggot and your gurlfran is a little slvt who i f00ked up the 4ss last night” hehehe.

also this kid got obsessive about every single cute gurl he eer saw. I only obsessed abotu the gurls i was in luv with, and there were only ever 8 of those in my life. or 7. i wanted to bang every cute gurl i saw, but so does ANY guy. that’s normal.

“Those girls deserved to be dumped in boiling water for the crime of not giving me the attention and adoration I so rightfully deserve!” (p 100)

see, neither you nor me would ever say or think anything like that. we might just say, “f00kin b1tch, go get raeped up the 4ss”. and not even really mean that.

TLDR: it took 100/141 pages for me to convince myself i was not a maniac like rodger. so if you are worried about that, go ahead, give it a read, and convince yourself you’re not a maniac either.

but that certainly does not mean you have to believe the media hype about #YesAllWomen being an important national conversation or some BS.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/2014_Isla_Vista_killings

have 1 maybe 2 more posts on this.

MAKE DA MONAY

march 5

oh yeah. i mean i could go back to my sh1tty job when they rehire me, because it WILL be chiller at that time, there will be less phone calls, AND I will know the stuff better. really what I needed was a vacation, hehehe, maybe even as short as a week. just a few days off, mental health days, seriously, hehehe. it was good making money. just wish the place was chiller. just going into the big room with 100 people on phones, all noisy and ringing and talking, was not chill. or if i could just take calls for an hour, then the next hour do data entry or nontalking projects, cleaning, then an hour of phones, then an hour off, then hour on, hour off, hour on, that would be a lot more doable. but all day on PHONES is KILLER.

still got to update my linkedin, and update my mock interview script with exact answers.

study some Betting / Odds Charts to give you ideas of how/when to bet. Esp if you are a visual learner like me and you NEED to see a picture.

Texas Holden Preflop Chart Lg

of course no chart is perfect. I called and called on KJ suited and got RAEPED. lost like 3 dollars just now. but it was close, i was killed by the KICKER.

bbbbbut what do you do after the flop? well you keep raising and win….or lose. hehehe

yep i already something something. lost 4 dollars and rebought in with 4 dollars. just because that was a BAD beat. but on my other table I’m ahead 3$!!!!

oh yeah. I already DO have a gambling problem, it’s official, I admit it. The good news is that I Promise I will never play higher than micro-stakes tables.

march 6 2014

, yeah def a gamb prob. given the choice between taking a NAP and GAMBLING, 50% of the time I may gamble. assuming I have been laid off and have the time to have the LUXURY of CHOOSING either of two lazy leisure activities!!!

BUT I LOVE taking a nap in the early afternoon, a true SIESTA if you will. maybe i will get sick of doing that in a week….but i don’t think so. yesterday i opted to take a mid afternoon nap, rather than gamble, and it was great.

all instead of productive career work! I just can’t be fixed! A hopeless case, amirite??!?!?!!?!

but my protip of the day is, take your laptop computer into the toilet as you do your morning business, which, when you get older, can take like 20 minutes. use that time to check email, weather, blogging (heh). It’s really not THAT disgusting as long as your bathroom is moderately clean and you’re not wiping faeces all over the computer. and it certainly passes the time quite well while you are in there. normally i play a reversi game on the phone but this is MUCH better. heh. it is kinda like having a Smart Phone or Tablet. I am the only person in the world without a smart phone, and I don’t care, however I do care about not being able to make enough money to afford the LUXURY of a smart phone. how do all these people make that much money? How do they ALL get so Gainfully Employed is the big question I’m asking.

thursday march 6

i went back to my old job to visit and was encouraged by the boss to take this certain step which would help me in getting a sweet FT job there. I took it to heart. I noted that this step is nowhere to be found on the jobs website, they said yep that’s right, and very few FT jobs are posted on that website, which I had also noticed. nope. you have to get in a special pool to actually even KNOW about the good job openings. very interesting, I thought. I wonder if other medium-sized organizations do this too. have the job openings be secret: have the crappy jobs you post to the public, and then the decent jobs you post to the secret ingroup.

and then i got home to find somebody emailed me about a temp tech job. heh. and i was kinda looking forward to my 8 weeks off! unless I could find a better job. which an FT at old place would be. but a temp job….well it could be chiller, less phones, less stress, and work from home, NOICE. But if I couldn’t turn it into something more permanent, and I don’t even know the money.

and last night I was socializing playing a social game with some friends who are great guys but I not super duper “intimate” with them per se, anyway it slipped out what one of the guys Makes, he is trying to get a new better job too, advance in his career, and turns out he was making Moar in his current job than I thought he was. quite a bit more. like at least 10 grand more than I thought he was.  He is making Seriously Good Money Right Now, that I can only Hope to be making when I am 40, in his late twenties.

Anyway, point is, it made me get greedy and say, Damn Right I’m Entitled to 12 bucks an Hour! (i was making more than than at my new job, thank GOD) but for a low stress job I would gladly go down to 12 bucks.

Of course, this guy makes WAY more than I do, AND he is way less stressed, he goes out and does things, goes to the gym, goes out and socializes, doesn’t need to sleep all the time… he is the antithesis of a lazy loser, he is a busy winner, and it doesn’t drain him or make him an intolerable douchebag who is no fun to be around.

except he might get a masters degree, but this would actually HELP him, and so I would be a bit jealous. and of course i am a bit jealous already! but he is a good guy.

LEADERSHIP BS VS MANAGEMENT BS: HOW TO NOT BE BAD AT INTERVIEWS

tues oct 15th

If you are being Micromanaged at your Underjob and don’t appreciate it, all the more because you do a ridiculously good job, then write a brief story about it you can tell in an interview later. But specifically go out of your way to say that none of your previous employers did this, because you can’t speak poorly of prev employers. just say, hypoethetically, this is an example of poor management, and here’s what i would do instead. Because I’m a LEADER not a MANAGER. I don’t just do things right, I Do The Right Thing. I Inspire by Example.

Drink Tea / Iced Tea throughout the day instead of coffee all day if you have to stay up for like 36 hours straight to get all your werk done. Coffee is fine at the beginning and middle of the day, but too much too fast will dehydrate you and make you poop your pants. So have two coffee breaks, and rest of the day, drink strong tea.

If you don’t have time to use a Cigarette Machine to make Cigarettes, just buy Roll Your Own and Roll Each Cigarette as you “need” them. Like I’ve been too lazy to sit down and use the machine to make 20 cigs, but I would be willing to ROLL a cig, if I had some Papers.

Note: do NOT buy Zig Zag papers, because they turn brown easily and always look like you’re smokign a Huge Joint. It looks SO Bad.

Buy a bag of Bugler Tobacco, or even better, a huge bag of Pipe Tobacco, and just roll that.

This is all assuming you don’t smoke a LOT. For example, I am lucky to smoke 1 pack per week. less than 3 cigs per day. Usually just one.

Find your local friendly pawn shop and/or gold shop, and start out buying some SILVER there. Silver is like the Poor Man’s Gold. Be sure you check the Market Price before you get there. Right now the price was about $21 an ounce. So go and buy an ounce and see how much it is worth in a year. I remember around 2 years ago when silver was like $15 an ounce. Now it’s $22. Not Bad, uh???? Imagine if I had bought 10 ounces back then! 16 Ounces!

wed 16th

WOW, got home at 1 am, woke up at 453 am, in at 7am, now 752 am. DEF could not do this more than once every….3 weeks? 2 weeks? Anyway I showed largesse by doing a social call, the LESSON LEARNED, and there’s almost always a LESSON LEARNED, that’s the whole reason I tell STORIES, is that

* You should try to sacrifice your Sleep once in a while to Hang Out with your Friends especially if they are doing a fun event. Just to show you care. I was making a tradeoff of sacrificing a regular and beloved Social Event, because of Time Sched Changes, basically, wanting to get proper sleep for getting up Super Early in the AM. Super Early, like earlier than average even for normalfg successfuls with upper working class careerjobs.

CHECK YOUR FRIEND-HAVING PRIVILEGE, NON-WIZARD SCUM.

10 pm should not be up so late but had to do a min quota of hw, and it’s still 3 hours earlier than last night. HAD to lay down to check my nap having privilege today. Said I would do for 2 hours but knew full well it would be longer. ended up being 3 or 4 hours, not suprising. wasted a bunch of time listening to lifelover and joy division and playing around with the long awaited new version of f.lux: darkroom settings, “ember” brightness at night, really quite friendly on the eyes, even set it to slightly dimmer for during the day, with the hypoth that the comp screen is Just Too Damn Bright Even During The Day.

Lifelover is real kewl, and great for us Emo Feelz Types. Wish they coulda lasted longer. You might think they’re corny but I still find them very honest. Honest Angst here. Anger, Hatred, Sadness, all wrapped up in catchy melodies and painful vocals. Dark haunting bits as well. One of a kind sound, even if all their songs sound The Same, it’s a good sound, hehehe. Would have liked to see them years from now, but the guy died at age 25 or so. pretty simple concept, amazing no one else did it sooner. what is a good “lifelover ripoff band” that can continue that sorta thing. I think you COULD “rip them off” in a respectful way and add new things to that sound. so much potential. Dark Metal combined with Dark Pop essentially. struggle to find the perfect production though. real hard to do programmed drums and make them sound good. prefer the live drums on “dekadens.”

Use f.lux to protect your eyes from the bright computer screen.

new shoes are breaking in ok, might take 2 weeks or more for full break in.

Go to Youtube , type in leadership, and watch vidyas by leadership gurus talking about leadership. Leadership is the same thing as “Management” but uses different BS Buzzwords, and ATM IMHO the Leadership Buzzwords will work better in an Interview than Management Buzzwords. Sounds more Emotionally Intelligent for Today’s Sensitive Managers. Unless you’re interview for a Manager Job, then maybe use a combination of Management AND Leadership Buzzwords. But if you’re a Loser reading this blog, then f00k no, you’re not gonna be managing anybody, you are competing for a spot at the bottom of the barrel.

Buy a little Wahl trimmer so you can trim the annoying hair by your ears that starts to look real bad after a few months.

Again, I cannot emphasize enough, DO NOT BUY WHITE T-SHIRTS. When you’re in the socks and underwear aisle reaching for a pack of 3 white tshirts, JUST SAY NO, and look directly to the left or right, and buy the Black or Grey ones instead. Pref Grey. Because after like one washing, the white shirt will look all yellow and shabby, like you never shower or wash your clothes, and will be immediately obvious underneath your dress shirt.  White shirts looks dirty even when they’re clean.

Now, it might look unprofessional to wear a black tshirt under a white dress shirt, if you’re an Investment Banker who always needs to look his best. But, more than likely, that’s not you, and you can get away with wearing a nonwhite tshirt under your Work Shirt. This is an improvement even if you’re just a loser working at mcdonalds or ralphs. Although they might have a strict dress code against that.

fri oct 18th

ok done prepping muh series of 4 shorter posts. u should be seeing this on oct 24th. here are a few last minute protips. You can come up with new, useful Protips Erry Day. Erry Day should be a neverending stream of protips and lifehacks and cheat codes on how to win at life.  good idea after good idea.

Protip: go into spotify and into your starred list of 3000 songs. then order them by DATE ADDED and copy the songs from the past THREE MONTHS to a new list, and then play THAT new list on Random Shuffle. This will give you like a greatest hits of the past 3 months.

HOWEVER, it’s not fool proof. I GUESS an alternate approach would be to make a similar list from your History from the Past 3 months. Because if what if during the past 3 months you listened to a lot of nonstarred songs, OR songs that were starred longer than 3 months ago! Note: HISTORY is under “PLAY QUEUE.” Spotify really needs to HIRE ME to make them better. That’s my VALUE ADD.

BEING A DESK CLERK REQUIRES SO MUCH MORE SKILL & EDUCATION NOWADAYS

* Do your own readings of stuff. for example I came back to one of my favourite blogs after not reading it for a few months, and found a few New Classic articles they’d written since, along with Epic Comment Threads. I thought, gee, wouldn’t it be neat if they could have this discussion in Talk Radio format. and then I thought of doing a dramatic, passionate Reading of the original post, the comments, interspersed with my Own Commentary as someone who has an Informed Opinion on these writers and Their Opinions.

Because I prefer listening to speakers rather than reading words many times. Speakers really bring the words to life. I would do a Reading of All My Blogs if I didn’t care so much about muh anonymity.

mon 852 am sept 23 2013

ok. so, do a “mood monitor” for every day. make a spreadsheet or graph. put down the WORST you felt that day (1 thru 10), what TIME that was; and then the BEST you felt that day, what time THAT was; and then estimate an AVERAGE of your mood throughout the day.

This will give you a much clearer picture of Your Moods Throughout the day. you already know you have good times and bad times throughout the day. mood changes from horrible to slightly better at various times. but it can be tricky knowing when you can expect what.  But this way, if you start feeling real bad, you have more evidence with which to say, THIS TOO SHALL PASS, I’m just as my relative minimum for the day.

Even use a Free Spreadsheet to log it if you want, and make a nice Graph of the Function.

Spreadsheet might be best and easiest. Because I KNOW you probably wanna Analyze this Data, because it’s about as relevant to your own life as it gets.

Alternately: check your mood at certain times every day, like 3 times a day. When you get up, middle of your day, and right before bed. that might be a little tryhard though, and also you’re focusing in on times, rather than on Best and Worst Moods, and those I think are the important things to rememb.

Anyway, say you feeeeeeeeeel like ending it all, then you notice it’s X o clock, and now you know that there’s a pattern there, so you can say, THIS TOO SHALL PASS, especially if you tend to Feeeeeel happier a few hours after that.

LUST is a Building Block of Love. Sometimes we slowly build up some quite signif love on top of a base of lust. And there’s nothign wrong with that, indeed, now I’m thinking lust is NECESSARY fro True Love to develop. Last wimmin I was in LOVE with, there was DEFINITELY a REAL portion of LUST in there. I mean I wanted her to SOMF All Day, Every Day, Till The End Of Time. But because I saw her semi regularly, and liked her personality as well as her body, and decided I was going to Make An Effort to Court Her. and as this effort grew and time passed, so was the Love I Molding in with the Lust. So not only did I want her to SOMF, I wanted ONLY her to SOMF, and For Ever, and also to do Massive Cuddling, and Marrying, and Growing Old, and Babies, and Handholding, and Summer Weekends At The Lake Cottage, and Winters Cuddling, and Movie Night, and Date Night, and Making Out, etc.

But that chapter is closed, that too has passed, though I still think about her sometimes OBVIOUSLY. But Thank GOD I don’t actually have to SEE her, hopefully that last time (2 months ago??) was THE last time.

Anyway. Love Does Include Lust. Perhaps the Lust is the source of the Craziness/Insanity of Love.

Love and Lust
hehehehehe I saw this in the suggested pics and just HAD to (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

So there’s a Woman I get along with Real Well and would prob be a good mother of my Chillunz, and a good Wife, however I have absolutely NO lust for her. However I would seriously consider Marriage and Children with her IF there were an agreement to get Muh Lust on Extramaritally. The gotcha is, what if one of those Extramartial Lusts turns into a True Love as with Girl7, ie becomes a wimmin I REALLY wanna WifeChilluns? Which Way is the Better way? WifeChilluns with a woman you get along with real well but No Lust, or, WifeChilluns with a Woman that’s The Whole Damn Package? Noting that with The Whole damn Package, it can be a lot harder to Get

* Force Yourself to Get Interested in Investment and Financial Planning so you can Save for the Long Term. Because if you’re Lucky Enough to have a JOb with a Pension, you prob won’t be Lucky Enough to actually GET that pension when you old, because the Plutocrats like it when you Die, and you have no legal protection against that. Your Pension is not guaranteed. The only thing that IS guaranteed is the Gold you bury in the backyard, assuming no-one steals that. pull a walter white with barrels of cash buried underground.

Put As Much Money as you can into your 401k if you have one. Real Good Employers will actually MATCH your contribution…….but that’s only if you’re a Top 2% Elite, went to HYPSM, and have a HYPSM Career Job, hahahaha, so, no need to even mention it here. If you had a decent job you wouldn’t BE a Loser!

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ok.

* take a few minutes to Make A Spreadsheet like I described above. I went and did this. It Worked like a magic bullet. I made one google spreadsheet book, with three sheets.

1: MoodMonitor: Day, Date, Lowest, TimeLowest, Highest, TimeHighest, Overall, Comments

2: DailySched:Day Mon thru Sun,, date, 12 am thru 11pm, 1 hour per line, essentially a daily calendar, but more anal than Google Calendar, or maybe not. where needed, split into half hours.

3: Achievements: Day, Date, Task, Duration in minutes, enjoyment, difficult, achievement, comments. This is when you force yourself to do Responsible Person chores, errands, and Responsibilities. the stuff you should do, but always procrast on because you’re a lazy loser. homework, jobsearch, exercise, shopping, errands, cleaning, appointments. basically the idea is, you dread doing the stuff and put it off, but if you FORCE yourself to do it, it’s usually NOT as painful as you expect, AND you get a HUGE sense of accomplishment from actually doing the thing, and THAT is the pleasure or enjoyment you’re looking for. It comes AFTER, and offsets the sense of dread before. This is how Good Habits are Built, doing this kinda stuff every day. So you turn it into a spreadsheet, so now you have Tangible Physical Measurements and Data to Convince your Diseased Brain.

So now I have that. kinda a work in progress, just crapped it out as fast as possible, you can’t be a perfectionist with these spreadsheets, just start them. like that 3rd one, still not sure the terms to use / variables to measure / etc.

and then if you have a smartphone like all the other jerkoff degenerates, you can easily update this from the comfort of your bed or lazy chair.

* protip: watch JEOPARDY every day if you can. there is some real feelgood medicine right there. get real competitive with the people on the telly. shout out the answers. call them f4gg0ts and racist slurs. if you have any friends, watch jeopardy with them and compete with them too. it is a shame to forget abotu and not watch jeopardy, because it will improve your life and health. and it’s frighteningly easy to FORGET it’s even there. don’t forget to pick up the $500 bill on the sidewalk right in front of you!!!

schedule it in your Daily Activity Schedule, every day at 7:30 pm!!

* When you take your Pants off at the end of a Long Day, try Spraying Lysol into the Crotch/Buttocks/Thighs region to Freshen them up for the next time you wear them. Because you probably have less pants than shirts, and prob wear pants more inbetween washings, plus if you have a lot of pants, then that sucks for doing laundry because 1 pants = like 3 shirts. So this is a great Workaround to Freshen the pants inbetween wearings.

* Also do the same thing with your Shoes at the end of the day. Just a tiny spritz to kill the smelly bacteria.

* Lookup “fake name generator”, lord that is fun! It also conveniently links to a Fake Email Generator for every Fake Name. I used it to sign up for OKCupid and Adult Friend Finder using ridiculous fake names. Because you gotta Sign Up in order to view profiles on these sites. Anyway AFF is for all intents and purposes a PAY site, you have to PAY to view people’s full profiles! So that sucks. And on OKC you have to upload a picture to look at other people’s pictures. i guess you could upload a fake picture, but that’s not a recommendation, they can prob ban you for that.

anyway the fake email is not secure, anyone can look at it, and it gets deleted every 24 hours. it is good enough for clicking on the confirmation email to prove you’re not a robot, though.

not sure if this will work for facebook, cuz I think they do some stupid sh1t like needing a phone number.

yep the site autogenerates a Username and Password for your fake “identity” too! REAL convenient and easy! just make sure you save them in your browser so you don’t forget.

fri, 1146am, sept 27 2013

day off, scheduled to do a “godawful chore” for 1 hour right now, but I might do that later, gotta post a post at least ONCE a week!

#BreakingBadMarathon hahahaha

Yes, the entire SERIES deserves to be watched twice. 120 hours of Television Watching. Three Whole Fulltime Job Work Weeks. Probably enough to justify putting on your Resume as an Unpaid Internship (remembering it takes One Thousand Hours of Unpaid Internship to Prove Your Worthy of an Entry Level Fulltime $12 an Hour Job (assuming you also have your Educational Credentials.)).

“CREDENTIALISM”, there’s a tag/subject I should be using more. I fully believe it that people of average intelligence (100 IQ, maybe even 90, way dumber than US, is what I’m saying, we Neet Lazy Losers are prob closer to the neighborhood of 120!) can LEARN how to do MOST jobs with a little bit of training and time.

Perfect example: you shouldn’t need a HOSPITALITY DEGREE to work at a HOTEL DESK. You never USED to need to! Because you don’t NEED 4 years of College to learn how to serve customers at a Desk! A Grade school Dropout could learn, given a little bit of training, and some Time to get him over the Learning Curve! But NOW we have HOSPITALITY degrees to prove you really WANT to work in a HOTEL for your career. CREDENTIALISM. Too many people, too few JOBS.

credentialism

hehehe. I hear the h1 tags are good for the search engine.

Anyway. all the people might be right that Breaking Bad is the best show of all time. I have been Caught Up for quite a while and haven’t seen the older seasons in a LOOOONNNGGGG time, so those almost seem like a Different Show. Jane Dying, the first appearance of Gus Fring, Hank getting shot, the FLy in the lab episode, Walter first telling Skyler about his secret life, Skyler lying to Marie about the “gambling”, etc. Really complicated show, and things really do grow bit by bit. quite amazing. Walt seems so Innocent when he is a Small Time Meth Dealer, than what he is now. Walt really changes, while Jesse doesn’t seem to change as much, he always stays The Good Guy despite all the stuff that happens to him. He gets Crippling Depressed and Moody and Shuts Down, but IMHO he always stays the good guy.

And it’s fun watching older episodes even when you know where it’s all gonna end up. can’t say that for most movies or shows. so yeah. quite amazing. watch it. twice. guaranteed 120 hours of fun that will Uplift You.  Much better than Game Of Thrones, which is Depraved, Violent, Immoral, Degenerate Filth.

Heck. Over your lifetime, you might even be able to watch it THREE times.  For example, how does Jesse go from Jane to Andrea so quickly, is he just “transfering”, is it for real, but more importantly, why do we believe it’s real?

And let me emphasize how HILARIOUS the show it. Especially in the older seasons, before it got Super Serious and Major People started Dying. Not just Hilarious, but Better Written, More Hilarious, Funny Comedy than The Average Comedy Show! So, truly Superior Laffs! TOP Lel!!

ok. perfect example of something important. I shceduled the “godawful chore” for ONE measly hour, that I would go to the store and buy SHOES as QUICKLY as possible, the whole idea was to do it all, back and forth, buying the shoes, as FAST as f00king possible, so that the WHOLE task, driving and all, would take less than one hour. I still might do this later today. And then write it down in that Spreadsheet under the Achievements page. I know there would be:

A HUGE sense of satisfaction

it wouldn’t be AS BAD as I’ve built it up to be

The huge sense of Accomplishment would even outweigh what I’ve built it up to be in my Worst Nightmare!

Not to be narcissistic me me me me I I I I. I want you to apply these situations to yourself too, since I know you’ve prob faced the exact same thing.

If you’re looking for a few more hours of Nondrug fun, check out the Deep Web for a while. There is some RIDICULOUS stuff there. I shouldn’t say nondrug per se, because many people use it to buy lotsa drugs. But other ridiculous stuff: there’s this thing where you can buy a HIT MAN for $10,000 USD per Hit. Heh. Makes you think about the Value Of Human Life. They do say, no people under 16, and no “Top Ten” politicians.  (NOTE: I AM MORALLY AGAINST AND DO NOT RECOMMEND MURDER OR PUTTING OUT HITS!)

Or buying Counterfeit Money. 100000 dollars worth of 50 dollar bills for 5000, hehehe. Now, passing counterfeit bills is certainly not as morally bad as MURDER, though I still don’t recommend it!!! If you get really desperate though, it might be a good last resort. heh. probably less morally reprehensible than welfare, hahahaha.

but yeah. like breaking bad, the deep web is a really FUN and INTERESTING thing that will get you out of your own head for a while. Just don’t do anything illegal or immoral! I Officially Recommend that you NOT do anything illegal or immoral on the Deep Web!

ok. get shoes. some real people really swear by zappos.com. that might be worth a try.

Edit/Update: ok i am looking at zappos for the first time, and i am actually impressed. not bad. might actually take the plunge. seem like better shoes than they have elsewhere. almost too many choices though. def worth looking at.  $50 and under OF COURSE.  hope there is a fool proof way of measuring your own foot.

if you do a lot of walking, get some bare bones “walking” shoes and add some fancy dr scholls inserts to them.

for underemployment, get the cheapest shoes you can that look nice, then add fancy inserts to them.

all right, take care of yourselves, DON’t K yourselves, It Gets Better, hehehehe, no but it really can, just do your spreadsheets, don’t marry, stay in skool, hahahaha, being a Secretary involves so much more Skill & Education than it did 40 years ago, hahahaha, tell your family and friends you Just Don’t INterview Well, get some new clothes, but don’t spend more than One Hour, go out and buy One piece of new clothing As QUICKLY as you possibly can and tell me you don’t feeeeeeeeeeeel haaaaaaaaaaaaappier.

18YOQTs, SUPPLY OF JOBS, CRIMEA RIVER, HNNGG HNNGG HNNGG

monday 8 26

WOW SUPER grumpy this monday morning. ending it all sounds like a REAL good idea. worst monday monring in recent memory. and no reason for it! other than the usual excuse of “being a loser.” wah wah crimea river.

tues

went to “bed” at 7pm.

still wanted another hour of sleep when woke up. super duper bad mood tuesday morning, but shook that off quicker than on monday. now 12pm and has been super busy past couple of hours. super busy. god almighty. but maybe i’m happier cuz it is my 8 hour day.

i see enough beautiful 18 year olds every day to know for a FACT that an Unlimited Supply and Variety of 18 year old Tail would DEFINITELY come close to Approximating True Love.

I would be very happy with one or the other. would not ask for both. wouldn’t need it. just one or the other. Actually, the neverending supply of Teen Tail might be BETTER. Its only downside is that it flirts with Immoral, Decadent filth; pornography. Flirts with, but does not have to be. Note that these girls don’t WANT commitment anyway. Good, cuz neither do I hahahaha.

wed 751 am

so. my “new” favorite thing is to lay face down on bed and LISTEN to tv because too much energy to prop head up on pillow and WATCH it, better transition to sleeptime. did that at 6:30 pm spongebob, all lights out at 7 pm, got some fairly decent sleep, an erotic dream that was kinda fun. just a random girl. a big4ss white trash slut. nasty but tolerable. better than a known entity.

major lesson: do Lights Out at Seven Pm For Best Results.

still took powerwalk, that was good.

REALLY gotta buy new clothes soon.

saw an 18 year old tiny blond girl wearing the tightest pants possible. she was TINY and YOUNG, very young looking, and usually don’t go for girls so small, but her youngness sealed the deal, it was almost like A Whole New Gender, hehehehe.

Does it REALLY need to be SO competitive to get into the Physical Therapy or Occupational Therapy Program? Yeah, it’s a better field than Sociology, but I don’t think it’s even in Top 10 of Job Openings, or something else to merit rejecting a SOLID 80% of Applicants. THAT’s how Competitive it is. 80% of people who WANT to get in DON’T. Why do they WANT to get in? I don’t see a HUGE GLUT of PT jobs to justify such a ridiculous demand.

Heh. So I’m wondering how a person decides on Physical Therapy for an Education and Career choice. You can’t just WALTZ into the job, AND you can’t just WALTZ into the EDUCATION, and believe me, you can get MASTERS and DOCTORATE in PT. Sh1t to get an entry level job you need a Bachelors degree.

Unless my local Nonprestigious College happens to have a Very Prestigious PT program, I dunno.

But this points to my larger point, that 30 years ago, you didn’t have to TRY to find a Entry Level Full Time Job, you just needed a PULSE. Now you can spend your whole LIFE going to COLLEGE and switching majors and getting useless degrees and NEVER get an Entry Level Full Time Job, because your CV wasn’t remarkable enough, your GPA not high enough, not enough extracurriculars, too many GAPS, too old, you don’t interview well; forget just having a pulse and showing up to work every day on time!

But then there’s people who Say that finding a Full Time job in North Dakota is EASY because ND has the lowest unemployment and the boomingest economy. I certainly think abotu it every day!!!

So i guess you’re “supposed” to spend your teens and early twenties wanting to Bang everything that moves, then in your later twenties, you’re supposed to develop more Lasting, Mature Relships, with an Eye to someone you want to Spend Your Life With. Heh. I had it ass backwards. When I was young, I wanted a Monogamous Loving Waifu. Fell In True Waifu Luv 7 times. Now I am old, and just want to B 18 year olds! NOT Sadistically, NOT hurting or hating anyone, But Sort of Decadently. I want to bang at least 100 18 year old girls in my life. If you get tired of one, move on to the next. Simple, easy, effective, perfect. Fundamental Ontology. Priorities in Life.

thurs 8 29 13 9:39am

did my “long day” yesterday. When I took Hard Class, I would have at least 2 “Long Days” per week. They are good for Feeling Productive, but much moreso if you are actually doing Paid Work, compared to Free Work or Paying For Skool.

Had another semi erotic dream. In this one I was making out with a Very Cute Young girl. You know the girl is very CUTE and young, if you actually enjoy making out with her before plowing her, hahahaha.

these the Attitudes that Normally, naturally Form when you never manage to pull from QTs, and then you say, well I don’t wanna bang non-QTs, so I’m gonna be a kissless virgin wizard all throughout my 20s!!!

Heh, you’d think I’d be more willing to Lower My Standards, especially considering I’m old, fat, bald, loser, underemployed, costanza. When I was actually YOUNG, I was a lot more Physically Attractive and could actually Pull QTs, and I wasted that by not pulling a LOT of QT action, but Far Less Than A Bare Minimum, which is still Far More than Wizards Pull, so, I’m grateful for that, hahahahaha.

But yeah you see some 18 year old student with nice skin and a tight bum and bright eyes and perky bazooms and you think, yep you can sit on my face, you can sit on my face, yep you too, I wouldn’t mind that, lemme clear off a place so you can sit on my face, etc etc, 90000000 times a day. THAT’s pretty overwhelming, and why Men and Prime Of Youth Women should be kept separated, because it’s very distracting and overwhelming!

From ages 18 to 25, Women should be Locked Away in Women-World, and not let out until they’re safely MARRIED.

Heh. Funny how “you” want 18 year old QT Younggirls to Sit on “Your” Face, but not really so much Thirty Year Old Women or Older!!! Then you think, UM NO. EW. GROSS. But 18 year olds? ALL DAY. SIT ON MY FACE ALL DAY. Now THAT’s True Heterosexual Attraction!!!

It’s analogous to the making out. The older the get, the less you want to make out with OR have them sit on your face.

Disclaimer: While it is natural and normal for Most Men to have a Preference for Younger Women in GENERAL, I have taken that to a whole new extreme. Exaggerrated, inflamed, inflammatory disease. Upped the contrast level. To an arguably Pathological, Detrimental level. So how do I train my Animal Brain to Tone it Down, to sand off the sharp edges? Dunno. Would probably be like trying to “cure” the gays with electric shocks. It’s as hard-wired as it gets. Just an extreme variation of natural behaviour.

Can you Curb the Anxiety of Constant Horniness by Beating Off To Porn? Probably a LITTLE bit. Like a 1% Purity of the Drug, when you’d like 100%. And By God, I’ve been lucky enough to experience something like 90%, back in the day. But Not Enough. But with stuff that powerful, can there ever BE enough???

Or can you say, “YEAH, I DID OK. Not Perfect, but OK. I’m not Hung Up over it or anything. I’m No Superman anyway. I’m Happy with what I Can Get.” Which would be the Mature Response.

Or you can be a big immature Adult Baby and say wah wah, I want 18 year old girls, nothing else. I want I want I want, gimme gimme gimme!

Really weird. The blend of Entitlement, but not being Confidence And Powerful enough to back up that entitlement.

So yeah. School’s In For The Year, and I saw more cute 18 year old girls I wanted to sit on my face, in the span of one hour, than I have in the past 3 months, then I think of How LoOoOoOoOng it’s been. MANY years. And even back then, it was just a small taste. Just to Whet the Appetite. The logical, sensible thing to do would be: go to a hooker, go hoggin, TAKE what you can GET, learn GAME and actually USE it to pull better quality.

So yeah anyway. When I come up with my “Rules” of Attraction, like does the girl make you go HNNNGG, or 18 or 22 or you’re done, or would you enjoy making out with her, would you enjoy Cunnilinguus, would you lick the sweat out of their 4ss on a hot day, because they are 18 years old etc, realize this is the product of a Diseased Mind, hahahaha. A Diseased Mind, AND Perpetually Horny, AND on a Many-Year Drought, AND sees 900000000 beautiful 18 yo QTs EVERY DAY. A Perfect Storm of Erotic Stress. This Biases, Prejudices my view, quite understandably!

Of COURSE there are MUCH more important things in life, like FAMILY and WORK and MORALITY and DISCIPLINE and AMBITION. They just don’t “FEEL” (hate the word feel!) as important when you are RARING TO GO!!!

How “Average” is the “Average Frustrated Chump,” or, in today’s parlance, Beta? Lesser Beta? Omega? A Self-Selected bunch of Woman-Haters who read and comment Woman-Hating GAME and Pick Up Artist blogs??? r9k neckbeard virgins who watch tons of p0rn? people who generally use the internet too much and don’t interact with Real People enough????

But the 18 YO QTs overstimulating me are definitely REAL!!

MOVIE REVIEW: yeah this is more of a joke, I will not do Serious Reviews of “Really Obscure” Art Movies any more, as that would Identify me. So I’ve been meaning to see “Insidious” since it first came out at theatre. Always looking for a good hore movie. kept pushing it back in the queue. FINALLY the time was right, by god I wanted to watch it. It wasn’t super good, wasn’t GREAT, but it was pretty good. Dialogue sucked, but the acting was good, some good scares, kept my attention till the final Act, which was going well, until BAM the disc crashed suddenly, no warning, no skips. Bam. Stop. Unable to read disc. This is about 10 minutes from the end of the movie, and I was still liking it. Hadn’t jumped shark. I was angry and frustrated. But I have been on a streak of Not Bad Movies lately. Real uncanny. wonder when the shoe is gonna drop there.

HNNNG. 18 year old shorthaired girl with GREAT 4SS in jeans. HNNGG!!!!!

Hnng is the new schwing, remember that scene in waynes world where garth is at some party or something having an actually normal conversation with people, but stops to say SCHWING every time a “hot babe” walks by, which is every 2 seconds, because waynes world just went hollywood or something. That’s me going HNNGGG every 2 seconds when a 18YOQT walks by who I want to make out with then sit on my face. GOD DAM RIDICULOUS.

ok gotta wrap this up. a great line I heard today, the day the fast food workers were gonna do their Strike for $15 an hour. I saw a bunch of Adult Students Going Back To College because That Is Sure To Get Them All Jobs, College Will Make The Unemployable Employable, College Will Create Jobs Where None Existed Before, College Is Magic, Companies will hire Adult Students from Low-Prestige Colleges over Young Students from High-Prestige Colleges, more excuses, etc, hehehehe, ANYWAY, this one loudmouth (woman) was complaining about The Audacity: “$15 an hour! COME ON! That is for SKILLED PROFESSIONALS! My HUSBAND doesn’t even make $15 an hour!!! And my Macdonalds was cold today!”

So I thought the whole situation was hilarious and sad. My opinion is quite moderate: maybe $12 would be more reasonable; or giving people Full Time Hours; and I acknowledge that Fast Food Work is Harder and Much More Stressful than Average People realize.

But it’s her fault for marrying a loser who couldn’t provide, hahahahaha.  Maybe he needs to go to college for physical therapy and maybe, just maybe, if he gets a 3.99999 GPA and performs better than 80% of his class, then he might get a $15 an hour job.  But still everybody has to take out a 50k loan and gamble at the casino anyway.

but again I have a really distorted view of reality, so don’t listen to me. I used to think I lived in an “anti-intellectual” or anti-collegefag area, where only rich soft boy scout faggots go to COLLEGE, but this was inaccurate; its more like EVERYONE goes to college, because they can’t find jobs otherwise, or they’re laid off and are getting Taxpayer Dollars to go to college, so I really can’t blame them for doing so.

The Media says there are Technical Jobs waiting Unfilled because there’s no one to fill them, no one with the proper training and skill set; but I don’t really believe that, because everyone from age 18 to 80 is In College, College is the “New” High School, not like that is anything NEW!!! Except High School you don’t have to take out an Unforgivable Mortgage to go to!

Heh heh yeah I have a Fatally, Pathologically Bad Attitude.

My Homework To Do List For YOU (and me):

http://bls.gov/ooh/occupation-finder.htm?pay=&education=&training=&newjobs=50%2C000+or+more&growth=&submit=GO

So here is a list of 94 Jobs from Outlook Occupational Handbook of BLS. This is really the best way I know to find out this information, there are prob better ways!  I want to know the SUPPLY OF JOBS. NUMBER of JOB OPENINGS. It Stands To Reason that it should be EASIEST to GET a job, where there are the most openings. They won’t turn away losers who didn’t go to harvard, or who have Average College Extracurriculars, in other words!

Teach Your Children to go for one of those 94 jobs. I’m thinking Long Term, a Slow But Steady Growth Rate is better than a 20% growth rate over 2010-2020, right???? cuz what if it takes a nosedive after that. or what if it doesn’t.

http://bls.gov/ooh/occupation-finder.htm?pay=&education=&training=&newjobs=50%2C000+or+more&growth=&submit=GO

Physical Therapists and Software Developers, hahahahaha.

Anyhow. hehehe. I never said Physical Therapy was a BAD field!

Heh. I wish Banging 18YOQTs was a Job, and on there!

Wow. How do you FIX a Fundamentally, Deep-Seated BAD Attitude? Eradicating thoughts like the above from your mind??

Ok, I wish Banging 18YOQTs was not a job, and was not on there. That would be a stupid job. And 30 year olds are hotter than 18 year olds. hehehehe. more age appropriate.

“But that’s such a Stupid Euphemism, Age Appropriate!!”

Heh. It really kind of is.

No It Isn’t.

I will Be Age Appropriate And Go To College For A Physical Therapist or Software Developer Job.

your homework:

go to a Cheapo Department Store and buy some “Nice” clothes that you could ostensibly wear to a $15 an hour job.

Don’t Beat Yourself Up if you have the occasional Racist or Sexist Thought. Sometimes Stereotypes get invented for a reason.

Get NINE hours of sleep a night. Dr Ilardi says Paleo Man got about NINE hours of sleep a night. Dr Ilardi KNOWS!!!

If you have an Extreme Obsession with 18YOQTs, tell yourself, this is a gross exagerration of normal desires, Please God Release Me From This Living Hell.

Either throw out the objective on your resume, or change it drastically. rather than say, i want to work for this kind of company, say I want to apply my demonstrated skills of increasing revenue in Physical Therapy to This Company in the Physical Therapy field. I don’t f00king know, all that sh1t’s gay. Just make your objective SHORT and EXACT as f00k because you gotta beat out 100 other people for this one job, and some of them will be from harvard, hahahaha. f00king sh1tstains.

 

REAL CRAP POST

thurs 8 22 551pm

this is overkill, but I am possessed. was minimally productive today, 8 hours of work, THANK GOD. And not an excessive amount of customers at all. Got some down time, THANK GOD. If you have a BORING JOB, then get down on your knees and THANK GOD. People would go 100k in debt, get 10 masters degrees, work 10000 hours unpaid, just to have a BORING job. Boring Job Is Best Job.

So I got to read a bunch of stupid news articles, hahaha, and that is the basis for my post here.

 

http://www.forbes.com/sites/jasonnazar/2013/07/23/20-things-20-year-olds-dont-get/

http://www.forbes.com/sites/susanadams/2013/07/31/the-biggest-mistakes-20-something-job-seekers-make-2/

http://www.forbes.com/sites/jennagoudreau/2012/04/24/why-we-need-to-take-20-somethings-seriously/

http://finance.fortune.cnn.com/2013/07/26/the-rise-of-the-mooching-millennial/

http://www.independent.co.uk/news/uk/home-news/slavery-in-the-city-death-of-21yearold-intern-moritz-erhardt-at-merrill-lynch-sparks-furore-over-long-hours-and-macho-culture-at-banks-8775917.html

heh. you can glean or “grok” the article titles and sources from the links. not really much to say, the bs “journalism” speaks for itself, and this is EXACTLY why I STOPPED reading “NEWS”.

Not that ALL of it is BS. The on forbes article said that the habits we develop in our 20s set the pattern for the rest of our lives. check out that slideshow, hahaha. those who spend their 20s underemployed, trying to Figure It All Out, Unambitious, well, they fall behind their peers, resumes get thin, unemployable, become losers, can’t get married or afford to have kids, wasted their most precious resource, get it done young or you’re done, “cubicle slaves” are happier because at least they have steady employment, etc.

Heh. well yeah I can see their point. I aspire to be one of those cubicle slaves one day. maybe in my 40s, hahahaha.

of course you should read the comments as well. always read the comments. not that the comments are not ultimately censored by the “news” agency, but still.

Heh so the True Facts about Wasting Your 20s Gave me Bad Feels for Wasting My 20s, thus I say, don’t read it, heh. But seriously. I gained NOTHING from reading that. LEARNED NOTHING. At least with EATING Junk Food or Doing Drugs, it FEELS good while you’re doing it. Reading those articles is JUST Masochism.

Or the Investment Banking Interns who work 100 hours a week just to Prove themselves, to compete for a High Paying Job. I say f00k it, I’d rather be a loser with a low-paying job who only works 40 hours a week at a boring, low-paying job. never attract a good wife, never start your own family, never stand on your own two feet, hahahaha.

But maybe the SMARTEST thing to do is to “mooch” off your parents and live with them til you’re 40.  Remember, this is only bad because The Mainstream Media says it is, hahaha. The Elite wants to put you in debt so they can enslave you! Living with your Baby Boomer Parents is a way for Millennials to Fight The Power!!! hehehehe.

Maybe the American Psychological Association can call it a Personality Disorder, that you are Codependent and Arrested in Development from Developing your Own Identity or something. Not Becoming An Adult. Shirking Adult Responsibilities. Easy for them to say, with their Well-Paying Jobs. Heh. I wanna see their monthly Budgets. Income versus Expenses. Let’s Get Real.

So what’s better: renting or buying a home.  throwing your money away, vs getting locked into a 30 year debt, but “building equity.”  Well obviously Mortgaging hasn’t worked out for sh1ttonnes of people. you’ve seen them, you might be one. bigger problem than Student Debt.  although defaulting on your home can be forgiven through declaring bankruptcy, so just do that, hahahaha.

solution: don’t go to college, don’t buy a house, live with your parents until you’re 40. heh heh. Or just don’t take out HUGE LOANS.

Something about The Future Value of Money. Or Total Cost Over Time of Renting vs Owning.

And then finding a Good Neighborhood with Good Skools for your Kidz (although Homeskooling them would OBVIOUSLY be IDEAL.) Heh. THIS is all the kind of stuff they should teach you in Skool, not “follow your dreams!!!”

So I see a LOT of cute 18 year old girls at the Local College. (Funny that someone who Hates College so much spends so much time there!) these girls are absolutely RIDICULOUS. I would NEVER let my daughter leave the house dressed like that. It just gets worse and worse every year. The pants get tighter, the shorts get shorter, and this becomes the “new normal.” You can’t tell the Sluts from the Nonsluts. Their shorts are SO SHORT you can see their Actual Bum poking out of the “leg” of the shorts.

Now, these are Barely Legal Prime Of Youth 18 year old girls. Of COURSE I get Erotically Stimulating looking at their insanely beautiful bodies. I think, I can’t even IMAGINE having S with a girl THAT Beautiful, then think about, well, there ARE guys who get to do that: younger guys, more alpha masculine guys. But I am Determined to one day again experience the Pleasure of a Beautiful Young Girl’s Beautiful Body. ALMOST as good as True Love, if you can’t manage to find True Love. Just Have S with Beautiful 18 Year Olds. Am I Wrong? Prove me wrong. You can’t prove it!

I make it a point never to say exactly how old I am, although you can sort of guess. I am DEFINITELY “Too old” to be Courting 18 year old girls, but I certainly don’t have any moral reservations against it, theoretically. I am just not confident or masculine enough to actually DO it.  But one day, I hope to be.

Made a Phone Call I had been stressing out about, went well, have 2 solid days off, so now I am in PARTY mode. In my Wasted 20s, I would have gone out and got Raging DRUNK, and or Smoked W33d. Heh. And that is why I am a loser now.

So now I am drinking Coffee, listening to music, and Blogging. Not doing Homework, not Jobsearching, not Making Phone Calls, not Working,  just a Lazy Layabout Moocher! Might watch a movie soon, in fact leaning toward it!

The real question, what do I do during Working Hours Tomorrow? Need a gun to the head to do anything. Ideally would go Clothes Shopping. Funny how I can put that off for months and months.

Ok. Enough about me. I am only this narcissistic because I know no other way. plus I find people Too Annoying to Be Around, would rather be Alone or with my Few Friends, although I am interested in hanging out with New 18 Year Old Girls, hahahaha. But that’s just because I’m a Man With Urges.

So what do I want you to do? Move back in with your Parents and start saving money and eliminating all your debts. give back the student loans, give back the mortgage, move back with your parents and save money. of course pay your share of the expenses there, but it will still certainly be cheaper than renting a place. if not, then just stay in the rented place.

Eh sorry about about the sh1te post.  next one will be better.