GOOD PEOPLE ARE ASHAMED WHEN THEY DO BAD THINGS

sat aug 12

IF YOURE NOT ASHAMED OF BEING A HUGE SLUT, WHAT ELSE ARE YOU NOT ASHAMED OF?

GOOD PEOPLE ARE ASHAMED WHEN THEY DO BAD THINGS.

saw this super qt young blond gurl i have seen about 3 to 4 times at public social event. i noticed her the first time i saw her, where she was sitting pretty near to us, and i was like wow that girl is super qt, but i think average guys would say meh she is ok but no big deal, maybe 6/10 hahahaha. a little Mousey.

i guess MOUSEY IS MY TYPE hahahahahahaha.

this is really the first time where i was like wow i SHOULD go talk to that woman and try to Ask Her Out On A Date hehehehe. the worst she can say is no.

but i would be 100% satisfied with her qt body and if she had a decent personality, WHICH IS NOT HARD TO DO, JUST BE NICE AND MAKE AN EFFORT NOT TO BE AN OBNOXIOUS BITCH, then I could see myself TOTALLY getting over and forgetting about That Woman. This Woman has the potential to replace and erase That Woman completely. would probably be an improvement if she’s not a mudshark and tries to not give silent treatment.

main qualm is that i have nothing to talk about and i am OLD and an omega male with several years of huge setbacks on muh career. she is maybe 8 to 10 years younger than me, and probably on the Average Path to a Middle Class Career. University, graduate at 21, get a decent entry level 30k job at 21, get a promotion and/or a grad degree by age 25, etc. what do you say to normie winners like this? what do you say when you have WEIRD INTERESTS that you cant talk about with normies, like jooish subversion of our culture, the future of huhwhyte people, plus women shouldnt be talking about political stuff anyway.

well ok i guess i could keep the conversation on the Common Interest we clearly have, and talk about careers in general, or her career, minimize talk about my career. talk about morality in broad general terms, like do no harm and dont treat people like shit, and Tinder Dating Culture is Gross, i hope you’re not into that. no i dont just want to “FOOK” you, I WANT to put in the due diligence and dating and extreme vetting in order to get to that point, and i dont WANT you to fook guys right away anyway. i mean you SHOULD be taking at least 6 months anyway.

the other thing is she really does look kinda YOUNG. i dont have a problem with that…..but ALL OF SOCIETY DOES, so she would be getting a lot of pressure, and prob a lot of her own personal preference to not date an old loser creeper, find a nice boy at college closer to her own age who didnt screw up so much in life, has a good career.

ideally, i would have talked to her that VERY FIRST DAY i noticed her and ASked Her Out On A Date then. now I’m THINKING about her and ALREADY building up a stupid FANTASY.

but you CAN tell something just by looking at people. not everything, but still some meaningful stuff. some poeple just LOOK LIKE dirty mudshark sluts. some women look young and innocent and nerdy and mousey, like they havent been with 100000 guys.

sure, some sluts can look innocent, especially the young cute ones, but they can’t hide that slutty c0khungry gaze forever. cold, dead, black eyes, like a dolls eyes hahahaha. damn disgusting sex addicts hahahahaha.

sex is very important and im very interested in it…..but i put it in a proper perspective! and realize it is in service of something even MORE important!!!!!!!

women might not UNDERSTAND this, but they dont NEED to, they just NEED to not be a slut. when something they cant understand is just in their bones and says no, i dont want to BEHAVE like a dirty slut, even if my peers do, even if tinder encourages it. im just not wired that way. nope. its gross. it doesnt feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel right. im not that kind of gurl. if some guy is a player pushing for secs, i dump him. i want to really get to know a guy first and i dont have secs unless we are In A Relationship.

DING DING DING WE HAVE A WINNER that is the correct answer. she doesn’t need to do on some bitter diatribe like you do about degeneracy and sin and the sanctity of human life and da joos and a culture of disposability and bla bla bla. you can gently push her towards that and then after 6 months of dating she can be a raging antijooish crusader with you hahahaha.

so what my plan hahahaha. take a shower next time i go, so i dont stink like a person who hasnt taken a shower in 3 days hahahahaha. dont talk about jooish degeneracy, dont say ive been staring at you the past 4 weeks, dont say im a neet omega 35 year old virgin who makes 13k a year. just emphasize the positives. say i am a nice person and a good person and want to meet a nice woman who is Compatible with me. I dont go in for Tinder Culture and you like to play this game i like to play and frankly you are kinda QT. For me. i dunno most other guys would think you are a 6.8 hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha like that neg?

but 6.8 is my 10 hahahaha. shit 6.8 is out of my league, im a 6 at best!

got first paycheck in 17 months hahahahaha. feels pretty good. someone who makes 13k a year should not be paying out 18% in taxes…..but really its only 9% in taxes and 9% in DEDUCTIONS like state pension / health care. which doesnt really benefit me at all. and social security hehehe. i have tried to minimize my state and fed income tax byt claiming allowance, or exemptions on the w4, which i never do, but now i am, because i would rather the money made .0000001% jooish interest for me, rather than go to uncle shmuley.

like to cut back on the coffee here hehehehe. i literally drink coffee all day, over a pot of coffee a day. it doesnt even have an effect on me any more. which is good as regards muh sensitive stomach, but uhhhh i would like to be more awake and alert and energized!!!!!

having a qt mousey 6.8, less than 10 guys gf would prob help with that hahaha.

go to therapy weirdo. hahahaha. well if you make 26k a year and dont go mad and have serious emotional probs that stop you from making 26k a year, be thankful, and prepare to live a Life Without Women.  and go to therapy for at least 10 years, thousands and thousands of dollars, before you are minimally qualified to date a disgusting pigwoman hahahaha. that’s how low your market value is.

i just hate this lie women tell t hat women are not aliens, they are just like men. well, it’s really a JOO lie, the women don’t know its a lie, they are just repeating jooish trash, they dont need to know any better.

but yeah. when i was friends with women, i was like, this is pretty nice, see women arent these weirdass ALIENS, theyre PEOPLE just like you and me.

of course, i didn’t have any Romantic Interest in them. when i DID, then came the whole ALIEN thing.

no, women arent technically aliens……UNTIL you want to interact with them in an Heterosexual, Dating, Relship, Intimate capacity. THEN they are total aliens. and you have to Learn and Use GAME hahahahaha.

aka BE MASCULINE.

if youre just trying to be friends with women, you need no game whatsoever. you can be a neet omega virgin.

then shit gets ridiculous when you start getting more than friendly feelings for your female friend.

just because Our Past makes us the Awesome People we are now, doesn’t mean you can’t be deeply ashamed of the horrible, degenerate, disgusting, shameful things you did in your past!

it’s not the PAST per se that makes you who you are, its you LEARNING from the MISTAKES you made and WORKING to become a better person! doesnt mean you should be HAPPY about those mistakes!!!! you can say, yeah that SUCKED, i was shitty, and I never want to be shitty like that again! NOT i fooked 10000000 guys and im not ashamed at all, i chose you, so you better accept my past!

i’ll accept your past once you REPENT for it.

NO REPENTANCE, NO ACCEPTANCE.

i will FORGIVE just about ANYTHING. my mercy and forgiveness is almost as infinite as GOD’S. but even GOD asks you to be REMORSEFUL for your sins. no you dont have to live in shame for years, but you DO have to realize what you did was WRONG, and genuinely, honestly be sorry for it, and willing to do a penance for it. Can you say this about your GF and her Slut Past? If not, be very afraid. because she’s not done with her slut past. its looking like a slut present and slut future. hell yeah you should judge, especially if she’s not going to!

im very judgmental of other people, but how about myself? EVEN MORE SO! you’re god damn right i am even MORE judgmental of myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woman wants to get revenge on her bf who legit betrayed her. i can totally understand revenge. but she wants to go too far for even a legit betrayal. like pushing the guy back into being a drinker, hurting his dying mother, even some say Ghosting is too much, Ghosting seriously fooks people up, don’t do it, its bad karma.

heh. my idea of revenge would be, just send all the noods and sex pictures they sent you, to their family members to show them what a slut they are. probably dont send the pictures to any family who is known to be super old, or dying, cancer, MS, etc. basically to mother and father, if they are not dying.

maybe plastering the noods all around her neighborhood. or sending them to her boss and colleagues. post on facebook wall.

or putting a bag of dog shit on their porch.

i mean i dont WANT revenge any more. i just want her to know what she did was WRONG, that it HURT me, and to be REMORSEFUL for it. also shes not a bad shitty person. so,more than likely, she DOES feel bad about it. well, that doesnt’ make me feel any better, because if she’s a good person, then i want to Be With Her!!!!!! and she is, and I do!

yeah well maybe this qt gurl at the game night is also a nice person. there are lots of good people out there. i tend to stay away from Bad People! that woman not a bad person, she was a pretty darn good person!

the people i associate with are good people! i would be hard pressed to name a single bad person that I actually know! if i get the intuition a person is a real piece of shit…..i stay away from them!

i mean i’ve know some Very Troubled people….but they are still Good people despite their flaws.

yet i WASTE all this time and energy THINKING about BAD people who don’t even really EXIST in my life!!!!!! these FICTIONAL degenerate sluts!

i mean they’re not strictly fiction….. but point is, iTS NOT WORF IT wasting time and energy thinking about this shit for more than 1 minute, unless i actually have a bad person or degen slut in my life giving me Issues!

so i waste a lot of time and energy, cause a lot of pain and anger, thinking about ABSTRACTIONS!!!!!! i mean these things really DO exist, but i tend to shun them in real life! even the sluts i’ve actually dealt with, i can’t say they were horrible people! just troubled and misguided!

heh. i was thinking about starting a Despair Forum where members pay x dollars and in return, they get a shrink or social worker who responds with expert advice every day, every thread. kind like Despair Forums only with an active team of experts who posted on all threads hahahaha.

maybe limited to men only.

i mean its sad. on /relships you see PLENTY of people with despair, or their gf or bf has issues with it, plenty of requests to Go To Therapy for Despair, yet if you look at /despair, its the shittiest sub ever. like, even shittier than /relships. for such a serious problem, it needs more serious discussion on reddit hahahahaha.

2016-12-30-13_24_12-sam-hyde-on-girls-in-college-kickstarter-tv-youtube

hehehe thats pretty funny

i guess this is a sign from GOD tellng me now is the time to become a sam hyde fan, sam is one of ussssssssss……

well i believe sam is a grad of RISD, ie a very top tier art skool, and he is prob butthurt because it didnt make him any money and he is 3000000000$ in debt now hahahahaha. well if THAT doesnt wake you up to the jooish college scam, nothing will. and there are THOUSANDS of college educated middle class shitlibs who are 50k in college debt and still LUV joos and blax and muslims and gays and cheating and abortions. at least sam has seen the light. id like him for him to seriously come out and say “I AM A HUHWHYTE NATIONALIST” but pretty sure he is anyway hahaha.

i just enjoy serious honest interviews more than “playing a character” for comedy. and of course you can be witty and funny in your serious interviews. shit i think he has done some normal talks, i just dont have the time to listen to his 6000000000000000000000000000000 vidyas hahahaha.  i mean i would like if the SPLC just did a report on him already, sam hyde is a WN racist terrorist hahahaha. i mean besides all the school shootings he did hahahahahaha. the fact he got his tv show on adult swim for even a month is insane.

i mean, i see attractive young women pretty regularly…..but rarely do i feel the urge that I SHOULD REALLY APPROACH THAT WOMAN. I will regret not approaching her.

when really i should be bold like a negro and approach every woman i find attractive, which, as i say, is a decent number. well, it wont be after all these 18-21 year old white gurls go back to ((((COLLEGE)))) hehehehe.

they dont need to understand how jooish it is. they just need to not DO THE JOO hahahaha. dont have tinder sex. dont treat people like garbage or objects. dont JOO people.

so GOD is calling me to talk to this gurl somehow. honestly the thing that concerns me most is that she looks really YOUNG. i dont have a problem with that, but the whole world does. if she is like 22 years old, yeah i risk looking like a real CREEPER in public. like why the hell am i interested in a CHILD hahahaha. yeah well fook that. shes a super qt gurl and i am a Single Man. in my heart i know its all right hahahaha. its not like she is 16 or even 18.

besides when i first became friends with that woman, she was 22 hahahahahaha. a CHILD.

really trying to improve my Mint system, and i have. trying to eliminate vague categories like “groceries” or “shopping.” because it had automatically moved stuff from the local supermarket or amazon or paypal or target into one of these categories when something like “clothing” is much more descriptive and useful. shoes, gratitude for fam, coffee, food, etc. books.

heh. i could make up a little business card with a link a Dating Website that i could give to that young woman for her to learn more about me than i can give in a 30 second elevator speech hahahaha. a nontinder nondating website profile hahaha. a general social website. like facebook. but not because i am not on facebook hahahaha. because i am creepy about womenhahahaha.

basically women on Dating Sites go on a lot of Dates, even on the rare chance they are not having lots of gross slutty secs with a lot of sleazy dudes. at the very least, they are going on lots of DATES and sitting through HOURS of guys trying to entertain or interest or impress them. that is a lot of competition. you have to be more interesting than all these guys. guys who have had a LOT more dating and women experience than you. you think, jeez, i wish there were some OTHER way to meet women, i just dont want to meet the types of women who use dating sites. therefore, you have to find women in the Wild who dont look like dating site sluts, and approach them. realizing they could very well still use dating sites and be huge sluts even if they dont LOOK like it hahahahahaha. like That Woman. did not look like a mudshark or a dating site woman, but she was a mudshark and on okcupid and probably tinder.

in her defense, she wasn’t all in on any of those things. she had just dipped the toe in. she could have EASILY turned back. being a decent person, she probably did, and married a nice white boy, gave him many children, and they lived very happily ever after.

https://radio.therightstuff.biz/2016/12/28/rebel-yell-150-sexual-utopia-in-power-f-roger-devlin/

heh i have known about devlin for YEARS, ever since bernard talked about him YEARS ago. little did i know that devlin was proto-alt-right! but yeah i should buy devlins books already. great guy with great perspective on WOMEN. not sure if he has great advice for normal men to find decent women. wish he would talk more about that. maybe he does in this interview. good that he says yes to appearing on a TRS podcast.

http://www.radixjournal.com/journal/2016/12/20/cultural-enrichment-and-sexual-competition

took benedryl.

that feel when you have been using your gf as an “emotional beast of burden” without being aware, and she resents you for it, and says youre very immature and need lots of therapy, but in reality you’re well within your rights, and she should be your beast of burden in this situation by just giving you some comfort when your parent is dying and you are sad. but now you are immature and need therapy.

thankfully reddit agreed that the gf was being rdiculous and immature and he didnt’ necess need therapy just because he vented at her once and was a BUZZKILL at that time.

hehehe i have had severe derpression for almost half muh life and i would never think of doing this to a person, giving them a bullshit ultimatum like that! a guy who would act like this could never get a gf in the first place!

thankfully reddit gave good advice. they DO give good advice 50% of the time!

woman ghosted  by man. i took it alot worse than this hahahaha.

good god. making good money at age 24 AND getting a full ride scholarship and hes not even finished with uni? getting a total POS for a gf when he DESERVES a nice white waifu.

smokin MJ and listen to saor, fuath….and gris again hahahahaha.

DO WOMEN HAVE ANY AGENCY WHATSOEVER

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Your BMI is: 26.0
Target weight range: 118.1 lbs – 159.6 lbs
YOU   26.0
Under Healthy Over Obese
B.M.I.
Body Mass Index less – 18.5      18.5 – 25.0      25.0 – 30.0       30.0 – more

Weight RangeRightarrow
118.1 lbs      159.6 lbs         191.6 lbs

make sense of that or youre fired. make sense of many weird looking things like that without help, training, or assitance, or youre fired.  hhaahahaha. also explain the shit to laymen. like yourself. but its your job to be in the know.

come on. people not as sharp (smart) as me get jobs, i was smarter than 68% of people at my last job, which required you to be PRETTY SMART just to SURVIVE in the wilderness, the baptism by fire. but more imporatnt than being smart is being COOL UNDER PRESSURE and CHILL and “go with the flow”…….which i am defnitely NOT, to my own peril and failure an despaire and misery hahahaha.

ok gotta go fatclub now

http://intervention-directory.com/

intervention is the best and only show of its kind but it still has glaring flaws imho, namely not long enough episodes, not enough attention to rehab and recovery and follow up. although they do keep track of the people and have like a 70% recovery rate which is pretty good. but some of us really want to know what happened to these interesting memorable people. this website is a “fan made” thing which appears to aim to catalog that information. sometimes the people who were in the episode leave comments or people who know them post updates.

that feel when you had a lot of potential but wasted it and you would fail the psych test to get into certain jobs like military, police, maybe fire, maybe nursing

yeah i also feel like ill never find a better woman. i mean she was young, nice, attractive, not a slut, no kids, no tattoos, chilled out, low number of men, no drug addiction, no raep or being abused. when i am ever gonna meet a woman this high quality ever again? her composite/overall score is super high hahaha. lots of good qualities. at first i thought she had too many family issues, but altogether, she really didnt.

oh well. i cant convince her to “take me back.”

because theres nothing to go back to. we NEVER HAD a rel in that way. we NEVER HAD that kind of rel, where she was heavily invested in me as a luver. nope. we were JUST FRIENDS. and i dont want to go back to JUST FRIENDS.  just wanted to be treated like a human being by someone i had serious feelings for.

but yeah it seems most women are MUCH more damaged than her: bastard kids, lots of partners, certifiably insane with cutting and eating disorders; raepd or molested by someone; abusive family. or maybe ive just been watching and reading INTERVENTION too much! not all people are like that!

nto that that makes them bad people, it just makes them undateable to me. but then again I am pretty undateable hahahaha.

yeah i gotta stop reading all these interventions. tragic terrible lives. doesnt make them bad people tho hahaha but i was watching and theres like a 25 year old heroin or meth addict with bastard babies and batshit crazy but she still may be somewhat attractive and then i think YEP she would be out of my league because shes ATTRACTIVE hahaahah.

but yeah i hate how muh confidence is at an all time low. just an absolute all time low. i was not a huge winner but i was the biggest winner id ever been in 10 years: FT job, making over 12 DAH, working with other men my age and older. this was a grown mans job.

i was close with a woman who met all muh high standards and we had a good decent rel….until i fell in luv with her.

i was doing a ridiculous and challenging job that pushed me to my limits every day, and very often rising to the challenge.

and now thats all gone. ALL of it. heh. i may never make 15 DAH ever again hahaha. it aint easy. you gotta work HARD for that money, and when i say work hard, i mean, its like somebody throwing something at you all day saying “THINK FAST!!!!” and then they throw you a snake, chainsaw, flaming torches, a 10000 pound weight, a bomb, an aborted fetus, a 10000000 dollar vase, a machete, a bottle of acid or the type of thing that will explode when you drop it. THINK FAST! CATCH THIS!!!!

all the while trying to communicate to the person that ITS OK, I KNOW WHAT IM DOING, when you are thinking GOOD LORD I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IM DOING! I CANT DO THIS! HOW AM I GONNA DO THIS? I HAVENT BEEN TRAINED FOR THIS! WHY WAS OUR TRAINING SO WOEFULLY INADEQUATE! PLEASE TRAIN US MORE!!!!!

yeah thats what i hated the most, was the unexpected nature, and the constant fooking confusing of I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT IS GOING ON OR WHAT TO DO HERE and then having to fake your way through this all the time.

BUT I DID IT!

old unsafe link to fatherland podcast, see sidebar for proper link. this is when i first discovered the fatherland 6 months ago. still listen to it very regularly.

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oh this is great. found this on TRS forum, hopefully they get promoted to front page of TRS. podcast on being an “alt right” father from alt right men who are actually married and have kids. and arent hateful neet virgins. they can probably advise on selecting a good wife too.

anyway the point i wanted to beat to death now was that we ACTUALLY GOT ALONG WITH EACH OTHER, and it hurts to lose that. it wasnt a going through the motions charade, like when your whole rel lasts 2 months. you can be nice to each other and have secs, but you cant really get along with eachother because you dont really KNOW a pesron in 2 months.

i KNEW her and GOT ALONG with her and there wasnt the stupidity and stress of secs to rush our rel through a Short Charade of a Rel, beginning middle end within 2 – 3 months. i hate that shit.

i should be watching more of sam hyde, of course hes on my radar.

i feel like i am defending myself before a court of women who would say well she did this FOR A REASON, you cant blame it all on HER, you were pushing her and she felt betrayed, so, it makes sense she would do this.

well first of all no women are really sitting in judgment of me on this, that court of women is all in my mind.

second, i didnt have expectations of her returning my luv. i predicted she wouldnt. i DID have an expectation that we could discuss this issue like adults who had a history of friendship and really knowing each other and getting along with eac other. so then we sit down, discuss it, and agree that she cannot do this, but end the rel with “no hard feelings.” or at least not a MAXIMUM of hard feelings.

she KNEW i was upset, i could have gone and Kd myself gods sakes. not that i ever SAID anythign like that. but she knew i was upset and didnt do anything to try to decrease that.

i dunno. i just dont want future women i deal with to DEFEND her, and act like I didnt try to empathize with her.

talk abotu getting ahead of yourself!

i would say, we had a good rel, we really got along well, then I developed feelings, and tried to talk about it with her, but unfortuantely she didnt want to talk and then just cut off the rel right then and there, and i was very hurt. period. the end.

also the idea of when you can feel the balance of power shifting. usually this comes with one person investing more, being more committed, having feelings the other person doesnt have, needing/loving the other person more. then the lose power, the other person has more power, and then they dont like that, and they leave you. hehehehe.

well if they are a woman. it seems men have less problem staying in a rel where the woman loves them more; the man will just keep them around rather than dump them.

837 calories for breakfast hahahaha. then a 705 calorie burning session at fatclub. the good news is i have no anxiety about going there.

the eternal question: should you have kids with a nonwhite nonslut who does share your values, vs a white slut who does not? for a man who is fairly race conscious and doesnt really WANT mixed kids, but white kids!

the obvious answer is none of the above. im not sure my white buddies are saying MAN UP AND WIFE THOSE HUWHYTE SLUTS!!!! they would say, none of the above, keep going till you find a white woman WORTH wifing up.

chip and joanna gaines. so i watch hgtv, so sue me. he’s white, SHE is obviously mixed but still bretty attractive. i would not turn dat ass down if she were giving it to me. but would i have little quadroon kids with her like he has?

One of her staff got back to me with “Joanna is 1/2 Korean, 1/4 Lebanese, and 1/4 German.” says yahoo hahahaha.

so, 1/4 white hahahaha. hmmm and i thought she might be as much as 1/2 white!

well some lebanese look sort of white i guess. or maybe BOTH of her parents were each korean mixes hahahaha. i can tell you that korea sounds like a horrible culture which warps the minds of its people who probably bring some of that mentality when they come to the US hahaha.

http://www.drlaura.com/

dr laura might be a good source of traditional, nondegenerate life advice.

http://www.drlaura.com/b/Am-I-Anti-Female/475.html

” Now, women have largely become “pigs.” Instead of embracing modesty, pride, values, and self-value, they parade around showing their bodies like Playboy bunnies, have sex before “hello,” shack up with men without marital commitment, make babies on their own (declaring that men/fathers aren’t necessary), use abortion as birth control, and don’t imagine feminine sweetness has any place in marriage and are bored with sex with their husbands but turn on to every other Tom, Dick, and Harry. That is why men have little respect for women these days.   ” NOICE

i was out “socializing” last night and some young woman made a remark like how come guys can be a manwhore and they think thats cool, but a woman gets with a lot of guys and shes a slut. it was a silver platter delivery for my moment to mansplain on my favorite topic. but the girl was kinda annoying and not super attractive, but young and white. i didnt get the vibe that she was actually a huge whore but who knows.

http://www.drlaura.com/b/Sex-as-a-Commodity/818.html

old forum post

heh that stefan molyneux culture of critique pic i was lookin for

watching a washington POST livestream of big trump rally in bernie sanders ville and see a guy saying the 14 words in teh chatbox lol. washington post. just a standard trump rally. seeing race realists representing. NOICE.

Men could impregnate 400+ women in the time it takes one woman to have one baby. and that is assuming only 2 women per day. anyway point is, thats why its so EGREGIOUS when a woman has casual sex

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i dunno. have always been insecure in muh masculinity, never felt like a real man, which has impacted everything. jobs and women and life.

questioning how much agency and responsibility and accountability women really have. basically this means it is all my fault for getting dumped, because i did not LEAD the woman they way i was SUPPOSED to. standing up to shit tests, putting the woman in her place, saying this is the way its gonna be, putting my foot down, leading, being a REAL MAN, not an indecisive pussy. i needed to be an anchor and use a STRONG HAND to guide her. so i lost her because i was weak and unmanly. and i cant blame her for not showing agency, because it was MY job to show agency. as the woman, she can only show agency if I show agency……and i did not.

well, i showed a LITTLE bit eventually. but it was too little too late.

google hugless virgin hahahaha

oh wow shit is getting real with these cologne rapefugee attacks.  apparently twitter is doing some admin backend shit to minimise the #rapefugee hashtag because its racist and yurop needs to welcome more #rapefugees in order to stop this rape crisis hehehehe.

things are getting pretty exciting politically/socially/culturally, the new current year is obviously the year of the “alt right”. this stuff is bigger than i have ever seen it and i have been following it for at least 5 or 6 years hahahaha.

anyway YEAH i should have been more manly and used my Patriarch Hand….but i still think she could have been a LITTLE better. it doesnt take THAT much agency to write an email. well i wrote LONG emails and LONG emails are WEIRRRRRDDDDD.

and i cant even write her off as a cheap loose fat slut with mud kids and bad tattoos and etc…..cuz shes not. she just doesnt know how to deal with men cuz she has no real father.

#rapefugees hahahahaha and white leftist feminists can look the other way when white women get raped, see the brown muslim rapeugees are just punching UP so its ok.

anyway it seems more and more than mgtow and mra stuff is just the flipside of feminists, and its so stupid to be divide and conquer against women.

think of it this way: it makes much more sense to be anti other races, than to be anti WOMEN. women are not your enemy, the people trying to destroy your race are the enemy. this is why i moved to racialism from “meninism.”  becuase i still want to luv women. so the beauty of the white wimmin does not perish from the earth hahaha.

but yeah i wish i had more than 1 female friend. i mean females are different but i dont know how different they are. i mean just the fact that i could get along with a woman so well. i didnt do anything special or play any kind of game. it just HAPPENED very very naturally. no roosh pick up stuff, no negs, no DHVs or PUA stuff. just normal non autistic becoming friends and getting to know u.

and i just dont like the SUPER DUPER patriachal thing where you absolve women of all their sins because they dont know what theyre doing, they dont have angecy, they are like puppies or infants.

yeah they are more emotional and many of them are STUNTED mentally at age 16 forever…..but i didnt think she was hahahahahaa. i did hold her to a higher standard cuz i honestly thought she was better than that.

ok fatclub time.