WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT YOU

mar 12

got up early on a sunday, couldnt sleep, had strange dreams i was trapped in some high rollers gambling competition where i couldnt get out. i also couldnt get in on the “free hookers” that were mingling around. it was like musical chairs and they were always all occupied. if i left the party early, i would either be killed, or i would be tied to the company permanently. i didnt want that, i just wanted to leave.

everyone else was having a great time, gambling and doing coke and opoids and banging hookers and were all wall street types. if you gambled wrong, you would be escorted out and killed. i would rather not gamble at all because it was so confusing. it was like taxes. you had to report the correct amount of winnings or taxes, and if your numbers didnt agree with “the house”, they’d kill you. no one else seemed to be worried. the gambling money was coming from some bigass wall street swindle by the jooish bankers and we were invited to gamble with this money stolen from peoples retirement funds. i didnt care about the gambling, i didnt know how i got invited, i just wanted to wait until it was time to leave, because i couldnt leave early, and maybe enjoy some opioids and hookers to pass the time, but I couldnt get ahold of either, though they seemed freely available to all the happy gamblers. i wandered around and asked an attractive hooker, wanna fook, and she said, only if i get to fook you too, how big does your asshole stretch, implying that she was gonna “peg” me with a brutal dildo hahahaha. i cringed and was like no thank you, not interested, i guess we shant be fooking then, hahahahaha.

lots of interesting symbolism and themes in this dream!

im like, i wouldnt MIND gambling, if i knew this money wasnt some Big White Collar Crime from hard working mericans, which was probably why the stakes were so high, and you were basically signing your life away. couldnt leave, had to stay with this crooked company for life, unless you stayed until the final round of gambling, which didn’t make sense, which made me less confident to try to gamble, because if you made a mistake in your self-reporting you’d be killed too. so i figured, just wait it out until the end of this long night while everyone else has fun, and maybe try to score some of the drugs and hookers that seem to be plentiful. but they werent, for me.

i was like shit i didnt ask for any of this. i’d be perfectly happy with some MJ and a 35 year old hooker and some micro-stakes gambling with my own money. how the hell did i get here.  i didnt sign up for this. this is horrible.

i still have weird jooish fetishes. like i will see a commercial with a woman i think is hawt, then look up the womans name, becuase these are not big name actresses, even if the companies are kinda big. acting in commercials is prob jus tone step up from porn hahaha. or from shitty “direct to dvd” movies or syfy channel movies nobody will ever watch.

so there is this booking.com commercial with this flustered female schoolteacher who cant wait to go to her relaxing mexico vacation. and when she says booking.yeah she looks really hot and i really want to bang the shit out of her hahahahaha.

maybe i like horse faced women, i really think thats it. mousey and horse faced.

heres a less jooish money shot picture

and i wish i were touching her body and plowing her and she was making the horsey o face hnnnngggggg

this is of course contrasted with her very mousey flustered self in the classroom

which is a whole other tangent, that teaching children isnt the wonderful career she thought it would be, which im sure it isn’t, but its also frustrating to see a woman stuck in a shitty career, and also frustrating to see a woman who doesn’t like children.

there are at least 3 different phases of hawtness when she says the one word yeah, which makes me think the woman has a lot of practice in manipulating men with her facial expressions to get them wrapped around her little finger, meaning that she knows many men find her attractive even though she’s 30 AND mousey AND horsey.

lot of things to unpack here hahahahahaha

be sure to read the comments by offended teachers saying this mocks their profession. not surprised to see those. it kinda does. kinda surprised the ad geniuses didnt say, this is really gonna offended teachers. maybe they decided that was a risk worth taking. because this ad will be gone in 1 month anyway and all the teachers will forget they’re boycotting the company.  and other people will find the actress hawt.  i was just trying to find her name so i could find more pictures of her and see if she is hwyte, or jooish.

the commercial was directed by jared hess who did the napoleon dynamite movie hahaha but cant find the name of the actress.

Who Is Sara Bynoe?

ok her name is sara bynoe, a “comedienne” from vancouver BC

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm2045120/

she has a masters degree in creative writing hahahahahaha maybe she can become a part time college instructor

well i cant tell if shes a joo but shes definitely a degen with a filthy mouth who has probably taken over 20 cox. this little mousey horsey woman who in a better time would have been a 1-man woman and mother. is now out drinking and slutting it up doing a writing, comedy, and acting career. oh gawd.

there is some other thirsty guy leaving message on her instagram saying she is just so hawt and he had to find out who she was. looks like i have some competition!

she looks like she could possibly be some kind of nonwhite mix. bynoe. wtf kind of name is that.

Bynoe Name Meaning Origin unidentified. It is a well-established name in Barbados, and may be of Irish origin.
Source: Dictionary of American Family Names ©2013, Oxford University Press

barbados? irish? so youre saying she’s half black????

how can you not know if the name is irish or not. i thought the irish were pretty good about that sort of thing. unless they were too busy getting drunk and eating potatoes and having their women bang negros hahahaha.

and the sad thing is, to date a 30 year old woman who’s still attractive you gotta make at LEAST 60k a year. what do you think the average income is of the guys she dates? besides the charming young wannabe actors making under 30k who she has casual secs with hahahaha. might as well just be one of those anyway because this is no longer the type of woman you want to marry. Sad!

and there are already plenty of other guys just like me, who said, you know, that gurl in that commercial is hawt, who is she?

so yeah sara bynoe if u read this and want a REAL man to show you a REAL good time, let me know. by that i mean i will fook you HARD not like a wimpy sissy beta niceguy bitchboi fuccboi. i will tear you in HALF and LEAVE while you are sleeping.

maybe its because she SORTA looks liek That Woman? Both mousey and horsey? yet not stumpy, decent legs, big eyes, big mouth, horsey and mousey? i think this is just my type, not because she reminds me of That Woman. That Woman had better hair and skin anyway. and was probably younger.

horsey and mousey. i guess that kinda looks like the stereotypical female Schoolteacher right? but even a Schoolteacher would be out of my league because that represents a level of Career Success which is WAY above me.

Maybe a Sub making 13 bucks an hour, no bennies, no health care. but very soon these people will be too young for me. i mean you literally can’t be failing at your career FOREVER. you have to move up within like TEN years or else youre DONE. might as well pack it in, GIVE UP, and become an MJ addict hahaha.

she looks worse when she is wearing tons of makeup, but she no doubt thinks this makes her look professional and smart or whatever. nope. shoulda just got married to chad when you were 18 honey.

sad thing is, chad probably dumped her or worse cheated on her, and she’s spent the rest of her life trying to get revenge on him by living The Good Life. thing is, she hasn’t. she’s just become a worse person for it all. drinking, fooking, getting useless degree, being a narcissist F-level wannabe celebrity in vancouver only, probably has at least 2 cats in her apartment and drinks too much but still manages to pull alphaish men at age 30….but not for committed rels.

and to think SHE is OUT OF MUH LEAGUE! in GLR’s american average white men would be able to pull a woman like her, back before she had taken 20 cox and had 20 abortions!

even women that dont look like they would be huge sluts, kinda horsey and mousey, but also kinda qt despite that…….are still huge sluts that have been with 10+ guys hahahaha. like how that number keeps getting lower? well yeah because 10+ guys is still WAY too much!

but its a more REALISTIC number than 20…..which isn’t all that unrealistic either. 10 is even more realistic, but also UNACCEPTABLE. DO BETTER.

right now she would be great to use as a Practice Gurl just so you get comfortable and good at Fooking and at dealing with a womans bullshit, so you can pull a better woman later. but she’s STILL too good for you hahaha. you are not good enough to practice on a practice gurl, except maybe once, where you will prob fall in luv with her and never get over. never get over chad mcnormieton’s practice gurl.

also the fact that this drunk bipolar narcissistic catlady slut is better at Adulting than you, so what does that make you? she’s BETTER than you hahahaha.  you have no place to judge her for being a crazy slut because shes better at LIFE than you. more responsible, harder WORKER, better ADJUSTED.

shit if i had gotten more involved with Theatre I prob could have banged a few sluts like that, had them as practice gurls. but i never went in far enough with theatre to pull the theatre sluts. i guess its just as well because theatre sluts are not great people hahahaha.

i guess the good news is i dont have to go to vancouver to find women like this, they are right in my own town. and i can probably find one who is a 40 year old single mother who still looks bangable, and then bang them. that shouldnt be out of muh league hahahaha.

what the hells wrong with minnesota. you’d think it would be a nice hwyte state but for the past 20 years they have been importing more africans and arabs than just about any other state. stay away from minnesota and just go to montana or idaho instead. or eastern WA hahahahaha.

today i actually thought about well maybe i SHOULD contact that woman. nothing big. just a short message. hey how you doin. fishing basically. reopen the wound and try again after a long time has passed and she has gotten lower in value basically but i’ll never fully get over her hahahaha.

thankfully i decided no thats a horrible idea. but if i were drinking or doing MJ, i might think its a gamble worth taking!

yeah MJ compromises your decision making. logic, reason, etc. yet another reason not to do it. so i say, ok, then i promise not to make any big decisions while using it hahaha.

but when you are using it EVERY DAY…… arent you sort of ALWAYS under the influence of it?

OF COURSHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://archive.org/details/1966PlayboyInterview

1966 playboy interview with commander rockwell and roots/malcolm x biographer alex haley. he had already published TTTW and would be tragically assassinated in 67. he uses The N Word about 6 gorillion times hahahahaha.  thats fine, just wish he used the K word even more. i dont really use the n word all that much and am perfectly fine just saying negros or blacks. unless i am in the ghetto around a bunch of n words, and i try to avoid those situations hahahaha.

looked at adult friend finder to find 35 year old sluts for casual secs in my area. saw a bunch of degen pictures. and unfort you have to PAY to message or view anyones profile. 20 damn bucks a month. i would maybe pay 10 bucks a month. there were what appeared to be a number of bangable 35 to 40 year old sluts in my area. even some under 30s!

there were a lot of swingers/couples. no thanks! i mean yeah maybe ill bang your faithless wife but i dont want any pervert guys watching!

and god forbid any woman who was ever on this site wants to marry a man at any point! that should be on your wife questionairre. have you ever put yourself on an adult themed dating site?

i would go on okcupid but i dont want to see HER. so i can just exclude any women under like 27 hahahaha. but i dont really want to do that. i would totally bang other 27 year olds! shit i remember when she was 22.

i mean i could block her the second i see her. but i dont want to see her even for a SECOND!

ideally she would be so fat, old, and haggard i wouldnt even recognize her!

just remember. your perfect angel, who you want to be the mother of your children, is just a cheap slut practice gurl bending over and showing her asshole to sleazy strangers on adult friend finder.com and has been with over 100 guys easily. and you were FOOLED enough to want to commit your LIFE to THAT trash. how emotionally COMPROMISED can you GET? thats even worse than being on WEEEEED!!!!!!

or plenty of successful people have probably, over their lifetimes, ultimately sm0ked more MJ than YOU did!! and they are just fine!!!!

heh. its possible that women are more naturally suited to Motherhood than Men are Naturally suited to Fatherhood. so its all the worse that they go around showing their assholes on the internet for casual buttsecs with ruffians and opioid addicts and smooth talkin negroes.

maybe i shouldnt have looked at adult friend finder for even the 5 minutes that i did because it made me have a negative view of women as dirty whores!

but i was specifically LOOKING for dirty whores, becuase i’m kinda looking for a PRACTICE GURL to PRACTICE on, because if i found a GOOD woman, i wouldnt be READY for her!

dont get BUTTHURT at the PRACTICE GURLS, just manage your expectations of what they are and what you want from them! you’re not looking for them to be decent women! youre just looking for a little quid pro quo! this is like calculus 1 as a prerequisite for calculus 2.

well i could have just been more DOMINANT and that would have improved the situation, and i dont HAVE to bang practice gurls to become more dominant.

i just wish i had more of a natural urge to BE MASCULINE AND DOMINANT, the way women have a natural feminine urge to be submissive and be dominated by a strong man. why dont i want to be that strong man? well i KIND OF DO!!!!!!

on the extremely rare occasions i feel like a strong, confident man, it feels really GOOD. its not necessarily “DOMINATING” someone. maybe the word “DOMINATING” is a bti confusing. how about Strong, Confident Leader.  i have hardly any experience feeling like that that it feels weird when i feel it, which is hardly ever. like easily less than .000000000001% of the time. but i can safely say i would grow to enjoy that feel.

this weird guy i was acquaintances with last about 14 years ago suddenly emailed me with a weird brief messaging asking if i wanted to Hang Out. it is so weird i am thinking somebody just hacked his email and sent shit out to everybody he had ever sent an email to. people have hacked emails before.

if it is a legit thing, the nonweird thing to do would be to acknowledge the weirdness and try to act normal. but no. he seemed as weird as he ever was. he had a weird fixation on me but i hung out with him because i was lonely and felt beggars couldnt be choosers and it was only fair for me to him to hang out with him if he wanted to see me. this was 14 fookin years ago.

but he was a weird guy. not a BAD guy but i am 100% certain he had SOMETHING: borderline, bipolar, narcissism. He honestly seemed BORDERLINE!!! possib the only male i’ve ever know with it.  he’s not a bad guy, but he needed a shrink and meds even more than I did. Last I heard he got a bigboy job but found it unfulfilling and was drinking too much. this was many years ago. at least he was able to get a bigboy job. more than i ever could do.  i mean he was no dummy. he was smart, but possib more unhinged and weird that I am. whatever this kid has, its COMPLICATED. my shit is very simple by comparison.

so i quickly deleted the email. but then i thought, HOLY SHIT, what if this is how THAT WOMAN viewed MY attempts to communicate with her, and she viewed me as weird and crazy like i view this guy??!?!?!?!?!?!? I would HATE to be seen like that.

even though I dont hate the guy. I just want him to live his own life and get some damn professional help which i am not willing to give hahaha.

but want to think that we had a much more Two-Way Rel with me and that woman than I did with him, where he had more interest in me than I had in him. Indeed, it could have even been a latent homosexual thing on his part.

but i realy want to think that the rel i had with that woman was more natural and two-sided and mutual and HEALTHY and good than the weird “friendship” i had with him. i guess he wanted to be my friend but i didnt really want to be his friend.

maybe That Woman was my Karmic Payback of how I rejected HIM hahahahaha.

but i didnt really Throw Him Away. also i hate to think i was as weird to her as he was to me. i mean this guy was always pretty weird. he’s not a horrible person but just so goddamn weird. and i didnt want to be THAT weird to ANYBODY. especially HER.

my rational mind says, youre right, this is apples and oranges, it was a totally different situation, and no she didnt view you like you view HIM, or even if she did, at least I’m confident that i wasn’t THAT Weird.

so….we’ll conclude with that and i will get back to my poker and nazi book hahahaha.  and hope this was just a hack/spam.

i mean if not then he hasnt become any less weird in the past 14 years. i mean shit at least i have gotten better at presenting myself to others, playing close to the vest so to speak, figuring out how to seem at least somewhat normie.

my diagnosis for him would be bipolar, possibly borderline, possibly bits of schizophrenia even. i should be thankful i’m not that fooked up. but he can manage to Adult and get GF’s and stuff. but he would also be just as liable to throw all that away in some kind of psychotic break. it did not seem like garden variety anxiety and despair with him, like it was with me. yeah we are both nuts but in totally diff ways.

but yeah i dont want that woman to think i am a pitiful weirdo like that. id much rather she felt bad about her own immaturity.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gerald_L._K._Smith

GLR said this guy was the greatest speaker he ever heard

https://archive.org/details/meinkampf035176mbp

reading MK by AH changed GLR’s life, maybe I should finally read it too hahaha

the type of book that you cant stop reading, that when you finish it, you turn right back to the first page and read it again. i have never done this with a book. wont even do it with GLR’s book, and it is a topkek book.

GLR is transferred to iceland where he suggests that secs is very easy to get and the women are promiscuous as shit. so why did he fall for that icelandic woman. i mean really neet virgins should just go to iceland for easy secs with young whyte qt’s. what does he really think about their promiscuity tho? what would AH think?!?!?!?!

http://www.heretical.com/pubs/fabledh.html

i forgot GLR did the fable of the ducks and the hens, which i confuse with the fable of the scorpion and the frog hahaha

ok he did think they went too far: quote ” The whole atmosphere at Keflavik International Airport was evil and unwholesome, depressing and disgusting. I reacted by almost total asceticism. There was no half-way about it, as could be seen all around me. I refused to touch a drop of liquor. I went to only those parties which my position in the squadron demanded. I ran over a mile a day and exercised to keep in condition and I devoted myself wholly to study, thinking and writing.  ”

he ran A MILE A DAY hahahahahahaha to keep in shape. that is hilarious. now when most “runners” pride themselves in running like a damn marathon a day.

also his wife was bitchy to him and essentially dumped him, and he was heartbroken. he did not CHEAT on her with the icelandic woman. i dont know how big of a slut she was. also GLR officially condemns no-fault divorce, as he should, as any hwyte person should. i just wish he called them out on their jooish behavior not befitting hwyte men and women.

also he said that good liquor was very cheap. i thought everthing was super expensive in iceland. well i mean i am sure things have changed since 1951. but iceland is always an interesting country.

about 40% done with the book so far. seems like his icelandic wife is much better than his american wife, who he pitied for not being able to enjoy being a full woman. then his icelandic wife got very jealous whenever he said a tiny sympathetic thing like that about his ex-wife. he had 3 kids with his ex-wife and i think he had 3 kids with his icelandic wife. what happened to these children and their children?

also she was ok with him being pro-hwyte and anti-jooish. he was still a career military man but had been redpilled on the Jaycue by me1n struggle hehehe.

his first wife demanded $400 a month in alimony. in 1953. holy shit. and he didnt even bitter hate her. i would have for that! that would turn any man into a woman hater! but not GLR. he just pitied her.

the icelandic woman is still alive right now and like 88 years old hehehe.

commander rockwell, what a great man.

you shouldnt expect most people to understand the JQ. i would like if more people shunned J filth when they saw it though, just realized it it was BAD, not necess bc it was J’ish. they seize on bad things bc they know they can use it as weapons against the g0yim. make bad things look attractive: vidya, porn, drugs, try it, its fun and harmless, g0y. you’ll love it and its not bad for you. even though its worse than smoking.

mar 13

just waiting around to go to shrink and today i had decent epiphany:

WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT YOU

which, let me MANSPLAIN. a lot to unpack there. sure weve all heard this advice before. it doesnt matter what other people think about you. dont worry about it. who cares. it doesnt matter.

but thats WAY easier said than done, because in some cases, it really really really DOES matter!!!!

you are invested, connected, and attached to a person, and you care ALOT about what they think about you, and you HOPE that THEY care what YOU think about THEM!

you can see what im getting at here.

I really cared what That Woman thought about me. i didnt want her to think i was an awful horrible person. because then i might just BE a horrible person. her view of me mattered a lot to me because well thats what luv is, ya moron. you want them to think good of you. not bad.

and now im like, wait, doesn’t SHE care what I might think about HER? doesnt SHE care that I might hate her, or just be confused, and wouldnt that motivate her to try to clarify things for me?

similar to how i Reached out to Clarify how I thought she should think about me, i wanted her to reach out to me to clarify how she thought I should think about HER. doesn’t she CARE about that?

well no, because what i think no longer matters to her. and that hurts. my opinion USED to matter.

and now i have nothign but my own experience and memory to convince myself it wasnt a FANTASY, that there was something REAL. unlike me and my weird male stalker hahahaha. in his mind there was something special between us, but in my mind….i just wanted to avoid him hahaha. and is that how it was with me and HER???? GOD I HOPE NOT! i mean i really hope the that nice friendship we had before everything went wrong, was more REAL than the always-awkward thing I had with that guy.

welp discussed that with the shrink and yeah i mean i actually talked like a somewhat well adjusted normie. that yeah i am pretty much over That Woman but it did always bother me that there wasnt even the effort of any closure, but basically i wanted proof that i had a better “connection” with that woman than I did with that disturbed man who I now have pity for. he thinks me and him had some great connection, well we didnt. i think me and her had some great connection, well we didnt. WRONG. for a good long while, we DID have a pretty good connection. And I was very heartbroken by how she crapped on THAT. dont tell me this was worth NOTHING to you.

shit im sure it WAS worth somethign to her. but this is how people act when its fight or flight and they flee. its the pain of abandonment and avoiding. it’s well documented in the literature hahahaha. not even joo literature. but trusted hwyte philosophers like kierkegaard and plato say damn son that shit SUCKS.

ok. what, for example, did aristotle, plato, or socrates, or kierkegaard, or nietzsche, or schopenhauer, or heidegger, or will durant say about The Heartbreak of Abandonment? give me some quotes.

so i was able to convince myself that She Thought it all wasn’t just a fantasy in my mind. more or less.

if i were a WOMAN i would have fooked 5 guys and had 5 shitty relshits during this time. that is SO unfair to those poor schmucks. that she is just going through a fake charade with you while she is hung up on someone else! i have never and will never do that to another person! this is why you dont jump from one person to another! it doesnt work that way! and so I resent women for doing that. cant you see how unfair and wrong this is for the guy???? how many other guys hearts did she break during this time? 3? 4? 5? how can you cause so much pain? or maybe they caused her pain. it doesnt matter because shes out of my life. but this is what happens when you are in LUV and they DISAPPEAR. you CAN get SOME kind of CLOSURE thats better than this.

oh well. life goes on. but how come she cant send me an email out of the blue? i would totally get back together with her hahahahaha. then i guess im not over her. well, i said i was only 88% over her. i get “not wanting them back” only comes at 100% and not a second earlier.

maybe it was all a sign from GOD to turn me into a full-blown NATZEE! Like how GLR donned the svastica and declared, I am a full blown NATZEE and I dedicate muh life to AH, the greatest man of the past 2000 years!

i mean i’m seeing that AH is a bretty gud guy. and Really you don’t become a VVN “ally” without become a VVN “sympathizer” and essentially a full blown 1433 vvn.

for a few years i was like, yeah i dont identify as a vvn, but I AM open to their ideas, i don’t think there’s anything really unreasonable about these ideas, we should give this some space, it’s serious and valid and legit.

later I realized that by you acknowledging that, you are pretty much a full blown natzee anyway. if you dont think these ideas are horrible and evil and despicable, you’re a nazi.

so you might as well do what the blacks do, reclaiming the term MUH N199A, and we can reclaim the term MUH NATZEE hahahahaha.

and start proudly displaying the svastica publicly. very simple. get some armbands, buttons, bumper stickers, flags, put it on your computer desktop, put a picture of AH next to a picture of your family at work HAHAHAHAHAHA. that’s all you gotta do! no big deal.

why didn’t GLR’s first wife give him a break and say i don’t need any alimony from you because im a stronk independent woman? how much of the alimony was going strictly to CHILD SUPPORT? he did have 3 kids with her and hasnt talked about them much. shit he’s up to 5 kids now and hasnt talked about them much. maybe he was a horrible father hahahaha.

” But Thora had the faith of a saint. Even when I would get discouraged
and felt almost sure my gigantic struggle would come to naught, my brave little wife would put her arms around me, look me in the eyes, tell me how she believed in me and trusted me, and I would fairly burst with new drive and determination. She knew the age-old secret of women: how to inspire and fill a man with power he could never have alone, just by laying a gentle, warm hand on his check and letting him feel her faith flowing outward. How I loved her! I can never repay her loyalty and devotion. ” from chapter 9 or 10. GLR would get discouraged during the lean times and his wife would give him encouragement. BEAUTIFUL.

a lesser woman would have LEFT HIM IN THE LURCH and indeed his first wife did. shit he was entitled to be HATEFUL of her but he never was. That Bitch!

spencer tracy looks kinda like tom waits. or vice versa. i am the first person in the history of the world to notice this hahahahaha. therefore mr waits should invite me to hang out with him so i can convince him to stay away from n3gr0 and j00 music and get back to his more huhwhyte sounding music. he is a huhwhyte guy who can make jooish music sound less jooish hahahaha. i will not poo poo TW and his music. but he does have obvious nonhwyte influences and i dont believe he’ll ever be racially aware. believe me i would be thrilled if he were! some big scandal uncovers a secret natzi shrine at TW’s house hahahaha. this is all speculation, i’m not saying anything libelous.

actually, 90% of TW’s music is either black or jooish. this is a bit worrying. i really dont want to think about this too much right now.  i mean leonard cohen RIP was a total joo and i will always be a fan of his music.

irrelevant. on a tangent here. well no. because this is what joos do: they take good things and they SUBVERT and PERVERT and RUIN them. but not always. for example i dont think LC or TW are perverting or subverting anything. TW maybe. but i dont think he did it in bad faith jooish way. he was just being creative and eclectic. he married a hwyte woman and had hwyte children. he should have had more.

also i liked at least 3 or 4 of the coen brothers movies hahaha. still do. prob always will. (lebowski, raising arizona, millers crossing, and leave a space for one more. no country was OK but overrated. I saw part of a “a serious man” and it looked pretty good tho.) not gonna dump them like i did woody allen.

what about the marx brothers? charlie chaplin? old skool jooish comedians in the catskills and the borscht belt? does this even really matter anymore if henny youngman or joo jack benny had some good clean jokes that even a goy can enjoy without guilt?

charlie chaplin was a confirmed full blown commie kyke. a жид. GLR knew this and still enjoyed some of his comedy. doesnt make GLR a sellout or a hypocrite. i mean they still should all go in the oven because the costs outweigh the benefits and always will.

would you rather have a few funny marx brothers movies…….

…….OR A WORLD WHERE COMMUNISM NEVER EXISTED????????

shit yeah its important and relevant. its why all the women you know are such trifling, stupid, destructive sluts hahahaha.

but honestly NONE of the women I ACTUALLY know are destructive sluts. thats the fictional fantasy nightmare woman again!

also, my virulent hatred of women makes my totally reasonable, healthy hatred of DER EWIGE JUDE seem unhealthy hahahaha. hey im in a woman hating PHASE rght now. its actually subsided a bit. i did used to be a mgtow remember! and im getting better! i used to be a mgtow too until i became a full blooded NATZEE hahahaha. big improvement.

no william h macy did not DIE today, i guess thats a hoax. its actually his BIRTHDAY hahahaha.

he seems hwyte. i would hope my joodar is not wrong on him. lets find out hehehe. welp the jooish foward says he is not a J. i generally beleive joo sources when they say somebody is not jooish hahahaha.

GLR was a very good people person and was not afraid to go out and have Tuff Conversations with people every damn day.  well he did not kiss ass and lie to make you like him. he would tell you the hard truth. i know I would have gotten along with him well. i might not have enjoyed hearing the hard truth from him, having a man I admire telling me i am a huge soft loser…..but maybe he would be nicer to me because i knew the hard truth about the JQ that he did. and see that i would probably do well with a good leader hahaha.

i mean a man can be a leader and a follower at different times of his life. being a follower isnt INHERENTLY bad, the way being a slut and going thru a slut phase is. in fact, being a follower for a while might help you be a better leader later. but i will grant that the ideal man is a leader not a follower, and that leadership is one of the best, most masculine traits. but following is not inherently, always bad, the way being a damn cant keep your legs closed SLUT is.

but you know what you should hate even more than SLUTS? focus your disdain on the semi-organized effort by a certain group of people to turn our women into sluts. this helps them because it hurts us.

you might think hwytes don’t have any real enemies………..then you would be blue pilled AF, hahahahahaha.

pretty soon ill be going down to get the svastica tattoo on muh chest hahahahaha. only semi kidding, i hate tattoos and would never get one. but that would be a contender hehehehe.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

WELL MEMED, MUH LAD!!!!!!

wish the dinner table scenes of that movie really set the tone for the entire movie hehehehe.

call me soft but theres no real NEED for the curbstomp. he could have just had a legally owned pistol, been like get the fook out of here boy, the negro could have charged at him like a wild animal, and then ed norton shot him with the pistol. the curbstomp is there to make him look like a SADISTIC MONSTER. well of COURSHE he is, hes a NATSEE, that is SYNONYMOUS with sadistic monster! same with ralph fiennes in schindlers list.

apparently leni riefenstahl recanted her pro-AH beliefs?? or somehow went soft on them. how soft? i mean if she was still pro-hwyte and anti-J that’s prob fine right? was hearing more about this woman hannah reitsch was a woman pilot and apparently a very pure and admirable woman and we should read her book.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hanna_Reitsch

yes i know wikipedia hahaha

after the war: ” Evacuated from Silesia ahead of the Soviet troops, Reitsch’s family took refuge in Salzburg.[3]:202 Hearing a rumour that all refugees were to be taken back to their original homes in the Soviet occupation zone, Reitsch’s father shot and killed her mother and sister[3]:215 and her sister’s three children before killing himself on the night of 3 May.[12] ”

GOOD LORD

what i dont understand is why some people were tried and convicted at nuremberg but some people like reitsch and skorzeny lived in freedom til like 1980.

not sure if reitsch ever wrote a book. described as “naive politically.” hehehehe. how can a prominent natzee be naive politically hahahahaha.

mar 14

this stuff makes muh blood boil, one of the most triggering things evar next to slutty women. is joo york slimes articles advising anxious hwyte parents how not to raise racist children. its your duty to teach 3 year olds about hwyte privilege and institutional racism and to hate their race. i hate this shit. its joos saying yes you should brainwash your kids. its fooking CHILD ABUSE and a bunch of hwyte swpl prefessionals actually worry about this. not oh my kind might be a neet or a loser or a  pvssy, but that he might be a RACIST, so we need to actively stop this, and show him how he was born with the unfair advantage of being hwyte.

http://archive.is/mcjRJ

hmm cant believe there is nothing on daily stormer or TRS on this article

but yeah. white kids have a responsibility to learn about their hewyte privilege from a very tender age, you as a racially sensitive middle class jyslimes reader had the responsibility to teach them to be ashamed of the white race, the EBIL NATZEES of the human race. hwyte = nazi = sadistic, genocidal, oppressive monsters.

chapter 9 GLR

he says the rights main problem is not money or people, its cowardice. that enough people already know the truth, but they are too scared to stand up and fight and act, and are too worried about being NICE, when the left is not nice, and will not be defeated by niceness.

apparently the right wing cowards GLR met would talk privately with him about YOU KNOW WHO, but we too scared to sacrifice their security and comfort.

yeah well i think its a lot worse now, that people DONT know this red pill JQ truth, and that the right will call you a racist and tinfoil hat conspiracy nutter if you even mention the JQ. better yet, J’s are hwyte and our allies.

all talk and no action. well trumpenfuhrer seems like the most positive ACTION the right has seen in many peoples LIFETIMES.

oh hes not a rightist, he’s a populist. well id argue that the good kind of populism is inherently right wing.

http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/mein-kampf-adolf-hitler/1125132928?ean=9781684185979&st=PLA&sid=BNB_DRS_Core+Shopping+Books_00000000&2sid=Google_&sourceId=PLGoP62465

get the stalag edition hahahaha i am this close to dropping the 20 bucks hehe

terrible cover art tho

tuesday afternoon benedryl

heh. the way i feel about women and joos is the way the j media wants everyone to feel about hwytes! now i know this feel about women is a fictional woman in my head only. the j’s however, really are that bad. that’s no fiction. that is a sad disgusting reality that they have and are perverting everything good in the world.

they make hwytes look like sadistic monsters aka natsees becuase they’re projecting what they are themselves – sadistic, perverted monsters! spawn of satan!

i want MJ wah wah wah! i want that woman wah wah wah! all women are sluts! joos are genociding hwytes! wah wah wah! bitch bitch bitch hahahaha. cyka cyka cyka.

saw a 40 year old woman manager type with a masters degree today who wasnt super hot or anything but she was hwyte and not fat and was still bangable and was probably quite bangable in her youth. i wanted to bang her anyway. i guess now i am getting into the milfs since i dont see 20 year old gurls every day. if i did i would be staring at them like mad i can assure you. more than the 40 year olds. because 20 year old gurls are way more than twice as hawt as 40 year old women.

maybe i should marry a 40 year old divorced mother with like 10 year old children hahahaha.

 

 

 

 

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PUNCH OUT THEN KEEP WORKING

july 1

shit. i hate that you just cant be an ok people person. you gotta be a MASTER people person just to get a 10 DAH job or get some fat slut. if you have the SLIGHTEST anxiety or autism or awkwardness…..1% is as bad as 100%. 2 is as bad as 10 hahaha. all or nothing. no in between.

you have to be all or nothing because the WORLD is all or nothing. jobs, women, life, hahaha.

sometimes  while browsing the indeed list you find a job thats SO GOOD you HAVE to apply for it RIGHT NAO. So go ahead and do that. thats a good thing. like i found one today: day shift, full time, mailroom clerk for large IP law firm. Dayum.

using A Spreadsheet and a Stopwatch to calculate the Exact Average of how long it takes me to do a Job Application.

with 3 down so far, the average is 15 minutes. has varied from 6 to 27 minutes.

this is actually making it slightly more interesting. maybe this is a holdover from my stupid job, where all our calls were timed and we could see a dashboard of how many calls we had each day, average time of calls, total time IN, etc.

i kinda liked improving my numbers. also it gave me some Hard Numbers. of course it also allows the company to Measure More and to crack the whip harder. 20 minutes average call time? get it down to 19 and we save 1 million dollars a year and can give execs moar bonuses and cut more people from YOUR department!

but in general i think the stopwatch is a great idea for THIS, muh job SEARCH, and getting a handle on exactly HOW long it takes to do EACH application, and what a reasonable number of apps per day is. i have been shooting for 8 but that’s cetainly low. but HOW low?

ok well my average is now at 17 minutes. thats with short ones and annoyingly long ones. only have 6 so far. i figure 100 might be a better sample size.

not that i havent already done over 210!!! 232 as a matter of fact. hehe.

today had a first, applied to USAJOBS, something for the army. FEDGOV hehehehehe.

17$ DAH job working with like army kids? child care technician? well in the FEDGOV they make 17 bucks an hour with bennies. GS 04 or some shit.

SO i figured that 5% of applications will get an interview. 1 out of 20. i mean that is ABOUT what its actually been. about 10 interviews for 200 applications.

well REALLY its 9 interviews for 230 applications hahahahahahahaha. but NO, cuz when I HAD the 9th interview last week, I had only about 200 apps in.

ok, so 9/200.

SO, assuming about 5% chance of an interview, it is THEN safe to assume that 5% of INTERVIEWS will result in a JOB. THEREFORE, you have to put in about 400 applications, therefore get 20 interviews, in order for you to get 1 job.

so shoot for 400 applications.

about ABOUT 20 minutes per application, that is 133 hours.

and that is 3.25 weeks of Full Time Work hehehehehe.

and right now I am showing 17 minutes per application, not 20.

why the hell didnt i start measuring this in a spreadsheet EARLIER?

because when you Train Yourself, it takes you MONTHS to stumble on things that a Trainer would show you right away. Best Practices. Best Practices do not always come quickly.

and this is a pretty obvious no brainer. use a spreadsheet as a tracking system to measure Metrics. its not exactly out of left field.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/advice-on-how-to-red-pill-my-fiance/37312/11

this guy does not seem super smart but he is a manly white man who carries a Glock hehehe and doesnt want his qt white gf associating with trash. cuz her friends are trash and her family is trash and she gets the attention of blacks hehehe but she miraculously is not a huge slut. so says the boifran hahaha.

i know that feel, that woman was CLOSE to trash but she was not herself really trashy. she didnt want to be trash so she dumped her trashy friends. i hate to think she thought of ME as TRASH.

well at least TRASH can WORK!!!!!

july 2

horry sheet, interview with the company i have submitted like 14 applications to this year and i NEVER thought they would interview me for anything more than a 9 dah pt job….has invited me to an interview for like a 32k to 46k FT job hahahaha.  so, doing that on thursday. afternoon of courshe hahahaha.

BIG reach here, but……it was kind of a reach just to get the interview!

They are interviewing at least 5 people.

I would prefer something a little less……involved, because I might be better qualified for something Lower, have a better chance of getting it.

I do know the application here had like 5 short answer questions that probably scared all the CASUALS and PUNTERS away hahahaha.

and made the Application Time like 30 minutes instead of 15 hehehe.

what was the manager doing sending emails at 10 30 pm on the friday of Fourth of July Weekend? why wasnt he out of town with his family?

this place has a Unionized Workforce and I thought they were serious about muh 40 hours and not a second more hehehehe.

well there are ways around that, you simply PUNCH OUT THEN KEEP WORKING hehehehehe.

how common is this? for people who want to make themselves look like they do more in 40 hours than they do? really for OT Exempt people its not an issue. then you just work 80 hours for the price of 40 as a general rule hahaha.

i am somewhat interested in the Goth Subculture, but its also kidna degenerate and the women are SLUTS. VERY high number. but they might be willing to help weak sissy beta guys gain experience and confidence in banging bitches, which is always good.

yes, bang those disgusting degenerate high number whores, just for EXPERIENCE and CONFIDENCE. THEN you will have a better chance at getting the women you DO want. there’s a reason they call them PRACTICE gurls. And you can’t get a Decent Woman without PRACTICE. Like like you can’t Win the Championship Game without PRACTICE.

just Wrap It Up and try not to lie too much. like don’t tell the gurl you’re in luv with her, OR that you will marry her, OR that you want a Real Relationship with her. It’s Only About The Casual Secs baby, whatsamatter, dont you think secs is FUN, ya prude?

but yeah i dont think there are any gothic gurls under 30.

also goths like phaggots and nihilism and drugs and are not masculine and all.

i would approach Goth in a way that championed Traditional Victorian Values, and wears a lot of black, and likes melancholy shit, but thats really about all. While also still being Masculine and promoting Morality and Family and Traditional Gender Roles.

at the same time i like gurls who are not super duper girly. That Woman was feminine but she was not super duper girly. in that she was chilled out and laid back and not into Drama. But she kinda was. at the end she couldn’t get out of the drama.

i dont mind minor drama, but major drama needs to be dealt with. women are so attracted to drama that they dont even want to deal with major drama, they just run away from it if its too much. leaving people in the LURCH.

they need a MAN to pull them out of the drama. And I was not man enough. shit i was CAUSING the drama. i didnt know how to FINISH it. well, i DID know that we PROBABLY needed to confront it and talk about it, and she didnt want to do that.

all the more reason I need to MAN UP and say THIS ENDS NOW and MADE her talk to me hehehehe.

so yeah. BIG interview thursday, one of the biggest. the manager has been working there for 12 years and is a (former?) CPA but this job is more in “systems.” he does not have a masters degree but does/did have a CPA and that is about as hardcore as a masters degree hehehehe. fookin tryhard.

applied for job as AP clerk for company, took 23 minutes, brought average up to 16 minutes hahahaha.

i only have 8 jobs in that spreadsheet, i suppose if i had all 230 jobs, it would be a more valid/accurate number.

lets just say the shorter the better. i would like it to be closer to 15 than to 30.

in 1980 it didn’t take you 16 minutes to do a job application (well maybe it did.)

but for DAMN SURE in 1980 you didnt have to do 400 job applications before you found a job!

but its good i have an interview for next week, i didn’t have one this past week. want to have 1 or ideally TWO eery week.

had a dream with THAT WOMAN last night, as i recall it was pretty long but i still dont remember much other than i was spending the night with her, but she was mad at me and we were arguing and i was sleeping on the couch or something. i was scared she was gonna LEAVE ME, that she wasnt willing to work this out. , that she had just Had Enough, it wasnt worth saving to her.

and of course that was what happened! but this dream at least pretended that we were actually Going Out.

I was also starting to care about her family. Cared about her single mother who had a possibly rough life but she was at least a good mother and probably a good person. cared about her brother and sister who seemed really nice and were not promiscuous degenerate drug addicts, they did not even smoke MJ. they just lived clean decent nice lives. Cared about her extended family who she told me about.

and now all of THOSE people were ripped out of my life too, her telling me you’re not allowed to care about them any more, you’re done with ALL of us.

so that was an extra element which made things even more painful. I felt closer to her because I felt I kinda knew her family. again, not something i normally do with women.

she had an older family member who was not in good shape and that was causing her a lot of stress and worry at the same time as our thing fell apart. i felt guilty for Bothering her during such a difficult time. But I cared about the family member too! I shared her pain somewhat! and if she thinks it was all a Ploy to Get Dat Ass, she couldnt be MORE wrong!!!!!!!!

but i totally lost my frame and became weak and supplicating and BEGGING. I should have taken the FRAME of the MAN who COMMANDS respect….not a pvssy weakling who BEGS for respect! you put the foot down and say THIS IS HOW ITS GONNA BE.

hmmm this qt young gurl (7-8 years younger than me, very cute and nice, low number, she got married tho, like at age 22, well good for her hahaha.) sent ME a linkedin connect today and i accepted it. I had seen HER many times but did not ask to connect with her because she might think its creepy i was stalking her. well she is way more successful than me anyway. good career in health admin and is being promoted, moving up, didnt even get a damn masters degree, works with a bunch of other qt young women.  its hard to imagine they will become hambeasts when they are 40 like so many other women.

but they might not also become loving wives and mothers and just continue riding the coch carousel, so yeah, part of that is not becoming a hambeast. gotta look good to pull the alphamost coch. fat hambeasts can only pull thugingras hahahha. i hope SHE becomes a fat hambeast. her mother didnt unfort. her mother still looks bangable. i should bang her mother in horribly degrading ways hahahahahahahaha

heh i set up a 50 cent monthly dnation to bernard chapin. lets see if HE complains about the dnation being too small hahaha. i really dont think he will. he is not that kind of guy tho. I wish he had found a good wife and become a father though. its SAD that at 46 he has Accepted he will always be a MGTOW. he is coming out with his new book “man going his own way.” I mock MGTOW’s now, but not too long ago, I considered myself a mgtow, and uncle bern is the best example of the best of mgtow. he is a very good honorable man and THATS why he needs to stop being a mgtow and become a father! hes not race aware enough, let alone 1488. well, i will stop my dnation if he ever has a keeid with a nonwhite or advocates race mixing hahaha, which i dont think he will.

CANT GET OR KEEP A JOB OR WOMAN CUZ ALWAYS TOO WORRIED ABOUT HOW IMPOSSIBLE IT IS TO GET AND KEEP A JOB OR WOMAN

aug 20

so my lesson learned was, if you get a chance to make out with your female friend, but you really dont want to becuase you dont have feelings (yet) and you think it would be weird and awkward, but she’s really not ugly or old or disgusting or physically gross or fupa and its kinda weird you’re NOT attracted to her and people might already think youre dating, well then just go ahead and make out with her, because you  are probably on the cusp of getting feelings ANYWAY.

also, ANY experience a man can get with a woman will help him. help you confidence, give you confidence that can never be taken away, help you level up.

i said that casual sex for women is unforgivably and horribly degenerate, and for men, it was still degenerate, still not a good thing, BUT its not mortally bad like it is for women.

in FACT, it CAN be a good thing if you as a man have really low confidence, and all the readers and writer of this blog have extremely low confidence, i would just say fooking go for it. especially if the woman is not blatantly gross.

if she is gross…. uh not sure.

the closest thing i have is when i was fooking 14 or 15, over half my life ago, my friend and I went to his grandfathers house about 50 miles away with a nice lake, nice place to go during the summer to swim and have fires and such. we met two girls that were like 16, 17, or 18 and hung out with them. the one i preferred, preferred my friend over me, and the girl i preferred less, preferred me, so i ended up making out with that girl, and being butthurt that i HAD to make out with that girl and not the one i really wanted. she wanted to be like pen pals or some shit and maybe talk on the newfangled email thing people were starting to use on our dial up internet. i didnt really feel like it because i was always thinking, this whole thing is stupid, i always wanted the other girl more! and now i’m stuck with the other lamer one!

well in hindsight she wasnt THAT lame, and she was a fooking 17 year old gurl, so i was in the wrong there. plus its not like she was disgusting! kinda hard to be disgusting when you are a 17 year old gurl unless you are morbidly obese, and she was not.  so i should have just tried to bang her.

would that have increased my confidence? or would i have been angry about that? cuz i was angry about making out with her can you believe it. i was like this sucks, im not gonna make out with somebody unless i really LIKE them. and then i did not make out with a gurl again for about 7 more years. also banged her hahahaha.  now i did like that gurl so it was much better, but in hindsight now, i dont regret making out with that gurl when i was 14. and in fact now i wish i had banged her. but i was kinda young too! i hadnt even started j3rking off 10 times a day in the height of puberty. if i were 16 then it probably would have been a different story! but by 16 somehow i was already a beta male and never hung out with gurls and had lost touch with that friend who was really responsible for getting me my first make out! he was a decent guy too.

lets see. did a jogwalk of a total of 5.4 miles today. 2.5 miles, then 2.9 miles. you do have to break it up so you can get water.

anyway. later on i then stalked my female friends facebook page, when i was trying to find out about her “secret boifrand”, and saw them exchanging lovey dovey messages prior to that day that i “should have” made out with her in the park.

so i used that to comfort me, that i shouldnt regret this too much, because she was already going out with him, liked him, didn’t really like me, and who am i to make a gurl cheat.

and now im like, well THAT rel she had with that guy was shitty, and he cheated on her, and it would have been better if she cheated on him, with me! who cares! plus it is possible to like more than one person. i often forget this! but you can be confused among a number of people.

it happened to me in 2005 for really the first and only time. i was emotionally torn between THREE women and would have dated any one of them. i suppose i had feelings for ALL of them!

unforutantely not a one of them worked out! that sucked.

but what i am facing right now is EVEN WORSE. because this gurl was better than any of those gurls. and we actually had a deeper “connection.”  that lasted longer. built up over time. that meant something to me. even if it didnt to her.

so it would build a mans confidence to bang a dirty whore? yeah, if she werent terribly ugly. thats why they call them “PRACTICE GIRLS.” so you can build your confidence and your masculinity when theres a woman you actually WANT.  or god forbid luv.

i mean just try it at least. she might be bouncing around on you and you cant even get hard. well at least you tried.  actually that could potentially hurt the confidence hahahaha. cant even get hard when trying to bang some filthy gutter whore.

but it was weird. as soon as my mind was officially made up that yes i want to date her, i could not hang out with her AT. ALL. prior to that we did hang out. while i was still in my “transitional” phase, or my “figuring shit out” whatever you want to call it. THEN we would hang out, during july, august, september. then my feels were official in october (i can pinpoint october because of course i wrote about it and could clearly see the difference between what i was writing in september (“its weird i dont have feels for her, but i dunno i just, im not super on board, it would be weird”) vs the very next month, writings from october (“my feelings have officially changed over the past month, i would like to date her.”) ) and boom starting in october she refused to hang out.  all i wanted was one hangout to TALK, like we had had in september, august, july, come on.

i mean she HURT me with how she was pushing me away. which culminated in the biggest hurt ever recently. shit she hurt me a lot more than i hurt her! at worst i just annoyed and or frightened her. i didnt break her damn heart and just rip her out of my life like a cancerous tumor, like she did to me.

which is so unlike a decent woman like her! I would have expected that out of a typical american degenerate whore, but not her!

oh well just proves all women are like that, degenerate whores, evil pieces of shit ahahahahahaha.

so yeah lesson learned is if you get ANY chance with ANY woman, provided she isn’t so disgusting ugly, i mean if shes young and not fat, just fooking go for it, even if you dont really WANT to at the time. also try to have secs with her so you are not so hung up about secs, and can view it for what it really is: just dumping a load of sperm into whatever cvnt is willing. hahahaha.

but yeah, now I am the weird one for thinking that sex should be a Special Thing that is Shared between True Lovers Only, and not everybody fooking each other like god damn animals.

im not sure what i thought was “weird”. it was something stupid like the shape of her head. that and thought it would be weird to have secs with a gurl who is Just A Friend.

i guess that is a legitimate reason for me to feel weird about it. i felt it would mess up our friendship, which at that time i did legit view us as just friends, and i even said, “please god i hope she doesnt like me, because i dont like her back, and i dont want to have to FRIENDZONE her”

and then a few months later i was exact opposite. in love with her and begging please god make her like me just a little bit so we can hang out and make out and spend time together and date for a year.

WELL, let the record show. back in the day when i was worried about her liking me, i was still very willing to hang out with her, talk to her, maybe i “built a wall” or “kept her at a distance” but i would still HANG OUT WITH and TALK to her. which was 90000000000000000000000000000000 times more than SHE did for ME when I had feelings for HER, but she didnt.

yeah i should have done more, but this is 60 40 her fault hahahah. maybe even 70 30.

i should have said during that time, “WHAT ARE YOUR FEELINGS FOR ME. I FEEL LIKE YOU MIGHT LIKE ME.”

i should have been direct like that. but i wasn’t. however at that point the onus was on her.

because when i got feelings for HER, i was more than willing to take that onus by the horns, and the moment i got her in private for A Talk, i would have said

“Listen, theres something important i need to talk to you about. now this is gonna be pretty awkward and im sorry, but i have to put the honest truth out there and talk about the elephant in the room. now this hasn’t been going on too long so i am glad we can talk about it before it gets TOO weird. but in october i got feelings for you and now i dont know what to do, but i know i do want to talk to you about them. i know you are in luv with another guy so. do you think you could ever have feelings for me when you are done getting over him? cuz you used to be really friendly to me in the past and i felt like you might like me, and i regret not making out wiht you in july, but i just was not sure then. i am sure now. what can we do here. lets talk about it. when you are ready to date again i think we should try it because we already know and trust each other. till then we can keep it cool though. but what does your intuition tell you. could you ever like a guy like me?”

something like that. i told her a lot of this in my emails but by that time it was too late.

i have ALWAYS had problems with women. i have ALWAYS had problems with jobs. and school. this is ample evidence that that problem is not with The Degenerate Stupid World, but with ME, and how i just cant handle the world. and i feel like that every day. that i just cant cope with life, cant handle life, cant do the basic things other adults do, cant get or keep a job, cant get or keep a woman, because i am constantly worrying about how stupid and impossible it is to get or keep a job or a woman!

GAMBLE AT THE UNHOLY CASINO OR GAMBLE AT THE REGULAR CASINO?

Heh. Now that you’ve made the big shift from 18yos to 21yos, you’re finding that 21 yos aren’t so easy to pull either. Interesting Learning Experience, uh? That’s because they’re still in the prime of youth. Women in the Late Twenties will be easier to pull than Gurls in the Early Twenties. A LOT easier. However, as soon as a Woman hits 30, then it’s tick tock, they get the Baby Rabies and the Marriage Rabies, so you have to be extra careful of really shady Entrapment Tactics. They don’t want to Party any more and have No Strings Attached Friends With Benefits like you do. Heck they might even PRETEND they want FWB just to Entrap you at that point.

So your new task is to find wimmin in that sweet spot of they’re definitely past the prime of youth, but the reality hasn’t dawned on them yet fully, so they still want to Party and Play, and will do FWB and NSA and give it up easy. Maybe ages 26, 27, 28 are what you’re looking for. Yes. 26-28.  PERFECT.

Once you use them as Training Wheels and Practice Girls, you can Improve your Game and start pulling 25yos, 24yos, 23yos, and you can see where this is going!!!

Because the sooner you Sow Your Wild Oats, the sooner you can move on with life. And some poor men never get this out of their system. So they never move on. And the GOAL is to move on, so you no longer have to be a decadent degenerate sex addict, can focus on other things, like Career and Family and Children and Religion.

If you MAKE $100 a day gambling, that’s $36,500 a year. 365 days a year, $100 a day. That does seem a bit challenging. Obviously a Good Gambler can do this, and more. Because they wouldn’t make Gambling Their Job if it were easier to make more money at a Nongambling Job. However, to the Beginning Gambler, $100 a day seems difficult. Because this is NET GAINING $100 every single day. Sitting Down with $500 and Leaving with $600 every single day, WITH NO NET LOSSES. “Just” to make 36.5k a year, and remember r9k determined that 37k a year was the cutoff for Being A Loser In Life. Roughly $18 an hour.

And obviously you don’t want to play 7 days a week, that’s no fun. Probably 4 days a week would be ideal. and with 2 weeks vacation a year. Or maybe a European style vacation of 4 weeks. So, 48 weeks times 4 days per week, that’s 192 days of work per year. eh but what about chrimmus and new years, that’s like 2 weeks. and thanksgiving. 1 week. round it up to 8 weeks of vacation a year. 44 weeks times 4.  = 176 days of work a year AHHHH that’s better. 37k per year divided by 176 days of work per year, = you gotta make $211 every day. heh. Sit down with $500, leave with $711. No Losses. To Not be A Loser In Life, AND to have quite a generous amount of Free Time, way more than the Average Gainfully Employed American Workaholic Normalfag.

Heh. So I play texas holdem no limit at games.com where they start you off with 500 chips. That’s what I’m basing this all off of. Can I start with 500 chips and leave with 711 chips.  And GOD FORBID I make ONE stupid big bet and lose ALL muh chips.

So it takes nerves of steel, really. It’s amazing You couldn’t apply those Nerves of Steel to Trade School and then make WAY more than 38 k a year! Or talk to 27 year old wimmin and get them to not SOYF, but you to give them a good rogering from behind. Because by that age, no way do you want them to sit on your face. No longer nice and fresh.

OK. I forgot that if you sit down with 1000 chips, you can use your Fat Stack to win more pots, and prob have an easier time getting your daily quota of 200. HOWEVER you still can’t lose any, because you’re dipping into “past winnings” and you can’t lose that.

So where am I getting this magical 500? Because that’s what games.com starts you off with.

So what if you choose to start every day with 1000 or 2000. I BET it would be a lot easier to win your daily quota then! Hmmmmmmmmmm.

Anyway. The take home point is, you can easily WIN OR LOSE your ENTIRE daily quota in ONE hand. So you streeeeeeeeeeeetch this out into Eight Hours of Very Conservative Play. When in doubt, FOLD.

It’s funny. cuz gambling can be EXTREMELY stressful and EXTREMELY frustrating….. But it seems less frustrating and stressful than Nongambling Work because the punishment or reward happens In Real Time. You can watch your money grow…or disappear.

I suppose you could do the same by having a little APP which shows you how much money you’re making per second at your job. That would be a great app, actually, keeping your employees motivated.

Note: but the gains can be tremendous. You could go from $500 to $1000 in one hand and not have to work for 4 more days.

and it’s thrilling. it makes you forget about the outside world, and that alone can be rewarding enough.

Or I have just got the Degenerate Gambler Bug in me, and things could get REAL bad if I let them. I used to drink too much too. Smoke too much w33d. And now….gamble too much? it fits.

Annnnnnd I just went from 540 chips to 411 chips. That kind of thing is real soul crushing. So in this case, I absolutely HAVE to win 89 chips AND the 211 ON TOP OF that. See how quickly you can dig yourself a huge hole? And I’m Real Conservative Player!!! Of course, in that hand my single opponent won like a 375 chip pot, much of that my chips. Now I could easily win the 300 chips I NEED in one hand, is all I’m sayin.

So What would you rather do with your life, Gamble at the Unholy Casino, or Gamble at the Regular Casino?

ok. back to 513 pretty quickly. i still can’t quit for the day, i GOT TO get to 711. But I would LIKE to quit, because now I’m glad to “break even”, I don’t want to GAMBLE any more!!!!!

(I’m not really gambling, with real money, of course.)

In other words, I cannot wholeheartedly RECOMMEND Gambling as a Career Choice, as much as I’d liek to be able to. But as College gets less and less attractive, Gambling will continue to get more and more attractive!!!