REHAB A YOUNG GURL EARLY ON IN HER TINDER TRASH CAREER

may 1

stay in stem for the love of GOD! youre not gonna learn about humanities at UNIV! stay in stem, get a good job, then study humanities in your free time. because you will be too busy working 80 hours a week and making bigboy STEMBUX that you can use to have hwyte children.

BEING ABLE TO PROVIDE FOR A FAMILY IS ESSENTIAL.

oh you can just whack it to porn until you’re 30 and realize you really DO want a family but now youll never be able to provide for them! and you cant even go back to porn because you know its jooish and wrong and having a family is the right and good thing to do!

if i had Authoritarian, Patriarchal Rule when I was 19, would that have helped me? or would I jsut have rebelled anyway?

i have no idea what I SHOULD have done other than go to a shrink as SOON as I started getting Off Track, which was around age 16 or so. but at that age we didnt know if it was normal Adolescent Angst or not.

It wasn’t hahahahahahaha.

this colleage of mne has a 19/20 year old son, finishing second year of uni right now, in a useful engin degree, and father is really pushing kid to do internships, or to work a shitty job for 60 hours a week, to motivate him to do internships.

would that motivate me tho when I was that age? it would motivate me to blow muh brains out hahahaha.

but this kid is kinda normie i think. he doesnt abuse drugs and alcohol any more than the average college student and he prob even hangs out with gurls, wants to join a fraternity. CHAD NORMIE.

so i told the father, what you are doing is good, keep pushing him, i wish i had been pushed more when i was his age. because at least then id have someone to blame other than myself, hahahahahahahahaha.  but he’s in a good field, so take comfort in that.

the father described super competitive STEM internships where people from HARVARD with a 4.0 were getting turned away, because those harvard 4.0 POINDEXTERS didnt have the PEOPLE SKILLS to really SELL the shit to hard clients. so they would see harvard and say SEE YA. we’ll take the guy from missouri state with a 3.3 GPA who was in a frat and had GF’s.

sorry this was for a sales JOB with a tech/stem company.

but many internships are super competitive too.

i dunno i get the impression that his son is a normie chad. tall, handsome, prob went to prom or even had a gf in high school, lost virginity in high school, friends are all low risk middle class winner chads with gfs, no major rebellion, no major angst.

but again, how can you tell normal angst from Bad Angst?

damn no hitler book in mail today. tracking number says tomorrow. ideally you should be making good money before you even need to read a book as important and life changing as this hahaha.

these people have like 10 kids between them and none is a fookup.

a fookup being defined as a loser who cant take care of himself and couldnt take care of children. be a full grown ass adult who pays beeeeeilz and raise keeeeids.

https://pastebin.com/MnvGD9n9

partial QUOTE

Women act up because their biological purpose (pregnancy and lactation) is not being met. Women are a force for good when they are fulfilling their biological purpose. They are not intrinsically bad or evil, they are just being mismanaged. If you are not keeping her in a state of frequent pregnancy or suckling an infant, she is subconsciously unfulfilled and her hindbrain thinks you are impotent. It is why women are attracted to alpha Chads – they seem more virile and have more physical and social power to protect her offspring and will pass those beneficial traits onto her offspring. It’s why divorce came hand in hand with birth control. Without frequent pregnancies, women subconsciously believe the man is impotent, so they leave in a subconscious quest to find someone else who can hopefully knock them up. The brain does not separate sex and reproduction; if sex is not resulting in enough reproduction, a woman subconsciously thinks there is something wrong with you. Men don’t feel the same way because we don’t carry the child, and our sexual cycle ends with ejaculation.    END Q

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/women-and-so-on/99705/812

original quote at classic DSBBS thread, pastebinned it just in case the thread or BBS is ovened.

the whole quote is great, so read it.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/sexbots-to-get-trial-sale-by-the-end-of-this-year/103273

ok heres the DS thing ont he sexbot story, i guess there was a breitbart story on it.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/a-good-slut-shaming-site/103264

slut shaming site ?????!!??!?!?!?!

here it is:

http://cheaterreport.com/

wonder how long before thats shut down for libel or invading a sluts privacy. fook sluts. shame them! shame them and shun them! maybe, and this is a BIG maybe, let young men bang them when they are students training for their career, pre-marriage, pre-age 22. even then it doesnt have a ton of advantages. marrying these lads off when they are 16, to 16 year old gurls, and then just dont have children till 22 would be just as good, even if youre sacrificing 6 good child bearing years of the woman. she can STILL have three children EASILY after age 22.

though it prob is bad for women to be 16-22 and NOT be pregnant and Milking. those things are GOOD for women, full stop, and the bigger percentage of their young life they spend doing it, the better. i mean shit. the grandparents can help. note i didnt say raise the kids, but HELP. during those years when the father is still super young and learning his craft and not making a ton of money.

also as an analog/corrollary to the idea of Nationalist Racialist Productive Enterprise and companies serving their race and nation, companies, not schools, would be in charge of secondary/post-secondary education, training young men directly into real , actual jobs. everything would be apprenticeships. everything. they would be happy to do it. because they would see it, rightfully, as a noble and sacred responsibility and purpose, and not just A Cost.

companies would become less jooish, companies would become more like hwyte families, shit ideally every family would BE a Company!!!!!! then job training would really be a natural progression of Homeschooling.

so yeah it might be my lot in life to never be worthy of a good woman, never be able to be a good father, but i mean i cant just stop thinking about or wanting women. apart from cutting my balls off. so i need a COMPROMISE or SUBSTITUTE just to take the edge off. something like hookers, paid cuddlers, or fook buddies. its degen but not as degen as PORN.

yeah but its probably at least 60% as degen as porn.

again, worse comes to worse, i will just have a child at age 50 or 60 with the first white slut whos willing and still “young” enough to have children. and then leave them a bunch of videos of me telling them whats the deal. be like sorry kid i couldnt have been a better father, but here’s what you gotta do. dont let your stupid mother turn you into a degenerate.

maybe i could arrange the perfect beta male to be a good father to my bastards hahahahaha. oh god thats SO nonwhyte.

maybe me and other omega male could be co husbands and co fathers with a stronk woman, cuz we are only worth half a man at best anyway. maybe i’m no better than to be part of a MALE HAREM for a strong modern woman. who has FOUR boifrans. and then has an unattainable alpha inseminate her hahahaha. who looks at the 4 boifrans and rightfully shakes his head and sez FOOK THIS SHIT, im too good for this. for you. hahahaha. your father must be SO proud. for you hahahahaha.

i mean a mans gotta HALFWAY satisfy his desires, and porn is COMPLETELY out of the question, and strippers not far behind. whats left? hookers, tinder trash, and pro cuddlers.

pro cuddlers are obv the LEAST degen of those, really not very degen at all.

not sure whether hookers or tinder trash are more degenerate. safe to say they are both PRETTY degen.  i guess hookers are more honest but they are SO FUBARd beyond a normie life. tinder trash, i guess you could probably rehabilitate some of the less fooked up tinder trash. a young gurl who was early on in Her Tinder Trash Career.

the corruption spiraler cries out “purity spiral” as he corrupts you hahahaha

muh justifications for muh dick degeneracy, oh i can bang hookers because im too untermensch to get a real GF hahaha.

 

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LOW NUMBER, GOOD FATHER

apr 22

well met with the old friend and thank GOD he was on good behavior yesterday and did not drink at all. not at all. not before i arrived, i didnt have to blow into his breathalyzer, he didnt drink at dinner, didn’t drink afterwards, so, i got everything i had hoped for. when he doesnt drink and is a normal person like this, then i dont MIND hanging out with him! maybe he went and pounded vodka right after i left. but hopefully not. and i would almost be able to tolerate that, as long as i didnt see it. not that that would be good.

as a kind of bonus i tried to Red Pill him on Porn because he watches too much of that. I gently explained how it can warp your mind in ways you dont even realize. who is making this? WHY are they makign this? is it NORMAL for women to stuff huge things up their ass? do normal women do that? do normal men want to see that? did you always want to see that when you were like 13 years old? i stopped watching porn and it is the best decision I ever made. how about lets just do a fun experiment here and you try to stop for 30 days and see what happens.

oh hell no, not 30 days, i dont want to do that.

well why not? why would that be so bad? 30 days without porn, is it really that hard? why do you want to watch it so bad? isnt that interesting? is that normal? is that the way humans should be? who benefits from turning us into weird perverts?

ok, how about a week then. can you try one week for me.

i tried to sell him on one week. dont think it will work but if i can get him to think of the joo rubbing his hands saying GOOD GOYIM, then thats a victory for me. I explained that image and told him to think of that next time he wants to look at porn, which is like every fooking day.

do you really need to look at porn every day? every WEEK?

really once you stop for a month, you dont WANT to look at it any more. youre like this is gross and wrong, this is turning me into a jooish pervert. this is bad. TURN THAT SHIT OFF.

and you WILL SEE some porn eventually, inevitably, on the internet, or from these fooking GOYS who are watching porn every day. he talks about all the 40 year men at his job who are always watching porn and talking about secs.

im like wow, these are 40 year old white men. do you really think thats normal? dont they have CHILDREN? would you want your DAUGHTER doing porn, or being a hooker, or a stripper, or working at hooters, or even just being a basic slut??? would you really not care?

yeah but i dont have a daughter and I dont want to have kids.

well imagine you DID have a daughter. and then we can Explore why you dont want to have kids.

because its no benefit to me, plus the world sucks. which is basically shorthand for saying i don’t believe I can raise winner kids in such a sucky world. which is fair enough. I dont think I could either. not least of all because I cant even take care of MYSELF, how could I take care of a wife and children.

maybe spending more time withe white babies would help him.

not that i needed to spend time with white babies to come to the conclusion that having hwyte babies is a great thing.

anyway i was just thrilled he was not drinking. I heavily suggested that it also doesnt do him or anyone else any good to be raging falling down drunk.

so, all in all, better than expected! thank GOD!

he is also somewhat redpillable because he doesnt like blacks and race mixing hahahaha. so i jumped on those topics. but really tried to make the porn connection.

when you are watching porn almost every day, you think its NORMAL. you cant see how FOOKED UP it is! just another thing which makes it SOOOOOOOOO terrible!

oh im just a prude. well kind of yes. but what the fook is a PRUDE anyway. anyone short of being a total pornified jooish pervert? then we SHOULD ALL BE PRUDES.

ok its one thing when omega virgins watch porn and cant talk to gurls. WHAT ABOUT MARRIED GUYS or guys in a monog rel? like muh porn watching friend. he is married, his wife totally knows he watches porn, im sure shes not thrilled with it, but she just accepts it as normal and doesnt think its a huge deal because hes not watching 10 hours of porn a day.

sad! and i think a lot of women think the same way. oh, ALL GUYS JUST WATCH PORN. ACCEPT IT. its not worth getting mad about.

heh. that is not the proper attitude. although i wish they took that laiisez faire, im not going to overreact attitude with other things that they tend to overreact on, like everyhting hahahaha.

so youre a 40 year old man and still have SOME secs drive. but your wife is a fat slob that you dread having to bang once a month like al bundy. (but his wife was attractive!!!! (but i think also a jooess.))

probably some of these wives are like, yeah i know im fat and gross, and i just cant compete with these hot 20 year old gurls in porn, so, whatever, just look the other way.

im talking full blown working class whyte people here. the ones that work for a living and arent pill popping single parent household trash, but people who struggle every day to make barely enough money, have wives who get fat, and kids that turn white trash just because their father is working 60 hours a week and doesnt have TIME to lead his home.

well then i say he should drop down to 40 hours a week and spend 20 more hours a week leading his home, and just save money elsewhere. no cable, no expensive pickup trucks and suv’s, no eating at restaurants, move into a hwyte pride single wide in a rural area.

but what if you have medical problems and thats why you have to work 60 hours a week and be an Absent Father?

I say when your work INTERFERES with you being a good father….then change your work. you have to work 40 hours because thats the rule. But I would say not a SECOND more if it interferes with the time you spend with your FAMILY.

dont slave away working 80 hours a week saying your doing it for your family. i know you believe it too! its a jooish LIE! youve been DUPED! you would be worth more to your family in the long run to spend that time with them, and not at work. just make less money and make your kids wear used clothes. this will keep your daughters from become strippers, sluts and mudsharks, and your sons from being neet white  trash pill popping phaggot loser deadbeats! white trash, in short!

ok LIFE is inherently competitive, there are winners and losers. this is why WE need to be competitive, despite what they tell you in joo school. schjool hahahaha. tell all the kids to not be competitive so they can all be losers in the real world.

so what about decent, fair, hwyte Productive Enterprise? in contrast to scamming, lying, cheating, exploiting Jooish Capitalism? Yes, Hwyte Productive Enterprise is ALSO competitive. There are also winners and losers.

its not inherently nonwhite or jooish to be competitive or to have winners and losers in other words. even in an all hwyte country there would be winners and losers and that would be natural and normal and nothing wrong with that.

spencer in his auburn speech said “THE STRENGTH OF THE WOLF IS IN THE PACK; THE STRENGTH OF THE PACK IS IN THE WOLF” which i’m not sure who said that first.

it was a good speech, do recommend. would have liekd more out of mike enoch.

now azzmador is getting very black pilled. he says theres no demand for his work because nobodys donating to his show. 40000 downloads and only 6 bucks in donations in the past month. and i was 5 bucks of that hahahahahahahahaha.

i think he might be bipolar but he is still a great man. i hope he cools off and comes back.

i think most people would gladly pay like 25 cents to download, but thats just really hard to arrange.

this huge “woman hater” on DS says you can turn even “nice gurls” into huge sluts by just asking them to touch your D. then say how bout giving the tip a nice little kiss. then next thing you know shes gobbling the knob, which are “womens little white lies” in that they dont count for anything, they dont MEAN anything, oh theyve only FOOKED 37 guys, but theyve SUCKED HUNDREDS.

well if its so easy to get them to suck, and so easy to convert the BJ to full blown fooking, how come they havent FOOKED hundreds of guys too? if its so EASY to convert a BJ to fooking? something doesnt make sense there. but i do really like the guys baby steps approach. i just wish women werent such big sluts. he says just make women suck you for doing small favors like driving them somewhere, teaching them english, buying them lunch, etc.

show them that you know that they suck guys as a form of CURRENCY. youre WISE TO THEIR SCHEME, and now YOU WANT IN! saying the whole thing with an Alpha SMIRK, like you cant fool me, ya little slut. now blow me. come on. just the tip.

he says average white guys bang around 20 gurls by their late 20s. betas bang 1 or 2 or 0. alphas bang 70 or more.

great thread. tried to download whole thing, cant figur eout how. here are some choice quotes:

INSANELY LONG STRING OF IMPORTANT QUOTES

guy1:
I remember when I was 27, just got my first IT job.

I walked around in my dockers and button down shirt and had a “real job” for the first time in my life. I was finally ready to meet a wife and settle down now that I had a stable job. lol

It was like f00king kryptonite, no 19 year old woman or any woman for that matter wanted to date me.

Took me a while to realize, yeah women like men with jobs but you have to make WAAAAAY more than her for it to matter.

Before that I was a musician who bilked institutions out of shitloads of money to buy practice time. I got WAY more female attention, even from “good” girls.. lol

Now I’m older and especially today my lifestyle is impressive to them simply because it is out of reach for someone their age.

 

guy2:
The White men have no chance with that little whore generally because they’re beta cucks who don’t know what they’re doing.

But if we have white Sharia, none of that will matter.
Core message there is not giving a shit if you impress some jumped up piece of ass.

The less you care the smoother the sailing.

guy1:
Well also women have different standards than men.

You’d have to either be top of the pile or bottom of the pile. lol

Either a ken doll with comparable genetics and a massive income/bad boy status or a f00king refugee from Africa. lol
Yes, I find that to be true.

When you get older you naturally care less so it’s kind of like “wait, he’s not trying to f00k me”. lol

Or she starts acting like a bitch and you make fun of her voice and shit and she ends up laughing. Before i might have got mad and stormed off or got embarrassed.

A lot of young guys don’t have that kind of game yet, they don’t know how to handle an annoying bitch in a positive way.

I think it’s just harder to not care in your twenties unless you’re killing it already.

Definitely personality is a huge part of attraction and you just get all that experience dealing with difficult people over the course of your lifetime.

guy2:
Well when your aspirations and ego is caught up in a woman’s attention, you’re f00ked.
That said you will still need to chase a female at least in the very beginning by talking to the dumb whore and f00king her etc.

Then you can coast.

This is why musicians get pvssy, they’re in high visibility situations where the sluts approach them.

And women love music because it panders to their meaningless abstract emotional pea brains.
So they already feel an emotional connection to the musician.

guy1:
The thing with women, especially the better looking ones…

If there’s anything even slightly “off” about your personality and you’re not super good looking…adios. It’s really brutal. lol

And a lot of people of the newer generations..some of them are great to talk to but some of them just get really awkward.

Like there will be a pause and I’ve had some of them just kind of run away because they got anxious. They play so many video games they’re sort of autistic.

Bad social skills will tank you with women. I even have a list of mannerisms to avoid like putting your hands in your pockets and shaking your leg…I used to get rejected all the time until I fixed them one by one.

Every woman I’ve ever dated got pissed at me if I put my hands in my pants pockets. lol

guy2:
If you can’t eye f00k them and hold the tension with controlled paced speech and allow pregnant pauses…. Then you’re f00ked.

Thing is, all these Casanova arts are irrelevant if we have white Sharia law.

guy1:
Yeah just brutal directness and knowing when and how.

At this point in life I’m confident to say to any woman I know reasonably well that I would like to f0ck them or have them watch me masturbate. I’ll detail everything I want to do to them with a smile while they look absolutely shocked. lol

Actually I’ve never had a woman turn that down. If they turned down sex I’d say “well I’d like you to watch me, I think that’s fair” and she’d say “ok”. While she’s watching me I’d make sure she at least touches it, squeeze her boobs and anything else I can get away with. lol

A couple weeks later after watching me she’d call and we’d meet up and it would happen. I’ve done that a lot, it’s pretty easy.

She thinks it’s ok to watch but she doesn’t realize she’s getting slow boiled, females are very susceptible to this. Get your foot in the door and it opens easily.

Once she’s seen me naked and she’s touched it and had my hands all over her there’s little point in resisting and we are no longer just friends.

If I got resistance I say things like…

Well I think you should watch, that’s really the least you can do…

No, I think that’s more than fair…I must say I really do.

That’s fine if you don’t, I’m just saying I want to…(more graphic descriptions of ravishing)

It’s so funny that this shit works…anyway that’s why everything is so f00ked up.
Basically in a nutshell kids, sexual harrassment absolutely f00king works.

That’s why it’s illegal for white men only.

Ever noticed that? lol
There was this blonde bitch I worked with.

When she worked at my company I never made a move even though I knew she liked me.

As soon as she got canned I showed her my coch and banged her and it started with making her watch me whack off exactly as I described it.

She wanted me to do something for her so I said, “well I have something I want you to do for me”.
Also if there is a girl by the side of the road or stranded at a gas station…this happened a lot in Florida.

Girls would ask me for gas money, help moving or all sorts of dumb shit they can’t do themselves.

I’d say, sure but I want a quick BJ. Same deal. lol

And if you want to marry her you can just give her your phone number, there’s no such thing as dating anymore. lol

But who wants to marry these sluts, that’s the thing.
I’m not getting likes on this because most men don’t want to believe it but it’s true.

When you talk the way I described, they stop putting on the act because they know you know the real deal. You’re not some sucker they an screw around with, they know that I know they’ve done this shit before.

These are not freakish women either, they’re ordinary kinds of women a normal man will date.

But I will never date them unless they can do something for me like clean my house or make me dinner, give me money, etc.

And I certainly would not sacrifice my freedom to get children from their diseased wombs and kiss their herpes ridden mouths. lol
The realization that most women will pay for basic services with sex is the ultimate red pill.

In Brazil, guys who teach english will tell you the girls over there will offer to f00k you for English lessons rather than pay. It’s not so much that they don’t have the money, they like sex and if they think you’re cute at all (esp if you are white American) they will gladly f00k you.

Women in Brazil or anywhere in SA are actually incredibly f00king easy for Americans…also in their culture it’s normal to just f0ck all the time. lol

Sometimes if I really wanted someone and they wouldn’t budge, I’d just offer them money. I’d say look I know you’re not that into me but I’ll give you $1000 and I’ll never tell anyone I promise.

Yup.

guy2:
Never do a female “friend” favours without at least getting a blowjob in the exchange.
Very true.

Blowjobs to women are like little White lies, usually in their mind they rationalise it as not counting as sex.

Always get women to give you blowjobs, this is not a sex preference thing, this is a understanding women thing!

 

another

The funniest sex story I have that illustrates your point is this girl I’d been on a couple of dates with.

Very immature, very shy, very scared at the idea of f0cking etc etc, kept using her Female friend as an excuse not to be alone with me.

Finally got her alone in my car, had given her and a friend a lift somewhere.

Kept my little whore in the car to say goodnight etc, the friend has left, drive the car around the corner into an alley. Middle of The night.

Kissing leads to heavy petting, I go for a blowjob, she’s very self conscious, won’t do it.

So I pull it out, hard, start jerking it off in front of her face.

Then my favourite line of all time gets used….

“Baby, just kiss the tip, just once and I’ll stop….”

Anyway, she kissed the tip, did a lot more and swallowed a load.

Moral of the story, women work with a gradual breakdown of resistance, small victories lead to winning the war.

later:

The average normal white guy has f0cked around 10 to 20 girls by the time he’s in his late twenties.

Extreme betas are virgins or limping on one or two sexual experiences in their twenties

Then you have sexual alphas who will have f0cked anywhere between 70 to 300 girls.

Then you have sodomites who will generally have f0cked anywhere between 500 to 3000 men by middle age.

Negros are known to have high std rates as they f0ck quickly and frequently with strangers.

Sorry I don’t​have the J00ish sources for the academia f4gs out there. I have a brain and life experience instead.

OK THE END

I have tried to protect their anonymity by changing their forum names haha.

that was some of the best red pilling on the WQ ive seen in a long time. now those might be the two most “woman hating” guys on the bbs, even moreso than anglin himself. i read their shit and i say, DEAR GAWD, i really really really really really hope not all women are like that!

then we could assume the average 27 year old woman has been with 25 guys!!!!!!!!

i wonder if these tactics would scare the TRULY good women away. that the second you pull your D out, they say fook you you negro pervert and LEAVE. not be all COY and shit.  THAT would be the only way for the woman to pass this test.

but yeah i copied and pasted so much because there was THAT much worth copying and pasting between these two gentlemen today hahaha. so i thank them for their great talk. i am not trying to shame them. i am trying to THANK them!

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besides there is word of many threads disappearing from the forum. im sure mods are deleting some but ive also heard the hardware just cant HANDLE all the traffic and action and shit just gets corrupted and not backed up, its unbackupable or something, even weev cant figure it out because he’s not good with rails and docker and god knows what other bullshit tech. this is why i hate technology as ted kaczynski did. weev made the analogy of its like asking a russian literature phd, you’re an expert in language and lingustics, can you translate this spanish thing.

that even a super smart guy like WEEV would be as about as useful as ME just because he doesnt know RAILS. well, thats where I am on EVERY language.

and then the computer fooks up and its impossible to fix it, and even MORE impossible to determine WHY it fooked up. computers and tech are SO COMPLEX you literally need a phd to make even a LITTLE sense out of one type of computer. ITS NOT WORF IT.

this is partially what led me to Give Up on “IT” and Programming Courses and Computer Science. the shit will drive you literally insane. in a way computers are just as jooish, evil, and crazy as women hahahahaha.

lesson: i guess become a diff type of engineer. i’d lean towards mechanical. but if you live near a lot of oil, try chemical. also mechanical would be good there.

actually, just do mechanical because robots are just gonna be more and more important. automation goy! MACHINES.

but yeah. i would not want to marry a woman who pretends to be all innocent, and then she falls for the Pushing Thru Resistance, Just The Tip bullshit. and has done that with 20 guys. do you want to marry a woman who has fooked or even just sucked 20 guys?

makes me sad abotu That Woman, because she used to be truly innocent. but now i could totally see her pulling that coy bullshit as she quickly increases her number from 2 to 20 over just a few short years. DISGUSTING!

oh well its her life to fook up, she didnt have a good father, SHE DIDNT HAVE A CHANCE. SAD!

but i had nothing BUT chances: good family, ok education, decent friends. so I MUST have been a bad seed! well, i wasnt TOUGH. and i got too into alcohol and MJ from a young age.

bla bla bla weve heard this all before.

chicken wings might be a miracle food. not terribly hi cal, and very high in protein. less calories than beef. although beef is still pretty miraculous!

but yeah. married and LTR men who look at porn regularly and both man and his woman think this is perfectly normal, because all men look at porn regularly. this is a fooking serious problem that is maybe 14th on the list of other very serious problems hahaha but its one that is in my bailiwick hahaha.

yeah but its not STOPPING these men from having hwyte children, so…..its NOT really serious then?

(many of these men have hwyte children.)

uhhh well i would say it is def harming their rel with their wife, and possibly harming their skills as father. do you think the ideal father is beating off to 18 year old gurls 3 times a week?

i mean im sorta glad these men still have any secs drive.

but i think some of them dont really have a secs drive, they just “like looking” at porn and they ARENT EVEN BEATING OFF TO IT. just ogling and gazing and staring at it. this might be even WORSE than jerking off to it!

i mean what do NORMAL PEOPLE do?  i dont even know! i dont know many normal people! Normies! my porn watching friend is def not normal. I am not normal. he talks about his tuff guy male work mates who are all watching porn.

are they really ALL watching porn, or do the porn watchers just talk about porn with each other?

i really hate to think its NORMAL for All Normal Men to watch porn.

the two men i work with are very normie and very respectable. you think THEY watch porn? I would think they DONT!

and if they do, i imagine they would feel ASHAMED about it, as they SHOULD, and they prob wouldnt do that more than like once every couple months at most.

but these are men in their 40s and 50s. i am more concerned with the porn viewing of men in their 20s and 30s.

well i mean if 40 year old men are using porn regularly, thats obviously not good. its prob worse, becuase at that age, they should KNOW BETTER.

ever try explaining to an enthusiastic porn user why they shouldnt use porn? for you, its OBVIOUS. for THEM, its equally obvious – why WOULDNT you want to see hot young gurls doing really hot shit??!?! and wouldnt you like to be the LUCKY GUY fooking that crazy hawt tattooed suicide gurl in the ass hahaha.

porn makes you think stuff is HOT that you SHOULDNT THINK IS HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stuff that you say, damn, thats PERVERTED, no thank you.

but now obviously, all fetishes are perfectly OK as long as everybody CONSENTS.

absolutely porn is all a part of that. NORMALIZING PERVERSION.

dont call it a FETISH, call it PERVERSION. ABOMINATION. be ashamed, be very ashamed.

i mean ill probably always have my own perversion of wanting ot bang gurls in the ass. if i had a gf i would probably try to bang her in the ass. i def wanted to bang That Woman in the ass. i dont think this is gonna go away. but really im just happy as long as im not watching perverted porn on the topic. i mean i havent intentionally watched porn in well over a year. sought it out for the purposes of looking at it for at least 10 solid minutes and jerking off.

so its hard to put myself back in the mindset of someone who does just that several times a week! i dont want to be in that mindset! but its good that understand the people Im trying to help hahaha.

 

wed nov 22

april 8

ok made 3 oz meatballs with walmart 80 20 beef. the beef looked pretty good actually. hope it wasnt totally GMOd to hell. used regular hamburger buns with 2 of the 3 oz meatballs on them. essentially making a 6 oz burger or meatball sandwich. made 6 of these. put in freezer.

weev has been saying for years that you should teach your kids how to CODE. its more important than teaching them how to use a firearm. because the wars of the future will be fought with drones and robots and those with the best software, the best code, are gonna win, so learn how to code when you are YOUNG so you can be really really good when you are an adult.

this sounds sorta like coding academy for kids, coding summer camp for gurls, etc. of course weev is not about the social justice aspect of coding for GURLS, weev has a very good view on women.

but i am just butthurt because to get a 14 dollar an hour job coding, you have to be DAMN GOOD, you have to be in the top 10% of of coders. you better be an EXPERT in SEVERAL languages. i mean there is SO MUCH. you cant just learn a little, or even a lot. you need to learn a SUPER LOR and that is the BARE MINIMUM.  THEN you are at shit tier h1b indian chinese level. which is not good enough to get a job in the west. you are just replaceable by indians.  heh. i guess i wish i was more prepared for exactly HOW MUCH coding you need to be REALLY GOOD at, in order for the skill to be worth ANYTHING to you.

however, if i had started learning this stuff at age 5 or 6, maybe i wouldnt have hated it so much hahahha.

that was the problem with SKOOL and EDUCATION, is that it made me hate learning, hate knowledge, lose interest in everything, and not want to try or work, but just to obliterate my mind with drugs hahahahaha. i dont care about shit. nothing is interesting, everything is stupid and gay and pointless. who cares about any of this shit. how can i make money or get women with this shit. what is the payoff for knowing this stupid ass shit. id rather be jerking off to jooish porn and fookin up my mind with jooish drugs and jooish vidya games.

i was fooked up in the mind by the joo since like 7 years old hahahaha. hopeless. lost cause. bad seed. i shoulda just been born a joo. DAMN. THAT is a bad feel!

PORN is SO DESTRUCTIVE that it is the ONE THING the joos will give away FOR FREE.  i wish I had NEVER looked at porn. i think the first time i saw it, i was like 14 years old and looking at the sleazy “club” magazine, which was way more hardcore than playboy because the sluts would be bending over and showing their assholes and spread cvnts. and as a super horny 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22 year old, I thought it was the HOTTEST THING EVER. and the joo poisoned my brain and muh whole secs drive for 8 years of my young life!

i never thought at age 14 that this was a horrible jooish thing! i was like WOW this is the greatest hottest thing ever! damn i cant wait to jerk off to that tits and ass and pvssy 10 times a day! wow!

and i dont even think i was a porn ADDICT like some of the more unfortunate cases. i just think i was slightly above average. i think the average teen boy is horny af and wants to jerk off 10 times a day. that’s natural. thats NORMAL. that’s your body telling you to REPRODUCE.

hmm. well i was thinking that you make prostitutes or sluts or skanky milfs available for horny young teen boys. that would be much better than PORN. as ive said before, if a 15-16 year old boy can hook up with a 19-20 year old SLUT and just bang the shit out of her, i think that would be ideal. unless the boy falls in luv with her. which he well may! so why am I recommending this? is the reward worth the risk? theres a 50% chance he will fall in luv. but theres a 100% chance he will get the reward of confidence and masculinity around women, which will help him when it comes time for a real woman and not a practice gurl hahahahaha. so yeah reward outweighs risk. and of course you can have redpilled education for the boy on exactly why he shouldn’t fall in luv with the slut. and clear instructions on HOW not to.

clear fooking instructions. do this, this, and this.

john dewey is the biggest name in education. how jooed was dewey? probably pretty!

ok making a pot of tea instead of coffee for the first time in a while. putting some honey in it. honey is a miracle food hahahaha.

honey. chicken. cottage cheese. beef. butter. eggs. coffee. tea. i hear walnuts are supposed to be bretty good.

weev is not wrong. coding IS a very valuable skill. hwyte kids SHOULD learn it. but they cannot half ass it like i did. only take 2 classes of c++ and get up to Pointers and Polymorphism and Inheritance and be like IM DONE. FOOK THIS SHIT.

you need to get to pointers in like 1st grade and then just keep on truckin. so by the time you are 14 you have a bachelors in CS. this is what weev means when he says white kids must learn coding hahaha. and i agree with him!

well he might change his tune once he has kids. and he abolsultely SHOULD!

there are plenty of weev haters who think he is a Deep State Joo. oh just LOOK at him, he LOOKS like a joo, hes workign for the CIA. i dont think so. i could be wrong. if i am wrong, i will be very disappointed!

maybe i should get a c++ book and pick up where i left off haha. ummm i have a c# book! c# for dummies!

it just seems so hard to Bounce Back when you have Wasted Your Youth!

when i was young and jerking off to porn, i did not realize how jooish and wrong it was, but i did know that i wanted a special monog, trad, longterm rel with a woman, and i did not like sluts. but i was just SO HORNY that i couldnt resist the jooish temptation of porn. also i am one of the last generations that ever used actual porno magazines simply because we didnt have high speed internet, just dial up. heh. and of course i STILL managed to view some pron on it. remember saving pron on FLOPPY DISKS and eventually a CD ROM. good god. have mercy on us.

i became interested in bitches taking it up the ass, which certainly the INTERNET enabled that OBVIOUSLY JOOISH fetish. the most you saw in magazines were just the sluts showing their asshole. and that is jooish ENOUGH!

anyway enough of the walk down memory lane hahahahaha. gonna go for nice walk here outside, BEAUTIFUL day today.

anyway i just thought porn was a sin against the uncool christian god, and i was rebelling against that anyway. that porn being a sin was just as stupid as Premarital Secs being a sin.

premarital secs is doable (although still risky.) but if anything was ever INHERENTLY sinful, it is porn. you cant even joo a good excjuse for it hahahahahaha. other than you are young, extremely horny, and want to jerk off 10 times a day. i mean at that age you are basically a secs ADDICT anyway even WITHOUT the porn. but porn just makes it WORSE. just beat off 5 times a day WITHOUT porn. explain to your son or younger brother that the more he looks at this poison which was engineered by our Racial Enemies to destroy US, the less he is going to be able to talk to actual real women. you dont want to be a 30 year old virgin, do you? the less you look at of this propaganda poison, the sooner you’ll bang a realgurl!

i mean i ABSOLUTELY had a concept of Race by the time i was like 10 years old or younger because of The Blacks. However I had absolutely NO concept of jooz at that time. none whatsoever. and I’m sure the first time i did learn of joos, i thought it was Just Another RELIGION.

ok drank the whole pot of tea very quickly. 6 tea bags.

i am all about Powerful Phrases. since I have ADD  and millennials are proven to have an attention span less than a GOLDFISH (see time magazine) i can only understand brief soundbits. phrases. powerful phrases. give me one sentence on a flashcard that I can memorize and practice. a powerful sentence where each word is carefully placed to Get What You Want. Persuade and convince and Sell your audience on what you;re selling. because you always have to be selling something. very often it is your self. invest in me. pay me. hire me. dont fire me. spend time with me. be loyal to me. don’t leave me. have my children. dont cheat on me.

is this the same as begging and pleading? please do what I want? why can’t we ever want the same thing. why cant we be on the same team hahaha.

april 9

ok back to job tomorrow. today i want to do the “homework” of figuring out the best Process, the best Workflow, for this Project, so I can hit ground Running tomorrow, because I wasted like a whole day last week, which normal people would be FIRED for, and which proves i am a loser, inferior human being, a failure at life, cannot handle normie adult life, etc etc etc, will never make 27k a year, will never get a wife, never have children, etc

yeah well wife and children suck, they suck all your hard earned money! you dont want wife and children! just bang young sluts for the rest of your life and leave no legacy!

basically, because i have issues, i want to find a woman with issues, but not Too Many or the Wrong Kind of Issues, esp having too high of a number, being a mudshark, and being Borderline or Bipolar. but these are the most common issues women have!

so i was “lucky” enough to find a woman that had issues, but not the wrong kind of issues.  COME ON.

but it is true. a woman who is totally NORMIE would seem WAY out of my league. plus it would be OBVIOUS that she makes 4 times the money in her career. i mean at a certain age it just becomes NAIVE to IGNORE the money/success aspect.

heres an interesting idea: it is BETA/OMEGA/WEAK/REPULSIVE to perform cunnilingus on women. They immediately begin seeing you as a doormat wilting weak omega and start looking for ways to dump you, leave you, cheat on you, because what kind of strong, tough, protective man is gonna be down there munching the rug? its a sign of weakness and SUBMISSION. this is why its perfectly FINE for a woman to s your D, and you wouldn’t disagree THATS a sign of submission, no? so, its very likely to be a sign of submission when you munch the rug. and WOMEN HATE SUBMISSIVE MEN. they dont just dislike them. they HATE them. WOMEN are supposed to be submissive to MEN, not vice versa.

now, there are some men who hate munching rug and refuse to do it.

there are other men who LUVVVVV it.

there are some women who are ADAMANT about it. like its a DEALBREAKER if this guy wont munch muh rug.

as far as me, its something I am totally open to. in fact if I really like the gurl, I am very excited by the idea. in fact, the more I know and the more I like the woman, the more I am into the idea of rug munching.

but if its some brand new strange slut off the street, hell no, i dont want to get near that STANK BOX where 9000000000 guys have been! shes probably got a bunch of sperm swimming in there right now! EW! GROSS!

so theres the idea that if you munch rug TOO SOON, its viewed as submissive and disgusting by the woman. if you have a longterm rel, it’s probably safe for you to do once in a while and she wont lose any respect for you.

hard to say because I only did it once hahahahahahahaha. but i thoroughly enjoyed it! it didnt hurt that the gurl was qt as fook, solid 7.9, and 18 years old. the notion of licking an 18 year old gurl is a lot better than a 30 year old woman!

so yeah that was ALL GOOD, BELIEVE ME. I was happy to experience it, I wish i could have experienced a lot MORE of it, and I prob enjoyed it more than the actual PIV secs, because it felt like there was less pressure, it was less serious, I can be more confident about this.

but I wonder if it signalled to HER that I liked her too much and therefore  turned her off and she had to dump me? because at the time, I didn’t know her that long, because she was a SLUT who bangs guys within a week of first meeting them.

LIFE LESSON: dont risk it. dont get feelings for SLUTS, dont munch box on SLUTS, dont munch box until you have had a legit rel for a while, because its a SIGNAL of WEAKNESS AND SUBMISSION on your part, and will make the gurl DUMP you, so dont do it unless you WANT TO BE DUMPED. TOUGH MANLY MEN DONT MUNCH BOX.  until you have been like legit monog dating for……6 months. just estimating there.

this fookin guy mocks every move i make or dont make at the poker table. not betting enough. not betting correctly. betting out of position. how to lose with top pair. he tried to warn me, i didnt listen. i dont know how to read the cards, read the board, read other players. i am like a child who has no idea what im doing. i have no concept of the bare fundamentals. come take money from this FISH who doesnt know what he’s doing. whyd you do that. whyd you do that? are you an idiot or something? you CLEARLY dont understand how this game works.

it is VERY annoying and also confidence shaking because i am particlarly susceptible to having my confidence shaken that I dont UNDERSTAND the way things WORK. like yep this makes NO SENSE and I should JUST QUIT because its too confusing.

because i honestly dont know how smart i am. when I was 16, 17, I thought I was way smarter than normies. now I was like, wow, these normies know something I dont, they are smarter than me, I took an online IQ test that said I had 105 IQ and I thought I would be more near 120.

so when i run into Challenges, im like, hmm, maybe this is just too confusing for me to handle. i need an adult! but I am a grown ass man. but not REALLY! i am a pathetic excuse for a grown ass man! I am a manchild with SEVERELY arrested development!

and I HATE that. I just wish I was an official grown ass man.

yeah but MANY people are super immature hahahaha. some people NEVER grow up.

yeah but no one EVER RESPECTS those people.

anyway. so i dont think i made a big tactical mistake by slurping that sluts wh0re hole. at WORST, it was a SYMPTOM of my larger Submissive Supplicating Weakness that prevented her from having any loyalty to me. more importantly, she was a known quantity as a known slut, and her loyalty was diminished ANYWAY.

main point: use your D to establish DOMINANCE early on.

but yeah I remember being like, this is great, the girl cant get PREGNANT from this, I can actually fake my way a little easier at this, not so nervous, she seems to like it, this is hot as shit, maybe shes a slut but her 18 year old pvssy is pretty sweet nonetheless, i could do this EVERY DAY.

so yeah I dont blame myself or regret it one bit.

I do regret not POUNDING her more and not taking tons of pictures and vidyas hahahaha. I didnt take ANY.

ok i was grumpy and it was a sunday so i laid down to take a brief nap, that was not a bad idea

i gotta be careful with this rwriting, it has been even more negative than usual lately.  honestly just been avoiding it because its always bitching about women or about being a lsoer hahahaha. oh im just discovering this NOW ?!?!?!?! hahaha

but yeah the thought that you have been weak, less than a man, a weak little neet loser, failure at life, failure with women, cant reproduce, cant take care of your kids even if you could reproduce, just a failure at the Game Of Life in every way. bad feels man! and women and Employers rejecting you because they can see you are OBVIOUSLY a failure too! it’s not just you that can see it! the outside world CONFIRMS it! its not just you being HARD on yourself! you really DO suck that much at everything!

and then writing tons of stuff like this doesnt really help you pull yourself out of it.

if i ever have to dump a woman and i dont think i can handle it, i will pay a shrink 50 bucks to do it professionally. also i think i know the mechanics of how to do it. write them a nice letter saying i dont think they are a terrible person, but i dont feel the same way, sorry, the end. heres the number of a good shrink, heres some drugs to help you cope hahahaha.

apr 10

ok back to job monday. will really feel better once i KNOW WHAT IM DOING on this project, where I did succeed in making some progress today. basically by forcing myself through sheer force of will, not getting sidetracked, not getting autistic, really, just doing more of a halfass job hahaha rather than Analysis Paralysis hehehe.

foRcing shit onto kind of a messy spreadsheet rather than doing nothing at all.

so, feel a LITTLE bit better about that.

so this guy took his 17 year old daughter on vacation and let her drink alcohol and acted like that was normal hahaha. i was a little disappointed tbh hehehe. i just hope to GOD he gave her a curfew and said be back here by 10pm and dont fook any BOYS. he apparently let her hang out and talk to boys that were at the resort. i hope he took precautions to make sure she wasnt out FOOKING the boys.

so then i thought, is there ANY father out there who is OK with his daughter fooking boys? dont ALL fathers want their daughters to be a pure princess? that practically NO father is going to take a LAISSEZ FAIRE approach here and say, OH WELL, shes just gonna fook boys and theres nothing I can do about it?

I assumed that most fathers would not feel this way. most fathers would not be ok wth their daughters being casual secs sluts on vacation.

then i wondered if normie fathers had a forum on the internet where they talked about how to keep their daughters off the D.

like, do you let your 17 year old daughter drink on vacation, but make DAMN sure she comes back by 10 o clock?

i suppose if she wants to sneak off and fook a boy before 10 pm, then shes already a huge whore and theres nothing you can do.

i mean i trust this guy to be a good father. so i am studying his Fatherhood style. to make sure his son turns out not to be a Loser and his daughter turns out not to be a Slut.

Honestly. thats all people care about. is your daughter becoming a slut? is your son becoming a LOSER. or maybe its all I care about hahaha. well its true, I do care alot about that.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/to-ladies-concerning-andrew/98012

heh. there is a secret ladies club on DS then. well these women should realize, if you arent a dirty race mixing slut, the mean things AA is saying about women dont apply to you!!!!!

http://cyber.eserver.org/unabom.txt

unabomber manifesto hahahaha. recommended by anglin. not the first person to recommend this work! i really should read it. really he should just write a damn book from prison, or give interviews, or just make his own damn recordings. we would ALL be better served by listening to ted kaczynski rambling off the top of his head for 60 minutes than watching a damn shitty tv program.

i wonder. children might naturally rebel. but will they rebel LESS against the idea of RACE than they do the idea of RELIGION? I rebelled against Religion because I felt it was Unjust, Unfair, saying you couldnt jerk off to jooish porn, and that everything was a SIN. this did not go so well with my Adolescent Urges.

I wonder if Race would have seemed a more Natural thing for me to be schooled in. like, you are so horny because thats your body telling you to make hwyte babies. and that is a beautiful thing. and porn is horrible because look how it treats white women. shit even nonwhite women dont deserve to be treated like that. youre not going to go to HELL if you bang your high school sweetie. and if you keep looking at that porn you’ll never HAVE a high school sweetie.

and focus on your career because every drink you take and MJ you puff and opioid you take and pron you jerk off to, then another step you take AWAY from having a hwyte waifu and hwyte children, and being a miserable childless neet loser who has nothing to offer anyone. just a damn useless parasite.

Uncle A and the NSDAP probably had a good program for raising boys into decent young men.

shit i cant blame my religious upbringing! 90% of people who went to my religious school turned out all right.

I was def SPOILED too much between the ages of 17 and 21 or so. some hardcore Chinee shit like we are going to lock you in this room and you are not going to come out until you are an engineer making 50k a year might have worked. ITS FOR MY OWN GOOD!!!!

ok to be a successful adult you have to be able to bullshit and sell shit all day. some people have the gift of Blarney, you can see it as young as age 14, these extravert normies have a high verbal intelligence and are makign friends and influencing people from a very young age. they dont struggle so much with it. the italians are good at this hahahahahaha.

 

CHAD HOEST

mar 25

had dream about woman i like in  2007 or 8. she was very attractive and young but was a fatherless bipolar mudshark. good riddance. well shes been with the same mud guy now for like 2 years, thats not typical of muds fooking white gurls. shit im surprised shes capable of being with 1 man without dumping him for 2 years. i dont want the desperate thirsty man who is willing to settle for poor damaged me for the long term, better dump him.

anyway shes not a terrible person and in the dream she was being nice and interested in me, smiling at me, hanging out with me one on one, even grabbing muh d under the table. i was like well this is nice, cant wait to get you home and fook you like an animal several times in one night. i was totally enchanted just by her hanging out with me, looking at me, smiling and laughing and being flirty towards me. its not rocket science.

then i lost track of her and could not find her and was like OH SHIT that was a SURE THING and now I am gonna LOSE MUH CHANCE.

but yeah even if she is a crazy mudshark shes not a terrible person and i would have totally dated her and probably fallen in full luv with her if she had any interest in me. she was interested in being friendly with me for a few weeks, so that was enough for me! unfort she had a LOT of male friends and was always making new friends. VERY social. bad news. i was nothing special.  and i am sure i remember her a lot more than she remembers me, like 9 fookin years later. oh well. at least she looks older now.  but still totally bangable. and she is way more successful than me hahaha. and fooks negros. falls in LUV with negros. i mean thats pretty damning.

i dont need to say she was a huge slut ever since the age of 20 at least. becuase she was hahahaha.

and to think. many guys got to live out my dream of her being interested in them, then they got to fook her, then they probably got “too” interested in her, then she said UGH why are all these thirsty guys always falling in LUV with me, im not that luvable, then gave them the cold shoulder, fooked tons more guys, and only fell in luv with darkies, and still became way more successful than me hahahaha.

but yeah she’s not a terrible person. i wish her father were better to her and she had turned out better and had dated me hahahaha. then i never would have met That Woman.

you can probably get more than one oneitis in your life……but its way harder when you are older than 30 and looking at older women. it happens most readily when you are young and the women are young. then it happens maybe 3, 5 times and you better marry one of those gurls. doesnt help if they have no interest in you whatsoever hahaha.

anyway it was interesting to get a dream where a qt young gurl was being flirty with me and it felt good man, like do ALL NORMIES REALLY experience this in real life?

i actually experienced it with 2 women in my own life! 12 and 13 years ago hehehe. so i KNOW its real and not a myth.

i claim that its NOT weird to get attached to a person after you FOOK them, or even youve been making out with them. these things are supposed to generate bonding chemicals of oxytocin. so Thots who casually suck and fook, cant make oxytocin any more, cant get attached to any man. well except maybe THE MOST alpha, who already has His Choice of women throwing themselves at him.

also dont be captain save a child if the childs mother is a Ho and you are involved with her hahahaha. some men play captain save a ho and the ho has a young child that the white knight man gets attached to and wants to save the child along with the mother.

its ok to save the child, just ignore the mother tho. send the mother to a handmaids tale like breeding camp where she can breed white babies but not fook them up.

kinda shitty to have hwyte kids if youre just gonna fook them up. its very frustrating. you might ALMOST not have the kids at all if youre just gonna set them up to fail. but no abortions of hwyte babies. send the hwyte babies to a hwyte person who can take care of them. to a captain save a ho type man. give him a child to save instead. and he can continue to bang hos and thots. away from the childs eyes of course.

laid down cuz felt tired, didnt really Nap though. watching “mutiny on the bounty” with marlin brando from like 1961 and the hwytes are RACE MIXING like crazy with the tahitian THOTS. the captain should be condemning this race mixing abomination.

anyway point is, if some 20 year old girl with a healthy body is throwing herself at you, you conveniently forget about race. i probably even would too. but yeah i dont want to watch a movie from the 60s and see RAMPANT race mixing!

yeah yeah i get it, they are SAILORS, fine. i just smh when i see hwyte men getting YELLOW FEVER. pretty PATHETIC.

besides, what they dont say enough is that these gurls are huge sluts who treat EVERY guy like this. you think she’s gonna be faithful to YOU? or are you a degenerate who doesnt care if your woman is faithful? or hwyte?

well these men have been working hard like slaves on the sea and they are just looking for a little tenderness and now they are finally getting it. doesnt make race mixing RIGHT but i cant say id do differently in their position. id probably K muh self after 2 days on the SHIP!!!!!

like this guy chip gaines and his Triracial wife on the hit show fixer upper. he seems like a good man but seriously very very very GOOFY which probably made it harder for him to get a hwyte woman. so he gets with this….lets just call her asian woman. i know she is ASIAN, ARAB, and something else, maybe mexican. she is in good shape, very healthy weight, and has nice hair, and i would bang her too if i were a desperate thristy slave on board a ship. or right now, after 12 years of thirst hahahahaha. 12 years a thirsty slave.

but rather than pump and dump her, he fell in LUV with her and millions of people including me are watching the show. now thank god their kids look a lot whiter than she does and could prob PASS for whyte. shit you know i think the third race in her IS whyte. white, asian, and arab. i looked it up once hahahaa.

so that makes the kids 67% white. hmmmm. not quite good enough. POOR KIDS!!!! SAD!

only in a thoroughly jooed world would it make sense to have SECS with a person and NOT get ATTACHED to them.  this is EXACTLY how the joos DESTROY OUR race, by destroying the FAMILY, destroying CHILDREN, destroying relships between men and women, by saying that secs is casual and doesnt NECESSITATE ATTACHMENT.

every time you have casual secs, the J rubs his hands.

every time you don’t condemn casual secs, you murder your own race. just throw it into the oven.

LOVE YOUR RACE.

MJ has been less disappointing to me than WOMEN. BY FAR. the women always leave and break muh heart. the MJ, i pretty much know what I’m getting, and it works as intended. i use it to fulfill a similar role as women: to get warm fuzzies, a sense of romance and transcendence and The Sublime and The Beautiful.

and it more or less WORKED! its honestly an effective reinforcement. like a dog getting a treat. pavlovs dogs drooling for their treat. the only thing that can come close to TRAINING and CONDITIONING me like that is a Special QT young Woman who I Like, and its WAY easier to find MJ than to find a woman like THAT. even right now. when MJ is very slim pickins. likable women are even slimmer hahahaha.

they say romance books and bullshit like 50 shades of gray are porn for women, which i can see the point, but it misses a HUGE point of what pornography is. namely, 50 shades of gray is not even 1% as filthy, degenerate, destructive as the hardcore vidya porn for men, where real women are destroyed, degraded and abused to the delight of the jooz, where pathetic men who will never get a woman beat off to it bitterly.

in 50 shades of gray, real women arent being destroyed gaping their assholes for black bulls on camera. there’s just some fantasy of being seduced by a powerful manly man. nothing new there. so theres some very LIGHT fetishism. i’m surprised its not MORE jooish. and when it gets more jooish – like the degen filth produced to emasculate MEN – then i’ll get worried. until its used as a weapon to destroy people, you cant call it “pornography.” you can call it retarded, low brow jooish (((entertainment))) though!

how WOULD you make something like pornography for women though? basically, women can ALWAYS reproduce. i guess the more destructive thing would be entertainment that blatantly promotes casual secs, polyamory, polyandry, and even still, its not like women Dildo Themselves to Sex and The City or Cuckold Porno. and even if they did, they would still reproduce. but they would be ruined children for sure. not that many of them aren’t.

but yeah honestly i don’t think you CAN make something as bad for women as bad as actual porn has been for men. something like “GIRLS” by digusting pig lena dunham is the closest thing, and that is over and done with. women liked that show for 2 years at most. then it went out of favor and lena went too far even for the joos and people are like yeah shes a little weird. GIRLS was bad and promotes the worst kind of women, but its still not nearly as bad as porno for men.

yeah the worst thing for women would be much complex things than “just porno”: stuff like ABORTION and FEMINISM basically and everything related to that. it all contributes to the idea of sexual liberation, culture of casual sex, disposability of human life, etc etc.

outlaw pornography and outlaw abortion. this would go a good way to changing the culture. outlaw no fault divorce. oh but muh freedoms, there should be no laws, no gummint. no this is not a libertarian website hahahahaha. we believe in law and order, for the protection of the fascist nation and our fascist hwyte race. laws to keep out da jooz. theyve been kicked out of 200 countries. i wonder why. because goys hate the poor jooz. the poor innocent victims that never did anything to get banned from 200 countries in 2000 years.

i guess tinder would be like porn for women to. give them a platform to HAVE casual sex and to make their OWN porno pictures and videos with the guys they casually fook like sluts.

but yeah life is a COMPETITION. FIERCE competition. for women, and for jobs.

heh. its funny though. it was easier for me to get into a Highly Selective University than it was to get an 11k a year job. WAYYYYYY easier.  I applied to like 3 universities and got accepted to them all. no i did not apply to harvard, yale, princeton, stanford, MIT, i just wasnt interested, and i prob WOULDNT have gotten in.

it was easier for me to get into a Highly Selective University at age 17 that it was to Win the Hearts of Sluts and Mudsharks.

so yeah i guess i wasnt prepared for HOW competitive the world really was. kinda wish i had just gotten rejected from that uni! i only went there because it was Highly Selective and a Really Good Name, so if i go here, i will be SET FOR LIFE, even if I do average work in a useless degree. WRONG.

anyway back from sat afternoon church, ate some dinner, took powerwalk, and gonna actually be under calorie goal for once.

anyway i guess that dream about that OTHER woman was good because it wasnt about THAT woman. but it still doesnt prove i could have feelings for a brand new unknown woman.

well, logically, if it were a young, nice, attractive woman,  i probably could. if she were about 7/10 and about 25 years old (or younger!) but as i get older, this age standard gets harder and harder to reach. also them being willing to spend time with you (one on one, not just in groups), and respond to you, and be nice to you, that can cause you to have feelings too.

so yeah i COULD. but to pull a woman that YOUNG when I am not YOUNG…that seems unlikely.

logged into my runescape game for the first time in 3 years. it looked totally different.  i then logged into “old school” which looked familiar but it had set me all the way back to the beginning. sad! i remember the game being kinda fun. now its making me type the stupid password in and wont even let me paste the long unique password i have for security. you have to type in the password every time. might as well save it as password123.

funny that the women you never forget have forgotten you like their fathers have forgotten about them. and the guys these women can’t forget have in turn forgotten about THEM.

well you know i bet their fathers havent FORGOTTEN about them. they are just too COWARD to do the right thing.

come on. was i really THAT forgettable? i dont think so. i know my male friends remembered me.

taake does a CURE cover. this sounds like a potentially good idea. havent listened yet. this is from the cure “pornography” album which is very very bleak and dark and which i imagine would be anti pornography. i guess i would have to look at the lyrics of the album to determine why they called it that.

just trying to psych myself up for his boring concert so i get my 22 dollars worth hahahahahahaha no it should be pretty good. also prepping his most recent 2 albums “stridens hus” and “noregs vaapen” which i have not listened to. in 2008 i was actually aware of taake and thought he was pretty good so i was excited about his New Self Titled Album in 2008. It turned out being very boring and underwhelming so then i stopped being so ecxcited about taake. the end. then 9 years later he came to my town and i said what the heck ill go see him. shit i cant believe i first heard taake more than 9 years ago. it doesnt seem that long ago. i certainly haven’t “been a fan” for 9 years hahahahaha.

seems like most fans agree: his 2008 s/t album was boring and uninspired, his next album noregs vaapen was a strong comeback, then his next album stridens hus was kinda lackluster again. well he never makes an album longer than 45 minutes, thats good.

this unartig usually has decent recordings of NYC shows on youtube. hear taake does a good live show. he looks like he’s into it and is not so grim he can’t interact with the fans. but not so silly he cant be grim either. i think his whole thing is to recreate classic 90s black metal. back when dissection and emperor and darkthrone and burzum and mayhem were the coolest bands ever. i am kind of this era too, not being THAT much younger than hoest, so hipster blackgaze young kids black metal still seems a little weird to me, as im sure it does to him.

i dont understand those shitty pants he is wearing though. literally the worlds most falling apart jeans. there was a photograph taken once of his D hanging out of his terribly shredded pants hahahahaha. i would just get a new pair of pants already buddy. but glad to see he hasnt gotten all fat and is still in good shape in his Late Thirties.

in 2015 he had a huge hipster beard hahahaha but in 2016 he cut it to normie length hahahaha. but seriously his long beard looked good. i cant grow a long beard like this because muh beard hairs grow in weird directions whereas his beard grows straight down and out so he can grow it long.

if you see pictures of him not looking made up or trashy or drunk but attempting to look semi presentable, he is handsome as fook and could easily pull a 20 year old 8/10 waifu. JELLY. CHAD HOEST.

mar 26

yeah actually pretty excited about this. one could do a lot worse than taake. i SHOULD be a bigger fan. i was big on metal in 1999 and 2002 when he was releasing his first big albums. i just dont recall reading about them! 2005 hordaland came out just as i was making out with a grill for the last time hahahaha but i was tuned out of metal at that time, and for a few more years after. then i came back sometime around 2008 because i remember when the taake album came out and everyone was disappointed.

but yeah. i wonder if he likes sacramentum. probably. taake should be my favorite band because they tap right into that sweet spot before black metal got young and weird, and old and boring. and never attempted to “innovate” in the embarrassing ways older bands like satyricon did. the younger bands did a LOT better job of that, shit i totally respect bands like alcest or wolves in the throne room (do they really count as younger though?) well, repsect their MUSIC I should say haha. also saor, winterfylleth, wodensthrone, 10’s UK black metal is bretty kewl, but nothing really weird about it: it is just straight up pagan heathen atmospheric BM with no funny stuff. you could say similar about taake. its bretty atmospheric, quite melodic.  the funniest he gets is occasional “black and roll” and using a banjo once which got way too much attention. well it doesnt help that he brings the banjo on tour with him to play during that one song.

yeah i am officially excited. i will relisten to the old taake albums because i have forgotten large portions of them. i will listen to the newer albums i missed entirely. i listened to the cure song today, it was ok but yeah the vocals were a miss hahahaha. would have been better off just impersonating robert smith, who has a good voice.

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but yeah this is what i mean, chad hoest. very handsome. a total 8.8/10 man hahahahaha. he could literally be a male model.

but it is degenerate to get an upside down cross tattoo. but i can totally understand why. he was probably drunk and 18. when i was drunk and 18 i just drew an upside down cross on my arm with a marker hahahaha. he goes and gets a permanent tattoo on his chest. SMDH.

when he is good, he is really, really, really good. he taps into the pure essence of black metal, which really covers a YUGE range of emotions. its not just “cold” or “grim” but it certainly includes those things. sorrow and beauty and nostalgia and epic and pride and and yearning and anger and hatred and angst and even romance and even some hwyte racial pride in there (but i dont expect any creators to acknowledge or even realize that last one. it still comes through implicitly. you cant escape becoming who you are, goy, hahahahahaha.)

and taake covers ALL these bases rather than just being hateful or just being depressive or just being grim, and keeps the music very dynamic, epic, interesting, hot-blooded, passionate, earnest, sincere.

except when it doesnt, then it’s just as boring as all other boring black metal.  but taake hits some very strong highs.

also hoest is a very powerful singer and has a recognizable voice.

he hangs out with some degenerates, so i hope he is less degenerate than them. i guarantee he is more degen than i would like him to be tho. he prob drinks too much, prob bangs too many dirty sluts, def has too many degen tattoos, has gone to jail, probably for drunkenly, stupidly fighting another drunk white man. (speculation). he sort of “apologized” as much as he could for the svastica incident in germany 2007.

he is an obvious narcissist who has HIMSELF on ALL of his album covers hahaha.  well a man needs to have CONFIDENCE in himself and not be a meek depressive self-loather!

would like to see video of him recording the albums. does he actually play the drums? on older abums I know he got a guest drummer.

what is his opinion on iron maiden? probably positive but what if its neutral?

does he have any illegitimate children? i could see him being a deadbeat father who leaves his bastard children with their metal/bar slut mothers so he can go on tour and bang more metal sluts. just speculation hahahaha. if he has children, i HOPE he takes care of the children. kinda hard to do when you are on tour months at a time though! which is why you should do like garth brooks and retire from touring when your kids are young. you can still play a few shows a year.

do like varg. release a string of classic albums when you are very young, then shift the focus from music to having 6 or more children.  music is a young man’s game. especially metal and black metal.

in other words, hoest should have retired from black metal in 2006 after hordaland, settled down with a NICE gurl and started having babies. how about he could get a job as a Music Teacher and still play music with a Norwegian Folk Group. but no more hateful drunken metal. he’s a family man nao.

but that didnt happen.

and we still would have had those classic first 3 albums, and he could have had 5 kids before he was 40. win win. instead he is making hit or miss albums and getting drunk at age 39. talk about despair. judge judge judge hahahahahahahaha. at least he is traveling the world and banging women and still makes 50% good albums hahahaha and has fans and is leaving some kind of legacy hahaha.

i bet he could just retire to bjoergvin and find a nice gurl even now. there are still good women left, even in the us, even in degen norway and sweden.

but would i let my virgin daughter marry hoest?

well, i would test the shit out of him first! no more tattoos, no more drinking, no more tours, no more sluts, from now on you are going to be a husband and father! i mean either that sounds good to you or it doesnt. to me it sounds great, except for providing for that family.

could he really be a music teacher? could he really make enough money to live off that in NORWAY, where they take 60% of your income in taxes and gas is 10 dollars a gallon and it costs 10000 dollars to rent a shoebox apartment?

would he want to be a music teacher? would he be a good music teacher? uhhh i think he’d enjoy it more than being a Call Center Agent or a Lidl/Tesco slave. maybe he has terrible people skills though.

well, you cant bang dozens of women and have terrible people skills.

how do i know he’s banged dozens of women? you can just tell.

men who bang dozens of women, even if they are horrible sluts, have what it takes to be successful in other areas of life. raw confidence and toughness and masculinity. he just has to be WILLING to give up the degenerate, sensualist life of booze and sluts.

i guess if you’re actually GETTING the sluts, it could be hard to give up. for me, even getting SLUTS was a huge struggle. for CHAD HOEST, I bet its as easy as a woman getting a chad.

i should clearly write a fanfic of chad hoests alternate life, then give it to him at the concert. then he will uh oh this guy is right, i better start making babies. i am 39 years old and a handsome hwyte man. what am i doing with my life. shit you can go to southern france like varg if norway has become too ridiculous. i dont doubt that it has. go to poland. go to hungary. go to romania. its all good. we’re all hwyte here.

russia and ukraine are great, i just worry that da J’s have too much power there. in poland possibly too.  guess its gotta be better than NORWAY. in terms of the current norwegian gummint.

lets make norway great again hahahaha.

hey i dont blame chad hoest for descending into sensualist degeneracy, look at what his HOME is BECOMING!

my home is becoming similar. and i descended into hateful nihilism of black metal and the hedonist sensualism of drugs and, in the past, alcohol and pr0n. never had the luxury of real live grills like chad tho. i hear that can be real hard to give up. i just cant put myself in chad’s shoes. and chad cant put himself in mine.

hey im no better. i just want to be lazy and do MJ all the time. muh brain and muh WILL is BROKEN.

i have bitterness towards women because they cant just injure, its always INSULT UPON INJURY with these demons hahahahaha. they cant just reject you and say sorry, they have to reject you and be huge mudshark sluts afterwards. you cant have me but all these other guys sure can. im a dirty degen slut, but im still too good for YOU, ya meek neet wimpy sissy loser child.

i guess they arent intentionally trying to “rub it in your face” when they do slutty shit after rejecting you and you just happen to hear about it because you are borderline stalking them hahahahahaha. then thats your fault. well shit. i argue they should be being sluts ANYWAY. no woman NEEDS to be a slut. fook that shit. its BAD, there is no use for it ever. makes schlomo say GOOD GOYIM. because it DESTROYS the goy race. not IMMEDIATELY, but in the long term. even 50 lousy years can do a hell of a lot of damage. that’s not too long term. that’s less than one lifetime.

can lead the horse to water but cant make them drink. this is one of the most important true cliches ever. very relevant for me and very relevant for others too. including that woman. its all about WILL. so do you blame yourself for FAILING TO INSPIRE WILL????!!?!???

did you really lead them to the right water?

why arent they drinking?

why arent you SELLING the water good enough? aren’t you SKILLED enough to SELL this water?

i would say dont blame yourself too much. sometimes there really is nothing you can do. GOD has to get in there and even HE might not be able to do anything. THE FREE WILL. what a horrible, horrible thing!

i had all the opportunities to succeed but i would rather sm0ke MJ, drnk alcohol, look at porn, and take it easy. coast.

i put myself all in for her and said take me or leave me and she left me as sure as you can leave a person.

KARMA hahahaha.

no im really not a bad guy i SWEAR. i never want to do anybody wrong. i just hated working hard when the payoff would come in longer than 4 years hahahaha.

I DIDNT REALIZE WHAT A BIG MISTAKE I WAS MAKING! I WAS YOUNG AND IMMATURE!

the problem was the mistake wasnt just one big mistake, it was many little mistakes over like 4 years, that were not super visible to me, or to anyone around me. shit if my fam was convinced i was making a Big Mistake, they would have done something about it. but NO ONE KNEW what a big mistake i was making. thats what especially sucks. no one knew, no one could stop me. and if i could go back in time, i would damn sure stop myself.

average of 8:53 hours of sleep a night. DAMN. well, there it is. cant argue with the numbers hahahaha.

just trying to figure out the best time to go to bed when i get up at 5 am. apparently 8 pm hehehehe. OR EARLIER. 7:15 pm, because i take about 45 minutes to fall asleep after i get into bed.

i dont even know what would have been good for me. military, i prob would have private pyled.

i think just go to local comm college while continuing to work muh job i had at age 17. gotten into a machine apprentice thing. but i prob wouldnt even have THOUGHT of that. it took me till at least 28 to determine that that was a good idea.

i would have still been like college sucks, working sucks, everything sucks, just get the easiest degree there is and prepare for a life of sucking hahahaha. get used to it. deal with it. but maybe i would have been physically prevented from doing as much MJ and alcohol. not sure though. i STILL managed to do a lot of MJ and alcohol when i was home with the fam. quite a damn bit, now that i think of it. DAMN.

well, i would have stayed at the job i had until i found something better. it was a very easy job and i wuldnt just quit it. basically i had to leave it because muh college got in the way too much. ironic.

also i never would have gotten laid and never would have made out or cuddled with grills hahahaha. well i prob would have made out with grills but may well have never stopped being a V at age 21 like i did. i mean shit if were a 30 year old VIRGIN my confidence would be even LOWER. at least i can say oh yeah i stopped being a VIRGIN at a SOMEWHAT normie age.

hehehe whats def NOT normie is how i never had secs or GF or makeout or cuddles SINCE then hahahaha.

anyway, it really is impossible to say. maybe i would have just gone to another kollige and things would have turned out just as bad. maybe i would have stayed at home and gone to local college and things would have turned out just as bad hahahaha. I was BORN to become a neet failure nevergf 11k a year loser.

ok ok ok these are all horribly negative thoughts and i shouldnt even be THINKING THEM, let alone writing them down for all eternity as part of “MUH LIFE STORY” hahahaha.

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i would not recommend putting all your money into MJ stocks, youd be better buying BTC hahahaha.

i would say if you get crabby like that, just lay donw and take a NAP if you can. if its a weekend and you dnt have to WORK or STUDY WORK hahaha. i did that, got at least 30 minutes, factored that into my Big Data. by number is inching closer and closer to 9 hours a night!

if i get 1 minute less than 9 hours of sleep every night, i get SO CRABBY i CANNOT FUNCTION hahahahaha.

i am like john cusack in high fidelity. thinking of all these women in the past, oh maybe she was the one, maybe she was the one, i should try to reconnect from this grill from 15 years ago, etc etc. not that ive actually done this. but it has crossed my mind. like lets give it another chance. and they are probably not gonna do the Reaching Out here. but im 40 and still single, what have i got to lose by Reaching Out to these people 10, 20 years later. i wasnt the one who ended this. i would have stayed with you and let it run its course if you didnt Prematurely Dump Me!

did he DUMP any of the women in that movie?

in real life, men actually DO dump women. hard to believe but its true.  i’ve never done it and dont really WANT to hahahaha.

and what an ANNOYING JOO cusack was in that annoying jooish movie!!!!!!! that is not how proud hwyte men act! this is not a man who is worthy of any woman! never act anything like that! its amazing he had been with like 5 women in his life! and not 0! he should have been a virgin!

stupid fookin jooish movie. cant believe i watched it like 3 times. this is why you stop being a big music fan when you become an adult. music is not a serious time consuming interest of successful, respectable adults. its like smokin MJ. its immature, arrested development.

why do you think people who smoke MJ listen to so much MUSIC hahahaha.

oh god i just want to sm0ke MJ.

GLR did not become joo wise until age 32 hahaha. i was 30 at the oldest. more like 28 hehehehe.

some people say you should get rid of all drunk driving laws and should only prosecute people for drunk driving if there is an accident and somebody gets hurt and the person at fault is drunk.

but no just pulling people over and giving them a misdemeanor 10k DUI for having 8% BAC.  no waiting to nab people coming out of bars. no dui checkpoints.

INTERESTING.

ok 730 planning to go to bed around 8. its science. did absolutely nothing productive this weekend. took naps, played cards, wrote whining shit. well i did do 2 loads of laundry, trimmed beard, took powerwalk on saturday i think. got concert ticket for furst concert in almost 2 years. worked on Budget. worked on Sleep Spreadsheet. wrote a ton of stuff, 25% of it good. created another spreadsheet showing the current sizes of all types of clothes i wear. measurements, sizes. dress shirts, pants, suits, chest, neck, legs, waist, arms, shoes, coats, shorts, undershorts, sweatpants, anything and everything as of mar 26 2017.

prepared a bunch of sound files. podcasts and taake albums.

crunched some serious analytics. gathered some good data and crunched some good numbers.

was just disappointing on muh job search, which i dont even want to really DO shit till like july, and also on muh powerwalking. yeah i should have gone to the gym but oh well. also gained almost 2 pounds hehehehe.

 

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mar 18

yeah buddy

saturday morning, sleeping in, get thoughts about Women and That Woman. like can you really compare women to Drugs? It’s inherently good and natural to have a wife and have children, it’s not inherently bad like being addicted to drugs.

but not all men are GOOD ENOUGH, TOUGH ENOUGH to have wife and children. less than half.

so i get butthurt when i see men display FAKE toughness so they can knock up the white trash stupid slut, have an innocent white baby, then run off like a deadbeat and make another stupid white trash fatherless slut. basically acting liek a hwyte negro. disgusting. they’re not man enough or good enough or tough enough to have children, but they do anyway,  because they can go through the motions, and because women have become stupid and slutty enough because of generations of no fathers, of negrolike fathers.

of course the root cause is Political Policies engineered by Jooz and Joo-Luvers. Great society, welfare, anti-male, anti-family, anti-human, anti-hwyte, antisocial poison laws and policies.

i am a parasite too but i dont take any gov entitlements hehehehe. and i pay muh taxes. which are like 20% of muh shamefully small 11k income!

feed2mail is only free for the first 30 days. fook these J’s.

wesearchr seems like a good thing. basically…crowdfunding against mainstream media joos??? saying lets fight this enemy of the people?

ok i will listen to the soundtrack from “witcher 3” because even though vidya is degen, this is a polish game from polish devs and the music done  by polish composers. basically im here mainly for the music, because i know gaymz sometimes have good music.

and basically witcher seems like something less jooed than other games, or tv shows, or movies, that could potentially attract good music composers into making a coherent, semi symphonic score.

like gaym of thrones had a decent theme music but the show is degen jooish trash so, kinda makes the music less enjoyable.

witcher is a polish thing created by hwytes and seems like a less degen of a vidya, so, it gets the pass.

really, vidya is BETTER and less degen than sitting around complaining about what a loser you are!

and its less degen than PORN!

its less degen than alcohol.

is it less degen than MJ? thats a tough call.

right now i would not mind getting blazed af and playing a hwyte slavic game like witcher and NOT complaining about what a loser i am who will never get or secure a good job and a good waifu.

how do you turn private pyle from a weak cowardly untough loser, into the tough drill instructor? well you do what has been done to countless marines before: break them down until they are crying themselves to sleep every night, then rebuild them anew.

but private pyle threw a monkey wrench in, because after he broke down crying, he was not built up anew, but just flipped out and K’d people. went postal.

so yeah i guess, do MJ and play vidya as long as you are NOT:

  1. complaining about being a a lonely loser
  2. fat and getting fatter
  3.  watching porn

but if you are playing vidya then those other things overlap with that venn diagram quite a damn lot.

but i would be the special snowflake!

no im serious, i am not worried about ever Going Back to porn, i am DONE with that. going back to OVereating and becoming Fat again is the much more real risk that i need to be vigilant about.

unlike porn, eating tasty food is not inherently bad. even drinking alcohol is not inherently bad or jooish. its just doing it in MODERATION. IN MODERATION.

theres no moderation for porn. no one should watch it ever. it is trash and all of it belongs in the oven. you cant say the same about food, alcohol, or women. MJ is more up for debate, and i’m leaning towards, it does have its legit uses. for pain or cancer or seizures. so no. its not inherent bad or jooish like porn. VERY FEW THINGS ARE. im not lying when i say porn is one of the worst, most jooish things ever, and that very few things are THAT bad. well, TV, mainstream media, journalists, movies, popular culture, modern women, jooniversities, education, jooish scams, those come close in their level of jooishness.

how jooed is it? and porn is one of the MOST jooed things about it. you can unjoo tv and vidya, you CANNOT unjoo porn, becuase its INHERENTLY jooish. there is NO reason for it to exist except to joo and harm people. it is the pure essence of jooishness laid bare and in that sense it could be instructive. but still not worth watching. just think about how bad it is, and that will teach you everything you need to know about da j00z.

they turn hwyte women into sluts who fook negros on camera. they turn hwyte men into opioid popping deadbeats who abandon their daughters and let them fook negros on camera. i can’t put it any more plainly, folks.

and if these things dont rustle you, you should be ashamed of yourself. unfort i think too many hwytes would NOT be rustled by these things. well, they wouldn’t believe there is any jooish interest in these things, thats just a wild antisemitic conspiracy theory. i make 50k a year with my degree and have 1 kid i’m painstakingly educating not to be racist and to learn about hwyte privilege, and I read the JY Slimes and I know that hwytes are just getting the karma they deserve for centuries of being bigoted racist oppressors. shrug. oh well. you reap what you sow. karma.

the EXCITEMENT and the THRILL of wanting some MJ and then you HAVE it!!!! and now you are going to enjoy it! the anticipation! the preparing of your preferred method. and then finally the almost relgiious ritual of partaking. i really try not to take it for granted like many of the sloppy degen st0ners. its all very special and sacred hahahaha.

i mean honestly. why dont i just go down to the Bad part of Town, hang around a Liquor Store, and ask guys who look like they would know how to get MJ, if they can get me 20 dollars of MJ? and then later, ask if they could get more? because i am too much of a PVSSY. otherwise i would have DONE it already. and been enjoying some MJ.

glad this is still up

the hosts could be a bit more high energy, but they are hwyte and they are smart as hell and talking about important SCIENCE! topics with a right wing, pro hwyte bias hahahaha.  which is the best way to talk about SCIENCE! there are at least 5 podcasts here which you must listen to immediately. wish there were one on secsual morality and man woman relshits and sluts but oh well.

SCIENCE! used to be a very hwyte, principled thing, but it has gotten jooed quickly in the recent past. lets turn that around hehehe.

should put darwin digest in the sidebar because though their execution is not PERFECT, its still more than good enough and what they did was IMPORTANT and they should have not stopped! i am technically still dnating like 10 cents a week to them hahahahaha. just look up darwin digest liberapay.

how about a freeze peach patreon for bitcoin. so you can have recurring dnations to creators, and small regular dnations, weekly or monthly, but let yourself be pseudonymous and also avoid blockchain transaction fees for every transaction.  BIZ OPPORTUNITY HERE!!!! GET IN!!!!!

heh. this witcher soundtrack is like modern boortzum if it were any GOOD hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. oh thats horrible im sorry uncle varg. but you got a lot of filler on your modern albums and the production could be a lot better too. but im not mad, you have 6 kids to raise and your work there is much more important than making new music. keep having kids and making pro-hwyte videos, living out the 14w.

but yeah. grab those darwin digest podcasts as long as they are still up. suprised they are. put the link in the sidebar. they earned it hahahaha. just glad they can WORK in SCIENCE! and not have their right wing beliefs compromised.  and im not even butthurt that there is a WOMAN on the show. i NEVER said women arent SMART enough to do SCIENCE! just that average women arent that autistic, but some are. and ALL women should have CHILDREN before doing CAREERS, and this woman cathy princess does have at least one young child and hopefully more.

also married women with young children are not gonna put other young men in competition with each other so much and therefore wont cause tension in the movement just by being young, single, available women in a room filled with lonely, single men who want GF’s and waifus and children.

here is witcher 1 soundtrack by some different pole composers hehehehe

if i had to play a vidya, i would prob play witcher hahahahaha. but i dont even have that platform. console. whatever.

i am a bit jelly of georgie boi because he doesnt have any DESIRE to do MJ. he jsut says, thats degenerate, fook that shit, and doesnt ever do it even though its fully legal in his state, he could WALK to a STORE 5 minutes AWAY and buy high quality legal MJ for a good price. in his situation i would be fully in the throes of a BAD MJ HABIT. but he’s NOT.

i KNOW its mostly degen but i STILL want to do this VICE. i have a ton o excuses and i still know its degen. so i would not expect support in this. i would hide it, rightfully, from winners and esp from fellow VVN’s. i just desperately want to enjoy my vice in private.

big bitcoin dip yesterday. damn. bad week for bitcoin. i have to pay attention to this now that i am buying a LITTLE bit of btc every single week. 5 to 10 dollars worth. hoping to do this over the long term, 1 to 3 years, and watch it GROW at….5% per year hehehehe. 4%.

yep the woman you put on a pedestal and want to spend the rest of your life with and have children with and luv, would rather be treated like a piece of jooish pornography by a negro, than even TALK to the likes of YOU, because you are THAT DISGUSTING. this “lovely” woman would rather let herself become a piece of PORN than hang out with or talk to YOU. DAMN.

aint no thang, just a fact of life hahahaha. happens all the time. deal with it .gif. youre in love with that woman? she doesnt care if you live or die. she would rather make a movie of her ass getting gaped by a big black bull than go for a nice walk in the park and cuddle with you. she would rather suck and fook 10 dicks in a gangbang like a disgusting trash wh0re used as a cvmbucket by hand rubbing jooz to make jooish filth with.

def not a good feel!

would rather destroy her own hwyte soul than have anything to DO with the likes of YOU because you are such a disgusting loser who is not worthy of even the most ruined woman!

feels bad man!

oh well, life goes on, deal with it.gif. do tonnes of MJ and play vidya but do NOT overeat and do NOT look at porn.

read 1433 stuff and curse da jooz for ruining your women and your men. shake your head at how your own race could have been DUPED by these rats!

was it hubris on your part? maybe a little, but moreso softness and comfort IMHO. yeah but even The Greatest Generation of Tough Men were duped by you know who into an absolutely unholy war that they never should have been in. this is really worse than Millennial Degeneracy I always moan about. but i recognize its part of a longer arc of history.

shit world war ONE was part of it. the federal reserve. these rats have been jooing us since the beginning of the 1900s and probably before then too hahaha.  well they pushed some african slaves on the US in the 16 and 1700s didnt they?

im only against them because they are against US. if they took a more laissez-faire attitude, so would I.

im ok with never looking at porn again. i have no real desire.

i’m kinda ok with never drinking alcohol again, i dont have a burning desire. not comparing alcohol to porn because alcohol is not inherently degenerate, porn is. just comparing my historical vices and appetites and bad habits hahahaha.

i am not ok with never being with a woman again. women are not inherently degen….but so many of them are deeply, irreversibly degen. ruined women. even if they are professionally successful!

i am not ok with never doing MJ again. it is not inherently degen, but the extent i want to do it IS degen, and i accept that and dont expect any validation for it. i am willing to pay the price for that one hahahaha. i yam what i yam. it is a bad habit i am not willing to give up. and its better than porn or being an alcoholic or opioid popper hahahaha. its just kinda disturbing that i want it SO goddamn MUCH, and I would be SOOOOOOO excited if i Got Some. it would almost be better than getting a woman because with a woman…. there are so many unknowns. you dont know what youre getting. you know its gonna disappoint you in unknown ways. with MJ its much more of a known quantity that doesn’t disappoint you NEARLY as much. you might get paranoid/anxious, or you might run out. and those are very obvious, unsurprising risks. you know that shit going in. you’re not naive about that.

with a woman, yeah you know it’s probably gonna be disappointing, but you so want things to be different this time. you willingly delude yourself a lot more. oh i hope this ones gonna be DIFFERENT. and it IS, but not in a good way. you just find yourself BLINDSIDED in a new and horrible way hhahahahaha. you dont get that with MJ.

also MJ is an inanimate object, not a human being, and its even more disappointing to see Fellow Human Beings acting the way Women do. MJ just is what it is. its a plant. it is what it is.  its a special plant with special powers and should be treated with great respect and reverence and many human beings DONT, but its still Just A Plant. it cant make decisions, it cant break your heart, it cant be a coward, it cant hurt you.  its much less threatening and risky than Women.

stories of people that think “hmm maybe i sm0ke too much MJ and should cut back” but its just SO available to them that they have to make a really conscious effort to do so; vs my pathetic story of wanting SO BAD to do MJ but not because its just not AVAILABLE for me because i dont know any good ways of GETTING it.  and i have thought long and hard about 3 diff ways of getting it and im not really liking any one of them. all i can do is wait for this one person, and that is clearly going to take several months. its already taken 3 months and it could very likely take 3 more.  at LEAST. if EVER. that is not a sure thing at all, i never expected it would be.

i saw a working class apt bldg today where in the windows one person had a huge murkan flag, and a huge CONFEDERATE flag. before i would have though, oh dear lord, what low class racist white trash, now i am like hell yeah, i should go talk to this guy, that’s the best signal you could have besides flying a huge natzee flag, which you can’t do. confed flag is still 60000000000 times more socially acceptable, and of course they have been trying to suppress it in the past few years, after dylan roof and michael brown and BLM. so it means you have pretty big balls to fly that flag in 2017 hahahaha. i should really get one to signal to other Hwyte Rednecks. the only caveat is that they might be opioid-popping zionists hahahahaha. that is a risk i’m willing to take. you could PROBABLY sell them on the idea of sleazy, degenerate, hand-rubbing merchants and scammers, though. i am very sure about that. then just explain that’s what zionists are too, hahahahaha.

so yeah. get a confederate flag and proudly fly it if you dont already. you can fly it next to a US flag, that’s perfectly all right.

displaying a svastica is too far, but displaying a rebel flag is perfectly fine, well within your rights. so just do that then. women might like your brashness. whereas if you display a svastica, they might just think youre a psychopath. or they wont even know what it is hahahahahaha. because they were too busy texting and sexting tyrone during the 13 years of K-12 natzee-bashing, muh 666 gorillion, to notice that the svastica is the eternal symbol of hate, evil, hwyte men.

wear a rebel flag tshirt. ESPECIALLY if you are a yankee hahahahahaha.

this is a great idea, would like to get such a shirt in the short term. a lot of hwytes really like the “REDNECK” lifestyle of hunting, camo, 4 x 4’s, trucks, gunz, country music, etc, and the rebel flag fits nicely in this, and while these people are prob not explicitly 1433, they are VERY implicitly hwyte, and thats all we need. is people who arent ASHAMED of being hwyte, and who like guns, and aren’t ashamed of the rebel flag. GOOD ENOUGH. they are basically ASKING to be redpilled and turned full 1433. so its YOUR duty to gently start redpilling them on the JQ.  start with feminism, though they might already know about that. and be dating qt hwyte gurls who are not feminist at all. and well on their way to having hwyte children. just hard working hwyte “redneck” “country” types. we need more of these people.

ohhhh that woman, she was so perfect, one of her family members had a rebel flag and she didn’t hate it. and she thought the anti-rebel flag shit was stupid. wah wah wah.

who cares, she’s d to me and i’m dead to her, i dont have to like it, but thats just the way it is, that is a stone cold truth. and i cant really MOURN her the way you MOURN a loved one who died too soon, and some people mourn them for 20, 30, 40 years, never stop mourning these untimely deaths, well i cant do that here, because there was no death, it was HER CHOICE.

however i AM entitled to be upset about it, and boy was i, for a long damn time. still am! it comes in waves atm and i have been thinking about her more often than usual. cant say theres any reason. it comes in waves now.

this mother fookin guy. a damn chatty cathy in the poker chat. i was nice and responded to him. hope he does not keep chatting hahahaha. i think he is nonwhite, possibly arab. american tho hahaha. the type who likes chatting with strangers at the poker table hahahaha.

well like ive before, there’s nothing REALLY wrong with small talk, and its MY issue that i am annoyed by it sometimes. its really not THAT annoying. its weird that i am annoyed by it at all.

well ill tell you what was really annoying, was this woman in church today who say 2 rows behind and was huffing and puffing like crazy. every breath was like she was gasping for air after running a marathon or holding your breath for 5 minutes.

i tried to view it in the light of, god have mercy on that poor woman, and thank god i do not have whatever godawful COPD or breathing problem she has which is killing her and costing her literally hundreds of thousands of dollars to the jooish medical scam system.

instead i was like oh god its so infuriating having to listen to her, i cant wait to get out of here. and she wasnt even fat or nonwhite.

but damn this guy is encouraging me to play more hands and stop being so tight. he is not wrong per se……he is prob a good player, taking note of my style and everybody elses, well i make notes on other players sometimes hahaha.

i also dont pay attention to other players a hell of a lot hahahaha because i am multitasking. this guy i dont think is. he is studying his opponents like a good player should.

 

 

 

ABG ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL

mar 8

sheeeeeeit. well i have cut muh cigaret smoking down by like 80% and dont really feel any cravings. so i am thankful for that.

OR AM I????

hhahahhahaha. maybe im not ACTUALLY thankful ENOUGH!

anyway. maybe i want to do MJ less because for a while i had moar privacy which would make WANTON use of MJ possible…..if i had any. that privacy is now gone, meaning even if i had some, it would be much more difficult to get out and use it. it could still be done, it would just be 3 times as hard.

i mean i would still do it. i would just do it less. MY POINT IS, I’M GRATEFUL that my DESIRE to use has decreased, in direct result of my OPPORTUNITY to use being limited. Since I know it’s less of a POSSIBILITY, i WANT it less.

anything that could make me WANT it less is a good thing. well, short of something thats even worse of course. like jerking off to porn 24/7. shit it would be better to just sm0ke mj.

ABG. ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL.

i would have told my younger self to never do MJ. never drink. dont go away to college. just stay at home, dont drink, dont do mj, do a stem degree, and if you dont want to do a stem degree, then do a business degree. use VIDYA if you want some form of drug to escape the “boredom” or despair.

humbling to think that VIDYA is a better alternative than Porn or Drugs or Alcohol.

but is drugs and alcohol worse than PORN? probably.

so MJ is worse than PORN?

YES.

hehehehe. damn. then how can i WANT it so bad?

i mean its apples and oranges really. its not worse than porn. it CAN be though. if you never watch porn and you always sm0ke mj. which would be the risk situation for me hahahaha. i mean i will never watch porn again. no desire to. i am DONE with that jooish filth. wish i could say the same about mj hahaha. but its not inherently jooish filth. it is pretty negrish tho hahahaha. nonwhite. arabs on hashish and such. africans and natives on MJ.

i played final fantasy 12 for 80 hours. those were 80 well spent hours. i dont regret doing it one bit. it was a great, fun, beautiful world. i would have spent those 80 hours better if i were job searching for a better job at the time. if i had spent that 80 hours in SKOOL, that would have been WORTHLESS. 80 hours of schoolwork will get you NOWHERE in life. 80 hours of schoolwork – reading, studying, homework, tests – gets you NOTHING. it gets you like 1 credit hour at best. 1/130th closer to a degree. 80 hours of job search will at least get you like 5 job interviews at least, and that’s worth something real.

but yeah its AMAZING what a WASTE of good time EDUCATION is. its LITERALLY just as bad as smokin WEED or looking at PORN. THAT is the true value of EDUCATION. isnt that DISGUSTING?

you might as well be working at WALMART. working at WALMART is a much better use of your time than EDUCATION.

its another totally jooish scam like porn, banks, loans, journalism.

so why dont i play vidya RIGHT NOW? why dont I just whip out the final fantasy and play it again? i’ve thought about it!

because i guess i would rather WRITE antijooish stuff to try to help a hwyte neet, than play 80 more hours of final fantasy.

i’ll tell you what i WOULD like to do, though. you can guess hahahaha. no not look at porn. have you even been reading what ive been saying. hahaha. i want to sm0ke w33d. everyday. right now. although somewhat less than i wanted to last week. thank GOD.

well you know what, wanting to sm0ke weed is a HELL of a lot better than wanting to be with that woman, or thinking about that woman. at least I have moved on from THAT.

is porn better than that woman?

in some ways……..yes? but still not worth it to use porn to try to get over her. i mean now we are just getting into philosophy 202 thought exercises. phil 101 would be like is abortion wrong. is being a slut wrong. is porn wrong. is cheating wrong. SUPER basic bitch stuff.

so lets say you get dumped because youre needy. i know im too needy and a big cause of women dumping me. but what if you rarely have a CHANCE to be needy….but when you do, you are? like you cant be needy unless they are somewhat considering dating you. which they very rarely are.

in other words, being that close to or have such a CONNECTION to someone is SO RARE, its almost NATURAL to become needy or overly attached. because its so damn RARE. it reminds you of what your life has been missing and now that you have a TASTE, youre instantly addicted. its like crack or heroin….but not nearly as easily available. not for YOU at least.

your key doesnt fit her lock. but many many other keys fit her lock. so you get butthurt about that too. whats so WRONG with YOUR key????? is it really THAT bad? its worse than negros and felons and cheaters and scumbags? apparently.

ANYWAY. thats old hat hahaha. who gives a shit. BITCHES BE BITCHES MAN. it doesnt mean youre WORSE than these negros, it just means they are better at Seducing Women than you are, and women are stupid as shit when it comes to seduction, they are even more stupid than a horny 16 year old boy wanting to look at porn. because nature wants these women to get pregnant NOW, so it makes them horny af, makes them sluts basically. they just have figured out (sort of) how not to get preggers. and if you do, nbd, just murder it. get it taken care of.

but youre goddamn right its frustrating they would pick sleazy negros over you. i cant blame you for being mad and butthurt and buttmad and bitter af.

again, there are some women who do not choose so poorly or recklessly. some women actually dislike negros and scumbags and cheaters and players and degenerates.

i mean this is basic bitch be masculine, be confident stuff. you can expect women to love confidence, but not to be able to discern good confidence from bad confidence. too much to ask. manage your expectations.

but yeah. every morning. before i go into my job, i say, god DAMN am I THANKFUL this is not my previous job. that I’m not dying of panic right now. that its so much of a chiller job. that i’m never gonna be in that situation where i have to answer that phone and i dont know what i;m doing or what to say. and the people around me are total professionals. i trust their judgment. i trust they know what they are doing. because they DO! they’re not bullshitting or telling me to bullshit!

i supposed i should use a clearer term because bullshit can mean at least 3 different things, including friendly banter or friendly exaggerations. usually when i say bullshit, i mean jooish lies to try to intentionally lie or hide something from somebody. not telling the full truth. being sneaky and jooish and dishonest and bad faith and….jooish! when you are trying to joo somebody!!!

its too late for me. but if i can just sm0ke w33d and watch hwyte people and hwyte children win, i will be happy enough i guess hahahaha. i will dnate money towards that end.

well when i see some hwyte people, especially younger, win at life, i sometimes get JEALOUS/ENVIOUS. and as i get older, everyone else gets younger hahaahahahaha.

 

http://archive.is/dkwM2

heh just be grateful you can make 25k as a 20 year old and just sm0ke tons of weed when you are not at work and grateful you have a job where you are not actively nervous and panicking the whole time and panicking about how you are going to SURVIVE one day at a time, every single day.

nobody said anything about sm0king tons of MJ hahahaha. that is one of the FIRST things i would have suggested.

yeah i havent ruled out that i might have ADD as well as despair and anxiety and bipolar. so you just take 4 different medz a day then hahahaha. go out drinking with your coworkers so you can become friends with them and they will stand up for you rather than throw you udner the bus. assuming you can still drink. i cannot so that does not help my working situation for when i have a REAL job like this guy ahahahaha.

wewlad i know that feel. being passive aggressive and needy and low confidence. its why i push all my friends away and will never have a gf hahahahahahahahahahaha

of course all the women on reddit with 600000000000 admirers are condescending and womansplaining to the poor guy hahahaha. oh yeah THIS is why i hate reddit hahahaha. cuz the women are so stupid.

they think they are SMART because theyre so successful in life with their 28k a year and all their relationship experience. how about you get monogamously married and have 3 children. instead of having your main goal in life being career and TRAVEL. its always TRAVEL TRAVEL TRAVEL TRAVEL with these women. red flag.

travel is fine, travel is good, but to make it a huge goal and talk about it more than family and children? not good. yeah i wouldnt mind traveling to a MJ legal place and just doing MJ hahahahaha. or i wouldnt mind traveling to yurop for 6 months. not gonna happen though and that thought doesnt eat me up inside.  but yeah i dont trust these wanderlust millennials who like to  travel so much. hints at being a ((( rootless cosmopolitan ))). no thank you. put down some roots. blood and soil.

ok closed reddit. too triggering with these modern women.

i get more excited about eating a tasty MEAL than i do about the idea of TRAVEL. i get WAY more excited about the idea that one day I might have a big bag brimming with mid grade indica budz.

again i dont hate travel. there are many places in the world, in the US, in my state, that I would like to see. its just not a huge priority. i mean shit. if im feeling adventurous i would go to this park 15 miles away which i havent gone to in 15 years. with a bunch of MJ for a fun day in the woods and trails and lake. would totally take a woman there if i had any interest in any woman hahahaha.  i should really go there myself but i REALLY have to PUSH myself to do things like that by myself.

or just go with a regular friend. but i have pushed them all away because i am too passive aggressive, aloof, never lift a finger hahahaha.

oh well at least i am not a jobless neet any more, dont have to do 28 interviews and 550 apps anymore, now i have an 11k a year job hahahahaha.

apparently youre supposed to get used to people never telling you good job for the work that you do. we millennials raised to want a prize just for showing up. entitlement hahahaha. well my response is, whats wrong with a little praise and encouragement. ALSO, I am VERY willing to GIVE that praise and encouragement to OTHER people because I KNOW it feels good to be complimented on your work! so i compliment other people just to be nice and make them feel good!!!!!! don’t other people do this? just being NICE to other people? you compliment them even if they aren’t #1.

i complimented people all the time at my last horrible job. they appreciated it and they tried to compliment me. i prob didnt get enough compliments from higher up but who cares about them, my loyalties were to my team, not my higher ups hahahahaha.

at current job, i am prob happy with the level of compliments. and i tell the other people good job just to be nice and a team player. maybe theyre doing a shitty job. but i really dont think they are.

i imagine its a lot less triggering to read the women of reddit when you have a stable rel with a woman who is loyal to you, luvs you, sucks you off, etc. then you can just chuckle at these neurotic catladies bitching about everything.

but if you dont have that with a woman, then you take what these other women are SAYING way too SERIOUSLY. you should NEVER take what a woman SAYS seriously.  well, not on reddit. if she is saying she just wants to be casual friends, yeah i guess you should take that seriously too. or when she is letting slip gems about how many guys shes fooked and she doesnt realize she’s showing her slut level.

basically dont let what women say on REDDIT trigger you. just let it go hahahaha. step away from the reddit. meditate on big green bags of w33d that you wish you had hahahahaha.

shit maybe look at some HOOKERS on the erotic review hahahahaha.

read the local newspaper and upvote all the racist or right wing comments. maybe meet up with these people and buy them drinks, see if they can get you a better paying job when you tell them how much you fooking LUV being HWYTE.

meditate on how fooking AWESOME it is to be HWYTE. no joke.

march 9

so its super early, 648 am, really i could sleep in another 20 to 30 minutes but i dont mind getting up early, checking email, writing here, having time to have a 3rd stomach churning coffee water p00p if i have to (and i fully intend to in about 10 mins) and look at weather and traffic and email and calendars for people. get

ok had to do that before 10 minutes hehehe

but yeah so this is my opportunity to pump myself up. do the best i can. that was a valuable reddit thread above on the young man who is trying to get used to the world of work. it is a very fundamental question. even the people who are fortunate and skilled and smart enough to be gainfully employed at 28k a year have great difficulty adjusting to it emotionally.

50% of people are failures at life hahahaha.

this is what education SHOULD do. it should prepare children with the skills for work, so that they are GUARANTEED a 28k a year job as soon as they get out of high school at age 18. or more like 16. and you dont graduate until you have that job. and there would also be classes in high school on How To Adult: how to buy a home, how to raise children, how to be emotionally stable for 50-100 hours of WORK a week, how to not do drugs. schools and education fail at all these outcomes (objectives?). i mean yeah this stuff is probably the responsibility of the parents anyway. but these are THE most important things!!!! so keep your kids out of school and teach them The Most Important Things yourself because schools are absolutely useless.

education should be noble and sacred but the joos have ruined it, used it as a weapon against the stupid goyim. horrific. a travesty. also, you shouldnt leave The Most Sacred Trust up to a class of Professional Strangers! yeah yeah yeah at least 50% of them are True Believers in Making A Difference in Kids Lives and thats great, BUT, they still get trained in marxism by marxists and their good intentions are pretty much ruined hahaha.

maybe That Woman was way out of my league, she was way too good for me, because she was not a single mother. i simply don’t DESERVE a woman who is NOT a single mother. let alone one under 30 AND hwyte AND somewhat attractive!! WAY out of my league!!!!

i mean i am pretty much done with women until i stumble upon the next one hahahaha or take the action to Get A Hooker. i mean i cant legit try to Date Women until I have a 28k job, thats the rule, right? and all those online dating women are just a Marginal, Nominal, Horrifically Tiny step from being Hookers themselves, just less honest hookers hahahaha. with a hooker you know what youre getting. a woman who takes cash to fook 50000000 men.

but yeah i had that uncomfortable thought as i came home from a very easy day of making 11k a year: SHE WAS WAYYYYY OUT OF MY LEAGUE. SHE WAS WAYYYYYY TOO GOOD FOR ME. How FOOLISH of me to even entertain the thought. a hwyte trash fatherless gurl who is not super smart hahaha. way out of my league just because she doesnt have kids. and she is a solid 7/10 hahaha.

was she really out of my league? on paper it sounds like yes. but she wasnt out of league to be muh frand. and really its amazing she hadnt become a single mom herself yet. maybe she has by now. it doesnt matter.

but yeah when they dump you in a nice way, it doesnt bother you so much that they are out out of your league. when they dump you in a ruff way, you think, wow, maybe they were APPALLED that I had the AUDACITY to think I was even CLOSE to their league.

lesson: always be nice when you dump someone. dump people the way you want to be dumped.

did i learn my lesson: of course i did. how many more times must i say it. just blurt everything out as soon as possible. tell the whole truth immediately. i mean i hate to think i was a LIAR. I wasnt HIDING the truth. i was just too COWARDLY to tell the full truth, that i was heavily hinting with the way i was acting. lying would be acting one way, then denying it. i never DENIED anything. i was never asked to confirm or deny anything. but yeah i was no innocent victim. i had a role in my own downfall hahaha.

start of the weekend. no mj available. took 1 benedryl immed on getting home. plan to take 2 valium thruout day. not 3. 2 valium and prob 1 more benedryl.

i dont think women should be banned from asking questions/OP’s on reddit. i just think they should be banned from ANSWERING them!

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/half-a-million-pussies-march-on-washington-demanding-president-trump-grab-them/79313

great article about women. go throw some shekels at anglin now that his tshirt sale is closed. good thing i bought one hahahaha.

My grandmother always said it should cost $5,000 for a marriage license , and $50 to get divorced. That way you will be absolutely sure that you are serious about it. sez guy on daily stormer bbs.

well, it already costs like 6000000000000000 to get married, but not for the license, but for the stupid bridezilla wedding. and then it costs 60000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 dollarydoos to get divorced hehehe. but i see the guys point and its a good one, i agree.

another great quote in the thread from oberstein:

”  xOberstein Jan 22  reply to: TaureanPolishAngel [he’s mansplaining to a young women how men and women are different]
Pretty much the same reason women are naturally hypergamous. It’s two sides of the same coin.

Men are lookers and initiators. They’re attracted to looks, and they have to consider as many women as possible to find one who they are interested in and who is interested in them. The men who are successful at relationships are those who are the most active in searching for a partner, and the best at wooing her. These men can’t just radically change their personality once they enter a relationship. They’re still going to find other women attractive – that’s not something they can just turn off. This is why men are considered polygamous, and why unprincipled men sometimes cheat.

Women are not active in finding relationships – while men are the lovers, women are the beloved. This is why you (presumably) wait for a man to ask you out, rather than asking him out yourself. Once a woman is in a relationship, she is devoted to her partner, because she has little experience in finding random men attractive or seriously considering strangers as potential partners. However, if another man enters her life who she finds more attractive than her current partner, she is likely to return his affections and cheat. This is why women are considered hypergamous.

Jealousy affects both men and women when their partner cheats, both because people want to be loved (obviously) and because having your partner cheat seriously damages your chance of reproducing. In fact, I’d argue that men go through much, much more pain than women if their partner cheats on them or breaks up with them. The suicide statistics don’t lie. http://i.imgur.com/irQtOYz.png4   ”

saor guardians. great album and gets even better with time hehehehe.

ate dinner, took one valium, drinking coffee and listening to saor guardians. great album.

ya know why i dont like women? because they’re not as MORAL as men, and I prefer moral people to less moral people. now i totally understand that women arent SUPPOSED to be as moral as men, they dont have to be. but i also dont think nature is FORCING women to be less moral than men. i mean it wouldn’t be UNNATURAL for women to be a little bit more moral. although as it is, it’s not unnatural for them not to be moral either. becuase they dont NEED to be, they never NEEDED to be. men NEED to be. so i just contradicted myself hahaha. but yeah even though women have less of a NEED to be moral, nothings STOPPING them from being more moral if they WANT.

i like more moral people better than less moral people, so i like men better than women hehehehe.

and believe i believe women COULD be more moral if they real WANTED to, i resent them for taking the Easy Way Out.

heh. setting clocks forward two days prior to daylight savings time simply because i can hahahaha. gives me more time to adjust haha.

well the women i DO actually know in real life seem pretty moral. again im going back to this FICTIONAL, IMAGINARY woman who doesnt really exist. it’s not even an accurate representation of That Woman although in my mind it kinda “looks” like her. but she wasnt super immoral or evil or jooish, she was just human hahahaha just like any of us.

jooish, thats a good word for immoral, hahaha. synonymous.

mansplaining is just explaining. womansplaining is not explaining at all, its just BULLSHITTING.

aphorisms, like nietzsche hahahaha.

schoepenhauer. was he any good?

weininger. was he a joo? if so, you know where he goes.

904 pm (really 804 but i am trying to train my mind) took second and last valium. will prob take benedryl in a few hours then go to bed.

a good day at the table today, doubled muh stack finally. i need to do this a lot more!

i wonder if i were in high school right now how easy it would be to get MJ.

when i was in high school it wasnt too hard to get MJ although i wasnt looking to buy too much ever.

when i went to college i wanted it much more. and it was PROBABLY even easier to get, but it seemed harder, because i had less friends in college than i did in high school, had a very hard time adjusting and making friends. i eventually made friends and then it was easier to get MJ, but things would still run dry more than youd expect. and you had very little choice. just buy super expensive high grade stuff or get nothing at all hahahaha. i wanted mid grade but couldnt find it. everything was super top shelf kind buds. wawawawawawa. nothing for more working class people. these were all super middle class uni kids. and many of them were decent, even great people.

although if i were younger and in high school or college right now…..i shouldnt be smoking mj because that was one of the big mistakes where i threw my youth away and became a failure at adulting now. was because i smoked too much mj back then. and alcohol, and porn, and being a weirdo, and not going to a shrink, and not taking meds, and being stubborn, and remaining in the useless college situation i was in, rather than going to a less middle class, closer to home uni and getting a degree in stem or business or machining. all those were factors, not just the mj.

heh. its like i dont have the energy or will or agency or initiative to ACT on what i’ve learned from all my mistakes and failures. i’ve learned the lessons but still DO NOTHING.

world womens day. fook off. what is this bullshit. first the womens march on washington, now world womens day, women stay home from work, etc. so stupid. its all just a gay ass jooish protest against glorious leader trvmpenfuhrer. they think hes literally hitler and wants to throw women and muslims in ovens. shit i wish he did hahahaha. well, not hwyte women hahaha. but publicly hanging traitors would be fine. would send a great message. its a little barbaric i guess. so you could put bags over their heads, and just let their hanging bodies hang there for a week. that would still get the point across.

i mean ideally women wouldnt go to work to begin with. and a family could survive on one income and men wouldnt have to compete against women for jobs in this grotesque abomination that is enough to turn me against capitalism hahahahaha. to see it as the other jooish side of the jooish coin of communism. just like the two sided joooish coin of marxism and zionism, you have the two sided jooish coin of communism and capitalism. DAMN.

so yeah just give me nationalism. hwyte nationalism.  with somewhat free trade optimised for the benefit of your hwyte citizens. hwyte fascism hahahaha.  and i would be a softie about hanging hwyte traitors. id hang a few though. the hardcore people would say not enough.

i dont even know if id hang illegal aliens hahaha. no i would literally catapult or airdrop them into their home countries. make them pay for it hahahah. shit i might even have our taxpayers pay for us, because it would benefit our country. just like The Wall. imho we dont need to make mexico pay for it. if you can get them to, FINE, but it’s still a good deal even if we have to pay for it. just build it quickly, dont put it off. people want to see this wall soon. i really hope he doesnt waffle on this wall and literally starts building it NOW. i dont care if its more of a see through grate or fence.  FINE. it makes sense, that you could see through and shoot through the wall. how about even just prisons have rows of barbed wire fences. that would be fine. throw up some cheap barbed wire fences. have manned guard posts every mile with people in there 24/7 with gunz hehehehe. yeah that would be expensive sure. but patriotic murkans would prob be willing to pay for it. would rather my tax dollars go to it than welfare bennies for illegals hahahahaha.

really i bet blacks are a bigger problem than illegals or muslims hahaha. well in some areas the illegals are about as big a problem as the blacks hahahaha. and the black question has been a tough one for many years because of course its connected to slavery. im not so stupid that i would deny that!

HA! watching watters world on fox news and he is interviewing people outisde the alamo and he talked to a metalhead wearing an inquisition shirt. he looked kinda latinx though hahahaha. almost certainly a degen but never saw an inquisition shirt on tv before hahaha. they are bretty kewl and there were rumors they were racis. ok they showed the guy again and he looked pretty white. inquisition is from south america america and im sure they are mixed mestizos, but i’d also say they are 75% white mestizos hahaha.  i would be willing to go to one of their concerts, i hear their concerts are GREAT.

mar 10

yep long post but my hands are tied. it is what it is what it is. because i already have 99 drafts and if i add one more, i get shut down. thats a wordpress rule. in fact im surprised they havent shut me down for my wrongthink.  even if you DONT talk about violence, and i dont, or crime, but you just talk about the JQ for long enough, and you will get shut down. you cant even talk about it. thats how you know its some serious shit hahahaha. so i thank god im a murkan, where at least i know im free. we have a lot more freedumz than other formerly hwyte nations like canada or uk or germany or aus.

the first song on this album is extremely catchy and popped in my head yesterday. this album came out in 1999 or 2000 and i remember it was a big deal. i was just starting to learn about black metal and death metal at that time and I remember when the album came out and i bought it on CD and everyone was like wow the great emperor finally came out with their follow up to the Groundbreaking Anthems album.

i suppose this IXE album sounds a bit dated today since black metal really didnt end up evolving this way and im kinda glad it didnt! ie overwrought symphonic stuff. but there are still some sweet riffs and fast blasts here.

and then emperor has become completely irrelevant and ihsahn still has plenty of die hard fans but he is certainly not Bleeding Edge any more. not that he has to be.

and then by 2001 i didnt really care about their final album hahaha.

they are not BAD, just….ITNE and Anthems were their best albums hahaha. maybe wrath of the tyrant too but im not familiar enough with that one haha.

in general, i am quite happy with the way black metal has been evolving the past 25 years or so hahaha and boy has it been evolving and i’m grateful that i can be happy about the direction its taking. both the throwback stuff, and the pagan stuff, and the artsy blackgaze alternative hipster stuff, the american stuff, the british stuff, the finnish stuff, the french stuff, the orthodox stuff, it’s all good!

http://archive.is/qpYAJ

hit piece on andrew anglin from columbus paper, feb 2017

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/the-atlantics-luke-obrien-launches-campaign-of-harassment-to-shut-down-speech-of-political-activist/90830

anglin tells of sleazy journos being sleaze joornos. they are the scum of the earth and the enemy of the people hehehe.

oh hay yesterday march 9 was the 99th birthday of george lincoln rockwell RIP.

http://archive.is/lYvw8

full text of “THIS TIME THE WORLD” his autobiog

http://laraj.ca/AGwiki/uploads/Fascism/America/George%20Lincoln%20Rockwell%20-%20This%20Time%20the%20World.pdf

pdf here made pretty by our lad zeiger, will prob get taken down hahaha

https://archive.org/stream/ThisTimeTheWorld/ThisTimeTheWorld_djvu.txt

i should buy a hard copy because this deserves to be proudly displayed on all hwyte men’s bookshelves hahahaha

i should have been reading and praising GLR for YEARS, its SAD ive only really started getting into him now. Sad! he was a giant. a LION of a man. without him, there would be no dr pierce, no david duke, no vvn, no 14 words, no dr greg, no weev, no andrew anglin, no trs. no me hahaha.

i mean this guy cuts right to the chase immediately and is just as timely as ever. on the first page, calling out the J and the WELTFEIND hahahaha. the twin evils of zionism and bolshevism. crush zionism. good lord. no rambling for pages and pages.

also he is just a good writer and not just a good speaker. he could and did write a good book that seems like it will be a pleasure to read.

even though he was tragically murdered FIFTY years ago, the stuff still reads like it was written TODAY.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/why-america-losing-its-cyberwar-stockpile-is-good-for-america/90756

mar 10 new article by weev writing for daily stormer. did not show up in muh google alerts for weev! maybe google is banning daily stormer from search results hehehe. i found it thru a link on a reddit that appears to be picking up where /r/altright left off when it was shut down.

heh. there are so many articles on daily stormer you cant even find them on the front page hehehe.

 

THE C0CK LADDER

feb 28

huge amazon aws s3 outage today which “broke the internet” hahaha.

today i learned that john mctiernan, who directed such classics as DIE HARD, hunt for red october, and predator, was in federal prison in 2013-14 for some kind of wire tap charge

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_McTiernan

he got out and is still alive but hasnt made a movie since 2003’s Basic, which i did not see. but i was just thinking about what a great movie die hard is and i totally forgot mctiernan also did the great hunt for red october, also a great movie, really knows how to make a good thriller, action, suspense story with good story and characters, and i should try to make an effort to watch more of his films, he does this very well. he also did last action hero, which i thoroughly enjoyed.

also die hard with a vengeance. that was good and he did that. but not 2, 4, or 5. have not seen 4 or 5. maybe i should. well, i saw part of 2 and it seemed ok.

ideally would have a nice waifu to cuddle with and watch die hard, and that i feel about her on a level comparable to how i felt about That Woman, and that This New Woman would have some sort of feelings for me and want to make an effort to cuddle with me and watch die hard more than she’d rather be out “hanging out” ie fooking and sucking and sexting other guys. especially black guys hahahaha.

have you ever had a woman you LUVED reject you harshly but NOT reject black guys? she loves and makes an effort with black guys but cant lift a finger for you. i can tell you getting RACECUCKED like that is never fun. adds insult to injury. its bad enough that they would rather be with other men than you, period, and when its a black or nonwhite guy, but esp black, it feels even worse.

not that i hate black people. i get along very well with this middle aged black woman i see several times a week, and she is pretty damn black. like super black acting. talks with super ebonics like she grew up super poor in the hood. i am sort of curious if she has any keeds dead or in jail. i guess she has a husband which is kinda surprising. well good for them, families are good for blacks as well as whites. families are good for ALL races.

took 2 benedryl today, trying to “self soothe” before bed by NOT watching news. watching news gets me hyped up and not really relaxed. also ive decided its pointless to try to go to bed at 7 because im not even near tired at that time. might as well go to bed at 9 and play some more cards and try to calm self down.

today came home, took first benedryl around 3 o clock, by 4 o clock i was dead tired and couldnt even keep my eyes open. wish i felt like that at 7 or 8! i actually took a powernap for like 30 or 45 minutes. woke up like 515, took another benedryl, played some more cards, of course wish i had some mj but oh well. maybe i should buy some on a dark market hahahahahahaha. no i wouldnt do that. its illegal and i dont condone illegal activities. plus id be way too paranoid and scared. as i should be.

but yeah, its KEY to CALM YOURSELF before going to bed like fatherland jim said, youd think kids would learn this naturally, but many dont. i certainly never did. i later turned to terrible things like alcohol, MJ, and porn to help “self soothe”.  all these are bad with MJ being the least bad. but yes porn. oh. watch 10 minutes and crank one out to GET READY FOR BED, cant SLEEP, cant clear your mind untill youve CRANKED ONE OUT.

well its still not a terrible thing to do…….just dont use PORN to do it. stop watching porn. dont necessarily have to stop jerking off. but porn makes you want to jerk off TO porn EVERY DAY. and this is just TERRIBLE.

STOP WATCHING PORN. this is so much more important than “nofap.” do noporn instead.

MARCH 1

wewlad am i thankful i am not thinking about that woman NEARLY as much as i did even 6 or 7 months ago. 7 short months ago i was thinking about her like 2 hours a day. now i barely think about her for a minute a day. it takes a LONG TIME (1 year and 7 months) but time eventually DOES heal all wounds. now if i saw her again right now, shit yeah that would suck. because you would ALWAYS take them back. i’d probably take her back 5 years from now when she is either a huge winner or a huge loser.

but yeah this new job even though its nothing to be proud of as a man…..is still a giant leap forward from being a horrible neet. i dont have terrible dread and anixety of HOW AM I GONNA SURVIVE THIS DAY? every single day. what am i gonna say to these people, how am i gonna fix or pretend to fix or pass the buck on these complicated problems i dont understand? how come that dumb woman can handle this so much better than i can? how come she wont hang out with me any more? and the only saving grace was the MJ i was able to get from her. she was willing to do that at least. i guess that is how she showed her willingness to do something for me, that she was too immature to express in a better way. i would have much rather just hung out with her and had an honest conversation rather than have her get MJ for me.

this is what happens when fathers abandon their daughters. its TRAGIC. if by some MIRACLE they dont turn into huge sluts, and most of them do, then they will be like scared children in other ways, and will hurt you in ways they don’t even intend to.

heh. believe me. i knew about her father situation from the very beginning so i assumed she WAS a crazy slut. and then i got to know her better and found out she was surprisingly well adjusted for a gurl wihtout a father!

takeaway is that if she did have a good father, she probably wouldnt have handled the thing with me the way she did, which was not at all hahahaha.  her having a father would have helped ME quite a bit. and would have helped HER immensely. CHILDREN NEED GOOD FATHERS. PERIOD.

i dont even hate her, i totally understand why she essentially shit the bed here, i kinda did too. it was devastating, i was very very upset, i thought about it a super lot for a very long time, i didnt come to any big conclusions other than what i already knew: in tough stressful situations, people CHOKE. good people choke and can really let other people down even when they dont INTEND to. esp when there is luv on the line hahaha. i mean the lesson i learned is, blurt that shit out immediately. dont wait a couple months. just blurt it out and send them a text if they dont want to hang out with you. if they dont want to hang out with you, chances are they picked up on your feelings and just want to ignore and avoid it because its weird for them. you’ll probably still want to tell them. so tell them, rip the bandaid off, and move on with your lives. take 1.7 years of no contact to get over it. the end. very simple hahahaha.

here we go, nice 2 hour show, rock in rio, 2001, decent sound, another rio show has terrible sound. crowd is much more high energy than german crowd in rock am ring.

oh god now im just getting creepy af. i am stalking my work colleagues daughters who are in their 20s and very successful with graduate degrees and great careers making lots of money and establishing themselves very well before age 28, never fooking up, working hard and reaping the rewards. i saw a picture of the older daughter and her husband and i was like, holy shit i think i know that guy. he looks a lot like the brother of an old friend i dont really talk to anymore but his whole fookin family is great great great (and hwyte) people.  very principled and ethical and kind and moral and exactly the type of people that should be having many many many hwyte children. it would be nice for me to contact the older brother i knew. he already has several beautiful hwyte children. so i stalked the younger brother knowing his name of course. only can find 2 public pictures of him with his wife, who is not unattractive hahaha. anyway the younger brother is also a good guy, but a little more on the intellectual side. still a great guy. whole family is AWESOME, no fookups there. even though the older one, well we used to drink a lot hahaha. and he turned out just fine too.

somehow i found out the daughters name and looked up both their names together. i was looking for a wedding announcement but couldnt find. felt creepy stalking this work womans daughter. a successful, attractive professional. she has several children who both quickly got valuable graduate degrees and making like 70k a year by age 26. now she is a very nice good woman and i dont doubt her children and family are the same, i am just a little envious of young people who have their SHIT TOGETHER so well.

now im trying to think of a way to ask the woman, hey is your daughter married to so and so? because how do i explain that one. the impetus was i was watching this 1 minute biography video my colleague did where she had 2 seconds with a photo of her daughter and her husband. kind of a blurry picture. naturally i paused it to gawk at her daughters and the men they chose. and the one guy looked immediately familiar even though its blurry.

now i havent had a great record with blurry pictures. like 3 days ago i looked at a blurry picture of 60 people trying to find that Woman and saw a woman that Kinda Looked like that woman. however that picture was a lot blurrier than this one, so i can say with MUCH more confidence that this man is actually who i think it is.

now he’s a great guy so i have no doubt the daughter chose wisely. but i wasnt nearly as close with this guy as i was with his brother. his brother would just come around and hang out with us sometimes but not all the time. i mean he had his own healthy social and work and school life too.

so basically a SMALL WORLD story here, you see those all the time, but I personally don’t, so its pretty interesting to me.

if i were friends with the guy on facebook, i could easily see pictures of him with his wife and find out more about his wife, and confirm it is the daughter. but i wasnt fb friends with him and i havent even been on fb in 2 years hahahaha.

but yeah. i wish i were more like ANY of these people. those men, or the woman’s daughters. hard working, motivated, persistent, high achieving, making good money in good careers by age 26, having happy lives, happily married, having children.

funny, these daughters are successful high powered highly educated career women, as is the mother, but like the mother, i imagine that they ALSO want to have a husband and children and are not interested in the CC, or, to coin a term, the Cock LADDER. they want the career AND the family, but they aren’t indecently, hypergamously dumping husbands and trying to climb the cock ladder the way they are trying to climb the career ladder.

shit they’re already at the top of the career ladder by age 30.

but the mother has been married for like 30 years, married only once as far as i know, and i feel her good values rubbed off on her daughters. successful educated career women who, despite that, STILL get married pretty young and start having BABIES young. wow. it DOES happen folks, despite all the black pilling we hear about childless cat ladies.

ok, maybe the daughter should have started having children before age 30, shit i dont even know how old she is, i know how old the supposed husband is. basically my age hahahaha. well i think hes a wee bit older. not much though. he’s at a very age-appropriate level of his career. doesnt have the same credentials and prob makes less than she does, but he is prob about equally as ambitious and hard working. he got a useless degree like me but through busting his ass and persistence and confidence, he still made something of himself. having a qt low number gf-then-waifu probably didnt hurt his confidence hahaha. but he prob already had established himself a bit by the time he met her, to pull a Confident Ambitious Career Woman like that. which is always a big risk, but, like i say, I think this girl was raised properly.

its just weird to see ambitious, successful, actually COMPETENT and smart career women, who are ALSO interested in babies and family and not fooking over their husbands and children, and in being good wives and mothers. it can be done. also a good example that Not All Women Are Like That hahaha. if i were a mgtow pvssy i would be totally hemming and hawing like a J about all this hahaha.

818 on a Work Night. not going to bed at 7pm, but around 9pm. trying to relax and calm my mind now by writing, playing some cards, and NOT watching the news. just watching some police procedural show with the volume turned down very low. listened to some maiden earlier but doing so now would just get me too pumped up before bed.

george lincoln rockwell. i should listen and read more to him. ive listened to a few speeches and interviews and liked them. i just keep forgetting about him.

this one is prob pretty good hahahaha. not confirmed. i can confirm he was a great speaker, was very J wise, and wow people are applauding him at UCLA in 1967. well i guess things didnt start getting really J’d until 1968. well how did he feel about vietnam hehehe. ok sounds like he was against it. but not because he luved commies and hated americans.

i know that he hated commies and traitors, and his wife left him for his beliefs, the navy took away his pension for his beliefs, and he was assassinated at too young of an age by antifa.

holy shit, very good speaker. shit you cant even get richard spencer at UCLA or Brown like Rockwell was. not bashing Spencer. just saying he is a WEE BIT lower energy than Rockwell, and that universities have gotten even worse on Freeze Peach.

so yeah his stuff is just as relevant now as it was then. really should spend money to get his books.

well isnt it principled of an official UCLA youtube channel to post the GLR speech at UCLA hahahaha. im sure they say its so people can have a record of this foaming venomous HATE, a chilling reminder etc, like how people talk about triumph of the will. a chilling reminder hehehe.

fook that shit i watch it for fun and good feels and inspiration hahahaha.

ok i guess he was killed by a disgruntled member of his party. probably a fed hahahahahahaha.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Margr%C3%A9t_%C3%9E%C3%B3ra_Hallgr%C3%ADmsson

holy shit his wife is still alive and they had 3 children. begs the question haahahha.

hope GLR was a good father to them. i know Dr Pierce was not a great father to his children and thats the one thing I dont like about Pierce.

now the ANP never really went anywhere and i dont know. maybe the time wasnt right. but stuff like DS and TRS are much much more relevant and valuable and powerful. better optics, better people hehehe. but GLR was a total top goy. we can all learn something from this wise and courageous man.  and war hero.

really hankering for another public appearance by some good goys, like what spencer did at TAMU like 3 months ago. we need shit like that EVERY DAY, not every few MONTHS. i think spencers planning something though. i hope.

would be nice to have a nice low number gf to cuddle and listen to GLR speeches for hours. watch die hard. watch triumph of the will. knowing that she liked hanging out with me more than with tons of other guys.