nov 11?

Had to lay down and take a powernap, My new thing is to say I’M JUST GONNA LAY DOWN FOR AN HOUR to meditate and rest because I just got done serving a bunch of customers which makes muh introversion flare up, and muh no energy as well. then that turns into an even longer nap and I feel much better afterwards…..although this makes it VERY hard to get homework/independent study done AND go to bed at 7pm.


Put that Factoid on your WALL and NEVER FORGET.

THEN I discovered THE WORST NEW GAMBLING DRUG EVER, it was like CRACK or METH of Problem Gambling……the “ZOOM” feature of PokerStars. I know they have it at Real Money Casino as well, prob any Casino worth its while with a focus on THNL/NLH (No LImit Holdem).

To explain it in actually clear terms, which is what GOD put me on this earth to do, to educate people: In NLH you FOLD at least 85% of the time, actually closer to 90% I’ve found. If you are a “newb.” You will get bored and antsy folding NINE out of every TEN hands and say, I just want to play a hand already, often leading you to play a crappy hand, or to overestimate your hand.


ZOOM NLH solves this problem by instantly whisking you away to a new table with new players and a new deal as soon as you fold. It is instantaneous. Fold, get whisked away, get dealt, fold, repeat until you finally get that good hand, then you don’t fold, and play it just like normal.

Playing at least 3 or 4 or 5 times the hands you would just sitting around waiting for the other people to finish the hand.

So there I was, couldn’t tear muhself away for at least 90 minutes. Even better, I started with 1000 chips (maximum) aka “dollars”, and left 90 minutes later with SEVEN THOUSAND DOLLARS. aka “chips”, hahahaha. Which would be like a MONTH of “work” at least. Well, more like two months really! Aka gambling as a good career choice.

see, College Career Cult is a SCAM exactly because it’s Gambling Labeled as NonGambling. Gambling is NOT a Scam because it’s honest about calling itself What It Is: GAMBLING.

And you can make more money in 90 minutes than you can in 90 DAYS with a Masters Degree.

And 100k of Credit Card Debt due to Gambling might be easier to discharge thru Bankruptcy than 100k in Student Loan Debt!

My official position is, as soon as you become a PROBLEM Gambler, quit Gambling. Just like Problem drinking or drugs.

And then I couldn’t sleep thinking giddy thoughts of how a Real Life Casino might implement a version of ZOOM. Like get a little circle of 10 Tables? And then as soon as a person folds, have them move clockwise to the next table, until that table gets like 8 people for a new hand? It would be like musical chairs, always on your feet, but that’s okay. Just keep moving until you find a table that’s in the process of filling up.

The key is, you’d need at least 5 tables and 40 people or so….but that shouldn’t be THAT difficult right?? Not for a Real Casino! You ever BEEN to a Casino? They’re PACKED 24 hours a day! you go there at 3 am on Christmas and it’s packed with The Worst Of The Worst Gambling Degenerates, who have thrown away their FAMILIES for GAMBLING!!!!!

Anyway. It’s ENTIRELY LIKELY that I got Beginners Luck on ZOOM, Indeed, my 6000 Profit came from Two Big Pots where I did pretty risky all-ins, I very easily could have lost it all!

However I DO officially argue that if you’re just looking to make a Daily Quota of 222 Dollars, you could do that a lot quicker and easier than you could at the reg nonzoom tables. unless you play about 4 tables at once.

that’s the one thing that consistently amazes me: you could make a perfectly good living if you were to win ONE POT A DAY on LOW blinds , 1 & 2 dollars, and there a 222$ pot is….maybe a little above average, but certainly doable. Certainly on a 2&4 blind it would be closer to average!!

(Or does the Average Pot Size depend moar on the Maximum Table Buy-in than on the Blind Size?)

Anyway, my point is, there’s NO NEED to move beyond LOW STAKES to MAKE GAMBLING YOUR CAREER. Mid and High Stakes are for the greedy who WILL be cleaned out by their own greed and HUBRIS.


I learned there is also MICRO stakes, below Low Stakes, with a 1&2 CENT blinds.

WARNING: when I won all that money real fast on ZOOM, that was with 5&10 dollar blinds, which is much higher stakes than I like! (1000 dollar max buy in).

NOTE: not sure how they determine the blinds in ZOOM. I think it’s Totes At Random, but I did not get the impression that you were paying blinds any more than you would at a traditional table. Like 1 big blind every 8 hands or so.


nov 3 sunday

another lesson learned, be careful of LINKEDIN. I was playing around with it the other day for the first time in months, and then I was reminded of why I hated it: everyone in my Suggested People Do You Know, well, many of them I in fact DID know, and they were all dockers and lawyers and top 1% and not just successful, but SUPER successful. And that sucks.

So, stick to Twitter, avoid LInkedIn. I am following Local Powerful Successfuls like Crazy. People I DON’T already know, hehehehe

I was just thinking, I couldn’t remember My Official ADvice on Drinking for You All. I would say, if you’re a HUGE NEET with NO FRIENDS, then it might be worthwhile to drink so you can become more social and normal and make some friends, overcome the social anxiety.

But if the drinking becomes a Problem, then you have to quit drinking entirely. But BEFORE that point, you MIGHT be able to use alcohol as a TOOL to help you Make Friends. YOUR MILEAGE MAY VARY.

Ultimately the drinking did not help me so much, as I was drinking MORE than muh friends, and starting to annoy muh friends with my obnoxious behavior when Drunk. So eventually I did stop drinking and I am very glad for that.

But did Drinking HELP me in forming the friendships in the first place? Actually probably YES. Those first few Good Times that Solidify things, those may well have been alcohol-fueled. heh. what a double edged sword.

So I would say, use alcohol to HELP you FORM friendships, and then quit it as soon as it stops helping you, or you get addicted, get a DUI, etc. Because I won’t lie, Alcohol can take away social anxiety and make it easier to talk to people.

BUT ALSO: there are times when it DOESN’T: when you are RAGING DRUNK and you STILL can’t talk to people, STILL have social anxiety, so you continue drinking until you become an Unlikable MONSTER. Don’t let that happen 2 u!!

* there are still websites where you can Gamble with Real Money in the USA.  They didn’t ALL shut down with “Black Friday” like 3 years ago. Just the biggest ones, and that did scare off a lot of gamblers. but there are still a few left. The one that looks most promising ATM IMHO is  go check it out and form your own opinions.

but be very careful and play like the Feds could steal your funds at any minute. Also I think signing up with a Credit Card can hurt your credit score. So you get some third party “E-Wallet” like PayPal or NeTeller or Skrill and have that be the intermediary between your credit card and the Casino.

WARNING: I am already a PRoblem Gambler by the definition of the gd CASINO, because I am trying to gamble as a source of INCOME, NOT as a source of Entertainment (well, there IS entertainment in there too.) But the reason I LIKE gambling is because it seems like a more REALISTIC way of MAKING MONEY than what I can make at a JOB OR CAREER.

It doesn’t take a genius. What’s better, never making more than 30k a year with Stupid Gay Underjobs or Upper Working Class Bachelors Degree Jobs, or Oops you got the wrong Masters Degree Jobs,  OR……. consistently making over 30k a year – perhaps much more – with Gambling?

Read some “RUle of Thumb” that says that the Highest Stakes Table you should play, is where your total bankroll is NO LESS than Three Hundred Times the amount of the Big Blind.

Well, My Bankroll is like 9000 chips, and I felt real nervous playing at a table where the big blind is TEN chips. This is the Second-Lowest stakes holdem table at PokerStars. So I would advise, just simply play the lowest table you can, for a longass time.

Especially if you’re not greedy, you’re just like me, you’re not trying to get rich, you just want to make more than 37k a year, you just want to make 200 dollars a day. You can easily make that in ONE hand at THE LOWEST stakes tables. No need to shoot for the stars here. Because then you might lose it ALL.

heh. playing the 5/10 blinds table, second lowest stakes, right NOW, been folding 85% of hands, finally played a sweet premium hand of KK. when from like 960 chips (1000 buy in max), now at 1500. so for my purposes, that would be like TWO DAYS OF WORK, and probably enough to cover like a $50 “banking fee” for them to write you a check, and it took like ONE HOUR, while I was playing ONE TABLE, in the background, while writing a BLOG.

* If you’re doing another task, I would say play no more than one table at a time. If you’re trying to WORK, play two or more tables at a time.

* Heh. Something FEEEELS WRONG about ENCOURAGING PEOPLE TO GAMBLE INSTEAD OF WORK. Heh. I don’t encourage gambling over working except when you can make more money gambling than you can working, hehehehehehehehehe. big difference.

* OK OK OK that sounds like the mantra of a gambling addict, a terrible EXCUSE. HOWEVER it doesn’t diminish the TRUTH than in 2013, The Economy Still Sucks, The Fedgov is LYING to you about Job Statistics, College is a Bubble, just like Housing and Mortgages, most people should not be going to college because they’re getting useless degrees at an ungodly price, you can make more money as a Skilled Tradesperson than with a Masters Degree, even becoming a Lawyer is not failsafe, plus if you Hate Skool, you’ll never outperform all the Tryhards who are the only ones who turn their educations into a Return On Investment anyway.

Heh. Plus you will fall in luv with Grills and not be able to forget about them 8 years later when you are an old bald fat bad at getting interviews loser, hahahahahaha.

* When you win a nice hand, then on PokerStars use the little icon to Save Your Hand on so you can watch it again later. Bookmark and replay your best wins, then look at them later when you need an ego boost. That is why you fold 85% of the time, to win on Premium Hands like that.

* How about this: just go to the physical Casino and gamble for real money at a live table. I think 48 out of 50 states have legal gambling, it’s not just fricken Vegas. You PROBABLY have a Casino in your local Major City, in other words, or the nearby Indian Reservation. Not hard to find A Real Casino. The ONLY thing that stops me is Social Anxiety basically, to LOOK LIKE A NEWB who’s never played at a live table before, hehehehehe. well that is muh 2014 new years resolution. pretty good one, amirite.

* protip. When you have a dream about a grill you were in TRUE Luv with 8 years ago, and it brings up all that old luv you wish you could just let go of, well, just tell yourself you HAVE let go of it, and that you will only get those uncomfortable feels for THAT DAY ONLY, and by tomorrow, after sleeping on it ONE night, you’ll be back to “normal” and will have gotten over that grill again.

*Protip: something that’s been bothering moi. FORGIVENESS. You say to yourself, yep, I just don’t care anymore, it’s been 9 years, I forgive such and such a grill for breaking muh poor widdle heart. water under the bridge. time heals all wounds. AND THEN you think, WHAT IF this is all ON ME, and there’s nothing I need to forgive her for? Not ONLY should I have not been butthurt at her, but I don’t even need to FORGIVE her for anything, because she never did anything wrong, I just overreacted and got butthurt like a spoiled child??????? so Forgiveness is useless and worthless and Worse Than Worthless, it just shows how you STILL haven’t gotten to the TRUTH of the matter, where it’s ALL ON YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Eh, I would say, You’re Overthinking it, and it’s better to Forgive Someone for Something they didn’t do, than to be Butthurt at them for something they didn’t do. Who gives a f00k. You are ten steps ahead of everything. Like you;ll ever see them again. Once again, it’s a situation that exists only in yer mind. Who even KNOWS if it’s all on you anyway. Can’t be. She can’t not be at least a LITTLE bit responsible. She was at least a LITTLE bit of a B, amirite?