THIS MACHINE K’S J’S

june 17

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/what-kind-of-lives-did-actual-barbarians-live/113621

by weev. more clarification on hwyte sharia. thankfully nothing advising breaking your wifes bones. rather clarifies the point that the romans had the right idea and we should be emulating them, while the barbarians, for once are not glorified as european ideal, allowed themselves to be manipulated too much by women, and thus became phaggots and catamites, turning to boys and young men because their wives, though maybe attractive, were uppity bitches who the men had let get out of their own CONTROL.

https://heathenharvest.org/2014/08/26/eternal-flame-of-gehenna/

some finnish black metal is race aware, but alot of them are just pathetic alcoholics hehehehe. probably even the race aware ones drink too much. BUT I should check out the finns for decent black metal that is possibly more racially aware.

http://nwnprod.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=25659&start=90

im interested mainly because uncle mikko is innit. probably only very briefly and definitely shrouded in shadows. the one sentence he says is something like “you can’t separate black metal from politics which some people find annoying” and i would agree, in that i think black metal should EMBRACE the political, ie the RACIAL.

NOT just get SO DRUNK you have HEART ATTACKS by age 40 and cut yourself and worship satan and have satanic rituals, get drunk, have heart attacks, get so drunk you can’t even talk, and say all humans are shit, finnish christians are just as bad as brown muslims. COME ON.

basically goatmoon is on the good list. the stormheit guy who was sober and talking in the woods was good. basically anyone here who was halfway sober and not looking like a retard.

only clip on youtube, from an antifa group talking about RACISM in finnish BM, and all they say are perfectly reasonable anti-moslem things. aspa says one sentence near the end hehehe with his face shrouded.

so that guy is named stormheit and is of the band stormheit whos 2014 album has a very hookcross looking thing. extremely vetted. thumbs up! he also plays live bass for goatmoon. he has a swedish name, joakim soldehed, so im ASSUMING hes one of the swedish finns. ie ethnic swedes who have lived in finland for 100s of years and i think are generally accepted but there is generally good natured mocking back and forth.

pagan metal with tons of acoustic guitars and mostly cleanish bathory viking vocals. not bad!

epic song from his 2011 album before the 2014 one. seems basically the same hahahaha. clean singing that is not horrible. passionate and european. prob def pro-white. not a degen drunkard. real human drummer. approved!

better than the degenerate satanic drunkards. are they talking about satan or are they talking about EVROPA.

basically i am looking for Alt Right Black Metal. a black metal person who is FULLY on board with daily stormer hahahaha. and therefore understands that being a drunk is degen. writing songs about satan is degen. i think these bands/musicians will come but it will take a few years of alt right sinking in, and that didnt really start until 2015 or so. this is all very young.

heres their 2017 album. a full LP of 34 minutes. great length! real drummer. good production, good melodies, i might have to listen to this fully.

they have played live shows with at least 2 NS flags on display at once, have led the crowd in roman saluting, and the blackgoat guy (kinda degen name) specifically names the J. bigly thumbs up! good enough for me!

he prob drinks too much tho and theres no excuse for that hahaha.

also its CHILDISH to be OBSESSED WITH MUSIC, and i guarantee you many of these people are. Its fine to be a big music fan, but you have to GROW UP at some point and realize that its the ideas and the principles and the morals behind the music which matter more. and if you have those morals, great. i give you my blessing to spend many hours of your valuable time semi-obsessively making good black metal or other music.

when i was young i was as obsessed with music as i am with racial stuff now. i can say now that the racial stuff is a better interest and i am glad i switched over. obviously i still like to listen to music sometimes. ESPECIALLY when it lines up with my racial and moral views.

these guys are friends with goatmoon and this album is getting rave reviews. the drummer for this album plays drums on the 2017 goatmoon album. sounds pretty good. this is all on blackgoats werewolf label. i figure look to the label/distro the guy runs to find bands he likes.

ok 2 new albums in 1 day, thats more than enough to keep my musical world full for like 6 months ahahahahaha

there are more important things in life than music. music should be the MEANS and never the END. and the means should definitely be SERVING that end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the end, of course, is the 14 words.

every boy should be paird up with a successful mentor no more than 5, 6, 7 years older than him, who has succeeded in the same world the boy is entering into. then give him a CHECKLIST of steps to accomplish, in order, by a certain date. like lose your V by age 18. secure an engin internship at a good company by age 19. never get fat. never drink too much. never do too much MJ. lift heavy and lift often. have intelligent coversations with your professors. stay away from college gurls. have arranged dates with the gurl you will marry at age 22 or so. basically you hanging out with the young gurl you will marry. she will be a young virgin. there will be parents chaperoning. because she wont be able to control herself, and you wont be able to either.

that would probably be the next step in human evolution. if we could actually CONTROL OUR OWN secsual urges!

but yeah i see jobs at sweet defense companies and its like you dont just waltz in there and get a job there. you have to be a top engin student and get into their highly competitive engin internship programs. where 20 year old engin students compete severely for these. i didnt even KNOW about this shit until i was like 25. i didnt have a chance!

so have a 25 year old who DID get one of those jobs be a mentor to an 18 year old boy!

THIS MACHINE K’S COMMUNISTS.

THIS MACHINE K’S MARXISTS.

THIS MACHINE K’S J’S.

hehehehehehehe

i was under the delusion that all you needed to go was graduate college, and then you would be a middle class success. 30 years ago, this was certainly true.  but now its a huge fookin gamble. i had a decent hand, but i played it poorly and gambled too much on it. lost it all hahahaha.

like a drunk gambler who gets a good hand, but gets a weird flop and then plays it poorly, goes all in when he shouldnt have, and loses to someone who played the flop wisely.

anyway. if i were 18 and had a 25 year old man who had his life all together, making 50 grand a year, slapping me and saying, you HAVE to do this if you want to be a winner like me. do this. do that. dont question it. or you will end up like this pathetic loser, and then show me the pathetic loser. either a pathetic marxist barista with a phd in antiwhite, or, worse, an unemployable neet whos stuck in the past and hasnt been with a woman in 10 years.

army or chair force might have been good for me. it would have either K’d me like private pyle, or it would have been good for me. at this point, i wish i had taken the gamble. havent done anything with muh life anyway.

basically i was too immature to Go Away to college and I shouldntve. period. Some kids do all right, ie become successful at life college phaggots, but i became a loser at life college phaggot.

and women shouldnt go away to college at all. its sad that i need to say it and mansplain it. because it turns them even more into crazy, destructive Hoors.

i needed more guidance and leadership at that crucial age, but i wasnt willing to seek it out. i needed it FORCED on me from above in other words. i was spoiled with softness, in other words. yep.

very true but cant be DWELLING on this. DO something productive, and if you dont know what to do, then do Physical Training. ie powerwalking hahahahah. yeah i am gonna do that shortly. just got back from church which was boring as hell but there were 2 attractive women there. first one was a 26 year old 7/10 who seemed to be married. the other was a 17 year old 8/10 but which went down to about 7.5 just because she was too fat for such a young age, but not dealbreakingly fat. she had very cute face and beautiful hair and nice white skin. she just likes porking out on the ice cream too much methinks. i have never seen these gurls’ mother, just their father, who himself is a potato shaped niceguy. starting to think maybe the mother died. or maybe she divorce raepd him and he only gets the kids on weekends, where he takes them to church on saturday. i would prefer the mother was ded hahahahaha.

everything. story on WEATHER CHANNEL of a Young Newly Single Mother who is instagraming photos of her with her beautiful new baby at all the waterfalls in oregon. the mother was pretty attracive young white woman. she said she was heartbroken at being a NEWLY SINGLE MOTHER when the baby was like 3 MONTHS old.

of course were supposed to think, what kind of DEADBEAT would abandon his wife and brand new child. instead I thought, what kind of CRAZY BITCH would kick her husband out when the child was only 3 months old?

and if she didnt dump him, i guarantee she picked a deadbeat badboy whose leaving was prob no surprise. the baby was white tho.

the best case scenario would be if the husband tragically died. but i think she would have said if that were the case.

and she talks about Processing pain and grief from the father leaving, by taking the baby to beautiful parks and waterfalls and making herself a social media celebrity in the process. of course women everywhere are loving this, while I am sneering and thinking ABSOLUTELY DEGENERATE. where is this kids father. he’s either a deadbeat or youre an evil bitch. or a stupid bitch for choosing a deadbeat. and her you are craving the spotlight.

the future does not look good for the poor child. the mother should be on her hands and knees begging the father to come back.

this is what a woman, even a white woman, will do without strong male control. kick out the father of her child when the child is 3 months old. i just thought white women were better than that because they are white, but they’re not. in women’s case, the fact that they’re women influences their behavior moreso than the fact that theyre white.  in other words, sex is more important than race for women and the way they think and act.

so does that mean that white men have more in common with black men than white women, if sex is more important than race?

i didnt say that though hahaha. race IS more important than sex…..just not for WOMEN hahahaha.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/third-jimpact-homosexuals-within-trs-alt-right/113791/

what the FOOK is this. this suggests that ghoul was “grooming” a 15 year old BOY and also fooked the boy. serious accusations require serious evidence!!!!!

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/trs-and-homosexuals-and-the-alt-right/114125

summary of the podcast

https://imgur.com/a/x4uSX

i just dont know. i havent seen any good evidence of ghoul sodomizing any boys. and its not his fault his mother was a lezbo. its not his fault a college tranny degen wanted his D once.

i mean im not in super luv with ghoul but i did buy his shirt hahaha. now i cant wear muh trs shirt any more, cant wear the ghoul shirt any more hahaha.

and so what if millennial woes complained about white sharia to sacco vandal. i wouldnt expect MW to understand this meme anyway. took me a while. and im aware of MW’s Gay Past and i dont think its as extensive as the haters would claim! i really dont think he did standard pool party take it up the ass stuff.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/white-sharia-is-not-radical-enough/114054

so yeah i will wait until i see proof of ghouls stuff; and i still luv MW and think hes a great guy. but it would be nice if he talked to anglin or weev or the stormer affiliated guys. azzmador. he prob wont and this prob wont stop me from liking him. i think he is a great guy and he would have to do something hella bad for me to dump him hahaha.  i give him almost 2 dollars per month!

he just seems very honest. i guess i would maybe ideally like him to give more specific details about his gay past, but i honestly think it wasnt THAT bad. now, doing gay shit NOW and hiding it, would be a diff story. i mean hes kind of a leader now and needs to set an example. character and fitness.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/mysterium-fasces-episode-31-sexual-ethics/114150

podcast on SExual Ethics with the great florian geyer and doc mayhem is also good.

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WOMEN ARE SUPPOSED TO ACT LIKE CHILDREN. SO CONTROL YOUR D4MN CHILDREN.

apr 28

http://www.vocativ.com/425021/alt-right-trolls-neo-nazi-andrew-anglin-legal-fund/

the judenpresse is hearing about the DS dnation drive to help save AA/DS.

ok so even the woman beaters on DS agree that once you have to beat a woman, youve lost control. but now they are supporting a “scorched earth” policy which says you are so ruthless that you have to be willing to abandon your CHILDREN in order to smite a bad woman. the few women on the site are understandably not liking that. shit I dont like the idea. i mean abandoning your children is worse than beating your wife.

i say abandon the shitty wife and take the innocent kids with you. and find a better wife who would prob be a better mother to the kids than their actual mother hahahahahaha.

yeah good women all have the potential to become bad women but if you get a good woman before she goes bad, and KEEP her good, then things will prob work in your favor hahaha.

adult children. all this talk of manchildren when women are the real adult children. BUT THEYRE SUPPOSED TO BE. MEN are NOT supposed to be adult children.

ADULT WOMEN ARE *SUPPOSED* TO ACT LIKE CHILDREN.

so dont get mad at them when they do it. CONTROL YOUR DAMN KIDS. is exactly what you would say to little kids being brats while the weak parents / single mother did nothing.

we as MEN need to take this SAME approach to our WOMEN.  PERIOD.

WOMEN ARE SUPPOSED TO ACT LIKE CHILDREN. SO CONTROL YOUR DAMN CHILDREN.

just on fire with the TRUTH on the WQ today hahahaha.

now you dont punch your children in the face, or otherwise abuse your children, and yes you are allowed to Luv them.

So I think this is the healthiest perspective to take here.

its like the kid on the escalator (mallrats, not sure why i havent erased that degen movie from my mind, well because theres a few funny parts in it). its the kid being a brat in church.

DONT BLAME THE KID, BLAME THE PARENTS!!!!!

and women are like the brattiest children of all. doing real problem child bullshit. that you really WANT to blame the child. how could any normal child be THIS bad. THIS child needs PROFESSIONAL help because they are torturing animals and were they fooking ABUSED by their parents to get this bad? but that is normal women. and you as the man need to figure out a very strong system of discipline and control that does NOT involve abuse.

how is this even WORF IT?

because HWYTE CHILDREN. i mean the literal hwyte children you get to perpetuate our race. 14 words kind of hwyte children. not the adult women children who produce the actual literal hwyte children hahahahahaha.

https://www.wesearchr.com/bounties/daily-stormer-vs-splc-legal-defense-fund

sam hyde just contributed FIVE THOUSAND feckin dollas to anglins wesearchr. i really hope anglin gets all this money. also this kinda proves sam hyde is seriously /ourguy/ hahahahaha.

but honestly i would not be surprised to see jooish bullshit happen with wesearchr, like this campaign being shut down, or them not reaching the minimum. why didnt weev set it at like 30 thousand?

sent some more btc to anglin because it felt kind of cheap to just send him 5 dollars in his huge time of need. sent him around 10 bucks this time.

wondering why spencer doesnt have something supporting anglin on the front page of altright.com. i mean this case does involve spencer and his mother.

maybe anglin is a fed who was planted to destroy the alt right by therefore turning all stormers against spencer hahahahaha.

well what if spencer does something for anglin in the near future.

women are a lot more baby minded at 25-30 than they are from 20-25. they really get BABY RABIES and i wouldnt put it past them to try to get preggers by just about anyone, after the age of 25, if they havent had a baby yet. BEWARE over 25 year old women that do not have children an who arent making their career their substitute child. (masters degree, 60 hours a week, luvs their career, middle class)

in other words, if things had “worked out” with That Woman, she was transitioning from early twenties to late twenties. maybe she would have deliberately tried to get preggers from me hahahaha.

but thats GOOD! I wanted to get her preggers and have 3+ beautiful hwyte children with her.

then she could dump me and take the children away from me hahaha.

but no im just not making enough money to raise children.

sheeeeeeeit i wish i never MET her, so that I never really KNEW what I was MISSING with women, and could just be a Happy Woman Hater hahahaha. When A Man Luvs A Woman.mp3

yeah well in a few more years it will be LIKE i never met her hahahaha.

besides. she probably had PROBLEMS i didnt even know about. like in her crazy woman mind. shit she already had pretty big problems i DID know about.

DODGED A BULLET THERE!

really we need to look into into artificial wombs and more realistically, hiring women to act as hired wombs only. a substitute artificial womb. a human artificial womb. and then just be a Single Father.

Cant do that unless you a WEALTHY though.

its probably JUST AS important to REDUCE the number of nonwhites, as to INCREASE the number of hwytes. reduce the nonwhytes by deportation and stopping immigration. and, in the US, solving the BQ hahahaha by segregation, deportation, and or Subsidized STERILIZATION of blacks hehehehe. i think that is a VERY good use of taxpayer money.

but this stuff really is as extreme as artificial wombs tho.

larp larp larp larp larp. what is REALLY happening is this case with anglin. maybe now would be a good time for The March In Whitefish. or just any kind of big event to support him. he could probably raise more money by appearing at IRL events. why not go to the pikeville thing happening THIS WEEKEND.

why not go to NY and LA and all the big cities. dont need to go to a shit city like berkeley.

but the college. yeah well there are other colleges. go to harvard, yale, princeton, stanford, sure UCB is a good skool but there are plenty of other good skools. just go to any good, LARGE skool if you want publicity.

go to any large city. provide your own security, you would get a lot of volunteers. we dont NEED security, we protect OURSELVES.

of course, plenty of places (cities) have strict gun laws against open carry, concealed carry, etc. so you’d HAVE to get LE involved hahaha.

am i naive to think most LEOs would be more in favor of pro-whites, rather than disgusting antiwhite antifa?

also even the jooish media is reporting on The Lefts tendency to act like violent kneegrows at these protests.

was feeling grumpy and despairing over my weak loserness, so i decided to try a powernap. didnt really sleep more than 30 minutes but i think it helped a little.

yes i tried to be productive today by going to store, trimming beard, going for short powerwalk (go for another later), did some PUSHUPS, and listend to some georgie boy. might get under calorie limit today. really the best way to do that is just NOT EAT. don’t have SNACKS or dessert, period. eat one small meal and one big meal and that is all you can have for the day. and that still might be too much!

but i would recommend this for fat slobs. you want to lose weight? DONT EAT. eat one small meal and one “bigger” meal and keep it under 1200 calories a day if you really want to lose weight quickly.

welp ate by Big Meal of the day and went over 1500. son of a bitch. this is including 2 powerwalks and skipping breakfast. like i said, its SO EASY to go over.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/any-useful-books-on-how-to-be-a-dominant-bf-husband/102711

the woman beaters have not shown up yet and there is fairly moderate advice on how to be a manly but not abusive man hahaha

they say raep is about power not secs, but what you have to understand is that WOMEN FIND POWER SECSY.

this doesnt mean that women always like raep but it does explain alot of those raep fantasies. and also it is is a very good idea to ALWAYS BE POWERFUL with women.

BRUTE STRENGTH. RAW POWER. POWER. POWER. STRENGTH = POWER. women are attracted to this like a man is attracted to a beautiful young 18 year old gurl.

TINDER TRASH. theres a reason that phrase exists. tinder TRASH.

sucks to see a good woman go from good and never on tinder, to mudsharking, high-number, secs on the 3rd date tinder TRASH.

just LAUGH in their faces and say YOUR FATHER MUST BE SO PROUD, TINDER TRASH. NOW SUCK ME.

arranged marriages really are the way to go. and it doesnt have to be like browns and mudslims. it would be a very hwyte form of arranged marriage. maybe even the father could even give her a choice of 2 good, pre-vetted men. not that women can make good decisions of who to marry and who to have babies with.

but anyway if the guy turns out to be an abusive monster, she should be able to go to her father and he will fix it.  but BOTH fathers will be meeting to arrange this shit to make sure they are BOTH getting a good deal. win win.

you could prob even marry off 16 yo gurls with 16 yo boys, not even 23 year old men. 23 year old men with jobs would prob be better tho. but 16 yo boys could be done provided there are families that could help out if they had some kids of their own, but the young father still needed to finish skooling so he could start making good money at 22/23, and ALREADY have a young child. it could be done. have more emphasis on extended family beyond the nuclear. 3 generation households. that might be one way to justify these goddamn huge mcmansions. they are big enough for 3 fooking generations.

cuz i was thinking what to do about the boys who are HORNY AF when they are 16? should you make it ok to bang whores and sluts for them? or should you just marry them to 16 yo gurls and they can happily bang each other? i think that is the ideal.

i mean young people get RIDICULOUSLY horny and this leads them to make EVEN WORSE decisions. but its not like you cant turn this horniness off. if you chain them up they might try to rebel by running away and fooking muds. but marrying 16 year olds to each other and letting them fook all day, everybodys happy. but the family has to be there to help if that 16 yo gets preggers. i mean why wouldnt they be. we’re hwytes, not SAVAGES. we TAKE CARE OF OUR KIDS. in fact it should prob be encouraged. you’re 17 and havent had a kid yet? better get on that! arent you and your horny husband fooking enough?

this way, both super horny young men and young women are fulfilling their urges in healthy ways, and not turning to degeneracy like promiscuity or porn!

no moron, dont look to MUSLIMS as an example of how to treat women! this is what i dont like abotu this white sharia. some of these idiots actually think the MUSLIMS have the RIGHT idea.

i used to like that BBS didnt have a downvote, but now i think downvote system would be good.

we need to treat our women like GOOD parents treat their children. we dont need to abuse them, dress them in burkas, and treat them like SHIT. they are subservient to us and KIND of like property, in the way that our beloved dog or children is our “property.” you would never think of beating or abusing or hating them.

i cant believe this attitude makes me a WHITE KNIGHT PVSSY MANGINA SIMP PEDESTALIZER CAPTAIN SAVE A HORE.

heh. i sure talk and think about women way too much for somebody who hasnt even talked to a 20-30 year old woman for like 2 years hahahaha.

but yeah. this is how IMPORTANT the WQ is, because many men are obsessed with women, as am I. it directly affects us. in fact the WQ was what started me on muh redpilling over 10 years ago. yes it was!

i was starting down that road even before I Disavowed the Left!

basically the WQ was the ROOT CAUSE of me changing from a pathetic shitlib antiwhite SJW, into the somewhat less pathetic 1433 VVN far right fascist traditionalist race-luving hwyte warrior wannabe that stands before you today hahahaha.

yeah im still pathetic but im WAY LESS PATHETIC than if i were still an antiwhite shitlib!

maybe i should start drinking again. and then only drink on a day like this, a weekend where i dont have to get up in the morning. and no driving. and just drink at least medium quality stuff and no bottom shelf rotgut stuff. and only once a week. like be drinking some whiskey on a night like this. dont drive anywhere. i dont drive as much anyway. i was more social when i was a drinker hahahhaha.

i mean if im not driving, its ok, right????

same reason im wanting to use MJ, right? to ESCAPE from BAD FEELS???!!!?!!?!?!?!

pretty much hahaha. but i would still much rather do MJ.

but alcohol is SO much easier to get!

but the hangovers are horrible.

but theyre less worse if you drink quality booze.

but but but

sat dec 2

apr 20

the fuhrers bday hahaha. maybe this blog will be shut down by dec 2 because of all the racist stuff ive been doing hehe.

anglin case on anglins local news in ohio. roosh v writing article on anglin case and pretty much naming the J and taking anglins side. i get a popup on return of kings that says “DEUS VULT!!!” i guess roosh is now pro-hwyte alt right hahahaha.

ok kalki was the 12th avatar of vishnu or some shit or was it krishna? and so savitri devi said AH was like kalki. the DESTROYER OF FILTH. I can really identify with that. i see DESTROYING FILTH as my mission too.

420 day. happy bday fuhrer hahaha. but i just thought. its kinda weird jooish marxist countries like UK and germany and sweden havent legalized MJ yet. i mean its more legal in the US than it is in the UK.

the only job openings are for jobs SO SHITTY, like being a PATSY SCAPEGOAT FALL GUY BAGHOLDER to sit there and take abuse from angry customers your company has screwed, jobs that are like oh god theres no way i can survive even one day of this. then you stick it out in a job like that for 2 or 3 years and maybe you can move on to something better if you are a top 20% performer and not some average asshole.

its called PAYING YOUR DUES hahahaha.

and its harder than the military and jail combined. i honestly dont know why more people dont k themselves to get out of it. or join the military or intentionally go crime to get sent to jail.

i dont want to go to jail because its for scumbag negros and i dont want to get raeped in the ass.

but to sit there and take abuse all day and pathetically try to do something you dont know how to do, thats kinda like being raeped in the ass hahahaha. no not quite but it does put you on EDGE ALL DAY LONG. then when you go home youre on edge too, becasuse youre WORRIED about being on edge all day TOMORROW.

oh youre just figuring this out at age 30 hahahaha

no i was always sort of aware and afraid of it hahaha but didnt actually live it until somewhat recently. now im even MORE afraid of it!

how do peopel survive?

they become raging alcoholics and pill poppers!

then how do they keep their jobs? those bad habits will give you a hangover and affect your work performance so that youre not even AVERAGE anymore, but BELOW average!

some guy was on return of kings commenting he didnt agree with daily stormers anti  race mixing views, because he totally enjoyed banging his young indian GF who was “TWO STANDARD DEVIATIONS ABOVE AVERAGE”, when he had NEVER pulled a hwyte gurl that hot. This white guy could pull indian gurls that were HOTTER than the hwyte gurls he could pull. and Raceless Hotness was the ONLY thing he cared about.

i thought it was a little autistic. and showed that HE had no connection to his own race. and i say this as someone who also appreciates that young indian gurls can be quite good looking!

and if i could pull a good looking one, i would DEFINITELY bang.

but i would HOPE i wouldnt throw my own RACE under the bus like that guy did.

i mean im not surprised to see this Hedonistic, Pornified approach at RETURN OF KINGS!!!! I should be happy they are even turning towards a better path, being less degen. and i suppose i am. i mean these degens get a lot RIGHT about the nature of women, and how to pull women. they just have their long term goals fooked up.

Normie Jobs are so INCREDIBLY STRESSFUL, thats why SO MANY people are on benzos. xanax and valium. i never took a benzo till i got a horrendously stressful, ie normal, job. and then i was like doc you gotta give me somethign for this.

too bad i cant get MJ the same way hahaha.

i mean i would have to lie and say i had back pain. i dont really want to LIE to doctors. unless I KNEW the doctor was gonna write me a MJ rec without needing to see any medical records.

i also wouldnt LIE to a doctor to try to get opiates. Not really interested in opioids hahahaha. i mean if i could get a huge supply for cheap, yeah sure. but those things are expensive af. a pill of oxycontin you pay 1 dollar for at the pharmacy costs like 40 dollars on the street. fact. so its no suprise people can spend 1000 dollars a day on opioids. the mystery is where they get the money. they switch to HERON because HERON is CHEAPER than Oxycontin!!!!

poor georgie boy. i hope he comes back in 6 months and has good news. i think he really was/is a good guy. i dont want to watch any other forever alone, “TFL” types.  i mean its a very black pill world to explore. i dont really WANT to explore it. im not even sure how i started liking george. but it just happened. i will miss him and I hope the best for him. i wouldnt mind meeting him some day.

there is a whole internet full of foreveralones, see r/foreveralone, /r9k/, bunch of youtubers in that vein, and i just dont want to go down that road and read that stuff, i cant even read MGTOW stuff. reading hwyte power stuff is about 14333333333333333 times more positive and white pillng hehehe.

that deserves repeating hehehe. yeah i have whatever those losers have, laziness and patheticness and “untreated despair”, but being around people like that whining about it is JUST AWFUL. read hwyte power stuff instead, you will feel better about yourself. honestly better.

so what is this blog? im not sure but I do NOT consider myself part of the “FA Community.” I dont read any of that shit and I recommend that YOU do NOT read that shit. George is literally the ONLY “FA” person I liked. and i suspect he was sympathetic to WP hahaha. i mean it will CURE you FA, because you realize you’re never really ALONE, you are part of a beautiful RACE.

seeing if there are any “resources” on “depression” at DS BBS:

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/black-pilled-af/95777

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/tfw-tism/99559

ok hahaha

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/how-do-i-stop-being-a-wagecuck-and-become-a-neet/96884

QUOTE ” Start looking into collecting SSI. Get some shrink to say you have crippling depression or autism or whatever and can’t hold down a job. Get a lady doctor if you can, trust me, they’re suckers for a sob story. ”

sheeeeeeeeeeeit every so often i get this fear that because i have SUCH a hard time with the Normie Adult World Of Work, that PROVES I am DISABLED and should get DISABILITY NEETBUX because I LITERALLY CANT HOLD DOWN A NORMIE JOB. and THAT feels REAL bad man.

“loneliness is failed solitude” ooooo good one hehehehe. i mean im thankful to appreciate and enjoy being alone, i dont really feel that LONELY, until I happen to interact with other people, and them im like, dam i am awkward af, i dont know how to interact with people, its much less stressful being alone and not being reminded of muh social awkwardness, no wonder i dont have any friends and am terrible with women, hahahaha.

anyway the people on a hwyte power forum will have a MUCH better discussion about despair and trying to beat it, than the same OP on a FA type forum.

i mean this is THE BLACK PILL. no joke. all that FA stuff is SO black pill that they stop realizing how black pill it is. that is a HORRIBLE, tragic way to live life. I wouldnt say its inherently jood like porn……rather its an inherently hwyte reaction to a jood world. you become SPIRITUALLY SICK. like GLR’s SPIRITUAL SYPHILIS.

i mean theres several kinds of that too. where you GIVE IN to the degeneracy, and then where you just want to cry butthurt tears about the degeneracy, you know its bad, you know better than to actively pursue it, you KNOW its bad, thank GOD, but you feel absolutely powerless to fight it, to DO anything about it, and feel like a weak loser who has wasted your whole life, and youll never be tough or strong or courageous enough to make the changes in your like you NEED to make in order for anything to get better. for you to become a normie adult making 28k a year, working FT, being mentally TOUGH enough to Hold Down A Job, finding a decent woman, having children, being a good father.

mark steyn on tucker carlson right now. tucker is becoming a meme on DS so i might as well check him out. he is pretty good. and mark steyn is a great speaker, i have enjoyed listening to him speak for years, even if he is a BASIC BITCH joo lover neocohen hahahahahaha. but he still is a great speaker and we would all do well to listen to him and try to speak like that. be a good ORATOR.

AH was obviously a great orator but I dont speak german at all. so whos a good english language orator. GLR was pretty good. the national action in darlington guy was great. mark steyn is good even though he is not the least bit alt right.

spencer? he could be better. his voice is still kinda gay. but i think he can get better.

myself, i am horrible at speaking. publicly OR privately.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/fake-news-journalist-luke-obrien-trying-to-frame-political-activist-andrew-anglin-as-russian-agent/100472

anglin confesses every piece of dirt his enemies could possibly dig up on him. i have a mancrush on him and think he is an interesting guy and would like to read an autobiography by him. or listen to him tell his life story in 4 hours of podcast hahaha.

i will prob get this thing shut down by wordpress just for LINKING to daily stormer. it is easily one of the most badgoy sites on the entire internet. its really a miracle its managed to stay up for so long.

apr 21

http://www.nytimes.com/projects/census/2010/explorer.html

use this to help you find a place to live that is over 90% hwyte. i was surprised my area is lower 80s. and it still seems pretty good. my concerned is that arabs and albanians will be counted as hwyte.

yeah, pretty sure ARABS are counted as HWYTE. so be careful with this map.

im sure jooz are counted as hwyte but it might be good to live around middle class jooz because they will preach diversity but want to live in 90%+ hwyte areas where it is safe from nonwhyte crime and violence.

i should probably go to Hippie Drug Gathering where all the gurls do drugs and offer themselves up freely, like antifa gurl. of course you have to take huge precautions, but at least you would be banging young girls who are hopefully 7/10 at least. and really solidify your view that damn, all women really are disgusting whores who need to be physically restrained by BRUTE STENGTH, BEFORE they INEVITABLY BECOME disgusting whores who go to hippie gatherings and bang strangers.

meet up with the old friend today. expectations are managed beforehand. ideally he wouldnt drink at all. i prob wouldnt be too pissed if he drinks MODERATELY. i WILL be pissed if he gets SLOPPY drunk, and prob even MORE pissed if he wants me to blow in his damn car breathalyzer. uhhh that thing is in your car for a REASON. Yes I KNOW LE is just a bunch of jooish zog who Generate Revenue by arresting tons of people at .10 BAC. but in your case, you had way more than .10 BAC and have a legit drinkign problem. people like you are the reason they invented car breathalyzers. how the hell do you get to WORK then. you see me once in 6 months and cant even not drink before going out to a restaurant?

well MAYBE he will be on good behavior tonight. i hope he is. shit i’ll go to the jooish hooters breastaurant if he just doesnt drink for one god damn night.

i mean this is what a real drinking problem looks like. that asking a person not to get SLOPPY, RAGING, BLACKOUT drunk on ONE night out of 6 MONTHS is a hard bargain.

shit you can start drinking when I LEAVE at 11pm at the latest.

oh your wife is out of town for the weekend, shit thats gonna be the perfect excuse for him to get raging drunk all weekend too. so he doesnt have his Controlling Wife complaining about him drinking. Are You Drinking? Have You Been Drinking? When you went to the restaurant, did you drink? when you went outside, did you drink? when you went downstairs, did you drink?

and then him being obviously too drunk to speak and staggering back and forth, oh no i havent had anything to drink at all.

probably i havent been clear enough from the start that I dont want to see you drinking at all while I am here tonight. just do me that favor because i have known you like 19 years. you can drink yourself stupid when i leave.

and yeah seeing a person like that with a serious drinking prob makes me never want to drink again. because i wasnt quite that bad, but i could have totally gotten that way if i had kept drinkign for years.

i mean hes right in the middle of it, of course hes not gonna have a good perspective on it! of course hes not thinking clearly!

well they say you gotta try ang fail 9 times if you really want to quit a bad habit like drinking. or being a lazy loser neet virgin foreveralone apparently hahahaha.

anglin admitted to doing drugs as a degen youth. how much drugs did he do? well i know he was charged with MJ possession. pretty minor. Kinda wish he’d write a book about his life up to age 25 or so. living in a jungle commune in the phillippines? INTERESTING!

living in CHINA? INTERESTING! sounded like he was able to bang hwyte gurls as well as azn gurls while he was there. so was he teaching english? doing a church missionary thing? he’s not really religious atm but i thought his family was.

i KNOW he’s not my buddy pal frand, but I would be very open to that if I knew him IRL hahahaha. NO I am not gonna STALK him!!!!! i only semi stalk people on the INTERNET ONLY and only when it is a woman i fancy and thats a sure sign I should be talking to her IRL instead of daydreaming about her.

and then WANTING to internet stalk them after they dump me, and feeling terrible, but courageously managing to fight that temptation.

so yeah im really not a yuge stalker of anybody hahahaha. i am pretty good at finding people on the internet though.

but not NEAR as good as 4chan, they can dox antifa who are wearing MASKS. like the shit eating pervert who punched spencer, and the white antiwhite Ethics Professor who hit people with bike locks in berkeley. and the antifa gurl moldylocks was totally doxed within hours, but she wasnt wearing a mask. but how did 4chan do it???? especially the people with MASKS? they do it based on their EYES which I dont know how that is bulletproof evidence. not that I am DEFENDING these awful ANTIFA!!!!! im just saying, is it enough to get that shitty adjunct instructor fired?

ok. 1% vs 4% milkfat cottage cheese. which one tastes better, lets find out hahaha.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edgar_Steele

dont forget about this guy. pro-hwyte attorney, something we need a lot more of. i know OF one out in the real world at the moment, fully doxed and all, and it’s honestly kind of suspicious how he HASNT been set up yet. how has he managed to fly under the radar???!!?!?!?!

http://www.germanvictimsDOTcom/wp-content/uploads/2014/09/Defensive-Racism-By-Edgar-J-Steele.pdf

check out his famous book defensive racism,  i should read this NOW

hmm went to jail for conspiring to k his wife, thats kinda sleazy. i mean im assuming shes a sleazebag too who wanted to divorce him and take 90% of his money, which I could understand might make a person entertain the hypothetical notion, but theres still no excuse to k your wife. unless she is coming at you with a gun trying to k you and you are doing self defense.

welp gonna meet this friend here in 88 minutes. little nervous about that. maybe I will take a valium hehe. seriously. so if I did that, would that give him license to drink?

actually i could probably tolerate NORMAL moderate drinking, like average normies do. go to the bar and have 3 or 4 drinks. but he doesnt do that. he gets SO drunk that he cant even have a conversation, just mumbling incoherently, and then passes out raging drunk. you were this bad 15 minutes ago, you clearly snuck off and chugged some straight vodka or something. thats the thing I really dont like. that and making me blow into the car. at that point im like this is ridiculous, i’ll just drive.

he doesnt have any of the guilt or shame i had, where i was like i dont WANT my friends to SEE me like this! how shameful!!!

apparently now DS forum is closed to new people. you can read it but cant register. not sure how new people sign up. havent heard anything about invites or vetting.

ok leaving in 12 minutes. i will take a valium before leaving. i have historically been bad about standing up for muh self, like, do me a favor and just dont drink. dont make me blow into the car. dont get so drunk you are mumbling incoherently. i only ask those three things. but that is my line and i will not be happy if you cross that line. boundaries. hehehe. and when you cross that line, i get unhappy, and that is why i am not springing to hang out with you all the time. because i am disgusted by your extreme drinking problem.

USE YOUR WORDS hahahahaha.

however it is true i am a prickly pear and i am TERRIBLE about maintaining contact with people. that is a FACT.

but when people contact me, i usually respond to them and hang out with them even.

would i let him drink if he had an MJ card and agreed to use it to buy me MJ? PROBABLY YES hahahahaha. i really dont think he does, in fact that whole hypothetical is ridiculous.

 

 

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mar 29

ok survived the day hahaha now i am reaching my crash time of 330 pm hehehe when REALLY  should be working till 5 pm if i start at 8 am. anything less is PATHETIC.

heh well you know whats MORE pathetic, is being a jobless NEET hahaha.

whats REALLY sad is 50 year old hwyte men who are jobless neets and so they sit in the library for 8 hours a day Applying For Jobs. honestly guys. it only takes 550 applications and 320 hours to Get A Job. in other words, you should stop seeing these men after 2 months because then they will have found a job. but they DONT. this is, i fear, because the jobs just arent there, also, 50 year old hwyte men are being DISCRIMINATED against hahaha

i was trying to find some leftist thing i saw today on the shitty leftist site medium.com written by a white marxist on why no, the white working class isn’t really dying off, and if it WERE, that wouldnt be so bad, would it? but i couldnt find it, and found a bunch of other shitty leftist articles instead and “threw up a little in my mouth”.

there is this popular leftist hipster brooklyn podcast called “chapo trap house” which i guess is what all the super cool leftist kids listen to now . i guess you could listen to it if you want to Know Your Enemy. well, you don’t. you already know they are pvssy wimpy unmasculine joos. wimpy white writers who say UGH. WHITE PEOPLE. and then cant bang slutty brooklyn white writer women because they are getting used as cvm dumpsters by masculine alt right chad nationalists hahahaha. that or negros hahaha.

there was an interview with one shitlib 28 year old harvard sociology phd student who does a shitlib magazine called “Current Affairs”, and he said, the thing the alt right does better than us is that they make themselves look COOL to weird outsider kids.

he’s not wrong!

hey i say thank GOD. back when I was young, the right was losing this battle, and leftist shit joos still looked COOL to rebellious teens. now the pendulum has swung the other way. im happy about that…..but nervous about when the pendulum is just gonna swing BACK again. we wont be on top forever, lads. trvmp will sell out and or only be one term. 4 short years. we’d better have a REAL movement established by then because our fooking RACE is DYING. we dont have any more time to lose.

everything you read that was written by a woman is crazy shit. don’t read stuff written by women because THE GOOD WOMEN DONT WRITE. I wish they did! they need to make themselves HEARD just to say not all women writers are like that! not all women are like women writers!

these degenerate leftist jooed journalist wimmin writing with filthy language about all the cox theyve taken and how evil trvmp is and how abortion is so great and diversity is so great and whites are so lame and virgin men are so bad. not all women are like this!!!!!!!

but the good ones don’t write articles that get hugely upvoted and shared!

you gotta really dig to find the article by a low-number woman who enjoys her traditional life!

i mean if youre reading VICE or MEDIUM  what the fook do you THINK youre gonna find.  and there are not really lots of women on the Alt Right. not that i WANT there to be. we are still figuring out womens role hahaha. well not really. stay in back and support us. give us children. dont start drama.

but maybe you can write articles, non dramatic articles, about the joys of a traditional life. that would be some good moral support and just let us know there are good women out there.

ok heres what im thinking. these WOMEN are such good voices for the marxist joo, with this horrible marxist jooish writing they do. its clear they are true believers in this crap. no one can speak marxist jooish bullshit better than a woman. they might arguably be better than MEN at it!

so do you think a women could be equally good at writing for Our Side?

I tried to think of a good female 1433 writer and couldnt. maybe savitri devi. i dunno.  i mean who is the female GLR? or the female andrew anglin for that matter? i mean i dont think we NEED one though. that isnt womens JOB. thats MENS job. i’m just basically asking women to write some moral support articles and say keep up the good fight lads, we’ll stand by you, even the betas and omegas who dont have a woman to literally stand by you.

im not even interested in other women. i’m semi interested in BANGING young beautiful women, but I’m more interested in just FORGETTING about THAT woman. because i still want HER. want her more than other women, i and i dont want that. i would love to want another woman like that. please GOD hahahaha. and just replace that woman always and forever. stop wanting her. just forget about her.

rational response: when some beautiful young gurl is being NICE to you and showing INTEREST in you, it will be REALLY EASY to FORGET about THAT woman and to get feelings for a new woman.

and yeah about the women writers, there should be a few more women writers writing moral support articles to support the men who are out there fighting. show some god damn gratitude, especially to the men who won’t get actual gratitude from an actual woman. these are still hwyte men too, and we need THEM just as much as we need women.

i guess i just want women to show more respect to Beetas and Omegas. they way they treat you like the scum of the earth, its like a healthy man treats a dirty whore. and being a Beeta simply isnt anywhere NEAR as morally deplorable as being a flthy whore. its not even necessarily inherently immoral to be a beeta male! but these women sure treat you like it sure IS!

but yeah hwyte men need to rise up and be strong and lead again. and then they will stop being beetas and women WILL show them gratitude and loyalty. but we have to SHOW STRENGTH first. strong horse. nobody likes a weak horse.

and i have certainly failed COMPLETELY at being a STRONG man. and yeah that is frustrating.

so yeah i would say maybe some YOUNG leftists and joos cant be held liable for literally wanting to genocide the white race. because most leftists are NAIVE and dont think its about hwyte genocide, its about making a Equal World where we can all live in Social Justice. We’re not trying to EXTERMINATE HWYTE people! you sound like a crazy person when you say that!

in fact maybe just a MINORITY of jooish leftists are NOT naive and ACTUALLY realize its about hwyte genocide.

so you dont charge them with genocide or first degree mvrder, you charge them with manslaughter and sentence them to getting the fook out of our country.

didnt mean to K hwytes? oh well, youre still K’ing whytes and now you must do the time.

and here i am, i dont even want women hahahaha, i just want one particular woman i havent seen or spoken to in almost 2 years hahahah. get over it!

actually even more i wish i had a work ethic like most normies. to work 20 hours a day for years just for a CHANCE at a 30k a year job.

hint: get a engin degree and you will have an easy time getting a 30k job. electrical, mechanical, chemical. you even get a CHOICE hahaha.

and you can totally do it by age 20 or maybe even 19. this is what we need to sell to young white boys. like, younger than 14. because we want them to start COLLEGE at age 14. have the engin degree at age 18. start making 40 grand at 18. be making 80 grand by 30. damn. establish 49 employee companies and hire only whyte men. by acreage in rural areas. have the wives do a hwyte homeschool network.

shit could do homeschool college as well. shits all online anyway.

but i do think a 16 year old boy taking brick and mortal college classes with 19 year old sluts is perfect.

well, perfect is getting married to your High School Age Sweetheart. the next best thing is being a “fun project” for a 19 or 20 year old slut when you are 16.

but where you gonna meet them in engin classes, also if gurls arent going to college and becoming sluts in the first place.

easy, you meet them through their fathers when they see you as a promising young man making good money at age 18 who is looking for a nice 17 year old gurl.

i am very interested in education, but i just want to throw the whole jooed system out and start over. is there a masters degree in THAT? are there jobs in THAT? in destroying the system and starting anew? hahahaha.

well DISRUPTION is a big thing in companies now hahahahaha.

DISRUPT THE JOO.

START UP THE ROTORS.

FIRE UP THE OVENS.

you will know them by their handiwork.

funny that we goys see only their wreckage but never them themselves. so you come to hate women and hate negros and hate nonwhites when really none of them deserve your hate. father forgive them for they know not what they do hahahaha.

well, def the women dont. and the negros. pretty sure the arabs know what they are doing.

so youre saying an arab is smarter than a white woman?

NO, i’m saying that all women are easily cowed and swayed. they are natural followers.

unfort i am a natural follower as well, never was big on leading.

really i dont want to go through the STRUGGLE of MEETING somebody, getting to KNOW someone, putting in the two years to actually get to know and trust them, it takes a long time, and i already had that FAMILIARITY and TRUST and KNOWLEDGE with That Woman.

but heres the thing. me Getting To Know her didnt feel like a goddamn STRUGGLE. it happened so NATURALLY. there was no effort or heavy lifting or forcing.

and that probably contributed to me falling in luv, feeling like this was a SIGN from GOD, that she was the ONE, because i expected so much STRUGGLING getting to know a woman, as I do now, and that didnt happen at ALL. the struggling came later, in trying to deal with The End. basically just trying to confirm that i was not a horrible traitor who had done a horribly immoral thing. i had to do all those mental gymnastics myself hahahaha.

hey i admit it i was no innocent. i deserve to be ashamed for some of it, and god damn was i ever. i was a coward weakling. it LOOKED bad. and the timing was bad. i KNEW she was having some family issues and was pretty stressed about that. in the long run that is what i will feel worst about. but i will get over it hahahaha. the fact that i “waited” until she was facing something outside of her control in her family, to “spring” this on her, when she was already super stressed out about that.

but again i dont think this is betrayal or treason or warranted treating me as such.

and it was no single joo who turned her father into a muh dick hwyte negro deadbeat, but through the partially-covert actions of many joos and many accomplice goys who didnt fully realize the type of degen fatherless muh dick culture they were creating.

does anyone GO INTO education with the idea that, welp, i can’t DO, so I might as well TEACH? I think most teachers would violent protest that old Pejorative saying “if you can’t do, teach.” but i would GO INTO teaching with that defeatist attitude hahaha.

also theres a popular idea that you need ot fail to succeed. well not if you fail so god damn much that you stop wanting to TRY, or your attempts become so half-baked and half-assed that they couldn’t possibly succeed.

also i wish you could fail in the workplace more. but you cant, or then you get fired for losing the company money. thats why people are perfectionists who are afraid of failure!

maybe my dream job would be working in a Dual Enrollment program at a comm college. so i could get 14 year olds into college and not a thoroghly jooed one. def would need a masters degree for this job though. and there are damn sure not a LOT of jobs in this field hahaha.  there would be FIERCE competition amongst a group of people with masters degree in Dual Enrollment College Administration.

ideally it would be in a more rural area so as to maximize the number of Hwytes i would serve and minimize the number of nonhwytes. i dont want to HURT any nonhwytes, I just want to HELP hwytes MORE. serve and strengthen my race.

i wouldnt have to worry about any J’s because they simply dont go to these working class colleges. period.

would i h8 joos less if i knew any working class joos? if I thought there WERE any working class joos? but there ARE! though def not the norm for them. those people hahahahaha.

no more than 25% of joos are working class. and that is a VERY generous number hahahaha. prob closer to 5%. source needed hahaaha.

insanely cute and nice 18 year old hwyte girl working at local arbys hahaha. seems like a literally nice sweet uncorrupted unjooed gurl. also is 100% undeniably hwyte. nothing questionable at all in this one. if i were hanging out wiht her and she was being NICE to me AND showing that she would be interested in Monog Dating…..i would forget That Woman ever existed!!!!!

but honestly this gulr is way out of my league. when i was 20 i might have judged her for working at ARBYS hahaha. now i dont care.  i say good for her. as long as she doesnt use it as a slippery slope to degeneracy or opioid epidemic or mudsharking. if she has a good father all will be fine.

because of her nice and innocent demeanor i would assume she does has a good father. but i shouldnt do that. because That Woman had a nice and innocent demeanor, not even demeanor, she was actually nice and innocent but she had a horrible father!

anyway, i prefer nice, innocent women to bitchy, slutty women hahahaha. what a concept.

but yeah. i do hate the idea that SHE WAS TOUGHER THAN ME. she, who i held in such high regard, outcompeting me on TOUGHNESS, a quality i hold in the highest regard.

yeah but if she was REALLY actually tougher than me, she would have just told me, sorry, we’re done, you’re not a BAD GUY and i dont hate you, but I just dont feel that way, the end. we had a good run while it lasted. then i prob would have had months less of pain hahaha. had a better experience. wouldnt be so butthurt about her being TOUGHER than me.

language is powerful hahaha. lets stop calling it the jooish QUESTION and start calling it the jooish PROBLEM. daily stormer does this hahaha. so did GLR.

by page 80 in “whyte power” GLR names the J and he doesnt stop naming them after that point hahaha.

its FUNNY how the pro legalization MJ degenerates which i probably am, seem to think that MJ does not affect your driving AT ALL. they completely dismiss that out of hand the way people dismiss nazis. this is disingenuous, bad faith, and jooish af. how can you say alcohol impairs your driving but gettig blazed af doesn’t??????!!!!!!

i just want to get blazed as fook! i’ll even try not to drive hahahaha.

yeah i dont think it damages your driving ability as much as alcohol. but to say it has no effect is ridiculous. you might as well do away with dui laws hahahaha. which i might not be against hahahaha. but without dui laws i might start drinking again after like 8 years. i actually probably would.

so that proves these laws are GOOD?

i mean its terrible drunk drivers K people.

so HOW terrible is it when people have 3 drinks and then drive?

yeah but i wasnt having 3 drinks and driving. what i was doing WAS terrible, law or not.

but it is stupid you can pass out drunk in the drivers SEAT of the car and get a DUI. i actually did that once hahahaha. slept it off in the front seat. didnt have the keys in. is that a critical thing?

anyway i fully admit to drinking too much. having a medium Drinking Problem. I did it and i am not proud of it!

mar 30

found this chrome extension called onetab which sends all your tabs to one single tab which contains a list of links. the idea is so they are not running and eating up your memory with 31 tabs of jooish pron hahahaha.

really simple concept. basically have a list of your most frequently used links and then click on them to load the page rather than have them open all the time. but i like anything that can Reduce Muh Memory Footprint hahaha. OneTab. you can easily add and remove links. not add duplicate links. its basically like history or bookmarks but your top 20 pages.

and then just open like 3 or 4 tabs at a time rather than 14 hahahaha.

its EMBARASSING  I havent used this or a similar app before (there are several to choose from, i only picked onetab because it had a lot of ratings) but the chrome extention “store” is hard to browse like a power user. cant get a good buy in very well. it doesnt share out very well hahahahahaha.  cant really deep dive into there and share it out. hard to get a good buy in.

https://www.one-tab.com

try it out nd make your comp 95 times faster hahaha

i would dnate a dollar to them if they were hwyte, but they dont even beg for dnations! so they MUST be hwyte hahaha.

if you do something useful, valuable, or important, you SHOULD get paid joobux for it.

everybody likes johnny cash but we could all stand to be more familiar with the song that gave him his name:

listen to something other than ring of fire, boy named sue or hurt hahaha.

when i was a young man i played the song at a party, hope it didnt sound too shitty because i was drunk af. it certainly didnt help me get any action hahaha. but its weird. its a very SOCIAL JUSTICE, MARXIST sort of message, but I still think its a good, meaningful, sincere song. i felt it spoke to me, and also explained my own penchant for the Gloomy which i had somewhat a reputation for, hahahaha, and often wore Black, prob still do.

and i do generally agree with the social justice message of the song, that some people just get a raw deal, get shat on, and dont deserve it, and we should have sympathy for them and try to help those less fortunate.

wish i had played the song well enough to get some makeout action though hahahaha. i probably could have, but i had oneitis on some dame who wasnt the least interested hahaha. she was an ok person but i should have just avoided her. that was impossible though, i saw her EVERY DAY without even TRYING and she hung out with my friends. SAVAGE.wav.

i should have immediately gone to the shrink, changed muh major to engin, stopped drinking cold turkey, saw the shrink 2 times a week, got a nice suit, and gone to the career center every day trying to get a 28k entry level engin job. but noooooooooo.

my weekend has begun hahaha. some MJ would be ideal. instead i ate a big dinner, too many calories, and had 1 benedryl, and now 1 valium, plan on 1 more valium, and 1 more ebendryl. try not to drink too much coffee to NULLIFY it.

damn this onetab is GREAT. why didnt i do this YEARS ago. if there are 2 things i am obsessed with……..hahahaha its joos and women hahahaha. i mean tabbed browsing and Memory Usage.

i thought of doing a black metal album with great songs and great lyrics that were pretty much very fashy, alt right, VVN, 14ee, not degenerate, not morally subversive but morally upright, and very JQ  JP aware, but i would not name the j00 until the very last word of the lyrics for the album, but make sly references throughout. but wouldnt be able to be accused of being anti-semitic until that last line of lyrics was brought up because it actually use the word Joo for the first and last time to unambiguously name what i was talking about.

but i cant write good lyrics and I sure as hell cant write good music!

well thats false. i’ve written both before! just not a lot. esp in comparison with the bad and shitty and worse than mediocre!

just an idea, had no intention of actually doing it myself haha.

heh took bendryl #2 a little early. just gonna skip valium #2 and replaced it with a Benedryl. will take Benedryl #3 right before bed.

this is better than drinking. it is technically better than MJ too…..but i dont really believe that because i desperately yearn for MJ.

old GLR sneakily avoided naming the J for the first 80 pages…..i think i just said this yesterday. anyway point is, he is going fullblast on them now, thats for sure. nicely describes them as parasites and tapeworms.

heh. those son of a btiches kicked me off the TRS discord because i didnt go through the formal extreme vetting process there hahahahahaha. not that i ever used it! but discord is a potentially good chat/meeting/voice system.  might be a good way for me to Actually Socialize with people. i guess i already do that at my job, by getting better at being friendly and talking to the people there.

i guess like once a month i feel like being social hahahaha and not a total loner weirdo. the rest of the time i just want to be alone doing MJ. it was different with that woman. i liked spending time with her. it gave some hard competition to being a loner haha. made me want to reconsider that path hahaha. now i am just mainly content being a loner again. not even terribly LONELY. when i was 20, 21, etc, back then i got a lot more LONELY at the thought of being/becoming a loner. now it doesnt bother me nearly as much.

but i still might like to be somewhat less of a loner. hang out with friends a LITTLE more, and DEFINITELY have a special waifu woman. i think its much better to have a special person like that, than to not. yuge value add there.  makes life without seem very bland and boring and disappointing by comparison.

14BB hehehehe 14ee which one looks better

i might have to go back and relisten to david dukes my awakening. i listened to a lot of the audio book a few years ago and really enjoyed it. would totally recommend it. learned a lot. first learned about the evil degenerate talmud hehehe.

you can probably find a pdf or txt file on the internet hehe but its really much better just to read an actual paper book.

so whats worse? MJ prohibition, or MJ being legalized in a way where there are really really really jooish laws and taxes and regulations where people are still strongly attracted by the Black Market because the Legal Market is such a Shitty Deal? or you can go to jail for using too much hahahaha.

i mean im still wondering about the DRINKING laws. i mean yeah SHOULDNT there be laws against drunk driving, and public drunkenness, Open Intox, Open Container laws, disorderly conduct, etc.

so shouldnt legal MJ similar have a bunch of stupid strict laws? or is it better to have it be Criminalized? i dont see how i could POSSIBLY be BETTER. and its much more likely to be legalized if you can give govt and jooz a way to PROFIT off it.

i mean it doesnt take a super crafty joo to see that a lot of MONEY can be made here. follow the money. so why dont they do it? because it takes THAT long for govt and legislation to MOVE?

but the SCOTUS made gay marriage legal OVERNIGHT. couldnt they make MJ legal overnight? not that they SHOULD, but COULDNT they, and if jooz run everything, why dont they want MJ to be legal? what is the thinking here. so this proves joos dont run the US. because MJ isnt legal NOW. hahahaha.

yeah but they make money off it being illegal too.  i guess the jooish business analysts ahve crunched the numbers and determined they make more money off it being illegal than it being legal. and all the degen potheads say look at colorado making a whopping 5 million dollars a year for EDUCATION oooo this is doing SO MUCH GOOD.

of course as a born again fascist, im not so sure legalizing drugs or even just MJ is a good idea after all!

and i fully admit its for my own selfish degeneracy. it would certainly be bad for society as a whole.

besides, how many HWYTE people are going to PRISON for MJ? not a lot.  i bet even fewer blacks are going to prison for MJ. LEO probably want to bust dealers of harder drugs and just dont care about softer drugs so much.

so who do the crooked cops sell the seized drugs to? back to the mexican cartels? probably hahahaha.

how much of seized drugs are illegally sold by crooked cops? 50% of the drugs? i cant believe cops are THAT crooked hhaha. i mean i thought the drugs were SUPPOSED to be DESTROYED.

i just cant go to my local police dept and be like ay bros want to sell me some drugs?

i would be MUCH better off going to random shady negros in the shady negro area of town.

i mean i would pay a shady arab doctor extra money to give me a Non Extremely Vetted recommendation for an MMJ card. you pay extra money so they can be extra shady and say here you go, here’s a MMJ card for your insomnia and anxiety hahahahaha and i will just check chronic pain on the state application. i mean i would pay much higher than the going rate for that extra shadiness. like dirty sluts willing to suck off the doctor for more opioid pills. i wouldnt suck anybody off ever though hahaha.

mar 31

have been overeating a lot without even trying lately. so, prob will gain a few pounds. not a huge deal, but obv want to keep eye on it. friday in lent is perfect time to try a Fast hahahaha. cut cals. drinking warm coffee with butter. this is acceptable hehehe.

you could just use a folder of bookmarks in chrome to do the same thing as this onetab extension.

trying something a little diff with muh day off. instead of shooting right off to errands, i am immed doing laundry right now. will do the errands when they are either drying or out of the dryer. almost abotu to put in dryer nao.

10:55 of sleep last nite compared to the usual 7 hahaha. this is how i bring the average up to 8:30 hehehehe.

ok put stuff into dryer. havent left yet obv. just sitting here drinking butter hahaha that i wish had MJ in it!

nobody ever told me that every conversation, every PART of a conversation, every INTERACTION, every word you say, is a COMPETITION or a STRUGGLE, where if YOU don’t say something INTERESTING, or FUNNY, or VALUABLE, or USEFUL to them, or PLEASING to them, then they think you are an IDIOT or an ASSHOLE or a WEAKLING or a JOO.  or a terrible person. a child molester or a traitor or a betrayer.

my least fav are being thought of as an IDIOT, or INCOMPETENT, or a Bad Person. A Morally Weak Coward or Liar or Joo. or an Inferior MAN –  an omega male. a Bootlicker who could only pull an Inferior Woman – if any woman at all.

it doesnt matter what other people think of you……but yes it does when you are trying to impress employers, colleagues, bosses, clients, women, friends! of COURSE you care about how they perceive you!!!!!! perception is reality hahahaha.

left another encouraging comment on a new george feels video just now. good for me hahahaha but also good for HIM. he is pushing in a  good direction and i want to encourage that and see more of it.

also i think he might be sympathetic to 14BB but not want to come out and say it. which is understandable. so i want to signal to him that yep this is a good way to be bro but im not such a loose cannon that i would ever blow your cover. like come on your channel saying HH, 1433, defoo the joo etc. cuz he puts his real face out there for the whole world to see. this is pretty much totally incompatible with espousing pro-hwite views.

ok finished laundry, out of dryer. even put clothes away. so, absoutely time to go do the errands. 1240pm.

i got to thinking, all of “mental illness” is inherently jooish. and jooish are inherently mentally ill!!!!!! mental illness is the Mental Joo, basically a mindvirus mindparasite burrowing into your mind and destroying it from within. whether its derpression or anxiety, or something more serious hehehe. so yeah im not saying its not real. it’s real as fook just as these destructive parasites are real!

my bold claim is to view your own “mental illness” as a little parasite JOO that is very literally trying to personally destroy YOU and your mind and your life, and its up to you and your trusted ones to grip it and rip it out forcefully and finally!!!!!

you dont want a little hand rubbing merchant in your mind, do you!!!!?????!!?????

George’s video on JUNG is very timely, seems like a SIgn from PROVIDENCE to me!

did some quick googling on this essay only to find its very controversial hahahahaha. ie joos used it to say jung was a nazi and supported AH. shit i hope he DID! all the more reason for me to read and luv JUNG!

and all the more reason to read the essay and all the more reason to be glad that george is looking at it. probably him dogwhistling again, and i fully appreciate it, and again, im not gonna blow his cover. but the neet virgin liberatardians arent calling him a natzee yet and i dont want to clue them in. but george doesnt need these people on his side anyway. but he doesnt need people calling him a natzee right now, or ever, so i’m not gonna help them do it. as i say, his Real Life Face is Doxed, so he doesn’t need anything BAD tied to that.  so i want to be real careful with what i say to him publicly. i mean i can email him for private talks. not that i would do that more than once every 2 months hahahaha.

tired of honey nut cheerios, switching over to peanut butter crunch hahahaha. yes i know cereal is terrible. well its not as bad as pizza or ice cream or cookies or pie hehe.

http://www.philosopher.eu/others-writings/essay-on-wotan-w-nietzsche-c-g-jung/

theres the actual jung essay full text, and not a damn dissertation on why it is a nazi thing. looks like kerry bolton wrote a good thing on counter currents. which, of course, are nazis hahahahahahahahahaha. no im kidding. dr greg is a good guy and he wrote me a nice thank you note for my insultingly small donation to CC.

anyway that full essay, not sure about that translation, and DEF the formatting is fooked, with words being joined together and such. proofread that shit!

i guess david lane started his wotanism based on that essay. Will Of The 4y4an People was what he said WOTAN stands for hahahaha. no complaints here. Lane was the creator of the 14W after all! great guy! should get HIS books!

https://archive.org/details/TheJewishStrategy

by Revilo P. Oliver. I should read this hehehehe

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/brad-pitt-losing-weight-and-his-mind-after-whore-wife-ruins-his-life/95662

i am now courageous enough to return to the bbs after i made a post about a week ago, then afraid to see if people had responded to me. i havent read the thread, but i think a few people upvoted me!

but yeah AA shares muh butthurt over women at the risk of being called MGTOWish. no we are not MGTOWs, but god damn are women SO jooed that is is DISGUSTING. you cant be blamed for hating them a little bit, even when you KNOW its the j’s who made them this way. you wish they could resist the J even just a LITTLE bit and not be completely horrible people hahahaha.

http://archive.is/PfIWU

archive of Andrew’s article hehehe

QUOTE

This narrative of “you aren’t good enough for women” being reinforced by men is absolute poison. Our race is only going to continue to exist if we fix gender relations, and so anyone who promotes this type of a narrative is a traitor to the race. Anyone who sides with feminism in any way is helping to destroy our race.
So please, don’t allow this to continue.

Do not be ashamed.

If somebody claims that someone else is having trouble with women because he’s not a good enough man, call him out for supporting the feminist agenda against white men.

Nevermind the Sluts – Talk to Your Brothers and Never, Ever, Ever Man-Shame

The other big, BIG issue: don’t feel like you have to pretend you’re not having any problems with women.

Everyone is having problems with women, but we have a cultural climate where it is like saying “I HAVE A TINY DICK” to talk about it.

In fact, many men will engage in the above mentioned “man-shaming” of other white males. This is absolutely disgusting, and it is inexcusable.

It only helps the sluts.   ” END

NEVER EVER EVER EVER MAN-SHAME.

AND NEVER EVER EVER EVER BE AFRAID TO SAVAGELY SLUT-SHAME.

THANK YOU ANDREW!!!!!

i wonder if his qt hwyte gf left him and now he is sad and angry.

well, he SHOULD be sad and angry, and that only makes what he writes here even MORE correct!!!!!

read this article 10 times every day and give him your money hahahaha.

women are just 16 year old gurls, of COURSE they are gonna dump you and BLAME YOU for it!

trying to red pill your woman is like trying to red pill your DOG (or cat.) don’t try to get the dog to understand. just be a strong leader and your dog will follow you in your fight against the J’s. don’t expect them to understand. THE TYRANNY OF HIGH EXPECTATIONS hahahahaha

so really by acting like a 14 year old gurl and blaming me, That Woman acted exactly like how you’d expect a woman to act. i was naive and didnt know how to handle it. oh well. at least now i think i learned a valuable lesson about women. always be dominant. never expect more responsibility or maturity or wisdom out of them than you’d expect out of a 14 year old gurl IT’S JUST THE WAY THEY ARE.

some men would say slapping a woman in the face is every effective, i dunno, i don’t think i would ever be comfortable with that. i do think SPANKING them would be VERY effective and I would LOVE the cahnce to test that hypothesis. i mean slapping them in the face just seems TOO savage, too nonwhite. hwyte men don’t NEED to slap their woman in the FACE.

shit, negros and semites will brutally PUNCH their women in the face and bludgeon their skulls with blunt objects!

i absolutely showed no dominance whatsoever. i mean i was at a low point hahaha.

it just also really bothers me that i have to COMPETE with these 14 year old gurls for JOBS, and they get masters degree and outperform me in the workplace, sometimes doing honestly tough jobs, and being TOUGHER than me. 14 year old gurls arent TOUGH and dont WORK very hard!!!!!

anyway. i just esp like it when AA writes about women. his haters say he is a woman hater. i say he’s prob just been hurt by too many jooified, degenerate women, just like many of us. i might SPECULATE that he has had a recent drama with a woman that has left him extra hurt! which is FINE! it happens to us all, and these struggles and heartbreak build TREMENDOUS character in a man!

come on. do you know how many WOMEN are MAN haters? most of them!

but yeah i especially like when AA says never ever ever shame any man for being beta or whatever.

ol uncle varg borders on doing this. well you’re just not MAN enough to DESERVE a woman.

i will always luv uncle varg, but I am closer to AA’s POV here. like god damn, these women really ARE garbage, and we have to stand in solidarity with our white Brothers. BROES BEFORE HOES!!!!!!!!

oh youre just mad about not Getting Any.

Well, YES! a little bit. part of that is my fault sure, but a big part is WOMEN being huge sluts! or Slags, as the brits call them.

slores, sluts, slags, skanks.

i will white-knight on occasion. i just dont want to do it too much. and i never want to manshame unless the man is really actually doing something jooish or negrish or sinful or bad or bad faith and not just being a white knight niceguy lickspittle woman-loving beta. dont SHAME him for being INNOCENT.

i bet he did just get dumped hahaha. well i would be there for AA if he needed a manfrand hahahaha. i am concerned that he doesnt do enough real life socializing.  i thought he was back in the US. he could totally find decent men to hang out with, he just has to get out there. like there are TRS and DS goys even in my area and if I tried, I could probably meet up with them. but i would worry about being rejected for being a loser. or that the person would be a tattooed felon type.

so….youre makign fun of me for being an idiot for betting when i had the nut flush? why is it dumb to bet when you have the nuts and are guaranteed to win???? are you supposed to call and hope the other guy bets? how the fook was it dumb of me to bet????? youre SURPRISED that I “ACTUALLY” Bet with the nuts? am I not understanding something here?

is it stupid to bet on QUADS too? am i supposed to slowplay these all the time? heh i have been playing poker very recreationally for like 5 years and it looks like i havent learned a god damn thing about actual strategy. feels bad man.

maybe the guy was just bantzing me. everyone likes to shoot their mouth off about how they are the smartest poker expert ever.

i am playing at a higher stakes table than i like because nobody is in the lower stakes one.

i mean i dont get nut flush very often. about as often as full house or quads ahhahahahahaa. but i do get quads more often than i thought i ever would.

anyway i hope anglin is hanging out wth people rather than just sitting alone doing daily stormer stuff. a person needs to be a little social and have some friends to do real life stuff with. says ME hahahaha. if he had a GF and she was his only real life person and she dumped him, that could be extra devastating. just speculating.

you could say its stupid to get into the cult of personality but i think it’s actually natural and healthy. you read anglin’s stuff for years, you start to feel more attached to him, like you sort of KNOW him, and that they are KIND of your buddy in that you sympathize with them, want the best for them, sometimes donate money to them, and wouldnt’ mind hanging out with them sometime. doesn’t mean you stalk them. but you do kinda wonder about their life story. their family and friends and them growing up. and enough of anglins story is out there to put together something of a picture.

he says he gets along with with his parents, so that is good.

he is very tight lipped about where he is living now, and i cant blame him, because jooz have been protesting outside his father’s office lately. jooz have called and confronted both his mother and his father. disgraceful.

i know he’s not REALLY my buddy, but i have the greatest respect for him and want the best for him. and that includes being happy in his social life and luv life. i dont want him to be a friendless foreveralone! I guess you could say I CARE about him!

but yeah i dont have any sick fantasies or delusions that he is my buddy or anything.

i just think that when a person puts themself out there like that, they can’t blame other people for getting a little bit attached to them. like mike enoch saying you dont know me, you’re not my buddy, i’m just a guy with a microphone, i’m not a leader. when you start to get FANS and people listening to your content regularly, then yeah to me thats a kind of social contract. you are SOMEWHAT responsible to your fans. i mean, you WANTED people to LISTEN to you, right? you cant just shit on your audience.

not that mike REALLY did that. well, he sorta said some of those things haha.

shit im not even sure what anglin’s position is on all this. maybe he would try to WEASEL about being “held to a higher standard just because i am the creator of daily stormer.”

heh. just saying if I were the creator of the daily stormer, i’d kinda EXPECT to be held to a higher standard than some autist troll in the comments!!!

 

 

 

THE PERFIDIOUS MVRDERERS OF CHR1ST

feb 4

not super productive today, just listening to winterfylleth and drinking bulletproof coffee hehehe. but i did kinda sort figure out how to GPG/PGP encrypt and decrypt messages, so that is good.  you basically need a gpg program like gpg win to do all the work.

i was confused because i was like, well, if people share their public key, cant you just take the encrypted message and decrypt it? with the public key? this was a major misunderstanding on my part. PUBLIC KEYS CANNOT DECRYPT SHIT. they can ENcrypt your message TO that public key. but theoretically the owner of the public key has to input his secret password to then decrypt the message. now i guess if the feds got THAT password, yeah youre fooked.

i just hope the shit isnt stored in The Cloud somewhere. but what if your computer dies, and you get a new computer, and want to prove that you own this public key. because each public key is paired with a private key that i think resides on your computer, and you need the password to get at. so im saying, what if your computer dies? where is that private key stored?

https://gpgtools.tenderapp.com/kb/gpg-keychain-faq/backup-or-transfer-your-keys

other people have thought of this situation and you can backup your keys like so. well this is for the mac program.

well me thinking of this situation means i am not a total idiot, and that i grasp the concept ok. because it seems that storing the private shit out In The Cloud would be a yuge security weakness. i mean YOU need to have ultimate control over YOUR key- not google, not gmail, not yahoo, not microsoft. otherwise we would just trust google to encrypt our emails. then the feds could just subpeona google and be like decrypt these. same as if they subpeonaed them and said give us ufmll’s emails hahahaha.

big technical knowledge. this is why i make the big bucks of 13 grand a year hahahaha.

great new podcast. yeah i linked their 2nd episode too hahaha. its all good.

on this episode azzmador and ken have on matthew heimbach and emily youcis. great guests! terrific!

https://www.marijuana-anonymous.org/

hehe i need to go to meetings. even though i havent done MJ in 5 months.

https://www.marijuana-anonymous.org/forum/viewtopic.php?f=7&t=1456

they have a forum thankfully….but it is not super active

https://www.marijuana-anonymous.org/forum/viewtopic.php?f=6&t=1244

Touching Story of a man who is counting the days “sober” and is really struggling. hope he doesnt fall off the wagon. he hasnt quite described what made him actually WANT to quit. me, i wouldnt want to quit. shit. i havent used in 5 months and i still think about using it every day!!!!! i just cant GET any, which is not this guys problem, as where he lives, there are retail stores where you can just walk in and buy MJ. probably WA or CO. is it like this in oregon? as of october 2016, yes hehehe

but nice and heartwarming to see this supportive community who genuinely want to help each other out.

super bowl. more like j00per bowl. gayper bowl. the ultimate in prolefeed and goyfeed manufactured by the scheming schlomo. no thanks schlomo. get the fook out.

yesterday took a valium and 2 benedryl. i expected to fall asleep into a 12-14 hour coma but had a pretty normal 8-9 hour sleep. and i am the type of person who NEEDS 9 hours of sleep every night. but sometimes i like the idea of sleeping for 12 to 14 hours. recreational sleep hahahaha. and when i get the time to do it and cant do its kinda annoying hahahaha. like wanting MJ but not being able to get it.

but i just remembered that i could try to claim “nausea” as my qualifying condition, if i didnt think i could fake “chronic pain” which is by far the most common reason for medical MJ. because its a bunch of hwyte working class people that break their bodies with construction jobs and have legit broken backs, so half of em get into opiates and half of em get medical MJ. cuz of their very physical JOBS which have RUINED their bodies permanently and given them permanent, chronic, severe PAIN.

i would rather do MJ than try to bang sluts.

was also semi tempted to looked at porn but i did not and im pretty sure i wont, i mean i dont want to throw a year down the toilet haha. i guess i just wanted to be Aroused and to find a women secsually attractive and to get as close as i could to having Recreational Secs. I always wanted to enjoy secs just like all the other people out there banging like rabbits, so i was kinda jelly of that. and porn was the closest substitute i had. look at this vulgar, disgusting jooish perversion of secs and jerk off to THAT. thats the closest youre going to get to secs.

bipolar sluts is a step up from that. shit full blown HOOKERS are a step up from that. even goddam STRIP CLUBS. and I HATE strip clubs. and i am thankful i came to view porn with the same UTTER REVULSION that i view strip clubs. because really, porn is WORSE. its pretty much the WORST THING EVER. it is total JOOISH CANCER.

but today i was thinking of excuses. like what if i were to look at young gurls in bathing suits. or amateur stuff. that’s not made by jooish pornographers, its home made by normie people!

this stuff is almost as bad, it shows how normies have gotten POISONED BY PORN, that they think porn is so fun, that they want to MAKE IT THEMSELVES. they enjoy consuming it so much, they want to MAKE it. it turns normie people into PORNOGRAPHERS. and we can all agree its even worse to be a producer than a mere consumer. being a consumer is bad enough.

anyway i dont want to look at okcupid for women to date/casual secs hehehehe. i will just end up comparing them to that woman. well maybe not. but i will eventually SEE that woman on okcupid because i can totally see myself looking at every woman on okcupid in a 50 mile radius, and i know she’s on there. well, she was like a year ago.

shit i dont even know if shes alive. maybe she became a heroin addict and died of an OD hahahahaha. no its not funny. she hated hard drugs but what if she was pushed to it?

how is using a vpn different than using TOR? which is “safer?”

http://security.stackexchange.com/questions/72679/differences-between-using-tor-browser-and-vpn

read and understand.

ok i still dont understand. explain like im 5 hahahaha. now i have to be the vpn vs tor SME and explain to a paying customer why our vpn company cant fix their broken vpn, thats not a bug thats a feature.

https://www.deepdotweb.com/jolly-rogers-security-guide-for-beginners/combining-tor-with-a-vpn/

https://thetinhat.com/tutorials/darknets/tor-vpn.html

some def easier to read explanations

oh its terrible how you can rationalize it to yourself. like, watching some Independent Camwhore doing Solo Dildoing is way less degenerate than watching some clearly joo produced filth like facial abuse or max hardcore. and you know, maybe it IS. but its still a god damn slippery slope.

oh heres a good one

2017-02-04-20_40_23-spearmint-0-01_0-02-no-limit-holdem-replay-14518362

bad beat for the AA guy hahahaha. havent had one of these in a while. hence the proud screenshot hahaha.

well is it ok to jerk off to pictures of like college girls on spring break in their bathing suits bending over or something.

again its less degen than porn per SE BUTTTTTTTTTTT

what about jerking off to purty gurls on facebook hahahahaha thats definitely not porn!!!! theyre real life people!

yeah well you shouldnt do that EITHER, you should go out there and talk to those gurls in real life and try to date them. jerking off to their pictures just makes a sad fantasy and makes you super weak and beta and terrible and weak. like when i was getting feels for that woman and spent too much time just looking at her pictures and being like awwwwwwww i wish she could be muh gf.

DONT DO IT. only do real life shit. i should have deleted facebook at THAT time.

feb 5

gayper jooper bowl today. 630 pm. want to be productive today. do some prep work for the week. have a task where im like i uhhh really dont know what im doing here. so i will make some flailing efforts at it and show i am really willing, if not quite ABLE, to work on it. 2 other small tasks that I am much more able to do. want to do all that today. its like being in School and you save all your homework for Sunday because you are too cool and h8 skool too much to do homework on friday or saturday like all the tryhard kids that want to go to grad skool hahahahaha. i would mock them then, but im jelly of them now hahahaha. they knew the deal.

watching gayper bowl just for the horrendous commercials. i am seeing a bunch of emo, sensitive pvssy, multicultural bullshit. stuff that appears to The New Upper Class rather than the White Working Class who youd think are more likely to enjoy Murkan Football. unmasculine, unamerican commercials. the MURKAN NATIONAL ANTHEM replaced by foreign language sing the words in their foreign language in a “TOGETHER IS BEAUTIFUL” coca cola commercial. this is not a new commerical, but its still HORRIBLE and downright disrespectful. kinda like the horrible national anthem performance by the Wimmin of “Hamilton.” i thought this was FOOTBALL. FOOTBALL used to be masculine, working class, and at least somewhat huhwhyte. I understand plenty of blacks enjoy football. fine. and that the majority of football players are black thugs. fine. i’m talking about as a whole. football used to be a whiter-seeming sport than, for example, basketball.

does the New Upper Class even WATCH football? they might watch the super bowl. for the commercials. I am reading the charles murray book “coming apart” and half the book is about the “new upper class” which is basically modern SWPL yuppies. professional SWPL shitlibs with graduate degrees from good schools who make 100k+ a year and drive volvos and shit. decent book and i respect charles murray, but a younger, better hwyte author needs to write the next book in this series. because yes race and esp hwyteness does matter, and also this culture of the New Upper Class is steadily trickling down to the Upper Middle Class and the Middle Class. people that didnt go to elite universities but still have masters degrees, make 80 grand a year, and like SWPL shitlib bullshit.  it’s not just the top 1%, or the top 5%, it’s probably the top 20 or 25%.  they might not be AS rich and powerful as the New Upper Class…..but they definitely emulate them and their SWPL values.

murray implies the New Upper Class covers the whole political spectrum. while also saying that it skews liberal. well, i think it does a hell of a lot more than just SKEW left, it’s 90% or more left. it heavily heavily skews left. also I think the right-leaning tiny minority will also show some slight cultural similarities with the hwyte working class.

anyway i like murray because he talks about race and iq and education and class and status and middle class and upper class and working class, and culture, and intellectuals, vs anti intellectual proles, and elite skools and careers vs nonelite skools and careers, and east coast vs flyover middle america. smart guy but he could stand to be a bit more controversial imho!

yes i also own “the bell curve” hehehehe.

my colleague requested a photo of muh self they could use on a company webpage and a short bio. i already had a bio ready to go of course, but no good photos. i do not even have a damn smart phone or digital camera. i had to set up muh laptop computer on a series of boxes so the webcam was at about head level and then do that with an online webcam app that produced a photo of not-great resolution. not a high-resolution photo like i wanted. phones can give you a higher resolution than this. also it took FOREVER to have a face that was somewhat normal. I decided to have a Friendly Smile because everyone else there has Friendly Smiles in their pictures. it took FOREVER to get the picture. it was very frustrating. it probably would have been easier with another person using a camera or phone to take a picture. its prob easier to have a normal smile for another person. i can do a small Thoughtful Smile well, but not a larger Friendly Outgoing Normie smile, and especially not an Open Mouthed Laughing Smile where you look really happy.

go to shrink tomorrow (after job), then day after that, go to family docker (after job.) really want to ask the docker about “getting a copy of muh medical records” pref in pdf or doc form. so i could have that handy if i ever sack up and go to the shady MMJ doctor to try to get them to sign a form. there’s nothing IN the records that would technically qualify me. it’s more to show a Bona Fide to the shady MMJ doctor, that yeah i have records and i’m willing to bring them in, and though they wont necessarly back this up, here’s how i think MMJ could help me hhahahahahaha.

 

WHAT GOOD DOES IT DO ME?

dec 3

https://www.youtube dot com/watch?v=C2hOJR0hIBY

this “woman” looks like a man, and should not be wearing something so unflattering, and looks part nonwhite, BUT she is appearing on redice, who are Legit Vetted Good Goys and worthy of support, talking about the evils and degeneracy of Jooish Pornography, so thats pretty cool. i just saw this, have not listened yet.

but with a great name like “PORNOGRAPHY: WEAPONIZED DEGENERACY” I got a DOUBLE BONER and downloaded it IMMEDIATELY for listening very soon on a powerwalk! they just should not have put “her” wearing that in the thumbnail. jeez she is so ugly in that picture it undermines all of our credibility hahahahaha. still anything about PORNOGRAPHY: WEAPONIZED DEGENERACY HAS to be a good talk, good lesson, good message.

 

really you should listen to the three hour mix three times a day hahahahahahaha

when we were young, once in a great while we would find a song that was so mind blowingly awesome that we made a “mix cd” of that one song on repeat for 74 minutes.  this one would definitely qualify! although I was not aware of it at that time unfort. Oh I knew about the movie but had no interest in it and had no knowledge of the music.

here is one of those songs hehehe. for some reason we gravitated to ridiculous 80s style “cock rock.”

i am shilling for red ice today. now i dont like how this guest woman dresses like a HOOKER with the eye makeup and earrings and showing the tits, but uh i will try to listen to this one as well. but yeah even though henrik and lana are All Right, sometimes they do have weirdass guests who are jooish or antiwhite hahahaha so just because somebody is ON red ice doesnt mean they are automatically good.

but yeah what red ice is doing, creating their own alt right, pro white media platform/network, is exactly what whites need to do. create a white, joo-free media. our own news, our own tv and radio, and of course podcasts are a great part of this, and its already happening, THANK GOD.

yeah i know red ice did weird alex jones conspiracy shit years ago, but i forgive them hahahaha.

henrik and lana just need to have 3+ children and hire some white men to do red ice.

i would become a sustaining member of red ice but their prices are too damn high hahahahaha.

65 euros a YEAR?  that is like 66 dollars a year. i would maybe do 20.

i mean they DESERVE it, i just cant/dont want to dnate that much!

i mean its more for ME than THEM, so i can FEEL GOOD about myself, and really i need all of THAT i can get!

there is this catholic church sorta near me that is geared towards polish people, and i hear that polish catholics are some of the most hardcore Based Catholics hahahaha. they are proud of their polish blood and dont have open arms for a bunch of screaming asians and mestizos and browns and arabs which you see in many cath churches. plus i have some polish blood and love poles. love them. would love a nice polish gurl for a qt 3.1488 waifu. poland is definitely a top tier european country.

problem is this place doesnt just have one polish mass a week, they have nothing BUT polish mass and EVERYTHING is in polish, church website, church bulletin/newsletter.

actually this is not a problem at all, this is a fookin BENEFIT. cuz it means they are traditional and old school as fook.

so i could just go there and be like

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and say dzien dobry, jak sie maz (????), sto lat, dzienkuje, boze dobry, boze dobrze rzarzarzarza, ja nie movi polakiu, and then they would say oh look hes trying, how nice, then they could hook me up with their 19 year old virgin daughter who could teach me polakiu hahahaha and i could put babies in her for 14k a year hahahahaha.

sheeeeeeit those women are TOO GOOD for me!

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this fookin guy makes a huge raise when he flops a pair of 8s. glad i agressively went all in instead of thinking he had AA and folding! or 88 or 66 or 22 hehehe.

no thats not 7 dollars and 45 cents, thats .00745 btc, which is…. 5 dollars and 71 cents. YIKES. well the price of BTC has gone up pretty steadily since i started playing this shit like 2 years ago.

so yeah if i had any BALLS like a REAL MAN i would have gone to this polish church 11 fookin years ago!!!!!!!

fooking reddit relships and their different secs BEST FRIENDS. you shouldnt have a BEST FRIEND who is the opposite sex!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and IM the weirdo and sexist and hateful racist violent trump supporter for thinking this!!!!!!!

or IM weird because i think open relationships are shitty and bad. im being too judgmental and intolerant of peoples valid choice.

well to be fair, reddit says that MOST people

dec 4

 

i am gradually warming up to emily youcis. normally i am very very very very suspicious of women in the movement, but she doesnt seem TOO bad. plus i immediately get more sympathy for the women once they LOSE something like their job or their freedumz. and so she was recently fired by k1ke company aramark (i applied for office clerk job there, no response hahaha) after working for 7 years selling pistachios at the baseball stadium. fired for “social media” reasons.

yeah i mean maybe this was part of her plan and she’s prob not gonna go homeless or sucking dick for a place to stay (not that most women dont already do that anyway hahahahahahahahahaha)

anyway. so i am always judging women for being hookers and sluts and wh0res and promiscuous and degenerate, but in the end, do those things really impact me directly? why do i hate sluts so much? that woman wasn’t a slut! she hurt me through ways that did not involve sluttiness AT ALL!

yeah well in the PAST ive def been hurt by women who were into the slutty casual sex mindframe. also i just find it very distasteful and immoral and degen and a sign of the cultural and spiritual degen which we must fix in our people. and yes it represents something i WANT but cant seem to get, which is given away so freely to Everyone Else but I am fundamentally broken and unable to obtain.

and also i am judgmental against the things that that woman DID do, like avoiding shit like a coward, i dont like that either hahaha.

ok well here’s a good point: at least i never really became a beta orbiter friendzone!!! or if i did, it ended pretty damn quickly!

it kind of proves that i basically will not LET MYSELF become a pathetic supplicating beta orbiter. i eventually have to rip the bandaid off and be like, here’s the obvious truth which i can’t believe you’re not seeing. I CANT GO ON THIS WAY hahahaha.

going to church on sunday today instead of saturday. going to church that is probably better than the one i usu go to. less cucky and marxist and antitrvmp and leftwing. less cucking for DIVERSITY and UNITY and VIBRANCY and all that shit. shit no wonder that church is full of weird asians and this other church seems to have more whites. shit why dont i just go to this other church regularly. or go to that damn polish church. IT DOESNT MATTER that i dont speak polish. i could learn and besides them speaking polish is a YUGGGGGGGGGGGE value add!!!!!!! its a GREAT thing!

yep starting new 13k job tomorrow. kind of a big deal. nervous. dont want to screw it up. dont want to look like a WEIRD IDIOT. just want to do a good job. not just a good job, but a GREAT job and really impress everyone.

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit i should have been getting BOOKS related to my NEW FIELD the instant i knew i was hired, and devouring those books to get a good frame of reference, big picture view, maybe some small picture view too, reading the books The Director reads for his PhD, which is of course related to his masters degree and what he does now, The Department, what books are most relevant to this job and this department, thought leaders, bla bla. i quickly bought a book right now so that i could say i at least placed my order for the book before i started the job hahahaha but why i didnt do this 2 weeks ago so i could have had the books and started reading them by now…….hmm maybe i am not serious about making 13k a year with no benefits, maybe WALMART would be a better fit with my career skills.

dumped because he couldnt read the gurls stupid mind. i GUESS shes ENTITLED to dump him for whatever stupid reason she wants, but when the reason is THAT stupid, just candy coat it and dont GIVE an exact reason. i mean thats just a BAD REASON. just say I’m not compatible with you. it’s not you its me. that would be better than saying some stupid ass shit like that.

hehe i made the mistake of initially assuming the “best friend” OP of the gurl was another gurl. hehehe. sounds like he is deeply in luv with her and is in complete denial. but not looking at that, she still should not be Ghosting her friends.

i mean this guy is cringey and beta orbiter AF, and theres a very important lesson to learn there, but she still shouldnt be Ghosting him like a coward, throwing away 3 years of friendship, and getting her new bf to laugh at him and call him pathetic (which he is.)

dont be like this pvssy phaggot. but at least he is getting a CS degree so he might be making 30k a year by age 22. that is a pretty good move.  i mean its still risky because i worked with CS grads doing the exact same phone bullshit as me.

bonus points for OP having mad anxiety and panic attacks that feel like heart attacks and he is so confused hhahaha.

better when you are 21 than 31!

then reddit shreds this kid for being a sexist, creepy niceguy, which he kind of IS, but this ISNT the way to deal with that. you have to show some sympathy for these poor sad bastards. theyre not the bad horrible people you think they are !!!!!!!!

he doesnt need to “RESPECT” her wishes because they’re not respectable. just use the word ACCEPT. ACCEPT her stupid, unrespectable wishes, and let her get fooked by chad. the end.

grieve and have legitimate suffering because your friend of 3 years didnt give a DAMN about you as a human being. i feel your pain man. that sucks. this is the sympathy he’s not getting ANY of and he should.

anyway. i wish you COULD be Just Friends with a woman before Dating and Fooking and Relshiping them, because unless I am Friends with a Woman, i really just dont LIKE them. the way they approach Relships is degenerate and infuriating. I just dont like it. rustles the shit out of me.

I wish you COULD get to know a woman as a friend, be like this is a really good person and i like them, maybe I can try a deeper rel with them, i think they would make a decent GF or wife. i wonder if she will be willing to try that.

NOPE. NEVER WILL. thats what the friendzone is hahahaha. if you dont fook her like a n1993r within 2 days of meeting her, you dont have a chance with making her your GF or wife.

i just hate how the J’s are dumbing us down and jooing us down and morally corrupting us all down into n1993rs.

If you don’t like the word n1993rs, just call em animals. they are turning us all into filthy, dumb, dirty, disgusting ANIMALS.

I AM NOT AN ANIMAL!!!! I AM A HUMAN BEING!!!!!

anyway yeah this reddit niceguy hate is just way out of line. niceguys arent THAT bad. have some damn SYMPATHY for them. save some of that judgment for the women, who in many cases are being huge bitches to the niceguys.

but yeah this guy needs to stay away from this gurl, and there needs to be more blame directed at HER.

when you are begging and bribing somebody to hang out with you. it IS pathetic tho! but its SAD. he doesnt even REALIZE hes in LUV with her. at least I REALIZED that. and i STOPPED contacting her eventually. let her run off and fook animals.

and yeah it would help that guy to go to a shrink, but good lord dont tell him you are SUPER FOOKED UP and must see a shrink NOW if you have any chance of not being a horrible person. they hate these nice guys almost as much as they hate TRVMP or WHITE PEOPLE.

i was thinking in an ideal world, i would just get a dr to prescribe me Medical MJ for Despair and Anxiety, just like getting an RX for Citalopram and Valium. Which I have already gotten RX’s for.

so in an ideal world, despair and anxiety would be legal medical Qualified Conditions for MMJ.  but they arent.

anyway i was thinking, go to semi shady MMJ doctor and be like listen, so i dont have cancer or back pain like most of the people, but i dont want to bullshit you and say i have CARPAL TUNNEL pain when i really dont, but here’s something I REALLY DO HAVE, and have taken RX’s for YEARS to PROVE it, i know they arent TECHNICALLY conditions, but…..hey i’ll buy ya dinner right now, you’re pretty hungry from writing recommendations all day arent ya goy? bubby?

the thing is, i could say that my TREATMENT for OTHER CONDITIONS causes SPASMS, and then i could get MMJ for that. yeah but it doesnt. but i think citalopram causes spasms for some people hahahahaha.

basically the TREATMENT for something Unqualifying, gives me a Backdoor into Qualifying.

but not really, because this treatment doesnt cause spasms or severe pain!

https://www.reddit.com/r/altright/comments/5e7rbu/emily_youcis_animator_of_alfred_alfer_ama/

meh i guess i will approve of emily, she seems to be sincere. hope her animation bcomes less degenerate and she seems to be aware that by joining the alt right and becoming pro white, you kinda HAVE to hold yourself to a higher moral standard and actively purge the degeneracy from your own life.

but she’s only been into this for less than 6 months! i have been into this for like 6 years!!!!!!!

heh i dont really care as long as she is sincere and doesnt stop being pro white. she talks about losing friends and such and purging people. this is good.  purge the dead weight and bad influences from your life. Traditional Morality will alienate you from degenerate animalistic losers. you dont want them to be your friends anyway.

fine i will HUHWHYTE KNIGHT for emily even though shes probably taken MILES AND MILES of dick, prob even nonwhite (no real proof.) but i am willing to forgive, if there is TRUE repentance.

well i dont really like these super big bewbs gurls plus she will probably start to get very potato looking when she gets older. but at age 26 right now she is pretty qt, would hang out with hahahahahahahaha.

i mean better late than never amirite. im no saint myself. you know what they say, all saints have a past and all sinners have a future!

i went to this other church this morning and it was 100000000000000 times better than the one i usually go to. not only was it less boring and faster, there were a lot more whites, some qt young white women as well! i mean i already KNEW this for at LEAST a YEAR!!!!!

like the priest at my regular church, nice guy, good guy, but a pathetic cuck shitlib who is soooo shocked at the hate and racism and intolerance of the whitelash, and desperately wants to overcompensate and Reach Out to Mudslims to show them Not All White Christians are hateful rednecks.

whereas at the other church, no mention of this stuff, just a bunch of happy white people, including many under-40’s.

all the whites at my usual church are well over 40 hehehehe. plenty of nonwhites.

shit. starting NEW JOB tomorrow. have been doing laundry. planning on bringing 1 dozen donuts tom morning. ask people about their families. ask about what are good books for me to read about this field. i am already reading bla bla by bla bla. here’s some donuts. do you guys drink coffee? i can bring in some folgers, i have some extra folgers at home. sorry its not top shelf, but i can bring in a little top shelf closer to xmas. heres some donuts in the meantime. how many kids u got. where are they going to college? tell me about your graduate program. what do you think about the 14 words hahahaha. so how about that election hahahahaha.

can i take a tough phone call right now? what are the toughest problems you get in here from your “customers”? whats the best way to bullshit them and give them the runaround and say it cant be fixed, it is what it is, you dont have to like it hahahahaha jk i know we go above and beyond for our clients wink wink nudge nudge amirite?

besides, everybody knows that when “it is what it is” just wont cut it, you have to bring out it is what it IS what it is what it is. then that fixes everything. that explains everything. that gets angry people to say OH NOW I GET IT, im so sorry for being such a huge bitch. now that i realise that it is what it IS what it is!!!!! see before, i was thinking it IS what it is.

mother fooking phaggot cvntz hahahaha.

i was thinking i dont DESERVE a woman Without A Past, because IIIIII have a past myself!!!!!!!!!!!

ok fine, but i DO insist the woman is TRULY REPENTANT of her degenerate past! says I am ashamed of my past, i never want to have another abortion, or fook another nonwhite, or have any more casual sex!!!!!! its disgusting and here’s why! I REGRET doing all that.

rather than someone that says oh that makes me who i am, i’m not ashamed, i have no regrets.

GOOD PEOPLE HAVE REGRETS.

shit I have tons of regrets, tons of shame, tons of remorse and repentance for all the degenerate animal shit IVE done. so I DO want THAT much from muh formerly degenerate waifu hahahaha.

if you dont have regrets, I DONT WANT TO KNOW YOU hehehehe.

the bad shit youve done SHOULD be regretted.

muh dbt book says to try not to be judgmental. notice all the times you make a judgment throughout the day, bad OR good, and just let them float away like leaves on a stream.  just observe stuff mindfully and without judgment.

this struck me as kinda weird. i can see trying to stop your bad judgments, but the good ones too?

i mean i make 148800000000000000000000000000000000000000000 negative judgments a day. every damn person i see i judge them. i was sitting in church watching the nice white people coming back from communion and i was judging each and every one of them harshy: fatty. f4ggot. dirty dago. ugly. fat slob. pig. dog. disgusting animal. sissy. nice haircut phaggot. nice manbun phaggot. nice potato shaped body. your kids are brats. your wife is a slut. you have dyed hair, you must be a slut. how many cox you take. how many black guys. how many abortions. wow, fat AND a smoker, youre in great health, you no self discipline weakling.

i mean its truly ridiculous how many negative judgments i make about people, many many many times a day. so YEAH i AGREE, trying to be conscious of that and not doing that would be a GREAT step for me.

really i am nowhere NEAR as HATEFUL and judgmental when i am with actual real people. i always think the best of them.

but from a distance, when i am alone just thinking of people in the abstract, or people watching people from a distance, god damn, its a hugeass hatefest!!!!!!

no not violent hate, but still very bitter butthurt negative pessimistic cynical recrimination!

and WHAT DOES IT GET ME?

HOW DO I BENEFIT?

WHAT GOOD DOES IT DO ME?????

NOTHING!

at a more moderate level, it would have been a natural response to people who have hurt me in the past with slutty or immature or fat or ugly or irresponsible behavior.

but the healthy way for me to do that is to say, ok, here are some red flags to watch out for, but im not gonna look for those red flags in EVERYBODY, and im sure not gonna get MAD about it if they havent done anything to ME.

but yeah. its like my automatic reaction to seeing a person, is to have a NEGATIVE JUDGMENT about them. this is not good!

fat, ugly, slut, phaggot, degenerate. usually one of those. douchebag, asshole, bitch, weirdo, autist, spazz, moron.

i cant stop judging people hahahahaha.

STILL, i INSIST that its worse for women to go out there and let themselves be used as pieces of sex meat, that it is for pathetic omega virgins to jerk off to jooish porn. because in one you have essentially two people hurting each other, in the other, you have one loser hurting himself.

but dont get me wrong, porn is horrible and i am ASHAMED and REGRETFUL that i ever looked at it. well, that i looked at it so MUCH.

and tbh, i was only a little above average i think for American Men Of My Generation. Many men are much, much worse. i was nowhere NEAR a Porn Addict.

hmm sorta watching this movie the lost weekend, i mean i had watched this intently a few years ago, and i think after i stopped drinking as well, and had gained some Understanding of the Baffling Cunning “Disease”, and i still found the movie disappointing and corny, and for some reason it seems better now.

i mean ive been on the straight and narrow path here for the last damn 7 years basically. no booze, a little bit of MJ though. not enough imho hahahahahahaha. gradually became more Alt Right, more JQ, less degen, more principled, just a better person hahaha. although unfort more of a virgin neet loser too hahahaha.

well its been up and down tho. ebb and flow.

was driving home and saw this fat guy and his fat wife in my neighborhood who are always sitting in their backyard smoking cigarettes and being fat, and i thought wow, fat and smoking, good choice buddy, and then i thought ok i shouldnt JUDGE him, he very well could be a very very very nice kind man, very courageous, very strong. nobody is perfect, me neither, and so he just happens to be a fat smoker. nobodys perfect and what if he’s very very nice.

how often do i need to bring in donuts? i dont want to more than once every 2 weeks.

you gotta ask the right questions. what if i ask the WRONG questions? what if i ask DUMB questions???!!?!

so show them i am smart by quoting Big Thought Leaders in this Education Related Field. I read some education books right? hehehe yes the only education books i read were “dumbing us down” by gatto and “the unschooling handbook” by some woman.

both very anti establishment sort of stuff. but which may be considered moer establishment in 2016.

i mean i really SHOULD be more interested in the Field of muh job. which all I will say it is SOMEWHAT education related.

so yeah i think education is bullshit ahhahahahahhahahahaha. all education should be handled by parents.

yeah well what about college level stuff. the job im doing COULD ACTUALLY BE LEGIT USEFUL to a HUHWHYTE NATION as regards “homeschooling” college/grad level material to Learners. It’s GOOD because it can put you into direct contact with Experts and Instructors while minimizing the JOOISH DEGEN (((((COLLEGE EXPERIENCE))))), i will just say that.

MINIMIZING IT!

so yeah this is actually a REALLY good position to be in and i shoul dbe  MOAR grateful!

maybe i should bring bagels instead of donuts? i mean i will actually eat bagels later if people dont eat them all. its easier to save and eat bagels later than donuts.

now you could still use this technology to deliver jooish marxist frankfurt skool degeneracy and mindkilling soulkilling poison into the brains of students, but again, its just a TOOL, that can be used for good OR for bad.

if it helps even one white neet get a good paying job one day, then its worth it.

so in a way, i am working in support of my Dream Career by Helping White Neets.  UP FROM NEETNESS.

well, if they are doing education, technically they are not a neet then hahahahahaha. well how about neets who are only involved in education, because its a LOT easier to go to college than to Get A Job. you just pay shitloads of money (take out loans) and go to some shitty school hahahaha.

honestly just go to your local community college. i PROMISE you its not THAT shitty. better than fookin DEVRY. talk about fookin SKYPES.

besides, to get a good job, you cant just have book knowledge and do good in online college courses. you have to be good with PEOPLE. CUSTOMERS. you have to have MAD CHARISMA and not be autistic!

so how do all these autists get jobs?

uhh the ones that dont get stem degrees from good colleges DONT! they become neets!

so would i feel more comfortable lying to the MMJ doctor about Carpal Tunnel or Back Pain, or Lying about getting Spasms from the meds i take for muh Severe Despair?

great now the poor beta orbiter kid who was in love with his female friend was bullycided into removing his post. because hes such a HORRIBLE PERSON. good lord they hate these pathetic niceguys more than they hate Raepists. seriously. right now he is probably blaming the shit out of himself for being such a horrible person. and he wont let himself grieve properly for a relationship that “didnt exist.” yeah well if he knew her for THREE YEARS it DID exist, no matter how close she felt to HIM, no matter what these degenerate bullies on /relships say.

THAT KID IS BACK ON THE ESCALATOR!

there is ANOTHER post about an opposite secs best friend at the top of the relships hotlist!

GUESS WHAT /R/RELSHIPS, WHEN YOUR “BEST FRIEND” IS THE OPPOSITE SECS, RIDICULOUS DRAMA ENSUES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i guess you can be “friends,” but to identify as “best friends”? HELL NO.

sheeeeeeeeeit tuff times buddy. im sure reddit will say he is a horrible person for thinking he is entitled to something.

yep sad shit man. well at least you can do your JOB and shit you got a NEW JOB within 8 months of getting heartbreakingly dumped! so id say youre doing pretty well. just work 80 hours a week at your new job and smoke MJ the rest of the time. use MJ to bribe tinder wh0res into nihilistic secs hahahaha.

did i get jealous because they were leaving me, or did they leave me because i was getting jealous?

i think i kept my jealousy under wraps PRETTY DAMN WELL until it became clear they were pulling away from me, talking to other guys, and then i’d say i had a PRETTY GOOD REASON to get jealous hehehehe.

so yeah i dont eer push women away because i am “THE JEALOUS TYPE.”

heres a good quote from this one:

”   [–]PaHoua 4 points 49 minutes ago
If you’re the one broken up with, it is very likely you’ll take much longer to move on than the dumper. That person has already been “mourning” the loss of the relationship for a long time and when they finally came to terms with it is when they decided to commit to the action of dumping you.
Think of it like the five steps of grief: 1. Denial; 2. Bargaining; 3. Anger; 4. Depression; 5. Acceptance.
When she reached Acceptance, you weren’t even aware of what was to come. Then she dumped you. You moved into Denial.
This happened to me. I moved back and forth between all of the stages until I got into Acceptance. He was dating within weeks and probably earlier, whereas I remained in between stages for a couple of years.
It takes as long as it takes. That’s all anyone can tell you.     ”

wow a woman saying something very reasonable hahahahaha