YOUR FATHER MUST BE SO PROUD

apri 25

took a rare nap because i am doing a rare weeknight social game which will result in me getting not much sleep in prep of the Big Day of Job tomorrow. If I had a Normie job, i wouldnt even think of doing this, because being GRUMPY is the LEAST of your concerns when you dont sleep enough. its being ANXIOUS and PANICKING and feeling like you wont be able to stand the constant firing squad of people constantly watching you and measuring you and asking you questions and interrogating and interviewing you. grilling you.

like i dont know how any health care workers, esp nurses, do their jobs. i have great respect for nurses when they arent pill popping whores.

uhhh so being grumpy and tired is not my worry. my worry is being WEAK and running out of the room crying because I cant handle the pressure. its like taking a Big Final Exam without good sleep, because

EVERY DAY OF WORK IS LIKE A BIG FINAL EXAM.

Nobody told me! I just thought it was Boring Drudgery! Shit, I’d pay for boring drudgery, when its actually nerve-wracking tension!

but my current job is much different, very low stress, borderline boring even! and i say this isn’t a REAL job, because clearly real jobs JUST ARENT LIKE THIS. PLUS Im only making 11k a year and no benefits. its not a real job. it was never MEANT to be a real job. its MEANT for students who are working on their degree so in a few years they can get an entry level torture job for 28k a year and some health care.

you are constantly SELLING something to angry customers. even if what you’re “Selling” is the runaround and the bullshit jooish lies as to why your company thinks its too expensive to fix what the customer wants fixed. here’s why its not really broken goy.

as someone who genuinely wants to do a good job and actually help people, that kind of shit is VERY hard for me. especially when the shit is so confusing that i just dont KNOW. its very possible the shit is SO confusing that its NOT worth it for our company to fix their shit. soooo……can we escalate this to someone who knows how to handle it? do we have a Business Partner we can connect them with? What do I say to leave this person out in the cold? sorry, cant help you, it is what it is, next. no explanation because even i dont understand it, and you cant talk to my higher up who said shut it down, because he’s too busy saying shut it down to people like ME.  see, you get shut down, I’m actually getting shut down too, by him, now I’m shutting YOU down. thats all we do, we dont actually FIX things, hahahahaa.

i just hate it when every day has MORE pressure than a big exam, because you DONT understand the stuff, AND you have to explain it to angry people. why why why. i dont know why, i just know my higher ups said we cant. no you cant talk to him. because theyre too busy, and they will just tell you the same thing. you think youre gonna LIKE the explanation?

was this why our department was failing?

well, it was a symptom of a failing department, that was mismanaged, that was not given the time, money, training, and people it needed to BE successful. and hence we were shut down altogether, permanently. i’m curious what happened to the department afterwards. if anything they needed MORE people, not less!

well…..they needed MORE people during peak business times. just as importantly, they needed BETTER TRAINED people during these times.

its basically fight or flight all day long, every day. how the hell do people do this?

because they have kids to take care of and they dont have any real skills like being a nurse or a electrician and they have to make at least 30k a year to support their kids and they dont want to be a huge deadbeat and not support their kids. lots of single mothers there. sad!

and if i had just gotten a 2 year nursing degree at age 20, i could have been making good money at age 20 hahahaha. well hypotehtically. i never wanted to be a nurse because its stressful and thankless. i dont know how anyone wants to be a nurse except for the Money and the Job Security. but its not great money, theres not great job security, i guess its just kinda easy to get the shittiest of nursing jobs.

yet there are tons of gurls who really want to become nurses.

WHY DONT THEY JUST BECOME WIVES AND MOTHERS INSTEAD? you can  become a nurse when you are 45. literally. so many women are channeling this natural urge to be Nurturing, so they can help angry strangers for 60 hours a week to the benefit of jooish hospitals and health care companies and doctors and then become pill popping sluts, and shitty wives and mothers like nurse jackie hahaha.

so what then, have the wives stay home? you cant afford to do that goy? without a dual income you cant survive goy!

well you live in a shitty neighborhood with violent blacks and browns, that would save money and be a great place for your wife to stay at home with the kids hahaha.

no i say you go to the hwyte rural area like fatherland jim and the hwyte pride singlewide. go and do likewise, gents. his wife stays at home and i dont think he makes a TON of money.

so the trick is, you gotta commute 50 miles one way so you can live far away enough from your job in the city so you can have a nice safe hwyte home in the country. so be prepared to spend extra money on car, insurance. because you werent spending enough money on that stuff as it is, hhahahahaa.

so this was my FATE, my DOOM, my DESTINY, my MISSION from GOD, is that i live a completely un-normal life. that life itself is such a difficult struggle that i cannot even do the bare minimum of being an adult.

i mean its one thing to Not Be Normal. Who’s Normal, you say.

People who rise to the challenge of making 28k a year and living independently, even if in poverty. Being Working Poor and still paying your beels. THAT is normal.

so there was a “PROFESSIONAL CUDDLER” mentioned in parade magazine or AP Reuters news or something. it is definitely a thing now.

i started suggesting this about 2 years ago but as the far more unattractive name of “cuddle hookers” which I dont think would sell nearly as well. i dont know why I just didnt keep it simple and suggest str8 up professional cuddlers.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-4170962/Professional-cuddler-earns-17-000-snuggling-strangers.html

i mean i just didnt know what WORD to CALL it till recently. “PROFESSIONAL CUDDLER” seems to be the term people in the media are settling on.

wow that bitch is cray cray. she is NOT a touchy feely person, left her husband because she wanted to become a poly slut, then went to a cuddle party and discovered at age 37 she wants to become a professional cuddler and for 80 dollars an hour, but shes not really a cuddly person. wtf.

http://www.businessinsider.com/professional-cuddler-2014-7

platonic companionship service that offers professional snuggling

therapeutic, non-sexual, cuddle session with a certified professional cuddler.

alternative touch therapy

http://www.cuddleparty.com/

shit yeah i think its sad, because it means there is enough lonely ass fooking men that are so pathetic they cant convince a normal degen woman to cuddle them, so they have to pay for basic human contact. also that a man could get THAT autistic. its totally the atomizing effect of da jooz hahahaha.

i imagine if you are CUTE and YOUNG you will be in more demand than if you are a FAT SLOB of a woman.

just like with secs, its more fun to cuddle with an attractive woman than an unattractive woman.

at any rate i think this is still a market worth studying. also i wonder if some of the “cuddle parties” are actually FREE of charge, for weird cuddle nerds that actually like cuddling.

but why would you like cuddling with JUST ANYBODY? or with a LOT of people? or someone you just met?  really its just a lesser version of secs. I dont want to cuddle with strangers. well, maybe QT young 20 year old gurl strangers, hahaha. but what does it say when they gather up in parties to cuddle as many people as possible? that they are fooking NUTS. well DUH. were not looking to MARRY these sluts ahahha.

but like that article above says, the woman has to do a lot of Boundaries COnversations because a lot of the PTSD Veterans who havent touched a woman in 10 years, get ATTACHED and fall in LUV after cuddling with her for an hour.

actually 60 dollars an hour is not bad. i might actually do this if i can find an attractive woman.

so yeah. my big question, and ive wondered this for a while, is just laying there with your eyes closed and trying to sleep, does that have ANY benefit, does that Charge Your Batteries at All? i cant imagine it DRAINS you the same way being On during the Peak of your Day does.

but when i get ready in the morning, i have about 20 minutes of free time. i usually use this to lay down in bed, all dressed and ready to go, but just lay there and close my eyes for about 20 minutes. i dont actually want to go to sleep because i have to go to job. but I WANT TO THINK that this 20 minutes gives me a tiny boost and is almost like a 20 minute powernap, even though im not actually sleeping.

how accurate is that?

or what about if youre just having trouble sleeping at night. tossing and turning. one hour goes by. then another. then another. you worry because you are only getting 2 hours of sleep and you have to sell bullshit stories tomorrow to people.

i want to think that just TRYING to sleep has SOME of the effect of ACTUALLY sleeping.

citation needed hehehe.

like today i did my “pre nap”. i laid down for 2 hours but marked down only 1 hour of actual nappng. shit be lucky if it was actually 45 minutes! but I still hope that the nap i had will help me tonight and tomorrow.

no i will be ok tomorrow. its not like i have a job where i have to sell bullshit lies to people and push them off with bullshit excuses.

apr 26

ok survived the day with “only” 5 hours of sleep. i mean i have the easiest job in the world, its fooking stupid. i wish i could be more charming and interesting with the colleages. i mean i am NICE buy i am not very CHARMING. in the competitive world of Productive Enterprise where you always have to sell yourself and establish Competitive ADvantage. I mean the most INTERESTING thing about me are my HORRIBLE, NARROW MINDED, BIGOTED bigotry and racism! that I cant even DEFEND from SHITLIBS who believe in knapsack of privilege and Everybodys Equal! then raise your children and move your family to a nonwhite ghetto, captain save a thug hahahaha. oh whats that? you live in a 94th percentile charles murray superzip? hahahaha. yeah but there is plenty of diversity. indians and asians with masters degrees and phds. analysts and engineers.

wow actually doing good at poker table today, won 2 good hands and now i am up from buyin of 4 to…..8. and i do NOT want to lose it! at a higher stakes table than i like to be at. making my money from a loose aggressive player.

i probably linked this a few months ago and it deserves to be linked again.

i dont hate TRS, I dont think enoch is a j00, i just agree with anglin on pretty much everything he said about enoch and trs. they handled the situation TERRIBLY at the time, they still COULD fix it, it was STUPID how they banned so many people from the forum for simply asking questions about a serious issue. its not to late to apologize. its not too late to unban. i dont think mike himself is a joo at all. many people on stormer think he is, i think thats stupid. i dont mind if anglin links TRS. he should. i agree, TRS adds too much value to the movement and our RACE NOT to link them. i guess enoch still does great daily shoahs. i liked the 2 minutes he was speaking at the spencer speech. would love to see enoch do things himself and have heated arguments with college shitlibs for hours.

but ill always be a bit sour on how they handled the joo wife situation, meaning i wont be as RAVING of a fan of them, wont be as EAGER to gibs them SHEKELS, compared with how I EAGERLY gib shekels to anglin. i have a mancrush on him that hasnt been soured. i couldnt see anglin handling a situation like this. all they needed to do was be transparent and apologize and not act like they were HIDING something.

i KNOW they just made a mistake like humans very often do. but its still not too late to apologize for the mistake, and they havent done that, and it doesnt seem like they ever will! and I would be even MORE sour if they ban me from TRS forum just because I dont post, and took a break, and mainly lurk, and asked good faith questions on other sites, and wasnt THRILLED with how they handled it, AND I donated money directly to sven stating my username before all the doxings. it was right after sven was doxed and before mike was doxed. those doxings were very different because sven didnt have a joo wife. worse, i really liked sven and he was probably involved in a lot of the Unjust Bannings at the forum. I don’t blame him for not blabbing about the joo wife, i would be more butthurt at him for banning so many people and for not gently pushing mike to do more and say more and for letting him get off so…..easily. well. apart from losing his job, family, reputation, livelihood, hahahahaha.

it was a RIDICULOUS situation, it still is, MONTHS later. but mike is a great speaker and thinker and should totally do public events like spencer.

the lovefest i have now with anglin is like the lovefest i had for mike and sven before all the shit went down.

i still enjoy the fatherland and hope to hear no1 again.

just SHUTTING DOWN all discussion of an important topic is not super cool and I WISH the higher ups would understand that and mike would just suck it up for 1 hour and make a heartfelt statement. i mean, he’s lost EVERYTHING, what else does he have to lose? it makes so little sense its frustrating. cant even blame it on joos because i really dont think they are!!!

but yeah The Movement has ALWAYS had infighting and drama like this. ALWAYS. but this was the biggest deal for me, because TRS really changed the game for me, took the movement to the next level, brought it into the current year, became the full realization of VVN 2.0 we’ve all wanted.

yeah well thank GOD anglin is also doing that.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/dear-women-boys-do-not-like-a-little-bit-more-booty-to-hold-at-night/101967

hehehe fatshaming.

i do like “a little bit more booty”, but I think I’m basically just agreeing with anglin anyway. i dont mind a Kinda Big Butt in that we know women naturally have Bigger Butts and Thighs and Hips than Men, and thats FINE. andrew is of course talking about FAT SLOBS, which IS a BIG problem. and they SHOULD be shamed.

QUOTE For instance, if you see an interracial couple, you can stop and say, enthusiastically “wow, you guys are such a cute couple,” she will almost certainly interpret this as you giving her exactly what she wants – social approval for her brave social justice act. So then, while she’s smiling, look the stupid bitch straight in the eyes and say

“your father must be so proud.”

Then, start laughing, and walk away.   END QUOTE

he gives a lot of clear, actionable advice for young men who dont know these very valuable Life Lessons. I recommend doing these things. classic. anglin clearly knows his shit about women. see laughing is best because it shows total superiority, and that you are not BUTTHURT about it. even though it is justified to be butthurt about hwyte gurls being mudsharks. but you can just LAUGH at it because you know you can pull a better hwyte woman who isnt a mudshark.

QUOTE

Women have exactly zero desire to be “respected” by men who view them as “equals” – women desire to be dominated by men who view them as property.

I want my boys to get laid, I want my boys to sire strong white children with beautiful white women. And I am teaching them to be the kind of men who get that job done.

My agenda is to save the white race by helping men to become men again, and I don’t give a f0ck about the tears of you pussy-worshiping cowards who have abandoned OUR WOMEN to their own fundamentally self-destructive natures by refusing to give them male guidance through the mechanism of public shaming.

You white knight cowards are the ones who are destroying OUR WOMEN by abdicating your masculine duty to put them in their place where they are safe and protected by men who dominate and own them, while at the same time claiming that any man who stands up and does his masculine duty is the bad guy.

White knights are worse than J00s – they are traitors.

END Q

what a great writer! if he made a fiery SPEECH like this, people would be talking about it for months, yet this is just one of 10 articles he writes a day and prob will be forgotten soon. he needs to be doing articles like this in SPEECH form. this would start a fooking RIOT with antifa, and made the good guys look irresistable to women.

i don’t 100% agree that “white knights are worse than joos,” but i think this is andrew being provocative. i mean white knights ARE bad. but i think most are just naive and andrew is trying to wake them up. Get MAD, you sons of bitches!!!!!

good quote from poster: Simple experience with women teaches you this. Women never feel guilt for something they do, only shame for getting caught. Every cheating woman ever feels this way. As long as their man doesn’t know, then there is no problem as far as they are concerned. The courts also recognize the inherently amoral nature of women.  END

shame vs guilt. guilt is much better because it means you actually have morals. since women naturally do NOT have morals, we NEED to SHAME them.

EXTREME PROBLEMS DEMAND EXTREME SOLUTIONS. (not violence hahahahahaha but total verbal public shaming)

so some of the guys kicked off of TRS started a new forum around that time called the purity spiral dot com, look it up hahaha. i signed up for it but havent really read it, heard there are good effortposts there. thats the only thing i dont like about DS BBS, is some of the people seem SO RETARDED and have a huge chip on their shoulder. cant even tolerate a tiny difference in opinion with their white bruders.

hehehe my copy of MEIN K4MPF cannot be delivered fast enough hahahaha.

also i should really get a firearm, i would just like a basic bitch handgun, that’s it.

ideally i should get a concealed carry license just to essentially get TRAINING on how to be a Good Goy With A Gun. Although I really like Open Carry because of the signal it sends: dont even TRY to start shit here, ya filthy animal.

but i have no training on how to properly use, own, maintain a firearm. I’ve fired a firearm no more than 25 times in muh whole life.

apr 27

welp one day at a time haha. decided to start getting up at 5:20 am instead of 5 now. because it CHARGES THE BATTERIES MORE and gives me MORE ENERGY, even if only MARGINALLY, to  sleep an extra 20 minutes than just to lay there are pretend to sleep. although i hop that pretending to sleep does charge batteries a LITTLE.

actually changing that to 530.

this does NOT mean i can stay UP 30 minutes later at night. no. it means i STILL should go to bed at 800 and try to just get more sleep. try to aim for 8 hours and 30 minutes EVERY night.

so basically i was butthurt that women are not MORAL and women are not LOYAL. why cant women be MORAL or LOYAL. they just get to get away with saying sorry thats not how we were born, we dont have it in us, so manage expectations!

and you get butthurt to think that ANY HUMAN BEING, man or woman, hwyte or nonwhyte, NOT be CAPABLE of being MORAL and LOYAL. you just need the WILL.

so which is? can we expect women to be moral and loyal, or is that really TOO MUCH for them?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/National_Socialist_Program#The_25-point_Program_of_the_NSDAP

big dnation drive for daily stormer today as weev posted official article on splc lawsuit on anglin, set up a wesearchr for anglin, just hope that doesnt get shut down and he actually gets the money. i just sent him 5 dollars in btc hahahahaha. big dnator hahaha. because if the wesearchr doesnt actually reach 150k, then he gets nothing. that would suck!

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/abortion-and-subsequent-break-up/102137

abortion story on BBS. dont kill your babies! i dont think this guy fully appreciates the gravity of it. but theres a great point about how the woman will resent you if you go along with the abortion. its a giant shit test to get you to say DONT KILL MY BABY.

everything about women is so bad. its stupid to want women. they are SO MUCH NOT WORF IT.

really i hate not being STRONG enough to HANDLE just a normal, average woman. It’s mens JOB to MANAGE their women, and I can’t handle that job. not tough enough. not MAN enough. gotta MAN UP!!

there are a few guys on DS BBS that are such woman haters that they think that if you dont support BEATING women you are a WHITE KNIGHT beta Cuck hahahaha. if you are just a reasonable guy like me and only want to spank women. and sometimes the woman beaters make great points about women. but dont call the men who dont agree with beating women white knights just because they dont want to PUNCH a woman in the FACE. i agree with the white knights: we are white men and should behave more honorably than that. we dont need to beat our women, we dont need “SHARIA” we dont need to call women Things or Property. YES, we need to be IN CHARGE and LEAD our women. be the BOSS of them. but it doesnt mean we OWN them. really. they are more like PETS than PROPERTY hahahahaha. you OWN them but you LUV them too. like your children.

believe me, if anyone is open to extreme woman hating its me. and even i cant be convinced to be as EXTREME as some of these guys. even though i agree that EXTREME PROBLEMS NEED EXTREME SOLUTIONS. we dont need to PUNCH women (unless its antifa gurl hahahaha).

but the “toxic” woman-beaters DO have a decent number of GOOD points about women! alot more that the broken clock is right 2 times a day! these guys are right at least 10 times a day! they shouldnt beat women though! or hate them THAT much!

but the WQ is a huge deal because it affects us ALL, DEEPLY, EVERY DAY. except for the lucky few that have a halfway decent rel with a halfway decent woman. and you gotta be way above average TOUGH and STRONG to pull that off. but as NS VVN’s, this is is what we strive towards hahahaha. being super tough and strong.

BLESSED ARE THE STRONG! THE MEEK SHALL INHERIT NOTHING!

hehehe ive repeated that several times.

well i got well below 1500 calories today, got about 1200. so that was good.

i just hate not being a normie and being so far gone and so weak and pathetic that i can never BECOME a normie!!!!!! :rage: :crying:

even if anglin loses this case, he’s not going to go to JAIL. at worst he will have to shut the stormer down. which would suck. but i think he would find  a way to SOMETHING after that. i mean its amazing he keeps the site up at all anyway!

could the govt seize his BITCOIN??

i mean we have heard stories of bitcoin being seized right? like dread pirate roberts and silk road and all that.

AWWWWW YEAAAAAHHHHHH

GEORGIE BOY IS BAAAAAACCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK

seems like more of the same, except now he has wiped out his subscribers and all his videos! which kinda sucks. i also hoped he would be gone for longer so he could have a REAL break and hopefully make a change.

saved his new email address hahaha.

now all the stupid haters will be back. i am the most bona fide, good faith, honest supporter of george there is.

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LOW NUMBER, GOOD FATHER

apr 22

well met with the old friend and thank GOD he was on good behavior yesterday and did not drink at all. not at all. not before i arrived, i didnt have to blow into his breathalyzer, he didnt drink at dinner, didn’t drink afterwards, so, i got everything i had hoped for. when he doesnt drink and is a normal person like this, then i dont MIND hanging out with him! maybe he went and pounded vodka right after i left. but hopefully not. and i would almost be able to tolerate that, as long as i didnt see it. not that that would be good.

as a kind of bonus i tried to Red Pill him on Porn because he watches too much of that. I gently explained how it can warp your mind in ways you dont even realize. who is making this? WHY are they makign this? is it NORMAL for women to stuff huge things up their ass? do normal women do that? do normal men want to see that? did you always want to see that when you were like 13 years old? i stopped watching porn and it is the best decision I ever made. how about lets just do a fun experiment here and you try to stop for 30 days and see what happens.

oh hell no, not 30 days, i dont want to do that.

well why not? why would that be so bad? 30 days without porn, is it really that hard? why do you want to watch it so bad? isnt that interesting? is that normal? is that the way humans should be? who benefits from turning us into weird perverts?

ok, how about a week then. can you try one week for me.

i tried to sell him on one week. dont think it will work but if i can get him to think of the joo rubbing his hands saying GOOD GOYIM, then thats a victory for me. I explained that image and told him to think of that next time he wants to look at porn, which is like every fooking day.

do you really need to look at porn every day? every WEEK?

really once you stop for a month, you dont WANT to look at it any more. youre like this is gross and wrong, this is turning me into a jooish pervert. this is bad. TURN THAT SHIT OFF.

and you WILL SEE some porn eventually, inevitably, on the internet, or from these fooking GOYS who are watching porn every day. he talks about all the 40 year men at his job who are always watching porn and talking about secs.

im like wow, these are 40 year old white men. do you really think thats normal? dont they have CHILDREN? would you want your DAUGHTER doing porn, or being a hooker, or a stripper, or working at hooters, or even just being a basic slut??? would you really not care?

yeah but i dont have a daughter and I dont want to have kids.

well imagine you DID have a daughter. and then we can Explore why you dont want to have kids.

because its no benefit to me, plus the world sucks. which is basically shorthand for saying i don’t believe I can raise winner kids in such a sucky world. which is fair enough. I dont think I could either. not least of all because I cant even take care of MYSELF, how could I take care of a wife and children.

maybe spending more time withe white babies would help him.

not that i needed to spend time with white babies to come to the conclusion that having hwyte babies is a great thing.

anyway i was just thrilled he was not drinking. I heavily suggested that it also doesnt do him or anyone else any good to be raging falling down drunk.

so, all in all, better than expected! thank GOD!

he is also somewhat redpillable because he doesnt like blacks and race mixing hahahaha. so i jumped on those topics. but really tried to make the porn connection.

when you are watching porn almost every day, you think its NORMAL. you cant see how FOOKED UP it is! just another thing which makes it SOOOOOOOOO terrible!

oh im just a prude. well kind of yes. but what the fook is a PRUDE anyway. anyone short of being a total pornified jooish pervert? then we SHOULD ALL BE PRUDES.

ok its one thing when omega virgins watch porn and cant talk to gurls. WHAT ABOUT MARRIED GUYS or guys in a monog rel? like muh porn watching friend. he is married, his wife totally knows he watches porn, im sure shes not thrilled with it, but she just accepts it as normal and doesnt think its a huge deal because hes not watching 10 hours of porn a day.

sad! and i think a lot of women think the same way. oh, ALL GUYS JUST WATCH PORN. ACCEPT IT. its not worth getting mad about.

heh. that is not the proper attitude. although i wish they took that laiisez faire, im not going to overreact attitude with other things that they tend to overreact on, like everyhting hahahaha.

so youre a 40 year old man and still have SOME secs drive. but your wife is a fat slob that you dread having to bang once a month like al bundy. (but his wife was attractive!!!! (but i think also a jooess.))

probably some of these wives are like, yeah i know im fat and gross, and i just cant compete with these hot 20 year old gurls in porn, so, whatever, just look the other way.

im talking full blown working class whyte people here. the ones that work for a living and arent pill popping single parent household trash, but people who struggle every day to make barely enough money, have wives who get fat, and kids that turn white trash just because their father is working 60 hours a week and doesnt have TIME to lead his home.

well then i say he should drop down to 40 hours a week and spend 20 more hours a week leading his home, and just save money elsewhere. no cable, no expensive pickup trucks and suv’s, no eating at restaurants, move into a hwyte pride single wide in a rural area.

but what if you have medical problems and thats why you have to work 60 hours a week and be an Absent Father?

I say when your work INTERFERES with you being a good father….then change your work. you have to work 40 hours because thats the rule. But I would say not a SECOND more if it interferes with the time you spend with your FAMILY.

dont slave away working 80 hours a week saying your doing it for your family. i know you believe it too! its a jooish LIE! youve been DUPED! you would be worth more to your family in the long run to spend that time with them, and not at work. just make less money and make your kids wear used clothes. this will keep your daughters from become strippers, sluts and mudsharks, and your sons from being neet white  trash pill popping phaggot loser deadbeats! white trash, in short!

ok LIFE is inherently competitive, there are winners and losers. this is why WE need to be competitive, despite what they tell you in joo school. schjool hahahaha. tell all the kids to not be competitive so they can all be losers in the real world.

so what about decent, fair, hwyte Productive Enterprise? in contrast to scamming, lying, cheating, exploiting Jooish Capitalism? Yes, Hwyte Productive Enterprise is ALSO competitive. There are also winners and losers.

its not inherently nonwhite or jooish to be competitive or to have winners and losers in other words. even in an all hwyte country there would be winners and losers and that would be natural and normal and nothing wrong with that.

spencer in his auburn speech said “THE STRENGTH OF THE WOLF IS IN THE PACK; THE STRENGTH OF THE PACK IS IN THE WOLF” which i’m not sure who said that first.

it was a good speech, do recommend. would have liekd more out of mike enoch.

now azzmador is getting very black pilled. he says theres no demand for his work because nobodys donating to his show. 40000 downloads and only 6 bucks in donations in the past month. and i was 5 bucks of that hahahahahahahahaha.

i think he might be bipolar but he is still a great man. i hope he cools off and comes back.

i think most people would gladly pay like 25 cents to download, but thats just really hard to arrange.

this huge “woman hater” on DS says you can turn even “nice gurls” into huge sluts by just asking them to touch your D. then say how bout giving the tip a nice little kiss. then next thing you know shes gobbling the knob, which are “womens little white lies” in that they dont count for anything, they dont MEAN anything, oh theyve only FOOKED 37 guys, but theyve SUCKED HUNDREDS.

well if its so easy to get them to suck, and so easy to convert the BJ to full blown fooking, how come they havent FOOKED hundreds of guys too? if its so EASY to convert a BJ to fooking? something doesnt make sense there. but i do really like the guys baby steps approach. i just wish women werent such big sluts. he says just make women suck you for doing small favors like driving them somewhere, teaching them english, buying them lunch, etc.

show them that you know that they suck guys as a form of CURRENCY. youre WISE TO THEIR SCHEME, and now YOU WANT IN! saying the whole thing with an Alpha SMIRK, like you cant fool me, ya little slut. now blow me. come on. just the tip.

he says average white guys bang around 20 gurls by their late 20s. betas bang 1 or 2 or 0. alphas bang 70 or more.

great thread. tried to download whole thing, cant figur eout how. here are some choice quotes:

INSANELY LONG STRING OF IMPORTANT QUOTES

guy1:
I remember when I was 27, just got my first IT job.

I walked around in my dockers and button down shirt and had a “real job” for the first time in my life. I was finally ready to meet a wife and settle down now that I had a stable job. lol

It was like f00king kryptonite, no 19 year old woman or any woman for that matter wanted to date me.

Took me a while to realize, yeah women like men with jobs but you have to make WAAAAAY more than her for it to matter.

Before that I was a musician who bilked institutions out of shitloads of money to buy practice time. I got WAY more female attention, even from “good” girls.. lol

Now I’m older and especially today my lifestyle is impressive to them simply because it is out of reach for someone their age.

 

guy2:
The White men have no chance with that little whore generally because they’re beta cucks who don’t know what they’re doing.

But if we have white Sharia, none of that will matter.
Core message there is not giving a shit if you impress some jumped up piece of ass.

The less you care the smoother the sailing.

guy1:
Well also women have different standards than men.

You’d have to either be top of the pile or bottom of the pile. lol

Either a ken doll with comparable genetics and a massive income/bad boy status or a f00king refugee from Africa. lol
Yes, I find that to be true.

When you get older you naturally care less so it’s kind of like “wait, he’s not trying to f00k me”. lol

Or she starts acting like a bitch and you make fun of her voice and shit and she ends up laughing. Before i might have got mad and stormed off or got embarrassed.

A lot of young guys don’t have that kind of game yet, they don’t know how to handle an annoying bitch in a positive way.

I think it’s just harder to not care in your twenties unless you’re killing it already.

Definitely personality is a huge part of attraction and you just get all that experience dealing with difficult people over the course of your lifetime.

guy2:
Well when your aspirations and ego is caught up in a woman’s attention, you’re f00ked.
That said you will still need to chase a female at least in the very beginning by talking to the dumb whore and f00king her etc.

Then you can coast.

This is why musicians get pvssy, they’re in high visibility situations where the sluts approach them.

And women love music because it panders to their meaningless abstract emotional pea brains.
So they already feel an emotional connection to the musician.

guy1:
The thing with women, especially the better looking ones…

If there’s anything even slightly “off” about your personality and you’re not super good looking…adios. It’s really brutal. lol

And a lot of people of the newer generations..some of them are great to talk to but some of them just get really awkward.

Like there will be a pause and I’ve had some of them just kind of run away because they got anxious. They play so many video games they’re sort of autistic.

Bad social skills will tank you with women. I even have a list of mannerisms to avoid like putting your hands in your pockets and shaking your leg…I used to get rejected all the time until I fixed them one by one.

Every woman I’ve ever dated got pissed at me if I put my hands in my pants pockets. lol

guy2:
If you can’t eye f00k them and hold the tension with controlled paced speech and allow pregnant pauses…. Then you’re f00ked.

Thing is, all these Casanova arts are irrelevant if we have white Sharia law.

guy1:
Yeah just brutal directness and knowing when and how.

At this point in life I’m confident to say to any woman I know reasonably well that I would like to f0ck them or have them watch me masturbate. I’ll detail everything I want to do to them with a smile while they look absolutely shocked. lol

Actually I’ve never had a woman turn that down. If they turned down sex I’d say “well I’d like you to watch me, I think that’s fair” and she’d say “ok”. While she’s watching me I’d make sure she at least touches it, squeeze her boobs and anything else I can get away with. lol

A couple weeks later after watching me she’d call and we’d meet up and it would happen. I’ve done that a lot, it’s pretty easy.

She thinks it’s ok to watch but she doesn’t realize she’s getting slow boiled, females are very susceptible to this. Get your foot in the door and it opens easily.

Once she’s seen me naked and she’s touched it and had my hands all over her there’s little point in resisting and we are no longer just friends.

If I got resistance I say things like…

Well I think you should watch, that’s really the least you can do…

No, I think that’s more than fair…I must say I really do.

That’s fine if you don’t, I’m just saying I want to…(more graphic descriptions of ravishing)

It’s so funny that this shit works…anyway that’s why everything is so f00ked up.
Basically in a nutshell kids, sexual harrassment absolutely f00king works.

That’s why it’s illegal for white men only.

Ever noticed that? lol
There was this blonde bitch I worked with.

When she worked at my company I never made a move even though I knew she liked me.

As soon as she got canned I showed her my coch and banged her and it started with making her watch me whack off exactly as I described it.

She wanted me to do something for her so I said, “well I have something I want you to do for me”.
Also if there is a girl by the side of the road or stranded at a gas station…this happened a lot in Florida.

Girls would ask me for gas money, help moving or all sorts of dumb shit they can’t do themselves.

I’d say, sure but I want a quick BJ. Same deal. lol

And if you want to marry her you can just give her your phone number, there’s no such thing as dating anymore. lol

But who wants to marry these sluts, that’s the thing.
I’m not getting likes on this because most men don’t want to believe it but it’s true.

When you talk the way I described, they stop putting on the act because they know you know the real deal. You’re not some sucker they an screw around with, they know that I know they’ve done this shit before.

These are not freakish women either, they’re ordinary kinds of women a normal man will date.

But I will never date them unless they can do something for me like clean my house or make me dinner, give me money, etc.

And I certainly would not sacrifice my freedom to get children from their diseased wombs and kiss their herpes ridden mouths. lol
The realization that most women will pay for basic services with sex is the ultimate red pill.

In Brazil, guys who teach english will tell you the girls over there will offer to f00k you for English lessons rather than pay. It’s not so much that they don’t have the money, they like sex and if they think you’re cute at all (esp if you are white American) they will gladly f00k you.

Women in Brazil or anywhere in SA are actually incredibly f00king easy for Americans…also in their culture it’s normal to just f0ck all the time. lol

Sometimes if I really wanted someone and they wouldn’t budge, I’d just offer them money. I’d say look I know you’re not that into me but I’ll give you $1000 and I’ll never tell anyone I promise.

Yup.

guy2:
Never do a female “friend” favours without at least getting a blowjob in the exchange.
Very true.

Blowjobs to women are like little White lies, usually in their mind they rationalise it as not counting as sex.

Always get women to give you blowjobs, this is not a sex preference thing, this is a understanding women thing!

 

another

The funniest sex story I have that illustrates your point is this girl I’d been on a couple of dates with.

Very immature, very shy, very scared at the idea of f0cking etc etc, kept using her Female friend as an excuse not to be alone with me.

Finally got her alone in my car, had given her and a friend a lift somewhere.

Kept my little whore in the car to say goodnight etc, the friend has left, drive the car around the corner into an alley. Middle of The night.

Kissing leads to heavy petting, I go for a blowjob, she’s very self conscious, won’t do it.

So I pull it out, hard, start jerking it off in front of her face.

Then my favourite line of all time gets used….

“Baby, just kiss the tip, just once and I’ll stop….”

Anyway, she kissed the tip, did a lot more and swallowed a load.

Moral of the story, women work with a gradual breakdown of resistance, small victories lead to winning the war.

later:

The average normal white guy has f0cked around 10 to 20 girls by the time he’s in his late twenties.

Extreme betas are virgins or limping on one or two sexual experiences in their twenties

Then you have sexual alphas who will have f0cked anywhere between 70 to 300 girls.

Then you have sodomites who will generally have f0cked anywhere between 500 to 3000 men by middle age.

Negros are known to have high std rates as they f0ck quickly and frequently with strangers.

Sorry I don’t​have the J00ish sources for the academia f4gs out there. I have a brain and life experience instead.

OK THE END

I have tried to protect their anonymity by changing their forum names haha.

that was some of the best red pilling on the WQ ive seen in a long time. now those might be the two most “woman hating” guys on the bbs, even moreso than anglin himself. i read their shit and i say, DEAR GAWD, i really really really really really hope not all women are like that!

then we could assume the average 27 year old woman has been with 25 guys!!!!!!!!

i wonder if these tactics would scare the TRULY good women away. that the second you pull your D out, they say fook you you negro pervert and LEAVE. not be all COY and shit.  THAT would be the only way for the woman to pass this test.

but yeah i copied and pasted so much because there was THAT much worth copying and pasting between these two gentlemen today hahaha. so i thank them for their great talk. i am not trying to shame them. i am trying to THANK them!

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besides there is word of many threads disappearing from the forum. im sure mods are deleting some but ive also heard the hardware just cant HANDLE all the traffic and action and shit just gets corrupted and not backed up, its unbackupable or something, even weev cant figure it out because he’s not good with rails and docker and god knows what other bullshit tech. this is why i hate technology as ted kaczynski did. weev made the analogy of its like asking a russian literature phd, you’re an expert in language and lingustics, can you translate this spanish thing.

that even a super smart guy like WEEV would be as about as useful as ME just because he doesnt know RAILS. well, thats where I am on EVERY language.

and then the computer fooks up and its impossible to fix it, and even MORE impossible to determine WHY it fooked up. computers and tech are SO COMPLEX you literally need a phd to make even a LITTLE sense out of one type of computer. ITS NOT WORF IT.

this is partially what led me to Give Up on “IT” and Programming Courses and Computer Science. the shit will drive you literally insane. in a way computers are just as jooish, evil, and crazy as women hahahahaha.

lesson: i guess become a diff type of engineer. i’d lean towards mechanical. but if you live near a lot of oil, try chemical. also mechanical would be good there.

actually, just do mechanical because robots are just gonna be more and more important. automation goy! MACHINES.

but yeah. i would not want to marry a woman who pretends to be all innocent, and then she falls for the Pushing Thru Resistance, Just The Tip bullshit. and has done that with 20 guys. do you want to marry a woman who has fooked or even just sucked 20 guys?

makes me sad abotu That Woman, because she used to be truly innocent. but now i could totally see her pulling that coy bullshit as she quickly increases her number from 2 to 20 over just a few short years. DISGUSTING!

oh well its her life to fook up, she didnt have a good father, SHE DIDNT HAVE A CHANCE. SAD!

but i had nothing BUT chances: good family, ok education, decent friends. so I MUST have been a bad seed! well, i wasnt TOUGH. and i got too into alcohol and MJ from a young age.

bla bla bla weve heard this all before.

chicken wings might be a miracle food. not terribly hi cal, and very high in protein. less calories than beef. although beef is still pretty miraculous!

but yeah. married and LTR men who look at porn regularly and both man and his woman think this is perfectly normal, because all men look at porn regularly. this is a fooking serious problem that is maybe 14th on the list of other very serious problems hahaha but its one that is in my bailiwick hahaha.

yeah but its not STOPPING these men from having hwyte children, so…..its NOT really serious then?

(many of these men have hwyte children.)

uhhh well i would say it is def harming their rel with their wife, and possibly harming their skills as father. do you think the ideal father is beating off to 18 year old gurls 3 times a week?

i mean im sorta glad these men still have any secs drive.

but i think some of them dont really have a secs drive, they just “like looking” at porn and they ARENT EVEN BEATING OFF TO IT. just ogling and gazing and staring at it. this might be even WORSE than jerking off to it!

i mean what do NORMAL PEOPLE do?  i dont even know! i dont know many normal people! Normies! my porn watching friend is def not normal. I am not normal. he talks about his tuff guy male work mates who are all watching porn.

are they really ALL watching porn, or do the porn watchers just talk about porn with each other?

i really hate to think its NORMAL for All Normal Men to watch porn.

the two men i work with are very normie and very respectable. you think THEY watch porn? I would think they DONT!

and if they do, i imagine they would feel ASHAMED about it, as they SHOULD, and they prob wouldnt do that more than like once every couple months at most.

but these are men in their 40s and 50s. i am more concerned with the porn viewing of men in their 20s and 30s.

well i mean if 40 year old men are using porn regularly, thats obviously not good. its prob worse, becuase at that age, they should KNOW BETTER.

ever try explaining to an enthusiastic porn user why they shouldnt use porn? for you, its OBVIOUS. for THEM, its equally obvious – why WOULDNT you want to see hot young gurls doing really hot shit??!?! and wouldnt you like to be the LUCKY GUY fooking that crazy hawt tattooed suicide gurl in the ass hahaha.

porn makes you think stuff is HOT that you SHOULDNT THINK IS HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stuff that you say, damn, thats PERVERTED, no thank you.

but now obviously, all fetishes are perfectly OK as long as everybody CONSENTS.

absolutely porn is all a part of that. NORMALIZING PERVERSION.

dont call it a FETISH, call it PERVERSION. ABOMINATION. be ashamed, be very ashamed.

i mean ill probably always have my own perversion of wanting ot bang gurls in the ass. if i had a gf i would probably try to bang her in the ass. i def wanted to bang That Woman in the ass. i dont think this is gonna go away. but really im just happy as long as im not watching perverted porn on the topic. i mean i havent intentionally watched porn in well over a year. sought it out for the purposes of looking at it for at least 10 solid minutes and jerking off.

so its hard to put myself back in the mindset of someone who does just that several times a week! i dont want to be in that mindset! but its good that understand the people Im trying to help hahaha.

 

sat dec 2

apr 20

the fuhrers bday hahaha. maybe this blog will be shut down by dec 2 because of all the racist stuff ive been doing hehe.

anglin case on anglins local news in ohio. roosh v writing article on anglin case and pretty much naming the J and taking anglins side. i get a popup on return of kings that says “DEUS VULT!!!” i guess roosh is now pro-hwyte alt right hahahaha.

ok kalki was the 12th avatar of vishnu or some shit or was it krishna? and so savitri devi said AH was like kalki. the DESTROYER OF FILTH. I can really identify with that. i see DESTROYING FILTH as my mission too.

420 day. happy bday fuhrer hahaha. but i just thought. its kinda weird jooish marxist countries like UK and germany and sweden havent legalized MJ yet. i mean its more legal in the US than it is in the UK.

the only job openings are for jobs SO SHITTY, like being a PATSY SCAPEGOAT FALL GUY BAGHOLDER to sit there and take abuse from angry customers your company has screwed, jobs that are like oh god theres no way i can survive even one day of this. then you stick it out in a job like that for 2 or 3 years and maybe you can move on to something better if you are a top 20% performer and not some average asshole.

its called PAYING YOUR DUES hahahaha.

and its harder than the military and jail combined. i honestly dont know why more people dont k themselves to get out of it. or join the military or intentionally go crime to get sent to jail.

i dont want to go to jail because its for scumbag negros and i dont want to get raeped in the ass.

but to sit there and take abuse all day and pathetically try to do something you dont know how to do, thats kinda like being raeped in the ass hahahaha. no not quite but it does put you on EDGE ALL DAY LONG. then when you go home youre on edge too, becasuse youre WORRIED about being on edge all day TOMORROW.

oh youre just figuring this out at age 30 hahahaha

no i was always sort of aware and afraid of it hahaha but didnt actually live it until somewhat recently. now im even MORE afraid of it!

how do peopel survive?

they become raging alcoholics and pill poppers!

then how do they keep their jobs? those bad habits will give you a hangover and affect your work performance so that youre not even AVERAGE anymore, but BELOW average!

some guy was on return of kings commenting he didnt agree with daily stormers anti  race mixing views, because he totally enjoyed banging his young indian GF who was “TWO STANDARD DEVIATIONS ABOVE AVERAGE”, when he had NEVER pulled a hwyte gurl that hot. This white guy could pull indian gurls that were HOTTER than the hwyte gurls he could pull. and Raceless Hotness was the ONLY thing he cared about.

i thought it was a little autistic. and showed that HE had no connection to his own race. and i say this as someone who also appreciates that young indian gurls can be quite good looking!

and if i could pull a good looking one, i would DEFINITELY bang.

but i would HOPE i wouldnt throw my own RACE under the bus like that guy did.

i mean im not surprised to see this Hedonistic, Pornified approach at RETURN OF KINGS!!!! I should be happy they are even turning towards a better path, being less degen. and i suppose i am. i mean these degens get a lot RIGHT about the nature of women, and how to pull women. they just have their long term goals fooked up.

Normie Jobs are so INCREDIBLY STRESSFUL, thats why SO MANY people are on benzos. xanax and valium. i never took a benzo till i got a horrendously stressful, ie normal, job. and then i was like doc you gotta give me somethign for this.

too bad i cant get MJ the same way hahaha.

i mean i would have to lie and say i had back pain. i dont really want to LIE to doctors. unless I KNEW the doctor was gonna write me a MJ rec without needing to see any medical records.

i also wouldnt LIE to a doctor to try to get opiates. Not really interested in opioids hahahaha. i mean if i could get a huge supply for cheap, yeah sure. but those things are expensive af. a pill of oxycontin you pay 1 dollar for at the pharmacy costs like 40 dollars on the street. fact. so its no suprise people can spend 1000 dollars a day on opioids. the mystery is where they get the money. they switch to HERON because HERON is CHEAPER than Oxycontin!!!!

poor georgie boy. i hope he comes back in 6 months and has good news. i think he really was/is a good guy. i dont want to watch any other forever alone, “TFL” types.  i mean its a very black pill world to explore. i dont really WANT to explore it. im not even sure how i started liking george. but it just happened. i will miss him and I hope the best for him. i wouldnt mind meeting him some day.

there is a whole internet full of foreveralones, see r/foreveralone, /r9k/, bunch of youtubers in that vein, and i just dont want to go down that road and read that stuff, i cant even read MGTOW stuff. reading hwyte power stuff is about 14333333333333333 times more positive and white pillng hehehe.

that deserves repeating hehehe. yeah i have whatever those losers have, laziness and patheticness and “untreated despair”, but being around people like that whining about it is JUST AWFUL. read hwyte power stuff instead, you will feel better about yourself. honestly better.

so what is this blog? im not sure but I do NOT consider myself part of the “FA Community.” I dont read any of that shit and I recommend that YOU do NOT read that shit. George is literally the ONLY “FA” person I liked. and i suspect he was sympathetic to WP hahaha. i mean it will CURE you FA, because you realize you’re never really ALONE, you are part of a beautiful RACE.

seeing if there are any “resources” on “depression” at DS BBS:

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/black-pilled-af/95777

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/tfw-tism/99559

ok hahaha

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/how-do-i-stop-being-a-wagecuck-and-become-a-neet/96884

QUOTE ” Start looking into collecting SSI. Get some shrink to say you have crippling depression or autism or whatever and can’t hold down a job. Get a lady doctor if you can, trust me, they’re suckers for a sob story. ”

sheeeeeeeeeeeit every so often i get this fear that because i have SUCH a hard time with the Normie Adult World Of Work, that PROVES I am DISABLED and should get DISABILITY NEETBUX because I LITERALLY CANT HOLD DOWN A NORMIE JOB. and THAT feels REAL bad man.

“loneliness is failed solitude” ooooo good one hehehehe. i mean im thankful to appreciate and enjoy being alone, i dont really feel that LONELY, until I happen to interact with other people, and them im like, dam i am awkward af, i dont know how to interact with people, its much less stressful being alone and not being reminded of muh social awkwardness, no wonder i dont have any friends and am terrible with women, hahahaha.

anyway the people on a hwyte power forum will have a MUCH better discussion about despair and trying to beat it, than the same OP on a FA type forum.

i mean this is THE BLACK PILL. no joke. all that FA stuff is SO black pill that they stop realizing how black pill it is. that is a HORRIBLE, tragic way to live life. I wouldnt say its inherently jood like porn……rather its an inherently hwyte reaction to a jood world. you become SPIRITUALLY SICK. like GLR’s SPIRITUAL SYPHILIS.

i mean theres several kinds of that too. where you GIVE IN to the degeneracy, and then where you just want to cry butthurt tears about the degeneracy, you know its bad, you know better than to actively pursue it, you KNOW its bad, thank GOD, but you feel absolutely powerless to fight it, to DO anything about it, and feel like a weak loser who has wasted your whole life, and youll never be tough or strong or courageous enough to make the changes in your like you NEED to make in order for anything to get better. for you to become a normie adult making 28k a year, working FT, being mentally TOUGH enough to Hold Down A Job, finding a decent woman, having children, being a good father.

mark steyn on tucker carlson right now. tucker is becoming a meme on DS so i might as well check him out. he is pretty good. and mark steyn is a great speaker, i have enjoyed listening to him speak for years, even if he is a BASIC BITCH joo lover neocohen hahahahahaha. but he still is a great speaker and we would all do well to listen to him and try to speak like that. be a good ORATOR.

AH was obviously a great orator but I dont speak german at all. so whos a good english language orator. GLR was pretty good. the national action in darlington guy was great. mark steyn is good even though he is not the least bit alt right.

spencer? he could be better. his voice is still kinda gay. but i think he can get better.

myself, i am horrible at speaking. publicly OR privately.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/fake-news-journalist-luke-obrien-trying-to-frame-political-activist-andrew-anglin-as-russian-agent/100472

anglin confesses every piece of dirt his enemies could possibly dig up on him. i have a mancrush on him and think he is an interesting guy and would like to read an autobiography by him. or listen to him tell his life story in 4 hours of podcast hahaha.

i will prob get this thing shut down by wordpress just for LINKING to daily stormer. it is easily one of the most badgoy sites on the entire internet. its really a miracle its managed to stay up for so long.

apr 21

http://www.nytimes.com/projects/census/2010/explorer.html

use this to help you find a place to live that is over 90% hwyte. i was surprised my area is lower 80s. and it still seems pretty good. my concerned is that arabs and albanians will be counted as hwyte.

yeah, pretty sure ARABS are counted as HWYTE. so be careful with this map.

im sure jooz are counted as hwyte but it might be good to live around middle class jooz because they will preach diversity but want to live in 90%+ hwyte areas where it is safe from nonwhyte crime and violence.

i should probably go to Hippie Drug Gathering where all the gurls do drugs and offer themselves up freely, like antifa gurl. of course you have to take huge precautions, but at least you would be banging young girls who are hopefully 7/10 at least. and really solidify your view that damn, all women really are disgusting whores who need to be physically restrained by BRUTE STENGTH, BEFORE they INEVITABLY BECOME disgusting whores who go to hippie gatherings and bang strangers.

meet up with the old friend today. expectations are managed beforehand. ideally he wouldnt drink at all. i prob wouldnt be too pissed if he drinks MODERATELY. i WILL be pissed if he gets SLOPPY drunk, and prob even MORE pissed if he wants me to blow in his damn car breathalyzer. uhhh that thing is in your car for a REASON. Yes I KNOW LE is just a bunch of jooish zog who Generate Revenue by arresting tons of people at .10 BAC. but in your case, you had way more than .10 BAC and have a legit drinkign problem. people like you are the reason they invented car breathalyzers. how the hell do you get to WORK then. you see me once in 6 months and cant even not drink before going out to a restaurant?

well MAYBE he will be on good behavior tonight. i hope he is. shit i’ll go to the jooish hooters breastaurant if he just doesnt drink for one god damn night.

i mean this is what a real drinking problem looks like. that asking a person not to get SLOPPY, RAGING, BLACKOUT drunk on ONE night out of 6 MONTHS is a hard bargain.

shit you can start drinking when I LEAVE at 11pm at the latest.

oh your wife is out of town for the weekend, shit thats gonna be the perfect excuse for him to get raging drunk all weekend too. so he doesnt have his Controlling Wife complaining about him drinking. Are You Drinking? Have You Been Drinking? When you went to the restaurant, did you drink? when you went outside, did you drink? when you went downstairs, did you drink?

and then him being obviously too drunk to speak and staggering back and forth, oh no i havent had anything to drink at all.

probably i havent been clear enough from the start that I dont want to see you drinking at all while I am here tonight. just do me that favor because i have known you like 19 years. you can drink yourself stupid when i leave.

and yeah seeing a person like that with a serious drinking prob makes me never want to drink again. because i wasnt quite that bad, but i could have totally gotten that way if i had kept drinkign for years.

i mean hes right in the middle of it, of course hes not gonna have a good perspective on it! of course hes not thinking clearly!

well they say you gotta try ang fail 9 times if you really want to quit a bad habit like drinking. or being a lazy loser neet virgin foreveralone apparently hahahaha.

anglin admitted to doing drugs as a degen youth. how much drugs did he do? well i know he was charged with MJ possession. pretty minor. Kinda wish he’d write a book about his life up to age 25 or so. living in a jungle commune in the phillippines? INTERESTING!

living in CHINA? INTERESTING! sounded like he was able to bang hwyte gurls as well as azn gurls while he was there. so was he teaching english? doing a church missionary thing? he’s not really religious atm but i thought his family was.

i KNOW he’s not my buddy pal frand, but I would be very open to that if I knew him IRL hahahaha. NO I am not gonna STALK him!!!!! i only semi stalk people on the INTERNET ONLY and only when it is a woman i fancy and thats a sure sign I should be talking to her IRL instead of daydreaming about her.

and then WANTING to internet stalk them after they dump me, and feeling terrible, but courageously managing to fight that temptation.

so yeah im really not a yuge stalker of anybody hahahaha. i am pretty good at finding people on the internet though.

but not NEAR as good as 4chan, they can dox antifa who are wearing MASKS. like the shit eating pervert who punched spencer, and the white antiwhite Ethics Professor who hit people with bike locks in berkeley. and the antifa gurl moldylocks was totally doxed within hours, but she wasnt wearing a mask. but how did 4chan do it???? especially the people with MASKS? they do it based on their EYES which I dont know how that is bulletproof evidence. not that I am DEFENDING these awful ANTIFA!!!!! im just saying, is it enough to get that shitty adjunct instructor fired?

ok. 1% vs 4% milkfat cottage cheese. which one tastes better, lets find out hahaha.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edgar_Steele

dont forget about this guy. pro-hwyte attorney, something we need a lot more of. i know OF one out in the real world at the moment, fully doxed and all, and it’s honestly kind of suspicious how he HASNT been set up yet. how has he managed to fly under the radar???!!?!?!?!

http://www.germanvictimsDOTcom/wp-content/uploads/2014/09/Defensive-Racism-By-Edgar-J-Steele.pdf

check out his famous book defensive racism,  i should read this NOW

hmm went to jail for conspiring to k his wife, thats kinda sleazy. i mean im assuming shes a sleazebag too who wanted to divorce him and take 90% of his money, which I could understand might make a person entertain the hypothetical notion, but theres still no excuse to k your wife. unless she is coming at you with a gun trying to k you and you are doing self defense.

welp gonna meet this friend here in 88 minutes. little nervous about that. maybe I will take a valium hehe. seriously. so if I did that, would that give him license to drink?

actually i could probably tolerate NORMAL moderate drinking, like average normies do. go to the bar and have 3 or 4 drinks. but he doesnt do that. he gets SO drunk that he cant even have a conversation, just mumbling incoherently, and then passes out raging drunk. you were this bad 15 minutes ago, you clearly snuck off and chugged some straight vodka or something. thats the thing I really dont like. that and making me blow into the car. at that point im like this is ridiculous, i’ll just drive.

he doesnt have any of the guilt or shame i had, where i was like i dont WANT my friends to SEE me like this! how shameful!!!

apparently now DS forum is closed to new people. you can read it but cant register. not sure how new people sign up. havent heard anything about invites or vetting.

ok leaving in 12 minutes. i will take a valium before leaving. i have historically been bad about standing up for muh self, like, do me a favor and just dont drink. dont make me blow into the car. dont get so drunk you are mumbling incoherently. i only ask those three things. but that is my line and i will not be happy if you cross that line. boundaries. hehehe. and when you cross that line, i get unhappy, and that is why i am not springing to hang out with you all the time. because i am disgusted by your extreme drinking problem.

USE YOUR WORDS hahahahaha.

however it is true i am a prickly pear and i am TERRIBLE about maintaining contact with people. that is a FACT.

but when people contact me, i usually respond to them and hang out with them even.

would i let him drink if he had an MJ card and agreed to use it to buy me MJ? PROBABLY YES hahahahaha. i really dont think he does, in fact that whole hypothetical is ridiculous.

 

 

sun nov 26

april 14

heh. way over on calories again yesterday. like 900 over muh goal of 1500, which, admittedly, is a hard number to reach. but def doable! but NOT fun. 900 over is pretty fun hahahaha. well, 500 over is fun. 900 over def felt excessive. so, at 1500, you basically always WANT to go 500 over hehehe. every day. successfully resist the temptation or forever be a fat neet virgin loser making less than 11k a year hahahaha.

good friday. the day the perfidious murderers of christ perfidiously murdered christ. beautiful sunny day atm!

i wanted to look at this lasha darkmoon for a full hour, her work looks like it deserves that much at least. i would link to but i dont want a trackback. even though i endorse the site, probably.

i guess she is still currently writing articles, thats prob good. the guy at blindlight thinks she is a J, but he is a real renegade tier nutjob who thinks everyone is a J, including renegade hehehe. i saw renegade posting an LD article but hope that doesnt mean that LD endorses renegade! who are really a goddamn embarrassment at BEST, i would rather read blindlight. but would i bang crazy sinead? without hesitation. imho she is very attractive.

https://www.darkmoonDOTme/2016/mind-pollution-the-promotion-of-sexual-perversion-on-national-tv/

anyway LD seems to be a decent writer, a good writer and arguer. well worth reading.

lots of stuff about porn and secsual perversion and how the joos promote it to destroy goys. Great! great writing and expose of the filth i mean. kalki destroyer of filth.

ok. trying to work myself up to go out at 1 pm. get haircut and go grocery.

ok try to drink just tea on weekends and leave coffee for the week hahahaah. i mean imho the tea i make is pretty strong still.

heh. forgot about occidental observer, that is full of great writing and prob great comments

too cool to list DS or even TRS in their links tho? this might not be an intentional snub. i mean OO is naming the J every day. i cant NOT support them hahaha. surprised they still have a working paypal!

no KMAC is a great man and I should give him more luv. he is also not very young so i hope he still has a few more good years left in him. how about a passionate, not-super-academic book, about 500 pages, saying he is why we need to defoo the joo, take away female voting, how to deal with the black problem in the US, how to fix Education, how to fix demographic problems, how to defend your position against shitlibs.

briefly watched a program on pbs yesterday about a black Community Organizer who was complaining about the Cycle of Poverty and how when black men get out of prison, they have NO WAY of getting a legit job and making enough money to live, so they are FORCED to return to crime, forced to return to jail, so we need mo monay fo mo pogams to educate these men with real skills and get them real jobs so they dont need to go back to crime. he seemed like a nice peaceful man who i wouldnt worry about him personally living in muh neighborhood hehehe and of course he addressed tons of important questions about blacks, prison, education, jobs. i should have watched the program more.

as a US goy, the Black Question is very relevant to me, and I hate how it is used to Prove White Systematic Racism and Oppression. so yeah its a VERY important question to address for amerifat goys, ALMOST as important as the JQ. Certainly there is more opportunity to talk about and debate the BQ with real life shitlibs, as opposed to the JQ. the BQ is a GREAT OPPORTUNITY to have an actual conversation, debate, and maybe conversion with shitlibs, who would dismiss the JQ as conspracy theory bullshit.

but yeah its interesting, you dont really have the BQ in europe. of course you have the MQ there in a way that the US doesnt. and shit that is becoming a bigger problem in US over time. but i still think the black question and the latinx question will be more important, in the us, than the moslem question hehehehe.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/cucknadia-to-be-the-first-country-to-legalize-recreational-weed/99145

heh this is also a question too hehehehe.

yes andrew i am having tough time finding MJ now that you mention it!

but thats not because its actually hard to find! thats because I am a crazy broken weirdo person! i mean really there are LITERAL TONS of legal medical MJ just a few miles from where I am right now. just got a get a MMJ card. OR meet somebody with an MMJ card who is wiling to buy. OR just be a social normie and meet SOMEBODY who can get MJ. DAMN.

QUOTE

Before the weed people come whining – look, I don’t even think it should be a criminal offense.
But as it is now, are you having a hard time finding weed?

Come on.

What is the benefit of legalizing it?

All it does is encourage young people – including children – to smoke it.

There is no positive, and no, it’s not the same thing as alcohol, stop saying that because you know it isn’t the same thing.

Most people who drink alcohol are not alcoholics, whereas most people who smoke weed smoke it all the time. Also, alcoholics tend to be more functional than pot-smokers.  END QUOTE

MJ is the opium of the masses. YES!

i agree with everything they are saying about the degenerate jooishness of MJ. but I still WANT it. right now.

heh somebody in the thread linked this video which reminded me of how great the BUKOWSKI TAPES are. yeah hes a degenerate drunkard…..but just watch the tapes at least once in your life. he’s still on my list of people i would like to meet in history hehehhe. as a young drunken degenerate i would watch the buk tapes RELIGIOUSLY.

i think he was implicitly racially aware but still not CONNECTED as much as a healthy white man should be. where you actively, explicitly LOVE YOUR RACE.  also his drinking was degenerate and made him better not worse. doesnt mean he’s not great to listen to, or to want to hang out with the guy. I could listen to him for hours, he has a really relaxing voice and way of talking. probably because he is always drunk hahahahaha. he would have been a better white man if he wasnt always drunk. but i cant poo poo on ol hank, he was a great man. i just wish he wasnt a hopeless Alcoholic!

he said he would have K’d himself if he WASNT an alcoholic. hehehe I know that feel man. but you HAVE to find a way. NOT to K yourself and NOT be an alcoholic.

anyway, MJ hahahaha. so decrim would be better than legalization? because full legalization would mean jooish Big Monsanto MJ? and fooktons of Govt Interference? yes.

so, there are more powerful interests there, which would prob make legalizaton MORE like than decrim. because legal would mean more money for da jooz.

so i guess im confused as to why it isnt legal RIGHT NOW then. well its CLEARLY MOVING that way! and prob will be fully legal within 10 years! especially if canada legalizes it!

some hwytes say all drugs should be “legal” (decrim) and then all the heron addicts can K themselves easily with overdoses. weed out the weak.

heh. who has more hidden costs. MJ addicts or heron addicts. in terms of medical stuff (prob the heron people) but what about “lost productivity”. both would prob score high there. hehehe i am trying to say that MJ is just as bad for Hwyte Society as OPIOIDS. and also admitting that I WANT to Throw My Life Away on DRUGS!!!!!! I WANT to! horry sheet!

anyway even if MJ does not really hurt adult brains over the age of 25……how many HUge Stoners are there under 25? A FOOKLOAD!!!!! I sm0ked WAY to much MJ before the age of 25. WAYYYYYY too much. its part of the reason I am so RUINED right now.  and now Im like, well, im ruined, wont make any difference if i sm0ke mj now.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/study-shows-most-whites-in-america-dont-feel-white-guilt/99260

GOOD! They SHOULDNT!!!!

heh. some cable companies charge MORE for Just phone and internet, than they charge for TV AND phone and internet. meaning you gotta pay MORE to take TV OUT.  this is because They Know how powerful of a weapon TV is against evil hwytes.

recently signed up for netflix and i was APPALLED at the amount of disgusting jooish filth on there. stuff ive never heard of. new gay jooish netflix tv shows. i mean there is plenty of good stuff which probably justifies the price of the netflix, but there is shitloads of degenerate jooish filth you have to scroll past when browsing tv shows.  trannie teens, subversion, perversion, gay senior citizens, hotwives hehehe.

auburn shutting down spencers appearance one day after it was announced hahaha. hope they get it unshut. like azzmador sez, hire a bunch of big negros for security. would really trigger the joos.

oh yeah so i as larping again and thought the best thing would be for 23 year old young men to marry 18 year old virgin gurls, with the arrangement of their fathers, and then immediately start cranking out white babies. the men should be at least at LEAST 4 years older than the women, but still be kinda young, and basically be the youngest a man can be while still making a good living, good enough to support a wife and baby, and i believe in the hwyte paradise we can have young men trained for jobs to make decent money by age 23. age 22? yep. 21? I think so.

so how about 21 year old boys with 17 year old gurls then? again, total involvement of fathers. the boys would be horny af until they are 21, but then they get a beautiful 18 year old wife. 95% of girls are qt when they are 18.

i guess you could allow hookers or sluts for pre-21 boys, but if the gurls are kept off the c0ck carousel and are virgins when they marry at 18, they will be more open to beta men who dont have to constantly neg them and game them and frame them. which doesnt mean the man wouldnt put the smack down when necessary, and Command his wife like a Leader, and not tolerate childish tantrums.

so that would be best imho. young men makign good money at age 21-23, then they marry 18 year old gurls, have 3 kids each.

this is not too far from what used to happen in the good old days hahahaha.

with my radical transformational education system, the young men would be able to make  decent, average, working class, child rearing money by age 21, 22.

believe me youre still plenty horny at that age and wouldnt mind being faithfully married to a beautiful young 18 year old gurl who wasnt gonna leave you. you wouldnt want Novelty. that’s a GOD DAMN DIRTY JOOISH LIE, that men want “novelty” that bad. men will be PERFECTLY HAPPY with familiar, habit, non novelty, provided its an 18 yo QT!!!!!! PROVE ME WRONG!!!!!

bbbbut what about the 30 year old virgin men?

THERE WOULDNT BE ANY. THEY WOULD HAVE BEEN MARRIED BY 23.

well CERTAINLY when this policy is FIRST STARTING there will be unmarried men over 23 and not enough 18 year old gurls to go around. men like myself. and if we marry an 18 year old gurl then we’re TAKING them from a 23 year old young man.

so…..breed more women than men for a while? hard to do that without abortion, which is OF COURSE NOT EVER AN OPTION.

well, to the top 10% or 20% of unmarried over 23’s, they get a 18 year old wife then.

still doesnt help me hahahaha. or us neet virgin losers.

again im larping for normies, and we are not normies!!!!! so what do you do with US???!!?!?!??!

uhhh working a 28k a year job and having a 26 yo 7.3/10 GF would def help hahahaha.

so, if canada legalizes MJ, will that speed it up in the US? how much MJ will come from canada into the US? some say its aleady REALLY EASY to get MJ in canada.

would it be easier for an OUTLIER WEIRDO like me/us to get MJ in canada?

maybe walking around downtown vancouver. get it from some chinee chowee hahahaha. you rikey da racky reed rororororor.

but yeah damn i slept so well with no valium and no benedryl last night, solid damn 11 hours, it was BEAUTIFUL. makes me not want to use those things recreationally once a week hahahaha. i mean whats the point? a few hours of sluggish  semi relaxation before you go to bed? pointless. not good enough value add. not value added.

https://www.reddit.com/r/PussyPass/

pro hwyte subreddit, or at least now it has become that way. not bad. prob wont last long before being shut down by the j’s like /r/altright was shut down. by joos aka reddit aka jooz.

HWYTE SHARIA. this is becoming a meme with the more woman-hating among us, which I am 75% of the time. but I dont agree we should use BURKAS or any kind of moslem imagery. also no need for beating women to death or anything more than a light open handed slap. i mean if the woman is an ADULTERESS then yes there should be punishment, but not painful death, but some scarlet letter shit or banishment. branded with slut tattoo, headshavings for 2 years, wifes family pays the husbands family 14k fine at minimum, she gets put on a list that gets posted at city hall. on the internet of course. were not taking INTERNET away!

but yeah there was a 50 year old woman on DS forum that responded respectfully to anglin’s woman hating stuff with a gentle reminder that all women aren’t that bad, we dont need SHARIA per se, and that it is unhealthy and the joo LUVS it when hwyte men hate hwyte women like this. they LUV it.  so stop hating the women so much. im an above-45 woman so i get it, young women are HORRIBLE. but this extreme contempt for women is not the answer. we have to learn to work together. we are complements and helpmeets hahahaha. we are a team. anglin i implore you to think of how your anti woman stuff plays RIGHT into schlomos rubbing merchant hands.

she had a good point, but andrews woman hating will NEVER be a deal breaker for me because yeah I DO get it. but this 50 year old woman DOES have a good point.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/charging-bull-artist-calls-out-debauched-feminist-perversion-of-fearless-girl/98896/129

ok here is her comment.

QUOTE

And propagating our species! I’d say that’s a pretty important job.

Please replace the word “women” with the words, “angry/brainwashed/feminists” for your descriptions.

I understand all these angry, “latchkey kid” insults. It’s called serious bond break with mother. RAD, Radical Attachment Disorder, Or just AD, and isn’t as rare as people think. It just presents itself in different degrees. It was a j00 agenda from the start to make more slave tax payers. Put women to work. Take them from their children! Then those generations of children, male and female, obviously, grow up broken, and angry. They make good killing machines. Feeling unloved and unprotected, and they were, unprotected, and possibly unloved! Most mothers naturally love their children, but when they have to go back to work, they suppress the feeling to keep from dying from the pain of separation.

We are now dealing with 3 generations of bond broken people. It’s big! Unfixable! Dangerous to society as a whole and it’s both male and female. The males of this psychological operation however tend to be the most dangerous, as they are bigger, stronger, and angrier. A full 1/3 of children are molested before the age of 16. Animal abuse is through the f00king roof. Our prisons are over flowing! You can see the manifestations of this in both sexes, and all races who’ve left their children without love, or guidance. They are killing each other for fun. They have no conscience, no ability to love, and no reason to want to. It’s a foreign thing they can’t understand.

This is how the demon j00s have turned our men into pedophiles, woman haters, and murderers for their war machine. So, people, answer me this. What the hell are we going to do with 3 or 4 generations of psychopaths living amongst us? Our best and brightest are being destroyed from birth.

Andrew, I have much respect for what you do here, or I wouldn’t have stayed this long. Fostering this hatred between the sexes, I believe is playing right into the j00s hands. It’s exactly what they want. I understand that there are huge issues between us all, that are not of our making, so the best we an do is try to help others see this too. I suppose this article might be a catalyst, if I understand anything about AA.

You stated a year or more ago, that without naming the enemy, we can’t fight it. I’ll add without naming the effects of the enemy, we can’t fight it either. Well, I don’t believe men and women are the enemy of each other. We’ve been corrupted to believe this is so. Yes, there are some very brainwashed screwed up women out there who’ve been conditioned to hate men. It seems to me tho, there are some very screwed up, brainwashed men too, who are being conditioned to hate woman.I’m not playing a blame game here. Trying to stop one! This is a psyop of megalithic proportions that can’t be fixed overnight, but we must find a way forward or our species will not survive. That is (((their))) wish!

Back to the issue of this article. How does this help? Are you being the provocateur here to spur debate? It just looks to me like another case of men and women not understanding each others motives, or creativity. Why does this have to be yet another reason to hate all women?

This, is what we’re putting into the world. This is how angry and dangerous even small children become. This doesn’t take extreme abuse. Like I said, it happens in varying degrees, and it’s frightening how many of these are adults, even into their 70’s now, who’s lives were ruined by the j00s war machine, and mothers having to leave their homes to work for same. Or work because their men were dead. It’s all by design!

END

to me, white sharia would consist of:

  1. taking away womens “right” to vote
  2. outlawing abortion
  3. heavy social shaming for unladylike behavior
  4. punishing cheaters as mentioned above
  5. no need for brutal physical violence like the moslems use
  6. nice old school european clothing like long dresses and Babushkas to cover womens heads, no beekeeper burkas needed.

and thats basically it. NO i dont think Female Genital Mutilation is needed either.

spanking and the occasional light slap would be the only physical punishment needed.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/the-jew-as-adversary-in-the-battle-over-obscenity-pornography-and-sexual-morality-part-8-jews-and-film/99387

ooooo part 8? i bet parts 1 thru 7 are good too hahaha

ok its a nice day, should go for 2 powerwalks today.

ok went for 1. it was really nice and warm outside.

hmm lauren southern doing an “alt lite” even at berkeley today. hopefully the antifa do something embarassing.

so mike enoch is Owning His Face and just putting his face out there as Mike Enoch and has a decent looking twitter photo. for the record, i dont believe HE is a joo, and i have a much more positive attitude towards him than most of daily stormer. mike is not a joo, i dont think trs is joo compromised, i dont think his wife is doing anything bad, shit the only thing i’m still upset about is people being banned like crazy from the forum for no good reason. but OVERALL they have a very good community, with meetups and such, and DS is not really at this level yet. i would like them to be!  but yeah its frustrating when i see people at DS saying mike is a joo and all of TRS is jood. i dont think so at all.

heh. if i had the opportunity to buy MJ jsut once every 2 months…..that would be fine. i would buy enough for the 2 months and not bitch and moan. and CERTAINLY not even THINK about degen MJ legalization hahahaha. shit maybe even once every 3 months. not asking to just go down to the store and get it whenever i want!

similarly with secs. could not even IMAGINE having secs once every 3 months. seems too much to ask. i dont even care about the Secs, I care about making out with a qt who likes me. if i had a GF where i only saw her once every 3 months but she was qt, and nice, once every 3 months would be just fine hahaha. then i can share her with 89 other guys hahaha.

it could just be a fantasy hahaha. basically pay for a GFE from an attractive woman once every 3 months. i’d prob start wanting it once a month hahahaha.

the very few times qt gurls were interested in me, shit, i wanted to spend ERRY DAY with them because I was like THIS IS GREAT. I KNEW that was considered needy, so i settled for once a week, or once every 2 weeks. and then after a few weeks of that, they dumped me because i wanted a rel and they just wanted a coch in their cvnt, any coch will do. i was looking for someone special, they were just looking for negro style casual fooks. it feels good to be a dirty whore because secs is FUN. so why shouldnt you have as MUCH of it with as MANY guys as possible. double your pleasure!

heh. and then go on to make way more money, respect and status than me hahaha.

and they werent even bad people! they were just Typical Middle Class University Career Gurls! i mean yeah they were TOTAL Middle Class, parents had middle class masters degree careers, no surprise that their slutty daughters would too. you can have it all! i mean they probably got married and had 1 kid who will have bipolar by age 4 hahahaha. well i know one got married and then got divorced.

and these werent BAD women! they were more sympathetic to me than That Woman!

anyway. i mean it seems kind of NEEDY, GREEDY, and EXCESSIVE to want to be with your Waifu EVERY DAY. Why not once a week?

so what do they do the other days of the day? work on their career? thats the mans job! fook their other boifrans?  ideally they would be raising children! and raising children is NOT a one day a week job! so it becomes a lot less NEEDY and EXCESSIVE to expect your GF/wife to be with you every day.

but yeah i wish you knew in advance exactly how much luv you were gonna get and you had the power to control your dose hahahaha but NOOOOOOO they shut you down at the WORST possible time, then skip off teehee teehee to suck negro dick hahahaha.

i was just thinking how UNFAIR it is to all the neet virgins who havent cuddled witha grill in 10 years, that people with actual GFs could cuddle with a grill every night if they wanted.

but then it all makes sense when you consider the CHILDREN.

so i’m saying guys should SHARE their gfs with neets before the gfs have children? hahahaha of courshe not. that would be degenerate and jooish.

i am just saying, feeling that warm fuzzy comfy af feel every couple months would be YUGE for the CONFIDENCE hahahaha.

i guess i was thinking about my “one chance to buy MJ every 3 months” idea.

well i would just buy enough MJ to last 3 months. i would sure as hell be USING it damn near every day. you cant do that with a grill because to “USE” a grill she has to be there with you, choosing to spend time with you. you cant just buy a quantity of quality time and then dole that out to yourself at intervals of your choosing! APPLES AND ORANGES! you cant just see your “waifu” once every 3 months then get enough luv and GFE to last you 3 months so that you can dip into it every 2 days and get a little bit! like you would with a bag of MJ!

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/i-identify-as-being-five/99452

heh just last year we were JOKING about this.

heh. i need to get back to reading HWYTE POWER obviously. when i do not then muh head gets filled with negative thoughts.

so, alt lite rally in berkeley today with lauren southern. looks like identity evrope with nathan damigo showed up and there was video of damigo punching a dreadlock female antifa in the face, which was pretty kewl. but i wonder if he will get in trouble for that. wouldnt be surprised.

wewlad. finally got under 1500 cals for first time in a while cuz i was able to powerwalk for 5.6 miles today. not bad!

but yeah tbh i am getting tired of the woman hate on DS. women are less than dogs, women are worse than jooz, i mean it wont turn me away from DS, or stop dnating to it, or having a huge mancrush on anglin, but it will make me shake muh haid at these huge woman haters on the BBS. but i think its maybe just a phase.

but im a white knight because i dont hate women AS much? i still want to take away their voting, their abortion, i want to publicly shame and punish sluts, i think women should be out of the workforce, i am in favor of light slapping, and I’m still a god damn WHITE NIGHT because I dont want to literally chain muh wife up and beat her with muh wife beating stick.

sun nov 12

mar 27

yep here at 652 am, all dressed up, showered, ready to go, prob have one more explosive BM in 10 minutes, then go and have productive, powerful, valuable, value-adding, value-making day hahahaha.

hmm 7:15 of sleep last night, not great hahahahaha. see how the best laid plans go awry. went to bed at 8pm. numbers are point to near 9 hours of sleep needed. ok fine. deal with it.jpg. really SHOULD go to bed at 7:15 pm then but that would just look too weird.

checked email, calendar, before going to job here.

the story of the student who spent 12 hours working a 12 hour midnight shift in a machine shop then feel asleep the next morning because he was going to COLLEGE in the am and working 12 hours during the night. holy shit. i can barely work 6 hours of an easy job then do ANYthing afterwards, let alone go to a 3 hour college class in the morning hahahaha.

and i actually had a little energy today! not sure where that came from hahaha since i “only” got 7:15 of sleep last night.

normal people work 12 hour shifts at night from…. 8pm to 8am, making 10 dollars an hour, so they can take a class from 9am to 1pm that gets them 1% closer to becoming qualified to compete for 14 dollar an hour jobs hahahaha.

its amazing. i never knew that normies worked so HARD. i figured that the normal normie was LAZY like me. most people go for the path of LEAST RESISTANCE, right? its why so many people are so GROTESQUELY OBESE. because fatty food is cheap and unlimited, and people cant CONTROL THEMSELVES. so how can they control themselves to become damn WORKAHOLICS? but they cant control themselves not to become GROTESQUELY obese? something just doesnt make sense here!!!!!

ok maybe they save all their self control for work, so they dont have any left when it comes to eating. that MUST be how it works.

well then how come they arent PROFLIGATE drinkers or opioid poppers either?

because THE RULE IS, you have enough self control to keep you from being hopelessly addicting from All Things But ONE. Pick One. every person has ONE tragic flaw. not two, but one and only one hahahahaha.

sooo……..how come plenty of other people are opioid poppers AND huge losers who can’t work? thats TWO tragic flaws hahahahaha.

basically in order to be a normie successful adult so you can have an ok wife and take care of your children and make 30k a year, you have to be willing to work 12 hour midnight shifts and THEN go to SKOOL afterwards for YEARS until you get your degree and can then afford to have a wife and a family. if you’re not willing to work that HARD for that LONG, you dont deserve a family of your own hahahahahahahaha.

well whats WRONG with that?

well, other than that is my RULE for Why I can never get married and have children!

what else….

oh well i just never wanted to be a WORKAHOLIC, so that’s why im a huge loser now. all those drug bums sucking dick on the streets, the only reason they’re like that is not because they werent willing to WORK, but because they werent willing to be WORKAHOLICS.

i only want to work 40 hours a week and not an hour more, that is why i’m a HUGE LOSER AT LIFE. see, something doesnt add up hahahaha.

just remember. the qt nice perfect gurl you want to buy FLOWERS for, is just some more manly guys DIRTY BUTTSLUT. taking it up the ass from guys she just met at COLLEGE in a drunken orgy. and you want to be all nice and pedestally and white knight to THAT? a dirty BUTT SLUT??!?!?!!

oh but she’s special TO ME. yeah well to other men she is just a dirty butt slut literally taking it up the ass. you can’t undo that.

heh sorry i am watching a law and order SVU about College Raep Epidemic of innocent gurls getting GangReaped at Frat Parties by evil hwyte boys.

the hunting ground.mov

college sluts who get gang reaped then go to psych ward for 2 years end up becoming more successful in life than me hahahahaha. get out of the psych ward, go back to skool, get masters degree as a raep crisis counselor, MA.

oh god i really am horrible. no i dont think any gurl deserves to get raeped, even the ones who are literally asking for it. white men dont raep women ever, period, not even the dirtiest trashiest fatherless butt sluts.

you know what kind of men DO raep women? negros. joos. arabs. any hwyte man who raeps a woman is basically a race traitor.

goddamn. ate too much at dinner again.

also saw at least one beautiful hwyte young college gurl today, wearing jeans that I as her father would not let her wear. why do they have to wear pants that are SO TIGHT? i know we are not ARABS who need our women in BURKA DURKAS, but my god, I thought MODESTY was a hwyte virtue!

how about a nice long skirt? how about pants that DONT perfectly cling to your buttocks, legs, thighs, hips like a Second Skin???!?!?!?!!?! damn!

i just hate the thought of women i Luved going off and being dirty butt sluts. A woman should NEVER, EVER be a dirty butt slut, EVER. its not just some PHASE you go through when you are 18 to 21. NO. NEVER. EVER. EVER.

well its hard to believe i even GOT feelings for her (not really). i mean these “all women are dirty sluts” thoughts are nothing new for me, i’ve been thinking this way since i was like 13 hahahahahahahaha.

but the reason its not surprising i feel in luv with her was, she was YOUNG, she was HWYTE, she didnt have any KIDS, she was very NICE to me, and we were FRIENDS and built up some closeness, we KNEW each other.  also she was a Solid 7, Not Potatoey, Long Legs, very whyte skin, there were no real dealbreakers about her physically. like being a stumpy potato or nonwhyte or old or blatantly Haggishly Fugly is really it for me.

anyway this is dead horse shit. not even interesting.

well bitcoin coming back up again thank GOD.

i felt pretty good until I came home, THEN i felt like a lazy bum who didnt want to be a workaholic to survive. when i am Working On The Clock, i feel a LITTLE bit more normie. well unless I think, this doesnt COUNT, this is not a proper normie bigboy job. then yeah that  thought sucks too.

i guess ALL of it is technically WAY better than being a 100% jobless neet.

great TITS on that marishka hargitay, even if she is a manfaced lanternjaw manjaw. would totally bang.

and i dont mean to minimize the rest of her body by saying she has GREAT TITS. im sure she probably has a BRETTY GOOD ass as well!!!!

hehehe. this is what the LORD has destined for me, to be constantly AT WAR with women. yeah MOST of that is ON ME, i fully admit it……but SOME of it is on them. they dont HAVE to be so horrible. yeah its all da jooz fault. but god damn. cant they RESIST the jooing even a TINY bit? no! they LUV it! they LUV being negro whores!!!!!

not all women! some women, it DOES bother them on some deep level, and they say, there must be more to life than this. than being chad, tyrone, and achmed’s dirty butt slut on instagram and tinder.

even the women i knew in COLLEGE to be HUGE SLUTS werent as big of sluts as the Fictional Slut in my MIND, this horrible fantasy nightmare of the sluttiest slut who ever existed (but who really NEVER existed.) sure, plenty of women are slutty and gross, but not THIS slutty and gross.

if i could Literally make a CAREER out of slut shaming I would. I would WILLINGLY, EAGERLY get a MASTERS DEGREE in it.

What would YOU get a masters degree in?

well ok that one doesnt exist. what are my safety nets.

Joo Exposing. Eradicating Jooish Degeneracy.

nope sorry that one doesnt exist either.

becoming and UNbecoming a Neet Loser. i guess that one might exist, as a counselor, therapist, psychologist, social worker, shrink.

so THATS what I should become then? a SOCIAL WORKER??????? a COUNSELOR?

oh yeah. marriage and relationship counselor. that would also be good hahaha. man woman relshits i mean ships.

from a very unpozzed, hwyte, nonjooish perspective.

but all education/training/research in this fields is HEAVILY jooed, as is basically anything thats not a hard stem science. you literally CANNOT ESCAPE it if you want to get the degree and work in the field.

and plenty of people leave the field and become Customer Service Agents because that pays better and they have mouths to feed.

which you can totally do without a Masters Degree, even in Current Year.

Can’t say that will ALWAYS be the case though.

WHAT A WORLD that would be. in 2027, you wont even be able to get a job in a Customer Service Call Center unless you have a MASTERS DEGREE in Customer Service. HOLY FOOK.

oh sorry. you have a masters degree in customer service but not a masters degree in customer service in a phone call center, looks like YOUR masters degree was in face to face customer service.

right major, but wrong CONCENTRATION hahahaha.

shit think i drank too much coffee today. might not be able to sleep tonight even though i plan on going to bed at decent hour. damn.

you know who doesnt think every woman is a degenerate slut?

chad normies who have been with 1 woman every 2 years since age 18 who are average hard workers who get average bachelors degrees in business related stuff and average 35k a year jobs at age 22, get married by 28, have a kid by 30. raise their kids to not be racist like the terrible older generations. cant take the kids around their racist great-grandparents. smh. those uneducated racists just lived in different times and didnt know any better.

well can you prove to me it ISNT White Systemic Racism that causes all the social problems of The Blacks? you cant! just like YOU cant prove that its all because of their Race!

ok. so its impossible to prove a negative. you cant prove that this ISNT the case. so youre right. I CANT prove it ISNT whtie racism. you cant prove it isnt jooish racism hahahaha. i CAN prove it IS jooish racism! you cant prove it IS hwyte racism!

i clearly need to get back to muh GLR, i am going Nutty.

im just jelly of normie adults. i just want to BE one but its so god damn hard. such a god damn struggle. they WORKED harder than I did, but I think I STRUGGLED MORE than THEM.

too bad the Struggle wasn’t worth more WORK. hahahaha. then i would be making like 35k a year and married a nonslut.

thats the problem with struggling. its even more exhausting than work, but COUNTS for much LESS.  it gets you NOWHERE, AND it wears you out and makes you less likely to do the work that IS actually worth something.

damn.

sheeeeeeit. again ate wayyyyy too much today. god damn. really got to stop this.

so i thought that my interest in race was a part of my “dad phase”, where i wanted to have children but wasn’t man enough, so i will have children symbolically through My Race.

but then today i thought, well its more than just Having Children, it’s Relating To Women as well. the natural connection between men and women, which then leads to children. I dont have children but kinda want children, so i project that onto Race. I don’t have a waifu but I want a (hwyte) waifu….so I project that onto Race as well. these are both pretty big desires, so thus I am a HUGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEE racist. Which I proudly AM. I FOOKING LUV BEING HWYTE.

i mean its only logical. really our race is just a product of thousands of years of hwyte men and hwyte women getting together and having hwyte children!!!!!!! that is Race 101 right there!

ok. so i am obsessed with My Hwyte Race because I am obsessed with Women, with Children, with my own sense of Failure and needing something to cling to. SO WHAT. the only one that’s kinda BAD is that third one.

so….you’re saying if i HAD a woman, I wouldn’t CARE about RACE so much??!?!?!

who the fook am I arguing with here hahahahahaha. i mean this isnt even really fun, its just boring.

when i was in luv with that woman, i didn’t suddenly throw muh race under the bus. i was still very pro-hwyte.

the bottom line is, i’ve been pretty much blatantly pro-white since 2012, before this blog began, i was just more careful back then not to talk about it so blatantly, cuz it was still kinda new and scary.

you think young joos are consciously trying to genocide the goy? fook no! even as they get older i dont think this is ever their conscious goal….however ENDING RACISM certainly IS. and I would argue that there methods of ENDING RACISM are inherently harmful to hwytes.

basically, anti-racist is code for anti-white.

keep asking them questions, keep asking how and why, and eventually anti racists will just end up shaking their heads and saying something like, well look, its just karma, whites reap what they have sown. you cant oppress so many people for so long and not have a backlash, and i am willing to see my race pay the reparations now for all the evil shit they did in the past. i’m not that attached to my whiteness. i don’t care if my children and grandchildren are mixed race. i love diversity! i live and work with people of all races! i would totally marry and have kids with another race! i’m white and i freely admit whites have basically been the worst group of people in history and it’s only FAIR that whites PAY THE TOLL.

this is the sentiment you will find in white leftists and its sickening.

i never was coherent enough to question them to that logical conclusion but i have been present where essentially other people questioned them to that conclusion.

it sounds bad guys, but maybe those evil apartheid fascist boers in south africa just need to die off already. i don’t think racists like that could be helped. just lock them up away from everyone so they cant oppress anyone. they’ll never open their minds. they’ll never changed. they can’t be fixed. there’s so many Old White Racists like that. I cant bring my Grandparents Anywhere. they’re too old to learn. Sad! at least our younger generation knows better and can teach OUR children not to be RACIST.

GO FUCH YASELF.

I won’t teach my kids to be racist or not to be racist, and they will probably learn to be racist just by observing Life. And White Racist Systems Turning Blacks into Easily-Blamable Victims hahahaha.

hey two can play at this hidden wizard of oz behind the curtain bullshit.

so THEIR idea is bullshit of a hwyte man being behind the curtain, but MY idea of da jooz being behind the curtain is totally NOT bullshit?!?!?!

HALP ME GLR hahahahaha

its not the idea of someone being behind a curtain that’s bullshit hehehehe. that is totally not a bullshit metaphor, but a very useful and true one hahahaah.  really ive been into this metaphor for basically my whole life. regardless of political orientation. its just the idea of things not being what they seem. take the red pill hahaha.

am i just hyped up from drinking coffee all day? yeah probably a little.

am i excited from seeing that beautiful 20 year old hwyte gurl earlier today? well now that you mention it, she was very beautiful hahahahaha. but wasnt really thinking about that.

i was walking with an older man when that girl stepped in front of us. he certainly saw her too and maybe even got excited for a second. until he immediately realized that holy shit, he has a daughter who is almost that age. and all the men are gonna be ogling her. i can’t let them out of the house wearing jeans like that.

all this went through my mind in a matter of seconds after the girl appeared hahahaha.

i’ll allow the guy a second of excitement. but i would be disappointed in him if he didn’t immediately take the perspective of The Good Father. because he DOES have a daughter around that age and I DO think he is trying his damnedest to BE a good father! I like and respect the guy in other words.

he has several children in that age bracket. that college age bracket where SO MUCH SHIT can go SO WRONG. where it went so wrong for me. so naturally i am interested in seeing how he guides his children through that. will they become total fookups like me? or will they become successful middle class professionals like HIM?

it is fairly obvious hahahaha. he is guiding them to useful career paths, useful internships, and is probably aware if they have any Severe Emotional Issues hahahahaha.

mar 28
ok 645 am here , getting my morning stuff in hehehe. had weird dream. i was watching a “weird japanese movie” which was the frame for a very realistic story where it was basically me in the movie, fallling in luv with a Manic Pixie Dream Girl who was clearly damaged and disturbed and more than a little kinky and passionate. we enjoyed a passionate affair in a hotel for a few days then she had to leave and she was sad and I was heartbroken. I watched her leave and as she left, she began flirting with a sleazy mocha-skinned guy and smiling and flirting with him and got into a car with him. replaced me with this guy less than 30 mins after leaving me. wow. i was a complicated mix of emotions. yeah i shoulda known better to get mixed up with a MPDG cuz this was TEXTBOOK behavior, but i was lonely and the gurl was young, qt, and throwing herself at me.

also continues the theme of there being movies in my dreams that sometimes recur. often “lars von trier” movie is code for “extremely fooked up nightmare.” this movie was a “japanese” movie called “akira” that was really more of a degenerate jooish thing as a “edgy coming of age love secs story” than anything “japanese”, other than the japanese can ne extremely secsually degenerate, and i suppose that could be a jooish thing.

earlier in the dream i was with muh fam on The Super Rich side of town. we stopped at this extremely lavish hotel type luxury building with hebrew letters. i was like uhhh this is a jooish building, lets stay out of here, i dont care how nice it looks.

we went inside, it was very “nice” and luxurious and opulent. i didnt know if it would be filled with joos but that was my fear, and that they would try to take advantage and humiliate us goys. i was heavily on guard. there were actually some fairly normie looking touristy people like us. i couldnt tell what they were – joo or no joo hahahaha. i put them under heavy khazar/ashkenazi suspicion.

at some point this morphed into the above dream which also took place in a luxurious hotel i think.

7:05 hours of sleep even though i got to bed at proper correct time of 8 pm. just didnt fall asleep till 930 though. yeah prob did drink too much coffee during the day.

i always “like” to try to “FIGURE THINGS OUT” by THINKING about them a LOT, that i think i can think my way through things. but really i just end up OVERTHINKING everything and very often coming to a…..distorted, exagerrated, overly negative conclusion.

its not completely 180 off, maybe just 90 hahaha. so it bears some relation to the truth. mixing lies with the truth is the most effective and damaging kind of lie hahaha. it ruined muh life!

about to leave to go to job here. today would liek to again go to bed at 8 pm, drink less coffee, and DEFINITELY eat less food, ate WAY too much food yesterday and went like 500 calories over. DAMN. maybe do something productive at job. at least come across as charming and normie and nice and willing and able. try to take some phone calls and dispense some confident, authoritative advice: no, you cannot do this, and here’s why. no can do, you don’t have to like it, talk to our legal team, they’ll tell you the same thing, and frankly, they’re not even gonna waste their time calling you back. Good Bye.

later

funny its not the work day that kills me, like it did before. i am adjusting as well as i can to a very favorable environment! but the challenge begins when i get OUT and go HOME, just the STREAM of constant self recrimination of being a lazy loser bum, when you cant legitimately have those thoughts WHILE you are currently Working On The Clock, being productive, so therefore the solution is to be working 40 hours a week or 80 hours a week as opposed to….30 hours a week. workaholics who work 12 hour midnight shifts THEN go to college and stay INSANELY, workaholically BUSY.

https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/what-its-like-taking-a-grown-mans-virginity?utm_source=vicetwitterus

if they werent CREEPY HWYTE WOMEN HATERS, THEY WOULDNT BE VIRGINS WHEN THEY ARE 20+ YEARS OLD! SOMETHINGS CLEARLY WRONG WITH THESE WOMAN HATING NICEGUYTMS!!!! THINKING THEY ARE ENTITLED TO WOMENS BODIES!!!!!

what a BAD CREEPY MAN, he didnt tell you he was a virgin until AFTERWARDS hahahaha. like youd allow him to bang your n>900000 ass if you knew he was a creepy, broken VIRGIN beforehand!

this slut has taken the virginity of AT LEAST FOUR men who were 20+ year old virgins. multiple 30 year old virgins. wow.

well just keep in mind this is a horrible VICE WRITER.

http://archive.is/BkVWY

archive of shitty article. wheres the comments

no comments. damn. anyway these are actually shitty vice readers who are all huge sluts who dont thinkg anything is weird about having secs with a guy drunkenly you have just met. its normal to Blow your manager At Work.  and all the guys have Issues of course, and the women are just looking for a Quick Fook, not to help a guy with his Issues and be his first GF. let somebody else do that. hahahaha. except that never happens. maybe he bangs a few more dirty sluts.

so if i bang a dirty slut, am obligated to tell her beforehand that i havent banged a gurl in 13 years hahahaha? that i have only really banged 1 gurl a total of 2 times? i mean how much am I really supposed to TELL them? am i supposed to tell them all of that? i guess i can understand telling them youre a VIRGIN hahaha.

well ii guess i would say, i’m CLOSE to a virgin but i just want to add another notch to the belt today and youre it babe, just let me bang you and lets get this bullshit over with and hopefully i can find a better woman than you to have an actual rel with. so i hope you were jsut looking for a quick fook and nothing more hahahahaha.

ok done. got what im going to say next time i bang a slut. it’ll happen, i’m fairly confident, and it probably wont be pretty. it probably will be a dirty high number slut who is drunk. i dont know how old or good looking they will be. i am hoping for younger and qter. they will be somewhat crazy. crazier than me! but hopefully not too much.

wewlad. glad to get what im gonna say out of the way. now just gotta find a slut who is willing to bang a short old loser who hasnt banged a woman in many years and is ALMOST a virgin.

welp its still better than being a virgin. i think the majority of men lose their man virginity with dirty sluts rather than with a special GF qt high school sweetheart type gurl. so just be grateful if you can pull a good looking slut rather than a bad looking one. thankfully i did. unthankfully i never pulled a woman ever again hahahahaha. maybe because i wanted another qt gurl and didnt want a goddamn road hog. heh. well after that slut i swore ok im done with SLUTS, i want the NEXT gurl I bang to be a serious GF. that went over like a lead balloon. i actually lost a chance to bang another slut that i wish i had taken now. not like the slut would have had any trouble find a cock to fill her up. might as well have been me. good luck trying to find a man to commit to you now, ya used up skank hahaha. well at least she is super successful in life haha. probably associates with a lot of successful men as well. where she has to downplay what a huge whore she is hahahaha.

no i dont care. i just really thought i would ahve been able to pull another slut in 13 years! but in the real world, even SLUTS are hard for low-confidence omega men to pull! when i pulled those sluts before, i was in a weird college world, where automatically me being there meant i had potentially high status. but in the real world, where i have really low status, i cant even pull SLUTS.  until i raise my status. which i have been struggggggggling to do, with no success.

its hard to believe these WOMEN are actual PEOPLE! living human BEINGS like you and me!

well that makes me sound like a sociopath. yes i can believe they are human beings, but they just seem like different BREEDS, sort of liek the races seem like different BREEDS, which is a word GLR wisely, aptly, correctly uses in WP. that is a great way to think about races.

not sure if its a great way to think about men vs women though.

besides, GOD has made it my mission in life, my cross to bear, to be in constant conflict with women. with the final goal MAYBE being that i learn to stop being in conflict with them. who knows. maybe thats not the goal. maybe my cross to bear is to be in huge conflict with women for muh entire life. i am paying off some kind of debt. both for myself and for others.

its just fookin retarded to WANT something so badly. both women, and also to want to be a successful normie, but not being WILLING to do the WORK it takes to get there. the YEARS and YEARS of 17 hour days of work. 10000 hours to get good at something. 10000 hours to get good at your career, 10000 hours to get good at women. note:10000 hours is about….4 years of Full Time Work. Approx.

and i am totally butthurt at school and education not counting at all towards those necessary 20000 hours. mother fooking EIGHTEEN YEARS of school WASTED. 18 years of life! over half your life, blatantly wasted! thats worth getting butthurt about!

but not if the butthurt keeps you from fixing it and turning the ship around.

it doesnt take you 18 years to turn the ship around. ONLY EIGHT. hahahaha. 20000 hours.

in my homeschooling utopia, you would be an EXPERT, a masters-level EXPERT in THREE things by the time you were done with twelve years of school at 17 or 18. in other words, your could make a good living in TWO types of career, and have the Social Expertise to pull a Woman, reproduce, and the economic success to support your children.

basically, go to 16 year olds and tell them, do this or you’ll never meet a woman or move out on your own. you’ll die a lonely loser childless wifeless virgin who makes less than negros at walmart and mcd’s. get a stem degree or become an electrician. end of discussion. if you dont do those things, you’ll die a fat virgin basement dweller. you DO want to have secs with a QT gurl, don’t you? well you wont if you dont d one of thsese things. period. end of discussion. now get out there and get started. you can get started on your stem degree at age 16.

literally. there are plenty of kids in my working class nonelite normiezip who enroll in comm college at age 16, graduate high school at age 18, and associates degree as well, then fooking stem degree at age 20. damn. why didnt i do this? because I didnt really KNOW about it for one.

but thats not true! one of the kids in my AP history class took Calculus or Pre Engineering courses at the local College!

of course i thought he was a huge dork.

and unfortunately not a lot of our kids in my high school did that. they just loaded up on gay AP courses, which is NOT the way to go.

the way to go is take the easiest high school classes you can, take as few of them as you can, and Dual Enroll into Comm College as SOON as possible, age 14 if you can. dual enrollment its called. its a common thing in opioid epidemic flyover amerifat trump country hahahaha. and i didnt totally understand it until recently.

DUAL ENROLL YOUR KIDS WHEN THEY ARE 14. basically skip high school and go straight to college. public schools have agreements with the college so that the school district  ie taxpayers will pay for the college tuition.

also i wonder if its easier to pull 19 year old college sluts when you are a 15 year old “genius” hehehehe. that would be confidence building af! they think you are all qt and then they want to make you their little project. they are willing to spend time and effort on you and let you bang them at least 10 times. then you can pull a better woman once you are established. ideally something arranged with the girl’s father who is looking for suitable husbands for his virgin daughter. which you will totally be, as a 20 year old engineer making 45k a year hahahaha.

or you can get a Journalism degree and make 11k a year at age 30 and never be able to pull even the craziest, dirtiest slut for noncommittal secs. your choice hahahahaha.

if i could go back in time and present these stark terms to my younger self, i would love to do that. get 14 year old me to dual enroll in local college. i could even just take intro to bullshit classes. i would get college credit for them and they would be way easier than AP classes.  AP classes are a HUGE jooish screwjob. they were basically TWICE as hard as college classes, AND TWICE as long.  big mistake there. also i hated them so they killed muh will to learn and made me really hate skool hahaha. never understood why high school classes had to last like 8 or 9 fookin months, the whole skool year long. fookin gay as fook. i would have much rather taken college classes that were only HALF as gae as fook. and gotten credits that meant more in the adult world. also all this would have looked really good to employers.

well didnt my res look good for a while after i did graduate college? whats the date of expiration there? 1 year? WHATS THE RULE? i went to a prestigious enough college that i would think my “recent grad grace period” lasts a little longer. even if it did, i STILL blew it!

and i was drinking too much, and prob doing too much MJ.  i was def drinking too much tho. if i had to choose one or the other, i should have chosen MJ. it was alcohol that “made” me do all the really stupid regrettable stuff like drive drunk, act like an idiot in front of friends and women, etc. should have just sm0ked tons of MJ and signed up immediately for shrink at that time.  yeah i know the alcohol didnt MAKE me do anything. and i admit driving drunk is always retarded.

but is it really? if you never hurt anyone? hahahaha. real edgy libertarian argument here. its not a crime unless you hurt someone else.

western jooish capitalists were financing marxists and communists. karl marx financed by fels, soap magnate; bolsheviks financed by schiff, international bankster.

oh this is fake news. they werent really joos, they didnt really “finance” anything.

ok ate much less calories today. still too much but a big improvement over yesterday. also didnt drink as much coffee today. should be better prepared to go to bed at 8pm.

how bitcoin do today. up 0.2% ok thats fine. thats a lot ahahaha.

i wonder what GLR would have said about Cultural Marxism. well that its a disgusting disgrace, and that this long march through the institutions has resulted in a long march through the culture in general, leaving a wake of jooish destruction, emptiness, nihilism, rootlessness, dispossession, aimlessness, Morally Adrift, disillusionment, anomie, ennui, etc. hedonism, atheism, hopelessness, drugs, secs, DESPAIR, opioid epidemics, culture of death, culture of disposability, replaceability, use once then throw away, everythings expendable and replaceable and CHEAP.

but id say GLR would be hopping mad at how for example feminist and anitwhite shit is no longer the purview of collegephags, but basically everybody. its not just joos producing degenerate plays in fooking NYC and LA. its fooking girls in kansas fooking negros and fooking wichita kansas being jooed like every large city, not just the coastal ones.

i mean the goyim are in worse shape than they are in GLR’s day, in other words.

GLR was a fan of: J Edgar Hoover, FBI, Joe McCarthy, Douglas MacArthur, maybe Eisenhower, maybe Nixon, Batista, Kai-Shek. Gerald LK Smith.

he was not a fan of: FDR, Truman, JFK, probably LBJ. Alger Hiss. Felix Frankfurter, Castro, Chairman Mao Mao, Earl Warren, CIA

ok there were ALWAYS commie jooz in every city, not just joo york and la. but miami, atlanta, charleston, st louis, any big city. well what about fookin wichita. ok city. well if they can get to st louis they can get anywhere. denver. i cant imagine many live in wyoming tho hahahaha.

but i have to imagine the jooz of louisville 1920 werent as bad as the jooz of NYC 1920.

ok things are different now because there has been no soviet union for fookin 25 years. the idea of russian spies is ludicrous. but i argue that crooked jooz are still in power in many of the ex soviet countries. and the much bigger threat now is not hardcore red commies, but cultural marxists and swedish type socialists. kinder gentler version of communism. now you have Socialism. and the horrible Cultural Marxism, Diveristy, Multiculturalism, and Equality it works towards.

MORAL SUBVERSION. ALWAYS with the MORAL SUBVERSION. now just as much as ever before. probably even more. less overt communism, more socialism, more diversity, more fookin moral subversion.

you think i’m faking this? i wouldnt be spending so much time writing about it if i were a JOO SHILL or a phony faker poseur just interested in this for a few months like a damn woman bandwagon jumper!

what if i did a 23 and me and turned out to be 10% jooish.

i would NOT be happy about it. i would publicly recant it and try to eradicate it with a hwyte woman. but beforehand, i would be like, listen, i’m 10% jooish, so our children will be 5% jooish, but my goal is to get them 100% hwyte because i want to eradicate the joo out of ME but it cant be done. and i feel a little bad about making you race mix liek this. so just sign on the dotted line goy saying you waive your rights hahahaha.

yeah i would prob do that, esp if i were still 90% hwyte. would make more sense than me trying to mate with 100% joos!

or ideally i wouldnt mate at ALL…..and it looks like i am going that route anyway. damn.

 

 

 

CHAD HOEST

mar 25

had dream about woman i like in  2007 or 8. she was very attractive and young but was a fatherless bipolar mudshark. good riddance. well shes been with the same mud guy now for like 2 years, thats not typical of muds fooking white gurls. shit im surprised shes capable of being with 1 man without dumping him for 2 years. i dont want the desperate thirsty man who is willing to settle for poor damaged me for the long term, better dump him.

anyway shes not a terrible person and in the dream she was being nice and interested in me, smiling at me, hanging out with me one on one, even grabbing muh d under the table. i was like well this is nice, cant wait to get you home and fook you like an animal several times in one night. i was totally enchanted just by her hanging out with me, looking at me, smiling and laughing and being flirty towards me. its not rocket science.

then i lost track of her and could not find her and was like OH SHIT that was a SURE THING and now I am gonna LOSE MUH CHANCE.

but yeah even if she is a crazy mudshark shes not a terrible person and i would have totally dated her and probably fallen in full luv with her if she had any interest in me. she was interested in being friendly with me for a few weeks, so that was enough for me! unfort she had a LOT of male friends and was always making new friends. VERY social. bad news. i was nothing special.  and i am sure i remember her a lot more than she remembers me, like 9 fookin years later. oh well. at least she looks older now.  but still totally bangable. and she is way more successful than me hahaha. and fooks negros. falls in LUV with negros. i mean thats pretty damning.

i dont need to say she was a huge slut ever since the age of 20 at least. becuase she was hahahaha.

and to think. many guys got to live out my dream of her being interested in them, then they got to fook her, then they probably got “too” interested in her, then she said UGH why are all these thirsty guys always falling in LUV with me, im not that luvable, then gave them the cold shoulder, fooked tons more guys, and only fell in luv with darkies, and still became way more successful than me hahahaha.

but yeah she’s not a terrible person. i wish her father were better to her and she had turned out better and had dated me hahahaha. then i never would have met That Woman.

you can probably get more than one oneitis in your life……but its way harder when you are older than 30 and looking at older women. it happens most readily when you are young and the women are young. then it happens maybe 3, 5 times and you better marry one of those gurls. doesnt help if they have no interest in you whatsoever hahaha.

anyway it was interesting to get a dream where a qt young gurl was being flirty with me and it felt good man, like do ALL NORMIES REALLY experience this in real life?

i actually experienced it with 2 women in my own life! 12 and 13 years ago hehehe. so i KNOW its real and not a myth.

i claim that its NOT weird to get attached to a person after you FOOK them, or even youve been making out with them. these things are supposed to generate bonding chemicals of oxytocin. so Thots who casually suck and fook, cant make oxytocin any more, cant get attached to any man. well except maybe THE MOST alpha, who already has His Choice of women throwing themselves at him.

also dont be captain save a child if the childs mother is a Ho and you are involved with her hahahaha. some men play captain save a ho and the ho has a young child that the white knight man gets attached to and wants to save the child along with the mother.

its ok to save the child, just ignore the mother tho. send the mother to a handmaids tale like breeding camp where she can breed white babies but not fook them up.

kinda shitty to have hwyte kids if youre just gonna fook them up. its very frustrating. you might ALMOST not have the kids at all if youre just gonna set them up to fail. but no abortions of hwyte babies. send the hwyte babies to a hwyte person who can take care of them. to a captain save a ho type man. give him a child to save instead. and he can continue to bang hos and thots. away from the childs eyes of course.

laid down cuz felt tired, didnt really Nap though. watching “mutiny on the bounty” with marlin brando from like 1961 and the hwytes are RACE MIXING like crazy with the tahitian THOTS. the captain should be condemning this race mixing abomination.

anyway point is, if some 20 year old girl with a healthy body is throwing herself at you, you conveniently forget about race. i probably even would too. but yeah i dont want to watch a movie from the 60s and see RAMPANT race mixing!

yeah yeah i get it, they are SAILORS, fine. i just smh when i see hwyte men getting YELLOW FEVER. pretty PATHETIC.

besides, what they dont say enough is that these gurls are huge sluts who treat EVERY guy like this. you think she’s gonna be faithful to YOU? or are you a degenerate who doesnt care if your woman is faithful? or hwyte?

well these men have been working hard like slaves on the sea and they are just looking for a little tenderness and now they are finally getting it. doesnt make race mixing RIGHT but i cant say id do differently in their position. id probably K muh self after 2 days on the SHIP!!!!!

like this guy chip gaines and his Triracial wife on the hit show fixer upper. he seems like a good man but seriously very very very GOOFY which probably made it harder for him to get a hwyte woman. so he gets with this….lets just call her asian woman. i know she is ASIAN, ARAB, and something else, maybe mexican. she is in good shape, very healthy weight, and has nice hair, and i would bang her too if i were a desperate thristy slave on board a ship. or right now, after 12 years of thirst hahahahaha. 12 years a thirsty slave.

but rather than pump and dump her, he fell in LUV with her and millions of people including me are watching the show. now thank god their kids look a lot whiter than she does and could prob PASS for whyte. shit you know i think the third race in her IS whyte. white, asian, and arab. i looked it up once hahahaa.

so that makes the kids 67% white. hmmmm. not quite good enough. POOR KIDS!!!! SAD!

only in a thoroughly jooed world would it make sense to have SECS with a person and NOT get ATTACHED to them.  this is EXACTLY how the joos DESTROY OUR race, by destroying the FAMILY, destroying CHILDREN, destroying relships between men and women, by saying that secs is casual and doesnt NECESSITATE ATTACHMENT.

every time you have casual secs, the J rubs his hands.

every time you don’t condemn casual secs, you murder your own race. just throw it into the oven.

LOVE YOUR RACE.

MJ has been less disappointing to me than WOMEN. BY FAR. the women always leave and break muh heart. the MJ, i pretty much know what I’m getting, and it works as intended. i use it to fulfill a similar role as women: to get warm fuzzies, a sense of romance and transcendence and The Sublime and The Beautiful.

and it more or less WORKED! its honestly an effective reinforcement. like a dog getting a treat. pavlovs dogs drooling for their treat. the only thing that can come close to TRAINING and CONDITIONING me like that is a Special QT young Woman who I Like, and its WAY easier to find MJ than to find a woman like THAT. even right now. when MJ is very slim pickins. likable women are even slimmer hahahaha.

they say romance books and bullshit like 50 shades of gray are porn for women, which i can see the point, but it misses a HUGE point of what pornography is. namely, 50 shades of gray is not even 1% as filthy, degenerate, destructive as the hardcore vidya porn for men, where real women are destroyed, degraded and abused to the delight of the jooz, where pathetic men who will never get a woman beat off to it bitterly.

in 50 shades of gray, real women arent being destroyed gaping their assholes for black bulls on camera. there’s just some fantasy of being seduced by a powerful manly man. nothing new there. so theres some very LIGHT fetishism. i’m surprised its not MORE jooish. and when it gets more jooish – like the degen filth produced to emasculate MEN – then i’ll get worried. until its used as a weapon to destroy people, you cant call it “pornography.” you can call it retarded, low brow jooish (((entertainment))) though!

how WOULD you make something like pornography for women though? basically, women can ALWAYS reproduce. i guess the more destructive thing would be entertainment that blatantly promotes casual secs, polyamory, polyandry, and even still, its not like women Dildo Themselves to Sex and The City or Cuckold Porno. and even if they did, they would still reproduce. but they would be ruined children for sure. not that many of them aren’t.

but yeah honestly i don’t think you CAN make something as bad for women as bad as actual porn has been for men. something like “GIRLS” by digusting pig lena dunham is the closest thing, and that is over and done with. women liked that show for 2 years at most. then it went out of favor and lena went too far even for the joos and people are like yeah shes a little weird. GIRLS was bad and promotes the worst kind of women, but its still not nearly as bad as porno for men.

yeah the worst thing for women would be much complex things than “just porno”: stuff like ABORTION and FEMINISM basically and everything related to that. it all contributes to the idea of sexual liberation, culture of casual sex, disposability of human life, etc etc.

outlaw pornography and outlaw abortion. this would go a good way to changing the culture. outlaw no fault divorce. oh but muh freedoms, there should be no laws, no gummint. no this is not a libertarian website hahahahaha. we believe in law and order, for the protection of the fascist nation and our fascist hwyte race. laws to keep out da jooz. theyve been kicked out of 200 countries. i wonder why. because goys hate the poor jooz. the poor innocent victims that never did anything to get banned from 200 countries in 2000 years.

i guess tinder would be like porn for women to. give them a platform to HAVE casual sex and to make their OWN porno pictures and videos with the guys they casually fook like sluts.

but yeah life is a COMPETITION. FIERCE competition. for women, and for jobs.

heh. its funny though. it was easier for me to get into a Highly Selective University than it was to get an 11k a year job. WAYYYYYY easier.  I applied to like 3 universities and got accepted to them all. no i did not apply to harvard, yale, princeton, stanford, MIT, i just wasnt interested, and i prob WOULDNT have gotten in.

it was easier for me to get into a Highly Selective University at age 17 that it was to Win the Hearts of Sluts and Mudsharks.

so yeah i guess i wasnt prepared for HOW competitive the world really was. kinda wish i had just gotten rejected from that uni! i only went there because it was Highly Selective and a Really Good Name, so if i go here, i will be SET FOR LIFE, even if I do average work in a useless degree. WRONG.

anyway back from sat afternoon church, ate some dinner, took powerwalk, and gonna actually be under calorie goal for once.

anyway i guess that dream about that OTHER woman was good because it wasnt about THAT woman. but it still doesnt prove i could have feelings for a brand new unknown woman.

well, logically, if it were a young, nice, attractive woman,  i probably could. if she were about 7/10 and about 25 years old (or younger!) but as i get older, this age standard gets harder and harder to reach. also them being willing to spend time with you (one on one, not just in groups), and respond to you, and be nice to you, that can cause you to have feelings too.

so yeah i COULD. but to pull a woman that YOUNG when I am not YOUNG…that seems unlikely.

logged into my runescape game for the first time in 3 years. it looked totally different.  i then logged into “old school” which looked familiar but it had set me all the way back to the beginning. sad! i remember the game being kinda fun. now its making me type the stupid password in and wont even let me paste the long unique password i have for security. you have to type in the password every time. might as well save it as password123.

funny that the women you never forget have forgotten you like their fathers have forgotten about them. and the guys these women can’t forget have in turn forgotten about THEM.

well you know i bet their fathers havent FORGOTTEN about them. they are just too COWARD to do the right thing.

come on. was i really THAT forgettable? i dont think so. i know my male friends remembered me.

taake does a CURE cover. this sounds like a potentially good idea. havent listened yet. this is from the cure “pornography” album which is very very bleak and dark and which i imagine would be anti pornography. i guess i would have to look at the lyrics of the album to determine why they called it that.

just trying to psych myself up for his boring concert so i get my 22 dollars worth hahahahahahaha no it should be pretty good. also prepping his most recent 2 albums “stridens hus” and “noregs vaapen” which i have not listened to. in 2008 i was actually aware of taake and thought he was pretty good so i was excited about his New Self Titled Album in 2008. It turned out being very boring and underwhelming so then i stopped being so ecxcited about taake. the end. then 9 years later he came to my town and i said what the heck ill go see him. shit i cant believe i first heard taake more than 9 years ago. it doesnt seem that long ago. i certainly haven’t “been a fan” for 9 years hahahahaha.

seems like most fans agree: his 2008 s/t album was boring and uninspired, his next album noregs vaapen was a strong comeback, then his next album stridens hus was kinda lackluster again. well he never makes an album longer than 45 minutes, thats good.

this unartig usually has decent recordings of NYC shows on youtube. hear taake does a good live show. he looks like he’s into it and is not so grim he can’t interact with the fans. but not so silly he cant be grim either. i think his whole thing is to recreate classic 90s black metal. back when dissection and emperor and darkthrone and burzum and mayhem were the coolest bands ever. i am kind of this era too, not being THAT much younger than hoest, so hipster blackgaze young kids black metal still seems a little weird to me, as im sure it does to him.

i dont understand those shitty pants he is wearing though. literally the worlds most falling apart jeans. there was a photograph taken once of his D hanging out of his terribly shredded pants hahahahaha. i would just get a new pair of pants already buddy. but glad to see he hasnt gotten all fat and is still in good shape in his Late Thirties.

in 2015 he had a huge hipster beard hahahaha but in 2016 he cut it to normie length hahahaha. but seriously his long beard looked good. i cant grow a long beard like this because muh beard hairs grow in weird directions whereas his beard grows straight down and out so he can grow it long.

if you see pictures of him not looking made up or trashy or drunk but attempting to look semi presentable, he is handsome as fook and could easily pull a 20 year old 8/10 waifu. JELLY. CHAD HOEST.

mar 26

yeah actually pretty excited about this. one could do a lot worse than taake. i SHOULD be a bigger fan. i was big on metal in 1999 and 2002 when he was releasing his first big albums. i just dont recall reading about them! 2005 hordaland came out just as i was making out with a grill for the last time hahahaha but i was tuned out of metal at that time, and for a few more years after. then i came back sometime around 2008 because i remember when the taake album came out and everyone was disappointed.

but yeah. i wonder if he likes sacramentum. probably. taake should be my favorite band because they tap right into that sweet spot before black metal got young and weird, and old and boring. and never attempted to “innovate” in the embarrassing ways older bands like satyricon did. the younger bands did a LOT better job of that, shit i totally respect bands like alcest or wolves in the throne room (do they really count as younger though?) well, repsect their MUSIC I should say haha. also saor, winterfylleth, wodensthrone, 10’s UK black metal is bretty kewl, but nothing really weird about it: it is just straight up pagan heathen atmospheric BM with no funny stuff. you could say similar about taake. its bretty atmospheric, quite melodic.  the funniest he gets is occasional “black and roll” and using a banjo once which got way too much attention. well it doesnt help that he brings the banjo on tour with him to play during that one song.

yeah i am officially excited. i will relisten to the old taake albums because i have forgotten large portions of them. i will listen to the newer albums i missed entirely. i listened to the cure song today, it was ok but yeah the vocals were a miss hahahaha. would have been better off just impersonating robert smith, who has a good voice.

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but yeah this is what i mean, chad hoest. very handsome. a total 8.8/10 man hahahahaha. he could literally be a male model.

but it is degenerate to get an upside down cross tattoo. but i can totally understand why. he was probably drunk and 18. when i was drunk and 18 i just drew an upside down cross on my arm with a marker hahahaha. he goes and gets a permanent tattoo on his chest. SMDH.

when he is good, he is really, really, really good. he taps into the pure essence of black metal, which really covers a YUGE range of emotions. its not just “cold” or “grim” but it certainly includes those things. sorrow and beauty and nostalgia and epic and pride and and yearning and anger and hatred and angst and even romance and even some hwyte racial pride in there (but i dont expect any creators to acknowledge or even realize that last one. it still comes through implicitly. you cant escape becoming who you are, goy, hahahahahaha.)

and taake covers ALL these bases rather than just being hateful or just being depressive or just being grim, and keeps the music very dynamic, epic, interesting, hot-blooded, passionate, earnest, sincere.

except when it doesnt, then it’s just as boring as all other boring black metal.  but taake hits some very strong highs.

also hoest is a very powerful singer and has a recognizable voice.

he hangs out with some degenerates, so i hope he is less degenerate than them. i guarantee he is more degen than i would like him to be tho. he prob drinks too much, prob bangs too many dirty sluts, def has too many degen tattoos, has gone to jail, probably for drunkenly, stupidly fighting another drunk white man. (speculation). he sort of “apologized” as much as he could for the svastica incident in germany 2007.

he is an obvious narcissist who has HIMSELF on ALL of his album covers hahaha.  well a man needs to have CONFIDENCE in himself and not be a meek depressive self-loather!

would like to see video of him recording the albums. does he actually play the drums? on older abums I know he got a guest drummer.

what is his opinion on iron maiden? probably positive but what if its neutral?

does he have any illegitimate children? i could see him being a deadbeat father who leaves his bastard children with their metal/bar slut mothers so he can go on tour and bang more metal sluts. just speculation hahahaha. if he has children, i HOPE he takes care of the children. kinda hard to do when you are on tour months at a time though! which is why you should do like garth brooks and retire from touring when your kids are young. you can still play a few shows a year.

do like varg. release a string of classic albums when you are very young, then shift the focus from music to having 6 or more children.  music is a young man’s game. especially metal and black metal.

in other words, hoest should have retired from black metal in 2006 after hordaland, settled down with a NICE gurl and started having babies. how about he could get a job as a Music Teacher and still play music with a Norwegian Folk Group. but no more hateful drunken metal. he’s a family man nao.

but that didnt happen.

and we still would have had those classic first 3 albums, and he could have had 5 kids before he was 40. win win. instead he is making hit or miss albums and getting drunk at age 39. talk about despair. judge judge judge hahahahahahahaha. at least he is traveling the world and banging women and still makes 50% good albums hahahaha and has fans and is leaving some kind of legacy hahaha.

i bet he could just retire to bjoergvin and find a nice gurl even now. there are still good women left, even in the us, even in degen norway and sweden.

but would i let my virgin daughter marry hoest?

well, i would test the shit out of him first! no more tattoos, no more drinking, no more tours, no more sluts, from now on you are going to be a husband and father! i mean either that sounds good to you or it doesnt. to me it sounds great, except for providing for that family.

could he really be a music teacher? could he really make enough money to live off that in NORWAY, where they take 60% of your income in taxes and gas is 10 dollars a gallon and it costs 10000 dollars to rent a shoebox apartment?

would he want to be a music teacher? would he be a good music teacher? uhhh i think he’d enjoy it more than being a Call Center Agent or a Lidl/Tesco slave. maybe he has terrible people skills though.

well, you cant bang dozens of women and have terrible people skills.

how do i know he’s banged dozens of women? you can just tell.

men who bang dozens of women, even if they are horrible sluts, have what it takes to be successful in other areas of life. raw confidence and toughness and masculinity. he just has to be WILLING to give up the degenerate, sensualist life of booze and sluts.

i guess if you’re actually GETTING the sluts, it could be hard to give up. for me, even getting SLUTS was a huge struggle. for CHAD HOEST, I bet its as easy as a woman getting a chad.

i should clearly write a fanfic of chad hoests alternate life, then give it to him at the concert. then he will uh oh this guy is right, i better start making babies. i am 39 years old and a handsome hwyte man. what am i doing with my life. shit you can go to southern france like varg if norway has become too ridiculous. i dont doubt that it has. go to poland. go to hungary. go to romania. its all good. we’re all hwyte here.

russia and ukraine are great, i just worry that da J’s have too much power there. in poland possibly too.  guess its gotta be better than NORWAY. in terms of the current norwegian gummint.

lets make norway great again hahahaha.

hey i dont blame chad hoest for descending into sensualist degeneracy, look at what his HOME is BECOMING!

my home is becoming similar. and i descended into hateful nihilism of black metal and the hedonist sensualism of drugs and, in the past, alcohol and pr0n. never had the luxury of real live grills like chad tho. i hear that can be real hard to give up. i just cant put myself in chad’s shoes. and chad cant put himself in mine.

hey im no better. i just want to be lazy and do MJ all the time. muh brain and muh WILL is BROKEN.

i have bitterness towards women because they cant just injure, its always INSULT UPON INJURY with these demons hahahahaha. they cant just reject you and say sorry, they have to reject you and be huge mudshark sluts afterwards. you cant have me but all these other guys sure can. im a dirty degen slut, but im still too good for YOU, ya meek neet wimpy sissy loser child.

i guess they arent intentionally trying to “rub it in your face” when they do slutty shit after rejecting you and you just happen to hear about it because you are borderline stalking them hahahahahaha. then thats your fault. well shit. i argue they should be being sluts ANYWAY. no woman NEEDS to be a slut. fook that shit. its BAD, there is no use for it ever. makes schlomo say GOOD GOYIM. because it DESTROYS the goy race. not IMMEDIATELY, but in the long term. even 50 lousy years can do a hell of a lot of damage. that’s not too long term. that’s less than one lifetime.

can lead the horse to water but cant make them drink. this is one of the most important true cliches ever. very relevant for me and very relevant for others too. including that woman. its all about WILL. so do you blame yourself for FAILING TO INSPIRE WILL????!!?!???

did you really lead them to the right water?

why arent they drinking?

why arent you SELLING the water good enough? aren’t you SKILLED enough to SELL this water?

i would say dont blame yourself too much. sometimes there really is nothing you can do. GOD has to get in there and even HE might not be able to do anything. THE FREE WILL. what a horrible, horrible thing!

i had all the opportunities to succeed but i would rather sm0ke MJ, drnk alcohol, look at porn, and take it easy. coast.

i put myself all in for her and said take me or leave me and she left me as sure as you can leave a person.

KARMA hahahaha.

no im really not a bad guy i SWEAR. i never want to do anybody wrong. i just hated working hard when the payoff would come in longer than 4 years hahahaha.

I DIDNT REALIZE WHAT A BIG MISTAKE I WAS MAKING! I WAS YOUNG AND IMMATURE!

the problem was the mistake wasnt just one big mistake, it was many little mistakes over like 4 years, that were not super visible to me, or to anyone around me. shit if my fam was convinced i was making a Big Mistake, they would have done something about it. but NO ONE KNEW what a big mistake i was making. thats what especially sucks. no one knew, no one could stop me. and if i could go back in time, i would damn sure stop myself.

average of 8:53 hours of sleep a night. DAMN. well, there it is. cant argue with the numbers hahahaha.

just trying to figure out the best time to go to bed when i get up at 5 am. apparently 8 pm hehehehe. OR EARLIER. 7:15 pm, because i take about 45 minutes to fall asleep after i get into bed.

i dont even know what would have been good for me. military, i prob would have private pyled.

i think just go to local comm college while continuing to work muh job i had at age 17. gotten into a machine apprentice thing. but i prob wouldnt even have THOUGHT of that. it took me till at least 28 to determine that that was a good idea.

i would have still been like college sucks, working sucks, everything sucks, just get the easiest degree there is and prepare for a life of sucking hahahaha. get used to it. deal with it. but maybe i would have been physically prevented from doing as much MJ and alcohol. not sure though. i STILL managed to do a lot of MJ and alcohol when i was home with the fam. quite a damn bit, now that i think of it. DAMN.

well, i would have stayed at the job i had until i found something better. it was a very easy job and i wuldnt just quit it. basically i had to leave it because muh college got in the way too much. ironic.

also i never would have gotten laid and never would have made out or cuddled with grills hahahaha. well i prob would have made out with grills but may well have never stopped being a V at age 21 like i did. i mean shit if were a 30 year old VIRGIN my confidence would be even LOWER. at least i can say oh yeah i stopped being a VIRGIN at a SOMEWHAT normie age.

hehehe whats def NOT normie is how i never had secs or GF or makeout or cuddles SINCE then hahahaha.

anyway, it really is impossible to say. maybe i would have just gone to another kollige and things would have turned out just as bad. maybe i would have stayed at home and gone to local college and things would have turned out just as bad hahahaha. I was BORN to become a neet failure nevergf 11k a year loser.

ok ok ok these are all horribly negative thoughts and i shouldnt even be THINKING THEM, let alone writing them down for all eternity as part of “MUH LIFE STORY” hahahaha.

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i would not recommend putting all your money into MJ stocks, youd be better buying BTC hahahaha.

i would say if you get crabby like that, just lay donw and take a NAP if you can. if its a weekend and you dnt have to WORK or STUDY WORK hahaha. i did that, got at least 30 minutes, factored that into my Big Data. by number is inching closer and closer to 9 hours a night!

if i get 1 minute less than 9 hours of sleep every night, i get SO CRABBY i CANNOT FUNCTION hahahahaha.

i am like john cusack in high fidelity. thinking of all these women in the past, oh maybe she was the one, maybe she was the one, i should try to reconnect from this grill from 15 years ago, etc etc. not that ive actually done this. but it has crossed my mind. like lets give it another chance. and they are probably not gonna do the Reaching Out here. but im 40 and still single, what have i got to lose by Reaching Out to these people 10, 20 years later. i wasnt the one who ended this. i would have stayed with you and let it run its course if you didnt Prematurely Dump Me!

did he DUMP any of the women in that movie?

in real life, men actually DO dump women. hard to believe but its true.  i’ve never done it and dont really WANT to hahahaha.

and what an ANNOYING JOO cusack was in that annoying jooish movie!!!!!!! that is not how proud hwyte men act! this is not a man who is worthy of any woman! never act anything like that! its amazing he had been with like 5 women in his life! and not 0! he should have been a virgin!

stupid fookin jooish movie. cant believe i watched it like 3 times. this is why you stop being a big music fan when you become an adult. music is not a serious time consuming interest of successful, respectable adults. its like smokin MJ. its immature, arrested development.

why do you think people who smoke MJ listen to so much MUSIC hahahaha.

oh god i just want to sm0ke MJ.

GLR did not become joo wise until age 32 hahaha. i was 30 at the oldest. more like 28 hehehehe.

some people say you should get rid of all drunk driving laws and should only prosecute people for drunk driving if there is an accident and somebody gets hurt and the person at fault is drunk.

but no just pulling people over and giving them a misdemeanor 10k DUI for having 8% BAC.  no waiting to nab people coming out of bars. no dui checkpoints.

INTERESTING.

ok 730 planning to go to bed around 8. its science. did absolutely nothing productive this weekend. took naps, played cards, wrote whining shit. well i did do 2 loads of laundry, trimmed beard, took powerwalk on saturday i think. got concert ticket for furst concert in almost 2 years. worked on Budget. worked on Sleep Spreadsheet. wrote a ton of stuff, 25% of it good. created another spreadsheet showing the current sizes of all types of clothes i wear. measurements, sizes. dress shirts, pants, suits, chest, neck, legs, waist, arms, shoes, coats, shorts, undershorts, sweatpants, anything and everything as of mar 26 2017.

prepared a bunch of sound files. podcasts and taake albums.

crunched some serious analytics. gathered some good data and crunched some good numbers.

was just disappointing on muh job search, which i dont even want to really DO shit till like july, and also on muh powerwalking. yeah i should have gone to the gym but oh well. also gained almost 2 pounds hehehehe.

 

CAPTAIN SAVE A CHILD

mar 22

heh.  i was thinking about how ridiculous it is to be rejected by something you want to be part of. like i want to give you a donation, nope we wont take your donation because you suck. thats even worse than we wont take YOU, but well take your money. what about just stop sending us money. but you still do good work and i want to support you.

i mean with WOMEN, you say, welp, i tried, i struck out, you dont want me, i’ll just move on. but what if WEEV rejects me and says he doesnt want my money? that doesnt make weev’s work less valuable! i would still want to support it!

well this is not gonna happen, i just got amused because i thought it might happen hahahaha. no weev is not gonna reject me or my money. it would just be funny and ridiculous if he did!

well it would be CUCKY to continue donating to him if he did. so i would say i luv what he does but he doesnt want my money, so i stopped giving.

anyway its not werf talking about because it didnt even happen. it shouldnt happen. its worrying about absolutely absurd shit.

did you know you could get a DUI for passing out drunk and Sleeping It Off in the drivers seat of a car? this is what happened to chris cantwell, who i am kinda liking more and more. he is a better writer than i guessed he would be, and he is kinda like me in that as a young man he rejected the authority of the CHURCH and was very rebellious and he liked drinking and smokin MJ and didnt want to stop because it was too much fun. then he started getting DUI’s and seeing that drug people were degen losers. but he kept drinking because now he had a drinking problem. anyway he went to jail for 2 dui’s, that sucks. some states its 3, i guess in his state it was 2! damn! i might become a libertarian too hahahaha. but now he is moving away from that and is becoming more and more racist, which i like. he struggles like crazy and he is trying so hard. i can sympathize and Empathize. he always has trouble with some damn dirty sluts. probably because deep down he doesnt believe he deserves a good white women, so he gets these crazy dirty mulatto sluts.  but he does deserve a good hwite woman!!!!

holy shit. when i get up at 5 am, like CLOCKWORK i want to take a MAD powernap around 3:30, 4 pm.  i would not even be done with an Honest Days Work by then!

GLR’s “hwyte power” is quickly losing momentum. it starts off very strong in the first 2 chapters but then drops off. still very readable and not at all bad, but just a big dropoff in momentum. still worth buying and reading though. just not as fun as it was in the beginning. maybe a joo editor would have helped him with his pacing hahahaha.

there is a new autistic muppet starting on sesame street in april. i should not be surprised. actually i AM surprised theres not a Transexual Muppet yet. honestly. that would be the best way to sell such a thing to children. honestly! i dont even think there is a GAY muppet, that is REALLY shocking. i cant believe theres never been a gay sesame street muppet in the past 10 years. what a great way to turn hwyte kids into gay sissies who will never reproduce.

he spends a lot of time talking about Communiss in Cuba and china and the communist connection with oswald and the JFK assassination, whcih to be sure, were uge stories when he wrote the book. i think he is saving up most of his joo hate until like page 100 or so. just wish he’d get out with it earlier.

tempted to look at reddit relships but fighting the minor urge cuz i know its gonna be filled with leftist hamster wimmin and omega sissie bitchbois apologizing to them hahahahaha and begging for table scraps.

mean the relships arent rocket science when the gurl LIKES you and is WILLING to make an effort to be with you. thats all you need. then you can make all the mistakes you want and she will keep giving you chance after chance after chance after chance. none of this one strike and youre out shit. that just means you NEVER had even ONE chance. so i guess i should feel reassured by that. because once i thought i had ONE chance hahaha. you NEVER get just ONE chance. unless you do ahahaha. who cares. god damn negro fooking degenerate pig wh0res. nothings sacred with these degenerate jooish pigs.

ok ok i am being negative again. negative nancy. have to have a more positive attitude. it was an overly negative attitude and negative thinking that got me into this MESS.

how to stop negative thoughts? you identify the thought as negative, then say STOP! YOU SHALL NOT PASS!!!!!!! and just say that to most of your thoughts because most of them are probably negative. about how women are horrible, or how you are a weak soft untough neet virgin loser who cant handle the tough adult world.

you can keep the negative thoughts about joos because they really are awful hahahahahahaha. but i would recommend thinking about some pleasant things to balance that out.

some people feel about GOD and JESUS and RELIGION the way I feel about The Hwyte Race. Good for them I guess.  I wish I had that kind of faith but I dont.  as long as they have a healthy sense of racial hygiene they dont bother me. when you start adopting africans for jesus youve gone too far. or missionarying in africa . well i mean the mormons do that and then they STILL have 10 white kids by age 23, so…..good for them. hope they stay that way.  i have heard unsubstantiated rumors that mormons are darkening hehehe. i hope not.

nothing against the christians. i am technically one. its not an inherently bad message. i dont even think its inherently jooish. although some people make it pretty jooish. and that’s bad. obviously.

franco sinazi with his new song which is a parody of “strangers in the night” and is very very very catchy. play it for normies and see if they notice. negros beaners and skypes hahahaha.

just waiting to go to damn bed. i might not have done much but i probably did my best hahahahahahaha. well i guarantee you i didnt do my worst. and at least im not a neet anymore. and i am not a virgin hahaha.

mar 23

wow a metal show that i immediately said YES IM GOING I HAVE TO GO I AM EXICITED TO MAKE AN EFFORT TO GO because it was on a good night and most importantly, a good location. great location on a good night. the band taake. now i dont know much about current year taake, but I do know that the first 3 taake albums are very good. and that taake/hoest made insensitive remarks about mudslims and once got drunk and drew a SVASTICA on his chest hahahahahahaha. he is a drunk degenerate but I feel he might be a little racist.

he couldnt keep up the impossibly high average set by his first three albums, but for those he earned his place in the pantheon and I will gladly get high energy about going to see him live in a few months. a honest Black Metal show. haven’t been to many of those. closest thing would be I saw mayhem once. mayhem counts as black metal hahahaha. are you kidding, mayhem totally counts as black metal.

i dont see why black metal shouldnt be “live” music.  I would luv to see any of muh fav black metal bands live. i would gladly go see deathspell omega play a shitty sloppy show hahahaha.

anyway. eavesdropped on great conversation between successful professionals about their college age kids. you just assume the kids are gonna get masters degrees, get good jobs, get married, have children.

well what if they dont. what if they fook up one of those. or like me, ALL of them.

the kids all have IDEAS of what they want to do. well i wanted to go to MED SKOOL but got cold feet on that so i started an ENGIN degree instead. i know to get a good paid internship after my second year of uni.

im an 18 year old gurl and i want to become a physician assistant and i know i have to get all a’s in college and go to a good grad school to do that, and i am prepared for all that. i know to never get a B, never to do drugs, never to get less than 3 good internships. these middle class parents set their kids up to succeed hahahaha.

well i wasnt set up to FAIL. i was given all the CHANCES to succeed but I didnt have enough personal agency or pushing. I needed someone to make bigger decisions for me because i didnt know how to make big decisions. i didnt want to go to grad school, i didnt even want to go to college, i just wanted to sm0ke MJ and jerk off to porn all day hahahahahahahahaha.

i mean what do you do as a concerned parent when your kid starts to fook up. do you say, well he’s old enough to start making his own mistakes, and hopefully learn from them? what if he doesn’t learn from them?

i wish i had been more of a normie like this guys kids hahahaha. i bet this 19 year old engineer nerd is actually a normie chad who has had a gf hahahaha. he will prob be successful even though he as a 19 year old boy likes sleeping in till noon sometimes. oh. i thought the RULE WAS, you have to get up at 4 am at the latest EVERY SINGLE DAY if you EVER wanted to be successful in life, ie, outcompete all the competition and get a sick 30k a year middle class job hahahaha.

basically, i was weirder than i thought i was hahahaha. i was SUPER weird. SUPER jelly of the NORMIES.

and maybe for normies, its not such a god damn neverending struggle to succeed. its not easy, they still work hard, they struggle some, but its not like madly thrashign just to tread water. they are not always on the verge of falling apart. otherwise more normies would fail.

well there’s plenty of failures too!

anyway weekend nao. took a benedryl. will take 2 valiums later. wouldnt mind some MJ. but not craving it as bad as i did 1 month ago thank god. I am still prepared to buy a huge quantity of it should the opportunity present itself.

i dont like how women make you all competitive hahahaha. i had a dream about some old friends, some really great guys i remember fondly. it wasnt until i was hanging out with them as a group with WOMEN that I became aware of the idea that, damn, these guys are COOLER than me, and would totally have an advantage over me for women. yeah it MAKES SENSE, they ARE cooler than me, I just wish I could hang out with these guys apart from these women. These are good guys and I dont want WOMEN to cause any DRAMA. but why should I be mad at the GUYS? and i wasnt. i was butthurt at the GURLS hahahahaha.

There never was any real drama, thank GOD.  i mean this is just the classic broes before hoes situation.

taake live. thats pretty cool though. i wont know the majority of the songs but i bet it will be good. hoest is known as a Good Performer. Intense. im sure there will even be qt yung gurls there because qt young gurls like metal nao, they have for like 6 years hahaha. maybe i can get some of hoests sloppy seconds hahahaha.  i know better than to want to marry a metal grrrrl hahahaha. not interested. expectations status: managed.

ate dinner, back, took valium, now sitting here drinking coffee, play some cards, this is the best time to do MJ but i dont have any. prob should not take valium then drink coffee, may be like throwing valium in the trash hahaha. oh well. whats done is  done.

being able to SELL stuff. being TOUGH. these are good LIFE SKILLS that will be valuable in ANY and EVERY job. its simple. the better you are at these things, the better you will do in life. DIRECT proportion. direct relationship. really its full blown CAUSE AND EFFECT, not just corrolation.  the younger you are when you learn how to SELL shit and to BE TOUGH, the better, because the easier it will be for you to MASTER these skills quickly.

i was always pretty weak at both.  i cant sell myself to women, cant sell myself to employers, cant sell my damn RACE to other members of my race. and yeah being TOUGH will help you SELL better too. sales.

how jooish is casablanca. i often watch TCM channel and see oldass movies. most of them are more jooish than i would like. hollywood was jooed since like the 1920s. since movies began they were jooed. casablanca. heavy themes of the natzees are the bad guys. evil natsees. well shit. do you expect a movie where the natsees are the GOOD guys? theres never been a single one. expectations. manage them.

but yeah he is lovelorn for ingrid bergman. not bad. he never wanted to see her again. what the hell happened between them in paris? she dumped him for lazlo? but she really luvs rick?

wirrten by joos, directed by a joo. its def watchable though. good cuddler with a good waifu hahaha if she doesnt fall asleep because its so old and boring and then leave you for a more EXCITING man.

also its CONFUSING. thats my fault because everything is CONFUSING to me, i have a learning disability called everythings confusing because i sm0ked too much w33d 10 years ago, so i can’t make sense, understand, or explain anything.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casablanca_(film)

you know who WASNT jooish? HITCHOCK. WELLES.

bogart fought AGAINST the fascists in spain in casablanca. joos are always anti fascist. therefore, fascists are the good guys hahahaha. what was the most successful, long lived fascist state? how did croatia happen. was croatia ever “fascist”? what about sweden? norway was “occupied” but it wasnt technically an “axis” power. was sweden?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sweden_during_World_War_II

it was “neutral” and unoccupied

maybe norway resented this?

i dunno its impossible for me to learn and to answer questions and understand situations at all , hahahaha

NOTHING MAKES SENSE. NOTHING. hahahaha. you can try to make sense of it, but you will fail.

had some diet red cherry mello yello today. when i used to drink soda i used to get code red or code blue mt dew. what the hell was the blue stuff called. VOLTAGE. omg. i was notorious for drinking mt dew VOLTAGE. best soda ever. but they didnt make a diet version. i didnt see if they had blue diet mello yello but they had red and i was happy with that.

of course diet soda is so crappy you dont like it as much. i just had 1 because i was at burger king and had a drink and they had one of those touch screen 50 flavors sodas. pretty amazing that. how the hell do these minimum wage people fix such a thing when its broken. there were white kids working there. probably because fast food is actually such a TOUGH job only white kids are SMART enough to HANDLE it. nonwhites are TOO DUMB FOR FAST FOOD JOBS.

i mean these are not easy jobs folks. you have a TON of shit to do, with no fookups. dealing with disgusting fat degen customers stuffing their fat opioid degenerate faces and bitching at these poor white kids.

808 pm. taking second valium.

NORMIES can get MJ rather easily because they are SOCIAL. but normies also dont become total p0theads. they are happy to just partake once in a while, in moderation, or a huge binge every couple months. that’s basically moderation.

so im saying degen p0theads are not normies??? in a way they ARENT!

so are normies winners or losers? i would say generally they are winners compared to losers and nonnormies! 28k might not seem like a huge winner…..but it really is! and prob most normies make arund that. a fast food manager makes that.

oh well. at least i am not fat any more. and i have a place to live. and a good fam. it just sucks that at one time i had a halfway decent MIND……and now i dont.  i mean i am not batshit schizophrenic thank GOD…..but i just feel like a confused idiot child mcuh of the time.

and i want to do MJ????? you think that will HELP this mental state? fook no, itll make it 14 times worse!!!!!

heh. it would be really fun to get blazed as fook and then go to that taake concert! and then just stay in the back. or maybe go right up front and give Roman Salutes to hoest so he knows I am down with the 14 words hahaha.

MAYBE there will be ANTIFA protesting the show like antifa protested marduk recently at some of their US shows because marduk Is Interested in Semi Fascist A E S T H E T I C S.  and they were never photographed with a svastica on their chest hahaha. thats more than enough to get you protested by jooish antifa.

at their best, taake is much less boring than marduk. marduk has like 1 classic song. taake has several and they are much more creative and brilliant than marduk’s 1 classic song (“christraping black metal” which just relies on 2 very catchy riffs.) taake has riffs that are very catchy, but still somewhat “weird”, and they piece 1400 riffs catchy but weird riffs together in a way that does not sound like riff salad masturbation like nile hahahaha. he has a good songwriting sense and a great production sense as well. but again all this kinda declined after the first 3 albums. also he comes from the same town as b00rtzum hahahaha. also he wears super grim corpse paint and convincingly pulls off grim and hate-filled.  also he waves a large norwegian flag sometimes, which suggests sympathies to Nationalism. that or he supports the marxist zionist ZOG traitors who runs norway now hahahaha and is a total NEOCOHEN.

pretty sure he is a drunk tho and might do other drugs. pretty degen.

i am cautiously optimistic it will be a fun show even if i only know 1 or 2 songs. he might even have a new album out now, who knows.

ok i guess he had a us tour in 2016 but did not play near me so i didnt miss anything.

ok, shining is also doing a us tour with REVENGE. not big on shining but i think REVENGE would be an awesome live show. and i would prob stay for shining hahaha even though they are totally degenerate and ridiculous.

sheeeeeeit that show is coming to town but in the worst possible venue, a venue i will avoid for being in a black ghetto and just the trashiest place in the trashiest neighborhood, where i have missed GOOD shows just because i didnt want to go to that shitty shitty club that even by Metal standards is ultra degenerate. i would go if someone else were driving and i cannot really arrange that. well shit maybe i could park in the nearest hwite neighboorhood and get an uber from there and back hahahahaha.

oh shit i dont have a smartphone so i cant get an uber hahahaha.

i mean this place is just no fun and a huge buzzkill anyway. and shining is degen AF, glorifying drugs and suicide. whereas revenge glorifies death, destruction, power, conquering, slaughtering, hellstorm, very very ultra masculine. but kinda degen because of their total nihilism and unfocused hate. lets just get drunk and hate everything. hate all humanity equally kind of misanthropy that has gone beyond mere despair.

i would prefer just to see revenge headlining in a smaller, nicer club.

and j. read is a BEAST of a drummer and basically i would just be going to see him in person doing his incredible stuff. and sometimes the guy from angel corpse plays with them, pete helmkamp, and he is a kewl dude. and probably less degen, more principled, less of a drunk hahaha. not sure if helmkamp is on this tour.

its not cool to be a drunk you guys. its worse than you ever imagined. stop fooking drinking. you are doing untold damage.

mar 24

bought the taake ticket. not tickets because i am going solo hahahaha. really dont have anyone i would like to go with. none of muh acquaintances would be remotely interested in spending 20 bucks to see a show they are not interested in. its really amazing all people dont go to Shows Solo. that they can find other people interested and who have the time available. even if i still associated with That Woman, i couldnt get her to go to this, and if i did, she would probably dump me for a tougher guy at the show, or hoest himself hahahaha.

well ya know i could very probably find some MJ among the metal people in the crowd or parking lot.

sweet might be able to buy 10 dollars of MJ in 2 months from now hahaha

ok adding to muh spreadhseet of BIG DATA ANALYTICS re sleep times. i have been marking when i go to BED, then best estimating when i actually FALL ASLEEP (ABOUT 45 minutes after I get into bed). it would only make SENSE to then mark when I wake up, and then use that to calculate an  average of how much sleep i am actually getting.

so i have started simply adding the wake up time, which on job days is 5 am. very consistent. on nonwork days it is maybe about 9:30 am.  so how does THAT affect the AVERAGE in other words? it looks like muh average now is 8.5 hours of sleep. i knew 7 wasnt enough. on Work Nights i am averaging about 7.5 hours. and then getting 10 to 11 hours on non work nights. so what does it all average out to??? probably about 8.5 to 9 hours. but a few more weeks of Big Data Analytics will help me get a better number. I always needed and sought out a lot of sleep. absolutely more than 8 hours.

dont know who is playing with taake. in UK he played with fen, who i have been meaning to check out, and with winterfylleth on the london show, who are very awesome and i would love if they did a us tour. been liking the UK Atmoblack in 2017 hahahaha. and Fen is right in that scene but havent listened to them. never heard anyone say anything bad about them. they are on muh list when i get bored with winterfylleth which will take a while hahaha. esp since i dont listen to music all the time like i did when i was young. have more important things to concern myself with. music is inherently decadent and soft ahahaha.  real people have to WORK to SURVIVE. you think the great men of history sat around and listened to music for hours each day? they maybe listened to a MINUTE of WAGNER and then went out and conquered the world. made white babies while listening to SKREWDRIVER. listening to music for HOURS every DAY is DEGENERATE and probably means you sm0ke MJ for HOURS every DAY as well.

the only thing you should be doing for HOURS EVERY DAY is WORKING HARD and WINNING.

also WORKING OUT and pumping iron would be acceptable. and spending time with your CHILDREN, helping them to become winners like you.

day off. went to grocery store. got gas. doing 2 loads of laundry. drinking coffee. playing cards. slept 10 hours and 20 minutes last night after taking 2 valiums and 2 benedryl incl 1 benedryl RIGHT before bed.

men and women can SOMETIMES be just friends….but also BE WARNED, that if your female just friend is at ALL YOUNG and ATTRACTIVE, be WARNED that one day just friends could turn into Unrequited Luv at the drop of a hat, and one day you will wake up with it dumped on you like a ton of bricks. prepare for the worst. and tell her that too. listen baby, im not in love with you NOW, but tomorrow i could wake up and be in total luv with you. yeah i know its stupid as fook. just prepare for the worst and i will let you know WHEN it happens so we can end this shit as painlessly as possible, or even better, you could actually try dating me hahahahaha. im better than a negro or an opioid addict. i have very good intentions and i mean you no harm hahahaha. i am just soft and lazy and boring and short hahaha. ive lost a lot of weight though and i luv children! hwyte children! im just terrible at being tough, persuading, leading, selling, making money, being successful, being a man!

there have ALWAYS been pickup artists and seduction gurus and there always will be, because there are two types of men in this world: those that struggle greatly to get any woman and are huge failures with women always, and those that don’t struggle that much and are basically Normies who get GF’s and wives and married and children etc.

guys who can get a gf and guys who cant. guys who know how to Be Around women, and guys who Don’t, and i wonder if those who Dont are simply hopeless, and this is a sign telling them they shouldnt breed. and this is where pickup artists and seduction community and theredpill and Game comes from. these HOPELESS CASES desperately trying to learn. but i dont think it CAN be learned. just accept you were born without What It Takes to Pull Women, and you will never pull women. ever. you were born that way and it cant be changed. the end. dont look at porn because its degenerate. you still can go to hookers, or try to do casual rels with trainwreck sluts on tinder or okcupid. just work on your career and try to make money. start your own business. support your race in ways other than having children of your own. start your own successful business and hire nothing but hwite men who really need a good break in their lives.  give money to weev and anglin hahahaha. dont glorify banging sluts but you could prob still do it privately. maybe be a foster parent to hwite kids only. dont be captain save a ho. don’t save hos, save CHILDREN.

heres whats apparent, when you average our all my sleep, i get an avg of over 8 hours a night. people need 7 to 9 hours. looks like i need closer to 9 hours. NO SURPRISE THERE, i just like seeing the Big Data Science Analytic Empirical Evidence bear that out. had a bit of a 30 minute powernap this afternoon which brought up muh average to about 8:37.

DONT SAVE A HO, SAVE CHILDREN.

Hoes cannot be saved, children sometimes can.

DONT BE A WHITE KNIGHT FOR SOME SLUT, BE A WHITE KNIGHT FOR SOME CHILDREN.

It’s not bad to be a white knight. its a very noble, natural hwite thing to do. it sucks that its got a negative connotation. but for the good reason that unrepentant sluts take advantage of it. so dont use it on them. use it on someone who will actually benefit, and one day be thankful for it: children. not your own of course because you will never have children of your own because that is too much for you to handle and you would be a horrible father hahahahahaha.

no those are negative thoughts. but what if they’re true? i think we concluded that its better to not even think TRUE negative thoughts. maybe if you are a normie, yes then you can handle it. but when you are a weirdo who has ruined your own life with constant negative thoughts, it’s best to not even think realistic, true negative thoughts. ITS BETTER TO DELUDE YOURSELF!!!!!!! literally! honestly! tbhfam!!

8 and a half mfin hours of sleep a night is my average hahaha. and i am not even super active!

this varies between 7 and 11 hours hahahaha depending if i have to get up early or not.

anyway i recommend doing this just to Get To Know your own body better. and especially if like most people, you “catch up” on sleep on your Days off. but you really shouldnt because sleeping in is for lazy losers who will never make something of themselves ahahahaha.

DONT SAVE A HO, SAVE A CHILD.

YOU CANT SAVE A HO. YOU CAN SAVE A CHILD.

hehehehehe. how do you like my nietzschean axioms. aphorisms.

ho = wh0re = slut = skank = thot = n>4 at age 24.

oh well. WHO AM I TO JUDGE. what the hell have i done with MY life. wasted it. just as bad as these THOTS. like them i have no dignity. at least they got some secsual satisfaction out of life hahahaha fooking negros and opioid poppers. tough guys in the trailer park. its not gay for them because straight women love getting pounded by tough guy dick. its as much fun for them as it is for men to pound an attractive woman. well maybe a little less because they get it so often so its not as “expensive” and SCARCE. but they still enjoy it and have more stimulation in the clitoris region and such. nerve endings etc. for men to experience that much pleasure they need to bang an 18 year old 8/10 or above hahahaha or pop some opioids.

i wonder if taake pops opioids since he’s just been rehashing his work post 2005 when he was….28 years old.  and his best work he did between the ages of 22 and 28 hehehehe. and now that he is 39 he is just gonna drink and opioid himself to death and do boring rehashes of his first 3 albums but never reach that level of inspiration hahahahaha. and be very hateful and hate everything and everyone hahahahaha. hey man what are you so hateful about. youve written 3 great albums, you’re a handsome norwegian man, you’re not fat, youve probably pulled some qt gurls, you get nocturno culto and attila to do guest vocals on your albums hahahaha.

wait he did a cover of a CURE song? now that is compelling! that was on an EP semi recently. after his banjo album. he used a banjo on one song and its all anyone can talk about.

anyway. im not the biggest taake fan but this will probably make me a bigger taake fan. i wish it were a band i was more into at the moment, like winterfylleth or saor or iron maiden or…..mgla is awesome and i would totally see them, they did a US tour but no show in the area. if i were a real fan i would have traveled like serious fans do. drive 500 miles to go to a SHOW is what REAL fans do. so im not a real fan. OH WELL. i dont like metal CROWDS anyway. fookin stupid degenerates who are pissing away their whiteness on being drunken and st0ned idiots who care more about degen music than by being winners in life. reminds me of myself. except i was never as TOUGH as the avg metal guy which was at least enough to get them laid with dirty sluts once in a while.  and to not be MEEK and WEAK and anxious, but to be TOUGH and MANLY.

MEEK. TIMID. DONT BE THESE THINGS. BE TOUGH.

yeah i was always MEEK and TIMID. ever since i was a young child. i didnt think it would be such a bad thing. im butthurt it WAS  SUCH a bad thing, since there are people who are even more meek and timid who didnt do as bad at life. i just took an all in gamble at some point without really knowing it, and lost it all hahahaha.