sat nov 4

mar 18

yeah buddy

saturday morning, sleeping in, get thoughts about Women and That Woman. like can you really compare women to Drugs? It’s inherently good and natural to have a wife and have children, it’s not inherently bad like being addicted to drugs.

but not all men are GOOD ENOUGH, TOUGH ENOUGH to have wife and children. less than half.

so i get butthurt when i see men display FAKE toughness so they can knock up the white trash stupid slut, have an innocent white baby, then run off like a deadbeat and make another stupid white trash fatherless slut. basically acting liek a hwyte negro. disgusting. they’re not man enough or good enough or tough enough to have children, but they do anyway,  because they can go through the motions, and because women have become stupid and slutty enough because of generations of no fathers, of negrolike fathers.

of course the root cause is Political Policies engineered by Jooz and Joo-Luvers. Great society, welfare, anti-male, anti-family, anti-human, anti-hwyte, antisocial poison laws and policies.

i am a parasite too but i dont take any gov entitlements hehehehe. and i pay muh taxes. which are like 20% of muh shamefully small 11k income!

feed2mail is only free for the first 30 days. fook these J’s.

wesearchr seems like a good thing. basically…crowdfunding against mainstream media joos??? saying lets fight this enemy of the people?

ok i will listen to the soundtrack from “witcher 3” because even though vidya is degen, this is a polish game from polish devs and the music done  by polish composers. basically im here mainly for the music, because i know gaymz sometimes have good music.

and basically witcher seems like something less jooed than other games, or tv shows, or movies, that could potentially attract good music composers into making a coherent, semi symphonic score.

like gaym of thrones had a decent theme music but the show is degen jooish trash so, kinda makes the music less enjoyable.

witcher is a polish thing created by hwytes and seems like a less degen of a vidya, so, it gets the pass.

really, vidya is BETTER and less degen than sitting around complaining about what a loser you are!

and its less degen than PORN!

its less degen than alcohol.

is it less degen than MJ? thats a tough call.

right now i would not mind getting blazed af and playing a hwyte slavic game like witcher and NOT complaining about what a loser i am who will never get or secure a good job and a good waifu.

how do you turn private pyle from a weak cowardly untough loser, into the tough drill instructor? well you do what has been done to countless marines before: break them down until they are crying themselves to sleep every night, then rebuild them anew.

but private pyle threw a monkey wrench in, because after he broke down crying, he was not built up anew, but just flipped out and K’d people. went postal.

so yeah i guess, do MJ and play vidya as long as you are NOT:

  1. complaining about being a a lonely loser
  2. fat and getting fatter
  3.  watching porn

but if you are playing vidya then those other things overlap with that venn diagram quite a damn lot.

but i would be the special snowflake!

no im serious, i am not worried about ever Going Back to porn, i am DONE with that. going back to OVereating and becoming Fat again is the much more real risk that i need to be vigilant about.

unlike porn, eating tasty food is not inherently bad. even drinking alcohol is not inherently bad or jooish. its just doing it in MODERATION. IN MODERATION.

theres no moderation for porn. no one should watch it ever. it is trash and all of it belongs in the oven. you cant say the same about food, alcohol, or women. MJ is more up for debate, and i’m leaning towards, it does have its legit uses. for pain or cancer or seizures. so no. its not inherent bad or jooish like porn. VERY FEW THINGS ARE. im not lying when i say porn is one of the worst, most jooish things ever, and that very few things are THAT bad. well, TV, mainstream media, journalists, movies, popular culture, modern women, jooniversities, education, jooish scams, those come close in their level of jooishness.

how jooed is it? and porn is one of the MOST jooed things about it. you can unjoo tv and vidya, you CANNOT unjoo porn, becuase its INHERENTLY jooish. there is NO reason for it to exist except to joo and harm people. it is the pure essence of jooishness laid bare and in that sense it could be instructive. but still not worth watching. just think about how bad it is, and that will teach you everything you need to know about da j00z.

they turn hwyte women into sluts who fook negros on camera. they turn hwyte men into opioid popping deadbeats who abandon their daughters and let them fook negros on camera. i can’t put it any more plainly, folks.

and if these things dont rustle you, you should be ashamed of yourself. unfort i think too many hwytes would NOT be rustled by these things. well, they wouldn’t believe there is any jooish interest in these things, thats just a wild antisemitic conspiracy theory. i make 50k a year with my degree and have 1 kid i’m painstakingly educating not to be racist and to learn about hwyte privilege, and I read the JY Slimes and I know that hwytes are just getting the karma they deserve for centuries of being bigoted racist oppressors. shrug. oh well. you reap what you sow. karma.

the EXCITEMENT and the THRILL of wanting some MJ and then you HAVE it!!!! and now you are going to enjoy it! the anticipation! the preparing of your preferred method. and then finally the almost relgiious ritual of partaking. i really try not to take it for granted like many of the sloppy degen st0ners. its all very special and sacred hahahaha.

i mean honestly. why dont i just go down to the Bad part of Town, hang around a Liquor Store, and ask guys who look like they would know how to get MJ, if they can get me 20 dollars of MJ? and then later, ask if they could get more? because i am too much of a PVSSY. otherwise i would have DONE it already. and been enjoying some MJ.

glad this is still up

the hosts could be a bit more high energy, but they are hwyte and they are smart as hell and talking about important SCIENCE! topics with a right wing, pro hwyte bias hahahaha.  which is the best way to talk about SCIENCE! there are at least 5 podcasts here which you must listen to immediately. wish there were one on secsual morality and man woman relshits and sluts but oh well.

SCIENCE! used to be a very hwyte, principled thing, but it has gotten jooed quickly in the recent past. lets turn that around hehehe.

should put darwin digest in the sidebar because though their execution is not PERFECT, its still more than good enough and what they did was IMPORTANT and they should have not stopped! i am technically still dnating like 10 cents a week to them hahahahaha. just look up darwin digest liberapay.

how about a freeze peach patreon for bitcoin. so you can have recurring dnations to creators, and small regular dnations, weekly or monthly, but let yourself be pseudonymous and also avoid blockchain transaction fees for every transaction.  BIZ OPPORTUNITY HERE!!!! GET IN!!!!!

heh. this witcher soundtrack is like modern boortzum if it were any GOOD hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. oh thats horrible im sorry uncle varg. but you got a lot of filler on your modern albums and the production could be a lot better too. but im not mad, you have 6 kids to raise and your work there is much more important than making new music. keep having kids and making pro-hwyte videos, living out the 14w.

but yeah. grab those darwin digest podcasts as long as they are still up. suprised they are. put the link in the sidebar. they earned it hahahaha. just glad they can WORK in SCIENCE! and not have their right wing beliefs compromised.  and im not even butthurt that there is a WOMAN on the show. i NEVER said women arent SMART enough to do SCIENCE! just that average women arent that autistic, but some are. and ALL women should have CHILDREN before doing CAREERS, and this woman cathy princess does have at least one young child and hopefully more.

also married women with young children are not gonna put other young men in competition with each other so much and therefore wont cause tension in the movement just by being young, single, available women in a room filled with lonely, single men who want GF’s and waifus and children.

here is witcher 1 soundtrack by some different pole composers hehehehe

if i had to play a vidya, i would prob play witcher hahahahaha. but i dont even have that platform. console. whatever.

i am a bit jelly of georgie boi because he doesnt have any DESIRE to do MJ. he jsut says, thats degenerate, fook that shit, and doesnt ever do it even though its fully legal in his state, he could WALK to a STORE 5 minutes AWAY and buy high quality legal MJ for a good price. in his situation i would be fully in the throes of a BAD MJ HABIT. but he’s NOT.

i KNOW its mostly degen but i STILL want to do this VICE. i have a ton o excuses and i still know its degen. so i would not expect support in this. i would hide it, rightfully, from winners and esp from fellow VVN’s. i just desperately want to enjoy my vice in private.

big bitcoin dip yesterday. damn. bad week for bitcoin. i have to pay attention to this now that i am buying a LITTLE bit of btc every single week. 5 to 10 dollars worth. hoping to do this over the long term, 1 to 3 years, and watch it GROW at….5% per year hehehehe. 4%.

yep the woman you put on a pedestal and want to spend the rest of your life with and have children with and luv, would rather be treated like a piece of jooish pornography by a negro, than even TALK to the likes of YOU, because you are THAT DISGUSTING. this “lovely” woman would rather let herself become a piece of PORN than hang out with or talk to YOU. DAMN.

aint no thang, just a fact of life hahahaha. happens all the time. deal with it .gif. youre in love with that woman? she doesnt care if you live or die. she would rather make a movie of her ass getting gaped by a big black bull than go for a nice walk in the park and cuddle with you. she would rather suck and fook 10 dicks in a gangbang like a disgusting trash wh0re used as a cvmbucket by hand rubbing jooz to make jooish filth with.

def not a good feel!

would rather destroy her own hwyte soul than have anything to DO with the likes of YOU because you are such a disgusting loser who is not worthy of even the most ruined woman!

feels bad man!

oh well, life goes on, deal with it.gif. do tonnes of MJ and play vidya but do NOT overeat and do NOT look at porn.

read 1433 stuff and curse da jooz for ruining your women and your men. shake your head at how your own race could have been DUPED by these rats!

was it hubris on your part? maybe a little, but moreso softness and comfort IMHO. yeah but even The Greatest Generation of Tough Men were duped by you know who into an absolutely unholy war that they never should have been in. this is really worse than Millennial Degeneracy I always moan about. but i recognize its part of a longer arc of history.

shit world war ONE was part of it. the federal reserve. these rats have been jooing us since the beginning of the 1900s and probably before then too hahaha.  well they pushed some african slaves on the US in the 16 and 1700s didnt they?

im only against them because they are against US. if they took a more laissez-faire attitude, so would I.

im ok with never looking at porn again. i have no real desire.

i’m kinda ok with never drinking alcohol again, i dont have a burning desire. not comparing alcohol to porn because alcohol is not inherently degenerate, porn is. just comparing my historical vices and appetites and bad habits hahahaha.

i am not ok with never being with a woman again. women are not inherently degen….but so many of them are deeply, irreversibly degen. ruined women. even if they are professionally successful!

i am not ok with never doing MJ again. it is not inherently degen, but the extent i want to do it IS degen, and i accept that and dont expect any validation for it. i am willing to pay the price for that one hahahaha. i yam what i yam. it is a bad habit i am not willing to give up. and its better than porn or being an alcoholic or opioid popper hahahaha. its just kinda disturbing that i want it SO goddamn MUCH, and I would be SOOOOOOO excited if i Got Some. it would almost be better than getting a woman because with a woman…. there are so many unknowns. you dont know what youre getting. you know its gonna disappoint you in unknown ways. with MJ its much more of a known quantity that doesn’t disappoint you NEARLY as much. you might get paranoid/anxious, or you might run out. and those are very obvious, unsurprising risks. you know that shit going in. you’re not naive about that.

with a woman, yeah you know it’s probably gonna be disappointing, but you so want things to be different this time. you willingly delude yourself a lot more. oh i hope this ones gonna be DIFFERENT. and it IS, but not in a good way. you just find yourself BLINDSIDED in a new and horrible way hhahahahaha. you dont get that with MJ.

also MJ is an inanimate object, not a human being, and its even more disappointing to see Fellow Human Beings acting the way Women do. MJ just is what it is. its a plant. it is what it is.  its a special plant with special powers and should be treated with great respect and reverence and many human beings DONT, but its still Just A Plant. it cant make decisions, it cant break your heart, it cant be a coward, it cant hurt you.  its much less threatening and risky than Women.

stories of people that think “hmm maybe i sm0ke too much MJ and should cut back” but its just SO available to them that they have to make a really conscious effort to do so; vs my pathetic story of wanting SO BAD to do MJ but not because its just not AVAILABLE for me because i dont know any good ways of GETTING it.  and i have thought long and hard about 3 diff ways of getting it and im not really liking any one of them. all i can do is wait for this one person, and that is clearly going to take several months. its already taken 3 months and it could very likely take 3 more.  at LEAST. if EVER. that is not a sure thing at all, i never expected it would be.

i saw a working class apt bldg today where in the windows one person had a huge murkan flag, and a huge CONFEDERATE flag. before i would have though, oh dear lord, what low class racist white trash, now i am like hell yeah, i should go talk to this guy, that’s the best signal you could have besides flying a huge natzee flag, which you can’t do. confed flag is still 60000000000 times more socially acceptable, and of course they have been trying to suppress it in the past few years, after dylan roof and michael brown and BLM. so it means you have pretty big balls to fly that flag in 2017 hahahaha. i should really get one to signal to other Hwyte Rednecks. the only caveat is that they might be opioid-popping zionists hahahahaha. that is a risk i’m willing to take. you could PROBABLY sell them on the idea of sleazy, degenerate, hand-rubbing merchants and scammers, though. i am very sure about that. then just explain that’s what zionists are too, hahahahaha.

so yeah. get a confederate flag and proudly fly it if you dont already. you can fly it next to a US flag, that’s perfectly all right.

displaying a svastica is too far, but displaying a rebel flag is perfectly fine, well within your rights. so just do that then. women might like your brashness. whereas if you display a svastica, they might just think youre a psychopath. or they wont even know what it is hahahahahaha. because they were too busy texting and sexting tyrone during the 13 years of K-12 natzee-bashing, muh 666 gorillion, to notice that the svastica is the eternal symbol of hate, evil, hwyte men.

wear a rebel flag tshirt. ESPECIALLY if you are a yankee hahahahahaha.

this is a great idea, would like to get such a shirt in the short term. a lot of hwytes really like the “REDNECK” lifestyle of hunting, camo, 4 x 4’s, trucks, gunz, country music, etc, and the rebel flag fits nicely in this, and while these people are prob not explicitly 1433, they are VERY implicitly hwyte, and thats all we need. is people who arent ASHAMED of being hwyte, and who like guns, and aren’t ashamed of the rebel flag. GOOD ENOUGH. they are basically ASKING to be redpilled and turned full 1433. so its YOUR duty to gently start redpilling them on the JQ.  start with feminism, though they might already know about that. and be dating qt hwyte gurls who are not feminist at all. and well on their way to having hwyte children. just hard working hwyte “redneck” “country” types. we need more of these people.

ohhhh that woman, she was so perfect, one of her family members had a rebel flag and she didn’t hate it. and she thought the anti-rebel flag shit was stupid. wah wah wah.

who cares, she’s d to me and i’m dead to her, i dont have to like it, but thats just the way it is, that is a stone cold truth. and i cant really MOURN her the way you MOURN a loved one who died too soon, and some people mourn them for 20, 30, 40 years, never stop mourning these untimely deaths, well i cant do that here, because there was no death, it was HER CHOICE.

however i AM entitled to be upset about it, and boy was i, for a long damn time. still am! it comes in waves atm and i have been thinking about her more often than usual. cant say theres any reason. it comes in waves now.

this mother fookin guy. a damn chatty cathy in the poker chat. i was nice and responded to him. hope he does not keep chatting hahahaha. i think he is nonwhite, possibly arab. american tho hahaha. the type who likes chatting with strangers at the poker table hahahaha.

well like ive before, there’s nothing REALLY wrong with small talk, and its MY issue that i am annoyed by it sometimes. its really not THAT annoying. its weird that i am annoyed by it at all.

well ill tell you what was really annoying, was this woman in church today who say 2 rows behind and was huffing and puffing like crazy. every breath was like she was gasping for air after running a marathon or holding your breath for 5 minutes.

i tried to view it in the light of, god have mercy on that poor woman, and thank god i do not have whatever godawful COPD or breathing problem she has which is killing her and costing her literally hundreds of thousands of dollars to the jooish medical scam system.

instead i was like oh god its so infuriating having to listen to her, i cant wait to get out of here. and she wasnt even fat or nonwhite.

but damn this guy is encouraging me to play more hands and stop being so tight. he is not wrong per se……he is prob a good player, taking note of my style and everybody elses, well i make notes on other players sometimes hahaha.

i also dont pay attention to other players a hell of a lot hahahaha because i am multitasking. this guy i dont think is. he is studying his opponents like a good player should.

 

 

 

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NEXT TO ME, UNCLE ADI IS MICKEY MOUSE AND AVSCHW1TZ IS DISNEYWORLD

mar 6

when you are in the depths of grief you do go crazy. this is well documented by scientists in SCIENCE! literature. and i dont believe its all a SCIENCE! atheist fedora jooish scam, i believe its real, and you do go crazy. meaning YOU do stupid shit, including possibly self destruct. i am scared that whenever i find myself in the depths of grief, i will do something so self destructive i will ruin my whole damn life. no, i dont mean K’ing myself, but something as “simple” as no call no showing and getting fired from your job. That’s another way of ruining your life besides just K’ing yourself. then you run out of money, lose your home, as you struggle to try to convince other people to hire you, as you are currently mad with grief and also look like a Quitter, Unreliable. or if you are a Recovering Addict, you lose control during the grief and fall off the wagon. leading you to quit your job and K yourself hahahaha. have a heart attack at the wheel and crash into a mcdonalds, like how a guy died around here not too long ago.

and then your wife leaves you for being such a basket case, takes the children, demands money you dont have, and you go to debtors prison because you cant afford to pay for your wife and kids, and even if your wife didnt demand alimony like a bitch, you probably still couldnt pay for your damn kids because you just lost your job because you no call no showed and couldnt think straight enough to do 1 * 1 = 1. let alone explain shit you dont understand and can’t refer your angry customers to someone who does understand. there might not even BE a person who understands.

came across a thing of a person talking about nietzsche and kierkegaard, and kinda broke it down into basics. because i’ve been MEANING to read “thus spoke zarathustra” the past…….13 years and havent made any progress. and i hear “either/or” is pretty good but meh its prob not fun. they explained the basic bitch version: that you face EXISTENTIAL DESPAIR, and go through STAGES: first, a very immature muh dick “aesthete” stage, then a more mature Ethical stage where you are aware of the despair, then Religiousness A where you try to do something about the despair, then finally Religiousness B, where you start to find some peace because you have given the despair over to GOD. I think. anyway I liked all the talk about DESPAIR, obviously hahahaha.

i am SUPER AWARE of despair, so i’ve obviously moved into at LEAST the “ethical” stage, so that’s good. uhhh i am DEF OPEN to the IDEA of a god, i would LIKE to have faith…. i dunno, i’m somewhere between ethical and religiousness A.

anyway these philosophers certainly were concerned with the things that really matter, but i couldnt spend my whole life writing books on these issues like they did. i mean just give me the basic bitch version, and thats good enough for me. then i’ll spend my life furiously mansplaining to women why murdering your baby is wrong, hahahahaha. thats good enough for me. why being a dirty slut is wrong. Why taking 100000000 cox is wrong. why The Jooed Life is wrong.  Why Jooish Perversions are Perverted.

i would be the Street Preacher while those guys were in their Ivory Tower hahahaha. They were still good goys though. GREAT goys. Both of them. i mean i do really need somebody to give me the basic bitch version though. nietzsche AND kierkegaard 4 Stupid Goyim.

but yeah no need for me to get a philosophy phd, even if its concentrating on ETHICS/MORALITY which would totally be my area, when its not complicated folks. you dont need a phd. just don’t murder your baby, dont cheat, dont treat people like garbage, do no harm. the end.

i dont need to spend my life researching that, i would prefer to spend my life mansplaining such retardedly basic bitch concept to BASIC BITCHES!!!!

you dont need a phd to understand these very BASIC BITCH, stage 1 concepts. it is interesting that kierkegard called the most basic bitch, instant gratification stage the “AESTHETE.” heh. does this mean they can at least appreciate aesthetics then? so its not like throwing pearls before swine at least? cuz thats what its like now. tell bitches that murdering their baby is evil and they look at you like youre speaking chinese hahahahaha.

i am magnifying again. i dont actually have proof of evil bitches like this. i dont have a concrete example where i mansplained the ethics of abortion to a woman and she had no idea. i am creating a fiction of the Worst Imaginable Woman here.  that is what i do in my FREE TIME.

i wonder what these TITANS of moral philosophy would say about ABORTION. they would probably faint in horror that such a thing could be conceived. no pun intended hahahahaha. and they would say I WONDER WHO could come up with an idea SO REPUGNANT to basic human morals?

i heard a theory that it was nietzsches sister who was responsible for all his “anti-semitic” writing, that she edited his notes to create “the will to power”, which did not represent FN’s actual ideas. i dont know how true this is. i would ideally like for FN to share some of his sister’s anti-semitism. talk to heidegger hahahahahahahaha.

but yeah basically we had all the same problems we had back then, but also some very new, very important moral problems, and you can probably go ahead and blame them on da joos right now. stuff like pornography, abortion, neetism, alienation.

i think some of the philosophers were starting to get into alienation. then in the 60s and 70s everything became postmodernism and relativism and (((((critical theory))))) and deconstructionism and frankfurt school and foucault and derrida and deleuze and lacan and barthes and baudrillard and adorno and other ways of making jooism excuses for jooish moral perversions and moral inversion.

give me nietzsche, kierkegaard, heidegger, and probably jung too hahahah. give me nonjooed philosophers only.

hey you dont like my antijooism, fook off back into the oven, jooboy. I have been antijoo since 2012 and its only gotten stronger hahahahahaha. I am da jooz worst nightmare. next to me, uncle adolf will seem like MICKEY MOUSE.

it’s not a CONSPIRACY. its right out in the fookin OPEN. its not a CONSPIRACY at all. joos have INTERESTS. all races but hwytes have INTERESTS. hwytes USED to have interests. joos interests have ALWAYS or nearly always been against hwytes, and until they stop that shit, my interests, and the interest of muh volk, will be against their interests.

you dont need to sell me on the JQ. i’m already there man. waaaaayyyyy ahead of you. i just wish i could sell more hwytes on the JQ. that is muh weak point, among others. but the horses that dont want to drink the water I lead them to will say, what, you mean you believe in a jooish global conspiracy that controls the media and the money? what else, you believe only 5 million people were ovened at auschwitz???? WHY WOULD YOU EVEN WANT TO QUESTION MUH 6 GORILLION? WHATS WRONG WITH YOU? WHY WOULD YOU EVEN DOUBT THAT NUMBER?

because I am a RAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGING ANTI-S3M1TE. PERIOD.

you dont like it, find some other neet blog that wants to help you get out of neetness. and if you’re a joo, go beg at the JCC for a 28k a year job and some jooish sluts. jooish doctors there can get you an unlimited supply of any drugs you want if you have anxiety and cant talk to gurls or something. who cares. go move to your own country and stop your people from jooing my country.

oh yeah i had a moral dilemma recently. i had this friend who was/is a great guy, one of the greatest goys i will ever meet, just a perfect man. the kicker is that his life was very literally saved by a jooish doctor. WAT DO.

so i say, NAJALT, there are probably lots of jooish doctors that save lots of goy people’s lives. BUT THEIR LIVES WOULD HAVE BEEN SAVED ANYWAY by goy doctors were there no jooish doctors available. if that jooish doctor wasnt there, a goy doctor would have been in his place to save muh old friend’s life. not saying that particular joo isn’t a good person tho. he probably is. not a great race, however.

simple answer amirite? fook yes. i only took ONE philosophy course and I knew the answer to that one right away. meanwhile joos with philosophy phd’s spend their careers brainwashing CHILDREN that MURDER is morally acceptable, that EVERYTHING is morally acceptable because MORALITY does not really exist, its just a system of hwyte oppression and punching down. this is what philosophy has DEGENERATED into.

better to just take Ancient Greek Philosophy with Plato and Aristotle and shit at some shit tier toilet college. or i guess just anything before 1900. everything to around the time of freud and marx, except excluding their jooish bullshit.  maybe studying  how they were the beginning of jooish bullshit. defoo da joo.

hegel? kant? how jooed were they?

wasnt the enlightenment pretty jooed?

these are not questions you can ask your professors. your TEACHERS.

i will probably never be able to be man enough to have children of my own. i just ask for the opportunity to help hwyte children in some way, and to i guess be AROUND them in some capacity, like i am not automatically such a bad influence that I need to be KEPT AWAY from children AT ALL COSTS. that would indeed make me quite a sad panda hahahahahahahaha.

so why not help children who are RELATED to me? like the children of cousins and such, kids who are 10 years old and actively in the process of Child Development.

well they have good successful white parents and I am SURE the children will do well. they dont need my help. in fact, they are surrounded by so much good influence i might actually be a bad influence. also i am not close with these parts of the family, and have never even MET the children, in some cases who are like 12 years old. never met them in 12 years.

also, i would be a better influence to somebody who is surrounded by a lot of bad influences hahahaha. then my paltry contribution might seem more positive in comparison hahahaha.

my friends and old friends who have had children, well lets just say these children are blessed to have good hwyte parents. i am not worried about those kids. i mean yeah i should still be in contact with my old friends but. no excuse. maybe i felt i would be a bad influence on their children! because I was a fookin bum who was not alpha male enough to have children!

so this kind of mindset keeps ME away from GOOD influences and also from spending time with hwyte children, which itself is technically a good influence too, even though the children arent doing any hard work. heavy lifting hahahaha. they dont need to tho. they just need to exist.

i mean a person doesnt have to be PERFECT. i would probably hang out with a loser like me just because i have interesting ideas and are not actively K’ing myself with drugs or alcohol hahahaha. that’s pretty much all you need to do. don’t need to make 28k a year, just need to not be a hopeless drug or alcohol addict. IVE ALREADY ACHIEVED THAT MUCH!!!!!!

i mean i would have a grand old time talking to myself about how sluts are shamefully degenerate, smokin 420000000 tonnes of MMJ, watching triumph of the will, going to the park, talking about the 14 words and the JQ, listen to iron maiden and black metal, hahahahaha.

maybe i want the female version of myself?

heh. in a way i felt That Woman was the closest i had found to a Female Version Of Myself. just cuz i felt we were SIMILAR people, similar values, similar Mindset, similar personalities. we werent the SAME, but we WERE SIMILAR.

not similar enough i guess!!!!!!!!

had decent day at the job, answered phone a little bit, did something i felt just competent enough at so that it felt like a Surmountable Challenge, and not an Insurmountable Confusing Clusterfook. i mean thats a razors edge, when does something tip over from being surmountable to being INsurmountable? i mean i would much rather something be too easy than too hard. because you can ACTUALLY DO the thing that is too easy. the thing that is too hard, you dont have a DAMN CHANCE of even KNOWING if you’re EVEN CLOSE to the right PATH or not.  no thank you.  you could be 99% there, or you could be 180 off the mark, and you have no way of knowing. FOOK THAT SHIT.

mar 7

now i am putting EVERYTHING in a spreadsheet to try to get AVERAGES. not a bad way. average minutes to apply for  job. average calories per day. average time i went to bed. average (estimated) time i actually fell asleep. those last two items are my latest great idea. so i can OPTIMIZE my bedtime. obv the goal is not to get into bed too early, and close the window between bed and sleep to about 30 minutes. and still get 8 hours a night. since i get up at 5 am, the goal fall asleep time is then 9 pm. easier said than done. but maybe the numbers can help me there.

measure the metrics. analyze the analytics hahahahahahaha. get 8 hours of sleep a night, lose 45 pounds, hahahaha.

no i mean i have already lost 45 pounds TOOT TOOT. i dont want to lose any more, just to keep it off, so i dont get too big for muh nice new smaller clothes.

heard a story of a man who took well over 60 college credits in one year because he went to an online college and was charged by the year, not by the credit hour, so he wanted to cram as many credits into the year as possible. also, he was probably required to have bachelors degree to get the job or promotion. so he took WELL over 60 credits at this shitty online university in one year. and im sure worked full time during that time as well. we all wondered, well did he actually learn anything, and agreed, probably not, but this is the shitty situation you have to deal with. he needed the degree and he just wanted to Git R Done, and he did. at the least expense to himself. you cant blame him.

The System shouldnt have REQUIRED him to have a bullshit degree from a bullshit online school, or really ANY skool. CREDENTIALISM at its worst.

so now he makes a good living with a BS degree and prob has several children. hwyte guy hahahaha.

im not saying he’s dumb or jooish. im saying the whole system is a dumb and jooish scam wasting years of his life when he should have been making more money for his hwyte children instead of slaving away for 60 credits in 1 year just to get the piece of paper which would help his children. i dont even know where people get the high energy. maybe the children do it for you hahahaha. maybe i should have children just to try to get more energy hahaha.

cancer is the worst thing ever. you can beat cancer, then 30 years later, you get a tumor, you get a savage round of chemo, which is painful and wrecks you, its ALMOST as bad as the cancer, then it turns out, welp, the chemo didnt work, and now you are gonna DIE in 6 months. 6 months you go from pretty healthy for your age, to DEAD, with the last few weeks being horrible pain. like welp, you’re obviously GOING TO DIE in the next week or two at the longest. god damn. it makes having a heart attack look fast and painless.

alzheimers is also horrifying and prob worse than a heart attack.

there are very few ways to die that are NOT absolutely TERRIFYING. cancer, alzheimers, etc. dying peacefully in your sleep really IS too much to ask for. which is why i am Bitter at The Lord for prohibiting su1c1de. in the face of cancer and alzheimers, su1c1de looks FOOKING AWESOME. but you CANT do it, because then you go to HELL. GOD DAMN.

there’s nothing INHERENTLY wrong with online college. i know for a fact there are strict, good quality standards, for those that choose to apply them. i just dont like shady, scammy jooish online colleges that charge an arm and a leg and are clearly run as low-quality business to Produce Credentials. Expensive Degree Mills. but fookin Wichita State University Online, nothing wrong with that. also the shorter online classes are HARD. you cover a LOT of stuff in 8 work pack weeks. I would much rather see 16 week courses at least. and schools that charge by the credit hour rather than the year. because i would only want to take 1 class at a time, ever, and have it be a 16 week class, and have it meet accepted quality standards, and be a fair price. in this case, online college is no problem mon.  but phoenix and devry can SUCK MUH DICK.

40 years ago your dad could put himself through college bagging groceries at the grocery store. being a damn caddy. mowing lawns during the summer and not needing to win highly competitive internships during the summers.  now you have to take out a huge jooish loan thats worse than a HOME LOAN, for something that has LESS value than it did 40 years ago.

and then youre screwed because you didnt get an internship at microsoft when you were 19.

but im clearly MAGNIFYING. PLENTY of people are hugely successful who did not get internships at microsoft at 19. people have gotten out of PRISON at age 25 and still turned their lives around. (but thats sure not the norm for people who get out of prison at 25. MOST of them just go right back. because they cant get legit work that pays more than n3gro CRIME.)

maybe i should just buy and resell drvgs on black markets hahahahahaha. buy low, sell high hahahahaha. no im not advocating this whatsoever. i condemn all illegal things. OBEY THE LAW.

 

 

WOMEN HAVE NO MORAL COMPASS AND ARE WIRED TO HATE OMEGA MEN

wed aug 9

so people used to drink like 1% alcohol beer because it was cleaner than water, the alcohol killed all the germs and viruses and bacteria and shit in the water, so it was actually safer to drink beer than water. and you stayed hydrated by drinking weak beer instead of water.

could you dump dirty water into beer and then the smallest amount of alcohol would kill all germs? i dont think it worked that way. like, you couldnt ADD shit. you could MAKE really watery beer and then THAT water would be ok.

whenever i read shit on /relships, im like, why are you even asking? just dump them. just dump them.

then i realize its because they actually CARE, they dont WANT to dump them, they want to save this relship, they are WILLING to MAKE AN EFFORT, they dont WANT to LOSE this person.

and it is painful when a person just wants to be DONE with you. they want to be done with you SO MUCH that they are ok with never talking to you or seeing you ever again. you might as well have DIED.

at least send your mom, or your BFF, or your new BF, or a Social Work Student, to be a messenger of the bad news and to say SORRY, I KNOW THIS SUCKS FOR YOU. or you can just send an email or text yourself which says that. sorry, i know this sucks for you, i dont mean to cause you this pain, but i cant do this anymore, i have to back out, sorry, the end.

how hard is it to send a TEXT saying THAT? it takes LESS THAN ONE MINUTE. to throw away a person without even taking LESS THAN ONE MINUTE to say something to them is just ridiculous hahaha. i would NEVER do it to anyone.

now i am on the outs with people but its completely different situation. like for an incorrigible addict who has been given countless chances by everyone in their life. that’s not what was happening with me and that woman. i felt i wasnt even being given ONE chance to Air The Grievances. Festivus hahahaahahaha.

i AGREE that at some point you can talk about it TOO MUCH and talking about it any more wont do you any good, you just need to END it.

i’m not sure when that point is. probably when one person is sick of TALKING about it and the other person is obviously not listening AT ALL. I think this is probably more than three times. use the old three strikes rule of thumb.

so yeah i dont feel i got three strikes. never even TALKED about it ONCE. SO THERE.

eyebrows. never understood the manicuring of eyebrows on women. i have about average eyebrows and i would be perfectly happy with a woman who had the exact same eyebrows as me. well i have one eyebrow hair that grows extremely long. not sure how that happened but i just trim that one single hair like every 3 months and that is good enough. basically i prefer a natural look to an artificial look, and everything women do to make themselves up looks so artificial to me! women of a certain age are NATURALLY beautiful! why do they want to fook it up by making it look ARTIFICIAL?

for a similar reason I don’t like makeup, lipstick, eye shadow, eyelash mascara, any of that shit. no thank you. YOU LOOK LIKE A HOOKER.

maybe the TINIEST bit of makeup to show that she is making an effort for you, her man, not to seduce a room full of rich men. of course she doesnt need to make an effort in the looks department, but showing the WILLINGNESS to DO SOMETHING for you shows loyalty and luv and good faith. the more you know. rather than someone who ignores you, avoids you, and takes you for granted. doesnt really luv you. wants to be done with you but is too craven to tell you in ANY way.

hire a damn Process Server hahahahahaha.  YOU GOT SERVED.

no i didnt hahahahaha. i would have preferred getting SERVED.

aaaaannnnnd bitcoin continues to go up. OH WELL. I DONT HAVE ANY MORE TO SELL.

I resent women because (and this is certainly not the ONLY reason) is because I would be SUCH a GOOD woman. I could be a better woman than most women. Men know what Men want. Men know how to be a better woman. Women have no idea what women want, or how to be a better man, so their opinions are stupid and worthless. men’s opinions are wise, meaningful, correct, and important. Men speak the truth, women speak bullshit.

but this is the way its ALWAYS been! dont hate a cat for being a cat! dont hate a dog for being a dog!

yeah but dogs and cats arent supposed to mate together!

but im just saying its always been CONCEALED and COVERT with women, they NEVER knew what REALLY goes on inside their body or minds, so why expect them to be “honest” about it? they can’t possibly BE honest!

i guess I just value HONESTY that much. and men DO.

i guess i’m just mad that men value honesty so much and women are naturally dishonest, incapable of honesty. if i didnt care about honesty so much, i wouldnt care about women being deceptive.

heh. well, what do women hate about men? they hate weak, needy, clingy men. and there are plenty of weak, clingy, needy men out there. i’ve been one myself.

i dunno. i just feel being weak, clingy, and needy is not as morally wrong as being DISHONEST. a cheater, scammer, liar, abandoner.

because im using mens morality not womens morality hahahahaha. for a MAN, YES it is pretty bad to be weak. or dishonest. for a WOMAN, for a MAN to be weak is the worst thing ever, and for a woman to be dishonest doesnt really matter. women get to get away with being CHILDREN.

i guess i also resent that too: men have to be RESPONSIBLE, women DONT. COME ON.

if i have to be responsible, i want muh women to be responsible too.

i struggle bigly with being responsible, but i know being responsible is the right thing to do.

whitesville west virgina, think i will move there hahahahahaha.

there were yellow flags and red flags with that woman, for example some silly stuff she believed…..but EVERY woman believes some silly stuff and has some yellow flags in that way. just be grateful she hasnt been with 60000 guys red flag. besides you can probably mold her towards less silly beliefs and make her a white warrioress bearing you many little white warriors. what could be better. and then when that woman leaves you like a ghost, you are devastated for at LEAST 2 years. it all makes sense.

hey. i KNOW i was important to her for a WHILE. like she genuinely liked me as a person, liked seeing me, liked spending time with me, i could TELL she wasnt FAKING it. so i guess i just wanted her to SHOW ANY of that at the end. like i’m sorry, i know this HURTS, sorry, i dont mean to throw you away like a piece of garbage because thats NOW how I think of you. you really DID mean something important to me, i just couldnt Do Those Feelings.

that’s all i was looking for hahaha. dont be SO goddamn destructive. try to apply a little soothing balm as you rain down fire and napalm and nukes. make any effort to at least do that.

dont let a woman name your children, they end up picking a STUPIDASS name like brooklyn or something. no. brooklyn is the name of a city, not a person. be a man and name your child something traditional and good like michael or mary or anne or elizabeth or john or james or richard or donald or adolf hahahahahaha. it’s not complicated. it’s not difficult.

how can you give birth to children but not know how to name them hahahaha. how can you give birth to children but also murder them and be horrible at raising them? why can’t men just get pregnant. they would probably do it better than women. we dont need women at all. women are a net loss hahahaha. just use women as brood mares, locked away from productive male society.  they grow children, give birth, and absolultely nothing else.

so what do you do with girls. you cant ABORT them because ABORTION IS MURDER.

yeah but women just arent WORTH as much as men hahahaha. they are LITERALLY inferior. their lives don’t MATTER as much hahahahahahaha.

no i am jk of course. but you see the slippery slope.

but really i mean come on. these women. they gotta start adding value. not just coasting on this being the bearers of children bullshit hahahahaha. actually be a worthwhile PERSON hahahaha.

JEALOUSY IS NATURAL AND NORMAL. Women will never understand this. they think jealousy is always bad and means they should dump you and that youre abusive and a horrible person and you should work to get rid of all jealous.

NO. JEALOUSY is a GOOD thing, because it WARNS you of BAD things: that the mother of your children is CHEATING on you.

Now, some people might be Overly Paranoid, and that’s not good, but if your GF is spending lots of time with her Male Friends, then YES you SHOULD get jealous! instead the women bitch about their jealous bf and then end up dumping him and getting with their male friends. because their ex bf had no good reason to be jealous then hahahahahaha.

i want terribly to sm0ke mj, but i dont want to be around st0ners, hang out with these degen idiots. i just want a big bag of mj all to myself, so that i can get blazed alone, in peace. no people around. that woman would have been the exception. i liked being around her, she didnt like being around me at the end. i was desperate to hang out with her and sm0ke mj with her, had a FANTASY of hanging out with her, smoking mj, cuddling, making out, her being nice and sweet to me, etc.

but i am also happy just sm0king weed by myself, other people make me nervous. just be by myself and listen to music or maybe exercise or something.

meh i dont care if emily youcis is a huge race traitor wh0re, she has done enough and put herself far enough out there that it pretty much cancels any past degeneracy. she has made real sacrifices and done real penance. she wouldnt do what she’s doing now if she wanted to go back to fooking blacks. she has woken up and changed. god for her.

i have no proof that she was fooking LOTS of blacks, but i assume that as an artsy, punk, drinking, MJ smoking, urban young gurl, singing in a punk band dressed like a hooker, foul mouth, yeah i mean i’m not NAIVE hahahahahaha.  she CLEARLY has a PAST.

but thru Becoming Who You Are, you can be Redeemed from any sin! its really kinda like accepting Christ as your personal saviour! but probably even better! with a lower Recidivism rate is what I’m saying. meaning lots of sluts will turn to Jeebus but still be gold digging, treacherous sluts at heart. maybe eventually destroy their beta cuck husband. but when a woman goes 1488 like this…..it would be really hard for her to turn back after that. i mean i guess sinead could, but she has no credibility anyway. a newcomer like emily youcis has more credibility that sinead, who has done nothing but attack good people. its very disappointing. she could have done a lot of good.

richard spencer is trying to hire one person for 12.5k a year hahahahaha. that’s about as much as Im making right now. and he wants this guy andrew joyce who probably is a good writer and has a graduate degree hahahahaha.

my point is, i simply couldnt just waltz in and get a 20k Alt Right Job, because there ARE no Alt Right Jobs! The one alt right job there is pays 12k a year and wants qualifications i dont have!

again, you would LITERALLY be a LOT better off taking calls in a tech support call center.  good god.

anyway i think it would be better if someone like emily said yeah i fooked negroes in the past, i am disgusted with this and would never do it again, rather than sinead avoiding talking about it, when she gets accused of being a mudshark all the time, and she probably was, but just wont address the issue. just say you did it, say you’re ashamed, say you understand your mistake, learned from it, and became a better person! we will forgive you! were not monsters!

not that theres been any mudslinging on emily. the alt right has been very gentlemanly to her and she hasnt done any sketchy shit either.

well she was just on the david duke show today, which is a good show, i just dont listen to it super often hahahaha. but he just had richard spencer on a few days ago, and he has andrew anglin on regularly. i have been down with david duke for YEARS. i dont like the plastic surgeries and the rumors of degeneracy, but the stuff he says is so solid, and I was glad he ran for senate, and is talking to the right people. keeps in touch with the young kids in the alt right. WN 2.0 hahahahaha.

i have listened to at least 20 episodes of his radio show hahaha and listened to at least 60% of the audiobook of “my awakening”, can heartily recommend. great book. great info on the JQ which I got in 2012 or 2013. Duke has been around for DECADES, before there WAS an alt right, and the best thing out there was mgtow. yikes. dark days. then you found stormfront and said, hmmm i think these guys are onto something, but theres gotta be a better way of doing this. this guy david duke is pretty solid, why arent there more people developing this line of thought? and now there ARE.

heh. i am an oldfag, back when i was getting into shit, MGTOW and MRA was the EDGIEST shit the internet had to offer. besides stormfront hahahaha. and i read a little bit of stormfront too.

but yeah boy am i glad the alt right happened, MGTOW was a damn dead end.

dec 29

so yeah. while I USED to identify as a MGTOW, i did have serious problems with it as I accepted my pretty natural desire to have a Wife and Children, to have a traditional monogamous white relship. pretty quickly i realized how jooish and unnatural it was for men and women to be at war with each other, to be enemies. this wasnt all womens fault. there was a more insidious force at work.

the family life was shitloads better than the mgtow single life. i couldnt believe how so many mgtows could not figure this out and were still either talking about how to bang sluts, or how to build robot women.

tarek and christina split. i bet it was her that is At Fault. To Blame. I never liked her hahahaha. i liked him a lot better even though he is half arab. plus he doesnt look or act semitic at all.  and their chidren were adorable. i bet she dumped him and he begged her to stay and make an effort to work it out baybeeeeee and now she is fooking new guys, probably WAYYYYY more nonwhite looking and acting than tarek.

right after he had that Cancer Scare! What a Horrible Bitch! but he seems too nice and she probably needs a man who can absolutely DOMINATE, if not abuse her. she would be more down for a more dominant arab man. tarek RESPECTS women too much. many women dont want to be RESPECTED hehehehe. then they go on reddit and tell women everything is abuse, loveisrespect.org. nope. you respect a woman, she will leave you for pedestalizing her. OR do something so horrible and disgusting to teach you a lesson about Pedestalizing. Take me off the pedestal! I’m gonna fook 10000000 negros right now!

going to buy new glasses. it is the biggest jooish ripoff since going to the dentist. going to the doctor hahahaha. go into these glasses places and they are full of Shark Women doing sleazy salesmen shit. absolutely disgusting. women shouldn’t be doing this. shit men shouldnt be doing this. no business should be run like an obvious jooish scam. capitalism doesn’t have to be so jooish and disgusting ahahahaha. purge the bergs and steins hahahaha.

americas best is the WORST. if it says 2 pairs of glasses for 70 bucks……..sheeeeeit. don’t tell me that 2 pairs of glasses for me is going to be 210 bucks. that is THREE TIMES MOAR. if someone comes in asking about the 2 for 70, do you really think they have a huge budget to buy the top shelf glasses and lenses? and us rubes don’t know that frames and lenses are two different things. 2 frames for 70 is bullshit when its like 140 for two sets of LENSES.

i would ask them, what are you looking to spend, 100 dollars, ok, well for that you can get this, for a teensy bit more you can get this, then you prob wont want to go much hgiher than that!

no frills, no add ons, no extras, no upselling, just bottom shelf, bargain basement, basic bitch everything.

2 pairs of glasses, out the door, with lenses, for 70 bucks. that is what i want. i don’t care about polycarbonate, or scratch protection (well, sorta i do), or antiglare coating, or transition lenses hehehehe. maybe if i had vision insurance, which only the top 1% do hahahahaha. or people like muh baby boomer family hehehe.

i thought getting a glasses shop job would be pretty chill, but after going to a few of these places, i can see that it would not be. on dec 29 the places were packed with people. maybe thats just normal for the holidays.

bitcoin falling finally.

GENTLY signalled interest in the MJ with the one person i can conceivably talk to about this. i thought he might have not registered the idea that next time he wants to go in, i’d like him to tell me so i can go in with him. he is generally good at reading signals but i still wasnt sure, besides, i am terrible at communicating stuff like this. and he is abstaining for the medium term for very legit reasons. but yeah yesterday i made it clear that when you decide to stop abstaining, please let me know ASAP. he clearly understood what I was saying. so that is good. Now I know not to be PUSHY.

in other words, ive done all i could there.

but yeah i was like damn how could i ever do what these women do. lie to people to sell them glasses. they deliberately make shit confusing and complicated to Upsell and Add On Shit, and have horribly misleading advertising. i hate this jooish shit and i hate that white women are stuck working in these jobs. i’d be like listen, you want the lowest price, i get it, well then you have to get this. i SHOULD HAVE studied the website for americas best before walking in there, just so i could tell them the things i DIDNT want.

well i ended up finding a pair for 70 dollars, including both frames AND lenses. that seemed reasonable to me. so just said ok ill take it. wanted to get out of there anyway. fookin glasses. the place was huge, had a ton of employees, and a ton of customers, and i thought, really, glasses? such big business? doesnt everybody have lasik or contacts?

i dont like honestly not terribly smart white women acting like jooish snake oil salesman. youre obviously tyring to confuse me with glasses jargon. dont do that. i should have taken 5 minutes to study glasses jargon before i left. but i shouldnt HAVE to in a nice huhwhyte country is what im saying. i guess i didnt realize the glasses industry was so thoroghly jood. i shouldnt be surprised though. health care, hospitals, doctors, dentists, medical, insurance, its all fooked and jooed. which is sad.

and when MJ is legal that will be jood too hahahaha.

tensions with israel at the moment. UN snubbing israel and obama/kerry saying yeah we snub israel too. trvmp saying just you wait bibi, just 3 more weeks and then me, your best buddy, me, will be in office, and you wont get this terrible treatment from the US. this was always gonna be the black pill about trvmp, was his super friendliness to israel, i guess we were just gonna not think about it until it was time to think about it. which is now nigh.

i mean i guess i support a state for joos as long as they get the damn joos out of the US. out of our media and culture and govt and business and education and everything. absolutely never gonna happen.

square pegs. mid 80s teen sitcom with teenage sarah jessica parker. she was a QT when she was young, fook this horse face nonsense! but it just never suits a woman to be a 40+ year old slut, so she brought that shame on herself!

i think she is jooish. doesnt stop 20 year old jooish gurls from being qt.

yeah i believe in REDEMPTION. and if i believe in redemption for myself, which i would LIKE to, then i have to believe in redemption for other people. namely, women, sluts, degenerates. if i can do it, they can do it. if they can do it, i can do it. and i like reading stories of actual redemption.

i dont think sinead is stupid. in fact i think she is attractive and its tech good she has a baby. she sometimes comes VERY CLOSE to making good points, and then totally crashes and burns, or attacks somebody great like millennial woes. so she is very frustrating and disappointing, because she has great potential. and of course she could be redeemed too. but my god she HATES the alt right. she views it as a totally gay compromised thing. calls it the alt k1k3.  i guess i should be happy that in 2016 there are qt white women who are ok on the JQ and not afraid to use the K word hahahaha. didnt have this even 4 years ago.

but yeah if kyle is her lover she should identify as his wife, and be like, im taken by my one man kyle, and he is the father of my baby. i luv him and will be loyal to him. and not have any ambivalence there.

so in short i dont trust her at all. i trust emily Y more than her.

wow what an insensitive cvnt. and she wants sympathy from reddit. i hope they crucify her hahaha. if she worked halg the day that her husbando worked, she’d be EXHAUSTED too. but now she wants to dump him because his job is exhausting him and she is annoyed by him being exhausted all the time. what a fooking bitch. he needs a woman who can have s ome damn sympathy for him.

basically with /relships, i upvote men and downvote women. and men who talk like women. women have nothing smart or good to say about relships. they have no idea how to have relships with men.

i think if i went into americas best and said listen. i see your sign for 2 for 69.95. that’s basically the type of value i want. I want the SHITTIES lenses AND the shittiest, cheapest frames, for less than 100 bucks TOTAL, out the DOOR. frames AND lenses, under 100 TOTAL. no deals, no add ons, no extras, no 2 pairs. no scratch protection, no anything protection, i am looking for the equivalent of no-fault shitty auto insurance. i would like to buy nicer glasses but i cant afford them.

reddit is gonna say there is nothing wrong with the sister being in JOOISH PORN and the man needs to GROW UP and GET OVER IT.

now i dont think you should be quick to pull the DEFOO trigger, and always be open to forgive and allow your family the chance to repent and redeem themselves…..but the sister is not moving in that direction at ALL, in fact, she is doubling down on the PORN. so the brother is RIGHT to be DEVASTATED and depressed about this. shit what if his WIFE decided this was an ok thing to do?

i was watching andy griffith and gomer pyle USMC and i was like, these quaint shows of a better time. that gomer pyle is a likable idiot. seeing that this stuff is STILL made by joos when you watch the crrrrrredits.

or this show “Square pegs”, which i had never heard of, but seemed pretty entertaining and well-written and funny. yep moar joos. which is not surprsing as this was the 80s. but joos in the 80s and esp the 60s didnt seem so god damn JOOISH as they do now. well except for that sneaky sneaky joo norman lear. i mean i used to watch all in the family regularly, and like the character archie bunker. i still kinda do!!!!

but yeah being JQ aware really helps you with shit like that. and reading between the lines to see this is more than just a good show. its more of a subversive and offensive show than you realize. you’re not SUPPOSED to……well i cant even say that youre not supposed to like archie. he’s the main damn character. i think you ARE supposed to like him, and realize YOU are just as horrible of a racist goy as he is, and then learn Lessons Of Tolerance just as Archie does. but archie truly says some hilarious shit. him and his wife edith are both great. and shitlib son in law meathead. total shitlib sjw leftist commie.

i WISH the show were written by alt right SHITLORDS rather than SJW Joos! honestly the alt right could bring the show back in this way, that’s a great idea. would be even kooler than a blatantly alt right king of the hill.

on the fatherland, muh boy no1 suggests that million dollar extreme/sam hyde is basically Entertainment/Comedy for Goys By Goys, comedy stripped of any horrible jooish influence. i mean i hope it is! we need our own CULTURE, stuff like music, movies, tv, stories. not just implicitly cool stuff like christopher nolan or something, but something that comes right out and says, this is who we are. we are not J’s. this work is 100% free from jooish influence. i would love that. cuz you can’t GET that in mainstream ANYTHING.

this is another benefit of black metal hahaha. it is very free of jooish influence. maybe thats why i like it so much hahahaha. was such a big boortzum fan for so long hahaha. really liking this saor/fuath hahahaha.

well because its impossible to make a tv show or movie without a bunch of Js getting involved. I like more solitary pursuits, more of a Auteur approach hahahaha. one man’s singular, unadulterated, unjood vision. much more practical to accomplish with music or books. and i dont like books hahahaha. well auteur movies are a good attempt too.

and certainly self made youtube vids. or 1488 podcasts hahaha.

havent really watched lots of MDE. dont know anythign about the other guys in MDE other than sam hyde. i guess there is an mde book now. i mean i respect and trust no1 so his recommendation is as good as any.

george feels responded to me and said thank you. so that was nice. have no idea if he is gonna fix the thing that i said he might want to fix hehehehe. well i did my part. i might give him another dnation next xmas hahahahaha.

when i get to the position he’s in….wait a minute i am actually OLDER than him hahahaha. AND he has a better job than me.  so when HE gets to the point I am in now, THEN he should start going to hookers and smokin MJ which is freely available in his damn town. just walk into the store just as easily as buying a bottle of booze. and he Gets To Do That too. I’m not even allowed to drink booze any more hahahahaha.

this is kinda sad. of course i would say take the “dream job.”

He has very low self-esteem and has mentioned several times that he may be depressed. Until recently, he would rant to me over text (hundreds of texts) about his insecurities, that he feels like trash, and that there’s a lot of expectations and societal pressures on him because he’s a man. Multiple times he’s told me he wanted to end his life. When I tried comforting him and dissuading him from it, it backfired and he lashed out against me, saying that there is no way I can empathize with people like him in the slightest. In subsequent meltdowns, I held back on comforting him out of not knowing what to say, and he said I lacked a moral compass and that women like me are biologically wired to hate men like him.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. well i know how this guy feelz, but the fact that she HASNT left him yet, CARES enough to ask reddit. but yeah. ive felt that exact feel. women HATE loser men more than men hate sluts. and they will throw you away like garbage. thing is, she hasn’t thrown HIM away like garbage, and i think if she DID dump him, she would make an effort to do it in a decent way.

yep you will be a virgin for the next 10 years, just be thankful you can even GET a job. also try not to get arrested for drugs or alcohol hahahaha

oh thats fine, nothing wrong with fooking 12 guys by the age of 18 hahahahaha.  sex is a conditional, relative, gray area thing. sometimes its serious, and sometimes its just casual fun!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!

BE ASHAMED OF YOUR SLUT PAST. tell your bf yes im ashamed of what i did and who i was, and that shame is gonna keep me from doing that shit again. yes it is digusting i agree. instead when you tell him im not ashamed at all, whats wrong with that? uhhh yeah youre saying i have no shame about being a shameful slut hahahahaha.

because who knows when they are gonna get bored with sex with YOU and go easily find it with any of their 6000000000000000 male friends.

they SHOULD be ashamed of their slut past. that is the BEST way to make your new bf OK with your slut past. NOT say, no, i’m not ashamed of that gross degen disgusting shit I did!

you SHOULD be ashamed of disgusting things you did! not continue to unrepentantly insist these things ARENT disgusting! damn!

what ELSE is she not ashamed by but SHOULD be? cheating?

best to be with somebody who shares your sexual MORALITY – that sex is not some Fun Game to be played with any Sexy Boi. of course its hard finding a woman with that sexual morality! and if you do, they will not like you back and will reject you VERY HARSHLY hahahaha.

sheeeeeit you know what, she was EMOTIONALLY CHEATING on her original boifran. she wanted to fix things with him, but she was EMOTIONALLY CHEATING on him anyway. by becoming friends with ME. yeah i didnt realize this at the time, and not until recently, and its safe to say she NEVER realized it! because she was emotionally retarded!!!

 

DONT SINK TO THEIR LEVEL

dec 17

when young women are mixed race, they very often appear exotic and attractive and are in high demand. mixed race men turn out like pathetic hapas like elliott rodger who feel totally isolated, atomized, rootless, deracinated, neither white nor asian (or whatever) or at the very least have huge racial identity problems that the mixed race women  dont have. they;re like yeah i’m white AND i’m asian, very easy, and I’m hot as hell! I own it! and there will be no shortage of Thirsty Beetas to confirm to her that she’s hot as hell.

So women, IMHO, take race more for granted, don’t see how much race matters, they think you can be two races and its not a problem. they think HOW CUTE their mixed race babies would be. OH ID LUV TO HAVE A MIXED RACE BABY. THEYRE ALL SO CUTE, AND WHITE IS SO BORING.

WRONG.

but yeah this is obviously very dangerous thinking that they dont even realize is dangerous, so they need a strong racially conscious man to put his foot down, snatch up the women before she’s fooked too many nonwhites, and tell her, THIS IS THE WAY IT IS. we’re gonna have white children and then you’ll see why this is SO goddamn important. and you’ll be SO GLAD you never fooked any nonwhites.

well hunny, actually, i was a little embarrassed to tell you before, i had a slut period in high school for a month where i fooked the whole basketball team. but that’s ok, i was just 16 and exploring muh sexuality.  but that’s ok. im not ashamed and i have no regrets. it was a lot of fun.  its part of who i am. i mean i married YOU didnt I? not THEM!

hahahahahaha.

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit.

had a dream with a young superqt woman i used to work with. she was super nice, got married young, still married, she occasionally appears in dreams. i think this clearly means that i would have liked to try Dating Her and that I possibly could have been Very Happy with her if we were Dating.  Yep not very doubtful on that.

in the dream she was hanging out with me, but the idea was, she was only hanging out with me because her First Choice was not there. She didn’t seem as nice and interested as she was in him. I was glad for the “chance” but she seemed distracted and not very interested. Then the next day her First Choice was back and she was all bubbly, nice, interested, and flirtatious with him, and I felt jelly and butthurt hahahahahaha.

yeah pretty straightforward interpretation here. it sucks to be an option. when you are a lower choice and they are your first choice. when you really like them, but they aren’t that interested in you. and then you see them get super interested in this other lucky guy. and then compare yourself to him. oh, he’s younger, taller, stronger, more confident, cooler, more popular, more smooth, more charismatic, funnier, more charming, more successful, more handsome, more interesting. more alpha, more masculine, tougher, more dominant. more winning. all that stuff.

anyway i never knew this qt young woman to be anything but very very nice and pleasant. always bubbly and smiling and laughing. i dont mind that. she was never bitchy to me. she smiled politely to me. now i never hung out with her and never became friends with her, because i knew from the beginning she had a BF, and i dont interfere with relships. let her dump him if she wants to fook other guys. well she didnt want to. she was a good girl hahaha. kinda like the good joo. they still have to go back. send them back to their homeland and all us huhwhyte men can live here and fook each other like women with gay satanist jack donovan as our leader hahaha. real alt right hahahaha.

heh. bernard. me and him have a similar view of women. i want to tell him, dont dislike women so much (nobody but crazy violent criminals really HATES women), you just got unlucky man, you met a lot of shitty women, i swear, some women are good, they arent ALL like that! and then i realize like bernard, i have been kinda unlucky too, lot of very disappointing women i’ve met, and given the shitty women bernard has experienced, i can’t BLAME him one bit for feeling very cold towards women. same with me! it all adds up! checks out! i gave them a chance! sure can’t say the same about them! they didnt give ME a chance!

hey i would LOVE to like women! just show me something worth liking!

well even now i am Reacting Emotionally. I’ve met plenty of women who had really really good moments. nobody is perfect. like that qt women from my dream was really really nice and likable. sheeeit even That Woman was insanely likable because she was so nice and pleasant and polite and nonobnoxious.

and just because i was hurt about being Thrown Away, now I think all women are monsters hahahaha.

she just got flustered and went into flight mode. i have done the SAME THING MANY a time. I get flustered about the littlest things. TERRIBLE at dealing with stress and pressure. just freeze, shut down, run away. how is this surprising? it’s not surpirsing AT ALL. so i kinda forgive her mostly, i totally udnerstand why….it just still hurt me greatly. still not over it. but def getting there thank GOD.

like if i were going out with the woman from my dream tonight and she were all into me, yeah that would be just fine.

but part of me still wants That Woman, and I would take her back if she came back to me.

Bernard tells stories of women that reappeared in his life 2 or 3 or 4 years later. and he was strong enough to say fook this shit, you didnt want to be with me the first time, you showed your true colors, how can i trust you, you havent changed, youve got worse, whats your scam, fook you no im not gonna give you another chance. this happened with at LEAST two women with him. so this shit DOES happen. and you know he was probably RIGHT to do that. these were crazy, untrustworthy, dumpster fire, horrible women. dodged a bullet.

so i think, well what if she started contacting me? i wouldnt be nearly so strong! i would say YES YES YASSSSSS! and be RIGHT back in full luv with her again. just like it was 2 years ago. i coul rekindle the shit REAL quick.

i mean who hates a person so much that you WANT them to be devastated when you dump them? I would never want that!!! I would do everything in my power to make sure they weren’t devastated!!!!!

not saying she WANTED me to be devastated. i’m referring to bernards women. they wanted HIM to be devastated, and they were mad when he wasn’t. that’s how shitty these women were. no wonder he doesnt like women hahahahaha. i am sorry for you uncle bern. you deserve so much better! and you get these fookin DUMPSTER FIRES. PSYCHO HOSE BEAST. cray cray. bipolar at best, more like damn BORDERLINE and sociopathic.

not all women are crazy evil sociopaths! not even most women. maybe. hehehehehe.

call in a favor from someone to do your dirty work for you hehehe. its not like you cant get people to do favors for you. get a thirsty omega orbiter to do it for you. i would totally take that. plus i would say, this bitch is ridiculous, i TOTALLY don’t want to be with someone like that. has an omega orbiter relay the message to me.

but yeah. one of muh biggest weaknesses in life is that i get FLUSTERED by very small things, and then dont think straight, and make stupid decisions, that have bad consequences, just because i can’t deal with stressful situations. get flustered so easy. and then act stupid. then people think im stupid. and that makes me REALLY MAD. but I would rather be mad than flustered or anxious. that is probably the worst feeling ever. just totally helpless like a child who wants their mommy to save them from the scary monster thats going to raep them, but then nobody ever comes, and the monster brutally raeps you and then you have to live with the shame of all that. its not like being K’d, that would in a way be better, cuz your suffering would END.

 

kinda think he uses a drum machine on the fuath album but it still sounds good. would prefer live drums OF COURSE. fairly compelling music, more sorrowful and cold than saor, which is not bad for a cold winter hehehe. also vocals are a lot more black metal than the weird napalm death style vocals of saor. which are not bad btw! but i just like they black metal style better. and the drum machine sounds tasteful…..but damn. i wish the guy could be as hardline against drum machines as I am.

kind of ironic that when I tried writing songs I used a Drum Machine hahahahahaha. but i wasn’t thrilled with the idea and knew I would rather have real drums. I would rather he attempted to play live drums himself even if he knows he is not the greatest drummer.

cuz yeah this music sounds immediately pretty enjoyable and it would be even better with a live drummer.

it would be funny if it actually WAS a live drummer. but i am so prejudiced i think everythings a MACHINE.

for the first burzum album varg had never played drums before. he just practiced for TWO DAYS before recording the album. and I luv the (amateurish) drum sound on that album. this andy marshall guy is a talented huhwhyte man just like varg. just play the damn drums like an amateur. its very endearing hahaha. did varg ever use a drum machine? did mikko A ever use a drum machine? come on. no one ever needs a drum machine for their one man black metal!

but this fuath….i could see myself enjoying it as much as i could possibly enjoy something with a drum machine!

yeah really clearly a machine on the fast bass drum bits. unfort.

but perfect album length at 41 minutes. its gotta be able to fit on ONE old school LP. which is lke 46 minutes tops IIRC.

GWW/Karen always had a pretty good impression on me, i mean she seems pretty solid, and even woman-disliker extraordinaire bernard should have a difficult time disliking her hahahaha. i think he would get along best with a woman like this, who pretty much thinks like a man, and seems kinda like a lesbian hahaha. this is the kind of woman bernard needs. he is a super logical not super emotional man, so he would fit best with a super logical, not super emotional woman, which karen seems to be!

i just think bernard would be a great father and its a shame that he only found crappy women. and their degeneracy rubbed off on him a little probably.

like the time where he was dating a woman with really nice legs but he didnt like her and wanted to be done with her, but he wasnt man enough to dump her, and then he ran into his ex gf, who was all hot to trot for him now, so then he banged the ex gf while he was still technically going out with his actual gf, thus making him a CHEATER! then he never responded to the hot to trot ex gf ever again because he just wanted to use her for secs one last time.

all in all pretty degenerate and negroish and i wish he condemned himself more for that particular degen incident.

the principled huhwhyte man would have dumped the bitchy gf, and never banged the crazy ex gf.

well, banging the ex gf is not as bad as technically cheating on your current gf. that is pretty disappointing. doesnt matter if they were on the outs. DONT SINK TO THEIR LEVEL. their shitty “morality” was started to rub off on him. NOT GOOD.

DONT SINK TO THEIR LEVEL.

i dont like to see moral people become generally more immoral.

i dont like to see good people go bad hahahaha.

not that that happened to bernard. in fact now i am thinking of that woman. did she really go bad though? i’ll never know. and would it make things BETTER if she did? why couldnt she have just had her MOM dump me for her hahahaha. and her mom could tell me, yeah she doesnt hate you, you were important to her, she just can’t deal with this situation, she is very sorry, but she doesnt share your feels, and im sorry, you must be really disappointed. you are a really good guy and would have been good for muh daughter. but this is what it is. ive talked to her and i can’t convince her to give you a chance. im sorry, this really sucks for you.

that would have been nice to hear hahahaha. dont even have to scrounge up 50 dollars to pay a shrink to give me the talk.

dont have 50 bucks? come on. how could a 25 year old woman not get 50 bucks. a thirsty omega would pay you 100 bucks just to HANG OUT with you and sniff your hair. 200 bucks if you smile at him and not act like an obnoxious bitch to him. for one hour of Friendly Hang Out Experience.

These Desperate Thirsty Omegas will pay Two Hundred Dollars for One Hour of Friendly Hangout Experience.

Sheeeeeeit i totally understand. I just might too. Thinking of all the Friendly Hangouts I had with That Woman before things got bad. and i didnt even pay her any money hahaha. i mean i bought 2 xmas presents and i bought her lunch and i bought her dinner i think. not that i think that entitles me to anything hahahahaha. well it entitles me to have her try to have her mom dump me for her hahahaha.

but yeah. have some dam respect for LIFE ITSELF. Human lives. the unborn, the men you date, the hearts you break, your damn self, the process that creates innocent new lives. have some damn respect for human life. this is what bothers me about women. aborting babies, throwing peopel away, breaking hearts, cheating, dumping, acting like sociopaths, enjoying being treated like meat, treating others as meat. this just seems DISGUSTING especially considering women are the MOTHERS of HUMAN LIFE.

ok now i am going off again. not all women are like that. NOT EVEN SHE was like that! she just did one cowardly thing, which wasn’t even surprising, now i’m making her, AND all women, out to be these satanic jooish monsters, which they are not, which even she is not! this is all in muh severely cognitively distorted head! im NOT THINKING CLEARLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shit im NEVER thinking clearly! I havent thought clearly since 2013 when i took a math class and thought clearly some of the time for that course. it was calc 2 and was pretty hard but i got an A because I NOT AN IDIOT, I SWEAR.

there is a horribly horribly disgustingly shocking ugly side to women. bernards seen it, i’ve seen it. the trouble is thinking all women have that dark side. but everyone has a kinda dark side. but it just seems that women’s dark side are so much worse than my own hahaha. and mine is pretty damn bad: total failure to live up to potential, lazy, drinking problem in the past, degen MJ smoking, cowardly omega. its pretty bad but i think its better than a woman who has had abortions, or cheated on guys, or broken 10 hearts, or fooked 10 guys, or fooked a guy she just met. all that is ugly as shit. uglier than anything i’ve ever done! and i’ve done a ton of shit im not proud of! they do worse and aren’t even ashamed of it! so fook YEAH i have a problem with that! I SHOULD have a problem with that!

yep im doing it again! back on the escalator again hahahaha.

jeez i just wanna sm0ke MJ right now! want to have a hugeass bag of MJ that will last me for at least 3 months!

i mean when i see qt young women, i dont want to JUST fook them like a negro animal. I want to protect them and be loyal and romantic and a strong man for them, a real traditional white knight. but NOT for some skank who doesnt deserve it! just saying i dont view women as pieces of meat. like if i am in church and i see a beautiful young girl. the jooish, pornified, negro mindset says, oh i wanna fook her hard, imagine her on muh dick. no. i have thoughts that are appropriate for a decent white man to have regarding treating women with some respect for their role as the Mothers Of Life. however that doesnt mean i will white knight for a dirty skank. so if she shows herself to be a dirty skank, i am fooking done. (unless I have already made muh bet. sunk muh cost. made my investment.)

WOMEN ARE THE MOTHERS OF LIFE.

hehehehehe.

buying Winter Thermal Super Warm Freezing Cold Weather Socks was very smart move on my part. cant believe i never did. just go to walmart and buy the thickest socks you can, and are marketed as arctic cold or some shit. they truly do keep your feet warmer.

 

THE SEVEN WEEK ITCH

oct 19

welp got 2 interview invites in 1 day, bringing muh average “up” to 1/19 hahahaha. 1 interview for every 19 apps. better than target of 1 out of 20 hahahahaha.

1 for IT Quality Assurance at healthcare place, that might be good. i dont have QA experience but i wish i did and I am fundamentally committed to the idea of quality! hahahaha.

and then interview for part time city job which i would like to get.

ok, this time, DONT TELL THE SECOND PLACE THAT THEY ARE SECOND PLACE!!!!

meaning, DONT be “up front” or “transparent” that I am interview with place xyz and that if they offer me the job, i have to take it!

my previous thought was, this makes me not look desperate. like i am a man with options. this might work with women, but not sure about Jobs. Jobs might only want you if THEY are your FIRST choice. by saying you’d take another job, you’re telling them they are not your first choice. therefore they wont pick you.

so, 2 interviews next week. and now up to 25 interviews, 479 apps. i was shooting for 25 and 500, so, even better.

25 interviews was kinda my Magic Number tho. like THERES NO WAY I wont get a job after 25 interviews.

course thats what I said about 20!

WELL, some of these things werent really INTERVIEWS tho. I added .5 for Testing Sessions and Phone Interviews.

well a phone interview is kinda an interview right? its at LEAST TWICE as stressful as taking a test right? so i really should count phone interviews for 1 instead of .5.

 

hehehehe i did not really get HEADDESK FACEPALM issues like this, i kinda wish i did, because then they would be EASY and I could EASILY BLAME the Stupid Idiot Luser and be CONFIDENT that I was right and knew what i was doing. When in reality i would get WEIRD shit and think, DAMN, I know even LESS than the User! I have no idea what this thing they’re using even is! I have to fix a tool they’re using which I’ve never seen or heard of before!

go to tales from tech support and read all the Long and especially Extra Long stories. that is kind of what our stuff was like hahahaha. Extra Long.

I am closer to these shockingly idiot Users than I am to Tech Support! so why am i am WORKING for tech support! i empathize and sympathize wiht the Lusers too much!

DOGSBODY. this is def a british people word, for “administrative assistant” or “secretary” or “factotum” or person who does the shit jobs noone else wants to do. slave, lackey, minion, grunt, monkey, meat.

a Half Day Shadow is more than enough to fully train you for everything in your job! Thank You Sir for the PRivilege of a Half Day Shadow!

2 interview invites in 1 day, thats gotta count for something right. so to celebrate, think i will only apply to 1 job (baby step), then do 10 pushups (baby step), then do a 1 hour powerwalk (kind of a baby step hahahaha), listen to new fatherland episode (not a baby step but a full pleasure, very comfy, like cuddling a QT or smokin a big MMJ hahahaha)

it is VERY frustrating when you apply for a job, then see the cover letter you used, and see that it has a mistake in it: misspelling, wrong company, wrong position title, some sort of error. and then you think, theres GOT to be ones i’m NOT catching. and i’ve caught at least 2 or 3 in the past 100 or so.

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit.

 

 

like these tales from reddits

 

how to train your call centre dogsbodies

 

she has only ever been with OP, and the 2nd guy she fooked was this “gay guy” she fooked when fooked up one night. cheating on the OP.  now gf is crawling back and saying pls forgive me, take me back, you can fook other gurls, pls just take me back. OP has a bad feeling and doesnt really want to. i would probably say I FORGIVE YOU BABEY bla bla bal and then she would cheat on me again and give me aids hahahaah. grids.

once a cheater, always a cheater!

NOT EVEN ONCE!

So if I made it 30+ years without cheating “EVEN ONCE”…..uh i kinda want to STAY that way! and i also want a woman for muh wife who has never cheated even once.

 

 

heh this is what i dont like about reddit. they think the father is a horrible bigot because he doesnt want his 20 year old white daughter taking the BBC. well, i guess they could be jooish, here’s a situation where joos would call themselves white.

and she is JUST FINDING OUT her father is “racist.” because he has black friends and hasnt given any indication that hes a HORRIBLE BIGOT until his 20 yo daughter brings home a black silverback!

and all the reddit scum agree, oh yes, he’s a horrible person.

 

gf dumped guy, broke his poor heart, now is upgrading to a better man, and dumped boifran continues to torture and blame himself. yeah this sucks. its better when they downgrade to a shittier man…..but many times they dont hahahaha.  YOU are the shittier man because youre a big loser in life.

it just sucks when they Move On so QUICKLY and yeah i would like to see reddit shame the xgf for that. like you cant take more than a few weeks to be single and Process the Dead Rel? you IMMEDIATELY go out and find someone WAY better? at least accept that that is gonna do a NUMBER on this sad sack guy!

well at least he’s young and near to finishing an engin degree so the odds are in his favor of getting a good job with that.

i might just RESPOND on this thread because hes not getting enough sympathy!!!!!

yeah i responded with a rambling, incoherent, autistic thing. see if you can find it hahahahahahaha.

guy gets feelings for his close female friend. she doesnt feel the same way. he doesnt know what to do. they work together. but she doesnt HATE him for it and they still talk and she prob wants to be friends. well he is way more successful than me and younger than me hahahahaha. so i say just make money and bang bitches and put her on the SUPER back burner.

 

when she LITERALLY TELLS YOU she wants to “put you on the shelf” and fook other guys, DUMP HER!!!!!!! not ok!!!!!!

/r/relships is good in that there is a lot of input, some of it good.

/r/anxiety and /r/depression are both GODAWFUL because there are 10% of the posts here, and they are not very high quality. /r/relships always tells you go to therapy, and its just funny. they REALLY need therapy on anx and dep.  i mean, there is terrible/no advice on these. nothing actually useful. just yep i want to K muh self too, its hopeless, the end.

at least on relships they TRY. and the women give shitty annoying advice but half of the women TRY, and 75% of the men TRY.

THIRSTY. MEN ARE NATURALLY THIRSTY.

80% of men DONT REPRODUCE. 80% of men cant get a woman. 80% of men have been celibate for 2 years or longer. of COURSE most 80% of men are “THIRSTY” hahahahahahaha.

but you see what im saying. most men dont have any OPTIONS they can CHOOSE from. BEGGARS cant be CHOOSERS. BEGGARS are THIRSTY. its not BAD for them to be thirsty. dont THIRST SHAME them!

dont THIRST SHAME a man whose been crawling in the desert for 10 years!

in fact, to continue with this thirst metaphor, thirst is not inherently bad! it means you’re suffering because you’re not getting something you NEED!

so the proper response is, dont SHAME them, say oh noes, THIS MAN IS DYING OF THIRST! HE NEEDS SOME WATER STAT!!!!!!!!!!!!

now its not anyones JOB to do that for him….but his own skills may well be weakened. compromised.

so i should just go to a hooker is what you’re saying?

well i would much rather go to a FWB.

oct 20

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit. interesting scenario, go to my usual social event and a new gurl is there, about 25 years old, white, very qt, friend of acquaintance of mine, so i figure thats fine, hes got DIBS on her if he wants, but i’m not entirely sure what his motives are, but if i think she is QT he prob does too!

she seems not super obnoxious or bitchy in personality, but also lets slip some potential huge baggage, like fam members dying of drugs, possibly crazy x bf’s, lots of male friends, possibly dated a black guy, or a guy with a REALLY black sounding name lets just say. who knows how many abortions, how manny cox.

and yet i found myself attracted to her, like wow what a qt, i dont care if she’s crazy, i dont care if she had a black boifran, i dont care if she’s been with about 10 guys by age 25, i just care that shes qt and doesnt have any children. and if she were showing me interest right now, i would like that a lot and i would get over That Woman a lot faster.

and then i felt ashamed and inferior because my social skills are pretty bad, i cannot keep up with banter with the normies, i dont hang out and go to the bar or bowling with the normies, and i have terrible Game and cannot Talk To Women, and thought “i have nothing to talk about with this woman. she has quickly written me off as the most boring guy ever. by age 25 women dont want to waste time with BORING, quiet, awkward guys.”

my excuse was, i just assumed the other guy had “DIBS” on her and I was happy to respect that. but if he DIDNT, and was just looking for a Degen FWB, which is actually very possible, and it’s Open Season, then yeah my game was horrible omega vrigin neet style.

so that made me not feel so confident. like a failure with women.

and also just felt like a failure socially in general cuz my normie acquaintances go out to bar and bowling together, even if they have to Work the next morning, and I am just realy awkward abotu hanging out. I cant contribute to the hilarious banter very smoothly and i do not show tonnes of interest in hanging out, HOWEVER these are decent people and it would be GOOD for me to hang out more, socialize, with decent people.

i mean i do try to be nice and try to act normie, but i just can’t keep up with the stream of constant banter. its not even ball busting banter, but just making jokes like a well adjusted normie. nothing mean spirited or douche baggy, like i say, these are decent positive people.

so yeah a bit of double whammy socially last night hahaha: i am terrible with women, i am terrible with people.

i thought of how high this gurls number would have to be to be a dealbreaker. probably 10, i thought. she can come in under 10 at age 25 right? thats not asking too much?

but what about the fooked up family? was she molested? ever raeped? was there really black guys she fooked? how many black guys? how many white guys hahahaha. is she a cheater? abortions? how many fwb’s? hows your father?

and you cant really ask ANY of these questions as small talk hahahahahahahaha but she did let some pretty big hints slip, and she wasnt even talking to me!

OCCAMS RAZOR sez, I just wanted to bang her because she was a young qt, fit my A E S T H E T I C pretty well as a pale skinned, long haired semi “alternative” gurl, who does MJ and is not a huge social butterfly. Chill Cool Gurl. and then i thought DAMN I would like to DO her, but I would ALSO like cuddling with her, and making out with her, and trying the nice sweet GFE with her.

WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING IF SHE WAS GFE AT ALL!

Basically if the woman is even close to my “type” physically, I will want to try the GFE with her. meaning, potential for FEELINGS.

so it was nice knowing that i could very likely get Real, True feelings for a woman again, AND also lower my unrealistically high standards: been with less than 10 guys AND no black guys AND no abortions AND no cheating AND no fooked up family AND no kids AND 25-27 yo AND 6.8/10 hahahahaha.

sheeeeeeit she MIGHT have children, she just didnt say anything about that. i guess having children is the REAL dealbreaker. she could be a huge mudshark slut for all I care.

well of COURSHE these things would have SERIOUS implications in a serious LTR, but uhhhh ive never gotten that far before. i guess i would gladly take the GFE for 3 months until i get dumped by a mudshark slut for being too clingy hahahahaha.

ok a 25m complaining about his 19 yo gf that she is immature and bad communicator. so why doesnt she just dump him hahaha.

WELL, my question is, HOW MUCH maturity should you EXPECT out of a 25 year old WOMAN?

i hate this, well, you can only be SO MATURE at such and such an age. people dont MATURE till age 40.

heres the thing hehehe: 25 is in a real gray area here. we can all agree that 20 is immature, 30 is mature. so what does that make 25 then? it could go both ways obviously.

ALSO, its not like this GF is running away from her older BF. she is posting on reddit in a way to Try To Help.

anyway. the good the bad and the ugly.

the GOOD thing about “meeting” this new woman yesterday (i had actually met her once before like 9 months ago?) is that it taught me that I AM capable of getting feelings for a woman in the future. that is not THAT woman hahaha.

the bad and the ugly, well we just went over all that above. really it might be ALL TOO EASY for me to get feelings for a BAD woman! like this new woman has red and yellow flags pointing to dumpster fire, but here I am wanting to do GFE with her! Rough Secs sure, but also tender secs and tender cuddling and dating!

basically you want to be nice to the young qt woman and have her be nice back to you, EVEN IF she is the biggest dumpster fire in the history of the world! you will put on the rose colored glasses and just IGNORE everything in favor of you FANTASY! you will WILLINGLY DELUDE YOURSELF!!!!!

and that is EXACTLY what I did for That Woman!!!!!!!! I willingly bought into a FANTASY so much that I thought the fantasy was reality!!!!!!!

this can happen when you are lonely and desperate and thirsty and you have a female friend who is 25, qt, no children, and somewhat nice. BOOM. ALL OVER.

well this got muh confidence back up, i just got TWO MORE INTERVIEWS today.

TWO INTERVIEWS PER DAY FOR TWO DAYS IN A ROW.

THAT is TRULY UNPRECEDENTLY.

FOUR INTERVIEWS IN TWO DAYS.

This is the biggest thing since actually DOING two interviews in one day. (although that sucked. here im talking about the INVITATION to interview. which does NOT suck hahahaha.)

which brings MUH NUMBER up to 27!!!!! HORRY SHEET!!!!!

so yeah good pipeline.

the two i got today are: one from “bank”, HR woman called me and said well you didnt get the tech job (i knew this) but they were offering ANOTHER interview for me that i had applied to in april, didnt get anything for, they reposted it, and then HR called me and said i didnt even need to apply again, they would just give me an interview. so yeah i was really impressed by this HR woman. well she DOES have a masters degree. i mean i generally get a very solid respectable culture vibe from this company, i like it. it is refreshing.

next interview was at my old old employer, now this is a PT job, not super enthused about this one, but this place i associate with good easy PT jobs, albeit low paying and no more than 25 hours a week tops, but its close, and easy.

but i would take the higher paying PT job from this other place i am interviewing next wed.

applied for 1 job today when i was interrupted in that by the two phone calls. hehehehe.

so when i get secsual feelings for a woman, its VERY EASILY extrapolated to “romantic” feelings. for me there is not a huge disconnect between secs and romance. which i think is the old school, natural, traditional, nondegen way to be! what GOD has made one, man should not separate!

ok. wewlad all these interviews and phone calls.

i think its ok to say i have interviews to the other employers. just dont say, well this other place is my first choice. but its PERFECTLY FINE and a good move to say, oh i cant meet you on that day, I HAVE ANOTHER INTERVIEW.

course now that i have SAILED past 25, maybe that is GAAAAAAWWWWWWD telling me that I actually need to get to 30 interviews, not 25.

but 25 is a much better number than 30!

really 33 or 34 is a better number than darn 30.

just know that chill, introverted, quiet, nonobnoxious women STILL have 60000000000000000000000 guy friends because men have to do all the Heavy Lifting of being Charismatic, Interesting, Initiative, Drivers Seat, etc. a woman doesnt have to do anything to have 60000000000000000000000000 except RESPOND to texts.

she can be kinda plain, a 6.6/10, as long as she is 25 and no kids, she will have NO SHORTAGE of Male Friends, and from them, and ENDLESS SUPPLY of potential suitors, fook buddies, whatever she wants.

im not saying this is wrong or bad, i just get BUTTHURT when i see women taking that for GRANTED. that i DO get butthurt about.

also its ANNOYING when women complain about their BF’s getting JELOUS and CONTROLLING because they are upset the gf has 600000000000000 male friends. but then the women complain when the bf has female friends, or, even more interesting, a female “BEST FRIEND.”

YOU SHOULDNT HAVE A “BEST FRIEND” OF THE OPPOSITE SEX. THAT IS EMOTIONALLY CHEATING ON YOUR BF.

or gf or whatever.

ideally, you would be single and available, and make your opposite sex Best Friend your actual Boifran. because best friend implies  closeness, intimacy, emotional connection that really MUDDIES THE WATERS when it is across Gender Lines. one person ALWAYS WANTS MORE hehehehe.

http://www.livescience.com/5031-hypermiling-driving-tricks-stretch-miles-gallon.html

heh. this is me. i would rather drive at 30 mph everywhere than stop at lights hahahahaha.

HYPERMILING hehehehe

i am not as obsessive about fuel efficiency, i just hate stopping at lights hahaha.

bbbbbut i still feel bad about being so PUSHY to her that she BLOCKED me.

bbbbbut i thought she didnt have to BLOCK me, she could have TALKED to me THEN blocked me.

bbbbbbut maybe im underestimating what a HORRIBLE CREEP NARCISSIST WOMAN HATER SCARY BABY I’m being!

ken bone said “i saw jennifer lawrences butt hole, and I liked it” on reddit hahahahaha.

i bet he did! i bet I would too! and any red blooded man!

i think i briefly looked at some of those pictures but not very long and dont remember a BHole pic, which is especially titillating.

then you think of your version of That Woman and how men have photos of HER BHole on THEIR phone. and women think all these guys just DELETE these pictures once they are done fooking. COME ON.

and i never even made out with her, or cuddled with her, or spent enough time with her, or got her to make an effort for me. show ME her BHole and gush jooice all over muh D. which she does for every tyrone and rodney and dontravius.

and i hate how i was so stupid and omega and weak and pushy that i Pushed her to this. i became what women hate the most: a spineless, supplicating orbiter, not even worthy of a courtesy text before Blocking.

well at least i didnt stalk her and Hound her afterwards. yeah i sent her emails. EMAILS. big deal. yeah they were long but she prob didnt even read them. might have just BLOCKED them.

what if your GF accuses you of being abusive, gaslighting, controlling, manipulating, a horrible person, but you dont think you are those things, but you do know you are a little jealous, clingy, needy, which maybe leads to some semi-controlling things, but not what you would call abusive or manipulative or gaslighting?

never teach women these words because they will use them against you hahahahaha. stop GASLIGHTING me! she’ll say, when you are calling her out for something genuinely ridiculous.

tyrone and leroy and rodney dont GASLIGHT me! they fook me HARD and take pictures of muh BHole and I like it!

also these women will be thrown for a LOOP when they see how WILLING I am to go to counseling with them. oh you think im controlling? well ok lets go to a shrink right now to fix this, unless youd rather walk away!

and then they would probably walk away, and spend a year trying to beg dontravius to go to a counselor hahahaha.

also women can CONVERT a male friend to a Lover at least 100 times more easily than a man can convert a female friend to a lover. AND THATS A DAMN FACT!!!!!

and i am NOT just talking about the other FACT that women have many MORE male friends than men have female friends. but controlling for this factor. because im very CONTROLLING hahahahaha.

 

ex gf returns 5 years later to apologize, make better closure, now ex bf is obsessing about her again, then she says lets go NC, and he is all confused and in luv with her again.

this is exactly why you go NC in the first place. while trying to have mature communication and get as much “CLOSURE” as you can at the time. you have like a 1 month window to get closure, then its over. NC 4 LYFE. Till Death.

heh. took some nyquil for the first time in a while. a whole dose. which will prob lead to “hangover” tomorrow.

well thing to remember is nyquil makes you dehydrated so you should drink A LOT of water right after taking it.

yeah i would still rather smoke MJ, but, really wouldnt want to do that with FOUR interviews coming up hehehehehe.

heheheh now thinking about getting a PO box for a few months just so i can have MMJ correspondence sent there. then i can always cancel it after like 2 or 3 months.

can get a small po box for 3 months for 20-25 bucks. this would be worf it to me hahahaha.

 

he is right to be suspicious! also he is too trusting of HER hehehehe.  so of course now HE is the one with “TRUST ISSUES.” what a bunch of manhaters hahaha.

 

interesting read hehehehe cuz yeah you can get an idea how they run their business by their priorities and the decisions they make in fixing problems. bandaids, fires, short term vs long term focus, etc.

heres a good one. i am still not sure whats going on. yet its my job to tell albert that this is the only workaround. also i dont have a manager who is approving me to escalate it to engineering. and albert would instead argue with me, well why CANT a patch fix it? why does it HAVE to be a full upgrade? and i would say I dont know, I can’t explain it to you, and I can’t transfer you to the guy who is telling me it CANT BE DONE.

but honestly, isnt that case a little CONFUSING? and you need to solve it in 20 minutes? every 20 minutes, a new weird case like this, all day, every day?

even the comments just make stupid jokes about vladimir without trying to clairfy the salty snacks patch business.

anyway. i just want to know if i did something really horrible to a person, or not. because i dont want to do horrible things to people! damn!

i really dont think i did! but i also dont trust my judgment, esp on relships!

but still. i dont think i did something horrible evil.

but it WAS a CLUSTERFOOK of a situation that would take AT LEAST a year to even START to make ANY progress. just being close to something THAT clusterfooky is bad.

i mean i dont WANT to be a horrible person! I WANT TO BE A GOOD PERSON!!! PRINCIPLED!!!!!!!!

though WOMEN think I am a horrible person, IM REALLY NOT A HORRIBLE PERSON? OR AM I?

WELL I REALLY DONT WANT TO BE!!!!!!!

im not as bothered by this as all this shouting makes it seem. although i certainly WAS!

right now i am just zoned out on nyquil. kinda bored tbh but too lazy to do anything. if i had MJ i would totes do it. lots of it. just waiting to go to bed tbh.

so right now i am more worried about the job situation than i am about that woman, and also some worrying about All Women In General, and generalizing TOO MUCH from That Woman To All Women, and i should NOT do that.

Not All Women Are Like That Woman!!!!!!!!!!1

and that woman wasnt even that BAD. but it was just that one thing that i didnt like. well not all women will do that one thing. namely dump you without a word, just a straight blocking.

oct 21

ok next day after full dose of nyquil. not a bad “hangover” at all. better than expected. and lemme make clear, the worst nyquil hangover is way better than the best alcohol hangover!

it is just IMPOSSIBLE to be Confident Around Women (and to a lesser extent, men) when you are a Jobless Bum!!!!!!!!

well maria bartiromo is like 50 years old and i would GLADLY bang the shit out of her and her huge probably fake tits. and i dont normally even pay attention to tits hahahahaha. i am much more of a legs/ass/hips man.

i mean her i wouldnt get any delusions or fantasies about the GFE because she is an Old Hag. i guess this si the ideal type of women to have for FWB. but tbh less than 1% of 50 year old women look nearly as good as her.

i dunno. i just hate having to explain to angry customers why we cant do this, when i dont understand why we cant do this. and i dont know if they are just being a bad customer, or my company is being a bad company. or really both are shitty, but whos worse. SHOULD the company be screwing THIS customer in THIS case.

finally passed the 2 thousand dollars of Work amount, which really is not a lot. in terms of Hours Of Work on muh job search, times 12 dollars an hour. i have only done 168 hours of actual work on the job search. which is DISGRACEFUL hahahahaha.

good lord. i dont ever want to become this blind hhahaha. its like she doesnt even realize CHEATING is horribly bad!

and this is the guys WIFE of SEVEN years. DAMN. maybe that is the “7 year itch.” shit i dunno. i never made it to seven MONTHS. technically, not even seven WEEKS.

bitches get the seven WEEK itch with me, hahahahahahahahaha.

the seven DAY itch, 7 HOUR itch more like it, amirite. can only keep a womans interest for 7 hours. great job. hahahaha.

i’m not THAT uninteresting! if women cared about IMPORTANT things, theyd see i was VERY interesting!

but then again, a woman who is too interested in politics is inherently crazy!

well, what about a woman who is super interested in MORALITY??!?!?!?!

yeah i would be ok with that. that would be great. because then she would be very interested in not being a dirty whore or cheater. yes.

and if she’s crazy…..well ALL women are CRAZY, just give me the ones that are MORAL. as long as their craziness doesnt compromise their MORALITY and make them behave immorally, like cheating, abandoning, or being a slut. then give me crazy moral all day erryday 4 lyfe.

shit who cares. as long as they are moral to me. shit go ahead and cheat on me, just dont dump me hahahahaha. work out a DEAL with me to dump me in a way that i can handle. like negotiating a payment plan.  to wean me off of you. and give me a pound of MJ too.

was reading city-data forums today. people in my region talking about getting a college degree and making 50k in their mid twenties. now im 30 and make 60k without a masters degree. i just had to have a good work ethic and work 70 to 80 hours a week for the first few years to pay my dues.

heh thing is, i dont want to work 80 hours a week to pay my dues.  would just as soon go crazy and quit!!!!!!!

why cant you jusy pay your dues at 40-50 hours a week?

how do people handle this?

i KNOW that having a qt waifu would help take the edge off, as would a steady source of MJ.

you can have another boifran, even a black one, just let me have my fantasy, dont talk about him, and hang out with me 1 or 2 times a week. and dont give me any diseases. and when you cut me off lets work out a cutting off PLAN.

i was doing a 3.2 mile powerwalk and about 1.5 miles from muh home I found, on the ground, a little canister for MMJ. horree sheet. it was broken and there was nothing in it OF COURSHE, but i just thought it was funny, considering muh obsession with getting a MMJ card and ultimately, a neverending supply of MMJ, and I would not throw my canisters on the side of the road like a negro.

maybe I should have Scraped the Canister for some Kief Krystals hahahahahahahahaha.

heh i dont necessarily think women would CHEAT on me with their male friends, but i WOULD totally worry that they, social butterflies that they are, always meeting interesting hot new guys, that they would find a guy that is better in the Mate Market than me, and then dump me for him.

i mean thats BETTER than CHEATING, but I really do HATE being DUMPED. replaced. traded in for an UPGRADE. really i cant imagine cheating being much worse. i mean the shit is probably gonna end anyway. might as well get as much time wiht the woman as you can.

yeah but she could give you a disease. and really cheating IS worse than dumping. why would you want to spend another minute with someone so immoral.

well maybe if someone cheats on you, its easier for you to HATE them, therefore easier to GET OVER them, because it’s much easier to BLAME them for doing smething OBVIOUSLY HORRIBLE. where dumping is not really horrible at all. you cant really HATE someone for dumping you. theyre not really WRONGING you. in the way that cheating is.

 

what a fooking dumb idiot slut. guy point blank tells her he doesnt like just secs without dating, she wants “just secs” from her “CRUSH” no less. I thought CRUSH meant you LIKED the person and wanted to DATE them. which is clearly what HE wants to do. i would like to think a 22 year old could be more mature than this. than a big slutty BABY.

https://www.reddit.com/r/niceguys/

OH GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

sluts who fook chads and hate niceguys make fun of and mainly talk about how evil and rapey and creepy niceguys are, and how its so much better when chad nuts in their eye hahahahaha.

what i never got is, why do YOU LIKE treating people as a DOORMAT?

if someone were throwing themselves under my feet and wanting me to be a doormat, i mean it wouldnt even work, because IM NOT WILLING TO WALK ON ANOTHER PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IN ORDER TO BE A DOORMAT, THE WOMAN HAS TO BE WILLING TO WALK ON YOU!!!!!!!

i would say listen, stop being a doormat, Im not gonna walk on you.

no im not the worst niceguy ever, but i have some niceguy tendencies, and i can sympathize with some niceguys.

I mean honestly i would never say these things, i stopped saying woe is me, nice guys finish last, yeaaarrrrrssssss ago, so i am thankful for that. but i am still a meek timid nice guy. i know GOD DAMN ALL TOO FOOKING WELL that it doesnt entitle me to anything and that it is THE SHITTIEST, WORST strategy ever, and that women HATE nice guys.

i mean i wish they didnt hahahahahahahaha. stupid bitches and whores hahahaha.

apparently referring to women as “females” is telltale nice guy, means you treat them as a separate, unknowable species. dead giveaway.

i mean i very rarely use this term, i just say women to mean the same thing, a seaparate, stupid, slutty, species hahahaha.

anyway yeah what made things difficult with That Woman is that i DID know her, it WASNT a fantasy, i got to know her, knew the real her for 2.7 years. its not like i just MET her and immediately projected my fantasy waifu all over her. (which i have done with other women.) when i first met That Woman I wasnt projecting ANYTHING on her. i didnt even really THINK about her that much.  i just said well she seems like a nice gurl with a hard life, she deserves a good man, but i just cant be that man. oh shes got a boifran? well hope hes a good guy and they get married. oh theyre having trouble? well i hope they figure it out. then i meet him. oh he is a good guy, just a little autistic and stubborn. they can still work this out if he wants to. he doesnt want to. he’s done. he’s gone now. now ive known her for almost 2 years. jeez maybe i DO want to be a Good Guy 4 U. and if shes just gonna give it away to negros, why not me? yeah thats a little ENTITLED sure, but i didnt really feel entitled to her Dating me, as much as i felt ENTITLED to her ending the Rel in a more Sensitive way hahahaha. i never called her a fooking bitch to her face like these nice guys do.

yeah i mean the nice guys are cringeworthy, but these WOMEN dont need to HATE them so much. I REALLY doubt any of these nice guys would be Monstrous Abusers. shit, they cant even get a woman TO abuse hahahahaha.

if anything, CHAD would be somewhat more likely to be an abuser, IMHO!!!!!

I mean at least half of Chads are Good Guys anyway. to coin a term in contrast to “nice guys.” so then what do we call ACTUALLY nice guys? i say we call them “good guys”. i mean shit i still call them “nice guys” but then bitches like this subreddit think im talking about the bad kind of nice guys.

but yeah if a guy starts throwing him at your feet and saying WALK ON ME! IM A DOORMAT!!! that doesnt mean you HAVE to do it! i would say, stand the hell up, i dont walk on anybody.

 

 

 

YOU DONT HAVE TO BE RELIGIOUS OR CONSERVATIVE TO BE AGAINST MURDER

[but i do officially recommend being religious and ESPECIALLY being ultra conservative!!!!!!]

june 13

merry crimbo hahahahahaha

oh wow here’s a new one, they demand THREE letters of recommendation before you can even SUBMIT your application. well, with a salary in the mid to high 30s, they SHOULD hahahaha.

i pulled up something that was given to me in my Layoff packet over two years ago, that wasn’t really a recommendation, more like saying he wasnt terminated for cause, there was a restructuring and he was laid off to cut costs, we hope you give him every consideration hahaha.

got ELEVEN job apps done by 3 pm. WOW. JUST WOW.

rather than delete the bookmarks, i move the bookmarks to a new subfolder called, very sensibly, “completed applications” hahahaha. i can always delete that in the future.

did not have a dream about HER last night, although I did dream about naked women and it was pretty much pornographic. even though I haven’t looked at pr0n in 7 months. I chalk it up to just generally being Horney and Thirsty and not having touched a woman in 10 years hahahaha.

of course after i woke up I thought, wouldn’t it be nice if I could have had luving secs with That Woman, and had her sit on my face, and just grab her as I buried myself balls deep into her cvnt with her big fat thighs wrapped around me and her big fat ass sitting on me etc etc oh god i should never be thinking about that.

BUT she wasnt actually in the dream thank god.

then looked for jobs, got thru indeed for the day, had a longass list of way more than 11 jobs, and started blasting through them, and got through 11. good enough. way better than 4 or 5.

doing some laundry for the first time in like 2 or 3 weeks hahaha.

sheeeeeeeeeeeeit.

mutrk

I generally have very strong opinions about abortion, as indicated in the study. Even though I am politically conservative and somewhat religious, I think being anti-abortion is neither inherently conservative nor inherently religious. Therefore, I like to encourage secular and/or leftist anti-abortion groups….of which there do not seem to be many, unfortunately. My view is that you don’t need to be conservative or religious to consider abortion immoral, and I am not happy about pro-choice groups have tried to frame it as a strictly religious issue…..when it really isn’t. For example, atheists can be opposed to violence and aggression, and no one says things like assault and murder are strictly religious issues.

Personally, I think abortion represents a huge misunderstanding and disrespect for human life, and that is is comparable to slavery in terms of immoral things that are legalized and accepted by Western society. I think the way abortion is “sold” to young people does not prepare them in the least for thinking about the deep moral questions of human life and death, and some women only come to a deeper understanding many years later, and experience great guilt and regret over doing something they didn’t fully understand at the time.

I also challenge the idea that men are not allowed to have opinions about abortion because men cannot get pregnant.

I encourage you to look at Secular/Non-religious pro-life groups such as
http://www.secularprolife.org
to begin to introduce a perspective that you can have completely non-religious reasons for being against abortion.

I am committed to helping researchers produce research of the best quality and I am happy to give very detailed feedback on any studies. Please contact me through mTurk if you are interested in having a very high-engagement and detail-oriented research participant.

end mturk comment. hahaha it was a morality study saying how moral is it to abort a baby at 1 month, 2 months, 3 months, etc, then showed a picture of each month. I put “100% extremely immoral” for everything but 1 month, where I put 94% hahahahaha because at that point, it looked like literally a clump of cells. in hindsight, I should have put 100%.

but i sure gave those baby killing bitches with their phd’s a piece of my mind hahahahahahahaha

it just goes to show you how terrible these college kids are, when they wont even listen to ATHEIST antiabortionists. they just knee jerk with WOW. JUST WOW. HOW CAN ANYONE BE AGAINST ABORTION. ITS 2016.

because they think you have to be a Narrow Minded Religious Evangelical Conservative to be against MURDER.

YOU DONT HAVE TO BE RELIGIOUS OR CONSERVATIVE TO BE AGAINST MURDER.

It’s ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTING how the LEFT has twisted the issue like that. that you can’t even see murder as murder without being a conservative religious idiot.

so I always liked the guitar playing of sammy duet but I stopped listening to his band goatwh0re because i just find the singing to be a turnoff. I wish sammy just did the singing instead of their main singer, who is a nice good guy, but his style is……not my preference.

so it is with some curiosity that I look at this “ritual killer” project which features a different singer, and which is supposedly more raw that gw. and also features the original drummer of gw. I saw GW live a couple times when they were just starting out, and they were great, classic, top 5 shows. like during the time of their first 2 albums. i think i only ever saw them when they had the first drummer. after that I just couldn’t listen to their albums anymore hahaha.

which is a way of saying, i hope this ritual killer album turns out to be ok.

yeah they’re all degenerates hahahaha. the singer has tattoos on his FACE and i think they actually do satan worship. I used to think sammy was the coolest guy ever, and I even took a picture with him when I saw GW once hahahahaha.  but……he’s probably a degenerate too. i hope if he has any children he is a good father to them. also i hope he is less degenerate that I suspect he is. because he is a white man and all whites are capable of being non degen. i hope he does not do too many drugs.  hope this album is good (“exterminance.”) it is SHORT, so that’s usually good. hope the guitars are heavy and there are lots of blast beats and that sammy has more than 10% guest vocals hahaha.

but i can appreciate some good hateful, fast, raw black metal. I wish goathwore was rawer and more hateful hahahaha and had a different singer. i also don’t like his lyrical style, his lyrics make no sense and use the word “this” wayyyyy too much, and so then he’s always SAYING “this” in his annoying voice hahahaha. when I was 19 years old, I used to LIKE him. i did quite a 180. he’s still a decent guy I guess…..but just retire from singing and have a damn FAMILY , white man hahahaha.

well here’s that album i just mentioned. I just listened to it, the whole thing in one sitting. it was not bad. not bad at all. vicious and face ripping. tons of blast beats. I would have liked a little louder cymbal on the drums but still not bad. very sharp and ripping guitar sound. not enough screaming from sammy but the main singer is not bad. i can recommend it based on the guitars and drums alone. brings me back to 2000 when goatwhore was fresh and scary and evil. this RK sounds pretty evil and hellish. its kinda raw I guess. but for a fan of sammy who wants to enjoy gotahwore but cant, this RK is pretty good.

some noisy solos in there too. blasts in every song. a couple very rocking riffs sprinkled throughout. not bad at all. hateful and evil and a bit degenerate but also fun. but not TOO much fun. not a bunch of smiling happy phaggots. and I can actually tolerate the vokills.  3.6/5 bretty good

this is not bad at all and would be a great thing to listen to while exercising briskly. like Jogging, which I have not done in a while.

i was listening to the nationalist review, which is done by a guy on trs, well, at least 3 or 4 guys on trs,

the guy who leads it is no1 who I first heard on the fatherland, well this is his main show, and he’s really good. really likable marine officer, can’t believe he puts himself out there like that. his cohost natt is a danish guy who is really funny, just a huge arrogant asshole hahaha. and here they have andrew anglin on as a guest.

oh god bless these men. I don’t want to be on an Alt Right Podcast just yet, but I wouldn’t mind meeting and talking with some of these guys.

My own skills would be best used on a Neetcast however.

maybe doing a partnership with Millennial Woes. He is most like me personality wise in that he is prone to great despair, doubt, and neetism.

oh good god, no1 and natt do an episode with EVALION

subscribe to this guy already hahaha.

i dont need to dnate to him because he makes 148800 dollars a year as a marine officer hahaha.  plus they havent put the dnation hat out yet.  but i did find his email address on paypal hahaha.

june 14

2 jobs down, 8 more to go hahaha. also go see SHRINK today, yaaasssssssss!!!

well at least i appear to be losing weight again. probably because i am losing muscle hahaha.

8 down, 2 to go. damn. gotta go to shirnk very soon. took shower today, thats good hahaha. wanna not look and smell like a slob for the shrink haha. also when i was an employed bigboy, i did take a shower before every shift and come in nice and clean.

went to shrink, that was ok. talked about job search and shit, a little bit about that woman. i said it sucks, i learned lessons, but it jsut wasnt worth it. but then shrink said well arent I a stronger better person at the end of it all? technically yes, i am a better person in the end. so that IS KINDA worth it.

also the fact that I couldn’t make the same mistake again if i tried. there is no way this will ever happen again. it just CANT. Im not even worried about it. i have been changed permanently so that this will never happen again. in terms of being more assertive abotu communicating and stuff.

so i have become more mature and stronger and better able to DEAL with bullshit like this.

doesnt mean it wasnt ridic painful or stupid! because it was!

ok i will go back and listen to the old goatwhore albums. i really liked their first two albums. maybe i can still listen to them.  i mean there was some really good songs there, and maybe the vocals dont sound as bad as I fear.

anyway. yes i HAVE been permanently changed by this horrible experience. but it is possible that I have been permanently changed for the better……once we get to the end of it all. i am not quite there but i def am getting there. i still think of her obviously. pretty much every day. but it’s still a lot better than it was. but yeah i really need the distance and the no contact. i couldn’t do it with no contact. it takes well over a year just for her memory to even start to fade a LITTLE.

its like craving for heroin a YEAR after you last touched it. shit.

you stop craving for heroin like two WEEKS after. but HER, THAT WOMAN, I still crave for her a YEAR later. well, 11 months later hahahaha.  such that I cant even substitute anyone else. i mean, if i were trying to get off heroin, you can bet id be taking a LOT of MJ hahahaha. MJ helps you quit anything hahahaha.

MJ would probably help me quit this too heh.

but i just think about her and how good it USED to be and how much I luved her and how the hell am I gonna find that with another woman?

this IS a special thing that should not be treated like a casual cok carousel! you CANT get these feelings easily!

so i guess i should not expect to.

listened to that goatwh0re album, the first one, eclipse of ages into black (2000) and it def has staying power, it was great fun, and i didnt hate the singer so much. he still said this and these too much, but on some parts he is quite enjoyable. the lyrics are a frustrating mix of honestly quite good, and then filler tryhard this these fluff. for me the mainstays are sammy’s guitar and the drummer. they play very well together. and i like the old drummer better than the new drummer….who is not bad at all. indeed, probably sammy shifted his style as gw got older. some say they became more straightforward, and that they were “darker” and “more atmospheric” in the beginning. this might be true.

its not a huge secret that sammy is pretty serious about his devil worship, but i don’t know the details. i kinda would like to. like he literally does black magic and probably cuts himself. but he seems like an otherwise normal guy. not all suicidal and autistic and such. well, maybe he is bipolar. all these fookin musicians are bipolar. i heard he used to do Coke. hopefully he doesnt do too much of that. well, its better than meth hahahaha.

so sammy why not try orthodox christian. they are darker and more solemn and shit. youre gonna worship SATAN? I thought this was cool when I was 16-23. not when I was 45 or however old he is. you can be dark and “evil” and essentially worship GOD hahahaha. If he has a wife and children I hope he is good to them. Doesn’t neglect them so he can get drunk and do drugs and worship satan. but what I like about his style is that he writes tons of very catchy, very effective riffs. he is a riff machine. a riff factory. a true riffmaster in every sense of the word. not like nile, dumping tons of incoherent riffs. sammy dumps slightly less riffs and they are all a lot catchier. but still heavy, hyper, and fast.

WOMEN SHOULD CARE ABOUT GETTING PREGNANT AS MUCH AS I CARE ABOUT GETTING THEM PREGNANT

 

may 5

sorry not sorry i am always talking about abortion. any sensible person would agree its a big deal.  i wish there were MORE pro-life (yes I like that term) activists who were not super religious. I mean its gotten to the point where being pro-life, anti-abortion has basically become SYNONYMOUS with being a religious jesus freak weirdo, and the ONLY people who are against abortion are bible thumping, gun toting, gay-hating rednecks. my type of people hahahahahahaha.

but I will accept ALMOST ANYBODY as a pro-life ally: even filthy leftists. it seems weird to think of an anti-abortion leftist, but maybe there’s a few. and that could be a good point of entry into saving them from the left.

good thing I know how to turn unknown unknowns into known knowns and become an expert without hand holding

google is your friend

google pro life groups that are not religious

http://www.secularprolife.org/

this is one of the first results, that means they are a big one. hey i dont have the gift of discernment or judgment, I just take what google gives me hahahaha.

i mean i just don’t understand how being anti-abortion is strictly “A RELIGIOUS STANCE.” oh now were talking RELIGION.

NO, we are talking general morality. like mill and philosophy 101.

or even gayass libertarian nonaggression principle. dismembering your screaming fetus seems pretty aggressive, man.

i mean it just sounds patently ridiculous to me, to think that you HAVE to be anti-abortion for religious reasons. it seems just like common sense, kinda like how most people have common sense that murder is wrong. ((((somehow)))) people have been convinced that abortion is not murder, that the clump of cells is not a actual person.

http://www.refinery29.com/2015/10/96229/pro-life-millennial-activist

pretty sure refinery29 is a shitty pro-murder feminist leftist degen site, like jezebel. but decent article on pro life millennial gurl. and horrible comments from pro-murderers hahaha.

http://www.prolifehumanists.org/

another group i guess? kinda shitty website.

http://www.prolifehumanists.org/changed-mind-atheist-becomes-pro-life/

skinny friendly looking gurl with a polish surname, ok checks out, thumbs up for her. and she seems strong and courageous, taking an unpopular view among atheists and being hated by promurder atheists. So good for this courageous and strong young woman. that is a strong independent woman I can support! one who defends the right of our youngest, most vulnerable humans to live!

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Secular_Pro-Life

oh we already saw this one. its shameful how leftist atheists will turn against one of their own, when that person defends the rights of the unborn. ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTING. and as a fairly catholic rightist, I am very welcoming to the pro-life atheists.

http://www.patheos.com/blogs/friendlyatheist/2014/03/11/yes-there-are-pro-life-atheists-out-there-heres-why-im-one-of-them/

the cute atheist girl from prolife humanists writes an article here which got 4000 comments hahaha.

http://www.lifenews.com/2012/02/28/confessions-of-a-pro-life-atheist-why-i-fight-abortion/

this guy doesnt have his own group but he points out that even atheist hero chris hitchens was probably pro-life hahaha.

http://www.aul.org/

americans united for life

group of lawyers trying to change abortion laws. the secular pro life founder gurl went to law skool and went to work with them.

http://www.catholicworldreport.com/Item/1909/atheist_secular_and_prolife.aspx

article at a probably catholic website abotu SPL and some of its possible predecessors, including a j00ish randian pro-life libertarian who split with rand over abortion.

https://web.archive.org/web/20160427000025/http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2015/oct/05/abortion-opposition-religious-atheists-must-help-fight-for-choice

scumbag at the guardian sez:::  “opposition to abortion is inherently a religious position, just like creationism or opposition to LGBT rights. ”

um no. hahahahaha. what have i been saying. its NOT an INHERENTLY religious position.

http://archive.is/FZ5nP

pro-murder atheists brutally bash the cute polish anti-murder gurl, doesnt matter that shes an atheist too. not that I like that she’s an atheist!

these people are truly VILE. just reading it for 1 minute makes the ole trigger finger itch hahahahahaha.

this is at freethoughtblogs dot com, which I absolutely do NOT recommend clicking on. hence the archive of their evil.

http://frc.org/arguments

pro life arguments for secular audiences. family research council. I know leftists hate this org.  FRC Stands for Faith, Family, and Freedom and is a bigass think tank.  but are they cuckservative zionists hahahaha.  will I accept cuckservative zionist pro-lifers as my allies hahahahaha. oooosh. now theres a REAL tough question. I mean you do realize who has been behind the abortion movement goy.

http://hopeafterabortion.com/

this one i guess is founded by catholics but will help even damn atheists who are feeling bad about their abortion.

i dunno. i just think its STUPID that something as common sense as being against Murder, has been made into something inherently religious, inherently “whackjob conservative”, inherently “anti-science”, inherently “anti-intellectual”, inherently extemist, hateful, bigoted, etc.

you dont say ANY of that about someone who’s against murder. most people ARE against murder!

and 60 years ago, people had the same common sense abotu abortion!

google secular pro-life groups

http://thebelltowers.com/2013/05/01/pro-life-without-god/

article by SPL founder gurl

http://www.nrlc.org/

right to life, biggest and oldest pro life organization. this does not look like religious wingnuttery to me!!!!!!

plan b aka the morning after pill aka “EMERGENCY CONTRACEPTION” wow.  not the same as RU 486 which is an abortion pill which can be taken at 5 to 7 weeks.

some shitty buzzfeed article (redundant to say that hahaha) from some sex positive sex educator slut who gives you 16 things you didnt know abotu the morning after pill.

if they put as much interest and initiative and studying into Moral Questions and the Rights of the Unborn as they did into Contraception and Consent and Exploring Their Sexuality……………………………  they would probably become anti-abortion. but they don’t and they’re not. largely because of how they choose to focus their time and efforts. isn’t this birth control NEAT! it allows me to enjoy my Sex Life Responsibly, and get maximum enjoyment!

i think it was the SPL group who had a bumper sticker saying “i might like sex, but I dont like it more than life itself” or something. there are more important things involved in sex than just your god damn physical pleasure, you god damn sicko degenerate.

people have a ton of sex ed in public school about condoms and contraceptives and abortion, but not a god damn word about Morality and Life Creation. So I think women are just IGNORANT because they havent been introduced to these topics. the same way a level 1 tech support person is IGNORANT of all the potentially useful stuff out there, like log files or process monitors or ways to automatically restore a crashed program.

theres all these unknown unknowns happening in the black box of the uterus. of course even the woman herself doesn’t know what goes on down there! in her own body!

its sad. well i think the more intelligent person will be curious enough to say, well when does life ACTUALLY begin.

also I am myself biased because i went to a religious high school and was raised in a religious family so naturally i had it drilled into me that abortion was wrong. but then i rebelled against all that during my college years, and i do mean ALL of it. religion, GOD, morality, pro-life. I became a full blown leftist communist marxist k1ke and supported womens right to abortion.

thank GOD I eventually grew out of that phase!

maybe if i had a gf or even was just banging bitches, i would be more in tune with the life creation process. like i always worried about getting a woman pregnant, even when there was no risk of me having actual secs at any point! i guess i always felt that getting pregnant was a real big deal, and i didn’t want it to have to come to the point of abortion.

thwart, dont abort as one of those groups said. meaning its ok to use rubbers. just had to mansplain that to all the ignorant women out there, hahahaha.

is this just because That Woman didnt seem very smart? very sharp? and I felt I had to mansplain everything to her and she just didnt GET things?

but she had two years of college and had a good GPA at it! so I think she was smarter than she seemed. but she was polite enough to know that being a smartypants is impolite.

i dont know. i am not intimidated by intelligent women. there’s just a big differnece bew

i bet religious pro lifers are more tolerant of atheist pro lifers than general atheists are!!!!!!

tons of recreational sex can warp a womans mind, and a mans mind too.

but also tons of pornography and tons of vidya games and no contact wiht women can really warp a mans mind too.

not sure what my point is hahaha.

maybe the only thing that will get a woman to think serious about the issue of abortion, is if she gets damn pregnant. and even then its no guarantee. she might just go ahead and do it because she believes what her teachers and society tells her: its a clump of cells thats a part of your body and you can do with it what you wish. its JUSTICE and FREEDOM that women have fought so hard for, against evil oppressors who tried to enslave your body. you getting an abortion is an act of social justice! you go grrrrl!!!!!!

white cadillac: a drink of whiskey (or scotch?) and MILK hahaha. the fatherland mentioned this and said it was a very black drink, but it was surprisingly good and really helps you sleep.

If i still drank I would be curious to try that hahaha.

google says no, the white cadillac is galliano and white creme de cacao?

anyway i like depressants that relax you and put you to sleep ahahaha.

yeah i overwhelmed her and that sucks, but she abandoned me and that sucks even more hahahaha.

took a little nyquil, i am back on taking a little nyquil every 2 or 3 days. ideally 3.

may 6

yeah that nyquil was all right.

listen. i dont consider myself super religious. i have always had pretty weak faith and very strong doubt. my moral code has been…..basically I try to give nonreligious reasons for all my moral opinions. and in doing so I believe I am getting at the same line of moral thought GOD and gods and deities have used to say something is wrong. thomas aquinas often appealed to “natural law” as well as scripture.

and its infuriating to me when idiots say anti-abortion is an inherently religious issue, when its so not.

THIS IS one of the great LIES the ((((LEFT)))) has pulled on us.

like one of the secular pro life groups says, you dont need to be religious to want to protect human life.

i hate how da j00s have made this a religious nutjob issue, instead of a BASIC HUMAN RIGHTS issue, like it really is. like SLAVERY. or the way they made pushing FOR abortion into a Human Rights and Freedom issue.

isnt that grotesque? arguing FOR abortion is a human rights issue, arguing against abortion is a religious nutjob, anti-human rights issue.

we cant allow them to frame the argument in this horribly misleading way!!!!!!!!!!

and encourage young dumb girls to do something horrible that they dont really understand!!!!!!!

which essentially makes them worse people , and they dont even understand why. they just become crazy and destructive and awful.  that’s your mind and soul acting out of rightful guilt for killing your baby hahahaha. but this guilt needs to be addressed. otherwise it can damage the lives of the people around you too. like if you sabotage your relationships with the people in your life. cheat on them, hurt them, push them away, abandon them, be a crazy bitch to them.

YOUR BODY DOESNT CARE IF ITS RELIGIOUS OR NOT.

Your Child Your Murdering doesn’t care if its religious or not.

(i would passive aggressively write “your” instead of “you’re” when I was texting or messaging her, because she was such a moron she didnt know the difference, and I wanted to SHOW her how ridiculous it looked…….but not knowing the difference, she never grasped it. people who have completed 2 years of college with a high gpa should not make these mistakes.)

yesterday i learned elliott smith was a college graduate who worked shitty random low wage jobs after graduating from a liberal arts college with a philosophy degree.  he also became a nutcase lunatic with big problems with drugs and alcohol and despair. but at least he became a successful and respected musician.  he could use his Issues to make a lot of actually good music. I cant do that hahahaha. and it wasn’t enough to help him!

yet he was clearly charismatic enough to get jobs and to get gurlfrans! there is solid evidence that he had secs with at least 3 women in his life ahahahaha!

what would have helped him? i guess he actually went to rehab but didnt like the 12 steps. ok thats fair. so do a non 12 step program.

near the end of his life he went cold turkey off all drugs and alcohol. but he was still taking psych meds for depair, also benzos for anxiety, and adderall for ADD when he died.

hmmm. I would say yeah get rid of the drugs and alcohol and then slowwwwly taper off the psych meds if you really want. or maybe just give them a chance to try to work.

maybe he was all on edge from quitting drugs and alcohol, and that actually gave him the Anxious Impulsivity as well as the Energy to Suddenly Kill Himself without thinking. just grab the knife and stab himself and then as hes dying he thinks, OH SHIT, i didnt really want to do that!

so yeah its sad. but musicians are a weird and crazy bunch and he probably was obnoxious to be around. musicians are selfish and annoying. they sell out their friends and luvers so they can obsess about their shitty music. but at least his music was not shitty.

but yeah i didnt know he had finished a college degree. like me it was a useless degree that didnt help him get a proper job. After college his music career gradually took off. can’t say the same happened with me hahahaha. I don’t really want to write songs anymore. I wrote one ok song after college and I’m happy with that, but, just dont care about writing music. I care about being a free, proud man, and finding and good wife, and securing the existence of my people and a future for my children.

and upholding the DIGNITY and SANCTITY of human life. I tell you what, a pro-life woman is also probably NOT gonna be a huge slut. because she fully realizes the power of the life creation process, and is not gonna have casual sex ever. MY KINDA WOMAN.

A PRO LIFE WOMAN IS MY KINDA WOMAN.

Yeah I happily use the term pro-life, because it makes the anti-lifers so ASSMAD. BUTTHURT. TRIGGERED.

and its just sad that modern women are such MORAL INFANTS that they cant recognize the moral horror of abortion, that unborn children are living humans, and that Fun Sex is the Powerful Process that creates these innocent human lives. If you can’t grasp these things, and SO many people don’t, you are a moral INFANT.

no men arent innocent either. but women have a little more responsibility here, because only women have the POWER to get pregnant.

so i feel better when i read testimonies by staunchly pro-life women. I wish I knew some real life staunchly pro life women. I guess I sort of do, some older religious women hahahaha. but i especially mean younger millennial women. marriageable women ahhahaha. potential wives.

nothing says i’d make a great mother than a woman who openly says i support the right to murder my own children!!!!! hahahahaha.

i still have the desire to smoke MJ. i still want to rationalize why its not completely degenerate, turning promising young people into lazy losers.  i say well it can help with despair and anxiety. maybe in the short term, but in the long term, it just makes these things WORSE! or does it?

like i’ve said, back when I was working my terribly stressful job and dealing with the stress of that woman and our rel getting worse, coming home after a long horrible day and not having a lot of time before the next horrible day, smoking MJ was easily the high point (hahahahha pun sort of intended) of my day. in these bleak conditions, I much preferred having MJ to not having MJ. it really provided some much needed relief. helped me sleep when getting good sleep was very important. so it is this experience that makes me think MJ isnt so bad after all.

or is it???!?!?!?!

horry SHEET it costs THIRTY DOLLARS A MONTH to buy linkedin premium on the LOWEST plan, for Job Seekers. are you KIDDING???!?!?!?!?! I would have maybe thought about FIVE dollars a month. how the FOOK can they get away with that? who is paying that shit!!!!!!

the REcruiter plan is one HUNDRED dollars a month. does that mean all these 27 year old attractive women IT recruiters contacting me for help desk call centers are each paying 100 dollars a month for their linkedin access??!?!?!?!?!

I would pay 5 dollars a month MAYBE. yet they can get away with charge SIX TIMES that for what I am looking for.

does that mean its SIX TIMES harder to get a job than I think? And I already think its kind of hard! that you need to apply for about 7500 jobs before you finally successfully get a job. so maybe you really need to apply for like 48000 jobs? hahahahahaha.

Privileged Baby Boomers didnt have to apply for 48000 jobs in 1970 to get a fulltime job that allowed them to have a family and live in a safe neighborhood!

you just got out of high school and starting working!

people with BAD ATTITUDES could be hired for good jobs! you just had to be WILLING TO WORK!

applied for account clerk 1 with county family health service department. like 26 k a year. ok thats more my style. probably talking to poor blacks all day complaining about not gibs me enuff food stampz mufugga. gibs me mo food stamps what can pay fo mah bluntz and hennesey.

and then i would be like silly negro, food stamps cant pay for booze, take it up with the fedgov. its because fuhrer god emperor trump doesnt care about black people hahahahahahahahahahahaha i will say as I strike a pepe pose with my trump hat hahahaha.

i have applied for countless jobs on this county job website and havent gotten so much as an invitation to a damn test. the city has been much more active on that front than the county.

does MJ HELP despair and anxiety……or does it make it WORSE?

ok i did it, just sent my first dnation to TRS. I have been wanting to do this for a while. I would have just sent 5 dollars but you have to send them BTC so I sent them .01488 BTC which is $6.75. FINE. they are all about the 1488 and really so am I!!!!!!!

other people i would like to donate to are millennial woes and weev. but I would rather save those for another day hahaha. dont want to blow my load all at once.  and maybe a secular abortion group like the one with that polish gurl who is very courageous and principled and moral. there is probably less “OVERHEAD” here than with a large org like right to life with lots of paid staff hahaha.

http://www.businessinsider.com/trickiest-interview-questions-from-best-companies-in-america-2016-5

stupid dickhead questions for jobs, where the best answer is suck muh dick you worthless virgin f4ggot and then walk out after farting tons of taco bell fartz in their faces.

no one has ever luved a person like i luved her, and had their heart broken like she broke mine, hahahahahaha. this is the first time in all of history.

but honestly. just show some common courtesy to someone who used to be your friend at least. its not like i sold you out and belittled you and showed you how little I cared about you. quite the opposite! i didnt do anything to make you feel SNUBBED and worthless. like you did to me hahahaha. just tell me I mattered a little bit to you and you are sorry to hurt me and wish me good luck in life and say goodbye, it was nice knowing you. you can say all that in 140 characters or less.

Now I cant even look at qt college gurls on linkedin because I have made myself fully public and they will be able to see my name if i look at their profile. Assuming they are also set to public.

you didnt have to luv me. i just really wanted you to show me a LITTLE caring and kindness, rather than ABSOLUTE ZERO. I kinda did feel entitled to a LITTLE kindness.

to that person: yeah I should have been more clear about exactly how important you were to me. yeah I see how those feelings would be scary to a person. and make them run away like a scared animal. but I wish you had come back and said something after your initial fright. even before I got feelings  I felt our friendship was pretty special and pretty good, and I think you did too. I wish when it all ended you had expressed appreciation for that nice friendship we had. Even without feelings, that was a special friendship to me. It’s not every day you meet someone and get along with them so well, and you continue getting along well for several years. I don’t make friends like that very often and have never had that many close friends. I think you are the same way. But now I don’t know any more. because the person I thought I knew would probably say something to me. Its ok to be angry. Its ok to be scared and nervous. I just wish you wrote me an email. I wish you didnt hate me for getting feelings. It makes things awkward and complicated and yeah it does ruin the friendship and I am sorry for causing you pain because of that. I just wish you didn’t hate me for it. You totally running away from me and blocking me hurts me a LOT. Is this some kind of punishment for me liking you? Maybe. But I think being blocked and ignored is inherently more hurtful than getting feelings for someone.  I never wanted to hurt you. I wish you cared about not hurting me.  This is the worst endings to one of the best relationships I ever had, and I was just asking for your cooperation and effort in ending it a little more smoothly, and you couldn’t even agree to do that.

end of letter to that person for this post hahahaha.

did a 3.64 mile walk outside in the nice may weather. wonder if you can get real vitamin d from the sun when it is after high noon. hopefully a little.

protip: if you are “lucky” enough to share significant musical interests with a woman, don’t ever go to a concert of that person with that woman. like you like the musician enough to actually want to go to their concert, and she does too. just go by yourself and try to make sure she never finds out about the concert hahahaha. cuz seeing a musician like this will likely be an important positive memory in your life, and you dont want it to be Tainted by her being there. because you are much more likely to have a falling out with her than to stop liking that musician. and your thing with her will end, and you WONT EVEN BE ABLE TO ENJOY THE MEMORY of when you saw them in concert because SHE was there with you.

I say this as a person for whom concerts of beloved musicians are Big Important Life Memories. You will know if you are one of those people.

I saw not one but two very important life concerts with her and now I can’t really enjoy those memories as much as I SHOULD. because they also partially remind of me of HER. And how we shared important musical tastes. and got along so well wawawawawawaw.

but yeah its so fooking gay when management has no idea how to do the work done by the people they manage. which is why managers should be promoted from within. or at least be SOLIDLY trained in the work their people do. or come from the same industry.