june 12

so i do need to Jump On It, and Get Deep In The Action re New Job Search, because things are not looking good re the stupid job i was hoping to get called back to. heard a bunch of the higher ups left and the sh1t really hit the fan. restructuring and whatnot.

so it will prob take a week to get the 10 or 12 puffs of wiid i took over the week out my my system.

oh yeah part of the fun we had was to develop a new language full of ridiculous phrases that were repeated many many times throuhgout the week. can’t say the most obvious ones for anonymity purposes, but “deep in the action” was a good example which i look forward to using in my day to day life.

anyway. point is. job search. ok. gotta go to temp office. use the new social skills i was able to observe. look for english tutoring jobs, private skool jobs, chess tutor jobs, maybe math tutor at like mathnasium or something becuase the college is not hirin math tutors, and if they were, it would only be part time at 9 bucks an hour.

because math tutor is a stepping stone job, hehehehe.

but you might meet an ambitious young man who can get you a fulltime assistant job at his company. hehehe. i met several such ambitious young men and was able to hide my nonambition well enough to talk to them like a normalfag and have fun with then. so you can too.

i even confessed i was lazy and really didn’t want to do a masters degree until i was convinced it would really Add Value. then kinda bullsh1tted that my ideal masters degree would be “an intersection of information science, information security, computer science, and math.”

which really is not too far off from the truth!!!! with a job in that field you could make way more than the loser threshold of 36k a year, and prob enough for lower middle class…..if not middle middle class! and as we said before, i am a huge SUCKER for middle class women. despite my heart always being with the working class.

put post it notes on the wall by your bed to remind you of the things you need to do. to do list, if you will.

clean your room with dusting and vacuuming once every three months.

exercise is more important than writing or blogging or really just about anything else except for straight up paid work.

try to listen to music more. use spotify or whatever to make a Party Mix of crowd pleasing songs, with like 5% of the weird songs you like to listen to that would not be crowd pleasers. try to keep the songs under 10 minutes hehehe. hip hop hits from the 90s are always a good idea. will smith. and nothing too deep or weird, we are looking for songs that people actually sort of know. with weird new stuff at only 5 to 10% to BOIL THE FROG and subtly peak the interest but not overwhelm.

heh. i was talking to this guy who was getting rip roaring drunk, he was an absolutely hilarious and wild and crazy guy, unfortunately also a leftist but i can get along with leftists regardless, who had a pretty sweet tutoring/coaching job with no masters degree, and we briefly talked about my situation and how it compared to the situation he was in a year ago, before he got this new job in a new town and his life did a 180. talked briefly about masters degrees, i tried to spin things to make myself sound confident and normal, when he asked me what is my passion, what have i loved doing ever since i was 2 years old, and i struggled in answering that question, before saying the usual about writing and film, possib documentaries. then spun it towards my thing about “info science with comp sci and math.” which he agreed sounded bretty good. but he was getting epic drunk at the time off a ridic bacardi 151 drank.

june 12

Homework 4 You: go to spotify and create a new playlist called something like Social Fun Mix So You can meet gurls, make frands, and lose your kissless virginity.

then browse thru the spotify premade playlists and put songs you know and like on it, from playlists like DANCE and HIP HOP and RAP and TOP 40 and HITS and Hits Across the decades. throw some dancey hipster crap in there too. throw a bit of classic rock type songs. the rule is, it must be fun and or upbeat.

I listen to real weird stuff and would not make this weird stuff more than 5% of the list, becuase that will turn your party into a sausage party.

yeah it sucks to pander to the pvssy, but you got to give them fun music to dance to as they get drunk and dance at yer party. you can’t just play just noise music or death metal or something.

ok i spent an hour doing that. it was fun. just going through like 50 premade playlists and ctrl clicking and adding to my playlist the songs i liked or felt would be effective vaj tinglers, not too weird or creepy, fun, party songs. some of which are actually good, like van morrison or temptations or paul simon or phil collins, police, michael jackson, etc.

remember, nothing too weird. you can do 5% weird TOPS.



june 15

ok by this time this blog should be hugely popular because i am publishing every day. 4 months is too much, 3 months is just right. ok. now pay me 38k a year and give me a true luvly gurl.

maybe get a social skills book intended for kids with autism.  because you might now have autism but your social skills are as bad as an autists.

ok i run out of paxil on friday and have to visit the doc to get a refill. i will try to get in to the doc on friday. and then really pump him for the drugs i want: namely, a tricyclic (old skool anti “depressant” which for some reason i think is more powerufl and effective than the modern stuff, but i could be wrong) and a benzo. maybe get the nonbenzo anxiety thing buspar as well. i mean you don’t have to get ALL the rx’s filled, but this is your one shot to get them.

try to get as many rx’s as possible when you are in there with the doc for 15 minutes.

yesterday i was trying to find the cheapest yet decent reputation online skool and found a program at oregon state univ where you could complete a BS of computer science as a POSTBACC thing, meaning you screwed up the first time and got the wrong degree the first time, like me, and you want to fix that and get the right bachelors degree, but without all the fluff. can be completed in 1 year if you’re super ambitious.

60 credits. all degrees should be like this. you should not have 60 additional credits of marxism on top of that.

60 credits times 460 dollars per credit, coming to about 27k for the 60 credit computer science degree.

this looked real good. i think a Postbac might be what i’m looking for. right up my alley. i just forget it exists.

but colleges should work FOR you with all the money you’re paying. ie I should go to the local university and make them do an online compsci postbac for me, and hopefully for a better price. I would pay maybe….14k for that degree. but 27k is way too much, i can’t afford that without taking out a stupid gayass loan and I’m not gonna do that!!!!!!

well the term POSTBAC is moreso geared towards premed, dental, health stuff. though i see no reason why it could not be applied to sciences or engin, i guess the bigboys don’t use the word like that yet.

also look up “SECOND DEGREE” or even “SECOND MAJOR.”

you gotta know these terms so you know what to search for, so you can find ANYTHING.

really what i want is a SECOND MAJOR. i don’t want a full degree. i already have a full useless degree. I just want to ideally add the minimum of useful courses to give the effect of having a useful degree like engin and compsci.

heh. when i talked to my old frand i went to middle class elite college with, he said he had a sh1tty job at a coffee place with a real d1ck manager / franchise owner, who was such a d1ck everybody quit. later my frand went to the bank and saw the guy working as a teller there. the kicker was, he was an ENGIN grad from that very same prestigious college that I daily regret i did not get an engin degree from. where ALL the engin grads make 80k a year right out of school. and here was this loser working at the bank.

also my frand has a gurlfran who is trying to get some decent high school related administrative jobs. i axed him where’d she get her masterz degree and he said she didn’t have one. that gave me hope, because she was interviewing for some not bad jobs. with just a bachelors degree.

so both these things made me feel better about muh self, hahaha.

how about u.


of course i have been thinking about doing the “health information technology” thing at the community college again.  would that be a better return on investment than a second major in compsci. would that make finding a job easier. that is really the main thing for me. it is f00king impossible to find a job for me. i would rather get a lower paying job easier, than a higher paying job harder, because for me, it would be a LOTTTTTTT infinitely harder.

erm a 60 credit second major/degree in compsci seems better than a 72 credit assoc degree in health info tech. BUT the latter might be cheaper because the credits would be like 100 dollars and not 460 dollars. YIKES.

but a compsci person prob makes more than an HIT person. right? or do they just become bank tellers. and pine about gurls they knew when they were 20 but never touched, until they are 40. hahahahaha. not that they touch them when they are 40. no no. i was referring to the pining. well perhaps that never ends, not at 40, not at 60, not until you die.

that’s why the good lord created tricyclics and benzos!

maybe ECT. I hear ECT is practically like erasing your memory. wouldn’t mind that!!!!


may 2

yeah buddy. was feeling superbad about jobs and being a loser so i went for a second powerwalk to get to 4.8 miles for the day. nice.

probably the best thing i can do is, contact my “current” job mgr and ask them for an “ETA” on my rehire.

my other aces in the hole are, going to a staffing agency, and lying mah ballz off. just lying and being more full of sh1t than ever before, in order to tell them exactly what they want to hear.

maybe going to the docker and demanding a sh1tload of prozac and a sh1tload of buspar so i can function throughout the day and not freak out and quit the job.

bring a one sheeter to the docker and know exactly which drugs you want. you will want to pick off the $4 rx list because of course you don’t have good health care. but you can get prozac and buspar off there. sh1t i am pretty sure str8 up XANAX can be got in a generic that is not horribly expensive.

but don’t expect your docker to know all this, or to know the name of the drug, or to write it for a generic, that’s why you bring in a one sheeter and tell him EXACTLY what you want!

you should be able to get a visit for less than $100. I know I can get a visit for like $80. so save up $80 or put it on your credit card. make sure the office takes credit cards. not all of them do!

and then lie your balls off to show you are not just GOOD, but PERFECT, and take tons of meds to keep you from K’ing yourself because of your job. the end. hehehehe.

now once you get the job, do eveyrthing you can to get ahead. suck up, show how smart you are, etc. sometimes a company actually will promote you because they can see you are smarter than everyone else, and then you become assistant manager in under a year.  extreme example, but still.

at my job there is a clique of “cool kids” which I should be kissing their A’s harder, and bringing in coffee for them. that is how you suck up, you come in with like 10 tim hortons coffees. even though there is a coffee machine there you can make folgers with. I always drink a ton of folgers and never buy tim hortons. this will be my downfall if i don’t correct course (another great buzzword.)

i wonder how can they stack all these trays of coffee cups in their car and drive without spilling all the stuff. that honestly is my main concern.

plus i am noticing more d1ckheads than i did at first. like, do all these people really NEED to be such 4ssholes? I did the job without being such a huge 4sshole.

if paxil and prozac are both similar ssri’s, it is possible that one would have a drastically different effect over the other? because muh paxil does nothing, and i would hope prozac would make a drastic difference. like cure muh laziness and make me a hard worker and make me motivated to get a useful masterz degree and enter the middle class and get a nice lower middle class career job and a lower middle class wief who doesn’t gain 9000000000 pounds the instant she hits 30.

i argue you can have several children each with a different woman and be a good father to each of the children. that way if one woman sucks, you can minimize your involvement with her, but still work with her to be a parent to that child, and then have a better woman for your next wife. wives are like CARS. they get sh1tty after a few years, then you gotta get a new one.

who cares. just worry about banging cute 18 yo’s first, and sowing your wild oats.

and also finding a ft job that you can stay at for a few years. damn. f00k.

sh1t who cares if you don’t get promoted. just a place you can not quit or not get laid off for two good years. DAMN.

i’ve actually met people who were bigger losers than me. sort of. one guy had a valid excuse, because he never finished his bach degree, and also he had huge health problems.

and this one guy who got laid off and then remained laid off for like 4 years, hehehe.

and all the guys in prison are bigger losers than me! but I have never actually MET them hehehe. I am thinking of people I’ve actually met in person.

i know plenty of people who never finished their degree, but they are still gainfully employed and getting pvssy. well, it’s not great pvssy, hehehehe.

anyone who finished their degree and became a loser? Nope, only me. Everyone else got masterz degreez and good middle class masterz degree jobz and wives.

so, obvious answer is, get a masterz degree. take out loanz and just do it, and odds are i will prob get a decent job afterwards.  so just do it already. i can assure you i would know well enough to not get a useless masterz degree. I would get something heavily STEM oriented.

i would also do everything i could to Kiss A with my professors, hang out with them before and after class, and pump them for names of contacts at companies who could get me a job. ideally i would get a masters degree job even before officially completing the masterz degree. at the very latest, then the second after graduating. no later. the entire PURPOSE of getting a masterz degree is to get a GOOD JOB.

sh1t the entire purpose of getting a bach degree should be to get a good job!

well I’m sorry LORD, I done f00ked it up. please give me the strength and the COURAGE to unf00k it.



may 1

moar compelled than usu to write.

weird dreams last night man!

I was in my old childhood house again. it was a great house. i was in my old bedroom, which was a converted attic and the best bedroom ever.

the theme was that I was having a kind of “going away party” and many of my old friends from college and some from high school were showing up and giving me an emotional farewell. i wasn’t sure where I was going. or maybe it was that THEY were all going away forever. one person gave me the friendly advice that I should really seriously consider getting a Masters Degree, when they had a masters degree in something useless like Spiritual Studies or something, whereas I was considering Business or STEM ONLY, but didn’t want to do the work or pay the money. but i took his advice in the friendly spirit it was given.

there were a few guys from high school. strangely enough, I don’t think some of my closest, long term friends even made an appearance.

and then weirdest of all, there was a gurl from middle school who showed up, and now she was all matured an in her Early Twenties and looking REAL cute. as she came to say goodbye and approached me and it was all sad and dramatic, and then we started making out furiously, and it turned out we were both in Luv with each other. I think it developed even into passionate, true love, let’s get married type Sex! that was real fun!

and then last minute drastic rearranging of plans, so we could spend our lives together, and too bad we didn’t do this EARLIER.

anyway things were looking cautiously optimistic there, and then we wandered out into the world, and it was an apocalyptic wasteland, where we were quickly separated and predated upon by the weird forces that were killing humanity. so that sucked.

But then I thought of the Actual Girl. From MIDDLE school. She was cute, nice, not Slutty, not a “bad girl”, and also not one of the super popular girls. should i try to find her on facebook now? prob not. but I should have tried to court her in middle school hehehe.

and then there was another interesting dream. i was getting in with a new group of friends including one esp cute gurl, who I was interested in, and who was giving signals to me as well. I was helping them move to a new house, with the implication that me and the cute gurl would HOOK UP when the move was done. but I kept dropping stuff and was saddled with all the super cumbersome stuff, etc etc etc, really got screwed there. so the dream ended with me dropping a bunch of stuff in the middle of the street, getting frustrated, and waiting for them to show up to help me, but they were taking too long and not appreciating the difficulty i was having.

the huge spike in dreaming maybe came from a discussion the night before that was pretty intense, 3 men thinking about the future of themselves and of the world. we agreed that 80% of humanity was huge idiots, idiocracy idiots too dumbed down to have any understanding of the world. one guy was considering a possible career upgrade. the other guy had just upgraded his career and is in a very good place and I am kinda jealous of. he talked about his Career Ambitions to Work Hard, Advance Fast, Do what it takes to Rise Quickly to the Executive Level and make 100k + a year. Proving himself at work, possib getting a masters degree, etc. and he is a very intelligent guy; well all 3 of us are very intelligent, moreso than the 80% of sheeple idiots, hehehe.

the first guy talked about how he hated school and was also really lazy. he could have gotten into a good college but didn’t want to do the work. i completely related. of course guy2 was sort of pushing guy1 to finish his bachelors degree so as to get a better job, as he has already proven himself currently in a managerial position, but moving up wouldn’t be bad either, and a lot of jobs demand the Sheet Of Paper.

Just like a lot of jobs demand the Sheet of Paper that is a Masters Degree.

And Guy2 said he could have gotten into a good college too, and said his big regret was missing the deadline to apply for the Good College I actually went to, and Sh4t the bed at! I’m not sure if he was trying to get me to talk about my experience, of course, I didn’t really want to, becuase certainly MY biggest regret is going to that college and not making anything of myself!

So he went to a “lesser” college, one where I wish I had gone instead, and he did VERY well for himself, and is well on his way to making those six figures.

and then we started discussing big picture things like government and economy and taxation and debt and political stuff. all very good topics. now, guy2 is much more left leaning than me, and started talking about how evil libertarians and conservatives are. I smiled and Hid My Rightist Nationalist Views.

Because you almost can’t get away with having Rightist Nationalist Views if you are Huge Loser like Me!

and then there was talk on Econ 3 stuff like NAFTA and Free Trade and Globalization and Trade Balances and GDP and Government Spending and Taxation Policies. not the type of stuff you can talk to the Sheeple about, or Wimmin, hehehe. Certainly you can speak like this at an Elite College, but all those kids are Leftists, hehehe.

anyhow I didn’t entirely agree with the guy but he made some good points and made me think about the ridic Masterz Degree, or at the very least, that we are both interested in The Global Economy.

Now he is on board with it, and I am VERY skeptical of it, and wonder if there’s anyway we can Opt Out of the Global Economy, and still Protect American Jobs. I guess the idea is that we go through hard times in the short term so we can get better in the long term as an even moar global player.

of course, “short term” is the remainder of our lives!!!

so he thinks Education is the Key, and that if Fedgov dipped into Defense Spending by even 1% it could Erase All Student Debt. I agree that Education is A Scam and Too Damn Expensive. However I am more leery of Globalization and World Economy, and would like a more Protectionist and Nationalist approach. how far would our standard of living decrease then? a little or a lot?

plus i am jelly that he made better decisions than me and is reaping what he sowed, and has a good alpha level career job, can pull gurls, etc.  slightly jelly, he is a good guy.

but yeah all 3 of us have alpha level intelligence and deserve good jobs and good gurls, but our lives all took very different paths, with me being the biggest loser hehehe. well, you become a loser when you’re LAZY, eh. but the other guy, who admits his huge laziness, is still a bigger winner than me! but he’s a good guy too, I like and respect both guys.

anyway it was a memorable and fun discussion and might have prompted all the intense dreaming later.


april 18

had somebody endorse me for a “skill” on linkedin, and i immediately went and endorsed them. this is what i do. i really SHOULD update my linkedin, AND start really WORKING it, “pimping it out”, but more importantly I SHOULD be doing more job search related stuff.

I simply hate working and I have some “F00K YOU MONEY” saved up to live off of while I wait for my my old job to come back. Period.

“but don’t you want to contribute something? DO SOMETHING with your LIFE? Be a productive human being?”

Yes of Course. part of how I do that is with this Blog, believe it or not.

And yes I have been slacking on the Productivity. I could at least be working on a Creative Project, like Music, or a Movie, SOMETHING that requires SOME ENERGY.

Well, doing my Powerwalks is my bare minimum.

And recently I began enjoying listening to music once again, hehehe. that is what I contribute to society. listening to music.

well, soon enough I will be contributing to society by working a full time upper working class job, thank you very much. even if it IS a stupid job. I mean they could make the operation a LOT more efficient with some ground up redesign of the products we are servicing. BUT doing so would put even MORE of us out of a job. the Clusterf00kness of the Work is the very thing that gives us job security.

but we do have a real skill, in being able to solve clusterf00k problems. that’s got to be worth something to someone!

i can’t tell you how many people were laid off simply because they Just Weren’t Good Enough! so simply STAYING is a sign of Strength and Skill and Employability! and I stayed way longer than the average.

anyway, i SHOULD get a masters degree, but equally as important is that I also bust my 4ss in that degree, and make sure it’s a useful degree, outperform everybody in the program, and that I have a good middle class job lined up BEFORE finishing the program.

and I am not willing to do all that right now. i would maybe be willing to half 4ss a masters degree…..but that would be worse than no masters degree at all, so that’s out.

so what is the next level in my current Job Track. well, either moving up in the current company, or a “lateral move” to a similar position in a less gay company. but each of these would require at least one year of FT experience, so I am just trying to get thru that at least, and make some powerful friends along the way, play the game of thrones hahahaha, and try to bang some young qtz while i’m at it son.

heh. here’s an interesting topic, people who are Lost, and then a Kind Soul gives them Help, but the Lost Soul does not really capitalize on that Help, because their WILL is THAT Weak. Discuss Amongst Yourselves. They were given a chance but they blew it, they were too lazy to even meet the person halfway; they can’t be helped.

10000 steps a day is how much you’re supposed to powerwalk to be healthy like a paleo caveman. that is ABOUT five miles. For short people like myself with Short Strides, that might be more like 4 miles. maybe.

heh on a “good day” i do two ~30 min powerwalks, getting 3.4 miles. not long enough!

but it’s better than whining, obviosuly. ie bad useless writing. which is the risk of writing. I love writing but sometimes, often, it stops being Positive or Productive. like right now, hahahaha. i am getting antsy to upgrade

eh try to walk 5 miles a day, at least 5 days a week. even during a winter. get a treadmill. heck join planet fitness and go there JUST for the treadmill, and find one hidden way in the back so you don’t have to look at people and they don’t have to look at you.

This will take ABOUT 90 minutes a day to do. yes, that is pretty significant, and is not a luxury afforded to Full Time Working Adults. In Fact, when I was Working Responsibly, and got healthy rest, I had NO time for ANYTHING but Work and Sleep, forget a 30 minute powerwalk! That sucked!

heh. some money can be made when you Feel Confident enough to RE-RAISE, and then to tack a little extra onto that re-raise beyond the minimum amount. this will either provoke the opponent to go all in, or at least give you a little extra money. WARNING: don’t get too confident unless you have a Flush, esp a Nut Flush, Or a Full House. Trips and Straights are Too Easily Beaten.

also if you have a good starting hand, and not a bad flop, but you want to make the opponents “pay to see the next card”, that is a good time to make a 1x pot sized bet. sure you could go all in but if you don’t have a super great hand you could get beat.

in other words, 1x pot is a good man sized bet immediately after the flop, and sets you up to make even manlier bets if you get good turn or river.

took 52 minute powerwalk.

ok. 32 minutes / 1.7 miles == x minutes / 5 miles.

32 * 5 == 1.7 * x;

x == (32*5)/1.7 ==  94.12 minutes.

QED, I should go for a 95 minute powerwalk EVERY DAY in order to be a healthy beta male!

And so should you! well, your time will vary based on your average powerwalking speed.

community, teamwork, dedication, handling difficulties.

those were listed on the tv news job search tips segment. so do those things. there was one more but I couldn’t write it down fast enough.

walking 5 miles a day takes up a LOT of time, like at least 90 minutes like I said. this really is a tall order for Working Career Oriented Successfulz. so i suggest listening to something useful, like music, or Lessons for your MBA. Or if you have a treadmill you can put your MBA textbookz right up on it and read.

I like to put mp3 player on Random Shuffle and then listen to 1:30 to 2:00 of each song, especially if I don’t know it very well, with the option to skip entirely.

How about You?


apr 17

not playing poker so much since it has becoming increasingly clear I cannot Make A Living off It. I could make more money At McDonalds. Actually. Literally. I am not good at winning Substantial Amounts Regulary, or even at all.

was thinking the PERFECT thing to do after getting out of my stressful job would be to smoke a ridic amt of Weed, like where you can’t even MOVE, and then go lay down for bed for the night, almost as if it were Wiping Your Memory of the Day. Before I would go to bed and stress out about the weird stuff that happened that day and which would happen the next day.

Also it is rough when there is no Down Time. When there is Down Time, people get Laid Off, because the goal is to keep everybody Constantly Busy, All Day Long. this might be a good goal if employees are doing something EASY, rather than getting bombarded with weird sh1t all day long. you know how when you take a Hard Math Exam, it’s “ONLY” two hours long, but it feels like yer brain is going to explode at the end of it.

again it would be good if you could SWITCH to something else for part of the day, so you can look forward to cleaning toilets, cleaning Mounds of Faeces which are clogging toilets.

You really have to train yourself not to CARE so much. BS the clients and cut corners, but in a way you don’t get in trouble. Cover Your 4ss. Build in Stress Relief that way. Cherish your Easy Issues, which would take 5 minutes, and stretch em out to 20 minutes, for example.

Cover the Entire Three Walls of your Cubicle with Small Post It Notes. that’s a great tip son.

Memorize EVERYBODY’S name and USE their names, “Hello Good Morning, NAME”.

i would almost not like taking lunch, because knowing you have to go BACK to that afterwards was rough.  four hours of craziness, then 30 mins to gobble down lunch, then four more hours of craziness.

yes it was no surprise there were a lot of cigarette smokers. it def increased my own cig smoking.

on the 30 min lunch i would religiously go to the bathroom and attempt to Drop A Deuce, because I was paranoid I would need to do so while on the clock, and then have to rush out and do it real fast and rushed. So I would take 15 minutes to eat the lunch, and then 15 minutes in the Toilet. the bad thing about this is you couldn’t really Smoke a Cigarette or Chit Chat with people.

Yep you actually LOOKED FORWARD TO SMALL TALK, just to remind yourself you were still alive, still safe, still surviving. trying to relate with your coworkers as human beings, as a break from the disembodied voices on the phone.

ANYWAY I vow to start Using Weed more as a Way to Decompress at the end of a Day. because you need your mind utterly BLOWN AWAY, then lay down, go to sleep, and feel actually refreshed when you get up.

It is impossible for me to Smoke Weed Secretly, so I would have to Eat It. this might be tricky. of course I also have a plan to get a Legit RX for some Xanax / benzos, etc.

Heh. I like the Tomboyish Girl on Gaym of Thrones who is something Reed, who along with her brother, joins Bran and Hodor and helps Bran tap into his Secret Shining Powers. Meera Reed protrayed by Ellie Kendrick. yeah i do like that kind of look. hopefully she doesn’t get naked like all the other wh0res on that show.


and yes those are not just rumors that the girl who plays tyrion’s prossie lover shae was also in Full Blown Pornos. You can find vidyas of her taking it up the A quite easily. Apparently her family disowned her after they found out.

Well, actions sometimes have consequences, and if you don’t want to risk your family disowning you…..don’t do pornos, CUPCAKE!

well who cares, as long as they are not my (or your) WIFE, hehehe.


that’s what you should say to 18 yo cuties to establish masculine dominance, hahahaha. no you really shouldn’t.

(TIL this is known as “The Alabama Hotpocket.”)

but yeah, women just aren’t worth it, UNLESS you can get a revolving door of 18 yo cuties at your beck and call, where you can pick and choose. that would be worth it.

If yr antidepressant isn’t working to its fullest, try adding ABILIFY!

now those commercials are real stupid. did they try increasing the AD? or switching the AD? what exactly IS abilify and what do it do?

more of an antipsychotic i guess. not enough attention span to read the whole article. hehe.

so how do you get a good middle class job and a good middle class mate, is the most effective route REALLY to get a masterz degree? god dam. you know i really hope not. but its how how prove yourself to the middle class employers, that you’re smart and capable, and prove to the middle class wimmin, that you’re “AMBITIOUS” and “MOTIVATED.”

but why is “middle class” even so desirable? Wouldn’t Upper Working Class be just as much desirable? And maybe UWC is what I’m actually talking about anyway? Having a Good Stable Job, being Smart and Intelligent and Well-Spoken, but not being a Status-Obsessed Marxist? Isn’t all that just Definition Upper Working Class? Maybe.

So do you need a Masterz Degree to enter the Upper Working Class? Maybe. Maybe not. Less so than if you wanted to enter the Lower Middle Class.

Heh. One of mah frandz has decided to “finally” get a Masterz Degree so this question is hitting even closer to home than Usual. Of course I would like to help him Get The Most out of It, rather than Getting Screwed.

Heh. Well, I will def be able to pump him for an Upper Working Class Job after he gets a Middle Class Job.


march 5

oh yeah. i mean i could go back to my sh1tty job when they rehire me, because it WILL be chiller at that time, there will be less phone calls, AND I will know the stuff better. really what I needed was a vacation, hehehe, maybe even as short as a week. just a few days off, mental health days, seriously, hehehe. it was good making money. just wish the place was chiller. just going into the big room with 100 people on phones, all noisy and ringing and talking, was not chill. or if i could just take calls for an hour, then the next hour do data entry or nontalking projects, cleaning, then an hour of phones, then an hour off, then hour on, hour off, hour on, that would be a lot more doable. but all day on PHONES is KILLER.

still got to update my linkedin, and update my mock interview script with exact answers.

study some Betting / Odds Charts to give you ideas of how/when to bet. Esp if you are a visual learner like me and you NEED to see a picture.

Texas Holden Preflop Chart Lg

of course no chart is perfect. I called and called on KJ suited and got RAEPED. lost like 3 dollars just now. but it was close, i was killed by the KICKER.

bbbbbut what do you do after the flop? well you keep raising and win….or lose. hehehe

yep i already something something. lost 4 dollars and rebought in with 4 dollars. just because that was a BAD beat. but on my other table I’m ahead 3$!!!!

oh yeah. I already DO have a gambling problem, it’s official, I admit it. The good news is that I Promise I will never play higher than micro-stakes tables.

march 6 2014

, yeah def a gamb prob. given the choice between taking a NAP and GAMBLING, 50% of the time I may gamble. assuming I have been laid off and have the time to have the LUXURY of CHOOSING either of two lazy leisure activities!!!

BUT I LOVE taking a nap in the early afternoon, a true SIESTA if you will. maybe i will get sick of doing that in a week….but i don’t think so. yesterday i opted to take a mid afternoon nap, rather than gamble, and it was great.

all instead of productive career work! I just can’t be fixed! A hopeless case, amirite??!?!?!!?!

but my protip of the day is, take your laptop computer into the toilet as you do your morning business, which, when you get older, can take like 20 minutes. use that time to check email, weather, blogging (heh). It’s really not THAT disgusting as long as your bathroom is moderately clean and you’re not wiping faeces all over the computer. and it certainly passes the time quite well while you are in there. normally i play a reversi game on the phone but this is MUCH better. heh. it is kinda like having a Smart Phone or Tablet. I am the only person in the world without a smart phone, and I don’t care, however I do care about not being able to make enough money to afford the LUXURY of a smart phone. how do all these people make that much money? How do they ALL get so Gainfully Employed is the big question I’m asking.

thursday march 6

i went back to my old job to visit and was encouraged by the boss to take this certain step which would help me in getting a sweet FT job there. I took it to heart. I noted that this step is nowhere to be found on the jobs website, they said yep that’s right, and very few FT jobs are posted on that website, which I had also noticed. nope. you have to get in a special pool to actually even KNOW about the good job openings. very interesting, I thought. I wonder if other medium-sized organizations do this too. have the job openings be secret: have the crappy jobs you post to the public, and then the decent jobs you post to the secret ingroup.

and then i got home to find somebody emailed me about a temp tech job. heh. and i was kinda looking forward to my 8 weeks off! unless I could find a better job. which an FT at old place would be. but a temp job….well it could be chiller, less phones, less stress, and work from home, NOICE. But if I couldn’t turn it into something more permanent, and I don’t even know the money.

and last night I was socializing playing a social game with some friends who are great guys but I not super duper “intimate” with them per se, anyway it slipped out what one of the guys Makes, he is trying to get a new better job too, advance in his career, and turns out he was making Moar in his current job than I thought he was. quite a bit more. like at least 10 grand more than I thought he was.  He is making Seriously Good Money Right Now, that I can only Hope to be making when I am 40, in his late twenties.

Anyway, point is, it made me get greedy and say, Damn Right I’m Entitled to 12 bucks an Hour! (i was making more than than at my new job, thank GOD) but for a low stress job I would gladly go down to 12 bucks.

Of course, this guy makes WAY more than I do, AND he is way less stressed, he goes out and does things, goes to the gym, goes out and socializes, doesn’t need to sleep all the time… he is the antithesis of a lazy loser, he is a busy winner, and it doesn’t drain him or make him an intolerable douchebag who is no fun to be around.

except he might get a masters degree, but this would actually HELP him, and so I would be a bit jealous. and of course i am a bit jealous already! but he is a good guy.