13 DOLLARS AN HOUR

aug 31

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit.

http://pastebin.com/xUh6Djef

put this in sidebar, i want to caputre the worst article ever AND a few hundred comments

nymag open marriage cuckoldry article by sonmore

INFAMOUS

http://pastebin.com/67FxT9wi

here is the sequel / follow up with the man and his “wife.”

the first article is timeless, classic, godawful, and i will put it in the sidebar As A Ghastly Monument (Ruins of Beverast reference/credit.)

i might be moving Towards A New Cover Letter Hermeneutic where the new Way is really to hit them HARD with a Fully Tailored, Individualized First Paragraph that cups their balls and sucks their dick and appeals to their mission and demonstrates my passion for their company and how i can add value and increase profitability by specifically matching the requirements of the specific job, in the culture of this specific company, addressing these particular pain points, and why i am THE SINGLE BEST CANDIDATE out of millions, and this, and no others, IS my Dream Career.

in other words, REALLY step up my Tailoring of the CL. I tailor the CL a TINY bit, changing a few words or sentences each time. so, do more than that.

also, attempt to aim for the Average Salary of my state, and NOT the whole US, which is 28k, and my state is a LITTLE below that.

yeah 12 to 16 is a ridiculous range to give. i should just say 12 to 14.

or 12 to 13 hahahaha.

people who have college careers and make 40k + cringe at talk like this. they never mention numbers. i mention numbers ALL DAY.

yeah i guess i used to think it was VULGAR too. but now I just think its Keeping It Really Real. How Much Does The Market Say You Are Worth?

no its not the sum total of Who You Are…..but it DOES tell me a LOT about what Your Employer thinks you are Worth, and What Kind of Life you live, and probably the type of people you associate with.

(People tend to associate with people who make about the same amount of MONEY as they do. So I feel a little weird when people who make WAY MORE MONEY than I do, huge winners, invite me to hang out with them. Of course I accept the invitation graciously.)

so yeah fook this 15 dollars an hour bullshit. i am willing to pay my dues and make 13 dollars an hour like the people in muh subaverage state. those fancy phaggots in joo york and phag phagcisco can take their 15 dollars an hour and pozz each others assholes with it. besides in those cities it costs 600000k per month to live in a one room shack tiny house, and it costs 90000000$ for a package of ramen. no thanks.

if a man is complaining about COMMUNICATION all the time, and his wife/gf is never WILLING to COMMUNICATE, and she’s always SHUTTING ME OUT, and so DISTANT, and putting up a WALL, she has to be willing to COMMUNICATE, well then thats him signalling that HE has HUGE communication issues, he’s projecting, HE’S really the one who doesnt know how to COMMUNICATE hahahaha.

i was watching married at first sight and derek was complaining about his distant, unwilling, stubborn, bitchy horrible (but very bangable) wife, who simpyl would not give him a chance. he is kinda a douchebag but he had some GREAT points about communication, where I nodded my head vigorously and said YES. YASSSS. THIS. SO MUCH THIS.

and hes also right that she is no spring chicken at 33, but my god she has a very fookable ass hahahahahahaha. she has to be in the top 10% of attractiveness for 33 year old women. I would DESTROY her.

and this derek is a pretty masculine man too, i’m sure he would destroy her too, but thats how stubborn she is. she probably would have gladly let him destroy her 5 years ago. now im not sure what she wants. probably a total beta bucks sort of guy. she probably WANTS the total doormat that says anything you want hunny. but i have to wonder, who does she want For SECS, at this moment? she’s always gonna want the masculine guy for secs. so why not have secs with her masculine husbando derek?

unless she’s such a sleazebag that she needs TWO or more men. alpha fooks, beta bucks, and never the twain shall meet. i guess she’s never experienced a best of both worlds alpha who is masculine AND makes a ton of money. but  she’s hawt enough to pull such a man (albeit not necessary without sharing him), and doesnt she meet plenty of powerful men as a Stewardess? like the powerful alpha men in First Class and such?

so yeah i am most fascinated in this couple. then sonia and nick a distant second, and i dont really care about the third couple hahahaha.

basically a 33 year old woman with no children is guaranteed to be SUPER CRAZY. her body is telling her to have a baby RIGHT NOW BEFORE ITS TOO LATE and you have to keep that in mind. i guess its ok if you want to have a baby right now too. but its gonna be real hard to have MULTIPLE babies with this woman. she shoulda started having babies AT LEAST TEN YEARS AGO.

fulton sheen on difference between BAD, and EVIL.

 

hilarious first hour with moishe, not sure if florian mentions the sheen story in this one though

start at 1:47:00. this is exactly where florian makes the point about fulton sheen. this is probably the single best episode of nationalist review EVAR: a full hour of moishe being absolutely ridiculous, natt being natt, a bit by “degenerate dan”, a full discussion and reading of that horrendous nymag cuckold article, AND florian uses that to introduced sheen’s point:

that a bad man simply does bad things, sins, like lie, cheat, steal, hurt, kill.

but a truly EVIL man actively and intentionally works to undermine truth, beauty, and goodness ITSELF. true evil seeks to portray vice as virtue. like the cuckold husband who does disgusting mental gymnastics to portray his cuckoldry as True Luv for his wife. true evil just makes a disgusting mockery of truth, beauty, and goodness.

i didn’t actually hear sheen’s actual story, just florian describing it. but i’ve seen plenty of sheen, and he is pretty badass, and the more i hear of florian, the more i like/luv him. he is possibly the new fulton sheen for 2016 alt right. and he is a very young man, like 23 years old. AND he is in seminary to become a catholic priest. AND he is alt right and joo wise and insanely, autistically smart. AND he has created a better joo character than morrakiu, with moishe the mossad handler.

ok florian is definitely in contention to be man of the year 2016 hahahahaha. i sort of wish he wasn’t becoming a priest so he could have white children. but I like the idea of a 1488 catholic priest too.

shit i would say become a priest and have children ANYWAY. let them kick you out.

actually i think you can become a priest AFTER you have children.

florian should def have children. but I very much appreciate him being a MAN OF GOD.

his regular voice is a little autistic, but he is SUCH a great awesome guy it doesnt even matter. this guy is SO good.

https://en.wikiquote.org/wiki/Fulton_J._Sheen

so yeah. listen to that whole episode. if its not SHUT DOWN by the time this post posts. im downloading that shit again.

the best thing ive heard lately that isnt the fatherland hahahaha. well it does have ryan from the fatherland and i luv him too. great, great men. I would LUV to go to a trs convention and meet these guys.

https://radio.therightstuff.biz/2016/08/31/the-daily-shoah-100-ep-88-part-13-of-14-a-hundred-a-hundred-twenty-episodes/

millennial woes on the new daily shoah!!! (100th episode!) NOICE!! I hope he uses some N words and K words and F words and such and isnt such a nice guy hahaha. i dont think hes even been on the shoah before. ITS ABOUT TIME.

sept 1

had weird dream that i was a Rookie Police Officer just starting out, getting On The Job Training from the guys, and I was very quickly On The Verge Of A Nervous Breakdown, and was very anxious like, whoa guys, i think i’m in over my head, i don’t think im TOUGH ENOUGH to handle this, maybe i’m not cut out for this job, maybe I should quit, I mean really, I dont have it in me! you need a tougher guy!

and the guys were all tough but also generally in favor of me not quitting I think, or they would disrespect me as an inferior pvssy if i quit, and were like, yeah its tough at first, but you just gotta TOUGHEN UP, gotta TUFF GET GOING, gotta not let it bother you, power through it, etc and other platitudes.

i think for most Cops though there is better training than what i experienced in the dream. like when you pay 20 grand to go to Police Academy, that’s where they train you for like 12 weeks hehehehe on all the aspects of being a Cop.

also cops get ongoing paid training because of like lawsuits and shit. peoples lives are at stake, its one of those jobs, like doctors and nurses and shit. lives are in your hands. people could die, and that means million dollar lawsuits, thus you implement official training pogams to Cover Your Ass.

unlike some companies where you dont need to cover your ass so much, and you can Screw and Joo customers with impunity, so it DOESNT MATTER if your people are trained. and the advice from management is, do what you need to do to get them on their way and make/save time and money.

thankfully i never had to Upsell Add On Products and shit. but the employees I was Supporting sure did. and they were generally as poorly trained as we were, and there they were talking to the ACTUAL customers. pressured by THEIR managers to try to sell the customers shit they REALLY didnt need, and also not understanding the products. yet trying to sell them. to people who didnt need them. when the products themselves were overpriced shady bullshit that were thoroughly jooish to the core. buy this extra advanced warranty goy. just in case. only 50 dollars more. just in case of a worst case scenario.

also the company was in general, dying. there is talk the company will be sold. but its a publicly traded company with shareholders. can you have a reverse IPO where a once public company becomes privately held again? i guess you can do esoteric shit with stock buybacks or stock splitting or something.

i guess theoretically the stock price could go SO low, and then there are Equity Firms who might gobble up a Majority Ownership of the company.

i dont know, I don’t have an MBA, I only have like 25 credits of Business Classes, hahahahaha.

which is more than Average, 13 dollar an hour normies have!

but you can also get an ok business sense from working at a company for a few years and just talking to people.

at my company, there was tons of rumors and speculation, among the more savvy people like me, that were even interested in speculation about why was the company doing this, rather than being like idk ikr lol weed lmao.

people like me who were frustrated and wanted to understand why the company and our department was such an egregious, backwards, shameful, disorganized, mismanaged clusterfook, and how it could be improved. well, more training, more actual legit experts who knew what they were doing, more time and money, more quality people actually improving actual quality, more testing, more actual listening to customers, much better executive management who understood the importance of IT as being more than just a Cost Center, etc.

standard!

but yeah its just horribly frustrating to have an angry, stressed person pushing you to fix their problem, because youre supposed to be the expert, fixing problems is your job, and you have no idea what you’re doing, and you look like you don’t know what you’re doing, becuase you really don’t, and you can’t appeal to a Subject Matter Expert in a way that is actually useful for either you or the customer. Most customers would be jsut fine if you said, wow, this is a pretty complex problem, here’s Joe Flabeetz, he’s been here for 2 years and really knows what he’s doing, Joe is great. its much worse when you say, i dont know what to do, let me talk to Joe, and then you “talk” to Joe in a shitty chat room where he is helping 20 other lost souls like you, telling you stuff that doesnt make sense. then you go back to the customer and try to do that thing, and explain it.  NATURALLY, UNDERSTANDABLY, they wonder, can’t you just get Joe over here? he clearly knows what he’s doing, you clearly don’t, so just get him on the case.

but one does not simply just get a SME on the case. because they are just as busy as we are and are not gonna escalate a case without a fight.

you could probably turn newbies into SME’s quicker with REGULAR TRAINING. but again, thats millions of dollars for people who want to get out of here ASAP anyway. or they can just go mad and snapquit like me hahahaha.

it all makes perfect sense: DONT SPEND MONEY IF YOU DONT ABSOLUTELY HAVE TO.

the company can afford to not support their employees, shit they can afford to some extent to provide shitty, overpriced, screwjob jooish service to their customers. anything you can get away with. no exchanges, no refunds. all sales final. don’t like it, complain to the better business bureau bitches. don’t like it, do this shit yourself or go to our competitors.

see thats going too far though! why would you knowingly push your customers towards your competitors?

AND THATS WHY THE COMPANY IS FAILING. it used to be a successful, reputable company. now it is a sinking ship and more people can’t ignore that.

so yeah, i think a large part of why my experience was SO NEGATIVE was the culture of the company, being a large “big dog” old school company that was starting to fail on a massive scale. i mean they will implement retarded changes on a daily basis, yet be so Entrenched that they wont implement the actual Radical change needed. just do stupid spazzout bandaid fire putout bullshit. nothing meaningful, nothing that is good for the long term. short term only.

heh. that woman didnt care. she was just like go with the flow, dont let it bother you, dont bother me about it, i dont care, idk lol, dude weed lmao.

i mean women are not well equipped to have logical, sensible, reasonable, insightful thoughts about Business anyway……… but with all these educated women in careers, i think they can at least go through the motions of talking about business.

well, we did not have alot of those type of women in our department hahaha.

so i’m saying i prefer a more business savvy woman?

NO….i don’t even prefer a more intelligent woman. shit she was intelligent ENOUGH. i think she COULD have been taught to be more business savvy, not that she needed be…..

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeit, really I just wanted her to talk to me more, be nicer to me, and just have a HALFWAY decent conversation about Our Jobs and Our Company!!!!!!! don’t you have an OPINION on this retardation! it affects you as much as it affects me! and she probably DID have an opinion! she just didnt want to talk to me any more. and i was very upset about that. her withdrawing from me and building a huge wall.

so yeah that was deffo the root issue hahahaha.

and I was very frustrated because I was aware of that root issue, and trying to resolve it, and getting NOWHERE, because I needed cooperation and willingness from her, and she refused to get it.

lets meet, lets sit at the table together, talk, and try to MAKE A DEAL. lets negotiate and compromise and both leave unhappy hahahahahahahahaha. and i was sitting at the table all day waiting for her to show up, and she just no called no showed the whole time.

so yeah that why i was very upset hahahaha.

dont just say dont let it bother you. get a thicker skin. believe me I would love to.

now, I had great conversations with a couple of my male friends at the job, and we all should have been promoted to level 3 and never have to take a call ever again hahahaha. make 18 bucks an hour hahaha.

i wasnt asking her to be as insightful as us, i just wanted her to give SOME effort into thinking about this. i mean it was stupid NOT to have righteous indignation over it, and to just say dont let it bother you, and smoke MJ. you can smoke MJ and still have opinions about this ridiculousness! and partially i was JEALOUS of her ability to DISCONNECT from the job like that, do it so Coolly, yet still miraculously do a “good” job and be liked by everyone. well yeah she was a likeable person hahahaha.

ishould probably give agalloch a second try. should i listen to the above album or “the mantle.” i was torn. i went to youtube and tried to compare the Productions, which one sounded better. they both sounded pretty close but maybe this one has a 5% stronger guitar sound. also, i technically tried listening to “the mantle” like 4 years ago and i was like, yeah this is ok, but i guess im not in the mood for something like this.

i guess now at least i am in the mood to give them a try again. i guess i want something thats like beautiful atmospheric black metal, but very melodic and very easy to listen to, with immediately catchy riffs and melodies and songs. but without being so NEW that it gets TOO much into “post rock” or “blackgaze”. something old enough that it was around when I was young and actually interested in music. the mantle came out in 2002, which is right in my wheelhouse yearwise, this one came out in 2006, when i had stopped caring about music, well, thats not true. i recall i was keeping up on the current work of katatonia and goatwh0re. but not being super duper into it, or into anything. lots of drinking. damn. increasing amounts of drinking. stupid. i stopped caring about new music, or music in general, some dark days.

so 2002 was really a much better year for me music wise than 2006…..but ive already heard a bit of the mantle, and if i like ashes against the grain, i’ll try the mantle. also the mantle is like 68 minutes long, which is way too long for an album. ashes is 59 minutes. still way too long, but better than 68.

and of course in 2014 and much of 2015 i was not interested in music so much either, because worrying about the job, or i was devastated by my loss and failure hehehehe. so i guess ive rebounded to a kind of peak right now of interest in music, as in trying to find NEW music, which is remarkable, cuz much of the time i like to Build A Wall and say yep ive got more than enough music thank you, dont need any new stuff. there’s nothing good left out there. its all hipster phaggot degenerate bullshit. theres plenty of stuff  from before 2000 i havent listened to yet.

and its FINE to close the ranks and circle the wagons….but i dont want to do that more than half of the time. i would always like to be SOMEWHAT open to new music.

and agalloch i think is right in line with stuff that i have enjoyed. like when i was young i enjoyed opeth a lot, i still enjoy their older stuff, and i have always enjoyed “in the woods….” a norwegian sorta black metal group from the 90s that was atmospheric and progressive and avant garde when those things werent NEARLY as cool as they are now.

heh like the other day i wanted to listen to hammerfall and i only ended up listening to the first two songs on the album. and that album was only like 40 minutes. perfect length.

went to jcpenneys. it was a mixed bag. i had high hopes.  saw some beautiful high school girls in there with their Moms for Back 2 Skool shopping. nothing wrong with a 35 year old man ogling 16 year old gurls hahahahahaha.  at that age you really want to Protect and Provide for them, and you would Happily swear an oath to their Faithful Fathers that you would not bang them until they are 18, or if the father really wanted grandchildren, then you could have him sign off for age 17, and you would promise to not frivolously divorce her hahahahahaha. and she would promise to not frivorce YOU really.

so yeah you dont look at the beautiful 16 year old gurl and say “yeah id like to pump and dump that trashwh0re, ride hard and hang them up wet” the way you would say about a 30 year old skank. you say “damn i wouldnt mind MARRYING that gurl and having her be the mother of my children. Assuming she’s not ALREADY a huge slut. Let’s have a talk with her father.”

90s and 00s metal. that was my thing. i’m not sure i even lasted 10 good years. but 1996 to 2003 for sure might have been my best years.

in terms of The West, those were not great years. especially 96 to 2001 hahahaha. the late 90s was the high of nihilism and decadence and degeneracy where shit was probably just as bad as it is NOW, except people were more despairing. shit was BAD, although things werent AS Sexualized, and attitudes about Gays were definitely a bit better. but there was nothing to hold onto. there was no alt right. there was no hope for the youth, which i was one. the music was especially shitty. it reflected the nihilism and lack of general quality perfectly. stuff like groove metal and nu metal and korn. well at least there was a ton of catchy alternative pop type stuff. i shoulda got into that more at the time.

there seemed to be much less red pilled young people then. people were not waking up fast enough.

and i do think 911 in 2001 was a bigass paradigm shift, the beginning of a new era, a time of awakening. the sleeping nihilist giant awakens and then stumbles around in confusion for about 10 more years hahahaha. trying to shake off that nihilism and sense of no purpose. trying to figure out what was going on and what to do about it.

for me at least, the internet did not become a HUGE thing until after 2000. from like 98 to 00 we used slow dialup shit and i was already a degenerate, looking at jooish filth and actually reading Erotic Stories. which I guess is slightly less jooish. playing doom and quake. writing ridic stories of me finding a Nice GF and having a traditional monog longterm rel at age 15 hahahaha. see, my main goal was not degenerate.

http://rateyourmusic.com/customchart?page=1&chart_type=top&type=album&year=1990s&genre_include=1&include_child_genres=1&genres=Metal&include_child_genres_chk=1&include=both&origin_countries=&limit=none&countries=

hahahaha i have been looking at these goddamn RYM lists for like a month straight trying to find the perfect album to listen to

like here is the best metal (incl all subgenres) for the 90s.

http://rateyourmusic.com/customchart?page=1&chart_type=top&type=album&year=1996&genre_include=1&include_child_genres=1&genres=Metal&include_child_genres_chk=1&include=both&origin_countries=&limit=none&countries=

you can also put in an exact year like 1996 hahahahahaha

also i wanted to say that listening to the daily shoah for the first time in a while (well i did listen when fatherland jim guest hosted a few weeks ago), is that i must remind myself not to forget how powerful mike enoch is. i mean he is really smart and just says the most interesting, smartest, most awesome things. i guess its easy to forget because his voice is ridiculous and he sounds like seth roganblatt. but the things he says are just amazing. here he is doing a 80 hour work week, hasn’t had time to read the news or do anything but work his tech job, and he comes onto TDS and is pretty high energy and very very solid and convincing in the things he was saying, just having very very good conversations where he is contributing most of the quality.

not to crap on seventh son or special guest millennial woes, but yeah this is enoch’s show and he is very very good at what he does. needs to trim down the number of people so he can dominate the conversation any more. him, SS, and MW would have been ideal.

heh i saw my confirmation email for applying to a part time job, and thought OH NO THATS THE FASTEST REJECTION EMAIL EVER!! and then laughed when i realized it was just the CONFIRMATION email that they had received my application. awesome job though hahahahaha. 30 hours a week, 15 dollars an hour, right when i have officially announced that 13 dollars is my new goal, that 15 is out of my league hehehehe.

ITS OFFICIAL. MY PRICE HAS OFFICIALLY GONE DOWN TO 13 DOLLARS AN HOUR. THAT IS MY WORTH AS A HUMAN BEING. hahahaha. no silly, that’s just my worth to the MARKET of human beings!!!!!

at the gas station today I saw a white man arguing pretty rudely with the poor clerk making 9 hourly. i couldnt see the clerk because they were in this little glass booth. it was one of those gas stations that doesnt even have an inside, and the cashier is in a tiny booth/shack. there was a huge line behind this white guy who….i couldnt tell what was going on. it sounded like he was getting charged 36 dollars when he disputed it and thought he should be charged 26, and he wasn’t gonna pay a penny more. he was maybe early 30s and had a stupid mohawk like haircut and tattoos all over his arms. good job. i really hope the clerk was not white, but even if they WERE nonwhite, they didn’t deserve this kinda treatment, and I was a bit ashamed that a fellow white man could be such a dickhead to a poor miserable gas station clerk. Whites are supposed to be Polite Customers. its blacks and arabs who are Asshole Customers.

I thought about going up to the clerk and apologizing hahahahaha. well, not apologizing, but sorry you had to go through that. I know you weren’t trying to do anything wrong. he was way out of line. he’s an asshole.

go get your manager. uhhhh the managers not here today. i’m not sure when he will be back. i can’t do anything for you. well then call the manager right now. i want to talk to him right now. uhhhh he doesnt give employees his phone number. well who do you call if its an emergency? meanwhile there is a huge line of people who just want to prepay for their gas. i avoided all this because i paid at the pump with a card hahahahaha.

mike enoch does not get all super intellectual either. he just gives real talk, absolutely no bullshit, no jerking off. he says like and dude a lot but unlike with most people who say these words a lot, it does not make him sound unintelligent. he is real good at talking to people and just great verbal intelligence on this goy hahahaha. this is the guy you want talking for you. real convincing salesman. but not in a bullshit dishonest way. he needs to quit his job and spend all his time talking and networking and meeting with people. he is a real good people person and communicator.

i wonder what the hell he did before TRS. I guess he had a big libertarian phase and did a lot of 4chan. dont quote me.

listened to the first 2 songs of the agalloch album, they were pretty good. decent production. a blast beat would be nice. also the black metal vocals are pretty unimpressive and really dont seem to fit. something a bit deeper, or alternately, a DSBM or old burzumy scream would be better. the corny clean vocals are better.

uhhh seems to be plenty of “melodic doom” in the vein of old katatonia going on, that i wasnt really expecting, but i guess i’m not surprised, and i am not disappointed either.

overall, very melodic, very very, not super opethy unless you think of an alternate opeth where they continued in the vein of their first two albums…….which is not a problem for me!

but now i have a damn melodic doom katatoniaish song stuck in my head and I don’t know what it is!!!!!!!!!

it has a catchy mournful weeping guitar melody.

it is pretty brave murder day ish, but i dont think its from that album.

it could be from the first october tide album, but i dont think so.

and i’m not sure what else it could be.

sept 2

you know i think it might be beneath the rain or whatever that doom band from portugal with the guy from morgion singing.  on their second main album.

before the rain?

YASSSS there is is, aroun 20:23, actually that motif is all throughout this song “shards” and it repeats a lot, but i was particularly thinking of the higher octave guitar going into the “weeping” range hahahaha.

FOUND IT!!!!

yeah the album is a little long but it has a great production and great style and is pretty underrated and i only found it because i am a big morgion fan.

fooking rate your music lists really interferon with muh job search hahahaha.

fook working for a living like an honorable white man. i am just gonna become a black ingra hahahaha.

yeah i dont want to pedestalize That Woman too much. it’s VERY GOOD to remember I have been Decent Friends with, I have been CLOSE TO OTHER WOMEN before. she doesnt STAND ALONE. I had at least two pretty good female friends where we were decent friends for like approx 2 years. talking freely, being comfortable with each other.

yeah i never fell in LUV with them but thats NOT THE POINT. well, yes and no. yeah that was the one thing that differentiated that woman.

but i never want to lose sight of the fact that i have gotten close and friendly with OTHER women. NOT JUST HER.

rejection email THREE MONTHS after applying for job. the spreadsheet did not even exist until 2 months ago.

entry level position at big well known company, great job, but 95% of its postings are for Senior Level Engineers.

ANYWAY. when you fall in LUV with a woman you FEEL closer to them. it’s a fantasy, its all in your head, but i don’t like describing it like that, thats misleading. because it’s VERY real for YOU. YOU ACTUALLY ARE very close to THEM……………………………but THEY are not nearly as close to YOU. by saying its all in your head, it mocks the realness, truth and beauty of your Luv. so, I wont do that.

like when i fell in luv with women i didnt even KNOW. OF COURSHE i FELT close to them, even though I didn’t even KNOW them!

the DIFFERENCE this time, was I fell in luv with someone I ACTUALLY KNEW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and still, apparently, I didn’t know them well enough!

but yeah i MUST NOT think of myself as some WEIRDO CREEPER ALIEN who CANT get along with women, because I have become close friends with OTHER WOMEN THAN JUST HER.

I just never fell in LUV with any of them, so thats why That Woman was such a big deal.

went to jcpenney and found some great nike revolution 3 running shoes. but they did not have the size in the color i wanted.

so then i went to zappos and ordered the size for about the same price. i hate the idea of ordering SHOES online, but technically i HAD already tried on a pair of the same style of shoe, just a diff COLOR. and i wasnt gonna back down here.

interestingly enough, i was aiming to replace a pair of Revolution 2 which i had bought 2 years ago and are now falling apart and completely worn out. i guess i am a Nike Revolution man. so I should look for the Revolution 4 in 2 more years.

man those one year at a time charts on rym are great. i can see all the albums I was enjoying at the time, ANDDDDDDD see all the ones from that time period that I missed. there was a ton of good stuff in those years that i missed because i was a teen listening to groove metal hahahaha. no i liked half good stuff too, some black metal. i have been a black metal fan for TWENTY YEARS hahahahahahahahahaha. well, maybe 19.

just tell these antiwhite k1kes in interviews that ive been spending the last 14 months looking at black metal charts on RYM hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha but i havent been smokin any MJ ya k1kes!

not that you should be PROUD about smokin MJ. its for degenerates. its INHERENTLY DEGENERATE.

its TERRIBLE that I still want to do it. that I still want to do it WITH HER. goddam degenerate DEVILS CABBAGE.

if anyone speaks glowing of MJ, publicly humiliate them! and then go smoke it privately hahahhaha.

i really hate successful people who make like 30k a year who say i can smoke MJ and I’m a successful productive member of society! I’m happy with my life and my job and I am a successful family man! and I make 30k a year!

comment sections of news articles on legalizing mj and all these pro-legalization types saying shit like that.

well i am pro legalization too, but more of the “conservative libertarian” way, rather than Have Big Govt Regulate and Tax Tax Tax it! but let each city decriminalize it.

i mean I just imagine all the tax money being wasted anyway, like the 200 million in tax revenue colorado got from MJ. it will just be wasted on public skools in black ghettos hahahaha where the money wont do any good. or paying teacher administrator pensions hahahahahaha.

it wont go to fix shitty roads, it wont go to more police and ems in black crime ghettos, or blight cleanup, or anything useful like that. thats where your MJ tax money will go. just like alcohol and tobacco tax money.

so yeah dont tax it. save the money to build up MJ production companies hahahaha. or even small time MJ producers in the cities where it is legal.

well companies are STILL gonna drug test for jobs anyway, that practice has not changed even in colorado, in fact its probably gotten even more prevalent! cuz now theres more lazy ingrish potheads out there who would make terrible workers hahahaha.

i am being partially facetious since i always try to work my hardest even if i am using MJ afterwards.

but maybe i am just a shitty worker but i think i am a good worker.

i mean shit, i can’t handle the bare minimum at muh old job! my best was worse than their worst! hahahahaha.

NO, that’s not entirely true. for a good long while I was good and getting better. establishing a reputation for excellence. might have even been promoted in 2 more years, hahahahaha, for a company that never promotes from within!

(i of course dont want to work for a company that doesnt promote from within hahahaha)

because hiring outsiders for upper level jobs is a YUGGGGEEEEE red flag of a shitty horrible company. run dont walk.

applied for great job at Dream Employer University, but its 36k. when my skills are only worth 26k hahahaha. isnt it a waste of 25 minutes to apply for this?

i found another one that pays 15 an hour. much better. but still out of my league hahaha.

in fact the jobs that pay 13 an hour, aka 26k a year…..dont usually even list their pay. they just say nothing.

so i guess the lesson is, always apply for the jobs that dont list a number, because that number is probably low enough to be closer to your actual worth.

but still. why not just list the god damn pay for ALL jobs, from 10 dollar an hour to 40 dollars an hour jobs, so people that think the pay is too low, wont even apply.

unless they are trying to overreach and get people who would normally be “too good” to apply????

well that’s not what I do, i apply for 12 and 11 dollar an hour jobs if they seem chill/easy or I like the company.

anyway the 15 an hour job would be GREAT. like 5 miles away, full time office job, for satellite campus of bigass university that probably takes average care of its employees with 401k, health care, and at least 13 an hour wage hahahaha. 9 to 5 hours, weekends off, the works. real solid family man stuff. no joke.

 

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ITS RIDICULOUSLY STUPID, BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS, EITHER DEAL WITH IT, OR BE FOREVERALONE.

aug 17

was watching new season of married at first sight, jeez. i dont generally like the first 5 episodes or so, thru the honeymoon. i prefer them at home when shit gets real. anyway i am most interested in the “blond” white woman (hard to call them “women” because they are not ADULTS, this is why we call them “GIRLS”, because they act like immature little children, 13 years old) and her hubby. 32 year old flight attendant and 35 year old whatever. account manager. he is handsome and charming and masculine but she doesnt like him because he smokes cigs “OCCASIONALLY” and sometimes gambles. she is butthurt on the HONEYMOON because he smoked cigs every day and she thought “this is what occasionally means? erry day?” and she got all distant and bitchy and stubborn. he felt that immediately. he spoke his mind very fully and perhaps “abrasively”, which meant she got more stubborn. but he had very good points, and she had none.

i felt she was not giving him a CHANCE.

both other couples were generally much “better”, but there were still some patterns: the man would be trying to communicate, and the woman would take something he said THE ENTIRELY WRONG WAY, GET TOTALLY BUTTHURT ABOUT IT, and then the man had to give her space while she continued to Brood and not really think any constructive thoughts about it, then grovel for an apology when he didnt really do anything wrong, and the women were looking for any possible reason to get mad at these nice men, and the man would say “I want to make this work, lets FIX this, I’m not going to walk away from this” while the woman would be like “idk. idk. idk if i can do this. i cant even. this isnt gonna work out. were too incompatible.”

basically being CHILDREN that have no interest in communicating, no interest in fixing conflicts, always overreacting, and never giving the man a damn CHANCE.

the MEN are good at communicating and handling conflict…..the women are TERRIBLE. and this is why the women are single at age 33, 34. because THEY fook up every relship theyve ever had by being huge overreacting bitches who have no desire to put in any effort. run away when the going gets tough, which they create by overreacting to some harmless little thing. then blame the guy and make him the bad guy. HE started it.

the show brings out muh woman hating tendencies hahaha.

ironically the ones who got along best were the ones who had secs within 2 days of meeting each other. that definitely created some sort of chemicals that made them want to be nice to each other. and even THEN she was STILL looking to pick a fight with him about some small remark he made, and she thought he was attacking HER. but then they had makeup secs and everything was ok…..for a while.

these women are a goddamn minesweeper minefield, ONE misstep and youre DONE. they are CHILDREN who LOOK for arguments, and then have NO ability to deal with those conflicts. and say the man said ok, ill change and do whatever you want, youre right, im wrong, she’d dump him then too for being a doormat.

obviously the solution is to put the woman in her place and just not take the bullshit at ALL.

anyone watching the show, even women, i dont see how they could say these men are at fault, or these women arent being RIDICULOUS.

even the masculine man doesnt know the proper way to put the woman in her place. cuz HE gets upset and frustrated…..which I can TOTALLY understand! he wants to fix a problem, and she is being stubborn and stupid! it IS frustrating! and women would say stupid shit like” GOD! why do you always want to FIX everything!” as if you shouldnt even TRY to improve problems in your rel, and the only right thing to do is run away and avoid and shut down.

i guess he should have just smiled and patted her on the head and said “thats nice, sweetie”, then fooked her HARD about 88 times in a row. then smoked cigarets right in bed after the secs hahahaha. just take TOTAL CONTROL of the situation with a Confident Smile on his face.

and this guy is generally pretty masculine, the most masculine guy on the show. way more masculine than me!

so i have to wonder, are all women really like this? is this one of those things where i have to say “yeah its STUPID, but thats just the way it is, so learn how to DEAL WITH IT, or stay a woman hating foreveralone virgin forever” ?

ITS STUPID, BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS, EITHER DEAL WITH IT, OR BE FOREVERALONE.

INCREDIBLY, ridiculously, EXTREMELY stupid. and yeah that IS frustrating, makes you lose your cool.

i can keep my cool with moderate levels of stupidity, but women are so EXTREME with it. i mean they can really push the buttons.

and then i think, well this woman has a MASTERS DEGREE, doesnt she need conflict resolution skills and communication skills for her masters level career as a social worker? instead she communicates like a damn 12 year old girl. thats what rustles me. how can you maintain a PROFESSIONAL CAREER with abysmal communication and people skills like these?

yeah i know social work is a joke, but you still have to have a masters degree and talk to people in tough situations! i mean in an ideal world, it WOULDNT be a joke. it sounds stressful as fook and i dont know how these STUPID DITZES HANDLE it!

they probably just parrot chipper cutesy HR speak to their clients. dont actually listen to them. a woman actually LISTENING to somebody? HELPING them SOLVE PROBLEMS? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! thats a good joke.

like she was never in LUV with some badboi who SMOKED. she would have begged him to stay and would have ate ashtrays of cig butts for him to stay. thats probably why shes so triggered by this guy now. you want to get MARRIED? you havent gotten over the OTHER guy!!!!! take a YEAR or TWO off from dating, relships, and yes FOOKING, and do some SERIOUS thinking and reflecting, so you can get over your past! like im doing! and yes it is hard and long struggle!

so yeah i am an INTERVIEW MACHINE. 2 interviews this week. 2 interviews NEXT week, in fact, on the very same DAY. that is a first. i have honestly never done that before. I guess I have not really paid my dues unless I have had two (OR MOAR!!!!!!!!!) interviews on the same day.

this guy i know who is very ambitious and powerful in his career had a THREE HOUR interview the other day. he took a half day at his Mid Level Career to do a three hour interview with an even higher level career. the type of guy that is looking for Corporate Sponsorship to do an MBA at a Top School, and to get into Global Stuff for Top World Companies. yes of course he’s younger than me and went to a less prestigious school than me hahahahahahaha. he just has a strong attitude and work ethic and is not a despairing virgin neet, but a strong healthy well adjusted White Man!

meanwhile my goal is just to get a 14 dah job at a place that doesnt drive me COMPLETELY MENTAL. i dont have those kind of long term goals! like i want to do this and that and that and this. no. i just want to SURVIVE in an entry level job that i dont ragequit, stay in it forever, and hopefully get promoted for muh good work, which i prob wont, because noone promotes anymore, you have to move to a diff company.

its like women will blame you for everything, make you the bad guy every time, so you have to be really good at saying NO YOURE WRONG, YOURE OVERREACTING, youre a BABY who cant communicate or listen or compromise or deal with things like an adult.

i admit that women are challenging and you have to learn how to deal with them, thats just the way it is, dont hate the player, hate the game hahaha.

but HOW MUCH IS TOO MUCH? HOW RETARDED CAN YOU BE?

and just seeing these ridiculuos women on TV for a reality show, i mean this is all spun by joos, this cant be REAL!!! and then seeing some of the same shit i saw in reality!!!! and said to my self geez i hope not all women are really like that!

like women are ALWAYS gonna blame you and get mad at you and if you really take their bullshit seriously, youll think you are the most terrible person ever! when you are not.

these “women” (“girls” really, this is why we call them girls, you dont get to be called a woman unless you are mature, like actually literally mature hahaha, and these 33 year old women act like foot stamping tantrum throwing 13 year old girls that were never put in line by their fathers.)

how do THEY make 40k, 50k a year? by bullshitting people, parroting bullshit, and never actually getting anything done. a woman solving a problem? let alone a complicated confusing problem? NO WAY.

heh women are like ingras and joos and babies all rolled up into one. god damn i h8 women hahahaha. i wish we didnt need them to reproduce. i wish we didnt get feelings for them. men are just much better PEOPLE.

but yeah. how can they WORK and be more SUCCESSFUL and make more MONEY than ME? they cant handle SHIT, let alone the Complicated Difficult Communication Conflict shit and People Problems in the work day.

their solution is to blame the other person and avoid them, those bad horrible people.

and this WORKS for them! they never have to change their shitty ways! they never have to grow up and learn to be adults!

i am very immature but i am way more mature than THIS!!!!!

its like the guy derek said, ok i left you alone to cool off but its clear you havent thought about this at all, because you’re giving me the SAME bullshit, can only repeat the same thing like a broken record, you are not willing to compromise or offer any solutions, you are just butthurt at me because i smoke 1 cigarette a day. COME ON. you gotta be a little flexible here, and not GIVE UP on me just because I smoke 1 cigarette a day. or 2. who CARES.

and if he said oh baby i will quit smoking for you, she would just disrespect him for being a doormat.

it was WEIRD because he was a handsome, charming man, I was surprised to see her being so bitchy to him, and he def was too. the gurl is a fookin basket case drama queen and no man is good enough for her, except for some long gone badboi from 10,12 years ago she never got over. enjoy your cats and growing old alone and childless and husbandless. and you dont even have a powerful career. damn. more likely shell just get knocked up by some arab or ingra who’s not afraid to use his pimp hand.  but she looks ok for 33 year old, very nice body.

but a sensible man who is not lonely or desperate will RUN NOT WALK when he QUICKLY sees how RDICULOUS she is! i am thinking handsome charming derek is tired of banging sluts and is getting desperate for a long term wife. well he got matched with a real dumpster fire here.

this “team of experts” are nothing more than conniving j’s looking to create drama.

but yeah i cant turn away from this stupid show.

because a big part of it is showing how Couples Handle Conflict. and so often they DONT, because the WOMAN is so immature, and overreacts and blames the man, the man wants to work on things, and the woman doesnt, is so stubborn, and never gives the man a fair chance.

http://nypost.com/2016/08/16/theres-trouble-in-paradise-on-married-at-first-sight/

no comments. even when nypost poses the huge question, is heather justified in being so upset over dereks smoking? NO OF COURSE NOT!!!!!!!

nick and sonia. i kinda like them. well, i like him. he is a lot like me, only way more handsome and successful. she is ok half the time and stupid the other half. she seems like she would be a good match for him…..but he’s moving too slow even for her! i guess shes not as much of a nice gurl as we thought. how many guys has she fooked after 1 date. and here she says she wants to do things differently and go slow. yet before the honeymoon is over, she’s butthurt at him for moving too slow! and they’ve known each other for like 5 days.

she wants to move slow, and 5 lousy days is still too slow for this slut hahahahaha.

and i probably like to move even slower than poor nicky boy. i mean i like to move WAYYYYY SLOOOWWWWW. I tried to point this out to women, and they were still surprised at how slow i moved, and still dumped me because of it. somewhat. that and they didnt want a real rel. just casual hangouts and casual secs.

http://www.intouchweekly.com/posts/heather-seidel-derek-schwartz-married-at-first-sight-drug-scandal-109728

this one suggests HES NOT SMOKING CIGARETTES, HES SMOKIN THE WACKY TABBACKY!!!!

and she thought that was the end of the world, and they end up getting divorced before the 6 weeks are up.

she got a dui in 2011. derek tries to show her how ridiculous she is by saying “thats like me saying you are an ‘alcoholic’ ” and that was a bad move, because even though we men understand what he’s getting at, women are gonna get bitchy and think he’s being immature by saying she’s literally an alcoholic, which is not what he’s saying. she’s not smart enough to understand his point, like this is how ridiculous you’re being.

but yeah the show is being dishonest joos by not telling us that he’s smokin MJ.

but it is honestly a stupid move for him to bring MJ in a plane to their honeymoon. or did he buy it there?

heh its funny how articles on vice have like 2 actual comments and 3 or 4 spam commenters. here is a big well known publication but no ones actually reading their shitty articles.

i was reading a review of the new forteresse album on vice noisey, they have this metalgrrrl kim kelly who IIRC, actually has decent taste in metal hahahaha.

this album which came out last month. her review was not very edifying but others have been saying this is a great album, totally great example of quebec black metal, they are quebec nationalists/separatists, there is some antiwhite vice phaggot in the comment saying they cant be separatists, white devils like them STOLE the land from the natives in the FIRST place, etc.

anyway i feel the LORD is guiding me to this album at this moment, on this day. the LORD guides me to weird albums and sometimes I just listen to them less than once and say NOPE this is not what I was hoping for. like that lyrinx album i listened to recently. totally underwhelming.

anyway i am making actual progress by having tons of interviews, 2 interviews in 1 day, getting less nervous during interviews, just racking them up like experience points, and one day i have to inevitably Level Up (get offer.)

seeing that super successful acquaintance of mine, i couldnt help but COMPARE myself to him and say god damn, im so far BEHIND him, he’s 4 years younger than me, i could have been just as successful as him if i hadn’t made those mistakes, now i can never get on this track, i dont have the drive and disclipline he does, he deserves a good woman, i dont, he is so much better than me, im jelly of him, hes such a winner and im such a loser, etc.

when in fact i HAVE been making SOME progress lately and I REALLY dont want to compare myself like that.

hes a good guy though, its just really disappointing hes a SWPL oven middle class progressive leftist bla bla. fookin atlantic reading, new york times reading, npr listening, bernie loving, you name it. yet he has a high-paying Corporate Career. But he is somewhat in the Creative end of that, rather than Financial or Engineering.

wow this forteresse sounds pretty good actually. but i am just listening to it on One Earbud while trying to do Job Applications hahahaha.

this time i got the earbuds that are kinda like earplugs, with the rubber tips that go deeper into your ears. kinda like them. ok 3 applications today. i can do better than that hahahah. gotta pay the dues. put in the reps hahaha.

are quebecois separatists also likely to be pro white?  how much is damn canada oppressing the quebec people hahahaha. well i dunno. maybe its like texas people wanting to secede. i can understand that. when your country has turned into ZOG that wants you and your family dead hahahaha. does forteresse know about ZOG hahahahaha.

or are they huge pussies that say HURRR DURRR WERE NOT EBIL RACISS, we luv mudslims and blacks and joos hahahaha.

their first album, the drums kinda sound like a drum machine. i do not really like that although the guitar sounds good. on the new album they def have a real drummer.

FOOK drum machines. just hire a god damn session drum, pay him some MJ and alcohol, or play the drums yourself. period. mikko aspa can do it, alex meilenwald can do it. IMHO better to have amateurish sounding drums than a damn MACHINE. did the classic BURZUM albums have a drum machine? HELL NO!!!!!

so the forteresse drummer is fiel and is in a ton of other bands including his own solo project.

just let the drummer know he is not a real part of the band and you will pay him to play the way you want him to play, ie, in service of the damn SONG, not like some flashy show stealer who is louder and flashier than everybody else. let him do that in his own band. thats why they call them session musicians hahahaha. they are your EMPLOYEE, but in a very friendly and laid back way. just play the way i tell you to play and i’ll give you MJ and booze and food and maybe some cash. and maybe your band and my band can play shows sometime. and by the way can you be a live drummer for my band too hahahaha. ill pay you for that too.

3.8 mile powerwalk, then shower, made some cigarets, in 10 minutes go to social event, maybe see 1 qt gurl worth beating the meat to hahahaha

1 think 500 will be a more accurate goal than 400 in terms of needing 500 applications to get a job. like 1 out of 23 applications gets an interview, and 1 out of 23 interviews get a job.

and i am only at 14 interviews so far. yeah it is good to get experience in interviewing itself. you DO get better. but yes it IS ridiculous that you need to do 23 interviews to get a job! they never had to do that in 1990! even my successful acquaintance didnt have to do that to get his first job after college! in fact he got that job with relatively little effort and described it as pretty easy and quick.

aug 18

rejected for office assistant II position about 7 weeks after applying, no interview of course, but the rejection letter was sent by an INTERN hahahaha. ie a 20 year old university slut. an intern in the city human resources dept. well to her credit the letter was written decently, and she is prob only making 10 bucks an hour. but yeah it sucks not even being called for an interview for a 28k job hahahaha.

woohoo, it is ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY of me sending The Final Email to That Woman.

well, yesterday technically. aug 17 2015 i sent the final email. yesterday was aug 17 2016 hahahaha.

somehow the calendar says 367 days today, but i think because 2016 was a leap year and had extra day in feb haha.

401 days since i last talked to her on july 14 2016. i like 400 days as a more round number than 365 days hehehe.

but yeah it doesnt SEEM like that long. i am getting OVER her, but it seems like i just saw her and talked to her a few MONTHS ago. the time really flew by i guess hahahaha. but not in a great way. still fookloads of pain. but the worst has passed.

over 9 months since i have looked at jooish porn filth. not bad uh!

well, technically i saw a few images a couple times, but i turned it off fairly quickly. one time was for research purposes, to determine whether the girl in this one vidya was evalion. (dont think it was.) another time, i stumbled onto some slut on tumblr. i think because she looked sorta like That Woman. i was actually trying to prove it wasnt LITERALLY that woman!  i thought it might actually BE her! not that that woman was at all the type to slut it up on tumblr, or in real life. she was very discreet about her slut life hahahahaha.

41 days since level 1 haircut and i am thinking about getting another hahahaha.

heh. the fact is, going into interviews is not nearly as stressful as every single god damn day on the actual job. under pressure to produce and fix things as fast as possible and you have no idea what is going on, while trying to bullshit to everyone around you that you DO know what you are doing. and your head is spinning and confused ALL DAY. at work, and when you come home. you NEED drugs to numb or stop your mind. you wake up in the middle of the night mind spinning and racing and confused. this sense of confusion all day every day really wears you down, and then trying to be ON and put up a False Front at Work. you become mentally and emotionally weak and confused. your wife loses all respect for you because you are acting like a scared baby animal. she leaves you and says fook you you weak little phaggot, you dont deserve a woman as good as me. i’ll go find a real man like tyrone biggums hahahaha. who isnt INSECURE and doesnt have all these ISSUES and isnt so CRAY CRAY. you say baby im just really stressed out about muh job, and she says so is everybody else. DEAL WITH IT or i will find a man who can.

and you think DAMN i must have been a HORRIBLE person to deserve this punishment. i bet JAIL would be better. at least there they are more honest and straightforward about raping you in the ass.

its not just dislike, but fear and terror and dread and anxiety. disliking is nothing. that sense of dread and fear is really what kills you. like a cornered baby animal without its family. lambs to the slaughter.

i can deal with simple dislike. that’s no problem at all compared to that fear and anxiety and dread and panic. again, like the end of mulholland drive, where she is sitting there, knowing something horrible is gonna happen soon, but not sure exactly what or when, then something unexpected and weird happens, she flips the fook out, cant stop screaming hysterically, and the automatic reflexive response is to frantically scramble to the nearest gun and K yourself!!!!!!

that kind of shit is what i REALLY dont like hahahaha. not just oh muh job sucks damn lmao.

its kinda like Chronic Panic. and then you cant think right at all.

and i fear EVERY real bigboy 28k job is gonna be like that. or at least every job for an actual COMPANY. like real companies that are struggling to either not go broke, or to GROW, and they PUSH everybody to their fookin limits of sanity hahahaha. and the managers have no idea whats going on, just that they need to PUSH everybody HARDER. MORE. BETTER. FASTER. BETTER. GROWTH. SCALE.

and when you get home, you dont just want MJ, you want a potent cocktail of MJ, booze, benzos, and opiates to just OBLITERATE yourself into a total zombie STUPOR. that is the only way you could really relax and unwind and decompress.

well the first 3 to 6 months of ANY job are gonna be like that as you learn the job!

i dunno. like with the college police IT job, i did not get that impression at all.

or even the nursing home payroll job.

now, at my last awful job, the company was struggling, they are still struggling, and its no surprise they closed our entire department. i predicted it while i was still there. CALLED IT like a year before it actually happened.

i should be studying for the interview tomorrow by Knowing their company inside and out!

it is a big multinational corporation hahaha. something everybody has heard of.

ok prepared muh study sheetz. interviewing with 3 men tomorrow. i hate these goddamn panels. but i have handled 5 person panels. normally there are 2 people.

this job has potential to get confusing, as a TECHNICIAN for an electronic devices company. shit yeah they could get technical. and they probably have senior technicians who get to know the shit better after 2, 3, years.

yeah this company does not look like good long term place. the health insurance is supposedly good, but it is run by tyrannical asshole azns who are totally out of touch with USA. the county job i am interviewing on monday, i am much more interested in the long term.

however, i am not in the habit of turning down job offers hahahaha. well, just the one, a post office CCA. i am thinking this electronics  job pays about the same, has good health care start right away. but anyway the company culture is supposedly very asian. and not in the good japanese way hahahaha. but in a less honorabru way. like they are clearly not attracting Top US Talent to make them seem like a really US-friendly country. weird stilted english language on their web site. their best people get out and go to better companies. the top management is a revolving door of asians. who bully their underlings and really dont have a good business sense or long term vision hehehe.

hooo boy. i always fear that its the Bad Jobs that will make me an offer.

one of the 3 guys tomorrow is one of the native asians that they send out to run facilities in foreign countries like the US hehehe.

well, tell them I am waiting to hear back from macomb county and that if offered that job, I would take it.

how good of engrish does the asian manager speak. prob not good. glassdoor stories of asian execs chattering and none of the gringo underlings know what they are saying.

well if im not super enthusiastic, they wont hire me anyway hahahahaha.

well this one guy i used to work with, and i really liked him, he was great. he was a new guy who got placed right next to me. naturally he had lots of questions because the training is horrible and everyone is confused all the time. I wanted to change that Culture, so I was happy to help him, and anybody I could. But he was also very SHARP, he was not a dumber person like some of the people there. he was masculine and handsome and charming and had great People Skills, and he handled phone calls like a BOSS even though he’d never had a job like that before. I instantly liked him and we got along well. within 2 or 3 months he had gotten a job with the company I am interviewing for tomorrow. he made it sound really awesome. I was sad when he left.

9 months later or so I saw him in the grocery store, he said send me a resume and I can make sure you get an interview, things are going good there. I got cold feet and never emailed him. but when I started putting effort into muh job search, I applied at his company regularly. so anyway I will mention his name tomorrow.

stories that the asian asshole bosses force you to DRINK when they go do asian karaoke after a 16 hour shift and like all high pressure asian businessmen, they get falling down drunk on saki or rice liquor. drink 20 drinks in 60 minutes until they vomit and pass out on the sidewalk hahahahaha. pass out in their car with vomit all over the interior of the car hahahaha.  these guys are the top managers of your department. they are your managers manager. your manager never gets promoted because he’s not asian, but he starts acting more asian because he takes shit from asians all day hahahaha. meaning, you btich and bully and belittle. all stick and no carrot hahahaha.

everyone is like khan from king of the hill but worse hahahaha.

well i guess i would rather work here than that post office job. try to survive a year. try to find MJ hookup if there are any Blacks there hahaha. make friends with shy lonely white people. but youre not supposed to befriend the outcasts, because then you become an outcast yourself right?

so become friends with the cool kids, pretend you are a cool kid. befriend the asians. do gangam style dance moves with them hahahahahahahahaha and bring them bottles of saki.

im not one of those pathetic whites who has some hardon for asians. fook asians hahahaha. they’re not cute o kawaii, they’re not interesting, they are ratty little yellow rat people hahahaha.  definition of crabs in a bucket. yeah but anime and samurais are kewl.

ok we can agree that the japanese are the best asians……..but these are not japanese, and i STILL dont have a HARDON for japan. NOT an otaku weeaboo. fook that. even the BEST of the asians do not interest me, beyond I have some desire to watch kurosawa or ozu films, i like some jap horror movies, and i liked mario and zelda games. thats IT.

i mean these particular asians are just a tiny step up from the CHINESE in my book hehehehe. i guess i have already doxxed myself hahahaha. now the asian crab people can fire me. good riddance hahahaha.

i mean i COULD just be unenthusiastic. say that I enjoy a democratic, non-hierarchical workplace where the local facility gets a lot of authority in the eyes of world HQ. or i could just turn down the job offer if i get it hahahaha. i mean i will probably stop applying here at any rate. be like i gotta take days off to interview at better places hahaha.

i mean how the hell do you keep taking half days off to go to interviews? what do you say? im going to a doctors appointment?

i mean my old workmate was looking to get out of our old work ASAP. he looks like he is happy to stay with this asian company. if its good enough for him its good enough for me.

he was in the military though. deals with pressure and people under pressure better than i do. what if he is a total degenerate though. who knows. shit. he was nicer to me than That Woman was at the end! He was a positive thing in my negative day of work! she was just another negative thing in the shit sandwich!

didnt realize you could just listen to the police scanner on a web site. listening to police scanner of nearby city that used to be white suburb but is gradually shifting towards nonwhite crime and lots of white trash and drugs too. so you listen to the police scanners to really put your finger on the pulse hahahaha. supposedly. but it doesnt make much sense. i cant understand a word they are saying. how can THEY understand each other? and these are white cops!

yeah ok i studied a decent amount of the bullshit which this particular division of the company does. car related electronics lets say. the asian manager can bust my balls and i can tell him i wipe my ass with zipperheads faces hahahaha. they wish they could be samurais like the nips but instead theyre little needle dicked alcoholics who beat their wives and children and lust over white women that choose deadbeats and ingras over them no matter how much money they make as businessmen. white men LUV asian women (i dont at all), but white women HATE asian men hahahaha. well thats good, i wish they hated black and arab men as much. fookin race traitors hahahaha.