THIS MACHINE K’S J’S

june 17

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/what-kind-of-lives-did-actual-barbarians-live/113621

by weev. more clarification on hwyte sharia. thankfully nothing advising breaking your wifes bones. rather clarifies the point that the romans had the right idea and we should be emulating them, while the barbarians, for once are not glorified as european ideal, allowed themselves to be manipulated too much by women, and thus became phaggots and catamites, turning to boys and young men because their wives, though maybe attractive, were uppity bitches who the men had let get out of their own CONTROL.

https://heathenharvest.org/2014/08/26/eternal-flame-of-gehenna/

some finnish black metal is race aware, but alot of them are just pathetic alcoholics hehehehe. probably even the race aware ones drink too much. BUT I should check out the finns for decent black metal that is possibly more racially aware.

http://nwnprod.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=25659&start=90

im interested mainly because uncle mikko is innit. probably only very briefly and definitely shrouded in shadows. the one sentence he says is something like “you can’t separate black metal from politics which some people find annoying” and i would agree, in that i think black metal should EMBRACE the political, ie the RACIAL.

NOT just get SO DRUNK you have HEART ATTACKS by age 40 and cut yourself and worship satan and have satanic rituals, get drunk, have heart attacks, get so drunk you can’t even talk, and say all humans are shit, finnish christians are just as bad as brown muslims. COME ON.

basically goatmoon is on the good list. the stormheit guy who was sober and talking in the woods was good. basically anyone here who was halfway sober and not looking like a retard.

only clip on youtube, from an antifa group talking about RACISM in finnish BM, and all they say are perfectly reasonable anti-moslem things. aspa says one sentence near the end hehehe with his face shrouded.

so that guy is named stormheit and is of the band stormheit whos 2014 album has a very hookcross looking thing. extremely vetted. thumbs up! he also plays live bass for goatmoon. he has a swedish name, joakim soldehed, so im ASSUMING hes one of the swedish finns. ie ethnic swedes who have lived in finland for 100s of years and i think are generally accepted but there is generally good natured mocking back and forth.

pagan metal with tons of acoustic guitars and mostly cleanish bathory viking vocals. not bad!

epic song from his 2011 album before the 2014 one. seems basically the same hahahaha. clean singing that is not horrible. passionate and european. prob def pro-white. not a degen drunkard. real human drummer. approved!

better than the degenerate satanic drunkards. are they talking about satan or are they talking about EVROPA.

basically i am looking for Alt Right Black Metal. a black metal person who is FULLY on board with daily stormer hahahaha. and therefore understands that being a drunk is degen. writing songs about satan is degen. i think these bands/musicians will come but it will take a few years of alt right sinking in, and that didnt really start until 2015 or so. this is all very young.

heres their 2017 album. a full LP of 34 minutes. great length! real drummer. good production, good melodies, i might have to listen to this fully.

they have played live shows with at least 2 NS flags on display at once, have led the crowd in roman saluting, and the blackgoat guy (kinda degen name) specifically names the J. bigly thumbs up! good enough for me!

he prob drinks too much tho and theres no excuse for that hahaha.

also its CHILDISH to be OBSESSED WITH MUSIC, and i guarantee you many of these people are. Its fine to be a big music fan, but you have to GROW UP at some point and realize that its the ideas and the principles and the morals behind the music which matter more. and if you have those morals, great. i give you my blessing to spend many hours of your valuable time semi-obsessively making good black metal or other music.

when i was young i was as obsessed with music as i am with racial stuff now. i can say now that the racial stuff is a better interest and i am glad i switched over. obviously i still like to listen to music sometimes. ESPECIALLY when it lines up with my racial and moral views.

these guys are friends with goatmoon and this album is getting rave reviews. the drummer for this album plays drums on the 2017 goatmoon album. sounds pretty good. this is all on blackgoats werewolf label. i figure look to the label/distro the guy runs to find bands he likes.

ok 2 new albums in 1 day, thats more than enough to keep my musical world full for like 6 months ahahahahaha

there are more important things in life than music. music should be the MEANS and never the END. and the means should definitely be SERVING that end!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the end, of course, is the 14 words.

every boy should be paird up with a successful mentor no more than 5, 6, 7 years older than him, who has succeeded in the same world the boy is entering into. then give him a CHECKLIST of steps to accomplish, in order, by a certain date. like lose your V by age 18. secure an engin internship at a good company by age 19. never get fat. never drink too much. never do too much MJ. lift heavy and lift often. have intelligent coversations with your professors. stay away from college gurls. have arranged dates with the gurl you will marry at age 22 or so. basically you hanging out with the young gurl you will marry. she will be a young virgin. there will be parents chaperoning. because she wont be able to control herself, and you wont be able to either.

that would probably be the next step in human evolution. if we could actually CONTROL OUR OWN secsual urges!

but yeah i see jobs at sweet defense companies and its like you dont just waltz in there and get a job there. you have to be a top engin student and get into their highly competitive engin internship programs. where 20 year old engin students compete severely for these. i didnt even KNOW about this shit until i was like 25. i didnt have a chance!

so have a 25 year old who DID get one of those jobs be a mentor to an 18 year old boy!

THIS MACHINE K’S COMMUNISTS.

THIS MACHINE K’S MARXISTS.

THIS MACHINE K’S J’S.

hehehehehehehe

i was under the delusion that all you needed to go was graduate college, and then you would be a middle class success. 30 years ago, this was certainly true.  but now its a huge fookin gamble. i had a decent hand, but i played it poorly and gambled too much on it. lost it all hahahaha.

like a drunk gambler who gets a good hand, but gets a weird flop and then plays it poorly, goes all in when he shouldnt have, and loses to someone who played the flop wisely.

anyway. if i were 18 and had a 25 year old man who had his life all together, making 50 grand a year, slapping me and saying, you HAVE to do this if you want to be a winner like me. do this. do that. dont question it. or you will end up like this pathetic loser, and then show me the pathetic loser. either a pathetic marxist barista with a phd in antiwhite, or, worse, an unemployable neet whos stuck in the past and hasnt been with a woman in 10 years.

army or chair force might have been good for me. it would have either K’d me like private pyle, or it would have been good for me. at this point, i wish i had taken the gamble. havent done anything with muh life anyway.

basically i was too immature to Go Away to college and I shouldntve. period. Some kids do all right, ie become successful at life college phaggots, but i became a loser at life college phaggot.

and women shouldnt go away to college at all. its sad that i need to say it and mansplain it. because it turns them even more into crazy, destructive Hoors.

i needed more guidance and leadership at that crucial age, but i wasnt willing to seek it out. i needed it FORCED on me from above in other words. i was spoiled with softness, in other words. yep.

very true but cant be DWELLING on this. DO something productive, and if you dont know what to do, then do Physical Training. ie powerwalking hahahahah. yeah i am gonna do that shortly. just got back from church which was boring as hell but there were 2 attractive women there. first one was a 26 year old 7/10 who seemed to be married. the other was a 17 year old 8/10 but which went down to about 7.5 just because she was too fat for such a young age, but not dealbreakingly fat. she had very cute face and beautiful hair and nice white skin. she just likes porking out on the ice cream too much methinks. i have never seen these gurls’ mother, just their father, who himself is a potato shaped niceguy. starting to think maybe the mother died. or maybe she divorce raepd him and he only gets the kids on weekends, where he takes them to church on saturday. i would prefer the mother was ded hahahahaha.

everything. story on WEATHER CHANNEL of a Young Newly Single Mother who is instagraming photos of her with her beautiful new baby at all the waterfalls in oregon. the mother was pretty attracive young white woman. she said she was heartbroken at being a NEWLY SINGLE MOTHER when the baby was like 3 MONTHS old.

of course were supposed to think, what kind of DEADBEAT would abandon his wife and brand new child. instead I thought, what kind of CRAZY BITCH would kick her husband out when the child was only 3 months old?

and if she didnt dump him, i guarantee she picked a deadbeat badboy whose leaving was prob no surprise. the baby was white tho.

the best case scenario would be if the husband tragically died. but i think she would have said if that were the case.

and she talks about Processing pain and grief from the father leaving, by taking the baby to beautiful parks and waterfalls and making herself a social media celebrity in the process. of course women everywhere are loving this, while I am sneering and thinking ABSOLUTELY DEGENERATE. where is this kids father. he’s either a deadbeat or youre an evil bitch. or a stupid bitch for choosing a deadbeat. and her you are craving the spotlight.

the future does not look good for the poor child. the mother should be on her hands and knees begging the father to come back.

this is what a woman, even a white woman, will do without strong male control. kick out the father of her child when the child is 3 months old. i just thought white women were better than that because they are white, but they’re not. in women’s case, the fact that they’re women influences their behavior moreso than the fact that theyre white.  in other words, sex is more important than race for women and the way they think and act.

so does that mean that white men have more in common with black men than white women, if sex is more important than race?

i didnt say that though hahaha. race IS more important than sex…..just not for WOMEN hahahaha.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/third-jimpact-homosexuals-within-trs-alt-right/113791/

what the FOOK is this. this suggests that ghoul was “grooming” a 15 year old BOY and also fooked the boy. serious accusations require serious evidence!!!!!

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/trs-and-homosexuals-and-the-alt-right/114125

summary of the podcast

https://imgur.com/a/x4uSX

i just dont know. i havent seen any good evidence of ghoul sodomizing any boys. and its not his fault his mother was a lezbo. its not his fault a college tranny degen wanted his D once.

i mean im not in super luv with ghoul but i did buy his shirt hahaha. now i cant wear muh trs shirt any more, cant wear the ghoul shirt any more hahaha.

and so what if millennial woes complained about white sharia to sacco vandal. i wouldnt expect MW to understand this meme anyway. took me a while. and im aware of MW’s Gay Past and i dont think its as extensive as the haters would claim! i really dont think he did standard pool party take it up the ass stuff.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/white-sharia-is-not-radical-enough/114054

so yeah i will wait until i see proof of ghouls stuff; and i still luv MW and think hes a great guy. but it would be nice if he talked to anglin or weev or the stormer affiliated guys. azzmador. he prob wont and this prob wont stop me from liking him. i think he is a great guy and he would have to do something hella bad for me to dump him hahaha.  i give him almost 2 dollars per month!

he just seems very honest. i guess i would maybe ideally like him to give more specific details about his gay past, but i honestly think it wasnt THAT bad. now, doing gay shit NOW and hiding it, would be a diff story. i mean hes kind of a leader now and needs to set an example. character and fitness.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/mysterium-fasces-episode-31-sexual-ethics/114150

podcast on SExual Ethics with the great florian geyer and doc mayhem is also good.

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PLAYTIMES OVER

june 6

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/dating-sites/111151

met this big handsome alpha winner today, seemed like a nice good guy, the type of guy you want to like you, because he is a handsome, healthy, 35 year old, charming, strong, confident, good people person, down to earth, friendly, successful, hard working, principled, good ethics, takes pride in his work, does well in his work, people rightly recognize his talent and skills and leadership and so he is gradually becoming a leader. he better have fooking KIDS. he is about 35 and ideally would have at least 3 youngish kids.

you KNOW that women find him attractive. YOU find him attractive, hahaha. this guy cannot possibly have trouble with women. but you also know that he met his wife in college undergrad when they were both 20. she prob hadnt fooked 50 guys yet and he prob hadnt had many real gf’s yet. so they got to be each others “firsts” at a youngish age, and thats the way it SHOULD be!!!!!! but as a result, he actually LIKES and RESPECTS women. i know for a fact he has done….programs and shit specifically venerating women in the x profession. and the reason his wife doesnt leave him for this egregious woman-loving, is that he also happens to be very handsome, tall, charming, successful, and probably fairly masculine. and she hasnt been with 50 guys so shes actually loyal to him. plus he’s very masculinely handsome. kind of like richard spencer mixed with a young donald trump. if his wife thinks she can get a handsomer, better man for long term, monogamous marriage, then she deserves to be thrown in the garbage and/or banished to the land of mudsharks.

so i think they will be all right. and i while i immediately liked the guy and did not BEGRUDGE him his success, i couldnt help but be a LITTLE envious of somebody who had his stuff so well together.  did all the right things in life. kept a good attitude, worked hard, never got discouraged, struggled, and succeeded with hard work, good attitude, persistence.

june 7

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/all-modern-single-women/111752

there shouldnt be single “adult” women out in the world. 23 year old single woman living in the Tuff World out on their own, blowing off the stress of their careers by blowing 1000 men.

theyre not SUPPOSED to face the tough world. thats why they do so bad at it. they shouldnt be living without a protector who will PROTECT THEM FROM THEMSELVES. they are as stupid as goddamn FROGGER running into the middle of the road. and that they think bad shit is good.

i am honestly not ready to listen to this album yet. my top two bands of the moment are vapaudenristi and alice in chains. said no one ever in the history of the world, until now hahahaha.

well the production immediately sounds good. good drums and vocals. under 40 minutes. his voice sounds more…. i dunno. more relate to able than the older stuff. more 2 dimensional hahaha. like a real man with real feels hehehehe. in other worlds hes gotten even better as a singer hehehe.

i mean hes never had a problem with his Shouting vocals in Vap, but his black metal vocals in CB could possibly sound a bit lifeless once in a while. but they were supposed to be. well i dont think BM always needs to be lifeless!!!!!

so in other words, CB may be becoming less nihilistic and less lifeless hahaha which IMO would improve an already great band!!!!

or maybe i just think Vap is the best thing he’s ever done and I am subconsciously viewing New CB through that perspective.

well, Vap has only been around since recently, like 2009 at the earliest. CB has been around since like 2000. Vap represents an older, wiser, more mature mikko!

is he bringing this maturity to CB? id like to think so.

also i like knowing that he is a Real Man With Feels, because some of his stuff is/was SO UNRELATETOABLE. how can you listen to NOISE? worse, how can you listen to Power Electronics? It’s singularly degenerate aesthetic that smacks of whites destroyed by the eternal joo. looking into the abyss and the abyss penetrates you completely.

the joo is the abyss hehehehehe.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/20-year-old-thot-on-trial-for-convincing-boyfriend-to-commit-suicide/111841

eric striker, good writer. good point that men are encouraged to not have any friends and women are encouraged to throw men away, and encourage him not to have friends, and easily replace him with the next chad or tyrone from tinder. and what kind of evil bitch encourages her “BF” to K himself?

QUOTE

Here in the good ol’ USA, men are raised to keep other men (their fathers, brothers and friends) at an arm’s length, while emotionally and socially investing everything in a woman. The average white American man only has one friend: his spouse3!

Conversely, women are explicitly taught to hate, exploit and abuse men. They nag and blackmail men into cutting off their male friends, sometimes even their family. The problem is the vast majority of Millennial women rank their long-term husbands and boyfriends somewhere in-between their Shih-Tzu and their gay hairdresser. A new cheap man-thrill is one Tinder swipe away and Katy Perry says it’s okay.

Most women aren’t going to go through these lengths to get someone to commit suicide, but they do watered down versions of this all the time. At least 3/4 of the women I’ve dated claim to be “victims of rape,” and while they always have a heavily embellished Lifetime Channel version to tell, 99% of the time it’s about them drinking one too many Fireballs and hopping into bed with a stranger.

Women love adult choices but can’t handle adult consequences. An unsupervised 8-year-old will choose ice cream for dinner and also act like a victim when the stomach ache follows.

Imagine a world where Conrad Roy III was taught how to be a man, and spoiled brats like Michelle Carter got a slap in the face from a parent every time she rolled her eyes or her mouth got fresh.

END

well, i dont think children or women (same thing hahaha) should really be slapped in the face, but a good spankign sure.

well, ok, you can slap an “adult” woman in the face once in a great while, but I dont like the idea of slapping children in the face. besides, getting drunk and fooking strangers is a little more serious than eating too much ice cream.

but its the same child mindset applied to very serious adult situations.

so what about jooish IDF army gurls. you can easily find pictures of them posing like sluts. and many of them are very bangable. anglin says only one in 6000000 jooish gurls are good looking. this is WRONG. there are SHITLOADS of good looking 18-22 year old jooish gurls. i wish i could get a HWYTE gurl that good looking!

so yeah i would totally bang a jooish gurl who looked like that. in fact i have hahahahaha. i wasnt nearly as wise on the jq back then though. but even if i were, i would still have banged her! i’d do it again now with another good looking jooish gurl!

but i would never have a Baby with a jooess. those half joos are usually just as bad as full joos.

anyway. SO hard to hit the 1550 calorie goal. usually end up at like 300 over EVEN AFTER Exercising.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/pedophiles-on-youtube-with-terrible-videos/111689

WARNING this is fooking disturbing. basically a punch of pedophile monsters on youtube who get millions of views but are not shut down, but pro-hwyte people get shut down. this is probably even more disturbing than mudsharks, because it SHOULD turn any decent persons STOMACH to see POOR DEFENSELESS CHILDREN USED AND ABUSED like this and NOTHING is being done about it. i guess it is not illegal to possess CP in russia. you can do a lot better than that, russia!

june 8

yeah that “bad baby” shit is disturbing af. its worse than degenerate. an oven is too good for these “people.” its so fooked up i dont even know that its evil so much as it is clearly insane. the creators were probably molested as children and now are clearly perpetuating that. but i dont want to help these poor “victims.” (the adults, clearly the children are victims and should be helped.) i figured locking the adults up and letting them starve to deth might be a good punishment.

holy shit. i am going WAY over on muh calories every day without even TRYING.

had a guy in today who was a really nice, friendly, charming white man. great man. honorable. maybe 50 years old. he was a talker and was telling all sorts of funny stories and was just really good with people and very extraverted. very very much so. but he said, the rule when you turn 18 in my house is, you either get a full time job and start paying bills, or you go to college, and im not talking about 1 class a semester, or you take your pick of a military branch. playtimes over.

i like this kind of attitude from the father, i did not nearly have it so rough. however i did great in high school and got into a great college so it was assumed that I would do college. I did, but i fooked up. i didnt do college RIGHT.

anyway. he told of his one son, 25 years old, a fookup working retail in a mall, who said, wow, i fooked up my life, what can i do. and the father was like welp now you see why i was pushing college. maybe try the military before you get too old to enlist. its either that or work this deadend loser retail job the rest of your life. you know youre too smart for this shit. you’re better than this.

so the kid joined the air force and did very well. he listened to his superiors there who pushed him to finish skool. and now the kid is like an officer i think and doing his masters degree.

not sure what his other son was doing.

the guy himself was not a typical client of ours in that he didnt have a masters degree, but he is a very smart guy, very hard worker, and very knowledgeable in a Working Man’s Trade, and I should seek Valuable Training from him and his people at my expense, to learn the useful, money-making skills he has.

trying not to dox anyone. he is skilled in a skilled trade, makes money in it, and trains apprentices in it. HELLOOOOOO!!?!?!!?!?!???!?!?! talk about opportunity knocking!!!!!

i wonder if his children ever thought of following in the fathers footsteps. and if he would help them do that.

but yeah it make me feel pathetic about myself. this guy would think i am a HUGE LOSER and he wouldnt tolerate that if I were his son! but he was also a very likable and admirable man, and I liked him, and I didn’t want him to think I was a loser! Nothing worse than when you like and respect someone but they think you’re a pathetic loser!

i didnt actually talk a lot to him. I just overheard him talking to other people in the next room. I just greeted him politely by name and he was like wow you have a good memory. I really do not, but i have made an effort to Get Good at remembering people’s names.

and we dont get so many random clients, in other words, we get a moderate number of clients, and 99% of them will be back in repeatedly, so it’s good to remember peoples name. not like tyring to remember the names of your 60000000000000000 shitty customers at walmart. but just knowing our top 80 customers or something. and being able to talk to them about what they are doing and how we can help them. relationship building hahahaha.

but yeah it really does help to be busy working all the time because then you wont get hours of free time to feel like a big loser failure. and you might hate your job but at least be making money.

but at my last job, i wouldnt even take overtime because i just wanted to get out of there. i honestly think sitting around feeling like a failure loser was better than being at that job making money!

but its different with this job. by comparison, this job is PARADISE. low low low stress. never SLAMMED with shit. going to meetings regularly. surrounded by people who are competent and can explain shit and dont want to give people the runaround. only one difficult customer and I can usually get Backup in dealing with him.

its stupid to hate women. when you luv white children. we need women to make white children.

maybe i just THINK i luv children. like being in love with the idea of being in luv. but not the reality of it.

well the reality of it, white children ARE the white RACE. thats what it boils down to. the root cause. RACE. and you cant tell me i dont luv the white RACE!

what have whites ever done for ME? EVERYTHING! its basically just an extension of muh gratitude for muh family. muh white family.

prove that race is important.

prove that race isnt important!

wheres the burden of proof here?

prove race is meaningless.

prove race isnt meaningless!

i guess its really like FAITH. what do you WANT to believe in the absence of evidence EITHER WAY.

although i think there is better evidence for race being real, that evidence that no racial differences exist.

the things i want to FIGHT for, you really cant make a JOB out of. fighting for the 14 words, the white race, fighting again the eternal woman and the eternal j00 hahahaha. there is no way you can make an average, 30k a year job out of this. i mean you could become the next andrew anglin but i dont have that in me! i am not as well balanced and mentally/emotionally healthy as andrew anglin hahahahahahaha.

i can just write poorly written screed i h8 wimmin i h8 joos i h8 the blacks i h8 wimmin all wimmin must hang hahahaha.

not all philosophers were greasy joos! the first and best philsophers were hwyte greeks like plato and socrates and aristotle!!!!!!!!

ok, good, but were they DAMN DIRTY ATHEISTS????!!?!?!

cuz atheists are almost as bad as joos. almost as bad as joos. wimmin are like the worst of joos and the blacks COMBINED!

so if wimmin are WORSE than the root cause……does that make WIMMIN the new root cause?

no, that does not logically follow.

BUT, even if you removed all  joos, wimmin would STILL be naturally bad. and need the brutal control of men.

sure. but with the influence of the joo, wimmen are 100000 times worse than they WOULD be. and for that reason its worth thinking about removing the joo. peaceably to their own homeland hahahaaha.

that woman would have still dumped me but she would have been better about it because her father wouldnt be a deadbeat loser and her mother wouldnt be a crazy whore hahahaha. and she wouldnt be fooking negros. and she would have been married with children before I ever met her. so i never would have met her. and that would be great. i wish i had never met her. it just wasnt worth it. she was a good person and the good times were good…..but the bad times were wayyyyyyy worse. and long lasting. and i learned nothing except that i am a huge failure at dealing with wimmin the way NATURE INTENDED. a failure of an adult man and there is no hope for me. great lesson thanks.

 

IF THEY ACT LIKE CHILDREN, THEY SHOULD BE TREATED LIKE CHILDREN

may 29 2017

happy joo year, same as the old joo year hahahahahaha

no i might change these publish dates. right now it is actually memorial day 2017, the “unofficial start of summer”, so, a GREAT time of year, muh favorite. beautiful weather and i plan to get outside very soon here.

trimmed beard from usual level 2 to a level 1

looks shorter hahahaha

i knew humans were always irrational, but i had no idea HOW irrational. had no idea how damn irrational I was! quite a damn bit!

its is nice going outside for 90 minutes each day. might even extend this to 100 minutes hehehehe. but most peopel do not have this PRIVILEGE!!!!!

they are too busy working, and then coming home after work to be a single mother and work on their pheonix IT degrees so they can get a nice 35k office job one day project managing incompetent indians hehehhe.

link to daily stormer article about british airways losing tons of money because they outsourced IT to incompetent indians hehehe just to save a few bucks. and have no backup plans. no contingency plans.  pet peeve of mine. when people try to save money on IT by having shoddy service here. how can big huge established companies NOT UNDERSTAND they need to take i.t. SERIOUSLY. by hiring female phoenix grads hehehehehe. who spent 60 grand to get a bachelors of tier 1 call center degree. please reboot computer or you get wirus.  mother fook. never again. i hate fooking computers almost as much as i h8 joos.

https://www.amazon.com/Polish-Way-Thousand-Year-History-Culture/dp/0781802008

bought this book yesterday for like 7 dollars total

i am looking for a well written book by a passionate luver of poland. not sure if i got the right book hehehe. supposedly this guy was not “nationalistic.” but nationalistic is EXACTLY what i WANT.

i H8 how EVERYONE automatically assumes that nationalism = BAD. EVIL. RACIST. they automatically make that assumption and if you question it, youre an EVIL IDIOT RACIST. if you ever QUESTION that PRECONCEIVED NOTION hehehe.

flopped triple, all in, beat by guy who gets flush on the turn

yeah if you can find a 25 year old woman who has ONLY been with 10 guys, marry that pure decent woman. i figure most 25 year old woman have been with 25+ guys. ABSOLUTELY DEGENERATE. I would still bang them though becuase i am that desperate for approval from WOMEN hahahaha. ABSOLUTELY THIRSTY hehehehe.

in some ways though i think its NATURAL and NORMAL for men to want SOME sort of approval from women. it would probably be just as good for men to get married young, as it is for women to get married young. then you arent a bitter old incel by age 30 hehehe.

i mean its not at all Empowering to think you arent even capable of banging dirty sluts that fook EVERYBODY. because all you have to do is show a minimum of masculinity like a NEGRO or REFUGEE. and you cant even do THAT.

and i think its better to have the CHOICE to bang dirty whores, or just be alone, rather than to not have that choice, and not even be able to bang dirty whores. although thats 50% my fault and 50% the whores fault. and 34% the jooz fault hahaha. for making women into wh0res and men into ph4ggots hehe.

basically whenever i get angry/sad about myself, the world, women, the jooz, i have been going for a powerwalk and trying to get some mild jogging in there to, to get heart rate up.

lemme just say i am not a fat slob any more thank god, i am like 20 bmi. well, 20.9. 21 lets say. i used to be a fat slob with bmi 25. i know bmi isnt the be all end all but i think its a useful Metric hahahaha.

anyway. its WEIRD when you have a city like bromberg / bydgoszcz which, prior to ww1, were 80% german, and now they are 99% polish. so is the city polish or german? i dont really like that.

i mean i would really like it if a city could just expel all its jooz and nonwhites forever hahahaha. so it bodes well for that, the idea that an entire city can DRASTICALLY change its demographics.

but i hate it when whites attack each other. poles brutalizing germans in these areas. maybe some germans brutalizing poles. its just SAD AF.

but yeah this situation happens a lot between poland and germany. well i guess germany and a lot of countries hehehe. because people were always hating on germany and taking german land and then brutalizing the ethnic germans that remained in poland or czechia or alsace lorraine hehehe.

or what about a city like lvov. lviv. formerly known as lemberg. clearly a german name. how does a GERMAN city get into UKRAINE. was it really GERMAN? i think it was part of austria hungary. was it more austrian or more hungarian? how was it not part of russia? whats the difference between ukraine and “ruthenia”?

am i just making assumptions about lemberg?

was it an asshole move for germany to promise the eastern half of poland to russia? didnt germany think the poles were entitled to some self determination? but i can understand germany being mad about german land being given to poland, and poland killing germans therein. and as a pole i would “own” that and apologize to germans and say yeah that was wrong. that was shitty of poland. heres your land back, we’ll get out of it, no more brother wars.

so “NATIONALISM” was the theme of the 20th century, esp in the balkans and eastern europe. so “GLOBALISM” is gonna be the theme of the 21st century? esp in western europe?

how can an entire city be german then polish then ukrainian?

well it wasnt german, it was austrian? the kingdom of galicia vlodomysky something was just part of the habsburg empire?

may 30

FOOKING WEAK!!! TAAKE has cancelled their US tour due to visa problems. was supposed to see them in about a week. was looking forward to that. i guess i could still see the “norse black metal band” helheim that was playing with them but…..i wanted to see TAAKE and HOEST the drunk racist from the same town as b00rtzum who wrote no less than 4 excellent, timeless songs!

i honestly dont give a shit about helheim! i mean maybe they are good but i really only wanted to see TAAKE! havent been to a good concert since i figuratively K’d muh self over that woman almost 2 years ago.

survived stress free day buy as usual i dont have much confidence. tried to be friendly and shit but i wasnt witty or impressive. oh well. maybe i dont HAVE to be witty or impressive. oh well.

came home and was tired and almost fell asleep. ate too big dinner then got news about taake tour. damn.

well the good news is, i saw my smart, respectable, successful, admirable manager uses the same Tab Productivity Add On as I do, where you can save all your chrome tabs to OneTab rather than have them open and eat up memory all the time.  i dont know if he saw me using it and then looked into it himself, or if Great Minds Just Think Alike hahahahaha. I started using it maybe 2 months ago and have liked it a lot.  its a very simple concept, basically just copying links like bookmarks, but its quicker and easier to use than the bookmark page or copying and pasting. ive got one right now with muh top 28 pages on it.

measuring children by adult standards. yeah but this would be like the brattiest, shittiest, most misbehaved children, who had been acting that way for YEARS and never been punished.

so what do you do when a child gets REALLY in trouble?

well, you spank them, and or you GROUND them.

what do you do when you GROUND them?

they cant hang out with friends, they cant leave the house, they cant use their phone, no facebook, no texting, no internet.

so how do you GROUND a 20 year old CHILD who’s been acting up for YEARS and literally NEEDS to be GROUNDED for YEARS?

but yeah they SHOULD be GROUNDED. stay at home with your family. no phone, no going out with your bad influence friends, no talking to these bad influence degenerates, no Boys. it would address all the major ways women misbehave.

JUST TAKE AWAY THEIR DAMN PHONE. that would go a long way.

spank them and take away their phone for a month. these simple things would improve women SO MUCH.

bbbbut you cant GROUND an 18 year old WOMAN who is a fully grown adult!

IF THEY ACT LIKE CHILDREN, THEY DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE CHILDREN.

SPANKED AND GROUNDED.

AND THEY WILL ALWAYS ACT LIKE CHILDREN. Until you get 3 kids out of them.

how about this: STOP TREATING THEM LIKE CHILDREN WHEN THEY STOP ACTING LIKE CHILDREN.

DONT HOLD YOUR BREATH.

had a dream last night were i was playing a game with people and i kept losing, round after round. last place. we started a new round and i chuckled grimly, welp better get ready to get last place again. maybe i can get second to last this time. maybe i should start a company with (other guy who was the next biggest loser) and our company can fail within a year.

but yeah it reminded me of that feeling when you fail at everything. i havent had a situation like that where i was competing against others for a score and got last place over and over and over again, but it has happened when playing games of some sort.

but yeah point is, when you lose like 4 or more times in a row, you really start to get discouraged and demoralized and it really feels like that idea of “learned helplessness.” youre like this is pointless, im not doing even a little bit better here.

and then if you fail at all sorts of things- school, jobs, women, life, tasks, games, assignments, tests, interviews, conversations – you start to feel like you cant do ANYTHING right, and that youre gonna FAIL AT EVERYTHING.

FEELS BAD MAN!!!!!!!

and i feel like that SO MUCH that i have forgotten that thats what I feel like!

it also makes you not try nearly as hard. making you even more likely to fail!

ive failed so long ive forgotten what its like to win, and ive also forgotten that im failing right now, hahahaha. you dont think of it as failing, you just think THATS NORMAL. thats what NORMAL is. failing all the time. oh well. best not to try too hard, expend too much effort and energy. tired all the time. YAWWWNNNNNN.

SPANK THEM, GROUND THEM, TAKE AWAY THEIR PHONE, and no hanging out with their awful friends for a month. for 6 months. because they SHOULD have gotten grounded like once a month but their FATHER never did his JOB!

you cant do these things to a 18, 19 year old WOMAN!

THATS WHEN YOU SHOULD DO IT THE MOST!!!! THE MOST!!!!!!!!

That’s when they NEED it the MOST!!!!!!!!

REALLY, they should be MARRIED and banging their happy husband 10 times a day and getting him ready to happily work another 12 hour day at the family business.

but instead they are shipped off to COLLEGE, where they can SLUT IT UP and NOT be supervised or grounded.

THERES NO REASON FOR AN 18 YEAR OLD GURL TO LEAVE HOME.

NO GOOD CAN COME OF IT. As soon as they get out of their fathers house, they slut it up. living with other young sluts isnt gonna shame them. they will all laugh tee hee about each other being sluts. oh what boy did you fook last night. ew gross i fooked him last week, he is so awkward! better dump him before he catches feelings! so needy! so thirsty! what a creeper weirdo!

does this sound like an ADULT?

it sounds like CHILDREN who are up to absolutely no fooking good. breaking windows, huge party when the parents are gone, crashing the parents car, losing your dads babe ruth baseball, breaking the family heirloom, burning the house down, flooding the basement. all that at once is basically what being a slut even once is. in terms of being a Naughty Child.  its a big damn deal that needs a serious goddamn punishment. like finding out your 16 year old child is SHOOTING HEROIN. There should be the SAME response for your 18 year old daughter being a slut. even just once.

but too many fathers just turn a blind eye and say well shes an adult now, she can learn from her own mistakes.

NO SHES NOT AN ADULT!

maybe im hopped up because my Boomer Coworker is sending his 18 year old daughter to College in a few months.

She probably wont become a slut and with his Firm Guidance, she will have a Useful Masters Degree in 5 years and be making way more than i ever will! when really she should be getting married NOW.

 

sun dec 31

may 27

new years eve hahaha

https://johndenugent.com/english/weev-article-on-ds-about-women-expresses-understandable-rage-but-offers-the-totally-wrong-solution-of-white-sharia-and-domestic-violence/

this guy is interesting. he has the same reservations i do about weev’s infamous article. some great, important points that get overshadowed by extreme, violent words that may ultimately do more harm than good.

honestly weev. just delete the 4 damn sentences talking about smashing womens faces into a countertop, kicking them in the stomach, and beating them to death. replace it with unambiguous calls for nonlethal spanking and that’s all you gotta do.

pretty sure john de nugent would be in support of spanking as well. he went thru a divorce raep himself. TIL he is the guy in that MPC meme of the two guys shaking hands in that weird masonic way hahaha. i dont think he’s a mason. i think he’s staunchly anti-mason!

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/12-years-an-incel/109353/

12 years an incel? how about 13 years an incel HAHAHAHAHAHA

no ive read that article many times on whoism. he is def not a VVN hehehe.

yeah i should back up that one. heres a great quote from one of muh fav posters:

QUOTE I still remember the moment of my epiphany about women.
In my very early twenties I was Mr. Nice Guy. I could get women
but found myself getting walked on or the women would seem to
lose interest in me quickly.
One day I was talking on the phone with a girl I was dating and
she sounded ambivalent about where things were going between us.
I became very annoyed and just hung up on her.
It was like a I flicked a switch on her because soon she was calling me
all the time but I would ignore her. It’s like she was on a mission to win me back.
I couldn’t believe how weird women were. You treat them better than they
have ever been treated and they are wishy washy, then you treat them like crap and they pursue you!
My God, it’s true, women are like dogs, the more you run away from them the more they chase you.
I still thought this had to do with just certain women. Women who may have various psychological issues. Nope, over the next few years I realized being an asshole worked on all of them. I refined my game more and more, testing how much I could get away with. Things like never spending any money on them, staring at other women in public when I was with them. Not wanting anything exclusive, bragging about ex girlfriends to make them feel jealous and insecure.
Once in a blue moon I would meet a woman who was so my type, so cool, into the same things I would make the mistake of thinking I could retire Mr. Asshole and return to being Mr. Nice Guy with this one.
WRONG. Those were exactly the ones I should have been the most aloof with, given the least compliments to.
I’m glad there are forums online where young men don’t have to learn these things the hard way.  END

verbal judo heheheh i keep forgetting about this

ok very nice day, i should go fr powerwalk

sheeeit bought 40 dollars of btc yesterday, bought 32 dollars of btc today, (.01488 btc HAHAHAHAHAHA) ok now i am gonna slow down.

i wonder if coinbase will shut me down for intentionally buying a racist NUMBER of bitcoins hahahaha. probably. i mean the j’s are themselves buying tons of btc.

basically, treat women like garbage, but don’t violently abuse them, and dont get ANGRY at them. cuz they will see the anger as them having power over you. you CARING too much. you need to have power over them. make them get angry at YOU. make them care about YOU. if you ghost them, they will come after YOU. hang up on them. don’t respond to THEM. i was always too scared to do this. oh a GURL is talking to ME???!?!?! I better respond because this might be my LAST CHANCE!!!!!

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/degenerate-baby-boomer-rock-star-greg-allman-is-dead/109418

gregg allman dead at 69. i truly do get all my news from DS hahaha. so i truly liked/like the allman brothers. i had a big phase. i still come back to them. they had a really great style. i would have liked to see them. gregg used to have a great voice. but its true he was a total degenerate. TOTAL degenerate baby boomer hehehehe.  he really should have died years ago hehehehe. i think he almost did. i think liver shit related to his degenerate drinking and drugging.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/hawaii-professor-to-white-men-get-out-of-the-way/109315

meaning give up your job to someone who isnt a cis white male.

why? here is her rationale: QUOTE

“This is not about shame or guilt. Those things are useless. This is about shifting perspective. I know you’re not going to quit your job, but I want you to understand that you should. And to understand that by keeping your job and your other unearned privileges, you are running a continued debt to marginalized people and you should always be seeking ways to pay us back.”

She ends her article this way: “Not to alarm you, but statistically speaking you are the problem. Your very presence. I can’t tell you what is the best strategy for you to stop blocking my path. I can just ask that you please get out of my way.”  END

good GOD. this is a black female MATH professor.

i mean i expect this shit out of a sociology professor. i just get hella rustled when i see it in a STEM/engin/math/CS prof.  im starting to think they are almost as bad!

all the articles/news ive seen about Activist Professors…there has been a STEM prof in there. Terrible!

may 27 : FLOPPED QUADS. QQ. flopped QQ something. was able to go all in and finally get above muh buy in.

i have gotten quads a number of times, semi regularly, but dont think ive ever FLOPPED quads.

high school. high school is terrible. 14, 15 year old boys should be hanging out with ADULTS, even 20 year olds, training them in real world skills, one on one or in small groups, instead of retarded girly cliques of high school. boys competing to be cool. you know whats cool? having a skill that’s worth 15 dollars an hour. getting respect from real men for having real skills in the real world. not competing for popularity by doing degenerate shit for sluts and worshiping negros. getting fooked up on MJ, booze, opiates, “molly” so you can show what a bad boi you are to gurls and other bad bois.  this is what happens when you get 800 14 to 18 year olds together. high schools are a jooish cancer that need to be abolished. just partner 14 year old boys up with working adults who can train them in jobs skills. 1 adult could train like groups of 5 boys at a time.

might want to tack on 7th and 8th grade as well. i think this is when it all started going wrong for me hahahaha. basically adolescence. adolescent kids should not be spending so much damn time together in large groups. spend more of that time with adults, learning real shit, rather than being in your fake, bullshit, DEGENERATE teenage world.

you can have same-age friends, just dont spend fookin 30 hours a week with them, in this shitty social scene. and you should have friends of all age groups. have a 22 year old friend who is like an older brother and who wants to see you succeed, who is still in the same generation as you, can understand Your Generation and Your World better than your parents can. who at the very least can get you a 14 dollar an hour FT job when you are 18 and dont know what you want to do with your life.

was thinking it might be best for 21 year old men to marry 17 year old gurls. just guarantee the young men that they will have a 17 year old virgin waiting for them if they work hard until they are 21.

if i knew i was absolutely guaranteed a good life when I was 21 or 22 for the years of delayed gratification, maybe i would have been more high energy about it hahahaha.

well, i kinda thought I WAS guaranteed a FT 13 dollar an hour job at least. a boring 9 to 5 M thru F office job making 13 dollars an hour.

I WISH!

instead you might be able to get a 60 hour a week including afternoons and weekends, where you dont have time to be BORED, because you are being put in front of a FIRING SQUAD for 60 hours a week, having to explain your way out of the weirdest shit. you’ll be too anxious and panicking and nervous to be bored!

but you might get overtime for 20 of those 60 hours and therefore make like 32 grand a year instead of 26 hehehehe.

and people think you are stupid and you cant even pull milfs or gurls your age who have been with 25+ guys, they are all going for your managers.

today i got the idea of going to a HOOKER and I felt pretty positively about it. maybe it was the nice weather, like its the start of summer, muh fav time of year. memorial day weekend hehehe.

i mean really. assuming a 25 year old women has been with 10 or less guys is a little naive. its prob gonna be more like 20 to 30.

cant believe there is no audiobook of GLR’s hwyte power. well, theres a text to speech robot one, and unless youre a total autist neet virgin, you cant listen to that shit. alex linder has done a few audiobooks but not this one.

i would do it for minimum wage hehehe. also i dont want my voice out there, so i wouldnt do it hehe. but if i did, i would do it for very cheap, and i would use a 20 dollar microphone to sound good.

emily youcis might do something with VVN 1433 Metal band Bound For Glory. who i should really listen to a bit more. i heard a couple of their songs and they did not sound bad. kinda like slayer i guess. source: the hourlong may 2017 interview with nick something.

here is the newest (2017) album from them. they have been around literally forever. sounds not bad! they have always had kinda lame artwork tho. i guess you gotta go to joo skool to learn how to be a visual artist hahahaha.  but the music sounds good, drums and all.

i mean its like they TRIED to make a good cover art but had a total dilletante do it. somebody who thinks they are good…..but really isnt that good at all. you want to see a version of the guy hammering shit on a forge done right, look at voice of steel by nokturnal mortum. GREAT cover art there. they can get GREAT cover art and they are poor ukrainian racists. at least i HOPE they are still racist!

i luv being a racist hahaha.

big taake concert in about a week. i should make it my mission to confront hoest and SELL him on the idea that he should adopt Full Blown VVN. Be like, you can still hate mudslims and draw hookcross on your chest. but you have to stop being a drunken degenerate and start caring about the 14 words. yes you can also still be a tree worshiping pagan and hate the k1ke on a stick. just stop drinking, stay away from degenerates like kvarforth, dont try to be so edgy, find a nice woman and have kids, and start studying the JQ moar. go talk to varg. youre like 39 years old brah. come on. get with the program.

hey i get it. i luv 90s black metal too. but look at varg. be more like varg. you dont need to abandon 90s black metal. but you havent made a good album in 14 years hhahahaha. since you were 25 or so. ever since then youve been a washed-up drunken degenerate.

somewhat later

ok did 2.4 mile powerwalk in beautiful sun, warm weather, may 28. trying to introduce Slow Jogging back into these things hehehe. because it is good for a mans health to step things up a notch hahaha.

this guys channel has good stuff it seems. racial stuff. hehehe. in 2017 racist russian black metal is well-produced and listenable and catchy!

in other words, there is PLENTYYYYY of pro-white, anti-jooish, racial music you can listen to. extra bonus if you already like black metal!

i mean maybe they are drunks or on krokodil. but they look pretty healthy. thats usually a good sign. USUALLY.

i was listening to this interview with kelly brogan MD who has a very bourgeois jooish MD establishment edjoocation, but then became a bit of a renegade after getting her big credentials. believes SSRIs are over prescribed, that depression is a symptom not necessarily a disease, we need to take a more holistic look, anyway she sounded very promising, and the pharmajooz hate this goy shiksa. now all she needs is to become 1433 hhehehehe. she is rich enough to be a psychiatrist in manhattan yet she is saying these very non jooish things. i can respect that!

this is not the interview i am listening to but she prob says a lot of the same stuff. discussing the ideas in her book “a mind of your own.”

hmmm didnt realize it was a best seller. or targeted mainly to WOMEN. i dont care about WOMEN, but the book might be helpful to men with the condition as well. i was impressed with her interview. book came out in 2016.

she is also very attractive and hwyte. she has 2 young children apparently. why not 3? i HOPE her husband is not a joo or asian or other nowhite. hes prob a joo. i dont want to look him up hahahaha.  i h8 joos more than AH did hehehehe.

CONFUSION. I cant tell you how bad CONFUSION is. especially when people are RELYING on you to STOP FOOKING AROUND, STOP BEING CONFUSED, TELL ME WHAT IS GOING ON, AND FIX THIS STUFF! ITS YOUR JOB!!!!!!!

FIGURE IT OUT! YOUR EXPLANATION WASNT GOOD ENOUGH! FIGURE IT OUT! THATS YOUR JOB!!!! THATS WHAT WERE PAYING YOU FOR!

so of course there is anxiety and dread and panic mixed in with that confusion.  and total lack of confidence and cool. its very unsecsy. makes you look VERY bad to both employers and women. and clients in case you are self-employed hehehehe.  it will make you a loser at life.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/jordan-peterson-growing-up-and-being-useful-is-the-new-counterculture/109222

i first heard about this peterson a few years ago but i keep noticing him more and more. he’s prob a joo, but he offended the pc police by being TRANSPHOBIC hehehehe. because he refused to call a trans student xir and oppressed them by misgenderpronouning them. shit even when I was in college it wasnt THIS bad. there was very little trans shit. plenty of antiwhite, communist, revolutionary, gay shit though. but not TONS of trans shit like there is now.

why the hell havent i watched this multiple times? its only 6 short hours!!!!!

its really more entertaining than MK. the use of “unchained melody” in the very first scene is quite off putting though. you get over it quickly though.

honestly for all the infighting that goes on, nobody has anythign bad to say about TGSNT or dennis wise. maybe he’s just a really nice guy hahahahaha. well good for him. the movement needs more people who are slow to bitch about other people in the movement. divisive infighting bitches.

but i was always annoyed at how wise doesnt immediately tell you where he got all that damn film footage from, like young AH at war. its part of a movie he def didnt produce himself. what movie is it?

who is the “expert” he is talking to about 6 minutes in? you dont even know who this guy is. it could be wise himself. or is wise the english guy narrating? i mean the narrator is GOOD, so thats good at least.

you use a damn caption to indicate who is speaking and what their qualifications are. john doe, MA, part time instructor of history at bumfook junior college. HailVictory1433, posted 1000 posts on stormfront and got a xmas card from don black hahahaha.

ufmll, internet racist since 2012, who donated 5 dollars to greg johnson and got a thank you note from him. that kind of shit.

so it just comes off as INCREDIBLY AMATEURISH AND UNPROFESSIONAL to NOT CITE SOURCES like that. even HIGH SCHOOL KIDS needs to cite sources in their papers. if i were writing something for my 11k a year job, i would try to cite sources when i was saying something that wasnt obvious.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/lauren-southern-praises-kek/109551/

lauren southern is always a divisive topic hahaha. atm i believe that if she is encouraging young women NOT to be whores, to get married young and start having many children, to focus on family not career……uhhhh how does that hurt us. yeah i dont like that SHE might be a mudshark slut but she is prob less mudshark slut than 66% of women.  the message she is getting out to 240k subscribers is a great message. if she saves even one white gurl from being a slut, then shes worth it.

so IOW there is too much LS-h8 on DS hehehehe. but DS is filled with such woman haters they get angry seeing a qt young woman saying good things like being a slut is bad.

well because we wish we had a young qt gf who thought being a slut was bad!

also you look stupid when you claim she is a J. she revealed her 23 and me which is more than k1ke enoch has done hahahaha.  but shes apparently jooish because she said her grandparents in denmark escapes the ebil natzees.

do you really expect a MAINSTREAM MEDIA CELEBRITY to say ANYTHING good about natzees or ANYTHING bad about joos?  this is the best it can get, is her being Anti Feminist. its surprising she can even get away with that.

there was no expectation she would ever name the J. i mean shit she LEFT the J ezra levants rebel media, while gayvin mcanus stays for those sweet joo shekels. makes out with milo, shoves dildos up his ass, has hapa kids with an asian. literally.

the younger generation is better than my generation. the women and the men.

but yeah it is a bit triggering when you are a 35 year old incel foreveralone neet to hear a qt 21 year old gurl telling other college gurls that being a slut is shameful, dont do it. youre like DAMN where was any sort of push for this when I was 21?????

yeah i was a degenerate in many things, but i also wanted a virginal waifu and a nondegen monog rel.

anyway. lauren southern has more potential to redpill people than something like TGSNT. which present an immediately favorable view to AH, and no sources. someone who’s not ALREADY sympathetic to AH is gonna be like, what is this neo nazi amateur bullshit, guy plays unchained melody, steals film footage, doesnt cite sources, doesnt even tell you who’s speaking. typical redneck holocost denier!

but LS can reach 250k people because shes a young qt gurl and presenting as being on this young hip new cutting edge of right wing “journalism” thats younger and hipper and edgier and smarter than fox news.

im not saying TGSNT is crap, im just saying youre not gonna redpill anyone with it. youre not gonna CHANGE ANYONES MIND with it.

which is kinda unfortunate! i bet dennis wise DID want to change peoples minds with it!

that being said TGSNT is certainly well worth watching. but i say that as one of the Converted hehehehe. i already luv AH and h8 the jz.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hitler:_The_Rise_of_Evil

ok this is the 2003 tv movie it uses heavily

basically in 1916 it looked like a done deal that GERMANY would win ww1. but da jooz ruined all that and instead germany ended up getting HUMILIATED and DESTROYED.

because at this time the US was brought into the war, to defeat germany, and the UK gave the US palestine in the infamous balfour declaration. well the didnt give it to the US outright i guess.

bromberg = bydgoszcz where poles slaughtered many germans in 1939. this was “west prussia” were there was many germans getting persecuted by poles. really wish the poles hadnt done that.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bloody_Sunday_(1939)

really wish poland could have just negotiated with germany and given them some of this land.

Image result for map of germany before ww1

this is useful map, but wish it showed cities.

but yeah i basically need to get a 23 and me because i believe most of muh dna is pole, but its in that weird area where there were lots of germans. basically silesia.

LOW NUMBER, GOOD FATHER

apr 22

well met with the old friend and thank GOD he was on good behavior yesterday and did not drink at all. not at all. not before i arrived, i didnt have to blow into his breathalyzer, he didnt drink at dinner, didn’t drink afterwards, so, i got everything i had hoped for. when he doesnt drink and is a normal person like this, then i dont MIND hanging out with him! maybe he went and pounded vodka right after i left. but hopefully not. and i would almost be able to tolerate that, as long as i didnt see it. not that that would be good.

as a kind of bonus i tried to Red Pill him on Porn because he watches too much of that. I gently explained how it can warp your mind in ways you dont even realize. who is making this? WHY are they makign this? is it NORMAL for women to stuff huge things up their ass? do normal women do that? do normal men want to see that? did you always want to see that when you were like 13 years old? i stopped watching porn and it is the best decision I ever made. how about lets just do a fun experiment here and you try to stop for 30 days and see what happens.

oh hell no, not 30 days, i dont want to do that.

well why not? why would that be so bad? 30 days without porn, is it really that hard? why do you want to watch it so bad? isnt that interesting? is that normal? is that the way humans should be? who benefits from turning us into weird perverts?

ok, how about a week then. can you try one week for me.

i tried to sell him on one week. dont think it will work but if i can get him to think of the joo rubbing his hands saying GOOD GOYIM, then thats a victory for me. I explained that image and told him to think of that next time he wants to look at porn, which is like every fooking day.

do you really need to look at porn every day? every WEEK?

really once you stop for a month, you dont WANT to look at it any more. youre like this is gross and wrong, this is turning me into a jooish pervert. this is bad. TURN THAT SHIT OFF.

and you WILL SEE some porn eventually, inevitably, on the internet, or from these fooking GOYS who are watching porn every day. he talks about all the 40 year men at his job who are always watching porn and talking about secs.

im like wow, these are 40 year old white men. do you really think thats normal? dont they have CHILDREN? would you want your DAUGHTER doing porn, or being a hooker, or a stripper, or working at hooters, or even just being a basic slut??? would you really not care?

yeah but i dont have a daughter and I dont want to have kids.

well imagine you DID have a daughter. and then we can Explore why you dont want to have kids.

because its no benefit to me, plus the world sucks. which is basically shorthand for saying i don’t believe I can raise winner kids in such a sucky world. which is fair enough. I dont think I could either. not least of all because I cant even take care of MYSELF, how could I take care of a wife and children.

maybe spending more time withe white babies would help him.

not that i needed to spend time with white babies to come to the conclusion that having hwyte babies is a great thing.

anyway i was just thrilled he was not drinking. I heavily suggested that it also doesnt do him or anyone else any good to be raging falling down drunk.

so, all in all, better than expected! thank GOD!

he is also somewhat redpillable because he doesnt like blacks and race mixing hahahaha. so i jumped on those topics. but really tried to make the porn connection.

when you are watching porn almost every day, you think its NORMAL. you cant see how FOOKED UP it is! just another thing which makes it SOOOOOOOOO terrible!

oh im just a prude. well kind of yes. but what the fook is a PRUDE anyway. anyone short of being a total pornified jooish pervert? then we SHOULD ALL BE PRUDES.

ok its one thing when omega virgins watch porn and cant talk to gurls. WHAT ABOUT MARRIED GUYS or guys in a monog rel? like muh porn watching friend. he is married, his wife totally knows he watches porn, im sure shes not thrilled with it, but she just accepts it as normal and doesnt think its a huge deal because hes not watching 10 hours of porn a day.

sad! and i think a lot of women think the same way. oh, ALL GUYS JUST WATCH PORN. ACCEPT IT. its not worth getting mad about.

heh. that is not the proper attitude. although i wish they took that laiisez faire, im not going to overreact attitude with other things that they tend to overreact on, like everyhting hahahaha.

so youre a 40 year old man and still have SOME secs drive. but your wife is a fat slob that you dread having to bang once a month like al bundy. (but his wife was attractive!!!! (but i think also a jooess.))

probably some of these wives are like, yeah i know im fat and gross, and i just cant compete with these hot 20 year old gurls in porn, so, whatever, just look the other way.

im talking full blown working class whyte people here. the ones that work for a living and arent pill popping single parent household trash, but people who struggle every day to make barely enough money, have wives who get fat, and kids that turn white trash just because their father is working 60 hours a week and doesnt have TIME to lead his home.

well then i say he should drop down to 40 hours a week and spend 20 more hours a week leading his home, and just save money elsewhere. no cable, no expensive pickup trucks and suv’s, no eating at restaurants, move into a hwyte pride single wide in a rural area.

but what if you have medical problems and thats why you have to work 60 hours a week and be an Absent Father?

I say when your work INTERFERES with you being a good father….then change your work. you have to work 40 hours because thats the rule. But I would say not a SECOND more if it interferes with the time you spend with your FAMILY.

dont slave away working 80 hours a week saying your doing it for your family. i know you believe it too! its a jooish LIE! youve been DUPED! you would be worth more to your family in the long run to spend that time with them, and not at work. just make less money and make your kids wear used clothes. this will keep your daughters from become strippers, sluts and mudsharks, and your sons from being neet white  trash pill popping phaggot loser deadbeats! white trash, in short!

ok LIFE is inherently competitive, there are winners and losers. this is why WE need to be competitive, despite what they tell you in joo school. schjool hahahaha. tell all the kids to not be competitive so they can all be losers in the real world.

so what about decent, fair, hwyte Productive Enterprise? in contrast to scamming, lying, cheating, exploiting Jooish Capitalism? Yes, Hwyte Productive Enterprise is ALSO competitive. There are also winners and losers.

its not inherently nonwhite or jooish to be competitive or to have winners and losers in other words. even in an all hwyte country there would be winners and losers and that would be natural and normal and nothing wrong with that.

spencer in his auburn speech said “THE STRENGTH OF THE WOLF IS IN THE PACK; THE STRENGTH OF THE PACK IS IN THE WOLF” which i’m not sure who said that first.

it was a good speech, do recommend. would have liekd more out of mike enoch.

now azzmador is getting very black pilled. he says theres no demand for his work because nobodys donating to his show. 40000 downloads and only 6 bucks in donations in the past month. and i was 5 bucks of that hahahahahahahahaha.

i think he might be bipolar but he is still a great man. i hope he cools off and comes back.

i think most people would gladly pay like 25 cents to download, but thats just really hard to arrange.

this huge “woman hater” on DS says you can turn even “nice gurls” into huge sluts by just asking them to touch your D. then say how bout giving the tip a nice little kiss. then next thing you know shes gobbling the knob, which are “womens little white lies” in that they dont count for anything, they dont MEAN anything, oh theyve only FOOKED 37 guys, but theyve SUCKED HUNDREDS.

well if its so easy to get them to suck, and so easy to convert the BJ to full blown fooking, how come they havent FOOKED hundreds of guys too? if its so EASY to convert a BJ to fooking? something doesnt make sense there. but i do really like the guys baby steps approach. i just wish women werent such big sluts. he says just make women suck you for doing small favors like driving them somewhere, teaching them english, buying them lunch, etc.

show them that you know that they suck guys as a form of CURRENCY. youre WISE TO THEIR SCHEME, and now YOU WANT IN! saying the whole thing with an Alpha SMIRK, like you cant fool me, ya little slut. now blow me. come on. just the tip.

he says average white guys bang around 20 gurls by their late 20s. betas bang 1 or 2 or 0. alphas bang 70 or more.

great thread. tried to download whole thing, cant figur eout how. here are some choice quotes:

INSANELY LONG STRING OF IMPORTANT QUOTES

guy1:
I remember when I was 27, just got my first IT job.

I walked around in my dockers and button down shirt and had a “real job” for the first time in my life. I was finally ready to meet a wife and settle down now that I had a stable job. lol

It was like f00king kryptonite, no 19 year old woman or any woman for that matter wanted to date me.

Took me a while to realize, yeah women like men with jobs but you have to make WAAAAAY more than her for it to matter.

Before that I was a musician who bilked institutions out of shitloads of money to buy practice time. I got WAY more female attention, even from “good” girls.. lol

Now I’m older and especially today my lifestyle is impressive to them simply because it is out of reach for someone their age.

 

guy2:
The White men have no chance with that little whore generally because they’re beta cucks who don’t know what they’re doing.

But if we have white Sharia, none of that will matter.
Core message there is not giving a shit if you impress some jumped up piece of ass.

The less you care the smoother the sailing.

guy1:
Well also women have different standards than men.

You’d have to either be top of the pile or bottom of the pile. lol

Either a ken doll with comparable genetics and a massive income/bad boy status or a f00king refugee from Africa. lol
Yes, I find that to be true.

When you get older you naturally care less so it’s kind of like “wait, he’s not trying to f00k me”. lol

Or she starts acting like a bitch and you make fun of her voice and shit and she ends up laughing. Before i might have got mad and stormed off or got embarrassed.

A lot of young guys don’t have that kind of game yet, they don’t know how to handle an annoying bitch in a positive way.

I think it’s just harder to not care in your twenties unless you’re killing it already.

Definitely personality is a huge part of attraction and you just get all that experience dealing with difficult people over the course of your lifetime.

guy2:
Well when your aspirations and ego is caught up in a woman’s attention, you’re f00ked.
That said you will still need to chase a female at least in the very beginning by talking to the dumb whore and f00king her etc.

Then you can coast.

This is why musicians get pvssy, they’re in high visibility situations where the sluts approach them.

And women love music because it panders to their meaningless abstract emotional pea brains.
So they already feel an emotional connection to the musician.

guy1:
The thing with women, especially the better looking ones…

If there’s anything even slightly “off” about your personality and you’re not super good looking…adios. It’s really brutal. lol

And a lot of people of the newer generations..some of them are great to talk to but some of them just get really awkward.

Like there will be a pause and I’ve had some of them just kind of run away because they got anxious. They play so many video games they’re sort of autistic.

Bad social skills will tank you with women. I even have a list of mannerisms to avoid like putting your hands in your pockets and shaking your leg…I used to get rejected all the time until I fixed them one by one.

Every woman I’ve ever dated got pissed at me if I put my hands in my pants pockets. lol

guy2:
If you can’t eye f00k them and hold the tension with controlled paced speech and allow pregnant pauses…. Then you’re f00ked.

Thing is, all these Casanova arts are irrelevant if we have white Sharia law.

guy1:
Yeah just brutal directness and knowing when and how.

At this point in life I’m confident to say to any woman I know reasonably well that I would like to f0ck them or have them watch me masturbate. I’ll detail everything I want to do to them with a smile while they look absolutely shocked. lol

Actually I’ve never had a woman turn that down. If they turned down sex I’d say “well I’d like you to watch me, I think that’s fair” and she’d say “ok”. While she’s watching me I’d make sure she at least touches it, squeeze her boobs and anything else I can get away with. lol

A couple weeks later after watching me she’d call and we’d meet up and it would happen. I’ve done that a lot, it’s pretty easy.

She thinks it’s ok to watch but she doesn’t realize she’s getting slow boiled, females are very susceptible to this. Get your foot in the door and it opens easily.

Once she’s seen me naked and she’s touched it and had my hands all over her there’s little point in resisting and we are no longer just friends.

If I got resistance I say things like…

Well I think you should watch, that’s really the least you can do…

No, I think that’s more than fair…I must say I really do.

That’s fine if you don’t, I’m just saying I want to…(more graphic descriptions of ravishing)

It’s so funny that this shit works…anyway that’s why everything is so f00ked up.
Basically in a nutshell kids, sexual harrassment absolutely f00king works.

That’s why it’s illegal for white men only.

Ever noticed that? lol
There was this blonde bitch I worked with.

When she worked at my company I never made a move even though I knew she liked me.

As soon as she got canned I showed her my coch and banged her and it started with making her watch me whack off exactly as I described it.

She wanted me to do something for her so I said, “well I have something I want you to do for me”.
Also if there is a girl by the side of the road or stranded at a gas station…this happened a lot in Florida.

Girls would ask me for gas money, help moving or all sorts of dumb shit they can’t do themselves.

I’d say, sure but I want a quick BJ. Same deal. lol

And if you want to marry her you can just give her your phone number, there’s no such thing as dating anymore. lol

But who wants to marry these sluts, that’s the thing.
I’m not getting likes on this because most men don’t want to believe it but it’s true.

When you talk the way I described, they stop putting on the act because they know you know the real deal. You’re not some sucker they an screw around with, they know that I know they’ve done this shit before.

These are not freakish women either, they’re ordinary kinds of women a normal man will date.

But I will never date them unless they can do something for me like clean my house or make me dinner, give me money, etc.

And I certainly would not sacrifice my freedom to get children from their diseased wombs and kiss their herpes ridden mouths. lol
The realization that most women will pay for basic services with sex is the ultimate red pill.

In Brazil, guys who teach english will tell you the girls over there will offer to f00k you for English lessons rather than pay. It’s not so much that they don’t have the money, they like sex and if they think you’re cute at all (esp if you are white American) they will gladly f00k you.

Women in Brazil or anywhere in SA are actually incredibly f00king easy for Americans…also in their culture it’s normal to just f0ck all the time. lol

Sometimes if I really wanted someone and they wouldn’t budge, I’d just offer them money. I’d say look I know you’re not that into me but I’ll give you $1000 and I’ll never tell anyone I promise.

Yup.

guy2:
Never do a female “friend” favours without at least getting a blowjob in the exchange.
Very true.

Blowjobs to women are like little White lies, usually in their mind they rationalise it as not counting as sex.

Always get women to give you blowjobs, this is not a sex preference thing, this is a understanding women thing!

 

another

The funniest sex story I have that illustrates your point is this girl I’d been on a couple of dates with.

Very immature, very shy, very scared at the idea of f0cking etc etc, kept using her Female friend as an excuse not to be alone with me.

Finally got her alone in my car, had given her and a friend a lift somewhere.

Kept my little whore in the car to say goodnight etc, the friend has left, drive the car around the corner into an alley. Middle of The night.

Kissing leads to heavy petting, I go for a blowjob, she’s very self conscious, won’t do it.

So I pull it out, hard, start jerking it off in front of her face.

Then my favourite line of all time gets used….

“Baby, just kiss the tip, just once and I’ll stop….”

Anyway, she kissed the tip, did a lot more and swallowed a load.

Moral of the story, women work with a gradual breakdown of resistance, small victories lead to winning the war.

later:

The average normal white guy has f0cked around 10 to 20 girls by the time he’s in his late twenties.

Extreme betas are virgins or limping on one or two sexual experiences in their twenties

Then you have sexual alphas who will have f0cked anywhere between 70 to 300 girls.

Then you have sodomites who will generally have f0cked anywhere between 500 to 3000 men by middle age.

Negros are known to have high std rates as they f0ck quickly and frequently with strangers.

Sorry I don’t​have the J00ish sources for the academia f4gs out there. I have a brain and life experience instead.

OK THE END

I have tried to protect their anonymity by changing their forum names haha.

that was some of the best red pilling on the WQ ive seen in a long time. now those might be the two most “woman hating” guys on the bbs, even moreso than anglin himself. i read their shit and i say, DEAR GAWD, i really really really really really hope not all women are like that!

then we could assume the average 27 year old woman has been with 25 guys!!!!!!!!

i wonder if these tactics would scare the TRULY good women away. that the second you pull your D out, they say fook you you negro pervert and LEAVE. not be all COY and shit.  THAT would be the only way for the woman to pass this test.

but yeah i copied and pasted so much because there was THAT much worth copying and pasting between these two gentlemen today hahaha. so i thank them for their great talk. i am not trying to shame them. i am trying to THANK them!

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besides there is word of many threads disappearing from the forum. im sure mods are deleting some but ive also heard the hardware just cant HANDLE all the traffic and action and shit just gets corrupted and not backed up, its unbackupable or something, even weev cant figure it out because he’s not good with rails and docker and god knows what other bullshit tech. this is why i hate technology as ted kaczynski did. weev made the analogy of its like asking a russian literature phd, you’re an expert in language and lingustics, can you translate this spanish thing.

that even a super smart guy like WEEV would be as about as useful as ME just because he doesnt know RAILS. well, thats where I am on EVERY language.

and then the computer fooks up and its impossible to fix it, and even MORE impossible to determine WHY it fooked up. computers and tech are SO COMPLEX you literally need a phd to make even a LITTLE sense out of one type of computer. ITS NOT WORF IT.

this is partially what led me to Give Up on “IT” and Programming Courses and Computer Science. the shit will drive you literally insane. in a way computers are just as jooish, evil, and crazy as women hahahahaha.

lesson: i guess become a diff type of engineer. i’d lean towards mechanical. but if you live near a lot of oil, try chemical. also mechanical would be good there.

actually, just do mechanical because robots are just gonna be more and more important. automation goy! MACHINES.

but yeah. i would not want to marry a woman who pretends to be all innocent, and then she falls for the Pushing Thru Resistance, Just The Tip bullshit. and has done that with 20 guys. do you want to marry a woman who has fooked or even just sucked 20 guys?

makes me sad abotu That Woman, because she used to be truly innocent. but now i could totally see her pulling that coy bullshit as she quickly increases her number from 2 to 20 over just a few short years. DISGUSTING!

oh well its her life to fook up, she didnt have a good father, SHE DIDNT HAVE A CHANCE. SAD!

but i had nothing BUT chances: good family, ok education, decent friends. so I MUST have been a bad seed! well, i wasnt TOUGH. and i got too into alcohol and MJ from a young age.

bla bla bla weve heard this all before.

chicken wings might be a miracle food. not terribly hi cal, and very high in protein. less calories than beef. although beef is still pretty miraculous!

but yeah. married and LTR men who look at porn regularly and both man and his woman think this is perfectly normal, because all men look at porn regularly. this is a fooking serious problem that is maybe 14th on the list of other very serious problems hahaha but its one that is in my bailiwick hahaha.

yeah but its not STOPPING these men from having hwyte children, so…..its NOT really serious then?

(many of these men have hwyte children.)

uhhh well i would say it is def harming their rel with their wife, and possibly harming their skills as father. do you think the ideal father is beating off to 18 year old gurls 3 times a week?

i mean im sorta glad these men still have any secs drive.

but i think some of them dont really have a secs drive, they just “like looking” at porn and they ARENT EVEN BEATING OFF TO IT. just ogling and gazing and staring at it. this might be even WORSE than jerking off to it!

i mean what do NORMAL PEOPLE do?  i dont even know! i dont know many normal people! Normies! my porn watching friend is def not normal. I am not normal. he talks about his tuff guy male work mates who are all watching porn.

are they really ALL watching porn, or do the porn watchers just talk about porn with each other?

i really hate to think its NORMAL for All Normal Men to watch porn.

the two men i work with are very normie and very respectable. you think THEY watch porn? I would think they DONT!

and if they do, i imagine they would feel ASHAMED about it, as they SHOULD, and they prob wouldnt do that more than like once every couple months at most.

but these are men in their 40s and 50s. i am more concerned with the porn viewing of men in their 20s and 30s.

well i mean if 40 year old men are using porn regularly, thats obviously not good. its prob worse, becuase at that age, they should KNOW BETTER.

ever try explaining to an enthusiastic porn user why they shouldnt use porn? for you, its OBVIOUS. for THEM, its equally obvious – why WOULDNT you want to see hot young gurls doing really hot shit??!?! and wouldnt you like to be the LUCKY GUY fooking that crazy hawt tattooed suicide gurl in the ass hahaha.

porn makes you think stuff is HOT that you SHOULDNT THINK IS HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stuff that you say, damn, thats PERVERTED, no thank you.

but now obviously, all fetishes are perfectly OK as long as everybody CONSENTS.

absolutely porn is all a part of that. NORMALIZING PERVERSION.

dont call it a FETISH, call it PERVERSION. ABOMINATION. be ashamed, be very ashamed.

i mean ill probably always have my own perversion of wanting ot bang gurls in the ass. if i had a gf i would probably try to bang her in the ass. i def wanted to bang That Woman in the ass. i dont think this is gonna go away. but really im just happy as long as im not watching perverted porn on the topic. i mean i havent intentionally watched porn in well over a year. sought it out for the purposes of looking at it for at least 10 solid minutes and jerking off.

so its hard to put myself back in the mindset of someone who does just that several times a week! i dont want to be in that mindset! but its good that understand the people Im trying to help hahaha.

 

CAPTAIN SAVE A CHILD

mar 22

heh.  i was thinking about how ridiculous it is to be rejected by something you want to be part of. like i want to give you a donation, nope we wont take your donation because you suck. thats even worse than we wont take YOU, but well take your money. what about just stop sending us money. but you still do good work and i want to support you.

i mean with WOMEN, you say, welp, i tried, i struck out, you dont want me, i’ll just move on. but what if WEEV rejects me and says he doesnt want my money? that doesnt make weev’s work less valuable! i would still want to support it!

well this is not gonna happen, i just got amused because i thought it might happen hahahaha. no weev is not gonna reject me or my money. it would just be funny and ridiculous if he did!

well it would be CUCKY to continue donating to him if he did. so i would say i luv what he does but he doesnt want my money, so i stopped giving.

anyway its not werf talking about because it didnt even happen. it shouldnt happen. its worrying about absolutely absurd shit.

did you know you could get a DUI for passing out drunk and Sleeping It Off in the drivers seat of a car? this is what happened to chris cantwell, who i am kinda liking more and more. he is a better writer than i guessed he would be, and he is kinda like me in that as a young man he rejected the authority of the CHURCH and was very rebellious and he liked drinking and smokin MJ and didnt want to stop because it was too much fun. then he started getting DUI’s and seeing that drug people were degen losers. but he kept drinking because now he had a drinking problem. anyway he went to jail for 2 dui’s, that sucks. some states its 3, i guess in his state it was 2! damn! i might become a libertarian too hahahaha. but now he is moving away from that and is becoming more and more racist, which i like. he struggles like crazy and he is trying so hard. i can sympathize and Empathize. he always has trouble with some damn dirty sluts. probably because deep down he doesnt believe he deserves a good white women, so he gets these crazy dirty mulatto sluts.  but he does deserve a good hwite woman!!!!

holy shit. when i get up at 5 am, like CLOCKWORK i want to take a MAD powernap around 3:30, 4 pm.  i would not even be done with an Honest Days Work by then!

GLR’s “hwyte power” is quickly losing momentum. it starts off very strong in the first 2 chapters but then drops off. still very readable and not at all bad, but just a big dropoff in momentum. still worth buying and reading though. just not as fun as it was in the beginning. maybe a joo editor would have helped him with his pacing hahahaha.

there is a new autistic muppet starting on sesame street in april. i should not be surprised. actually i AM surprised theres not a Transexual Muppet yet. honestly. that would be the best way to sell such a thing to children. honestly! i dont even think there is a GAY muppet, that is REALLY shocking. i cant believe theres never been a gay sesame street muppet in the past 10 years. what a great way to turn hwyte kids into gay sissies who will never reproduce.

he spends a lot of time talking about Communiss in Cuba and china and the communist connection with oswald and the JFK assassination, whcih to be sure, were uge stories when he wrote the book. i think he is saving up most of his joo hate until like page 100 or so. just wish he’d get out with it earlier.

tempted to look at reddit relships but fighting the minor urge cuz i know its gonna be filled with leftist hamster wimmin and omega sissie bitchbois apologizing to them hahahahaha and begging for table scraps.

mean the relships arent rocket science when the gurl LIKES you and is WILLING to make an effort to be with you. thats all you need. then you can make all the mistakes you want and she will keep giving you chance after chance after chance after chance. none of this one strike and youre out shit. that just means you NEVER had even ONE chance. so i guess i should feel reassured by that. because once i thought i had ONE chance hahaha. you NEVER get just ONE chance. unless you do ahahaha. who cares. god damn negro fooking degenerate pig wh0res. nothings sacred with these degenerate jooish pigs.

ok ok i am being negative again. negative nancy. have to have a more positive attitude. it was an overly negative attitude and negative thinking that got me into this MESS.

how to stop negative thoughts? you identify the thought as negative, then say STOP! YOU SHALL NOT PASS!!!!!!! and just say that to most of your thoughts because most of them are probably negative. about how women are horrible, or how you are a weak soft untough neet virgin loser who cant handle the tough adult world.

you can keep the negative thoughts about joos because they really are awful hahahahahahaha. but i would recommend thinking about some pleasant things to balance that out.

some people feel about GOD and JESUS and RELIGION the way I feel about The Hwyte Race. Good for them I guess.  I wish I had that kind of faith but I dont.  as long as they have a healthy sense of racial hygiene they dont bother me. when you start adopting africans for jesus youve gone too far. or missionarying in africa . well i mean the mormons do that and then they STILL have 10 white kids by age 23, so…..good for them. hope they stay that way.  i have heard unsubstantiated rumors that mormons are darkening hehehe. i hope not.

nothing against the christians. i am technically one. its not an inherently bad message. i dont even think its inherently jooish. although some people make it pretty jooish. and that’s bad. obviously.

franco sinazi with his new song which is a parody of “strangers in the night” and is very very very catchy. play it for normies and see if they notice. negros beaners and skypes hahahaha.

just waiting to go to damn bed. i might not have done much but i probably did my best hahahahahahaha. well i guarantee you i didnt do my worst. and at least im not a neet anymore. and i am not a virgin hahaha.

mar 23

wow a metal show that i immediately said YES IM GOING I HAVE TO GO I AM EXICITED TO MAKE AN EFFORT TO GO because it was on a good night and most importantly, a good location. great location on a good night. the band taake. now i dont know much about current year taake, but I do know that the first 3 taake albums are very good. and that taake/hoest made insensitive remarks about mudslims and once got drunk and drew a SVASTICA on his chest hahahahahahaha. he is a drunk degenerate but I feel he might be a little racist.

he couldnt keep up the impossibly high average set by his first three albums, but for those he earned his place in the pantheon and I will gladly get high energy about going to see him live in a few months. a honest Black Metal show. haven’t been to many of those. closest thing would be I saw mayhem once. mayhem counts as black metal hahahaha. are you kidding, mayhem totally counts as black metal.

i dont see why black metal shouldnt be “live” music.  I would luv to see any of muh fav black metal bands live. i would gladly go see deathspell omega play a shitty sloppy show hahahaha.

anyway. eavesdropped on great conversation between successful professionals about their college age kids. you just assume the kids are gonna get masters degrees, get good jobs, get married, have children.

well what if they dont. what if they fook up one of those. or like me, ALL of them.

the kids all have IDEAS of what they want to do. well i wanted to go to MED SKOOL but got cold feet on that so i started an ENGIN degree instead. i know to get a good paid internship after my second year of uni.

im an 18 year old gurl and i want to become a physician assistant and i know i have to get all a’s in college and go to a good grad school to do that, and i am prepared for all that. i know to never get a B, never to do drugs, never to get less than 3 good internships. these middle class parents set their kids up to succeed hahahaha.

well i wasnt set up to FAIL. i was given all the CHANCES to succeed but I didnt have enough personal agency or pushing. I needed someone to make bigger decisions for me because i didnt know how to make big decisions. i didnt want to go to grad school, i didnt even want to go to college, i just wanted to sm0ke MJ and jerk off to porn all day hahahahahahahahaha.

i mean what do you do as a concerned parent when your kid starts to fook up. do you say, well he’s old enough to start making his own mistakes, and hopefully learn from them? what if he doesn’t learn from them?

i wish i had been more of a normie like this guys kids hahahaha. i bet this 19 year old engineer nerd is actually a normie chad who has had a gf hahahaha. he will prob be successful even though he as a 19 year old boy likes sleeping in till noon sometimes. oh. i thought the RULE WAS, you have to get up at 4 am at the latest EVERY SINGLE DAY if you EVER wanted to be successful in life, ie, outcompete all the competition and get a sick 30k a year middle class job hahahaha.

basically, i was weirder than i thought i was hahahaha. i was SUPER weird. SUPER jelly of the NORMIES.

and maybe for normies, its not such a god damn neverending struggle to succeed. its not easy, they still work hard, they struggle some, but its not like madly thrashign just to tread water. they are not always on the verge of falling apart. otherwise more normies would fail.

well there’s plenty of failures too!

anyway weekend nao. took a benedryl. will take 2 valiums later. wouldnt mind some MJ. but not craving it as bad as i did 1 month ago thank god. I am still prepared to buy a huge quantity of it should the opportunity present itself.

i dont like how women make you all competitive hahahaha. i had a dream about some old friends, some really great guys i remember fondly. it wasnt until i was hanging out with them as a group with WOMEN that I became aware of the idea that, damn, these guys are COOLER than me, and would totally have an advantage over me for women. yeah it MAKES SENSE, they ARE cooler than me, I just wish I could hang out with these guys apart from these women. These are good guys and I dont want WOMEN to cause any DRAMA. but why should I be mad at the GUYS? and i wasnt. i was butthurt at the GURLS hahahahaha.

There never was any real drama, thank GOD.  i mean this is just the classic broes before hoes situation.

taake live. thats pretty cool though. i wont know the majority of the songs but i bet it will be good. hoest is known as a Good Performer. Intense. im sure there will even be qt yung gurls there because qt young gurls like metal nao, they have for like 6 years hahaha. maybe i can get some of hoests sloppy seconds hahahaha.  i know better than to want to marry a metal grrrrl hahahaha. not interested. expectations status: managed.

ate dinner, back, took valium, now sitting here drinking coffee, play some cards, this is the best time to do MJ but i dont have any. prob should not take valium then drink coffee, may be like throwing valium in the trash hahaha. oh well. whats done is  done.

being able to SELL stuff. being TOUGH. these are good LIFE SKILLS that will be valuable in ANY and EVERY job. its simple. the better you are at these things, the better you will do in life. DIRECT proportion. direct relationship. really its full blown CAUSE AND EFFECT, not just corrolation.  the younger you are when you learn how to SELL shit and to BE TOUGH, the better, because the easier it will be for you to MASTER these skills quickly.

i was always pretty weak at both.  i cant sell myself to women, cant sell myself to employers, cant sell my damn RACE to other members of my race. and yeah being TOUGH will help you SELL better too. sales.

how jooish is casablanca. i often watch TCM channel and see oldass movies. most of them are more jooish than i would like. hollywood was jooed since like the 1920s. since movies began they were jooed. casablanca. heavy themes of the natzees are the bad guys. evil natsees. well shit. do you expect a movie where the natsees are the GOOD guys? theres never been a single one. expectations. manage them.

but yeah he is lovelorn for ingrid bergman. not bad. he never wanted to see her again. what the hell happened between them in paris? she dumped him for lazlo? but she really luvs rick?

wirrten by joos, directed by a joo. its def watchable though. good cuddler with a good waifu hahaha if she doesnt fall asleep because its so old and boring and then leave you for a more EXCITING man.

also its CONFUSING. thats my fault because everything is CONFUSING to me, i have a learning disability called everythings confusing because i sm0ked too much w33d 10 years ago, so i can’t make sense, understand, or explain anything.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Casablanca_(film)

you know who WASNT jooish? HITCHOCK. WELLES.

bogart fought AGAINST the fascists in spain in casablanca. joos are always anti fascist. therefore, fascists are the good guys hahahaha. what was the most successful, long lived fascist state? how did croatia happen. was croatia ever “fascist”? what about sweden? norway was “occupied” but it wasnt technically an “axis” power. was sweden?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sweden_during_World_War_II

it was “neutral” and unoccupied

maybe norway resented this?

i dunno its impossible for me to learn and to answer questions and understand situations at all , hahahaha

NOTHING MAKES SENSE. NOTHING. hahahaha. you can try to make sense of it, but you will fail.

had some diet red cherry mello yello today. when i used to drink soda i used to get code red or code blue mt dew. what the hell was the blue stuff called. VOLTAGE. omg. i was notorious for drinking mt dew VOLTAGE. best soda ever. but they didnt make a diet version. i didnt see if they had blue diet mello yello but they had red and i was happy with that.

of course diet soda is so crappy you dont like it as much. i just had 1 because i was at burger king and had a drink and they had one of those touch screen 50 flavors sodas. pretty amazing that. how the hell do these minimum wage people fix such a thing when its broken. there were white kids working there. probably because fast food is actually such a TOUGH job only white kids are SMART enough to HANDLE it. nonwhites are TOO DUMB FOR FAST FOOD JOBS.

i mean these are not easy jobs folks. you have a TON of shit to do, with no fookups. dealing with disgusting fat degen customers stuffing their fat opioid degenerate faces and bitching at these poor white kids.

808 pm. taking second valium.

NORMIES can get MJ rather easily because they are SOCIAL. but normies also dont become total p0theads. they are happy to just partake once in a while, in moderation, or a huge binge every couple months. that’s basically moderation.

so im saying degen p0theads are not normies??? in a way they ARENT!

so are normies winners or losers? i would say generally they are winners compared to losers and nonnormies! 28k might not seem like a huge winner…..but it really is! and prob most normies make arund that. a fast food manager makes that.

oh well. at least i am not fat any more. and i have a place to live. and a good fam. it just sucks that at one time i had a halfway decent MIND……and now i dont.  i mean i am not batshit schizophrenic thank GOD…..but i just feel like a confused idiot child mcuh of the time.

and i want to do MJ????? you think that will HELP this mental state? fook no, itll make it 14 times worse!!!!!

heh. it would be really fun to get blazed as fook and then go to that taake concert! and then just stay in the back. or maybe go right up front and give Roman Salutes to hoest so he knows I am down with the 14 words hahaha.

MAYBE there will be ANTIFA protesting the show like antifa protested marduk recently at some of their US shows because marduk Is Interested in Semi Fascist A E S T H E T I C S.  and they were never photographed with a svastica on their chest hahaha. thats more than enough to get you protested by jooish antifa.

at their best, taake is much less boring than marduk. marduk has like 1 classic song. taake has several and they are much more creative and brilliant than marduk’s 1 classic song (“christraping black metal” which just relies on 2 very catchy riffs.) taake has riffs that are very catchy, but still somewhat “weird”, and they piece 1400 riffs catchy but weird riffs together in a way that does not sound like riff salad masturbation like nile hahahaha. he has a good songwriting sense and a great production sense as well. but again all this kinda declined after the first 3 albums. also he comes from the same town as b00rtzum hahahaha. also he wears super grim corpse paint and convincingly pulls off grim and hate-filled.  also he waves a large norwegian flag sometimes, which suggests sympathies to Nationalism. that or he supports the marxist zionist ZOG traitors who runs norway now hahahaha and is a total NEOCOHEN.

pretty sure he is a drunk tho and might do other drugs. pretty degen.

i am cautiously optimistic it will be a fun show even if i only know 1 or 2 songs. he might even have a new album out now, who knows.

ok i guess he had a us tour in 2016 but did not play near me so i didnt miss anything.

ok, shining is also doing a us tour with REVENGE. not big on shining but i think REVENGE would be an awesome live show. and i would prob stay for shining hahaha even though they are totally degenerate and ridiculous.

sheeeeeeit that show is coming to town but in the worst possible venue, a venue i will avoid for being in a black ghetto and just the trashiest place in the trashiest neighborhood, where i have missed GOOD shows just because i didnt want to go to that shitty shitty club that even by Metal standards is ultra degenerate. i would go if someone else were driving and i cannot really arrange that. well shit maybe i could park in the nearest hwite neighboorhood and get an uber from there and back hahahahaha.

oh shit i dont have a smartphone so i cant get an uber hahahaha.

i mean this place is just no fun and a huge buzzkill anyway. and shining is degen AF, glorifying drugs and suicide. whereas revenge glorifies death, destruction, power, conquering, slaughtering, hellstorm, very very ultra masculine. but kinda degen because of their total nihilism and unfocused hate. lets just get drunk and hate everything. hate all humanity equally kind of misanthropy that has gone beyond mere despair.

i would prefer just to see revenge headlining in a smaller, nicer club.

and j. read is a BEAST of a drummer and basically i would just be going to see him in person doing his incredible stuff. and sometimes the guy from angel corpse plays with them, pete helmkamp, and he is a kewl dude. and probably less degen, more principled, less of a drunk hahaha. not sure if helmkamp is on this tour.

its not cool to be a drunk you guys. its worse than you ever imagined. stop fooking drinking. you are doing untold damage.

mar 24

bought the taake ticket. not tickets because i am going solo hahahaha. really dont have anyone i would like to go with. none of muh acquaintances would be remotely interested in spending 20 bucks to see a show they are not interested in. its really amazing all people dont go to Shows Solo. that they can find other people interested and who have the time available. even if i still associated with That Woman, i couldnt get her to go to this, and if i did, she would probably dump me for a tougher guy at the show, or hoest himself hahahaha.

well ya know i could very probably find some MJ among the metal people in the crowd or parking lot.

sweet might be able to buy 10 dollars of MJ in 2 months from now hahaha

ok adding to muh spreadhseet of BIG DATA ANALYTICS re sleep times. i have been marking when i go to BED, then best estimating when i actually FALL ASLEEP (ABOUT 45 minutes after I get into bed). it would only make SENSE to then mark when I wake up, and then use that to calculate an  average of how much sleep i am actually getting.

so i have started simply adding the wake up time, which on job days is 5 am. very consistent. on nonwork days it is maybe about 9:30 am.  so how does THAT affect the AVERAGE in other words? it looks like muh average now is 8.5 hours of sleep. i knew 7 wasnt enough. on Work Nights i am averaging about 7.5 hours. and then getting 10 to 11 hours on non work nights. so what does it all average out to??? probably about 8.5 to 9 hours. but a few more weeks of Big Data Analytics will help me get a better number. I always needed and sought out a lot of sleep. absolutely more than 8 hours.

dont know who is playing with taake. in UK he played with fen, who i have been meaning to check out, and with winterfylleth on the london show, who are very awesome and i would love if they did a us tour. been liking the UK Atmoblack in 2017 hahahaha. and Fen is right in that scene but havent listened to them. never heard anyone say anything bad about them. they are on muh list when i get bored with winterfylleth which will take a while hahaha. esp since i dont listen to music all the time like i did when i was young. have more important things to concern myself with. music is inherently decadent and soft ahahaha.  real people have to WORK to SURVIVE. you think the great men of history sat around and listened to music for hours each day? they maybe listened to a MINUTE of WAGNER and then went out and conquered the world. made white babies while listening to SKREWDRIVER. listening to music for HOURS every DAY is DEGENERATE and probably means you sm0ke MJ for HOURS every DAY as well.

the only thing you should be doing for HOURS EVERY DAY is WORKING HARD and WINNING.

also WORKING OUT and pumping iron would be acceptable. and spending time with your CHILDREN, helping them to become winners like you.

day off. went to grocery store. got gas. doing 2 loads of laundry. drinking coffee. playing cards. slept 10 hours and 20 minutes last night after taking 2 valiums and 2 benedryl incl 1 benedryl RIGHT before bed.

men and women can SOMETIMES be just friends….but also BE WARNED, that if your female just friend is at ALL YOUNG and ATTRACTIVE, be WARNED that one day just friends could turn into Unrequited Luv at the drop of a hat, and one day you will wake up with it dumped on you like a ton of bricks. prepare for the worst. and tell her that too. listen baby, im not in love with you NOW, but tomorrow i could wake up and be in total luv with you. yeah i know its stupid as fook. just prepare for the worst and i will let you know WHEN it happens so we can end this shit as painlessly as possible, or even better, you could actually try dating me hahahahaha. im better than a negro or an opioid addict. i have very good intentions and i mean you no harm hahahaha. i am just soft and lazy and boring and short hahaha. ive lost a lot of weight though and i luv children! hwyte children! im just terrible at being tough, persuading, leading, selling, making money, being successful, being a man!

there have ALWAYS been pickup artists and seduction gurus and there always will be, because there are two types of men in this world: those that struggle greatly to get any woman and are huge failures with women always, and those that don’t struggle that much and are basically Normies who get GF’s and wives and married and children etc.

guys who can get a gf and guys who cant. guys who know how to Be Around women, and guys who Don’t, and i wonder if those who Dont are simply hopeless, and this is a sign telling them they shouldnt breed. and this is where pickup artists and seduction community and theredpill and Game comes from. these HOPELESS CASES desperately trying to learn. but i dont think it CAN be learned. just accept you were born without What It Takes to Pull Women, and you will never pull women. ever. you were born that way and it cant be changed. the end. dont look at porn because its degenerate. you still can go to hookers, or try to do casual rels with trainwreck sluts on tinder or okcupid. just work on your career and try to make money. start your own business. support your race in ways other than having children of your own. start your own successful business and hire nothing but hwite men who really need a good break in their lives.  give money to weev and anglin hahahaha. dont glorify banging sluts but you could prob still do it privately. maybe be a foster parent to hwite kids only. dont be captain save a ho. don’t save hos, save CHILDREN.

heres whats apparent, when you average our all my sleep, i get an avg of over 8 hours a night. people need 7 to 9 hours. looks like i need closer to 9 hours. NO SURPRISE THERE, i just like seeing the Big Data Science Analytic Empirical Evidence bear that out. had a bit of a 30 minute powernap this afternoon which brought up muh average to about 8:37.

DONT SAVE A HO, SAVE CHILDREN.

Hoes cannot be saved, children sometimes can.

DONT BE A WHITE KNIGHT FOR SOME SLUT, BE A WHITE KNIGHT FOR SOME CHILDREN.

It’s not bad to be a white knight. its a very noble, natural hwite thing to do. it sucks that its got a negative connotation. but for the good reason that unrepentant sluts take advantage of it. so dont use it on them. use it on someone who will actually benefit, and one day be thankful for it: children. not your own of course because you will never have children of your own because that is too much for you to handle and you would be a horrible father hahahahahaha.

no those are negative thoughts. but what if they’re true? i think we concluded that its better to not even think TRUE negative thoughts. maybe if you are a normie, yes then you can handle it. but when you are a weirdo who has ruined your own life with constant negative thoughts, it’s best to not even think realistic, true negative thoughts. ITS BETTER TO DELUDE YOURSELF!!!!!!! literally! honestly! tbhfam!!

8 and a half mfin hours of sleep a night is my average hahaha. and i am not even super active!

this varies between 7 and 11 hours hahahaha depending if i have to get up early or not.

anyway i recommend doing this just to Get To Know your own body better. and especially if like most people, you “catch up” on sleep on your Days off. but you really shouldnt because sleeping in is for lazy losers who will never make something of themselves ahahahaha.

DONT SAVE A HO, SAVE A CHILD.

YOU CANT SAVE A HO. YOU CAN SAVE A CHILD.

hehehehehe. how do you like my nietzschean axioms. aphorisms.

ho = wh0re = slut = skank = thot = n>4 at age 24.

oh well. WHO AM I TO JUDGE. what the hell have i done with MY life. wasted it. just as bad as these THOTS. like them i have no dignity. at least they got some secsual satisfaction out of life hahahaha fooking negros and opioid poppers. tough guys in the trailer park. its not gay for them because straight women love getting pounded by tough guy dick. its as much fun for them as it is for men to pound an attractive woman. well maybe a little less because they get it so often so its not as “expensive” and SCARCE. but they still enjoy it and have more stimulation in the clitoris region and such. nerve endings etc. for men to experience that much pleasure they need to bang an 18 year old 8/10 or above hahahaha or pop some opioids.

i wonder if taake pops opioids since he’s just been rehashing his work post 2005 when he was….28 years old.  and his best work he did between the ages of 22 and 28 hehehehe. and now that he is 39 he is just gonna drink and opioid himself to death and do boring rehashes of his first 3 albums but never reach that level of inspiration hahahahaha. and be very hateful and hate everything and everyone hahahahaha. hey man what are you so hateful about. youve written 3 great albums, you’re a handsome norwegian man, you’re not fat, youve probably pulled some qt gurls, you get nocturno culto and attila to do guest vocals on your albums hahahaha.

wait he did a cover of a CURE song? now that is compelling! that was on an EP semi recently. after his banjo album. he used a banjo on one song and its all anyone can talk about.

anyway. im not the biggest taake fan but this will probably make me a bigger taake fan. i wish it were a band i was more into at the moment, like winterfylleth or saor or iron maiden or…..mgla is awesome and i would totally see them, they did a US tour but no show in the area. if i were a real fan i would have traveled like serious fans do. drive 500 miles to go to a SHOW is what REAL fans do. so im not a real fan. OH WELL. i dont like metal CROWDS anyway. fookin stupid degenerates who are pissing away their whiteness on being drunken and st0ned idiots who care more about degen music than by being winners in life. reminds me of myself. except i was never as TOUGH as the avg metal guy which was at least enough to get them laid with dirty sluts once in a while.  and to not be MEEK and WEAK and anxious, but to be TOUGH and MANLY.

MEEK. TIMID. DONT BE THESE THINGS. BE TOUGH.

yeah i was always MEEK and TIMID. ever since i was a young child. i didnt think it would be such a bad thing. im butthurt it WAS  SUCH a bad thing, since there are people who are even more meek and timid who didnt do as bad at life. i just took an all in gamble at some point without really knowing it, and lost it all hahahaha.

 

SOME KIDS JUST DONT WANT TO LEARN

jan 23

sheeeeeit. got saor tshirt in mail today complete with handwriting by andy marshall on the mailing label hahahaha. i hope he wouldnt CUCK like winterfylleth did hahahahaha he probably would tho hahahahahahahahaha.

better hope i don’t send antifa to your home because you have pride in your country and your “HERITAGE”, ya NATIONALIST HAHAHAHA. no dont you worry lad, but there are some crazy people out there. good thing i am not crazy in that way.

of course im just being an asshole hehehe. isnt it good enough that the winterfylleth naughton guy takes a vocal stand against cultural marxist, and is anti-refugee, and declares his admiration for pat buchanan? pat buchanan is about as awesome as a normie can get. he would be a great president hahahaha. i cannot POSSIBLY talk shit about pat buchanan. he is one of the greats.

still not as outgoing and extraverted  on the job as i would like to be but oh well i am trying. im just not used to a positive working environment hehe. met another educator today who was another one of those true believers, and i mean this in the good way, as in a totally respectable person who is passionate and dedicated to the success of their students. now this person has taught in schools that would Redpill a normal person on race, but this person fought hard so that even poor black and brown students who come from families of murderers and felons and drug addicts, living out of cars, homeless, eventually become college grads and get good careers.

the type of person you wish all teachers were like.

so what is it? bad administrators? bad teachers? not enough good teachers like this?

she also talked about her own children who were doing very very very very very well in life. better at age 18 than i will ever do hehehe. in advanced math and science in high school, going to good universities, doing good stem degrees, good internships, getting 20 job offers before even graduating univ, hang out with good people who dont do drugs, are generally well adjusted hard workers without emotional problems or laziness, and will go on to make a lot of money and get a lot of respect. and the way she was describing it she wasnt BRAGGING….but its impossible to not be VERY proud of your kids when they are this successful.

but they also pay a lot of money to do this very highly regarded, very selective high school program. where all the kids become hugely successful.

and muh manager who i also have a lot of respect for, he has children which he has entrusted to the public school system, which i thought was kind of mediocre. but as it turns out, there is an elite track in this school district, with a STEM high school, where all the kids at that school become successful. of course he is trying to get his kids in there. i looked at the schools website and 95% of the kids seem hwyte hehehehe. NICE. i figured they would be 50% brown because there are tons of indians and arabs in the area who i assume would be VERY interested in having their kids grow up to become successful, rich doctors and engineers. remove wirus on your computer hehehehe.

something like 600 applicants, about 90 kids get in.

SO YOURE SAYING ITS EASIER that getting a 25k a year job with benefits hehehehe.

i can’t blame them for talking about their successful, promising kids. but i feel envious because i can’t compare with that. i used to be promising too, but peaked at age 17-18, then crashed as soon as i went to uni.

the difference is that i did not go to a hardcore STEM high school. i went to a well-regarded private high school, but i did not consider myself ENGAGED at all as teachers would put it. I resented all the homework, i thought school was STUPID, i just wanted to do what i needed to do, so i could play vidya or internet or stupid music or, very regrettably, Party with MJ and alcohol. at the time, i resented the school, thought it was lame. maybe i would have felt the same way at a special STEM high school.

or i would try to romance the qt geeky STEM gurls and get rejected and go crazy like i did anyway hahahaha.

but yeah at the time i didnt even know our school district HAD a school like that. looking at the generally mediocre school district, i wouldnt have thought it. i didnt even know the district HAD this school until a few years ago. shit probably the school didnt even EXIST when i was in high school 6000000000 years ago.

well, wikipedia says yes it did exist. damn. looks like i missed out!

i didnt like STEM though. I never really did. I guess I sorta liked shit like english and history, but i didn’t like the AP versions of those, too much work I thought. All the AP classes. I really didn’t like The Whole AP system. Although doing AP classes def helped me get into a good uni. not that THAT did me any good!

and then i hear stories of poor blacks living in cars, dont have clothes and shoes, taking care of their sister who is a heroin addict, father is in prison, mother is on disability and addicted to pain pills, and then they go to local college, do well, and get a good job.

meanwhile i was set up and nurtured for success, but became a huge failure. which makes me think this stuff is either born in you or its not. and i was just a bad seed.

and these talented tenth black kids, well theyre outliers, and that was born into them too. because if they went according to nurture, theyd be deadbeats and failures like their families. and all it took was one great teacher to jumpstart them to success.

i had a good family! i had decent teachers! i did very in high school despite not liking it and got into a good college. that was my peak. i didnt like college either, and did mediocre, and since then, have been less than mediocre my whole adult life.

would going to a stem high school have saved me?

i think it COULD have…..but thats still far from a sure thing. 50/50 it would have saved me.

what didnt i like about high school? that it gave too much homework and that I didnt know any gurls.

but that gurl part is ON ME! it was up to me to meet those gurls and practice The Art Of Seduction!

i had an added challenge because there weren’t any gurls at the school, but that didnt stop the majority of lads who went there from growing up well adjusted and successful! besides, its proven that Separated the Sexes leads to Better Education, because gurls are too distracting for young lads!

but i was ALL BUTTHURT about it.

also i didnt start showing any serious warning signs till i was in college. well i did have some yellow lights in high school. like i was already drinking and using MJ in high school. but it only became a bigger problem in college.

i had a weird friends group. they occasionally used alcohol or MJ, but they were good people. they weren’t huge douchebags or bullies. i dont necess think i was hanging out with the wrong crowd. maybe it wasnt the BEST crowd, because i wasn’t hanging out with the huge winner DORKS and NERDS who didnt do alcohol or MJ, who later all became successful engineers or accountants or lawyers or businessmen hehehe.

i cant say i was hanging out with the wrong crowd, because i cant crap on these people. they are good people. unfort they have a 50/50 track record for being successful in life. i had like 2 good friends, one became a sad pathetic loser, despite still being a good person, and the other became a decent, well-rounded winner normie, albeit not thru college.

so WHY do i always want to smoke MJ? whats the ROOT of my DESIRE? Its not that i want to do it MODERATELY, i want to do it ALL THE TIME. if i had some, i would be doing it EVERY DAY, not on weekends only like moderate people.

so the big question is, why do i want to get INTOXICATED on MJ EVERY DAY????????

that is the question.

and if im honest, that IS what I want! I KNOW moderation is the better, smarter, wiser choice, and what I SHOULD choose….but i dont want it! I want excess! but WHY?

because i want some sense of escape and relief from being a huge loser in life who had a LOT of potential at 17, but threw it all away to become a huge loser for the next 15+ years hahahahaha.

but i hear these people talking about their 10 year old, 13 year old, 15, 16, 18, 20, 21 year old children, and I can’t help but think, what if I had been one of these children? and then feel envious.

part of the problem was i did think i HAD a problem with MJ or alcohol, and i was very good at HIDING it from muh fam, and I ABSOLUTELY was not going to go to them for help, even though they were MORE than willing. it would take until I was like 25, 26 years old before I even STARTED Seeking Help.

I mean I’m glad I did, but I essentially LOST the years 18-26 and I am very very butthurt about that! those are some really bad years to lose!

the following years have been better….but they havent been a LOT better. all my progress has been VERY slow, with some bigass setbacks in there too (see 2015 and 2016 hehehe.) and in a way the past 3 years have been especially bad. they are getting better now and i’m thankful for that, i guess its still gonna take a few months for that really to sink in.

this one kid goes to YEAR ROUND elementary school. how good of a thing is this? at the time i would have HATED it. i wonder if it would have been good for me though. kept me out of trouble.

but even though my friends did some of the stuff the “bad kids” did, they really werent bad kids tho. the main problem was my horrible, shitty attitude, and believe me, i had that ever since elementary school!!!!!!

shit yeah education is interesting and important. maybe i would have been a good teacher hahahahahaha. too bad i cant teach or explain shit. or help people become winners when i am a huge loser hahahaha.

education is important but i always hated SCHOOL. its ALWAYS been like PULLING TEETH. elementary, high school, AND college. all of it. and grad skool seems the same way.

they have year round elementary but not year round middle or high schools. why not? i would think middle and high school is where it woul be even MORE important, cuz thats when kids really start to get off the tracks.

https://www.care.com/c/stories/3283/the-pros-and-cons-of-year-round-school/

HMM they STILL have the same amount of school days, like 180. sheeeeeeeeit. I thought they would get way more, and essentially be like 2 grades ahead, which would be AWESOME.

some kids JUST DONT WANT TO LEARN hehehehe. i was one of those kids hahahaha.

but thats kinda WRONG. I did want to learn, but i didnt want stupid hours of homework, and i wanted to learn more about…..shit i dont even know. something different than what i WAS learning. maybe learn about how to seduce women, how to be charismatic, how to negotiate, how to have great people skills, the art of the deal, learning obviously useful workplace skills. that i would have liked. maybe a class on movies. shit i liked movies back then. degenerate shit but maybe i could have learned about less degenerate movies.

like pulp fiction was the big edgy movie back then. i was like oh this has got to be the best movie of all time. i was butthurt because i wasnt allowed to see it.

it actually was a pretty good movie, but ALSO very degenerate, and tarantino needs to go in the oven NOW. that was his best movie and it just wasnt worth his whole shitty career.  plus i was too young to ward off the degeneracy in that movie anyway.

shit when i was young, i LOVED DEGENERACY. literally. blood, gore, violence, pornography, vulgarity, marilyn manson, 3edgy5me, i was such a stereotypical teen! anything that was BAD or EVIL , i LIKED!!!!!

I LIKED DEGENERACY inherently! i sought out the degenerate! I loved it! i honestly dont know HOW i became so degenerate by age 16! i had a good family!!!!!!!

again, thoughts of being a BAD SEED.

i was rebelling against muh good family and muh christian upbringing……but did i have to rebel SO GODDAM MUCH?!?!?!?!?! I wish I hadnt! why couldnt I just have rebelled a LITTLE?!?!?!?!?!

there was no reason for me to rebel THAT MUCH!!!!! breaking my poor familys HEART!!!!! i mean i very well could have been POSSESSED.

well i am paying it back now. shit i’ve been a loser longer than i’ve been a winner. well, part of the time i was a winner, i was a degenerate. i guess its only fair that i should suffer being a loser, while i’m also fighting against degeneracy.

but it would be soooo nice to be a nondegenerate winner!

well i am a bigger winner than i have been in 1.5 years at least hehehe. in a way i am a bigger winner than when i was working my previous job, cuz there i was going crazy. soul killing job and a soul killing situation with woman. now i have really a soul-growing job, and no shitty situation with any woman.

and then i criticize myself for not taking advantage ENOUGH of my grateful, soul-feeding job. im not being charismatic enough with the WONDERFUL people.

well i just get there early, leave a little late, and just try to be friendly and pleasant. thats honestly the best i can do.

and it bears repeating for the 60000000000000th time, that if you study Education in Uni or esp Graduate Skool…..its pozzed and marxist as FOOK. it is pure jooish communism. like SOCIOLOGY. which is a big thing that turns me off of studying education.

if you get a room full of education experts, you will not find any 1433 types hehehe. you probably wont even find any damn CENTRISTS.

jan 24

fooking academics who spell their name with no capital letters, like bell hooks. they are always a phd with strong interests in feminism. even moreso than the average phd!!!!

just found a teacher who is my age, and had a useless degree from a good shool, but immediately got a masters degree in the same useless field within 2 years of the undergrad, and then 8 years after that, completed the phd hehehehe. i could have been a phd for several years by now. that feel when you are that age hahahaha.

well i mean theoretically you could complete a phd by age 25. more like 27 though.

anyway i havent actually met her yet, maybe never will. i just looked her up because she looked young and attractive in her profile pic. welp she’s not THAT young, she’s MY age but she still looks very attractive. in a tiny pic no less. a Hawt Gurl doing a humanities PHD. kind of surprising. looks like she should be in a Sorostitutority instead, hehehehe.

took benedryl at 3pm, try to go to bed at 730 pm. it is 7pm and i am already sleepy.

doing ok on muh dieting hehehe but damn i can get to the 1500 cals SO EASILY hehehehe. doing way worse that i was this time last year. well i lost 35 pounds since then tho. so good for me haha.

jan 25

beavis and butthead. weve forgotten about them but in the 90s they were YUGE. and degenerate that I was, I thought they were awesome. i wasnt mature enough to understand the joke, the parody mike judge was doing.

also, i argue that MJ basically turns you INTO beavis and butthead. so dont do MJ, because these are the biggest idiot degenerates and its a shame that they are hwyte. damn. and its SAD there is hwyte trash who is actually like this. its sad that i thought it was COOL. its literally the least cool thing ever. its degenerate and disgusting.

of course ive known about jim goad for many years but never really read him or listened to him, but he is a pretty good speaker. i know he did some degenerate shit though. i wouldnt kick him out of muh group though. unless he was married to a nonwhite hahaha. i think he is bisexual hahaha. i wouldnt want to be married to him but he does a good conversation hahaha.

oh shit hes friends with gavin mcinnes, cant like him anymore hahahaha.

i guess cantwell is getting more racial hehehehe. he is not scared to talk about bl4x and jooz, bad news hehehehe. i just came for the weev hehehehe.  they are both talkative and play well off each other but if you added more people in there it would be too much. so just the two of them works very well.  gets into the JQ around 31 minutes.

i dunno, i think chris might be coming around! i subscribed to him again hahahaha. yeah i know he has a nonwhite gurlfran. but he was open about that. he prob wont marry her hahahaha.