PROTEIN FOR THE HWYTE SOUL

june 15 2017

i am interested in the coworkers son, because the son is the SAME AGE I was when i went off track. he is 20 years old, in between second and third year of college. is thinking about changing his major from straight bla bla engin, to a BS degree that kinda combines engin and business/management. i think this should be ok. especially if the kid is an extraverted, nonvirgin chad normie, which i kinda think he is. no trouble making friends, not a lot of trouble with women, decent level of confident, no social anxiety, no anger or emotional issues, no huge problems with MJ or alcohol or worse, no real need to see a shrink, can hold down a job.  doesnt hate everything, has friends, not afraid to talk to people, etc.

he will probably be ok whatever his major, whatever his school. he could get a BA in General Studies at the local university and probably make enough money to have children and live in a safe neighborhood hehehehe. but his father, my colleague, wants him to maximize his potential, by doing a little bit better than that.

fact is, he’ll probably do at least ok no matter what he does.

but his father wants him to do REALLY well so he pushes him.

but not in an unhealthy way, like you go to harvard and become a doctor or youre out of the family. more like, go to cal state and become an engineering project manager fratboy chad.

i mean hes gotta be somewhat smart just to complete 2 years of intro engineering with math, physics, etc. people either fail that shit or they dont. he’s not getting a 4.0 but he’s prob not getting a 2.0 either! and that means something for engin courses!

so yeah im obsessed with this guys son. because he is at that exact age where bad decisions can lead you down the road to ruin. and he is having SOME doubts, but nowhere near the kind i had. he is having the type of doubts that will result in him make 50 vs 60k right out of college. being a neet KHV (kissless hugless virgin) was never on the table. i think he played sports in high school and probably even had a gf or at least fooked sloots in high school. sowed some of the wild oats, knows not to put the pussy on the pedestal, is focused on mammon like a good goy hahahaha.

type of OUTGOING normie fratchad who goes to parties and ENJOYS them hahaha. gets drunk, has fun, and bangs sluts. i mean the banging is degen negro behavior, you should be happy just making out with them. i would be. but blame the joos for turning our women into whores and our men into phaggots who cant keep the women in check.

apparently there are tons of foreign undergrads from asia, middle east, their parents are superrich oil sheikhs or something and send their kids to any old state school in the US, give them lamborghinis to drive. i dont recall seeing much of that in muh big state school 60000000 years ago. plenty of nerdy foreign grad students though. total autistic asian virgins. a lambo will get you 18 year old white pussy at the party school tho, thats a damn fact.

anyway. would be great if we could get this kid into 1433 stuff hahahaha. be a big winner for the hwyte race.

heres the problem. WOMEN ARE LIKE NEGROS. period. full stop. emotion-based, dont think ahead, act like big children, who lash out when they dont get their way and destroy shit. some of em might be nice but really they just need to be strictly controlled. honestly. their brains are wired just like negros. that is a disturbing thought. that white women are more like negros than they are like white men.

i dont say that as someone who hates negros. i simply acknowledge that Racial Differences are more than skin deep. like in the brain. and that alone makes me a super hateful superracist hahahaha.

i thought women were better than that…..but they’re really NOT. this is just the way women ARE, just like negros are the way THEY are. i just didnt think the two would be so damn SIMILAR!

i mean of course the negros are more VIOLENT.

i mean i dont HATE negros for just being who they are. they cant help it. i would just prefer not to be around their destructiveness and annoyingness. and i guess you could say the same exact thing about women!

i want them to be something they’re not! something they can never be (without like 1000 more years of evolution!)

and i want to be this guy’s SON! in that i want to be 20 years old again and have another CHANCE! and also be a well adjusted Chad Normie.

cuz the fact is, when i was 20, i was already fooked in the mind as far as being an anxious neet virgin weirdo hahaha. i mean its not the end of the world compared to the shit WOMEN have, but you should still get it fixed ASAP and not wait till youre 25 to start fixing it. or 26. hehehe. fix it NOW because not only will you never get those years back, but you will be forever BEHIND and regret it the REST OF YOUR LIFE!!!!

hehehehe.

POSITIVE THOUGHTS ONLY. STAHHHP THE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS BY ANY MEANS NECESSARY. except drugs and alcohol. except MJ and benzos hehehehe.

i was also a little grumpy because the volume 2 audiobook of MK on christogenea is so messed up. it is missing chapter 7 and 8 or maybe its just out of order. so i am just downloading a new one of the ford translation i guess? there is ford, murphy, and manheim. i am not sure which one i have been listening to.

couldnt stop comparing myself to the guys son, and that is a GUARANTEED way to get in a REALLY bad mood, almost as if i am thinking about WOMEN or THAT WOMAN. heh many things put me in a REAL bad mood hehehe.

well at least i did not eat too much at lunch or dinner today and disciplined myself there hahaha.

THANK GOD!!!!!!

i couldnt open the m4b files i found. just put CHAPTERS on YOUTUBE. and here it is. the man who might be good ol sven longshanks reading it. i have gotten used to listening to his voice for 30 hours, i didnt want to switch to somebody else, i am loyal hahahahaha

oh praise GOD. this is EXACTLY what I am looking for. I can USE this. now I just HOPE they are in order, with no parts missing. it doesnt look like it though. course thats what i said all the other times hahahaha.

it would be faster just to read the book hahahaha. but i feel it sinks in better when i listen to it. i have not enjoyed READING BOOKS for YEARS.

got to get into the race based state however. the folkish world concept. volkisch weltanschauung. this is the terminology he repeats many times. i was trying to think of a dogwhistle that people who have ACTUALLY READ THE BOOK could use to signal to each other that they were true Bruders and not infitrators hahaha. feds.

hey fellow whyte people, whats happening hahahaha.

stories of women who divorce their husbands at age 35 and then become cougar milfs banging HUNDREDS of guys. women who start their slut stage at 35. it can happen.

who cares. as long as its not that woman i dont care hahaha. that woman is the only woman i care about hahaha. WRONG. who cares. she can FOAD. she is ded to me, i am ded to her, the end.  its been 23 fookin months. 1.9 years. almost 2.0 hehe. thank GOD for AH. the wisest, greatest man who ever lived. in 100 years we will realize this, or we will all be extinct hehehe. there is no person living or dead i would like more to meet.

i mean i guess you should say JC. i mean i wouldnt be against meeting him either hahahahaha.

june 16

ok day off. was remarkably productive. driving all around going to 6 different places. including walmart where i got some clothes including some Shorts for Summer and a Plain White Polo Shirt for when i need to look presentable. faded glory brand. excellent. walmart brand hahahahaha. i do luv it. bought the wrong size. bought an xl when i intended to get a MEDIUM! now i need to go BACK to walmart and RETURN it.

came home and it was nice and warm. sunny but with signif clouding. wanted to get vitamin d and ideally, Sun Bathing Tanning action in the local park. got out to park around 2:25 pm. nobody there but some mexican lawn cutters. stripped off shirt to get sun on chest and Stomach. sat on bench with no shirt, no hat, soak up max sun. 60% of the time nice and sunny. occasional clouding. read 2 pages of MK. last chance to get sun in a while. i guess i made the most of it.

tried Fasting All Day. Friday. old skool catholics fast EVERY friday, not just in lent. have not eaten anyting all day. no breakfast, no lunch, will eat large dinner.

also got nice short haircut on balding head. should go back in 8 weekes.

walmart. great clothes. great fashion for men hahahaha. i just cant believe i grabbed an XL instead of a Med.

heh. should i drive 10 miles just to go to a walmart that is more hwyte? just to i dont have to LOOK at nonwhites? it wasnt too bad today by the way.

ideally i would have children and raise them in that area where the walmart is mostly white hehehe.

my current area is gonna eventually be overrun by arabs. its either blacks, latinx, or arabs. here, its arabs. lots of christian arabs actually but by god are they annoying. the only good thing is that they dont do Terror Attacks like the muslims. they still do negrolike violent crime though, like assault and drug dealing, drug robbery. not really a lot of mugging. they are probably better than blacks. some of them are nice family oriented people. and they have a lot of children. great.

better than blacks, latinx, or muslims though. it could be worse!

oh yeah. and albanians. they are about as bad as the christian arabs. very little difference really except one are turks and the others arab. big deal hahaha. i appreciate the racial difference but really behaviorwise they are almost identical. i cant tell who are worse looking. some of the young women are attractive sluts of either race. i would prob rather bang an albanian slut than an arab slut tho hahahaha.

DEGENERATE.

but it really wouldnt be worth it dealing with their aralb friends and family. believe me i only find the “hottest” of them bangably attractive, not jaw droppingly gorgeous or something to lose my mind and my racial integrity over. im just talking if a 19 year old good looking one were throwing herself at me, that i would have to make no effort, not be charming, not be witty, not be anything.

not a big deal man. yeah its not ideal but i would just be using them as a nonwhite kvm dumpster.

instead of saying sluts we should just call em kvm dumpsters. more shame there hahaha. although honestly i dont think there are many women who are PROUD to IDENTIFY as “SLUTS.” they are still insulted by it. which is good. they SHOULD be.

so yeah. MK is one of those books like the BIBLE. you dont need to read it all at once really quickly (although theres nothing wrong with that.) its just the type of book you can have at your bedside for your WHOLE LIFE and just open it up and read a few pages every day. just to bring you closer to your Racial Essence, like reading a few pages every day of the bible is supposed to be like prayer that brings you closer to GOD.

so just something similar with MK. as you progress through your own kampf hahahahahaha.

MK is not a short book. its not 300 or 400 pages. its not even 500 or 600 pages. its 690 pages hahahahaha. well, they are not SUPER long pages, but still.  its not gonna win anyone over. it preaches only to the choir. but to the choir, its one of the most important books ever written.

really i should get a book of his SPEECHES. better, english READINGS of his speeches, with a reader who is at least average.

there another audiobook of MK with an english guy who sounds like he is falling asleep. i imagine that would put you to sleep! the younger, higher energy guy is so much better.

anyway, david dukes my awakening is a much better thing to give to the normie. much easier to swallow. i should listen to it again. i never finished listening to it! its also at least 600 pages long.

i really do recommend it strongly. it was actually a pivotal book for me, all the more reason to listen to it again. i never “read” it per se. but listened to duke reading it. this was in 2012, possibly even 2011.

heimbach giving an hourlong speech in june 2017. wish the video/audio quality could be a little better. but the audio is not horrible.

thank you alt right andy! this guy is great. he puts everything on youtube. the alt right andy channel got deleted by j’s, but andy addams is the same guy i think.

anyway, full 45 parts of my awakening. listen to it. turn off the jootube, vidya, porn, sportsball, and listen to this whole damn thing.

like i say, its very good for NORMIES. who would never dream of reading MK.

its also very good for non normies!

sooooo it might be a BETTER  book than MK?

uhhh its definitely easier and funner and has a bigger reach hahaha.

also. david duke is probably the best KNOWN VVN 1433 guy since hitler. basically EVERYONE has HEARD of david duke, all normies have, well, anyone over 40. he’s mentioned regularly in mainstream media at least every 4 years hahahaha. as a horrible racist whos the next AH. i wish hahahaha.

so listening to my awakening and seeing that he is not such a horrible man makes you think. what else has the media been lying about. why are they lying about such a smart good man. why are they so threatened by what he says. and with the info in that book you’ll be able to answer that question.

https://archive.org/details/DavidDukeMyAwakening

heres the whole thing in downloadable mp3s. wonder when archive.org will shut this down the way they shut down the william pierce podcasts!

ok i put it in the sidebar. its THAT good.

give it to your boomer parents who dont understand why you are full 1433. give it to your shitlib middle class friends who read nytimes and guardian and dat-negrisi coates and think DD is AH.  give it to basic bitch fox news watchers. give it to joo loving evangelicals. i dont actually know any of those hahaha. give it to whites at your church. give it to white women. give it to Based Blacks and Arabs hehehe. give it to your college instructors. yeah it might be more important than MK because it has the potential to do more good and change more minds.

im serious. turn off whatever degenerate jooish think you’re watching or listening to, and listen to THIS. it is INFINITELY better. that shit is negative and poisonous. this stuff is beneficial, like PROTEIN for your white SOUL.

not just chicken soup. although i guess it would serve that purpose too. rehabilitate and heal a sick soul. which is great. most of us have sick souls. but it will also make a healthy soul stronger!

just wish duke got out more and did public shit with spencer, or esp anglin. he always has anglin on his show. talk about two great minds!

how much video of him is there for his 2016 senate race? that was amazing. wish he had won. but he needs to continue being out there talking to normies. i dont care if he’s had plastic surgery or he cheated on his wives or hes a huge gambler.

if you get a very light pink shirt, it’s probably not phaggy. it can look fairly professional. just get solid colors….but light solid colors, like pastels almost. super BOLD colors are too much. found that out the hard way. have a solid red dress shirt and wish the red color were just a little softer.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/the-sexual-revolution-batman-had-sex-with-eight-women-every-night/113120

interesting. we probably shouldnt glorify excessive male promiscuity because its ruining young white women. but its hard for a man to say no to this kind of celebrity, which all women have when they are young, and which the vast majority of men NEVER have.

basically, don’t act like a negro. banging hundreds of women is what a negro would do. but again, i totally understand. i mean if qt young white gurls are THROWING themselves at you…….how many would it take for YOU to start saying no?

author eric striker makes the correct argument here:

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This is as funny as it is sad. I’m willing to bet many of these women had husbands or significant others too. Imagine walking in on your wife cucking you with Batman and Robin high-fiving over her. We’re living in clown world.

But there’s a lesson here for all young men: marriage will never be what it should under present conditions. With the pill, legal abortion, urban anonymity and weak-willed men open to marrying them after they’re over the hill and used up, women spend most of their best and most fertile years as groupies.

Do you want the sloppy seconds? END

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/trs-ripoff-podcast-chapo-trap-house-making-63-000-a-month-for-their-corporate-product/113804

striker does an article on this awful chapo trap house. one day i should actually listen to it. its an edgy leftist marxist podcast by 3 bearded hipster phaggots in brooklyn on how whites are evil and need to be genocided.

this is how they present themselves hahahaha

such punchable faces. they go to grad school in nyc and quote audre lorde on their facebook hahahaha or is it bell hooks. whoevers the edgier academic PoC feminist.

funny that you can still tell its the middle guy thats the joo, and the other two are just low-T white sissies.

 

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june 2

start of muh weekend, perfect time for MJ, and yeah. cant get any. but its degen anyway. but so fun. its not as degen or as jooish as p0rn. i just wish i knew someone who could get some! its harder to get than heron hahahaha. its harder to get than a 28k a year JOB hahaha.

heard anecdote about someone who who have to pay 21k a year just for health insurance, so they decided to go back to work.  i couldnt even understand the boomer logic. i thought you struggle your whole life so at age 40 you might be lucky enough to Earn a job that gives you health insurance. by probably taking 5k a year out of your paycheck anyway. one does not simply get a job just to get healthcare. healthcare is a privilege thats almost a luxury for only the highest of achievers. you are lucky to just have a FT job that pays you 28k a year. then you should pay 21k of that to get health care hehehehe.

just treat every young woman you meet like a slut who’s taken 50 dicks……BECAUSE SHE PROBABLY HAS.

what the hell are you even supposed to TALK about with women?  how disgusting, slutty, and childish they are? i guess. give it a shot. so, sucked any good dicks today? get any interesting diseases lately, ya disgusting wh0re?

talk about their careers. hows your career going?

that feeling when your stomach wont stop gurgling very loudly. maybe a mix of being hungry, and a mix of drinking shitloads of coffee which can irritate the stomach of course.

tfw you hate women but cant stop thinking about them. obsession. not just with specific women, but all women in general! yet youve spent less than .0001% of your waking ours with women.

well thats not true. what about the women at jobs. there would be women around for HOURS.

yeah but youre not interacting with them directly for HOURS.

shit i dont even mind taking orders from women. besides all the women i work with are competent and actually smart, and decent people too.

although today i had a good day because ____________.

today i did some good because i had a bit of normie chit chat with colleague where I shared a bit about myself, namely that I am very hesistant to get a Masters degree, but I know it could prob help my career, and I know I’m not a total idiot and would like to make 28k one day; but that I had a hard time at muh old job and had a real hard time trying to get to this job, having to job search furiously for months and get rejected at 30 interviews.

this is not a person that could hurt me with this info, in fact they can probably HELP me. they WANT me to succeed. to win at life. they, god help them, think i am smart and a good writer and communicator and that i can be a winner in life. so i Shared a bit about My Struggles the past couple years. not in a vulgar way of course!

tried to explain how I can recognize good writing and that I consciously try to be a good writer but its not easy.

i also cant say I write a crazy blog, and that 99% of the writing I read is hwyte supremacy stuff. MK and daily stormer hahahaha. i dont read books and stuff like normies. so i lied and said that I regularly read the NYtimes and WaPo to get an idea of how Professional Writers write clearly.

well i USED to regularly read the slimes 10 years ago when I was a joo hahahahaha. Now I only read hister and anglin and shitposters on forums hahahaha.

I mean anglin is honestly a great writer and he doesnt have a masters degree. i dont think. weev is a great writer and he doesnt have a masters degree. not even sure he finished his bachelors degree. i know he WAS doing a bachelors in MATH. which is AWESOME.

oh yeah. i wanted to say greg johnson is a great writer too. but he has a phd. and he is a drama queen hahahahahaha. but he honestly IS a great writer.

this is why it helps to have normie interests. which i dont hahahaha.

well i could just say i read breitbart and takimag and……..city journal. national review.  wall street journal.  yeah i could say that.

well i tried folks. i really tried the best I could at the moment.

I also KINDA figured out how to do some queries on excel sheets. and google sheets. basically a SQL type select * where A=June OR B=Yes. It was very important to get that OR part to work correctly. it is hard to get actual OR functionality with Mere Filters. and, no problem. or, big problem.

with google sheets, you would say =query(NamedRange1, “select * where B=’June’ OR C=’Yes'”,1)

it was the first time that I had to actually do something so “advanced” in excel since I was taking an Intermediate Excel CLASS 7 fooking years ago.  and I never had to USE this skill on a job until now.

ALso I COULD have just used 2 separate filters and just be aware that there were a couple “or” cases dangling outside the venn intersection.

the Masters Degree Boomers wouldnt have known how to do this. although maybe the GenX PhD Student Manager might have been able to figure it out. no offense to anyone, even these Boomers are very nice people.

this is why i get paid the big bucks of 11k a year!

i just get frustrated when i get a change to Speak Freely, and then i fook it up and dont express muh self clearly and sound like an idiot!

get an opportunity to Connect with someone and sell myself as a likeable, decent, interesting normie, and come across as an awkward idiot who still hasnt learned how to be an adult.

but they really dont care! if they do care, they are judging me positively with Sympathy and Concern and Caring. Rather than let this pathetic dead weight loser die off as a genetic dead end. More like, he still has potential and im gonna help him find it . he just needs a chance and im gonna give him that chance.

yeah i a judgmental as fook, prob more than i should be. but the thing is, heres the thing, if i actually KNEW a real person who was struggling, i would have compassion for them. even if in the abstract, i would say, cull the herd, weed out the weak, might makes right, cull yourself.

especially if they were a white man and they seemed like a decent person, i would show them sympathy and make an effort for them.

i saw a ridiculous bumper sticker yesterday: ITS NICE TO BE NICE.

But i fundamentally agreed with it, quite a bit. this is actually my MO when actually dealing with actual people in actual real life. nobody would suspect that I am a hate judgmental racist sexist whyte supremist neo nazi woman hater; OR that I am a super despairing debbie downer with no confidence. i just seem like a very sweet, mild mannered nice guy, because really I kind of am. but I am also a hateful hwyte supremist woman hater too! WHY NOT BOTH!

the thing that causes me the most TROUBLE is being the despairing debbie downer with no confidence.

https://assets.documentcloud.org/documents/3760414/Letter-from-Dylann-Roof.pdf

 

interesting

june 3 saturday

ok beautiful day, got 10:30 hours of sleep, did a bit of laundry, 12;08pm now, i should be Raring to Go, but I am not. I just want to sit here and ake a nap and do drugs hahahaha. by that i mean do MJ.

alcohol generally makes people more degenerate. sloppy drunk negros. muh dick. who cares about principles and morals and the future of our children, lets just get drunk. i did exactly that.

but what if you are already a principle hwyte warrior like i dunno anglin or weev? are THEY allowed to get drunk? I think so. and i think they DO on occasion. not a problem.

i think when strong hwyte men like this get drunk, they dont ultimately end up compromising their morals or their race. maybe they might bang a slut. big deal.

as long as they arent getting sloppy drunk every day, its ok for them to get sloppy drunk once in a while.

once a week?

meehhhhh maybe once every TWO weeks.

started reading defensive racism by edgar steele. it looks like its gonna be pretty good. very punchy no nonsense writing. and he names the joo pretty heavily.

https://archive.org/stream/DefensiveRacismByEdgarJSteele/Defensive%20Racism%20By%20Edgar%20J%20Steele_djvu.txt

read it!

might red pill people better than MK, which pretty much assumes youre already heavily red pilled, invested, hardcore.

honestly if its really hard work to redpill someone, theyll prob never get it. it should be easy and natural as long as they are not blatantly ignoring reality. just be like, you know blacks are largely poor violent criminals right? you dont want to live in the Ghetto right? you want to live in a mostly white neighborhod dont you? so you’re already racist, so what does it matter Why They Are The Way They Are? You think you can change them? you’re gonna throw YOUR children under the bus on some utopian ideas that might improve nonwhites lives in 100 years, and it actually wont work anyway? you think the GOVERNMENT is gonna fix this with Antiracist policies from Above? how would YOU solve it? mo money fo mo pogams? or how about mo monay for inner citay skools. its racist that fedgov and stategov gives 1 dollar for every black student in ghetto schools, and 60000000 dollars per student in good hwyte schools.

well we need more jobs. good jobs will stabilize the community.

and it probably WOULD. but youre gonna sacrifice your children and grandchildren in the hopes that The Powers That Be will Fix these problems in YOUR lifetime?

shit yeah more and better jobs would help.

but how about changing The Blacks Culture so that they arent a bunch of muh dick thugs and violent retards. how do you get blacks to do traditional nuclear families. how about by not incentivizing them to NOT do traditional nuclear families hahaha. incentivize what you want, punish what you dont.

how about just sending black boys into the army at age 14? shit send black girls into the army at age 14 too hahahaha.

this would literally improve the quality of life for blacks 100%. and whites too!

ok so what about the mexican problem. welp people voted to build a wall. most people should vote but they were right about this one. the wall is a good idea. and it hasnt happened. nothing has happened with the glorious beautiful wall. BUILD THE WALL NOW.

get kushner out, put bannon in. much more bannon, much less kushner.

oh no. we dont need to restrict immigration. we just need to have more good jobs for everybody.

i AGREE that would be fooking AWESOME. if i could just get a sweet 28k a year job with health care without even trying. like Boomer Steve could. whatever that boomer meme is.

this guy hahahaha.

yes wouldnt it be nice if all the blacks and browns and the god blessed hwytes could all get good jobs like that. average people getting above average jobs.

yeah that would solve a lot of problems. you might even be able to sustain a multiracial society with that.

but i honestly think it would be easier to create a Hwyte Homeland than to create that many Good Jobs for Average People.

i guess one step would be to resist globalization and embrace Civic Nationalism hahahaha.

heh. thats the other thing. aint no use saying youre a civic nationalist because the middle class pigs are still gonna call you racist, because ALL NATIONALISM IS BAD and inherently racist.

so it looks weak as fook to identify as and argue for Civic Nationalism, and heres why Civic Nationalism is a better idea than Racial Nationalism. we can redpill more normies on Civic Nationalism, its not as scary.

WRONG. redpillable people are gonna have a pretty much civic nationalist mindset anyway, i mean an ANTI GLOBALIST mindset. if you need to try to CONVINCE anyone that Globalism is a Bad Idea and must be Destroyed…..dont waste your time with these people!

people who are like “anti globalism is code for anti-semite! racist! alt right neo nazis screeching about the evils of globalism!”

GLOBALISM IS GOOD, GOY!

NATIONALISM IS BAD!

all nationalism is racist, ignorant and evil, including evil civic nationalism! dont you want to Work in a Global Community, hand in hand with workers from other countries! it helps us have the great quality of life we enjoy, goy! like those blacks in the ghetto hhehehehe. like the browns and asians living 50 in a house.

of course some of these mcmansions are big enough that 50 people COULD live in them. so blacks and browns actually DO this now. well hwytes should prob do it too.

again a small house on at least 1 acre of land should be good. of course 1 acre of land is expensive as fook! its also damn small. ideally you would get at least 5 acres.

http://www.alexlinder.com/audiobooks.html

NOICE

Linder takes time to personally record audiobooks. for some he adds his personal commentary, but this is prob ok because he is very smart. very smart. but he too does not get along with people AT ALL. which sucks. if he were to work with anglin for example…..it would make DS even BETTER and BIGGER.  all pro white people need to JOIN TOGETHER hehehe but they NEVER will. linder has been a huge asshole forever. its so frustrating because he is SO smart. GREAT writer, GREAT thinker, and he could do a LOT MORE GOOD if he just partnered up with people like anglin or spencer or even TRS.

heh. i didnt realize linder liked e michael jones so much…..but EMJ is pretty good and it would be stupid to dislike him. I should buy his books. so how come linder cant be so nice to other pro whites.

https://vnnforum.com/showthread.php?t=508998

audiobook of linder reading libido dominandi. EMJ book about porn and sexual morality and prob a lot about the jooz in there too hahahaha. this would prob be the first book i would buy hehehe

https://vnnforum.com/showthread.php?t=212845&highlight=daily+stormer

searching daily stormer on vnn

i would listen to anglin and linder have an 8 hour conversation hehehe gladly.

weird that AL would like EMJ because AL is a RABID anti-christian and EMJ is uhhhh a pretty big christian.

but yeah. AL is too much of a talent to be Languishing away in obscurity, but he brings a lot of that on himself I think.

Matt Parrott is another EXCELLENT writer, genius levels of autistic intelligence on that guy, outstanding writer as well, but no one knows who he is because he either doesnt get out much or he infights with people too much. he gets along very well with heimbach though.

i mean if i were building a NS Party for the current year, i would want to have all these super smart people….but they all hate each other. its either him or me!!!!! hes a phag enabler! hes a drama queen! hes a joo enabler! hes a joo lover! hes a crypto joo! hes a christcuck!

i mean i think people SHOULD show their 23 and mes if there is ever the slightest suspicion. mike enoch should have shown his months ago, immediately, when the shit first started.

heh.  i am old school. i knew about AL and parrott back in 2012 or even 2011 hehehehehe.  he is insanely smart and needs to pump himself up more.

he had a mini scandal regarding him fooking an arab slut or something, but thats not the end of the world. i think he just doesnt want to work people.

this isnt like me not wanting to be in a Metal Band because I cant get along with other metal people. i would hope most 1433 VVNs would be able to agree on First Principles, and also be interested in Tactical Activity rather than just pure larping and internet jaw flapping hehehehe.  like lets start a movement of real people in real life. get a group of 1000 healthy hwyte men with anglin and others giving fiery speeches.

shit. “just” be more like GLR. that guy had a real movement.

its just frustrating. i think the most important things are

  1. having young people, ie under 30, ideally under 25
  2. meeting in real life

thats it. those two things would go a long way. and I think a lot more young people are coming in, and it seemed like TRS was leading the way in getting people to meet. DS has book clubs but I dont think they are as active as the TRS pool parties were.

BUT AA announced that he will soon be doing a more coordinated system and pushing for book clubs. put more of his limited energy towards getting regular book clubs going.

alex linder i guess has terrible health. i thought he had crohns disease and god knows what else, so he is not very physically strong.

ideally i would like to see a yearly DS convention with tons of  people and speeches from anglin. with regular large book clubs in every major city every few weeks.

this and great podcasts was TRS’s strong suit. but that shit that happened with the joowife really weakened TRS in general. very disappointing!

and so now DS and anglin is the leader of the pack. and I am happy about that. I just hope he doesnt get weakened by something. but he’s not an infighter drama queen. he doesnt start shit. he gets along with people. if peopel dont like him, thats THEIR problem.

but i think he needs to embrace being a leader more. write less and get out in the real world more. start doing more speeches and rallies. his 2014 speech in london was AWESOME. he should be doing something like that every month.

i dont do real life meetups because i am ashamed of my loserness. how can i possibly be a good hwyte warrior. i cant. i literally have NOTHING to offer. except for very limited shekels.

DS thread recently saying that you could use torrents to host websites. distributed systems. so you never had to find some russian company to host your racist website and then one of them drunkenly trips over the power cord and the #1 racist website in the world is down for hours.

but weev said “distributed systems” are ridiculously complex and the top minds in the world can barely comprehend them. so it might not be so simple.

well weve had torrent files for years though and those work pretty well!

and also money. peopel still dont want to use bitcoins and those are easy to use. but i think you could do something better. something more stable, with less fees, and quicker.

like sending checks and cash to a PO box hahahahaha.

mudslim running over 20 people with a van in london. like 2 weeks after the manchester bombings. yep this is it. remember when this sort of thing used to be a big deal. now its nothing.

when will it start habbening in the US?

https://www.amazon.com/Hitlers-War-David-Irving/dp/0380758067/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1496532584&sr=1-1&keywords=david+irving+hitlers+war

anyway immediately there are thousands of tweets from Cuckolds defending muslims. were not gonna turn these people. just very basic bitch stuff like not all muslims, these are not muslims, these are evil terrorists, theres a difference, real muslims were giving medical care to the people being run over, real muslims condemn religious extremism and murder etc.

and this happens OVER and OVER and OVER and OVER and OVER again, every week, every day, with those same kind of dumb tweets from whites and nonmuslims.

millennial woes london forum 2017 withnail and i speech is very good, well worth watching even if you have never seen the movie. i saw it once like 12 years ago and was probably drunk. i dont remember ANY of it.

https://www.theguardian.com/books/2017/jun/03/why-no-long-talking-white-people-review-race-reni-eddo-lodge-racism

hehehe when your hwyte professional middle class friends read stuff like this, nod their head solemnly, and actually talk like that……its time to get new hwyte friends hahahahahaha

SOO hard to stay under 1500 calories. i went above today and i i am about to go to bed and i am still hungry and could eat a big meal right now. 1000 calories. actually ate a 1000 calorie meal earlier and it didnt seem that big!!

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/how-to-respect-women/110854

so pewdiepie is getting into hwyte sharia now?

or at the very least he is saying women like it when you treat them like garbage. which is a pretty redpilled thing to say anyway. and something the joo absolutely does not want feminized white boyz to learn.

YOU GON LEARN TODAY.

TREAT WOMEN LIKE GARBAGE.

ITS THE ONLY WAY YOURE GONNA LIVE OUT THE 14 WORDS.

hehehe.

ITS THE ONLY WAY YOURE GONNA STOP BEING AN INCEL VIRGIN.

 

IF THEY ACT LIKE CHILDREN, THEY SHOULD BE TREATED LIKE CHILDREN

may 29 2017

happy joo year, same as the old joo year hahahahahaha

no i might change these publish dates. right now it is actually memorial day 2017, the “unofficial start of summer”, so, a GREAT time of year, muh favorite. beautiful weather and i plan to get outside very soon here.

trimmed beard from usual level 2 to a level 1

looks shorter hahahaha

i knew humans were always irrational, but i had no idea HOW irrational. had no idea how damn irrational I was! quite a damn bit!

its is nice going outside for 90 minutes each day. might even extend this to 100 minutes hehehehe. but most peopel do not have this PRIVILEGE!!!!!

they are too busy working, and then coming home after work to be a single mother and work on their pheonix IT degrees so they can get a nice 35k office job one day project managing incompetent indians hehehhe.

link to daily stormer article about british airways losing tons of money because they outsourced IT to incompetent indians hehehe just to save a few bucks. and have no backup plans. no contingency plans.  pet peeve of mine. when people try to save money on IT by having shoddy service here. how can big huge established companies NOT UNDERSTAND they need to take i.t. SERIOUSLY. by hiring female phoenix grads hehehehehe. who spent 60 grand to get a bachelors of tier 1 call center degree. please reboot computer or you get wirus.  mother fook. never again. i hate fooking computers almost as much as i h8 joos.

https://www.amazon.com/Polish-Way-Thousand-Year-History-Culture/dp/0781802008

bought this book yesterday for like 7 dollars total

i am looking for a well written book by a passionate luver of poland. not sure if i got the right book hehehe. supposedly this guy was not “nationalistic.” but nationalistic is EXACTLY what i WANT.

i H8 how EVERYONE automatically assumes that nationalism = BAD. EVIL. RACIST. they automatically make that assumption and if you question it, youre an EVIL IDIOT RACIST. if you ever QUESTION that PRECONCEIVED NOTION hehehe.

flopped triple, all in, beat by guy who gets flush on the turn

yeah if you can find a 25 year old woman who has ONLY been with 10 guys, marry that pure decent woman. i figure most 25 year old woman have been with 25+ guys. ABSOLUTELY DEGENERATE. I would still bang them though becuase i am that desperate for approval from WOMEN hahahaha. ABSOLUTELY THIRSTY hehehehe.

in some ways though i think its NATURAL and NORMAL for men to want SOME sort of approval from women. it would probably be just as good for men to get married young, as it is for women to get married young. then you arent a bitter old incel by age 30 hehehe.

i mean its not at all Empowering to think you arent even capable of banging dirty sluts that fook EVERYBODY. because all you have to do is show a minimum of masculinity like a NEGRO or REFUGEE. and you cant even do THAT.

and i think its better to have the CHOICE to bang dirty whores, or just be alone, rather than to not have that choice, and not even be able to bang dirty whores. although thats 50% my fault and 50% the whores fault. and 34% the jooz fault hahaha. for making women into wh0res and men into ph4ggots hehe.

basically whenever i get angry/sad about myself, the world, women, the jooz, i have been going for a powerwalk and trying to get some mild jogging in there to, to get heart rate up.

lemme just say i am not a fat slob any more thank god, i am like 20 bmi. well, 20.9. 21 lets say. i used to be a fat slob with bmi 25. i know bmi isnt the be all end all but i think its a useful Metric hahahaha.

anyway. its WEIRD when you have a city like bromberg / bydgoszcz which, prior to ww1, were 80% german, and now they are 99% polish. so is the city polish or german? i dont really like that.

i mean i would really like it if a city could just expel all its jooz and nonwhites forever hahahaha. so it bodes well for that, the idea that an entire city can DRASTICALLY change its demographics.

but i hate it when whites attack each other. poles brutalizing germans in these areas. maybe some germans brutalizing poles. its just SAD AF.

but yeah this situation happens a lot between poland and germany. well i guess germany and a lot of countries hehehe. because people were always hating on germany and taking german land and then brutalizing the ethnic germans that remained in poland or czechia or alsace lorraine hehehe.

or what about a city like lvov. lviv. formerly known as lemberg. clearly a german name. how does a GERMAN city get into UKRAINE. was it really GERMAN? i think it was part of austria hungary. was it more austrian or more hungarian? how was it not part of russia? whats the difference between ukraine and “ruthenia”?

am i just making assumptions about lemberg?

was it an asshole move for germany to promise the eastern half of poland to russia? didnt germany think the poles were entitled to some self determination? but i can understand germany being mad about german land being given to poland, and poland killing germans therein. and as a pole i would “own” that and apologize to germans and say yeah that was wrong. that was shitty of poland. heres your land back, we’ll get out of it, no more brother wars.

so “NATIONALISM” was the theme of the 20th century, esp in the balkans and eastern europe. so “GLOBALISM” is gonna be the theme of the 21st century? esp in western europe?

how can an entire city be german then polish then ukrainian?

well it wasnt german, it was austrian? the kingdom of galicia vlodomysky something was just part of the habsburg empire?

may 30

FOOKING WEAK!!! TAAKE has cancelled their US tour due to visa problems. was supposed to see them in about a week. was looking forward to that. i guess i could still see the “norse black metal band” helheim that was playing with them but…..i wanted to see TAAKE and HOEST the drunk racist from the same town as b00rtzum who wrote no less than 4 excellent, timeless songs!

i honestly dont give a shit about helheim! i mean maybe they are good but i really only wanted to see TAAKE! havent been to a good concert since i figuratively K’d muh self over that woman almost 2 years ago.

survived stress free day buy as usual i dont have much confidence. tried to be friendly and shit but i wasnt witty or impressive. oh well. maybe i dont HAVE to be witty or impressive. oh well.

came home and was tired and almost fell asleep. ate too big dinner then got news about taake tour. damn.

well the good news is, i saw my smart, respectable, successful, admirable manager uses the same Tab Productivity Add On as I do, where you can save all your chrome tabs to OneTab rather than have them open and eat up memory all the time.  i dont know if he saw me using it and then looked into it himself, or if Great Minds Just Think Alike hahahahaha. I started using it maybe 2 months ago and have liked it a lot.  its a very simple concept, basically just copying links like bookmarks, but its quicker and easier to use than the bookmark page or copying and pasting. ive got one right now with muh top 28 pages on it.

measuring children by adult standards. yeah but this would be like the brattiest, shittiest, most misbehaved children, who had been acting that way for YEARS and never been punished.

so what do you do when a child gets REALLY in trouble?

well, you spank them, and or you GROUND them.

what do you do when you GROUND them?

they cant hang out with friends, they cant leave the house, they cant use their phone, no facebook, no texting, no internet.

so how do you GROUND a 20 year old CHILD who’s been acting up for YEARS and literally NEEDS to be GROUNDED for YEARS?

but yeah they SHOULD be GROUNDED. stay at home with your family. no phone, no going out with your bad influence friends, no talking to these bad influence degenerates, no Boys. it would address all the major ways women misbehave.

JUST TAKE AWAY THEIR DAMN PHONE. that would go a long way.

spank them and take away their phone for a month. these simple things would improve women SO MUCH.

bbbbut you cant GROUND an 18 year old WOMAN who is a fully grown adult!

IF THEY ACT LIKE CHILDREN, THEY DESERVE TO BE TREATED LIKE CHILDREN.

SPANKED AND GROUNDED.

AND THEY WILL ALWAYS ACT LIKE CHILDREN. Until you get 3 kids out of them.

how about this: STOP TREATING THEM LIKE CHILDREN WHEN THEY STOP ACTING LIKE CHILDREN.

DONT HOLD YOUR BREATH.

had a dream last night were i was playing a game with people and i kept losing, round after round. last place. we started a new round and i chuckled grimly, welp better get ready to get last place again. maybe i can get second to last this time. maybe i should start a company with (other guy who was the next biggest loser) and our company can fail within a year.

but yeah it reminded me of that feeling when you fail at everything. i havent had a situation like that where i was competing against others for a score and got last place over and over and over again, but it has happened when playing games of some sort.

but yeah point is, when you lose like 4 or more times in a row, you really start to get discouraged and demoralized and it really feels like that idea of “learned helplessness.” youre like this is pointless, im not doing even a little bit better here.

and then if you fail at all sorts of things- school, jobs, women, life, tasks, games, assignments, tests, interviews, conversations – you start to feel like you cant do ANYTHING right, and that youre gonna FAIL AT EVERYTHING.

FEELS BAD MAN!!!!!!!

and i feel like that SO MUCH that i have forgotten that thats what I feel like!

it also makes you not try nearly as hard. making you even more likely to fail!

ive failed so long ive forgotten what its like to win, and ive also forgotten that im failing right now, hahahaha. you dont think of it as failing, you just think THATS NORMAL. thats what NORMAL is. failing all the time. oh well. best not to try too hard, expend too much effort and energy. tired all the time. YAWWWNNNNNN.

SPANK THEM, GROUND THEM, TAKE AWAY THEIR PHONE, and no hanging out with their awful friends for a month. for 6 months. because they SHOULD have gotten grounded like once a month but their FATHER never did his JOB!

you cant do these things to a 18, 19 year old WOMAN!

THATS WHEN YOU SHOULD DO IT THE MOST!!!! THE MOST!!!!!!!!

That’s when they NEED it the MOST!!!!!!!!

REALLY, they should be MARRIED and banging their happy husband 10 times a day and getting him ready to happily work another 12 hour day at the family business.

but instead they are shipped off to COLLEGE, where they can SLUT IT UP and NOT be supervised or grounded.

THERES NO REASON FOR AN 18 YEAR OLD GURL TO LEAVE HOME.

NO GOOD CAN COME OF IT. As soon as they get out of their fathers house, they slut it up. living with other young sluts isnt gonna shame them. they will all laugh tee hee about each other being sluts. oh what boy did you fook last night. ew gross i fooked him last week, he is so awkward! better dump him before he catches feelings! so needy! so thirsty! what a creeper weirdo!

does this sound like an ADULT?

it sounds like CHILDREN who are up to absolutely no fooking good. breaking windows, huge party when the parents are gone, crashing the parents car, losing your dads babe ruth baseball, breaking the family heirloom, burning the house down, flooding the basement. all that at once is basically what being a slut even once is. in terms of being a Naughty Child.  its a big damn deal that needs a serious goddamn punishment. like finding out your 16 year old child is SHOOTING HEROIN. There should be the SAME response for your 18 year old daughter being a slut. even just once.

but too many fathers just turn a blind eye and say well shes an adult now, she can learn from her own mistakes.

NO SHES NOT AN ADULT!

maybe im hopped up because my Boomer Coworker is sending his 18 year old daughter to College in a few months.

She probably wont become a slut and with his Firm Guidance, she will have a Useful Masters Degree in 5 years and be making way more than i ever will! when really she should be getting married NOW.

 

I, FAECOR, KING OF URANUS, FEEL A CHANGE OF WIND

may 2

https://phillyantifaDOTorg/nazi-who-flyered-in-west-philly-last-week-identified-as-mark-daniel-reardon-of-philadelphia/

this is FOOKING AWFUL. horrible jooish antifa doxed this 32 year old man and got him fired from his job. handsome nonfat hwyte man who jsut wants to meet a good woman already. started his pro whyte career only recently, on stormfront in 2016. and the doxing effort, shit how could they even PROVE its the SAME skinny guy.

but yeah he obviously tried to hide himself with that helmet. i dont think his opsec was THAT bad. i mean, its worse than mine! but not what i would call total shit.

but its not like this guy was a major bigly goy or anything. he just put up some pro-whyte fliers in philly and they called the cops about it.

well they can call FAECOR, SPAWN OF URANUS hahahahahaha

I, FAECOR, KING OF URANUS, FEEL A CHANGE OF WIND

-credit a guy on DS BBS. I cant find that “meme” anywhere else on the internet. search faecor uranus on google and DS is literally the first and really the ONLY real result. WELL MEMED, MUH LAD!!!!!

i mean that one is good enough to spread beyond a neo natzee hwyte supremist hate site hahahaha.

i wont say his name but you can look him up. OK its a user named PythonHaggard on DS and I mean him no harm, quite the opposite, to show him RESPECT and THANKS and GRATITUDE and HONOR for this DANK MAYMAY.

good soundtrack. couldnt remember who did it. who the f is brad fiedel hahahaha. hope hes not a joo. kinda a suspect name.  but if he is, he made a good piece of music. also T1 was by him as well.

sheeeeeit

https://www.walmart.com/ip/HoMedics-SoundSpa-Portable-Sound-Machine/2686012?wmlspartner=wlpa

took the plunge, bought this machine from target (same price, local pick up, did nt feel like going to walmart to pickup, went there today, and it was TEEMING with blacks and arabs. this black guy repeated the same thing to me in the parking lot. i couldnt tell if he was talking to me or he had a bluetooth in like all blacks always do. “OK, good idea, sounds good” I said to him, and continued walking with a purpose.

did not get AH MK book in today. the most important book ever written, by the most important person who ever lived.

http://www.slate.com/blogs/browbeat/2013/11/19/adjunct_professor_job_mobility_why_it_s_hard_for_contingent_faculty_to_find.html

i was somehow reading a goddamn slate page recently. but this is  actually a good reason why i do not want to get a masters degree. basically, so many people get masters degrees just to work PART TIME JOBS, by becoming PART TIME INSTRUCTORS at colleges, including any of the 6 gorillion online schools, make less than 30k a year, get no health care, no benefits, no nothing.

get a masters degree to become a part time employee.

i PROMISE you, even at bumfook county college, its VERY hard to get a FULL TIME faculty job unless you are a TRULY special snowflake, a shining star, and not just THINK you are one. but have a degree from a good school, be fairly young, not have any left turns or missteps.

whatever happened to Average Full Time Jobs for Average People?

THEY ARE DISAPPEARING.

yeah slate is TERRIBLE but this blog makes some good points. also this other related article I morbidly curiously clicked on:

http://www.slate.com/articles/news_and_politics/education/2013/11/death_of_duquesne_adjunct_margaret_mary_vojtko_what_really_happened_to_her.html

well not that one, but that is a decent horror story of why not to become an adjunct faculty, but heres the thing, those are 90% of the college teaching jobs available. if youre the type of TRASH whos applying to adjunct jobs, youre probably not gonna ever get a full time job anyway.

this attitude is fine regarding sluts aiming for alpha males, but not for average people just trying to make a damn LIVING.

http://www.slate.com/blogs/browbeat/2017/04/17/why_hannah_could_not_have_gotten_that_job_on_girls.html

ok this is the article i was looking for. basically to say that the Cushy FT Faculty Job Teaching The Internet 101 to Univ Students, is not a job that would have existed for 27 year old lena dunhams character, and certainly wouldnt have been won by a loser like her who i dont think even had a masters degree on the show!

people with masters degrees toil away their whole pathetic lives and never get as good of a job as that!

thats enough SLATE linking hahahaha. go troll them nonviolently hahahaha. fookin joos. they are right about the academic employment situation. ITS NOT WORF IT.

yet these true believes go on into their 70s working for pennies, eating dogfood, and believing black kids just need better education to overcome white systemic racism, and its a good thing that their fellow whites are shrinking. they’ve done enough damage. karma.

so in that sense im way ahead of these clowns hahahahaha.

I, FAECOR, KING OF URANUS, FEEL A CHANGE OF WIND hahahahaha.

honestly that is so good. it implanted itself in muh subconscious then came back a few weeks later and i was like where is that FROM. its FROM this random hilarious guy on daily stormer!!!!! he should really sell and license this and make shekels off his IP hahahaha i will give him 5 bucks for it hahaha.

welp managed to get under 1500 cals today. went to walmart and it was not great. like i already said. people of walmart is a real thing. this is what the country will look like in 20 years or less. majority nonwhite, and everybody, including the whites, are fat obnoxious disgusting trash.

how can you NOT go to walmart and be Racially Redpilled.

well you simply say, all the races equally look like trash. the white people dont look any better than the nonwhite people. is the proper response.

so yeah. i guess it wouldnt redpill bluepilled people. cuz they would just say that.

i guess the people who care about race will care about it, those who dont, wont.

hehehehe. no use trying to redpill other whites. theyre jsut members of my own race. just a way to try to save my own race which i care so much about.

so thats why we try to redpill people. to save our own damn race. even if you can “only” redpill ONE person in your whole life, its WORF IT.

i have not done that yet hehehehe.

dress code for alt right events: just dress NEAT, like a man who is gainfully employed enough to have a wife and children. wear nice clean clothes that fit. dont dress like a god damn virgin neet. dress like someone who can get a woman and a job. wear a damn suit and one that doesnt look like autistic neet shit. dress like the owner of the company. dress like a successful man. your boss’s boss. try not to be a fat slob. if I, a huge neet virgin loser, can dress OK, then so can you. you can get all the clothes at walmart hahahaha. get a blue suit. not a black suit, not a brown suit, just a damn navy blue suit. no fooking bow ties. get the suit tailored by a damn asian tailor so the coat and pants FIT. this is NOT complicated. this is not hard.

although I do forget there are plenty of total working class white men, with GFs and children, who are stupidl stubborn about “dressing up nice.” they bitch and moan when their wife makes them wear a button up collared shirt for a wedding.

i get it, its great to be THAT working class blue collar, IF you are making decent money. so use that money to buy one dress shirt, one pair of dress pants, one jacket, blue color, white shirt, a tie, maybe red, and a pair of dress shoes. and then wear that. if you need to brawl with commies, take the tie off and dont be afraid to buy another shirt hahahaha.

but some white men are SO blue collar they dont TRUST a man in a suit. dont trust these SUITS! whereas to normies like you and me, a guy in a suit says i am successful, I’m smart, I’m winning, follow me, I get women and money and power and influence.

i would agree with that. i would guess no more than 25% of even hardcore working class white guys would downright DISLIKE a guy just because he was wearing a SUIT.

look like a successful man who Owns a Company and has a Happy Family. look like a LEADER that people want to FOLLOW.  at least look like somebody responsible that someone would want to EMPLOY.

DRESS LIKE YOURE GOING TO A JOB INTERVIEW.

how hard is this? get your one job interview suit. how are you gainfully employed if you can’t do this?

when i was young I knew some whites that were THIS blue collar. wearing anything but a t shirt and jeans was considering preppy and phaggy. I would HOPE that as they became mature adults, they got rid of this silly prejudice. i mean you want to make money right? be a gainfully employed adult?

if i, as a total terrible adult neetish loser can lose weight, not be a fat slob, and have a few Nice Clothes to wear for Job Interviews and Weddings, so can ANY man. i mean its still not enough for me to get gainfully employed, but I believe it is enough for me to represent hwytes in public.

but I wouldnt let them know I was a huge neet!

i’m not REALLY a neet anyway. I was just saying this morning, yeah, im a loser, but AT LEAST IM NOT A NEET ANYMORE. THAT was 6 gorillion times WORSE. and its TRUE!

being a neet is WAY worse than being a HUGE loser! being a HUGE loser is a HUGE step UP!!!!! thats HOW goddamn BAD being a NEET is! i wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy! well, i would. I would wish it on the jooz as a way to utterly dstroy them hahahaha. the way it nearly destroyed ME.

 

new MW video on Sexual Morality hahahaha. were he endorses the Truth that Sex is a Sacred, Prudish thing for making babies, and you shouldnt treat it as degenerate, nihilistic, masturbatory, pornographic, jooish, casual pleasure. commenting on the recent bill nye video endorsing casual degen joo secs.

MY generation of older milliennials and gen xers, who grew up with bill nye, will probably applaud bill nye’s awful shit. the younger kids now are rightfully seeing this degeneracy for what it is, and say fook this jooish phaggot.

younger kids wanting to have kids, 30 year olds not wanting to have kids.

well, i dont really HANG OUT with many people even close to my age. maybe they DO want to have kids. i hope they do!

i dont HANG OUT with many people period, hahahaha. old or young.

but yeah i dont think this is necess peak degeneracy, i mean porn is just as bad and has been for years.

if you find a woman who likes the degen bill nye video, fook her until you are bored with her then dump her hahahahaha. because that is nto a woman worht marrying.

but yeah i partic luv MW’s secs vidyas hahahaha. no homo hahahaha.

may 3

sheeeeeeit i just got phished.  i checked spam, saw an email from a guy I knew, a really good guy, but I hadn’t talked to him in years, and it looked like his legit email address, asking to share a google doc. i was like hmm hes a great guy, besides, THIS CANT DO ANY HARM IF I JUST CLICK ON IT AND DONT INPUT ANY PASSWORDS!!!! I just want to see what this phish looks like!

it all looked like totally legit google shit. i checked the URLs. everything said secure, https, little green lock. my mistake was saying yes to something like “do you authorize GOOGLE DOCS to view your emails, address book”, then I clicked yes like an idiot. i guess at that point i was authorizing the hacker. then the screen stayed white, loading loading loading, and i guess at that time it was sending emails to everyone i had ever sent an email to. because in a minute, undeliverable emails started bouncing back.

sheeeeeeeeit.

i then immediately changed google password and was horrified at who it DIDNT bounce back from. i hope That Woman was not in there! i dont think she was, because i thought i deleted every trace of her. contacts, sent mail, received mail, everything. i should be ok there.

changed google password within 5 minutes but that was still enough time to send this shit out to people I havent talked to in 10 years hahahaha. how embarrassing.

DONT CLICK ON GOOGLE DOCS BOXES EVEN FROM PEOPLE YOU KNOW!

but, to be fair, the oiginal email did appear in SPAM. who CHECKS spam? I do hahahaha. checked spam, saw my old friends name, and that did it. oh why is HE in SPAM?

to top it all off, finally got The Most Important Book Ever Written and at LEAST the first 8 pages are missing. it starts on page 9 of chapter 1. there is PROBABLY an introduction as well.

although that introduction is PROBABLY anti AH and NSDAP hahahaha.

still, its disappointing to get a book with missing pages.

stupid embarrassing phish, hopefully no serious outcomes there, and a MK with missing pages, kind of a disappointing day!!!!!

although the email prob went to the x-BF of That Woman. him I got along with all right, I was friendly with him before I ever got any feelings for That Woman!! and initially I hoped that they would Work It Out and Get Married and I would have been perfectly fine with that.

He was very willing to let their relship end however. he was done fighting hehehe. he had already banged her 9000000000000000000000000000 times and spent 900000000000000000000 hours cuddling with her and being her First Everything, all the special moments and shared Hours, when she was 20 years old.

little bit envious of all that, but I still have a generally favorable opinion of him hahahahaha. he was very masculine and tough and thats prob why she loved him.

but it prob went to HIS spam folder.

also it doesnt put anythign in your sent mail folder. which is kinda good. but people can respond to the shitty email becuase it uses your real email address.

it basically goes through OAUTH which essentially authenticates you through google with the click of a button. do not need to enter password.

does that mean the hacker steals your actual password? a one way useless hash version of the pwd? how does oauth work? how the FOOK do i know.

and then i made some coffee and then the resevoir started flooding with hot water and coffee grounds. had to throw it all out, rinse everything out, then start again.  UNLUCKY DAY.

sheeeit. right now i could get a “like new” or “very good” copy of MK for about the same price. i think the one i got was “good.” “GOOD” apparently means “PAGES MISSING.” yes there is an introduction here. not that i need it, but its the principle of the matter!

its the plain all black cover version, making it look like the most serious and grim and evil book ever written hahahaha.

manheim translation, houghton mifflin publishers.

the book that started ww2. who are these jooish reviewers hahahahaha. idiots. liars.

https://blog.malwarebytes.com/cybercrime/2017/05/google-docs-app-spam-goes-phishing/

here’s EXACTLY what it was i got fooled by, article from today.

QUOTE Where this all goes wrong is on the next page, which is where the victim actually gives the app permission to access the account. Somehow, nobody at Google thought of preventing people from calling their apps “Google Docs”. END

YUPPPP.  thats what got me. that the malicious app was called GOOGLE DOCS.

i got the docscloud[.]download domain.

i should be all right bc i changed my password within 5 minutes, but its just embarrassing. also what if people contact me that i really dont want contacting me hahahaha.

computers are gay af. i mean i like the internet but if it were my job i would hate it. shit i dunno why this is happening, i dunno this will fix it, i dunno, i dunno who knows. you cant afford to talk to them, hahahahaha. just get a new computer. call google and tell them to reset your gmail hahahaha.

hister i think is the name nostradamus predicted for AH hehehe. oh this is actually a myth, hister actually refers to the danube river, which was like 100 miles from where hitler lived.

if i have to buy this darn book again, i will just spend the extra money to buy the stalag edition, and so should you hahaha.

im such a weirdo i CHECK MY SPAM FOLDER, almost every day. cuz im paranoid stuff will go in there that shouldnt. like emails from old friend who have been phished….or maybe that woman hahahaha.

mayeb she can get a job as full time professor of internet studies at faecor college and make 50k a year and sweet health care and pension hahaha.

if you give me instructions, i can do the thing myself.

but they HAVE TO BE CLEAR, COMPLETE INSTRUCTIONS.

and if ive NEVER DONE IT BEFORE, I WONT KNOW IF THEYRE COMPLETE OR IF PARTS ARE MISSING.

UNKNOWN UNKNOWNS.

hehehehe. thats not really in reference to anything current.

wow. 90k out of 150k goal raised for anglin. there are like 8 weeks left and this is just the first week. 90k. that is not bad.

i dnated about 15 dollars and might dnate 5 more hahahaha.

went for powerwalk, listened to music only. listened to some aggressive stuff. felt hwyte racial pride as well as hatred against muh racial enemies hehehehe.

heh how long would it take me to get a mechanical engineering degree if i took one class at a time. i mean i really hate school. high school, college, you name it. online, onground, it doesnt matter.

i just want an average job to be able to take care of a white wife and white children. it is an extraordinarily beuatiful thing, but it used to not be such an extraordinarily DIFFICULT thing!!!!!!

shitty thing is i have like 70 credits that would prob go to waste just because they are so old. and then i have a full degree before THAT which has been useless af!

NOBODY TOLD ME YOU HAD TO TAKE 330 CREDIT HOURS OF COLLEGE IN ORDER TO MAKE 30K A YEAR!!!!!!!

this is roughly 9 full years of college, summer classes included of course hahahaha.

you have to go to college longer than you went to elementary school just to get an average job and continue your race that a Baby Boomer could get with just high school.

we need 9 full years of education beyond baby boomers to make the same living they did hahahahaha. anti boomer thread. boomer hate.

https://www.fool.com/investing/2016/12/18/the-5-best-selling-handguns-in-america-all-have-1.aspx

i would like a pistol or handgun that has won the confidence of millions of hwyte murkans hahahaha. something completely middle of the road. not a cheap piece of chinese crap, but not a Luxury item either. not expensive, not super cheap.

i am thankful i live in the USA where at least i know im free, and can take this FREEDUM for GRANTED.

i mean its definitely a MASCULINE thing to do, to have a GUN. maybe that will make me more MANLY, which will in turn make me more attractive to women hahahaha. i should buy a gun just to pull sluts. sluts wont give me their cheap pvssy until i buy a gun hahahaha.

dont buy a gun just to get pvssy, buy a gun because its a damn good idea!

i mean i wish women were smart enough to give you some just because you own a copy of MEIN K4MPF and that makes you super badass and manly hahahahaha.

may 4

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/i-spank-my-wife/104042/2

great idea

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/dating-advice-the-key-to-good-relationships-is-cheating-on-your-boyfriends/104030

QUTE Not so long ago, women didn’t feel like they needed dating advice. After all, they just had to stand around somewhere until a man came to them and took care of everything for them.

All they had to worry about was serving him beer and cooking his food right so he didn’t dump their ungrateful asses. END

the short dark hairdd gurl holding the letter U is QT AF,  would want her not to be a slut so bad, just make and honest woman out of her. but you cant make a n honest woman out of a god damn cheating whore. she looks kinda like a gurl i sorta liked many years ago. the red haired gulr is qt too but not as much as the dark haired gurl. who does many disgusting degen things, so sad and disgusting. also i hope i dont get banned becase of that fat pig slob lezbobo though.

i bet that weak bearded orbiter is in luv with that gurl and she fooks SO many guys but she wont even cuddle with him cuz hes just a friend hahahahahaha.

classic comments in these threads, hope they never get deleted hahaha

but yeah. 50 lashes with a belt for being late to church is a little ridiculous. i would basically give them 20 at max with bare hand.

imho spanking is the best form of white “sharia.” SO simple, yet SO effective.

maybe its really NOT effective. that would SUCK. i imagine it to be this super effective magic bullet. i just cant see how it wouldnt be effective. i want to see a damn anecdote of it NOT being effective. i havent seen one yet. but only a minority of men are spanking their women and talking about it candidly as a great tool for Wife Management. these guys might not even fully udnerstand it as well as me, who has only had secs less than 5 times and who has never spanked a woman. had made out and cuddled with women for a lifetime total of 2 glorious unforgettable hours. i know that spanking is the final solution to the WQ

SPANKING IS THE FINAL SOLUTION TO THE WQ.

then of course i got regret: could SPANKING have fixed everything with that woman? if i had SPANKED her she wouldnt have broke muh heart, and we would have lived happily ever after?

tuff thoughts.

can you even spank someone you arent officially dating?

can you spank someone youve never fooked, cuddled with, or made out with?

i couldnt even get her alone to spank her. I would literally have to drag her behind a dumpster or into a car and essentially spank her in a semipublic place.

its not unheard of, and it was a desperate extreme situation. and that would have been an extreme solution. she needed at least 40 or 50 spanks, and you cant really do that in an unlockable restroom at the job site.

cant just go around the corner and spank you for the next 10 minutes straight.

also hard to spank somebody in a car, in a busy parking lot.

EXCUSES, EXCUSES, hahahaha.

spanking is a beautiful gift from GOD he gave us to lead women, just like secs is a beautiful gift from GOD he gave us to create children.

I can’t say it any plainer, folks.

i really dont think i’m going off the deep end with this spanking stuff. white “sharia” is kinda the deep end. but spanking and being a 1433 VVN is not the deep end hahahaha. its reasonable and moderate hahaha.

it shows how women are so fooked up that they WANT to be choked and beaten and tied up and thrown into a car trunk and cut with knifes and burnt with cig butts during secs. if they want any of that, they are fooked up, and many do. but wanting and liking spanking is perfectly healthy. if they got spanked more, they wouldnt have developed those perverted urges in the first place.

and you’re not weak for not wanting to punch a woman in the face during secs hahahahaha. you’re not weak for saying, wtf babe, thats fooked up, i’ll spank you, but i’m not gonna punch you in the face!

yes, youre right, that is fooked up, and no its not weak if you choose not to do it!

but you are weak to not spank the woman!

do you deserve to be left in the lurch? no i dont think so. no good faith man deserves that. but you need to LEARN.  YOU GON LEARN TODAY.

its so SIMPLE, thats part of the beauty.

its ok if you get off on it a BIT secsually, but its not INHERENTLY degenerate, jooish, or fetishistic. its a natural, wholesome way to Lead Your Wife. but you are totally entitled to get a LITTLE excited by it too.

you like it, SHE likes it, AND she behaves better, treats you better, doesnt break your heart, doesnt make a fool out of you. its a win win win win win.

https://suidlanders.org/our-emergency-plan/

some SA boers who want to prepare for eventual race war i guess. their leader is coming to minnesota to argue for a refugee camp in MN, which is prob the #1 state in the US for taking refugees. and antifa action is trying to org a counter rally to protest these hate hwyte fascists hahaha. i just dnated them 5 fecking dollars hahaha. and so should you. these poor boers are getting tortured and murdered in the most horrifying ways by blaq savages. plenty of images on the internet. horrifying, nightmarish, a living hell on earth.

Chateau Heartiste Maxim: Recall CH Maxim #[X]: A woman will hold a beta male endlessly accountable for the slightest infractions while promptly forgiving an alpha male the worst transgressions. END

he’s degen, but he’s also right, and he has great maxims. he just needs to fully Shame and Shun degeneracy.

i mean yeah, bang sluts, but dont ruin the few good women, and you should trying to find a good woman and have babies with her. and CH needs to focus a lot more on that. finding a good woman before she turns bad, and keeping her good with spankings.

the main thing is VETTING her before you marry her so you KNOW she’s a good (low-number, good father) woman.

LOW NUMBER, GOOD FATHER.

GOOD FATHER, LOW NUMBER! really is the better way to put it. because a good father is basically a cause of the low number.

and very few women with a low number dont have a good father. and i found one of them hahahaha. well shell have a high number soon enough wahhhh

you can go from low number to high number REALLLLLLY FAST. just blow right on by medium number. damn. smdh.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-4472758/Inside-America-s-worst-heroin-epidemic.html

i wont immed link the DS thread that linked this because i am thinking DS BBS threads have a 50% of being baleeted in the medium term, well before daily mail links!

id try some heron, fentanyl, pain pills etc, but i wouldnt want to do them regularly. i just want some god damn MJ!!!!!! thats all!!!!!!

thought about taking a valium, took a benedryl instead.

surprised the joos havent tried to shut down wesearchr for already raising nearly 100k for anglin. i mean all they have to do is go after the payment processor right? its not like wesearchr owns that! they have to go through a company right? i dunno!

probably not allowed to post pictures of the greatest man who ever existed and definitely not of that evil racist symbol hahahaha. but he had a great idea here HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

no i didnt come up with that meme, i WISH!!!! i did deface it though with the smiley faces.

c0ck holster for putin? more like c0ck holster for bibi hahahahaha be GREAT if he was putins c0c holster. then prez kushner wouldnt have gotten us into the mess. then there would be less kushner and way more bannon the cannon!!!!! who is probably on his way out altogether. SAD!!!!!!

i was walking behind 2 young black men today on my way out of a building, and they absolutely REEKED of MJ. It was the PERFECT chance to ax them, ayo hol up, all yall n199az got any w33d fo ya boi? where da w33d at mah n199a! and then tried to buy 20 dollars of MJ off them.

it probably would have WORKED and i would have had 10 dollars of shitty MJ right now!!!!!!!

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit.

the only reason black men get white women is that black men have NO fear, NO anxiety, so they can approach every single woman they see and not think twice about it.

it must be great not to have social anxiety, not to have any anxiety. blacks do not get anxiety, and for that i am a little jelly.

the guy who played AH in that movie downfall was pretty good. the whole movie was pretty good despite not being generally pro-AH, but you will never, ever, ever see that in a movie anyway. not until we win hahahaha. and im not talkng about trvmp the kushner kok holster!

https://www.wesearchr.com/discover#!mostRaised

heh the anglin thing is about to be the #1 most raised money ever on wesearchr and its still not listed as an “editors choice” hahahahahaha. again not expecting that, but i am thrilled to see it getting so much real support from people.

 

WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT YOU

mar 12

got up early on a sunday, couldnt sleep, had strange dreams i was trapped in some high rollers gambling competition where i couldnt get out. i also couldnt get in on the “free hookers” that were mingling around. it was like musical chairs and they were always all occupied. if i left the party early, i would either be killed, or i would be tied to the company permanently. i didnt want that, i just wanted to leave.

everyone else was having a great time, gambling and doing coke and opoids and banging hookers and were all wall street types. if you gambled wrong, you would be escorted out and killed. i would rather not gamble at all because it was so confusing. it was like taxes. you had to report the correct amount of winnings or taxes, and if your numbers didnt agree with “the house”, they’d kill you. no one else seemed to be worried. the gambling money was coming from some bigass wall street swindle by the jooish bankers and we were invited to gamble with this money stolen from peoples retirement funds. i didnt care about the gambling, i didnt know how i got invited, i just wanted to wait until it was time to leave, because i couldnt leave early, and maybe enjoy some opioids and hookers to pass the time, but I couldnt get ahold of either, though they seemed freely available to all the happy gamblers. i wandered around and asked an attractive hooker, wanna fook, and she said, only if i get to fook you too, how big does your asshole stretch, implying that she was gonna “peg” me with a brutal dildo hahahaha. i cringed and was like no thank you, not interested, i guess we shant be fooking then, hahahahaha.

lots of interesting symbolism and themes in this dream!

im like, i wouldnt MIND gambling, if i knew this money wasnt some Big White Collar Crime from hard working mericans, which was probably why the stakes were so high, and you were basically signing your life away. couldnt leave, had to stay with this crooked company for life, unless you stayed until the final round of gambling, which didn’t make sense, which made me less confident to try to gamble, because if you made a mistake in your self-reporting you’d be killed too. so i figured, just wait it out until the end of this long night while everyone else has fun, and maybe try to score some of the drugs and hookers that seem to be plentiful. but they werent, for me.

i was like shit i didnt ask for any of this. i’d be perfectly happy with some MJ and a 35 year old hooker and some micro-stakes gambling with my own money. how the hell did i get here.  i didnt sign up for this. this is horrible.

i still have weird jooish fetishes. like i will see a commercial with a woman i think is hawt, then look up the womans name, becuase these are not big name actresses, even if the companies are kinda big. acting in commercials is prob jus tone step up from porn hahaha. or from shitty “direct to dvd” movies or syfy channel movies nobody will ever watch.

so there is this booking.com commercial with this flustered female schoolteacher who cant wait to go to her relaxing mexico vacation. and when she says booking.yeah she looks really hot and i really want to bang the shit out of her hahahahaha.

maybe i like horse faced women, i really think thats it. mousey and horse faced.

heres a less jooish money shot picture

and i wish i were touching her body and plowing her and she was making the horsey o face hnnnngggggg

this is of course contrasted with her very mousey flustered self in the classroom

which is a whole other tangent, that teaching children isnt the wonderful career she thought it would be, which im sure it isn’t, but its also frustrating to see a woman stuck in a shitty career, and also frustrating to see a woman who doesn’t like children.

there are at least 3 different phases of hawtness when she says the one word yeah, which makes me think the woman has a lot of practice in manipulating men with her facial expressions to get them wrapped around her little finger, meaning that she knows many men find her attractive even though she’s 30 AND mousey AND horsey.

lot of things to unpack here hahahahahaha

be sure to read the comments by offended teachers saying this mocks their profession. not surprised to see those. it kinda does. kinda surprised the ad geniuses didnt say, this is really gonna offended teachers. maybe they decided that was a risk worth taking. because this ad will be gone in 1 month anyway and all the teachers will forget they’re boycotting the company.  and other people will find the actress hawt.  i was just trying to find her name so i could find more pictures of her and see if she is hwyte, or jooish.

the commercial was directed by jared hess who did the napoleon dynamite movie hahaha but cant find the name of the actress.

Who Is Sara Bynoe?

ok her name is sara bynoe, a “comedienne” from vancouver BC

http://www.imdb.com/name/nm2045120/

she has a masters degree in creative writing hahahahahaha maybe she can become a part time college instructor

well i cant tell if shes a joo but shes definitely a degen with a filthy mouth who has probably taken over 20 cox. this little mousey horsey woman who in a better time would have been a 1-man woman and mother. is now out drinking and slutting it up doing a writing, comedy, and acting career. oh gawd.

there is some other thirsty guy leaving message on her instagram saying she is just so hawt and he had to find out who she was. looks like i have some competition!

she looks like she could possibly be some kind of nonwhite mix. bynoe. wtf kind of name is that.

Bynoe Name Meaning Origin unidentified. It is a well-established name in Barbados, and may be of Irish origin.
Source: Dictionary of American Family Names ©2013, Oxford University Press

barbados? irish? so youre saying she’s half black????

how can you not know if the name is irish or not. i thought the irish were pretty good about that sort of thing. unless they were too busy getting drunk and eating potatoes and having their women bang negros hahahaha.

and the sad thing is, to date a 30 year old woman who’s still attractive you gotta make at LEAST 60k a year. what do you think the average income is of the guys she dates? besides the charming young wannabe actors making under 30k who she has casual secs with hahahaha. might as well just be one of those anyway because this is no longer the type of woman you want to marry. Sad!

and there are already plenty of other guys just like me, who said, you know, that gurl in that commercial is hawt, who is she?

so yeah sara bynoe if u read this and want a REAL man to show you a REAL good time, let me know. by that i mean i will fook you HARD not like a wimpy sissy beta niceguy bitchboi fuccboi. i will tear you in HALF and LEAVE while you are sleeping.

maybe its because she SORTA looks liek That Woman? Both mousey and horsey? yet not stumpy, decent legs, big eyes, big mouth, horsey and mousey? i think this is just my type, not because she reminds me of That Woman. That Woman had better hair and skin anyway. and was probably younger.

horsey and mousey. i guess that kinda looks like the stereotypical female Schoolteacher right? but even a Schoolteacher would be out of my league because that represents a level of Career Success which is WAY above me.

Maybe a Sub making 13 bucks an hour, no bennies, no health care. but very soon these people will be too young for me. i mean you literally can’t be failing at your career FOREVER. you have to move up within like TEN years or else youre DONE. might as well pack it in, GIVE UP, and become an MJ addict hahaha.

she looks worse when she is wearing tons of makeup, but she no doubt thinks this makes her look professional and smart or whatever. nope. shoulda just got married to chad when you were 18 honey.

sad thing is, chad probably dumped her or worse cheated on her, and she’s spent the rest of her life trying to get revenge on him by living The Good Life. thing is, she hasn’t. she’s just become a worse person for it all. drinking, fooking, getting useless degree, being a narcissist F-level wannabe celebrity in vancouver only, probably has at least 2 cats in her apartment and drinks too much but still manages to pull alphaish men at age 30….but not for committed rels.

and to think SHE is OUT OF MUH LEAGUE! in GLR’s american average white men would be able to pull a woman like her, back before she had taken 20 cox and had 20 abortions!

even women that dont look like they would be huge sluts, kinda horsey and mousey, but also kinda qt despite that…….are still huge sluts that have been with 10+ guys hahahaha. like how that number keeps getting lower? well yeah because 10+ guys is still WAY too much!

but its a more REALISTIC number than 20…..which isn’t all that unrealistic either. 10 is even more realistic, but also UNACCEPTABLE. DO BETTER.

right now she would be great to use as a Practice Gurl just so you get comfortable and good at Fooking and at dealing with a womans bullshit, so you can pull a better woman later. but she’s STILL too good for you hahaha. you are not good enough to practice on a practice gurl, except maybe once, where you will prob fall in luv with her and never get over. never get over chad mcnormieton’s practice gurl.

also the fact that this drunk bipolar narcissistic catlady slut is better at Adulting than you, so what does that make you? she’s BETTER than you hahahaha.  you have no place to judge her for being a crazy slut because shes better at LIFE than you. more responsible, harder WORKER, better ADJUSTED.

shit if i had gotten more involved with Theatre I prob could have banged a few sluts like that, had them as practice gurls. but i never went in far enough with theatre to pull the theatre sluts. i guess its just as well because theatre sluts are not great people hahahaha.

i guess the good news is i dont have to go to vancouver to find women like this, they are right in my own town. and i can probably find one who is a 40 year old single mother who still looks bangable, and then bang them. that shouldnt be out of muh league hahahaha.

what the hells wrong with minnesota. you’d think it would be a nice hwyte state but for the past 20 years they have been importing more africans and arabs than just about any other state. stay away from minnesota and just go to montana or idaho instead. or eastern WA hahahahaha.

today i actually thought about well maybe i SHOULD contact that woman. nothing big. just a short message. hey how you doin. fishing basically. reopen the wound and try again after a long time has passed and she has gotten lower in value basically but i’ll never fully get over her hahahaha.

thankfully i decided no thats a horrible idea. but if i were drinking or doing MJ, i might think its a gamble worth taking!

yeah MJ compromises your decision making. logic, reason, etc. yet another reason not to do it. so i say, ok, then i promise not to make any big decisions while using it hahaha.

but when you are using it EVERY DAY…… arent you sort of ALWAYS under the influence of it?

OF COURSHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://archive.org/details/1966PlayboyInterview

1966 playboy interview with commander rockwell and roots/malcolm x biographer alex haley. he had already published TTTW and would be tragically assassinated in 67. he uses The N Word about 6 gorillion times hahahahaha.  thats fine, just wish he used the K word even more. i dont really use the n word all that much and am perfectly fine just saying negros or blacks. unless i am in the ghetto around a bunch of n words, and i try to avoid those situations hahahaha.

looked at adult friend finder to find 35 year old sluts for casual secs in my area. saw a bunch of degen pictures. and unfort you have to PAY to message or view anyones profile. 20 damn bucks a month. i would maybe pay 10 bucks a month. there were what appeared to be a number of bangable 35 to 40 year old sluts in my area. even some under 30s!

there were a lot of swingers/couples. no thanks! i mean yeah maybe ill bang your faithless wife but i dont want any pervert guys watching!

and god forbid any woman who was ever on this site wants to marry a man at any point! that should be on your wife questionairre. have you ever put yourself on an adult themed dating site?

i would go on okcupid but i dont want to see HER. so i can just exclude any women under like 27 hahahaha. but i dont really want to do that. i would totally bang other 27 year olds! shit i remember when she was 22.

i mean i could block her the second i see her. but i dont want to see her even for a SECOND!

ideally she would be so fat, old, and haggard i wouldnt even recognize her!

just remember. your perfect angel, who you want to be the mother of your children, is just a cheap slut practice gurl bending over and showing her asshole to sleazy strangers on adult friend finder.com and has been with over 100 guys easily. and you were FOOLED enough to want to commit your LIFE to THAT trash. how emotionally COMPROMISED can you GET? thats even worse than being on WEEEEED!!!!!!

or plenty of successful people have probably, over their lifetimes, ultimately sm0ked more MJ than YOU did!! and they are just fine!!!!

heh. its possible that women are more naturally suited to Motherhood than Men are Naturally suited to Fatherhood. so its all the worse that they go around showing their assholes on the internet for casual buttsecs with ruffians and opioid addicts and smooth talkin negroes.

maybe i shouldnt have looked at adult friend finder for even the 5 minutes that i did because it made me have a negative view of women as dirty whores!

but i was specifically LOOKING for dirty whores, becuase i’m kinda looking for a PRACTICE GURL to PRACTICE on, because if i found a GOOD woman, i wouldnt be READY for her!

dont get BUTTHURT at the PRACTICE GURLS, just manage your expectations of what they are and what you want from them! you’re not looking for them to be decent women! youre just looking for a little quid pro quo! this is like calculus 1 as a prerequisite for calculus 2.

well i could have just been more DOMINANT and that would have improved the situation, and i dont HAVE to bang practice gurls to become more dominant.

i just wish i had more of a natural urge to BE MASCULINE AND DOMINANT, the way women have a natural feminine urge to be submissive and be dominated by a strong man. why dont i want to be that strong man? well i KIND OF DO!!!!!!

on the extremely rare occasions i feel like a strong, confident man, it feels really GOOD. its not necessarily “DOMINATING” someone. maybe the word “DOMINATING” is a bti confusing. how about Strong, Confident Leader.  i have hardly any experience feeling like that that it feels weird when i feel it, which is hardly ever. like easily less than .000000000001% of the time. but i can safely say i would grow to enjoy that feel.

this weird guy i was acquaintances with last about 14 years ago suddenly emailed me with a weird brief messaging asking if i wanted to Hang Out. it is so weird i am thinking somebody just hacked his email and sent shit out to everybody he had ever sent an email to. people have hacked emails before.

if it is a legit thing, the nonweird thing to do would be to acknowledge the weirdness and try to act normal. but no. he seemed as weird as he ever was. he had a weird fixation on me but i hung out with him because i was lonely and felt beggars couldnt be choosers and it was only fair for me to him to hang out with him if he wanted to see me. this was 14 fookin years ago.

but he was a weird guy. not a BAD guy but i am 100% certain he had SOMETHING: borderline, bipolar, narcissism. He honestly seemed BORDERLINE!!! possib the only male i’ve ever know with it.  he’s not a bad guy, but he needed a shrink and meds even more than I did. Last I heard he got a bigboy job but found it unfulfilling and was drinking too much. this was many years ago. at least he was able to get a bigboy job. more than i ever could do.  i mean he was no dummy. he was smart, but possib more unhinged and weird that I am. whatever this kid has, its COMPLICATED. my shit is very simple by comparison.

so i quickly deleted the email. but then i thought, HOLY SHIT, what if this is how THAT WOMAN viewed MY attempts to communicate with her, and she viewed me as weird and crazy like i view this guy??!?!?!?!?!?!? I would HATE to be seen like that.

even though I dont hate the guy. I just want him to live his own life and get some damn professional help which i am not willing to give hahaha.

but want to think that we had a much more Two-Way Rel with me and that woman than I did with him, where he had more interest in me than I had in him. Indeed, it could have even been a latent homosexual thing on his part.

but i realy want to think that the rel i had with that woman was more natural and two-sided and mutual and HEALTHY and good than the weird “friendship” i had with him. i guess he wanted to be my friend but i didnt really want to be his friend.

maybe That Woman was my Karmic Payback of how I rejected HIM hahahahaha.

but i didnt really Throw Him Away. also i hate to think i was as weird to her as he was to me. i mean this guy was always pretty weird. he’s not a horrible person but just so goddamn weird. and i didnt want to be THAT weird to ANYBODY. especially HER.

my rational mind says, youre right, this is apples and oranges, it was a totally different situation, and no she didnt view you like you view HIM, or even if she did, at least I’m confident that i wasn’t THAT Weird.

so….we’ll conclude with that and i will get back to my poker and nazi book hahahaha.  and hope this was just a hack/spam.

i mean if not then he hasnt become any less weird in the past 14 years. i mean shit at least i have gotten better at presenting myself to others, playing close to the vest so to speak, figuring out how to seem at least somewhat normie.

my diagnosis for him would be bipolar, possibly borderline, possibly bits of schizophrenia even. i should be thankful i’m not that fooked up. but he can manage to Adult and get GF’s and stuff. but he would also be just as liable to throw all that away in some kind of psychotic break. it did not seem like garden variety anxiety and despair with him, like it was with me. yeah we are both nuts but in totally diff ways.

but yeah i dont want that woman to think i am a pitiful weirdo like that. id much rather she felt bad about her own immaturity.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gerald_L._K._Smith

GLR said this guy was the greatest speaker he ever heard

https://archive.org/details/meinkampf035176mbp

reading MK by AH changed GLR’s life, maybe I should finally read it too hahaha

the type of book that you cant stop reading, that when you finish it, you turn right back to the first page and read it again. i have never done this with a book. wont even do it with GLR’s book, and it is a topkek book.

GLR is transferred to iceland where he suggests that secs is very easy to get and the women are promiscuous as shit. so why did he fall for that icelandic woman. i mean really neet virgins should just go to iceland for easy secs with young whyte qt’s. what does he really think about their promiscuity tho? what would AH think?!?!?!?!

http://www.heretical.com/pubs/fabledh.html

i forgot GLR did the fable of the ducks and the hens, which i confuse with the fable of the scorpion and the frog hahaha

ok he did think they went too far: quote ” The whole atmosphere at Keflavik International Airport was evil and unwholesome, depressing and disgusting. I reacted by almost total asceticism. There was no half-way about it, as could be seen all around me. I refused to touch a drop of liquor. I went to only those parties which my position in the squadron demanded. I ran over a mile a day and exercised to keep in condition and I devoted myself wholly to study, thinking and writing.  ”

he ran A MILE A DAY hahahahahahaha to keep in shape. that is hilarious. now when most “runners” pride themselves in running like a damn marathon a day.

also his wife was bitchy to him and essentially dumped him, and he was heartbroken. he did not CHEAT on her with the icelandic woman. i dont know how big of a slut she was. also GLR officially condemns no-fault divorce, as he should, as any hwyte person should. i just wish he called them out on their jooish behavior not befitting hwyte men and women.

also he said that good liquor was very cheap. i thought everthing was super expensive in iceland. well i mean i am sure things have changed since 1951. but iceland is always an interesting country.

about 40% done with the book so far. seems like his icelandic wife is much better than his american wife, who he pitied for not being able to enjoy being a full woman. then his icelandic wife got very jealous whenever he said a tiny sympathetic thing like that about his ex-wife. he had 3 kids with his ex-wife and i think he had 3 kids with his icelandic wife. what happened to these children and their children?

also she was ok with him being pro-hwyte and anti-jooish. he was still a career military man but had been redpilled on the Jaycue by me1n struggle hehehe.

his first wife demanded $400 a month in alimony. in 1953. holy shit. and he didnt even bitter hate her. i would have for that! that would turn any man into a woman hater! but not GLR. he just pitied her.

the icelandic woman is still alive right now and like 88 years old hehehe.

commander rockwell, what a great man.

you shouldnt expect most people to understand the JQ. i would like if more people shunned J filth when they saw it though, just realized it it was BAD, not necess bc it was J’ish. they seize on bad things bc they know they can use it as weapons against the g0yim. make bad things look attractive: vidya, porn, drugs, try it, its fun and harmless, g0y. you’ll love it and its not bad for you. even though its worse than smoking.

mar 13

just waiting around to go to shrink and today i had decent epiphany:

WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT YOU

which, let me MANSPLAIN. a lot to unpack there. sure weve all heard this advice before. it doesnt matter what other people think about you. dont worry about it. who cares. it doesnt matter.

but thats WAY easier said than done, because in some cases, it really really really DOES matter!!!!

you are invested, connected, and attached to a person, and you care ALOT about what they think about you, and you HOPE that THEY care what YOU think about THEM!

you can see what im getting at here.

I really cared what That Woman thought about me. i didnt want her to think i was an awful horrible person. because then i might just BE a horrible person. her view of me mattered a lot to me because well thats what luv is, ya moron. you want them to think good of you. not bad.

and now im like, wait, doesn’t SHE care what I might think about HER? doesnt SHE care that I might hate her, or just be confused, and wouldnt that motivate her to try to clarify things for me?

similar to how i Reached out to Clarify how I thought she should think about me, i wanted her to reach out to me to clarify how she thought I should think about HER. doesn’t she CARE about that?

well no, because what i think no longer matters to her. and that hurts. my opinion USED to matter.

and now i have nothign but my own experience and memory to convince myself it wasnt a FANTASY, that there was something REAL. unlike me and my weird male stalker hahahaha. in his mind there was something special between us, but in my mind….i just wanted to avoid him hahaha. and is that how it was with me and HER???? GOD I HOPE NOT! i mean i really hope the that nice friendship we had before everything went wrong, was more REAL than the always-awkward thing I had with that guy.

welp discussed that with the shrink and yeah i mean i actually talked like a somewhat well adjusted normie. that yeah i am pretty much over That Woman but it did always bother me that there wasnt even the effort of any closure, but basically i wanted proof that i had a better “connection” with that woman than I did with that disturbed man who I now have pity for. he thinks me and him had some great connection, well we didnt. i think me and her had some great connection, well we didnt. WRONG. for a good long while, we DID have a pretty good connection. And I was very heartbroken by how she crapped on THAT. dont tell me this was worth NOTHING to you.

shit im sure it WAS worth somethign to her. but this is how people act when its fight or flight and they flee. its the pain of abandonment and avoiding. it’s well documented in the literature hahahaha. not even joo literature. but trusted hwyte philosophers like kierkegaard and plato say damn son that shit SUCKS.

ok. what, for example, did aristotle, plato, or socrates, or kierkegaard, or nietzsche, or schopenhauer, or heidegger, or will durant say about The Heartbreak of Abandonment? give me some quotes.

so i was able to convince myself that She Thought it all wasn’t just a fantasy in my mind. more or less.

if i were a WOMAN i would have fooked 5 guys and had 5 shitty relshits during this time. that is SO unfair to those poor schmucks. that she is just going through a fake charade with you while she is hung up on someone else! i have never and will never do that to another person! this is why you dont jump from one person to another! it doesnt work that way! and so I resent women for doing that. cant you see how unfair and wrong this is for the guy???? how many other guys hearts did she break during this time? 3? 4? 5? how can you cause so much pain? or maybe they caused her pain. it doesnt matter because shes out of my life. but this is what happens when you are in LUV and they DISAPPEAR. you CAN get SOME kind of CLOSURE thats better than this.

oh well. life goes on. but how come she cant send me an email out of the blue? i would totally get back together with her hahahahaha. then i guess im not over her. well, i said i was only 88% over her. i get “not wanting them back” only comes at 100% and not a second earlier.

maybe it was all a sign from GOD to turn me into a full-blown NATZEE! Like how GLR donned the svastica and declared, I am a full blown NATZEE and I dedicate muh life to AH, the greatest man of the past 2000 years!

i mean i’m seeing that AH is a bretty gud guy. and Really you don’t become a VVN “ally” without become a VVN “sympathizer” and essentially a full blown 1433 vvn.

for a few years i was like, yeah i dont identify as a vvn, but I AM open to their ideas, i don’t think there’s anything really unreasonable about these ideas, we should give this some space, it’s serious and valid and legit.

later I realized that by you acknowledging that, you are pretty much a full blown natzee anyway. if you dont think these ideas are horrible and evil and despicable, you’re a nazi.

so you might as well do what the blacks do, reclaiming the term MUH N199A, and we can reclaim the term MUH NATZEE hahahahaha.

and start proudly displaying the svastica publicly. very simple. get some armbands, buttons, bumper stickers, flags, put it on your computer desktop, put a picture of AH next to a picture of your family at work HAHAHAHAHAHA. that’s all you gotta do! no big deal.

why didn’t GLR’s first wife give him a break and say i don’t need any alimony from you because im a stronk independent woman? how much of the alimony was going strictly to CHILD SUPPORT? he did have 3 kids with her and hasnt talked about them much. shit he’s up to 5 kids now and hasnt talked about them much. maybe he was a horrible father hahahaha.

” But Thora had the faith of a saint. Even when I would get discouraged
and felt almost sure my gigantic struggle would come to naught, my brave little wife would put her arms around me, look me in the eyes, tell me how she believed in me and trusted me, and I would fairly burst with new drive and determination. She knew the age-old secret of women: how to inspire and fill a man with power he could never have alone, just by laying a gentle, warm hand on his check and letting him feel her faith flowing outward. How I loved her! I can never repay her loyalty and devotion. ” from chapter 9 or 10. GLR would get discouraged during the lean times and his wife would give him encouragement. BEAUTIFUL.

a lesser woman would have LEFT HIM IN THE LURCH and indeed his first wife did. shit he was entitled to be HATEFUL of her but he never was. That Bitch!

spencer tracy looks kinda like tom waits. or vice versa. i am the first person in the history of the world to notice this hahahahaha. therefore mr waits should invite me to hang out with him so i can convince him to stay away from n3gr0 and j00 music and get back to his more huhwhyte sounding music. he is a huhwhyte guy who can make jooish music sound less jooish hahahaha. i will not poo poo TW and his music. but he does have obvious nonhwyte influences and i dont believe he’ll ever be racially aware. believe me i would be thrilled if he were! some big scandal uncovers a secret natzi shrine at TW’s house hahahaha. this is all speculation, i’m not saying anything libelous.

actually, 90% of TW’s music is either black or jooish. this is a bit worrying. i really dont want to think about this too much right now.  i mean leonard cohen RIP was a total joo and i will always be a fan of his music.

irrelevant. on a tangent here. well no. because this is what joos do: they take good things and they SUBVERT and PERVERT and RUIN them. but not always. for example i dont think LC or TW are perverting or subverting anything. TW maybe. but i dont think he did it in bad faith jooish way. he was just being creative and eclectic. he married a hwyte woman and had hwyte children. he should have had more.

also i liked at least 3 or 4 of the coen brothers movies hahaha. still do. prob always will. (lebowski, raising arizona, millers crossing, and leave a space for one more. no country was OK but overrated. I saw part of a “a serious man” and it looked pretty good tho.) not gonna dump them like i did woody allen.

what about the marx brothers? charlie chaplin? old skool jooish comedians in the catskills and the borscht belt? does this even really matter anymore if henny youngman or joo jack benny had some good clean jokes that even a goy can enjoy without guilt?

charlie chaplin was a confirmed full blown commie kyke. a жид. GLR knew this and still enjoyed some of his comedy. doesnt make GLR a sellout or a hypocrite. i mean they still should all go in the oven because the costs outweigh the benefits and always will.

would you rather have a few funny marx brothers movies…….

…….OR A WORLD WHERE COMMUNISM NEVER EXISTED????????

shit yeah its important and relevant. its why all the women you know are such trifling, stupid, destructive sluts hahahaha.

but honestly NONE of the women I ACTUALLY know are destructive sluts. thats the fictional fantasy nightmare woman again!

also, my virulent hatred of women makes my totally reasonable, healthy hatred of DER EWIGE JUDE seem unhealthy hahahaha. hey im in a woman hating PHASE rght now. its actually subsided a bit. i did used to be a mgtow remember! and im getting better! i used to be a mgtow too until i became a full blooded NATZEE hahahaha. big improvement.

no william h macy did not DIE today, i guess thats a hoax. its actually his BIRTHDAY hahahaha.

he seems hwyte. i would hope my joodar is not wrong on him. lets find out hehehe. welp the jooish foward says he is not a J. i generally beleive joo sources when they say somebody is not jooish hahahaha.

GLR was a very good people person and was not afraid to go out and have Tuff Conversations with people every damn day.  well he did not kiss ass and lie to make you like him. he would tell you the hard truth. i know I would have gotten along with him well. i might not have enjoyed hearing the hard truth from him, having a man I admire telling me i am a huge soft loser…..but maybe he would be nicer to me because i knew the hard truth about the JQ that he did. and see that i would probably do well with a good leader hahaha.

i mean a man can be a leader and a follower at different times of his life. being a follower isnt INHERENTLY bad, the way being a slut and going thru a slut phase is. in fact, being a follower for a while might help you be a better leader later. but i will grant that the ideal man is a leader not a follower, and that leadership is one of the best, most masculine traits. but following is not inherently, always bad, the way being a damn cant keep your legs closed SLUT is.

but you know what you should hate even more than SLUTS? focus your disdain on the semi-organized effort by a certain group of people to turn our women into sluts. this helps them because it hurts us.

you might think hwytes don’t have any real enemies………..then you would be blue pilled AF, hahahahahaha.

pretty soon ill be going down to get the svastica tattoo on muh chest hahahahaha. only semi kidding, i hate tattoos and would never get one. but that would be a contender hehehehe.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

WELL MEMED, MUH LAD!!!!!!

wish the dinner table scenes of that movie really set the tone for the entire movie hehehehe.

call me soft but theres no real NEED for the curbstomp. he could have just had a legally owned pistol, been like get the fook out of here boy, the negro could have charged at him like a wild animal, and then ed norton shot him with the pistol. the curbstomp is there to make him look like a SADISTIC MONSTER. well of COURSHE he is, hes a NATSEE, that is SYNONYMOUS with sadistic monster! same with ralph fiennes in schindlers list.

apparently leni riefenstahl recanted her pro-AH beliefs?? or somehow went soft on them. how soft? i mean if she was still pro-hwyte and anti-J that’s prob fine right? was hearing more about this woman hannah reitsch was a woman pilot and apparently a very pure and admirable woman and we should read her book.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hanna_Reitsch

yes i know wikipedia hahaha

after the war: ” Evacuated from Silesia ahead of the Soviet troops, Reitsch’s family took refuge in Salzburg.[3]:202 Hearing a rumour that all refugees were to be taken back to their original homes in the Soviet occupation zone, Reitsch’s father shot and killed her mother and sister[3]:215 and her sister’s three children before killing himself on the night of 3 May.[12] ”

GOOD LORD

what i dont understand is why some people were tried and convicted at nuremberg but some people like reitsch and skorzeny lived in freedom til like 1980.

not sure if reitsch ever wrote a book. described as “naive politically.” hehehehe. how can a prominent natzee be naive politically hahahahaha.

mar 14

this stuff makes muh blood boil, one of the most triggering things evar next to slutty women. is joo york slimes articles advising anxious hwyte parents how not to raise racist children. its your duty to teach 3 year olds about hwyte privilege and institutional racism and to hate their race. i hate this shit. its joos saying yes you should brainwash your kids. its fooking CHILD ABUSE and a bunch of hwyte swpl prefessionals actually worry about this. not oh my kind might be a neet or a loser or a  pvssy, but that he might be a RACIST, so we need to actively stop this, and show him how he was born with the unfair advantage of being hwyte.

http://archive.is/mcjRJ

hmm cant believe there is nothing on daily stormer or TRS on this article

but yeah. white kids have a responsibility to learn about their hewyte privilege from a very tender age, you as a racially sensitive middle class jyslimes reader had the responsibility to teach them to be ashamed of the white race, the EBIL NATZEES of the human race. hwyte = nazi = sadistic, genocidal, oppressive monsters.

chapter 9 GLR

he says the rights main problem is not money or people, its cowardice. that enough people already know the truth, but they are too scared to stand up and fight and act, and are too worried about being NICE, when the left is not nice, and will not be defeated by niceness.

apparently the right wing cowards GLR met would talk privately with him about YOU KNOW WHO, but we too scared to sacrifice their security and comfort.

yeah well i think its a lot worse now, that people DONT know this red pill JQ truth, and that the right will call you a racist and tinfoil hat conspiracy nutter if you even mention the JQ. better yet, J’s are hwyte and our allies.

all talk and no action. well trumpenfuhrer seems like the most positive ACTION the right has seen in many peoples LIFETIMES.

oh hes not a rightist, he’s a populist. well id argue that the good kind of populism is inherently right wing.

http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/mein-kampf-adolf-hitler/1125132928?ean=9781684185979&st=PLA&sid=BNB_DRS_Core+Shopping+Books_00000000&2sid=Google_&sourceId=PLGoP62465

get the stalag edition hahahaha i am this close to dropping the 20 bucks hehe

terrible cover art tho

tuesday afternoon benedryl

heh. the way i feel about women and joos is the way the j media wants everyone to feel about hwytes! now i know this feel about women is a fictional woman in my head only. the j’s however, really are that bad. that’s no fiction. that is a sad disgusting reality that they have and are perverting everything good in the world.

they make hwytes look like sadistic monsters aka natsees becuase they’re projecting what they are themselves – sadistic, perverted monsters! spawn of satan!

i want MJ wah wah wah! i want that woman wah wah wah! all women are sluts! joos are genociding hwytes! wah wah wah! bitch bitch bitch hahahaha. cyka cyka cyka.

saw a 40 year old woman manager type with a masters degree today who wasnt super hot or anything but she was hwyte and not fat and was still bangable and was probably quite bangable in her youth. i wanted to bang her anyway. i guess now i am getting into the milfs since i dont see 20 year old gurls every day. if i did i would be staring at them like mad i can assure you. more than the 40 year olds. because 20 year old gurls are way more than twice as hawt as 40 year old women.

maybe i should marry a 40 year old divorced mother with like 10 year old children hahahaha.

 

 

 

 

OK SILLY EVIL WH1TES, TIME TO GO NOW, YOUVE DONE ENOUGH DAMAGE

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit

sept 22

yeah there is def a mental emotional change when you have been a jobless neet for over a YEAR. you see a nice 12 dollar job and think wow maybe i could do this, and then you automatically get discouraged, like they will see this neetgap and say into the trash this neet goes.

so i am increasingly thinking a part time thing will be MANDATORY for me to regain my “training wheels” and gradually shed muh neetism. and then i have a MUCH better chance at getting those sweet bigboy 12 dollar jobs. and finding a nice fat white trash mudshark waifue hahahahaha. bbbbbb SHE makes 15 an hour! she is 3 full levels above me!

oh well i am done with her and i will be alone the rest of muh life, never find as good of a woman, big deal, who cares, i can get a 11 dollar part time job, be a part time bum and dnate money to 1488 orgs who support white children and white families that i will never have hahahahaha.

fook it who cares. smoke MJ erryday and dnate 20 bucks a year to white orgs hahaha really making a difference.

yeah well at least im not FAT!!!!!!!!!

should prob start LIFTING hahahaha.

11 Unusual Ways to Stand Out in a Job Interview

http://bit.ly/2cm4pHJ

#interview #interviewadvice #interviewattire #interviewetiquette #officebehavior via @Glassdoor

send a handwritten thank you note on fancy card stock? jeebus. fook this bitch. ARE YOU KIDDING ME. maybe thats why ive been rejected at 18 interviews. cuz all their other people sent handwritten thank yous on card stock. no ya dumb broad its because i have a 14 month gap. a 14.88 month gap hahahahahahahahaha hail victory, hail the fuhreri, gtkrwn

https://upfrommorallylazyloserness.wordpress.com/2016/09/21/6518/

top 20% post here tbh fam, hall of fame. rising above the rising tide of mediocrity hahaha. up from neetness’s best. go back and reread this on fo sho hehehehe.

repost this one. hehehe. top 10% even. LOL

yeah i bought that millennial woes t shirt hahahaha. no more t shirts for a while hahahaha.

i liked that that woman was more used to REJECTION than normie women. rejected by her longterm bf, rejected by her short term bf, rejected for jobs that other people got. she would not get hired just for being a pretty young gurl, prob because she came across as dumb and dull, but i didnt think that outweighed being a pretty young gurl! but for her it did. so she would have to go to 2 or 3 interviews at diff places before one said yes. rather than getting an offer for her very first place. but she would still find something relatively soon. didnt have to send out 550 applications and do 19 interviews. and i am much sharper and present much better than her! well, except that i get nervous and spergy. and i have a huge gap. which outweighs me being a fairly decent interviewer, apparently.

yeah well im smarter than HER. im better than HER hahahaha. i deserve to make 15 an hour and she only deserves to make 13 an hour hahahaha. because i am WAY BETTER than her hahahaha.

no i dont really believe that, thats just my shitty defense mechanism against her making me feel so weak and worthless and inferior and thrown away hahaha.

who cares. only me, no one else. she for DAMN sure doesnt care anymore.

but yeah even me being on a 3 week stretch of No Interviews has definitely weakened muh confidence. sheeeeeeeit.

basically, if you dont do a job/work in a long time, you start to feel INCAPABLE of doing a job, that you dont have what it TAKES to do a job.

if you havent had secs in 10 years, you begin to feel you dont have WHAT IT TAKES to have secs with women. or you have permanently LOST what it takes.

i dont care too much about secs, but i DO care about Having What It Takes to Get Secs, when its Game Time and I find a mother of my children material of woman!!!!!

When you havent had a Trad Monog LTR with a woman ever, you begin to feel like you are missing What It Takes to have a Trad Monog LTR with a woman!

Feels Bad Man!

hehe he will probably get TORN APART for “wanting to make it a little painful for her” oh you evil evil evil horrible person!

actually a fairly decent good thread, would recommend

the idea that the outside world finds you worthless. the real world. The Market finds you worthless and unemployable. Women find you worthless and uncommit-to-able. this stream of negative thoughts is what causes despair and it must be stopped. and not with recreational drugs. but what about MJ? hehehehe.

sheeeeit. wife cant hide her CHEATING because the guy DIED and she was devastated by it, and this is how her hubby finds out. cheatin bitches, nothing sacred hehehe.

i bet all the people telling him not to get a paternity test are WOMEN. hahahaha. women WOULD say some bullshit like that.

i accept that you can luv kids who are not biologically yours…….but i claim that you need to know. because you deserve to know if YOUR legacy is continuing. you are entitled to WANT biological children of your own.

tried to listen to evoken “antithesis of light” and, just like the last time i tried listening to it, i was like, this is ok, its doomy and slow and dark and  i like the drums and this guy really does have good craig pillard esque lowass growling vocals which i really like (interestingly enough pillard actually joined the band for one album but he never did his classic lowass growls tho! just played bass. also i like craig pillard because he is an outspoken pro-white. or at least he used to be and i hope he still is!)

and the drums sounded good but god damn the songs did not hit me the same way as the songs on their previous albums. the riffcraft was not as compelling. a few cool riffs and a lot of that disembowelmentesque clean ethereal guitar over heavy slow riffs, i like that, but…….i dunno the songs just dont seem as good as on the albums before it, and this is the same impression i got of this album every time i tried listening to it, and then i stopped following evoken and they have 2 albums AFTER this!!!!!! but i want to give them more chances, i really do, they are good bois, they dindu nuffin.

you know that feel when somebody asks you a question or gives you a problem that is WAY ABOVE YOUR PAY GRADE? well now imagine that its STILL your job to fix the problem, and the people whos pay grade it IS, are gonna fight you and your client tooth and nail to PROVE that its really above your pay grade. just believe me when i say i can’t do this!!!!

but then again i tend to underestimate myself and think i am incapable of a LOT!

ok we need no explanation or qualification of how mgla is a great band, but KSM needs a little more luv. Also this album sounds a lot different than KSM’s “enemy of man” and is very blasting, raw, fast, savage, does not really sound like mgla at all, whereas i guess “enemy of man” sound more mglalike. plus this is just a great drummer and it is nice just to listen to him play. and to GOMAD like he does here. i am not sure its the same singer though.

heh. i was in ARBYS getting sum ROASTIES and there was the cutest 18 year old gurl in the world working there. snow white skin, super light blond hair, i mean she was super blond. and just ridiculously, insanely cute, like real aryan tradwives in wheatfields tier, i cant believe such a gurl EXISTS at the ARBYS 1 mile away from my home!

i mean she was YOUNG though, 18 at the OLDEST. I mean I had to take a step back and pick my jaw off the ground. I was BOWLED OVER. IMPRESSED. turned into total mush at this sight of this TEEN GURL. an 18 year old gurl reducing a 35 year old man to Jelly heehehehehe.

No I am not 35 but I use that as an approximation of my age, I am close enough to 35.

” I personally hold strongly that part of the goal of a marriage is to be one another’s moral partners ” says glassisnotglass on

i thought that was a very interesting thing of them to say, and I probably agree.

heh. HOW COME it takes till age 25 for women to “figure out what they want???” It doesnt take MEN till age 25. it didnt take me. this is setting the bar very low and encouraging bad behavior from women.

some stupid reddit thing about a 23 year old woman acting like a 12 year old, and tons of people are saying, well what do you expect, shes onyl 23. NO EXCUSE. YOU SHOULDNT BE THAT IMMATURE AT AGE 23. YOU SHOULD BE MARRIED WITH 2 CHILDREN AT LEAST.

signed into my old twitter for the first time in 3 years and see real life people i used to know literally saying antiwhite shit. like these crazy WHITE PEOPLE. UGH. OLD WHITE PEOPLE. Trump supporters. UGH. these WHITE people are SO UGH. YOURE WHITE YA MORON!!!!!!! these WHITE people calling other white people WHITE as a pejorative. like UGH. so DUMB and RACIST and WORKING CLASS and UNEDUCATED and AFRAID and INSECURE. WHITE PEOPLE SUCK.

these are real people. who were close friends with people i was close friends with. who get a masters degree and a decent middle class job. this is the type of shit they say to sound funny or smart.

even this other guy who trolls feminists and would be a good MGTOW candidate, white people are still UGH to him. even though he could potentially be red pilled on women.

but if youre 31 years old and not red pilled on WOMEN yet, you will never be red pilled on ANYTHING.

people really close to my age are so blue pilled and lame and antiwhite hahaha. the YOUNGER kids, there is actual potential there. people my age are the lamest, antiwhitest, SHITLIBS you could imagine.

the world is not overly white!!!!!! ever heard of africa, asia, middle east, south america? whites are already a MINORITY in the WORLD!!!!!!

or OH GOD I HAVE 1 out of 1000 FB friends is a TRUMP SUPPORTER!!!!!!! it prob wasnt a very close friend either. these people are less tolerant than ME, the 1488 GTKRWN White Supremacist!!!!!

“joking” about being able to spot trump supporters just by looking at a room of random people. they are probably white and fat. like you hahahahahahaha. but dont make stupid antiwhite jokes on twitter.

he has a kid and luvs being a dad and is puzzled that people under 25 are so antinatalist because having a kid is really awesome! which would be awesome if……..his kid were white. yep. white guy with a mixed baby who makes antiwhite jokes all the time and its more than just jokes, he is a true believer in diversity, and that whites have done enough harm. its time to take your final lap whites and get ready to retire. we’ve have enough of whites.

this is literally how these WHITE PEOPLE think. they admit that whites are evil, whites are bad, don’t lump ME in with white people, i might be white but I admit white people have done more harm than good, and THATS WHY diversity is good, because it DECREASES THE NUMBER OF WHITE PEOPLE. WHITES ARE BAD, SO ITS GOOD TO HAVE LESS WHITES. get rid of the whites, theyve DONE ENOUGH DAMAGE. good god.

uhhh way to assume all working class shop rats in a particular large industry dislike  barry. pretty sure they would vote for barry or hillary because they are lazy union scumdogs that are 50% nonwhite. but in the white antiwhites mind, all working class people are White Trump Supporting Racists. uhhh youre forgetting about all the NONWHITE working class people ya moron.  you think theyre voting for trump?

this is honestly a nice good decent guy so I can’t Curse him too much, but my god. his ideology makes me more sick than myideology would make him sick.  and he lives muh dream of having a good job and having a wife and being a father. i dont even doubt his nonwhite wife is a good person but i still wish he married a white woman and had a white baby and wasnt so god damn disgusting antiwhite! youre WHITE! just accept it! embrace it! learn to love your whiteness!

laugh at the jimmy buffet listening white people getting cray to their white people music! YOU ARE WHITE!!!!

its like they FORGET THAT THEY ARE WHITE, talking about white people LIKE YOU ARENT WHITE.

no they dont forget it. this is just their way of signaling that they arent like this. that they arent proud of being white. whites are a JOKE.

Literally 20% of his tweets are making fun of white people or whiteness. no other racial groups. just whites. ok its probably more like 10% but its a CONSISTENT 10%. sure enough, there’s another white joke in with the random jokes about your baby or food or funny stuff at work or whatever.

well i guess its more interesting than the other poeple who tweet about SPORTSBALL hehehehe. YAWN.

none of the people on my “real life men” list could be considered even slightly right of center. or even center. ALL leftists. well to be fair its the one guy doing the tweeting. i mean there is lotta twitter attrition here.

i made a separate list for women because literally EVERYTHING they say is stupid, so i didnt want to read them any more. again they would all be leftists but thats the default state for young tweeting women.

ok done with that bullshit. it is AMAZING how different i am from these people. and i LIKE being different. i WANT to stand up for my own side. I WANT To defend whites. i am seriously PRO-white. I dont throw MY people under the bus.  i dont make fun of whites. i seriously stand for and with Working Class Whites.

i dont blindly suck trumps dick but i HAVE to vote for him because he says ANYTHING supportive of working class whites!

these other whites have nothing but CONTEMPT for working class whites!!!!!

so dissapointing and sad. i mean this guy is smart, he’s actually funny, he’s a nice guy. he didnt HAVE to turn out like this. i mean i dont HATE him. I dont HATE his nonwhite wife and kid. i just have to shake my head. SMH.

yet more evidence that I REALLY need to go to pro white meetups and meet other pro white real life people. i HAVE to.

or at least find people i already know who already have pro-white inklings.

and its disappointing when the white poeple you know DONT have these inklings, in fact they make anti white jokes, and truly believe that Whites Have Done Enough Harm, Its Time To Go Now, Buh Bye Whites.

this is THE underlying belief, which makes debating nonwhites pointless.

basically: whites have power, nonwhites dont, whites have used their power to oppress nonwhites, and this reign of terror is starting to crumble and come to and end, and that’s a good thing! it’s GOOD when white population declines! Good! whites are a net negative, a cancer of humanity, whites have done more harm than good, ITS TIME FOR THEM TO GO. and WHTE PEOPLE BELIEVE THIS FULLY.

no its not fair for whites to protect themselves, because whites are OBJECTIVELY EVIL! whites are the most harmful race! its ONLY FAIR that whites pay the karmic price by dying off! Good!

this is LITERALLY how these people think! and it makes me sick!

well at least i got 5 applications done today, havent gotten 5 in at LEAST a week. spread them out all throughout the day. took the edge off by playing cards WHILE doing the application. or, intentionally doing the app slowly and not quickly, even if it would skew my numbers. so then i took the slow time and just took 10%-15% off of it. i guess i could also just input the Current Average of 13 minutes. or how about 14 or 15.

sept 23

received rejection from post office job today that i interviewed for like 3 months ago. for the PSE mail processing clerk. funny that i was actually offered a carrier job but not the processing job.

and i turned down the carrier offer because of shit i read online hahahaha. i still dont feel too bad about that hahahaha.

but i still feel incapable of doing/handling just about any job!

how come SHE can handle a job but I cant?

note: these thoughts dont seem to bother me as much as they once did, thank GOD.

but, how come any random NORMIE can handle a job but I cant? is the more general version of that thought.

heh. so whites are responsible for most of the INJUSTICE in the world and therefore we need to balance out the balance sheet. whites still have a DEBT TO PAY. thats why they mock them and like it when whites fade away.

i need to really start socialising with white people who are proud to be white hahahaha.

not that i really hang out with whites who mock whites anyway! these people I see on twitter, i dont really see them in RL anymore. i will see people like this only very occasionally. the people i see most regularly are not nearly this bad, hahahahaha. thank GOD.

but i would STILL like to hang out with people who are blatantly pro-white, like me hahahaha.

so, WHITES deserve to lose power because they have been so UNJUST and OPPRESSIVE for HUNDREDS OF YEARS. They brought this on themselves. They are the Douchebro race and now they need to learn that they cant act like that without consequence. have to be held accountable.

this is exactly the antiwhite view, its so simple, and we would do well to remind ourselves of it. you cant logic with these people. you cant change them or redpill them or chip away at them. they are basically hopeless race traitors hahahaha.

but yeah debating THEM is useless but like bulbasaur says, its more useful for the listening audience, to chip away at the people who actually are on the fence.

sometimes people adopt certain personas to fit in or make friends, indeed i was like that. when i was 20 i was a huge antiwhite leftist who thought that mocking the ebil whites was a way to make friends with the cool leftist kids and maybe win the approval of the qt leftist gurls (at leftist university, all the gurls were leftist).

but that was when i was 20! these people are not 20 any more!

so i thank GOD that I became woke by age 30 hahahaha. this guy on twitter is not, and never will be. you find a 30 year old that is talking like this, its pretty hopeless. and they have children. and will teach their children this crap.

are there any people that people redpilled AFTER they have children? i think some guys on the fatherland actually were. actually i think having children starts the redpilling for some people. well good for them. they were probably on the fence anyway, or werent blatantly antiwhite to begin with.

i will do everything i can to live out the 14 words, but it still is VERY frustrating to think that I dont Have What It Takes to have my OWN white children.

i mean if shit is mostly genetic, i should be able to have children with a white skank, and abandon them, and they will prob still turn out all right…..right?

but its patently horrible to abandon your children, and i wouldnt really want to do that.

and i dont really WANT to have children with a white trash skank!!!!

but if thats my only option to have children? you cant live in a fantasy world, you gotta live in the REAL world hehehehe.

so yeah i guess my plan is, if i havent had children by age 50, then just go the desperate plan z route of knocking up basically any white woman that will take me.

but that child would be MISERABLE!!!!!!!

heh. i remember when i was on facebook. like 7 years ago. i would get triggered by the stupid annoying things people would say, especially women. i just wanted to get away from it all. so i did. years later i brought back facebook and only had 7 friends this time. basically people who did not post annoying stupid shit and were trusted long term fairly special friends. that worked out ok until i friended THat Woman hahahaha and so i have deactivated this FB for the past 14 months hehehe.

but seeing that guys shitty twitter just made me think, damn, facebook is EVEN WORSE. even MORE idiots saying even MORE stupid shit. and i was GLAD I didnt have to put up with that….. but i was also frustrated because maybe this means i am too easily triggered and cant DEAL with real life people!!!!!!!

well being annoyed by peoples stupid political and moral opinions on facebook is nothing new. normies get annoyed at this too. they just dont have the BALLS to cut off fb entirely like me hahahahaha.

yeah i mean i do like seeing pictures of muh friends beautiful white children.

but everyone I know has my email address and phone number. I check email 1488 times a day. its always open. its open right now. i get 1488 job alerts a day. i just looked at email right now.

you can search my name on google and find my linkedin and twitter pages, which have my email on them. my phone number is available to connections on my linkedin page.

i dont NEED facebook in other words.

why would you “DATE” somebody if “its not a serious relationship?” where date obviously means casually fooking. i swear it is the stupid WOMEN who ruin reddit with their womanly bullshit.

the things they advise, if a guy actually was like that, they would dump him quickly. they view kindness and respect as weakness. and actual weakness they view as worse than abuse or stalking or raep.

comedy. i used to be much more into comedy. well, my good friend was really into comedy and he is a great guy and i supported him and felt i had a somewhat similar appreciation for comedy and comedians, actually smart funny good comedians vs bad comedians, comic timing, what makes something funny, etc.

as i have become more 1488 i have become less tolerant of comedians. i guess louis ck is a great example of the change i’ve gone through. he’s new enough that he was never grandfathered in in my youth. he started gaining a reputation as a smart person’s comedian and writer. i sort of appreciate his Depth of Character Development, which is above average…..but he’s still a cuckold phaggot. I watch his stuff sometimes with some interest. he’s smart enough to know better, so its disappointing to see him ultimately be a big blue pill jooish phaggot. and really he’s nly 25% jooish. but he seems like way more hahahaha.

like i was watching this show on fx “better things” which he is the co creator of, along with the female star, who was actually the voice of bobby on king of the hill. here she plays a degenerate single mother actress mudshark basket case skank with an alcoholic skank single mother herself. no positive masculine characters. all the females are stronk independent fragile basket case skanks. it totally makes sense to have louis ck in on this, and its pretty disgusting.

you can do better louis, just dont be such a weak degen. but he wont, i am confident in that. so into the oven he goes.

and its very similar with all of tv, movies, hollywood, etc. its all jooish degen, and has been well before 1965. hollywood has been jooish even since like 1920 hahahahaha.

so what. whos a good comedian? george carlin? bill hicks? they seem edgy but really its just basic bitch libertarian bullshit, and that’s just not good enough.

yet when i was 23 and met a super qt 20 year old gurl who actually knew and liked bill hicks, i thought oooooo this gurl is so special. normie gurls dont even know who bill hicks is.

of course she turned out to be a crazy mudshark slut, and thankfully i quickly got over my infatuation with her. seeing a 2015 tweet from her (not a frequent tweeter but im sure she is a mad FBer) shows that she essentially supports BLM, hates cops, thinks cops are The White Man oppressing and killing Blacks, and also guns are bad too.

at age 29 this girly leftism becomes a lot less cute than at age 20, and i have some schadenfreude as she rapidly approaches The Wall with no husband, no children, because guess what cupcake: YOU ARENT GOOD WIFE MATERIAL.

you cant get down on women for being leftist though, women are natural leftists. it’s the man’s job to guide them to the right.

still, does that mean women HAVE TO express their dumb stupid leftist opinions? why cant they just be more Apolitical????? Apolitical is ideal.

indeed, not all people express stupid opinions on fb or twitter or whatever.

some of them have Anonymous Blogs where they write 148800000000 word posts on far right stuff and traditional values. find me that woman hahahaha. no jk. in a woman, thats just weird. for a man, well, then i would like to hang out with that guy!

and thats obviously what i need to do ASAP. meet more real life white men with Racially Woke Far Right Wing views and morals like me.

i kinda am interested in getting a part time ABA autism job. just to see what its like. i dont have that kind of curiosity for other shitty jobs hahaha. and all the ABA jobs are part time, low paying, low qualifications, low bar, seems like it would be easy for a dumb ingra woman to get hahahahaha so why not me. well thats presumptuous, i have interviewed for SEVERAL part time 11 dollar an hour jobs and not gotten an offer!

i could say i have autism myself. no i just have terrible social anxiety. big difference hhahaha.

hehehehehehehehe  this young man of 26 he is way younger than me AND he has a gf who doesnt dump him because he is at a deadend job making shit money and he is unhappy and so why doesnt she dump him because to keep a woman you have to be in charge and happy all the fookin time. and the second you have a low phase and ask them can i lean on you for some moral support, they say nope dont be so insecure needy and clingy, im gone, this is your fault for pushing me too much. hahahahahaha

heh. so a person goes to the dr to ask for some benzos because they are scared of flying, doc says ok fine, gives them <10 xanax.

this is a lot different than someone who says holy fook i need benzos to go to my job EVERY DAY because im so freaked out by my JOB EVERY DAY.

the guy who freaks out on planes does NOT freak out about his job. he survives his job quite easily, makes 40k+ a year, goes out and socializes on work nights, gets 6 hours of sleep tops, and doesnt mind. doesnt freak out.  wouldnt THINK of taking benzos for the job.

and i think OH GOD I NEED BENZOS JUST TO SURVIVE EACH DAY AT THE JOB.

now i didnt really. i got like 6 months prescription of benzos but just hoarded them. in hindsight i wish i HAD taken them on the job. but I was worried about Seemed Stoned to everybody, so I just continued to freak out and not take them, except on weekends sometimes, just to take the edge off.

today is friday night, party time, took half dose of nyquil, my go to party drug. wish i had a big bag of indica MJ, then i would smoke that hehehe.

woo hoo got 6 applications in today. got about 250 calories over my goal tho. but i wanted to get at least 5 applications today in order to feel like a basic human being. and i did hehehe. even as the nyquil is making my thinking less sharp hehehe.  also my apps are getting longer and bringing my average up. I remember when I was at like 12.9 minutes. now i am at like 13.3 minutes. not cool man!

i guess i am a little jealous of women. they can get a Trad Monog LTR even if they are totally crazy, “babies give me a mental breakdown, and im also suicidal.” a MAN this crazy would be a foreveralone virgin, compounding his suizidality.

but again we know the reason why. power of the uterus. so it is only RIGHT that any woman, even a crazy one, doesnt need to make a HUGE EFFORT to get a man, and can still easily get a man even with HUGE DEALBREAKERS.

this woman is so crazy that “babies make me want to K myself” good LORD.

hehehehe. theses STUPID ARGUMENTS that the WOMEN START. we never got to that point. she would just dump me long before it got to this point hahahaha.

i have an anxious attachment style, she has an avoidant attachment style hahahaha. maybe i need another anxious person hahaha.

i know you have to put in LOTS of applications before you get a job, and it ALWAYS takes LONGER than you think…..but HOW long? HOW many applications? over a year? over 500 applications?

yeah sure i should get WAY more than 500 applications in a year, but I was really lazy and shitty for the first 6 months of that hahahahaha. so yeah i could get more like 800 applications in a year.