heh. i was thinking about how ridiculous it is to be rejected by something you want to be part of. like i want to give you a donation, nope we wont take your donation because you suck. thats even worse than we wont take YOU, but well take your money. what about just stop sending us money. but you still do good work and i want to support you.
i mean with WOMEN, you say, welp, i tried, i struck out, you dont want me, i’ll just move on. but what if WEEV rejects me and says he doesnt want my money? that doesnt make weev’s work less valuable! i would still want to support it!
well this is not gonna happen, i just got amused because i thought it might happen hahahaha. no weev is not gonna reject me or my money. it would just be funny and ridiculous if he did!
well it would be CUCKY to continue donating to him if he did. so i would say i luv what he does but he doesnt want my money, so i stopped giving.
anyway its not werf talking about because it didnt even happen. it shouldnt happen. its worrying about absolutely absurd shit.
did you know you could get a DUI for passing out drunk and Sleeping It Off in the drivers seat of a car? this is what happened to chris cantwell, who i am kinda liking more and more. he is a better writer than i guessed he would be, and he is kinda like me in that as a young man he rejected the authority of the CHURCH and was very rebellious and he liked drinking and smokin MJ and didnt want to stop because it was too much fun. then he started getting DUI’s and seeing that drug people were degen losers. but he kept drinking because now he had a drinking problem. anyway he went to jail for 2 dui’s, that sucks. some states its 3, i guess in his state it was 2! damn! i might become a libertarian too hahahaha. but now he is moving away from that and is becoming more and more racist, which i like. he struggles like crazy and he is trying so hard. i can sympathize and Empathize. he always has trouble with some damn dirty sluts. probably because deep down he doesnt believe he deserves a good white women, so he gets these crazy dirty mulatto sluts. but he does deserve a good hwite woman!!!!
holy shit. when i get up at 5 am, like CLOCKWORK i want to take a MAD powernap around 3:30, 4 pm. i would not even be done with an Honest Days Work by then!
GLR’s “hwyte power” is quickly losing momentum. it starts off very strong in the first 2 chapters but then drops off. still very readable and not at all bad, but just a big dropoff in momentum. still worth buying and reading though. just not as fun as it was in the beginning. maybe a joo editor would have helped him with his pacing hahahaha.
there is a new autistic muppet starting on sesame street in april. i should not be surprised. actually i AM surprised theres not a Transexual Muppet yet. honestly. that would be the best way to sell such a thing to children. honestly! i dont even think there is a GAY muppet, that is REALLY shocking. i cant believe theres never been a gay sesame street muppet in the past 10 years. what a great way to turn hwyte kids into gay sissies who will never reproduce.
he spends a lot of time talking about Communiss in Cuba and china and the communist connection with oswald and the JFK assassination, whcih to be sure, were uge stories when he wrote the book. i think he is saving up most of his joo hate until like page 100 or so. just wish he’d get out with it earlier.
tempted to look at reddit relships but fighting the minor urge cuz i know its gonna be filled with leftist hamster wimmin and omega sissie bitchbois apologizing to them hahahahaha and begging for table scraps.
mean the relships arent rocket science when the gurl LIKES you and is WILLING to make an effort to be with you. thats all you need. then you can make all the mistakes you want and she will keep giving you chance after chance after chance after chance. none of this one strike and youre out shit. that just means you NEVER had even ONE chance. so i guess i should feel reassured by that. because once i thought i had ONE chance hahaha. you NEVER get just ONE chance. unless you do ahahaha. who cares. god damn negro fooking degenerate pig wh0res. nothings sacred with these degenerate jooish pigs.
ok ok i am being negative again. negative nancy. have to have a more positive attitude. it was an overly negative attitude and negative thinking that got me into this MESS.
how to stop negative thoughts? you identify the thought as negative, then say STOP! YOU SHALL NOT PASS!!!!!!! and just say that to most of your thoughts because most of them are probably negative. about how women are horrible, or how you are a weak soft untough neet virgin loser who cant handle the tough adult world.
you can keep the negative thoughts about joos because they really are awful hahahahahahaha. but i would recommend thinking about some pleasant things to balance that out.
some people feel about GOD and JESUS and RELIGION the way I feel about The Hwyte Race. Good for them I guess. I wish I had that kind of faith but I dont. as long as they have a healthy sense of racial hygiene they dont bother me. when you start adopting africans for jesus youve gone too far. or missionarying in africa . well i mean the mormons do that and then they STILL have 10 white kids by age 23, so…..good for them. hope they stay that way. i have heard unsubstantiated rumors that mormons are darkening hehehe. i hope not.
nothing against the christians. i am technically one. its not an inherently bad message. i dont even think its inherently jooish. although some people make it pretty jooish. and that’s bad. obviously.
franco sinazi with his new song which is a parody of “strangers in the night” and is very very very catchy. play it for normies and see if they notice. negros beaners and skypes hahahaha.
just waiting to go to damn bed. i might not have done much but i probably did my best hahahahahahaha. well i guarantee you i didnt do my worst. and at least im not a neet anymore. and i am not a virgin hahaha.
wow a metal show that i immediately said YES IM GOING I HAVE TO GO I AM EXICITED TO MAKE AN EFFORT TO GO because it was on a good night and most importantly, a good location. great location on a good night. the band taake. now i dont know much about current year taake, but I do know that the first 3 taake albums are very good. and that taake/hoest made insensitive remarks about mudslims and once got drunk and drew a SVASTICA on his chest hahahahahahaha. he is a drunk degenerate but I feel he might be a little racist.
he couldnt keep up the impossibly high average set by his first three albums, but for those he earned his place in the pantheon and I will gladly get high energy about going to see him live in a few months. a honest Black Metal show. haven’t been to many of those. closest thing would be I saw mayhem once. mayhem counts as black metal hahahaha. are you kidding, mayhem totally counts as black metal.
i dont see why black metal shouldnt be “live” music. I would luv to see any of muh fav black metal bands live. i would gladly go see deathspell omega play a shitty sloppy show hahahaha.
anyway. eavesdropped on great conversation between successful professionals about their college age kids. you just assume the kids are gonna get masters degrees, get good jobs, get married, have children.
well what if they dont. what if they fook up one of those. or like me, ALL of them.
the kids all have IDEAS of what they want to do. well i wanted to go to MED SKOOL but got cold feet on that so i started an ENGIN degree instead. i know to get a good paid internship after my second year of uni.
im an 18 year old gurl and i want to become a physician assistant and i know i have to get all a’s in college and go to a good grad school to do that, and i am prepared for all that. i know to never get a B, never to do drugs, never to get less than 3 good internships. these middle class parents set their kids up to succeed hahahaha.
well i wasnt set up to FAIL. i was given all the CHANCES to succeed but I didnt have enough personal agency or pushing. I needed someone to make bigger decisions for me because i didnt know how to make big decisions. i didnt want to go to grad school, i didnt even want to go to college, i just wanted to sm0ke MJ and jerk off to porn all day hahahahahahahahaha.
i mean what do you do as a concerned parent when your kid starts to fook up. do you say, well he’s old enough to start making his own mistakes, and hopefully learn from them? what if he doesn’t learn from them?
i wish i had been more of a normie like this guys kids hahahaha. i bet this 19 year old engineer nerd is actually a normie chad who has had a gf hahahaha. he will prob be successful even though he as a 19 year old boy likes sleeping in till noon sometimes. oh. i thought the RULE WAS, you have to get up at 4 am at the latest EVERY SINGLE DAY if you EVER wanted to be successful in life, ie, outcompete all the competition and get a sick 30k a year middle class job hahahaha.
basically, i was weirder than i thought i was hahahaha. i was SUPER weird. SUPER jelly of the NORMIES.
and maybe for normies, its not such a god damn neverending struggle to succeed. its not easy, they still work hard, they struggle some, but its not like madly thrashign just to tread water. they are not always on the verge of falling apart. otherwise more normies would fail.
well there’s plenty of failures too!
anyway weekend nao. took a benedryl. will take 2 valiums later. wouldnt mind some MJ. but not craving it as bad as i did 1 month ago thank god. I am still prepared to buy a huge quantity of it should the opportunity present itself.
i dont like how women make you all competitive hahahaha. i had a dream about some old friends, some really great guys i remember fondly. it wasnt until i was hanging out with them as a group with WOMEN that I became aware of the idea that, damn, these guys are COOLER than me, and would totally have an advantage over me for women. yeah it MAKES SENSE, they ARE cooler than me, I just wish I could hang out with these guys apart from these women. These are good guys and I dont want WOMEN to cause any DRAMA. but why should I be mad at the GUYS? and i wasnt. i was butthurt at the GURLS hahahahaha.
There never was any real drama, thank GOD. i mean this is just the classic broes before hoes situation.
taake live. thats pretty cool though. i wont know the majority of the songs but i bet it will be good. hoest is known as a Good Performer. Intense. im sure there will even be qt yung gurls there because qt young gurls like metal nao, they have for like 6 years hahaha. maybe i can get some of hoests sloppy seconds hahahaha. i know better than to want to marry a metal grrrrl hahahaha. not interested. expectations status: managed.
ate dinner, back, took valium, now sitting here drinking coffee, play some cards, this is the best time to do MJ but i dont have any. prob should not take valium then drink coffee, may be like throwing valium in the trash hahaha. oh well. whats done is done.
being able to SELL stuff. being TOUGH. these are good LIFE SKILLS that will be valuable in ANY and EVERY job. its simple. the better you are at these things, the better you will do in life. DIRECT proportion. direct relationship. really its full blown CAUSE AND EFFECT, not just corrolation. the younger you are when you learn how to SELL shit and to BE TOUGH, the better, because the easier it will be for you to MASTER these skills quickly.
i was always pretty weak at both. i cant sell myself to women, cant sell myself to employers, cant sell my damn RACE to other members of my race. and yeah being TOUGH will help you SELL better too. sales.
how jooish is casablanca. i often watch TCM channel and see oldass movies. most of them are more jooish than i would like. hollywood was jooed since like the 1920s. since movies began they were jooed. casablanca. heavy themes of the natzees are the bad guys. evil natsees. well shit. do you expect a movie where the natsees are the GOOD guys? theres never been a single one. expectations. manage them.
but yeah he is lovelorn for ingrid bergman. not bad. he never wanted to see her again. what the hell happened between them in paris? she dumped him for lazlo? but she really luvs rick?
wirrten by joos, directed by a joo. its def watchable though. good cuddler with a good waifu hahaha if she doesnt fall asleep because its so old and boring and then leave you for a more EXCITING man.
also its CONFUSING. thats my fault because everything is CONFUSING to me, i have a learning disability called everythings confusing because i sm0ked too much w33d 10 years ago, so i can’t make sense, understand, or explain anything.
you know who WASNT jooish? HITCHOCK. WELLES.
bogart fought AGAINST the fascists in spain in casablanca. joos are always anti fascist. therefore, fascists are the good guys hahahaha. what was the most successful, long lived fascist state? how did croatia happen. was croatia ever “fascist”? what about sweden? norway was “occupied” but it wasnt technically an “axis” power. was sweden?
it was “neutral” and unoccupied
maybe norway resented this?
i dunno its impossible for me to learn and to answer questions and understand situations at all , hahahaha
NOTHING MAKES SENSE. NOTHING. hahahaha. you can try to make sense of it, but you will fail.
had some diet red cherry mello yello today. when i used to drink soda i used to get code red or code blue mt dew. what the hell was the blue stuff called. VOLTAGE. omg. i was notorious for drinking mt dew VOLTAGE. best soda ever. but they didnt make a diet version. i didnt see if they had blue diet mello yello but they had red and i was happy with that.
of course diet soda is so crappy you dont like it as much. i just had 1 because i was at burger king and had a drink and they had one of those touch screen 50 flavors sodas. pretty amazing that. how the hell do these minimum wage people fix such a thing when its broken. there were white kids working there. probably because fast food is actually such a TOUGH job only white kids are SMART enough to HANDLE it. nonwhites are TOO DUMB FOR FAST FOOD JOBS.
i mean these are not easy jobs folks. you have a TON of shit to do, with no fookups. dealing with disgusting fat degen customers stuffing their fat opioid degenerate faces and bitching at these poor white kids.
808 pm. taking second valium.
NORMIES can get MJ rather easily because they are SOCIAL. but normies also dont become total p0theads. they are happy to just partake once in a while, in moderation, or a huge binge every couple months. that’s basically moderation.
so im saying degen p0theads are not normies??? in a way they ARENT!
so are normies winners or losers? i would say generally they are winners compared to losers and nonnormies! 28k might not seem like a huge winner…..but it really is! and prob most normies make arund that. a fast food manager makes that.
oh well. at least i am not fat any more. and i have a place to live. and a good fam. it just sucks that at one time i had a halfway decent MIND……and now i dont. i mean i am not batshit schizophrenic thank GOD…..but i just feel like a confused idiot child mcuh of the time.
and i want to do MJ????? you think that will HELP this mental state? fook no, itll make it 14 times worse!!!!!
heh. it would be really fun to get blazed as fook and then go to that taake concert! and then just stay in the back. or maybe go right up front and give Roman Salutes to hoest so he knows I am down with the 14 words hahaha.
MAYBE there will be ANTIFA protesting the show like antifa protested marduk recently at some of their US shows because marduk Is Interested in Semi Fascist A E S T H E T I C S. and they were never photographed with a svastica on their chest hahaha. thats more than enough to get you protested by jooish antifa.
at their best, taake is much less boring than marduk. marduk has like 1 classic song. taake has several and they are much more creative and brilliant than marduk’s 1 classic song (“christraping black metal” which just relies on 2 very catchy riffs.) taake has riffs that are very catchy, but still somewhat “weird”, and they piece 1400 riffs catchy but weird riffs together in a way that does not sound like riff salad masturbation like nile hahahaha. he has a good songwriting sense and a great production sense as well. but again all this kinda declined after the first 3 albums. also he comes from the same town as b00rtzum hahahaha. also he wears super grim corpse paint and convincingly pulls off grim and hate-filled. also he waves a large norwegian flag sometimes, which suggests sympathies to Nationalism. that or he supports the marxist zionist ZOG traitors who runs norway now hahahaha and is a total NEOCOHEN.
pretty sure he is a drunk tho and might do other drugs. pretty degen.
i am cautiously optimistic it will be a fun show even if i only know 1 or 2 songs. he might even have a new album out now, who knows.
ok i guess he had a us tour in 2016 but did not play near me so i didnt miss anything.
ok, shining is also doing a us tour with REVENGE. not big on shining but i think REVENGE would be an awesome live show. and i would prob stay for shining hahaha even though they are totally degenerate and ridiculous.
sheeeeeeit that show is coming to town but in the worst possible venue, a venue i will avoid for being in a black ghetto and just the trashiest place in the trashiest neighborhood, where i have missed GOOD shows just because i didnt want to go to that shitty shitty club that even by Metal standards is ultra degenerate. i would go if someone else were driving and i cannot really arrange that. well shit maybe i could park in the nearest hwite neighboorhood and get an uber from there and back hahahahaha.
oh shit i dont have a smartphone so i cant get an uber hahahaha.
i mean this place is just no fun and a huge buzzkill anyway. and shining is degen AF, glorifying drugs and suicide. whereas revenge glorifies death, destruction, power, conquering, slaughtering, hellstorm, very very ultra masculine. but kinda degen because of their total nihilism and unfocused hate. lets just get drunk and hate everything. hate all humanity equally kind of misanthropy that has gone beyond mere despair.
i would prefer just to see revenge headlining in a smaller, nicer club.
and j. read is a BEAST of a drummer and basically i would just be going to see him in person doing his incredible stuff. and sometimes the guy from angel corpse plays with them, pete helmkamp, and he is a kewl dude. and probably less degen, more principled, less of a drunk hahaha. not sure if helmkamp is on this tour.
its not cool to be a drunk you guys. its worse than you ever imagined. stop fooking drinking. you are doing untold damage.
bought the taake ticket. not tickets because i am going solo hahahaha. really dont have anyone i would like to go with. none of muh acquaintances would be remotely interested in spending 20 bucks to see a show they are not interested in. its really amazing all people dont go to Shows Solo. that they can find other people interested and who have the time available. even if i still associated with That Woman, i couldnt get her to go to this, and if i did, she would probably dump me for a tougher guy at the show, or hoest himself hahahaha.
well ya know i could very probably find some MJ among the metal people in the crowd or parking lot.
sweet might be able to buy 10 dollars of MJ in 2 months from now hahaha
ok adding to muh spreadhseet of BIG DATA ANALYTICS re sleep times. i have been marking when i go to BED, then best estimating when i actually FALL ASLEEP (ABOUT 45 minutes after I get into bed). it would only make SENSE to then mark when I wake up, and then use that to calculate an average of how much sleep i am actually getting.
so i have started simply adding the wake up time, which on job days is 5 am. very consistent. on nonwork days it is maybe about 9:30 am. so how does THAT affect the AVERAGE in other words? it looks like muh average now is 8.5 hours of sleep. i knew 7 wasnt enough. on Work Nights i am averaging about 7.5 hours. and then getting 10 to 11 hours on non work nights. so what does it all average out to??? probably about 8.5 to 9 hours. but a few more weeks of Big Data Analytics will help me get a better number. I always needed and sought out a lot of sleep. absolutely more than 8 hours.
dont know who is playing with taake. in UK he played with fen, who i have been meaning to check out, and with winterfylleth on the london show, who are very awesome and i would love if they did a us tour. been liking the UK Atmoblack in 2017 hahahaha. and Fen is right in that scene but havent listened to them. never heard anyone say anything bad about them. they are on muh list when i get bored with winterfylleth which will take a while hahaha. esp since i dont listen to music all the time like i did when i was young. have more important things to concern myself with. music is inherently decadent and soft ahahaha. real people have to WORK to SURVIVE. you think the great men of history sat around and listened to music for hours each day? they maybe listened to a MINUTE of WAGNER and then went out and conquered the world. made white babies while listening to SKREWDRIVER. listening to music for HOURS every DAY is DEGENERATE and probably means you sm0ke MJ for HOURS every DAY as well.
the only thing you should be doing for HOURS EVERY DAY is WORKING HARD and WINNING.
also WORKING OUT and pumping iron would be acceptable. and spending time with your CHILDREN, helping them to become winners like you.
day off. went to grocery store. got gas. doing 2 loads of laundry. drinking coffee. playing cards. slept 10 hours and 20 minutes last night after taking 2 valiums and 2 benedryl incl 1 benedryl RIGHT before bed.
men and women can SOMETIMES be just friends….but also BE WARNED, that if your female just friend is at ALL YOUNG and ATTRACTIVE, be WARNED that one day just friends could turn into Unrequited Luv at the drop of a hat, and one day you will wake up with it dumped on you like a ton of bricks. prepare for the worst. and tell her that too. listen baby, im not in love with you NOW, but tomorrow i could wake up and be in total luv with you. yeah i know its stupid as fook. just prepare for the worst and i will let you know WHEN it happens so we can end this shit as painlessly as possible, or even better, you could actually try dating me hahahahaha. im better than a negro or an opioid addict. i have very good intentions and i mean you no harm hahahaha. i am just soft and lazy and boring and short hahaha. ive lost a lot of weight though and i luv children! hwyte children! im just terrible at being tough, persuading, leading, selling, making money, being successful, being a man!
there have ALWAYS been pickup artists and seduction gurus and there always will be, because there are two types of men in this world: those that struggle greatly to get any woman and are huge failures with women always, and those that don’t struggle that much and are basically Normies who get GF’s and wives and married and children etc.
guys who can get a gf and guys who cant. guys who know how to Be Around women, and guys who Don’t, and i wonder if those who Dont are simply hopeless, and this is a sign telling them they shouldnt breed. and this is where pickup artists and seduction community and theredpill and Game comes from. these HOPELESS CASES desperately trying to learn. but i dont think it CAN be learned. just accept you were born without What It Takes to Pull Women, and you will never pull women. ever. you were born that way and it cant be changed. the end. dont look at porn because its degenerate. you still can go to hookers, or try to do casual rels with trainwreck sluts on tinder or okcupid. just work on your career and try to make money. start your own business. support your race in ways other than having children of your own. start your own successful business and hire nothing but hwite men who really need a good break in their lives. give money to weev and anglin hahahaha. dont glorify banging sluts but you could prob still do it privately. maybe be a foster parent to hwite kids only. dont be captain save a ho. don’t save hos, save CHILDREN.
heres whats apparent, when you average our all my sleep, i get an avg of over 8 hours a night. people need 7 to 9 hours. looks like i need closer to 9 hours. NO SURPRISE THERE, i just like seeing the Big Data Science Analytic Empirical Evidence bear that out. had a bit of a 30 minute powernap this afternoon which brought up muh average to about 8:37.
DONT SAVE A HO, SAVE CHILDREN.
Hoes cannot be saved, children sometimes can.
DONT BE A WHITE KNIGHT FOR SOME SLUT, BE A WHITE KNIGHT FOR SOME CHILDREN.
It’s not bad to be a white knight. its a very noble, natural hwite thing to do. it sucks that its got a negative connotation. but for the good reason that unrepentant sluts take advantage of it. so dont use it on them. use it on someone who will actually benefit, and one day be thankful for it: children. not your own of course because you will never have children of your own because that is too much for you to handle and you would be a horrible father hahahahahaha.
no those are negative thoughts. but what if they’re true? i think we concluded that its better to not even think TRUE negative thoughts. maybe if you are a normie, yes then you can handle it. but when you are a weirdo who has ruined your own life with constant negative thoughts, it’s best to not even think realistic, true negative thoughts. ITS BETTER TO DELUDE YOURSELF!!!!!!! literally! honestly! tbhfam!!
8 and a half mfin hours of sleep a night is my average hahaha. and i am not even super active!
this varies between 7 and 11 hours hahahaha depending if i have to get up early or not.
anyway i recommend doing this just to Get To Know your own body better. and especially if like most people, you “catch up” on sleep on your Days off. but you really shouldnt because sleeping in is for lazy losers who will never make something of themselves ahahahaha.
DONT SAVE A HO, SAVE A CHILD.
YOU CANT SAVE A HO. YOU CAN SAVE A CHILD.
hehehehehe. how do you like my nietzschean axioms. aphorisms.
ho = wh0re = slut = skank = thot = n>4 at age 24.
oh well. WHO AM I TO JUDGE. what the hell have i done with MY life. wasted it. just as bad as these THOTS. like them i have no dignity. at least they got some secsual satisfaction out of life hahahaha fooking negros and opioid poppers. tough guys in the trailer park. its not gay for them because straight women love getting pounded by tough guy dick. its as much fun for them as it is for men to pound an attractive woman. well maybe a little less because they get it so often so its not as “expensive” and SCARCE. but they still enjoy it and have more stimulation in the clitoris region and such. nerve endings etc. for men to experience that much pleasure they need to bang an 18 year old 8/10 or above hahahaha or pop some opioids.
i wonder if taake pops opioids since he’s just been rehashing his work post 2005 when he was….28 years old. and his best work he did between the ages of 22 and 28 hehehehe. and now that he is 39 he is just gonna drink and opioid himself to death and do boring rehashes of his first 3 albums but never reach that level of inspiration hahahahaha. and be very hateful and hate everything and everyone hahahahaha. hey man what are you so hateful about. youve written 3 great albums, you’re a handsome norwegian man, you’re not fat, youve probably pulled some qt gurls, you get nocturno culto and attila to do guest vocals on your albums hahahaha.
wait he did a cover of a CURE song? now that is compelling! that was on an EP semi recently. after his banjo album. he used a banjo on one song and its all anyone can talk about.
anyway. im not the biggest taake fan but this will probably make me a bigger taake fan. i wish it were a band i was more into at the moment, like winterfylleth or saor or iron maiden or…..mgla is awesome and i would totally see them, they did a US tour but no show in the area. if i were a real fan i would have traveled like serious fans do. drive 500 miles to go to a SHOW is what REAL fans do. so im not a real fan. OH WELL. i dont like metal CROWDS anyway. fookin stupid degenerates who are pissing away their whiteness on being drunken and st0ned idiots who care more about degen music than by being winners in life. reminds me of myself. except i was never as TOUGH as the avg metal guy which was at least enough to get them laid with dirty sluts once in a while. and to not be MEEK and WEAK and anxious, but to be TOUGH and MANLY.
MEEK. TIMID. DONT BE THESE THINGS. BE TOUGH.
yeah i was always MEEK and TIMID. ever since i was a young child. i didnt think it would be such a bad thing. im butthurt it WAS SUCH a bad thing, since there are people who are even more meek and timid who didnt do as bad at life. i just took an all in gamble at some point without really knowing it, and lost it all hahahaha.