I DONT WANT A PRESIDENT WHO DOESNT USE VULGAR LANGUAGE TO TALK ABOUT WOMEN

oct 5 2016

sheeeeeeit.

ok. got up and prepared for day like responsible man: shower, shave, breakfast, brush and floss, tied tie, now i am just waiting until i leave in 53 minutes to drive to interview starting at 2pm.

tell them at interview today that if it get the job at the “bank” uhhhh i have to take it. that is the one with int on upcoming tues that i am all excited about hehe. i mean it is a patently better job, better pay, prob better benefits, closer, i’d be an idiot not to. any non-failing business would agree with me hehehe.

leave for interview in 13 minutes. all dressed up atm. ready to go. try not to diaerrhoea.

shirt is def too big. pants are….not too small but they are “slim fit” unfort, so they will ALWAYS feel a little weird. i honestly could not find an ok looking blue suit that was not slim fit. it was the price i had to pay.

yeah just the idea that you need 100% accuracy and no errors, the job is, this NEEDS to be PERFECT, not 99.9%, but 100%, every time, your job is to make sure its PERFECT. ok i get that. but what i dont get is that asking a more experienced person to SIGN OFF on this is considered time wasting and hand holding and youre fired. NO. it should be Best Practices and Standard Operating Procedure to have a “Team Lead” Sign Off on your work.

oh golly gee i dont know what im doing but i hope its right because our paying client needs this airplane door to be 100% or else it will fly off at 140000 feet and 500 passengers will get sucked out the door to their deaths hahahaha.

or this bridge will fall apart and 1000 people will die and its on YOUR hands, lowly level 1 guy, not the Master Engineer who YOU thought “should” “sign off” on such an important project. no hes got better things to do like get drunk at lunch and look at Prep The Bull and Trap Porn on his work computer and make 4 times as much as you.

later

welp did my interview. it was kinda ridiculous but not in a horrible way. mainly the guy double booked his interviews for 2 people at the same time, there was a white man also dressed in a nice suit, but he seemed about 5 years older than me.  but healthy and regenerate looking hahaha. very healthy weight. anyway this other manager decided he would essentially do the interview with me, so i started talking to him, he was an all right guy, but then it was like ok lets see if the original manager is ready to talk to you now. so i ultimately talked to TWO managers one after the other and the whole thing took like 1 hour 40 minutes. thankfully both guys were nice and the company and job actually seemed all right EXCEPT there is a kind of sales/incentive pay structure, but there is a damn 13 week training program and starting at 17 dollars an hour at that time, so…..thats pretty good. the guy said the guys here were very “BLUE COLLAR” and i said thats great, I come from a blue collar family and have a Thick Skin to handle Bantz and F-Bombs hahahahaha.

i said all the right marketing bullshit about the companys culture and values and bla bla bla.

there were some times when i stumbled and sounded like an autist, similarly to how i did yesterday, but just like the person yesterday, they didnt jump on me for it or even seem to care. so i spilled the spaghetti a couple times, NO BIG DEAL. and that is ultimately pretty encouraging.

there was a sales office right there and they are hiring sales people too. i said my background was more geared towards Service Technician than Sales per se, although I DO have very good Communication and People skills and like to Educate people hahhahahahahaha.

but they also emphasized they are an Ethical company and do not try to sell people things they dont need. Which could be BS, but I said, Good, because I’m a very ethical guy and I wouldn’t want to sell people things they really don’t need. which is NOT BS!!!!!!!

well i have been so busy interviewing i missed the deadline for a few jobs to apply hehe. have to keep a PIPELINE going hahahahahahaha.

one thing i did like about the job today was that they had a lot of training. a LOT of training. 13 weeks. they said a lot of guys were confident at 8 weeks and said let me get out there, the the company wanted to err on the side of caution. and make sure people passed tests and got certified for jobs where certification was not Legally Mandatory.

now they could just be bullshitting to sell the job to me…..but its pretty good bullshit! shit yeah tell me more about how you make sure your people are fully trained.

since it does get into incentive based shit after training, i asked if any of the people really struggled with that. the manager said everyone is doing well and reaching goals. and these are salty technicians and not born smooth talking salesmen.

anyway i hate the idea that a woman will dump you as soon as you stop showing strength. that she can need you but GOD FORBID you ever need HER. is this really the way women are and i just have to accept it? I accept that men are stronger emotionally and physically and mentally than women and that men have to do MOST of the work……but I don’t think women cant be capable of doing any work at all. so you have to support her always, and she supports you NEVER? thats fookin gay.

yeah well she never gave up and walked out when her longterm boifran was freezing HER out. but im not sure he was being “WEAK” though. he was being strong but silent hahahaha. well, he might not have been being “STRONG” but he wasnt being WEAK either. he was jsut distant and cold and stubborn. but she made a real effort with him at least.

so yeah she was capable. jsut not with me. because i was weak hahahaha.

i just HATE the idea that you have to be PERFECT or else they LEAVE.

but thats clearly not true! her BF wasnt perfect and she gave him MORE than a fair chance! many women stay with men who are VERY not perfect!

yeah but these men present as strong, and not at all as weak. they dont get nervous or anxious. they might get ANGRY at the women always wanting to TALK and DO STUFF and FIX stuff. but the men are not freaking out like a hysterical WOMAN.

oct 6

 

classic album here, if you dont like this album, gtfo. train your 3dpd fat slob to like this album as you bang her hahahahaha.

as a lifelong fan of srs metal, i have learned the important and mature lesson than women who like metal = crazy = bad (im talking about like serious fans of black or death metal, not they like a few random hit metal songs by metallica or pantera or slayer or motorhead or iron maiden or something, that should be fine).

but yeah a woman that likes the CURE, i would still be pretty impressed by that. even though im old enough to KNOW BETTER about being IMPRESSED by a womans MUSICAL TASTE. its a traaaappp.

i dont even think robert smith is as big a degenerate as most musicians, well, assuming from the fact that he’s been married to the same woman for like 40 years.

never saw the cure live and they are one of the few on muh live concert bucket list. note to self, if i have feelings for a woman, do NOT take that woman to the cure concert, because i wont be able to remember that as a good memory when she dumps me and breaks my heart hahaha. go with a male friend or alone.

yeah hard to go wrong with the cure. it is smooth and chill, and beautiful, and melodic, romantic, catchy, and also sad and emo, and spine chilling, and this album is probably their best moment. the Lush Beauty of “pictures of you” to the super catchy hard rocking of “fascination street” and of course their biggest hit “lovesong” which is a great song. i mean its impossible not to like and RESPECT this album. for any fan of music. if you dislike this album YOUR JUST STUPID.

yeah i guess if youre a total hipster you could say its too mainstream and overplayed. its def mainstream but is it REALLY overplayed? are these REALLY boring songs? these are timeless, classic songs that are played a lot for a REASON.

it IS a little LONG though at 63 minutes, where 40 minutes is the ideal album length.

working class men on Worksites listen to MUSIC all day as they do their hard work. i think this is very significant and worth some thought. if you are listening to music, it is harder to PANIC and be ANXIOUS and NERVOUS, and ALSO it means you are CONSTANTLY TALKING and thinking on your feet to come up with Bullshit Explanations for both your supervisors and your customers. that is EXHAUSTING. its like CAMPAIGNING for president and you have to talk and bullshit all day. i could NEVER do that, i dont know where trump gets his ENERGY, but its safe to say he’s always been that way, and some people just ARE.

heheh i forgot about the 311 cover of lovesong. that is tbh pretty darn good fam hahahaha. pretty secsy for blowing out your bitches asshole hahahahaha. because they LIKE being treated like Jooish Pornographic Filth. Absolutely Disgusting. BELIEVE ME, I would rather treat them as Fragile Flowers, because I HATE Jooish Pornographic Filth. Hate that Disgusting SHit that has RUINED Women And Men. words cannot describe the HATE. i dont hate nonwhites, i might not even hate joos, but by god i HATE the disgusting filth that joos have created! I hate the evil they have done!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

funny that the cure has an album called “pornography.” as an old man, this to me is AWESOME because that is an INCREDIBLY dark, despairing, nihilistic album, and I think this terrible feel perfectly captures the actual real essence of pornography. it is not secsy or hot and all. it is empty and despairing and nihilistic and soulless and horrible. i’m not sure if thats what robert (first name basis hahahaha) was getting at, but i like to think he was hahahahaha.

and yeah “pictures of you” is a CLASSIC FOR A REASON!!!!! and perfectly captures Lost Love and Heartbreak and Regret and embodies what i have felt for the past 14 months hahahahahahaha. thankfully i can enjoy the song on its own merits as a way to express a personal emotion that was unshared with her, hahahaha. meaning, im glad i never cuddled or buttfooked her while listening to THE CURE or this album, because then it would actually REMIND me of her, rather than help me Get Over Muh Emotions ABOUT her. in other words, the cure is MY thing and not HER thing, definitely not OUR thing. well she probably likes a few cure songs but we never shared any cure moments, thank god.

NEVER share things with women hahahahaha cuz then you cant enjoy your favorite music and movies when they break your heart and leave you. THEY WILL RUIN YOUR FAVORITE THINGS FOR YOU. i mean thank god i can still listen to neil young, but it took a while! TOO LONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah i mean you get over it, but it sucked that i couldnt even listen to one of muh favorite music guys for months!!!!!!!!!!!!

want to get out of house before noon today (oh god that sounds so lazy and negrish!!!!!!) and do some errands

also prep for autist aba job interview tommorow

AND apply for 3 jobs because i think about 3 decent jobs are gonna “expire” by tommorow

AND get good powerwalk

AND get 14 pushups

AND eat less than 1200 calories because i went like EIGHT HUNDRED OVER yesterday, oy vey.

uhhhh 14 pushups is a good baby step, but all together that is a lot of baby steps hahahaha.

ok went to store

ok called the interview place and stalked the woman who will be interviewing me, she was supposed to email me 2 days ago but it never went thru because she typed my hard to spell email wrong.

i called her and aksed for her hard to spell email and successfully sent a message to her hahahaha. thankfully she does not have a masters degree and seems like a nice person from the stalking i did.

ok got the shit printed out, hehhehe if you have to print out 10 pages of shit for every interview, thats 250 pages hahahaha. i have already bought 2 black ink cartridges and am burning thru the 3rd one pretty quickly. so stupid.

not going to get a ton of sleep tonight, might blank out and do a gary johnson aleppo moment tomorrow. that really looks bad. well if he can get to be governor, i can get a 12 dollar an hour autism technician job.

uhhhh applied to 2 jobs today but not 3. prepared my info sheet for tomorrow.

this org clearly has a problem with people not sticking around. prob because they quickly find better paying jobs. and they cant afford to pay them more because they are a nonprofit org. so they are angry about people getting valuable autism training and then leaving before 10 months. but i……

i dunno i just hate being in a job and saying OH GOD HOW AM I GONNA DO THIS I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING I CANT HANDLE THIS JOB OH GOD WHAT DO I DO OH GOD THIS IS RIDICULOUS WHY DID THEY GIVE ME THIS JOB OH YEAH BECAUSE THEY CANT FIND PEOPLE WHO WILL PUT UP WITH THIS SHIT FOR MORE THAN A FEW DAYS WITHOUT QUITTING!!!! WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO HERE WHAT SHOULD I SAY TO THESE PEOPLE TELL ME WHAT TO DO PLEEEEASE TELL ME WHAT TO SAY TO THEM I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOOOOOOOOOOOING HOW CAN YOU PUT ME OUT HERE IN FRONT OF THESE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i also worry that the “workplace safety” job will do regular drug tests because you drive a company van. oh god i cant drive a large van!!!!!!! what if the van breaks down!!!!!!

i think this autism job would be more fun and i would enjoy it more and also be able to SURVIVE and WITHSTAND it better, because it is part time and because it is sort of in muh wheelhouse. well i am more conflicting about wanting the autism job vs the safety job, however in the autism vs the bank job, i def want the bank job!!!!!

hehehehe this is assuming i get offers from both jobs in these situations. VERY big assumptions!!!!!

does that mean i had a good feeling abotu the saftey job? kind of!

and i have kinda a good feeling about getting the autism job.

REALLY? I have been REJECTED for ELEVEN dollar an hour part time jobs recently, what reason do i have to be optimistic about a TWELVE DAH PT job? hahahahaha. well because my degree actually relates to this job, sort of, where it doesnt relate to “office administrative assistant” job. which is stupid. i mean the better degree for that would be business. even if i have 30 credits of business classes. doesnt matter i guess hahaha.

shit they might reject me because ive never worked with CHILDREN before. let alone autist children haha.

i wish you could negotiate training wages. meaning i would gladly accept minimum wage for the first month or however long it took for me to be rejected from the other 2 jobs i am in contention for. so if i got one of those jobs, the autism place wouldnt lose too much money training me. cuz its a decent org and i might want to reapply with them in a few years. for one of their FT jobs that dont exist, yeah sure hahahaha.

oct 7 firday

752 AM

up real early today, like a real working man, currently dressed up and ready to go to interview, did not prep so well. as predicted, did not sleep well. well i was up thinking until like 130 am. thankfully i did fall asleep and I was in the middle of an interesting dream that i was scheduled to be part of the death panel on the next daily shoah with k1ke enoch and “sven” and i was like iii dunno guys, what the hell am I gonna be able to add to this, im gonna sound like an idiot, but im honored you asked me, i really like TRS hahahahaha. this is probably muh first TRS related DREAM hahahahaha. much better than having dreams about you know WHO hahaha.

ok. like i say, its a tough call between autism job vs safety job. for a normie, no its not, the safety job BTFOs the autism because it pays more, more hours, FT, established company, health care, bennies etc.

12 pm

welp did the interview, sent thank you note, recorded it as 95 minutes. spent an hour in there, but onyl about 30 minutes talking to them, and like 20 minutes filling out a damn application by hand which was basically a copy of all the shit i already gave them. i will never understand these stupid hiring policies. filling out shit by hand. unbelievable. told them about muh desire for FT. they were very understanding. talked to a Masters Level Psychologist who is about 7 years younger than me, oy vey hahahahaha.

there might be young 3 year old children biting and smacking and pooping their pants and i have to put diapers on them. i think i would rather do this than answer phone calls hahahahaha.

i dont fookin know man i just want a job where i can get help if i need it and i am not constantly needing it and not constantly fighting and struggling to survive every day. good god. the type of exhausting, nervous struggle where you feel like you need to chug Whiskey straight from the bottle at the end of every day.

hehehe normal life is at least 2 to 3 times HARDER for me than for normies. not that normies have it easy! but the basics of Holding Down a Job and Banging A Bitch, those are at LEAST 3 times harder for me. lots of fear and failure hehehehe. lots of time wasted. lots of not getting anywhere.

on the degen show “better things” which im not sure why i am watching, well because i want to see a degen single mother raising degen girls, its really all about degen women, and is kinda like “GIRLS” in that regard. no husbands or fathers, mothers a whore, her oldest daughter is 16 and beautiful and is becoming a whore, the middle daughter is an autistic ocd 13 year old lesbian, so i guess all that is enough to sell me.

recent episode focused on the 16 year old daughter worried about her future, going to college and all that, what am i gonna do with my life, her high school guidance counselor says no ivy league for you, you shoulda started prepping for that a few years ago, might not have the grades for a good state shool, have you thought about community college?

now the red pill is that community college is awesome but it DOES have a reputation as for underachieving losers, so when you’re in high school, you shudder at the thought. then when 10 years later youre still a huge loser, you think, welp, i have been humbled, time to go to CC now that real University did not work out.

anyway the girl is very anxious and despairing and I totally related and found this storyline very compelling. i guess she smokes MJ and does not get 4.0 grades. dont know if she is a huge horrible slut. PROBABLY, knowing this degen show.

because they show the girl sitting with her degen mom and the degen moms friends all sitting around drinking and talking about ABORTIONS, like how many abotions you got, tell the story of that abortion, and i was like, they are trying WAY too hard to make this show edgy, and what EXACTLY are they trying to say? they were clearly trying to be provocative by having such a “FRANK” discussion of abortions while CHILDREN were amongst them, as if to say, this is NORMAL, this is not a big deal, we all have abortions, and you’ll get abortions too, its just a fact of life, rite of passage for a woman, dont be ashamed of this, its good to be pro choice, and if you get knocked up when you are having fun with Secsy Boys, you can and should totes get an abortion too.

so i felt sympathy for this poor girl just about to become a Woman, and that she was so FOOKED because her mother is such a damn baby murdering degenerate. so the beautiful 16 year old gurl is gonna become a slut REAL soon if she isnt already, prob lose V to badboi, then quickly start riding C carousel, throwing a bunch of betabois away, probably start cheating, not take secs seriously, not take human life seriously, the way she THROWS LIVES AWAY, develop 10000 C stare, never be able to have a serious rel with a man, just like her crazy whore mother who cant love a man either.  but is this “beautifully flawed” woman trying to raise 3 young daughters as a Single Working Mom who is very open about Secs and Abortions and Being Tuff and You Do You Grrrrrl.

and its NORMAL to be a slut and cheat and break hearts and throw people away and get abortions, sex is FUN FIRST and if you get preggers, no big deal, get an abortion, WEVE ALL DONE IT. and sometimes you just wanna get fooked, and if the guy is a sensitive virgin type an gets feelings, AW, TOO BAD SO SAD, its ok to Dump and Ghost him because you just wanted to Get Off.

and we are beautiful in our flaws and we are gonna be as flawed as possible.

and i like the show for confronting Real Shit, but i hate it for taking the wrong opinion on this shit. while at the same time having some good and sympathetic characters. i mean i dont even really hate the mom. but i should.

to make her daughter feel better, the mother took her to the store and made her dress in a Ladies Business Suit, and said there you are, you look just like those successful peopel who have their shit together, youre no different than them. it was actually sort of touching even though she should not be so worried about career and shit. she should have a good father who helps her find a good husband.

i mean the show could have pushed more Red Pills about You Dont Have To Go To College. Go To Trade School or Community College or Military.

so they talk to a bank teller and mom says do you have any college, teller says no just a GED and i started this job at age 22 and im 25 now.

this could have opened a real good conversation but they just left it there.

so do you portray the bank teller as a failure because they didnt go to college? no not at all, which i liked.

i would have liked more if they had a 30 year old with a masters degree living with his family because he is still trying to pay back 200k in student loans hahahaha and he’s done, he’s finished, given up on life, i’ll never get anyway, i wish i could have a family but i’ll never afford it, and i havent dated a woman in over 5 years hahahahaha. that would have been some great black pill shit.

basically, college educated 30 year olds who cant afford to move out hahahaha because they are only making 12 dollars an hour and are 80k in debt for useless college hahahaha.

tfw when you see a picture of FENRIZ when he was very young, like 20 or 21 or so, and realize he sort of reminds you of THAT WOMAN.

I was completely in luv and wanted to marry and have babies and spend muh life with and was devastated heartbroken for 15 months over a woman who looks like FENRIZ.

fenriz is currently 44 years old as is nocturno culto. culto has 2 children a son and a daughter. i do not think fenriz has any children. not sure how old cultos children are. i hope he is a good father to them.

but yeah there are like 2 pictures of 20 year old fenriz where he kinda looks like That Woman. so weird. i told you she was kidna weird looking hahahahaha. but like fenriz, she had nice long dark hair.

so darkthrone was offered 200k USD to play a festival for one show and they REFUSED. hell yes that shows some serious “INTEGRITY” but at the same time i have to think, you’d have to be stupid to turn that down!

Should a man with CHILDREN turn down 200k for 1 day of work just because of his artistic integrity?

basically I give them a PASS, and I think its kinda STUPID for a man with a FAMILY to turn that money down. even if you dont have a family, you still need money. maybe fenriz has bastard children he needs to pay child support. (speculation). maybe fenriz wants to take care of his aging parents. TAKE THE FOOKIN MONEY GUIZE.

heh. most people just like the music and dont really care about the people behind it.

I dont really care for the music and i am MORE interested in the PEOPLE behind it hahahaha.

i mean the story of these guys lives is WAY more interesting than listening to “plaguewielder” or “the cult is alive” hehehehehehehehe.

i say this because i am sort of excited about darkthrone again due to their brand new album which I am going to listen to today on powerwalk hehehe.

did 3.2 mile, 1 hour powerwalk, my normal walking pace is 3.2 mph and i am happy with that.

listened to new darkthrone album. it has great sound/production and is perfect length and it is not all ridiculous, but uhhh i was hoping it would be a little…..better hehehehe. i mean its no panzerfaust. i mean you can tell they are both enjoying themselves, theyre not just going through the motions, so i think a large part of the prob is me simply not being able to appreciate “new” music.

its hard to get the interest of women when you MAKE LESS THAN THEM. of course im talking about money. basically the only people that I make MORE than are total white trash and negroes hahahahaha. at least when i was making 30k, i was then good enough to pull white trash waitresses and such hahahahaha. and that was the best money i ever made in my life! when i was making like 12k a year, i was staying sane but what the HELL can you do on 12k a year? cant live, cant have a family, cant do anything. cant have a serious rel with a woman. i guess you could bang sluts because you sure arent gonna KEEP any women making only 12k!

wow she dumped him SUPER BAD, super insult to injury there. why do people do this? why do you HAVE to add insult to injury? i mean if i were this guy i would be devastated, my confidence would be CRUSHED for at least 15 months hahahahaha. this type of thing will DESTROY a guys confidence for a LONG time.

also when someone throws you away, people advise you, they dont know what they had, in 2 months they will miss you and be begging for you back. dont take them back. be better than that. they took you for granted the first time. dont give them that second chance.

and that def never happened here. she left me and NEVER looked back. feels bad man! that might even be worse. i wuld def forgive and take her back once. and if she pulled the same shit twice (like they often do) then i would kick her ass out (probably not hahahahaha). but she didnt even come back.

but i am doing my interviews so thats as good as i can ask. i have done about 36 hours of interviews roughly. i guess it would make sense to do 40 hours of interviews. maybe what the lord is teaching me is how to get good at interviews. thats the lesson for this 15 months of pain. how to do interviews. sheeeeeeeeeeeeit.

but if i dont have an interview for a week, then i feel like i lose all those gains. and i need to have at least 2 or 3 interviews a week to get better. kinda like lifting hehehehe.

heh 330 pm and could totes take a nap. cuz i got up at 615am and did not fall asleep till 1 am.

 

super lengthy autistic post but an in depth picture of someone who actually DOES go to a shrink, and both people are willing to go to shrink, and it doesnt really improve things hehehehe. she still blames him.

but yeah he does seem too damn autistic and that is probably a problem.

also yeah she probably IS “depressed” but she should get that diagnosed well before 28. I sure did! because i was trying to improve myself so i could live a normal life with a job and a GF one day.

and good on this guy for improving himself from a fat virgin to an in shape, masters degree, successful, hardworking, guy with a GF. but he is still anal and autistic in a way that will hurt the rel, just as she hurts the rel with her “depression” and lack of interest and effort.

this album is regarded as DT coming back from a perhaps 3-album slump from 1996 to 2003 hahaha. fenriz said he was very derpressed and i guess was feeling better by the time of this album. and he was thankful to culto for essentially keeping the band alive during that time.

anyway i remember i actually bought the “plaguewielder” cd (used) back when cds were still a thing. i was like uhhhh this is not the greatest. and that was pretty much the end of darkthrone for me hahahaha and i never gave “hate them” a chance. i did give “sardonic wrath” a try and actually kinda liked that one. that came out following hate them.

anyway just trying to say i prefer this kind of vocal from culto. the hateful trve black metal vocal rather than the more i guess celtic frost vocal he’s doing now. which is not bad mind you, but the older vocal is better.

i mean there is no competition hehehe. however “boring” darkthrone may be, culto gives a Master Class in how to do good vocals.

62.9% labor force participation rate? that cant be good, unless labor force counts super old and super young people….which it probably shouldnt! and honestly i dont think it does. labor force is work age people. like 18 to 65 or whatever.

oh you know what i am not even gonna shit on plaguewielder anymore. it has shitty artwork but it sounds pretty similar to hate them with the riffage and sick vocals. also culto thanks tom waits on his short list of inspirations and shoutouts. in 2001 before i even knew who tom waits was unfortuantely. did not discover waits until 2003 or 4 at the latest.

also there are “blast beats” on these albums where i haven’t heard them on the newer albums. come on. you gotta have that.

trump scandal of him using “vulgar language about women.”

I DONT WANT A PRESIDENT WHO DOESNT USE VULGAR LANGUAGE TO TALK ABOUT WOMEN!!!!

crude comments in 2005 interview about tits and pussy and whatever. who cares.

well, i kinda care if he is cheating on his wife, but not sure if he was married to her by then.

cuz its not cool to cheat on your wife but he has dealt with his fair share of gold diggers so.

i mean this is fooking stupid and i hope it doesnt COST HIM the election just because WOMEN will be so butthurt. and women shouldnt even be able to vote hehehehehe. but people have short memories too.

even the circle wagons album does not sound BAD. it is quite rocking as a matter of fact.

lesson: even the “worst” darkthrone albums are pretty good.

i would have preffered that he make super racist comments about mudslims or blacks or especially joos. that would be SWEET. BUT, that definitely would have killed his chances 100%, and that would NOT be good.

i like that he didnt apologize THAT much. hes not begging for forgiveness, and kinda saying this is not a big deal. cuz its really not. but i really dont know how real women will take it. i know that msnbc is up in arms hahahaha.

why not criticize the hollywood host billy bush for being an enthusiastic participant in the conversation.

QUOTE

It’s foolish to take the Blackpill with regards to women. It makes you settle for low quality sluts and degenerates. Do you want them to be the mother of your children?

I was in a bad place in 2011. I was dating a used-up slut whom I had nothing in common with. I was struggling to finish school and leave the comfy world of NEETdom. I had gotten into reading ‘The Red Pill’ and that middle eastern rapist Roosh, and my opinion of women was extremely low. Thus, my expectations from women were low.

This girl was a degenerate waste. She was pretty enough, but was a complete slob, and nearing the end of her 20s. I knew she had dated around, but the extent of the rot was what really got to me. The day I left her was when I attended a ‘party’ with some of her friends, only to discover she had f00cked literally 8 of the men at the party. Her total number was somewhere around 35ish men. One of which included a ni99er. Disgusting. I drove off, deleted her from Facebook and Skype, and washed my hands of her.

I was lucky to get out of that mess with no STIs. I pulled myself out of this depression and blackpill by lifting and travelling, and completely tossed out the ReturnOfKangz/rOOSH shit. Some of the techniques are useful, and yes, 90% of women are somewhere on the whore spectrum, but 10% of girls is still a HUGE amount of people.

On one of my trips, after a year of lifting and healthy eating, I met a complete QT3.14, 10/10. She was introverted, shy, but extremely moral. She was 6 years younger than me, intelligent, had a similar genetic background, and was a fucking virgin.

Married her 2 years into the relationship and it has only gotten better.

Lift, have confidence in your self, resist the blackpill, and you will find extremely high quality women waiting for you to wife them. Let the f4ggot numales clean up the algae of used up whores. WILL TO POWER BRAH

END

i am risking getting banned for posting private forum material here, but uhhhh i wont say what forum i got it from, nor who said it, but i am trying to share an awesome WHITE PILL here: a neetish man was dating a dirty slut, then he turned his life around and married a nice virgin waifu. GOOD FOR HIM. this is EXACTLY the stuff I need to read a LOT more of…..but i’m not finding a lot of it. not enough.

nyquil and coffee combination hehehe. again went way over calorie limit. soooooo easy to eat over 1200 cals.

yeah why shouldnt i link this already.

this and TH are muh fav DT albums. and this one is more “fun.” not sure why the vocals are considered controversial. i think they are great although perhaps mixed a little loudly. the riffs, songwriting, and production are all top of the line, and there is a ton of nostalgia with this album, as it was a big part of muh adolescence at age 18 or so. this is a pretty kewl album to have as your theme music at age 18 hahahahahahahaha.

“quintessence”, come on. probably the darkthrone stairway to heaven right there.

but yeah. a lot of people are interested in things they dont really participate in. politics, professional sports, tv shows, religion. but no one is interested in “relationships” as like a main interest they way I am, apart from WOMEN who are always GOSSIPING. I truly do like to gossip, but I like even more to study and understand the relationships.

its like watching from the sidelines and commenting but never participating. but thats the thing: is that normies DO participate, quite regularly, and dont really comment on it at the same level as I do, just gossip, say whos fooking who, whos dumping who.

and even people who are obsessed with sportsball and watch pro sportsball but are too fat and soft to actually play pro sportsball still often play amateur sportsball or fantasy sportsball.

i dont play Fantasy Relships, although maybe in a way I do: by having these one sided things where I have the relship all in my mind and it does not reflect reality at all.

nyquil makes me unable to think clearly and articulate and be persuasive. still i wish i just had some MJ, i would LUV to smoke a bunch of MJ on a friday night like this and listen to DARKTHRONE.

“the hordes of nebulah”. i used to think this song wasnt as good as the 2 before it, now i see i was wrong hahahahaha. truly a MAGIC album and i wouldnt EXPECT darkthrone to ever capture this kind of lightning in a bottle quite the same way ever again. you cant. again a large part of this was my own age at the time. but this is gonna be one of those albums that i enjoy thru my entire life hahaha. share with muh waifu and children and they will say damn what a badass!

anyway it is just “funny” and mostly sad that i spend all this time and energy and interest thinking about and analyzing Relationships, general and particular, myself and my fantasy rels, others and my perceptions of their real rels, and i think i have the tools and skills and knowledge to be real mature and good in a rel…..but my weakness is the BEGINNING. I cant get it STARTED for various reasons. cant spark the kindling and get the fire going ever.

large part of that is because i am scared to “apply”. at least with jobs i am putting out 450 applications, doing 23 interviews. if i were doing that with WOMEN, i WOULD have been in a real rel by now, or at least had a near normie level of secsual satisfaction. or, hopefully, i would say THIS IS DEGENERATE, I’m not gonna do this unless its in a real rel with a decent woman, fook this banging sluts shit, leave it to the degenerate hedonist nihilist abortionists.

fenriz did recycle the classic “quintessence” riff on his storm “nordavind” album which was recorded in late 1994 while panzerfaust was recorded in early 1994 hehehe.

they got the qt gurl kari rueslatten to sing on the album (from 3rd and the mortal, really need to dig into them more) and supposedly she was very upset and felt betrayed by fenriz because he changed a lyric at the last minute to say something like “death to every man who does not hail the fatherland!” which she felt was ebil racist. and i bet fenriz is not a racist. shit i wish he WAS. he SHOULD be. and poor kari felt horrible guilt after that and betrayed by ebil fenriz. hahahahaha i wonder if he fooked her. the dirty slut hahaha. see this ALL comes from the root cause of my degen pornographic view of women as sluts to be fooked. this is from watching way too much pron, so shame on me. but also shame on women for willingly BEING like that. they dont have to BE sluts, even if the girls in porno are.

and because kari was a beautiful young norwegian gurl with beautiful long hair, i dont WANT her to be a slut.

i want to read more stories of women who are DIVORCING or DUMPING their men because oh god hes a TRUMP SUPPORTER. but r/relships does not allow overtly political topics.

i would think being married and especially with children makes women less leftist catladylike. so they will say oh yeah trump is crude but oh well hes still better than hillary so im still voting for him.

whereas its the C carousel sluts and catladies who will be most offended, and they werent voting for trump ANYWAY.

in other words, its not gonna lose him any votes. its not gonna make anyone who has already chosen trump, say, oh NOW he’s gone too far, and i am changing my vote to HILLARY? i cant imagine him honestly doing any of that. even if he said GTKRWN 1488, which i would luv, people would still say, yeah im still not voting for hillary.

however it will make the hillary people all the more SHRILL and ANNOYING and that might push undecideds towards trump.

undecideds tho? and couldnt this push undecideds to hillary? sure.

BUT HOW MANY UNDECIDEDS ARE THERE REALLY?????

not very many imho. i play it down because i hang out with people who would be MORTIFIED that they have even ONE trump supporter in their friend circle. so i say stuff, ah well, its a classic lesser of two evils thing, i dont really like either of them, but im really dont like hillary, yes i agree with you trump is not super presidential but im a moderate centrist and hillary is just too left for me, so, i have to vote for trump. that kind of waffling shit. actually i wouldnt even confirm i was voting for trump unless i was with some trump voters. thankfully i know a few.

7000 words? damn.

but yeah its funny. i analyze and think about rels like An Interest Or Hobby but never actually participate, when most NORMIES DO participate and dont analyze them to the same level, its just a normal part of normal life, dont overthink it, its not something interesting like football or tv hahahaha.

well to me it is!!!!!!!!

and women arent much better than men. they gossip a lot more about rels but are even WORSE at analysing, understanding, and workign with them. men could at least have a good chance at reasoning their way through them if they tried.

but you cant REASON with women. its like REASONING with a drunk 50 foot baby with a flamethrower. REASONING with a damn tasmanian devil. you cant reason somebody out of something that they didnt reason themselves into, hahahahaha.

WOMEN DONT STOP BEING CHILDREN UNTIL THEY HAVE CHILDREN

july 15

347 people have applied in 18 hours since first posting for an “ENTRY LEVEL OFFICE CLERK” job with a trucking company. i saw the posting and said, wow, grade 8, this looks very good For Me, and then at the bottom it said that 347 people had applied. meaning that there are 347 Unemployed Job Seekers like me who have indeed open ALL DAY and are hitting refresh every couple minutes. this is how you spot jobs BEFORE the daily emails, folks. and 347 other desperate people are out there in my area competing for ONE job that pays THIRTEEN dollars an hour. they were honest enough to say that. good for them. most companies arent. the number was not low enough to dissuade THREE HUNDRED and FORTY SEVEN people from applying in a mere EIGHTEEN HOURS of being posted.

MOTHER FOOKER. I applied for this job a few days ago that I rated grade A, and I forgot to change one of the company names in the cover letter from the name of the company I had applied to BEFORE that.

my only saving grace is, the cover letter is kinda long and they might have stopped reading after the first paragraph.

oh shit i think this 347 job is a division of this other trucking company that has a very bad reputation and which i decided was not a good company to wrk for hahaha because they cut corners, gave shoddy service, and were generally very semitic in their operations. like having 6000000 diff company names in a holding company so you dont even know its the same company, the same hand rubbing J who owns it all. he’s not even a J, he’s an arab hahahahahahahahahaha. i did muh due dilegence.

anyway they can get 347 people without using a recruiter.

but this is the bottom of the barrel! people who will apply to everything and anything! they need a recruiter to actually READ those 347 resumes and be able to separate the good from the bad and really ACQUIRE the TALENT!!!!!

and offer them a 17 dollar an hour job sight unseen by the company, with no official interview. WTF.

heh. just to reiterate, there is no recruiter at work here, and the job is 13 hourly. just 347 in 18 hours applying to work at a company notorious for shitty service.

sheeeit.

ok so i went to burlington coat factory, their selection was not as good as jcpenney, but a little cheaper, and found a real nice gray jacket in the clearance section. once i found a decent coat, it was hard not to buy the pants of the exact same color. so i did. i tried to find the most average gray color i could find, so it could match well with other pants. this is the problem with the blue thing i got at jcpenney. i liked the blue color, but its gonna be real hard to match with other pants if needed.  REAL hard.

so now I essentially have TWO brand new suits hahahahah. a blue one and a gray one.

wonder if i should have just gone to mens wearhouse to one of there BOGO sales and buy a 400 dollar suit. lets just say i spent around 440 dollars. that includes two full suits with alterations done on the pants and jacket. also includes 2 new dress shirts, 2 new ties, and a new belt. 440 dollars. US dollars. damn. is it worth it? fam said they would pay half. which is nice of them. I appreciate it.

but the good news is, i have two brand new matching suits that fit well. hopefully this will last me at least 440 days hahahaha.

2 years.

the blue one is “slim” fitting while the gray one is “traditional/classic” fitting. which resulted in a coat size that differed by 4. that seemed like a lot. so I still dont know my official coat size. its within 2 up or down hahaha.

i tried a different tailor today. they were pretty expensive. i wont be going back there. I really like the idea of tailoring because my waist is an inbetween size, and my legs are short and stumpy as fook. really the legs are the issue. i essentially would need to get EVERY pair of pants TAILORED for my short fooking manlet legs.

I should REALLY learn how to do it myself!!!!!!!

burlington coat factory was full of blacks and loud arab women hahahahaha. we dont get a lot of mexican Steezers or Southeast Asian Zipperheads or Flips like they do in some areas, but we DO get a lot of arabs hahahaha.

why are there long lines at retail checkouts? BECAUSE IT COSTS TOO MUCH TO OPEN ANOTHER REGISTER.

so whenever you complain about the line being too long anywhere, why don’t they open another register…….

have you ever worked a day in your life???

you don’t simply open another register! that would IMPLY that you have some EXTRA person twiddling their thumbs somewhere in your store! that would IMPLY you have TOO MANY PEOPLE working!!! that would IMPLY you don’t have a Skeleton Crew every second of every shift!

so never get mad or impatient when you have to wait in line, and for damn sure don’t get bitchy at the poor lost soul making 8 dollars an hour at the cash register. I will find you. AND I WILL ____ YOU. hahahahahaha.

I guess I really do have the heart of a LABOR ACTIVIST amirite.

the ETERNAL STRUGGLE of LABOR VS MANAGEMENT.

LABOR VS CAPITALISTS.

PROLES VS BOURGE VS SUPERRICH PLUTOCRATS hahaha.

justcallthemj00s.wav hahahahaha

i am SUBPROLE though, I have to compete against 350 other….

checking the posting now….

460 people in 23 hours!!!!! 20 people per hour!

this must be the most attractively written job posting ever. how the hell can I show you this job desription without DOXING myself. I CANT. theres just no way. it’s basically a 13 dollar an hour job that is openly listed as Entry Level, and Great for College Students, rather than some job that calls for 5 years of experience, supervisory, and lists 6000000 things that you have no idea what they are. just a basic bitch entry level job, no ridiculous experience required. says nothing about HAVING a college degree. just that Current College Students are encouraged to apply. implying, you don’t NEED to have a College Degree.

for THIRTEEN dollars an hour. and those fast food ingras are bitching about FIFTEEN dollars an hour.

the AVERAGE per capita income in the us is 28k a year. this is approx FOURTEEN dollars an hour. THAT is my goal. but I will take THIRTEEN. FIFTEEN is just fooking GREEDY IMHO.

I applied for the job already when it was at 350. now, like FIVE hours later, its at 460.

this was just an eye opener folks. I’ve never seen so high a number, and in such a short amount of time.

why didnt they just close it at 100?

when are they going to close it?

how do they have time to look at 500 resumes? 1000 resumes? they DONT!!!!

back in the good old days, you didnt have to compete with 500 people for an entry-level job that paid slightly below average.

being AVERAGE wasnt such a god damn STRUGGLE!

the only entry level jobs are fooking call centers, part time, restaurants, retail.

i had a job when i was 16, but it was easy and stressless, even though it was low paying. now i kinda wish I had a REAL shitty job: low paying AND high stress. like a restaurant. when I was 16. learned how to deal with bitch f4ggot asshole customers from a very young age. now i just can barely handle it.

http://www.themodestman.com/how-to-hem-dress-pants/

hehehehe a site for SHORT men. their euphemism of choice is the MODEST man. MODEST = MANLET. that is hilarious.

http://www.manmadediy.com/users/dan_e_t/posts/2630-the-diy-tailor-how-to-hem-dress-pants-like-a-pro

http://www.themodestman.com/the-1-most-important-fashion-tip-for-short-men/

http://www.themodestman.com/100-famous-short-men/

lotta J’s on that list hahahaha. I am not a J I swear, I am just short as fook. 5 7 on a tall day. yet I like tall women. damn.

how many “amicable” divorces are there? how come men get so screwed? why do they wives HAVE to take SO MUCH, why do they HAVE to take the kids and move 3000 miles away?

they don’t HAVE to do this! Why can’t they just say, LISTEN, I’m not trying to scam you, I don’t want any money, and it’s only fair that we have 50 50 custody, and I don’t WANT an alimony, I just want out of this marriage, but I don’t want to SCREW or SCAM you either.

why do they HAVE to take the mentality of I’m gonna bleed this sucker dry?

why do they have to hate him and want such REVENGE on him? when he is begging to Work on the Marriage and saying please dont leave me? give him the GOOD WILL of NOT trying to SHAKE HIM DOWN! talk about insult to injury!!!!

why are women so evil that they always have to add insult to injury? Can’t they just injure without insult? especially when that insult is so big and long term that it ends up being another damn injury?

I have a ridiculous idealized view of women, that women cant possibly live up to…….

………..but I STILL think they can do a LITTLE better. just do a LITTLE better.

you dont have to be some pure virgin, you don’t have to be with less than 5 guys, you dont have to have neer banged a black guy, you dont have to have 0 abortions, you dont have to have never cheated……but just  TRY a LITTLE harder. Don’t be a TOTAL piece of SHIT. Don’t add insult to injury. make a LITTLE effort. make a 1% effort. effort means a lot. rather than being a piece of shit and wanting to be WORSHIPPED for it. nope. i wont do it hahahaha. i will loudly denounce it.

80 people dead in nice france. come on folks. this sort of stuff didnt happen 20 years ago. at this regularity, at this magnitude.

another thing. when you are FOREVERALONE, you don’t develop NORMAL INTERESTS. your main interests are why gurls don’t like you, what is wrong with gurls, what is wrong with YOU, why are you so weak, women are bitches, and these WEIRD, BAD interests take precedence over NORMAL good interests like Career, Education, Sports, Exercise, Family, Friends, Religion, being a good person, books, even vidya games.

so you have nothing to talk about with women. “hey baby, want to talk about how fooked up women are? how you are all INFANTS who aren’t capable of a decent relationship and you need to be trained like animals? also want to talk about how weird and creepy and fooked up and omega I am, and my self loathing and inferiority?”

see, it becomes impossible to have a normal conversation with a woman, or even a man really. the only people you can talk to are people on your despair forums, people on your woman hating forums, people on your racist forums hahahahaha. and the racists are really too much of WINNERS to accept a loser like you into their winner normie group! they have good jobs and good women.

up to 509 applicants in 1 day. i am keeping that tab open for a few days. this is AMAZING. and not in a good way.

this is not a national thing. it is just a god damn entry level full time 13 dollars an hour job that does not demand a degree and is suitable for a 18 to 22 year old who just wants to work and make a modest, slightly below average living. but I guarantee there are people from a 50 mile radius, with masters degrees and 20 years of experience, applying for it. so many desperate people out there. i am one of them. fortunately I am quite below average when it comes to desperation! I have a safety net! most desperate people do NOT.

pokemon. shit. i am amazed at how HUGE of a thing this has become in one lousy week. how are there SO MANY early adopters? there has to be a business lesson here. I’ve never seen something become SO successful, SO quickly. if i had a Smart Phone, I would probably check it out. and want a nice cuddly waifu to play pokemon with hahaha. one with n < 10.

all the women I’ve even been interested in….have all been fairly attractive. there have been no uglies or fatties. no 5/10’s. shit was any of them even a 6? not really. they were all 7 at least. 7s and 8s.

I am simply not man enough to pull 7s and 8s. I need to aim for 6s and more likely 5s.

but ive never been interested in or attracted to 5s or 6s.

and quite honestly no 5s or 6s have ever been interested in ME!

some women haters say women are literally good for nothing but secs.

I disagree with this wholeheartedly. Women haters like ME KNOW that women are good for other things, namely, that warm fuzzy feeling when a gurl you like is VERY NICE to you. I’m not even sure what to call it. Nice. Pleasant. Not being a huge bitch. When a woman is very nice to you, it also feels good, like sticking your dick in a bitchs mouth or cvnt hahahahahahahaha. IF IT FEELS GOOD, DO IT.

yes I AM being facetious.

but it DOES feel good when a woman is Super Nice to you. Even a Nice Guy likes it when people are NICE to him.

but yeah. im still a total women hater, but I CAN appreciate other things women do other than secs, so I just wanted to white knight for a second and say that when women are not total bitches, that is a many splendored thing hahaha.

but yeah. how can an ADULT have a proper relationship with a CHILD?

Are we really expecting TOO MUCH out of women? like expecting a dog NOT to eat a steak you leave lying out? you can’t expect a woman NOT to destroy the hearts that are offered to her?

well, theres a HUGE difference between leaving food out, and choosing to offer your heart to another person!!!!!!!

meaning, leaving the steak out is just an accident, and not a huge deal. but offering your heart is a long term, VERY premeditated, VERY intentional thing, that you dont do accidentally, in other words.

also, a dog eating food? not a big deal and an understandable reflex. it’s not a destructive antisocial thing. destroying a heart is. there’s many valid reasons to eat food. there’s no valid reasons to destroy a heart. unless they are trying to get REVENGE for some perceived wrong. and they always view themselves as a fooking victim. they are too childish to understand or especially ADMIT WHEN THEY ARE WRONG.

So again, how can an adult have a real relationship with a CHILD?

well, that’s just the way the relationship WORKS until the man gets a few BABIES out of that woman. A man becomes an adult without having children. a woman NEEDS to have children to become an adult.

WOMEN DONT STOP BEING CHILDREN UNTIL THEY HAVE CHILDREN. 

i mean SHIT. even an untrained dog wont necessarily ATTACK everything it can reach.

and you can certainly train a dog not to attack everything.

so women are essentially like savage pitbull dogs that are fooking DANGEROUS because they aggressively attack everything. and then their white trash stupid owners get assmad when respectable people look down on pitbulls. because they are aggressive hostile ingra dogs, that’s why.

no white person, even a woman, is destined by nature that they HAVE to act like a savage ingra. NOPE. I just won’t accept that.

536 people, 1 day.

whos gonna LOOK at 540 resumes for a 13 DAH job?

WHEN are they gonna pull the posting? 600 people? why dont they do it right now?

hahahaha glad I got in when it was only 360 or so, hahahahahaha. and by then the job had been open for 18 hours.

the idea that getting an email update “within 24 hours” is NOT GOOD ENOUGH because within 24 hours, FIVE HUNDRED people have already applied!

makes you feel bad about skipping a day looking at the indeed list. for not refreshing the list at least twice a day.

military coup in turkey? is that good or bad? was thinking a military coup in the US might be a good thing. but how trustworthy is our military leadership? dont know. I generally have a good opinion of the rank and file. if they ran the show i would be all in favor of a military coup. martial fascist law.  but not sure about the top brass.

heh jim on fatherland sperged out on the idea of miltary wives being huge sluts and cheating while the husbands are deployed. i agreed with jim but he gave it a great perspective: these women are TRAITORS because they are directly hurting our MILITARY. our SOLDIERS. the people who protect our nation. and these women are tearing their hearts out. so they are TRAITORS to our COUNTRY, this is TREASON or SEDITION and must be punishable by DEATH. HANG them.

and I thought yeah I am ok with that too! good call jim!

now if not military, well, its still a BETRAYAL, they are still a KIND of traitor, and should be punished by public head-shaving at LEAST, plus a 10000 dollar fine to their husband.

NOT a divorce where she gets an alimony and custody of the kids.

public headshaving, 10000 dollar fine to the husband. for a start.

ok how about 6000. but at LEAST 5000 dollars. I’m thinking I had at least 6000 dollars in expenses for muh DUI, with court, probation, lawyer, license reinstatement, restitutions, alcohol bracelet, GPS bracelet, several piss tests a week, several god damn breathalyzers a week, etc. it was like 6 or 7 grand all told.

so i think cheating is more serious a crime and you should get 7 or 8 grand fine at least.

and like i said, public headshaving. with a level 0 fookin buzzer.

so then cheaters will just wear wigs to hide their short hair right?

so when you are banging some slut, pull her hair to see if she’s wearing a wig! easy peasy! and if she is, you know she’s a cheater! recently! and that this is not wife material!

ideally, wife material would not be having secs with ANY man in the short term. PERIOD.

women are terrible because we are REWARDING BAD BEHAVIOR.  its simple conditioning and reinforcement.

we are rewarding bad behavior, so they behave badly.

we need to PUNISH bad behavior.

PUNISH bad behavior, REWARD good behavior, and then we will

MAKE WOMEN GOOD AGAIN 

hahahahaha.

but see, its not NORMAL to be “interested” in women in this way!!!! women should NOT be an interest of men IN THIS WAY, ie, a topic you spend a LOT of time thinking about How Women Work and how you can play their stupid game and win. you shouldnt even be THINKING about their stupid game, you should be thinking of how to WIN at your OWN game, ie, career, money, respect, power, status.

also women can’t understand men who have  been single for a year, let alone 2 years, 4 years, 8 years, foreveralone………because no woman has ever been Single for a YEAR. if they don’t have a long term rel, then they will CERTAINLY have short term rels and slut it up during that year.

but a man who has neither short nor long term rel for a YEAR. Women can’t relate to that at all. They’ve simply never done it. So don’t listen to their bullshit patronizing advice! they have NEVER been there, done that! they dont know what theyre talking about, period.

however the better ones will mean well. still doesnt mean they know what theyre talking about.

they might swear off having a boifran. “Im done with men. I dont want a relationship right now.” that means, I’m gonna be a SLUT and have casual secs and disgusting short term rels for at least a year, add another 5 men to my number in the course of a year.

so if a woman ever says that, “i just wanna be single for a while.” you might think OH, THATS GOOD. she treats relationships seriously, and just doesn’t want to jump into short term bullshit rels.

be very afraid, because that’s probably EXACTLY what she means. that’s code for PRECISELY I want to do nothing but bullshit casual short term rels and slut it up like a dirty slut.

so when she says that, you have to call and raise that bet, be like, what do you mean? no dating? no sex? that BETTER be what you mean, or else youre a SLUT! and I don’t reward sluts, I PUNISH them!

then dump dogshit all over their expensive slutty jeans and clothes. that’s probably the best way to punish sluts hahahaha. maybe put a dead PIG in their bed hahahahaha.

cuz i dont advocate violence against women, not even sluts. just saying known cheaters should have their heads shaved and they should be heavily fined. and cheating military wives should be hanged for being an enemy of the state.

oh tom petty why did you play at some j00ish plutocrats daughteres bat mitzvah. I dont CARE if he paid you a million shekels. (david brooks, not the jooish neocon “journalist” for the joo york slimes, but some j00ish new york stock broker).  you are better than that tom petty. at least I thought you were. playing private parties for a literally hand rubbing merchant.

i mean i would do it, because I need a million bucks more than tom petty does. and I would use the million on my white family. tom petty would just spend it on weed and banging half white sluts hahahahahaha.

it sucks that someone can write honest decent music and still be a degenerate in person.

well i hear tom petty is super laid back and nice.

sure because he is smoking weed all day like willie nelson.

ok i have no PROOF he is banging sluts or being a bad father. I hope he is not banging sluts and is being a good father.

anyway do you think WOMEN spend NEARLY as much time as forever alone men thinking and obsessing about relationships and relship partners, in their case, men?

do women in general spend as much time and energy thinking and worrying about men, as men do thinking about WOMEN?

I dont think so.

but this is normal and right and just, because women dont HAVE to, women are the CHOOSERS BECAUSE women get pregnant! so I can get butthurt about it!

I just want them to show more RESPONSIBILITY with their power. when you wield power with no responsibility, the people on the receiving end of that power lose all respect for you, hahahahahahahaha. your power SEEMS very illegitimate. even if it IS Biologically, Physically LEgitimate.

july 16

596 people. and i wasnt even in the first half of them! me! who has a Solid System with getting to new job postings FAST! well its not fast enough! what is THESE peoples systems then?

heh. i wish ann coulter had just gotten married when she was young and had a nice family. she is one of my top women and she still looks ok. but i dont like that she bangs black guys like a degenerate. that could just be a rumor though. she should have had a family starting when she was young. she was very hawt when she was young. i wonder how big of a SLUT she was at that time. probably much more than I would like.  but I like that she is so far right that she is almost alt right hahahaha. and she takes rightful pleasure in mocking and shaming The Regressive Left hehehe.

applied to another entry level office clerk position that only had 190 people apply in the first 24 hours hahahaha.

i figure my Impressive Packet will automatically put me in the top 20%.

not good enough.

ok, maybe even top 10%.

you think they are gonna interview 19 people? they will interview like 5 or 6 or 7. so you better be in the top 3 or 4% to get the interview, and the top  .5% to get the job.

meanwhile all through school, they tell you if you are in the top 20% you are awesome.

nope, they should tell you you are shit unless you are in the top .5%. POINT five percent. 5% is still shit.

The Real World is like a High Expectations Asian Father, when it comes to jobs and women. you better be in the top 0.5% or youre NOTHING. nobody. a damn failure. loser at life.

your reward for being in the top .2%? (1 out of 600 applicants for the other job) a job that pays somewhat below average.

i hope this pence vp pick does not cause the trumpenfuhrer to lose the election.

DONT TOUCH A DICK UNLESS YOU ARE PREPARED TO COMMIT TWO YEARS TO IT. 

that would be a great rule of thumb. technically the same goes for men touching cvnt, but I shouldnt even need to say this: women touching dick is pretty much the gatekeeper of men touching cvnt.

i was thinking maybe women could get TATTOOS that say “cheater” or “abandoner”. and it would be a crime for tattoo “artists” to remove those tattoos. tattoos themselves would be shamed, shunned, and disincentivized.

im not 100% about this pence. why do you even need a vice president hahahaha. just pick ann coulter for VP.

or how about nation of one, the cool marine alpha male father from the fatherland and trs. i heard rumors he was not 100% white but i would give him a pass if so.

so yeah tattoos and headshavings, monthly headshavings, for cheaters. and abandoners. and heavy fines. add it to their student loan debt hahahaha.

maybe this is just because I want to punish HER. she did something wrong, so she should be punished.

so what would be the best punishment for HER?

nothing violent of course.

really the only punishment I want for her is for her to meet me in a court of Relationship Law, a judge or jury to decide that she did something wrong, and then for her to feel bad about to it, own up to it, and express remorse for it. That would be enough for me. no tattoos, no headshaving, no fines. just meet me publicly, have both sides evaluated, listened, heard, understood, judged, and her to realize she did something wrong, and be truly sorry for it.

write me a 10 page letter OR pay me a 1000 dollar fine. I would probably give 900 back to her needy family.

its less of a felony and more of a misdemeanor.

village of jamel germany filled with 35 neonazis! i should move there.

why have i never listened to inquisition? they seem pretty good. but i had no idea how ridiculous the vocals were. i can tolerate it though. they have fast blast beats and seemingly interesting riffs. the jooish filth blog metalsucks also accuses them of being RACIST because of a story by an ex-racist with a swastika tattoo who said that when the inquisition guys saw his swastika tat a few years ago, they got really excited and interested.

however im not seeing a lot of talk about this in youtube comments, like oh these despicable phil anselmo like racists. 90% of the comments are about the ridiculous vocals but damn are those some sweet riffs and this kinda reminds me of immortal.

reminds you immortal in a good way, not a bad way.

so yeah. no headshaving, no abandoner tattoos. this is like third degree, accidental, mansluahgter type abandonment. first degree predmeditated abandonment would get a tattoo.

ANY kind of CHEATING is BETRAYAL and gets instant tattoo. and headshaving.

where would the tattoo go? probably just on the arm. I mean you could put it on the face. but if youre banging a girl, you will eventually see her ARM anyway. also it was good enough for joos in the campz to get tats on their ARM.

larping hahahaha.

her punishment is just to respond to me and apologize hahahaha. wow what a cruel and unusual punishment that is totally worse than the crime hahahaha.

so yeah. when women divorce men, why dont they ever try to do it respectfully or nicely? do they HAVE to do it as VINDICTIVELY as possible? it really makes women look evil and petty and horrible.

695 applicants, 1 day. 13 dollar an hour entry level job. damn.

how to be #1 out of 695.

ive always admitted when I was wrong! and felt really bad for it! shit ive thought I was wrong when I wasnt! blamed myself for things I didnt do! like blaming myself for making her dump me in such an incredible manner.

i guess punching out and continuing to work for a few hours unpaid is common. i am talking about people who actually punch a clock, like hourly, or people who need to be paid overtime, or are someone instructed to work less than 40 or 48 hours a week. well they still gotta get the work done. so they punch out and work off the clock to finish the stuff they have to do, or else their manager will fire them at will.

how come they didnt teach us this in high school or college hahahahaha.

or that you had to STUDY for your job and do HOMEWORK for it just like you did for school?

because every day on the job is like a Big Test, or a Big Sports Championship, and you have the knot of dread in your stomach, “I AM NOT READY FOR THIS. I AM NOT PREPARED FOR THIS.” and all you can do is try to survive one day at a time and then study during as much of your free time as possible. Come home, smoke a huge blunt to unwind for 30 minutes, then start STUDYING your job material until its time to go to bed.

NOBODY TOLD ME!!!!!

also that woman wouldnt study at all. she would just smoke weed and take care of her family hahahaha like a slacker deadbeat. and now she is getting ahead in the industry while I have fallen way behind. she has left me by the wayside. left me WAY behind. feels bad man hahaha.

DO NO HARM.

say the degenerate godless spiritual but not religious degenerates.

well what I hate is that women do SO MUCH HARM wihtout even realizing it, through their promiscuity, casual sex, cheating, abandonment, leaving people hanging, walking away from responsibilitiy, disappointment,  immaturity. that’s why I don’t like women: because they’ve dove ME a lot of harm and I don’t think they’ve shown enough remorse for it! You should feel bad for doing bad things! DO NO HARM!!!!

open relationships harm people! cheating harms people! breaking hearts is harmful and hurtful! that is why I dont like women!

and no, men should not do these things to women either.

but women control the supply of sex. men DO NOT. men are the demand for sex.

WOMEN ARE THE SUPPLY OF SEX, MEN ARE THE DEMAND. 

wow might be top 5% posts here. welp not good enough, you gotta be top 0.5%.

 

TOP 5% IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH, TOP 0.5% IS. 

i have always been an Aphorist hahahahaha.

 

What does IC stand for in context to software engineers and computer programmers?
Not referring to integrated circuits.
2 Answers
Nick Malik
Nick Malik, I’ve written over a half million lines of production code
Individual Contributor — a person who is not a manager, whose effort contributes to the value of the product or supporting processes.

thank you. IC was a bit tricky acronym to figure out. but i figured it out in 3 minutes. that woman would just ask a thirsty beta orbiter for help HELP ME hahahaha.

but I was a bad man who imposed on her while she was having a FAMILY CRISIS! how bad am I! I should get a tattoo that says selfish and insensitive and pushy and needy and clingy!

“you may also use this second follow-up to reinforce how you envision using your skills to solve a potential challenge you suspect — or even know — the company is facing. Keep this “solution” very brief (1-3 sentences). The power of this “future impact” proposal is to trigger a connection between your value proposition and their pain points.” quote from:

https://www.glassdoor.com/blog/follow-job-application/?ref=apply-email
are you fookin kidding me hahahaha.

MY VALUE PROPOSITION PROVIDES A COST EFFECTIVE SOLUTION TO YOUR PAIN POINTS.

jeeeeeeeezum crow!!!!

yes managers actually talk like that and that is why they are incompetent fooktards who should all be fired, and the people who actually do work should be promoted to supervisor. or maybe have rotating supervisors.

LABOR VS MANAGEMENT hahahaha. destroy capitalist greed hahahaha.

747 applicants now in 2 days of the post being up.

DO NO HARM??? BEing a lying, cheating, abandoning, irresponsible wh0re is HARMFUL to a lot of people, and to society in general!

Being so GOD DAMN IRRESPONSIBLE in RELATIONSHIPS causes a lot of broken hearts! and even ONE broken heart is a LOT of HARM!

DO NO HARM!!!!!

i know you didnt intend to cause the harm, and broken heart harm is pretty much inevitable and not really your fault per se. But you still have a responsibility to say AWWWW Im SORRY. I dont MEAN to break your heart! she didnt even do that!

didnt even SAY I didnt MEAN to break your heart! do THAT much at least!

ok ok i just like to rant about that all the time while I am applying for stupid jobs hahaha. managed to apply for 6 on a staurday. my average is at 12.1 minutes after 43 jobs on the spreadsheet.  the more total jobs, the more accurate that average is. right. looks like the average is gonna be UNDER 15 minutes. that is Better Than Projected hahahaha. That is GOOD news.

I’m pretty irresponsible but I DONT DRAG OTHER PEOPLE INTO IT. My irresponsibility hurts mainly myself. and prob muh fam hehehehe.

they say ann coulter is a man but I would still bang her, even if she’s banged 1000000 ingras. yes she does have a horse face, yes she is grotesquely skinny and possibly anorexic, yes she is 54 years old, but i would still bang her. she has legit very nice hair. very nice hair.

but when you are so irresponsible in relationships and breaking hearts LIKE  A BULL IN A CHINA SHOP….. doesnt mean you praise the bull, and damn sure doesn’t mean you have to like the bull. you take the bull out of the china shop because it just doesnt belong there!

women don’t BELONG in relationships? this sounds like mgtow robot womb robot waifu shit.

no its much more simple.

like i said before: INCENTIVIZE GOOD BEHAVIOR, DISINCENTIVIZE BAD BEHAVIOR.

REWARD THE GOOD, PUNISH THE BAD.

and women are so BAD in the current year because their BAD behavior has been rewarded so much. and not at all punished.

nobody makes them really understand that what they do is WRONG, irresponsible, and bad.

bull in a child shop. a 50 foot baby with a fooking machine gun. or a mario invincibility star that kills everything it touches. the day will come when nobody understands that reference.

up to 798 applicants in 2 days. i thought each job was only supposed to have 5 to 10 applicants. yeah maybe for senior level fookin analyst jobs. entry level average jobs have 800 applicants!

something is REALLY fishy with the way job statistics are measured and reported. this 5% unemployment rate is bullshit. the whole job statistics field is bullshit and lies. damned lies and statistics hahaha. no they didnt add 250000 jobs last month. they added a bunch of temporary 10 hour a week jobs paying 8 bucks an hour. THATS what they added. that is NOT a sign of a healthy economy or a healthy, good job market. its shitty.

listened to that inquisition. the drums kinda sounded like a machine. a good machine but a machine nonetheless. but i think its actually a real guy. i dunno. they have like 100000 albums, maybe i picked the wrong one. the one above, ominous something something. i thought that was their Breakout album though. who knows. id rather listen to immortal. and yeah truly those vocals are RIDICULOUS. i mean he can do whatever he wants, he’s the mastermind of the band, but….WHY? is this supposed to be “throat singing?” and I am pretty tolerant of weird vocals.

and even the “joys” of investigating new boring disappointing music is nothing compared to the joys of small talk about tv and cuddling with a Beloved Waifu.

i thought i hated small talk but with her i luved small talk. cuz it was just a way to spend time and bond and feel totally comfortable with her.

and i really dont hate small talk, even with men. i guess ive never been a HUGE hater of small talk. at worst I found it boring and pointless, but I always sort of understood the point. i didnt hate it with a passion, like AUTISTS, who cant understand it AT ALL and are ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTED by it.

so yeah I guess in general I don’t mind small talk, its just a way people can be FRIENDLY or at least POLITE to each other, at worst, and at best, like with her, it really helps build a connection and can lead to Warm Fuzzies.

took some nyquil BEFORE going for the walk. then went for 3.6 mile walk. i wanted to approximate the idea of smoking mj then going for a long walk, which was my real wish.

im just not GREAT at small talk so it makes me NERVOUS so thats the main reason I dont like it. but i can appreciate what it is and what its good for.

and with some people, like her, or muh close friends (which I don’t really have any anymore) i am VERY GOOD at small talk! but complete strangers, not really.

i dont really want any more acquaintances, i want more close friends, hahahaha. all the people who were once my close friends are not any more. some there has been mutual drift. others have pushed me away with their ridiculous behavior (although I have not Thrown Them Away and will still respond to them). and she was one of muh close friends once. i WISH we had just drifted away.  I WISH she had turned me off somehow. like would I have continued luving her if she became a ridiculous alcoholic for example. sure, id probably want to save her. whereas my male drunk friend, i’m not in LUV with him, and he’s been kinda hopeless for a while. just back and forth, up and down, rehab and back, and now its increasingly obvious he has no real desire to stop drinking. he is occasionally coerced and strongarmed by the people who care about him to get help, but you gotta have the desire within. he doesnt have it. i did. i honestly wanted to stop drinking, or i guess i did want TO drink any more, after the shame and punishment of the DUI. Sometimes now I think gee what if I could drink again, but I get over it pretty quickly. a LOT quickly than its taken to get over HER hahahaha.

 

SERVICE THEATER

may 1

shit i hate being NEEDY. I NEED too much SUPPORT at work, especially emotional support.

so when I tried to get it from her, i was being too NEEDY and pushed her away.

well I spread my support out among several people so i didnt bother her so much.

and she had plenty of support herself with all her new work friends! i was kind butthurt and bitter that she was getting involved with a clique that did not involve me. like i got downgraded from real friend to work friend, and now I was getting downgraded from work friend to nothing.

i invited her to come to me for emotional support, probably to show that I wasn’t trying to be too needy and that I could give as good as I could get. but if she needed emotional support, she didnt want it from me! rather, the other men she didn’t have a history with! just clear the decks and start anew. throw away and forget the past. even when the past is right there saying please dont throw this away.

well she thought I BROKE THE RULES by getting feelings for her, so she gets to BREAK THE RULES by not having to talk to me at all.

yeah well I think thats a lot WORSE breaking of the rules than what I did.

but i also hate being NEEDY.

well NORMALLY im NOT THAT NEEDY. besides, how is it needy to want to hang out with a friend every once in a while? how is it NEEDY to want to hang out once in 10 months, or to be CONCERNED when you are being AVOIDED by someone that MATTERS to you?

ITS NOT NEEDY YA MORON! HOW ABOUT NOT AVOIDING ME FOR 10 MONTHS!!!!

ok tomorrow do clerical typing and computer test for city office clerk job tomorrow. i wish there was some kind of intermediate job between the 13 DAH part time job and the 37k a year FT “Senior Clerk” job.  why not a 28k a year Junior Clerk job???? I would feel much better about that.

women can just STOP luving you. its a much harder, longer, more painful process for a man. a man just cant SWITCH OFF his luv and loyalty. women can hahahaha. and in one day they are JUST DONE with you. i dont think its healthy or normal to be able to pull the plug that easily. show me this is painful for you too and then I wont think all women are sociopaths hahahaha.

yeah well i already know they arent. it just rocks your world when someone you thought wasnt like that, does something extremely disappointing and unexpected like that to YOU. She was a kind and caring person, and she was kind and caring to ME!!!!!! except in the end, when it really mattered.

basically I would need to find another Close Female Friend before I have the confidence needed to work in a Call Center again.

but thats a slippery slope. i must do this unreasonable thing before i can gain the confidnece needed to do reasonable thing I SHOULDNT NEED to do the unreasonable prerequisite first.

http://users.net1.cc/pako/sellex%20books/Sales%20Skills/McGraw.The.Complete.Book.Of.Perfect.Phrases.For.High.Performing.Sales.Professionals.Sep.2009.eBook-ELOHiM_0071636099.pdf

http://www.saigontre.com/FDFiles/101_Customer_Service_Training_Scripts_for_Handling_Any_Situation.pdf

i like these “PERFECT PHRASES”. just TELL ME GOOD THINGS TO SAY. PERFECT PHRASES.

you can buy access to a mcgraww hill database of 30000 perfect phrases for $80 a year, hahahaha.

http://www.speakstrong.com/pdfs/PowerPhraseseBook.pdf

heh when you dump me, do so in a way that doesnt make me think you are a heartless bitch. woman2012 succeeded in giving me a very good dumping. good for her. i wish every woman could dump me like she did. that was a a MASTER COURSE in dumping the RIGHT way. total RESPECT for that hahahaha.

its not complicated, its not rocket science, even the average WOMAN is “intelligent” enough to figure it out.  it just takes some courage and maturity. some other things women are lacking in other than just intelligence hahaha. which are probably more important than intelligence!

i just hate that she beat me in the Competition of Life, in every way, and he leaving me in this way is like being a Bad Winner, who dumps insult upon the opponent they already soundly defeated!

its huge insult added to huge injury, by the injurer!

without the huge insult, getting over the injury would have taken less time.

and really its not fun to hate a person so much hahaha. i dont want to hate people. the only people i need to hate are the loud annoying smelly nonwhites who get on the treadmill right next to me hahaha. not white women I used to be good close friends with.

taking MJ makes it easier to Get Through One Day At A Time. that is its benefit. its cost is it turns you into a degenerate zombie loser, One Day At A Time.

so the guys on the fatherland say that now traditional, decent women are using tinder to find husbands, or that people are using it to find monogamous, longterm rels, and not just Chill Hangouts.

well its good that people are still getting together in mongamous rels, and subverting the degen intention of tinder.

however its bad for people like me who though tinder signalled “i am a degen, stay away from me,” because now there are nondegen infiltrators in there.

and I guess you could signal that easily, like say “i am a nondegenerate infiltrator who is not the typical tinder degenerate. I am NOT looking for casual fooking, i am looking for a traditional longterm monogamous rel” right on your profile.

but women are so ambiguous you cant tell the good ones from the bad ones! the good ones dont proclaim their goodness loud enough! or they just say they are looking for “new friends” the same as the degen women say! you have to say a little MORE to DIFFERENTIATE yourself!!!!!!! you dont WANT to be lumped in with those WHORES, do you??!?!?!?!?!

you have to be actively against that shit. say it loud and say it proud: I AM NOT A WHORE!!!!!

well her being a whore was not the problem. if i start thinking she is a whore, then i miss the POINT.

but she might be becoming a whore.

but thats still not the point.

http://angrycustomer.org/faq/index.php?action=artikel&cat=7&id=89&artlang=en

ooo found a good site.

what to do when NOBODY can answer a customers question.

uhh get a digital scale if you can spare 20 buck so that way you can measure out foods to the gram and keep non meal snacks down to 100 calories. cuz like a serving of ice cream or cereal or nutz is like 150 or 180 calories. nope too much. try to aim for 100.

ok she HAS been legit betrayed by people before. so it makes sense that her betrayal meter is over calibrated, and that she registers a false positive. thinks someone is betraying her when theyre really not. because shes been betrayed SO many times before. people just like to take advantage of her like this. the eternal victim haha.

everybody betrayed her now one of her closest friends betrayed her too. boo hoo. hahahahaha.

ok this actually makes a LOT of sense. good perspective for me to have.

and though she would be too stubborn to admit shes wrong……shes mroe likely to be too BLIND and ignorant and damaged and imperceptive to even REALIZE that she’s wrong.

i just went apeshit because she was the first attractive and eventually available woman to be NICE to me in 11 years hahahaha. well, in 3 years actually hahahaha. see its not as bad as I first said. its not 11 years, its only THREE years. it had been 11 years since I had some sort of action with a woman, NOT the last time an attractive woman had been NICE to me haha.

i have been a pretty uncreepy guy cuz i havent kept fighting her, havent kept contact her, stalking her.

but BOY have I EVER been moaning and complaining in semiprivate! writing and thinking abotu it SO MUCH! I’m just not directing any of it to her. I’m not writing her long complaining emails erry day.

so she has NO right to say that I am taking it badly and acting creepy cuz i havent said one god damn word to her since my final email 8.6 months ago.

but it would be nice if she were bitching about ME so much to all her family and new friends that they were like ok enough already im sick of hearing about it, besides, he didnt do anything THAT bad, hahahaha.

but NO. that would involve CARING, and as we know, men care for women 900000000000000000000 times more than women care for men! women dont love men! women are cold callous sociopaths! hahahaha.

CALLOUS that is a good word for her coldness hahaha.

im not saying there are never customers that are unreasonable. in fact in some workplaces or departments, most customers are going to be unreasonable. I’m just saying that in our department I didnt think most of our callers were unreasonable. and in general I dont think people are going to call tech support unless they have an actual problem. now SOME idiots call about the coffee cup holder, but not most.

how the fook does SHE explain shit? does she actually read perfect phrases for customer service BOOKS like I do? FOOK NO!!!!!!!!!

yeah she had some family stress so i feel somewhat bad about putting this extra pressure on her.

but another way of looking at it is, this was a much easier to deal with stressor for her. it was something much more in her power to deal with. it might have been EASIER compared to the family thing.

or maybe she was acting out and showing her CONTROL over My situation, by not doing anything, to react to her LACK of control over the family situation! she wanted to put ME at HER mercy, the way SHE was at the mercy of THAT!

maybe, maybe. I will never know!

aaaaannnnndddd i wouldnt be asking myself all these stupid unanswerable what if questions if she had just talked to me and ended it like a normal person! thats right! I think even NORMIES know better than to do this! SHE was acting like a WEIRDO!!!!!!

i mean me liking her was just a minor annoyance compared to a more serious tragedy in her family.

OF COURSHE i should have been more……something??? i dunno i WAS sensitive to the tragedy in her family though. that was kind of an ongoing situation though. really not the type of thing you could be proactive about at all. there weren’t any conversations that could be had. really totally powerless and just waiting for the next thing to happen.

kind of like how i felt with her hahahha. except i did have the power. i just didnt exercise it. because i needed to courageously put my foot down and say THIS ENDS NOW.

because anything else, she would DEFLECT and DODGE. well, more like tell me what i wanted to hear: yes, we WILL hang out SOMEDAY. SOMEDAY. maybe she actually believed it. ya know, i think she really did believe it. I definitely believed it.

the stuff they do isnt INTENTIONAL. they dont know the reason they do what they do. they dont do it on purpose. everything is covert and unintentional and accidental.  you never know and THEY never know.

there is no more effective assassin than one who does not KNOW they are an assassin hahaha.

there is no better liar than one who does not KNOW they are lying hahaha.

yes i KNOW its not really a LIE if you THINK its the truth.

im just saying women are so confused and ignorant they never know what the truth is!!!!

not all women are like that!!!!! hahaha.

 

A LOSE LOSE LOSE LOSE LOSE SITUATION / GETTING YOUR LUV MUSCLE SWOLE AF / RECREATIONAL REPRODUCTION

mar 2

just because your relationship is in a contested or tenuous or uncertain state, doesnt mean you can just throw it away. doesnt mean you can throw it away and the other person wont get hurt. yes it was uncertain and probably unlikely that our friendship would or even COULD last…..but it doesnt mean you can throw it away like that. have a meeting and finish the friendship in an HONORABLE way, not a DISGRACEFULLY DISHONORABLE way. it should be a solemn and tear filled ceremony on both sides. like burying a decorated soldier. play taps on a bugle or amazing grace or bagpipes or something. its serious and its sad for both people. you dont throw the dead soldier into an unmarked grave. thats something you do with like osama bin laden hahahaha.

so dont say well i didnt owe it to talk to you or be nice to you because YOU (meaning ME) KILLED the whole friendship in an INSTANT when you got feelings.

and i would say, i disagree, youre WRONG, that simply isnt TRUE, i appeal that decision to dr fookin phil, lets go talk to a shrink right now, you can even pick a manhating shrink if you want. yes i got feelings but NO this doesnt kill the entire relship DEAD. our relship had longterm roots, had a lot of time and emotion invested from both of us; you just CANT kill that dead in one instant. you can try, and i say that YOU tried a lot harder than i did to kill it dead instantly. the natural and right thing to do when one person gets feelings is to talk about it, to see exactly how its gonna affect the friendship, and if it needs to end, end it HONORABLY.  the natural response is not to avoid and throw away the other person. thats NEVER the correct response.

by this time i can accept and live with the fact that she was just scared and avoidant. ive avoided shit i shouldnt have. i am a huge avoider. turns out so is she. ALL IT IS is a person avoiding dealing with an unpleasant reality because its too hard, and doesnt have a big enough payoff for her. and she probably KNOWS this too. but its not enough to get her to act. never will be.

like when you or even I avoid something we know we should do. we say, yeah i know im wrong, i should do this, but im too much of a lazy coward, now lets just focus on the future and not the past hahaha. yeah i was wrong, shame on me, i take full responsibility, bla bla bla. is this true repentance?

WELL, its not always that your avoidance directly HURTS another person. you might be too scared to do something you need to do, but its not really HURTING anyone but yourself. at worst another person is mildly annoyed that you didnt do something you said you would do. but rarely does your inaction directly hurt somebody a lot!

so in other words, very rarely would you need to make AMENDS with another PERSON regarding your avoidance.

this is one of those rare cases.

most of the time though, the main person youre hurting is YOURSELF, by being lazy and cowardly and craven and spineless and apathetic.

but sometimes, another person is really putting themselves out there For You, and you let them down by doing nothing. its not a betrayal, its not Aggressive Hostility, its not the worst kind of evil, but boy does it SUCK and its rude and destructive and bad.

so yeah. i cant say she was DISGUSTED by the idea of lowly loser ME liking way-out-of-my-league HER. she did not have a Big Head anyway. I cant say anything about her motivations or thoughts or feelings other than she was too scared/cowardly to do the Courteous thing; AND that she was not interested in Dating Me. that would have given her the motivation and courage to respond to me. I guess we can say she was not at all interested in continuing the friendship. like not at all. that was kind of insulting. rude hahaha. insult to injury.

they say there is a self esteem problem with Women. I say BULLSHIT. then women would not be making more money than men hahahah. they would be fookin pathetic neets like men. instead, many women act like fookin narcissists. like they are gods gift to the world. now bow down and worship me. how dare that unattractive man even look at me.

if anything i like a woman with slightly LOW self esteem because I have kinda low self esteem myself. also it makes you more humble and friendly and not an asshole. people dont think theyre TOO GOOD for you. so i kinda liked that about her. she was humble and quiet and shy and didnt think she was the greatest thing in the world. without falling into the other trap women with lower self esteem have, ie they become sluts trying to build their self esteem thru promiscuous secs. and she did not do that.

march 3

i dont think she had super low slut level self esteem in other words. she just didnt have excessively inflated narcissistic princess self esteem! and was humble and reserved and quiet and chill and did not have a huge sense of entitlement. she seemed mature and nice and loving because she really was.

she was also real “good” at avoiding shit when she didnt have something tangible or obvious to gain. like, if she were in love with me and desperate to hold on to me, she would have done something.

when women really luv a man, they show it. they dont make things ridiculously, infuriatingly difficult for you. they make it EASY for you. note: not the same as making it easy to bang them……too many women give it up too fast and easy. when i say easy, i mean they are friendly and OPEN. they WANT to spend time with you. they arent constantly busting your balls and giving you TESTS. they are HAPPY to be with you and will let you know. by smiling at you, laughing at your stupidest jokes, gazing into your eyes, getting close to you, not treating you like you have ebola. not avoiding you all the time, or giving you excuses.

documentary on love shy incel virgin males, possibly some neets in there, women hate their entitled personalities and desire for nonfat women

http://pastebin.com/Q7BDknYY

here is a copy of the comments hehehehe

march 4

well apparently all these guys are creepy and woman hating and they also hate themselves and will take years of therapy to even start to heal their broken souls and maybe then they might be ready for fat old table scraps. then and only them. they are SO broken, SO far behind, that it would take YEARS for them merely to wake up, and then YEARS after that for them to actually change their behavior enough to pull fat old single mom table scraps hahaha.

not to dehumanize the fat old table scraps! i just dont want to marry them and have children with them and i dont even really want to date them or even bang them. i would rather be alone, and GOOD they say. i want to have actual feelings for a person like ive had in the past. maybe less DEBILITATING, but i DID like the CERTAINTY of it all. there was no ambiguity or maybes or waffling or on the fence or uncertainty. i was 100% ALL IN with the person. thats the way i wanna be with the woman i marry and have children with!

i dont want to have Loved OTHER women MORE than the woman I marry and have children with! its really not fair to HER! or the CHILDREN! or to me. its a lose lose lose lose lose situation! (assuming 3 children hahahaha)

http://goaskalice.columbia.edu/answered-questions/does-she-me-1

“DOES SHE LIKE ME?” asks the secsually mature college aged kidult. hey i didnt know these things when i was 18 either, i only knew how to beat off to jooish filth aka porn. therefore i never learned how to talk to grills and i never went on to make white children.

anyway i would say, and this is a thought exercise because i want to see IF i know the correct answer before reading what alice says, which is sometimes accurate but oftentimes horribly degenerate and permissive and immoral.

ok, if she likes you she will be sending obvious signals and might get increasingly obvious until you notice them, if youre too autistic to notice them at first. or she might get bored and then lose all interest in you and not show you any signals any more.

basically she will WANT to hang out with you and will say YES when you invite her to hang out and NOT AVOID you. she will smile at you in a genuine way, maybe tilting the head, staring deeply into your eyes.

if you get closer to her, she will not pull away like you have a disease. but you should probably make the first move towards her. touching her and staring at her and such.

she will be OPEN to you and friendly and accomodating to you and not a yuuuuuuuuuge bitch. she will seem OPEN and not CLOSED to you, generally.

the article did not really say that but it didnt NOT say it either. it said it can be scary to put yourself out there for a possible rejection, yes VERY true, but we have to make ourselves open and vulnerable if we ever want to get Luv, also true.

mar 5

well thing is i am probably less love shy than these woman haters, because i have come CLOSE, several times, just never been able to Close The Deal. Luv Is For Closers. Wives are for Closers Only. i have opened Muh Heart and put myself out there…….i just keep getting rejected. probably because i am a classic Nice Guy and spark absolutely no attraction whatsoever on the part of the women. no tingles, no swooning, no sense of wanting or devotion or commitment. no tingle. no luv. no attraction. no attachment. no value. sometimes as a friend though, but never more. hehehe. i want to be more than friends with a woman some day!!!!!! well at least i can be even friends with a woman. i dont think the love shy incel woman haters can even do that, because they are too Dripping With Creepiness.

also i am not as weird looking and weird acting as they are. when i talk to people, i am not super duper WEIRD. i mainly come across as a little shy and quiet, and super NICE, but definitely not WEIRD. if anything i am a people pleaser and give the impression of wanting to be Liked and Accepted and Not Rejected hahahaha.

But Dripping and Reeking of Entitlement and Anger, not so much! I’ve been able to rein that stuff in in public hahaha.

google how to think fast and act cool under pressure when you have not had enough training

while bullshitting reasonable sounding explanations while sounding confident even though you have no idea what you are doing.

thinking of my Old Job once again hahahaha. You Just Do It because no one will show you how and theres no articles on the internet, videos on youtube, or threads on forums on these topics on the whole internet. i cant beleive it.

ok. heres what you do. you try to make everyone like you, so they invite you to Happy Hour after work. you eagerly accept and then spend a minimum of $50 on drinks for the coworkers. buy everyones affection. that way they will be willing to help you when you fook up on the job. they will be willing to train you to do your job. also try to get as much job training out of them while you are all at the bar drinking, because at work, you simply wont be able to Steal Their Time to get them to Show YOU how to do YOUR job which nobody trained YOU on because the company has determined that its not cost effective to TRAIN people, just throw them to the wolves and if they drown, fire them. and no one is there to teach you how not to drown. That’s where I come in. and tell you to spend fookloads of your hard earned money at the BAR essentially Bribing your Coworkers to talk to you about Work while at the Bar.

How do you get them to invite you to Happy Hour? ummmmm see who gets out at the same time you do and say “hey want to go to happy hour and i will buy you some dranks? I’d like to get to know my coworkers.” keep doing that until someone agrees. bonus points if you can get any of the Senior Team Members. They will know more, be smarter, AND their opinion of you REALLY matters. They will probably be 10 years younger than you, make $3 more an hour than you, not have to answer phones all day, and possibly have attractive gurlfrans hahahaha. bet you wish you knew what that felt like!

cuz see you can get to work early and stay late to shadow people and learn shit. but since they are still working, you wont be able to ask them questions about YOUR job, just watch them do THEIR job and hope is relevant. not that either you or them will know if its relevant.

Ooooooh heres an idea. Bribe a coworker who either starts or leaves in the middle of your shift, to come over and help you before or after their shift. give them money and or buy them lunch, dinner, and or dranks.

201 days since last contacted HER, 235 days since i last talked to her and shit ENDED.

i have definitely turned a corner and might be even 50% through it. but i am certainly not over here. i will not be over her until i have equal feelings towards another woman.

should you marry a woman if you still have feelings for a previous woman?

im talking about when you know youre getting old and you know your mate value is low and you’re not gonna get a GREAT woman, so you just have to SETTLE for the best you can get. you know you’re not gonna be HEAD OVER HEELS in LOVE with her. but then you say, is this REALLY the best i can do? even that damn MUDSHARK i loved more than this endomorphic, potato-shaped, stumpy, squat 35 year old single mother. who might be half lebanese hahahaha.

we have a lot of “LEBANESE.” for being such a small damn country. the lebanese seem to be christian or at least nonmuslim and often mix with whites to create swarthy mixed children who could pass for italian. dont get fooled. have them get a 23 and me.

but do you really DESERVE a 90% or more white wife? you might be white, but you’re still a loser, therefore, you deserve a white loser wife, at best.

i wandered into some degenerate filth on tumblr, which i forgot was FULL of degenerate filth. I found a degen camwhore who sorta looked like THAT WOMAN. OH GOD. and she posts all these degen pictures because she “Loves Secs and is a Secsual Goddess” and loves being fooked hard and being secsy for all the guys jerking off to her, who then post pictures of them jerking off to her pictures.

well i looked at it for longer than i should have but i did not really ACT on that looking. really i would have liked to keep the looking at under 10 seconds, rather than 5 minutes. i mean shit its been 159 days since i really looked at the filth. i want to get that filth out of my mind, its absolutely disgusting.

its sad that a 21 year old gurl, let alone any woman, any person, could/would think this is OK.

well i wont reset my counter, but i would if i had actually physically indulged in the degeneracy. although i did LOOK at it for TOO long.

i hope That Woman doesnt do filth like that!!!! now that she is on dating sites. giving those naughty bits to random men from the dating sites. o god. i would have given her naughty bits a hard masculine pounding but i would have given her luv and commitment too. thats hard to get from a guy like me hahaha who doesnt luv any women.

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take the Aspie Quiz!

turns out i am a total normie….well signif more normie than i am a sperg hahaha. an autist hahaha. now i picked a lot of middle of the road answers. for tests like this it helps to go to extremes so you can Discover Yourself.

karma is a BITCH! just like how on married at first site, neil divorced sam even though sam came around to him and changed herself and started being really nice to him. TOO LITTLE, TOO LATE, even if she was being genuinely nice. she was just SO bitchy to him in the beginning, and he did not like it. questioning his masculinity and such. to be sure, he was very faggy and not masculine at all.

yeah dont tell the people why youre dumping them. because you werent x y z enough. because YOU did something WRONG. this is YOUR fault. and then if they are like me, they will blame themselves for pushing the love of their life away.

but yeah its amazing how wrong things went. i liked having her in muh life. i cant believe it failed so fantastically. i was trying to help it fail better hahahaha.

also i feel more like a confident normie when i have a female friend. when i dont have any female friends, i feel like a total weirdo who doesnt know how to talk to gurls.

obviously the solution is to have MORE THAN ONE female friend in case one gets totally BTFO. then you can prove to yourself that you are still treated as a human being by women.

yes it does matter that these are friends and not family members hahahaha.

although it really sucks if your family is not good to you!

but yeah its still easy to remember the good times even though……..horry sheet….we are getting to the point where it will be TWO YEARS since we had good times. wow. that is just scary how much time of my life i wasted here.

well i “only” wasted 10 months. and then i’ve “wasted” like 8 months trying to Get Over It. so, 18 months. only a year anda half hahaha.

still i wish she had shown me a little more CONSIDERATION and KINDNESS. COME ON.

mar 6

yeah dont want to look at that filth. women shouldnt be DOING that, and men shouldnt be LOOKING at it. that is just a terrible mindset to be in. i hope my future wife has never done shit like that.

well i made spreadsheet of NET calories for each day since jan 1. NET meaning calories from food minus calories burned exercising that day, if any. then get 60, 66 days worth and really crunch some numbers. get the AVERAGE net calories over a LONG period of time. myfitnesspal does not LET you do this so i had to make this spreadsheet to tell me that as of today i am getting NET calories per day of 1173. wow not bad uh. so really i should be losing 2 pounds a week instead of 1.5 then right hahahaha.

yeah i wish i hadnt looked at that filth for so long. even just looking at it for 10 minutes is too much. you start to think all women are whores like that. yes you are a whore if you put pictures of yourself fooking a dildo on the internet.

well what if youre just showing your t1ts or showing an unspread undildoed vag? SLIPPERY SLOPE MAN. SO slippery, i’d say its practically the same thing. just a short matter of time.

i dont want to think average women would do this.

even if they DO, you are BETTER OFF NOT looking at it ever, and then dealing with their whorishness on an individual basis, like, telling women directly, dont be a whore. but dont look at evidence of their whorishness. i guess maybe you can actually bang them though. cuz that increases mans confidence.

looking a porno or even “erotica” just makes you hate women, and decreases confidence. better to just jerk off to your imagination instead, and not having your imagination perverted by that perversion.

yeah well it does to me at least. i hate that women are so dumb and immoral and weak and degenerate to do this. and its sad they dont have fathers who keep them from doing it.

yeah i did dumb degenerate shit when i was young too though. but theres something unique about exposing your “holy of holies” as a recreational pleasure zone for the express purposes of glorifying recreational sexs and getting horny guys to jerk off to you, putting it out there for EVERYONE to see. this should be a PRIVATE thing. have SOME humility and decency. this is the thing that creates life, and you put it up there on the internet getting POUNDED and CREAMED.

its degrading for everyone and its disturbing men watch so much of it so reguarly. its disturbing i watchd so much of it. it def fooked me up!

what if a woman wants to commit to you but you dont want to commit to her?

i havent had THAT happen yet, but i guess it could. if i could fall in luv with a female friend, ANYTHING can happen.

a womans commitment is a valuable thing. it means she luvs you and wont just up and LEAVE you. she will be willing to have your children and raise em up hahahaha. that is super valuable. and you want to have children! so shouldnt you have children with ANY woman who is WILLING to have children with you?

TECHNICALLY any woman who has SECS with you is saying they are willing to have children with you.

and women have casual secs with guys theyve just met.

so fooked up.

THE HUMAN LIFE CREATION PROCESS SHOULD NEVER BE CASUAL. IT IS INHERENTLY INTIMATE AND SERIOUS.

and dont show your babymaker and adjacent areas getting pounded and creamed on the internet for neets and degens to jerk off too.

Oneitis is actually true luv and is a GOOD thing, when its two-sided.

I am very regretful I fooked up my MIND by

  1. watching lots of porno in my youth
  2. and THEN when i wondered why i couldnt pull women, i DOUBLED DOWN by reading tons of game and pua stuff. that only made the problem worse.

tons of porno > incel > tons of game/pua reading > bad bad way to be. you get permanently fooked up and takes a lot of hard work just to get back to neutral.

now game isnt ALL bad. if you can filter out the wheat from the chaff. look for the stuff that befits a healthy, traditional, moral, white man.

its IMPOSSIBLE to filter out the chaff though when you are coming from the Frustrated Porno Incel mindset I was in, and which probably 80% of people who read a lot of Game are in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

good point! hahahaha

when i watched that pornographic stuff the other day, i could only think of That Woman and how I REALLY wanted to be getting intimate with HER, and it wouldnt be degenerate at all. then i think of her giving her Genitals to some Tinder Badboy and feeling jealous and disgusted that he gets to experience that, and that she is being such a dumb whore.

cuz i still have a libido thank GOD…….i am just starting to appreciate it as a Sacred Vehicle for Gods Love, a tool of Life Creation that you share only with the woman you Luv. like I did for her. Sacred Gods Love.

and of course watching porno completely kills that view of secs as special and sacred and turns it into j00ish hedonist degenerate muh dick, if it feels good do it.

whereas it should be a symbol of luv and intimacy and pair bonding, which is WAS, for me re her, and for her to give it away in that degenerate sense is just heartbreaking.

i mean yeah i would have gotten pretty perverted with her. done everything you can imagine with her. recreationally even! using a rubber to signal my intention that i dont WANT this to be Procreative Secs! but i would also treat it as an intimacy building thing, a love strengthening thing. like lifting weights for luv. getting your Luv Muscle SWOLE AF.

but yeah even watching a LITTLE porn is bad. eschew this degeneracy completely, cold turkey. i hadn’t looked at something that bad in MONTHS yet i could already feel my brain rewiring itself back to the old bad ways.

you shouldnt see this stuff unless it is being given to you in real life by a real woman, pref one you have a Real Rel with. to present it in any other way is degrading. and even somewhat vanilla softcore tumblr camwhoring is degrading af. and then think about the REALLY degrading shit. horry sheet.

march 7

yeah i think i am making some definite progress in getting over HER and she is seeming more like a fading memory. which is good. well i mean id still be with her. maybe in 10 years when she is an old catlady with baby rabies she will coyly contact me to see if im married, and then i will have my chance to bang her, after she’s past the Wall and she probably has some bastard kids, possibly half black, and she doesnt look nearly as good as she does now. older and fatter and uglier. and has been with way more men and has certainly gotten crazier. yeah sign me up for that.

women need their fathers to help them pick a good man.

htt   ps://radio.therightstuff.biz/2016/03/02/the-fatherland-episode-16-car-talk/

see this episode of the fatherland hahaha. also good talk on women “settling.” because they overestimate their own declining value and are holding out for “mr big”, or their ((((soulmate)))), or a guy who gives them more “tingles” hehehe while totally dumping good beeta provider good father types. their father would say, i dont care that this guy is not an exciting badboy, hes a good man, and i should know, marry him and have some kids and in a few years youll thank me. YOURE WELCOME. dont ride the carousel like a slut.

anyway. not much left to say about it hahahaha. as time passes its obvious that she was the bad guy and was being super UNFAIR to me. she was being more unfair to me than i was being to her. i didnt EXPECT her to luv luv me. I just EXPECTED her to not avoid me, and to Talk to me about ending our Rel. That is not unfair at all! its fair AF!!!!

meanwhile she cuts me off and lets me fall off the cliff while flailing my arms. lets me drown while i flail my arms when she could have thrown me a life preserver. just turns her back and walks away on somebody that was important in her life.

shit yeah its very disorienting. turns your world upside down. how she could be so nice and kind and loving when we were Just Friends, but treat me COMPLETELY differently when i started showing her some Interest.

well she would say I was treating HER completely differently. kind of, yes, ok fine. but it was in a positive and open way, hers was in a closed and negative way. how is it so hard to say Aw Im Sorry?

Even if she was too Overwhelmed to say it, why not just signal it? signal warmth and kindness to me rather than coldness and hatred?

mixed in with mixed messages like “you are a good friend” and “yes of course well hang out soon” and “i miss you too.” i took those as signals of warmth.

but yeah she was overwhelmed and Just COuldnt. I Cant Even. that’s all it was. something so simple, but had such devastating consequences.

just give me a little recognition that this is TUFF for me.

understand this is not the best way to exit a rel. that there is a better, more mature, less hurtful way of doing it.

show me just a LITTLE kindness. the fact that we had a REAL friendship kinda DOES “entitle” me to that. you arent some random slut to me and im not some random chad to you. respect that we were once important to each other. respect the long term relship. respect me as a person. just because i changed towards you doesnt mean i stopped respecting you as a person. i never wanted to hurt you. i wish you had shown ANY effort in not wanting to hurt ME. any effort at all. cuz whether you WANTED to or not, you still hurt me. at least give some sign that you dont MEAN to hurt me. give me SOMETHING, ANYTHING.

recognize that its HARD to LOSE someone whos IMPORTANT to you. damn. it doesnt matter that you were more important to me than i was to you. i used to be important to you! you changing how important you find me does not absolve you of the responsibilities of treating me like a human being with a heart and soul and feeeeelings!

anyway i am just concerned with how to learn things FAST. learn complicated confusing things FAST and then multitask them while explaining them. without having to ask for help. without getting flustered. and withstanding this all day every day.  how to fake confidence.

well i would say fake confidence with a slow yet not monotone voice; by bullshitting and always covering your ass; and using flashcards to memorize facts fast, even if they dont mean anything to you yet.

yes but HOW do yu bullshit and cover your ass effectively?

how do you maintain your sexual morality when no women are sexually moral? how do you treat sex as special and sacred when all women are promiscuous whores who treat sex like recreational hedonism?

in other words, how do you turn a degen woman into a nondegen? how do you live with degen women when you are trying to be nondegen?

taking into account that All Women prefer Experienced and Confident men…..

well what about tim tebow? he made a big deal about wanting to stay a virgin till marriage but because he was a secsy pro sportsball aflete, cute young gurls were literally throwing themselves at him, would have no problem marrying him.

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because i cant archive TRS forum posts cuz you have to be logged in hahaha

so technically i am breaking their OPSEC well i am sorry goys

a 16 year old virgin boy on TRS was asking the valid question, should i just bang some random slut now, or wait for somebody i truly like. we all know what the nondegenerate choice is, but… he worries about being a 30 year old virgin hahahahahaha. i am not a 30 year old virgin but kinda close to it. i am older than 30 and i have only have secs with 1 gurl, 2 times. it is not easy for manlet beetas to get secs. so i would say, just TRY it, make sure you are Protected, and if you dont really like it, THEN wait for somebody you actually like instead of some random dirty skank who gives it to everybody. which is what all women really are anyway hahahahahaha sort of kidding.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/pornography-to-abstain-how/10412/15

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The problem is deeper than blocking access. The problem is the desire to see it. We are proud white people who believe life is sacred, including the reproductive act. Now that’s not to say we don’t occasionally have a moment of weakness or confusion, but something that we know is wrong should not be a regular part of our life. The question I ask when I’m tempted is “Why do I want to see this when I know it’s wrong?” Those who control our culture make it a point of pride to give in to every base urge. Pornography trains us to do this by appealing to the most powerful urge of all. By fighting this temptation, you’re defeating the enemy’s most potent weapon and strengthening your own constitution, becoming a better, stronger man. The more you reflect on this, the less you will be tempted, and the freer you will become. The desire itself will actually go away. At least, it did for me. Hope this is helpful.

That’s right. Just remember. The j wants you watching porn and idly fapping away at degenerate sexual acts. They want your brain seared with disgusting imagery so you can not have healthy loving relationships with the opposite sex. Remember it is as much a weapon as a gun or a vial of poison. It is literally turning you into a depraved human being that is wasting time you should be spending on improving your self and mingling with real life females.

It’s so disgusting to see the way males in public (even whites these days) ogle women and their body parts like they are pieces of meat. It’s obviously because they stare at porn for hours on end. You expect it from negros and beaners but come on white man. Have some respect and have some chivalry.

That’s another good point about ogling and objectifying. I’ve had grown men I work with showing pictures of the wives and girlfriends body parts on their phones. They stick it in my face and say “Check this out!” I sez “Man, I’m 37 years old!” “Yeah so?” “So is it really still that exciting?!”

Yeah we all found porno magazine here and there growing and were captivated to some degree. But then I figured we grew up. We got white males, fully grown, running around showing each other “boobies” like teenagers.

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Daily Stormer i havent read their board that much but i totally respect them and Andrew Anglin, who is even shorter than me hahahaha. I dont care if he banged an asian gurl once [not entirely proven, just pictures of him with asian gurls] and I believe he deserves a good white wife and white children. i would like to see him more on TRS but he is busy with his own thing. But I totally support DS, i just read TRS moar. and by read i mean i listen to the fatherland, the shoah, and read the forum. I would send DS dnations if i had a real income. and of course TRS, probably mill woes, that nationalist woman in sweden with 8 white kids whos husband was arrested for hate speech, the white farmers in south africa, etc.

high school kid says its so easy to get secs when you are young, you just text a slut dtf and she says ok. and you are banging a 17 year old gurl!!!!!! course this is coming from the tall handsome confident 17 year old boy hahahaha.

well i am glad i banged a gurl before age 25. because thats when your brain gets locked in. so if i can get a gurl to do recreational reproduction with me before 25, i have some kind of game locked in, and i should be able to get Action AFTER 25. i just havent yet hahahaha.

now if you are SO autistic you cant get laid by 25, then thats hopeless. i guess get a hooker at age 24, but thats not gonna teach you much about Game and Talking To Gurls. Well I guess if you got GFE hookers where you talk to the hooker before the secs.

well its ALL fookin degenerate. Porno, and also Game PUA. it was TERRIBLE that i went though BOTH phases because that is the most j00ified, degen regression ever. PUA is basically taking a pornographic approach to life and finding the most pornified degen crazy bitches.

INSULT TO INJURY / IF U HAVE TO ASK FOR RESPECT, YR DONE / NO SUCH THING AS A FEMALE NEET

0205

shit. definitely have some sort of cold or flu. warm and feverish; occasional cold sweats; feeling of being run over by a truck or a Piece of Garbage hhahaha. mind was RACING last night until 4 am, took some nyquil around 2 am. took more nyquil at 12 pm then went back to bed, avoiding coffee. think i drank too much coffee yesterday. weak wobbly legs. burning eyes. dont even have the energy to look at the internet. yet i said i would meet up with a friend, becuase it seems the right thing to do, plus i am horrible about initiating contact with him. hes no angel though, i have my reasons, namely him having a ridiculous, super disappointing Drinking Problem that will totally ruin his life, marriage, family, friends, relships. but i am too pussy to give him an ultimatum because i dont like ignoring and avoiding people when they reach out to me, or especially i dont want to TTALAPOG. there has been good times and bad times and you just dont do that to people youve known for almost 20 years. they can disappoint you sure, but you arent gonna TTALAPOG unless they SEVERELY BETRAY you, and you cant even imagine what that would entail. bang your gf hahahaha. ive never had a gf he could bang plus he respects me enough to never do that and god forbid i even get a gf that would cheat on me with my long time friends!

i was watching dr phil. he had a lot of great shit to say. i pretty much luv dr phil even if his show is Slippery Schlomo’s Lies. using a Big Goy 4 U as its handsome face.

today they had a white trash mother who had 5 children by 5 different men. WHATS WRONG WITH THAT? AS LONG AS IT WAS CONSENSUAL! SHE CAN DO WHATEVER SHE WANTS WITHOUT JUDGMENT!!!! the mothers mother was taking care of these neglected kids and it was a train wreck. i dont know know if all the children are white, but the 11 year old boy they talked to had a white arm hahahaha.  and it was tragic!!!! total white trash mother!

and another episode about Controlling Husbands. one guy had some good points about about the show selectively showing a doctored picture of their home. hmm standing up to schlomo i said, not bad goy. BUT within minutes it became clear he was Unhinged and was HIGHLY neurotic and not normal. paranoid, obsessive, compulsive, high tension, suspicious, on the edge, very keyed up and anxious and hyper, like he was having a nervous breakdown. i know that feel hahahaha. he tried to reduce his internal anxiety by controlling his wife, but it didnt work. he had to learn to SELF SOOTHE. similar story with the other husband on the show. he was CLEARLY anxious and derpressed about being out of work for YEARS on injury, so he tried to fix his anxiety by controlling his wife.

i thought, WOW, these women PUT UP WITH A LOT. I would have been DUMPED in a NEW YORK SECOND acting like that, not put up with it for YEARS. NOW, these were postwall women in their 40s, certainly not beautiful or anything, but still. they deserve respect too hahahahaha.

WILL YOU TRY THIS POGAM FOR 90 DAYS? dr phil says. and they get so hopeful and jiggle their Bingo Wings when the man says ok yeah i guess if its the only way to keep her from walking.

i was like SHIT. if i asked a woman to do a 90 day program to work on our rel, she would say fook you, 90 days, tahts way too much, thats 3 months! I could find 10 guys that are better than you in every way in that time! See ya!

in other words, these wives were very WILLING and LOVING and LOYAL to STAND BY their men during very bad times. and to fix problems that were 10 times worse than the problems Me and Her had.

also: what IF she is the type of gurl who thinks EVERYTHING IS ABUSE? some people thing everything is abuse, when its really not, its just normal pain or angst or conflict or struggle. its not abuse.

and then if the woman is really comitted to the man, she will stay with him even IF there is REAL abuse!

anyway….do i want to be with a woman who FALSELY ACCUSES me of ABUSE? she’s the type of crazy b who might do a FALSE RAEP ACCUSATION and ruin a mans life with a LIE!!!!! now THATS a horrible betrayal!

how many nervous breakdowns does a person have in their life hahahaha. how often shoud you have them.  i had one in 2001 and then again in 2015.

since then i had quit a lot of bad habits that led to my first “breakdown,” namely alcohol and MJ. but i am still lazy and anxious.

very hard to be PRODUCTIVE.

its like i cant even HANDLE a REgualr BIg boy job, it puts me on the verge of a nervous breakdown and then i have it, and the job and or the rel does not last hahaha.

i am CERTAIN that smoking a LOT of mj before age 25 make me a generally more anxious and despairing person. heavy MJ use increases anxierty AND despair even after you quit. it probably even changes you damn brain permanantly for the worse in those ways.

yet i thougt i knew it all, i believed the degeneracy that said the Herbal Joo is just Mind Expanding MEDICINE to help you RELAX and CHILL OUT.  so why do you get high anxiety and dread and guilt when you partake? then why are you more anxious afterwards, when its out of your system?

i ALWAYS had high anxiety and guilt and shame so its hard to say if i got worse.

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0206

one of russell crowes great grandmothers is maori. this makes russell crowe an OCTAROON!!!!! he is essentially 12.5% BLACK!  welp i never would have guessed. lesson: you can be “only” 87.5% white and basically be as good as 100% white in my book hahaha.

this is all because i am watching a beautiful mind on tv which is a decent movie and russell crowe is a decent actor.

heh. i would rather have paranoid schizo and be a successful respected phd mathematician, than have basic bitch anxiety, despair, and maybe one day bipolar, and be a huge frickin loser hahahaha. i mean he just got obsessed and got so good at superhard maths that that was his ticket to success. and top skools and gummint agencies came looking for him to give him well paid work. so he saw a few hallucinations. big deal. small price to pay. and an attractive white wife. though i dont trust that whore jennifer connelly hahahahaha. think she ever cheated on a bf or husbando?

and here i am confusing fiction with reality hahahaha. degenerate actors playing highly fictionalized versions of real people who are probably not as degenerate and certainly not nearly as good-looking.

Why Good People Ghost: The Rise Of A Dishonest Dating Culture

this person is a degenerate even as they start to recognize the degeneracy in the “current dating culture.” i guess its not bad enough to keep them from having Casual Sex with multiple people at the same time, just cuz thats NORMAL now.

heh. i couldnt sleep and thought my best hope would be maybe when i am 40 i could find like a 34 year old single mom with 2 kids already and then i might be able to convince her to have a child with me. but having two children with her would be rough. but her preexisting kids would not respect me and then they would prob also bully My child because its not their full sibling and its part of me, who they dont like. and if im not strong enough to overcome those influences, then my child will grow up to be a white trash loser. either a drug addict scumbag, or a neet virgin unable to mate with white girls.

yeah i dont like the word “ghosting.” there is the implication that you are “dating”, and only for a short time, and also that everything SEEMS to be going well.

here we were friends, for a long time, and it was clear things werent going well, and she just avoided and ignored and did silent treatment and no respond. “ghosting” doesnt quite describe it fully.

i hate when you cant pass a caller onto someone more knowledgable, so you have to essentially figure their shit out ON THE SPOT. in the space of several minutes, you have to go from not knowing to knowing, and explain it to them.

or lets say you have angry clients who are demanding a discount because you got the order wrong, or late, or damaged. then you say sorry about that, well get a replacement out in 30 to 60 days, no discounts, sorry, and you can get away with that because you are kind of a monopoly. you know your clients arent gonna find some other company who can do it for cheaper in a …… 3 state radius i dunno.

or they WANT an explanation but you cant give them an explanation because an explanation is really SUPERFLUOUS. they dont really NEED it, plus it costs MONEY to come up with one, so, its better for the company to not give an explanation.

i just hate looking stupid and unprofessional and then get angry at the company for saying this is ok.

nope i cant transfer you to a higher up. I cant even talk to the higher ups!

no one has time to confirm if youre doing your job right, only that youre meeting whatever stupid quality metrics. but as far as doing the actual technical procedures correctly….that is NOT measured. it would be impossible to measure other than having a higher up sit with you for at leat 8 hours and watch all the technical stuff you do. and its LAUGHABLE to suggest that a higher up should do this. they all have their OWN case loads, the stuff tier 1 couldnt figure out. they dont have TIME to TRAIN tier 1!!!!! NOBODY has time to train tier 1!!!!!!

i like to take pride in my work, and not Pass The Buck like a black, or try to Scam like a Schlomo. I want to treat people honestly and fairly and give them Good Service.

now when i say pass the buck, i mean transfering them before youve even attempted to solve the problem. However I think if you’ve been bashing your brains out for an hour trying to solve the problem and its clear that youre just doing trial and error, then you should be able to transfer it to someone else.

its like going to a math tutor for calculus 4, but that tutor has never taken calculus 4, let alone passed it with an A or a B. YOU have taken more calculus 4 than your tutor. So the tutor breaks out the same textbook you have, says WELP lets look at the old manual, then maybe checks a few OTHER textbooks, then checks google, and says WELP a lot, then finally WELP i THINK i might have gotten it, then gives you an answer that might be wrong, but neither he nor you can PROVE its wrong, then a week later you get your homework back and the instructor has put a big X on it, indicating that its wrong, but no indication WHY, so then you have to go back to the same stupid tutor again.

or when 3 or more departments bounce you back and forth because “we dont handle that, this other department does”………and some of the people who say that are correct….but at least one person is bullshitting. yes, your department DOES handle it. but they are too untrained or they dont have a knowledgable person available to ask, “hey does our department handle this?” so the fookin new guy just “errs on the side of caution” to get the person off the phone. becuase HE cant get better advice from anyone in HIS area.

i hate this kind of shit. its like the lunatics running the asylum. or a bunch of black warlords making up the rules as they go along. you see this kind of CHAOS and you wonder how the company can stay in business WITHOUT scamming people!!!!!!!!

no accountability. that kind of stuff bothers me. i dont mind being held accountable for my work as long as i can get reliable answers from my higher ups. tell me WHY this is happening so i can have an EXPLANATION for them. give me some kind of ETA, even a rough ESTIMATE.

or lets say you are at home depot and theres a tornado. some of the employees tell the customers to stand in the middle of the store. other employees try to corral the customers into like a warehouse or soemthing. other employees scream run outside! get out of the building as fast as you can!

and whats amazingly clear is that these employees have not been trained on tornado procedures.

shit like that just looks really really bad imho!

but at least now i understand WHY it happens. because its a COST.

maybe the training was reduced to a computer module or a something the employee has to sign off on. but because they are pressured to do the training module after they punch out, they go through it as fast as possible, click click click click without reading it, because theyre not getting paid for this, and they want to get home and smoke MJ hahahaha or work on their masters degree or pick their kids up from indoctrination and shove some macdonalds in their face.

so you have to be good at bullshitting and nobody teaches you how to bullshit, there are not even good articles on the INTERNET teaching you how to bullshit. its like its some kinda big SECRET.

i would say its about telling pretty lies, but lies you cant get caught it, and always trying to cover your ass, and telling them what they want to hear, but not making promises, while trying to keep their hopes up, and when in doubt, throw your higher ups under the bus (“i really went to bat for you sir, but those bastards higher up the food chain just arent gonna play ball, it is what it is”) AND realize what you can and cannot get away with, what corners you can and cannot cut.

SEE? this is fooking HORRIBLE! as an honest white person, i just want to do an honest job and not have to bullshit and cut corners, but also not look stupid or unprofessional. damn.

like shouldnt you acting like an untrained idiot reflect poorly on YOUR manager? yes it SHOULD, but it DOESNT if nobody can get AHOLD of your manager! that you would get WRITTEN UP if you gave your managers phone number to someone! shit you dont even know how to transer a caller to your managers VOICE MAIL, and neither do any of the people around you. so you just freak out and transfer the caller to the main line, and hope you dont get them again when your call ends.

and you yourself learned to be unaccountable because…..no one was accountable to you, they werent accountable for their work, why should YOU be accountable for your work? especially if you dont really know what youre doing? you can always claim ignorance! because everyone was ignorant in some ways!

basically you just DO shit until you got in trouble for it, then said oh im sorry i didnt know that was a thing. i dont do it again!

so yeah it should reflect poorly on your manager…….if your clients/customers could ever talk to your manager! managers dont have to take calls because THEY DONT WANT TO! you can tell the person whos complaining about you, that you will pass along their complaint to a manager, who will call them back if they want, but no promises.

WRONG ANSWER. i demand to speak to a manager.

really the best think you CAN do is change your voice and pretend to be a manager, or have your neighbor do it, but they probably wont have time.

0207

it was difficult to get used to the work but even more difficult to get used to the NATURE of the work. namely, an Inbound Tier 1 Call Center where you didnt have much freedom or autonomy to call someone back; you couldnt Have Someone Else call Them Back with an answer; you didnt have an Explanation or an Estimated Time for anything; you seemed poorly prepared because you WERE poorly prepared, unless you were crazy obsessed like me and went home after a long stupid day and went right back into the shit and STUDIED it on your free time!

come home, eat dinner, get blazed on the herbal j00, listen to some Bach or Beethoven or Religious Chanting, get on to company intranet and read your case notes and knowledge base and work email and shit. damn.

i liked being able to immerse myself in the stuff in a peaceful environment, with no phones ringing and nobody demanding answers now, and i could just study and understand and practice shit, and yeah i think the herbal j00 was helpful there in “defragmenting” my mind after a long day. though maybe it wasnt NECESSARY. but at that point i really enjoyed it and had no desire to stahp. i looked forward to it at the end of a tuff day. if i couldnt be with muh female friend and cuddle with her and yes i would secs her up as well, cuz theres nothing women hate more than a pussy sensitive man who likes cuddling but is nervous about fooking. so i would just get blazed and occasionally text her and she would text back and i would get my fix that way.

so its her fault for giving me my fix?

NO….but it did give me false hope that we would Hang Out Someday. Because Friendly Texting implies that Yes, We Will Hang Out Again Someday, not I Am Going To TUALAPOG / Abort / BTFO you.

in other words, she could have started avoiding/ignoring/blocking me THEN!! instead of responding to texts.

i dunno. you dont have to like someone back, to care about them and their lives, especially when you used to have a long term friendship. you used to be important to them and now you are not important at ALL. still i dont think thats a REASON to throw anyone away LAPOG. you say, welp i have lost interest in them, but they are still a decent human being, and we once had a good friendship, so, it would be WRONG to TTALAPOG, so im just gonna talk to them and tell them im done lol.

but nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. hahahahaha.

anyway. basically if someone wants an explanation and your higher ups dont have one and you cant figure it out, just tell them, im sorry, but there just is no explanation for this. and if they continue to push, tell them you’ll look into it and contact then yourself within 72 hours. and then go home and reserach the issue during your free time and email them then. or just blow them off and hope they forget it hahahahaha.

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they have a PERFECT relship except for the SECS, he has a bad habit of losing his Erection, and he is afraid she will dump him because he’s not improving quickly enough, even though their rel is prefect in every other way. just that hes not improving FAST enough for her liking. he knows if she dumps him he will be devastated, and i fully believe him! not really any good responses so far. i am tempted to say: if this is such a good rel, she would GIVE YOU A CHANCE.

like it should take 90 days to notice any kind of change but theyve only been “Dating” a “Few WEEKS.” and this slut is annoyed the SECS isnt as nonawkward as she thinks it should be. after a few weeks. and shes 18 and has been with a lot of guys. do you think she is gonna give him a chance for 90 days? fook no, she’s gonna dump him, and he’s gonna be devastated. he is already worried that the emotional devastation will affect his school performance. and yes it probably will. and this will then affect his career for the rest of his LIFE hahahahaha. he will get a worse GPA, not be able to get certain jobs, not be able to go to certain grad skools. fook no a 19 year old young man is not ready for this, i dont think you CAN be at that age.

this is why women should not go to college hahahaha. honestly they shouldnt hahahaha. they just become sluts anyway.  like this gurl. 18 years old and already ruined for life. and this young mans risking his entire life on a fickle, impatient 18 year old slut. what a shame.

heh i actually replied on reddit. my first reply hahahahahaha.

basically i told him she needs to be more understanding and give him time and not hang the threat of dumping him over his head. like THATS gonna help him perform better. plus this is the FIRST gurl he has ever been with. he is just getting used to secs. come on. give the guy a CHANCE. and if they are so GOOD, they will be able to communicate about this and work through it, rather than her saying “fix yourself FAST.” i said, how would YOU treat HER if SHE was the one with the secsual problem? you would prob bend over backwards to support her. is she doing that for you?

would you treat her like she is treating you now? prob NOT!

would I treat my female former friend the way she treated me? ABSOLUTELY NOT. OH GOD. I WOULD NEVER TREAT SOMEBODY LIKE THAT. TTALAPOG. NEVER.

oh noes, the TRS forum has been SHOAHED because of the troll raids on kristen howerton on twitter, the swpl therapist mommy blogger who brags about her two adopted black boys and has Creepy Suggestive pictures of them with her White Biological Daughters. and the husband is of course a family therapist and very cucky. so some TRS people and i assume general twitter shitlords jumped on and tried to shame the woman. there was a big trs thread which probably should have been not public hahahaha.  kind of suprising a mod did not move the thread to the private section, but the mods work and have lives, unlike the neets like me who read the forum all day.

i certainly did not TWEET anything, but i did like a bunch of posts in the trs thread hahahaha. maybe i will get banned from the forum.

i didnt think the harrassment was too bad, considering she was putting all these pictures out there publicly. and the trolls were just photoshopping in buckets of kfc or that sort of thing hahahaha.

http://parenting.blogs.nytimes.com/2016/02/05/when-a-public-family-is-publicly-attacked/?_r=0

wow the ny slimes actually had an article about it. whoa

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interview with a 58 year old virgin

https://archive.is/Z8cr9

ridiculous 8ch thread on male virgins wow how long can it get

http://archive.is/wlDVg

make women great again, women are degen crap, they need better role models hahahaha

i went on pol because trs got shut down and figured 8pol would be good place to go

0208

heh. weighed in at 159 pounds in the morning pre coffee, post morning Micturation hahahaha, in which you can easily get rid of like 1 lb of Water Weight. so this means my first goal is reached, hooray, i am no longer “overweight.” but on the very high end of normal. consumed less than 1200 calories yesterday and myfitnesspal told me this was not recommended, i am not eating enough, and will not show me my projected 5 week weight until i consumed 1200 calories hehehehe.

now you could consume 1300 calories and burn 1000 calories at the gym, it wont complain about that.

but i have been Ill with a fever or cold or something and have not been eating much or exercising, dont want to go to gym when sick. seem to be getting better tho.

now just gotta lose 19 more pounds hahahahahaha.

make it a goal to lose 14.88% of your body weight.

its not gonna help you get women unless youre tall, but it will help you get healthier and feel more confidence when you look at your no longer so fat body. might make it easier to get jobs and keep people from Bullying you at Work hahahahahahahahaha. Whose bullied more, fat people or nonfat people? i mean skinny nerds get bullied all the time. but so do fat losers.

i watched “married at first sight” and all the women suck. i mean the men arent great either, but theyre better than the women. its a common thing where the man will want to communicate, lets communicate and put an effort into solving this problem, but the woman would rather shut down, run away, not communicate, be mad, throw a tantrum, and the guy is understandably frustrated: he wants to fix this, and she is not willing in the least. how about a litle cooperation and willingness. nope.

so i say a good thing is to give them a spanking and then hopefully they respect you again.

its just a real shitty situation when the woman stops respecting you. you cant then go to her and beg plleeeeeaaasseeee respect me, ill do anything you want, what do i have to do for you to respect me? answer: nothing. its impossible. if you have to ask, you;ll NEVER get respect.

and when you see your beloved turning away from you, drifting away from you, you get scared and desperate and its real hard to stand up and be the hard man which is the only way youll get respect back!

heh. how do i get respect from my male friends. just by being myself, being a decent person. not brain surgery.

but this is NOT enough if you want to get respect from women. you gotta be a tough guy and a hardass too hahahaha. yeah well i dont respect women cuz they are sluts and mudsharks and too damn promiscuous! goes both ways bitches hahahahaha.

the disrespect was just a double whammy on top of the rejection though. insult to injury. you can injure me but please dont insult me on top of it. i really didnt deserve that. other sluts gave me more respect when they dumped me hahaha why couldnt you.

i dunno. i just hate getting disrespected. if i did something wrong i am usually the first to feel ashamed about it. even moreso than other people. so to get disrespect from them for a total overreaction, misjudgment, mistake, misunderstanding, is fooking infuriating.

but you cant make somebody respect you. or stop disrespecting you.

google gf doesnt respect me

hhehehehe the mainstream and womens media makes it look like this never happens. but it obviously happens a lot. men everywhere are being disrespected by women.

whose fault is it? the men for being shitty little pussies? or the women for gradually coming to take their men for granted? i mean they knew what they were getting into!

a guy like me will take all the responsibility and blame: well she doesnt respect me any more, it MUST have been something i DID, now let me fight to WIN BACK her respect.

when yeah i WAS being more of a pussy and women HATE and disrespect that……but i also think it can be a conscious choice too. like, i once respected this person, what did they REALLY DO to cause my respect to decrease?

is there really a good reason to disrespect this person or am i just overreacting?

i dunno. its just so stupid that women can be so childish and immature and wrong and they never have to answer for it. is that part of their natural Privileges from having the uterus? maybe. that they are shielded from any consequences of their immaturity. that may well hurt men, but doesnt hurt the women in the least.

i dunno. maybe. therefore  im not allowed to be upset.

well, i AM allowed to be upset, i was the one wrongly disrespected!

i just wish she face some damn KARMA for this. JUSTICE hahahahaha. justice for me hahahahaha. what goes around comes around. but when it comes to women being immature…..what goes around doesnt always come back around. they just keep being stupid idiots until they have at least 2 kids. women need at least 2 kids before they stop being children themselves. till then they can go around treating people like shit.

hell no its not right, and thats why mothers and fathers would raise their daughters not to treat people like shit!

just make a damn effort to not break hearts in the most devastating way possible. and this was someone i knew and trusted, who treated me badly. just a total mindfook but i am slowly become numb to it, which is really the best and only solution here, because there wont be any REAL closure.

closure ultimately comes from within, but SOME closure CAN come from the other person. they CAN help you in the process. indeed, that is the decent thing to do. help the person you’re dumping and heartbreaking, to get started on the path to closure. give them a little bit to start them off.

anyway i have been taking nyquil every night for about 5 nights so, that kinda numbs the mind as well. feeling better so want to get off that. just try the dayquil today.

but yeah dr phil would be a great independent tribunal, an arbiter if you will. i would bring her on and we would present our cases and dr phil would say ya know sweetie, you’re just acting like a spoiled child here, he deserves better treatment. we at the dr phil show side with him. now go apologize to him and ask him for forgiveness. also consider dating him too. a white man who actually cares about you and would fight to make things work with you.

http://archive.is/53KA7

daily reminder to find a good wife, how to do so amidst the sea of degen whores hahahaha

http://shrink4men.com/2011/04/18/are-you-an-abused-man-three-questions/

QUOTE  “My wife thinks I’m being abusive and controlling when I tell her her behavior is hurtful.” END

yeah that sucks. when a woman accuses YOU of being abusive when you are just trying to communicate and or stand up for yourself, and she gets all upset, and you think…….wait……maybe i AM really abusing her!

but youre not!

0209

im not asking to never be disappointed. just that you attempt to show a little human decency and common courtesy when disappointing me, try not to add insult to injury. show a SHRED of kindness. dont be the worst person you can be. dont COMPLETELY BTFO people you have known for YEARS without a single word.

plus it makes me feel even worse for liking her. like i never thought i could like someone again, and i took a leap of faith and opened muh heart miraculously, took a chance, decide someone is important enough to you to make sacrifices for, have chirren with…….and then they TUALAPOG. and you were thinking about spending your LIFE with them and having CHIRREN with them.

makes you think holy shit how could i be so WRONG about this person?

i thought I KNEW them!

hey i was no angel. i was not perfect. my communication skills left a lot to be desired. but the right thing to do when your real actual literal friend gets feelings for you is to say IM SORRY BUT I DONT HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU hehehe.

yeah its always complicated though, its never really a good situation.

why didnt I just TAKE THE HINT and stop pressing the issue? and just move on?

well because i was desperately hoping we would hang out at SOME point, and this was a person i USED to hang out with. its not like i NEVER hung otu with her. for a long time we would hang out semi regularly. and that sets a tone and expectation of semi regular hanging out.

shit yeah it would be a LOT DIFFERENT if i NEVER hung out with her ever. but thats not the case.

like for example when you know EARLY ON you are interested in the gurl, before you even really hang out with her.

but yeah its just weird when you already have an established thing, are already friends, have a history of hanging out, also they have some legit good reasons for space, you try to give it to them.

i dunno. yeah i guess i coulda just taken the hint, but this shit was different, because we had something already, we were already friends, we already hung out, that i think sets some expectations and such. i was WAY closer and friendlier with woman2015 than i was with woman2012. woman2o12 we were just friendly acquaintances. w2015, we were full blown friends. no doubt about it. that makes a big difference.

yeah i KNOW that by getting feelings I single handedly CHANGED the relationship without her consent. but i was trying to get her consent, or her input, or whatever.  you dont have to like me back but please be gentle when you break my heart, please make an attempt not to add insult to injury. how hard is this. say thanks for the good times and i wish you well. thts all.

im not entitled to anything, i just think because we had a 2-3 year friendship, that i had a reasonable expectation to a SHRED of mercy and kindness and courtesy and respect, thats all, nothing more, nothing less.

anyway. really gotta get over this. i have become a total neet loser. and she is a winner making tons of money and tons of white knights fawning over her, but she will prob screw it up by getting knocked up by a badboy and being too stupid to use a rubber, oh they feel weird, oh im just too stupid, and who cares about the stds from these sleazebags, im a sleazebag too. but shes not a neet loser hahahaha.

are there any female neets? i dont think so! they simply dont exist! and yeah thats a biological privilege i am not arguing with. i am not REALLY butthurt about that hahahaha.

i just wish women were kinder and more respectful to men. to ME hahahahaha. theres no biological reason they cant be more respectful to me hahahaha.

come on. doesnt matter if i “revoked our friendship on the spot”. i claim i didnt. if you claim i did, burden of proof is on you to prove why.