FOLKISH WORLD CONCEPT

june 11 17

BEAUTIFUL day, 90 degrees, sunny, its a sunday so i can walk around the neighborhood in the afternoon without looking like a jobless bum neet. tried to get some sun. vitamin d.

went to grocery store on a sunday which usu dont like to do. but it was a good people watching thing today. saw some white trash sluts that i wouldnt mind banging. some 25 year old white trash slut with stupid tattoos all over her arms and a 6.8 at best hehehe. right in my wheelhouse hahaha. also saw a woman i thought was that woman but thankfully was not.

wow be perfect day to go to park with a special woman but i do not have any of those hahahaha. so i SHOULD go to the park myself and just enjoy it, but i never do.

well at least i can push myself to go walking outside hehe. listen to MK. finally got into Volume 2, over halfway through, and here its harder to find audio files. i think the english guy reading this might actually be sven longshanks. known pro-white guy and also a huge christian so the intolerant k1ke on a stick people hate him.

azzmador at the houston rally yesterday (june 10). the lefts line was that the rumor about the state taking down the sam houston statue was just “FAKE NEWS” which got the racists panties all in a bunch. who cares.

i think azz did some Time in the Pen and he has a somewhat questionable somewhat racist tattoo on his hand that suggests he was possibly in with old school Criminal Racist Gangs, and this of course is NOT the image we want to give…..but he is not COVERED in tattoos and he is a great speaker AND he is open to new ideas IE he is backing the Strong Horse Andrew Anglin. which IMHO is the best thing a 50 year old VVN 1.0 can do right now.

i have that same daily stormer shirt as well HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

the vanguard guys have a great dress code. i like the white polo shirts with khaki pants. that is a good look. wish they didnt have to hide their faces, but its also a good sign in that it means they might be gainfully-employed winners in life.

i mean you can’t wear a SUIT on a hot day in texas.

plain white polo shirt and khaki pants seems to be a great choice however.

this SONG is ILLEGAL in germany. SAD!!!

maybe wear a plain white cloth covering your face and sunglasses. i mean you cant look like K3 wearing hwyte hoods. you have to look like a NORMIE so that normies want to join you. like hister said, you gotta have the masses. white normies.

the nsdap started really taking off in 1920 when hister gave a speech to 2000 people at the munich hofbrauhaus banquet hall. 2000 people out of a population of 700K i think munich had. ok. 666K.  so that is .3% of the city. that is really quite a huge number. you could never get 2K people at a pro-hwyte rally in a city of 666K in 2017.

munich seems nice, wouldnt mind going there. munchen.

https://pastebin.com/gxVfqZwd

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https://archive.is/d5gXP

from 8pol march 2017

the jooish gully hehehehe

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maybe i should get back to 8chan hahahaha. thatsa spicy copypasta!

we need people who are successful AND young. most people in that group are middle class nytimes readers. wapo readers. huffpo, daily show, hillary or bernie voters, think civic nationalism is racist, want to dismantle systemic racism etc, make 50k at age 22, live downtown and ride bikes to their corporate or nonprofit cool career, hook up on the coch carousel. we need to get these young men into the VVN Movement. not neet losers like me! and i think we are getting more of these Cool, Young, Sexy Winners in The MOvement than ever before. but we still need more.

i mean shit. we need any healthy young white man, whether they make 50k a year with a college degree, or 30k a year as a working class slave. so long as they are not into opioids or drugs or alcohol or degeneracy or porn. i worry that the working class is very susceptible to many kinds of degeneracy. well, so are the middle class.

i really dont know many people, let alone young people, so i cant really say what they are. i dont know many people period.

heh. i never used to be Political. everyone else always used to be more political than me. usually HUGE marxists.

anyway.

my point is, all the people i know that went to college and became successful are also Standard NYTimes reading SJW’s who are ashamed of white racism and always bending over backwards to show how not racist they are and to signal against boorish white racists.

and they will NEVER change or be “redpilled” because they are already past 25 years old AND they are SUCCESSFUL. and when you are SUCCESSFUL you see no need that it might need to change. shit youre an antiwhite nytimes reader and now you make 50k at age 25, so you must be doing something right! you must have a correct WORLD CONCEPT!

so yeah we must influence them well before age 25. like age 18 or so.

have an 18 year old hardcore 1433’er, who then goes on to be successful making 50k a year at age 25, so HE feels vindicated in his own 1433 World Concept. Folkish World Concept hahahaha.

i mean i cant sell the FWC to anyone because i myself am a huge loser. well, i was a huge loser when i was a jooish marxist too. but THANK GOD i reevaluated my world concept and said, you know, this is FOOKING PATHETIC. if im gonna be a huge loser, i might as well not have a Political World Concept that is equally pathetic!

so i made the right decision there. unfort it hasnt made me much less of a loser. it has been a small improvement though, hahahaha.

just saying though. a 33 year old loser is not going to INFLUENCE young kids. unless those kids are Wayward AF and are looking for ANY older adult to influence them. in which case, yeah, i guess i would be happy to steer them the right way, and be glad i got to them FIRST, because they would have just as easily been influenced by a Degenerate or negro or joo or marxist or druggie.

june 12

semi interesting dream. i was in a house with a bunch of college people. i was getting semi-“intimate” with a gurl in the house who i think was jooish, and certainly a slut. i enjoyed cuddling and making out with her and not sure if i banged her. i should have. and her lavishing attention and praise on me and saying i was so cool and interesting and sexy and fun and awesome.

then i wanted to spend more time with her, started to Get Feelings, then she turned off, completely went cold and withdrew and refused to hang out with me, ignored me and was totally annoyed with me.

i was angry and hurt and my female friends gave me the same “advice” that the jooish slut was telling me: it’s just a casual hookup, its just secs, don’t get feelings, its not a real relship, you’re not dating. it’s just secs, it’s immature to get feelings so quickly.

and i was like, its shitty and jooish and slutty to have SECS so quickly then!

and i came across as the bad creepy omega male, and the women were just like, this is the way real life is, either accept it or be a creeper who doesnt get any. this is how women are.

so that was interesting hehehe. this is the way women ARE. have secs FAST and DONT get feelings are the two key takeaways hahahaha.

ok fine.

https://risingsuncoffeeco.com/front/coffeeshop/index.php?id_cms=4&controller=cms&id_lang=1

PRO WHYTE BUSINESS!!!! we need a lot lot lot more of these. pro whyte businesses in every town.

http://bit.ly/2sfi0w5

 

link to DS page that has a bad word in the actual URL heheheh. i guess an article from january where beautiful “smart” hwyte gurl is being cut off by her father because she is fooking a very dark skinned negro and she is doing gofundme to get gibs to support her high achieving academic life now that her evil racist father cut her off

http://archive.is/WeVrW

whole thread archive

QUOTE

Hi, everyone! Thank you for taking the time to read this. My name is Allie Dowdle, and I live in Memphis, TN. I’m 18 years old and a high school senior at a local private school, where I’ve maintained a 4.0 GPA since 9th grade and have taken 5 AP courses. I’ve jumped at every service opportunity available to me and completed a 2 month surgery fellowship this past summer at Regional One Health in downtown Memphis. My education has always been extremely important to me, which is why I am willing to share my story:
About a year ago, I told my parents that I’d started dating a boy named Michael, pictured with me above. Hoping to share him with my family, I showed my parents his picture, and the conversation was over before it even began. My dad did not give me an option: he told me that I was not allowed to see Michael ever again. Why? Strictly because of skin color. It wasn’t a quiet “no,” either. I’ll never forget the yelling my parents did, when they expressed how disappointed they were in me, that I could do so much better. I did not know what to do. I couldn’t comprehend how someone could be seen as less because of pigment. I still can’t comprehend it, and I never will be able to.

Michael and I continued to see each other, but discretely. Over the past year, I’ve fought so hard to make my parents see Michael as a human being instead of just someone who is African American. I’ve advocated as best I know how. Finally, about a month ago, Michael and I approached my parents, but their response was much more drastic than I could’ve ever expected. As I am 18, my parents have chosen to no longer support my future, stripping me of all my resources including my personal savings, my car, my phone, and my education and leaving me on my own to pay for college. Unfortunately, I will no longer be able to attend college if I cannot come up with the money somehow. My parents also got involved with my school in attempt to get me removed from the organizations I’ve been a part of, like Coexist and Facing History and Ourselves, clubs that essentially encourage valueing and treating people equally.

I’ve applied and received some scholarship money through financial aid, including grants, loans, and work-study, but I still need at least $10,000 to cover the first year of my remaining out of pocket tuition for college by May 1st. I’ve been applying for scholarships and have tried to get a job, but I am still living under my parents’ roof because I have nowhere else to live, and my dad has done everything in his power to make the world difficult for me. I am not able to get a job because I do not have consistent transportation available.

All of this because I love another human being, as I was taught to do. How could my love for another person be wrong because of his skin color? And why would that make me unworthy of a future I’ve worked so hard for? Because my parents have listed me, their own daughter, as someone who is not worthy of their time and money, I have turned to the public for support. It hurts me to have to ask for money, as I’d rather be out working for it myself, but I currently have no other options. Even the smallest amount helps. I cannot express how much your time and money means to me. I can assure you that I am doing everything in my power to create a future for myself, but it has come to the point where I must ask for help.

Again, thank you so very much for your support.

Help spread the word!

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anyway she raised at least 15k of a 10k goal.

so much wrong here. she doesnt seem like fat white trash. the black guy is wearing a suit but is dark as hell.

cant believe i didnt see this until today hehehe but this is horrible. i mean it almost sounds like a huge TROLL.

its sad because the gurl is BEAUTIFUL and probably wasnt a huge slut. its sad because her father did not raise her right in this one way. im not sure the best way to respond to this.  i prob couldnt disown my own beautiful daughter unless she were a huge Problem Child, which it doesnt seem like she is. she just did this one thing and other than that, was a perfect angel. i would probably forgive her hahahaha but she needs to repent for this pretty big thing. a Smart Gurl should be able to see that race mixing is disgusting!

she should be getting married to a nice white boy who himself has aspirations of being a doctor.

http://heavy.com/news/2017/01/allie-dowdle-go-fund-me-page-racism-dad-bill/

antiwhite media article condemning the father

im sure theres plenty of other MSM articles from around that time.

DAMN. TRIGGERED.

i guess she got it to about 28k.

yet we have white men who cant get gurls that purty.

it really triggers me to see gurls who ARENT typical slut mudsharks, all fat ugly and tattooed. but nice low number white gurls who just start off fooking one negro because they just dont know any better. this is like what happened with That Woman and it broke my heart because she wasnt an ugly high number slut. Good looking, low number, young white women who Fook Their First Negro.  its heartbreaking and infuriating and you really think, why wasnt I man enough to stop this from habbening?

i mean i really really hope that in a few years this gurl is a disgusting fat mudshark with n=600000000000000 and mud babies and neck tattoos and looks like the white trash she is.

thing is, it was probably the one black guy in the whole private school. and he is prob white acting (despite being dark as shit) and will prob get a business degree and make 50k a year and be middle class.

anyway i dont want to research this story more because i will see tons of whites giving her money saying shame on your racist father.

i dont know what is best practice her. she doesnt seem like a bad evil mudshark. as the father i would give her another chance. hell as her cuck white husband i would give her a second chance. i would say we still luv you but damn we screwed up by telling you not to date blacks BUT NOT SHOWING YOU WHY. and to do that you drive a young 12 year old gurl through the ghetto and scare them straight. you show them gross fat mudsharks in walmart. i bet the father was a boomer asshole who didnt do it like that.

fact is, young kids will fook anything that moves, and most young people are phsyically healthy and secsy.  when i was 18 i would have race mixed like crazy just to have any attention from women.

of course i never did, because i had no Game, no Masculinity, no Charm, no Confidence. so i never had to face the reality of Would I Actually Date a Nonwhite.

well, i did want to date a jooess. but at that time i thought well sure, i would get along great with her jooish family, its just a religion, its not a race, and i dont care about religion!

in other words, kids under 25, especially women, DO need to be PHSYICALLY RESTRAINED by their fathers and brothers. does this gurl have brothers? uncles? male cousins?  that would help. or is the boomer father just dumping her off in the private school and hoping that is enough to keep her away from fooking balcks. ITS NOT. HOMESCHOOL YOUR KIDS.

shit it might be worse in the private skools with only 1 black kid. cuz if you see a group of blacks doing TNB in a regular high school, you might be able to train your daughter to see that TNB for what it is, and say, i want no part of that TNBS!

and, for reasons i shouldnt have to whitemansplain, women are given much more opportunities for race mixing than men are. and the consequences are much more dire.

women just dont understand the pain of race mixing because theyve probably never been dumped for a woman of another race. the chad they were in luv with rejected them for a negress. because it would more likely be an asian than a negress. but i imagine that would make women racistly anti-asian, which anything to encourage racism in white women would be great!

do white women care if their white daughters fook blacks? what does this gurls MOTHER think? yeah what women think doesnt really MATTER….but it would be NICE if white mothers dont want their daughters to race mix.

even though in the past i said women have no loyalty to race, they’re just not CAPABLE of it, so NEVER EXPECT it from them. they just dont have it in them. you’re gonna be struggling all your life to keep your wife and daughters away from the BBC. happy life.

went outside around 1pm to get Peak Sun. went to neighborhood park to try to get full upper torso sun. took off shirt and laid down on grass letting muh belly soak up all the sun. planned to do that no more than 20 minutes. elderly man from neighborhood came up while i was listening to MEIN KAMPF and asked if i was ok. thank you i said, just getting some sun. then i realize it probably did look weird. i was the only one in the park when i got there.

anyway the point is, it was good to get some sun on muh belly, have to try that again. i usually get good sun on muh arms but never on muh pasty belly and back.

need to find a less suspicious way of doing it i guess.

dont get feelings, because its JUST SECS and YOURE NOT THAT INTERESTING. youre just a fuccboi hehehe. there are TWO absolutely degenerate things here:

  1. the jooish degen shit that secs is hedonistic pleasure and not serious
  2. the confidence shaking thing that you just arent that cool or valuable or special. which you sort of knew but you thought a qt gurl wouldnt have SECS with you unless you WERE special to HER. WRONG. she does this with EVERYBODY, including blacks.

secs is nothing special and therefore just because she does it with you doesn’t make YOU special, ya pathetic wanna special snowflake hahaha.

ok. welp. i couldnt pass up such a nice sunny 90 degree day, to get sun and vitamin d on my pasty yet very beautiful and GOD-blessed white skin. GOD and AH also say its ok to get a little sun on the skin in the summer. and vitamin D is healthy AF. just dont sit out there and get sunburned.

so I just got a folding chair and sat in the backyard from about 2 to 3 pm, reading MK and getting sun on muh bare chest, stomach, arms, even some on the pasty thighs.

well, about 210 to 250 pm. dont think i was out there long enough to get sunburned. good. i dont want to get sunburned. but i do want to get as much vitamin d and sun as i possibly can. i really should get a Sunlight Box for the winter.

maybe i should do muh powerwalks with an increasingly heavy backpack on. dont have a backpack though and dont really want to buy a good one.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/prostitutes-represent-the-very-best-of-white-millennial-women/112982

QUOTE by Vernon-Roche 1h
Casual sex culture is more degenerate, and expensive/damaging to society than seeing a prostitute. If legalized, there could be strict measures to ensure the whores are clean and treated properly. Organized pornography should be outlawed and masturbation should be culturally shamed. The only sex men should have is between their wife or a prostitute. END

i agree hehehehe

google online thrift store hehehe

i will pay a little extra for higher quality used clothes hehehehe.

tfw when you go to mcdonalds on very hot day for soft serve ice cream cone and see 2 beautiful HIGH SKOOL gurls with 2 somewhat normie looking hwyte (thank god) high school boys, and think, jeez, when you were THEIR age, did you ever think that one day many years from now, you would STILL be looking longfully at high school gurls? they were just beautiful and young and there was not a lot of obvious fakery going on, it was just 17 year old gurls in the prime of youth. this is just how they look! they could seriously get ANY man. sheeeit. these young boys almost dont DESERVE it. also the young gurls really get the protector and provider instinct going. i dont want to do degen things to these gurls. yet chances are they are already making jooish porn videos with the boys giving them opioids for secs!

but these are just average high school gurls, no makeup, no whore clothes, on a 90 degree day. well they might have had tiny little shorts on and little skimpy Tops on, but really nothing super whorish considering the 90 degree weather. beautiful day. i mean you want to see whorish see the gurls when they get to be 20 and go to the CLUB and try to pick up college student afletes hahaha. quintavious and dontravious. sheeeeeeit.

put pictures of ugly mudsharks in your teen daughters room.

i was just glad the beautiful high school gurls were being sluts with white boys and not black boys. it might take them till they are 21 before they start going black.

this is why women are supposed to marry YOUNG.

i guess they can stay nondegenerate enough through their first 2 or 3 boifrans. but after 5 or 6 boifrans/cox, its just another cok in the carousel and they start doing more and more degen shit. the human lives mean less and less to them. yet they still think they can pull the alpha.

AH put physical training VERY high on his list on how to educate children. he believed a good mind in a bad body was worthless. and that a healthy body would in turn encourage a strong mind. so you should devote the majority of time of education of youth to physical training.

not sure his specifics here.

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mar 29

ok survived the day hahaha now i am reaching my crash time of 330 pm hehehe when REALLY  should be working till 5 pm if i start at 8 am. anything less is PATHETIC.

heh well you know whats MORE pathetic, is being a jobless NEET hahaha.

whats REALLY sad is 50 year old hwyte men who are jobless neets and so they sit in the library for 8 hours a day Applying For Jobs. honestly guys. it only takes 550 applications and 320 hours to Get A Job. in other words, you should stop seeing these men after 2 months because then they will have found a job. but they DONT. this is, i fear, because the jobs just arent there, also, 50 year old hwyte men are being DISCRIMINATED against hahaha

i was trying to find some leftist thing i saw today on the shitty leftist site medium.com written by a white marxist on why no, the white working class isn’t really dying off, and if it WERE, that wouldnt be so bad, would it? but i couldnt find it, and found a bunch of other shitty leftist articles instead and “threw up a little in my mouth”.

there is this popular leftist hipster brooklyn podcast called “chapo trap house” which i guess is what all the super cool leftist kids listen to now . i guess you could listen to it if you want to Know Your Enemy. well, you don’t. you already know they are pvssy wimpy unmasculine joos. wimpy white writers who say UGH. WHITE PEOPLE. and then cant bang slutty brooklyn white writer women because they are getting used as cvm dumpsters by masculine alt right chad nationalists hahahaha. that or negros hahaha.

there was an interview with one shitlib 28 year old harvard sociology phd student who does a shitlib magazine called “Current Affairs”, and he said, the thing the alt right does better than us is that they make themselves look COOL to weird outsider kids.

he’s not wrong!

hey i say thank GOD. back when I was young, the right was losing this battle, and leftist shit joos still looked COOL to rebellious teens. now the pendulum has swung the other way. im happy about that…..but nervous about when the pendulum is just gonna swing BACK again. we wont be on top forever, lads. trvmp will sell out and or only be one term. 4 short years. we’d better have a REAL movement established by then because our fooking RACE is DYING. we dont have any more time to lose.

everything you read that was written by a woman is crazy shit. don’t read stuff written by women because THE GOOD WOMEN DONT WRITE. I wish they did! they need to make themselves HEARD just to say not all women writers are like that! not all women are like women writers!

these degenerate leftist jooed journalist wimmin writing with filthy language about all the cox theyve taken and how evil trvmp is and how abortion is so great and diversity is so great and whites are so lame and virgin men are so bad. not all women are like this!!!!!!!

but the good ones don’t write articles that get hugely upvoted and shared!

you gotta really dig to find the article by a low-number woman who enjoys her traditional life!

i mean if youre reading VICE or MEDIUM  what the fook do you THINK youre gonna find.  and there are not really lots of women on the Alt Right. not that i WANT there to be. we are still figuring out womens role hahaha. well not really. stay in back and support us. give us children. dont start drama.

but maybe you can write articles, non dramatic articles, about the joys of a traditional life. that would be some good moral support and just let us know there are good women out there.

ok heres what im thinking. these WOMEN are such good voices for the marxist joo, with this horrible marxist jooish writing they do. its clear they are true believers in this crap. no one can speak marxist jooish bullshit better than a woman. they might arguably be better than MEN at it!

so do you think a women could be equally good at writing for Our Side?

I tried to think of a good female 1433 writer and couldnt. maybe savitri devi. i dunno.  i mean who is the female GLR? or the female andrew anglin for that matter? i mean i dont think we NEED one though. that isnt womens JOB. thats MENS job. i’m just basically asking women to write some moral support articles and say keep up the good fight lads, we’ll stand by you, even the betas and omegas who dont have a woman to literally stand by you.

im not even interested in other women. i’m semi interested in BANGING young beautiful women, but I’m more interested in just FORGETTING about THAT woman. because i still want HER. want her more than other women, i and i dont want that. i would love to want another woman like that. please GOD hahahaha. and just replace that woman always and forever. stop wanting her. just forget about her.

rational response: when some beautiful young gurl is being NICE to you and showing INTEREST in you, it will be REALLY EASY to FORGET about THAT woman and to get feelings for a new woman.

and yeah about the women writers, there should be a few more women writers writing moral support articles to support the men who are out there fighting. show some god damn gratitude, especially to the men who won’t get actual gratitude from an actual woman. these are still hwyte men too, and we need THEM just as much as we need women.

i guess i just want women to show more respect to Beetas and Omegas. they way they treat you like the scum of the earth, its like a healthy man treats a dirty whore. and being a Beeta simply isnt anywhere NEAR as morally deplorable as being a flthy whore. its not even necessarily inherently immoral to be a beeta male! but these women sure treat you like it sure IS!

but yeah hwyte men need to rise up and be strong and lead again. and then they will stop being beetas and women WILL show them gratitude and loyalty. but we have to SHOW STRENGTH first. strong horse. nobody likes a weak horse.

and i have certainly failed COMPLETELY at being a STRONG man. and yeah that is frustrating.

so yeah i would say maybe some YOUNG leftists and joos cant be held liable for literally wanting to genocide the white race. because most leftists are NAIVE and dont think its about hwyte genocide, its about making a Equal World where we can all live in Social Justice. We’re not trying to EXTERMINATE HWYTE people! you sound like a crazy person when you say that!

in fact maybe just a MINORITY of jooish leftists are NOT naive and ACTUALLY realize its about hwyte genocide.

so you dont charge them with genocide or first degree mvrder, you charge them with manslaughter and sentence them to getting the fook out of our country.

didnt mean to K hwytes? oh well, youre still K’ing whytes and now you must do the time.

and here i am, i dont even want women hahahaha, i just want one particular woman i havent seen or spoken to in almost 2 years hahahah. get over it!

actually even more i wish i had a work ethic like most normies. to work 20 hours a day for years just for a CHANCE at a 30k a year job.

hint: get a engin degree and you will have an easy time getting a 30k job. electrical, mechanical, chemical. you even get a CHOICE hahaha.

and you can totally do it by age 20 or maybe even 19. this is what we need to sell to young white boys. like, younger than 14. because we want them to start COLLEGE at age 14. have the engin degree at age 18. start making 40 grand at 18. be making 80 grand by 30. damn. establish 49 employee companies and hire only whyte men. by acreage in rural areas. have the wives do a hwyte homeschool network.

shit could do homeschool college as well. shits all online anyway.

but i do think a 16 year old boy taking brick and mortal college classes with 19 year old sluts is perfect.

well, perfect is getting married to your High School Age Sweetheart. the next best thing is being a “fun project” for a 19 or 20 year old slut when you are 16.

but where you gonna meet them in engin classes, also if gurls arent going to college and becoming sluts in the first place.

easy, you meet them through their fathers when they see you as a promising young man making good money at age 18 who is looking for a nice 17 year old gurl.

i am very interested in education, but i just want to throw the whole jooed system out and start over. is there a masters degree in THAT? are there jobs in THAT? in destroying the system and starting anew? hahahaha.

well DISRUPTION is a big thing in companies now hahahahaha.

DISRUPT THE JOO.

START UP THE ROTORS.

FIRE UP THE OVENS.

you will know them by their handiwork.

funny that we goys see only their wreckage but never them themselves. so you come to hate women and hate negros and hate nonwhites when really none of them deserve your hate. father forgive them for they know not what they do hahahaha.

well, def the women dont. and the negros. pretty sure the arabs know what they are doing.

so youre saying an arab is smarter than a white woman?

NO, i’m saying that all women are easily cowed and swayed. they are natural followers.

unfort i am a natural follower as well, never was big on leading.

really i dont want to go through the STRUGGLE of MEETING somebody, getting to KNOW someone, putting in the two years to actually get to know and trust them, it takes a long time, and i already had that FAMILIARITY and TRUST and KNOWLEDGE with That Woman.

but heres the thing. me Getting To Know her didnt feel like a goddamn STRUGGLE. it happened so NATURALLY. there was no effort or heavy lifting or forcing.

and that probably contributed to me falling in luv, feeling like this was a SIGN from GOD, that she was the ONE, because i expected so much STRUGGLING getting to know a woman, as I do now, and that didnt happen at ALL. the struggling came later, in trying to deal with The End. basically just trying to confirm that i was not a horrible traitor who had done a horribly immoral thing. i had to do all those mental gymnastics myself hahahaha.

hey i admit it i was no innocent. i deserve to be ashamed for some of it, and god damn was i ever. i was a coward weakling. it LOOKED bad. and the timing was bad. i KNEW she was having some family issues and was pretty stressed about that. in the long run that is what i will feel worst about. but i will get over it hahahaha. the fact that i “waited” until she was facing something outside of her control in her family, to “spring” this on her, when she was already super stressed out about that.

but again i dont think this is betrayal or treason or warranted treating me as such.

and it was no single joo who turned her father into a muh dick hwyte negro deadbeat, but through the partially-covert actions of many joos and many accomplice goys who didnt fully realize the type of degen fatherless muh dick culture they were creating.

does anyone GO INTO education with the idea that, welp, i can’t DO, so I might as well TEACH? I think most teachers would violent protest that old Pejorative saying “if you can’t do, teach.” but i would GO INTO teaching with that defeatist attitude hahaha.

also theres a popular idea that you need ot fail to succeed. well not if you fail so god damn much that you stop wanting to TRY, or your attempts become so half-baked and half-assed that they couldn’t possibly succeed.

also i wish you could fail in the workplace more. but you cant, or then you get fired for losing the company money. thats why people are perfectionists who are afraid of failure!

maybe my dream job would be working in a Dual Enrollment program at a comm college. so i could get 14 year olds into college and not a thoroghly jooed one. def would need a masters degree for this job though. and there are damn sure not a LOT of jobs in this field hahaha.  there would be FIERCE competition amongst a group of people with masters degree in Dual Enrollment College Administration.

ideally it would be in a more rural area so as to maximize the number of Hwytes i would serve and minimize the number of nonhwytes. i dont want to HURT any nonhwytes, I just want to HELP hwytes MORE. serve and strengthen my race.

i wouldnt have to worry about any J’s because they simply dont go to these working class colleges. period.

would i h8 joos less if i knew any working class joos? if I thought there WERE any working class joos? but there ARE! though def not the norm for them. those people hahahahaha.

no more than 25% of joos are working class. and that is a VERY generous number hahahaha. prob closer to 5%. source needed hahaaha.

insanely cute and nice 18 year old hwyte girl working at local arbys hahaha. seems like a literally nice sweet uncorrupted unjooed gurl. also is 100% undeniably hwyte. nothing questionable at all in this one. if i were hanging out wiht her and she was being NICE to me AND showing that she would be interested in Monog Dating…..i would forget That Woman ever existed!!!!!

but honestly this gulr is way out of my league. when i was 20 i might have judged her for working at ARBYS hahaha. now i dont care.  i say good for her. as long as she doesnt use it as a slippery slope to degeneracy or opioid epidemic or mudsharking. if she has a good father all will be fine.

because of her nice and innocent demeanor i would assume she does has a good father. but i shouldnt do that. because That Woman had a nice and innocent demeanor, not even demeanor, she was actually nice and innocent but she had a horrible father!

anyway, i prefer nice, innocent women to bitchy, slutty women hahahaha. what a concept.

but yeah. i do hate the idea that SHE WAS TOUGHER THAN ME. she, who i held in such high regard, outcompeting me on TOUGHNESS, a quality i hold in the highest regard.

yeah but if she was REALLY actually tougher than me, she would have just told me, sorry, we’re done, you’re not a BAD GUY and i dont hate you, but I just dont feel that way, the end. we had a good run while it lasted. then i prob would have had months less of pain hahaha. had a better experience. wouldnt be so butthurt about her being TOUGHER than me.

language is powerful hahaha. lets stop calling it the jooish QUESTION and start calling it the jooish PROBLEM. daily stormer does this hahaha. so did GLR.

by page 80 in “whyte power” GLR names the J and he doesnt stop naming them after that point hahaha.

its FUNNY how the pro legalization MJ degenerates which i probably am, seem to think that MJ does not affect your driving AT ALL. they completely dismiss that out of hand the way people dismiss nazis. this is disingenuous, bad faith, and jooish af. how can you say alcohol impairs your driving but gettig blazed af doesn’t??????!!!!!!

i just want to get blazed as fook! i’ll even try not to drive hahahaha.

yeah i dont think it damages your driving ability as much as alcohol. but to say it has no effect is ridiculous. you might as well do away with dui laws hahahaha. which i might not be against hahahaha. but without dui laws i might start drinking again after like 8 years. i actually probably would.

so that proves these laws are GOOD?

i mean its terrible drunk drivers K people.

so HOW terrible is it when people have 3 drinks and then drive?

yeah but i wasnt having 3 drinks and driving. what i was doing WAS terrible, law or not.

but it is stupid you can pass out drunk in the drivers SEAT of the car and get a DUI. i actually did that once hahahaha. slept it off in the front seat. didnt have the keys in. is that a critical thing?

anyway i fully admit to drinking too much. having a medium Drinking Problem. I did it and i am not proud of it!

mar 30

found this chrome extension called onetab which sends all your tabs to one single tab which contains a list of links. the idea is so they are not running and eating up your memory with 31 tabs of jooish pron hahahaha.

really simple concept. basically have a list of your most frequently used links and then click on them to load the page rather than have them open all the time. but i like anything that can Reduce Muh Memory Footprint hahaha. OneTab. you can easily add and remove links. not add duplicate links. its basically like history or bookmarks but your top 20 pages.

and then just open like 3 or 4 tabs at a time rather than 14 hahahaha.

its EMBARASSING  I havent used this or a similar app before (there are several to choose from, i only picked onetab because it had a lot of ratings) but the chrome extention “store” is hard to browse like a power user. cant get a good buy in very well. it doesnt share out very well hahahahahaha.  cant really deep dive into there and share it out. hard to get a good buy in.

https://www.one-tab.com

try it out nd make your comp 95 times faster hahaha

i would dnate a dollar to them if they were hwyte, but they dont even beg for dnations! so they MUST be hwyte hahaha.

if you do something useful, valuable, or important, you SHOULD get paid joobux for it.

everybody likes johnny cash but we could all stand to be more familiar with the song that gave him his name:

listen to something other than ring of fire, boy named sue or hurt hahaha.

when i was a young man i played the song at a party, hope it didnt sound too shitty because i was drunk af. it certainly didnt help me get any action hahaha. but its weird. its a very SOCIAL JUSTICE, MARXIST sort of message, but I still think its a good, meaningful, sincere song. i felt it spoke to me, and also explained my own penchant for the Gloomy which i had somewhat a reputation for, hahahaha, and often wore Black, prob still do.

and i do generally agree with the social justice message of the song, that some people just get a raw deal, get shat on, and dont deserve it, and we should have sympathy for them and try to help those less fortunate.

wish i had played the song well enough to get some makeout action though hahahaha. i probably could have, but i had oneitis on some dame who wasnt the least interested hahaha. she was an ok person but i should have just avoided her. that was impossible though, i saw her EVERY DAY without even TRYING and she hung out with my friends. SAVAGE.wav.

i should have immediately gone to the shrink, changed muh major to engin, stopped drinking cold turkey, saw the shrink 2 times a week, got a nice suit, and gone to the career center every day trying to get a 28k entry level engin job. but noooooooooo.

my weekend has begun hahaha. some MJ would be ideal. instead i ate a big dinner, too many calories, and had 1 benedryl, and now 1 valium, plan on 1 more valium, and 1 more ebendryl. try not to drink too much coffee to NULLIFY it.

damn this onetab is GREAT. why didnt i do this YEARS ago. if there are 2 things i am obsessed with……..hahahaha its joos and women hahahaha. i mean tabbed browsing and Memory Usage.

i thought of doing a black metal album with great songs and great lyrics that were pretty much very fashy, alt right, VVN, 14ee, not degenerate, not morally subversive but morally upright, and very JQ  JP aware, but i would not name the j00 until the very last word of the lyrics for the album, but make sly references throughout. but wouldnt be able to be accused of being anti-semitic until that last line of lyrics was brought up because it actually use the word Joo for the first and last time to unambiguously name what i was talking about.

but i cant write good lyrics and I sure as hell cant write good music!

well thats false. i’ve written both before! just not a lot. esp in comparison with the bad and shitty and worse than mediocre!

just an idea, had no intention of actually doing it myself haha.

heh took bendryl #2 a little early. just gonna skip valium #2 and replaced it with a Benedryl. will take Benedryl #3 right before bed.

this is better than drinking. it is technically better than MJ too…..but i dont really believe that because i desperately yearn for MJ.

old GLR sneakily avoided naming the J for the first 80 pages…..i think i just said this yesterday. anyway point is, he is going fullblast on them now, thats for sure. nicely describes them as parasites and tapeworms.

heh. those son of a btiches kicked me off the TRS discord because i didnt go through the formal extreme vetting process there hahahahahaha. not that i ever used it! but discord is a potentially good chat/meeting/voice system.  might be a good way for me to Actually Socialize with people. i guess i already do that at my job, by getting better at being friendly and talking to the people there.

i guess like once a month i feel like being social hahahaha and not a total loner weirdo. the rest of the time i just want to be alone doing MJ. it was different with that woman. i liked spending time with her. it gave some hard competition to being a loner haha. made me want to reconsider that path hahaha. now i am just mainly content being a loner again. not even terribly LONELY. when i was 20, 21, etc, back then i got a lot more LONELY at the thought of being/becoming a loner. now it doesnt bother me nearly as much.

but i still might like to be somewhat less of a loner. hang out with friends a LITTLE more, and DEFINITELY have a special waifu woman. i think its much better to have a special person like that, than to not. yuge value add there.  makes life without seem very bland and boring and disappointing by comparison.

14BB hehehehe 14ee which one looks better

i might have to go back and relisten to david dukes my awakening. i listened to a lot of the audio book a few years ago and really enjoyed it. would totally recommend it. learned a lot. first learned about the evil degenerate talmud hehehe.

you can probably find a pdf or txt file on the internet hehe but its really much better just to read an actual paper book.

so whats worse? MJ prohibition, or MJ being legalized in a way where there are really really really jooish laws and taxes and regulations where people are still strongly attracted by the Black Market because the Legal Market is such a Shitty Deal? or you can go to jail for using too much hahahaha.

i mean im still wondering about the DRINKING laws. i mean yeah SHOULDNT there be laws against drunk driving, and public drunkenness, Open Intox, Open Container laws, disorderly conduct, etc.

so shouldnt legal MJ similar have a bunch of stupid strict laws? or is it better to have it be Criminalized? i dont see how i could POSSIBLY be BETTER. and its much more likely to be legalized if you can give govt and jooz a way to PROFIT off it.

i mean it doesnt take a super crafty joo to see that a lot of MONEY can be made here. follow the money. so why dont they do it? because it takes THAT long for govt and legislation to MOVE?

but the SCOTUS made gay marriage legal OVERNIGHT. couldnt they make MJ legal overnight? not that they SHOULD, but COULDNT they, and if jooz run everything, why dont they want MJ to be legal? what is the thinking here. so this proves joos dont run the US. because MJ isnt legal NOW. hahahaha.

yeah but they make money off it being illegal too.  i guess the jooish business analysts ahve crunched the numbers and determined they make more money off it being illegal than it being legal. and all the degen potheads say look at colorado making a whopping 5 million dollars a year for EDUCATION oooo this is doing SO MUCH GOOD.

of course as a born again fascist, im not so sure legalizing drugs or even just MJ is a good idea after all!

and i fully admit its for my own selfish degeneracy. it would certainly be bad for society as a whole.

besides, how many HWYTE people are going to PRISON for MJ? not a lot.  i bet even fewer blacks are going to prison for MJ. LEO probably want to bust dealers of harder drugs and just dont care about softer drugs so much.

so who do the crooked cops sell the seized drugs to? back to the mexican cartels? probably hahahaha.

how much of seized drugs are illegally sold by crooked cops? 50% of the drugs? i cant believe cops are THAT crooked hhaha. i mean i thought the drugs were SUPPOSED to be DESTROYED.

i just cant go to my local police dept and be like ay bros want to sell me some drugs?

i would be MUCH better off going to random shady negros in the shady negro area of town.

i mean i would pay a shady arab doctor extra money to give me a Non Extremely Vetted recommendation for an MMJ card. you pay extra money so they can be extra shady and say here you go, here’s a MMJ card for your insomnia and anxiety hahahahaha and i will just check chronic pain on the state application. i mean i would pay much higher than the going rate for that extra shadiness. like dirty sluts willing to suck off the doctor for more opioid pills. i wouldnt suck anybody off ever though hahaha.

mar 31

have been overeating a lot without even trying lately. so, prob will gain a few pounds. not a huge deal, but obv want to keep eye on it. friday in lent is perfect time to try a Fast hahahaha. cut cals. drinking warm coffee with butter. this is acceptable hehehe.

you could just use a folder of bookmarks in chrome to do the same thing as this onetab extension.

trying something a little diff with muh day off. instead of shooting right off to errands, i am immed doing laundry right now. will do the errands when they are either drying or out of the dryer. almost abotu to put in dryer nao.

10:55 of sleep last nite compared to the usual 7 hahaha. this is how i bring the average up to 8:30 hehehehe.

ok put stuff into dryer. havent left yet obv. just sitting here drinking butter hahaha that i wish had MJ in it!

nobody ever told me that every conversation, every PART of a conversation, every INTERACTION, every word you say, is a COMPETITION or a STRUGGLE, where if YOU don’t say something INTERESTING, or FUNNY, or VALUABLE, or USEFUL to them, or PLEASING to them, then they think you are an IDIOT or an ASSHOLE or a WEAKLING or a JOO.  or a terrible person. a child molester or a traitor or a betrayer.

my least fav are being thought of as an IDIOT, or INCOMPETENT, or a Bad Person. A Morally Weak Coward or Liar or Joo. or an Inferior MAN –  an omega male. a Bootlicker who could only pull an Inferior Woman – if any woman at all.

it doesnt matter what other people think of you……but yes it does when you are trying to impress employers, colleagues, bosses, clients, women, friends! of COURSE you care about how they perceive you!!!!!! perception is reality hahahaha.

left another encouraging comment on a new george feels video just now. good for me hahahaha but also good for HIM. he is pushing in a  good direction and i want to encourage that and see more of it.

also i think he might be sympathetic to 14BB but not want to come out and say it. which is understandable. so i want to signal to him that yep this is a good way to be bro but im not such a loose cannon that i would ever blow your cover. like come on your channel saying HH, 1433, defoo the joo etc. cuz he puts his real face out there for the whole world to see. this is pretty much totally incompatible with espousing pro-hwite views.

ok finished laundry, out of dryer. even put clothes away. so, absoutely time to go do the errands. 1240pm.

i got to thinking, all of “mental illness” is inherently jooish. and jooish are inherently mentally ill!!!!!! mental illness is the Mental Joo, basically a mindvirus mindparasite burrowing into your mind and destroying it from within. whether its derpression or anxiety, or something more serious hehehe. so yeah im not saying its not real. it’s real as fook just as these destructive parasites are real!

my bold claim is to view your own “mental illness” as a little parasite JOO that is very literally trying to personally destroy YOU and your mind and your life, and its up to you and your trusted ones to grip it and rip it out forcefully and finally!!!!!

you dont want a little hand rubbing merchant in your mind, do you!!!!?????!!?????

George’s video on JUNG is very timely, seems like a SIgn from PROVIDENCE to me!

did some quick googling on this essay only to find its very controversial hahahahaha. ie joos used it to say jung was a nazi and supported AH. shit i hope he DID! all the more reason for me to read and luv JUNG!

and all the more reason to read the essay and all the more reason to be glad that george is looking at it. probably him dogwhistling again, and i fully appreciate it, and again, im not gonna blow his cover. but the neet virgin liberatardians arent calling him a natzee yet and i dont want to clue them in. but george doesnt need these people on his side anyway. but he doesnt need people calling him a natzee right now, or ever, so i’m not gonna help them do it. as i say, his Real Life Face is Doxed, so he doesn’t need anything BAD tied to that.  so i want to be real careful with what i say to him publicly. i mean i can email him for private talks. not that i would do that more than once every 2 months hahahaha.

tired of honey nut cheerios, switching over to peanut butter crunch hahahaha. yes i know cereal is terrible. well its not as bad as pizza or ice cream or cookies or pie hehe.

http://www.philosopher.eu/others-writings/essay-on-wotan-w-nietzsche-c-g-jung/

theres the actual jung essay full text, and not a damn dissertation on why it is a nazi thing. looks like kerry bolton wrote a good thing on counter currents. which, of course, are nazis hahahahahahahahahaha. no im kidding. dr greg is a good guy and he wrote me a nice thank you note for my insultingly small donation to CC.

anyway that full essay, not sure about that translation, and DEF the formatting is fooked, with words being joined together and such. proofread that shit!

i guess david lane started his wotanism based on that essay. Will Of The 4y4an People was what he said WOTAN stands for hahahaha. no complaints here. Lane was the creator of the 14W after all! great guy! should get HIS books!

https://archive.org/details/TheJewishStrategy

by Revilo P. Oliver. I should read this hehehehe

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/brad-pitt-losing-weight-and-his-mind-after-whore-wife-ruins-his-life/95662

i am now courageous enough to return to the bbs after i made a post about a week ago, then afraid to see if people had responded to me. i havent read the thread, but i think a few people upvoted me!

but yeah AA shares muh butthurt over women at the risk of being called MGTOWish. no we are not MGTOWs, but god damn are women SO jooed that is is DISGUSTING. you cant be blamed for hating them a little bit, even when you KNOW its the j’s who made them this way. you wish they could resist the J even just a LITTLE bit and not be completely horrible people hahahaha.

http://archive.is/PfIWU

archive of Andrew’s article hehehe

QUOTE

This narrative of “you aren’t good enough for women” being reinforced by men is absolute poison. Our race is only going to continue to exist if we fix gender relations, and so anyone who promotes this type of a narrative is a traitor to the race. Anyone who sides with feminism in any way is helping to destroy our race.
So please, don’t allow this to continue.

Do not be ashamed.

If somebody claims that someone else is having trouble with women because he’s not a good enough man, call him out for supporting the feminist agenda against white men.

Nevermind the Sluts – Talk to Your Brothers and Never, Ever, Ever Man-Shame

The other big, BIG issue: don’t feel like you have to pretend you’re not having any problems with women.

Everyone is having problems with women, but we have a cultural climate where it is like saying “I HAVE A TINY DICK” to talk about it.

In fact, many men will engage in the above mentioned “man-shaming” of other white males. This is absolutely disgusting, and it is inexcusable.

It only helps the sluts.   ” END

NEVER EVER EVER EVER MAN-SHAME.

AND NEVER EVER EVER EVER BE AFRAID TO SAVAGELY SLUT-SHAME.

THANK YOU ANDREW!!!!!

i wonder if his qt hwyte gf left him and now he is sad and angry.

well, he SHOULD be sad and angry, and that only makes what he writes here even MORE correct!!!!!

read this article 10 times every day and give him your money hahahaha.

women are just 16 year old gurls, of COURSE they are gonna dump you and BLAME YOU for it!

trying to red pill your woman is like trying to red pill your DOG (or cat.) don’t try to get the dog to understand. just be a strong leader and your dog will follow you in your fight against the J’s. don’t expect them to understand. THE TYRANNY OF HIGH EXPECTATIONS hahahahaha

so really by acting like a 14 year old gurl and blaming me, That Woman acted exactly like how you’d expect a woman to act. i was naive and didnt know how to handle it. oh well. at least now i think i learned a valuable lesson about women. always be dominant. never expect more responsibility or maturity or wisdom out of them than you’d expect out of a 14 year old gurl IT’S JUST THE WAY THEY ARE.

some men would say slapping a woman in the face is every effective, i dunno, i don’t think i would ever be comfortable with that. i do think SPANKING them would be VERY effective and I would LOVE the cahnce to test that hypothesis. i mean slapping them in the face just seems TOO savage, too nonwhite. hwyte men don’t NEED to slap their woman in the FACE.

shit, negros and semites will brutally PUNCH their women in the face and bludgeon their skulls with blunt objects!

i absolutely showed no dominance whatsoever. i mean i was at a low point hahaha.

it just also really bothers me that i have to COMPETE with these 14 year old gurls for JOBS, and they get masters degree and outperform me in the workplace, sometimes doing honestly tough jobs, and being TOUGHER than me. 14 year old gurls arent TOUGH and dont WORK very hard!!!!!

anyway. i just esp like it when AA writes about women. his haters say he is a woman hater. i say he’s prob just been hurt by too many jooified, degenerate women, just like many of us. i might SPECULATE that he has had a recent drama with a woman that has left him extra hurt! which is FINE! it happens to us all, and these struggles and heartbreak build TREMENDOUS character in a man!

come on. do you know how many WOMEN are MAN haters? most of them!

but yeah i especially like when AA says never ever ever shame any man for being beta or whatever.

ol uncle varg borders on doing this. well you’re just not MAN enough to DESERVE a woman.

i will always luv uncle varg, but I am closer to AA’s POV here. like god damn, these women really ARE garbage, and we have to stand in solidarity with our white Brothers. BROES BEFORE HOES!!!!!!!!

oh youre just mad about not Getting Any.

Well, YES! a little bit. part of that is my fault sure, but a big part is WOMEN being huge sluts! or Slags, as the brits call them.

slores, sluts, slags, skanks.

i will white-knight on occasion. i just dont want to do it too much. and i never want to manshame unless the man is really actually doing something jooish or negrish or sinful or bad or bad faith and not just being a white knight niceguy lickspittle woman-loving beta. dont SHAME him for being INNOCENT.

i bet he did just get dumped hahaha. well i would be there for AA if he needed a manfrand hahahaha. i am concerned that he doesnt do enough real life socializing.  i thought he was back in the US. he could totally find decent men to hang out with, he just has to get out there. like there are TRS and DS goys even in my area and if I tried, I could probably meet up with them. but i would worry about being rejected for being a loser. or that the person would be a tattooed felon type.

so….youre makign fun of me for being an idiot for betting when i had the nut flush? why is it dumb to bet when you have the nuts and are guaranteed to win???? are you supposed to call and hope the other guy bets? how the fook was it dumb of me to bet????? youre SURPRISED that I “ACTUALLY” Bet with the nuts? am I not understanding something here?

is it stupid to bet on QUADS too? am i supposed to slowplay these all the time? heh i have been playing poker very recreationally for like 5 years and it looks like i havent learned a god damn thing about actual strategy. feels bad man.

maybe the guy was just bantzing me. everyone likes to shoot their mouth off about how they are the smartest poker expert ever.

i am playing at a higher stakes table than i like because nobody is in the lower stakes one.

i mean i dont get nut flush very often. about as often as full house or quads ahhahahahahaa. but i do get quads more often than i thought i ever would.

anyway i hope anglin is hanging out wth people rather than just sitting alone doing daily stormer stuff. a person needs to be a little social and have some friends to do real life stuff with. says ME hahahaha. if he had a GF and she was his only real life person and she dumped him, that could be extra devastating. just speculating.

you could say its stupid to get into the cult of personality but i think it’s actually natural and healthy. you read anglin’s stuff for years, you start to feel more attached to him, like you sort of KNOW him, and that they are KIND of your buddy in that you sympathize with them, want the best for them, sometimes donate money to them, and wouldnt’ mind hanging out with them sometime. doesn’t mean you stalk them. but you do kinda wonder about their life story. their family and friends and them growing up. and enough of anglins story is out there to put together something of a picture.

he says he gets along with with his parents, so that is good.

he is very tight lipped about where he is living now, and i cant blame him, because jooz have been protesting outside his father’s office lately. jooz have called and confronted both his mother and his father. disgraceful.

i know he’s not REALLY my buddy, but i have the greatest respect for him and want the best for him. and that includes being happy in his social life and luv life. i dont want him to be a friendless foreveralone! I guess you could say I CARE about him!

but yeah i dont have any sick fantasies or delusions that he is my buddy or anything.

i just think that when a person puts themself out there like that, they can’t blame other people for getting a little bit attached to them. like mike enoch saying you dont know me, you’re not my buddy, i’m just a guy with a microphone, i’m not a leader. when you start to get FANS and people listening to your content regularly, then yeah to me thats a kind of social contract. you are SOMEWHAT responsible to your fans. i mean, you WANTED people to LISTEN to you, right? you cant just shit on your audience.

not that mike REALLY did that. well, he sorta said some of those things haha.

shit im not even sure what anglin’s position is on all this. maybe he would try to WEASEL about being “held to a higher standard just because i am the creator of daily stormer.”

heh. just saying if I were the creator of the daily stormer, i’d kinda EXPECT to be held to a higher standard than some autist troll in the comments!!!

 

 

 

WHY CANT MORE WOMEN THINK SLVTTISHNESS IS AT LEAST A LITTLE BIT GROSS

jan 5 new current year

just getting ready for the day. 656 am. i could PROBABLY sleep in an extra 15 minutes. maybe i will eventually do that. but i like having this buffer of time to write a few sentences, check email, and, of course, go make explosive coffee water #2’s like i am about to do right now.

ok did that. i mean its really quick.

anyway yeah my main issue now, and i didnt really have this at the previous job because that job was so stressful and packed that we really never had a chance to talk about anything not job related, we were all just trying to survive day to day. but now that the pace is a little slower THANK GOD, i am pressuring myself to be more social and charismatic and normie.

i mean i will take this new problem ANY DAY over what I faced before. im not complaining haahahha. well i kind of am. but never forget, that in comparison, it is not even 1% as bad altogether. i get a 99% reduction in stress and panic and thats The End Of The Story.

spent like an hour responding to a Support Ticket today that in my previous job, would have been expected to knock out in 20, or better 10 minutes. it doesnt matter if you dont know the answer. find the answer and answer it within 10 minutes. I laboriously wrote an email like the sloth. included Too Much Information and Misinformation. and I probably didnt even need to do ANYTHING, because someone else would be in in the afternoon that knew a lot more about the topic. an SME. but i was determined to Do Something and Add Value and figure out how to use the ticket system better. So I took a shot at it and hopefully superiors say good for him to try this, rather than, oh shit what a stupid fookup, i wish we could fire him, but he’s in the union grrrrrr. he totally did this wrong. gave the person bad advice, poorly written, and used the program in more wrong ways than we could imagine hehehehe.

anyway i did ok i guess. give myself a little more crrrrredit hahaha. had a paltry two customers in today and tried to act like a nice normie to them. painfully awkward small talk. jeez. for a while, i used to be GOOD at this. at my previous job. after i talked to people ALL DARN DAY i got pretty good at small talk. wish the learning curve wasnt that rough. because i cant handle talking to people ALL DARN DAY….well, when its complicated complex shit. and what im doing now is nowhere near as complex. it can get complex, but there are SEVERAL SME’s with Masters Degrees just waiting to Yank the Case from me. Aint No Need to BEG like I did before!

the beotch in the comments is half good and half bad. she says that she is automatically suspicious of anyone who talks of a BEST friend who is opposite sexs,usu means you are in luv with them. i would tend to agree! i guess you can have normal acquaintance friends of the opposite secx, but once you upgrade them to BEST friends or really really really close top tier friends….you are at big risk of getting FEELINGS for them. because of the INTIMACY.

i hate how wimmin dont think SEX is INTIMATE. god damn fooking SAVAGES.

well at least got under in calories today.

would LUV some MJ hahahaha.

https://www.google.com/webhp?sourceid=chrome-instant&ion=1&espv=2&ie=UTF-8#q=small%20talk%20for%20socially%20awkward%20people

i dont HATE small talk. i totally understand the idea of and why small talk is important. i would like to be able to DO small talk! any stupid autist who says small talk is retarded…..well thats a very immature and stupid thing to say. small talk is the basis of everything. big talk. relationships. success. friends. luvers. showing that you have charisma and confidence and that you are a smart cool charming person and worth hanging out with. or you can faily miserably and show what a boring, awkward, desperate, pathetic omega neet virgin you are hahahahahaha. this is all accomplished on the battlefield of small talk. small talk is ridiculously important and big hahahaha. i totally get that.

so yeah i luv the idea of small talk. i hate trying to do it and failing at something so important.

well this job will def be another big step in getting over that woman. makes it more and more distant. but damn i wish i hadnt been so pathetic and stupid and Creepy. wish id been stronger and cooler and not so desperate and needy and clingy.

so apparently you cant just walk into a store and buy MJ in california nao.

i guess i could tell people that i am interested in Relships and read Relship Advice stories a lot. because I honestly DO! this is kinda weird but its prob my most normie interest. i mean, cant talk to people about WN1488, Alt Right, or Black Metal. talking about RELSHIPS sounds completely reasonable and normie next to all that. and I could work in some spin on how casual secs is degenerate and sinful and disgusting.

women can be awkward and it doesnt hurt them, they can still gets jobs and relships. men and women are probably about equally socially awkward, but theres DISPARATE IMPACT on the men.

anyway. re that woman. yeah now that i think about it, a series of long conversations probably wouldnt have done much good. what WOULD have done some good is me making a BRIEF statement EARLY, like: yep i’m starting to act weird and want to hang out all the time becuase i’m starting to get feelings for you. This is getting hard for me to deal with and I don’t mean to Ghost you, but just do me a solid and give me some time and space, because I dont think you feel the same way, and I need some space to get over my feelings for you. Sorry. Best Wishes in life. You are a good person and I don’t mean to dump you. But this is hard for me and it needs a lot of effort from me. Think of a time when you got feelings for a guy friend and he didn’t return them. It was challenging, wasn’t it. The end.”

even that’s a little too long. and then if she did have feelings, she could respond to that. hahahahaha. so yeah. clearly she thought i was the entitled nice guy and was dreading the dreadful conversation where i tried to BEG her to be with me and tell her why she was WRONG when she said she didnt want me. and she didnt want to put up with that.

i mean i was already BEGGING her to respond. why wouldnt i BEG her to reconsider or change her mind or pleeeeease luvvvvv me back. the torture of hours of me begging.

yeah well i didnt even get a chance. thats the point. maybe i would have been mature about it. but desperate luv compromises your maturity. shit.

but yeah. i coulda and SHOULD HAVE finished all this with one SHORT email in december 2014. rip the bandaid off. sorry babe but I like like you. i obv need to get over that because you dont return the feelings. so i have to take a break from this friendship. i dont want to leave you in the lurch so let me know if i can pay an early termination fee or something. reddit said this can hurt for the friend to get friend dumped, so tell me what i can do to make this easier for you. though i promise you its a LOT harder for ME hahahahahahaha because my heart is utterly broken now and I might fall off the wagon and start doing heron again and K myself hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha jk.

why would i even LOOK at tinder. its full of sluts who think casual sex is OK. fundamental incompatibility of Core Moral Values.

i want to meet women who think sluts are gross and being a slut is gross. i want to meet women who JUDGE sluts. negatively.

WHY DONT MORE PEOPLE JUDGE SLUTS NEGATIVELY. WHY DO SO MANY PEOPLE THINK SLUTTISHNESS IS OK. DAMN. WHY CANT MORE PEOPLE, ESP WOMEN, JUST THINK ITS AT LEAST A LITTLE BIT GROSS.

and why are these damn sluts such successful ADULTS. good normie ADULTS. good at college, good at career, people dont think theyre WEIRD, they LEARN shit and UNDERSTAND shit and can EXPLAIN shit. really get deep into blooms taxonomy of learning hahahaha. learn something deeply. you dont learn something until you can teach it to someone else. those who can’t do, teach HAHAHAHAHAHA.

some people say, dont do a masters degree unless you’re passionate and absolutely sure about it. dont half ass it, or use it as a stopgap because you dont know what else to do, you will waste too much money for too little return.

i tend to like this school of thought.

but then there the other side, which is like, we all need to pay our dues and do things that are tough and expensive and struggle in the medium term of 4 years or so, so things pay off 5, 10 years later. the day comes where you put away your childish toys, put on your big boy pants, and accept that you have to go to work for a living, and spent 80% of your waking hours doing things you dont really WANT to do, that you arent really PASSIONATE about, so you might as well maximize this by doing something that will pay off in the long run.

well, i had enough trouble going to college in a state of welp, i dont know what to do, but i got good grades in high school and i’m expected to go to college. so just pay your dues, get the extremely expensive piece of paper, and then you’ll be set.

but that was all lies hahahaha. so now the goalposts are moved? and i should go into GRADUATE school with the same mindset?

yeah but its a lot different getting into grad school than getting into undergrad. i did great in high school and got into a good undergrad without really much effort or maturity or planning. i did completely average in undergrad and could not see myself getting into an above average grad school without totally busting my ass in a go-getting, gung-ho, high-energy way that i have NEVER been.

and it doesnt seem WORF IT to pay shitloads of money to go to an average or below-average grad program, just to treat it as College 2.0 for when College is the New High School and Grad School is the new College and i hate the whole scam system anyway!

but in life you gotta SUCK IT UP and DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO!

and why dont NORMIES have such a god damn internal conflict about it? they just go ahead and work hard and GIT R DONE.

heh. i wish i had a Career Coach ever since I was 16, staying on my ass and saying you need to do this, you need to do that.

now some people, their families do that. the chinee high expectations father. you can become doctor or engineer. get your masters degree or youre out of the family. i didnt have that at all, i was SPOILED.

cuz i didnt WANT to do anything. i needed to be trained with the carrot and the stick. left to my own devices in College, i totally went astray. a strong guiding hand, a foot being put down, that prob would have helped me in the long run. classic first world problems of being first in the fam to go to college hehehe. and of course i didnt appreciate that privilege at all. damn.

if i had to go to college, should have gone to local uni and stayed at home so the fam could have kept me in line, from doing stupid shit like MJ and alcohol.

but i still did MJ and alcohol when i was at home! i just hid it really well. i either would have gotten a DUI much earlier (which prob would have been GOOD), and probably did a bit less MJ, which DEF would have been good. definitely would have seen less of those crazy women doing crazy shit, which would have been good.

i dunno. alternate realities and what ifs and all that. i mean i still went crazy over women when being at home.

but yeah. ive never liked SCHOOL, and ive never liked WORK, and doing EITHER is PULLING TEETH.

See those normies? GOALS.

Goals are important. Goals are A Thing. See what happens when you have goals? You should have goals. Get Goals. Goals. Just Achieve Them.

all of education is fooked up. from grade school to grad school. serious fundamental problems with ALL of it.

heh. there should be homeschool grad school.

but you dont NEED grad school!!!!

well grad school is just perfect for some people! they are total grad school nerds! they clearly belong there!

i couldnt see myself getting in just because i couldnt see myself getting convincing recommendations and statement of intent. uhhh i want to get into grad school because i cant get a 26k FT job with a bachelors degree, so i’m really just treating this as high school 3.0. i fookin hate school but this is the bare minimum for being lower middle class in 2000s.

I would MUCH RATHER Just Work A Job. An Entry Level, 25k a year job, than go to god damn grad school. not that i have a good shot at getting into grad school ANYWAY! I have a better chance at getting the 25k a year job! and weve seen how fooking ridiculously godforsakenly hard THAT is! maybe it IS easier getting into a masters degree at a shitty noname school! MBA at phoenix!

yeah but i dont WANT to do an MBA, i would rather do a masters in relationship and despair counseling. which is an inherently useless degree! catch 22 here. quite the dilemma. and i dont want to be a social worker working with welfare blacks for a contractor with the city of oakland or the city of ferguson or something.

although its funny. today one of my “customers” was a black guy with an mba and I tried to make small talk with him. he was much better at it than me, but i am at least trying to be nice folks, i swear. but i cant talk about sports or anything. i cant tell this black guy that i am a trump supporting hwyte nationalist racist hahahaha. i nervously mentioned my interest in “news and current events”, which is FAIR…..BUT WHAT IF PEOPLE TAKE THAT BAIT and try to get you talking about TRVMP??????

well shit, this guy could actually BE a trump supporter, he seems to be a rather moderate, conservative, white acting, oreo black. almost like he is now overcompensating to not talk like a black, he is very well spoken, great speaking voice. he even made jokes about the HR diversity sensitivity training we had to do about trannies and shit hahahahahaha. i laughed and said yeah I hear ya man. well we didnt talk specifically about trannies. or have a frank conversation on race hahahahahaha.

see i dont hate blacks hahahaha. i just had an awkward conversation with a grad school educated black man hahahaha.

also all these people have experience giving lectures and discussions in front of groups of people. they have done that hundreds of times. there is no possible argument that this is not a GREAT life skill.

i would be dropping the spaghetti all over the place. oh now im the TEACHER and my STUDENTS are gonna think im an IDIOT. i never wanted to be a teacher but now i want to be a teacher even LESS, hahahahaha.

shit i can barely be a STUDENT. I can barely be a 13k a year EMPLOYEE. I cant even be a bare minimum ADULT. hahahahaha. I fooked up on easy mode, cant even deal with NORMIE MODE, hahahahaha.

funny all this goddamn self doubt even though now i am damn WORKING and that is an INFINITE improvement over where i was 2 months ago. why not just be happy about that.

went all in with AA, guy beat me with full house. sheeeeeeit.

heh. wonder what that woman is doing with her life right now. i know she got a job similar to what we were doing. probably making similar or more money, maybe higher up, def lots of hours, def lot more money than me, def making literally TWICE the money I am making. well shell have plenty of money to spend on her black bastard then hahahahahahahahahahahaha wawawawawawawawawawawa im so sad and lonely and want her back and will never get over her, muh perfect waifu hhahahahaha.

yeah i am playing things up a bit. but for a long time thats how bad it was. bad shit. wouldnt wish on worst enemy.

i guess its worse when i am working alongside 20 year old kids and they are all going to college, yup working on muh engin degree or nursing degree or HR degree, and then they graduate and get a 28k a year job, while you remain at the kid student job. at least here i dont have any young kids beside me being a constant reminder of what an old failure i am hahahahahahaha.

GRADE 7 thru GRADE 11

june 28

grade 7: this sucked probably about as much as grade 6, maybe even more. had one really really mean sh1tty b1tchy teacher we all dreaded switching over to. the other teacher was crazy and weird but not AS bad, nonetheless she was not as bad as the good teacher in grade 6. Bad teacher in grade 7 was……about as bad as the bad teacher in grade 6?

so that sucked. plus the kids became more intractable, deeper into the action, closer to puberty or maybe even actually starting it.

in 7th grade the “gangster” element was very popular, so the cool kids were those who were into the new gangster rap and dressed like gangsters. it was a pretty bad culture that. 2 of the girls i liked were into that gangster culture, it was stupid. by this time i was writing my 150 page screenplay about the outsider guy who just wanted a nice gurlfran, and ended up getting with the cutest gurl in skool, who surprisied everyone by being really nice and cool and going with the dorky outsider guy, “me”/”I”, and not a gangster or a “jock.”

the alternative for popularity, ie the alphas in the now-solidifying social hierarchy, was either “gangsters” or “preppies.” which overlapped a bit with “jocks”, although i think the Jock Alphas were skewed a LITTLE bit towards the preppies. the Preppies actually cared about their futures as in going to a “good” high school and staying out of trouble with the Law, and talked a bit more intelligently. a bit.

we were in an area with terrible public schools, so there was no question of going to a private school.

so yeah i think grade 7 was a turning point.  things congealed. if i had been homeschooled thru grade 7 i might have turned out all right. well, ok, thru grade 8. homeschooled for all of grade school. might have entered high school with more confidence.

grade 8

actualyl did not suck as much as grade 7. learned to accept the stupid social order, and buried myself in my stories and screenplay and music.  thankfully both of our teachers were BOTH good, something had not enjoyed since grade 5. school was still boring at best but i tried to have fun wherever i could.  i got into a decent private high school that was available to the upper working class who wanted to make sure their kids were college ready.

grade 9

actually i did not have a huge confidence problem in high school! i did ok actually. i talked to all sorts of people like a normalfag. i did not get bullied by older kids. i joined the stage crew for the drama/musical club, and that sucked, becuase i was the only 9th grader and i didn’t talk to ANY of the older kids there. but they did not really bother me either, so. it was just boring and awkward. i continued writing for fun, and lots of music of course. prob my best year of high school in terms of skool itself not sucking.

in the summer after was the first and last time i made out with a grill, until i made out with a grill the next time and also banged her (first time) in like grade 15.

grade 10

by this time i moved onto the high achievers track, because i took the first AP class available. you really couldn’t start taking ap classes till 10th grade. the one we had was European History.

this may have cemented my interest in European HIstory, and knowing what we do now, it’s kinda a weird first AP class to have, and i did not appreciate it enough at the time, because it was too much work. god damn. i did not like doing all that work, all the huge tests, essays, outlining eveyr chapter, it took up like 3 times as much work as my next hardest class. if this is what AP classes are like, count me OUT! I thought. f00k this sh1t. too stressful. yet where i had quit stuff i didn’t like before, unfortunately i did not quit ap classes. i got a 5 (highest score) on the exam, plus the fact that AP classes were out of 5 and not 4, then factored into a 4 point GPA, boosted my normal high school gpa well above 4, making me look like a very attractive college bound student.

grade 11.

i was always a quitter but i never quit AP classes, the one thing i really SHOULD have quit. I took only AP US History, while the REAL achievers took AP US AND AP Physics. They kinda saw me as a slacker, but i said, f00k that sh1t, ONE ap class is enough. so now i was the rebel amongst the AP set.

Here i turned 16, did my drivers training in the summer before grade 11, got my license during 11;  and unfortunately i started experimenting with alcohol and marihuana during grade 11. super young age. adding to my rebel status.

still lots of music, some writing, i was heavily into journaling and writing about my life. and about music hehehe.

by now we had moved on to actually trying to play music. i started out playing bass and then moved on to guitar. since we listened to a lot of metal still, we tried to play some metal music. there were a few really classic great alcohol and marihuana fueled jam sessions that were a lot of fun, but i was never strong enough of a songwriter to actually be part of a band, plus i did not have the money needed to invest hundreds or thousands of dollars in the musical equipment needed to be in a band.

yet my dream was to “be in a band and play shows.” being on a stage and playing a concert was my dream. i never accomplished that, hehehehe.

so it was weird. i had this wild party life in contrast to my stressful studious life with my AP class which i resented. I didn’t even want to be in that ONE AP class. and those faggots in TWO AP classes thought i was a slacker. I was just as smart as them!

I still wanted to take NO ap classes in senior year and really slack off, wouldn’t that be great. i still got a 5 on my AP US exam.

i also continued the play/drama/musical club, this time as a….dancer/singer? that was a little more fun and I got to associate with gurls for the first time. i was partnered with a gurl who was kinda nice and sorta cute, but nothing too impressive, and also she was dating one of the seniors at my school. plus i was not horribly interested in her anyway. oh yeah. i started as a singer-dancer in grade 10 and continued in grade 11. it really ate up a lot of time i could have used to do drugs and alcohol. i mean study and learn about things that interested me, hehehehe.

yup, i should have homeschooled/unschooled during high school too, not just grade school.

although by grade 11 i had made a great friend who i remain friends with to this day, so that was good.

HOMESKOOL IS BEST SKOOL

may 30

went for another 3.2 mile pwalk, total of 6.4 miles today. NOICE.

king of the hill. great show by a great mind mike judge. mike judge is one of the few Mainstream Entertainers whose Mind and Heart is in the right place and who I might trust to entertain My Children.

of course, My Children will not even have a TV in the house. no TV, no vidya, just homeschool, physical warrior training, music, languages, physical and mental games and playing. i won’t need to be superstrict and the kids with have a lot of fun doing things. learning and thinking and building things and making things.

people make fun of homeschool kids but I have never met a single homeschool kid that was a loser. even those kids who get homeschooled because their parents are superreligious jesus freaks. the kids learn a lot of religion but they also learn enough other stuff too, and always have a good work ethic and are never lazy losers.

i personally would advise not to have a superreligious homeschool because…..i went to a religious grade school and i didn’t like it????

what didn’t i like? the religion?

it was moreso the students! and a FEW teachers. there were like two or three really bad horrible teachers, but most teachers were good. the students kinda sucked though and by 6th grade I was well on the Beta/Omega Track. you don’t get that in homeschool. nor do you get the sh1tty teachers. you would have two great teachers for 12 years.

i dunno. i just think Homeschool is the greatest thing since sliced bread and would be a real simple way of Saving Our Country. Strong Familes, Strong Education within those Families, Strong Children, Strong country.

Ideally Three Generations would live together under one roof: Grandparents, Children, Grandchildren, Cousins, Nieces, Nephews.

“bbbbut what about the childs social skills?”

there would be like 30 people in that house the child could develop social skills with, plus it would be a great self esteem boost cuz they are all family and they all theoretically Luv each other, so no bullying.

assuming everybody has 3 kids. so, gramma grampa, their 3 kids, those kids 3 wives, and then 9 kids among them. 9 + 3 + 3 + 2, ok so not 30, more like 17.  still not bad.

the left has brainwashed you to have a negative opinion about this, and to imagine a bunch of jesus freak child molesting warren jeffs weirdos who are very strict and dour and mean and beat their kids and raep their kids and produce twisted freaks for kids.

i say, look on the bright side. it doesn’t HAVE to be that way at ALL. they just want you to think that so you send them to their skools to make more little brainwashed leftist drones.

think outside the box. hehehe.

now if you go to any skool, you learn somewhere along the line that homeskool is weird and twisted. but i claim homesckool is best skool for all of society and i am more than willing to try it on MY kids. if i meet a good mate and have my 3 to 5 kids, GOD WILLING.

and you don’t even need to be a right wing nutjob like me to do it! as long as you are at least Moderate or ideally Right Of Moderate, you can Implement a good homeschool with your Wief! who also doesn’t need to be a Raging Rightist. which is for the better, because good luck finding a rightist single gurl. most girls lean to the left when they are single anyway, and as they get older within a Happy Marriage to a Masculine Man such as yourself, they become more conservative.

so don’t worry about the political leanings of your wief. a masculine man guides his wief into the best woman she can be. just worry about being the best, most masculine man you can be. then you will have your CHOICE of good wiefz.

can we fight globalism and survive? i hope so. i don’t want to have to say, “its just the way of the future and foolish to oppose it, either accept it, or get swept away, which you deserve for being too ignorant to accept it.”

the fault in our stars. i bet i would have really liked that movie when i was 13 thru 21 or so, hehehe.

i might go to strip club next time muh frand suggests it. wanna say i last went last summer, maybe about a year ago. i would recommend to You to go to the strip club about once a year to get some Physical Contact with Attractive Women, if you aren’t getting this elsewhere, like with a cute gurlfrand or Dates.

but isn’t it Morally Decadent to Bang Several Women at once Harem-Style?

yeah, a little bit, but you can get away with a little bit of decadence for a little while with the periods of Nondecadence you have survived. it’s prob not a great lifestyle choice, but it certainly wouldn’t be bad to have a Wild Oats period ONCE in Your Life, amirite?!

like 2 to 5 years of Wild Oats. that would be enough for a LIFETIME. then you can settle down with a Wief and have 5 kids and homeschool them and be proud as they become huge winners producing 5 more little winners of their own.