heh. i only listen to new-to-me music if it has right wing or nondegenerate ties. obviously death metal flirts with just balls out nihilism as does black metal and many types of metal hahahaha.
but i have been hearing about “disma” repeatedly and yes they do sound good. and craig p on vocals and he has always been one of muh favorite death metal singers since the early incantation days. basically just deep as fook growling, nothing fancy, but just extremely deep and low bowels of hell type grunting. kinda like mortician but i could never get too into morticians music. jsut gimme a vocalist who is serious about getting as low as you can go. and pillard does that.
well imagine my surprise to see marxists and antiracist metal fans CLUTCHING THEIR PEARLS when they discovered he was a BIGOT NAZI SUPREEMIST. that just made me like him more!
and of course big tough antiracist death metal fans boycott the band because of this, call them dickheads and phaggots and douchebags and assholes and big mean meany bigots and get them kicked off of concerts. disma that is. and the music is pretty sick! also dat cover art hahahaha. really good. because reasons hahahaha. wow. just wow. current year. i cant even.
now there was a rumor he was into drugs a long time ago, and i dont like tattoos, but….i appreciate a good race realist hahaha plus he hasnt denied those rumors because theres no way he can, he has said some pretty good stuff on the record and i think even has an album with hitler on the cover hahahahha uncle al.
so good for him. i just hope he doesnt lead a degenerate lifestlye. but his voice sounds great 20 years after his work with incantation.
yeah i just hate the bipolar roller coaster nature of the rel. it was really good, then it got really bad.
i knew shit was not good, but i still didnt see this coming. i thought she just needed to COOL OFF and then would eventually respond to me.
because WHO DOES THIS. how can you EXPECT this out of anybody.
so that business about not a 180, it was like a 10, she was inching towards this…..
i dunno. she was inching towards being DONE with the rel, fine, but that doesnt mean she HAD to end it like THIS.
so in other words, she could have just said, listen we are done, sorry but i cant do this, we had a good rel in the past but i cant continue. sorry, have a good life.
whatever you say when you want to end a rel but the other person doesnt, you try to be nice so they are less devastated.
it doesnt help that i saw a woman who really looked like her at the fatness club yesterday. i just got done with my 9 miles and was about to LEAVE when i saw the woman.
and of course i was like, is that just someone who LOOKS like her, or is it ACTUALLY HER? my eyesight is not super good and they were not super close. i inched closer and basically stared at the woman until she became suspicious of me and then i had to stop staring.
similar body type, similar face, not dressed in whore gym clothes hahahaha i mean wearing modest decent good girl baggy cothes instead of whorish supertight clothes that look like they are painted on. wearing shirt of big summer concert i know she went to.
the only thing was the gym woman seemed to have shorter hair, and i had never known That Person to go to a gym ever.
well maybe she started, just like i started. and she cut off a lot of hair as a way to reinvent herself after knowing such a horrible person as me hahaha so she cut off 2 years worth of hair maybe hahaha. and started going to the gym to meet more hot guys to casually fook hahahaha. these are the type of thoughts i was thinking!!!!
i tried to get as close as possible and try to sneak glances at her from the corner of my eye so it didnt look like i was staring at her, but i was not super smooth and i think she caught on. so i look like a Huge Omega Virgin Creep hahahaha.
so theres arguments for and against why it might have been her. i mean she saw me, if it WAS her, wouldnt she do something? the real her would probably run away if she saw me hahahaha. or maybe she would have waved at me. or maybe just ignored me and kept using the machine like the person did hahahaha.
i mean there are closer gyms to her house. but maybe she moved!
but she never goes to the gym! but maybe she started, just like i did!
but this girl had much shorter hair! and i dont think she would ever cut her hair that short! cuz she was fixated on having nice long hair, and i certainly enjoyed that as well.
i should have just gone right up to the woman and said, sorry for staring, but i thought you were “a friend” of mine, you really look like them. now i can see that you are not that person sorry hahahahah by the way whats your name ayyyy baby u wan sum fukk ayyyy lmao
and then have casual secs with a gurl who really LOOKS LIKE her hahahaha. GR8.
that actually wouldnt be too bad. i mean so casual secs with an attractive gurl can only be a good thing. well, until you get feelings for her hahahaha. but that would be physically impossible atm.
so maybe she cut her hair, and started going to the gym hahaha.
hey if I can start going to the gym, so can ANYONE.
BUT i am guilty of thinking tons of women look like her. all women look like her. except the ones that BLATANTLY dont. i see a Certain Set Of Features and boom. long legs, pale untanned skin, dark long hair, 20s, and boom. its her.
lemmy dead. did i comment on this? i mean is it really a surprise? i didnt realize he was 70, i thought he was like 65 at the oldest hahaha. but yeah its a miracle he made it to 70 and you can find pictures of him in 2015 and he looked pathetic and skinny and at deaths door, kinda sad i mean. the masculine man withered away into a skeleton. well i think his music was HONEST and he was the real deal and an honest guy………but still a degenerate who was Too Into Hedonism. i just have to point this out because so many hipsters are gonna be sad hahahaha. but lemmy was also a shitlord who had swastikas! i think this is great but i wonder why they ignore it. probably because lemmy made some humanist statement or said something like “all humanity including whites are shitty.” [citation needed hahaha]
but yeah like keith richards its amazing he lived as long as he did.
and i cant deny liking the song ace of spades, i think everybody does. and it signalled a no bullshit no phony no phaggots, masculine, honest musical style that i would probably appreciate if i listened to full motorhead albums like a REAL fan. i would probably go to ace of spades or overkill hahahaha. 80s stuff with the classic lineup. philthy animal taylor hahahaha i know that much about motorhead at least.
but again people who drink all day and do coke all day and bang hundreds of sluts, its a damn degenerate lifestyle, period. wouldnt you get tired of it? wouldnt you want a decent woman to have children with? though im sure lemmy had some bastard children. but if he was a deadbeat father to them who cares? but maybe he gave them a cut of his riches. well he should!
well its hard finding any info about children. he had at least one semi-confirmed bastard child, given up for adoption, when he was like 18. i wonder if he had any nonwhite kids with his black gurlfran hahahaha.
also interesting that he was diagnosed with tons of cancer in his head, brain, and neck, and then died 2 days later. did he K himself with morphine? he said he never did opiates. yet he did SPEED regularly to age 70. drank a bottle of jack a day until his 60s. 2 packs of cigarettes a day till recently.
heh. well i drink tons of coffee. maybe i should switch to speed. might be better on muh bowels. shit.
well COULD lemmy have settled down wiht a nice white gurl and become a family man?
i refuse to believe that any white man does not have that potential. and he’s a bit of an alpha male. he could have totally done it if he set his mind to it. maybe got off the booze and speed and sluts. but that was simply too much to ask.
i guess motorhead always puts on a good show. welp i wouldnt have minded seeing that but looks like i never will hhhehe.
i should just go to a damn white power rac show hahahaha. but they dont put those on the internet. there are more lame news articles about how awful white power music concerts are hahahaha. you have to prove yourself to the WP organizers first. wihch i guess makes sense.
i mean these arent dangerous things. what really IS dangerous is a large happy white family. and indeed that is my ultimate goal.
i mean i wouldnt put my kids in hitler costumes or start the next prussian blue kiddie music band or something. does anyone remember prussian blue? kinda hope not, they were kind of embarrassing but i still trust the mother, she walks the talk and is a decent white woman, maybe she just made a misstep with PB. but HOPEFULLY the girls dont become mudsharks or sluts.
whats worse, a mudshark or a slut? well, mudshark IMPLIES slut, like they shark it up with LOTS of muds. and leave it to me to find the one woman who has some questionable mudshark behavior, but is NOT a slut. imho, one is a slippery slope to the other. althoguh i would say slut comes first, then msharking. so its weird to see msharking present BEFORE the sluttiness. no im not talking about PB, im talking about That Person im obsessed wiht and trying to get over.
i think the girls will be ok, so they smoke a little MJ and become Lefty for a few years, as long as they dont become sluts, they should be ok. like i say, (not) being a slut is THE most important thing.
its frustrating when somebody is willing to be emotionally mature with other men, but not with you.
they are willing to talk and communicate with the men they love, willing to try; but with you, they dont even want to LISTEN to you. NO willingness for anything whatsoever.
yeah i was not perfect, yeah i made a mistake, but it was more of an accident, and it wasnt cheating or abusive. i just had feelings and i was reluctant to blurt it out by email or text or at work. is that SUCH a crime?
what is the proper punishment for cowardice?
i mean i eventually told her hahahaha
also she could have said ok this is ridiculous we need to talk already
but more she was like this is ridiculous, and we are never going to talk again.
yep it hurts a lot to be thrown away like garbage by someone you love. i mean someone you DONT luv CAN throw you away like garbage, cuz you are glad to be done wiht them too.
dont hate me just because i liked you, dont hate me because i was scared to talk about it. i was heavily signalling, you already KNEW, and you refused to let me talk to you about it in person. you avoided me like the plague because you picked up on the hint and just wanted to avoid me until i went away. well i went away all right hahahaha.
but jesus christ just write an email, respond to the 4 emails i sent you. how hard is that? respond once, then you can block me.
there are situations where the woman is more willing than the man. the woman is begging the stubborn man, please please work with me, please talk to me, please listen to me. in fact i think she was IN that position recently. i just wish she had been OPEN to LISTENING to me, rather than CLOSED.
and usually its the GUY, me, who is seen as In The Wrong here, so thats why i blame myself. she was closed to me becuase i was PUSHING her too much. i pushed her AWAY permanently.
yeah well she also could have LISTENED to what i had to say and RESPONDED to it.
in other words, she was trying to AVOID the talk even more than i was. i was only half avoiding it, cuz i really WANTED to talk, but was scared. she didnt want to talk whatsoever.
yeah its important that im not the bad guy, because i dont want to blame myself. like oh i screwed up this was all my fault because i did this one thing.
i guess a person like me will ALWAYS FIND ONE THING like that.
so you turn it around and say, well, she could have tried. she could have been willing. if she was willing to meet me halfway, she would have met me halfway!
so i found out one of muh fav songs by my new fav band v————i which features a guy i have had a mancrush on for a long time, but i was on the fence about him being a degenerate, that was the one thing i didnt like about him, is i thought he was kind of a soulless degenerate and he could do better than that…..and lo and behold, inthe current year 2015 i discover he has yet ANOTHER musical project which is very nondegenerate and which completely redeems him in my eyes! i dont say his name because its kind of a semi open secret. otherwise i would have known about this band years ago!
but it turns out the song is a cover of another finnish “RAC” band called sniper:
looks like a good time amirite?
this is the type of thing that commie phaggots and degenerates do protests on and want to SHUT IT DOWN.
also apparently vapaudeniristi themselves started running into problems playing shows in 2015. maybe this is when someone revealed to the english speaking world that they have a pretty Big Guy in this band.
i think it is FOOKING AWESOME as i said. it was one of the best discoveries of the year for me, and made me like this guy EVEN MORE. when some people disappoint me and break my heart, other people reaffirm my faith in them.
anyway i dont care about lyrics, i care about music, becuase lyrics usually suck. give me bad lyrics and good music. but a lot of RAC seems to be lyrics first, music second. which makes sense for that, because they have a real message they want to get across. but imho it would really help to have good songwriters and musicians and producers too, and My Big Guy is already one of those. he writes decent songs, he’s got a GREAT voice, he plays all instruments well, and he is a GREAT producer. he knows how to make anything SOUND good. he has a great ear for that. for us autists that freak out over Guitar Sound and Snare Drum Sound and Mixing and how everything sounds. he is just as autistic.
yeah well there are some people that boycott him becuase hes a RACIST and i never understood that. because he had one anti-zionist lyric on one song on one black metal album 10 years ago. really???
well this other band is a bit more blatant it seems. and i am very happy for it!
i love the image of commie crushers and skinheads in Combat Boots beating the shit out of communist Antifascists!
now i am too cowardly to physically beat people, but i love the idea of Crushing Degeneracy.
and with the catchy, short, upbeat songs, catchy riffs, melodies, the shouting choruses, and this guy has always had one of my favorite Voices anyway, to hear him roaring all these lyrics in finnish is pretty good.
its more immediate and more HUMAN and more emotional than his other stuff, which is cold and hateful and nihilistic. this stuff is more….optimistic or happy or positive and takes a stand for something Special. something he and we all can really believe in.
i cant believe he has the TIME! he already did TOO MUCH before i knew he was in this band….which also does a LOT.
i am glad he plays shows with them too. i wish he would play shows with his black metal project, and his doom project.
when he plays shows with his RAC project, the communists try to shut it down. i guess there were journalists printing lies about him and on his youtube channel you can hear him calling a journalist. and then they speak finnish for 10 minutes hahahahah.
anyway he basically does all his real “RACIST” stuff in finnish which is why i dont want to make him a target for all the non-finnish-speaking marxists.
plus he is in a big metal band which is liked by a lot of leftist antiracist pussies.
or people boycott this other up and coming black metal band just because they are on his LABEL and are friendly with him.
my question is, how racist are the lyrics of his RAC band?
hehe google translate is horrible with finnish. i translated the finnish lyrics of sniper’s isanmaa aka “fatherland” and the stuff was not degenerate at all.
” Fatherland wake up the son of the Finnish – Too much injustice, too many to death! So, the fatherland give us a sign for battle! You are too important to fight you to freedom, the fatherland! ”
its not abut getting drunk and banging sluts and acting like lemmy in other words hahaha.
and the translation of my boys lyrics that ive been able to find, are not bad. basically i dont want Stupid Skinhead stuff but i am becoming more open to it hahaha.
speaking of finnish this band moonsorrow is pretty good and has 2 good real epic songs.
they are not racist though. they have been accused of it of course! and denied it like pussies. we dont hate anyone, we just like finnish language and legends. WELL GOOD FOR YOU hahahaha.
this is all hilarious with the long running “joke” that finnish people arent even white. and some poeple are pretty serious about that. ohhh the finns are more mongolian. DNA wise they are far apart from all other europeans. they are the least europid people in europe. they are just mongolians who came over and turned albino. they dont even speak a european language.
apparently moldbug has his “law of sewage”, which is:
a barrel of sewage plus one drop of wine is a barrel of sewage.
a barrel of wine plus one drop of sewage is a barrel of sewage.
hehehehe obviously i kind of like this. even though moldbug is autistic as FOOK. he is worth reading a little bit of, i did back in 2012 and 13 hahaha. yeah hes at least half J but hes an ok guy. and he is getting kicked out of tech conferences because of his damn political views. because tech people are all sjw’s now. so weird. his real name is now out there, you can look it up, im not gonna say it.
anyway i just have no frame of reference for what happened to me, for what she did. i thought she was a better person than that. she probably IS a better person than that, this is just her big mistake, and i wont be able to convince her otherwise.
it would be easier if i culd just say, welp shes really just a horrible person, but i know shes not.
i wish she WERE, cause that would be easier to blame her, and harder to blame me!
i cant think of a famous story that parrellels this. its not like romeo and juliet.
its hard to sum up in 1 sentence, but its basically unrequited luv that ended very badly.
there was no cheating or no abusing, just…..a man loving a woman who didnt luv him back.
so yeah. nothing new or exciting there!
so lemmy was sad because his friend and motorhead drummer philthy animal taylor had died in november 2015 and lemmy made a remark like “they take a great guy like him, but people like george bush are still alive” which may indicate lemmys total normie blue pill perspective. or perhaps lemmy was just feeling shitty himself and couldnt think of a more shitty person than george bush. jeez why am i picking on LEMMY? show some respect for the DEAD. but yeah i dont like george bush either but the cooler thing to say would be like angela merkel or barry o or hillary hahahaha.
well the good thing abotu motorhead is the masculine energy, the sense of being alive and revved up and ready to dominate and kick ass. kind of like the commie crusher feel of RAC music. gives you courage to charge into battle. in a more straightforward way than some black or death metal. just high tempo ass kicking high testosterone manly man rock. like say acdc as well.
i dont even like using the term RAC but i dont know whatelse to call it. nationalist hard rock? with driving motorheadish songs that are less about drinking and fooking and more about crushing commies and securing the existence of our people? yeah ok sure sounds good!
heh lemmy should have just become a racist and made motorhead an RAC band with similar music, but them him quitting drugs and booze, and having a large white family.
hehehe what do my lads at trs forum say about this? probably that he was a degen.
links to threads on dead forum. that forum was public and you could actually read them without logging in. and any old schmuck like me could also register without an invite. glad i was able to get in on that. hahaha. watch now they ban me because i dont have enough posts or rep.