sun feb 4 SP4NK THEM! GROUND THEM! TAKE AWAY THEIR PHONE!

june 30 17

QUOTE from george video commenter

anon7 hours ago
No clear goals. No routine. Too much experimentation and vacilation. Too much idealism. Little pragmatism. All your basic needs are covered. The lack of a challenge to your mind and your body has left you bereft of the fight and the feelings that come with it, conditioned to fear the temporary sacrifice of soul-destroying comfort. Passively drifting back into the void with one hand on your dick and the other on a fork. Why fight? This is all for NOTHING, amirite? You are in America: you will not be around to defend this country, you most likely will always have clean water and easily accessible food, you will always have easily accessible entertainment. I hereby condemn you to a life of ennui and sedentarism-induced disease.

You have been given everything that your body could need. You drown in information. Yet you keep looking outside your body for that idea or object that will save you from having to accept the finiteness of your life, your talents, and your capabilities. “Better to feel despondent than to feel average,” “Better to be seen as a work in progress than to having to accept that this is the best I could do,” “Better to call myself depressed than not as good as I thought I would be,” “Better to use my parents as a crutch to not experience life independently than to having to take responsibility for my entire life,” “Better to minimize all aspects of life than risking finding out how much more complex and scary, and yet fulfilling, life can be,” “Better to listen to my own counsel than risking having my beliefs changed.”

You live in a shittiest kind of fear, the fear of facing the consequences of your words and actions, and you will continue being dead inside until your body is no more by repeating your same behaviors. Life is inherently pointless, cruel, unfair, and the majority of people on this planet put in more effort compared to what they get back, and the idea that one day it will end is comforting, but I need to remind you that as opposed to many of those people, you have chosen to make your life mostly terrible.

George, you are god damn self-advising, proud coward. We live in the country with the highest antidepressant intake and you still somehow believe it is embarrassing to talk about your problems with someone with the expertise or the right experiences. No mentors, no older friends, no therapists, no psychologists, an uninvolved father… just you advising yourself and taking what seems convenient from the internet, therefore no stigma in your mind. The “developed world” can be absolutely disgusting for those with limited social support. It is your biggest responsibility to rise above those poor fucks who refuse to spit out the kool-aid. Your biggest personal red pill will most likely be accepting that the internet was never a replacement for having a healthy social network and that it in fact caused you more harm by giving you the impression that all the knowledge you would gain from it would turn you into a balanced individual.

You keep repeating you are lazy when in reality procrastination and inaction are commonly rooted in anxiety. Write down your problems and start attacking them rationally and use your savings if necessary. What the fuck is the point of having an emergency fund if it is only sitting there? This is a call for help, one of a few already, to the f00king internet… What do you want the internet to do? Want me to go to your place, punch [George’s dad] in the face, give your mom an award for being hard-working and patient as f00k, and rescue you like a trapped princess?
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i normally dont like the critical hateful comments to george but this guy has a point. for george, for you and me.

tho i dont want to say george’s father is “uninvolved”, thats not fair. probably he just DOESNT KNOW WHAT TO DO about george. and neither does george!

hey well at least i go to a shrink once a month and take AD’s every day! 40 mg of citalopram.

i just sent a 1 feckin dollar “dnation” to georges btc address as kind of a TIP. like when you go to a restaurant you give them a tip. 1 dollar is muh standard tip for something that doesnt really have a common standard amount, like 20% tip at restaurant, 20% tip at barber, when in doubt i use 20% or 25% if feeling generous, which is often hahaha.

i dont see any other dnations in his wallet. either he changes the wallet or nobodies dnated. i kinda want to show him that somebody supports him, but i also wouldnt be surprised if he gets OFFENDED at the small amount.

so yeah i dont MEAN to insult george. but i mean shit. what if he sees that, thinks the whole world only thinks i am worth 1 dollar, now i should REALLY K myself, this PROVES it. because i think i am literally the only person who eer donated to his bitcoin. well unless he has used different wallets, which IS VERY possible. i mean you can use a diff wallet ID for EVERY transaction. that is very common.

ok he has used that same address in multiple videos and i am the first and only dnation oy vey

poor george. even just a good decent male friend would be very helpful to him. forget a decent woman.

if i lived near him i would attempt to be that guy. he sometimes speaks of some acquaintances he sometimes hangs out with, but they do honestly sound kinda lame, and he seems to recognize that.

when you find a real friend you really Click with and you have a mancrush on them, that is a wonderful thing. i am grateful its happened several times in my life. unfort is is not really happening at the moment. really i need to go out and MAKE IT HAPPEN!

and the same could be said of most good things in life.

fasting today, day off, decision: put butter in coffee, or whole milk. decided on the whole milk. 1 cup of milk mixed with large mug of coffee. then will “fast” until dinner which will prob be large af hahaha.

went to store and got some stuff for fam and self, including Twinkies Ice Cream. good lord hahahahahaha. will try not to go overboard with that.

it was sunny and warm so i said when i get home, i will go sit in the sun. so i did hat for 45 minutes, shirt off and all, hopefully got some good vitamin D.

back from that, doing laundry, drinking coffee, fasting, listening to easy listening music station.

tried to find some Natural Soap. I ended up getting this J R Watkins 97% natural soap body wash. could not find Organic Oatmeal soap.

i was gonna go with the dr bronners until i read the label and saw how proud he was to be JOOISH hahahahahaha.

there were still some weird ingredients in the jr watkins though. i just wanted to get something that was reasonably priced and then get the fook out of there. maybe i will try a more purely organic soap next time.

i want soething that is gentle enough to use on muh face. i have a special face wash which is pretty good but i dont like using that every single day!

had to go back to the store because i forgot to get some food items that were needed for tomorrow.

did that very quickly, came back home, did a brief powerwalk 1 time around the neighborhood. not as sunny but still very warm.

increasingly hungry from muh friday fast hahaha.

twinkies ice cream. limited time only hahahahaha. good lord.

heh. i forgot i signed up for the captioning service rev.com . basically “freelance” tasks that you can do and make a few dollary doos. like i signed up for mturk and actually made like 100 dollars with it last year…. but really its not worth the time you put it. you are getting paid like 2 dollars an hour at best. not sure how they get away with that hahaaha.

the captioning might pay relatively better than mturk. like 3 dollars an hour.

really its if i have a day off and feel guilty about being unproductive, i could do this for an hour and make a tiny bit of money from it.

ok earned 68 cents for 2 minutes of transcription which took more like 15 minutes trying to figure out what a Female Bogan was saying about australian social services organization. sounded like she fooked abos and buys petrol to huff from centrelink hahahahaha. and they think we seppos are bad.

ate some of the twinkies ice cream. it was good. “butter cream” ice cream with pieces of actual twinkie and a “frosting swirl.” the butter cream ice cream is great, the twinkies pieces are spongy and cold and not a great texture fit with the IC, and needs more of a frosting swirl. but this “butter cream”…..is that an actual IC flavor, or is it just bullshit. becuase isnt cream inherently buttery. either way its a good flavor.

1268 calories today. not bad. this is with fasting all day and pigging out with huge 1417 calorie dinner haha.

actually 1300 calorie dinner.

heh. posts from like 7-8 months ago where i just got muh new job, that was good. but i was still reading horrible REDDIT and getting TRIGGERED TO THE MOON by the worlds worst women and the supplicating omegas who supplicate to them. am i improving myself and my career enough to your liking, my princess? am i volunteering and seeing my therapist and life coach and working on my ISSUES enough for you, my darling? god damn.

SP4NK AND GROUND THE SLUTS, WH1TE SH4R14 NOW!!!!

sp4nk them, ground them, take away their phone!

SP4NK THEM! GROUND THEM! TAKE AWAY THEIR PHONE!

SP4NK THEM! GROUND THEM! TAKE AWAY THEIR PHONE!!

go ahead, start chanting it until a group of men get fired up enough to actually DO it to their women!

but yeah im glad i stopped reading reddit. that shit wasnt helping me. it doesnt help the people who ASK for help there. because it goes against NATURE. and anyone who fights against NATURE will eventually be destroyed. Nature Always Wins. all of reddit needs to be thrown in the hottest part of the oven.

Women do not understand nature at all and eerything they say indicates this. they still operate according to the laws of nature, though.

NEVER LISTEN TO WHAT THEY SAY. ALWAYS ONLY LISTEN TO WHAT THEY DO.

if MK were written like THIS, it would be a MUCH better piece of propaganda.

propaganda does not imply lies or deception. its the joos, who through their deception, have given it that connotation. i mean, it CAN, but not NECESSARILY. you can TOTALLY have PROPAGANDA FOR THE TRUTH. and that’s what me and AH and anglin are doing hahaha.

just saying AH didnt do nearly as good job with that in MK as i hoped he would.

but it doesnt really matter, because look at his damn life and how he single handedly changed history. so what if he wrote a boring book.

but its just kinda weird considering he loved propaganda. i thought he would make better propaganda. but maybe he didnt consider MK to be propaganda. maybe he wanted it to be a long boring book that left important stuff out.

i just didnt want to be disappointed by the book. GLR LOVED the book! he couldnt stop reading it. it changed his life and made him into the GLR we know and love. he stayed up all night reading it, then when he finished, he went right back to the first page and read it again! i can only listen to the book in 10 minute chunks. and it takes at least 40 hours to read it that way.

ok went for powerwalk, trimmed beard, charging phone. saturday. got into a 2 person table and now its grown to 8. nice.

july 1 bought WP by GLR for 16.60 total. pullin the trigger. this I think is also a better written and more powerful and effective book than MK hehehe. something that might redpill normies in other words.

got from alibris for about 2 dollars cheaper than you could find on amazon. never forget to check alibris or abebooks if youre buying books.

sheeeeit i could have got it at barnes and noble for 15.95 hehehehe. SHAME ON ME!

prob be the last hwyte power racist book i get for a while hehehe.

i really should get some more books on fixing muh own female brain gone insane.jpg  hahahaha.

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i guess the experience of reading MK has pushed me to buy what i consider to be better books – namely, my awakening and WP.

im not CRAPPING on AH. Just saying I was disappointed in THIS BOOK. he’s STILL the most important greatest man in history.

women have access to all sorts of interesting men. all across the gamut. rich men, poor men, interesting men, boring men, tall men, short men, white men, black men hahahaha. lawyers, doctors, engineers, artists, musicians, writers, poets, managers, executives, professors, chefs, entrepreneurs, politicians, men with top people skills, soldiers, military officers, police chiefs, powerful, influential, respected, somewhat famous men. huge winners as well as huge losers.

men dont NEARLY have the same access/supply/availability of women. you TAKE WHAT YOU CAN GET. fatties. mudsharks. single moms. waitresses. nursing assistants. single moms over 30 who have taken over 30 cox. women with bad tattoos. women who have terrible people skills. women who dont know how to simply be nice, pleasant, and polite.

in short, the average woman has access to much BETTER men, than the average man has access to a lesser number, AND a MUCH lower QUALITY, of WOMEN.

yeah when you put it THAT way, you can start to be a bit butthurt about it, but its REALLY just a corrolary, a natural outcome of, WOMEN ARE THE SUPPLY, MEN ARE THE DEMAND. therefore women just have to sit there and be approached by men, including the best quality men. men have to FIGHT LIKE HELL just to get ANY woman, even a low quality one.

THIS IS NATURE. THIS IS NATURAL LAW. DONT FIGHT IT. YOU CAN EITHER FIGHT IT AND COMPLAIN ABOUT IT AND BE BUTTHURT ABOUT IT AND BE A FOREVERALONE LOSER, OR YOU CAN ACCEPT IT AND HAVE AT LEAST A SLIM CHANCE IN LIFE.

ACCEPT NATURE. DONT FIGHT NATURE.

but im still kinda jelly of women that they have the option of meeting interesting Winners. If you want to improve your lot in life, it helps to hang out with winners. look at your friends. are they losers or winners.

its much easier for women to MEET WINNERS than men. i want to meet winners so one day i can become a winner.

its also very frustrating that woman have every chance to CHOOSE a WINNER, yet often they will choose a total loser – drugs, alcohol, crime, violent. you could have chosen a charming handsome masculine business executive making 200k a year! yet you chose a tattooed heroin addict! or a negro!

and im jelly because i dont have any friends, winners or losers hahahaha waawawawawawawa.

hey thats all on me. i admit thats my fault.

my one friend things are very tenuous and could go either way. he is potentially a bad influence due to a terrible alcohol problem. which has disgusted me therefore i dont make a huge effort with him. BUT when he chooses not to be a drunken degenerate, he is a good guy.

BUT i dont need to mansplain why if you want to be a winning hwyte man, you shouldnt hang out with drunken degenerates.

ive tried to sell him on the idea of porn being horrible. not sure if i made any progress but i tried hahahaha. and hes just like hell no im not gonna stop watching porn for a month, a mans gotta jerk off right? what the hell am i supposed to jerk off to, muh wife?

i mean the degen mindset goes SO FOOKING DEEP. its SAD and FRUSTRATING to see this in your friends.

i knew another guy who is a bigass winner in life, and this quality led him to move hundreds of miles away for an insanely good career job with a VERY well known company. he was a good influence to have BUT the drawback was, I always compared myself to him and felt like a huge loser, AND, probably the more real Actual Issue, was that he was a typical middle class shitlib who took every opportunity to educate whites about white privelege, structural racism, why affirmative action and reparations are necessary, why women and nonwhites are awesome, why white men are so fooking lame and bad, etc etc. so that was legitimately disgusting. but he was a decent white man, and it was FRUSTRATING that he couldnt be pulled away from his horrendous nytimes-reading antiwhite leftist marxist JOOISH BULLSHIT. i think the fact that he is a big winner at life kinda solidifies all this. like, im doing super well in life, so i MUST have the correct beliefs.

anyway all that is probably better than being a degen drunk.

well the leftist guy is a woman-loving feminist who wants to fight patriarchy and get more women in stem and business and everywhere, but he still watches porn. i guess i should have used that as my hook. youre such a huge feminist, yet……its kinda hypocritical the way you look at porn, or even have a healthy red blooded libido that makes you look at real life women as sex objects!

the porn is bad, the real life libido is GOOD and the hook I would hook onto to try to TURN him hehehehe. like good for you, you still have some real masculinity left, we can WORK with this! now lets apply that in all other areas of your life.

any rate he is a decent guy but because we were SO different we never became super close friends. also now he is 1000 miles away making 90k a year hahahaha. he will prob NEVER change his leftist ways unfort.

he is a big enough winner and masculine enough to pull a woman….but i think he is white knight enough to fall for a bad woman. that has happened before hehehe. so i hope he doesnt fall for a shitty woman, OR a nonwhite woman. and i dont think he’d have ANY problem with race mixing. which sucks hehehehe.

but yeah just like george, i really do need some more male friends ahhahaha. and not just acquaintances that i see every once in a while, but actual bona fide friends. EASIER SAID THAN DONE!

i want a SMALL house, not a TINY house, but possibly a single wide trailer would be big enough, on a BIG piece of land, in a RURAL area. plenty of forests and shit. go out back to the forest near muh house and smoke MJ hahahaha. shoot guns. homeschool muh kids. drive 500 miles a day to get to muh jooish job in the diverse city. be too tired to manage my wife and kids. wife leaves me, takes kids, kids become mudsharks and degens and losers. i get muh land and house repo’d and die of drinking in a section 8 apt hahahahaha. the end. hows that for a hwyte pilling story.

i hate driving and cars, but hwytes basically NEED cars so they can live in the COUNTRY AWAY from DIVERSITY. and you have to have SOME money so you can afford the car and gas and COMMUTE UNGODLY TIME AND DISTANCE to WORK in the diverse shitty city.

solution is obviously to get a job in the country 1 mile from your home.

EASIER SAID THAN DONE!

or get a work from home thing. that is more likely. more and more people are working from home and i see this only increasing. which is good for people like me who want to live in the middle of the BOONDOCKS.

anyway. i am kinda jelly of women who get to meet all these interesting men, then the women fook them, get bored of them, take them for granted, discard them.

shit i would be thankful to meet all these interesting people! to LEARN from them, to be a better, more successful, more interesting person myself! to learn more about engineering, law, working life, the decisions such and such a powerful person makes, etc.  i thought women were supposed to be all career oriented now. so is this your way of sampling as many careers as possible?

i mean women SHOULDNT be career oriented and they shouldnt be sampling a wide variety of ANYTHING. especially cox. or careers.

SP4NK THE SLUTS, WH1TE SH4R14 NOW!

SP1NK THEM! GROUND THEM! TAKE AWAY THEIR PHONE!

say it with me. one more time hahahaha.

so i guess houses with high ceilings stay cooler during the summer. like a house with 10 foot ceilings is way cooler than a house with 8 foot ceilings.

welp what about if you live in a colder area. do you want lower ceilings then?

i hate the cold winter and luv the warm summer. even if this is not implicitly hwyte hahaha. browns live in warm areas, hwytes live in cold areas.

well if i had to live in a cold area for a hwyte homeland, of course i would take it. i would maybe even live in the damn arctic for that.

there are nice small little houses for working class people near my area. problem is, these houses are in a TERRIBLY trashy part of town filled with hwyte heroin mudshark trash and a ton of violent blacks as well. its not as bad as living in the pure black ghetto…..but its still pretty bad. no way would i ever want to live there, let alone with wife and kids. the houses are great size, but the neighborhood is shitty and also the houses are CRAMMED next to each other. no land. just white trash and ghetto blacks living on top of each other. negros shooting their stolen guns and hitting people 3 houses down through the shitty walls.

when was the US military not jooed? obviously the US never should have joined ww2. what about ww1. was that necessary? PROBABLY NOT.

i mean all the wars and conflicts have been unneccessary. everything from at LEAST WW1 on. but this does not mean the military is unneccessary. just that its been used in a horribly jooish way. you might learn to be a man, but you have a very good chance of being sent off to die for the joos. huge gamble. prob not worth it hahahaha.

yeah but these terrible jooish wars allow many white engineers and white employees to make a good living in the Military Industrial Complex. building like tanks and MRAPs and planes and shit. BILLIONS of dollars there.

yeah well id be willing to give up those jobs if it meant no more jooish lies. i mean that is basically billions of tax dollars being stolen for jooish lies. so what if some whites make a decent living off it.

DONT LIKE WOMEN TOO MUCH. IF YOU DO, THEY WILL DO SOMETHING TO MAKE YOU NOT LIKE THEM SO MUCH.

basically dump you, break your heart, start slutting it up with blacks, and disappoint you greatly. so just don’t like them in the first place. dont put the pvssy on a PEDESTAL!!! would someone worth LIKING do those stupid disappointing degen things?

anyway. so the us military probably ruins more lives than it saves. so i could not advise going into it unless you are absolutely hopeless at age 18. at age 18 i was not hopeless at all, i had a ton of potential hehehe.

i was wondering why the netherlands, the MJ capital of the world, does not produce REAMS OF RESEARCH every year on MJ. scientific, medical research done by tons of phds and mds. its a first world country filled with first world doctors.

people always say more research needs to be done on MJ. i fully agree. so why isnt that research coming out of the netherlands?

why isnt that research coming out of colorado or washington, who have prob even more phds and mds than the netherlands?

why isnt it coming from any of the medical MJ states, which there are many, and do medical MJ studies on patients approved for medical MJ?

in other words, MJ has been legal enough for long enough that we should have all the research and SCIENCE! that we need. so why hasnt this research happened?

the only answer I could think of was that SCIENCE!! requires lots of federal grants, and FEDGOV would not be springing to FUND studies on MJ.

well how about the states then? and why not netherlands? they have super high taxes.

also how much of Scientific or Medical research is dependent on federal (tax) money????

weev sez etherium is a jooish scam, its gonna crash, sell it all NOW hehehe. invest in TEZOS instead. i have never heard of tezos but chekcing it out now haha.

ok they are doing a crowdfunding right now which is NOT a sale or presale of ACTUAL COINS. and the minimum donation is .1, which is like 260 dollars. NOPE hahaha.

i would be interested in buying like 10 or 20 dollars of actual tezos coins but that is apparently not possible. and some jooish woman is the ceo of tezos hahaha. come on weev.

http://www.investopedia.com/terms/i/initial-coin-offering-ico.asp

ok i dont know shes jooish but the name is breitmann and that is either german or jooish and i dont like women in tech, they are autistic whores.

https://www.ebay.com/b/Silver-Third-Reich-Coins-1933-1945/173648/bn_26626427

SILVER 3RD REICH COINS hehehe. why have I not bought some of these.

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http://www.ebay.com/itm/112455032772

ok i just bought this one for 11 bucks. for 5 grams of silver hahahahaha. .625 silver of an 8 gram coin.

hindenburg 2 reichsmark coin, 1937, with a hakenkreuz on the other side hehehe.

as far as being a good deal on the silver, its not at all. it is more a token hehehe. an actual 3rd reich coin from 1937 hehehehe. its probably not in the greatest condition.

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this is what it looks like. i guess its about the size of a quarter. fine.

i just hope its not in such bad condition you cant see the hakenkreuz or the word Deutsches Reich hahahahahah

then I can carry it around for good luck hehehehe

used the JR watkins body wash today. on face and scalp/hair as well. minimize the chemicalz in the head and shoulders shampoo. we will in time see if the “natural” soap is gentle enough on muh skin esp face.  and maybe miraculously muh hair will start growing in the bald spots because i stopped using head and shoulders. which makes you go bald hahahahaha. i didnt even use it every day. like once every 3 days.  no, honestly i think muh baldness is just bad luck and some sort of punishment for youthful degeneracy and sinfulness. fine. i deserve it. i’ll do my sentence. i just dont want the punishment to last THE REST OF MUH LIFE.

here something else i learned today:

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Up for auction is a German Silver art bars. This is a 1 oz. German Silver bar with the Iron Cross design. German silver actually contains no elemental silver. German silver is an alloy made up of 60% copper, 20% nickel, and 20% zinc. It gets its name from its silvery appearance. German silver is extensively used because of its hardness, toughness, and resistance to corrosion for articles such as table wear, marine fittings, and plumbing fixtures. Because of its nigh electrical resistance it is used in heating coils. This unique item makes a great addition to any collection. This also makes a great gift .

These bars come individually packaged in their own plastic case. Their is a 15% restocking fee on all returns.

PLEASE note that german silver contains 60% copper, 20% nickel, and 20% zinc only.

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http://www.ebay.com/itm/1-oz-German-Silver-Iron-Cross-Bar-rare-W-AIR-TIGHT-CASE-LOWEST-PRICE/361899819313

german silver. looks like silver i promise you. but no silver at all. they should call it jooish silver hahaha.

i get disconnected from network the second i win a big pot, so it makes it look like i am a hit and runner. what are the damn chances. i win a good pot hardly ever. but i do get disconnected all the damn time. so i guess the chances are good!

/t/nyts-new-crusade-is-kookiest-thing-so-far-tech-moguls-lynched-for-flirting-with-adult-females/117440

women in tech bitching about sexism oh god bless you anglin.

also anglins writing is at its peak here, and shows why he is one of the best living propagandists, his writing is more effective than MK, and he is my hero hahahaha.  one of the few people where i read his writing and shake my head in AMAZEMENT, that I can’t believe the POWER of what he’s saying and what the IMPACT could be if enough people in the right places with the right power heard them.

i imagine him speaking these words in a public event, which is what he SHOULD be doing.

 

great speech by mike enoch at texas is ours event. you can actually sort of hear what he is saying, and it is great. stuff like THIS could convert normies. and that is exactly what we need most. this is what anglin needs to do, because he is a good speaker too.

imho events and speeches are the best way to get propaganda across. AH was not wrong about that. enoch is a natural at it which is why i will not give up on him unless he blatantly BETRAYS the movement hal turner style. he was probably just like, wewlad, i hope i can just AVOID this whole situation abotu my wife being a half j00. (pretty sure she was just half joo. which still  sucks, but sucks half as less as a full joo hahaha.)

i mean its not like joos havent done some good things. but whites should not marry them or especially mate with them.

qualcomm atheros ar956x wireless driver. you have to download from a REAL shady unofficial site because qualcomm says you have to get them from the OEM.

installed the drivers thru device manager and it seemed to be stuck for 2 minutes installing….but then muh wireless is working again.

the true test is if it works CONSISTENTLY and i dont have to CONSTANTLY disabled and reenable it.

 

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some things about women, like their lust for POWER and BRUTE STRENGTH, is understandable. it makes sense.

other things do not make sense, like: so men get into these friendzone situations sometimes because their ideal is a qt waifu who is super qt……..BUT WHO THEY ALSO GET ALONG WITH REALLY WELL. it makes perfect sense. what if you found a totally nice qt gurl, and you ALSO got along with her really well. it doesnt take much creative thinking to see how that is an ideal situation.

but that is too much logic and common sense for women. if they get along with a guy really well, then its almost GUARANTEED that she will friendzone the guy, and NEVER EVER EVER get feelings for him.

similarly: men can get feelings for female friends over time. the feels can DEVELOP from just friends to omg im starting to like muh female friend as more than a friend.

this does not happen with women and their male friends. either the women has feelings for the man RIGHT AWAY, or they NEVER EVER WILL.

so this doesnt make a lot of sense to me. wouldnt a man you got along with really really well give you some sense of SECURITY that you could TRUST him to PROVIDE and PROTECT for you and your children? (looking at the evolutionary shit here.)

but NOoOoOoOoOoOoOo. they guy needs to have brute strength AND you cant really know him well enough to trust him. trust never enters into the picture. actually if it DOES, thats BAD. bad for the woman LIKING you I mean.

thats the kind of shit that gets me fired up. not being attracted to sissies, i get. being attracted to big strong brutes, i get. but not being able to Develop Feelings over the long term for a trusted friend, i dont get at all.

heres the other thing. maybe related.

WOMEN HAVE MUCH MORE MALE FRIENDS, THAN MEN HAVE FEMALE FRIENDS.

your typical friendzone beta will have ONE woman friend, and he will prob be in luv with her. but this one woman will have like TEN male friends, and MOST of them will be in luv with her. how cruel to string them along and give them false hope like that! no man would do that!

but jsut lookig at the numbers…..well it doesnt really add up. women have more male friends, so women should be falling in luv with their male friends MORE than men fall in luv with their female friends….

heh. forgot the point i wanted to make. besides women get too much luv and men get too little. but that makes SENSE, because sperm is dirt cheep and eggs are super expensive.

so dont get butthurt when one of the sperm gets butthurt when the expensive egg decides to go slumming and lower its price to that of sperm only for the biggest toughest most untrustworthy shady sperm hahahaha.

SPERM WARS hahahaha

sheeeeeeit

well i deleted that picture because it might be interpreted as libel or slander against TRS people hehehe. plus i dont fully believe this. i dont know what to believe. in fact it could be just another in the “TRS ARE PHAG ENABLERS” drama that has gone on forever, like with common filth.

matt forney is a fat race mixing beta but hes not jooish and i dont think hes a LIAR.  but yeah stuff like this is worse than the joowife thing. good god. also greg johnson could probably dox me if he wanted. well i never did anything against him hahaha. but these accusations are INSANE. i mean even if 10% of that is true. i would pretty much HAVE to disavow trs and get rid of muh trs shirt!

how much personal responsibility does enoch have in this? johnson? richard spencer? do you get BANNED for talking about “THE THIRD JIMPACT” on TRS? probably hahahaha.

you might even get banned on DS.

so youre saying all of the VVN alt right are in league with satanic jooish pedophile pizzamakers??!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!???!?!?!?!

of course women dont make sense! i guess we should be grateful that they make as much sense as they do, in that everything they do fits the MO of them being a retarded CHILD, and that they respond best to BRUTE STRENGTH and basically need to be DOMINATED, in that you need to show them who’s BOSS and NEVER LET THEM FORGET IT. it’s like dealing with a retarded child DOG. you dont have to ABUSE them, you just have to make sure they never forget youre boss. its like TAKING CARE of a CHILD or a DOG.

and you can understand a LOT of what they do within that framework….but not everything. and is that so suprising? men and women are SO GODDAMN DIFFERENT, its ALMOST as much as a difference between RACES.

speaks to the evil of you know who (YKW) when they try to make you think racial and sexual differences are all a social construct goy!

fook no, they are YUGE BIOLOGICAL WALLS.

yeah i would LIKE if i could just have a female friend i got along REALLY WELL with, and then we upgrade that to the next level, have a stable lifelong thing, children, etc. that makes total sense right? but not to a woman. and women just dont WORK like that. so how come men WORK in a way that just DOESNT WORK?

yeah but im defective anyway hahaha. i work in a lot of ways that just dont work well.

but yeah WHAT THE FOOK kind of drama is going on. i mean this shit makes joo wife and the associated avoiding look positively harmless. Grooming 15 year old boys for gay sex???!?!?!?!?! how much did the higher ups know? how exactly was greg stalking or harrassing people???? where is the proof of this stuff? i mean that shit is legit BAD.

i mean im a lenient forgiving guy. id even forgive a little gayness. its not as bad as the shit WOMEN do! except when it turns into gay fook parties. thats some woman-tier degeneracy right there. total sodom and gomorrah.

i mean i dont know if its as bad as jooish PIZZAGATE which itself is a whole other discussion. i mean that seems too ridiculous to even be a little bit true. well….i have no doubt that joos in DC and everywhere molest children.

that there might be rings of perverts in powerful political positions plundering puerile peepees in pizza parlours.

i just dont want the hwyte nationalists i respect to do disgusting, unrespectable, possibly evil things. some gay shenanigans is possibly forgivable. molesting children is immediate bvllet in the head in the public square.

what about fooking a 15 year old boy? i dunno. thats a little better than molesting a CHILD. definitely a few weeks in the public stockade though.

http://boards.4chan.org/pol/thread/130109850/the-3rd-jimpact-the-death-knell-for-trs

i honestly dont think anything new is coming to light. greg has been soft on gays for YEARS, everyone has thought he was a homo for YEARS.

we dont have PROOF of ghoul doing anything. maybe he went to a get together where a shady homo made up some lies.

https://www.google.com/search?q=third+jimpact

all the google results to like 8ch and 4ch and anime right and shit are giving 404s and super SHORT chan threads.

oh it must be true if TRS is getting the stuff SHUT DOWN.

that, or they dont want terrible slander posted about them!

OR, you could make an official statement about it, kinda liek you could make a speedy, official statement about joowife, which i guess was the first jimpact.

[NSFW] IMGUR ALBUM FULL OF EVIDENCE:

http://imgur.com/a/x4uSX

yeah im not super convinced by that evidence hahaha. how do we know whose dick that is.

https://altright.com/2017/06/17/the-attacks-on-arktos/

somewhat different greg vs arktos drama

its just weird that so much stuff related to the 3rd jimpact comes up in google results but the shit is taken down or very brief when you go to the actual website.

did trs contact those sites mods and say remove this shit, its LIBEL?

like i guess matt forney posted those things on gab and now those posts of his are GONE from GAB. i didnt think gab removed shit.

june 23

i just dont like women. the only woman i wanted to BE WITH was HER. And I dont see a reason Having Children with a woman, unless I feel like THAT with the woman. Seems stupid and negrish to have children with a woman when you just think of her as a casual slut because she IS a casual slut. and ive gotten to the point where I wouldnt mind having some casual sluts. but i sure wouldnt want to be monogamous with the slut, or ESPECIALLY have CHILDREN with the slut! its not fair to the CHILDREN! its negrish!!!!!

I want to have children, therefore i want to find a woman worth having children with, and im not finding any of those, just women i want to casually bang for a while and replace, which IS degenerate, but not as degen for ME NEARLY as it is for THEM. I do NOT want to have children with these women.

but 1, 2, 3 casual women? why shouldn’t I? they have 20 casual cochs! and THEY can get pregnant!

i just hate seeing what are essentially CHILDREN/DOGS winning more at life (career, jobs, money) than me. how can a CHILD make more money than me and do better in their career than me.

day off. now i dont work enough hours so i have too much time off. so i try to stay productive during some of it. like get out and do errands and shit as soon as possible.  do laundry. Fast a bit, not eat as damn much. drink bulletproof coffee hehehe.

went to walmart and returned muh white polo shirt which was the wrong size, got the right size, AND got a second polo shirt with a more fancy design. all for VERY good price.

is porn evil? YES Georgie Boy, I am glad you are making a video on this exact topic. it is total jooish depravity and degeneracy, right up there with female sluttiness. between these two jooish things the joos have done more damage than anything.

im not sure if that is a real gun, i hope it is, because guns are AWESOME.

i hope george is not going crazy but is just having a little fun with a very serious topic. there SHOULD be a EXTREME PURGE of Porn from the face of the earth.

i could care less about george being fat and having manboobs, other than i hope he loses weight as it would give him more confidence and be better for his health. the best way for any fat person to lose weight is to keep TRACK of their CALORIES and SIMPLY NOT EAT AS MUCH. this was how I lost 40 pounds over the past 1 and half years. i had gained weight because i liked to eat a LOT and i had no idea how many calories were in all that food. answer: A LOT. enough to make me gain a TON of weight.

so, just use myfitnesspal every day and OBEY IT and you WILL lose a LOT of weight George.

I will never mock or be a wiseass in the comments for George. I am a True Fan and truly Support George.

if you are reading this George, i sent you a Paypal dnation of 5 feckin dollars on or near december 25, 2016. you should have my email in there and PLZ dont DOX me!

hmm. i just learned florian geyer is involved with the jimpact podcast. now i like florian and i was pissed when he was banned from TRS. i enjoyed him a hella lot in his smart insightful comments and his participation in the nationalist review, a great podcast which needs to be brought back but it would probably not be allowed on TRS.

but yeah florian, like common filth, really saw TRS as phag enablers and this jimpact thing is really in line with that.

but maybe they really ARE phag enablers?

i am kind of a phag enabler myself. in that i will forgive a little of youthful phaggotry provided it never reached standard fook party levels of degeneracy, and that i believe female sluttishness is right up with there phaggotry in terms of moral degeneracy, AND a LOT more prevalent and destructive. because only 3% of men are homos, but at least 75% of women are sluts.

going for quick powerwalk here

welp started listening to jimpact and i am starting to think these guys just have a beef with greg and trs. but i thought greg was recently banned from trs. but that was for other stuff, not gayness, but general shady drama and his feud with daniel friberg.

so in other words its all lies and thats why these sites took it down, because this is LIBEL and SLANDER and LIES.  and shouldnt LIES be censored?

heh. if youre reading this greg, i never slandered you, so dont dox me! dont dox anyone! i dont think he’s doxed anyone, but i think that was one of the accusations. was that he might blackmail people. i havent seen any proof that he ACTUALLY blackmails people. like take this shit down or i will dox you.

so yeah. leaning towards this jimpact being BS but i will listen to it anyway.

telegony. the idea that you can fook a guy once and you sort of absorb his DNA somehow and pass it on to children you have with ANOTHER guy.

sounds ridiculous but……i guess it actually does happen with flies. but with something way more complex like humans? probably way less likely.

BUT i do believe there ARE important Mental/Emotional/Psychological effects from fooking a big black buck. basically that will psychologically impact a woman for life. she will never forget it.

so yeah. im not defending mudsharks. im just questioning whether TELEGONY is a good argument against mudsharking. there are WAY BETTER arguments against mudsharking, that dont make you look like a telegony-believing idiot hahahaha.

i mean im not saying telegony coudlnt be real. its way more believable than flat earth!!!! or lizard people!

and again it all ties back to THAT WOMAN! THATS where i get butthurt, is thinking about HER being a mudshark and a slut and fooking tons of guys and sneding noodz and getting abortions and getting knocked up by badbois. i dont care nearly as much abotu random women doing these things, other than i dont want women of my race to do degenerate things.  of course. but thinking of HER doing these degen things is REALLY REALLY unpleasant. well because i CARED about her and KNEW her more than i know some random woman. so of COURSE its worse when thinking of her doing horrible things. this only makes sense.

what sucks is that i still care about her at ALL, and she hasnt become equal to some random slut for me yet.  shows im not entirely over her yet, even though its almost the auspicious TWO YEAR mark.  so how many guys has she fooked in two years? lets just say 8. how many have been black? lets just say 4.

want to become anti-interracial fooking like me? Just imagine someone you luv breaking your heart and dumping you, and then imagine them fooking sleazy people of other races.  its a little WORSE than imagining them fooking sleazebags of the SAME race, innit?

in germany you can get ARRESTED for walking down the street and SINGING the horst wessel lied!!!!!

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/young-white-virgin-needs-husband-apply-below/115520/5

QUOTE

G-Man2h Excalibur
It’s a good vid. I think you do too much apologizing for “white knighting”, I think it’s just natural to want to preserve what’s good and pure. Though I like the pungency of the “White Shariah” meme, I actually want more emphasis on healthy male-female dynamics (re: men and women) and brotherhood (re: members of the alt-right).

For example, some things that could be added to your vid: I think you should have reminded Stell Belle about the importance of courtship, which is how the guys are supposed to prove their worth without resorting to muh dik, and also mentioned that we should stop men-shaming men who also choose to remain virgins. It takes two to tango, and while I don’t think f00king around is as psychologically harmful for men as it is for women (and may even have some benefits, in terms of getting rid of “puppy love” syndrome), ideally both would be going into marriage as virgins. Next to impossible in this porn-and-degeneracy saturated world, but still a good ideal I think. END

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/child-grooming-videos-on-youtube/115568

more of these disgusting videos, yet YT is getting more and more flagrant about banning even remotely right wing people. talk of black pigeon might be banned. sheeeit what if they banned stefan molyneux. that would be insane.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/need-advice-on-crap/115448

this kid is so dumb i think its a troll, but the good men of DS still give great advice.

anyway. its also stupid that the one woman i luved above all, gives herself up like a common slut, acts like all those common sluts who i dont give a damn about other than general disgust at their degen behavior. well SHES a degen like that to many other guy. fooking her young white ass. and she doesnt give a damn if i live or die.

OH WELL, NO ONE SAID LIFE IS FAIR!

are all women this stupid, childish, and immature? I THINK SO!

if i had a female friend who fell in luv with me, i wouldnt feel betrayed! i wouldnt stop caring if they lived or died! i would say THIS SUCKS. THIS IS UNFORTUNATE. ESPECIALLY FOR YOU!!!!!! But Im sorry. heres 50 bucks for drugs or booze or a shrink, i think we need to spend some time apart, sorry i cant luv you, good luck and god bless you. go on tinder and fook some negros or badboy musicians, you’ll forget about me real quick. have a good life, good luck to you, god bless you. DONE. thats ALL you need to say. i wouldnt even NEED a shrink to professionally say that.

and if someone doesnt give a damn about me, why should i give a damn about THEM. its frustrating. i just cant turn that off on a split second.

thing is i dont think she did either, she was just too cowardly and confuse. but i couldnt force myself on her either, because that would make me the bad guy, plus she wouldnt listen anyway.  nothing was gonna keep her from running away except me physically restraining her. if i had actually dated ie fooked her, i prob would have been more inclined to touch her in that way! ive fooked you hard 90000 times, you’re damn right im gonna keep you from leaving this room, and spank you until you dont want to run away any more!

another powerwalk. more jimpact. this fashy phaggots facebook group…i mean how many trs higher ups were in this? it doesnt sound like really any. and of course the actual gays who are openly proudly gay want you to think everyones gay. they might even lie about having gay secs with a straight guy to make people think he’s gay. so yeah im thinking this is a Tempest in a Teapot.

not saying that some elements of pizzagate arent real though. i do believe that some powerful people do some degenerate shit and some corrupt LEO’s cover it up for them.

a guy whos opinion i kinda respect at DS says that pizzagate is The Linchpin in all of Jooish perversion and zog power.

well something is clearly up with lindsey graham. i wouldnt be surpirsed if he was doing some horrible shit.

but yeah not even the jimpact accusers are saying these people are doing anything remotely connected to pizzagate.

although richard spencer might know about some scandalous shit happening in DC. there is speculation that a good looking old money rich boy like him received attention from rich gay perverts and that some big donors to movements are rich old gay men trying to buy support for homos in the right and alt-right.

someone made the very interesting argument that what world joory fears the most is a unified germany and russia. or at least they used to fear it before they were able to permanently cut germanys balls off.

but yeah i cant remember a time when germany and russia ever got along. well AH briefly had a nonaggression pact with stalin in like 1941 but i think stalin violated that.

 

sat dec 2

apr 20

the fuhrers bday hahaha. maybe this blog will be shut down by dec 2 because of all the racist stuff ive been doing hehe.

anglin case on anglins local news in ohio. roosh v writing article on anglin case and pretty much naming the J and taking anglins side. i get a popup on return of kings that says “DEUS VULT!!!” i guess roosh is now pro-hwyte alt right hahahaha.

ok kalki was the 12th avatar of vishnu or some shit or was it krishna? and so savitri devi said AH was like kalki. the DESTROYER OF FILTH. I can really identify with that. i see DESTROYING FILTH as my mission too.

420 day. happy bday fuhrer hahaha. but i just thought. its kinda weird jooish marxist countries like UK and germany and sweden havent legalized MJ yet. i mean its more legal in the US than it is in the UK.

the only job openings are for jobs SO SHITTY, like being a PATSY SCAPEGOAT FALL GUY BAGHOLDER to sit there and take abuse from angry customers your company has screwed, jobs that are like oh god theres no way i can survive even one day of this. then you stick it out in a job like that for 2 or 3 years and maybe you can move on to something better if you are a top 20% performer and not some average asshole.

its called PAYING YOUR DUES hahahaha.

and its harder than the military and jail combined. i honestly dont know why more people dont k themselves to get out of it. or join the military or intentionally go crime to get sent to jail.

i dont want to go to jail because its for scumbag negros and i dont want to get raeped in the ass.

but to sit there and take abuse all day and pathetically try to do something you dont know how to do, thats kinda like being raeped in the ass hahahaha. no not quite but it does put you on EDGE ALL DAY LONG. then when you go home youre on edge too, becasuse youre WORRIED about being on edge all day TOMORROW.

oh youre just figuring this out at age 30 hahahaha

no i was always sort of aware and afraid of it hahaha but didnt actually live it until somewhat recently. now im even MORE afraid of it!

how do peopel survive?

they become raging alcoholics and pill poppers!

then how do they keep their jobs? those bad habits will give you a hangover and affect your work performance so that youre not even AVERAGE anymore, but BELOW average!

some guy was on return of kings commenting he didnt agree with daily stormers anti  race mixing views, because he totally enjoyed banging his young indian GF who was “TWO STANDARD DEVIATIONS ABOVE AVERAGE”, when he had NEVER pulled a hwyte gurl that hot. This white guy could pull indian gurls that were HOTTER than the hwyte gurls he could pull. and Raceless Hotness was the ONLY thing he cared about.

i thought it was a little autistic. and showed that HE had no connection to his own race. and i say this as someone who also appreciates that young indian gurls can be quite good looking!

and if i could pull a good looking one, i would DEFINITELY bang.

but i would HOPE i wouldnt throw my own RACE under the bus like that guy did.

i mean im not surprised to see this Hedonistic, Pornified approach at RETURN OF KINGS!!!! I should be happy they are even turning towards a better path, being less degen. and i suppose i am. i mean these degens get a lot RIGHT about the nature of women, and how to pull women. they just have their long term goals fooked up.

Normie Jobs are so INCREDIBLY STRESSFUL, thats why SO MANY people are on benzos. xanax and valium. i never took a benzo till i got a horrendously stressful, ie normal, job. and then i was like doc you gotta give me somethign for this.

too bad i cant get MJ the same way hahaha.

i mean i would have to lie and say i had back pain. i dont really want to LIE to doctors. unless I KNEW the doctor was gonna write me a MJ rec without needing to see any medical records.

i also wouldnt LIE to a doctor to try to get opiates. Not really interested in opioids hahahaha. i mean if i could get a huge supply for cheap, yeah sure. but those things are expensive af. a pill of oxycontin you pay 1 dollar for at the pharmacy costs like 40 dollars on the street. fact. so its no suprise people can spend 1000 dollars a day on opioids. the mystery is where they get the money. they switch to HERON because HERON is CHEAPER than Oxycontin!!!!

poor georgie boy. i hope he comes back in 6 months and has good news. i think he really was/is a good guy. i dont want to watch any other forever alone, “TFL” types.  i mean its a very black pill world to explore. i dont really WANT to explore it. im not even sure how i started liking george. but it just happened. i will miss him and I hope the best for him. i wouldnt mind meeting him some day.

there is a whole internet full of foreveralones, see r/foreveralone, /r9k/, bunch of youtubers in that vein, and i just dont want to go down that road and read that stuff, i cant even read MGTOW stuff. reading hwyte power stuff is about 14333333333333333 times more positive and white pillng hehehe.

that deserves repeating hehehe. yeah i have whatever those losers have, laziness and patheticness and “untreated despair”, but being around people like that whining about it is JUST AWFUL. read hwyte power stuff instead, you will feel better about yourself. honestly better.

so what is this blog? im not sure but I do NOT consider myself part of the “FA Community.” I dont read any of that shit and I recommend that YOU do NOT read that shit. George is literally the ONLY “FA” person I liked. and i suspect he was sympathetic to WP hahaha. i mean it will CURE you FA, because you realize you’re never really ALONE, you are part of a beautiful RACE.

seeing if there are any “resources” on “depression” at DS BBS:

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/black-pilled-af/95777

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/tfw-tism/99559

ok hahaha

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/how-do-i-stop-being-a-wagecuck-and-become-a-neet/96884

QUOTE ” Start looking into collecting SSI. Get some shrink to say you have crippling depression or autism or whatever and can’t hold down a job. Get a lady doctor if you can, trust me, they’re suckers for a sob story. ”

sheeeeeeeeeeeit every so often i get this fear that because i have SUCH a hard time with the Normie Adult World Of Work, that PROVES I am DISABLED and should get DISABILITY NEETBUX because I LITERALLY CANT HOLD DOWN A NORMIE JOB. and THAT feels REAL bad man.

“loneliness is failed solitude” ooooo good one hehehehe. i mean im thankful to appreciate and enjoy being alone, i dont really feel that LONELY, until I happen to interact with other people, and them im like, dam i am awkward af, i dont know how to interact with people, its much less stressful being alone and not being reminded of muh social awkwardness, no wonder i dont have any friends and am terrible with women, hahahaha.

anyway the people on a hwyte power forum will have a MUCH better discussion about despair and trying to beat it, than the same OP on a FA type forum.

i mean this is THE BLACK PILL. no joke. all that FA stuff is SO black pill that they stop realizing how black pill it is. that is a HORRIBLE, tragic way to live life. I wouldnt say its inherently jood like porn……rather its an inherently hwyte reaction to a jood world. you become SPIRITUALLY SICK. like GLR’s SPIRITUAL SYPHILIS.

i mean theres several kinds of that too. where you GIVE IN to the degeneracy, and then where you just want to cry butthurt tears about the degeneracy, you know its bad, you know better than to actively pursue it, you KNOW its bad, thank GOD, but you feel absolutely powerless to fight it, to DO anything about it, and feel like a weak loser who has wasted your whole life, and youll never be tough or strong or courageous enough to make the changes in your like you NEED to make in order for anything to get better. for you to become a normie adult making 28k a year, working FT, being mentally TOUGH enough to Hold Down A Job, finding a decent woman, having children, being a good father.

mark steyn on tucker carlson right now. tucker is becoming a meme on DS so i might as well check him out. he is pretty good. and mark steyn is a great speaker, i have enjoyed listening to him speak for years, even if he is a BASIC BITCH joo lover neocohen hahahahahaha. but he still is a great speaker and we would all do well to listen to him and try to speak like that. be a good ORATOR.

AH was obviously a great orator but I dont speak german at all. so whos a good english language orator. GLR was pretty good. the national action in darlington guy was great. mark steyn is good even though he is not the least bit alt right.

spencer? he could be better. his voice is still kinda gay. but i think he can get better.

myself, i am horrible at speaking. publicly OR privately.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/fake-news-journalist-luke-obrien-trying-to-frame-political-activist-andrew-anglin-as-russian-agent/100472

anglin confesses every piece of dirt his enemies could possibly dig up on him. i have a mancrush on him and think he is an interesting guy and would like to read an autobiography by him. or listen to him tell his life story in 4 hours of podcast hahaha.

i will prob get this thing shut down by wordpress just for LINKING to daily stormer. it is easily one of the most badgoy sites on the entire internet. its really a miracle its managed to stay up for so long.

apr 21

http://www.nytimes.com/projects/census/2010/explorer.html

use this to help you find a place to live that is over 90% hwyte. i was surprised my area is lower 80s. and it still seems pretty good. my concerned is that arabs and albanians will be counted as hwyte.

yeah, pretty sure ARABS are counted as HWYTE. so be careful with this map.

im sure jooz are counted as hwyte but it might be good to live around middle class jooz because they will preach diversity but want to live in 90%+ hwyte areas where it is safe from nonwhyte crime and violence.

i should probably go to Hippie Drug Gathering where all the gurls do drugs and offer themselves up freely, like antifa gurl. of course you have to take huge precautions, but at least you would be banging young girls who are hopefully 7/10 at least. and really solidify your view that damn, all women really are disgusting whores who need to be physically restrained by BRUTE STENGTH, BEFORE they INEVITABLY BECOME disgusting whores who go to hippie gatherings and bang strangers.

meet up with the old friend today. expectations are managed beforehand. ideally he wouldnt drink at all. i prob wouldnt be too pissed if he drinks MODERATELY. i WILL be pissed if he gets SLOPPY drunk, and prob even MORE pissed if he wants me to blow in his damn car breathalyzer. uhhh that thing is in your car for a REASON. Yes I KNOW LE is just a bunch of jooish zog who Generate Revenue by arresting tons of people at .10 BAC. but in your case, you had way more than .10 BAC and have a legit drinkign problem. people like you are the reason they invented car breathalyzers. how the hell do you get to WORK then. you see me once in 6 months and cant even not drink before going out to a restaurant?

well MAYBE he will be on good behavior tonight. i hope he is. shit i’ll go to the jooish hooters breastaurant if he just doesnt drink for one god damn night.

i mean this is what a real drinking problem looks like. that asking a person not to get SLOPPY, RAGING, BLACKOUT drunk on ONE night out of 6 MONTHS is a hard bargain.

shit you can start drinking when I LEAVE at 11pm at the latest.

oh your wife is out of town for the weekend, shit thats gonna be the perfect excuse for him to get raging drunk all weekend too. so he doesnt have his Controlling Wife complaining about him drinking. Are You Drinking? Have You Been Drinking? When you went to the restaurant, did you drink? when you went outside, did you drink? when you went downstairs, did you drink?

and then him being obviously too drunk to speak and staggering back and forth, oh no i havent had anything to drink at all.

probably i havent been clear enough from the start that I dont want to see you drinking at all while I am here tonight. just do me that favor because i have known you like 19 years. you can drink yourself stupid when i leave.

and yeah seeing a person like that with a serious drinking prob makes me never want to drink again. because i wasnt quite that bad, but i could have totally gotten that way if i had kept drinkign for years.

i mean hes right in the middle of it, of course hes not gonna have a good perspective on it! of course hes not thinking clearly!

well they say you gotta try ang fail 9 times if you really want to quit a bad habit like drinking. or being a lazy loser neet virgin foreveralone apparently hahahaha.

anglin admitted to doing drugs as a degen youth. how much drugs did he do? well i know he was charged with MJ possession. pretty minor. Kinda wish he’d write a book about his life up to age 25 or so. living in a jungle commune in the phillippines? INTERESTING!

living in CHINA? INTERESTING! sounded like he was able to bang hwyte gurls as well as azn gurls while he was there. so was he teaching english? doing a church missionary thing? he’s not really religious atm but i thought his family was.

i KNOW he’s not my buddy pal frand, but I would be very open to that if I knew him IRL hahahaha. NO I am not gonna STALK him!!!!! i only semi stalk people on the INTERNET ONLY and only when it is a woman i fancy and thats a sure sign I should be talking to her IRL instead of daydreaming about her.

and then WANTING to internet stalk them after they dump me, and feeling terrible, but courageously managing to fight that temptation.

so yeah im really not a yuge stalker of anybody hahahaha. i am pretty good at finding people on the internet though.

but not NEAR as good as 4chan, they can dox antifa who are wearing MASKS. like the shit eating pervert who punched spencer, and the white antiwhite Ethics Professor who hit people with bike locks in berkeley. and the antifa gurl moldylocks was totally doxed within hours, but she wasnt wearing a mask. but how did 4chan do it???? especially the people with MASKS? they do it based on their EYES which I dont know how that is bulletproof evidence. not that I am DEFENDING these awful ANTIFA!!!!! im just saying, is it enough to get that shitty adjunct instructor fired?

ok. 1% vs 4% milkfat cottage cheese. which one tastes better, lets find out hahaha.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edgar_Steele

dont forget about this guy. pro-hwyte attorney, something we need a lot more of. i know OF one out in the real world at the moment, fully doxed and all, and it’s honestly kind of suspicious how he HASNT been set up yet. how has he managed to fly under the radar???!!?!?!?!

http://www.germanvictimsDOTcom/wp-content/uploads/2014/09/Defensive-Racism-By-Edgar-J-Steele.pdf

check out his famous book defensive racism,  i should read this NOW

hmm went to jail for conspiring to k his wife, thats kinda sleazy. i mean im assuming shes a sleazebag too who wanted to divorce him and take 90% of his money, which I could understand might make a person entertain the hypothetical notion, but theres still no excuse to k your wife. unless she is coming at you with a gun trying to k you and you are doing self defense.

welp gonna meet this friend here in 88 minutes. little nervous about that. maybe I will take a valium hehe. seriously. so if I did that, would that give him license to drink?

actually i could probably tolerate NORMAL moderate drinking, like average normies do. go to the bar and have 3 or 4 drinks. but he doesnt do that. he gets SO drunk that he cant even have a conversation, just mumbling incoherently, and then passes out raging drunk. you were this bad 15 minutes ago, you clearly snuck off and chugged some straight vodka or something. thats the thing I really dont like. that and making me blow into the car. at that point im like this is ridiculous, i’ll just drive.

he doesnt have any of the guilt or shame i had, where i was like i dont WANT my friends to SEE me like this! how shameful!!!

apparently now DS forum is closed to new people. you can read it but cant register. not sure how new people sign up. havent heard anything about invites or vetting.

ok leaving in 12 minutes. i will take a valium before leaving. i have historically been bad about standing up for muh self, like, do me a favor and just dont drink. dont make me blow into the car. dont get so drunk you are mumbling incoherently. i only ask those three things. but that is my line and i will not be happy if you cross that line. boundaries. hehehe. and when you cross that line, i get unhappy, and that is why i am not springing to hang out with you all the time. because i am disgusted by your extreme drinking problem.

USE YOUR WORDS hahahahaha.

however it is true i am a prickly pear and i am TERRIBLE about maintaining contact with people. that is a FACT.

but when people contact me, i usually respond to them and hang out with them even.

would i let him drink if he had an MJ card and agreed to use it to buy me MJ? PROBABLY YES hahahahaha. i really dont think he does, in fact that whole hypothetical is ridiculous.

 

 

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mar 29

ok survived the day hahaha now i am reaching my crash time of 330 pm hehehe when REALLY  should be working till 5 pm if i start at 8 am. anything less is PATHETIC.

heh well you know whats MORE pathetic, is being a jobless NEET hahaha.

whats REALLY sad is 50 year old hwyte men who are jobless neets and so they sit in the library for 8 hours a day Applying For Jobs. honestly guys. it only takes 550 applications and 320 hours to Get A Job. in other words, you should stop seeing these men after 2 months because then they will have found a job. but they DONT. this is, i fear, because the jobs just arent there, also, 50 year old hwyte men are being DISCRIMINATED against hahaha

i was trying to find some leftist thing i saw today on the shitty leftist site medium.com written by a white marxist on why no, the white working class isn’t really dying off, and if it WERE, that wouldnt be so bad, would it? but i couldnt find it, and found a bunch of other shitty leftist articles instead and “threw up a little in my mouth”.

there is this popular leftist hipster brooklyn podcast called “chapo trap house” which i guess is what all the super cool leftist kids listen to now . i guess you could listen to it if you want to Know Your Enemy. well, you don’t. you already know they are pvssy wimpy unmasculine joos. wimpy white writers who say UGH. WHITE PEOPLE. and then cant bang slutty brooklyn white writer women because they are getting used as cvm dumpsters by masculine alt right chad nationalists hahahaha. that or negros hahaha.

there was an interview with one shitlib 28 year old harvard sociology phd student who does a shitlib magazine called “Current Affairs”, and he said, the thing the alt right does better than us is that they make themselves look COOL to weird outsider kids.

he’s not wrong!

hey i say thank GOD. back when I was young, the right was losing this battle, and leftist shit joos still looked COOL to rebellious teens. now the pendulum has swung the other way. im happy about that…..but nervous about when the pendulum is just gonna swing BACK again. we wont be on top forever, lads. trvmp will sell out and or only be one term. 4 short years. we’d better have a REAL movement established by then because our fooking RACE is DYING. we dont have any more time to lose.

everything you read that was written by a woman is crazy shit. don’t read stuff written by women because THE GOOD WOMEN DONT WRITE. I wish they did! they need to make themselves HEARD just to say not all women writers are like that! not all women are like women writers!

these degenerate leftist jooed journalist wimmin writing with filthy language about all the cox theyve taken and how evil trvmp is and how abortion is so great and diversity is so great and whites are so lame and virgin men are so bad. not all women are like this!!!!!!!

but the good ones don’t write articles that get hugely upvoted and shared!

you gotta really dig to find the article by a low-number woman who enjoys her traditional life!

i mean if youre reading VICE or MEDIUM  what the fook do you THINK youre gonna find.  and there are not really lots of women on the Alt Right. not that i WANT there to be. we are still figuring out womens role hahaha. well not really. stay in back and support us. give us children. dont start drama.

but maybe you can write articles, non dramatic articles, about the joys of a traditional life. that would be some good moral support and just let us know there are good women out there.

ok heres what im thinking. these WOMEN are such good voices for the marxist joo, with this horrible marxist jooish writing they do. its clear they are true believers in this crap. no one can speak marxist jooish bullshit better than a woman. they might arguably be better than MEN at it!

so do you think a women could be equally good at writing for Our Side?

I tried to think of a good female 1433 writer and couldnt. maybe savitri devi. i dunno.  i mean who is the female GLR? or the female andrew anglin for that matter? i mean i dont think we NEED one though. that isnt womens JOB. thats MENS job. i’m just basically asking women to write some moral support articles and say keep up the good fight lads, we’ll stand by you, even the betas and omegas who dont have a woman to literally stand by you.

im not even interested in other women. i’m semi interested in BANGING young beautiful women, but I’m more interested in just FORGETTING about THAT woman. because i still want HER. want her more than other women, i and i dont want that. i would love to want another woman like that. please GOD hahahaha. and just replace that woman always and forever. stop wanting her. just forget about her.

rational response: when some beautiful young gurl is being NICE to you and showing INTEREST in you, it will be REALLY EASY to FORGET about THAT woman and to get feelings for a new woman.

and yeah about the women writers, there should be a few more women writers writing moral support articles to support the men who are out there fighting. show some god damn gratitude, especially to the men who won’t get actual gratitude from an actual woman. these are still hwyte men too, and we need THEM just as much as we need women.

i guess i just want women to show more respect to Beetas and Omegas. they way they treat you like the scum of the earth, its like a healthy man treats a dirty whore. and being a Beeta simply isnt anywhere NEAR as morally deplorable as being a flthy whore. its not even necessarily inherently immoral to be a beeta male! but these women sure treat you like it sure IS!

but yeah hwyte men need to rise up and be strong and lead again. and then they will stop being beetas and women WILL show them gratitude and loyalty. but we have to SHOW STRENGTH first. strong horse. nobody likes a weak horse.

and i have certainly failed COMPLETELY at being a STRONG man. and yeah that is frustrating.

so yeah i would say maybe some YOUNG leftists and joos cant be held liable for literally wanting to genocide the white race. because most leftists are NAIVE and dont think its about hwyte genocide, its about making a Equal World where we can all live in Social Justice. We’re not trying to EXTERMINATE HWYTE people! you sound like a crazy person when you say that!

in fact maybe just a MINORITY of jooish leftists are NOT naive and ACTUALLY realize its about hwyte genocide.

so you dont charge them with genocide or first degree mvrder, you charge them with manslaughter and sentence them to getting the fook out of our country.

didnt mean to K hwytes? oh well, youre still K’ing whytes and now you must do the time.

and here i am, i dont even want women hahahaha, i just want one particular woman i havent seen or spoken to in almost 2 years hahahah. get over it!

actually even more i wish i had a work ethic like most normies. to work 20 hours a day for years just for a CHANCE at a 30k a year job.

hint: get a engin degree and you will have an easy time getting a 30k job. electrical, mechanical, chemical. you even get a CHOICE hahaha.

and you can totally do it by age 20 or maybe even 19. this is what we need to sell to young white boys. like, younger than 14. because we want them to start COLLEGE at age 14. have the engin degree at age 18. start making 40 grand at 18. be making 80 grand by 30. damn. establish 49 employee companies and hire only whyte men. by acreage in rural areas. have the wives do a hwyte homeschool network.

shit could do homeschool college as well. shits all online anyway.

but i do think a 16 year old boy taking brick and mortal college classes with 19 year old sluts is perfect.

well, perfect is getting married to your High School Age Sweetheart. the next best thing is being a “fun project” for a 19 or 20 year old slut when you are 16.

but where you gonna meet them in engin classes, also if gurls arent going to college and becoming sluts in the first place.

easy, you meet them through their fathers when they see you as a promising young man making good money at age 18 who is looking for a nice 17 year old gurl.

i am very interested in education, but i just want to throw the whole jooed system out and start over. is there a masters degree in THAT? are there jobs in THAT? in destroying the system and starting anew? hahahaha.

well DISRUPTION is a big thing in companies now hahahahaha.

DISRUPT THE JOO.

START UP THE ROTORS.

FIRE UP THE OVENS.

you will know them by their handiwork.

funny that we goys see only their wreckage but never them themselves. so you come to hate women and hate negros and hate nonwhites when really none of them deserve your hate. father forgive them for they know not what they do hahahaha.

well, def the women dont. and the negros. pretty sure the arabs know what they are doing.

so youre saying an arab is smarter than a white woman?

NO, i’m saying that all women are easily cowed and swayed. they are natural followers.

unfort i am a natural follower as well, never was big on leading.

really i dont want to go through the STRUGGLE of MEETING somebody, getting to KNOW someone, putting in the two years to actually get to know and trust them, it takes a long time, and i already had that FAMILIARITY and TRUST and KNOWLEDGE with That Woman.

but heres the thing. me Getting To Know her didnt feel like a goddamn STRUGGLE. it happened so NATURALLY. there was no effort or heavy lifting or forcing.

and that probably contributed to me falling in luv, feeling like this was a SIGN from GOD, that she was the ONE, because i expected so much STRUGGLING getting to know a woman, as I do now, and that didnt happen at ALL. the struggling came later, in trying to deal with The End. basically just trying to confirm that i was not a horrible traitor who had done a horribly immoral thing. i had to do all those mental gymnastics myself hahahaha.

hey i admit it i was no innocent. i deserve to be ashamed for some of it, and god damn was i ever. i was a coward weakling. it LOOKED bad. and the timing was bad. i KNEW she was having some family issues and was pretty stressed about that. in the long run that is what i will feel worst about. but i will get over it hahahaha. the fact that i “waited” until she was facing something outside of her control in her family, to “spring” this on her, when she was already super stressed out about that.

but again i dont think this is betrayal or treason or warranted treating me as such.

and it was no single joo who turned her father into a muh dick hwyte negro deadbeat, but through the partially-covert actions of many joos and many accomplice goys who didnt fully realize the type of degen fatherless muh dick culture they were creating.

does anyone GO INTO education with the idea that, welp, i can’t DO, so I might as well TEACH? I think most teachers would violent protest that old Pejorative saying “if you can’t do, teach.” but i would GO INTO teaching with that defeatist attitude hahaha.

also theres a popular idea that you need ot fail to succeed. well not if you fail so god damn much that you stop wanting to TRY, or your attempts become so half-baked and half-assed that they couldn’t possibly succeed.

also i wish you could fail in the workplace more. but you cant, or then you get fired for losing the company money. thats why people are perfectionists who are afraid of failure!

maybe my dream job would be working in a Dual Enrollment program at a comm college. so i could get 14 year olds into college and not a thoroghly jooed one. def would need a masters degree for this job though. and there are damn sure not a LOT of jobs in this field hahaha.  there would be FIERCE competition amongst a group of people with masters degree in Dual Enrollment College Administration.

ideally it would be in a more rural area so as to maximize the number of Hwytes i would serve and minimize the number of nonhwytes. i dont want to HURT any nonhwytes, I just want to HELP hwytes MORE. serve and strengthen my race.

i wouldnt have to worry about any J’s because they simply dont go to these working class colleges. period.

would i h8 joos less if i knew any working class joos? if I thought there WERE any working class joos? but there ARE! though def not the norm for them. those people hahahahaha.

no more than 25% of joos are working class. and that is a VERY generous number hahahaha. prob closer to 5%. source needed hahaaha.

insanely cute and nice 18 year old hwyte girl working at local arbys hahaha. seems like a literally nice sweet uncorrupted unjooed gurl. also is 100% undeniably hwyte. nothing questionable at all in this one. if i were hanging out wiht her and she was being NICE to me AND showing that she would be interested in Monog Dating…..i would forget That Woman ever existed!!!!!

but honestly this gulr is way out of my league. when i was 20 i might have judged her for working at ARBYS hahaha. now i dont care.  i say good for her. as long as she doesnt use it as a slippery slope to degeneracy or opioid epidemic or mudsharking. if she has a good father all will be fine.

because of her nice and innocent demeanor i would assume she does has a good father. but i shouldnt do that. because That Woman had a nice and innocent demeanor, not even demeanor, she was actually nice and innocent but she had a horrible father!

anyway, i prefer nice, innocent women to bitchy, slutty women hahahaha. what a concept.

but yeah. i do hate the idea that SHE WAS TOUGHER THAN ME. she, who i held in such high regard, outcompeting me on TOUGHNESS, a quality i hold in the highest regard.

yeah but if she was REALLY actually tougher than me, she would have just told me, sorry, we’re done, you’re not a BAD GUY and i dont hate you, but I just dont feel that way, the end. we had a good run while it lasted. then i prob would have had months less of pain hahaha. had a better experience. wouldnt be so butthurt about her being TOUGHER than me.

language is powerful hahaha. lets stop calling it the jooish QUESTION and start calling it the jooish PROBLEM. daily stormer does this hahaha. so did GLR.

by page 80 in “whyte power” GLR names the J and he doesnt stop naming them after that point hahaha.

its FUNNY how the pro legalization MJ degenerates which i probably am, seem to think that MJ does not affect your driving AT ALL. they completely dismiss that out of hand the way people dismiss nazis. this is disingenuous, bad faith, and jooish af. how can you say alcohol impairs your driving but gettig blazed af doesn’t??????!!!!!!

i just want to get blazed as fook! i’ll even try not to drive hahahaha.

yeah i dont think it damages your driving ability as much as alcohol. but to say it has no effect is ridiculous. you might as well do away with dui laws hahahaha. which i might not be against hahahaha. but without dui laws i might start drinking again after like 8 years. i actually probably would.

so that proves these laws are GOOD?

i mean its terrible drunk drivers K people.

so HOW terrible is it when people have 3 drinks and then drive?

yeah but i wasnt having 3 drinks and driving. what i was doing WAS terrible, law or not.

but it is stupid you can pass out drunk in the drivers SEAT of the car and get a DUI. i actually did that once hahahaha. slept it off in the front seat. didnt have the keys in. is that a critical thing?

anyway i fully admit to drinking too much. having a medium Drinking Problem. I did it and i am not proud of it!

mar 30

found this chrome extension called onetab which sends all your tabs to one single tab which contains a list of links. the idea is so they are not running and eating up your memory with 31 tabs of jooish pron hahahaha.

really simple concept. basically have a list of your most frequently used links and then click on them to load the page rather than have them open all the time. but i like anything that can Reduce Muh Memory Footprint hahaha. OneTab. you can easily add and remove links. not add duplicate links. its basically like history or bookmarks but your top 20 pages.

and then just open like 3 or 4 tabs at a time rather than 14 hahahaha.

its EMBARASSING  I havent used this or a similar app before (there are several to choose from, i only picked onetab because it had a lot of ratings) but the chrome extention “store” is hard to browse like a power user. cant get a good buy in very well. it doesnt share out very well hahahahahaha.  cant really deep dive into there and share it out. hard to get a good buy in.

https://www.one-tab.com

try it out nd make your comp 95 times faster hahaha

i would dnate a dollar to them if they were hwyte, but they dont even beg for dnations! so they MUST be hwyte hahaha.

if you do something useful, valuable, or important, you SHOULD get paid joobux for it.

everybody likes johnny cash but we could all stand to be more familiar with the song that gave him his name:

listen to something other than ring of fire, boy named sue or hurt hahaha.

when i was a young man i played the song at a party, hope it didnt sound too shitty because i was drunk af. it certainly didnt help me get any action hahaha. but its weird. its a very SOCIAL JUSTICE, MARXIST sort of message, but I still think its a good, meaningful, sincere song. i felt it spoke to me, and also explained my own penchant for the Gloomy which i had somewhat a reputation for, hahahaha, and often wore Black, prob still do.

and i do generally agree with the social justice message of the song, that some people just get a raw deal, get shat on, and dont deserve it, and we should have sympathy for them and try to help those less fortunate.

wish i had played the song well enough to get some makeout action though hahahaha. i probably could have, but i had oneitis on some dame who wasnt the least interested hahaha. she was an ok person but i should have just avoided her. that was impossible though, i saw her EVERY DAY without even TRYING and she hung out with my friends. SAVAGE.wav.

i should have immediately gone to the shrink, changed muh major to engin, stopped drinking cold turkey, saw the shrink 2 times a week, got a nice suit, and gone to the career center every day trying to get a 28k entry level engin job. but noooooooooo.

my weekend has begun hahaha. some MJ would be ideal. instead i ate a big dinner, too many calories, and had 1 benedryl, and now 1 valium, plan on 1 more valium, and 1 more ebendryl. try not to drink too much coffee to NULLIFY it.

damn this onetab is GREAT. why didnt i do this YEARS ago. if there are 2 things i am obsessed with……..hahahaha its joos and women hahahaha. i mean tabbed browsing and Memory Usage.

i thought of doing a black metal album with great songs and great lyrics that were pretty much very fashy, alt right, VVN, 14ee, not degenerate, not morally subversive but morally upright, and very JQ  JP aware, but i would not name the j00 until the very last word of the lyrics for the album, but make sly references throughout. but wouldnt be able to be accused of being anti-semitic until that last line of lyrics was brought up because it actually use the word Joo for the first and last time to unambiguously name what i was talking about.

but i cant write good lyrics and I sure as hell cant write good music!

well thats false. i’ve written both before! just not a lot. esp in comparison with the bad and shitty and worse than mediocre!

just an idea, had no intention of actually doing it myself haha.

heh took bendryl #2 a little early. just gonna skip valium #2 and replaced it with a Benedryl. will take Benedryl #3 right before bed.

this is better than drinking. it is technically better than MJ too…..but i dont really believe that because i desperately yearn for MJ.

old GLR sneakily avoided naming the J for the first 80 pages…..i think i just said this yesterday. anyway point is, he is going fullblast on them now, thats for sure. nicely describes them as parasites and tapeworms.

heh. those son of a btiches kicked me off the TRS discord because i didnt go through the formal extreme vetting process there hahahahahaha. not that i ever used it! but discord is a potentially good chat/meeting/voice system.  might be a good way for me to Actually Socialize with people. i guess i already do that at my job, by getting better at being friendly and talking to the people there.

i guess like once a month i feel like being social hahahaha and not a total loner weirdo. the rest of the time i just want to be alone doing MJ. it was different with that woman. i liked spending time with her. it gave some hard competition to being a loner haha. made me want to reconsider that path hahaha. now i am just mainly content being a loner again. not even terribly LONELY. when i was 20, 21, etc, back then i got a lot more LONELY at the thought of being/becoming a loner. now it doesnt bother me nearly as much.

but i still might like to be somewhat less of a loner. hang out with friends a LITTLE more, and DEFINITELY have a special waifu woman. i think its much better to have a special person like that, than to not. yuge value add there.  makes life without seem very bland and boring and disappointing by comparison.

14BB hehehehe 14ee which one looks better

i might have to go back and relisten to david dukes my awakening. i listened to a lot of the audio book a few years ago and really enjoyed it. would totally recommend it. learned a lot. first learned about the evil degenerate talmud hehehe.

you can probably find a pdf or txt file on the internet hehe but its really much better just to read an actual paper book.

so whats worse? MJ prohibition, or MJ being legalized in a way where there are really really really jooish laws and taxes and regulations where people are still strongly attracted by the Black Market because the Legal Market is such a Shitty Deal? or you can go to jail for using too much hahahaha.

i mean im still wondering about the DRINKING laws. i mean yeah SHOULDNT there be laws against drunk driving, and public drunkenness, Open Intox, Open Container laws, disorderly conduct, etc.

so shouldnt legal MJ similar have a bunch of stupid strict laws? or is it better to have it be Criminalized? i dont see how i could POSSIBLY be BETTER. and its much more likely to be legalized if you can give govt and jooz a way to PROFIT off it.

i mean it doesnt take a super crafty joo to see that a lot of MONEY can be made here. follow the money. so why dont they do it? because it takes THAT long for govt and legislation to MOVE?

but the SCOTUS made gay marriage legal OVERNIGHT. couldnt they make MJ legal overnight? not that they SHOULD, but COULDNT they, and if jooz run everything, why dont they want MJ to be legal? what is the thinking here. so this proves joos dont run the US. because MJ isnt legal NOW. hahahaha.

yeah but they make money off it being illegal too.  i guess the jooish business analysts ahve crunched the numbers and determined they make more money off it being illegal than it being legal. and all the degen potheads say look at colorado making a whopping 5 million dollars a year for EDUCATION oooo this is doing SO MUCH GOOD.

of course as a born again fascist, im not so sure legalizing drugs or even just MJ is a good idea after all!

and i fully admit its for my own selfish degeneracy. it would certainly be bad for society as a whole.

besides, how many HWYTE people are going to PRISON for MJ? not a lot.  i bet even fewer blacks are going to prison for MJ. LEO probably want to bust dealers of harder drugs and just dont care about softer drugs so much.

so who do the crooked cops sell the seized drugs to? back to the mexican cartels? probably hahahaha.

how much of seized drugs are illegally sold by crooked cops? 50% of the drugs? i cant believe cops are THAT crooked hhaha. i mean i thought the drugs were SUPPOSED to be DESTROYED.

i just cant go to my local police dept and be like ay bros want to sell me some drugs?

i would be MUCH better off going to random shady negros in the shady negro area of town.

i mean i would pay a shady arab doctor extra money to give me a Non Extremely Vetted recommendation for an MMJ card. you pay extra money so they can be extra shady and say here you go, here’s a MMJ card for your insomnia and anxiety hahahahaha and i will just check chronic pain on the state application. i mean i would pay much higher than the going rate for that extra shadiness. like dirty sluts willing to suck off the doctor for more opioid pills. i wouldnt suck anybody off ever though hahaha.

mar 31

have been overeating a lot without even trying lately. so, prob will gain a few pounds. not a huge deal, but obv want to keep eye on it. friday in lent is perfect time to try a Fast hahahaha. cut cals. drinking warm coffee with butter. this is acceptable hehehe.

you could just use a folder of bookmarks in chrome to do the same thing as this onetab extension.

trying something a little diff with muh day off. instead of shooting right off to errands, i am immed doing laundry right now. will do the errands when they are either drying or out of the dryer. almost abotu to put in dryer nao.

10:55 of sleep last nite compared to the usual 7 hahaha. this is how i bring the average up to 8:30 hehehehe.

ok put stuff into dryer. havent left yet obv. just sitting here drinking butter hahaha that i wish had MJ in it!

nobody ever told me that every conversation, every PART of a conversation, every INTERACTION, every word you say, is a COMPETITION or a STRUGGLE, where if YOU don’t say something INTERESTING, or FUNNY, or VALUABLE, or USEFUL to them, or PLEASING to them, then they think you are an IDIOT or an ASSHOLE or a WEAKLING or a JOO.  or a terrible person. a child molester or a traitor or a betrayer.

my least fav are being thought of as an IDIOT, or INCOMPETENT, or a Bad Person. A Morally Weak Coward or Liar or Joo. or an Inferior MAN –  an omega male. a Bootlicker who could only pull an Inferior Woman – if any woman at all.

it doesnt matter what other people think of you……but yes it does when you are trying to impress employers, colleagues, bosses, clients, women, friends! of COURSE you care about how they perceive you!!!!!! perception is reality hahahaha.

left another encouraging comment on a new george feels video just now. good for me hahahaha but also good for HIM. he is pushing in a  good direction and i want to encourage that and see more of it.

also i think he might be sympathetic to 14BB but not want to come out and say it. which is understandable. so i want to signal to him that yep this is a good way to be bro but im not such a loose cannon that i would ever blow your cover. like come on your channel saying HH, 1433, defoo the joo etc. cuz he puts his real face out there for the whole world to see. this is pretty much totally incompatible with espousing pro-hwite views.

ok finished laundry, out of dryer. even put clothes away. so, absoutely time to go do the errands. 1240pm.

i got to thinking, all of “mental illness” is inherently jooish. and jooish are inherently mentally ill!!!!!! mental illness is the Mental Joo, basically a mindvirus mindparasite burrowing into your mind and destroying it from within. whether its derpression or anxiety, or something more serious hehehe. so yeah im not saying its not real. it’s real as fook just as these destructive parasites are real!

my bold claim is to view your own “mental illness” as a little parasite JOO that is very literally trying to personally destroy YOU and your mind and your life, and its up to you and your trusted ones to grip it and rip it out forcefully and finally!!!!!

you dont want a little hand rubbing merchant in your mind, do you!!!!?????!!?????

George’s video on JUNG is very timely, seems like a SIgn from PROVIDENCE to me!

did some quick googling on this essay only to find its very controversial hahahahaha. ie joos used it to say jung was a nazi and supported AH. shit i hope he DID! all the more reason for me to read and luv JUNG!

and all the more reason to read the essay and all the more reason to be glad that george is looking at it. probably him dogwhistling again, and i fully appreciate it, and again, im not gonna blow his cover. but the neet virgin liberatardians arent calling him a natzee yet and i dont want to clue them in. but george doesnt need these people on his side anyway. but he doesnt need people calling him a natzee right now, or ever, so i’m not gonna help them do it. as i say, his Real Life Face is Doxed, so he doesn’t need anything BAD tied to that.  so i want to be real careful with what i say to him publicly. i mean i can email him for private talks. not that i would do that more than once every 2 months hahahaha.

tired of honey nut cheerios, switching over to peanut butter crunch hahahaha. yes i know cereal is terrible. well its not as bad as pizza or ice cream or cookies or pie hehe.

http://www.philosopher.eu/others-writings/essay-on-wotan-w-nietzsche-c-g-jung/

theres the actual jung essay full text, and not a damn dissertation on why it is a nazi thing. looks like kerry bolton wrote a good thing on counter currents. which, of course, are nazis hahahahahahahahahaha. no im kidding. dr greg is a good guy and he wrote me a nice thank you note for my insultingly small donation to CC.

anyway that full essay, not sure about that translation, and DEF the formatting is fooked, with words being joined together and such. proofread that shit!

i guess david lane started his wotanism based on that essay. Will Of The 4y4an People was what he said WOTAN stands for hahahaha. no complaints here. Lane was the creator of the 14W after all! great guy! should get HIS books!

https://archive.org/details/TheJewishStrategy

by Revilo P. Oliver. I should read this hehehehe

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/brad-pitt-losing-weight-and-his-mind-after-whore-wife-ruins-his-life/95662

i am now courageous enough to return to the bbs after i made a post about a week ago, then afraid to see if people had responded to me. i havent read the thread, but i think a few people upvoted me!

but yeah AA shares muh butthurt over women at the risk of being called MGTOWish. no we are not MGTOWs, but god damn are women SO jooed that is is DISGUSTING. you cant be blamed for hating them a little bit, even when you KNOW its the j’s who made them this way. you wish they could resist the J even just a LITTLE bit and not be completely horrible people hahahaha.

http://archive.is/PfIWU

archive of Andrew’s article hehehe

QUOTE

This narrative of “you aren’t good enough for women” being reinforced by men is absolute poison. Our race is only going to continue to exist if we fix gender relations, and so anyone who promotes this type of a narrative is a traitor to the race. Anyone who sides with feminism in any way is helping to destroy our race.
So please, don’t allow this to continue.

Do not be ashamed.

If somebody claims that someone else is having trouble with women because he’s not a good enough man, call him out for supporting the feminist agenda against white men.

Nevermind the Sluts – Talk to Your Brothers and Never, Ever, Ever Man-Shame

The other big, BIG issue: don’t feel like you have to pretend you’re not having any problems with women.

Everyone is having problems with women, but we have a cultural climate where it is like saying “I HAVE A TINY DICK” to talk about it.

In fact, many men will engage in the above mentioned “man-shaming” of other white males. This is absolutely disgusting, and it is inexcusable.

It only helps the sluts.   ” END

NEVER EVER EVER EVER MAN-SHAME.

AND NEVER EVER EVER EVER BE AFRAID TO SAVAGELY SLUT-SHAME.

THANK YOU ANDREW!!!!!

i wonder if his qt hwyte gf left him and now he is sad and angry.

well, he SHOULD be sad and angry, and that only makes what he writes here even MORE correct!!!!!

read this article 10 times every day and give him your money hahahaha.

women are just 16 year old gurls, of COURSE they are gonna dump you and BLAME YOU for it!

trying to red pill your woman is like trying to red pill your DOG (or cat.) don’t try to get the dog to understand. just be a strong leader and your dog will follow you in your fight against the J’s. don’t expect them to understand. THE TYRANNY OF HIGH EXPECTATIONS hahahahaha

so really by acting like a 14 year old gurl and blaming me, That Woman acted exactly like how you’d expect a woman to act. i was naive and didnt know how to handle it. oh well. at least now i think i learned a valuable lesson about women. always be dominant. never expect more responsibility or maturity or wisdom out of them than you’d expect out of a 14 year old gurl IT’S JUST THE WAY THEY ARE.

some men would say slapping a woman in the face is every effective, i dunno, i don’t think i would ever be comfortable with that. i do think SPANKING them would be VERY effective and I would LOVE the cahnce to test that hypothesis. i mean slapping them in the face just seems TOO savage, too nonwhite. hwyte men don’t NEED to slap their woman in the FACE.

shit, negros and semites will brutally PUNCH their women in the face and bludgeon their skulls with blunt objects!

i absolutely showed no dominance whatsoever. i mean i was at a low point hahaha.

it just also really bothers me that i have to COMPETE with these 14 year old gurls for JOBS, and they get masters degree and outperform me in the workplace, sometimes doing honestly tough jobs, and being TOUGHER than me. 14 year old gurls arent TOUGH and dont WORK very hard!!!!!

anyway. i just esp like it when AA writes about women. his haters say he is a woman hater. i say he’s prob just been hurt by too many jooified, degenerate women, just like many of us. i might SPECULATE that he has had a recent drama with a woman that has left him extra hurt! which is FINE! it happens to us all, and these struggles and heartbreak build TREMENDOUS character in a man!

come on. do you know how many WOMEN are MAN haters? most of them!

but yeah i especially like when AA says never ever ever shame any man for being beta or whatever.

ol uncle varg borders on doing this. well you’re just not MAN enough to DESERVE a woman.

i will always luv uncle varg, but I am closer to AA’s POV here. like god damn, these women really ARE garbage, and we have to stand in solidarity with our white Brothers. BROES BEFORE HOES!!!!!!!!

oh youre just mad about not Getting Any.

Well, YES! a little bit. part of that is my fault sure, but a big part is WOMEN being huge sluts! or Slags, as the brits call them.

slores, sluts, slags, skanks.

i will white-knight on occasion. i just dont want to do it too much. and i never want to manshame unless the man is really actually doing something jooish or negrish or sinful or bad or bad faith and not just being a white knight niceguy lickspittle woman-loving beta. dont SHAME him for being INNOCENT.

i bet he did just get dumped hahaha. well i would be there for AA if he needed a manfrand hahahaha. i am concerned that he doesnt do enough real life socializing.  i thought he was back in the US. he could totally find decent men to hang out with, he just has to get out there. like there are TRS and DS goys even in my area and if I tried, I could probably meet up with them. but i would worry about being rejected for being a loser. or that the person would be a tattooed felon type.

so….youre makign fun of me for being an idiot for betting when i had the nut flush? why is it dumb to bet when you have the nuts and are guaranteed to win???? are you supposed to call and hope the other guy bets? how the fook was it dumb of me to bet????? youre SURPRISED that I “ACTUALLY” Bet with the nuts? am I not understanding something here?

is it stupid to bet on QUADS too? am i supposed to slowplay these all the time? heh i have been playing poker very recreationally for like 5 years and it looks like i havent learned a god damn thing about actual strategy. feels bad man.

maybe the guy was just bantzing me. everyone likes to shoot their mouth off about how they are the smartest poker expert ever.

i am playing at a higher stakes table than i like because nobody is in the lower stakes one.

i mean i dont get nut flush very often. about as often as full house or quads ahhahahahahaa. but i do get quads more often than i thought i ever would.

anyway i hope anglin is hanging out wth people rather than just sitting alone doing daily stormer stuff. a person needs to be a little social and have some friends to do real life stuff with. says ME hahahaha. if he had a GF and she was his only real life person and she dumped him, that could be extra devastating. just speculating.

you could say its stupid to get into the cult of personality but i think it’s actually natural and healthy. you read anglin’s stuff for years, you start to feel more attached to him, like you sort of KNOW him, and that they are KIND of your buddy in that you sympathize with them, want the best for them, sometimes donate money to them, and wouldnt’ mind hanging out with them sometime. doesn’t mean you stalk them. but you do kinda wonder about their life story. their family and friends and them growing up. and enough of anglins story is out there to put together something of a picture.

he says he gets along with with his parents, so that is good.

he is very tight lipped about where he is living now, and i cant blame him, because jooz have been protesting outside his father’s office lately. jooz have called and confronted both his mother and his father. disgraceful.

i know he’s not REALLY my buddy, but i have the greatest respect for him and want the best for him. and that includes being happy in his social life and luv life. i dont want him to be a friendless foreveralone! I guess you could say I CARE about him!

but yeah i dont have any sick fantasies or delusions that he is my buddy or anything.

i just think that when a person puts themself out there like that, they can’t blame other people for getting a little bit attached to them. like mike enoch saying you dont know me, you’re not my buddy, i’m just a guy with a microphone, i’m not a leader. when you start to get FANS and people listening to your content regularly, then yeah to me thats a kind of social contract. you are SOMEWHAT responsible to your fans. i mean, you WANTED people to LISTEN to you, right? you cant just shit on your audience.

not that mike REALLY did that. well, he sorta said some of those things haha.

shit im not even sure what anglin’s position is on all this. maybe he would try to WEASEL about being “held to a higher standard just because i am the creator of daily stormer.”

heh. just saying if I were the creator of the daily stormer, i’d kinda EXPECT to be held to a higher standard than some autist troll in the comments!!!

 

 

 

wed oct 11

feb 26

looking for a full concert of maiden with good sound quality and hopefully good video, and from the last 5-10 years. this seems promising. nicko looks terrible but is playing great. bruce is very high energy. steve harris is very high energy and i love his aggressive attack on the bass. i think its so lame when bass players use a Pick and i am glad he has never done that.  wow bruce has more energy at 55 years old than i do at a somewhat younger age hahahaha.

nearly 2 hour set. i hope they take a break in the middle hahahaha. they deserve it. god damn why did i miss maiden in 2016? or was in 2015? i was in a terrible state in 15 but seeing them would def lift my spirits. lifts muh spirits just watching this vid.

i dont even mind that bruce uses a few too many f bombs during his banter. hes excited. i would be too. not a bad way to be, being bruce. bruce almighty hahahahaha. no i didnt come up with that, thats a well known term of endearment for bruce in the community.

thats the other great thing about maiden fans, is the very strong sense of community, camaraderie, that i dont really see as much with a band like priest.

maiden fans are best fans hahahaha.  i would be glad to be part of that group.

GEORGE Feels may be going on hiatus as announced in his brand new “goodbye” video. left him another comment, 2 comments in 2 days hahahaha. again tried to express my support for him, and best wishes, and that he is welcome to email me. i think it would be good to get away from youtube, that has got to be draining and stressful. that is like me going on youtube and talking about UFMLL shit and showing my face. i could never do that. i need the comfort level of just being faceless words with all comments closed. i mean i WOULD like to do speaking stuff at some point because i think speaking is better than writing, but i just dont know the best way to do this. maybe a “lighter” and less TMI version of this blog and i certainly wouldnt show my face?

there are so many Old Rockers with long hair. now long hair is great but the hard truth of life is, like half of men lose their hair. therefore, its probably many of these guys are taking rogaine or some shit. i would almost rather they just go bald. you can always grow your remaining hair long and be all bald on top hahahaha.

19.9 BMI. this probably means i am not fat hahahahaha. i mean not in shape enough to attract a women because i have too many other deficits, but i am not doing it for women, i am doing it for myself, and kinda for my RACE. it does not BEFIT a decent hwyte man to be FAT.

sheeeeit got onto another slippery slope today cuz i thought i was above it. looked up the company which i heard That Woman worked at as of around summer 2016. found they basically have one headquarters which would be the building in the area she would work at. found a xmas holidays photo of the company, xmas 2016 time, with like 50 people in group photo in the foyer or whatever. on company facebook page. looked at the picture and tried to find her in there. found one woman that could be her but the picture is honestly a bit too fuzzy to tell. so i zoomed in 300 percent on this one woman and was like, is that her, or just a woman that kinda looks like her in a kinda fuzzy blown up photo? is her hair the right length and the right texture? would she wear something like that? i never saw her dress in anything “businessy” which it looked like some people were semi dressed up for the holiday party.

would she even be invited to the holiday party? do they have another office somewhere which they dont advertise where all the underlings work? would they invite her? is she an underling or not?

where we used to work we could essentially dress like slobs because we didnt face the customers, just phones. many people did dress like fat slobs. didnt really blame them, it was a soul crushing job and many people were stressed and depressed. i tried not to dress like a slob because i dont like doing that in general, but i didnt really rise to the level of “business casual” either. i mean you could wear jeans and hoodies and sneakers and tshirts. i never saw her dress up semi-nice for a semi-business work setting. im sure she would look beautiful hahahahahahahahaha.

now im tempted to look at the picture for a third time to convince myself its NOT her. i dont even know that she still works there. maybe the guy who told me got the company wrong. got it confused with a different person or a diff company. maybe if she did work there, she left before december 2016. maybe she wasnt at that event or in that picture. again, there was only the one person out of 50 who even remotely looked like her. not a high res picture, at a distance, to capture a large group of people.

i also went through a few of there recent youtube videos to see if i could hear her voice talking on the presentations. i did not.

i did not spend too much time doing all of this, when i realized, this is a god damn slippery slope that is worse than that pseudo-porno i looked at the other day with mattress gurl hahahahaha.

now im still tempted. because i want to prove its NOT her. or do i REALLY want to prove it IS her?

the WORST CASE scenario would be to do some google and facebook and instagram and okcupid stalking on her actual NAME. maybe i would find shes actually working somewhere else. maybe i would find that she is dead. good lord.

anyway, its good that i didnt spend too much time on that, and i should NOT try anything else of the sort.

i usually make burgers in the oven. nice big third pound burgers. then put them in the freezer and take one out the night before i plan eating it. they are big protein filled burgers. I also freeze them with the bun, each in a baggie. i scrape off a large part of the bun to make it as thin as possible without falling apart, because the wheaty joo is about the most useless food ever, full of empty goddamn calories. but i still want some sort of bun on muh burger or sammich. so i feel these Thin Buns are the perfect solution. i mean i have been doing this for a few months and the pounds have been melting off. i am the thinnest i have been since i was like 21. damn. so i am happy and grateful and proud about that at least.

but i am getting sick of burgers so i decided i was in the mood for a Meatball Sub. so i made a bunch of nice sized 2.5 oz meatballs in the oven. got some mini sub buns, total wheat joo here, and scraped them down until they were much thinner. put on 2.5 of the 2.5 oz meatballs on. which is like 6.2 oz of pure glorious beef, by far my favorite miracle superfood. put a small amount of cheese on and some tomato sauce. trying to mimic the classic subway meatball sub. it turned out pretty good but kinda messy. i will glady eat the rest of them all up. ate one today and made 5 more, put them in the freezer. freeze them with the buns and the cheese, but will put the tomato sauce on them later, when i heat them up, just cuz the sauce is the messiest part. the meatballs themselves came out really good and will def make again. 2.5 to 3 oz balls. usually use 80 20 beef but when i went to the store they only had 72 25 beef. not a problem, i do like the animal fat. gives flavor and its good for you hahahaha. of course there is a decent amount of melted fat in the pan when im done so i drain it, but of course some still seeps into the beef, which is fine by me. makes for nice juicy beef.

so that was nice. the sub buns were stupid thick so i had to scrape a lot of bread off them. literally scraping worthless calories away. compare to the beef, which i consider to be not worthless calories at all. worthwhile.

had social event last night. never go to these, so i rarely get invited, but this time i said nope i gonna do it, it would be a nice signal by me. took valium before going out to bar. was pretty nervous. got in there and then things were pretty ok. people were surprised but pleasantly so that i came out. i said i was happy to come, i would like to come to more of these things, i just dont like loud bars on saturday night, so thats why i dont come out every week or every month hahaha. but i will drink soda and cheer you on for karaoke and celebrate all the good stuff going on.

so yeah that was ultimately a very positive thing. i hate bars because they are so loud and crowded, and if somebody talks to me, i can never understand what they are saying cuz its so loud, and other people dont seem to have problem shouting conversations in loud bars, but i sure do. but i might be overestimating this, and they know its loud, and they dont EXPECT to have an in depth conversation while loud karaoke is going on, so you just have fun watching that. and i do generally like karaoke. its a fun thing that makes drinking fun hahaha. ive done it before when i was raging drunk and it was pretty fun.

never did it when not drinking. i would kinda like to, but also very nervous and doubtful. cant pick a bad song. got to study some people there and saw good and bad songs. most were actually good. i didnt know many of the country songs but they still seemed like good karaoke songs.

you have to pick a song shorter than 4 minutes, it has to be a song most people know, it has to be a fun kinda song people can sing while drinking.

i had a few candidates i’ve mentioned recently: danzig mother, dio holy diver, would love to do some maiden but i cant do god damn 14 minute rime of the ancient mariner. leaning towards children of the damned but that is kind of a deep cut. maybe hallowed be thy name but its too LONG. maybe seventh son but its too LONG, but it could work if i cut it in half, theres no singing in the second half anyway.

some drunk guy sang jewel foolish games, he had a good karaoke sense, also did drowning pool bodies and the titanic love song my heart will go on hahahaha. you have to have a sense of humor.

so my thought of meat loaf ill do antyhing for love IS a great candidate, and no one sang that.

i mean you cant go up there and sing burzum or darkthrone or shit.

pantera maybe. i hear walk is a semi popular karaoke song.

country songs about partying or drinking are good. sentimental songs about makin luv are good. one guy sang darius rucker who has a great voice but i dont know any of his post-hootie songs hahahaha. and i would want to sing a song i didnt KNOW! but if youre sloppy drunk, its not a problem.

one sloppy drunk woman did war pigs, which is a CLASSIC, GREAT, TOPKEK song……but a terrible choice for karaoke because its too long.

 

 

 

YOU WANT TO HELP BUT YOU CAN ONLY HARM

feb 25

this is happening right now. quickly watched the speeches by Muh Woes, RZP, and Fat Forney. Woes was great and looked 600000 times more presentable than at NPI. he lost weight and was wearing a Dress Shirt and had a great speech where he mentioned the 14 words several times. MUH N1GG4.

RZP had a good speech where he showed himself to be very J aware and well read, though still maintaining his sense of humor. I just dont like 4 minute videos that are more jokes than substance. but he seems to be moving away from that. i resubbed to his channel after watching hahahaha.

Forney surprised me and had a great speech, getting passionate at times. he def gets mocked and and bullied by TRS but I thought his speech was really good. he mentioned his progression into becoming more pro-white than he was in the mala fide days (and I enjoyed IMF back in the day.) at this rate he is not far from potentially disavowing the more degenerate of his older books. still needs to lose weight though. maybe then a black suit would look better. but i am damn tempted to reinstate muh patreon dnation to him after this one. good job forney. give him a little credit on this.

oh god bless you george, i think he is making a breakthrough right now, at long last. he is developing a real sense of humor and confidence.

this is the video he’s referring to which he dd just previously.

I was moved to send him what I thought was a friendly and supporting message to encourage him on what seems to be a really positive turn for george. i really want to see him succeed because me and him are very very much alike, have fought with very very similar issues.

i think this is the correct song order.

saturday “morning”, the time is right for this maiden LIVE album. 1984 ish, the height of their game. regretting more and more not seeing them live on book of souls tour. hope there is a next time, maiden is now officially on The Concert Bucket List. Period.

one of my serious worries is that i will hurt people rather than help them, when I am coming at them with 6000000000% Good Faith and Will to help them. I want to help neets and losers and people like me and George. I very rarely reach out and communicate with these people. When I do, it’s only out of the will to support and encourage and help them. I would be absolutely devastated if my efforts had a NEGATIVE effect on them. I HATE being a BAD INFLUENCE on people, in short, because that’s the last thing I want to be. I want to be a GOOD influence on them.

but it’s hard because of my own issues, I CAN potentially be a negative influence on people without even trying, certainly without wanting. It DEVASTATED me to think i was a negative influence on That Woman and made her life worse, when she was a good influence on me and made my life better. I wanted to do the same thing to her.

thank GOD I am over that, but the same sentiment applies to anyone I know in real life. my few friends and acquaintances. i dont want to be a Toxic Person that they are better off cutting me out of their lives. and especially when I make an effort to be a supportive and friendly. I don’t want them to say, welp he means well but he’s just not good enough.

possibly even worse is if they DO take my input seriously, but then misunderstand it, misinterpret it, and do bad things. thankfully i dont really have any examples of that.

something in Woes’s video on milo, he had a tangent that mentioned that some men might want to be mentors and helpers to younger people. help and guide and improve them. But maybe the mentor is in such a shitty state that even though he WANTS to help, it would STILL be a BAD idea for the “mentee” to listen to them. meaning its BEST for you to NOT EVEN TRY TO HELP people, because when you TRY to HELP people, you just end up HURTING them. as someone who WANTS TO HELP people, this worry is very very very troubling indeed. which is prob why i don’t Reach Out to people who need help. and why I consciously distance myself from communicating directly with the intended audience of this blog – hwyte men who NEED HELP.

but also even more of a priority than helping others is helping MYSELF first. doctor cure thyself first hahahaha. but at the same time, i DO totally see myself as POTENTIALLY being helpful to others in similar positions, even though I’m not a full blown winner yet, and probably wont be until I am 50, if ever.

but I don’t want to totally BAN myself from EVEN TRYING TO HELP people. if the opportunity is there, I want to be able to do it, and actually succeed.

again, not a HUGE worry because it actually hasn’t happened. The closest thing i’ve actually experienced is having friends I really liked and respected, and wanting to improve their lives the way that they improved mine……and failing, because ultimately I wasn’t a “good fit” with them. like with That Woman.

or, 10 years ago, I was a total degenerate, drinking and MJ’ing and being a total punk loser, but I STILL had good friends. good, positive people. but I was the bad boy. they might have joked that I was a bad influence on them, corrupting the youth, turning younger kids into MJ heads or cynical nihilists. I knew they were partially joking, but I always worried about the kernel of truth there. I mean they didn’t Reject me and say get away from me you loser, so I realize I was probably more of a good influence than a bad influence. but even just the idea that I could be a bad influence at all. that really sits badly with me and is prob one of the more effective motivators to improve myself. but god damn that has been a long, long, long, slow baby steps struggle lasting well over 10 years and will prob last 20 years at least. bringing me WELL into the second half of my LIFE, which I am close to entering right now. god damn.

like it felt really good to Communicate with George just as he seems to be Turning His Life Around. then I got hit with the doubt that he might not need my help, not WANT my help, and just find me useless at best, and actively harmful at worst.

cuz i could see myself Helping People for a Living, and I would hate to be in that position and FAIL COMPLETELY at it. To want and try to help them, but just end up hurting them.

i know this is a very real thing for social workers and therapists and shrinks and teachers and people whose job it is to help people, who really WANT to help people. they end up taking shit too personally. it boils down to the fact that you can never MAKE someone do ANYTHING. you can lead the horse to water but cant make them drink. period. but you also cant HELP but take it personally when you’ve tried so hard to help them. its a similar situation with muh fam. they’ve tried so hard to help me……but nothing worked. thankfully I have made more of a conscious effort to “pay them back” for their valiant, heroic efforts, to send the message that even if i didn’t turn out too well, I still appreciate their heroic, self-sacrificing efforts. any other kid would have turned out to be a huge success, but i was always a bad seed i guess.

but thats a horrible view of muh self. i really really feel like a bad seed but, just like George, i do have a good side. it can just be REALLY HARD to FIND and to encourage in yourself. to feel the good dog and NOT feed the bad dog, to use that old very very very very TRUE cliche. I’ve fed the bad dog so much, i dont even know what the good dog looks like or where he is. the good dog has become an unknown unknown hahahahahaha. but thats not totally true, i know my good dog involves my desire to help people like i said above. and to be a nice moral person who wants to help people, to help children, to be a good person and not a lazy loser degenerate.

you totally can lose track of your good dog, not have contact with him for months or years. so it really IS an empowering thing to finally stumble upon the good dog again. but you gotta hold on to him, feed him, and not let him go. I am sort of doing this and George seems to finally have found his good dog for the first time in a while. maybe reminds me that I have a good dog in myself too, we ALL do. even fookin nonwhytes. but ESPECIALLY hwytes hahahahaha.

ok i have pre emptively moved this into the topkek posts page because these are very important points. serious shit. but i think i am done being serious today, so back to the SHITPOSTING hahahahaha.

was a pill popping maniac yesterday, which yes, IS degenerate. 3 valiums and 2 benedryls. crashed into bed around 130 am, having got up at 5am the previous day. slept pretty solidly to about 12pm and then have been eckbearding today….well sorta. watched some great yt vids, wrote a very nice thing to george, wrote a qualitypost above, so really the neckbearding starts now. but its already 4pm . feels more like 1 pm hahaha. this is what happens when you stay up late and get up late.

would like to do a powerwalk but it might be too cold out there, coldest its been all week. cold and windy. not a good comvo hahahah.

got a social thing today starting at the late hour of 10 pm. will prob take 1 valium before leaving. ideally would sing a good karaoke song. actually ideally i would find some degenerate at the bar and buy 20 dollars of MJ off him hahaha. its actually not impossible. also contribute 20 dollars of goodwill to the group bar tab as several achievements are being celebrated. and ive been wanting to go to more social events and not look like an aloof antisocial prick. i dont have to stay longer than 2 hours. no one is asking me to close down the bar, although the others prob will hahahaha.

hahaha it looks like well known swedish black metal band marduk is now being PROTESTED by ANTIFA on some 2017 US shows because they think they are NAZIS hahahaha. i have been on the fence about making an effort to see marduk. i mean i really SHOULD, im sure its a GREAT metal show,and ive never seen them, and have sorta wanted to for years. they have a good aesthetic of christraeping black metal and i like their brutal blasting and i like that their Aesthetic has become gradually more “FASCIST” over the years, that is much better than satanic bullshit. naturally the antifa see this and think they are nazis. Which i would be thrilled if they WERE! but now i’m hoping marduk doesnt CUCK and make a statement like “we are a nonpolitical band who is totally anti racist and anti fascist, we welcome fans of all races. we just like ww2 stuff in our Brutal Aesthetic.” i mean the same thing happened to SLAYER. i cant remember if they made any Cucky Walkback statements. Pretty weak to see Toughguy metal bands doing Cucky Tolerance and Diversity stuff. to my knowledge, marduk hasn’t said a damn word and I hope they keep it that way and just continue playing brutal shows and this makes me want to see them more.

my main problem with them is , i want to like them and i’ve TRIED to like them for YEARS, but its SO hard to sit through an entire album without getting bored. the best would be a greatest hits album or a greatest hits concert. i dont doubt the concerts are great. i really should go. but stay away from all the degenerate drug and alcohol nihilist metalheads. shit some TRVE FASCISM would give their lives some direction and make them MUCH better people.

or the antifa complained that morgan from marduk didn’t roundly condemn varg vikernes when varg was arrested about 3 years ago for hate speech or something (later charges were dropped thankfully.) morgan said thats good they were dropped, this is a ridiculous violation of freeze peach. of course antifa hate that. means youre supporting a neo nazi.

they even bring up the fact that supporting band on tour incantation had a Ebil Nazi in their band 15 years ago.  I have seen incantation live more than any other death metal band, they put on a GREAT show every time. most of their albums are boring though. except for the old ones with the nazi singer. he has an EXCELLENT voice. and yes he is pretty much a much biger nazi than marduk ever will be hahahaha. and i love it! I say good for him! i’m surprised he doesnt get more pushback. but his current band disma has been banned from tours recently. they dont even say racist stuff. they just have craig pillard with his best death metal vocals ever. I enjoyed their album. I luv pillard’s voice, one of muh fav DM singers. and i LUV that he LUVS HIS RACE OPENLY. I STAND WITH CRAIG PILLARD hahahahaha. If I ever see you craigy I will buy you lunch and try to have an important conversation about race with you hahahahaha.  but yeah i’m not much into death metal. just iron maiden and black metal hahahaha.  and ALWAYS open to alt right, pro hwyte, racist music. hard to find GOOD ones there tho. greyfield stray is explicity alt right and post on TRS  but they/he are….. alternative prog rock? I should try listening more.

ok go to grocery store at 8pm. checked the google maps for a drop off in busy time. prefer to go to store on fridays not saturdays but working normies HAVE to go on sat or sun. and god have mercy on the poor souls who have to WORK at the grocery store on the weekends!!!!!!

yeah i would luv to sc0re a 20 dolla thing of MJ from some guy at the bar hahahaha. i mean it is a good bar. pretty much explicitly hwyte. always comments about how there’s never any blacks and are blacks even ALLOWED here? so yeah its pretty much the best bar ever, but still all the hwytes get degenerately drunk and bang barsluts.

but it is tech fun to watch karaoke. just too stressful to be put on the spot and have people goading you to do karaoke when you dont have a good song prepared, and youre not raging drunk because you dont drink anymore, in contrast to all the people around you getting raging drunk and partying and having a great time.

oh shit the lyrics of iron maiden’s “run to the hills” are explicitly anti-white, written from the perspective of Natives who were killed by the evil white conquistadores from across the sea.  well that’s what im getting out of the lyrics i can discern.

well i’ll let it slide because i dont think this is indicative of where their beliefs are at, i think they were just kind of doing a fantasy LARP as natives, i don’t know WHY, but they dont seem to do it regularly, and also it’s a pretty overrated song, never one of my favorites, pretty forgettable as far as their hits go hahahaha. just dont do it again guys.

and on a whole, iron maidens lyrics have NEVER been really IDEOLOGICAL or POLITICAL. which I wouldnt have a problem if they were ideological in the right way hahahahaha.

i also have this fantasy, this hope, that maiden was less degenerate than other bands like priest. they didnt do as much coke, they didnt drink themselves stupid as much, they didnt bang as many filthy whores, they actually had enough pride to not perform sloppy concerts while fooked up on drugs and alcohol and half assing it for the working slobs paying to see a good show.

like when i was a young lad going to pantera concerts (wow does that make me feel OLD), they were often shitty drunk. i thought that was awesome, as I glorified the degen behavior they showed in their “watch it go” video, where they made being a drunk degenerate look like the most fun in the world.

to their credit the band still sounded tight as shit and i guess darrell was capable of playing perfectly despite having an 80% BAC hahahaha. but phil was always sloppy and fooking hostile hahahaha. he was not at his finest. of course i thought this made him a huge badass, but now i’m mature enough to realize its disrespectful to himself, his band, and the fans.

but yeah it was ultimately horrible for me to think that pantera was so cool the way they partied like degen animal N3GR0ES. I just didnt view it like that. it was more like, god damn its awesome and fun to be raging drunk as much as possible!!!!!!!!

i dont blame them for my own degeneracy…..but that was not a good example for me to be following. i really wish i knew better.

ok now looking for iron maiden tributes, pref with more “heavy” bands and less gay bands hahahaha. i would even listen to metallica doing tribute as long as they are not being super gay hahaha. the remember tomorrow cover does sound ok. i know opeth did a cover of this song too. never my fav maiden song to begin with hahaha.

there are some good bands in here like evoken and morgion for example. and angel corpse!!!! solitude aeternus is not bad. absu is ok, vital remains is probably listenable haha. i think i saw them live. probably with incantation hahahaha. who is of course the much better DM band and they should do some maiden covers.

morgion was a VERY UNDERRATED band and i would luv to see them come back. I discovered them when I was YOUNG and that was one of the better musical taste decisions I made at that age. the solinari album is a timeless classic.

homeowners insurance. zillow IMPLIES that it adds a pretty big amount to your monthly mortgage payment. do you HAVE to get the insurance? is it a complete jooish scam bullshit with no benefits, like CAR insurance, which i spent a decent amount of money on, but get NO benefit from it, even if, ESPECIALLY if i were to get in a car accident? im only buying the “cheapest”, most useless insurance, because i legally HAVE to, and it is a TERRIBLE deal. its very expensive and get no value out of it. getting SCREWED. this is why literally TONS of people just dont buy car insurance and drive without insurance. because they simply cant AFFORD the legal bare MINIMUM. is home insurance like that?

because i see a house for sale for 6000 dollars and im like hmmmm.

also i dont like the idea of this iron maidens female tribute band. the picture i saw showed an honestly VERY attractive white guitar player with her tits hanging out like a whore. it would be a lot better if they didnt dress all SEXY aka SLUTTY. that is not good for a hwyte woman to do. any woman really but hwyte women are MY women and I want to defend their honor and not have them throw it all away.

also do not trust women who play in bands. i used to think it was cool. like oh thats a Cool Chick. then i realized cool just meant crazy af and would prob have no problem throwing you away like a piece of garbage and being cold and cruel to you with crazy bullshit. but probably being very wild and secsy in the bedroom. dont stick your dick in crazy. ever. unless your heart is cold as ice and you are willing to throw her away before she throws you away. and its never good for people to throw people away. so just dont do it.

 

 

IRON MAIDEN EVERY DAY KEEPS THE DOCTOR AWAY

feb 22

milo resigning. i think i already mentioned this. as trs says, we didnt realize the MSM lugenpresse thought pedophilia was a bad thing hahahaha. i guess they hate rightists even MORE than they LUV joos and degeneracy! wow!

taing benedryl today, did not sleep well last night unfort. today got a new project, well, technically was reminded of an old project that i forgot about. basically i need to “Create Some Documentation” for this device that I dont know how to use, so I have to figure out how to use it, write up some FAQs and How Tos and Fact Sheet and a report or something. produce our own documentation on how to use this thing. i can def source heavily from the manufacturer. big part of it is also teaching myself how to use android and ios, which is hilarious that ive never owned a smart phone,. basically every random normie 80 IQ is an expert at android OR ios because every normie has a phone! i do not have a smart phone so all this is news to me.

i dont see the value in the device. i think its too expensive and no one uses it because no one knows how. well….other people in our office do, but we gotta essentially try to SELL IT to our “clients”, and i use these terms very loosely. i dont REALLY need to SELL this overpriced thing. weve already wasted the money on it. now we just gotta convince people to use it. which imho is tricky enough. and imho there is easier, cheaper ways of doing a similar thing. real weird position to have a budget to by Tech Toys no one really NEEDS and then convince them to get Value out of it hahaha. and i cant really tell muh manager yeah no ones gonna use this, just cancel our subscription when this year is up because its a waste of money. but i should try to find some Usage Stats and include that in my Report. be like hey this thing is being used once a year and its costing us 200 dollars a year.

basically just busywork makework, not really adding value. real adding value would be never buying the thing in the first place!

its just WEIRD to be in this position, never expected to be in a place that was this FLUSH with CASH to spend on shit you dont really need, rather than trying to CUT COSTS EVERYWHERE and sending people home early and doing away with Quality.  but thankfully The Union wont let them send people home early, guarantees people X number of hours a week.

i am still learning the basics, like how our department adds any value at all. why are we NEEDED. just fire everyone and we could still get out a low quality product. does quality really matter THAT much? was the bad lesson i learned from my prevous job.

and the answer obviously is, YES IT DOES, when your product means fixing broken shit, and you don’t fix it.

but here we’re not really fixing shit. we are basically window dressing on a product that could get by without us. it would be a lot less presentable, but it would prob still SELL, and would still WORK. its like buying a kia vs a cadillac. do our Customers really need Cadillacs? well they arent really paying cadillac prices though. so where the hell do we get this money? other departments get federal grants. we could very possibly get fed grants but i cant name them. always forget to ask about that. i should ask about it. show the manager that i care how shit is run hahahaha. not that i want to take his job, not that I COULD, but to show I Think Like A Leader.

ok did some more at-home work on muh job project. going to bed at 8 instead of 7 because 7 was too early yesterday. took 2 benedryls tho today: one at 3ish, another at 5ish.

George is up to video FIVE on his 20 minute q and a responses. he’s HAD to have answered my questions in there, mentioned me. I am SCARED to listen. I might give it a few more weeks till I am less scared. he can email me if he wants, he has muh topkek topsecret email.

GOOD GOD I got an email from GREG JOHNSON hahahahaha personally thanking me for a donation I gave in december. Actually TWO emails ten days apart. WTF do I even say to that. I quickly send him a blabbering message back saying no, thank YOU, hahaha. I was just surprised that he’d send me an email for a damn paltry 5 dollar donation! What a Top Goy!!!!

Greg Johnson. Grindr Greggy, sending ME an email, hahaha, thats just ridiculous. I dont even care if hes a gay hahahahaha. guy’s done some great, unimpeachable work, and he was one of the first people I read when getting into This Huhwyte thing.

feb 23

greg johnson. say what you will about his private life, but that was a very HUHWHYTE thing of him to do, thank widdle ol neet me for a goddam 5 dollar dnation. just for that I will visit CC for the first time in months, find a great new interview hes doing with kievsky, one of muh oldskool fav guys, and think seriously about getting gregs nice hwyte country book. he is a great writer in addition to a good speaker/conversationalist.

real good guy greg hahahaha. does anybody even remember that meme. its still a good meme.

steve bannon speaking at cpac. nice. i would like to hear alot more of bannon speaking. not because i’m suspicious of him, but i think i would really like him even more than i expected. but shit, if he is suspicious, id want to know about that too. i just hope he is a YUGE badass, and unfort we often forget he’s there. never forget!

HAVE YOU LISTENED TO YOUR DAILY DOSE OF IRON MAIDEN TODAY?

I was not joking when I said IRON MAIDEN EVERY DAY KEEPS THE DOCTOR AWAY. it IMPROVES YOUR HEALTH.

This was actually the second Maiden album I ever got, after “Powerslave.” I saw Killers in the used CD section and got it. Not sure if I realized Dianno was on it. at any rate, he sounds GREAT. it’s pointless to compare him and bruce. both are great. ok, bruce is better, but i don’t think bruce would have fit on this album, and I think dianno could have have a good effort on later maiden. he has a great, masculine voice, brings out the masculine energy of the music very well. more of a tough guy than bruce. i mean i hate to say he’s MORE masculine because bruce is pretty damn masculine.

havent listened enough to the debut but killers seems to be the way stronger dianno album.

and it more than accomplishes the Health Benefits of Maiden: ie, Upping Your Confidence. UP THE IRONS, UP YOUR CONFIDENCE. high-energy, feel-good, masculine, confident, pulse-pounding music that makes you feel very alive. hard rocking. no mopey navel gazing. no negative emotions. good vibes all around.

not that i dislike sad music at all! but i prob enjoy too MUCH of it, and need more Happy Music! and so do you!

there is NOTHING wrong with Dianno era maiden. would be great at the GYM for POWERLIFTING and POWER SPRINTS.

now i’m obsessing about this darn job-related documentation project. in a good way, I think. but yeah def spending a lot of TIME on it, outside of job, no less. people better be impressed hahahahaha. write me a good reference for this one. i dont feel super pressured, feel more like a detective on the verge of cracking the case. in other words, feel good not bad, thank GOD. ACTUALLY LEARNING something and figuring something out. It takes some struggling with the concepts though. But this is NORMAL. But I tell you, I REALLLLLLY hate struggling with something and NOT learning it, and remaining in a state of confusion. that was the bulk of my last job. it made me doubt my ability to LEARN things. i felt like I had a LEARNING DISABILITY. And thought shit, maybe I still DO have a learning disablity. from sm0king all that MJ, and drinking too much when I was young, and also from having a super confusing job for over a year, combined with a year and a half of mind-numbing NEETness. It’s amazing my brain still works AT ALL and that I could learn something as simple as 1+1. But today I learned something. Not something super complicated. pretty embarrassing i had to struggle for a whole day with such a simple concept. WELP THAT JUST PROVES IM AN IDIOT. Thankfully I don’t really feel that way. Well if they think I’m an idiot…..I mean I was name dropping Bunuel today in reference to Dali, and I actually knew this architect this other guy was talking about. if were a total idiot I wouldnt know these names hahahahahahaha. It might just take me a day to learn a very simple technical concept, like you don’t plug this thing into that thing, it won’t work correctly. And I wanted to work with TECHNOLOGY????!!?!?!?!?!?!!? I was actually pretty good at it though. but the LEARNING CURVE was absolutely BRUTAL and VERY hard to SURVIVE.

i cant overstate how bad that year and a half of neetness was for my brain. i mean i HATE FEELING LIKE AN IDIOT. I USED to be pretty smart, I SWEAR. PLEASE BELIEVE ME!!!!!

feb 24

please respond! please believe me! please give me the benefit of the doubt! please treat me like a human being! please! I beg you! im not an idiot and im not a weird monster!

hahahaha. ok weekend. obv would luv huge thing of you know what. degenerate. bbbbbut i just want to get it out of muh system. give me one big bag o degen and thats it for a good while.

so in protest i have taken a benedryl, will take 2 valium  and 1 more benedryl with about 2 hours in between each.

ooooh sventh son has done his first post doxing video with face. very nice. would like to see moar. tons of great banter in the comments about him not being hwyte hahahaha. he is even more charming when he shows his face hahaha.

heh. tfw you go to dailystormer for the first time in a few weeks and see he has an official tshirt so you have to buy it now. it’s not the greatest design but these campaigns are limited time only. hope he doesnt come out with a better design immediately after this one closes.

oh dear god hahahahahahahaha. his first video AFAIK directly addressing MGTOW. is MGTOW even a thing any more? kind of embarrassing that I identified with it….like FOUR YEARS AGO hahahaha. to be MGTOW in current year is simple naive at best and J at worst.  see the mgtows bitching at varg in the comments, you can see how pathetic mgtow is.

took valium 1 at 630 pm. settling in with coffee and water and no one at the poker tables, damn. listened to abunch of yt vidyas at 1.5 and 2x speed. george feels you can do at 2x hahaha. hey im not hating. im a very slow talker to, i sound a lot better at 1.5 at LEAST.  wish i could do that in real life. might make me sound like less of a tongue tied idiot. only when im in interviews do i talk fast. still sound like a tongue tied idiot though.

oh god. came so close. i actually watched matress girl emma sulky’s retarded “raep” video for a few minutes today, i mean i had seen it when she first did it. she is not even attractive, but i would prob still bone her because she is an early 20s and non obese. and i get really titillated by scenes where the girl is on top and grinding her ass into the guy as he fooks her. great visual. i would really have fun with something like that. thank GOD i turned it off before i got too stimulated. i mean really? chinese joo mattress girl doing fake art that is closer to porn than art? however i almost wanted to jerk off to it to condemn her for being such a dirty disgusting dishonorable joo making a perversion of secs. it honestly cant be called “porn”, but it absoultely CAN be called mind-bogglinging jooish. layers and layers of jooish inception. thank GOD i did not jerk off to it, because then SHE would have won with her jooish filth. that isn’t TECHNICALLY porn, its more of a jooish perversion of Art and Aesthetics and Truth. not that porn isnt a jooish perversion.  but my god her artists statement on that video. read that fookin statement. dont watch any of the video unless you promise not to jerk off to it. cuz then the joo and their lies WIN, and you LOSE.

maybe i wanted an excuse to jerk off to something that wasnt “technical” porn.

wow. ALMOST slid down the slippery slope there. kinda disappointed i even took a step down that path, but glad i turned back. i mean it would be better to just jerk off to pictures of aryan women in wheatfields hahahaha. i mean i just feel kinda HORNY for ONCE, probably partially due to Weekend Party Time.

the title song is so good and i want seventh son to do a version of it. i would totally do it at karaoke. might have to do karaoke tomorrow. im thinking iron maiden, dio, danzig, maybe tom petty.

is steve miller a poor mans tom petty? is that unfair to steve miller? maybe he is a middle class mans tom petty hahahaha.

oooh nice been having a hot streak today:

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well played but he culd have beat me. on one of my long cold streaks, he would have. and i have been cold a lot more than ive been warm! im 100 dollars in the hole all time!

https://smerffelectrical.com/smerff

this is what we need a LOT more of. this is a real guy named smerff in straya who is an electrician with his own electrician business. and on his business website he blatant says pro-white things and says he is a proud sponsor of daily stormer, who also proudly links him on their site. fookin awesome. we need stormer/white-supporting BUSINESSES in EVERY town.

his twitter account has been suspended. smerff. stormer’s was banned years ago haha.

i mean this guy makes no bones about his vehement pro-whyteness on his website, his facebook page, surprised that’s not banned.

check out the site. he employs at least seven proud white men and has classic aussie banter. does not tone anything down to try to increase his business. he obvious does well and STILL has STRONGLY pro-whyte message. amazing. terrific! this is awesome and we need companies like this in every town in the US, straya, the hwyte world.

see their contact information and tell them how awesome they are. send them money for doing no work. in a way this is even better than great journalism like stormer or TRS. they are out in the community providing hugely valuable electrician and AC service ANNNDDDDDD spreading a very positive pro-whyte message to their customers. i cant even wrap my mind around this, i have to sleep on it hahahaha.

daily stormer tshirt hehehe. apparently the company isnt actually alt right or pro white, but SO pro freedom of speech they will print pro white shirts as well as awful BLM and pro-abortion shirts. hmm. i was hoping it wouldnt be like that. i dont want to support baby murderers. but it is pretty good for a FREEZE PEACH advocate to actually not be a lying hypocrite when it comes to pro hwyte stuff. most freeze peach joos are anti freeze peach when it comes to HWYTES.

welp hope he doesnt sell my name and address hahahahaha. i mean it would never stand up in court hahaha unless he were subpoenaed for my name hahaha. which isnt gonna happen. what am i a lawyer all of a sudden?

i mean the chances of me not getting a job because somebody spilled the beans about me on an internet site that i bought a daily stormer (and trs) shirt……i dunno i just dont see it happening.

took valium 2 around 9pm

i sometimes have post titles that have nothing to do with the content, just saved from perhaps long before. did this with about 3 posts recently. 80% of posts I try to have somewhat relevant titles hahahaha.

the hacker wars, been meaning to watch this. large part from weev, dont think he talks about hwyte stuff tho. but hes def thinking it hahaha. he’s just a really interesting smart guy.

https://directory.libsyn.com/episode/index/show/illusionofsanity/id/4710977

weev on illusion of sanity 2016, alawites. a harder to find interview hehehe. have to use a libsyn downloaded to download it.

trying to find and follow all the pro-hwyte hwytes on gab hehehe. did my first repost today re the daily stormer shirt

yeah the two valiums dont do much but i guess its nicer than the alternative hahaha. the alternative being absolutely nothing. a bag of MJ would be so much better tho. but kind of scary to think that MJ is 600000000000 times more power than VALIUM, which is well known as a habit forming, addictive drug that can K you in super large doses. well im clearly not taking enough! should I take a third? but its already almost 11pm and i am getting tired and it would just be a waste. if i had MJ i would certainly be blazing it all day until the moment i crashed into oblivion.

yeah but at this time in the short term, isnt the valium in infinitely greater supply than the MJ? meaning, i have 80 valiums and 0 MJ.

heh. listening to NOTHING but iron maiden the past week. been pretty productive there.  whoops havent listened to the early 90s albums. ok putting on “no prayer for the dying”, which came right after 7th son. people crap on this album but it doesnt sound immediately horrible hahaha.

hmm well i made executive decsion and took valium #3 at 11pm just now. maybe it will be a waste, but i do have a lot. once i get down to like 10 then i will save them for “emergencies only”, for example, going out to a social function, or god forbid a “date”, or a job interview, or maybe a big Job Presentation. don’t think I will have to do any serious presentations for a while tho. if ever. i mean it would be a good thing to have that kind of responsibility and actually do an average job on it. good for resume, good for future interviews.

heh. started playing around with zillow to see where i you could get a “cheap”, small home in a somewhat hwyte boondocky area. basically get a trailer. white pride single wide (credit fatherland jim.) get good deals here but wonder about the white trash in close proximity. i believe that hwyte trash is better than black trash, although the Opioid and Meth Epidemics are making the hwyte trash even worse. why dont they have trailers that are on like an acre of land and dont have other trailers 10 feet away. but then you would basically be paying as much for the land as you are the trailer. trying to understand mortgages, 30 year fixed rate, 5/1 ARMs, etc. they should teach this in middle school or first year of high school. no later than age 14.

1 am here. should go to bed. been up since 5 am. meaning i have been awake for 20 hours. pretty serious. might take a benedryl just to be ultra idiotic. a pill popping machine on friday party night. 3 valiums and 2 benedryls. that can’t be good. but you could make an argument that its better than MJ! or is it? i mean im not so incoherent i cant type or look at zillow for 45 minutes hahaha.

i might actually be a good Real Estate guy. cuz i am very interested in finding decent homes at a good price and especially in good, safe, hwyte neighborhoods. but i would want to be honest and not bamboozle people into jooish mortgages. cuz it honestly is confusing. predatory lending. and i cant figure out what is the best deal. 30 year fixed is higher payment but supposedly more stable over the long term. so you pay extra for “piece of mind.” i kinda like that. but i certainly wouldnt want to live in the trailer for 30 years. 5/1 is built for people who want to move within 5 years. uhhh do they have a 10/1? i might like that better hehehehe.

ideally you just buy the house outright with cash. show up with 20 grand cash and buy the 20 grand house. but there is also homeowners insurance and property taxes. why cant they just include this in the price of the house. why cant they teach this stuff in high school instead of fookin english and spanish and diversity social studies and more bullshit sciences like geography. teach you stuff that will actually help you live a better life. how to be smart when buying a home, getting the most bang for your buck. you can always study the stuff that interests you from the comfort of your nice little home that you are not getting jooed on. of course, why would the joos want to teach the goys how NOT to be jooed.