dec 25 2016

merry xmassssssssssssss

hehehe i like this brand new tradition i just started where i give xmas donations to decent people. paypal or bitcoin. gave donaations today to fatherland podcast, counter-currents aka grindr greggy, NPI aka richard spencer, daily stormer aka andre, smaller dnation to good morning huhwhyte america with adam and mary. i only listened to 1 episode but i know they are great people, adam appeared several times on fatherland, and GMWA is a beautiful family-oriented husbando and waifu pro-white podcast, which is comfy AF and just good stuff. also very pro-christ hahahaha.

also gave small dnation to GEORGE FEELS and hope he reads my message talking about using small amounts of medical MJ to help with his despair, doing a skype talk one day, using myfitnesspal to count calories and lose weight, and to look moar into the alt-right. really should have given him moar than 5 dollars, but hey he works 30 hours a week hahahahahaha. more than i do!!!!!!

have now dnated 190 dollars to alt-right causes in my life hahahaha. 45 dollars was in bitcoin hahahaha.

heres the message i sent to GEORGE FEELS:

Merry Christmas George! Just found your channel this year and I can relate. Don’t listen to the haters in your comments! But I would respectfully recommend 2 things: 1. do an in-depth experimentation with the legal MJ in your state and make a series of videos fully describing your experience. I suspect that MJ, at the right dosage, can alleviate despair somewhat. 2. MyFitnessPal is a GREAT tool for measuring calories in one’s diet and exercise. It helped me lose a ton of weight fairly quickly. The main thing was that I was simply eating WAY more than I really needed! See the actual numbers helped me discipline my raging appetite haha. You should also check out more Alt-Right stuff like The Right Stuff forums, great positive group of people that can help you feel good about your legacy as a Huhwhyte Man. One day I would ideally like to have a Skype talk with you, but maybe in 2018 haha. Maybe think about recording skype talks with other like minded people. (NOT the hecklers in your comments!!!!) Take care and next time you feel like sipping the Fermented Joo, please try a SMALL dose of The Herbal Joo instead, hahaha. Best wishes to you and your family! Also, are there any young fresh off the boat Ukrainian girls arriving in your area? You could potentially show them around, hahahaha. Take care buddy.

hehehehe. arent I SO NICE???!?!?!?!

I wouldnt send him any money if he were not HUHWHYTE.

There’s a chance he could be a JQ because a lot of JQ’s came from Da Ukraine, I’ve met some IRL. But pretty sure he said something about his family being somewhat christian. of COURSHE j’s can convert to christian, and i don’t like that, but…..gonna give him the benefit of the doubt. i guess there’s a chance he might have uzbek or kyrgyz in him. also gonna give him benefit of doubt. he looks more than 50% huhwhyte. despite the brown hair and brown eyes hahahaha. if he reveals he is not huhwhyte, i will not give him anything next year hahahaha.

if he is 25% jooish and 75% huhwhyte, i would also give him the benefit of the doubt. i am remarkably generous towards quadroons who choose to identify with their huhwhyte side.

played some poker on xmas eve and had a remarkably good day. doubled from 4 to 8 basically after 3 or 4 good hands. PRAISE GOD.

hahahaha i had the first and so far only xmas day dnation to andre anglin hehehehe YOURE WELCOME. he cashed it out within 30 minutes. which is smart, considering the VOLATILITY of btc, and that its own a downswing right now. ENJOY your 6.16 USD goy hahahaha. buy fookin 6 shitburgers on christs bday. how cheap and JQ am I?????!?!?!?!?!?!?

and not many people are dnating to good morning white america at all.

that feel when you are watching the travel channel and you see a jooish gurl you used to go to jooniversity with, and now she is a phd scientist commenting as an expert for TV shows hahahahaha. then you look the tv clip and confirm it is actually the person. she is about your age. well it doesnt say PHD after her name, but she is probably a PHD hahahahahahaha.

well i didnt really hate the gurl. she was a little autistic and weird and jooish, and i knew her because she was dating an acquaintance of mine who was super weird and super autistic and rather jooish hahahaha. this was like 11 years ago. yeah she looks older of course, but it still looked so much like this woman, i had to do some internet research. confirmed it is indeed her. well good for her, i never really hated her. well, other than i was suspect that she didnt give my jooish male acquaintance a fair enough chance. he could not have been easy to date though, he was confirmed super autistic. and they dated for pretty much a long time.

see, i used to be friendly and social with Literal Joos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and i would give them both a pass to get out of the oven hahahaha. i wouldnt have a problem with them going to israhell tho hahahahaha.

not gonna donate any money to THEM, they are jooish professionals making like 60 grand a year each hahahaha. at least.

but yeah they werent individually wrecking nations and genociding whites and promoting degeneracy. they were pretty neurotic joos tho!

where do you get off being a BLUE EYED JOO? I just dont get or like that. I mean this gurl was not an ugly ratfaced joo. now i’m wondering, was she even really a joo? I thought she WAS, but yeah, nonugly, blue eyes, you start to wonder. maybe only half JQ?

she wasnt a horrible person though. i would spare her the oven. and him. i liked him better hahahahaha.

just an unexpected thing to see on tv on christmas while watching travel channel with the fam.

i actually sent an EMAIL to george feels because after d’nating to him, I had a concern that concerns him. not going to talk about it here, but we’ll see if he emails me back. used muh new alt right email hahahaha. maybe he will be too intimidated. i tried not to be too intimidating, overwhleming, or pushy, or overbearing.

super JQ tv station vice showed terminator 1 last night, which is a great movie, and my god was linda hamilton not bad looking when she was 24 years old. horry sheet. unfort she shows her bare bosoms like a jooish wh0re. but its a very white knighting sentimental true luv secs scene. i still dont think they should have made her show her milkers though. show true luvsecs without any nudity. other than that the movie is good and not very jooish at all. but yeah my god was she a qt in 1984. in the healthy non-woman-hating man, this will kindle a natural white knight urge. in the mgtow woman-hater, it will kindle nothing, it will make you say, fook you, i’m not gonna white knight for some damn skank, thats how they GET you.  hahahahahahaha. hell no im not gonna fall for this TEMPTRESS’S TRICKS!!!!!!!!

rather you identify with kyle reese and say yes i am going to protect this woman. i mean thats what you SHOULD do.

not resist your NATURAL urge to white knight because bitches be bitches taking advantage of this urge to get gibs! which they DO….but not all women hahahahahahahahahaha.

hmm. i mean if women were damn crafty parasites looking to scam as much gibs as possible…..they would be approaching me and trying to scam ME, thinking, what can i use this poor neet omega virgin for? but that literally NEVER happens!!!!!!!

maybe im just not good enough to even be scammed hahahahahahahahaha.  i mean ….

well i DO have resources that can be scammed!



i guess im not considered the LOW HANGING FRUIT because i am invisible and im literally NOT advertising that i have a lot of resources to easily scam. like, they’d actually have to WORK to scam me. and yeah, they WOULD. I mean I actually VET people. EXTREME VETTING. I vetted HER too. and she passed the vetting! I still wont retroactively flunk her there! because what she did was simple cowardice, not really a 180 of character, even though it FELT like it at the time, because it was SOOOOO painful.

like they say, never attribute to malice what can be explained by ignorance. or cowardice. or laziness. she was ignorant and lazy and especially cowardly, but i really dont think she was EVIL.

not gonna donate any money to HER though hahahahaha. she doesnt do anything to strengthen our huhwhyte race hehehehehe. refuses to have anything to do with me.

they say you are over someone when you just don’t care if they are with someone else. well i guess im not there yet but i guess i am kinda close. i mean i dont want to know that she is with someone else! i just dont want to hear about her EVER AGAIN.

well yeah in a way i always care. because im like b1tch, you coulda been WITH ME. damn. i just dont want to hear ANYTHING about them EVER again, unless they want to be with me.

hmm hope paypal didnt shut down my account because im not using my real name. using my alt right name, just opened this account a few weeks ago, to start sending donations under a fake name. tried to send one to TRS and it wouldnt let. either me or TRS has the prob. i would think they would have more of a problem with TRS. “h8” group receiving thousands of shekels. rather than me donating like 20 dollars to various people.


hahahahahahahahaha SO GENEROUS!!!! SO HUMBLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this is how i stroke muh ego and muh conscience. i mean i am totally getting something out of it too. a lot. lets not pretend to be SELFLESS about it! the satisfaction is really THAT strong. it’s almost unfair to THEM. i get WAY more Satisfaction out of donating 5 dollars than they get by GETTING 5 dollars!!!!!

but some people wont donate to george because they feel his current videos arent really doing anything. i disagree. and i give him a LITTLE money just as a good faith thing, to put my money where my mouth is, and maybe he will take my advice more seriously. I really WOULD like to see him try some MJ, make videos about it, and i think myfitnesspal really COULD help him lose weight.

as far as getting women, i don’t even know. i’m almost as much a foreveralone virgin as him.

and i also think becoming more racially aware and alt right could help him the same way it helped me.

so i give him this advice and give him a cash tip to show I’m serious hehehe. i mean i dont think he is getting TONS of donations. i bet he gets BARELY ANY. so when somebody donates ANYTHING, he’s likely to LISTEN to them.

i mean shit. he makes more money than I do. probably TWICE as much money as me. ANd I’m donating to HIM?

want to donate ME money? send bitcoin to


please hahahahhahahahahahahaha.

uhhhh i dont want to give any of my paypals, i’d have to set up a third paypal for this blog, becuase i don’t want to blatantly confirm my alt right WN identity on this blog, though you can probably figure it out, and thats not even a huge deal to me. i just dont want to make it EXPLICIT, exactly because I don’t want to brag about being a neet loser basically. and being a neet loser undermines my credibility as a WN.

it doesn’t go both ways, me saying I Am A WN on this blog doesn’t undermine my credibility as a NEET……because as I neet, I by definition HAVE no credibility!!!!!!!

Neets are more Punished and Shamed than WN’s! Neets are more hated than White Racists!!!!!!!!!

heh. good thing i have both bases covered.

funny how we can see linda hamilton go from being 24 year old beautiful waifu qt, to being like 57 years old in 2016. An Old Menopausal Infertile Withered Old Hag. She’s prob not obese though. could be tho. I heard Shelley Duvall is now obese.

i am not even gonna look up 2016 photos of either of these women. even by T2 in 1996, linda hamilton had certainly lost a lot of her youthful beauty. it’s a direct function of youth!!!!!!! and that was TWENTY fookin current years ago!!!!!

have invested about 130 dollars GAMBLING since i started gambling at the bitcoin poker room in early 2014. almost 3 years. 130 dollars.  43 dollars a year. thats not horrible. i have seen people blow through like 500 dollars in 2 hours at the real casino. HORRIBLE.

dont know what else to say about that!

but i tell you what, i wouldnt mind to have the privilege to go down the street and buy some dank MJ like George Feels can hahahaha. its really weird how he doesnt really mention it. I’m sure he prob mentioned it for 1 minute, or maybe 1 comment, probably something like “i’m not interested in it” or “i tried it once and didnt like it.” but i think he should at least do a full video on it, and he hasn’t done that. he’s mentioned alcohol blatantly in the title of several videos!

and i think MJ would do him better than alcohol.

not saying he should smoke an oz a day, or get so blazed he has a panic attack. which is a very real possibility for many people, including myself, and the THOUSANDS of people who go to EMERGENCY ROOMS in colorado now that mj is legal, and people get SUPER blazed, have a panic attack, think they’re dying or having a heart attack. i’ve BEEN there, DONE that. it HAPPENS, don’t DENY it, you damn degen stoners. anyway, just saying he should take one puff, get a little blazed. better than getting drunk thats for sure.

it just seems WEIRD that a person who lives in a state with LEGAL MJ would not even TRY MJ and make a big obvious statement on it. while others of us daydream about taking a trip to colorado and smokin tons of legal MJ hahahahahahaha. i mean i might just do it. and visit george while i am there. convince him to sm0ke with me hahahahahahahaha. be like try this maaaaannnn, your life isnt getting any better, you arent getting any younger. hahahaha.

wow looks like george michael dead is NOT a hoax. died on xmas. today. kinda ironic because of his huge hit xmas song. last xmas by WHAM! of course. age 53. nothing saying cause of death. i dont think he had GRIDS tbh. maybe drugs then.

one simply does not pass away peacefully at home at age 53. coulda been cancer. that sucks worse than GRIDS. dying of cancer at 53. sheeeeeeeeit.

i mean yeah he was a gay degenerate but so many Famous People died this year. and really, george michael is not as significant as leonard cohen, david bowie, or prince. but you see what i mean. and cohen was the only one that was really OLD and dying at what i would say is a natural age.

yeah well not even degenerates deserve to die on christmas day at age 53. he had a greek name, not sure how white he was. i guess he was a greek cypriot. cypriot greek. i mean its borderline fam. the ancient greeks were absolutely huhwhyte i know. but modern greek cypriots?????? i mean the man was swarthy af. he had the thickest beard I have ever seen. he was pretty handsome tho. but degenerate. he didnt HAVE to be so degenerate.

sheeeeit i wish i had been born in like 1996. kids these days dont WANT to do drugs, they dont WANT negro secs, they WANT to be alt right traditionalists!!!!!! this new generation is interested in the old morality! and NOT in being degenerates, like my older generation was/is!!!! we were all like, yeah lets get FOOKED UP because getting FOOKED UP is FUN and FEELS GOOD and IF IT FEELS GOOD, DO IT!!!!! nothing was sacred, absolutely nothing. all women were dirty sluts. the only pleasure in this world was to get fooked up on alcohol and drugs, cuz everything else sucks.  beat off to porn, go to strip clubs, maybe bang some sluts at best.

young kids these days are rejecting this garbage, AS THEY SHOULD.

so yeah i have a lot of hope and optimism in the young kids of today, in other words. like the kids who are 16 to 20 right now, in 2016. but people who are 26 or older? fook no. they’re finished. beyond redemption.

hey i WANT to be redeemed. I am done with being a degen. HOWEVER I still want to sm0ke MJ. I’m not WILLING to give that up entirely. i want a PASS on that one. i AM willing to keep it a SECRET from the alt right hahahahaha because i totally udnerstand why they don’t like it. i wouldnt want my kids doing it. more than once a year hahahahaha.

i just need it for medicine because i am irreparably broken hahahahahaha.

i know its shameful and i dont have a problem keeping it in the closet!!!!!

but as long as i dont have it i will continue to talk about it hehehehehehe.

also i would only talk about it in the “CLOSET” of muh neet blog, and NEVER in the out of the closet on my alt right blog, which I don’t really have. I guess muh neet blog would be it!

i mean its gonna happen in the next 10 years. each state is falling one by one to the legal MJ train. and you cant just have a country where half the states have it and half dont. each of those states will EVENTUALLY vote in legal MJ. its INEVITABLE. and i am happy about that. just impatient.

well…..SHOULD i be so happy? because i can agree MJ isnt a generally GOOD thing. i just want to be the exception. so why should i want a society that encourages it? i shouldnt!!!!!!

could it be legal AND socially shamed? fook no. come on. look at alcohol and porn. those are tolerated and celebrated!!!!!! if you are an alcoholic yeah thats kinda shameful, but in every town there are bars full of people celebrating alcohol and getting drunk.




april 19 saturday morn

moved back up to my old table and am getting DESTROYED. PERHAPS betting a LITTLE more aggressively, and I am certainly LOSING more aggressively than I have been lately, of course you can lose a lot more at this table than the lower one. it is AMAZING the difference between .01/.02 and .05/.10.   yes it IS easily five times more intense!

so yesterday I lost 10 chips (max buy in). i was perhaps too foolish because I only had two pair, but it was high pair like AA KK, I got a GREAT flop, so started to secure my position by betting solidly after the flop, and then of course the other guy drew me in, into all-in, and he had QUADS, but he would have beaten me with Trips anyway.

and just now. a guy drew me in real good because i though he was bluffing at having an ace, when I had pocket kings, and the flop included one ace. so I played more aggressively and foolishly, calling his stupid bets, and he beat me with like Trip 7’s.

and now my bankroll is so low I couldn’t really play two tables if I wanted to!

all signs point to: go back down to the Smallest Table. Which, I’ll repeat again, did not exist when I first started – this Rough table used to be THE Lowest. now it is the second lowest.

ANYWAY. my new plan is to do a LONG powerwalk today, at least 4 miles or 90 minutes, actually excited about that. heh. beats losing sh1tloads of money!

sat aftnoon

went for an 85 minute or so SUPERPowerwalk.  weird, could have been no more than 3.5 miles, hmm i should check.  hmm internet sez its 4.3 miles. even better son.

so that was very tiring obviously hehehe.

would like to watch more History Documentaries because they are interesting, and in our Idiocracy World, everyone has forgotten history.

ok or since my usual Walking Path is 1.6 to 1.7 miles, I could just do that three times a day. notbad.uh

cuz the one sucky thing about the Super 4.3 mile walk is the roar of traffic, really NOT stress reducing.

ok that settles it then.

yesterday watched a horrible horror movie and then struggled to find something on tv. found an interesting pbs document on madame jiang kai shek, the wife of general jiang kaishek of china who rose to prominence with the nationalist party in 1910s and 1920s and “the mainland” was eventually taken over by chairman mao.

the documentary focused WAY too much on the wife, who WAS an interesting character, but I wanted more of a “20th century history of china” thing. How exactly did the war between china and japan unfold? if japan was kicking china’s A so bad, how did the war end? did japan take all of manchuria? how big was manchuria? and why the hell didn’t mao invade taiwan and kill kai shek, where kai shek had set up “goverment in exile” and even had a seat at the UN and relations with the US. but there were only 2 million people on taiwan, and 660 million in china at the time.

so that is why i want to watch history documentaries. on that type of thing. mainly 20th century stuff.

then i watched charlie rose and they had on david brooks. really not sure how I really feel about him, but he is interesting to listen to and is a real big picture guy and had an interesting 30 minute chat with charlie. then they had on ben horowitz, cofounder of tech venture capital firm andreesen horowitz, and, I found out, son of writer/activist david horowitz. and AH seems to have a good record for identifying hot companies like facebook hehehe. they also made a HUGE investment in coinbase, which is how i get muh bitcoin, and they actually had a mini discussion on charlie rose about bitcoin.  nice. I rose above The Idiocracy with muh Pseudointellectual TV watching.

Because it really is bad out there. I am actually watching “idiocracy” on comedy central right now hehehe.

note: the brilliant and hilarious mike judge has a new show called “silicon valley” about Tech Entrepreneurs and Venture Capitalists. PRetty neat. you should watch everything mike judge related. well, the satire stuff at least. and
“even” king of the hill is pretty watchable. anyway “silicon valley” is pretty funny too, we would be able to relate with the tech virgin beta hero, except that he is becoming a millionaire for his invention AND had a Stable Job before that, but he was just BORED with its LAMENESS. Making enough money to LIVE in Silicon Valley, how the hell did he GET that job? would much prefer to see a Mike Judge show about a REAL loser, who gets a comp sci degree but is such a loser he lives with his parents and can’t find a tech job ever and has no energy to be creative, and can’t hold down his stupid stressful sh1tty jobs, so his only hope is to do 1.7 mile powerwalks and write a blog for losers, hahahaha.

no i do not have a comp sci degree, hehehe, I could actually probably make that work if I had one.  i have a useless nonstem degree.

anyway david brooks. he is interesting, i like listening to him talk about The World as I try to figure out What He Is. Sure he is Moar Conservative than New York Times Average, but is he a Neocon? A Zionist? There was a time I thought he was, so I disregarded everything he said. but now I have mellowed out a bit, eheheheh. Even if he is my Middle Class Enemy, perhaps he can still have SOME good ideas. (but cert not ALL.)

also try watching some Movie Musicals from the 50s and 60s. A Simpler, More Wholesome time, with real Feelgood Love stories and Underdogs OVercoming Adversity Stories. The Antithesis Of Decadency and Degeneracy.

Something like “SOund of Music” or “Singin in the Rain” would not be a bad place to start.


april 18

had somebody endorse me for a “skill” on linkedin, and i immediately went and endorsed them. this is what i do. i really SHOULD update my linkedin, AND start really WORKING it, “pimping it out”, but more importantly I SHOULD be doing more job search related stuff.

I simply hate working and I have some “F00K YOU MONEY” saved up to live off of while I wait for my my old job to come back. Period.

“but don’t you want to contribute something? DO SOMETHING with your LIFE? Be a productive human being?”

Yes of Course. part of how I do that is with this Blog, believe it or not.

And yes I have been slacking on the Productivity. I could at least be working on a Creative Project, like Music, or a Movie, SOMETHING that requires SOME ENERGY.

Well, doing my Powerwalks is my bare minimum.

And recently I began enjoying listening to music once again, hehehe. that is what I contribute to society. listening to music.

well, soon enough I will be contributing to society by working a full time upper working class job, thank you very much. even if it IS a stupid job. I mean they could make the operation a LOT more efficient with some ground up redesign of the products we are servicing. BUT doing so would put even MORE of us out of a job. the Clusterf00kness of the Work is the very thing that gives us job security.

but we do have a real skill, in being able to solve clusterf00k problems. that’s got to be worth something to someone!

i can’t tell you how many people were laid off simply because they Just Weren’t Good Enough! so simply STAYING is a sign of Strength and Skill and Employability! and I stayed way longer than the average.

anyway, i SHOULD get a masters degree, but equally as important is that I also bust my 4ss in that degree, and make sure it’s a useful degree, outperform everybody in the program, and that I have a good middle class job lined up BEFORE finishing the program.

and I am not willing to do all that right now. i would maybe be willing to half 4ss a masters degree…..but that would be worse than no masters degree at all, so that’s out.

so what is the next level in my current Job Track. well, either moving up in the current company, or a “lateral move” to a similar position in a less gay company. but each of these would require at least one year of FT experience, so I am just trying to get thru that at least, and make some powerful friends along the way, play the game of thrones hahahaha, and try to bang some young qtz while i’m at it son.

heh. here’s an interesting topic, people who are Lost, and then a Kind Soul gives them Help, but the Lost Soul does not really capitalize on that Help, because their WILL is THAT Weak. Discuss Amongst Yourselves. They were given a chance but they blew it, they were too lazy to even meet the person halfway; they can’t be helped.

10000 steps a day is how much you’re supposed to powerwalk to be healthy like a paleo caveman. that is ABOUT five miles. For short people like myself with Short Strides, that might be more like 4 miles. maybe.

heh on a “good day” i do two ~30 min powerwalks, getting 3.4 miles. not long enough!

but it’s better than whining, obviosuly. ie bad useless writing. which is the risk of writing. I love writing but sometimes, often, it stops being Positive or Productive. like right now, hahahaha. i am getting antsy to upgrade

eh try to walk 5 miles a day, at least 5 days a week. even during a winter. get a treadmill. heck join planet fitness and go there JUST for the treadmill, and find one hidden way in the back so you don’t have to look at people and they don’t have to look at you.

This will take ABOUT 90 minutes a day to do. yes, that is pretty significant, and is not a luxury afforded to Full Time Working Adults. In Fact, when I was Working Responsibly, and got healthy rest, I had NO time for ANYTHING but Work and Sleep, forget a 30 minute powerwalk! That sucked!

heh. some money can be made when you Feel Confident enough to RE-RAISE, and then to tack a little extra onto that re-raise beyond the minimum amount. this will either provoke the opponent to go all in, or at least give you a little extra money. WARNING: don’t get too confident unless you have a Flush, esp a Nut Flush, Or a Full House. Trips and Straights are Too Easily Beaten.

also if you have a good starting hand, and not a bad flop, but you want to make the opponents “pay to see the next card”, that is a good time to make a 1x pot sized bet. sure you could go all in but if you don’t have a super great hand you could get beat.

in other words, 1x pot is a good man sized bet immediately after the flop, and sets you up to make even manlier bets if you get good turn or river.

took 52 minute powerwalk.

ok. 32 minutes / 1.7 miles == x minutes / 5 miles.

32 * 5 == 1.7 * x;

x == (32*5)/1.7 ==  94.12 minutes.

QED, I should go for a 95 minute powerwalk EVERY DAY in order to be a healthy beta male!

And so should you! well, your time will vary based on your average powerwalking speed.

community, teamwork, dedication, handling difficulties.

those were listed on the tv news job search tips segment. so do those things. there was one more but I couldn’t write it down fast enough.

walking 5 miles a day takes up a LOT of time, like at least 90 minutes like I said. this really is a tall order for Working Career Oriented Successfulz. so i suggest listening to something useful, like music, or Lessons for your MBA. Or if you have a treadmill you can put your MBA textbookz right up on it and read.

I like to put mp3 player on Random Shuffle and then listen to 1:30 to 2:00 of each song, especially if I don’t know it very well, with the option to skip entirely.

How about You?


apr 12

ok i promise not to schedule more than two months ahead.

watch the tv show “LIVE LIFE AND WIN” on saturday mornings. It tells the story of ENtrepreneurial Teenagers who are more successful and happy and harder working at age 18, than we are at age 30 and beyond!

sometimes its annoying, sometimes it can give you ideas. heh. if these TEENS can live life and win, so can YOU, who are Smarter!

it is kind of what like I want to do with Jobs TV ™, although that will be much, much, much, much more comprehensive. but still, there’s nothing like “live life and win” on TV now, and it’s weird it;s Just For Teens. No It Isn’t!

Nyquil Report

I took 1 full adult dose of nyquil (30 mL) at about 9:50 pm, wanted to do around 9:30 but o well.

took till about 10:40 pm to really kick in. started to feel aggressively tired, like I was being anesthetized. that was great. I submitted to the great wave of sleep.

but then I woke up again, almost fully awake, at 3 am. alternating between fully awake and almost asleep, no middle ground. and also very thirsty. the best thing you can do is drink a LOT of water, relax, and try to get back to sleep. yes you will be very thirsty, so drink a lot of water.

then I slept solidly till about 10 am as planned. could have easily slept 2 hours more.

so now here I am, LIKE A BOSS. how about u?

drinking coffee, playing micro stakes, .02 chip big blind, 4 chip max buyin. best game ever. small but consistent wins.

although i am in a much better mood ever since this whole nyquil experiment started. maybe it is my calling to use drugs in moderation. just enough to take the edge off, hehehehe. the edge of life.

ooh classic nap time calling mah name.

ok. bought a bunch of junk food. so happy about it. skittles wild berry candy, ben and jerry butterscotch ice cream. i was thinking about butterscotch beforehand, and how i am the only person who likes it, and wouldn’t it be nice if there were a butterscotch ice cream. well i found it as a limited edition anchorman ben and jerrys ice cream, so i figured that was A SIGN I had to obey. the ice cream was pretty good. not perfect. well actually it was really good.

the wild berry skittles might even be better than regular skittles. wish they had a large bag of Sour Skittles because those are the best. anyway, wild berry is more than good enough. thank GOD for these first world privileges.

april 13

so i saw an 18 year old girl in church, that when I was that age, I would have thought she was nothing special because of her weird face; but now I thought about her beautiful her 18 year old skin was and her perky little unsaggy bewbs, and her weird face was now cute. but her skin was glowing in a way that it does not for older women, and in a way that I did not recognize or appreciate when I was that age.

was playing normal low stakes, went all in when I made a flush on the turn, feeling good, guy went all in after I reraised him, and of course he beat my flush with a full house (can’t remember on which round he made the FH) and I lost 10 chips in one fell swoop. I am MUCH more comfortable playing the stakes beneath this, I hope that table stays there forever. I can’t be losing 10 chips, ie, one full max buyin for that table, at once!!! it really is too volatile.

heh. so that 18 year old girl should be entitled to a successful man, right? i guess. there i thought about starting a group that matches up successful young 22 year old men, starting their careers, with beautiful virginal 18 year old girls, to be their wives. and then they start having babies. maybe. i dunno anymore. except i do know that 18 year old gurls are beautiful, way moreso than 28 year old gurls, and it would be much easier to marry a young woman than an old woman, when you are ready to marry.

that NONSENSE where women say, “he’s 40 years old and dating a 20 year old, what is he thinking, how can she possibly be at his MATURITY LEVEL, HE’s so immature!!”

well the OBVIOUS response to that is, Maturity Level DOESN’T MATTER, and also, “maturity” in older women usu translates to b1tchiness and unpleasantness and untrustworthiness. Young Women Make Much Better Mates. Period.

Of course it is ok for women to get old within the context of happy marriage. good for them.

who cares if ronald mcdonald likes the taco bell breakfast. ronald mcdonald is a very common name, plus amerifats are too fat and stupid to even know that the mcdonalds mascot is named ronald anyway.


i am just butthurt about losing my 10 chips to that 4sshole with the better hand. hate having a flush beaten by a FH. i have learned not to get so mad about trips beaten by a straight. or even a straight beat by a flush. but flush beaten by FH, or ESPECIALLY FH beaten by QUADS, now THEN I get p1553d. how about you?

College Turns Women into EITHER Huge Sluts OR Lesbians. If a College Career girl is not a huge slut, don’t get all excited hoss, then she’s probably a Dyk3.

watched new game of thrones, it had a huge lag. how about u?

want to have a real fun night? watch TWO movies. saturday night I watched TWO movies. that was SICK. the only way that can get better is if you are enjoying weed along with it.

these old spice commercials with the crying mothers are so bad they make me want to boycott the product. well i use “original scent” old spice deodorant, not the ridiculous other scents. but what a stupid company. we should all boycott products where we don’t agree with their marketing. like cheerios hahahahahahaahahahahahahahahaha.


april 11

had a dream where I was touching this girl who was one of the Top 2 Cuties from Middle School, when I first started noticing Girls, and now she had matured into a beautiful 18 year old legal young woman. I was carrying her on my back and making fun of autistic kids, which for some reason was really getting her hot, and she was laughing and breathing in my ear and giving hints that she was getting all horned up and moist. I didn’t mind that, although I took a didactic tone and said Now, Sweetie, it’s really not nice to make fun of Autists, they have a legitimate Neurological Disability bla bla bla, knowing full well how much fun it was gonna be to get her in the bedroom, tear her clothes off, and bury myself balls deep in her 18 year old body and how I really hit the jackpot with this girl, I really liked her and she would be well worth Dating.

woke up without getting to the Hot Action part.

but yeah, she would have been very dateworthy when she was 18-22. too bad she is super old now, heh.

well, I shouldn’t rule out “old” (25 and older) women, I never actually TRIED to see if any were Dateable. Maybe there are a few. but I def PREFER younger women. How about you?

heck i’ll give a 30 year old a spin if she’s in great shape, hahahaha.

but it is not a priority. I have no priorities right now. i have GIVEN UP ON LIFE. how about you?

no, just trying to survive at muh job until december AND in OCTOBER will prioritize new job search AND must GET that new job. And if i don’t, then my priority will be to survive the sh1tstorm of phone calls in january.

was also thinking that UTAH might be a great place to settle down with some wives, hehehe. southern utah is prob pretty warm.

but how warm do I REALLY need it to be?

also portland has the benefit of being a City, with Younger People, demographically

643 pm fri april 11: I got FOUR OF A KIND, Four Kings, and won a very small pot. hehehe. the trick here is to, when you get great cards, is to get large bets out of your opponents.

thinking about drinking some nyquil today at like 930 pm and sleeping 12 solid hours.

here’s a good music album for lazy losers, katatonia “dethroned and uncrowned” . i used to be a huge katatonia fan as a wild youth, then lost track of them as I got older, they got more popular, I got less interested in new music, and also they released too many new albums to keep up.  but hey they are still great, and here is a nonmetal “remix” of their latest album “deadend kings” which I never gave a fair shake, but I was more willing to do so for the nonmetal version, partially because the only metal I really want to make an effort with, is evil black metal or 90s metal.  but this album is nice, makes me want to check out the metal version, but that would certainly be less CHILL. listen to dethroned and BLAZE IT F4GG0T!!! Their singer is very moody and I think he might be One Of Us, although he’s not, because he’s in a successful band, prob gets teen tail, and is creative enough to write (good!) music. So he’s not really One Of Us, but his voice will make you think otherwise.


Anyway, they should do nonmetal versions of ALL their albums!

holy sh1t. started with 4 chips, now at 10 chips. best round EVER. only 2 hours and 23 minutes in. so like a profit of 3 chips per hour. BETTER THAN -X chips per hour, amirite???

Updated Gambling Advice: What SEEMS to be helping me is playing at the smaller stakes tables. no surprise there. well, the site just opened an even lower lowest stakes table, and I like it. hope they don’t close it. lots of FISH hehehe.

be aggressive PREFLOP in raising, if you get Top Ten Hands. This is the BEST way to establish the BIG POTS you NEED in order to come out ahead AT ALL.

Call Preflop with any Top Forty Hands, unless you get a bad feeling due to Bad Position and/or huge raises by others.

Buy Back In to Max as often as possible, like after you lose a medium sized pot you would have liked; or you are below 80% of Max.

this is my new favorite site. rankings of starting hands. I play anything with a positive EV, and preflop raise the Top Ten, which should of course look familiar, no big surprises on what those are.

Ok, Raise Preflop on Top Fifteen, like anything EV .2 or above.

Always think Long Term. If you play good cards and keep getting Bad Beats, realize you’re just in a Cold Streak, because, in the Long Term, Good Cards WILL make you money.

However, Don’t be afraid to fold if the flop is not good, or pot odds are not great, or you just have a bad feeling.

got a search: “MGTOW IS DYING”

hell NO, I think mgtow is GROWING, and also that many men are MGTOW without even REALIZING it. it IS kind of a silly term. I would say any man who is successful on his own terms, living life on his own terms, is a “MGTOW.” though most MGTOWs wouldn’t even call themselves mgtows, don’t know what it is, would call it another name, like Free Man or Red Pill Man or Libertarian or True NonNeoCon Conservative or Nationalist or something.

college grad $9. hehehe. come on. a college grad is entitled to at least $12 an hour. Minimum Wage Law 4 College Grads, hahahahahahahahahaha. No, let the f4gg0ts work for 9 CENTS per DAY, hasten the collapse.


mar 31

but what I esp don’t like about horrible middle class masterz degree leftists, is that they never learn that being a leftist is stupid, because they are rewarded with good careers, making their useless masterz degree pay off, having a good job, having an attractive mate or mates that they like, not getting divorce raepd, making enough money to live and have children, rising in their career to Level 2 and 3 and managerial and decision making positions rather than constantly struggling to find a stupid entry-level job, marrying attractive people rather than hideous hambeasts like we proles are forced to marry (but not me!); and they go to COnferences and their companies pay to put them on planes, etc.

when I would like them to lose at life becuase of their leftism; but they don’t; and I have converted from left to Hard Right, however I have been a loser both as a stupid leftist and a loser then as an awesome smart enlightened right rightist;

heh I looked at the girl I might as well call “potential Girl8” on FB AGAIN, she just put up a new profile picture, and she looks GREAT, looks BEAUTIFUL, looks marriageable and dateable and monogamy worthy, just absolutely stunning, yet she has GOT to be 27 at LEAST. and she looks better than most 25 year olds! I would like to know her secret! you cannot be super promiscuous and partying and still look this good, can you? and yet she still does not list her career! but I suspect it’s probably good, everyone I know from that school is super successful middle class (but not me!)

do i want a working class girl or a middle class girl? statistically, i’ve been more attracted to more middle class girls, just looking at girls 1 thru 8. most of them tend towards middle class, if not full-blown! how about U?

that is a good way to get others to help you, and not make you look like such a selfish, annoying narcissist: if you start rambling about your boring self too much, then just finish it off with asking, “HOW ABOUT YOU?” and then have them ramble about THEIR boring self.

Think I will call her Girl8 just to devalue/deflate the Value of Girls by semi-artificially inflating the Girl Supply.  You should try doing that if you had a bunch of Girls you’re hung up on. by the time you get to Girl20 or so, none of them will MATTER any more. It will bring the early girls down off their pedestal, if you lower the criteria for being a Numbered Girl. Bringing down the Average. Taking the P off the Pedestal. Win Win. Do It. How About You?

apr 1

oooh be careful today, won’t get fooled again! fool me twice, shame on me! How About You?

not super in love with the new poker book. I still like using my “Top Thirty Hands” Reference sheet.  Though Top Twenty might be better. It’s an ongoing process of developing your style and find something that works.

but yeah How To Bet is real tricky. And my big pitfall is that I don’t spend time studying my opponents, bc I’m always doing something else. I sense this is a BIG MISTAKE and could make the diff between me winning and losing.

OK here’s a good one: if you get below half the maximum buyin, like 5 chips on a 10 chip max, then BUY BACK IN TO THE MAX if allowed. Because in order to break even now, you HAVE to go all in, and if you’re at like 4 dollars, even all in won’t do it for you. this sounds like a no brainer but I always forget to do it.

in other words its easier to win money PERIOD when you have a larger stack….especially something GREATER than the max buyin after getting a few early wins. then you are in the catbird seat!

but yeah it’s not a perfect game, I am seeing it naturally rewards aggression and bold risk taking which I am not comfortable with. I would prefer a little at a time, but it may be there’s no good way of doing this, due to the very nature of the game. either accept that or stop playing.

it is possible that straight up is the best Repository of Job Numbers Data, and NOT BLS dot FEDGOV. Although indeed is not 100% accurate because what of all the jobs that are  NOT posted there.

OH YEAH WON HUGE 13 chip pot, putting me 6 chips ahead of max buyin. NICE.

So, I would now say, buy back in AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. Some games limit you to like once per hour. so just do it! and hopefully you can eventually get Above Maximum (by winning) and never need to buy in again! MOmentum!

sh1t, buy back in to max after every single time you lose ANY chips!

QJ unsuited is NOT in the Top Thirty hands, but KJ unsuited IS (#29).

When you are in a job interview, just think, WHAT WOULD A NORMALFAG SAY? And then answer the questions like a NORMALFAG. That’s IT.

Job Interviews are the most normalfag situation that ever exists. that is why it can seem so weird and alien to us weird virgin autist losers, who think outside of the box, hehehehe. yes thats a joke. bad jobs want you to say think outside of the box, good jobs want you to invent a new paradigm of box, etc, I could care less, prestigious name jobs are not our goal, however good paying ones are. so we can AFFORD to reproduce and have three children to carry on our families.

Just so you know. once I start muh job again I will literally have no time to do posts whatsoever. maybe one post a month. so enjoy this large number of posts because it won’t last forever.


march 28. fri. still laid off. exactly 4 weeks ago was my last day of work. played a lot of cards today. got two tables right now. but the big thing today was: doing THREE tables at once. wow. that did not work out too well today.

THEN I looked up the Starting Hands Ranked By Expected Value. I thought of, well I know the top TEN hands, but what are the top TWENTY hands? I might like to expand into those.  so I found a list ranking ALL the possible 150ish starting hands, wrote down the Top Thirty, and have been looking at that sheet.  trying to make up the money I lost playing three tables.  heh. well, though I’m months away from breaking even, I’m even MORE months away from reaching my Yearly Gambling Loss Limit.  so uh that’s good news right.

i blame my laziness on the fact that I KNOW I will be going back to my job. This is actually really weird, this is not normal for people who get laid off.

yeah if I knew I wasn’t going back, then I swear I would be better about jobsearch. i just looked at indeed right now and yes I can guarantee that is exactly why i am not searching so hardcore. bc i KNOW I will be going back, i have a job waiting for me, and i am just on “vacation” right now.

sheeeeeeit you should have saw my sweet flush get raeped by a guy with QUADS. and then I lost like 10 chips and went from being way ahead to way behind at that table.  I cannot tell you how many times I have been raept by QUADS, yet I have never got them ever. About once every two days at LEAST I get CLEANED OUT by QUADS.

hue hue hue.

heh when I get Quads I will prob get beaten by a Straight Flush, hehehe. I don’t think I’ve EVER seen even ONE of those in all my hours at the tables.

OK got muh list now, of top 30 starting hands ranked by Expected Value. Obviously will be more likely to fold those lower on the list.

ARIZE CHIKUN! is a funny meme they say in the Litecoin community, about the price of Litecoin going “TO THE MOON.” CHIKUN ARIZE!

sunday march 30

well about to go to church. it’s not bad, but it’s not great. needless to say i like it more than the avg atheist marxist successful professional, who worships the Self and the Gummint!

When I was Working muh stressful job, I was desperate for relief every day, and said COUNTLESS Hail Marys: tonnes while driving, while walking up there, while in the bathroom, while smoking a cig outside, any time while not in the office, and sometimes even when I was in the office, before muh first call of the day, or just between calls.

and the bad news is that I stopped saying all those hail marys altogether! huge dropoff!

So I would like to do that right now, and start the day being THANKFUL for the ridiculous amount of good things I do have: Nice family, Nice home, pretty good financial position, nice friends, a job waiting for me in 4 weeks, plenty of food and warmth, a nice bed to sleep in, a nice computer to type on and play poker hehehe, a f00king CAR, jeez.

The problem with SOME lazy losers is, once they start going down this list and see how abundant it is, they think, I DON’T DESERVE THIS! Well at least I think about that! Then you think about what a loser you are, and how you should have taken that privilege and done so much more with it, and Shame Spiral! hehehe.

well, BE THAT AS IT MAY, the POINT of The Current Exercise is SIMPLY to JUST be thankful, and just cut it off after that. Don’t let the Thankfulness lead to a Shame Spiral! (I think I am stealing that from Stuart Smalley; Al Franken is a horrible marxist but that character and movie is classic and great)

because we don’t want you to associate The Good Thing of Being Thankful, with the Bad Thing of Bad Feels!

Guilt and Shame are a Good Thing, but losers like us can take it way too far. For example, a woman being a huge slut and riding the c0ck carousel and having a high number and being promiscuous is something you SHOULD be ashamed of. But if you have wasted years being ashamed of not succeeding enough to justify all the privileges that you are thankful for, then that kind of shame has stopped being useful long ago.

so i am thankful for nice friends, which some autist introvert r9k friendless virgins don’t even have, or they’re always having stupid “Drama” and stress with their so-called friends, where it’s a stressful competition for popularity and pvssy. HALE NO. Whatever happened to just Enjoying Each Other’s Company? So I spent some very quality time with my Frand recently, and all we did was make racist and sexist jokes and play call of duty for hours and hours, and that was wonderful.

Also, if your experiences with your “Friends” are largely you worrying and stressing out about you Measuring Up, an COmpeting, worrying about them thinking you’re a loser, then those people aren’t your friends, and you should stop hanging out with them immediately, and it is better to be alone.

OR, if some of those people have potential, hang out with those people individually so you can get a better read on them to see if they actually LIKE you, or if you’re just paranoid and only THINK people don’t like you.

ONLY hang out with people who genuinely LIKE you, in other words.

The caveat here and I will talk more later, is when you hang out with a Large Group of Friends, then there is a Group Dynamic which makes it hard to know what each person is like individually. One person’s decency might be overshadowed by another person’s douchebagness.

Also, Woe Betide You if there is a young Woman in that group that you fancy. Because then when she rejects you and bangs all the other guys in the Social Group, you will be right there to have your face rubbed in it, and she’ll parade around like she’s in the right, and you’re the douchebag with the problem. BEWARE! of Social Groups with Cute Young Women involved.