april 19 saturday morn

moved back up to my old table and am getting DESTROYED. PERHAPS betting a LITTLE more aggressively, and I am certainly LOSING more aggressively than I have been lately, of course you can lose a lot more at this table than the lower one. it is AMAZING the difference between .01/.02 and .05/.10.   yes it IS easily five times more intense!

so yesterday I lost 10 chips (max buy in). i was perhaps too foolish because I only had two pair, but it was high pair like AA KK, I got a GREAT flop, so started to secure my position by betting solidly after the flop, and then of course the other guy drew me in, into all-in, and he had QUADS, but he would have beaten me with Trips anyway.

and just now. a guy drew me in real good because i though he was bluffing at having an ace, when I had pocket kings, and the flop included one ace. so I played more aggressively and foolishly, calling his stupid bets, and he beat me with like Trip 7’s.

and now my bankroll is so low I couldn’t really play two tables if I wanted to!

all signs point to: go back down to the Smallest Table. Which, I’ll repeat again, did not exist when I first started – this Rough table used to be THE Lowest. now it is the second lowest.

ANYWAY. my new plan is to do a LONG powerwalk today, at least 4 miles or 90 minutes, actually excited about that. heh. beats losing sh1tloads of money!

sat aftnoon

went for an 85 minute or so SUPERPowerwalk.  weird, could have been no more than 3.5 miles, hmm i should check.  hmm internet sez its 4.3 miles. even better son.

so that was very tiring obviously hehehe.

would like to watch more History Documentaries because they are interesting, and in our Idiocracy World, everyone has forgotten history.

ok or since my usual Walking Path is 1.6 to 1.7 miles, I could just do that three times a day. notbad.uh

cuz the one sucky thing about the Super 4.3 mile walk is the roar of traffic, really NOT stress reducing.

ok that settles it then.

yesterday watched a horrible horror movie and then struggled to find something on tv. found an interesting pbs document on madame jiang kai shek, the wife of general jiang kaishek of china who rose to prominence with the nationalist party in 1910s and 1920s and “the mainland” was eventually taken over by chairman mao.

the documentary focused WAY too much on the wife, who WAS an interesting character, but I wanted more of a “20th century history of china” thing. How exactly did the war between china and japan unfold? if japan was kicking china’s A so bad, how did the war end? did japan take all of manchuria? how big was manchuria? and why the hell didn’t mao invade taiwan and kill kai shek, where kai shek had set up “goverment in exile” and even had a seat at the UN and relations with the US. but there were only 2 million people on taiwan, and 660 million in china at the time.

so that is why i want to watch history documentaries. on that type of thing. mainly 20th century stuff.

then i watched charlie rose and they had on david brooks. really not sure how I really feel about him, but he is interesting to listen to and is a real big picture guy and had an interesting 30 minute chat with charlie. then they had on ben horowitz, cofounder of tech venture capital firm andreesen horowitz, and, I found out, son of writer/activist david horowitz. and AH seems to have a good record for identifying hot companies like facebook hehehe. they also made a HUGE investment in coinbase, which is how i get muh bitcoin, and they actually had a mini discussion on charlie rose about bitcoin.  nice. I rose above The Idiocracy with muh Pseudointellectual TV watching.

Because it really is bad out there. I am actually watching “idiocracy” on comedy central right now hehehe.

note: the brilliant and hilarious mike judge has a new show called “silicon valley” about Tech Entrepreneurs and Venture Capitalists. PRetty neat. you should watch everything mike judge related. well, the satire stuff at least. and
“even” king of the hill is pretty watchable. anyway “silicon valley” is pretty funny too, we would be able to relate with the tech virgin beta hero, except that he is becoming a millionaire for his invention AND had a Stable Job before that, but he was just BORED with its LAMENESS. Making enough money to LIVE in Silicon Valley, how the hell did he GET that job? would much prefer to see a Mike Judge show about a REAL loser, who gets a comp sci degree but is such a loser he lives with his parents and can’t find a tech job ever and has no energy to be creative, and can’t hold down his stupid stressful sh1tty jobs, so his only hope is to do 1.7 mile powerwalks and write a blog for losers, hahahaha.

no i do not have a comp sci degree, hehehe, I could actually probably make that work if I had one.  i have a useless nonstem degree.

anyway david brooks. he is interesting, i like listening to him talk about The World as I try to figure out What He Is. Sure he is Moar Conservative than New York Times Average, but is he a Neocon? A Zionist? There was a time I thought he was, so I disregarded everything he said. but now I have mellowed out a bit, eheheheh. Even if he is my Middle Class Enemy, perhaps he can still have SOME good ideas. (but cert not ALL.)

also try watching some Movie Musicals from the 50s and 60s. A Simpler, More Wholesome time, with real Feelgood Love stories and Underdogs OVercoming Adversity Stories. The Antithesis Of Decadency and Degeneracy.

Something like “SOund of Music” or “Singin in the Rain” would not be a bad place to start.


april 18

had somebody endorse me for a “skill” on linkedin, and i immediately went and endorsed them. this is what i do. i really SHOULD update my linkedin, AND start really WORKING it, “pimping it out”, but more importantly I SHOULD be doing more job search related stuff.

I simply hate working and I have some “F00K YOU MONEY” saved up to live off of while I wait for my my old job to come back. Period.

“but don’t you want to contribute something? DO SOMETHING with your LIFE? Be a productive human being?”

Yes of Course. part of how I do that is with this Blog, believe it or not.

And yes I have been slacking on the Productivity. I could at least be working on a Creative Project, like Music, or a Movie, SOMETHING that requires SOME ENERGY.

Well, doing my Powerwalks is my bare minimum.

And recently I began enjoying listening to music once again, hehehe. that is what I contribute to society. listening to music.

well, soon enough I will be contributing to society by working a full time upper working class job, thank you very much. even if it IS a stupid job. I mean they could make the operation a LOT more efficient with some ground up redesign of the products we are servicing. BUT doing so would put even MORE of us out of a job. the Clusterf00kness of the Work is the very thing that gives us job security.

but we do have a real skill, in being able to solve clusterf00k problems. that’s got to be worth something to someone!

i can’t tell you how many people were laid off simply because they Just Weren’t Good Enough! so simply STAYING is a sign of Strength and Skill and Employability! and I stayed way longer than the average.

anyway, i SHOULD get a masters degree, but equally as important is that I also bust my 4ss in that degree, and make sure it’s a useful degree, outperform everybody in the program, and that I have a good middle class job lined up BEFORE finishing the program.

and I am not willing to do all that right now. i would maybe be willing to half 4ss a masters degree…..but that would be worse than no masters degree at all, so that’s out.

so what is the next level in my current Job Track. well, either moving up in the current company, or a “lateral move” to a similar position in a less gay company. but each of these would require at least one year of FT experience, so I am just trying to get thru that at least, and make some powerful friends along the way, play the game of thrones hahahaha, and try to bang some young qtz while i’m at it son.

heh. here’s an interesting topic, people who are Lost, and then a Kind Soul gives them Help, but the Lost Soul does not really capitalize on that Help, because their WILL is THAT Weak. Discuss Amongst Yourselves. They were given a chance but they blew it, they were too lazy to even meet the person halfway; they can’t be helped.

10000 steps a day is how much you’re supposed to powerwalk to be healthy like a paleo caveman. that is ABOUT five miles. For short people like myself with Short Strides, that might be more like 4 miles. maybe.

heh on a “good day” i do two ~30 min powerwalks, getting 3.4 miles. not long enough!

but it’s better than whining, obviosuly. ie bad useless writing. which is the risk of writing. I love writing but sometimes, often, it stops being Positive or Productive. like right now, hahahaha. i am getting antsy to upgrade

eh try to walk 5 miles a day, at least 5 days a week. even during a winter. get a treadmill. heck join planet fitness and go there JUST for the treadmill, and find one hidden way in the back so you don’t have to look at people and they don’t have to look at you.

This will take ABOUT 90 minutes a day to do. yes, that is pretty significant, and is not a luxury afforded to Full Time Working Adults. In Fact, when I was Working Responsibly, and got healthy rest, I had NO time for ANYTHING but Work and Sleep, forget a 30 minute powerwalk! That sucked!

heh. some money can be made when you Feel Confident enough to RE-RAISE, and then to tack a little extra onto that re-raise beyond the minimum amount. this will either provoke the opponent to go all in, or at least give you a little extra money. WARNING: don’t get too confident unless you have a Flush, esp a Nut Flush, Or a Full House. Trips and Straights are Too Easily Beaten.

also if you have a good starting hand, and not a bad flop, but you want to make the opponents “pay to see the next card”, that is a good time to make a 1x pot sized bet. sure you could go all in but if you don’t have a super great hand you could get beat.

in other words, 1x pot is a good man sized bet immediately after the flop, and sets you up to make even manlier bets if you get good turn or river.

took 52 minute powerwalk.

ok. 32 minutes / 1.7 miles == x minutes / 5 miles.

32 * 5 == 1.7 * x;

x == (32*5)/1.7 ==  94.12 minutes.

QED, I should go for a 95 minute powerwalk EVERY DAY in order to be a healthy beta male!

And so should you! well, your time will vary based on your average powerwalking speed.

community, teamwork, dedication, handling difficulties.

those were listed on the tv news job search tips segment. so do those things. there was one more but I couldn’t write it down fast enough.

walking 5 miles a day takes up a LOT of time, like at least 90 minutes like I said. this really is a tall order for Working Career Oriented Successfulz. so i suggest listening to something useful, like music, or Lessons for your MBA. Or if you have a treadmill you can put your MBA textbookz right up on it and read.

I like to put mp3 player on Random Shuffle and then listen to 1:30 to 2:00 of each song, especially if I don’t know it very well, with the option to skip entirely.

How about You?


apr 12

ok i promise not to schedule more than two months ahead.

watch the tv show “LIVE LIFE AND WIN” on saturday mornings. It tells the story of ENtrepreneurial Teenagers who are more successful and happy and harder working at age 18, than we are at age 30 and beyond!

sometimes its annoying, sometimes it can give you ideas. heh. if these TEENS can live life and win, so can YOU, who are Smarter!

it is kind of what like I want to do with Jobs TV ™, although that will be much, much, much, much more comprehensive. but still, there’s nothing like “live life and win” on TV now, and it’s weird it;s Just For Teens. No It Isn’t!

Nyquil Report

I took 1 full adult dose of nyquil (30 mL) at about 9:50 pm, wanted to do around 9:30 but o well.

took till about 10:40 pm to really kick in. started to feel aggressively tired, like I was being anesthetized. that was great. I submitted to the great wave of sleep.

but then I woke up again, almost fully awake, at 3 am. alternating between fully awake and almost asleep, no middle ground. and also very thirsty. the best thing you can do is drink a LOT of water, relax, and try to get back to sleep. yes you will be very thirsty, so drink a lot of water.

then I slept solidly till about 10 am as planned. could have easily slept 2 hours more.

so now here I am, LIKE A BOSS. how about u?

drinking coffee, playing micro stakes, .02 chip big blind, 4 chip max buyin. best game ever. small but consistent wins.

although i am in a much better mood ever since this whole nyquil experiment started. maybe it is my calling to use drugs in moderation. just enough to take the edge off, hehehehe. the edge of life.

ooh classic nap time calling mah name.

ok. bought a bunch of junk food. so happy about it. skittles wild berry candy, ben and jerry butterscotch ice cream. i was thinking about butterscotch beforehand, and how i am the only person who likes it, and wouldn’t it be nice if there were a butterscotch ice cream. well i found it as a limited edition anchorman ben and jerrys ice cream, so i figured that was A SIGN I had to obey. the ice cream was pretty good. not perfect. well actually it was really good.

the wild berry skittles might even be better than regular skittles. wish they had a large bag of Sour Skittles because those are the best. anyway, wild berry is more than good enough. thank GOD for these first world privileges.

april 13

so i saw an 18 year old girl in church, that when I was that age, I would have thought she was nothing special because of her weird face; but now I thought about her beautiful her 18 year old skin was and her perky little unsaggy bewbs, and her weird face was now cute. but her skin was glowing in a way that it does not for older women, and in a way that I did not recognize or appreciate when I was that age.

was playing normal low stakes, went all in when I made a flush on the turn, feeling good, guy went all in after I reraised him, and of course he beat my flush with a full house (can’t remember on which round he made the FH) and I lost 10 chips in one fell swoop. I am MUCH more comfortable playing the stakes beneath this, I hope that table stays there forever. I can’t be losing 10 chips, ie, one full max buyin for that table, at once!!! it really is too volatile.

heh. so that 18 year old girl should be entitled to a successful man, right? i guess. there i thought about starting a group that matches up successful young 22 year old men, starting their careers, with beautiful virginal 18 year old girls, to be their wives. and then they start having babies. maybe. i dunno anymore. except i do know that 18 year old gurls are beautiful, way moreso than 28 year old gurls, and it would be much easier to marry a young woman than an old woman, when you are ready to marry.

that NONSENSE where women say, “he’s 40 years old and dating a 20 year old, what is he thinking, how can she possibly be at his MATURITY LEVEL, HE’s so immature!!”

well the OBVIOUS response to that is, Maturity Level DOESN’T MATTER, and also, “maturity” in older women usu translates to b1tchiness and unpleasantness and untrustworthiness. Young Women Make Much Better Mates. Period.

Of course it is ok for women to get old within the context of happy marriage. good for them.

who cares if ronald mcdonald likes the taco bell breakfast. ronald mcdonald is a very common name, plus amerifats are too fat and stupid to even know that the mcdonalds mascot is named ronald anyway.


i am just butthurt about losing my 10 chips to that 4sshole with the better hand. hate having a flush beaten by a FH. i have learned not to get so mad about trips beaten by a straight. or even a straight beat by a flush. but flush beaten by FH, or ESPECIALLY FH beaten by QUADS, now THEN I get p1553d. how about you?

College Turns Women into EITHER Huge Sluts OR Lesbians. If a College Career girl is not a huge slut, don’t get all excited hoss, then she’s probably a Dyk3.

watched new game of thrones, it had a huge lag. how about u?

want to have a real fun night? watch TWO movies. saturday night I watched TWO movies. that was SICK. the only way that can get better is if you are enjoying weed along with it.

these old spice commercials with the crying mothers are so bad they make me want to boycott the product. well i use “original scent” old spice deodorant, not the ridiculous other scents. but what a stupid company. we should all boycott products where we don’t agree with their marketing. like cheerios hahahahahahaahahahahahahahahaha.


april 11

had a dream where I was touching this girl who was one of the Top 2 Cuties from Middle School, when I first started noticing Girls, and now she had matured into a beautiful 18 year old legal young woman. I was carrying her on my back and making fun of autistic kids, which for some reason was really getting her hot, and she was laughing and breathing in my ear and giving hints that she was getting all horned up and moist. I didn’t mind that, although I took a didactic tone and said Now, Sweetie, it’s really not nice to make fun of Autists, they have a legitimate Neurological Disability bla bla bla, knowing full well how much fun it was gonna be to get her in the bedroom, tear her clothes off, and bury myself balls deep in her 18 year old body and how I really hit the jackpot with this girl, I really liked her and she would be well worth Dating.

woke up without getting to the Hot Action part.

but yeah, she would have been very dateworthy when she was 18-22. too bad she is super old now, heh.

well, I shouldn’t rule out “old” (25 and older) women, I never actually TRIED to see if any were Dateable. Maybe there are a few. but I def PREFER younger women. How about you?

heck i’ll give a 30 year old a spin if she’s in great shape, hahahaha.

but it is not a priority. I have no priorities right now. i have GIVEN UP ON LIFE. how about you?

no, just trying to survive at muh job until december AND in OCTOBER will prioritize new job search AND must GET that new job. And if i don’t, then my priority will be to survive the sh1tstorm of phone calls in january.

was also thinking that UTAH might be a great place to settle down with some wives, hehehe. southern utah is prob pretty warm.

but how warm do I REALLY need it to be?

also portland has the benefit of being a City, with Younger People, demographically

643 pm fri april 11: I got FOUR OF A KIND, Four Kings, and won a very small pot. hehehe. the trick here is to, when you get great cards, is to get large bets out of your opponents.

thinking about drinking some nyquil today at like 930 pm and sleeping 12 solid hours.

here’s a good music album for lazy losers, katatonia “dethroned and uncrowned” . i used to be a huge katatonia fan as a wild youth, then lost track of them as I got older, they got more popular, I got less interested in new music, and also they released too many new albums to keep up.  but hey they are still great, and here is a nonmetal “remix” of their latest album “deadend kings” which I never gave a fair shake, but I was more willing to do so for the nonmetal version, partially because the only metal I really want to make an effort with, is evil black metal or 90s metal.  but this album is nice, makes me want to check out the metal version, but that would certainly be less CHILL. listen to dethroned and BLAZE IT F4GG0T!!! Their singer is very moody and I think he might be One Of Us, although he’s not, because he’s in a successful band, prob gets teen tail, and is creative enough to write (good!) music. So he’s not really One Of Us, but his voice will make you think otherwise.


Anyway, they should do nonmetal versions of ALL their albums!

holy sh1t. started with 4 chips, now at 10 chips. best round EVER. only 2 hours and 23 minutes in. so like a profit of 3 chips per hour. BETTER THAN -X chips per hour, amirite???

Updated Gambling Advice: What SEEMS to be helping me is playing at the smaller stakes tables. no surprise there. well, the site just opened an even lower lowest stakes table, and I like it. hope they don’t close it. lots of FISH hehehe.

be aggressive PREFLOP in raising, if you get Top Ten Hands. This is the BEST way to establish the BIG POTS you NEED in order to come out ahead AT ALL.

Call Preflop with any Top Forty Hands, unless you get a bad feeling due to Bad Position and/or huge raises by others.

Buy Back In to Max as often as possible, like after you lose a medium sized pot you would have liked; or you are below 80% of Max.

this is my new favorite site. rankings of starting hands. I play anything with a positive EV, and preflop raise the Top Ten, which should of course look familiar, no big surprises on what those are.

Ok, Raise Preflop on Top Fifteen, like anything EV .2 or above.

Always think Long Term. If you play good cards and keep getting Bad Beats, realize you’re just in a Cold Streak, because, in the Long Term, Good Cards WILL make you money.

However, Don’t be afraid to fold if the flop is not good, or pot odds are not great, or you just have a bad feeling.

got a search: “MGTOW IS DYING”

hell NO, I think mgtow is GROWING, and also that many men are MGTOW without even REALIZING it. it IS kind of a silly term. I would say any man who is successful on his own terms, living life on his own terms, is a “MGTOW.” though most MGTOWs wouldn’t even call themselves mgtows, don’t know what it is, would call it another name, like Free Man or Red Pill Man or Libertarian or True NonNeoCon Conservative or Nationalist or something.

college grad $9. hehehe. come on. a college grad is entitled to at least $12 an hour. Minimum Wage Law 4 College Grads, hahahahahahahahahaha. No, let the f4gg0ts work for 9 CENTS per DAY, hasten the collapse.


mar 31

but what I esp don’t like about horrible middle class masterz degree leftists, is that they never learn that being a leftist is stupid, because they are rewarded with good careers, making their useless masterz degree pay off, having a good job, having an attractive mate or mates that they like, not getting divorce raepd, making enough money to live and have children, rising in their career to Level 2 and 3 and managerial and decision making positions rather than constantly struggling to find a stupid entry-level job, marrying attractive people rather than hideous hambeasts like we proles are forced to marry (but not me!); and they go to COnferences and their companies pay to put them on planes, etc.

when I would like them to lose at life becuase of their leftism; but they don’t; and I have converted from left to Hard Right, however I have been a loser both as a stupid leftist and a loser then as an awesome smart enlightened right rightist;

heh I looked at the girl I might as well call “potential Girl8” on FB AGAIN, she just put up a new profile picture, and she looks GREAT, looks BEAUTIFUL, looks marriageable and dateable and monogamy worthy, just absolutely stunning, yet she has GOT to be 27 at LEAST. and she looks better than most 25 year olds! I would like to know her secret! you cannot be super promiscuous and partying and still look this good, can you? and yet she still does not list her career! but I suspect it’s probably good, everyone I know from that school is super successful middle class (but not me!)

do i want a working class girl or a middle class girl? statistically, i’ve been more attracted to more middle class girls, just looking at girls 1 thru 8. most of them tend towards middle class, if not full-blown! how about U?

that is a good way to get others to help you, and not make you look like such a selfish, annoying narcissist: if you start rambling about your boring self too much, then just finish it off with asking, “HOW ABOUT YOU?” and then have them ramble about THEIR boring self.

Think I will call her Girl8 just to devalue/deflate the Value of Girls by semi-artificially inflating the Girl Supply.  You should try doing that if you had a bunch of Girls you’re hung up on. by the time you get to Girl20 or so, none of them will MATTER any more. It will bring the early girls down off their pedestal, if you lower the criteria for being a Numbered Girl. Bringing down the Average. Taking the P off the Pedestal. Win Win. Do It. How About You?

apr 1

oooh be careful today, won’t get fooled again! fool me twice, shame on me! How About You?

not super in love with the new poker book. I still like using my “Top Thirty Hands” Reference sheet.  Though Top Twenty might be better. It’s an ongoing process of developing your style and find something that works.

but yeah How To Bet is real tricky. And my big pitfall is that I don’t spend time studying my opponents, bc I’m always doing something else. I sense this is a BIG MISTAKE and could make the diff between me winning and losing.

OK here’s a good one: if you get below half the maximum buyin, like 5 chips on a 10 chip max, then BUY BACK IN TO THE MAX if allowed. Because in order to break even now, you HAVE to go all in, and if you’re at like 4 dollars, even all in won’t do it for you. this sounds like a no brainer but I always forget to do it.

in other words its easier to win money PERIOD when you have a larger stack….especially something GREATER than the max buyin after getting a few early wins. then you are in the catbird seat!

but yeah it’s not a perfect game, I am seeing it naturally rewards aggression and bold risk taking which I am not comfortable with. I would prefer a little at a time, but it may be there’s no good way of doing this, due to the very nature of the game. either accept that or stop playing.

it is possible that straight up is the best Repository of Job Numbers Data, and NOT BLS dot FEDGOV. Although indeed is not 100% accurate because what of all the jobs that are  NOT posted there.

OH YEAH WON HUGE 13 chip pot, putting me 6 chips ahead of max buyin. NICE.

So, I would now say, buy back in AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE. Some games limit you to like once per hour. so just do it! and hopefully you can eventually get Above Maximum (by winning) and never need to buy in again! MOmentum!

sh1t, buy back in to max after every single time you lose ANY chips!

QJ unsuited is NOT in the Top Thirty hands, but KJ unsuited IS (#29).

When you are in a job interview, just think, WHAT WOULD A NORMALFAG SAY? And then answer the questions like a NORMALFAG. That’s IT.

Job Interviews are the most normalfag situation that ever exists. that is why it can seem so weird and alien to us weird virgin autist losers, who think outside of the box, hehehehe. yes thats a joke. bad jobs want you to say think outside of the box, good jobs want you to invent a new paradigm of box, etc, I could care less, prestigious name jobs are not our goal, however good paying ones are. so we can AFFORD to reproduce and have three children to carry on our families.

Just so you know. once I start muh job again I will literally have no time to do posts whatsoever. maybe one post a month. so enjoy this large number of posts because it won’t last forever.


march 28. fri. still laid off. exactly 4 weeks ago was my last day of work. played a lot of cards today. got two tables right now. but the big thing today was: doing THREE tables at once. wow. that did not work out too well today.

THEN I looked up the Starting Hands Ranked By Expected Value. I thought of, well I know the top TEN hands, but what are the top TWENTY hands? I might like to expand into those.  so I found a list ranking ALL the possible 150ish starting hands, wrote down the Top Thirty, and have been looking at that sheet.  trying to make up the money I lost playing three tables.  heh. well, though I’m months away from breaking even, I’m even MORE months away from reaching my Yearly Gambling Loss Limit.  so uh that’s good news right.

i blame my laziness on the fact that I KNOW I will be going back to my job. This is actually really weird, this is not normal for people who get laid off.

yeah if I knew I wasn’t going back, then I swear I would be better about jobsearch. i just looked at indeed right now and yes I can guarantee that is exactly why i am not searching so hardcore. bc i KNOW I will be going back, i have a job waiting for me, and i am just on “vacation” right now.

sheeeeeeit you should have saw my sweet flush get raeped by a guy with QUADS. and then I lost like 10 chips and went from being way ahead to way behind at that table.  I cannot tell you how many times I have been raept by QUADS, yet I have never got them ever. About once every two days at LEAST I get CLEANED OUT by QUADS.

hue hue hue.

heh when I get Quads I will prob get beaten by a Straight Flush, hehehe. I don’t think I’ve EVER seen even ONE of those in all my hours at the tables.

OK got muh list now, of top 30 starting hands ranked by Expected Value. Obviously will be more likely to fold those lower on the list.

ARIZE CHIKUN! is a funny meme they say in the Litecoin community, about the price of Litecoin going “TO THE MOON.” CHIKUN ARIZE!

sunday march 30

well about to go to church. it’s not bad, but it’s not great. needless to say i like it more than the avg atheist marxist successful professional, who worships the Self and the Gummint!

When I was Working muh stressful job, I was desperate for relief every day, and said COUNTLESS Hail Marys: tonnes while driving, while walking up there, while in the bathroom, while smoking a cig outside, any time while not in the office, and sometimes even when I was in the office, before muh first call of the day, or just between calls.

and the bad news is that I stopped saying all those hail marys altogether! huge dropoff!

So I would like to do that right now, and start the day being THANKFUL for the ridiculous amount of good things I do have: Nice family, Nice home, pretty good financial position, nice friends, a job waiting for me in 4 weeks, plenty of food and warmth, a nice bed to sleep in, a nice computer to type on and play poker hehehe, a f00king CAR, jeez.

The problem with SOME lazy losers is, once they start going down this list and see how abundant it is, they think, I DON’T DESERVE THIS! Well at least I think about that! Then you think about what a loser you are, and how you should have taken that privilege and done so much more with it, and Shame Spiral! hehehe.

well, BE THAT AS IT MAY, the POINT of The Current Exercise is SIMPLY to JUST be thankful, and just cut it off after that. Don’t let the Thankfulness lead to a Shame Spiral! (I think I am stealing that from Stuart Smalley; Al Franken is a horrible marxist but that character and movie is classic and great)

because we don’t want you to associate The Good Thing of Being Thankful, with the Bad Thing of Bad Feels!

Guilt and Shame are a Good Thing, but losers like us can take it way too far. For example, a woman being a huge slut and riding the c0ck carousel and having a high number and being promiscuous is something you SHOULD be ashamed of. But if you have wasted years being ashamed of not succeeding enough to justify all the privileges that you are thankful for, then that kind of shame has stopped being useful long ago.

so i am thankful for nice friends, which some autist introvert r9k friendless virgins don’t even have, or they’re always having stupid “Drama” and stress with their so-called friends, where it’s a stressful competition for popularity and pvssy. HALE NO. Whatever happened to just Enjoying Each Other’s Company? So I spent some very quality time with my Frand recently, and all we did was make racist and sexist jokes and play call of duty for hours and hours, and that was wonderful.

Also, if your experiences with your “Friends” are largely you worrying and stressing out about you Measuring Up, an COmpeting, worrying about them thinking you’re a loser, then those people aren’t your friends, and you should stop hanging out with them immediately, and it is better to be alone.

OR, if some of those people have potential, hang out with those people individually so you can get a better read on them to see if they actually LIKE you, or if you’re just paranoid and only THINK people don’t like you.

ONLY hang out with people who genuinely LIKE you, in other words.

The caveat here and I will talk more later, is when you hang out with a Large Group of Friends, then there is a Group Dynamic which makes it hard to know what each person is like individually. One person’s decency might be overshadowed by another person’s douchebagness.

Also, Woe Betide You if there is a young Woman in that group that you fancy. Because then when she rejects you and bangs all the other guys in the Social Group, you will be right there to have your face rubbed in it, and she’ll parade around like she’s in the right, and you’re the douchebag with the problem. BEWARE! of Social Groups with Cute Young Women involved.


march 25

had a weird dream that a feminist had broke into my computer and posted my real name on the internet and was “concern trolling” me, but if she had real concern, she would not be trying to RUIN me with my real name on the internet. and she totally f’ed up my computer. funny thing was, she was 30 years old and still looked good. I told her I was going to bang her.  bang bang bang bang bang. so decadent.

temp agencies. I guess it would actually be a good idea to go to a temp agency, because they’re supposed to do all the hard work of getting you the job. of course, they take a cut, and the client can still fire you at will, but if you do ok in their Trial By Fire, you might get a stable job out of it.

Is It Right or Just for Companies to Provide Training At All? Actually probably not, companies have NO obligation to provide ANY training.  YOU bring your own training, then companies pay you for your pre trained work. Because training == skills that do not Travel With The Company, they Travel with YOU, and when you leave, the skills leave too.


No you don’t, you can Autodidact for FREE and YES is IS Unjust that companies will not recognize that, because they are in a cartel / collusion / cahoots with Colleges.


first one of these in a while!

When you are taking Calc 3 and Calc 4 and Diff EQ’s and Physics 5 and Biochemistry and Therm and Abstract Algebra and Number Theory and Stats 5 and Actuary Exams and Comp Sci 3 and Algorithms and Real Hard Classes, of course you form a study group with the best students in the class, AND THEN…..

IMMEDIATELY after (or before) class you get together in the Math/Science Tutoring Lab and start doing your homework for a good 4 hour stretch. You treat it like a Poker Hand, where each person puts in an “Ante” of 10 cents or 25 cents per problem.

The first person to finish the problem CORRECTLY takes the “pot.”

And then they help the rest of the group do the problem, and explain it and teach it, because of course the teachers don’t teach, it is up to the learners to learn.

And there you really incentivize the homework, and show how learning Hard Math translates into Real World Money, by actually PUTTING money on it.

it does not have to be high stakes. each person would be spending no more than 20 or 40 dollars over the course of the entire term, way less than it costs to even BUY THE BOOK.

I can’t believe I only first thought of this today.

start similar gambling pools in all your classes for the outcome of tests, etc, to motivate you to win.

OUCH. Just got cleaned out of my 10 chip stack on a Full House, both of us all in, we BOTH had Full Houses with Jacks, but I had jacks and NINES and he had jacks and TENS.

Well, tuff morning at the tables, might NEVER break even, but I guess the consolation is, this probably WAS a smart idea for me to go all in. I think. in the LONG RUN, these bets will WIN for me, and help me break even.

also, if you are good at a game of 100% skill and 0% chance, like chess, then start betting on those. bet on anything yo can win at, so you can make money off SOMETHING.



Wow what a productive day, TWO great ideas you can easily put into practice, to become a winner.

Make all your business/job search phone calls within Five Minutes of Banging a QT. When you bang a QT (pref young, note tellingly that it’s hard to be CUTE when you’re not young, and that “cuteness” IMPLIES a certain amount of YOUTH inherently) , you will have extremely high confidence and can talk to ANYONE without sounding WEIRD or AWKWARD, and POSITIVE FIRST IMPRESSIONS are EXTREMELY IMPORTANT in the Job World. This is unfair and gay and stupid, because it IS so hard to talk confidently to give a positive first impression………..but not after you’ve just drained your balls into an 18 yo QT!

which begs the question.


important: be mean in a smirking teasing way. I knew people who had the balls to say some pretty mean things to women’s faces, but it didn’t get him tail because the stuff was in a very butthurt, cruel, mean mean tone, and the women didn’t tingle for it, instead they sneered and thought “creep, you must not get laid much, ew ick.”

so it’s great he had the confidence and balls not to supplicate to women, or to be afraid of what they thought of him….. however he needed to simply change his tone to something a little more playful and fun in order to actually drain his balls into these sluts. And I think he eventually learned that lesson, and got his wild oats action in. Good for him!

learn lessons not just from YOUR mistakes, but from the mistakes of others!

eh lets try a 900 word post today as opposed to 1000. i think 1000 might even be a little long.