MY PERFECT HIGH SKOOL SYSTEM

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shit. i accidentally saw the worst thing i have ever seen since perhaps “3 guys 1 hammer”, and i hesitate to even describe it! it was just godawful. would like to erase it from my memory. it was “basically” a “crushing” video but even worse. where a “woman” was using a high heel to gouge out a fluffy little animals eyes and pierce its skull and grinding into its skull with a god damn fooking high heel through its eyes and brain and skull. i think it was a dog like a fluffy little dog. you are not used to seeing the animal in such a position. it looked like its little legs were tied with a weak ribbon and it was helplessly squirming around and thank god i did not have the sound turned on. and the woman was just grinding the heel through its eyes, into its skull, jesus christ. i mean come on.

i didnt even realize what i was watching, it started right out with the heel in the eye, in progress, and how are you supposed to recognize and process that.  after like 10 seconds it sunk it and i was like oh jesus i hope this is fake. how could something so horrible be real. oh dear god cannot be unseen.

i couldnt pull my eyes away, like i had to see the horror. although i think i did not / could not watch the whoel thing. it was like a 1-2 minute webm video.

then i hid that post and shortly after reported it to Mods. meaning THEY are gonna have to LOOK at it! but i think alot of innocent readers of the 8ch thread got mindfooked accidentally watching the same thing.

i mean it COULD be fake. but it didnt look blatantly fake and i am not willing to look at it again!!!!!!!!!

it haunted my mind as i tried to go to sleep.

thankfully i was able to sleep. i had a weird dream but nothing like that horrible video.

HOW did i see such a horrible thing you may ask? i was reading an 8ch.net/pol/ thread that was actually very interesting and good: when you are “dating” someone you think is Red Pilled, but they turn out to be horribly Blue Pilled. you think they’re cool, but they’re not really cool, and you feel disappointed and maybe even somewhat betrayed. hehehehe. had some relevance to me. it was a great thread and worth saving/linking…….except that one god damn post more than ruined the whole thread.  yeah i mean it really takes time to get over seeing something like that!

i think the post the awful poster was trying to make was, stop white knighting and orbiting the 1 woman in this thread, because women are pure evil, see what they can do!!!!!!! its a WOMAN doing this stomach churning, brain boggling evil!

i think that was his point.

which is a valid point, but he was clearly an unhinged true woman-hater broken man mgtow type. because you dont have to SHOW this kind of thing to prove the evil women are capable of. shit this will make you think women are MORE evil than they really are. the guy has to have a screw loose to have a copy of this video on his computer, and to then post the video to 8chan, to make anyone watch it.

he hid it behind a “spoiler alert” question mark so it didnt show up right away. you had to click the spoiler first to get to it.

note to self: read the responses to such posts before clicking on the question mark hahahaha.

i mean i had spent some time on 8chan earlier that day so had already seen a few pcitures of big black dicks, and dead bodies, and decapitated bodies hahahahaha. but i was not prepared for this.

and that is only right and just. i hope NEVER to be prepared for THAT. the PROPER reaction is HORRIFIED. the proper reaction is to have it haunt you at night. if you didnt have that reaction, then youd be a damn PSYCHOPATH.

anyway the guy was massively butthurt that there was a gurl talking in the thread and all the 8ch betas were trying to impress her. and i an understand the butthurt all too well. i dont like women coming into muh safe male spaces, because all the lonely thirsty betas fall all over each other trying to impress the gurl, because your Political / Social / Religious / Philosophical MOvement is 99% Thirsty Beta Virgins.

oh god i gotta stop using that word “thirsty” its gay hahahaha.

but yeah when a gurl enters these Spaces (the word space is gay too), it TOTALLY changes the dynamic. 1 gurl can change the dynamic of 100 men. if those 100 men are all desperate lonely hugless virgins!

it sidetracks the entire discussion and becomes desperate one upsmanship to compete for the woman!

kinda RUINS the INTEGRITY of the discussion.

obviously if all or most of the men had GFs or at least fook buddies, they wouldnt be so sidetracked by one gurl entering the discussion.

its so obvious that we are all SO DESPERATE for a woman that we would fall all over ourselves to appease and impress women who are ideologically, politically, morally OPPOSED to What We Believe. just gimme some leftist marxist communist baby killing SJW special snowflake anti white anti traditional puppy torturing college gurl action!

ok and the dream i had it involved some green gas that blew up in peoples faces and made them incoherent and stupid permanently. even just a little bit of it had a big impact. you breathed just one puff of it and you were a retard 4 lyfe. and kids were acting like this was the cool new drug.

anyway when i was a young nihilist throwing my life away i would sometimes look for edgy shock videos, faces of death type shit, to prove how tough and badass and nihilist i was hahahaha. yep a bad idea because you do become desensitized. but at some point i stopped looking at shit like that, i never got too deep into it thank god, and never watched any Professionally Produced and Staged Animal Torture Videos!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really watching porno was more damaging to me. cuz i watched porno regularly since i was like 15 or 16!!!!! holy shit! and i didnt realize how it could warp your mind. especially when you never had anything to do with real women.

i mean i can not look at porno for MONTHS now but i fear the damage is already done.

stupid nihilist.

heh. if a gurl can get an abortion then she could be paid to kill a puppy with a high heel into its eyes. good lord. you wonder what that woman is like in evil life. probably cant tell her from any other woman hahahahaha. probably goes oooohhhhh soooo cuuuutteeeeeee when looking at puppies and babies. then kills them for degenerate oil sheikhs for 10 grand a pop hehehehehe.

i mean there ARE people who watch this sort of stuff, prob jerk off to it. i am thankful i am not THAT fooked up!

but yeah that kinda ruined my day! got the woman off my mind tho hahahaha.

4-5 months and nothing from her, well i guess she has forgotten about me hahahaha. i was hoping thanksgiving, xmas, new years might make her nostalgiac, make her RETHINK things hahahaha. but nooooooooo.

when i first met her i thought, well shes a nice gurl, but too much baggage for me to get really involved with.

then later i was like nope not too much baggage at all. very nice gurl. not a slut. some issues but who doesnt have issues. we all do. i have huge issues. i can totally live with this. i luve her.

then it was like how could she do this to me. well because she just has weird rels with men. but what woman doesnt. they are all sluts who let way too many men partake of their most precious resource.

so they say, in order to meet good traditional women, go to where good traditional women are. like church. or meetups of traditional neoreactionary nationalists racial realists hahahahaha. see the latter is all men. a sausage fest. and the few women are either attention whores, or they already have 5 kids. the latter is great. but…. damn. That Woman was not “A Traditionalist” but she was traditional where it counted, mainly she was not a promiscuous whore. and she was not super feminist. and she was kinda anti-gay if you can believe it. she was not in favor of the big gay marriage thing. so these things allowed me to put her on a pedestal as a really Cool Red Pill Traditional Gurl.

but the bad news was that she was just THAT bad at communicating with me.

she could communicate with me about some things, like her first boifrand, but other things, like her second boifrand, and most importantly her rel with ME, she could not communicate worth SHIT about those important things.

i wasnt great either but i tried to put it out there. but got shit on becuase i was so weak and unmasculine.

well i try to be more strong and masculine when i am with women but shit i had a moment ok???!?!?!?!?!

5 scoops of coffee per pot, that seems better.

anyway. yeah just the never knowing. was the whole thing a fantasy? fook that i know she felt close to me from…..say oct 2013 to about nov 2014. after that she was picking up my signals and then she started distancing. couldnt talk about it. could only distance. well i mean i see why, lots of people distance and avoid and are too cowardly to confront issues. i have done this myself. many a time. just not really with such DEVASTATING effects on another person!

thanks to everyone who likes and follows muh blog.  ideally i would do a youtube channel and maybe even google hangouts hahahaha. but then i would expose myself and not be able to be a leader in the reactionary movement hahahaha because my NEUROTICISM is not a great leadership quality in that universe.

heh. muh neuroticism has impacted a lot.

that feel when people can just look at you and tell within 5 seconds that SOMETHING is MAJORLY wrong with you. wait, youre saying youre 30+ years old, a jobless neet, quit your job because you cant handle being rejected by a gurl you never even fooked, have a college degree but you never made more than 15DAH and never moved out of home, had secs with only 1 girl, 2 times, 11 years ago, and have been spendng the last 5 months moping and whining and bitching? WHAT THE FOOK IS WRONG WITH YOU ????!?!?!?!?!?!!??!???!????!?!?!??!

hehehehe well muh poor fam does enable me cuz they dont know what else to do with me!!!

fam doesnt know what to do with me, i dont know what to do with myself, so i take 20 mg of citalopram a day, go to shrink once every 2 or 3 weeks to deal with the artificially prolonged crisis of being Harshly Dumped and trying to get a job. any job at this point.

waaahhhh wahhhh

anyway i was gonna say yeah youre not gonna meet Single Women if you go to meetups of your interests, because your interests are 99% male anyway hahahaha.

also, single women DONT NEED TO ADVERTISE and congregate in groups. they can pick their mates remember? and the ones who dont get married young have a big screw loose! they always think they can do better! and often pick the worst men! so yes actually they can do better, they just dont want to pick anything other than a thuggish deadbeat dark triad badboi, and if they have a history of picking that, uhhhhh they are not gonna stop picking those AFTER 25 hahahaha

hmm ad for a cnc machinist for 60 hours a week, need recent 12 months working experience, they dont want shiftless jobless bums hahahahahah. and 2 years of cnc experience. of course it costs 4500$ to do a cnc training program hahaha.

whats an od/id grinder

inside diameter outside diameter. i think this can tie in to CNC or computer numerical control.

there are a decent amount of “machine shops” in the area but uhhhhh i have no idea and no experience hahaha

i am just going to google maps and looking near muh home in like these industrial / commercial parks, finding the big buildings that have linked names of companies, machine shops, grinding, cnc, aerospace, metal, steel, suppliers, OEM, injection, molding, plastics, pumps, tools, dies, tooling, power, boring, drilling, grinding, hahahaha all this shit i have no idea what it means or wat do. but jobs for grown up working class men over 30. that are definitely not straight customer service or restaurant or retail.

heh wish for high school i had just done a cnc program in one year, an hvac program another year, an electrical program another year, a welding program another year.  shit if all high schools were like that every kid could be making 15DAH at age 18, rather than struggling to make 15DAH after 30+ hahahaha.

maybe have a month for customer service, a month for restaurants, a month for retail, a month for banking, a month for technical support. a month for carpentry, a month for od id grinding hahahah, a month for health care, a month for

basically…..ok.

MUH PERFECT HIGH SCHOOL SYSTEM FOR WHITE HOMELAND

kid has 4 years of high school right. uh they get 3 months off for summer. well you know i would have then work coops or internships during the summer to get experience in a company. these would be arranged by the school and no keed would be left behind hahahaha. no literally the school would place every kid into a summer work program, give the kid a choice of course, give us your top 5 choices from thsi list and well try to accomodate. no interviews, no competition hehehe. cuz EVEN HUGLESS VIRGIN AUTISTS GOTTA WORK FOR A LIVING.

also the kid would make money for his summer work. not some bullshit unpaid internship. the kid would learn the value of work, and the value of money, and not have to do it at fooking MCDONALDS, but doing something semi “skilled” right from the age of 14.

ok how about, each CLASS would be on a JOB/CAREER. take 8 classes every school year. 32 classes in 4 years.

use The 32 to learn, gain experience and knowledge, and make decisions about their future work.

i would say totally immerse them in each module for like 1 month. 1 month per class. and then just like train them like you would for a job. 2 weeks of training and then 2 weeks of on the job, with the same companies who would employ the students during the summers.

is this how they already do it in germany hahahahah with the Dumb Kids?

well I would include Smart Kid careers in there too. doctor lawyer engineer researcher scientist etc.

you could pick The 32 from the list of fastest growing, or probably better would be Most Job Openings. and if the most Job Openings are in McDonalds, then you teach from the point of view of a Store Manager.

  1. electrician
  2. hvacr
  3. welding (is that the same as pipefitting???)
  4. plumbing
  5. cnc machining
  6. mason / stone
  7. wood working
  8. carpentry / construction
  9. automotive
  10. aerospace
  11. medical doctor
  12. nurse
  13. police
  14. fire
  15. lawyer
  16. mechanical engineer
  17. tech support
  18. systems analyst
  19. accountant
  20. restaurant
  21. retail
  22. biotech
  23. machine shop
  24. banking / finance
  25. (this is all off the top of my head super fast) teacher
  26. Software Engineer
  27. Electrical Engineer
  28. restaurant server
  29. call center
  30. customer service rep
  31. sales (these to all work on your peopel skills!)
  32. priest / religious

ok im cut off now hahahaha. note that these should be focused more on ACTUAL JOBS and job titles and Jobs that actually exists, rather than DEGREES which supposedly prepare you for a range of jobs.

NO. I will prepare them for the ACTUAL jobs, one by one.

there will be a number of very customer service oriented jobs so they get experience and knowledge on how to talk to people and build people skills.

that will then probably help them with Dating and Friends and Social and taking care of their life.

well…life skills are very important tho and many families dont teach them. so i would teach:

33. dating

34. communication In Relationships

35. renting a house

36. buying a house

37. personal finance and not going into debt

38. cars

39. health care

40. retirement

41. good physical health

42. good emotional health

just spitballing on some important life skill classes. i think we could tack on an extra year to my Awesome Super High School!

and then the kids could go to college if they wanted………..or they could start making at least 15DAH right out of high school. actually I would MAKE them do that for at LEAST one or two years. two years.

they could go to Cheapest Community College or Online COllege in their spare time if they wanted.

then after 2 years of work minimum they could go to a University for a Job Oriented Degree. STEM of courshe. all non stem departments would be shut down and the marxist phds made to work in call centers, restaurants, and retail hahahahaha.

of course the kids would work with counselors throughout their schooling. and the counselor WOULD get them in a summer work as well as an after skool job. trying to match it up halfway decently with the kids Skills and their personal Preferences. for example everything I was GOOD at, I also HATED. this is why i eventually Gave Up on everything.

oh thank GOD MW is doing his MIlleniyule Hangouts. they have richard spencer on there right now, he is talking quite a bit. he is a pretty big name. these hangouts have been getting some pretty big names. yesterday they had greg johnson and henrik palmgren. day before they had sargon of cukkad hahahaha. i guess we are not supposed to like him because hes dishonest. i am fine with not liking him hahaha. but he is HUGE on youtube. these “celebrity” level types basically do this for their CAREER, and woes is having them on for the very first time. basically meaning the Big Guys have been noticing Woes, AS THEY SHOULD. CANT CLOSE THE WOES. MW is awesome.

i wouldnt blame him if he wanted to take a break rather than doing 7 days in a row!

WAITING 2014

dec 29 2013

ok might as well move into the New Year here.

watching the movie “waiting” for the 9000000th time on comedy central, it really is one of those profound Life Comedies like Office Space, and we as Huge Losers and Falers can all identify with these characters painfully well.

HOWEVER it does leave out important, Profoundly Important “Little” details:

1. What the hell does Dean (early 20s loser who is starting to get a real sense of himself becoming a loser) do when he quits the restaurant? shouldn’t he regret not taking the asst manager job? would joining the army like Mitch says really fix him? (young teen boy new hire who unloads at the end, calling everyone out brutally for being the losers they are)

More importantly, would Dean going to College and getting a Bachelors Degree like his high school buddy Chet get him a Career Job at FORTY EIGHT THOUSAND A YEAR like Chet?

Or would he just have a bachelors degree and CONTINUE working at Shenanigans, while his Bald Loser Manager “only” has an Associates Degree?

2.  heh well those are the most pressing questions.

So we need a more bleak, dark, hopeless, bottom of the barrel version of “waiting” for 2014, where there are no exits, no magic bullets, no escape, no hope, and you have to find the Will To Live in that milieu.

It is VERY telling how the only glimmer of hope they have is possibly banging drunk 18 year old gurls. And that will continue to be their only glimmer of hope in Waiting 2014. Because there will still be drunk 18 year old gurls in ANY year, so take comfort in that!

It just might be harder and harder to bang them when you are a 50 year old manager of a sh1tty restaurant. Maybe a high class restaurant for the rich and powerful, but you aren’t that AMBITIOUS, are ya?

anyway one of the movie’s biggest and only misstep is in presenting The Bachelors Degree as a Magic Bullet. Worshipping the College Career Religion. I would ASSUME that chet got a Useful Stem Degree and outperformed 90% of his peers, THAT’S why he’s making 48k a year right out of college.

So yeah, I want to see Waiting 2014 where Dean is 10 years older, has a Bach Degree, comes crawling back to his manager to ask for his OLD job back, and he still lives with his Mom, is going Bald, and gets less pvssy than the Huge Shy Niceguy Beta Calvin (can’t get over xgf, can’t pee in public, too nice, too beta), and drinks more than the Angry Psycho Waitress, (Anger, Alcohol, Bipolar, Borderline) and becomes a huge Depressed Burnout Wirgin drinking and doing drugs, hehehehe, and boys 20 years younger than him make 48k a year, bang 18yoqtz, and tell him to join the army or to get a Masterz Degree. The only thing that keeps him alive is that once every 5 years he gets to bang a Fat Young Drunk Party Gurl. (Because when they’re young, it doesn’t matter so much that they’re Fat. It’s only when they’re Old that Fat becomes a Totes Dealbreaker.)

MISOGYNY ALERT!!!

Oh well, I yam what I yam!

Heh freaking out about Muh Layoff even though that is like 4 to 5 months away. Skurred that even with muh Newfound Confidence – and CONFIDENCE is easily one of the Top Magic Bullets, next to be masculine, pray, lift, STEM Internships, Math, etc. – that muh confidence and muh new and improved better resume will NOT be enough to gettajob.  Just a Nauseating Fear.

COGNITIVE DISTORTIONS

Well this is DISCOUNTING and DISQUALIFYING a lot: my resume IS OBJECTIVELY stronger, I HAVE OBJECTIVELY learned alot, and I will objectively know how to at least Fake Confidence Better, even if all muh new confidence wears off.

And I have nice new Business Professional Dress Pants to wear to interviews, and Dress Shirts, and possibly might even Pull the Trigger on a Proper Business Suit. Dressing well during the interview is a HUGE magic bullet, its an ACE IN THE HOLE, because say you get spaghetti pockets talking, you still LOOK great.

magic bullet: if you get a warm day in the middle of the winter, OPEN THE WINDOW in your bedroom until the heat comes on, because your room most likely smells like Farts and Stale Sweat and Butt and Armpits and Socks and Feet and Funk and Dirty Laundry and Crotch Juice and Moar Fartz, although you can’t tell because you never have A Gurl in there.

FAMILY IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN CAREER

I might have already HAD a post with that title. Still, it’s important enough of a Point, that I could prob just change the name of this blog to that!

nov 29 2013, fri, 2:01pm

YEP  fully enjoying “Thanksgiving Vacation”, sleeping in, time off, relaxing, R and R, great times, here I can really do some serious Blog Work. like schedule posts every day so there isn’t such a huge backlog. and sit in bed and drink coffee and give you a Live Post of 1000 words right off the top of muh head, in one fell swoop, playing a few poker hands in here as well.

Again, I would be doing youtube videos, just talking to yall, but again, my Voice would IDENTIFY me even more than these words, and I want to be Anonymous atm. I will de-anonymize for no less than 40 grand a year. For the next 30 years. at least.

had thanksgiving dinner with the fam, tried to analyze a case history of The Working Class Family. Adults can get a decent Upper Working Class Fulltime Job right out of high school and continue working it for 20+ years. Nowadays the younger Millennial Gen can’t get that, and the only full timers are Old people who have been there 20+ years, trying to hold on to their jobs, while the company is trying to squeeze them out with Young Kid Part Timers making 8 bucks an hour.

Adults in their 50s who are completely Not Into the College Career Cult. Because they didn’t have to be. Meanwhile I’m actively HOSTILE towards it, because I’ve experienced it, and can see how bad it really sucks.

ANYWAY.

So one way to do it is to find a Big Govt Agency that hires part-time seasonal workers, then do that, then HOPE you get hired in to Permanent Part Time, then HOPE you get hired it as Full Time. Not sure how long that would take, or if you could improve your chances with Good Performance. Why would you? that would make too much sense!

Then I laid awake thinking of everyone I know who has gotten married. I thought of Men and Women and Careers and Families and the State of the Nation 2013. I thought about who invented the word “CAREER.” When did CAREERS become a thing, and when did JOBS become such a Loser thing?

Especially when JOBS are so hard to come by….let alone CAREERS!

I was invited to a Huge Thanksgiving Party and there will be people there I do want to see and people there I don’t want to see. Heh. Ideally I would just see the people I DO want to see, and in a much smaller non-party situation. at the same time I don’t want to insult the host, who is a great guy, who I DO like, hehehe. I would prefer NOT to go in muh gut, but I wonder if it would be Good Karma for me to make a brief appearance.

Women LOVE careers. They love careers more than they like men. Women are the biggest True Believers in The College Career Cult. They LOVE it. If you’re a man who’s not Huge On Career, to Women, that’s admittance of you being Proud to be A Loser. They can find PLENTY of Career-Oriented Men in their Own Careers! (see great recent HEartiste article about “THE CORPORATE CAREER HAREM”!!)

And with that comes the Raft of Everything else that appeals to College-Educated Women: Left-Leaning Media, Big Government Worship, Democrat Worship, Career Worship, College Worship, Atheism Worship, Change for the Sake of Change, Feminism, Daily Show, MSNBC, Blatantly Choosing Career Over Family/Children. How are the CHILDREN of these women going to turn out?

And then I thought, even though I have these strong opinions, it doesn’t really lead me to any solid answers. The best I got was, hope I am making a Good Living by Age 40, in the Middle Of Muh Career, MAYBE age 50, and THEN find a young VIRTUOUS woman to have children with. Love and attraction would be VERY secondary; Virtuous/Moral/Good MOTHER would be PRIMARY. then have Children and try to not be senile by the time they’re 18. And at least 3 children would be ideal.

Heh. I’m DONE with CAREERS, I’m DONE with WOMEN.

A Full Time JOB is more than sufficient for me, and My Women have to be OK with that, and not WORSHIP THE FALSE GOD of Career being The Most Important Thing In Life.

FAMILY IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN CAREER.

JOBS ARE BETTER THAN CAREERS.

The Careers Day poster they rejected
The Careers Day poster they rejected (Photo credit: Alun Salt)

Warning: When I talk about Being Against Women and Careers, it’s more Marketing/Business/HR/PR/Advertising/Media type careers rather than STEM Careers………..obviously. STEM careers are a lot better than Business Careers hehehehehe. Get a Health Care Career if you want a Career so bad, and leave Business to the Men. Not that Women can’t DO business as good as men do, but because Business kinda RUINS Women, just like taking too Many D’s can ruin a woman. It crushes their natural Feminine Beauty.

Heh heh. Of course it must be muh Hateful Sexist Attitude that is making me an Unhappy Loser who is not having success with Career and Women.

One last thing. Wizardchan makes (or USED to make, several months ago) a big deal out of banning people who weren’t STRICTLY Virgins. My target audience is much wider and inclusive. I will totally take Nonvirgins. You just have to be Unhappy with the Quality or Quantity of Women you’ve pulled thus far. Maybe a huge Drought of 1, 2, 5, 10 years. Maybe you’ve only had S with one or two women. And they were all Hideous Hambeasts. Or Hookers.

Come one, come all. I am going to help you Sow Your Wild Oats Once and For All. I am going to help you get Sex On The Reg with Attractive Women. Although they might not be Virtuous Women, and they might be closer to 30 than to 20, heh heh.

TO BE A LATE TWENTIES LOSER

sorry if i stole that title from anyone, it was just a great search term that brought someone here. we should become Blogroll Buddies cuz we talk about the Same Stuff!

nov 14

well stayed up late till 11.30pm doing Muh “INDEPENDENT STUDY” “RESUME BUILDER” “RESUME SILVER” “HOMEWORK”, kinda humbling nuts and bolts computer stuff, I wonder how Univeristies actually teach Web Dev in a Full Time Accredited Curriculum. The good news is that this is up to date tech that is actually used right now, rather than them teaching you how to write Hello World to a Console in some Oldass Language that is never actually used.

although it is good to understand hello world and console progs and the basics of classes and all that…..just try to do it in a language that is actually used By Employed People, like uhhhh def Java. PHP.

149 pm

woooooohooooo parrrtaaaaaayyy. this might be my favourite hour of the week: got day off tomorrow, can sleep in, can stay up “late” and watch a movie tonight, could go do something fun tonight if i wanted, just finished my stressful progress report where I try to deflect from the fact that I’m not trying as hard as I should be on muh homework.

kinda nervous because I am actually more likely than Not Likely to get called in for An Interview for a Full Time Job, I mean things look really hopeful there. Like they could veyr possibly call TODAY, like RIGHT NOW. And I am famously bad at interviews, which is why I stopped trying.

Actually I wasn’t that HORRIBLE at interviews, I was about average, but because the competition was so tuff, I never got the job….But why would they want to hire a 45 year old with 20 more years of experience, and a masters degree, if companies hate old people, and old people cost more in health insurance????? what’s my excuse now? that I wasn’t YOUNG enough for such entry level jobs?

but it’s like joyce meyer sez. you do your part and let GOD do GOD. Let HIM do HIS part.

Of course I would incorporate the things I talk about here. but yeah fact is I have not done an Actual Interview during the entire time This Helping Losers blog has existed. Just been working at muh underjob as a fairly discouraged underemployed.

anyway just want to capture muh Gr8 mood at a very powerful time of week. got 5 hours of sleep when I like to get Einsteins 10. Meaning I could get 15 hours tonight if I wanted hahahaha. Go to bed at 5pm and wake up at 10am friday, hehehehe. totes skip muh cherished movie, or say i had a hot date, or wanted to go buy a suit or some silver, or go to the casino, or go volunteer at the soup kitchen, or go pound the pavement in muh suit and try to sell muhself for a job like a responsible nonloser with dignity.

fri nov 15

lemme look at muh search engine stats:

“to be a late twenties loser” – yes sir, i can assure you it is not fun, and it’s hard to teach an old dog new tricks. but if I didn’t believe it could be done, I wouldn’t be here.

“are you a loser if your working class” – no, your a loser if you write YOUR, hahahahaha. I got news for ya baby, working class is the new MIDDLE class, bubbelah. Consider yourself LUCKY if Your Working Class with a sweet Fulltime Working Class Job and you can afford to responsibly reproduce and afford to live in a neighborhood where your family won’t be terrorized by the REAL underclass.

Working Class Dog
Working Class Dog (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

this is what I mean when I say UPPER Working Class: you’re working full time, you’re a step above Working Poor, you can afford to Live, you might have a Bachelors Degree Job, you might now, but as the Bachelors Degree continues to be devalue, it’s really irrelevant anyway: The Bachelors Degree JOb IS the same as an Upper Working Class Job, at best.  You could be a Underemployed College Graduate Working 20 Hours A Week for $9 an hour!

So go do a 900000 page dissertation on Marx and postmodern intersectional power and try to figure that one out, college boy f4gg0t b1tch!

ok friday day off. yesterday watched a movie, had to drink a lot of coffee to stay up for that, but it was good, went to bed at like 10:30 pm, slept till about 10:30 am, very nice.  now just being lazy, listening to music/spotify, when a person with human dignity would be out pounding the pavement trying to carry his own weight.

They always ask where do you see yourself in 5 years. so you just give a bs answer, related to that company and their field: oh I want to get my MASTERS DEGREE in management with a concentration in (insert field) and follow a natural professional trajectory to a project manager or team leader position with this company.

NO, you don’t say you want to be living on a BEACH Gambling and buying Gold and sipping W33d Smoothies with a harem of 18 year old girl servants with the 222$ you make per day gambling!

All right I should at least do some CHORES and so should you, try to show some Gratitude for not being homeless and dying of cancer or morbid obesity. And I also hope you get to do a grill doggystyle soon that really makes you go HNNNNGGGGG.

ONLINE MBA MIDDLE CLASS BUX

maybe monday oct 28 or so:

Don’t be a Dishonest Sociopath, make it clear to the 26yos that you’re not looking for a Relationship AT ALL, and if they look like they’re starting to Fall In Luv with you despite that, you must “LET THEM GO” COMPLETELY AND IMMEDIATELY. Both to protect yourself from future ruination AND to score good karma. Win Win.

how do people lose money at holdem? they bet when they should FOLD. simple as that. When in doubt, FOLD. if you lose confidence, that’s your gut telling you to fold. Besides it will be hard to bluff and win if you have that visible fear. So just fold. I suppose if I play more and become more of an expert, I MIGHT move more into bluffing, but it’s basically not gonna hurt the non-expert to FOLD MOAR.

And if you get really BORED of folding, then go ahead and play the occasional middle of the road hand. It should remind of why you’ve been folding in the first place, but if you get lucky on the flop, good for you.

You should be Folding at least 60% of the time, because….well you ONLY want to play like the top 30% or 20% of hands, right? Probably the top 10% of hands! does that mean you fold 9 out of 10 times? how does that math work. I don’t think that’s quite right, but it’s definitely around 60-70% of the time, the large majorty, you FOLD. This strategy has served me in good stead for like one year of sporadic playing, hahahaha.

although if everyone in the hand is conservative that hand, and you get a sweet draw like AA, and then only win like a measly 10 chip pot, that can suck a little. but it’s still better than losing chips!

wed oct 30th 7.38am

haven’t done this in a few days! the ole sleep and productivity report. sunday went to bed super early (7, 730), that was ideal. Monday did the same. TUESDAY did the same. but here’s the thing. tuesday afternoon was real tired after a busy day of underwork and really felt like laying down “for one hour,” shirking muh responsibilities, so I did, of course napped for more like 2 hours, AND STILL went to bed early around 7 pm. don’t think I fell immed asleep though. good news is i can sleep in tomorrow, but I gotta get a lot of homework done between now and then. and how will I feeeeel this afternoon? real hard to say. yesterday the urge to take a powernap was unshakeable, EVEN THOUGH I had been getting to bed at a decent time. Maybe the best time to go to bed for the night is SIX pm.

muh movies and muh game playing (cards) is putting the HURT on muh homework productivity!

thursday oct 31 LIVE POSTING into the wordpress box, TBP on nov 4

well. resched muh weekly stressful task to earlier in the day. that helped a lot. also resched at underwork so I could sleep. me me me me me.

so muh big life lesson for the day is, have pokerstars (or whatever) going on IN THE BACKGROUND while you’re doing productive stuff like blogging or jobsearching or resume shotgunning, SPRAY & PRAY, homework, etc. It will pop up in the foreground when it is your turn and you will have 8 seconds to decide what to do. This is usu enough. and since you shouldn’t be playing more than 17% of hands anyway, of course you’re highly likely to fold anyway.

(more aggressive, experienced, bluff oriented players will disagree, but I don’t like that style atm & I certainly don’t recommend it to muh audience!)

Then you can (hopefully) win Big Pots on Premium Hands (AA, KK, QQ, JJ, TT, AKs, ?????) and make your quota of 211 chips per day in one sweet hand.  AND not be so distracted by the game that you can’t Get Work Done on the Computer.

Was really thinking about what Molyneux said in one of those vidyas before.: that the company is only paying you 37k because you’re MAKING THEM like 100k, so don’t think it’s out of your league.

So next day you go in to your underjob, make that your assignment: think about how much money you are making the company throughout the day. this can be easy or difficult depending on yer underjob. if you’re a server at a godawful restaurant, then you can easily quantify, and add up your checks, say I brought in $500 today, or whatever. Don’t you think you DESERVE at LEAST ten percent of that? 20%?? course I don’t have a sweet Online MBA so I don’t know sh1t about Costing or Cost Of Doing BUsiness or Payroll or Expenses or Revenue vs Expenses or COGS or all that.

heh. just won 150 chip pot with full house. 6’s full of 7’s. hehehe. that’s 3 6’s and 2 7’s if i grok the lingo.

Anyway. Just WATCH THE MONEY that you facilitate the transfer from the customer to your company.

now, if you don’t service a lot of customers, or deal with a lot of cash transactions, but mainly do tasks, try to put a dollar value on those tasks. really think hard about how your company gets its money and how you can quantify that with you being there. IT can be tricky depending on your type of company. for example, if you are a gravy train riding, clockwatching, make work, chit chatting, useless, unionized Public Employee, hehehehehe, making MiddleClassBux for sitting on your fat lazy useless a55 all day and getting Cadillac Health Care and 401k matching to boot!!!!

then get your hands on a Yearly Budget and see how much flows thru your department. Or see how much money your boss’s useless boss makes because she has an Online MBA, hehehehehehe.

Yep. Gambling As A Career has more Honesty and Integrity!

* Wear T Shirts that Show How Smart You Are. LIke make reference to how you took Calculus 5 or Organic Chemisty or say “MIT COMPUTER ENGINEERING” on them, hahahaha.

I Think, for when you’re b4nging 26yo’s, Doggystyle is probably just as good as Reverse Cowgirl. Either Or. Seated Reverse Cowgirl, where she is essentially just Sitting On Yer D, that would be perfectly acceptable too. Any of those will make you feeeeeeel considerably better about yourself, and will improve your jobsearch, your salary, your gambling, your social life, and your mental and physical health.

YOUR WIFE B(_)RP5 5P3RM ALL OVER HER T!T5 / HOW TO $12 AN HOUR

http://www.bls.gov/web/laus/laumstrk.htm

Unemployment rates for states. Good Old ND at the top as I thought. But what OTHER states are good? SD. Nebraska. NOICE. Quite a surprising list though. Look at the bottom. Illinois? North carolina?? I thought these states were GOOD.

mond 9 16 623pm

switching times. weird, weird day. had the very rare chance to sleep in as long as humanly possible, which only happens a couple times a year, and this time I slept till about 3 pm, (checking muh privilege), even while going to bed the previous night at 11pm. sixteen hours of sleep. and i haven’t been particularly sleep deprived lately! however I felt absolutely euphoric after all that sleep, got a weird drug like feeling.

there was a fun erotic or romantic part in the dream as well. I was with a young 18yoqt and we both liked each other and I was teasing her a little like Lovers Do, and we were just at a gas station midway through a long drive to go up to a Lake House or something for a Fun Long Weekend For Lovers. Sun, Summer, Swimming, and certainly some Fun Nights to be had. Unfort the dream did not get into any of that, just the implication.

then the dreams got weird, shifted to a completely diff episode, and the girl was gone. damn. something weird like I was slowly being poisoned and turned into a mutant and going crazy from chernobyl-like nuclear radiation.

but the other one was real nice. heh. would be nice to experience that feel, hahahahaha. I am greedy for that feel.

would it be the same with a 30yo as with an 18yo? not sure. I don’t get as excited about the thought, that’s for sure!!!

 

tues 9-17 809pm

getting used to this docs. (official switching to google docs and saying f00k you to gmail drafts)

Is Pure MATH a good major?

Probably Yes. Math is probably the most important thing in the world. It underpins everything. It’s like philosophy. IF you can understand advanced math, you can understand anything and everything. All science comes out of math. Math should be the FIRST thing you learn. Don’t learn science until you learn math.  Big Government Should Make A Law that All College Students Should Take: Calc 1 AND Calc2 AND Calc 3 AND Linear Algebra AND Finite Math AND DiffEQ AND DiffEQ 2 AND Stats 1 AND Stats 2. And THAT would WEED a lot of people out, do them a favour really.

was watching this semi ridic PBS docu called “God In America”. Kinda ridic and self-important, but also fun, I had never heard of this Briggs guy who started a lot of “modernizing” movement re Evangelical Protestants in the late 1800s, and there was then now Fundamentalists Vs MOdernizers, COnservatives vs LIberals. Now, I’m usu quite CONSERVATIVE, but I had to side with Briggs on this one, I don’t think Darwin or Science is any THREAT to religion and god, that Science and Religion can WORK TOGETHER to Shine LIght on each other, I share Briggs’s optimism. And while WJ Bryan was a charismatic guy and I like his Conservative Populism, and this Clarence Darrow was a little sneaky sleazebag, I ain’t no Fundamentalist. It was disappointing seeing christians fighting against each other over SCIENCE, when they COULD have been learning MATH. Even Fundamentalist Christians are allowed to take all those MATH courses!

And of course I was asking about the Catholic Immigrants from say Italy and Poland and Ireland, who were viewed with horrible disdain. But the show never discussed, just showed a bunch of city factory workers with dirt on their faces and calling them immigrants. missed opportunity.

But just to be on the safe side, I would major in Something Engineering, with a Minor in Math.

thurs 9 18

I MEAN double Major in An Engineering AND Math. Yes.

Have Paid Internships going all the way back to HIGH SCHOOL. At the VERY LEAST, Summer 1 of College. How about Summer 0 : Summer Between High School and College. Yeah. don’t want employers to think you are one of those bad college students and not a good college student.

Heh. I agree with Will Smith’s talentless son that the world would be a better place if everyone dropped out of school. Educational Institutions do not help the world, they hurt the world.

Education and Learning is for f4gg0ts, hahahaha. No, not really. but it can be hard to get your brain to work when you’re lazy and tired and old. have i said this already? but if your master strong solid employable skills, you will make money and be a winner in life and have a good job and make good money and attract good mates and afford to keep your loved ones safe from disease and violence.

Sometimes someone who looks and acts really dumb and annoying and you want to punch them in the face, turns out to be really smart and successful, a unstoppable top 1% College Student who is going to Medical Doctor Skool or Law Skool. And that, if anything, makes the situation even worse! Because you wanted them to be a big LOSER to match how annoying they are, not a big WINNER!!!

See here some classic Rumination which Dr Steve (Ilardi) sez you and me must STOP. Just cut it out. Pull The Plug. Play some games, rearragne the Queue, drink some water, get up and do pressups or situps or crunches or Capoeira or Wing Chun or prayers. Dr Steve suggests doing a Shared Activity with a Fran, if you have one. I guess the key is to stop the cycle of negative thoughts, true as they may be, and get out and do something. Go to Burlington Coat Factory and buy a suit for jobz interviewz.

thurs 9 19 740 am

holy smokes. dat feel when you close one day then opent he next day at yer underjob. actually not a horrible feel if you don’t ahve to do anything precision or stressful.

however, very likely I got less than 4 hours sleep. for a guy that likes at LEAST 9…

but was in good spirits, listened to a very grim, bleak, dreary, sorrowful, despairing song on repeat at least 5 times on the way over, it was bretty hilarious.

* If you have a Useless Degree and are 100k In Debt, then just leave your college degree OFF your resume to prove that You Don’t Think You’re Overqualified for a job that doesn’t “require” a college degree. Pretend you never graduated College and pretend you’re not 200k in debt!

* If it was a Name School, maybe put the Name on there, but imply you did not graduate.

* what a scam, amirite? yep. but one day you will be making good money and mating with good (young, qt) wimmin, then you won’t care about the scam you went through in the past.

* your wife b(_)rp5 5p3rm all over her t!t5

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how to ruby on rails

how to calc 3

how to $12 an hour

how to good wief

friday sept 20 2013 1137 am

* So, live at home, go to Loser Community College, and take ALL the (harder) math classes they have. When you Babby Boomer Mom complains about you not wanting to grow up, show her the f00king ridiculous math problems you’re doing and say, “LOOK FAMILIAR? NO? THEN IN TODAYS WORLD, YOU DON’T DESERVE TO MAKE $12 AN HOUR. YOUR DAYS ARE NUMBERED. BE THANKFUL YOU EVEN HAVE A JOB, BECAUSE WITH YOUR NONEXISTENT SKILL SET IN 2013, YOU WOULDN’T.  I HAVE TO BE A SUPERGENIUS SUPERSCIENTIST TO GET THE  SAME KIND OF JOB YOU HAD TO BE A COMPLETE IDIOT TO GET 30 YEARS AGO. YOU WOULDN’T SURVIVE A DAY IN 2013. BESIDES, COLLEGE COSTS 900000000000 TIMES MORE THAN IT DID FOR YOU, AND I WANT TO BE ABLE TO PROVIDE FOR MY FAMILY ONE DAY. OH WAIT, YOU DIDN’T GO TO COLLEGE???” and then go back to your Math Homework while she goes back to Celebrity and Reality Television, hehehehehehe.

* Do Manny Internships, Heck focus on internships ABOVE Classes, they’re prob more important anyway.

* NEVER take a class unless you have the CASH to pay for it ALL UP FRONT.  NO credit cards, and ABSOLUTELY NO LOANS. NO CASH, NO CLASS. So It takes you 10 years to graduate college. BIG DEAL. Less Classes, Moar Internships. Internships don’t COST anything anyway. Except the money they’re not paying you for working, hahahahaha. f4gg0ts. so whaddya do, you gotta f4g the f4gg0ts right back.

* Don’t Ruminate On Your Past Failures, Go Out and do something fun (nondrugs) with your friends if you have any.

18YOQTs, SUPPLY OF JOBS, CRIMEA RIVER, HNNGG HNNGG HNNGG

monday 8 26

WOW SUPER grumpy this monday morning. ending it all sounds like a REAL good idea. worst monday monring in recent memory. and no reason for it! other than the usual excuse of “being a loser.” wah wah crimea river.

tues

went to “bed” at 7pm.

still wanted another hour of sleep when woke up. super duper bad mood tuesday morning, but shook that off quicker than on monday. now 12pm and has been super busy past couple of hours. super busy. god almighty. but maybe i’m happier cuz it is my 8 hour day.

i see enough beautiful 18 year olds every day to know for a FACT that an Unlimited Supply and Variety of 18 year old Tail would DEFINITELY come close to Approximating True Love.

I would be very happy with one or the other. would not ask for both. wouldn’t need it. just one or the other. Actually, the neverending supply of Teen Tail might be BETTER. Its only downside is that it flirts with Immoral, Decadent filth; pornography. Flirts with, but does not have to be. Note that these girls don’t WANT commitment anyway. Good, cuz neither do I hahahaha.

wed 751 am

so. my “new” favorite thing is to lay face down on bed and LISTEN to tv because too much energy to prop head up on pillow and WATCH it, better transition to sleeptime. did that at 6:30 pm spongebob, all lights out at 7 pm, got some fairly decent sleep, an erotic dream that was kinda fun. just a random girl. a big4ss white trash slut. nasty but tolerable. better than a known entity.

major lesson: do Lights Out at Seven Pm For Best Results.

still took powerwalk, that was good.

REALLY gotta buy new clothes soon.

saw an 18 year old tiny blond girl wearing the tightest pants possible. she was TINY and YOUNG, very young looking, and usually don’t go for girls so small, but her youngness sealed the deal, it was almost like A Whole New Gender, hehehehe.

Does it REALLY need to be SO competitive to get into the Physical Therapy or Occupational Therapy Program? Yeah, it’s a better field than Sociology, but I don’t think it’s even in Top 10 of Job Openings, or something else to merit rejecting a SOLID 80% of Applicants. THAT’s how Competitive it is. 80% of people who WANT to get in DON’T. Why do they WANT to get in? I don’t see a HUGE GLUT of PT jobs to justify such a ridiculous demand.

Heh. So I’m wondering how a person decides on Physical Therapy for an Education and Career choice. You can’t just WALTZ into the job, AND you can’t just WALTZ into the EDUCATION, and believe me, you can get MASTERS and DOCTORATE in PT. Sh1t to get an entry level job you need a Bachelors degree.

Unless my local Nonprestigious College happens to have a Very Prestigious PT program, I dunno.

But this points to my larger point, that 30 years ago, you didn’t have to TRY to find a Entry Level Full Time Job, you just needed a PULSE. Now you can spend your whole LIFE going to COLLEGE and switching majors and getting useless degrees and NEVER get an Entry Level Full Time Job, because your CV wasn’t remarkable enough, your GPA not high enough, not enough extracurriculars, too many GAPS, too old, you don’t interview well; forget just having a pulse and showing up to work every day on time!

But then there’s people who Say that finding a Full Time job in North Dakota is EASY because ND has the lowest unemployment and the boomingest economy. I certainly think abotu it every day!!!

So i guess you’re “supposed” to spend your teens and early twenties wanting to Bang everything that moves, then in your later twenties, you’re supposed to develop more Lasting, Mature Relships, with an Eye to someone you want to Spend Your Life With. Heh. I had it ass backwards. When I was young, I wanted a Monogamous Loving Waifu. Fell In True Waifu Luv 7 times. Now I am old, and just want to B 18 year olds! NOT Sadistically, NOT hurting or hating anyone, But Sort of Decadently. I want to bang at least 100 18 year old girls in my life. If you get tired of one, move on to the next. Simple, easy, effective, perfect. Fundamental Ontology. Priorities in Life.

thurs 8 29 13 9:39am

did my “long day” yesterday. When I took Hard Class, I would have at least 2 “Long Days” per week. They are good for Feeling Productive, but much moreso if you are actually doing Paid Work, compared to Free Work or Paying For Skool.

Had another semi erotic dream. In this one I was making out with a Very Cute Young girl. You know the girl is very CUTE and young, if you actually enjoy making out with her before plowing her, hahahaha.

these the Attitudes that Normally, naturally Form when you never manage to pull from QTs, and then you say, well I don’t wanna bang non-QTs, so I’m gonna be a kissless virgin wizard all throughout my 20s!!!

Heh, you’d think I’d be more willing to Lower My Standards, especially considering I’m old, fat, bald, loser, underemployed, costanza. When I was actually YOUNG, I was a lot more Physically Attractive and could actually Pull QTs, and I wasted that by not pulling a LOT of QT action, but Far Less Than A Bare Minimum, which is still Far More than Wizards Pull, so, I’m grateful for that, hahahahaha.

But yeah you see some 18 year old student with nice skin and a tight bum and bright eyes and perky bazooms and you think, yep you can sit on my face, you can sit on my face, yep you too, I wouldn’t mind that, lemme clear off a place so you can sit on my face, etc etc, 90000000 times a day. THAT’s pretty overwhelming, and why Men and Prime Of Youth Women should be kept separated, because it’s very distracting and overwhelming!

From ages 18 to 25, Women should be Locked Away in Women-World, and not let out until they’re safely MARRIED.

Heh. Funny how “you” want 18 year old QT Younggirls to Sit on “Your” Face, but not really so much Thirty Year Old Women or Older!!! Then you think, UM NO. EW. GROSS. But 18 year olds? ALL DAY. SIT ON MY FACE ALL DAY. Now THAT’s True Heterosexual Attraction!!!

It’s analogous to the making out. The older the get, the less you want to make out with OR have them sit on your face.

Disclaimer: While it is natural and normal for Most Men to have a Preference for Younger Women in GENERAL, I have taken that to a whole new extreme. Exaggerrated, inflamed, inflammatory disease. Upped the contrast level. To an arguably Pathological, Detrimental level. So how do I train my Animal Brain to Tone it Down, to sand off the sharp edges? Dunno. Would probably be like trying to “cure” the gays with electric shocks. It’s as hard-wired as it gets. Just an extreme variation of natural behaviour.

Can you Curb the Anxiety of Constant Horniness by Beating Off To Porn? Probably a LITTLE bit. Like a 1% Purity of the Drug, when you’d like 100%. And By God, I’ve been lucky enough to experience something like 90%, back in the day. But Not Enough. But with stuff that powerful, can there ever BE enough???

Or can you say, “YEAH, I DID OK. Not Perfect, but OK. I’m not Hung Up over it or anything. I’m No Superman anyway. I’m Happy with what I Can Get.” Which would be the Mature Response.

Or you can be a big immature Adult Baby and say wah wah, I want 18 year old girls, nothing else. I want I want I want, gimme gimme gimme!

Really weird. The blend of Entitlement, but not being Confidence And Powerful enough to back up that entitlement.

So yeah. School’s In For The Year, and I saw more cute 18 year old girls I wanted to sit on my face, in the span of one hour, than I have in the past 3 months, then I think of How LoOoOoOoOng it’s been. MANY years. And even back then, it was just a small taste. Just to Whet the Appetite. The logical, sensible thing to do would be: go to a hooker, go hoggin, TAKE what you can GET, learn GAME and actually USE it to pull better quality.

So yeah anyway. When I come up with my “Rules” of Attraction, like does the girl make you go HNNNGG, or 18 or 22 or you’re done, or would you enjoy making out with her, would you enjoy Cunnilinguus, would you lick the sweat out of their 4ss on a hot day, because they are 18 years old etc, realize this is the product of a Diseased Mind, hahahaha. A Diseased Mind, AND Perpetually Horny, AND on a Many-Year Drought, AND sees 900000000 beautiful 18 yo QTs EVERY DAY. A Perfect Storm of Erotic Stress. This Biases, Prejudices my view, quite understandably!

Of COURSE there are MUCH more important things in life, like FAMILY and WORK and MORALITY and DISCIPLINE and AMBITION. They just don’t “FEEL” (hate the word feel!) as important when you are RARING TO GO!!!

How “Average” is the “Average Frustrated Chump,” or, in today’s parlance, Beta? Lesser Beta? Omega? A Self-Selected bunch of Woman-Haters who read and comment Woman-Hating GAME and Pick Up Artist blogs??? r9k neckbeard virgins who watch tons of p0rn? people who generally use the internet too much and don’t interact with Real People enough????

But the 18 YO QTs overstimulating me are definitely REAL!!

MOVIE REVIEW: yeah this is more of a joke, I will not do Serious Reviews of “Really Obscure” Art Movies any more, as that would Identify me. So I’ve been meaning to see “Insidious” since it first came out at theatre. Always looking for a good hore movie. kept pushing it back in the queue. FINALLY the time was right, by god I wanted to watch it. It wasn’t super good, wasn’t GREAT, but it was pretty good. Dialogue sucked, but the acting was good, some good scares, kept my attention till the final Act, which was going well, until BAM the disc crashed suddenly, no warning, no skips. Bam. Stop. Unable to read disc. This is about 10 minutes from the end of the movie, and I was still liking it. Hadn’t jumped shark. I was angry and frustrated. But I have been on a streak of Not Bad Movies lately. Real uncanny. wonder when the shoe is gonna drop there.

HNNNG. 18 year old shorthaired girl with GREAT 4SS in jeans. HNNGG!!!!!

Hnng is the new schwing, remember that scene in waynes world where garth is at some party or something having an actually normal conversation with people, but stops to say SCHWING every time a “hot babe” walks by, which is every 2 seconds, because waynes world just went hollywood or something. That’s me going HNNGGG every 2 seconds when a 18YOQT walks by who I want to make out with then sit on my face. GOD DAM RIDICULOUS.

ok gotta wrap this up. a great line I heard today, the day the fast food workers were gonna do their Strike for $15 an hour. I saw a bunch of Adult Students Going Back To College because That Is Sure To Get Them All Jobs, College Will Make The Unemployable Employable, College Will Create Jobs Where None Existed Before, College Is Magic, Companies will hire Adult Students from Low-Prestige Colleges over Young Students from High-Prestige Colleges, more excuses, etc, hehehehe, ANYWAY, this one loudmouth (woman) was complaining about The Audacity: “$15 an hour! COME ON! That is for SKILLED PROFESSIONALS! My HUSBAND doesn’t even make $15 an hour!!! And my Macdonalds was cold today!”

So I thought the whole situation was hilarious and sad. My opinion is quite moderate: maybe $12 would be more reasonable; or giving people Full Time Hours; and I acknowledge that Fast Food Work is Harder and Much More Stressful than Average People realize.

But it’s her fault for marrying a loser who couldn’t provide, hahahahaha.  Maybe he needs to go to college for physical therapy and maybe, just maybe, if he gets a 3.99999 GPA and performs better than 80% of his class, then he might get a $15 an hour job.  But still everybody has to take out a 50k loan and gamble at the casino anyway.

but again I have a really distorted view of reality, so don’t listen to me. I used to think I lived in an “anti-intellectual” or anti-collegefag area, where only rich soft boy scout faggots go to COLLEGE, but this was inaccurate; its more like EVERYONE goes to college, because they can’t find jobs otherwise, or they’re laid off and are getting Taxpayer Dollars to go to college, so I really can’t blame them for doing so.

The Media says there are Technical Jobs waiting Unfilled because there’s no one to fill them, no one with the proper training and skill set; but I don’t really believe that, because everyone from age 18 to 80 is In College, College is the “New” High School, not like that is anything NEW!!! Except High School you don’t have to take out an Unforgivable Mortgage to go to!

Heh heh yeah I have a Fatally, Pathologically Bad Attitude.

My Homework To Do List For YOU (and me):

http://bls.gov/ooh/occupation-finder.htm?pay=&education=&training=&newjobs=50%2C000+or+more&growth=&submit=GO

So here is a list of 94 Jobs from Outlook Occupational Handbook of BLS. This is really the best way I know to find out this information, there are prob better ways!  I want to know the SUPPLY OF JOBS. NUMBER of JOB OPENINGS. It Stands To Reason that it should be EASIEST to GET a job, where there are the most openings. They won’t turn away losers who didn’t go to harvard, or who have Average College Extracurriculars, in other words!

Teach Your Children to go for one of those 94 jobs. I’m thinking Long Term, a Slow But Steady Growth Rate is better than a 20% growth rate over 2010-2020, right???? cuz what if it takes a nosedive after that. or what if it doesn’t.

http://bls.gov/ooh/occupation-finder.htm?pay=&education=&training=&newjobs=50%2C000+or+more&growth=&submit=GO

Physical Therapists and Software Developers, hahahahaha.

Anyhow. hehehe. I never said Physical Therapy was a BAD field!

Heh. I wish Banging 18YOQTs was a Job, and on there!

Wow. How do you FIX a Fundamentally, Deep-Seated BAD Attitude? Eradicating thoughts like the above from your mind??

Ok, I wish Banging 18YOQTs was not a job, and was not on there. That would be a stupid job. And 30 year olds are hotter than 18 year olds. hehehehe. more age appropriate.

“But that’s such a Stupid Euphemism, Age Appropriate!!”

Heh. It really kind of is.

No It Isn’t.

I will Be Age Appropriate And Go To College For A Physical Therapist or Software Developer Job.

your homework:

go to a Cheapo Department Store and buy some “Nice” clothes that you could ostensibly wear to a $15 an hour job.

Don’t Beat Yourself Up if you have the occasional Racist or Sexist Thought. Sometimes Stereotypes get invented for a reason.

Get NINE hours of sleep a night. Dr Ilardi says Paleo Man got about NINE hours of sleep a night. Dr Ilardi KNOWS!!!

If you have an Extreme Obsession with 18YOQTs, tell yourself, this is a gross exagerration of normal desires, Please God Release Me From This Living Hell.

Either throw out the objective on your resume, or change it drastically. rather than say, i want to work for this kind of company, say I want to apply my demonstrated skills of increasing revenue in Physical Therapy to This Company in the Physical Therapy field. I don’t f00king know, all that sh1t’s gay. Just make your objective SHORT and EXACT as f00k because you gotta beat out 100 other people for this one job, and some of them will be from harvard, hahahaha. f00king sh1tstains.