wed nov 22

april 8

ok made 3 oz meatballs with walmart 80 20 beef. the beef looked pretty good actually. hope it wasnt totally GMOd to hell. used regular hamburger buns with 2 of the 3 oz meatballs on them. essentially making a 6 oz burger or meatball sandwich. made 6 of these. put in freezer.

weev has been saying for years that you should teach your kids how to CODE. its more important than teaching them how to use a firearm. because the wars of the future will be fought with drones and robots and those with the best software, the best code, are gonna win, so learn how to code when you are YOUNG so you can be really really good when you are an adult.

this sounds sorta like coding academy for kids, coding summer camp for gurls, etc. of course weev is not about the social justice aspect of coding for GURLS, weev has a very good view on women.

but i am just butthurt because to get a 14 dollar an hour job coding, you have to be DAMN GOOD, you have to be in the top 10% of of coders. you better be an EXPERT in SEVERAL languages. i mean there is SO MUCH. you cant just learn a little, or even a lot. you need to learn a SUPER LOR and that is the BARE MINIMUM.  THEN you are at shit tier h1b indian chinese level. which is not good enough to get a job in the west. you are just replaceable by indians.  heh. i guess i wish i was more prepared for exactly HOW MUCH coding you need to be REALLY GOOD at, in order for the skill to be worth ANYTHING to you.

however, if i had started learning this stuff at age 5 or 6, maybe i wouldnt have hated it so much hahahha.

that was the problem with SKOOL and EDUCATION, is that it made me hate learning, hate knowledge, lose interest in everything, and not want to try or work, but just to obliterate my mind with drugs hahahahaha. i dont care about shit. nothing is interesting, everything is stupid and gay and pointless. who cares about any of this shit. how can i make money or get women with this shit. what is the payoff for knowing this stupid ass shit. id rather be jerking off to jooish porn and fookin up my mind with jooish drugs and jooish vidya games.

i was fooked up in the mind by the joo since like 7 years old hahahaha. hopeless. lost cause. bad seed. i shoulda just been born a joo. DAMN. THAT is a bad feel!

PORN is SO DESTRUCTIVE that it is the ONE THING the joos will give away FOR FREE.  i wish I had NEVER looked at porn. i think the first time i saw it, i was like 14 years old and looking at the sleazy “club” magazine, which was way more hardcore than playboy because the sluts would be bending over and showing their assholes and spread cvnts. and as a super horny 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22 year old, I thought it was the HOTTEST THING EVER. and the joo poisoned my brain and muh whole secs drive for 8 years of my young life!

i never thought at age 14 that this was a horrible jooish thing! i was like WOW this is the greatest hottest thing ever! damn i cant wait to jerk off to that tits and ass and pvssy 10 times a day! wow!

and i dont even think i was a porn ADDICT like some of the more unfortunate cases. i just think i was slightly above average. i think the average teen boy is horny af and wants to jerk off 10 times a day. that’s natural. thats NORMAL. that’s your body telling you to REPRODUCE.

hmm. well i was thinking that you make prostitutes or sluts or skanky milfs available for horny young teen boys. that would be much better than PORN. as ive said before, if a 15-16 year old boy can hook up with a 19-20 year old SLUT and just bang the shit out of her, i think that would be ideal. unless the boy falls in luv with her. which he well may! so why am I recommending this? is the reward worth the risk? theres a 50% chance he will fall in luv. but theres a 100% chance he will get the reward of confidence and masculinity around women, which will help him when it comes time for a real woman and not a practice gurl hahahahaha. so yeah reward outweighs risk. and of course you can have redpilled education for the boy on exactly why he shouldn’t fall in luv with the slut. and clear instructions on HOW not to.

clear fooking instructions. do this, this, and this.

john dewey is the biggest name in education. how jooed was dewey? probably pretty!

ok making a pot of tea instead of coffee for the first time in a while. putting some honey in it. honey is a miracle food hahahaha.

honey. chicken. cottage cheese. beef. butter. eggs. coffee. tea. i hear walnuts are supposed to be bretty good.

weev is not wrong. coding IS a very valuable skill. hwyte kids SHOULD learn it. but they cannot half ass it like i did. only take 2 classes of c++ and get up to Pointers and Polymorphism and Inheritance and be like IM DONE. FOOK THIS SHIT.

you need to get to pointers in like 1st grade and then just keep on truckin. so by the time you are 14 you have a bachelors in CS. this is what weev means when he says white kids must learn coding hahaha. and i agree with him!

well he might change his tune once he has kids. and he abolsultely SHOULD!

there are plenty of weev haters who think he is a Deep State Joo. oh just LOOK at him, he LOOKS like a joo, hes workign for the CIA. i dont think so. i could be wrong. if i am wrong, i will be very disappointed!

maybe i should get a c++ book and pick up where i left off haha. ummm i have a c# book! c# for dummies!

it just seems so hard to Bounce Back when you have Wasted Your Youth!

when i was young and jerking off to porn, i did not realize how jooish and wrong it was, but i did know that i wanted a special monog, trad, longterm rel with a woman, and i did not like sluts. but i was just SO HORNY that i couldnt resist the jooish temptation of porn. also i am one of the last generations that ever used actual porno magazines simply because we didnt have high speed internet, just dial up. heh. and of course i STILL managed to view some pron on it. remember saving pron on FLOPPY DISKS and eventually a CD ROM. good god. have mercy on us.

i became interested in bitches taking it up the ass, which certainly the INTERNET enabled that OBVIOUSLY JOOISH fetish. the most you saw in magazines were just the sluts showing their asshole. and that is jooish ENOUGH!

anyway enough of the walk down memory lane hahahahaha. gonna go for nice walk here outside, BEAUTIFUL day today.

anyway i just thought porn was a sin against the uncool christian god, and i was rebelling against that anyway. that porn being a sin was just as stupid as Premarital Secs being a sin.

premarital secs is doable (although still risky.) but if anything was ever INHERENTLY sinful, it is porn. you cant even joo a good excjuse for it hahahahahaha. other than you are young, extremely horny, and want to jerk off 10 times a day. i mean at that age you are basically a secs ADDICT anyway even WITHOUT the porn. but porn just makes it WORSE. just beat off 5 times a day WITHOUT porn. explain to your son or younger brother that the more he looks at this poison which was engineered by our Racial Enemies to destroy US, the less he is going to be able to talk to actual real women. you dont want to be a 30 year old virgin, do you? the less you look at of this propaganda poison, the sooner you’ll bang a realgurl!

i mean i ABSOLUTELY had a concept of Race by the time i was like 10 years old or younger because of The Blacks. However I had absolutely NO concept of jooz at that time. none whatsoever. and I’m sure the first time i did learn of joos, i thought it was Just Another RELIGION.

ok drank the whole pot of tea very quickly. 6 tea bags.

i am all about Powerful Phrases. since I have ADD  and millennials are proven to have an attention span less than a GOLDFISH (see time magazine) i can only understand brief soundbits. phrases. powerful phrases. give me one sentence on a flashcard that I can memorize and practice. a powerful sentence where each word is carefully placed to Get What You Want. Persuade and convince and Sell your audience on what you;re selling. because you always have to be selling something. very often it is your self. invest in me. pay me. hire me. dont fire me. spend time with me. be loyal to me. don’t leave me. have my children. dont cheat on me.

is this the same as begging and pleading? please do what I want? why can’t we ever want the same thing. why cant we be on the same team hahaha.

april 9

ok back to job tomorrow. today i want to do the “homework” of figuring out the best Process, the best Workflow, for this Project, so I can hit ground Running tomorrow, because I wasted like a whole day last week, which normal people would be FIRED for, and which proves i am a loser, inferior human being, a failure at life, cannot handle normie adult life, etc etc etc, will never make 27k a year, will never get a wife, never have children, etc

yeah well wife and children suck, they suck all your hard earned money! you dont want wife and children! just bang young sluts for the rest of your life and leave no legacy!

basically, because i have issues, i want to find a woman with issues, but not Too Many or the Wrong Kind of Issues, esp having too high of a number, being a mudshark, and being Borderline or Bipolar. but these are the most common issues women have!

so i was “lucky” enough to find a woman that had issues, but not the wrong kind of issues.  COME ON.

but it is true. a woman who is totally NORMIE would seem WAY out of my league. plus it would be OBVIOUS that she makes 4 times the money in her career. i mean at a certain age it just becomes NAIVE to IGNORE the money/success aspect.

heres an interesting idea: it is BETA/OMEGA/WEAK/REPULSIVE to perform cunnilingus on women. They immediately begin seeing you as a doormat wilting weak omega and start looking for ways to dump you, leave you, cheat on you, because what kind of strong, tough, protective man is gonna be down there munching the rug? its a sign of weakness and SUBMISSION. this is why its perfectly FINE for a woman to s your D, and you wouldn’t disagree THATS a sign of submission, no? so, its very likely to be a sign of submission when you munch the rug. and WOMEN HATE SUBMISSIVE MEN. they dont just dislike them. they HATE them. WOMEN are supposed to be submissive to MEN, not vice versa.

now, there are some men who hate munching rug and refuse to do it.

there are other men who LUVVVVV it.

there are some women who are ADAMANT about it. like its a DEALBREAKER if this guy wont munch muh rug.

as far as me, its something I am totally open to. in fact if I really like the gurl, I am very excited by the idea. in fact, the more I know and the more I like the woman, the more I am into the idea of rug munching.

but if its some brand new strange slut off the street, hell no, i dont want to get near that STANK BOX where 9000000000 guys have been! shes probably got a bunch of sperm swimming in there right now! EW! GROSS!

so theres the idea that if you munch rug TOO SOON, its viewed as submissive and disgusting by the woman. if you have a longterm rel, it’s probably safe for you to do once in a while and she wont lose any respect for you.

hard to say because I only did it once hahahahahahahaha. but i thoroughly enjoyed it! it didnt hurt that the gurl was qt as fook, solid 7.9, and 18 years old. the notion of licking an 18 year old gurl is a lot better than a 30 year old woman!

so yeah that was ALL GOOD, BELIEVE ME. I was happy to experience it, I wish i could have experienced a lot MORE of it, and I prob enjoyed it more than the actual PIV secs, because it felt like there was less pressure, it was less serious, I can be more confident about this.

but I wonder if it signalled to HER that I liked her too much and therefore  turned her off and she had to dump me? because at the time, I didn’t know her that long, because she was a SLUT who bangs guys within a week of first meeting them.

LIFE LESSON: dont risk it. dont get feelings for SLUTS, dont munch box on SLUTS, dont munch box until you have had a legit rel for a while, because its a SIGNAL of WEAKNESS AND SUBMISSION on your part, and will make the gurl DUMP you, so dont do it unless you WANT TO BE DUMPED. TOUGH MANLY MEN DONT MUNCH BOX.  until you have been like legit monog dating for……6 months. just estimating there.

this fookin guy mocks every move i make or dont make at the poker table. not betting enough. not betting correctly. betting out of position. how to lose with top pair. he tried to warn me, i didnt listen. i dont know how to read the cards, read the board, read other players. i am like a child who has no idea what im doing. i have no concept of the bare fundamentals. come take money from this FISH who doesnt know what he’s doing. whyd you do that. whyd you do that? are you an idiot or something? you CLEARLY dont understand how this game works.

it is VERY annoying and also confidence shaking because i am particlarly susceptible to having my confidence shaken that I dont UNDERSTAND the way things WORK. like yep this makes NO SENSE and I should JUST QUIT because its too confusing.

because i honestly dont know how smart i am. when I was 16, 17, I thought I was way smarter than normies. now I was like, wow, these normies know something I dont, they are smarter than me, I took an online IQ test that said I had 105 IQ and I thought I would be more near 120.

so when i run into Challenges, im like, hmm, maybe this is just too confusing for me to handle. i need an adult! but I am a grown ass man. but not REALLY! i am a pathetic excuse for a grown ass man! I am a manchild with SEVERELY arrested development!

and I HATE that. I just wish I was an official grown ass man.

yeah but MANY people are super immature hahahaha. some people NEVER grow up.

yeah but no one EVER RESPECTS those people.

anyway. so i dont think i made a big tactical mistake by slurping that sluts wh0re hole. at WORST, it was a SYMPTOM of my larger Submissive Supplicating Weakness that prevented her from having any loyalty to me. more importantly, she was a known quantity as a known slut, and her loyalty was diminished ANYWAY.

main point: use your D to establish DOMINANCE early on.

but yeah I remember being like, this is great, the girl cant get PREGNANT from this, I can actually fake my way a little easier at this, not so nervous, she seems to like it, this is hot as shit, maybe shes a slut but her 18 year old pvssy is pretty sweet nonetheless, i could do this EVERY DAY.

so yeah I dont blame myself or regret it one bit.

I do regret not POUNDING her more and not taking tons of pictures and vidyas hahahaha. I didnt take ANY.

ok i was grumpy and it was a sunday so i laid down to take a brief nap, that was not a bad idea

i gotta be careful with this rwriting, it has been even more negative than usual lately.  honestly just been avoiding it because its always bitching about women or about being a lsoer hahahaha. oh im just discovering this NOW ?!?!?!?! hahaha

but yeah the thought that you have been weak, less than a man, a weak little neet loser, failure at life, failure with women, cant reproduce, cant take care of your kids even if you could reproduce, just a failure at the Game Of Life in every way. bad feels man! and women and Employers rejecting you because they can see you are OBVIOUSLY a failure too! it’s not just you that can see it! the outside world CONFIRMS it! its not just you being HARD on yourself! you really DO suck that much at everything!

and then writing tons of stuff like this doesnt really help you pull yourself out of it.

if i ever have to dump a woman and i dont think i can handle it, i will pay a shrink 50 bucks to do it professionally. also i think i know the mechanics of how to do it. write them a nice letter saying i dont think they are a terrible person, but i dont feel the same way, sorry, the end. heres the number of a good shrink, heres some drugs to help you cope hahahaha.

apr 10

ok back to job monday. will really feel better once i KNOW WHAT IM DOING on this project, where I did succeed in making some progress today. basically by forcing myself through sheer force of will, not getting sidetracked, not getting autistic, really, just doing more of a halfass job hahaha rather than Analysis Paralysis hehehe.

foRcing shit onto kind of a messy spreadsheet rather than doing nothing at all.

so, feel a LITTLE bit better about that.

so this guy took his 17 year old daughter on vacation and let her drink alcohol and acted like that was normal hahaha. i was a little disappointed tbh hehehe. i just hope to GOD he gave her a curfew and said be back here by 10pm and dont fook any BOYS. he apparently let her hang out and talk to boys that were at the resort. i hope he took precautions to make sure she wasnt out FOOKING the boys.

so then i thought, is there ANY father out there who is OK with his daughter fooking boys? dont ALL fathers want their daughters to be a pure princess? that practically NO father is going to take a LAISSEZ FAIRE approach here and say, OH WELL, shes just gonna fook boys and theres nothing I can do about it?

I assumed that most fathers would not feel this way. most fathers would not be ok wth their daughters being casual secs sluts on vacation.

then i wondered if normie fathers had a forum on the internet where they talked about how to keep their daughters off the D.

like, do you let your 17 year old daughter drink on vacation, but make DAMN sure she comes back by 10 o clock?

i suppose if she wants to sneak off and fook a boy before 10 pm, then shes already a huge whore and theres nothing you can do.

i mean i trust this guy to be a good father. so i am studying his Fatherhood style. to make sure his son turns out not to be a Loser and his daughter turns out not to be a Slut.

Honestly. thats all people care about. is your daughter becoming a slut? is your son becoming a LOSER. or maybe its all I care about hahaha. well its true, I do care alot about that.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/to-ladies-concerning-andrew/98012

heh. there is a secret ladies club on DS then. well these women should realize, if you arent a dirty race mixing slut, the mean things AA is saying about women dont apply to you!!!!!

http://cyber.eserver.org/unabom.txt

unabomber manifesto hahahaha. recommended by anglin. not the first person to recommend this work! i really should read it. really he should just write a damn book from prison, or give interviews, or just make his own damn recordings. we would ALL be better served by listening to ted kaczynski rambling off the top of his head for 60 minutes than watching a damn shitty tv program.

i wonder. children might naturally rebel. but will they rebel LESS against the idea of RACE than they do the idea of RELIGION? I rebelled against Religion because I felt it was Unjust, Unfair, saying you couldnt jerk off to jooish porn, and that everything was a SIN. this did not go so well with my Adolescent Urges.

I wonder if Race would have seemed a more Natural thing for me to be schooled in. like, you are so horny because thats your body telling you to make hwyte babies. and that is a beautiful thing. and porn is horrible because look how it treats white women. shit even nonwhite women dont deserve to be treated like that. youre not going to go to HELL if you bang your high school sweetie. and if you keep looking at that porn you’ll never HAVE a high school sweetie.

and focus on your career because every drink you take and MJ you puff and opioid you take and pron you jerk off to, then another step you take AWAY from having a hwyte waifu and hwyte children, and being a miserable childless neet loser who has nothing to offer anyone. just a damn useless parasite.

Uncle A and the NSDAP probably had a good program for raising boys into decent young men.

shit i cant blame my religious upbringing! 90% of people who went to my religious school turned out all right.

I was def SPOILED too much between the ages of 17 and 21 or so. some hardcore Chinee shit like we are going to lock you in this room and you are not going to come out until you are an engineer making 50k a year might have worked. ITS FOR MY OWN GOOD!!!!

ok to be a successful adult you have to be able to bullshit and sell shit all day. some people have the gift of Blarney, you can see it as young as age 14, these extravert normies have a high verbal intelligence and are makign friends and influencing people from a very young age. they dont struggle so much with it. the italians are good at this hahahahahaha.

 

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mar 29

ok survived the day hahaha now i am reaching my crash time of 330 pm hehehe when REALLY  should be working till 5 pm if i start at 8 am. anything less is PATHETIC.

heh well you know whats MORE pathetic, is being a jobless NEET hahaha.

whats REALLY sad is 50 year old hwyte men who are jobless neets and so they sit in the library for 8 hours a day Applying For Jobs. honestly guys. it only takes 550 applications and 320 hours to Get A Job. in other words, you should stop seeing these men after 2 months because then they will have found a job. but they DONT. this is, i fear, because the jobs just arent there, also, 50 year old hwyte men are being DISCRIMINATED against hahaha

i was trying to find some leftist thing i saw today on the shitty leftist site medium.com written by a white marxist on why no, the white working class isn’t really dying off, and if it WERE, that wouldnt be so bad, would it? but i couldnt find it, and found a bunch of other shitty leftist articles instead and “threw up a little in my mouth”.

there is this popular leftist hipster brooklyn podcast called “chapo trap house” which i guess is what all the super cool leftist kids listen to now . i guess you could listen to it if you want to Know Your Enemy. well, you don’t. you already know they are pvssy wimpy unmasculine joos. wimpy white writers who say UGH. WHITE PEOPLE. and then cant bang slutty brooklyn white writer women because they are getting used as cvm dumpsters by masculine alt right chad nationalists hahahaha. that or negros hahaha.

there was an interview with one shitlib 28 year old harvard sociology phd student who does a shitlib magazine called “Current Affairs”, and he said, the thing the alt right does better than us is that they make themselves look COOL to weird outsider kids.

he’s not wrong!

hey i say thank GOD. back when I was young, the right was losing this battle, and leftist shit joos still looked COOL to rebellious teens. now the pendulum has swung the other way. im happy about that…..but nervous about when the pendulum is just gonna swing BACK again. we wont be on top forever, lads. trvmp will sell out and or only be one term. 4 short years. we’d better have a REAL movement established by then because our fooking RACE is DYING. we dont have any more time to lose.

everything you read that was written by a woman is crazy shit. don’t read stuff written by women because THE GOOD WOMEN DONT WRITE. I wish they did! they need to make themselves HEARD just to say not all women writers are like that! not all women are like women writers!

these degenerate leftist jooed journalist wimmin writing with filthy language about all the cox theyve taken and how evil trvmp is and how abortion is so great and diversity is so great and whites are so lame and virgin men are so bad. not all women are like this!!!!!!!

but the good ones don’t write articles that get hugely upvoted and shared!

you gotta really dig to find the article by a low-number woman who enjoys her traditional life!

i mean if youre reading VICE or MEDIUM  what the fook do you THINK youre gonna find.  and there are not really lots of women on the Alt Right. not that i WANT there to be. we are still figuring out womens role hahaha. well not really. stay in back and support us. give us children. dont start drama.

but maybe you can write articles, non dramatic articles, about the joys of a traditional life. that would be some good moral support and just let us know there are good women out there.

ok heres what im thinking. these WOMEN are such good voices for the marxist joo, with this horrible marxist jooish writing they do. its clear they are true believers in this crap. no one can speak marxist jooish bullshit better than a woman. they might arguably be better than MEN at it!

so do you think a women could be equally good at writing for Our Side?

I tried to think of a good female 1433 writer and couldnt. maybe savitri devi. i dunno.  i mean who is the female GLR? or the female andrew anglin for that matter? i mean i dont think we NEED one though. that isnt womens JOB. thats MENS job. i’m just basically asking women to write some moral support articles and say keep up the good fight lads, we’ll stand by you, even the betas and omegas who dont have a woman to literally stand by you.

im not even interested in other women. i’m semi interested in BANGING young beautiful women, but I’m more interested in just FORGETTING about THAT woman. because i still want HER. want her more than other women, i and i dont want that. i would love to want another woman like that. please GOD hahahaha. and just replace that woman always and forever. stop wanting her. just forget about her.

rational response: when some beautiful young gurl is being NICE to you and showing INTEREST in you, it will be REALLY EASY to FORGET about THAT woman and to get feelings for a new woman.

and yeah about the women writers, there should be a few more women writers writing moral support articles to support the men who are out there fighting. show some god damn gratitude, especially to the men who won’t get actual gratitude from an actual woman. these are still hwyte men too, and we need THEM just as much as we need women.

i guess i just want women to show more respect to Beetas and Omegas. they way they treat you like the scum of the earth, its like a healthy man treats a dirty whore. and being a Beeta simply isnt anywhere NEAR as morally deplorable as being a flthy whore. its not even necessarily inherently immoral to be a beeta male! but these women sure treat you like it sure IS!

but yeah hwyte men need to rise up and be strong and lead again. and then they will stop being beetas and women WILL show them gratitude and loyalty. but we have to SHOW STRENGTH first. strong horse. nobody likes a weak horse.

and i have certainly failed COMPLETELY at being a STRONG man. and yeah that is frustrating.

so yeah i would say maybe some YOUNG leftists and joos cant be held liable for literally wanting to genocide the white race. because most leftists are NAIVE and dont think its about hwyte genocide, its about making a Equal World where we can all live in Social Justice. We’re not trying to EXTERMINATE HWYTE people! you sound like a crazy person when you say that!

in fact maybe just a MINORITY of jooish leftists are NOT naive and ACTUALLY realize its about hwyte genocide.

so you dont charge them with genocide or first degree mvrder, you charge them with manslaughter and sentence them to getting the fook out of our country.

didnt mean to K hwytes? oh well, youre still K’ing whytes and now you must do the time.

and here i am, i dont even want women hahahaha, i just want one particular woman i havent seen or spoken to in almost 2 years hahahah. get over it!

actually even more i wish i had a work ethic like most normies. to work 20 hours a day for years just for a CHANCE at a 30k a year job.

hint: get a engin degree and you will have an easy time getting a 30k job. electrical, mechanical, chemical. you even get a CHOICE hahaha.

and you can totally do it by age 20 or maybe even 19. this is what we need to sell to young white boys. like, younger than 14. because we want them to start COLLEGE at age 14. have the engin degree at age 18. start making 40 grand at 18. be making 80 grand by 30. damn. establish 49 employee companies and hire only whyte men. by acreage in rural areas. have the wives do a hwyte homeschool network.

shit could do homeschool college as well. shits all online anyway.

but i do think a 16 year old boy taking brick and mortal college classes with 19 year old sluts is perfect.

well, perfect is getting married to your High School Age Sweetheart. the next best thing is being a “fun project” for a 19 or 20 year old slut when you are 16.

but where you gonna meet them in engin classes, also if gurls arent going to college and becoming sluts in the first place.

easy, you meet them through their fathers when they see you as a promising young man making good money at age 18 who is looking for a nice 17 year old gurl.

i am very interested in education, but i just want to throw the whole jooed system out and start over. is there a masters degree in THAT? are there jobs in THAT? in destroying the system and starting anew? hahahaha.

well DISRUPTION is a big thing in companies now hahahahaha.

DISRUPT THE JOO.

START UP THE ROTORS.

FIRE UP THE OVENS.

you will know them by their handiwork.

funny that we goys see only their wreckage but never them themselves. so you come to hate women and hate negros and hate nonwhites when really none of them deserve your hate. father forgive them for they know not what they do hahahaha.

well, def the women dont. and the negros. pretty sure the arabs know what they are doing.

so youre saying an arab is smarter than a white woman?

NO, i’m saying that all women are easily cowed and swayed. they are natural followers.

unfort i am a natural follower as well, never was big on leading.

really i dont want to go through the STRUGGLE of MEETING somebody, getting to KNOW someone, putting in the two years to actually get to know and trust them, it takes a long time, and i already had that FAMILIARITY and TRUST and KNOWLEDGE with That Woman.

but heres the thing. me Getting To Know her didnt feel like a goddamn STRUGGLE. it happened so NATURALLY. there was no effort or heavy lifting or forcing.

and that probably contributed to me falling in luv, feeling like this was a SIGN from GOD, that she was the ONE, because i expected so much STRUGGLING getting to know a woman, as I do now, and that didnt happen at ALL. the struggling came later, in trying to deal with The End. basically just trying to confirm that i was not a horrible traitor who had done a horribly immoral thing. i had to do all those mental gymnastics myself hahahaha.

hey i admit it i was no innocent. i deserve to be ashamed for some of it, and god damn was i ever. i was a coward weakling. it LOOKED bad. and the timing was bad. i KNEW she was having some family issues and was pretty stressed about that. in the long run that is what i will feel worst about. but i will get over it hahahaha. the fact that i “waited” until she was facing something outside of her control in her family, to “spring” this on her, when she was already super stressed out about that.

but again i dont think this is betrayal or treason or warranted treating me as such.

and it was no single joo who turned her father into a muh dick hwyte negro deadbeat, but through the partially-covert actions of many joos and many accomplice goys who didnt fully realize the type of degen fatherless muh dick culture they were creating.

does anyone GO INTO education with the idea that, welp, i can’t DO, so I might as well TEACH? I think most teachers would violent protest that old Pejorative saying “if you can’t do, teach.” but i would GO INTO teaching with that defeatist attitude hahaha.

also theres a popular idea that you need ot fail to succeed. well not if you fail so god damn much that you stop wanting to TRY, or your attempts become so half-baked and half-assed that they couldn’t possibly succeed.

also i wish you could fail in the workplace more. but you cant, or then you get fired for losing the company money. thats why people are perfectionists who are afraid of failure!

maybe my dream job would be working in a Dual Enrollment program at a comm college. so i could get 14 year olds into college and not a thoroghly jooed one. def would need a masters degree for this job though. and there are damn sure not a LOT of jobs in this field hahaha.  there would be FIERCE competition amongst a group of people with masters degree in Dual Enrollment College Administration.

ideally it would be in a more rural area so as to maximize the number of Hwytes i would serve and minimize the number of nonhwytes. i dont want to HURT any nonhwytes, I just want to HELP hwytes MORE. serve and strengthen my race.

i wouldnt have to worry about any J’s because they simply dont go to these working class colleges. period.

would i h8 joos less if i knew any working class joos? if I thought there WERE any working class joos? but there ARE! though def not the norm for them. those people hahahahaha.

no more than 25% of joos are working class. and that is a VERY generous number hahahaha. prob closer to 5%. source needed hahaaha.

insanely cute and nice 18 year old hwyte girl working at local arbys hahaha. seems like a literally nice sweet uncorrupted unjooed gurl. also is 100% undeniably hwyte. nothing questionable at all in this one. if i were hanging out wiht her and she was being NICE to me AND showing that she would be interested in Monog Dating…..i would forget That Woman ever existed!!!!!

but honestly this gulr is way out of my league. when i was 20 i might have judged her for working at ARBYS hahaha. now i dont care.  i say good for her. as long as she doesnt use it as a slippery slope to degeneracy or opioid epidemic or mudsharking. if she has a good father all will be fine.

because of her nice and innocent demeanor i would assume she does has a good father. but i shouldnt do that. because That Woman had a nice and innocent demeanor, not even demeanor, she was actually nice and innocent but she had a horrible father!

anyway, i prefer nice, innocent women to bitchy, slutty women hahahaha. what a concept.

but yeah. i do hate the idea that SHE WAS TOUGHER THAN ME. she, who i held in such high regard, outcompeting me on TOUGHNESS, a quality i hold in the highest regard.

yeah but if she was REALLY actually tougher than me, she would have just told me, sorry, we’re done, you’re not a BAD GUY and i dont hate you, but I just dont feel that way, the end. we had a good run while it lasted. then i prob would have had months less of pain hahaha. had a better experience. wouldnt be so butthurt about her being TOUGHER than me.

language is powerful hahaha. lets stop calling it the jooish QUESTION and start calling it the jooish PROBLEM. daily stormer does this hahaha. so did GLR.

by page 80 in “whyte power” GLR names the J and he doesnt stop naming them after that point hahaha.

its FUNNY how the pro legalization MJ degenerates which i probably am, seem to think that MJ does not affect your driving AT ALL. they completely dismiss that out of hand the way people dismiss nazis. this is disingenuous, bad faith, and jooish af. how can you say alcohol impairs your driving but gettig blazed af doesn’t??????!!!!!!

i just want to get blazed as fook! i’ll even try not to drive hahahaha.

yeah i dont think it damages your driving ability as much as alcohol. but to say it has no effect is ridiculous. you might as well do away with dui laws hahahaha. which i might not be against hahahaha. but without dui laws i might start drinking again after like 8 years. i actually probably would.

so that proves these laws are GOOD?

i mean its terrible drunk drivers K people.

so HOW terrible is it when people have 3 drinks and then drive?

yeah but i wasnt having 3 drinks and driving. what i was doing WAS terrible, law or not.

but it is stupid you can pass out drunk in the drivers SEAT of the car and get a DUI. i actually did that once hahahaha. slept it off in the front seat. didnt have the keys in. is that a critical thing?

anyway i fully admit to drinking too much. having a medium Drinking Problem. I did it and i am not proud of it!

mar 30

found this chrome extension called onetab which sends all your tabs to one single tab which contains a list of links. the idea is so they are not running and eating up your memory with 31 tabs of jooish pron hahahaha.

really simple concept. basically have a list of your most frequently used links and then click on them to load the page rather than have them open all the time. but i like anything that can Reduce Muh Memory Footprint hahaha. OneTab. you can easily add and remove links. not add duplicate links. its basically like history or bookmarks but your top 20 pages.

and then just open like 3 or 4 tabs at a time rather than 14 hahahaha.

its EMBARASSING  I havent used this or a similar app before (there are several to choose from, i only picked onetab because it had a lot of ratings) but the chrome extention “store” is hard to browse like a power user. cant get a good buy in very well. it doesnt share out very well hahahahahaha.  cant really deep dive into there and share it out. hard to get a good buy in.

https://www.one-tab.com

try it out nd make your comp 95 times faster hahaha

i would dnate a dollar to them if they were hwyte, but they dont even beg for dnations! so they MUST be hwyte hahaha.

if you do something useful, valuable, or important, you SHOULD get paid joobux for it.

everybody likes johnny cash but we could all stand to be more familiar with the song that gave him his name:

listen to something other than ring of fire, boy named sue or hurt hahaha.

when i was a young man i played the song at a party, hope it didnt sound too shitty because i was drunk af. it certainly didnt help me get any action hahaha. but its weird. its a very SOCIAL JUSTICE, MARXIST sort of message, but I still think its a good, meaningful, sincere song. i felt it spoke to me, and also explained my own penchant for the Gloomy which i had somewhat a reputation for, hahahaha, and often wore Black, prob still do.

and i do generally agree with the social justice message of the song, that some people just get a raw deal, get shat on, and dont deserve it, and we should have sympathy for them and try to help those less fortunate.

wish i had played the song well enough to get some makeout action though hahahaha. i probably could have, but i had oneitis on some dame who wasnt the least interested hahaha. she was an ok person but i should have just avoided her. that was impossible though, i saw her EVERY DAY without even TRYING and she hung out with my friends. SAVAGE.wav.

i should have immediately gone to the shrink, changed muh major to engin, stopped drinking cold turkey, saw the shrink 2 times a week, got a nice suit, and gone to the career center every day trying to get a 28k entry level engin job. but noooooooooo.

my weekend has begun hahaha. some MJ would be ideal. instead i ate a big dinner, too many calories, and had 1 benedryl, and now 1 valium, plan on 1 more valium, and 1 more ebendryl. try not to drink too much coffee to NULLIFY it.

damn this onetab is GREAT. why didnt i do this YEARS ago. if there are 2 things i am obsessed with……..hahahaha its joos and women hahahaha. i mean tabbed browsing and Memory Usage.

i thought of doing a black metal album with great songs and great lyrics that were pretty much very fashy, alt right, VVN, 14ee, not degenerate, not morally subversive but morally upright, and very JQ  JP aware, but i would not name the j00 until the very last word of the lyrics for the album, but make sly references throughout. but wouldnt be able to be accused of being anti-semitic until that last line of lyrics was brought up because it actually use the word Joo for the first and last time to unambiguously name what i was talking about.

but i cant write good lyrics and I sure as hell cant write good music!

well thats false. i’ve written both before! just not a lot. esp in comparison with the bad and shitty and worse than mediocre!

just an idea, had no intention of actually doing it myself haha.

heh took bendryl #2 a little early. just gonna skip valium #2 and replaced it with a Benedryl. will take Benedryl #3 right before bed.

this is better than drinking. it is technically better than MJ too…..but i dont really believe that because i desperately yearn for MJ.

old GLR sneakily avoided naming the J for the first 80 pages…..i think i just said this yesterday. anyway point is, he is going fullblast on them now, thats for sure. nicely describes them as parasites and tapeworms.

heh. those son of a btiches kicked me off the TRS discord because i didnt go through the formal extreme vetting process there hahahahahaha. not that i ever used it! but discord is a potentially good chat/meeting/voice system.  might be a good way for me to Actually Socialize with people. i guess i already do that at my job, by getting better at being friendly and talking to the people there.

i guess like once a month i feel like being social hahahaha and not a total loner weirdo. the rest of the time i just want to be alone doing MJ. it was different with that woman. i liked spending time with her. it gave some hard competition to being a loner haha. made me want to reconsider that path hahaha. now i am just mainly content being a loner again. not even terribly LONELY. when i was 20, 21, etc, back then i got a lot more LONELY at the thought of being/becoming a loner. now it doesnt bother me nearly as much.

but i still might like to be somewhat less of a loner. hang out with friends a LITTLE more, and DEFINITELY have a special waifu woman. i think its much better to have a special person like that, than to not. yuge value add there.  makes life without seem very bland and boring and disappointing by comparison.

14BB hehehehe 14ee which one looks better

i might have to go back and relisten to david dukes my awakening. i listened to a lot of the audio book a few years ago and really enjoyed it. would totally recommend it. learned a lot. first learned about the evil degenerate talmud hehehe.

you can probably find a pdf or txt file on the internet hehe but its really much better just to read an actual paper book.

so whats worse? MJ prohibition, or MJ being legalized in a way where there are really really really jooish laws and taxes and regulations where people are still strongly attracted by the Black Market because the Legal Market is such a Shitty Deal? or you can go to jail for using too much hahahaha.

i mean im still wondering about the DRINKING laws. i mean yeah SHOULDNT there be laws against drunk driving, and public drunkenness, Open Intox, Open Container laws, disorderly conduct, etc.

so shouldnt legal MJ similar have a bunch of stupid strict laws? or is it better to have it be Criminalized? i dont see how i could POSSIBLY be BETTER. and its much more likely to be legalized if you can give govt and jooz a way to PROFIT off it.

i mean it doesnt take a super crafty joo to see that a lot of MONEY can be made here. follow the money. so why dont they do it? because it takes THAT long for govt and legislation to MOVE?

but the SCOTUS made gay marriage legal OVERNIGHT. couldnt they make MJ legal overnight? not that they SHOULD, but COULDNT they, and if jooz run everything, why dont they want MJ to be legal? what is the thinking here. so this proves joos dont run the US. because MJ isnt legal NOW. hahahaha.

yeah but they make money off it being illegal too.  i guess the jooish business analysts ahve crunched the numbers and determined they make more money off it being illegal than it being legal. and all the degen potheads say look at colorado making a whopping 5 million dollars a year for EDUCATION oooo this is doing SO MUCH GOOD.

of course as a born again fascist, im not so sure legalizing drugs or even just MJ is a good idea after all!

and i fully admit its for my own selfish degeneracy. it would certainly be bad for society as a whole.

besides, how many HWYTE people are going to PRISON for MJ? not a lot.  i bet even fewer blacks are going to prison for MJ. LEO probably want to bust dealers of harder drugs and just dont care about softer drugs so much.

so who do the crooked cops sell the seized drugs to? back to the mexican cartels? probably hahahaha.

how much of seized drugs are illegally sold by crooked cops? 50% of the drugs? i cant believe cops are THAT crooked hhaha. i mean i thought the drugs were SUPPOSED to be DESTROYED.

i just cant go to my local police dept and be like ay bros want to sell me some drugs?

i would be MUCH better off going to random shady negros in the shady negro area of town.

i mean i would pay a shady arab doctor extra money to give me a Non Extremely Vetted recommendation for an MMJ card. you pay extra money so they can be extra shady and say here you go, here’s a MMJ card for your insomnia and anxiety hahahahaha and i will just check chronic pain on the state application. i mean i would pay much higher than the going rate for that extra shadiness. like dirty sluts willing to suck off the doctor for more opioid pills. i wouldnt suck anybody off ever though hahaha.

mar 31

have been overeating a lot without even trying lately. so, prob will gain a few pounds. not a huge deal, but obv want to keep eye on it. friday in lent is perfect time to try a Fast hahahaha. cut cals. drinking warm coffee with butter. this is acceptable hehehe.

you could just use a folder of bookmarks in chrome to do the same thing as this onetab extension.

trying something a little diff with muh day off. instead of shooting right off to errands, i am immed doing laundry right now. will do the errands when they are either drying or out of the dryer. almost abotu to put in dryer nao.

10:55 of sleep last nite compared to the usual 7 hahaha. this is how i bring the average up to 8:30 hehehehe.

ok put stuff into dryer. havent left yet obv. just sitting here drinking butter hahaha that i wish had MJ in it!

nobody ever told me that every conversation, every PART of a conversation, every INTERACTION, every word you say, is a COMPETITION or a STRUGGLE, where if YOU don’t say something INTERESTING, or FUNNY, or VALUABLE, or USEFUL to them, or PLEASING to them, then they think you are an IDIOT or an ASSHOLE or a WEAKLING or a JOO.  or a terrible person. a child molester or a traitor or a betrayer.

my least fav are being thought of as an IDIOT, or INCOMPETENT, or a Bad Person. A Morally Weak Coward or Liar or Joo. or an Inferior MAN –  an omega male. a Bootlicker who could only pull an Inferior Woman – if any woman at all.

it doesnt matter what other people think of you……but yes it does when you are trying to impress employers, colleagues, bosses, clients, women, friends! of COURSE you care about how they perceive you!!!!!! perception is reality hahahaha.

left another encouraging comment on a new george feels video just now. good for me hahahaha but also good for HIM. he is pushing in a  good direction and i want to encourage that and see more of it.

also i think he might be sympathetic to 14BB but not want to come out and say it. which is understandable. so i want to signal to him that yep this is a good way to be bro but im not such a loose cannon that i would ever blow your cover. like come on your channel saying HH, 1433, defoo the joo etc. cuz he puts his real face out there for the whole world to see. this is pretty much totally incompatible with espousing pro-hwite views.

ok finished laundry, out of dryer. even put clothes away. so, absoutely time to go do the errands. 1240pm.

i got to thinking, all of “mental illness” is inherently jooish. and jooish are inherently mentally ill!!!!!! mental illness is the Mental Joo, basically a mindvirus mindparasite burrowing into your mind and destroying it from within. whether its derpression or anxiety, or something more serious hehehe. so yeah im not saying its not real. it’s real as fook just as these destructive parasites are real!

my bold claim is to view your own “mental illness” as a little parasite JOO that is very literally trying to personally destroy YOU and your mind and your life, and its up to you and your trusted ones to grip it and rip it out forcefully and finally!!!!!

you dont want a little hand rubbing merchant in your mind, do you!!!!?????!!?????

George’s video on JUNG is very timely, seems like a SIgn from PROVIDENCE to me!

did some quick googling on this essay only to find its very controversial hahahahaha. ie joos used it to say jung was a nazi and supported AH. shit i hope he DID! all the more reason for me to read and luv JUNG!

and all the more reason to read the essay and all the more reason to be glad that george is looking at it. probably him dogwhistling again, and i fully appreciate it, and again, im not gonna blow his cover. but the neet virgin liberatardians arent calling him a natzee yet and i dont want to clue them in. but george doesnt need these people on his side anyway. but he doesnt need people calling him a natzee right now, or ever, so i’m not gonna help them do it. as i say, his Real Life Face is Doxed, so he doesn’t need anything BAD tied to that.  so i want to be real careful with what i say to him publicly. i mean i can email him for private talks. not that i would do that more than once every 2 months hahahaha.

tired of honey nut cheerios, switching over to peanut butter crunch hahahaha. yes i know cereal is terrible. well its not as bad as pizza or ice cream or cookies or pie hehe.

http://www.philosopher.eu/others-writings/essay-on-wotan-w-nietzsche-c-g-jung/

theres the actual jung essay full text, and not a damn dissertation on why it is a nazi thing. looks like kerry bolton wrote a good thing on counter currents. which, of course, are nazis hahahahahahahahahaha. no im kidding. dr greg is a good guy and he wrote me a nice thank you note for my insultingly small donation to CC.

anyway that full essay, not sure about that translation, and DEF the formatting is fooked, with words being joined together and such. proofread that shit!

i guess david lane started his wotanism based on that essay. Will Of The 4y4an People was what he said WOTAN stands for hahahaha. no complaints here. Lane was the creator of the 14W after all! great guy! should get HIS books!

https://archive.org/details/TheJewishStrategy

by Revilo P. Oliver. I should read this hehehehe

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/brad-pitt-losing-weight-and-his-mind-after-whore-wife-ruins-his-life/95662

i am now courageous enough to return to the bbs after i made a post about a week ago, then afraid to see if people had responded to me. i havent read the thread, but i think a few people upvoted me!

but yeah AA shares muh butthurt over women at the risk of being called MGTOWish. no we are not MGTOWs, but god damn are women SO jooed that is is DISGUSTING. you cant be blamed for hating them a little bit, even when you KNOW its the j’s who made them this way. you wish they could resist the J even just a LITTLE bit and not be completely horrible people hahahaha.

http://archive.is/PfIWU

archive of Andrew’s article hehehe

QUOTE

This narrative of “you aren’t good enough for women” being reinforced by men is absolute poison. Our race is only going to continue to exist if we fix gender relations, and so anyone who promotes this type of a narrative is a traitor to the race. Anyone who sides with feminism in any way is helping to destroy our race.
So please, don’t allow this to continue.

Do not be ashamed.

If somebody claims that someone else is having trouble with women because he’s not a good enough man, call him out for supporting the feminist agenda against white men.

Nevermind the Sluts – Talk to Your Brothers and Never, Ever, Ever Man-Shame

The other big, BIG issue: don’t feel like you have to pretend you’re not having any problems with women.

Everyone is having problems with women, but we have a cultural climate where it is like saying “I HAVE A TINY DICK” to talk about it.

In fact, many men will engage in the above mentioned “man-shaming” of other white males. This is absolutely disgusting, and it is inexcusable.

It only helps the sluts.   ” END

NEVER EVER EVER EVER MAN-SHAME.

AND NEVER EVER EVER EVER BE AFRAID TO SAVAGELY SLUT-SHAME.

THANK YOU ANDREW!!!!!

i wonder if his qt hwyte gf left him and now he is sad and angry.

well, he SHOULD be sad and angry, and that only makes what he writes here even MORE correct!!!!!

read this article 10 times every day and give him your money hahahaha.

women are just 16 year old gurls, of COURSE they are gonna dump you and BLAME YOU for it!

trying to red pill your woman is like trying to red pill your DOG (or cat.) don’t try to get the dog to understand. just be a strong leader and your dog will follow you in your fight against the J’s. don’t expect them to understand. THE TYRANNY OF HIGH EXPECTATIONS hahahahaha

so really by acting like a 14 year old gurl and blaming me, That Woman acted exactly like how you’d expect a woman to act. i was naive and didnt know how to handle it. oh well. at least now i think i learned a valuable lesson about women. always be dominant. never expect more responsibility or maturity or wisdom out of them than you’d expect out of a 14 year old gurl IT’S JUST THE WAY THEY ARE.

some men would say slapping a woman in the face is every effective, i dunno, i don’t think i would ever be comfortable with that. i do think SPANKING them would be VERY effective and I would LOVE the cahnce to test that hypothesis. i mean slapping them in the face just seems TOO savage, too nonwhite. hwyte men don’t NEED to slap their woman in the FACE.

shit, negros and semites will brutally PUNCH their women in the face and bludgeon their skulls with blunt objects!

i absolutely showed no dominance whatsoever. i mean i was at a low point hahaha.

it just also really bothers me that i have to COMPETE with these 14 year old gurls for JOBS, and they get masters degree and outperform me in the workplace, sometimes doing honestly tough jobs, and being TOUGHER than me. 14 year old gurls arent TOUGH and dont WORK very hard!!!!!

anyway. i just esp like it when AA writes about women. his haters say he is a woman hater. i say he’s prob just been hurt by too many jooified, degenerate women, just like many of us. i might SPECULATE that he has had a recent drama with a woman that has left him extra hurt! which is FINE! it happens to us all, and these struggles and heartbreak build TREMENDOUS character in a man!

come on. do you know how many WOMEN are MAN haters? most of them!

but yeah i especially like when AA says never ever ever shame any man for being beta or whatever.

ol uncle varg borders on doing this. well you’re just not MAN enough to DESERVE a woman.

i will always luv uncle varg, but I am closer to AA’s POV here. like god damn, these women really ARE garbage, and we have to stand in solidarity with our white Brothers. BROES BEFORE HOES!!!!!!!!

oh youre just mad about not Getting Any.

Well, YES! a little bit. part of that is my fault sure, but a big part is WOMEN being huge sluts! or Slags, as the brits call them.

slores, sluts, slags, skanks.

i will white-knight on occasion. i just dont want to do it too much. and i never want to manshame unless the man is really actually doing something jooish or negrish or sinful or bad or bad faith and not just being a white knight niceguy lickspittle woman-loving beta. dont SHAME him for being INNOCENT.

i bet he did just get dumped hahaha. well i would be there for AA if he needed a manfrand hahahaha. i am concerned that he doesnt do enough real life socializing.  i thought he was back in the US. he could totally find decent men to hang out with, he just has to get out there. like there are TRS and DS goys even in my area and if I tried, I could probably meet up with them. but i would worry about being rejected for being a loser. or that the person would be a tattooed felon type.

so….youre makign fun of me for being an idiot for betting when i had the nut flush? why is it dumb to bet when you have the nuts and are guaranteed to win???? are you supposed to call and hope the other guy bets? how the fook was it dumb of me to bet????? youre SURPRISED that I “ACTUALLY” Bet with the nuts? am I not understanding something here?

is it stupid to bet on QUADS too? am i supposed to slowplay these all the time? heh i have been playing poker very recreationally for like 5 years and it looks like i havent learned a god damn thing about actual strategy. feels bad man.

maybe the guy was just bantzing me. everyone likes to shoot their mouth off about how they are the smartest poker expert ever.

i am playing at a higher stakes table than i like because nobody is in the lower stakes one.

i mean i dont get nut flush very often. about as often as full house or quads ahhahahahahaa. but i do get quads more often than i thought i ever would.

anyway i hope anglin is hanging out wth people rather than just sitting alone doing daily stormer stuff. a person needs to be a little social and have some friends to do real life stuff with. says ME hahahaha. if he had a GF and she was his only real life person and she dumped him, that could be extra devastating. just speculating.

you could say its stupid to get into the cult of personality but i think it’s actually natural and healthy. you read anglin’s stuff for years, you start to feel more attached to him, like you sort of KNOW him, and that they are KIND of your buddy in that you sympathize with them, want the best for them, sometimes donate money to them, and wouldnt’ mind hanging out with them sometime. doesn’t mean you stalk them. but you do kinda wonder about their life story. their family and friends and them growing up. and enough of anglins story is out there to put together something of a picture.

he says he gets along with with his parents, so that is good.

he is very tight lipped about where he is living now, and i cant blame him, because jooz have been protesting outside his father’s office lately. jooz have called and confronted both his mother and his father. disgraceful.

i know he’s not REALLY my buddy, but i have the greatest respect for him and want the best for him. and that includes being happy in his social life and luv life. i dont want him to be a friendless foreveralone! I guess you could say I CARE about him!

but yeah i dont have any sick fantasies or delusions that he is my buddy or anything.

i just think that when a person puts themself out there like that, they can’t blame other people for getting a little bit attached to them. like mike enoch saying you dont know me, you’re not my buddy, i’m just a guy with a microphone, i’m not a leader. when you start to get FANS and people listening to your content regularly, then yeah to me thats a kind of social contract. you are SOMEWHAT responsible to your fans. i mean, you WANTED people to LISTEN to you, right? you cant just shit on your audience.

not that mike REALLY did that. well, he sorta said some of those things haha.

shit im not even sure what anglin’s position is on all this. maybe he would try to WEASEL about being “held to a higher standard just because i am the creator of daily stormer.”

heh. just saying if I were the creator of the daily stormer, i’d kinda EXPECT to be held to a higher standard than some autist troll in the comments!!!

 

 

 

JUST SAY THE WORD HUHWHYTE

mar 19

wazzzup world hahahahaha

sunday morning today as well, just drinking coffee and farting and reading new blog post and watching rare history channel program on WW2.

  1. actual historical content on the HISTORY channel is so rare. you are lucky to see one program a week.
  2. naturally its very by the book shit of hitler and germany being monsters who need to be wiped off the face of the earth by the valiant allies.

not denying the bravery and courage and toughness of the allied soldiers. just that we were jooed into the war. jooed by literal joos and cowards into fighting against our german brothers. never should have happened.

did hitler really want to violently conquer all of france? i have to wonder if this is just another one of those joo lies. the idea of lebensraum did not mean he wanted to conquer all of europe by force. or did he. am i being to nice to AH.

yeah well it probably would have been a good thing if he had. introduced race conscious NS to all of europe. i do bet he would have allowed European Ethnic IDentity to be encouraged, like yeah you’re still FRENCH and youre still DANISH and youre still POLISH and youre still ENGLISH. i guarantee he wouldnt have tried to make everybody “german.” prob would have been flexible in allowing each nation to develop whatever kind of fascism worked best for its people. he wasnt trying to make some kind of pan european euromutts. and violently subjugate other europeans.

i mean shit he was allies with italians and spaniards and croatians, you think he would have genocided POLES? he just wanted 10% of some polish land that was pretty inhabited by germans anyway. i think they could have worked something out. or were poles actually the assholes who started ww2. yeah wel if they were i still blame the joos who were lousy in poland just like they were in russia. where did these people COME FROM. khazaria of courshe hahahaha. which was closer to poland and russia than to germany for example.

was winston churchill an ALCOHOLIC???? AH sure wasnt hahahaha. also FDR was a marxist j00 who was so crippled that his even more communist jooish lesbian WIFE was essentially president for 8 years.

i will single handedly change the current course of history and stop our hwyte women from being stupid racemixing sluts!!!!! and make them GOOD again! i will rise to that challenge and CHANGE THE WORLD!!!!!

this is the Talk Of A Champion that you are supposed to replace negative thoughts with, hehehehe.

take negative thoughts and say NO!!! NO!!! YOU SHALL NOT PASS!!!! to them, and REPLACE them with POSITIVE thoughts of how you will WIN like a CHAMPION. HAIL VICTORY!!!!!!!

welp maybe i wont single handedly change the course of history, but i can certainly change one person. even if that one person is “only” myself. shit that would make all the difference in the world.

dont waste time trying to BE a womans father figure. THATS HER FATHERS JOB. and if her father didnt do HIS job, dont sacrifice yourself to clean up HIS mess. even if the gurl is not a huge whore hahaha. she will just find other ways to break your heart and be a huge disappointment.

better to not throw time and energy into a bad investment, and find a good investment, and find a woman you can have your own children with, and YOU can be a good father.

terrible few days for bitcoin, bad week for bitcoin, really a bad MONTH for btcoin hahaha. i mean its gone down 200 dollars just in the past 4 days or so. terrible.

ok. took huge dump, trimmed beard for weekly sunday #2 length beard. i guess #1 length would be The Don Johnson hahahahaha.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/no-fault-divorce-wife-leaves-husband-for-some-black-guy-media-praises-him-for-being-the-perfect-cuckold/92868

guy is a great father to his son but is a terrible cuck who lays down for his bitch ex who left him for a black guy.

if he’s such a great guy, YOU SHOULDNT HAVE LEFT HIM, MUDSHARK SWINE. she left him because he was WEAK and SOFT AND because she didnt have a father to slap some sense into her saying, whats WRONG with you? this guy is perfect and a great husband and father! DONT LEAVE HIM!!! EVER!!!! ya dumb broad!!!!

Sad!

although its not the paxil/prozac/AD’s that do it, i take AD’s and I fully woke and Luv My RACE.

theres this meme that AD’s make you a sociopath, AD’s make you a cuck, i want to rebut that. I still have sympathy for other people and though i am kinda a cuck, i would NEVER do what this guy is doing, i would SHAME my shameful x for being a shameful MUDSHARK. Mudsharks REALLY trigger the FOOK out of me. that woman hahahaha. i cant believe she was technically a MUDSHARK. that should be enough to turn me OFF of her, but it just made shit MORE painful, harder to deal with, longer to get over. this is what happens when girls dont have fathers. Sad!

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/i-have-a-chance-to-influence-a-young-mudshark/92888

this guy describes a young mudshark from a decent family, good father, but is STILL an unrepentant mudshark. will be watching this thread for replies. maybe some will accuse him of being a joo planting a bullshit story thats too good to be true, NO decent hwyte gurl with a good father would EVER be a mudshark, ALL mudsharks are disgusting fat slobs. but i know this is not true. this is the real tragedy of mudsharkery, is watching a young girl BECOME a mudshark, to first cross over that line from good to ruined. Sad!

my theory is the father is a successful but swpl liberal middle class guy who is so nonracist that he doesnt care if his daughter fooks blacks, esp if they are not super thuggish. light skinned blacks who go to college and have no felonies.

i just cant understand whites who WOULDNT care about their DAUGHTER dating nonwhites. thats where the rubber meets the road. thats where people who don’t think they are racist discover that they are indeed a little bit racist.  and they dont mind it, beucase they’re not gonna cave on their daughter fooking nonwhites.

the SAD thing is, many hwytes WOULD cave on this, and would STILL be totally nonracist here. im so nonracists i REALLY DONT CARE about my daughter fooking nonwhites, and as proof, she’s already fooked 4 by age 22 and brought them home and they were all gud bois who dindu nuffin!

if the idea of your DAUGHTER fooking nonwhites doesnt make your SKIN CRAWL……i just dont know what to say to you.

i dont know about women. i WISH the idea of race mixing made THEIR skin crawl too…..but it just doesnt/ manage expectations. welp, turns out some MEN are just as cucked.  many MEN just dont care about race mixing either. sad! disgusting! unmanly!

again, i dont EXPECT women to know better. MEN, i DO.

so thats probably whats going on here, and shows you dont have to be white trash to be a mudshark slut.

really. honestly. i guess i’ll never understand these nonracists. you mean you JUST DONT CARE. have you NEVER got your heart broken by a woman and then that woman went on to fook blacks and browns and you didnt feel just a little bit angered by that? you REALLY dont care if your GF has been with nonwhites before you or after you? No they really dont. i guess i really cant reach these people. and i sure as fook can’t understand them.  WOW. JUST WOW. You really DONT care, do you. your gf has fooked blacks and you dont care. your daughter is fooking blacks and you dont care. WOW. you really dont care. well i guess you showed me! just how nonracist you are! feels good doesnt it!

i guess there are two types of peopel in the world, racist and nonracist, and never the twain shall meet. i am pretty happy being a racist. i mean i would rather be a racist than a nonracist!!!!!

and the dead giveaway is, do you CARE about your daughter, or your GF, fooking nonwhites. or yourself for that matter. do you really have NO PREFERENCE when it comes to the race of who you date.

some people SAY they have no preference but NEVER ACTUALLY date nonwhites. thats probably ok hahaha.

some people SAY they have no preference and MAINLY date whites….but occasionally date a nonwhite. not good. NOT EVEN ONCE. then what? did you learn something? did you develop a preference? i should hope so.

heh. i hope you never fall in LUV with someone who breaks your HEART AND does some mudsharking which ALSO breaks your heart too.

but the good thing is that it reduced my tolerance for race mixing degeneracy to absolutely zero.

i’m not even sure its inherently JOOISH, although it’s obvious why the joos exploit it. but it IS inherently degenerate in the most basic way. it’s just fooked up. entirely.

you dont have to be explicitly racist! just never fook a black! god damn! is that SO HARD??!?!?!?!??!!

you could even SAY you dont have any dating preferences! just don’t date a black! is that SO HARD?!?!?!?!?!?!

apparently, hahahahahahahaha.

i  have met maybe 2 black women that were attractive enough to bang, and i’m glad i didn’t hahahaha.

i’ve met many khazar jooesses who were attractive enough to bang. well, when i was young i did. but i didnt bang them. i probably would have if i had any idea how to talk to women. but i didnt. but i’m glad i only race mixed with jooesses only a TINY bit and not a LOT. better to be CELIBATE than to race mix.

https://heathenharvest.org/2016/01/02/outcast-by-choice-an-interview-with-mikko-aspa/

have not read this one yet hahahaha

http://archive.is/6Bmu7

not bad!

but he has to know nicole 12 is degenerate. his past “pornographic” work is degenerate. i think he’s stepped away from this, has done less of them as time goes on, and more of Positive stuff like Vapaudenristi, but i still want him to SAY IT, say that yes i am making a moral judgment here, molesting children is wrong and degenerate, there’s a gray area where girls start to become women and start to become attractive that is probably younger than the legal age of consent, but we should still not “sexualize” them, and in general all pornography is degenerate, and race is real, and nationalism is good. this is what i want him to say rather than mental masturbation about “anti-anthropocentrism” hahahaha. just keep going in the direction of Ethno nationalism, and in saying mean things about k1kes hahaha.

i mean there’s NO DEBATE to be had on nicole 12 buddy. it’s not about studying a conditioned reaction like a “drooling dog.” i dunno. i think he should have just wrote a book about it because i just dont understand what he was trying to say with it. that everything is conditioned? that you can be conditioned into thinking pre-pubescent children are SECSY???? it just seems kinda JOOISH to try to say there’s nuances where there are none. yeah i KNOW he’s coming from the whole power electronics aesthetic, which has the same issues of jooish degeneracy.

i dunno. i guess i just want him to be something he’s probably not, and im gonna be disappointed with him in a few years hahaha. or maybe not! i mean over the past 4 or 5 years, he’s been doing more of the good things and less of the bad things!

like he needs to go into more specific detail about this “dynamic nationalism” and how he does NOT want a return to the past. how dynamic are we talking here? does race matter or not? i know he appreciates honesty but he talks too much like a damn………jooish academic artist???? thats just mean of me to say hahahaha.

no i think he’s just smart and autistic and this is the way he talks, he doesnt MEAN to sound jooish. he’ll be allright if he keeps hanging out with racist skinheads talking real talk hahahaha. also if he met a decent woman and had some children. i dont think he MEANS to sound so confusing, he’s not doing that on PURPOSE like the joos do.

he’ll probably be all right. i just dont want him to slip back into degeneracy and then make some jooish excuse about it when i KNOW he’s smarter than that! i dont want him to pull some FEDORA shit.

at any rate, he’s not really alt right and prob wont ever be as much as i would like him to be.

but would he let his daughter race mix? would he say NONE OF MY BUSINESS if muh gf race mixed before? hehehe i really dont think he would. i hope he wouldnt.

also i like some of the anti-individualist stuff he says in the interview. that these individualists are even more Conformist than normie Sheeple. basically suggesting that Individualism is Atomizing. Well….inasmuch as you can “understand” ANYTHING this guys says. I think he’s on the level, but this is why I want to TALK to him and get straight answers to straight questions. Would you let your daughter race mix? does race mean anything to you? do you care if Finns are wiped off the face of the earth? what do you think about Da JQ? Tell me what you really think about Da J’s. It’s ok m8, I dont like them either. I hope you dont like them hahahaha. what the FOOK kind of “discussion” do you think could POSSIBLY be had about nicole 12? its ok to say you have matured since that and maybe wouldnt do that again and maybe weren’t making the best statement with. molesting 12 year old girls is ALWAYS wrong and only a JOO would try to equivocate on that and it’s ok to say that. only a joo would WANT to have a discussion about the nuances behind wanting to Abuse Children.

which is totally not the same as saying, hmm that 17 year old gurl looks fairly attractive, and I would sign up to marry her when she turns 18.

just set up an email list for news on vapaudenristi and make english trans of the lyrics available so we know what you are talking about.

but if you listen to the albums of an RAC band like No Remorse and DONT say, OMG, these deplorable reprehensible nazi racist bigots! and instead say, hay I LIKE this, then you are kinda making a statement right there, aren’t you. Like how I realized that you can’t be a VVN Sympathizer without actually being a full-blown VVN and just not realizing it yet.

anyway me talking about That Man is even less interesting than me talking about Women or That Woman hahahahaha. if you want to have straightforward conversations about 1433, then there are a couple places you can go. like daily stormer. who i fully support. as of march 2017 hahahahaha. if andre turns out to be a joo i will cry mantears of grief and then move on somehow hahahaha. i really dont think he is though. also dont think he would marry a jooess.

however i wonder if k1ke enoch has divorced his joowife yet hahahaha. i aint mad at him. the shit is complicated. its still not good to have a joowife tho. but he is entitled to having a personal life. but none of us should be race mixing. he’s smart enough to know this is a problem. also its naive to do big things and say “im not a leader”. you have become KIND of a leader whether you like it or not, when you do big leaderlike things……and openly ask for dnations. i dunno. i think he learned something from all this. if anything i am more butthurt about sven banning people wantonly from the forums for weak reasons. and i still really like the hihg svenergy vidyas.  and there are still plenty of people on DS that crap on TRS for being j00 luvers. i still like em both, but i just had to take a break from TRS for a few weeks. to allow myself to not be so emotional about it.

NO ONE IS SAYING ITS OKAY TO HAVE A JOOWIFE. some of us just arent willing to believe it makes TRS traitors and shills and spies and plants and feds and mossad and controlled opposition and JFK MKII ULTRA hahahaha. it was just a guy in joo york and joo jersey who married a half-jooess before he was j00 pilled. it can happen. its not the end of the world unless they have joo children. AND THEY DONT!!!!!!!

basically how hard is it for mikko to just talk about HWYTES. just say the word. hwytes. europeans. its ok. its not a bad word. you can do it. say it. luv it. be it. huhwhyte. its a beautiful thing, its ok to FOOKING LUV being huhwhyte.

shit ive been saying it 14330000000000000 times a day for years.  no need to never say it once in years!!!!!!!!!! now THATS a little weird!

good luck finding a woman who says she prefers to date hwytes. just be lucky to find one who’s never “dated” a nonwhite YET. keeping the race pure is YOUR job. either the woman feels some kind of racial preference deep down inside or she doesnt, which will make your job of protecting the race and finding a woman who hasnt dated a nonwhite yet a little bit easier, if she’s not actively inviting them in like the sluts at the castle anthrax with a purpa drank shaped beacon.

HAIL VICTORY! THIS TIME THE WORLD! 14 WORDS!

but yeah. i just think its weird that not more hwytes are as anti-race mixing as i am. they just DONT CARE. or, worse, they say it’s AOK! no problem! i wouldnt care if i had mixed race kids!

that just seems weird and disturbing and unnatural to me. why WOULDNT you care? i want to find a woman who, on some unconscious level at least, CARES about this! and hang out with other men who explicitly care about this! become part of a mannerbund!

GLR prohibited drunkenness at ANP meetings. I think hahahaha.

andrew zimmern is pretty jooey but i also think he’s a good guy and i wouldn’t be against not deporting him hahahaha. but what is he teaching his kids at home? is his wife a joo? ideally she would be a latinx or something. why should we sacrifice a hwyte woman to make zimmern less jooish.

what about natives. injuns. there are rural communities where many of the hwytes are 10% injun. man i dunno hahahahaha. i figure if you are 13% or less nonwhite, then welcome to club hwyte. the hwyte race.  thats basically one fully nonwhite great grandparent at max.

it would be ironic if some nonwhite young woman was really really really really nice to me, and fell in luv with me, and wanted to be LOYAL to me and have muh babies. i mean that’s nothing to sneeze at when a woman gives you that loyalty. but i want that from a HWYTE woman, not a nonwhyte woman. go give that to a man of your own race. so what if they are shitty. the women of MY race are shitty. but i’d rather have no woman than a good woman of another race.

because i might be tempted! I have NO doubt that there ARE good women of other races. and being in that situation would probably be TEMPTING. oh ive been so lonely for so long, how can  REJECT this WONDERFUL woman who LUVS me just because she is not hwyte? come on. best not to BE in that situation to begin with.

GLR’s “HWYTE POWER” might be the better book for the beginner to GLR to read. i am kinda getting bored with TTTW hehehehe 65% of the way through.

https://archive.org/details/WhitePower_189

READ IT. BELIEVE IT. LIVE IT.

from the first page, we can see that stuff in the US is HEAVILY jooed as far back as 1965.

ever since i was a young child, one of muh favorite movies was “the blues brothers”, which i have seen more times than i can remember. at first i was happy because it was one of the few R rated movies i was allowed to watch and had a few filthy f-bombs. overall it’s still a well written and constructed movie, stands the test of time, although does seem a little dated, but in a good way, shows the skills of john landis, who i’m not sure is J or hwyte, and of the players, not least of all the genuine comedy skills of albanian belushi and canadian ackroyd. also i believe john belushi was moreso a hwyte albanian than a turkish mud albanian. his brother jim looks basically hwyte while john was a bit more swarthy.

belushi was a drug doing degen like chris farley, but like farley, he was genuinely funny.

and yeah MY POINT and I DO have one, is I can look back now with new eyes and see the jooification of even this Quaint Old Movie. The blues brothers were antiracist from the beginning, hanging out with tons of blacks and IDOLIZING black musicians.

MY POINT is this was one of my first exposures to NEO NATZEEZ, with the Illinois Nazis in the movie with….John Daniels? John Glover? the Laugh In Guy, as their leader. Even from a young age I was impressed by the impressive speech he made: “white men, white men, the svastica is calling YOU. the Joo is using the Black as muscle against YOU. so what are you gonna do about it, whitey? just sit there and take it? no! you will join us, the national socialist hwyte people’s party.” which i recently learned was actually the original name of GLR’s ANP. and i am sure the character was based heavily on GLR hehehehe.

i didn’t understand why there was SUCH an angry crowd against the nazis. was what he was saying so bad? why did the blues brothers HATE the illinois nazis? then we see that the fuhrer’s second hand man has been secretly in gay luv with him. there is also a scene where we see him blatantly smoking a corncob pipe, which has got to be a reference to GLR.

also look at the country rednecks in the country bar and the way they and Country Bob and the Good Old Boys are portrayed as Uncool Rednecks.

It’s all still pretty funny and I can never CONDEMN the movie, and I will never not want to watch it while cuddling with a Nice Hwyte Hwaifu…..but I will be sure to HWYTESPLAIN the parts of the movie is not so nice to hwytes.

plus i generally like the black music too: blues, old time rock and roll, etc. the band is SOLID. and you can’t crap on a classic performer like ray charles. well other than to say he was probably a horrible person who was a heron addict and beat his wife and cheated on his wife and was prob a horrible father hahahaha. some good songs tho! and that makes it all ok!

so yeah, still a good movie, but it has a lot of questionable stuff in there that you dont notice when you are young.

no i dont think seeing it 60000000 times since a young age really HARMED me. it still give me good feels of nostalgia of being A Young Child. I just want the Notsees to be portrayed more sympathetically hahahahaha. more stuff about blacks and joos bad nooz hahahahaha.

mar 20

it is easy to survive the low stress workday thank god, but i hate not being a TOUGH as a WOMAN, to handle a stressful job 60 hours a week. im surpirsed MORE peopel dont abuse drugs and alcohol. well because they would probably LOSE THEIR JOBS if they did. you cant just half ass your job, because then you lose your job.

but i was so tired upon coming home i immediately laid down, watched law and order, and took a bit of a powernap. maybe it was because i took a benedryl last nite.

normal people cant take a powernap after their job. they have to drink gallons of coffee and 10 monster energy dranks to get thru their busy 10 hours a day, then come home and crash but you cant sleep because your mind is reeling from the busy day but you need to sleep but cant so you have to take some kind of drugs to slow you down. either sleeping pills or alcohol is a very popular choice hahaha. MJ would not hurt either haha.

and i went to bed at a decent hour and drank a lot of coffee while i was there!

i do a decent job and act pretty normie while i am there. but i hate that at the end of the day, i am still not as TOUGH as a 22 year old GURL. very emasculating. its GOOD to feel TOUGH. its BAD to feel WEAK and SOFT.

i was thinking of “erotic fiction” which is kinda pornographic but not AS degenerate because you arent using and destroying actual live gurls in order to produce it. other than maybe perverting the mind of the person writing (and of course reading) it.  but its not a machine that destroys heaps of young women. so yes i think it is less degen than actual porno. still not ok though. MIGHT be useful to wean off a porno addict. thats a big maybe though.

anyway i dont really care. im not tempted to look at porno. i AM tempted to do MJ all the time. just think about it all the time like a gurl thinking of her loverboi and the day he can get out of prison and they can finally be togther again.

damn have this god damn ice cream and ate too much of it. thankfully this is not a regular thing. it is caramel ice cream which i really like. ate too much of it. is this “emotional eating” because i was feeling weak and soft and pvssy and weak? eating too much ice cream certainly doesnt HELP those things! thankfully i dont often buy or eat ice cream. so its not like im gonna eat the whole container in 1 day then run out and buy another. fook no.

my good idea for the day was to get a thick black marker and draw a huge Hakenkreuz on your chest like the tat sported by weev or american history x. do this before you bang a broad. that way she can see the beliefs of the man who is drilling her, and it is bound to have an effect on them, subconsciously at the very least. looking down at the man pounding you and see the symbol of the ebil natzees. wow. maybe it would make the woman less likely to be a race traitor in the future. i cant see any downside to it. JUST DO IT. i would seriously luv to do this myself. chip away at her idea of herself as a nonracist. well if you were such a nonracist, then you wouldnt be loving getting fooked hard by a natzee with a svastica on his chest staring right at you!

well, i guess this could backfire and she could say, welp now i HAVE to run out and fook a negro ASAP to prove im not a natzee.

then she would have done that at some point ANYWAY, you’re just speeding up the inevitable and can NEXT her quicker and save more of your valuable time for a woman who is worth your time.

fooking DO this. draw a svastica on your chest with a black marker and bang the woman. make sure she is facing you hahahahahahaha.

tom brady goes to bed at 8:30 pm because he is serious about his sleep. not that i idolize a feetsball sportsball negroball j00ball player, but he seems like a healthy goy. so what time does he get up in the morning? dont know. probably about 5 am.  that is when i get up. alarm rings at 5 am, i sip coffee till 5:30 and watch the news, see how negros shot each other, get the weather and traffic. the time passes very quickly. at 530 i get out of bed, continue drinking coffee, take a shower, get ready.

yeah you should start with GLR’s hwyte power book. it is written in a very weaponized style, to shake you up, from the very first page, for the next…30 pages or so. it has not stopped shaking me on every page and i am on page 23 now. just comes out with all guns blazing. describes the problem explicitly: disgusting degeneracy. describes the SPIRITUAL SYPHILIS which afflicts hwyte youth and how religion wont work on them. he hasn’t talked so much about the JQ yet, but I am 1433000000000% sure he will soon.

it is easy to imagine him reading this in the form of a powerful passionate speech. you could go around reading passages to people like speeches.

https://archive.org/details/WhitePower_189

READ THIS LIFE CHANGING BOOK NOW, IT WILL TURN YOU INTO A WINNER.

i have never read something written in the 1960s that reads like it was written TODAY. RIGHT NOW.

HAIL GLR! HAIL VICTORY!!!!!

hehehe. that feel that if someone asks you who would you want to meet of anyone who lived in history and you can’t even tell them. you can’t say AH. you can’t say GLR. people don’t know who GLR is but you can’t explain who he was without making you look like a psycho for wanting to meet him. i guess you could LIE and say He was a Political Activist in the 1960s. He was anti-Communist like Joe McCarthy!

why the hell would you want to meet joe mccarthy?

lemme google this rockwell guy- american NATZEE PARTY??!?!?!?!?!?!?! he’s as bad as HITLER! he has a SVASTICA on his arm!!!!!!!!!

believe me. i took AP US history in high school and they never mentioned rockwell. i never heard of him until a few years ago.

yeah they mentioned mccarthy. but by that time i think i was getting tired of skool. i recall AP history involved a ton of reading and i barely remembered any of that stuff.

i was getting sick of school and homework and reading stuff that wasnt important to me; i was starting to get interested in MJ and alcohol; i didn’t realize the importance of history like this.

shit i took AP european history and obviously SHOULD have enjoyed it, reading an in depth history of hwyte people. I started out enjoying it but a few months into it, i was like this is too much reading. i dont remember any of this stuff. what does all this matter.  didnt understand how the history of the joos mattered, the turks and ottomans and muslims, common law and all that. shit i still dont hahahaha. it was a lot to bite off and hard for a 15 year old to put into perspective. maybe if you explained to me, these joos are the reason gurls today are such stupid sluts hahahaha. and then traced THAT back to communism. and kinda worked backwards from the present, stuff that mattered to me at the time. which admittedly most of it was stupid and degenerate.

nonetheless the average kid in my high school did JUST FINE in life, so i was/am just an OUTLIER. a BAD SEED. I would have been a WEIRD CASE ANYWHERE I went to school. but i feel that in the “right kind” of “radical” high school i might have done better. like homeschool, or artsy fartsy high school, or STEM high school, or Manufactuing Machining Shop High School. really, any one of them would have been a GAMBLE.

would I have been less Angry and Nihilistic if I had been successful with Gurls from a young age? yeah probably hahahaha tbh. but MOST boys ARENT successful with gurls when they are 16, and they have to watch all the gurls their being sluts with older scumbag guys.

i bet i would have liked reading GLR at age 16 just for the SHEER EDGINESS of reading a NAZI. i know I was interested in the evil natzis, hitler, the evil svastica, because i was interested in The Bad Guys. Anything Evil or bad. serial killers. varg vikernes killing guys and burning churches.

pretty ironic that varg turned out to be a really GOOD guy who I would be sticking with 20 years later, an similar thing with AH and the natzees – they weren’t REALLY the bad guys. so even though I’ve outgrown my edginess and interest in Bad Guys, I’m more interested in these Good Guys than ever before.

I probably would have found mein kampf to not be a fun read, but I bet I would have liked GLR. I have even worse ADD now and his writing is very to the point and not a problem for people with the attention span of a fly. like me.

a book like “hwyte power” could have HELPED me at age 16, but I didnt really read ANYTHING back then. i did all my reading for school, i did ENOUGH stupid READING.  i never developed a LOVE OF READING like ALL Smart and Successful people do. Sad!

READ THIS BOOK RIGHT NOW. BUY IT and read it over and over again. give it to all young men you know. buy cases of it and go to the nearest middle school and give it to all the white boys. maybe even the hwyte girls too.

mar 21

hwyte power. this shit is real. saw something on local tv news of an ALT RIGHT WHITE SUPREMACIST NEO NAZI flyer at a place, the police are trying to figure out who put these EVIL NAZI FLYERS up. the photo was very nonthreatening. it just talked about how white population percentage has gone way down and gave links to two very awesome websites and contained the words alt right.

but the way the media reports on it, they are clearly trying to frame it so that the FIRST THING ANYBODY THINKS OF when they hear the words alt right is “EVIL NATZEE.” alt right? whats that mean? oh. even racist natzis who want to oven jooz and lynch blacks and genocide nonwhites.

well are they wrong? hahahaha.

yes because we dont advocate violence or genocide. like GLR we are willing to pay BILLIONS of dollars to Send These People Back. wouldnt you pay TRILLIONS of dollars in taxes for a Nice Hwyte Country? Transport the people back to africa, asia, middle easy, and give them each fookin 100k USD to make a new life with. why the hell not.

i hope the police are not looking very hard for these ebil natzees. as GLR said, the local police are not our enemy. they probably sympathize with us. i should be trying to JOIN this local alt right group. but they would prob say nope youre too big of a loser to join us, we WILL take your money though.

YOURE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR US, BUT WE WILL TAKE YOUR MONEY hahahahaha.

the real problem is me wanting to give money to a group that wouldnt have me as a member. the real problem is me not being good enough to join the groups  want to be a member of!

i mean i have come to the acceptance that i am not high quality enough to represent The Movement, but I want to SUPPORT and HELP the movement, possib by giving money. yeah i guess it does suck to think, well, YOU are not good enough, but your damn MONEY is. thank me for my money and give me a roman salute at least hahahahaha. LET ME STUFF ENVELOPES AT LEAST hahahahahaha.

well we dont stuff envelopes any more. thats VVN 1.0. there will be no flat earth renegade radio flyers hahaha.

yeah small business cards leading to daily stormer or TRS, that’s fine.

i mean thats basically a hate crime goy. let’s try to find the hateful natzees who left these tiny cards with a website on them. literally.

maybe i will be ARRESTED if i wear muh DAILY STORMER t shirt in public hahahaha. what a THOUGHT CRIMINAL!!!!!!

NEW WEEV VIDYA

its a big deal when he posts a 10 minute video from his toilet hahaha.  did he really have to call out richard spencer as a trust fund baby in the description. i’ll allow it as long as it doesnt turn into a high investment thing, but i think spencer is tougher than weev thinks he is. weev is prob tougher than spencer is though. well, nothing probably about it. he almost certainly is.

weev also had a good recent interiew with cantwell

i know i watched it and linked it but should watch it and link it again

weev should do vidyas every DAY

and yes you should send him dnations I DO hahahahahahahahah

and yes he certainly does NEED them more than spencer

went to bed early yesterday but took like 90 minutes to fall asleep instead of usual 45 hehehe.

i guess weev has a GF nao. well good for him, im sure she’s hwyte. i just didnt think i would see him settle down with a woman bc he is an alpha male and has hsi choice of women. well maybe he has made his choice now! obviously he SHOULD choose a wife and start having children. shit a man of his stature needs SEVERAL wives producing children SIMULTANEOUS so that he can eventually have 100, 1000 children.

create a new human life ERRY DAY!!!!

i would prob be okay with dating a single mom where her kid was weev’s baby hahahahaha.

so hypothetically let’s say weev responded to one of my semi-bantzy comments with possibly some own bantz of his own, and then i bantzed him back saying, yeah im already donating to you hahahahahaha. well WEEV I am only giving you like 20 dollars a year, maybe  WEEV is saying he is too good for my money. or he’s calling me a joo for giving him an OFFENSIVELY SMALL donation. that would be hilarious if weev bitched about that just like fatherland jim did when i gave him a TEENY WEENY donation.

although i would prefer weev’s approval because I respect and admire him , hahahaha.

but yeah not much we can do if the people we want NOT to reject us, reject us. wouldnt be the first time, wont be the last time. it sucks though. but its not like weev can BAN me from watching his videos and listening to his stuff. he can make me feel like an idiot for donating to him, since NOBODY is Cucky enough to Donate to the hand that Bites Who Feeds It!!!!

so i would just donate more to the daily stormer until something happened where they complained about me donating, hahaha.

oh well.at least i am putting myself out there, making moves, learning things. well, at least doing things. saying, i least i tried with so and so, and then they rejected me, the end.

im still scared to go back and see how people responded to my daily stormer post. still scared to see how george responded to my questions in his q&a vidyas. i have new evidence that he is a 1433 bad goy and i couldnt be happier. this is a great way to be, but i wont blow his cover. ideally i would like him to Come Out, but that’s his right to do that when he wants.

i just dont want people i admire to scorn and reject me hahaha. i want to be part of their club. but im not cool enough. im not tough enough. im not hardcore enough. i dont give enough money. im not interesting enough. i dont work hard enough etc etc etc always SOMETHING. FOOK it. FOOK it. no good deed goes unpunished.

i dont care, everyone i like can reject me, its not gonna kill me. i can always find another pro white thing to donate to. hey i can always give money to stormfront hahahaha. or vnn. or counter currents hahahaha. dr greg is nice enough to write me a THANK YOU NOTE for a tiny donation! HA!

bbbbut these are all old men in version 1.0 who are lonely and bitter and dont have wives or children because they were born too early! they were born during the dark ages when you were Too Weird To Mate if you advocated for hwytes.

Well I too lost my YOUTH to the joos. now all i can do is secretly donate tiny amounts of money to people who dont want it hahahahaha. and sm0ke weeeeeeed secretly. never be tough enough for a 28k a year job, or hwyte wife or children. damn. so what the hell do i look forward to? the fact that my RACE, with miniscule and unwatned help from ME, is finally turning the tide. that the sleeping goy finally woke up.

i am jumping to conclusions, nobody has said stop donating to me, weev hasn’t rejected me, he was just having ONE playful BANTZ, this is what men do many times a day. i wouldnt last a DAY in australia!!!! and probably they do this in russia and ukraine too, where weev is now. call each other cyka blyat all day. its a TERM OF ENDEARMENT!

i always forget this. i cant handle the bantz with real MEN!

i guess i can, it just takes longer and i have less tolerance for it hahaha.

i guess the MMPI is the most scientific personality test. it has 560 questions and measures 50 diff things, none of them good.

ok. chill out. take it easy. just say NO to negative thoughts. NO. STAHPPPP.  I will conquer negative thoughts and turn them OFF. I will be aware and Mindfull of the current year. I am watching “double indemnity” on tcm and  i hear this is a good movie, i should pay attention to it. i am playing .02/.04 poker when i usu like to play .01/.02.  i am charging mp3 player and have a new episode of fatherland on it which just came out today.

double indemnity. insurance scam. were insurance companies as jooish scams in 1938 as they are now? the idea is that they minimize risk for people so that entrepreneurs can take risks, start businesses, create jobs, make money, GDP Growth. not sure it happens this way. not sure gdp growth is an always good thing. who cares if you create jobs if they are part time walmart type jobs? or the jobs are so stressful you cant even handle them and snap like private pyle going postal? how does that improve your quality of life? because you’re not homeless on the streets sucking dick for a place to sleep indoors, or clean clothes, or a meal.

billy wilder was a joo, i do know that much, and “some like it hot” was pretty degen and jooish. and the stars of double indemnity are bad immoral and jooish, trying to get away with murder. but supposedly a classic movie. it seems pretty watchable. better with a waifu to cuddle of course hahahaha.

 

MUH NOTSEE

mar 15

was listening to educators with masters degrees saying that now they are telling kids who want to become educators, dont get your masters degree immed after bachelors, wait until you get a FT job first, then get your masters degree later, i got a masters degree and it closed a lot of doors because everyone said i was overqualified, so i had to set my sights even lower, to part time jobs with no health care.

and i nodded my head and said yaaaasssss youve gotta be really careful with those masters degrees nowadays, its not a ticket to success like it once was, you gotta be really careful what its in, i mean if its engineering, fine. but education? its a bigass gamble man. so many people subbing for 10 years or more. subs, temps, adjuncts, part time. all part time, no health care, making less than 30k a year, how are you gonna raise a family on that, you CANT, you cant even not be a NEET on that.

i try to be nice and friendly but i am not a good conversationalist because i have no INTEREST in anything that you can really TALK about hehehehe. its always hwyte stuff, 1433, AH, why masters degrees are scam, why everything is a scam, how women are horrible sluts who are horrible at relships, how much does so and so MAKE, education is a jooish scam, everything is a jooish scam and i have failed at everything, etc. not the greatest topics.

ok ok ok stream of negative thoughts incoming hahaha

but yeah if anything i should be like i agree with you and empathize with you and sympathize with you, getting a masters degree is a scam if you are just gonna have 5 part time jobs and no health care.

really i wish i could just go back in time and tell my self, major in stem or gtfo of college. NOW. because your whole life will be literally ruined if you dont. you will be a 35 year old neet virgin making 11k a year. or, get out of college now and do some apprentice work as an electrician or machinist. work in a machine shop. join the fookin chair force. god all mighty. you want to be able to have hwyte children some day.

dont hate women for being race traitors. you cant be a traitor if you were never loyal to begin with. it’s not womens NATURAL ROLE to be loyal to their race. they are only loyal to STRENGTH and POWER, no matter the race.  so be a strong and powerful hwyte man to pull a hwyte woman.

well, i guess it is ok to sneer at women who have mudsharked.

FOOK YES IT IS!

but also don’t get too mad just because some white chick says that idris elba is hawt. if she’s never ACTUALLY fooked a black guy, THATS THE BEST YOU CAN GET.

have YOU ever had a gurl you liked reject you in favor of a black guy? didnt think so. then you might be more rustled about such things. when it does happen, you WILL BE RUSTLED.

i cant really blame the black guys. they have a hwyte gurl throwing themselves at them. i totally blame the women. women are the choosers. dont choose black men.

so yeah you ARE entitled to get a little butthurt when hwyte women choose black men!

i guess i’m saying dont expect the women to outwardly declare that they would never fook a black guy. THAT is too much to expect. they will ALWAYS be OPEN to the idea. for them its not race treason. women just dont care about race. that’s not their job, that’s the MAN’S job. all the more reason to get married YOUNG and get hwyte babies in them YOUNG. i think you can actually hold a Mother to higher standards. to actually CARE about right and wrong, and loyalty and even to care about RACE.

anna rosenberg, asst sec of defense, very anti joe mccarthy. marshall plan. globalist jooish un related shekels for zog hahaha.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/profit-from-pain-who-s-behind-america-s-opiate-epidemic/54173

http://archive.is/0IeDK

wow great article, very well researched, who the hell is this author. send ds some money. get this eric striker on a podcast. and here i am taking valium aka “mommy’s little helper” which was like the hillbilly heron of the 50s, and turned into a niche, rarely prescribed drug, into a best selling hugely presecribed drug, by the joo sackler, who i had never heard of.

http://bit.ly/2m1R012

another daily stormer thread on WEEEEEED which i am just posting shortlink and archive of because it has the n word right in the URL hahahaha

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/leftist-women-join-alt-right-in-laughing-at-cuckbois/91427/3

feminist marxist wimmin appropriate term invented by rightists to mock and scorn leftist wimpy men

dutch election, looks like “right wing nationalist” wilders is gonna lose, some say hes a zionist and joo lover but he is the most anti mudslim candidate and i am sure the jooish media hates him. sooooo…..do joos really luv him? and why does he like them if they hate him? does he really like them? are they paying him? is he a SHILL? i dunno! i would just say he should win because hes the most blatantly right wing candidate. all the media calls him a populist nationalist. now we hwyte nationalists mock and scorn “CIVIC nationalists” but really its probably a big step in the right direction.  when mudslims are pouring in any kind of end to immigration is a good thing.

oh students dont have the technical skills OR the people skills so we cant hire them sorry.

i do think people skills can be taught, i just dont believe skools are teaching them. i also believe people skills are YUGELY important, probably moreso than technical skills. because you always gotta SELL JOOISH BULLSHIT to people and SCAM them. no matter WHAT youre doing. you gotta find some way to JOO them.

or, at best, to manage your boss’s expectations so he doesnt push you to do more with less ie start cutting corners and jooing people. because i dont think you should have to joo people to make an honest living.

yeah yeah yeah profit is not a dirty word, but i dont like this obsession with GROWTH, it stinks of joo. growth is greedy, greed is pure jooishness. but you have to grow to keep up with everything else thats growing. or else you wont be sustainable goy.

saw a qt white gurl yesterday, very young, like 20 years old. she was tech too skinny but ultimately that would not be a dealbreaker. she was young and hwyte.

i never want to joo people or bullshit them. i want to do my best to be fair to them unless its clear theyre not being fair to me. if the customer is trying to joo me, well then all bets are off. i say your money is not welcome here, JOO. but i dont want my boss telling me, get rid of this good faith person for me, we cant help them. they are a waste of money.

sometime people ARE a waste of money AND are in good faith. then IMHO the person “firing” the customer should be a manager or above who has been there 1 year at least. not some fookin new guy that sounds incompetent in everything he does.

imho even autist neets can learn people skills if you train them the right way.  and imho the best way to teach them is to put them in the real world situation with “training wheels”, ie a person who can jump in and save them. then slowly wean them off this person. very simple.

apparently the “learning styles” theory of learning is not “backed up by science.” like when somebody says they are a visual learner or something, thats all jooish lies. i dont know what to think about this. because i sometimes feel like i am a visual learner and need to see pictures and maps and videos. pref while doing something with an experienced trainer.  saying read this and do what it says, i hate that shit.

also get people used to the expectation of Doing Homework For Work. that if you are working 40 hours, and you will probably be working more, that you need to spend MORE time outside of work, at HOME, studying and preparing and reading emails and reference materials and documentations and shit. if you work 40 hours a week you should be studying 10. if you work 50 hours a week you should be studying 12 hahahaha. this makes your working hours look more efficient and productive so your boss doesnt fire you for being a slacker.

ths is on top of coming in 30 mins early every day and leaving at least 15 minutes late.

they need to drill this into peoples heads, if this is what it takes to be a winner at life and make 28k a year and have a wife and children.

you have to be TOUGH. if you are not marine corps TOUGH you will get EATEN ALIVE.

but yeah imho training wheels works at just about anything: riding a bike, getting people skills, becoming TOUGH, having tough conversations, banging bitches, anything and everything. training wheels. and in many cases this is gonna be another person. paying a damn expert to be your training wheels. theoretically this is what teachers are supposed to do hahahaha.

i cant drink at all because i cant drink in moderation, i always overdo it. i cant do MJ at all because i cant do it in moderation, i always overdo it. i cant ever be with a woman, because i cant do it in moderation, i always overdo it.

being TOUGH is the essence of being masculine. just as important as confidence is toughness. its real hard to be confident unless you are TOUGH.

increase your TOUGHNESS by any way you can thats not jooish. LIFTING never hurts. i need to LIFT MOAR. that is, do i even lift bro. no but i know i should.

QUOTE CHAP 12: But then I began to reflect that the ultimate smear of the J00s was always, “You’re a Nazi!” And I wondered what it would be like to answer, “You’re damned right we’re Nazis, and we shall shortly stuff you J00-traitors into the gas chamber! ”

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/thoughts-on-men-going-their-own-way-mgtow/89154

muh weekend has begun. trying not to write too much negative stuff haha. s just not wrting much at all. took 1 benedryl and 2 valium and will take 1 more benedryl then go to bed around 10pm.

hory sheet

its this kind of thing that has turned me into a degenerate gambler hahahahahahahaha

have gotten like 2 quads in the past week or so.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/female-promiscuity-over-time/58222

a full 50% of women have had at LEAST four premarital partners. with 18% having AT LEAST TEN. almost one out of five women have had AT LEAST TEN.

might as well copy the Infographic here:

i might have already. so what, this is worth printing out and putting on your bedroom wall like an iron maiden or AH poster hahahaaha.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/mate-selection/57917

mar 17

st pattys day, where normies without drinking problems get raging drunk. prime time to bang young qts who dont have drinking problems and arent all old and haggard and dont get raging drunk every day so they might be more willing to give weak omega cuckboi losers a chance with a young normie qt hahahaha.

on muh day off i like to do Errands and such rather than immediately start neckbearding. so went to the store, bought stuff for fam, then immediately started doing laundry when coming home because that is something responsible people do rather than be lazy and make only 11k a year and work 1 hour a week and be a jooish moocher and the worlds biggest underachiever hahaha. ok see thats a negative thought train, got to stop that.

well i have the laundry in and am drinking Bulletproof coffee and got a new large ceramic mug to heat up large 20 oz mugs of bulletproof coffee.

https://media.zencast.fm/the-fatherland/episodes/72

new fatherland, dealing with your waifu’s “N” aka Sexual Past, in late hour 2. CHECK IT OUT.

havent listened, dont know what they say. hopefully they say something like: dont worry about it IF it isnt full of red flags. some unforgivable shit includes: being n over 10, n over 8, n over 6, ever been with a black, ever had a One Night Stand, over had FWB, ever had Casual Sex, ever had an abortion. this will rule out 99.999999999999999999999999999999999999999% of women hahahaha, so you will never have children and your white genes will die out. genetic dead end.

go get rich and have babies with white trash, then take full custody of them from the irresponsible mother hehehe. and use your millions to raise them right and to hire a mother for them. pay a education student 30 k a year and tell them how you want the kids taught hehehehehe. hows that for larping. if they start teaching nonwhite bullshit, YOUR FIRED. they might be a marxist from teachers college, but say, you teach that marxist antiwhite shit, YOUR FIRED. this is a traditional private homeschool. essentially start your own private school with one teacher for your children while you are away from your children with your jooish boss 90 hours a week hahahaha. no ideally youd run your own business and make at least 100 k a year and live in the country and be teaching right along the teacher as much as you could. again get a young 21 year old gurl right out of college and pay them at a competitive wage with what they would get Subbing, which is what all teachers start out doing, making 14 fooking dollars an hour, no health care. LITERALLY. that is what you go to college for and get 50k in debt for, out of a genuine, admirable desire to Help Children. i believe this is what most teachers want to do. good for them. thats what they SHOULD want to do.  i DO have genuine respect for teachers. Educators. and it is a JOOISH ABOMINATION how the education profession has been thoroughly, horribly perverted and jooed. god damn. i mean i’m not opposed to Changing Careers just to  become an Unjooed, Antijooing Teacher. but how do you do that when all the teachers training is jooed as fook?

maybe go to brigham young or something?

a jesuit kollige? loyola? gonzaga? there are many more hehehe. notre dame?

but jesuits are kinda jooed too.

but not as much as your average uni?

sent muh first dnation of 5 dollars to the krypto report with azzmador hahahaah pat muhself on back.

heh. i have roms of classic n64 games like mario kart, mario golf, and ocarina of time. these are great games i could be playing instead of complaining about being a loser hahaha.  you can get all these game roms and emulators online. if you cant figure out how to work them, you dont deserve to make 28k a year, have a gf, or have children. you have officially failed at all of life.

completed load of laundry, dryer, and fold and put away clothes. made another bulletproof coffee. 1:36 pm. drinking it out of new 20 oz ceramic mug. this is something you need. should have got this years ago. get a 20 oz ceramic mug. because 15 or 16 oz of coffee just isnt enough hahahaha. you can also make soup or noodles or shit in it. microwave friendly.

basically, get rich then HIRE a white woman to essentially be your children’s mother. but once  you are rich, you should be able to pull a woman who would be a good mother anyway, rather than being forced to make your children with hired women and or white trash. besides, white trash is a gamble because you will get worse genes. we are trying to be eugenic not dysgenic here hahahahaha. i have ok white genes, certainly about average, not white trash genes thank god, and i got a decent amount of intelligence, but i wasted it all. i was a bad seed and was not TOUGH either.

page 123 of 197: ”  I have found something my brother once told me to be extremely valuable to remember in situations like this: People are not usually bad. When they do ‘bad’ things, it is usually because they are afraid. They lash out wildly and foolishly like terrified cats, scratching and biting everybody in sight.  ”

not the first time anyone has given or gotten this advice, but always good to remember, and also applies to the thing with that woman. of course it goes without saying that GLR was not talking about joos hahaha. im surprised he didnt give that disclaimer tho.

raw milk. organic raw milk. i guess this is a superfood and i would be interested in trying it. raw milk is not pasteurized or homogenized. pasteurize takes out the bacteria and homogenize takes out gross chunks. i guess the bacteria and the gross chunks are good.

eggs are also a superfood hehehehe

OK HERES THE RULE:

Women are allowed one lover (ie secs partner) per every TWO YEARS starting at age 18. hence, here is the maximum for women of the following ages:

18 – 1

19 – 1

20 – 2

21 – 2

22 – 3

23 – 3

24 – 4

25 – 4

26 – 5

27 – 5

28 – 6

29 – 6

30 – 7

31 – 7

and i shouldnt have to go that far hahahaha.

this is the be all end all final verdict on this topic. if you are dating a 25 year old woman and she has been with 5 guys before you, dump the wh0re! not good mother of your children material!

and really a decent woman should get married by 25 at the oldest, so if you are dating women older than that, that doesn’t reflect well on them. youre 26 and not married? either you have been with way more than the maximum allowable 5 guys, and you are crazy or disloyal or incapable of a rel. even worse if you are 30. whats wrong with a WOMAN who cannot get married by THIRTY. you get to CHOOSE the best man! your CHOOSER is clearly FOOKED UP!!!!! NEXT!

MANY women have fooked up, faulty choosers. at LEAST half. having a good father will greatly improve their choosers. also the father will exert physical influence here, in the choosing. no you will not date/fook that guy. you are GROUNDED and i am guarding you with muh GUNZ.

i think my number scheme is perfectly fair. it allows women to start having Secs and lose their Purity at the young age of 18. it also allows them to get a moderate taste of the Carousel. Believe me I would like if a 25 year old had been with less than 4 guys, but we live in a jooed world, and therefore we must Manage Expectations and Lower Standards and Be Realistic.

 

TO HAVE A CHANCE AT BECOMING A WAGE SLAVE YOU HAVE TO BECOME A DEBT SLAVE FIRST

mar 11

if at first you dont succeed, try, try, try, try, try, and try again. this is GREAT life advice we’ve all heard, and i would fully endorse it.

the big problem with it is, you are NOT suppose to use it on WOMEN. once they reject you ONCE, you DONT EVER want to try again, because that makes you the BAD GUY in ever way. bad, weak, evil, horrible, like a child molester or a raepist. because then youre not respecting her wishes.

i wish the people who say if at first you dont succeed, try and try again, made it more clear that this advice should NEVER be used with women. even though its good advice in all other areas of life.

yeah this is common sense…….to fookin normie nonnevergfs who have never not been with a woman for longer than casual secs hahahaha.

also it was hard for muh fam to educate me on women, because even though women have always been the same at heart…..the women my generation and young are much, much worse than the women from, for example, the older baby boomers.  in terms of the things theyve DONE, the things they have on their conscience, if they had a conscience. in short, theyve taken many more cox, murdered more babies, broken more hearts, done 60000000 times more harm. earned the wages of sin. whereas before, the women were at least restrained from DOING this stuff. and that matters. when you DO evil and sin it changes you for the worse, makes you a worse person. heh. even jesus christ was TEMPTED to sin and do evil. but he said NO GET THEE BEHIND ME SATAN!!!!!!!!

so yeah unfort it was especially hard for the older generation to educate the younger generation on how to get women, because there was SUCH a drastic generational change in women.

the best would be homeschooling with an older brother or cousin who was 5 to 10 years older than you. or just a professional/life male mentor/role model who is 5 to 10 years older than you. every man should have this but most dont. Sad!

basically, someone from your same generation but a little bit older and wiser. younger than your parents. i suppose if your parents are younger then they might be able to understand your generation better because they are closer to it. and i endorse parents having children young. man and women get married at 18 and have their first child at 18. second child at 20, third child 22, 4th child 24, and the father has been making 28k a year since age 16, and by age 24 is prob making at least 40k a year. ideal world larping shit here hahahaha.

i guess in a nondegenerate nice hwyte country, you wouldnt even NEED homeschooling and could go back to more public schooling. though it should never get too far away from homeschooling. homeschool coops would be your “public schools”. parents would EXTREMELY VET all their childrens friends and especially their daughters suitors.

fathers could get involved with homeschooling too because half of homeschooling would be essentially bring your kids to work day and train the kids on your craft. so that they are poised to make 28k a year at age fooking 14 if they wanted.

and ideally the father would have eventually risen by this time to start his own business so that he is not somebody else’s slave and can hire who he wants, like his children, who he also makes damn sure are competent workers.

sure you could teach the daughters some of the work too, why not. esp if they have any interest in it. but mothers would be teaching about womens SACRED DUTY as the GUARDIANS of the race, of LIFE ITSELF, and educate women to have a LOT more RESPECT for that SACRED RESPONSIBILITY.

what a wonderful world it would be!

well i guess men would be the guardians but women would be…the mothers. you need them. without women and mothers your race dies.

“and thats a problem because………why?”

hehehe many young hwytes making 50k a year would seriously ask you that question.

“Whites have been on top for too long. They’ve taken MORE than their fair share. time for payback. KARMA. karmas a bitch sometimes, and whites have brought it all on themselves. time to step aside and give others a fair chance. thats why we need moar immigrants.”

im not makign this stuff up folks. i WISH it were just a cognitive distortion on my part.

GLR estimated that about 80% of (adult) J’s were traitors. and that traitors needed to be gassed. for treason hehehehe. this meant he beleived that 20% of j’s were GOOD JOOZ. when you put it THAT way…..that 20% sounds a little HIGH no? hahahahaha. i would put it more like 10% max hahahaha.

https://archive.org/stream/ThisTimeTheWorld/ThisTimeTheWorld_djvu.txt

READ IT. BUY IT hahahaha. search it on google shopping to get a better price than amazon.

after you casually bang bitches, give them this book and say read this if you ever want a good pounding from me ever again. you do know how to read dont you? you read 50 shades of gray. now read something that matters. and maybe i’ll pound you again when i have time. and dont steal the book from me like a joo. and ill dump you very soon because you are not an honorable woman. a better man, like GLR, wouldnt even have banged your sloppy slutty pvssy even once. (he admits to not liking Easy Sluts when he was in the military, which gave him a reputation as an “oddball.”)

heh. his father was essentially a COMEDIAN. did not expect this. went from ridiculously starving artist to making good money in the depression just by making people laugh. i cant even imagine a type of stand up comedy or vaudeville that isnt extremely jooed, but i guess it existed once.

oosh needed this one:

i mean this is the risk you take with all in. thats why they call it gambling. he could have easily beat me with AA. or getting a J. but there i had an equal chance of getting a K as he did a J. of course if he had QQ he would have beat me.

GLR: ” The documents include the Overman Report to the U.S. Senate, 1919, Senate Document 88, which shows that of the 388 members of the first Soviet Government, sitting in the Old Smolny Institute in Petrograd, 371 were Js and 265 of these Js were from the lower East Side of New York City!  ”

oh im sure this overman report has been discredited as an antisemitic hoax even worse than the protocols of the elders of zion hahahahaha.

petrograd = st petersberg

stalingrad = leningrad = volgograd = yuge russian victory against germans in ww2, hence yuge motherland calls statue. VERY VERY VERY impressive statue, but not sure this was such a good thing for russians. or germans. or the world. war should have never been fought. US should have never entered war. so uhhh what then. is it polands fault for not surrendering immediately to germany? i really like poland tho.  but prob not more than i luv the hwyte race and not more than my dislike of the antiwhiteness of da jooz.

https://archive.org/stream/TheInternationalJew/InternationalJew_djvu.txt

also read this one by the one and only henry ford.

http://archive.is/LNVTM

archive of the archive hahahaha

unfort GLR’s parents were divorced by the time he was 6. in the mid 1920s.

https://archive.org/stream/ThisTimeTheWorld/ThisTimeTheWorld_djvu.txt

see chapter 3 hahahaha

http://archive.is/lYvw8

i was also the first person to archive this on archive.is YOUR WELCOME hahahahah

back in the day you did not have to incur a ton of high interest debt to Qualify yourself for a Job as a NURSE.

something JOOEY is going on here.

now you are a 21 year old woman with 100k in debt and you can get a job that pays pretty well, maybe 40k a year. but still. note i am thinking of a BSN degree. not an LPN or god forbid CNA. which at least half of applicants are not smart enough to get into super competitive harvard like BSN programs.

all so you can work 60 hours a week watching people die, watching hospitals joo dying people over, have dying people complain to you that you are an evil joo, seeing 900000000 lb negros, dying chldren, all your colleagues are Opioid popping sluts cheating on their husbands and maybe you are too. never trust a nurse hahahaha. some of them are good tho.

GLR’s book sort of reminds me of bernard chapin. i think they are similar personalities. therefore, maybe i could use GLR to convince uncle bern to become JQ pilled hehehehe. slip him the GLR book and tell him its actually….theodore dalrymple or something hahahahaha. im sure bern knows who GLR is, but is probably unwilling to read any nazi stuff because “nazis were total leftists. they have the word socialist right in the title!!!!”

a lot of greatest generation type goys that are otherwise great hwytes, are really turned off by AH and the hakenkreuz, because they fought in WW2 and learned to hate the ebil natzis. what a cohencidence. but the kids these days dont even know what ww2 or the natzis even ARE, which i think is good for giving them a blank slate for us to work with. they dont know anything about the h0l0 hoax either!

cuz i was thinking about a guy like rockwell today. its really hard to get away with wearing a sv4stica and calling yourself a natzi. i mean anglin kinda does it, but he also does not go out in public like rockwell, and i would like if he did.

i think a better public face for the movement right now would be a guy like sven. handsome, charming, healthy, husband and father, funny, personable, sociable, normie chad dad. flying both a confederate flag and a US flag. comes across as a totally well adjusted normie that people will like and listen to. great optics hahahaha. which is why im so happy hes making hihg svenergy vidyas a regular thing now. maybe have his children make a cameo appearance. might be a good gamble to get more normie women involved. (not nonnormie crazy women.)

also be very curious to see how MW develops because now i think he has a GF and he is losing weight and dressing better and all these things can have an enormously positive effect on a mans confidence. especially having a loyal GF. i’d imagine, hahaha. never had one hahaha.

this is all speculation, i dont know he actually has a GF, but i am seeing some subtle hints that MIGHT suggest it.

i mean i hope he does, he totally deserves it! you shouldn’t HAVE to be as awesome as MW, or Sven, or varg v, just to get a damn decent gf! you should be in the top….50%, not the top 1% of awesomeness!

anyway. before you could just become a wage slave to da jooz. now you have to become a DEBT slave before you even earn the privilege of being a wage slave!!!!!!

”  But I never tried to kiss her, although she made remarks which I am now sure were dainty scoldings for my miserable cowardice in such matters.

This super- Victorian attitude with women followed me a long time in life and I may have missed a great many  ‘good things’ by ordinary standards. But after seeing more of human ‘love’ and what happened to many of the
brassy successes with women, I suspect that the sweet, storybook memories I keep of such idyllic, if not  physically satisfying, love are far more pleasant in the long run than the pleasures of the more sophisticated. I don’t believe I can deny that my failure to ‘go farther’ with girls earlier in life was largely due to plain cowardice where girls were concerned. But I also think most people today lose the savor of love and sex through over- sophistication and impatience. It is impossible to enjoy a fine wine by gulping it all down at once and even a connoisseur cannot appreciate his dainty sips the first time he tries wine. ”

chap 3, GLR describes his first luv and how he was a beeta niceguy who was too afraid to make a move, but ultimately he was glad he was not a MUH DIKK, FILTHY-MINDED DEGENERATE.

https://archive.org/details/THESTORYOFPHILOSOPHY1TheLivesAndOpinionswillDurant1926

will durant’s story of philosophy was influential to the 18 year old GLR. I have heard of this guy but never read. here’s the full text hahahaha.

ok getting ready to go to boring church.

in chapter 4 he describes being a waiter at 19 where he had his first Practice Gurl, a waitress of 24 at his restaurant, so he lost the vcard and had some fun with her, at an age when that is so important for a boys confidence, with a gurl who is a little older, but in the grand scheme of things, still young as hell. this is pretty much perfect. wish i knew some 24 or 25 year old women when i was 19! i sure didnt hahahaha.

that’s probably the ideal way to do it, even for special snowflakes like me. unless you have a high school sweetheart AND she likes you back AND then you fook like rabbits AND she doesnt dump you immediately.

in the 1930s even slutty unmarried 24 year old skanks wouldnt dump you after several fooks. have the decency to let you fook them until you get comfortable fooking them.

so they SEEM “older” because you are SO young at 19…..but they are still young and hawt at 25.  and i think they like “schooling” the virile young boy. its a win win.  so good for GLR. i wish I knew some 25 year old sluts when i was 19.

also its good to get experience as a restaurant server at that age. but not to make a career out of it. and you will also prob meet a 25 year old slut working in a restaurant. therefore, I prescribe that all boys do one year of restaurant service when they are 18 or 19 if they are still a V and havent got married to their high school sweetheart, or have any ineptness with women.  of course, n my ideal world, they’ll already be making good money at a semi skilled trade such that working in a restaurant would be a step DOWN for them. so i’d make sure that 1. they dont MARRY the restaurant slut practice gurl they’re banging 2. they can come right back to their old job after a year, or 9 months. basically, the whole point of the restaurant is to give them Confidence and Social Skills in dealing with WOMEN, and in dealing with bitchy customers. and maybe in resisting the temptation of degeneracy and cash in your pocket.

GLR became suitably confident that he was able to pull funny pranks on bitchy customers, rather than run home crying every night. this is a great measure of your confidence. rather than being all nervous about bitchy customers, can you get enjoyment on doing little pranks on them? nothing TOO degenerate of course, like a nonwhite might do, but the innocent pranks like GLR describes: making everything sticky with syrup, serving up a bowl of butter disguised as ice cream to a fat bitchy woman, etc.

he was also a great example of someone who was very smart, but didnt apply himself in school and got mediocre grades in high school. that didnt stop him from applying to harvard tho. they “lost his application”. he later applied to brown and got in as an “experiment” because he had shitty grades, but he had a very high Standardized Test score, like SAT/ACT, and that alone was good enough to get him into Brown. not as good as harvard, but better than 95% of unis hahahaha.

ter·ma·gant     ˈtərməɡənt/  noun   1.  a harsh-tempered or overbearing woman.    2. historical       an imaginary deity of violent and turbulent character, often appearing in morality plays.

heh looking up words as i read.

when he “experimented with women” his first year at brown, what does that mean? that he fooked 50 sluts? probably more like he made out with 5 women. which still makes him a yuge normie chad by neet virgin standards hahaha. then he met his wife second year of brown. pretty ideal age to meet your wife.

might have to read his other book, hwyte power, which is less of an autobiog, and more of larping on the ideal world and how to fix this one.

he talks about his first wife who he met at that time, and she sounds like a real ballbusting bitch, constantly hot and cold, bipolar, showing him luv one minute, and then being cold the next minute, driving him crazy. total drama queen and bipolar. now he was man enough to “tame” her temporary and get some children out of her, but by god that had to be EXHAUSTING. he should have just NEXTED her and found a woman that wasnt gonna play so many GAMES with him. they were married for 10 years and had some kids. but i am surprised they lasted 10 years. probably because he was manly as fook, being a manly ass navy pilot and war hero.

yet HE didnt come to hate hitler and the germans!

yeah i take back what i said about kids forgetting about nazis and the holocaust and the svastica. yeah they might not know a god damn thing about ww2, but you know who has made DAMN sure that they never forget that hitler/nazis/svastica = pure evil, the most evil people evil, who wanted to genocide 60000000000000000000 joos in camps, innocent children, and that basically all white people are evil natzis and all nonwhites are like innocent jooish children being crammed into ovens by evil hwyte natzis. its an even worse thing than slavery that hwytes worldwife have to be eternally sorry for. especially germans. so yeah im not sure we could ever “reclaim” the svastica, and i think indeed GLR was starting to move away from it, realizing he had maybe miscalculated that risk.

i mean shit i get suspicious whenever i see some “hwyte power” person in front of a svastica flag. they look like hwyte trash with tattoos and women with face piercings and shit. prob on opioids hahahaha.

i will allow weev with his sweet tattoo hahaha. or people using svasticas with pepes or something. but i just dont see it being a vital part of VVN 2.0 and 3.0. maybe later it can be reclaimed tho.

see although he didnt like dirty military fookin sluts that didnt stop him from seducing a classy rich dame while his wife to be was all up and down on him. see, he was a real man and didnt have his balls in a cage by her. he should have just stuck with the rich georgia gurl elsie even if she was spoiled. hmm ok looks like he did ask her to marry him. then she called it off. then it was on again. ok she seems as ridiculous as the other woman. he should have nexted them both. found a damn woman that wasnt bipolar. i mean honestly. are even good women THIS bipolar?

but he had other more important stuff going on in his interesting life, like becoming a pilot. and these women still have the audacity to string him along and dump him. come on. like you can do better than a handsome, smart, charming navy pilot!!!!!!

how about a charmless, timid, awkward, old semi neet making 11k a year? hahahaha.

heh. well he admits to still being a naive beta when he married his wife, and too ignorant and cowardly to exert natural masculine dominance which would have saved the marriage. even though he had a practice gurl when he was 19 and had like 3 or 4 other gfs before marrying her and had been flying planes. if he wasnt masculine enough, no one would be. i think GLR was just selling himself short, and also maybe she was just crazy, and maybe he had a thing for crazy broads.

heh. if i had a practice gurl when i was 19 i would have learned how to deal with womens bullshit so when a decent woman gave me bullshit, i would handle it like a man and keep the woman loyal to me, to give me children, and i would have lived happily ever after with That Woman as the mother of my children! except i didnt know how to handle a Good Woman because I havent been with enough Mediocre Women! heh even the mediocre women would dump me quickly. and i was no decorated navy pilot or ivy league grad!

really it seemed the problem was his wife was brainwashed by her own mother who encouraged her to be a career woman and not be tied down by babies.

http://greenstarcan.com/green-star-cannabis-budventory/

hehehe here is a Cannabis place in spokane WA. i have heard that eastern WA is a pretty nice place for hwytes. just a very hwyte place, free of the marxist jooish POZ that is in the western part of the state like seattle. so, how bad is spokane? it is a pretty big city.

so WA has retail shops where you can just walk in and buy, like CO. i think OR is like this too. i can only imagine being a 21 year old degen in these states. staggering around washington state university going to the p0t shops hahahaha.  banging 20 year old hwyte gurls while blazed on legal weeeeed. well its not good that hwyte gurls are sluts, ever. but god DAMN am i ever tempted by the idea of legal weeeeed.

http://www.mjspotshoppullman.com/wp/?age-verified=fe419dbd0e

but is this really the type of country we want? is this the deal with the devil im willing to make for my own degen hedonism?? the equivalent of jerking off muh dick to muh porn????

well like ive said, MJ is not inherently perverted like porn.

anyway. who cares.

you think COMMANDER ROCKWELL would approve of MJ? fooooook NO, he’d rightfully call it jooish communist poison!!!!! im sure he eventually will say something to that extent in his book im reading!

yeah well i wouldnt go around boasting about it to commander rockwell hahahaha. he wouldnt understand muh needs in that area hahaha.  i mean yeah it is a bad habit and not something you should be proud of or advertise. but you should be able to legally do it. becuase it gives you a sense of Happiness, however fleeting hahahaha. and its not like you stop being pro-hwyte. i would gladly get blazed and continue to do pro-hwyte things hahahahaha, not become a traitorous race mixer hahaha.

well plenty of pathetic st0ners are race traitors haahaha. and have no healthy natural revulsion to miscegenation, no proper sense of racial hygiene!

 

ITS NOT OVERCOMPENSATION, ITS JUST COMPENSATION

feb 20 2017

go to leafly and look at all the stupid degen stoners giving reviews of area MMJ dispensaries. poorly written, pure 80 IQ stupidity, 420 blaze it lololololol best purps and turps, totes heat fire, couchlocked from deez fire budz. and i am thinking, THESE idiots and n3gr0s have medical cards? i mean they have to, pretty sure all dispensaries have security at the door to check that sort of thing. letting just anybody in would be asking to be shut down asap by the popo. believe me, even they arent stupid enough to want that.

get butthurt thinking so all these idiots have medical cards, where did THEY get them?

but most of them probably DO have Chronic Pain from doing Manual Labor jobs for years, so I cant really HATE on them!

then reading horrible reviews of actual certification places, like rude doctors grilling people and accusing them of lying and making them feel like criminals for trying to get a card, or waiting 5 hours only to get denied. but there are probably more positive reviews tho hahaha.

heh. wish i still knew anyone with a MMJ card hahahaha. insta drvg dilla.

http://www.washingtonpost.com/sf/local/2013/11/09/washington-a-world-apart/

oh gawd hope they never take this down, an interactive map of charles murrays “SuperZips”(TM) that lets you see your ranking. my hood was lower than i thought but its still above 50 which i would assume is average hahaha.

heh basically makes a composite score out of median household income * percentage of college graduates. to show you where the “overeducated elitist snobs” (his term) of the New Upper Class sort themselves.

over my life i have lived in a zip that was below 10 in 2010 (horrible!) but back then it was prob a lot better. moved to a place that is mid 50s right now (it is a very nice place IMHO) and for Kollige lived in a place that was mid 70s and seemed very SuperZippy and esp SWPL leftist snob to my blood hahaha.

yet there are places very near to me right now that in the low 90s. but keep in mind this not necess a College Town, but a suburb where college educated professionals want to raises there families once they turn 40 and have made some money.

there are places near me that are horrendously low. poor black and white trash on drugs hahahaha. obviously shows me where i should try to score drvgs. all the places i would expect hehehehe.

fun tool, go play around with that map, see the scores of the zips. the number in the upper left from 1 to 100 is what you should be looking at. the green and yellow ones vs the dark blue ones. cant find another queryable dataset other than this (((WaPo))) one. but i bet charles murray has spent hours on this one hahaha.

get up early to go back to job tomorrow, end of weekend. took benedryls at 1 pm then 4 pm. bed at 7pm.

so MJ makes you lazy af. well im ALREADY lazy af WITHOUT it! thats my excuse. it would give so much FUN in blazing it, that its WORTH the tiny increase in laziness which would happen. im ALREADY very lazy. lazier than normies who become huge st0ners.

even at the young age of 24 she realizes that its a problem when she shuts down and doesnt communicate and wants to make an effort to improve her shitty communication style. good for her hahaha.

thought this would be the worst beta cringe friendzone story. didnt expect the part about “antisocial personality disorder.” and he is still doing better than me, in grad skool at age 23 hahaha.

feb 21

ok day at the job thank god. very low stress. thank GOD.

had dream last night that i was getting “intimate” ie groping, fondling, making out, and close to fooking, which to me is pretty intimate, but to many/50% of people is not, its just casual, with Woman 2005. i was just happy the dream did not feature That Woman! havent had a dream about her in a long time. would take any other of the women over her. so in fact i rather enjoyed this dream.

also it reminded me of the important lesson: when you are making out with a gurl and its getting hot and heavy and you are groping each other and she is letting you touch her Babymaker and she can feel your Babymaker getting hard, then that means the gurl is fully primed for and expects SECS. so if you DONT have secs right then and there because you get NERVOUS about secs, you treat secs as some hallowed babymaking ceremony that you have to build up to, she will be CONFUSED as fook. she will think why didnt he want to fook me? WEIRDO. CREEPER. and your plan to take it “slow” will backfire disastrously and you will never make out with the woman again and she will be fooking new guys in a few days.

the fix: you say, hey baby, i still get kinda nervous about secs because in my Principled Value System, it’s a very big step and a significant symbolic act with very serious consequences. So Imma give you a good pounding today, but imma just WARN you, it’s gonna be a little awkward, and you wnt have 6000000 gushing orgasms until I have banged you about FIVE times and have gotten more COMFORTABLE with this. so dont expect galloping thundering wallbanger secs right now on the first time. i am a traditional man and I dont like casual secs. so just KEEP IN MIND that we got to do this about five times before I really get into it and you really enjoy it.

this is exactly where I think I confused that 2005 gurl. I was making out with her and touching her Genitalia and she fully expected me to plow her that night, and I should have, but I didnt, because I really liked her, and didnt want to Go Too Fast like I did with the previous gurl. so, no surprise this new gurl also dumped me quickly. because what a weirdo i was! how come I didnt want to fook? was i mental or something? a psycho? absolutely! how crazy does a guy have to be to NOT bang a gurl who is consenting to be banged?

but i was in early 20s and this was only the second gurl i had gotten to 2nd or 3rd base or whatever that was. the second and the last gurl hahahahahaha.

so in the dream i felt those feelings, i was like, welp i am perfectly content to make out with you all night and just fingerbang your fookhole, i’ve only ever banged one gurl before, and i still get really NERVOUS about it. i didnt really communicate that too clearly, and she probably had trouble understanding how a man could ever be NERVOUS about secs, that all men would be THRILLED for such an OPPORTUNITY, and maybe she felt rejected by ME hahahaha. but i was VERY passionate and enthusiastic in my making out and groping of her! THAT should have told her that i was VERY thrilled to be doing this! and i was! the way normies feel about secs, I feel about making out and groping. but secs is just a bridge too far for me, and there i start getting nervous. and the women have a hard time understanding it. they couldn’t understand it at 21, and i bet they sure as hell couldnt understand it at 31, after 10 more years of the CC hahahaha. being rode hard and hung up wet.

so in the dream i was like, yeah babe I LUV making out with you, this is so hot, but i can see you want to get FOOKED, and you’re gonna get weird and think I’m weird if I dont stick it in you right now. so imma do that, but i’m JUST WARNING YOU, its gonna be kinda awkward. i’m just taking one for the team and doing you a solid as a sign of good faith, but I want you to give me good faith and commit to doing this 5 times with me, because i get nervous blowing j1zz in a new woman, because you can get preggers dont you know, or are you too tipsy from 3 drinks to think of the long term consequences of your actions hahahahaha.

really I DONT trust women to make mature adult decisions. they DONT know what they want, they DONT know whats good or bad for them. NO i DONT trust them to be an adult and make responsible decisions. thats the crux of the issue!

but yeah. i should have banged her just to NOT SEEM WEIRD, then she woulda let me bang her MORE, hopefully at least 5 times, and then i would have become more comfortable with it! WIN WIN!!!!!

so in the dream i started to stick it in and felt really nervous although I did like the sight of muh D going right into her Split Beaver. it seemed slightly pornographic but not as degen because it was “real.”

one issue was that a friend of mine was in the room with us, and i was like UHHHH BABE YOU SURE you want to do this with him standing right over there? and she clearly did. but that only increased my nervousness.

that has been a recurring theme, it wasnt too long ago i had another dream where a gurl was wanting the D but there was another person in the room with us. i wonder what that represents. probably my nervousness about secs. that im so nervous its as if someone else is in the room with us.

i mean i havent been in this position in like 12 years. it was about 12 years ago from right now when i was actually makign out with woman2005 and feeling her slimy pvssy hahahaha. it was nice. i really liked doing that. i just felt nervous going All The Way. because thats how babies get made and I didnt want to be conceiving any children and having to make a decision on the ungodly evil jooish abomination of abortion, which all women dont really have any moral reservations against, and im sure she didnt either hahahaha.

nothing super important here tbhfam. just if you get the chance to bang a gurl and you want to Take It Slow (TM) because you are Catching Feelings, ask yourself, do you really think she is Catching Feelings(tm) for ME, or does she just want a casual roll in the hay? prob the latter. never like the gurl more than she likes you! and you certainly want some more experience having Secs dont you? OF COURSHE! so just pound some booze, take a valium, mansplain that it takes you at least FIVE FOOKS to get IN THE GROOVE, and pound away like you are going mad in the gym. maybe do her doggystyle, might make that task easier. then she will stick around for at least 4 more bangs and you wont be so nervous about secs, about women in general. heh. i always got dumped before 5 bangs because they could tell i wanted a Real Rel, and they didnt. they just wanted Chill Fookbuddies. fine fine. yeah thats degenerate. but i at least could and should have used that degeneracy to my advantage. rather than my detriment. transactional hahahaha.

so yeah i DO regret not banging her. the regret doesnt eat me up inside, but it is a legit regret, i would totally have done things differently, and if i ever had the chance again, i would take it. i hope. rather than getting my heart broken again by another slut hahahaha. of course that wasnt the situation with That Woman, her I didnt even make out with but I was in luv with her. but i knew her for almost 3 years, those other women i barely even knew for 3 months. totally diff situation.

heh. you know you are a winner when you go to CONFERENCES. some of muh new colleagues are going to CONFERENCES. get on a plane and go to a 3 day conference in another state. this means you are a professional, you have made it, and you share ideas and research and articles and best practices and workshops and lectures and debates and presentations. and when you go to these all day conferences everybody TWEETS with a HASHTAG.

i bet if its a Hot Field with a lot of Under-30 WOMEN, god damn, that has to be a degenerate Fookfest worse than an undergrad frat party. because you have a bunhc of Professionals working 80 hours a week, work hard, play hard, then you go out to the bar, sing karaoke and get wasted, talk about your Career Paths, and have drunk secs with a 27 year old woman on her Way Up, and you have plenty to talk about because you have been on the same career path since age 18.  you think you have More In Common with a Fellow person in your Field, than you do with your GF or BF, who is in a field you know absoultely nothing about.  because your career is your whole life. because you are More Compatible(tm) with someone in your Career Field than someone whos not. If I had a Professional GF I would not trust her going away to CONFERENCES with a bunch of other nurses or teachers or marketers or realtors or accountants or whatever.

plus i am butthurt because at age 30+ i have never been to a CONFERENCE hehehehe.

heh those “sluts” i made out with 12 years ago have certainly been to conferences because they became Educated Professionals who live or want to live in 93%+ SuperZips hehehe.

anyway we got some guys in the office who Tweet and are Twitter Savvy, and other people who are not into it at all. just go to the conference and dont tweet hahahaha. not sure this is an age thing because there are plenty of 60 year old professionals tweeting up a storm. I tried to show the boss that i know how to use twitter and follow a hashtag hahahaha. but its something ive never “had” to do at a job before. that is, i never worked in a job where ANY of the people were regularly-tweeting professionals. not that you need to be a rocket scientist to use twitter. but you do have to be a Professional with Professional Opinions.

not just tweeting about feelings and women all day hahaha. or 1433 VVN hail victory hehe.

say you go to a conference that is 20% women at best and they are starkly divided between bangable and unbangable. how big of a head do you think those bangable women are gonna have? pretty fookin big hahahaha. not like they havent racked up 30+ partner count by age 30 anyway hahaha. so by that point, what differnece does one more Casual Coch make?

heh I was getting Bonding Chemicals and Oxytocin just from a hot and heavy make out session and touching the gurls genitals. how come this does nothing for THEM? that they NEED to be pounded hard before THEIR oxytocin kicks in?

but yeah its a bridge too far. i can be TOTALLY comfortable TOUCHING their cvnts, but putting muh exploding D in there, nope. cuz i NEVER FORGET that that is how BABIES ARE MADE. cant make a baby by making out and fondling. maybe i should have just tried to bang the girls in the ass hahahahahahahaha. be like hey HERES THE THING, Im paranoid about getting you preggers, so uh heres the thing. just lemme put it in your ass a couple times till i warm up to the idea hahaha. ya cant have a baby out of the ass. an 4n4l baby.

DEGENERATE hahahahaha. this is what YEARS OF PORN does to your MIND and SOUL.

Hard work beats talent when talent doesn’t work hard” – Tim Notke and made famous by Kevin Durant

hehehehe great quote despite its cheesiness, it is still absolutely true. one of those true as hell cliches you should live your life by. i dont care about some n3gr0 basketball player hahahaha. i used to have talent and USED to have a LITTLE hard work ethic, but I lost that by age 18/19, and have fallen by the wayside ever since.

smart professional 95% leftist people like to use medium.com as well as twitter and instagram hahahaha.

i can understand the value of twitter. i just dont care about instagram but i guess its succeeding. snapchat appears to be failing.

i of course prefer gab to twitter because weev and others can say horrible anti J things on gab without getting banned! yet. but gab is never gonna “beat” twitter.

ooooo milo scandal where today he resigned from breitbart due to some Soft On Pedophilia statements he made, “joking”about banging 13 year old boys. hope people dont think this is what the alt right is hehehehe. or that this justifies the anti free speech thing at berkeley a few weeks ago where milo was speaking.

certainly the media wouldnt spin it to make gays look like degenerate evil pedophiles hahahaha.  might as well say the alt right are evil degenerate pedophiles and dont represent gays at all!

but yeah i mean i never LIKED milo, i always thought he was a degenerate hahaha. also he’s a J. hes just reaping what he sowed. he is not true alt right, but normies THINK he is alt right, and i dont want this to besmirch the alt right. well its already besmirched ENOUGH, people think we are all ebil natzees, so, what diff does it make really. none.

anyway, basically we need more right or even MODERATE/CENTRIST people in Thought Leader positions, going to conventions, making tweets, having people respect their opinions. no not journalists, but people in EDUCATION and Nonprofits and Social Work and Community Action. all that shit is just as POZZED as the Media. Sad!

like i see a lot of people in the Education field who are genuinely smart but also like sniffing their own farts as far as writing anti trump shit on twitter and medium hahahaha. we need less of that. less leftism in education. woooooo what a yuge bigly idea hahahahaha.

but yeah it IS sad. EDUCATION is actually even MORE important than the MEDIA, and both are leftist as FOOK. we dont even have a fox news of education. other than betsy devos i guess hahahaha. but every education administrator and “expert” and EdD and Teacher’s Teacher are fooking leftist as fook, totally about Equity and Mo Fed Money Fo Dem Pogams. isnt there ANY fookin alternative to this? for those of us who CARE about education but hate this leftist shit? i would totally be interested in a masters degree somewhere in education…….except for this leftist shit!!!!!!! and Graduate Education IN Education is pretty much SYNONYMOUS with leftist marxist bullshit!!!!!! SAD!!!

 

 

 

 

SUCCESS = (WEALTH^TOUGHNESS)+EDUCATION

feb 11

w000000t finally lost 40 pounds since i started using myfitnesspal in january 2016. honestly thats a pretty big deal. for a very short man who was not extremely overweight to begin with. if i can do it, anyone can. i mean i cant even function in life, but i can lose a ton of weight.

had to do some more errands today, saturday. got them done before 12 pm. yesterday took total of 1 valium and 2 benedryl and was kinda hoping to sleep until like 12pm at least, but still woke up at 930 am, but very groggy, but strangely couldnt get back to sleep. so got up in the groggy state. went and did errands.

now the next big goal of the day is to go to the FATCLUB for an HOUR at about 330 or 4. use treadmill for 1 hour. burn about 420 cals hehehe.

also got a 5 dollar faded glory shirt at walmart. it looks pretty good, way better than 5 dollars hahahahaha. was worried about walmart on a saturday, but it was somewhat eaerly in the day, and it was kinda busy, and full of blacks and arabs hahahahaha, but still not unbearable, and no waiting at the self-scan.

i am also very nice to the blacks and arabs that WORK there because i know they have the worst jobs next to being coal miners. but i have no mercy for the blacks and arabs who shop there hahahaha esp if they are being obnoxious. how can you be obnoxious when you are simply shopping at the store. dont ask me, ask them, they manage to pull it off. i just get in and get out. very tactical. everything is tactical with me hahahaha.

i would much rather do MJ than go to a damn bar or club to try to meet slutty women. or even just meet new people in general hahahaha. now that second part is a Problem. i should want to meet possibly decent people MORE than i want to do MJ. but meeting new people is inherently stressful and not fun for us anxious types. to make normal nonawkward conversation with strangers is very very difficult and counterproductive. you just end up looking like an unlikable weirdo. of COURSE sitting at home, doing tons of MJ, and listening to music and playing cards is preferable to that.

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/9413-betsy-devos-hitler-in-female-form/page__st__80#entry329805

new mpc thread on betsy devos and education and strivers and kollige hehehehe and the shitty striver managerial class

of course muh swpl colleagues are horrified by devos because shes been picked by the orange cheeto misogynist racist trumpanzee, and “school choice” is just a “dogwhistle” for keeping black kids out of your white schools. give school choice to the hwyte racist kids and give no choice to the poor blacks, keeping them trapped in a cycle of Generational, Institutional Poverty and Powerlessness.

https://www.city-journal.org/html/no-thug-left-behind-14951.html

article referenced in same good thread. (CJ is a decent right wing journal where halfway decent joo (((theodore dalrymple))) did/does a lot of writing) gangs of black thugs roaming the halls of suburban schools for free lunch and internet, and starting huge 50 person melee brawls, while diversity consultants are brought in to train everyone from bus drivers on up as to why diversity is awesome and that you as a hwyte have tons of built in prejudice and privilege.

good news is i went to the fatclub, on hamster wheel for 65 minutes. bad news is now i feel very Gassy and it is rather uncomfortable and cant seem to expel it effectively. still the pros outweigh the cons hahahaha.

well it is gradually coming out thank GOD hahaha.

completely unrelated but a great video from the great weev on why anime and japs are not honorary 4ry4ns. i myself would extend this sentiment to beta phaggots who think asian women are better than “western” women. and i am sure weev would agree. weev is one of muh favorite people and favorite Thinkers. i would luv to meet weev one day but i would settle for a conversation with him which i would of course want to record and share with the world. also nice shot against albanians too hahahahahaha.

YEAH the message is always more important than the messenger…..but the messenger is important TOO. and weev is a very important, very valuable and awesome messenger, and yeah i have some hero worship and fandom for him.

so i will continue to donate to weev and have trust and faith in him. if he had a joo wife…..i think he would be forthcoming about it. i dont think he would ever have a joo wife. he’s probably fooked joo sluts, but thats fine. he’s NOT gonna fall in luv or get married to a joo, he has a god damn huge NOT WELCOME tattoo on his chest!

and theres so many people who claim he IS a joo and or a plant or spy or fed. i mean i guess its possible. i would be very disappointed if that were the case hehehe.

yeah gambling is degenerate but i had a good hand here:

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he could have easily beat me with an A. i knew this all too well, it’s happened many times before. but he’s also going nearly all in preflop with AQ unsuited. and here i was worried he had AA hahaha. and thank GOD he didnt get an A in the cards.

heh. i am gonna start listening to all podcasts etc at 1.25 speed hehehehe. really saves time hehehe.

watching 90s SNL, and really bringing back the nostalgia here. when i was a young 12 year old or so and actually watched SNL and thought it was so edgy and funny. well to be fair, when i first discovered SNL, it was mid 90s classic cast: mike myers, dana carvey, phil hartman, adam sandler, chris farley, all those guys. dennis miller, jon lovitz, julia sweeney, kevin nealon, the horrible joo al franken as the fun character stuart smalley. he belongs in the oven but that was a great character. even though he was prob mocking goys. i still like stuart as a character. totally relate.

now the 90s were a terrible nihilistic time…….but so are the 10’s hahahahaha. things seemed nicer and more innocent watching this. i guess it really wasnt. but SNL wasnt as shitty and horrible as it is now.

feb 12

track/tier education sounds good, but wasnt i already a product of that? i was sorted into the top tier, and lets just assume low, medium, and high for simplicity here. i was sorted into the high based on muh high performance in high school, and, tbh, middle school.

but then you can very legitly divide that top tier into 3 tiers. based on where you’re from. flyover middle america trump voting hwytes, lower middle class, working class, even the high achieving kids aren’t gonna get into that top tenth of harvard, ivy league, top univs, top careers in NYC or DC.

HOWEVER, you can still go to State College and become VERY successful in your flyover city as an engineer, accountant, top manager, maybe medical, maybe lawyer.

in other words i think i went to TOO elite of a uni, which gave me a peek into the world of an elite i didnt even know existed. east coast people who want to go to grad school at harvard, in other words. people who work at high, visible levels and get their names in big media outlets. i have seen muh old uni classmates names in the joo york times, i regularly see this one guys name because he is a Full Time Journalist with a pretty big east coast shitlib magazine and writes anti-trump and antihwyte editorials every day. of COURSHE he is a J and I never really knew him, but he was an acquaintance of a friend. I probably saw him at a party.

I wouldnt get this at a less elite uni, wouldnt get this peek, and sometimes i wish i hadnt gotten that peek, and lived in a simpler world, surrounded by people who just wanted to get normie middle class jobs in flyover city, not peopel who wanted to Shape National Discourse in NY and DC.  it was thoroughly confusing and disorienting for a basic hwyte flyover boy in lower middle class who vaguely wanted to strive his way into the regular middle class.

for me i think it would have been better to be a big fish in a small pond, in other words. would have boosted muh confidence which would ahve boosted my performance, when it really mattered.

in other words, gone to a uni which was more like my high school.

there was a great idea in that MPC education thread (srsly read the whole thing) where education Professionals believe  that attainment = home life + education. but that is naive, and its really like attainment = home * education. and home life can be broken down further into (emotional stability) * (parental investment/competence.)

and some would further argue that its (emotional stability)^(parental investment). or maybe the other way around hahahaha. point is, exponential rather than straight multiplication.

of course thats where my ears perk up. because i had GREAT parental support, great upbringing, great family, BUT I was highly emotionally unstable. emo unstable, AND great family, AND great education, and I still turned out a HUGE failure, moreso than people from worse families, who went to worse schools.

so in my mind, personal emo stability, aka normieness, aka the opposite of neet loser neuroticism, is THE single most important thing. so does that mean its the base number or the exponent in an exponential number hahahaha. like 2^60000000000, or 6000000000^2.  i think the former would be bigger. i think hahahaha. YEP its the exponent is much more significant. just compare 2^100 vs 100^2. no question about it.

moral of the story: i should have started going to a shrink when i was like 12 or 13. not 18 (which i didnt, but that would have been a better time), and not….25 or so when i actually did. by then too much fookin damage had already been done, when you should be establishing the course of your life.

so i might never have a wife and children, but i damn sure want to help other hwytes secure the existence of THEIR children.

i want ALL kids to succeed. black kids, white kids, arab kids, brown kids. i am a total white knight for KIDS. they are innocent.

but i ESPECIALLY want HWYTE kids to succeed, and it ESPECIALLY triggers me when they DONT succeed, and those are the people I want to help.

” well whites have white privilege so if they cant succeed despite that, thats definitely on them, they have to be irredeemably fooked up, they are BEYOND help, besides, you shouldnt want to help them, you should WANT to end white privilege and help create EQUALITY for ALL kids. either push whites down, and or bring nonwhite kids UP. ”

is the mentality of EVERYONE in education. well, 99% hehehe.

in that city journal article, there was a great comment, if you can’t do, teach. (i knew that one for years.) if you can’t teach, ADMINISTRATE. i LOL’ed IRL at that one. esp since i recently had a thought that maybe i should think about getting a masters degree in education administration hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

hey shit maybe i would be perfect, because i cant do AND i cant teach hahahaha.

well i think i sorta COULD teach, but i dont want to be in these marxist environments. which would be even worse at the admin level, because your job is to CREATE these marxist environments!!!!!!! fook that!!!!!!

but yeah charter schools. devos. school choice. i wanted to get more informed on all this. because all the cool kids hate devos, hate school choice, hate vouchers, hate charters, because all this is “RACIST.”

so i expected MPC to be all about vouchers and charters but they kind of arent. they are more about getting rid of the DOE altogether and getting rid of things that make schools nonwhite. and establishing a better track/tier system in the schools. uhhhh cant say i disagree with these things either!

someone made the interesting claim that the biggest fans of vouchers are “talented tenth” blacks who have the agency to strive for better and move out of the hood, and also…. lower class whites who want to strive for something better, and they cant afford to live in neighborhoods with hwyte schools, and they cant afford the best private schools, and they sure as hell dont want to put their kids in their local nonwhite infested public schools.

really i think homeschooling is a great solution, and i think MPC would agree with me here…..but its VERY hard for working class people to do this, to survive without the dual income! to have the mother stay home and homeschool the kids!

hehehe also note how shitlibs think homeschooling is the worst thing ever, and is just a DOGWHISTLE for racist fundamentalist christian hwyte parents to BRAINWASH their kids and turn them into little hateful bigots just like them.

watching “driving miss daisy” in the background, seems like a decent movie (i saw it many years ago) but I had no idea that they were JOOISH! ie, miss daisy and dan aykroyd are JOOISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! going to TEMPLE!!!!

i had no idea! i just figured they were supposed to be White Racist Plutocrat Superrich in the prime of ill-gotten Hwyte Privilege from the LEgacy of Slavery in the South. this totally adds an element to the story i was NOT prepared for, PLUS its COMPLETELY unbelievable to even THINK of jessica tandy and dan aykroyd as JOOS, because they are CLEARLY NOT.

i dont even know whos jooing who anymore hahahahaha.

damn i dont remember this movie at ALL. like the jooish aspect is pretty in your face, not a minor thing.

also she is a TEACHER who thinks she is smarter than everyone. INTERESTING. ok what did her husband do to make them so filthy rich. theres a factory there, maybe a clothing or a peach factory hahahaha. lets find out

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Driving_Miss_Daisy

damn this is inconclusive. doesnt say what the husband did to make them so god damn top 1% rich. implies that miss daisy doesnt understand she is a Persecuted Oppressed Minority Victim until the temple is bombed during the Civil Rights movement, probably by KKK terrists hahahaha. i would think that joos have this identity of themselves being jooish from a very young age. i mean the film starts in the 50s but people were already aware of MUH SHOAH by that time.

le sigh. whats better. a movie showing joos act like racist hwyte assholes, or a movie showing hwytes act like racist hwyte assholes.

so whats the point? they act hwyte but ebil hwyte racists dont think they are hwyte???? but really joos are basically hwyte? except when they want to be nonwhite??????

obviously touches on a few of my fav themes. hehehe. i should be watching it with great attention, but dont really want to. would rather be ranting on muh blog.

ok, but there are plenty of upper class (many jooish) kids who are BATSHIT INSANE, borderline and bipolar, and they still become successful, complete graduate degrees at top schools. or at the very least, get ok jobs through their families connections. or go to vacationlike inpatient programs is more like it hahahahaha.

like what about rich kids that get totally fooked up on DRUGS, so fooked up they can’t complete a masters degree hahahaha.

in other words, i am as fooked up as the most fooked up jooish rich kid, and they can still become successful because of their rich background. my background was pretty damn good, prob above average, but it certainly wasnt Rich Upper Class!!!!!!! but it was still Pretty Damn Good!!!!!! but we DEF didn’t have a lot of Family Connections that could get me a 28k job somewhere for the Fooked Up Black Sheep Son who was too mental and neurotic and lazy to handle Grad School hahahahahaha.

so really maybe its success = (normieness^Wealth)*(education)

in other words, my fam was well off but not rich. maybe if they had been RICH, it would have been enough to outweigh my CONSIDERABLE neuroticism.

cuz you know , 2^3 vs 3^2, it’s really not a big difference, and hard to tell which is the exponent and which is the base hehehehe.

and i am WAY more neurotic than muh fam is “wealthy.”

but your family being rich, thats NURTURE, while you being crazy is NATURE. so im saying that NURTURE is stronger than NATURE. which is a pretty SHITLIB, MARXIST, JOOISH thing to think!!!!!!!

so yeah i wouldnt mind studying Rich Kids who became Failures. but they always had a safety net. my fam was not RICH, but they were rich enough for a safety net. which i guess IS pretty rich. privileged hehehehehe.

but whats even more privileged is being able to call someone and get your fookup loser son a job, and my fam was well off enough to give a safety net, but they didnt have that kind of “SOCIAL CAPITAL” at all.

guy on MPC thread on elizabeth warren says that its FALSE that medical bills are the #1 cause of bankruptcy. and that any bankruptcy attorney knows this. which supposedly warren IS or was. heh. so whats with this stuff ive heard from “bankruptcy experts” on what the number one cause of bankruptcy is? if you cant trust the experts on a very big thing they SHOULD know……who can you trust? you cant trust doctors who spent 6000000 dollars to go to medical school? can you trust your wife? your family?  well thankfully i could trust my fam to have good intentions at least, not to mention a safety net, which a lot of people dont have!

i mean there ARE real experts in the world, who DO know more than laymen!!!!

they says its good to be skeptical and question authority, but what if you think all authority is full of shit, lying to you, scamming you? i just dont want to be that paranoid, its really not fun. i like to think SOME people know what they are talking about, and can actually TEACH me something.

heh. i trust the guys on MPC to be fairly smart and wise on many things. probably TRS too but im still taking a temporary break from them, i am pretty much over the thing there. and i am not longer really disappointed with mike. we cant all be like weev and be fully redpilled before we get married. in fact if you marry young, chances are you wont be redpilled. and its better to marry young. except sometimes you might marry a J hahahaha. thing is, i think they were both over 30 though. they werent 20 year old kids getting married.

normieness = TOUGHNESS.