welp a ridiculously slow day today, i dont deserve this, nobody deserves a job this easy ahhahahahaha. well im not making enough money to live or be an adult, so that is the price i pay for an easy stress free job.
but lately i was worried because i wasnt making progress on this project, it seemed to be like NAILING JELLO TO THE WALL, and it was not just frustrating but made me NERVOUS. like why is this affecting me. why dont i just power through with brute force. obviously i am thinking too much. i need to stop thinking and just start doing. after a full day of doing that, i felt bad and weak. like jeez i dont even deserve THIS job, i am damn near DISABLED, I will NEVER be a full adult, i should just get on SSI. gummint handouts. honest to god NEETBUX.
anyway the good news is that i made some progress there and feel i have started to get a handle on things. and really the main thing there was just less thinking, more doing, approaching things like a BEAST. like a TERMINATOR.
This is good Life Advice in general! dont get so damn EMOTIONAL. better to be less emotional than more emotional.
i guess you can start trying to be more emotional if you end up hurting other people like a sociopath.
i saw a nice column in dear annie or annies mailbox today, where there was a woman saying she felt guilty because she Threw A Man Away and Ghosted Him without a Word, because she was just too immature and cowardly to deal with the situation, and 3 years later, she realizes what a great guy he was, and how much she probably hurt him, and now she just wants to APOLOGIZE so she stops feeling like a horrible person, he didnt deserve to be dumped so harshly.
annie says its fine to apologize, just be VERY CLEAR about your expectations and dont lead him on.
i was just happy that there was a woman out there with a sense of guilt, who felt bad about throwing a guy away like a piece of garbage hahahaha. i wondered if it was really That Woman writing in hahaha. but no, she said she actually Dated the guy for Three Months hahahaha. so nope.
dating of course just means fooking. so while i never “dated” that woman for 3 whole months, i did KNOW her for 3 (approx) YEARS, which I think counts for SOMETHING, and these fooking women CHILDREN apparently think counts for NOTHING. you fook some chad once one night and means more than someone you knew for 10 years but never fooked. its all c0ch and cvnt with this negrobrained cvnts. all they KNOW is SECS SECS SECS hahaha.
OK I AM OVERREACTING AGAIN, JUST LIKE A WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyway. i was just ahppy to hear a woman out there felt bad about hurting a guy hehehe. have a damn CONSCIENCE hehehehe. i mean I WANT you to feel bad about hurting muh fee fees hahahaha. feel a LITTLE bad. yeah im responsible for my own feelz but that still doesnt mean what you did was JUST FINE!
anyway. i was trying to find a copy of the article but cant haha.
ok here it is, its DEAR ABBY
want to get the comments too:
heh there is all the comments
hehehe well what if the guy HAS spent the last 3 years PINING hahahahaha
but yeah it IS probably stupid to say i luv u 3 months in.
but…..when you are banging a beautiful young gurl and she seems to like you……yeah i could see this happening to me hahaha. i would prob say it too hahaha. i thought i luved those gurls too.
damn. was doing really well at poker table then i LOST IT ALL. i am literally THE WORST, DUMBEST poker player EVER. i have learned NOTHING in like 4 years of playing. havent even got 1% better.
but anyway. yeah if That Woman contacted me 2 years later, i would still take her back, ive still been pining for her, and what is really sucky is that she would probably still be immature and stupid about it, like I feel so bad, I feel like a horrible person, I dont want to feel bad any more, I I I Me Me Me Me, when the thing to recognize is YOU didnt deserve this. i mean really she should make it about ME, not hear, make her motivations and expectations clear as abby says, and shes too stupid to do that, and she also prob wouldnt show the forethought that maybe I found a better woman, maybe I got married and had a family, and so she wants to word this very carefully so as not to disrupt my marriage. i dont think she would be smart enough to do any of this. yet im still pining for her, i would totally take her back, i havent found anyone better, i fear I’ll NEVER find anyone better, i would take her back, and then she would probably dump me again!!!!!!!!
and NO I never said those words to HER!!!!!! i felt it but I know you’re not allowed to say the words until youve been fooking the person monogamously for a year. which is damn near impossible hahahaha.
i read ALL the comments. heh. i suppose I will stop pining for her but it will take more than two years hehehe. and if she cant apologize within 2 years then fook her hahahahaha. like all the negros that have fooked her in the last 2 years.
stupid goddamn poker. was doing SUPER GOOD, which is RARE, now I LOST IT ALL and THEN some.
the ROI is about as good with a damn WOMAN. meaning, the costs huegly outweigh the benefits!
but im obviously not the typical man because i would LIKE that apology! and if SHE’s listening to THESE people, they would tell her leave him alone, he’s forgotten about you. but I havent! i would LUV to hear from her! SO MAYBE I SHOULD CONTACT HER and let her know that! hey just doing my now once a year CHECK IN to see if you want to apologize, maybe get married, have children, or are you not fat and used up and desperate enough yet?
i mean im no NICEGUY hahahaha. i fooking damn near H8 Women! hahaha.
hey cmon im seeing a damn shrink and taking meds. and i uhhhh am not getting involved with any other women until i get over this one. and become a full adult man. which will probably NEVER HAPPEN hahahaha.
so yeah. SHEd have to be a weirdo to apologize, and I”D have to be a weirdo to want it and accept it. well i know I am that kind of weirdo! and so if she apologizes that means she is the right kind of weirdo for me and we were meant to be together!
so obviously i NEED to be seeing a shrink! but i AM! but OBVIOUSLY its not ENOUGH! i either need to be going MORE, or going to a diff shrink, because its NOT WORKING!
heh. this is actually probably true hehehe.
well i spend more on shrink than on gas but less than on car insurance hehehehe. i really dont want to spend any more on shrink. i guess i am just in too much of COMFORT ZONE with muh shirnk and also am not courageous enough to talk about the most important topics.
pining for the fookin fjords hahaha.
had a positive good dream where i was basically a normie. i was a young man in univ and i was gonna become a successful normie, and i had a nice gf who was qt and nice. i was committed to her and she was committed to me. i was cuddling hardcore with her. we had been monog for a while and it was a long term thing. if this keeps going we might get married and have chirren. we had a good rel and i wasnt a supplicating omega either. i was confident and not constantly afraid of Losing Her. and I had faith that she was committed to me and wouldnt suddenly disappear one day.
the important thing was that it was a cmpletely fictional fantasy dream girl. it wasn’t THat Woman or any other woman I had ever met. It was probably a Composite Physically of several women I’ve met. but the important thing was, it was no one in particular. it was a young qt gurl with beautiful blond hair and white skin. possibly glasses, possibly tomboyISH.
but yeah. basically it was a SIGN that I COULD get over That Woman. if I met a young qt woman who cared about me, made an effort with me, then I could prob get feelings for her as I had feelz for this fantasy woman in muh dream. it doesnt HAVE to be THAT woman! That Woman is not The Final Woman Ever! so that was kinda reassuring. and nice to feel those feels for woman who was not that woman, and to get some reciprocation on it. to be committed to somebody who was actually interested and committed to me. overally, pretty positive dream. felt good about it.
so anyway. i know not all women are stupid fookin children because i have personally met them! shit even SHE was better than the final painful end which will be the main thing I remember her by! but she was a decent person to, compromised by fear and weakness, as was I. usually, normally, i’m not such a damn big coward, but it was a bad day for me hahaha. let me have that much. yeah i am more cowardly in general than i would like but still.
I would have at least wrote a letter to selfishly appease the guilt and shame that was eating me inside hahahaha.
im just think about all this because of that stupid dear abigail letter yesterday, thats all.
shit you know she could even have another person act as messenger. her mother. our mutual friend. she could find out thru her if i am happily married or not, if i would be willing to read a letter from her or not. and she could get their Wise Mature Adult Counsel on how not to be an Idiot Child. you dont have to do it alone! you can get help from others! this isnt like WORK hahahahaha. you can get HELP from people who know better than you, so you can make a better decision, get a better outcome. shit you can pay a professional to help you or to do it for you.
shit i would have paid for the shrink FOR HER to dump me for her hahaha. would be way cheaper than me paying my shrink for 20 sessions to help me Deal With It hahahahaha.
they didnt mention that one about the neutral third party! although i think our third party is more biased in my favor hahahaha. as they should be hahahahaha.
where’s an Education Expert who is Notorious for being A Racist.
Who’s a Relationship Counselor who is notorious for being a racist.
who’s a Moral Philosopher….
who’s a sociologist, psychologist, policy expert, teacher, attorney, doctor, expert in their field, who does good Expert Level Research, and writes in a convincing way for a nonexpert audience, and is also a racist?
i was just thinking of the DNA biologist/geneticist Watson. won a nobel prize for discovering the DNA helix but was shamed and shunned for being just the slightest bit racist. also i think some brain IQ people like Gardner were kind of like this.
Lynn and Rushton are some “big names” i can think of of phds who studied the concept of race, determined it was real, and we called racist.
of course kevin macdonald.
and what do the haters do? they say these peoples works are not based on Good Science. Don’t listen to Watson, his Research Method was flawed, his statistics were shitty and do not support these conclusions.
Heh. I forgot greg johnson has a phd. david duke has a phd. but no one respects david duke’s phd.
what if he got it from harvard? then I bet they would respect it more!
I know watson was less racist than david DUKE. not that I care. i mean my point is, I want MORE scientists, researchers, phds, experts to be racists, and to be MORE racist!
or at least de-marxify Education and Psychology for a start. I would think seriously about a Masterz Degree in those fields if they werent totally jooed! but they ARE! you cant get a nonjooish education/training in those fields! you cant study a NONjooed theory and practice on how to educate people! its all about closing achievement gaps and uplifting browns. I DONT CARE ABOUT THAT STUFF.
And you know what if I actually came up with a theory and a Way to help Losers become Winners, I am PRETTY sure it would work across ALL races, even if I really only CARED about whites, even if race does matter in other things. im not so sure it would REALLY mattter with the people I was trying to help. neet omega losers. if nonwhites wanted to use it, go right ahead. i dont HATE nonwhites in that way, that I would DENY them something that might HELP them.
we are not LITERALLY throwing nonwhites into ovens and laughing with sadistic glee.
just the jooz hahahahahaha.
9.60$ buy of bitcoin every week.
GLR complained that in 1965 ish, only 20% of white goys went to college, while 80% of jooz went to college, therefore we needed to get more goys into college, or else the way it was going, the whites would end up working for the jooz.
well he wasnt wrong in that conclusion, but i don’t think he could have possibly seen how getting 90% of goys and 100% of jooz into college would have also produced a shitty situation of Credentialism and Useless Degrees and Student Debt Slavery.
also they didnt have as bad of student loans back then. and college was cheaper.
but then just today I heard a bunch of stories of MFA and even BFA students who all became successful. by age 25. some of them were black women. with a BFA only. but through hard work, persistence, motivation, they were able to be successful with a useless degree. much moreso than me. so therefore the problem was always ME, not “useless degrees.”
but it sucks that i cant even defend the race i luv. well, i can a little bit, from the most bad faith jooish attacks, but i cant WIN any people. I cant SELL muh race in that I could take a hwyte person who felt no real connect to their race, believes that race is a social construct, i dont have an ingroup, i dont care if my children are mixed race…..and convert them into someone that DOES have a preference for their own ingroup. someone that doesnt WANT to race mix any more. somebody that WANTS their children to be their own race and not mixed race.
and that i dnt have the rigor or the guts or the composure or the will or the strength to argue for my own race in the courtroom of life and say, here is the irrefutable evidence that Diversity Is Bad For Everyone, or here’s why we DONT need more Social Programs because They Just Wont Work because what works for whites doesnt work for blacks.
i cant argue ANY of this. or that if blacks were given the same OPPORTUNITIES as hwytes, then there WOULD be equality of outcome. but we still need to level the playing field MOAR.
the best I can do is donate a LITTLE money. I can’t even have CHILDREN.
also it only makes SENSE that Normies would connect my Strange Racial Fixation to my own Failure to Achieve. I’ve achieved NOTHING of my own, so I CLING to the achievements of my race.
So I’m a TERRIBLE rep for muh race in other words. have this LOSER represent you? and maybe if he werent such a lazy loser and had actually achieved something in life like decent normal people. other white racists have achieved something. normies who have achieved decent careers and families arent huge flaming racists. all those nice white middle class professionals with their white children. raising them up to be nice antiracists and they grow up happy and successful and STILL marry whites.
well ive known a COUPLE people who race mixed though. i mean middle class professionals within 5 years of my age. but I think 80% of the masters degree middle class antiracist hwyte people are NOT gonna race mix, at least in terms of who they ultimately marry and have kids with.
well i guess my job might be to urge other neet virgin loser omegas that its ok to Luv Your Own Race. Period. And usually thats enough to get you to stop wanting to Pay Reparations to the races your race oppressed back in the day hahahahahahaha.
and i also just get very frustrated that you cant question Whyte Privilege or the Reality of Systemic Structural Antiblack Racism without being called STUPID and IGNORANT and UNEDUCATED and UNINTELLIGENT and UNINTELLECTUAL.
that to become an EDUCATED INTELLECTUAL, you HAVE to believe in Radical Civil Rights and That Negrisi Coates-tier Reparations. to proudly say FOOK THAT BULLSHIT is MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE with being an EDUCATED INTELLECTUAL. And for the longest time, and still sort of currently, I want to be an Educated Intellectual, or, more precisely, have Intelligent Successful Professionals recognize and respect my own Intelligent Professional Successful Intellect! Not think of you as a Dumb Racist and shake their heads and wonder how he got that way, i mean he DID go to college. this guy must have some SERIOUS mental issues.
obviously i never go around talking about what a racist I am! but to know that I AM a racist and if these people knew, they would think a LOT less of me. they might give me the benefit of the doubt for Really Seeming like a Loser now, because well he seems like a nice mild-mannered somewhat awkward but good natured guy……but if they found out I was a huge racist, all that benefit of the doubt would be gone.
i mean they’ll never find out because i’ll never tell them.
but its just the principle of the matter. i hate feeling like I couldnt stand up and defend my race IF I were called to do so. and that I feel completely unable to be an ambassador for my race. that reaching out to other whites and chipping away at their racial unawareness, is completely beyond me.
well, maybe some people are meant to be racially aware, and others unaware. and me evangelizing would be as obnoxious as goddamn jehovahs witnesses coming to your door.
i mean really i probably got to develop some kind of self confidence FIRST, BEFORE I can start trying to WIN other people to the cause hehehe.
i think i might go see the joo bob dylan this summer. he is coming on a day I could ostensibly go, and I have some income I can justfy spending. I do say kudos to this joo for playing like 300 shows a year at 75 years of age. also pretty sure he still puts on good shows too, has a good band basically.
oh goody, Richard Spencer making another college appearance on april 18 at Auburn. Pretty big name skool.
heh stupid women
QUOTE nb4 “J00s are responsible for the behavior of women” – that isn’t even true. J00s are responsible for the social and political factors that allowed women to behave like this, but women will always naturally make the most destructive decisions imaginable, in any given situation.
If you doubt that, try to get out of TV land for a moment and just think about the people around you. The women in your life, in your friends’ lives, the women you knew in school, the women you know from work – what are the overwhelming majority of them acting like? Are they making good decisions? END
interesting because whenever i find myself in a Women Hating thing, I say, its not their fault, its really JOOZ fault, dont hate women, hate the jooz that made them this way. and then Anglin says this hahahahaha.
welp….the women I actually know at the moment are making all right decisions. of course, these are the women I see at muh job and they are all 48, 53 years old. have children and did not frivorce their husbands.
i am sure all the women under 30 are making horrible decisions, but i dont really know any. i can nly speculate about sluts i see for 2 seconds. they dont LOOK like they make good decisions.
but hey the woman in this article is a fat slob who has 2 mud kids anyway.
“THERE ARE NO GOOD WOMEN” hehehehehehe.
you can take a “nice” polish girl, put her in degenerate londonstan, and she quickly becomes a huge mudshark degenerate.
another QUOTE from forum user: White women here and in Europe are totally degenerate, regardless of how much feminism they have been exposed to.
For a period of a few years I was a manic serial dater, sometimes staggering 3-4 dates in a single day.
I got to a point where I could get a girl’s life story out of her in less than an hour. What I would be specifically looking for is if they ever had an interracial relationship. I won’t go into the subtle process by which I led into that question but of the women I met at least 50-75% of the women had f00ked a negro.
These were White women from all kinds of socio-economic backgrounds and none of them were hard drug users.
It seemed like it was almost a rite of passage for the ones who had attended university or grad school.
It was just another thing to try, like some ethnic cuisine.
From these experiences I can unequivocally say I truly despise women. END
NICE hahahaha favorited. would like to hear his subtle process hehehe. i would like to do what he is doing. i dont know if he managed to eventually find a good wife. i hope he did. plenty of men on DS forum have. i mean you need to go thru a lot of chaff. this is what i need to start doing. its a numbers game.
and g0d what about the women who HADNT been to university. the more working class vs the middle class. fact is, mudsharks come in all classes. working, middle, educated, noneducated, it doesn’t matter.
QUOTE We should really invest in artificial wombs, women are no longer reliable to do the only f00king thing they should do
Or hire poor mud women to be surrogate mothers of high-quality White sperm and eggs. That’s the biological equivalent of an artificial womb. END (ive seen this idea before, that is INTERESTING af. how much of the nonwhite surrogates hormones would influence the development of the hwyte baby?
now go give anglin some shekels, he’s probably only got 2000 lousy dollars in his btc wallet hahahaha. it would be nice to meet Anglin some day but im not gonna stalk him. i dont want to stalk ANYBODY EVER. its not normal, its not right, its not hwyte. but he is one of muh fav people, i have kinda a mancrush, and yeah i do have some trust in him as a leader figure. i know he doesn’t go into public but i would like it if he did. i would like someone a little more extreme than spencer going public.
i also support giving dnations to matt Heimbach and traditionalist workers/youth. they need to make that easier hehehe. and sell t-shirts.
meh. doing better today at cards than i was yesterday thats for sure. THANK GOD. yesterday i was way up, then lost it all. now i’m up again and just hope to keep it that way.
if a person doesn’t feel any CONNECTION to their race, they are prob more likely to race mix. so we should try to encourage a CONNECTION to our race.
now, women. is it TOO MUCH TO EXPECT? we said that women arent concerned with loyalty to the ingroup. they will just conform with whatever is STRONGEST, regardless of race. but maybe if their FATHER can instill a connection to her race, that would be good.
i feel a strong connection to muh race and say ABSOLUTELY NOT to the idea of race mixing. MAYBE I would BANG a nonwhite just because I am insanely DESPERATE. but never marry, have rel, or have children with.
also wouldnt it be pretty symbolic for me to bang a young arab moslem gurl hahahaha. be like RACE WAR NOW. occasionally you see a 20 year old moslem gurl that is not terrible looking. but damn they probably have really hairy arms and smell terrible. i mean its a slippery slope and i shouldnt even joke about desperation banging a nonwhite.
women are sadists who enjoy destroying and ruining things sadistically, destroying things, turning the positive into negative hahaha.
wow who broke anglins heart hahahaha.
no i totally sympathize. but i just want to repeat that the women I personally know in real life, who all happen to be above 45 years old, do not seem this bad at all. someone needs to white knight for the over 45 women hahaha. they arent that bad. but yeah. the under 45s need to be physically restrained.
so are they like kali? or shiva? whats the difference?
i also heard about this kalki, who is the destroyer of FILTH. thats a great one for me. I would be kalki then.
heh that might be the most woman hating thread yet. i am pumping muh fist and saying YUSS YUSS YASS after every woman hating post.
hehehe probable joo in south africa sez its time to take away the vote from hwyte men in that country. pay your dues oppressors!
this is what RADICAL TRANSFORMATION looks like!!!!!
transformational leadership hehehehe.
well yeah i guess im looking to transform stuff to. meaning get the j’s out and put the hwyte man back in power hahahaha.
porn as a secret weapon by laksha darkmoon, i know ive seen this before, prob worth looking at, saw somebody on DS link it
ok looks pretty wise the JP hahahaha
ok this one looks pretty good too, i should start reading this site. if this is really a woman, they are pretty smart for a woman hahahaha.