PRON IS WORSE THAN BEING A SL00T

jan 26

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/8227-why-pornography-is-bad-for-you/#entry190803

i might have linked this already, worth reading again hehe

found it in comments to this vid

wish weev had some cooler people with him and not those dumb women, but women luv weev for reasons i shouldnt’ need to mansplain. they would fly halfway across the world to have weevs babies. and i definitely want weev to have many hwyte babies.

heh i am much more attached and hero worshipping of weev than i am of for example mike enoch. if weev did something disappointing, i would be a lot more disappointed.

i mean im kinda disappointed he’s hanging out with this white slut losers hahahahaha.

had 7 minute conversation with adjacent department colleague. he is way too smart to be in his current job, which is a job i would like to have. but he is a big ideas man who would be very well suited for grad skool IMHO and he is thinking about it and sort of on the fence…..but he is light years ahead of me as far as having a good plan and talking a great game and doing his research, and READING BOOKS, working on a business plan, looking at schools, looking at programs, plus he is more charismatic than me and has a GF who is planning on going to med skool.

full version, without the silly music, of anti-pornography interview by ted bundy MERE HOURS before he was executed, linked early in that MPC thread

nofap is kinda ridiculous, i think the much more important thing is NOPORN. porn is INHERENTLY destructive and horrible, a LOT more than jerking off is. of course when you pair the two, a lot of people get it confused. no you can still jerk off, just dont look at porn. ever. again.

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/8227-why-pornography-is-bad-for-you/page__st__100#entry191105

been reading this whole thread. pman has a great effortpoast here.

anyway yeah i talked to this guy who is nice and charming and very smart, he is somewhat like me in that he is currently “underachieving”, but he’s underachieving way less than me because at least he’s above bare minimum, he is well positioned to go to grad school, he has a gf, and seems well adjusted. i should try to hang out with him socially hahahahaha. and while i agree with him on several important points such as a radical reimagining of Education, the destruction of the modern university as we know it, meaningless Credentialism etc, i am SURE he is much more leftist than me, and seeks to make everyone equal, etc. also uhhh i don’t think this guy is technically hwyte hahahahahahahaha. but he is nice and smart and i feel favorably to him.

so is me not disclosing my views, is that disingenuous, or is that Good Tactical Taqqiya? especially since i cant really argue my views well with smart people.

this guy really is a really good drummer, really fun to listen to him rawkkkkkk the fook out on those drums. PLENTY of superfast blasts as well as the more med paced ones. great drum SOUND as well. well done lad.

not sure how much i love the overall production, but the drums sound great and the mellow parts, maybe the heavy guitar is a little fuzzy. a minor quibble.

just exploding with high energy, impossible to believe this is just one guy. but yeah his energetic drumming is the foundation of all that. the rocking bass playing probably helps too. not that bass has any place in black metal hahahahaha. this might be my moment where i finally Get Into Panopticon. shit i even like the phaggy nonmetal parts. none of it sounds insincere. hey maybe all the people saying panopticon was good were on to something.

yasssss ive KNOWN about them/him for a long time, 5 years at least hahahaha.

he does really like those fast blast beats. good for him. i think i would play in a similar style as him if i could actually play drums. i am aiming for the same target as him. the same drumming muse motivates us hahaha.

jan 27

see i like that he does the fast beats over (under?) very melodic, catchy riffs that could just as well work with somewhat slower beats, so you can still totally understand the riff, rather than for example nile who have fast blasts and fast, meaningless, incomprehensible riffs that sound like total wankery. fun, passionate, happy wankery but still wankery.

anyway. day off here. was very tired last night and fell asleep easily. the big surprise was the greatness of the sleep that followed. long, solid sleep, but also filled with interesting dreams which i will try to remember.

one sort of confidence shaking one involved me meeting with muh boss’s boss, who is pretty much an official higher-up, and kind of an intimidating, no nonsense, masculine man who wants to get things done. not very surprising given his professional role. but obv i want him to like me. so he was having a brutally honest talk with me about My Fit with the Organization, how I can see everyone around me has masters degrees and are consummate professionals, so what do I really think about that, heavy implication that i obv dont have a masters degree and am underachieving as fook, i am now an older man, WHY ARE YOU HERE, why arent you doing MORE, and WHAT ARE YOUR CAREER GOALS. that was a direct question. tell me right here and now what you are trying to do with your life, what are your career goals, prove to me that you are a good fit with this team, impress me with your specific career goals. and i was caught off guard and started rambling nonsense, a bad answer, and he saw it immediately because he is very perceptive, and quickly shut it down. ok ok ok i see where you stand, let’s end this meeting now and let you go back to your underachievement. with the heavy implication that i was now marked as the underachieving loser slacker who would never be considered for promotion.

now the reality is, i will never be “promoted” per se, the best that could happen, and I guess that IS muh immediate career goal, is to do such a good job here and now, that IF a better position opened up, I would be the top choice for it. that is, i won’t ever be promoted in this position, i would have to apply and interview for a totally new job. in the sense of req codes and job classifications and unions. all our jobs are kinda strictly defined which certainly is related to The Union.

anyway if he ever had that discussion in real life, and he wouldn’t, if anything it would be my direct manager, who is personality is more….gentle but he still gets a lot of stuff done. I would tell him, I love muh job but obviously want something more substantial, i would love to have more responsibility (hours, money) in this department, i want to be the top candidate here. i’ve been on the fence about masters degree for ever and i think i have legit reasons for that. but your opinion is important and if you push me in that direction, that would help get me off the fence. i just dont want to pay 50 grand for a useless masters degree. would basically be what i would say.

what else. i was a young man living in a house much like how i did at that time, with a ton of other young students. common theme in muh dreams. i was sitting and talking with an “older” woman who was the mother of this gurl I fancied who lived in the house too. this was a real gurl I did once fancy. there was also a young man there who was the gurls brother. i never RL met the mother or the brother. they were talking disparagingly of the woman, that she was a very shallow, judgmental, bitchy young woman, that she only liked you if she could use you, she only liked cool, good-looking people, and treated you like garbage if you weren’t, and this is a bad way to be, and she better change her attitude.

in the dream i was kinda friends with the woman and was thinking wow that’s a little harsh, dont talk about muh waifu like that hahaha. i hope she’s not really like that. but this is her FAMILY saying this about her!

funny enough, i never saw that woman in the dream. in real life, she was a very young, very qt gurl who i was sorta friends with for a while. but she WAS kinda bitchy like that, and also a bipolar, crazy, mudshark slut doing flighty things and prob very good at Ghosting people or throwing them away. she didnt really throw me away, we just kinda drifted apart and really werent that close to begin with.

later in the dream i met with other young women in the house, who were trying to suss out how i felt about that woman. who i liked every though everyone else didnt. i was talking to a Good Looking, Light Skinned Black Gurl who was kinda friendly to me and was possibly open to me banging her. I would much prefer to Bang the other woman and I wasn’t in luv with Race Mixing….but this Black gurl was miraculously good-looking enough to tempt me. believe me that never happens with blacks hahahaha.

i basically tried to very softly state to her that I thought she was good looking, but also that I thought the other (hwyte) gurl was good looking too. I made some great bullshit statement about being 1% attracted to somebody. wish i could remember it. i am a fan of the female form and appreciate all kinds and flavors of female beauty. a good looking gurl is a good looking gurl. certainly you, as a good looking gurl, can appreciate that, hahahahaha.

thats about it. no real lessons in that one, other than yeah i should have listened to other people and not pedestalized that woman, because she was clearly not a great person. and she wasnt! i would have totally dated her though.

she could have been a better person if she had seriously seen a shrink and just kept her legs closed and just made a damn effort to be a better person.  but she had big daddy issues of course. SAD.

i mean i dont think she was that bad of a person. she was just heavily compromised and broken and even if i did date her, i know she would have dumped me quickly and it would have been yugely disappointing. she was very disappointing. because she could have been much much better. fairly smart, great looking hwyte gurl. i blame the father for abandoning her. and the mother, im sure, was at least a little crazy herself. mother married a pretty stable man early in the gurls life but it appeared the damage had already been done. to the mothers credit, she did pretty well with that guy and built a seemingly stable family.

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/8227-why-pornography-is-bad-for-you/page__st__180#entry213001

great comment here by millennial former p0rn freak who realized the error of his ways. this yuge thread just gets better and better. prob should permalink it. ok done.

QUOTE

The young man becomes insatiable by 21. Now there isn’t even a hint of affection in the scenes he watches. Love, healthy emotion, and even pleasure itself are passe. ……On it spirals, the curious young id, into French curls of perversion and decadence. Whips. Chains. Anger. Raw frustration. Rage. Hate. Sex is now hate to him. Sex is just ugly, contemptible, shameful: a grim continent of disgusting Freudian urges. Why fight it? Keep going. Keep looking. Keep clicking. There’s salvation, there’s absolution out there somewhere.

Until one day the young man, alone in his onanistic filth and fluid, learns the master lesson of human sexuality. If he is wise, his heart and intuition will lead him there. That lesson is as follows: the sexual impulse is perverted if it is aimed at pleasure alone. There is no greater cause of human heartache than chasing pleasure for pleasure’s sake. All the sexual impulses must be directed toward some higher purpose: strengthening a marital bond or forming a family. Any other avenue of sexuality hijacks the awesome power of your libido and makes a slave out of you.

I quit porn. I quit any kind of sexual titillation not involving a real, living woman I love and with whom I wish to raise a family.

I only wish I’d been given this prime directive more forcefully as a child.

END QUOTE

big march for life today in DC, almost forgot about this. they should have this at LEAST twice a year, ideally every week or day. i think its a good opportunity for pro-hwytes to be visible and active. get richard spencer at this thing hahaha. they are incorporating Gays For Life, which is not the best way to go imho. well….i dunno. on the fence about that. if it can help overturn roe v wade, then it would be good. and then we could focus on turning down the gay degeneracy. IMHO i think abortion is the bigger problem. that commonplace, feminist-related, straight-WOMAN-related degeneracy is a more pressing issue than gay degeneracy.

so  i dont read enough books hahahaha. i did an impulse buy of this book. i was looking at bowling alone, which is somewhat of a classic. then remembered when i talked to my intelligent colleague yesterday, he mentioned bowling alone as well, and said putnam did another book on education. i THINK he was talking about “our kids.” that would prob be more up my alley right now. almost bought that one, then read some critical reviews saying “coming apart” was better, on a sim topic, and less PC. plus i had heard about “coming apart” ever since it came out and I have respected murray ever since the bell curve which i bought like 5 years ago hahahaha. also its PAYDAY so this is muh gift to myself. plus it talks about HWYTES directly in the title. ok i’ll bite.

also i look for books where you can get a used hardcover book for a decent price. got a 60/40 shot here, not in your favor.

ok big task for the day is go to store. aiming to do that at 6pm.

just wanted to say for all i talk about pr0n, im not really tempted to watch it, and im greatful for that. but it ULTIMATELY wouldnt matter if i were tempted every single day, as long as 1. i realized it was bad, 2. AND i resisted the temptation.  so i would stand in moral solidarity with the men that are really STRUGGLING there, fighting the good fight. i am no better than them. if anything this shows you the temptation is only temporary. this too shall pass.

tbh im MUCHHHHHHH more tempted with MJ. i think about it ALL THE TIME, several times a day. if i HAD any, i WOULD be indulging in it every day.

in a way, being a habitual porn user is WORSE than a woman being a dirty slut. because she STILL doesnt watch PORN.

think about it. the pathetic foreveralone atomized virgin with 31 tabs of weird porn. cant talk to gurls. sees secs as jooish narcissistic pleasure only. with no idea how to relate to other people. at least the slut has better social skills! the slut isnt shutting herself away from people and hasnt stunted her ability to deal socially with the opposite secs!

in fact, in dealing with REAL HUMAN SECS rather than the fake illusion of porn, the woman has MUCH more occasion to view sex as a human act. because it isnt such a SOLITARY pursuit for her. the human, two-person nature of secs is MUCH harder for the slut to deny, than for the pathetic neet constantly jerking off to videos, by himself, never experiencing that with another living person.

so its probably HARDER to become a slut than to become a porno addict neet hehehe. because to become hard to Actual Human Interaction like that and STILL DO IT indicates a VERY poor moral character. i think its easier to fall into porn than to fall into sluttery in other words. porn is a MORE slippery slope.  cuz its JUST YOU. only you and the weird, twisted world you’re creating, no one else there to help pull you back from that abyss.

its easier to associate secs with Human Bonding when you are having actual secs with an actual person, in other words. so yeah the women that CAN do that I think are even WORSE off than the most hardened pathetic porno neets.

and if you “gave” these porno neets a real woman, that might be like a harsh wake up call to the Human Element of secs, which might get them to quit porn. but porn obviously DRAINS your Social Capital and Charisma and makes it much less likely you could get a real woman to consent to secs with you. so i guess the best solution is to spend decent money to get an attractive hooker. because hookers are still humans hehehehe. unlike porn. not saying those gurls arent humans either, because they are. they are probably the most pathetic of all. but no way the hardened porn jerker is gonna udnerstand that.

its just such a bad shitty thing and i cant believe more normie men dont realize it. they might not become daily, 31 tab porn addicts, but they still beat off to it once a week and think its harmless, fun, hot, sexy. thats bad enough!!!!!! even if they still havent been harmed enough so that they can’t pull human women.

like guys who have a GF they have regular secs with but STILL watch porn. i GUARANTEE the porn will EVENTUALLY cause a problem. and with good reason, because it IS a real problem.

anyway im just thankful i am not tempted by it and i have not watched it in well over a year. like 15 months maybe.

wish i could just as easily not want to smoke MJ. i dont know how im gonna do that. with porn i simply stopped watching it. MJ i havent even smoked in like 4 months but still think about it every day.

heh why havent i looked for an MPC thread on MJ. theres gotta be one.

oh right. because they either dont have a SEARCH function, or, more likely, i am too low-rep to use it or even see it. doesnt make much sense tho. i mean the forum is largely open to read to the public, why not make it searchable. can google do it?

https://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/7920-marijuana-not-even-once/

ok you CAN use site:mpcdot.com to search the site at google.

https://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/287-critiques-of-legalization/

first one is prob more relevant.

anyway. i think i ALWAYS had an IDEA that porn was somehow wrong. gross and ugly and not realistic. but i used it ANYWAY. but i dont think my heart ever became completely closed. i was aware it might be hurting my behavior with real women, but i did it anyway.

i didnt think it was a huge problem, because i didnt spend hours looking at it at a time. i didnt have 31 tabs open. but maybe i had 10 tabs open! and i used it most days! even if it was just 10 minutes, go to a trusted source, and rub one out. that was bad enough. thank god i never got to the point where i had huge hours-long porn marathons, just looking and looking and looking.

but damn if i didnt still graduate to weirder and weirder stuff anyway!

and i think it did make me hate women, because i thought that those real-life sluts had reduced their real-life sex to something crude and disgusting just like this porno!

and now that i’m fully aware of exactly how disgusting and wrong porn is, i STILL think real life sluts treat their real-life sex like this, which makes me have extreme contempt for them…….but they probably DONT, so i SHOULDNT hate them so much. they probably STILL feel some human connection.

when i was looking at porn, i KNEW it was lacking the human connection, and that the human connection was something I really WANTED. but i did it anyway because i was horny. just wanted to see some naked young girls fooking and doing increasing weird stuff. but i still wanted a gf and a rel and cuddles and luv. i knew that the porn was at the very least WEIRD and not realistic, but i guess i accepted it as an imperfect Substitute. its actually a hell of a lot less harmless than that. i certainly didnt realize how harmful it was.

even NOW i believe it still affects the way i view women! thats probably the worst long term harm its done to me. i wish i could undo it. i am cautiously optimistic More Years without porn will help here. but point is, even a year plus cannot completely undo it. its LONG TERM shit.

like you see a woman inadvertantly show cleavage while leaning over, and you think Automatic Negative Thoughts like that dirty slut. sex means nothing to her. she fooks guys and throws them away, the sociopath. and that is almost certainly not true. you are looking at reality COMPLETELY WRONG. heh. that is humbling and hard to accept.

A person’s success in life can usually be measured by the number of uncomfortable conversations he or she is willing to have.

signature of “marketing guru” on MPC who has a pciture of tim ferriss for his pic hahaha. looks like tim ferriss is the originator of the quote too hahahaha. well he’s kinda a BELLEND but i kinda like some of the things ferris says, and this is one of them

i read part of 4 hour work week in 2012 and kinda wish i hadnt gotten rid of the book, i think i purged it as “jooish degeneracy” but he’s not really jooish. he is a very successful hwyte man who despite being kinda sleazy has said some powerful things hehehe. has lessons to teach.

QUOTE from pman: But what really sets them apart is that they struggle to relate to other people, which comes across clearly online and must be glaringly apparent in real life. What’s also apparent is that porn consumers operate with a strikingly high level of baseline depression, which they use porn (among other things, probably) to combat.

end quote hehehe. like i say, great thread, good reason ive permalinked it in the sidebar. i hope the MJ thread can help quell my urge to do MJ hehehe. which as ive said is a MUCH bigger threat atm than porn. ive pretty much solved muh pron problem thank god (although still feel the long term residual effects!!!!) but at least I dont WANT it the same way i’ve CONSTANTLY WANTED MJ.

https://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/7920-marijuana-not-even-once/

lets link this one again hehehe. dis gon B gud.gif. this might even graduate to the sidebar.

well it is pretty gud. i should read this every time i want to smoke MJ. ie, erra day hahaha. just wish it was 28 pages like the porn thread instead of only 4 pages.

http://takimag.com/article/has_pot_become_a_hard_drug_gavin_mcinnes

gavin mccuck writes for takis which is a halfway decent “gateway to the alt right” site. hes actually a decent writer even if he is a weak cuck married to an asian joo with little mixed kids. terrible. sad. but this article sees him smokin modern MJ and getting a panic attack. and basically he is becoming more anti-MJ now that he sees how STRONG the stuff is.

whats worrisome is i would get panic attacks and paranoia and STILLLLL want to smoke it!!!!!

yeah pretty good thread, needs to be longer tho. and uhhh i still wanna smoke MJ. god damn it hehehehe.

i actually took a pretty much full dose of nyquil at 7pm after coming back from the store, did my Goal for the day thank god. then had nyquil. then drank some coffee because i wanted to play cards for a little. actually did ok today. left with more than i came in with. 4 to 6. that does not happen most of the time hahaha.

about to go to bed now. this is why i took the nyquil, so i could sleep long time when i did go to bed. guess i could have just taken it now hahaha. 1030pm.

saor aura album. pretty sure i like saor better than panopticon but its nice to hear panopticon drumming for saor on this album because he’s such a good drummer and he brings his great style and sound to this album.

 

 

 

 

 

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LEADERSHIP BS VS MANAGEMENT BS: HOW TO NOT BE BAD AT INTERVIEWS

tues oct 15th

If you are being Micromanaged at your Underjob and don’t appreciate it, all the more because you do a ridiculously good job, then write a brief story about it you can tell in an interview later. But specifically go out of your way to say that none of your previous employers did this, because you can’t speak poorly of prev employers. just say, hypoethetically, this is an example of poor management, and here’s what i would do instead. Because I’m a LEADER not a MANAGER. I don’t just do things right, I Do The Right Thing. I Inspire by Example.

Drink Tea / Iced Tea throughout the day instead of coffee all day if you have to stay up for like 36 hours straight to get all your werk done. Coffee is fine at the beginning and middle of the day, but too much too fast will dehydrate you and make you poop your pants. So have two coffee breaks, and rest of the day, drink strong tea.

If you don’t have time to use a Cigarette Machine to make Cigarettes, just buy Roll Your Own and Roll Each Cigarette as you “need” them. Like I’ve been too lazy to sit down and use the machine to make 20 cigs, but I would be willing to ROLL a cig, if I had some Papers.

Note: do NOT buy Zig Zag papers, because they turn brown easily and always look like you’re smokign a Huge Joint. It looks SO Bad.

Buy a bag of Bugler Tobacco, or even better, a huge bag of Pipe Tobacco, and just roll that.

This is all assuming you don’t smoke a LOT. For example, I am lucky to smoke 1 pack per week. less than 3 cigs per day. Usually just one.

Find your local friendly pawn shop and/or gold shop, and start out buying some SILVER there. Silver is like the Poor Man’s Gold. Be sure you check the Market Price before you get there. Right now the price was about $21 an ounce. So go and buy an ounce and see how much it is worth in a year. I remember around 2 years ago when silver was like $15 an ounce. Now it’s $22. Not Bad, uh???? Imagine if I had bought 10 ounces back then! 16 Ounces!

wed 16th

WOW, got home at 1 am, woke up at 453 am, in at 7am, now 752 am. DEF could not do this more than once every….3 weeks? 2 weeks? Anyway I showed largesse by doing a social call, the LESSON LEARNED, and there’s almost always a LESSON LEARNED, that’s the whole reason I tell STORIES, is that

* You should try to sacrifice your Sleep once in a while to Hang Out with your Friends especially if they are doing a fun event. Just to show you care. I was making a tradeoff of sacrificing a regular and beloved Social Event, because of Time Sched Changes, basically, wanting to get proper sleep for getting up Super Early in the AM. Super Early, like earlier than average even for normalfg successfuls with upper working class careerjobs.

CHECK YOUR FRIEND-HAVING PRIVILEGE, NON-WIZARD SCUM.

10 pm should not be up so late but had to do a min quota of hw, and it’s still 3 hours earlier than last night. HAD to lay down to check my nap having privilege today. Said I would do for 2 hours but knew full well it would be longer. ended up being 3 or 4 hours, not suprising. wasted a bunch of time listening to lifelover and joy division and playing around with the long awaited new version of f.lux: darkroom settings, “ember” brightness at night, really quite friendly on the eyes, even set it to slightly dimmer for during the day, with the hypoth that the comp screen is Just Too Damn Bright Even During The Day.

Lifelover is real kewl, and great for us Emo Feelz Types. Wish they coulda lasted longer. You might think they’re corny but I still find them very honest. Honest Angst here. Anger, Hatred, Sadness, all wrapped up in catchy melodies and painful vocals. Dark haunting bits as well. One of a kind sound, even if all their songs sound The Same, it’s a good sound, hehehe. Would have liked to see them years from now, but the guy died at age 25 or so. pretty simple concept, amazing no one else did it sooner. what is a good “lifelover ripoff band” that can continue that sorta thing. I think you COULD “rip them off” in a respectful way and add new things to that sound. so much potential. Dark Metal combined with Dark Pop essentially. struggle to find the perfect production though. real hard to do programmed drums and make them sound good. prefer the live drums on “dekadens.”

Use f.lux to protect your eyes from the bright computer screen.

new shoes are breaking in ok, might take 2 weeks or more for full break in.

Go to Youtube , type in leadership, and watch vidyas by leadership gurus talking about leadership. Leadership is the same thing as “Management” but uses different BS Buzzwords, and ATM IMHO the Leadership Buzzwords will work better in an Interview than Management Buzzwords. Sounds more Emotionally Intelligent for Today’s Sensitive Managers. Unless you’re interview for a Manager Job, then maybe use a combination of Management AND Leadership Buzzwords. But if you’re a Loser reading this blog, then f00k no, you’re not gonna be managing anybody, you are competing for a spot at the bottom of the barrel.

Buy a little Wahl trimmer so you can trim the annoying hair by your ears that starts to look real bad after a few months.

Again, I cannot emphasize enough, DO NOT BUY WHITE T-SHIRTS. When you’re in the socks and underwear aisle reaching for a pack of 3 white tshirts, JUST SAY NO, and look directly to the left or right, and buy the Black or Grey ones instead. Pref Grey. Because after like one washing, the white shirt will look all yellow and shabby, like you never shower or wash your clothes, and will be immediately obvious underneath your dress shirt.  White shirts looks dirty even when they’re clean.

Now, it might look unprofessional to wear a black tshirt under a white dress shirt, if you’re an Investment Banker who always needs to look his best. But, more than likely, that’s not you, and you can get away with wearing a nonwhite tshirt under your Work Shirt. This is an improvement even if you’re just a loser working at mcdonalds or ralphs. Although they might have a strict dress code against that.

fri oct 18th

ok done prepping muh series of 4 shorter posts. u should be seeing this on oct 24th. here are a few last minute protips. You can come up with new, useful Protips Erry Day. Erry Day should be a neverending stream of protips and lifehacks and cheat codes on how to win at life.  good idea after good idea.

Protip: go into spotify and into your starred list of 3000 songs. then order them by DATE ADDED and copy the songs from the past THREE MONTHS to a new list, and then play THAT new list on Random Shuffle. This will give you like a greatest hits of the past 3 months.

HOWEVER, it’s not fool proof. I GUESS an alternate approach would be to make a similar list from your History from the Past 3 months. Because if what if during the past 3 months you listened to a lot of nonstarred songs, OR songs that were starred longer than 3 months ago! Note: HISTORY is under “PLAY QUEUE.” Spotify really needs to HIRE ME to make them better. That’s my VALUE ADD.

PUTTING THE M IN STEM

WARNING: THIS POST IS 4200 WORDS, AND ALSO CONTAINS POLITICALLY INCORRECT LANGUAGE.

[Edit: I have just remembered that the m in stem refers to “MATH” NOT “MEDICAL” like I had brain farted here. This brings me to the very important point that Math might be the most important part of STEM, the most fail-safe degree choice EVER. Whatever you major in, make sure it has TONS OF HARD MATH. This is probably because Math is the Basis for everything else. First Philosophy. Ontology. Without Math there is no physics, there is no science, there is no engineering.  If you can Grok Hardest Math, you WILL make Lower Middle Class Bux, GUARANTEED.  There really are no Caveats with Math the way there is with other STEs, the way there is with Health Care Careers, like the point I was making in this post, that: SURE, Being a Medical Doctor is Great, however, being a Part Time Home Health Aide Sucks, and THAT is probably where more of the health care jobs are, just the way that that’s where MOST New JOb Openings are: Part Time, Low Skill, Low Pay, even if you have Muh Education.]

monday sept 30 or so

So you know The Right Way to answer every interview question. good. So make sure you have an EXAMPLE for EVERY SINGLE ONE of those questions. Because you can answer the question, then the Employer will bounce right back with “GIVE ME AN EXAMPLE” and then you fire right back with it…….even if it is a Huge Lie, or a Small Exagerration or Fiction. Hopefully you won’t have to lie TOO much, but as I’ve said before, it IS okay to Lie A Little, like on those Example Stories where they can’t POSSIBLY check you on it.

If they CAN check you on it, simple, just don’t lie about it!

Become Comfortable with Socially Interacting with People You Hate, and Who Annoy You. Just become the Friendly Interviewer. Pretend you are doing a documentary, or Going Undercover to Get Intel. Get them talking and keep them talking by asking the Keep Em Talking type questions, getting the annoying person to talk about their annoying life. More often than not, you will come to hate them less, and, more importantly, they will come to LOVE you, meaning they will DO STUFF for you, specifically, hook you up with 18yoqts, or hook you up with upper working class fulltime employment, chief at the top of the list. Plus Humans are Social Animals, and you will feel better socializing. Just don’t let yourself be swayed by them if they have an Opposite Morality than you, or they are total degenerates. Don’t put yourself in Harm’s Way, is what I’m saying.

Like don’t make an effort if they are blatantly involved in criminal or violent or risky behavior or drugs or drinking too much!!!

I’m talking more about Average Annoying Extraverted Normalfags whose biggest flaw is they talk too loud about stupid sh1t, not sociopaths whose biggest flaw is they kill and rape and rob and steal and have absolutely no morality. What I’m saying is Extraverted Normalfags are more often than not Decent People once you get to know them.

Try to be engaged in conversation…..one hour a day? is that too much for a Working Person? Prob.

Might make the caveat here, that Customer Service related Talk for your Job and your Customers does not really count here. But if you are making Friendly Small talk with your Customers, yes, that would count. That is good practice.

So muh delicious ice cream has High Fructose Corn Syrup innit. Muh Mt Dew Code Red has HFCS innit. Muh Fruity Starburst Flave-Redz Candiez have HFCS. Is it REALLY that hard just to put plain olde SUGAR in junk food? you HAVE to make Junk Food even moar Junkier?

How much “healthier” is Sugar over Corn Syrup?

If you don’t want to get an Engineering Degree, It’s PROBABLY still a good bet At The Unholy Casino to get a Healthcare related degree, Specifically Nursing BSN, Physician Assistant, or Physical Therapy. Note: Associates Degrees in these majors are absoluetly USELESS as a Sociology Degree. You have to get bachelors at LEAST.

Putting the M in STEM amirite??? Don’t forget about the M in STEM!!

Go to the Poker Room at least Once Per Week and sit down with Five Hundred Dollars. Try to Win and Not Lose Money. If you leave with 520 dollars, you are a Huge Winner. Keep a Spreadsheet so you know EXACTLY how much you’ve won and lost over your entire lifetime Gambling career. Winning a huge 100k jackpot is worthless if you’ve lost 200k over the past 20 years. there’s gotta be programs out there that simplify this, but I’m sure you could just do it with a simple spreadsheet. Start keeping track EARLY, like as SOON as you decide you’re Serious About Gambling.

http://www.careerinfonet.org/oview2.asp?next=oview2&Level=Overall&optstatus=&jobfam=&id=1&nodeid=4&soccode=&stfips=00&ShowAll=

but see I don’t even know if Checking The Stats Helps, cuz I don’t Trust the Stats. This makes it look like “Postsecondary teachers” as well as “elementary teachers” are actually good Choices, although I can assure you. I have a huge suspicious most Postsecondary Teaching openings are Part Time Adjunct Instructor Jobs that do not provide ANY Degree ROI; and there are plenty of people with Teaching Bachelor Degrees that the best they can get is Part Time Sub Jobs. I wish the Job Openings Stats took into account FULL TIME jobs, in other words. Because I suspect at least 40%, if not way more, of these Most Job Openings, are part time crap jobs.

tues oct 1 746 am

had a very erotic dream last night. b4nged at least 4 or 5 girls. it was great. it was really raunchy and decadent and degenerate, I was just grabbing 18yoqts and being VERY dominant, gimme a bj, bend over, now do it like this, lets double check how deep my D is innit, etc, ok next, slam bam thank ya maam. Dominant and a bit ungentle, but not hateful or abusive really. they all enjoyed themselves, or at least they easily Bent Over with no complaint or Refusal, and I just went to town on 5 different girls. It was great. I enjoyed myself by Satisfying my Raging Lust for Young QTs. You! Sit on muh face! You! Sit on muh D! And they did.

mon nite successfully went to bed at 8pm, immediately after jeopardy, and was ABSOLUETLY asleep before 9 pm, thus giving me a SOLID 8 hours of sleep, which is very ideal. So that was good. felt a bit better tues morn than mon, when I had stayed up super late on sun watching breaking bad finale, talking bad, etc, and got more like 5 hours of sleep.

note to self/others, protip: Don’t F around here, go to BED immediately after jeopardy, at 8 pm, don’t stay up till 9 or 10 to finish a MOVIE. which I sorta did last week, bc I was bound and determined to “get the most” out of muh netflix and watch 4 movies per week.

I like podcasts, and I like movies. It only took me 9000000 years to realize, duh, look for some podcasts where they talk about movies. Lesson4U: look for podcasts on things that interest you, be it sports or food or math or science. Note: One of my other big interests is Society and Politics and I have listened to many podcasts on that. But that’s real dismal stuff. Movies are more Pure Fun because they’re not all about how the worlds going to hell in a handbasket.

those godforsaken job statistics. If I were an 18yo College Cultist, looking at Job Stats like I SHOULD be, then I might be led to believe being a Teacher Is A Good Career Choice, when in 2013, it’s a godawful career choice. I mean you gotta be a REAL Tryhard Top 1% Teaching Student to get a FT Teaching Job. If you’re just an Average College Student, you’ll just get a Part Time Job, Subbing, and have to go back to the Unholy Casino for your masters, and see if THAT gets you a fulltime job. And just like Everyone’s Going To College in 2013, Everyone’s ALSO going to Grad Skool. Except me, hahahahaha. I stubbornly REFUSE to TRY that hard.

a good test to tell if you’re Really Lustful for a Woman, along with The Boner Test and the Hnnng Or Hrrrmmm test: would you rather b4ng the woman in question, OR would you rather bang a really cute 18yo Transexual “Trap” girl with a Dick? I have seen a couple of those where they honestly looked like Teen Girls, except they had a D. It was almost like they were Girls Born With A D, than Born Guys trying to look like Girls. Makes you think of Medical Mysteries, and that very possibly there are Girls BORN with a D, and some of them turn out otherwise cute.

Am I saying I want to Bang Girls With A D? Nope not saying that.

Saying it another way: if the girl you’re lusting after, going boioioioing and hnnnnggggg, would you STILL lust after her if SHE had a D? If yes, then yes your lust is Real and Serious.

One More Great Life Tip: So you’re Butthurt that you’re 35 and it’s not Age Appropriate for you to Lust After 18yo’s. (Well, yes, it is.) But you know that 18yoqt’s find that SO CREEPY, and so do normalfags, that you have a VERY low chance of ever pulling an actual 18yoqt and that makes you so mad and sad!

WELL, THE GOOD NEWS IS, it is ABSOLUTELY appropriately for you to Go Sarging for 21 YO QTs, and it’s WORLDS less “CREEPY” for a 21 year old to be “Dating” a 35 year old man, even though there’s not really a huge difference between 18 and 21, other than the 18 yo is a BIT cuter and prob has a lower Number.

Point Is, 21 year olds are a more than acceptable substitute for 18 yos, which is great news for you as you get older and older. Thinking about this fact last night gave me considerable comfort and peace.

wed oct 2 736am

All Resumes Are, Are Stupid MARKETING.

Veteran Unemployment? Veterans need extra help “translating the useful skills they already have into their res/CV?” Veterans can’t get jobs because their RESUMES are bad? WTF. STFU, Moron. What An Idiot!

Got netflix movie and fought the temptation and went to bed again right after jeopardy, at 8 pm, for second day in row. Best Decision. SKIP THE MOVIE, GET MOAR SLEEP. Who cares if you’re wasting your $13 a month for netflix and only watch 2 or 3 movies a week instead of 4. DO IT.

Supposedly you can genlty tap some sort of pressure point or chakra on your head and it relieves Stress. It’s either near the temple on your head, or a little patch of skin under your earlobe, just under your jaw, up on your neck. Heh. saw some ridiculous movie where this guy kept doing this, but I guess it might work. anythign to relieve stress! (Aside from drugs).

Ok back to those employment points above. wanted to remember those.

At least once a month I see something on the tv news about veterans unemployment, and how vets supposed have so much of a harder time than civvies to get jobs. I have to wonder if we’re being lied to by the media and by Fedgov Statistics Departments. Common sense tells me that veterans come Pre-Loaded with tons of Skills and Value-Adds that normal civvies do not, and if anything, they would have an Advantage that borders on Unfair!

But they’re not getting HIRED because their RESUME isn’t good enough, is what I’m hearing.

Like what? Godawful Spelling and grammar mistakes that The Average High Schooler should not be making?

Or perfectly acceptable Average High Schooler caliber grammar etc but…b-but….it’s just not the Magical Top Resume, or it’s “Boring” or doesn’t “stand out.”

Heh. Kinda like my own (civilian) resume.

So I think, what’s wrong here. Either:

* Employers need to wise up and realize that Veterans are pre-loaded with skill and value

* We’re not being told the full story, and employers are compelled to hire less qualified workers over more qualified workers

* Veterans are not as Capable as I think they are, and are Just Big Unemployable Lazy Losers

* The Military does not prepare veterans for How To Write A Civilian Resume when you’re looking for a Civilian Job?

The whole f00king thing just sounds fishy as f00k to me, so I can’t possibly take the news story at face value.

Unless All Veterans are PTSD-addled Alcoholics and Drug Addicts, or Scum Of The Earth that joined the Army as a last resort to stay out of jail. BUT I thought it was actually kinda HARD to get into the military these days. Like they try to screen out complete losers like that. And then they train the person to be responsible enough to do a damn entry-level JOB, Chrissakes.

Do the vets not have Technical Skills for Today’s Knowledge Jobs, just because they don’t have a College Degree??

Like the Women who outdegree men and so thus get more of the Degree-Required Jobs than men do? Like Stupid jerkoff Human Resources and Makework, Chit Chatting At The Office Jobs?

Or is that just Muh Misogyny showing, and women are actually getting sh1tloads of STEM degrees and STEM jobs? That I KNOW is not a fact.

OK But I do kknow lots of women do the M in STEM, or at least some kind of health care related job, and All Health Care is Growing In Jobs……….But see my Job Openings Skepticism, and What If most of those Health Care Jobs are the sh1ttiest and part time ones: home health aide, medical assistant, receptionist, etc.

The NewsMedia And The Fedgov Are Not Telling The Whole Truth About College And Jobs. Don’t Believe What You Read or See.

And Add To This My Surprising Faith In The Intelligence and Capability Of The Average Human Being To Learn Most Jobs With On The Job Training. Or, in the Cases of Medical Technicians, A F00king Associates Degree Or Less. And I Believe That These Associates Degrees could simply be Translated into Paid, On-The-Job Apprenticeship Training Programs. So you just get paid less when you’re Training, maybe. Shouldn’t have to spend sh1tloads of your money or taxpayer money on 60 credits or god forbid 120 credits.

College Career CULT.. I am the Atheist, I am the Apostate, the Heretic, I will Bring It Down. Jesus Christ, Kids These Days should believe in something Real, like the Religion of Jesus Christ!! Sh1T! The College Career Cult IS a Religion, just a real destructive, bad, sh1tty religion that doesn’t come out and say it’s a religion.

So Go To Trade School. I really should just sign up for Trade School myself. Walk The Talk Already. I might. It’s mainly my own laziness I’m fighting.

Anyway. to my second point:  Resumes Are Just Marketing, and, like All Marketing, they’re nothing but stupid gay buzzwords. (So because Veterans don’t know the stupid gay buzzwords, they don’t get jobs than any moron can do. TRUTH.)

thurs oct 3 742 am

muh writing time for 10 minutes or so. hope i’m not getting KEYLOGGED!!!! prob am. well, I luv muh employer and do a Darn Good Job if I say so muhself, toot toot. toot suite.

really frustrated by this fact that you just don’t know where to find reliable facts on jobs. the top one that comes to mind is the BLS with their Jobs Report every month, which is always a News Item. BUT BLS is BS. because it counts crappy minimum wage part time jobs as Job Openings, just the same as a 40 hour a week cushy union job is One Job Opening. They should count them as like .5 or .4  Job Opening. So now instead of 1 million Job Openings, you have 500,000 Job Openings. See how that works?

A 5 hour a week “job” would be a 1 / 8 Job, for example. Eight of those would count as ONE job, not EIGHT jobs.

Just got a bottle of “THROWBACK” Mt Dew, which contains Real Sugar and not HFCS. Excited to try it out. Some people love it, some people hate it, some people prefer the taste of HFCS and admit it, some people report not wanting to drink as much, which would be a good thing! Something about HFCS makes you crave more of it, like crack, whereas, you have a little Sugar, and your Sugar Craving goes away. Not bad.

*Protip: If you have to drink soda pop, drink THROWBACK pepsi products, or MExican/European Sodas, or Organic Sodas, or something that has Real Sugar as opposed to HFCS. You will drink less, and be less of a fat4ss.

Tried to do Muh Homework when I turned on Spotify and that sucked all my Productivity for the day. Didn’t even go for my Cherished Brisk Powerwalk, and it was a real nice day. because I wanted to do muh homework, watch jeop, go to bed. So just screwed around from like 1 pm to 7:30 pm, looking at stupid internet, finding music on spotify, trying to figure out what exactly i wanted to listen to, prob did no more than 2 hours of Actual Homework in there.

* Protip: Banish Spotify along with the List of Time Wasting Websites. Can’t even listen to Music. Unless you can pick something and LEAVE it.

* I was listening to Christian Religious Medieval Singing music by Hildegard von Bingen. VERY chill. VERY uplifting. VERY good for Homework and Anything, if I didn’t keep switching back to the spotify window.

* Resumes are marketing. Resume marketing buzzwords change like the weather: a little bit every day, and a lot every three months. If you are not Redically Rebuilding Your Resume from the Ground Up Every Three Months, keeping up with these GAY ephemeral Stupid Trends, fads, gimmicks, buzzwords, the you are unemployable. apparently.

* It’s like people who always NEED to have the latest clothes fashions. spring clothes and summer clothes and you have to buy a  whole new Wardrobe every 3 months. So if you’re a veteran using a resume that is so Summer 2013 and now it’s Fall 2013, Employers will be able to tell, and then throw your res in the trash because you don’t take enough initiative to keep up with Marketing News.

* So what is THE source for finding what is newest, most cutting edge Resume Style? like deployed is a banished buzzword, but get out ahead is a current good buzzword. before it goes bad. Or in October 2013, objectives are out. In November 2013 they will be back in. so who’s the resume authority. dunno. Looking for the Time Magazine of Human REsource Retards.

Lord God, Lamb Of God, You take away the sins of the world, have mercy on us, grant us peace.

So thursday is muh power day, muh party day, because friday is muh Off Day, so on thursday I let it all hang out. Also on thurs I do something every week that I get pretty nervous over, and can only truly relax after it’s done.

301 pm and starting to crash, but can’t relax till about 5pm. I could honestly eat some food then and just go to sleep for the night, not even stay up for jeopardy, forget jeopardy and a movie!!!

I could go for a big4ss nap right now! thankfully I do not have to take a Math Exam or MEdical Exam or perform a Surgery or be a Lawyer arguing in front of a judge and jury. Good God.

So you hate people, and you don’t give the greatest customer service all the time, it has its ups and downs, you definitely would not be cut out for a PURE, INTENSE Cust serv job like WAITER. So can you say on your Res that you are a Professional Cust Serve Expert who gives the world’s best CustServ? YES. YES YOU CAN. Because you can give 900000000 times better customer service than an autistic spaghetti pockets virgin neet who never served one customer in his life, even if you’re still awkwarder than a normalfag. so put your customer service excellence on your res in a way that meshes with whatever the current Resume Style is that month.

If you have to learn something HARD like Calculus 10 or COmputer Science 9 or ORganic Chemistry or Statics or PLastics, do some work to find a GOOD book to do so, beyond the textbook in the class, which may very well be a piece of sh1t, and your piece of sh1t instructor doesn’t CARE. (Note: prob not ALL textbooks are POSs, but some certainly are.) If the stuff involves lots of problems, then get a book that SHOWS you how to do all sorts of problems, and actually exmplains them step by step, rather than giving you some poorly explained formula, then gives you the problems and says have at. f00k u.

or get a bunch of dummies books. I am a big fan of dummies books, despite the insulting name.

friday oct 4 2013, 12 18 pm

hello world, jes doin muh weekly post.  i can write much better than this, i am just trying to get this out as fast as possible. and now once per week is as fast as i can.

again, ideally i would just be speaking, rambling off the top of my head, and releasing those as podcasts.

get yourself a little Olympus Notecorder, which is the modern day equivalent of the little olympus micro cassette recorders, which I actually used to have. the little annoying note to self things. and then as you walk around, talk all your great ideas into that thing. then upload them to youtube. instant blog.

on my party day thursday, I struggled to stay awake to 850pm, even watching tv was too much. lites out at 855 pm, and slept till like 10 50 am. day off. 14 hours of sleep. and it’s not like i’m sleep DEPRIVED either, like normalfags, who are so busy working and studying and familying that they get under 7 hours,under 6 hours, EVERY SINGLE NIGHT. If I get under 9 hours for 4 straight days, then I have to sleep FOURTEEN hours on muh day off to even begin to catch up. WTF????

just sharing. as an EXAMPLE of HYPERSOMNIA and how people’s sleep needs can be so different. not sure if this is normal for me, Or I am f00ked up, with major hypersomnia.  either way, feel bretty good now. don’t want to run errands though!
and today should try to do lights out by 930 pm, up for Werk tomorrow at like 630 am.

Drank the Throwback Mt Dew last night, Real Sugar, it actually did taste different, more “bittersweet”? I can def see how people can drink MORE of the HFCS. So maybe at a molecular level it’s no “worse” for you than sugar (or maybe it IS!!!), but IMHO the real danger is because people consume so much MORE of it. Quantity. With Sugar you drink 1 20 oz and you’re happy. With HFCS people happily drink a 2 liter per day and never stop and then die of diabetis.

What could be better than b4nging 21 yoqts? banging 18 yoqts and having a Upper Working Class Job and living in a safe, friendly neighborhood.

Heh heh. But seriously. banging 21yoqts is at least 90% as good as banging 18yoqts. Effectively just as good. With 21yo’s you don’t even NEED 18yo’s. GOOD ENOUGH.

Except 21yo’s will be much more indoctrinated into College Career Cult, and nag you more about all that. oh well. NEXT!

OK go for a brisk powerwalk, listen to something that stokes your intellectual curiosity, if you have a crappy textbook, go buy a dummies book on the subject, and also look on amazon for a thoughtful, game-changing, big picture type book by a “GURU” of the field, so you can see the real importance of why you’re learning this, and hopefully catch the intellectual curiosity bug from someone who has it in spades.

so some say the STEM crisis is a myth. There is a glut of STEM grads. perhaps more grads than jobs I’m sure. Some STEM grads do well and get a Middle Class Job, other stem grads do just as poorly as Nonstem grads, and because huge neet loser virgins. Lesson: Don’t even go to College for STEM, just f00k college, f00k the UNHOLY CASINO, and go to TRADE SKOOL so you can MAKE MONEY. MONEY IS POWER.

So you have Resumes and You have Cover Letters. You also have the EMAIL you send which acts as a Pre-Cover Letter, which may have attachments of a Cover Letter and Resume. I was going to say you could also link to one of those Online Resumes just because it makes you stand out, and prob less than half of job seekers use an online resume. but upon reflection, really, what difference does it make if you click a link or click an attachment. well, anything to make you stand out. put a big f00king swastika on your resume, have that be your whole resume, hahahahahaha.

bethenny frankel is a disgusting degenerate.

destroy your TV!

try to spend time with winners, nice people, successful people, nice people, True Real Intellectuals. And again, it sweetens the deal if they are a genuinely nice person and not an 4sshole. If you have to pick one, pick Nice People. Not all Nice People are Losers, in fact, I would say over half of Super Nice people are Winners, or at least are Winning ENOUGH (ie have an Upper MIddle Class Job, or are well on their nondiscouraged way to getting one.) Spending time around them will uplift you out of your discouragement.

ok take care of yourselves and your families. spend more time with nice people, spend less time with idiots, annoyingfags, and degenerates. don’t be such a fedorafag that you refuse to go to church to find nice people. don’t listen to women too seriously, all they care about is TV and College Career Cult and Coolness and Cutesyness. Stupid. Go for a brisk powerwalk every day of your life.

heh haven’t had a real picture in a long time. this is supposed to be a gif, hope it animates. otherwise it will be pretty stupid. yep, yer gonna have to click on the picture to see the animation. stupid wordpress.

walt jr egg gif

BEING A DESK CLERK REQUIRES SO MUCH MORE SKILL & EDUCATION NOWADAYS

* Do your own readings of stuff. for example I came back to one of my favourite blogs after not reading it for a few months, and found a few New Classic articles they’d written since, along with Epic Comment Threads. I thought, gee, wouldn’t it be neat if they could have this discussion in Talk Radio format. and then I thought of doing a dramatic, passionate Reading of the original post, the comments, interspersed with my Own Commentary as someone who has an Informed Opinion on these writers and Their Opinions.

Because I prefer listening to speakers rather than reading words many times. Speakers really bring the words to life. I would do a Reading of All My Blogs if I didn’t care so much about muh anonymity.

mon 852 am sept 23 2013

ok. so, do a “mood monitor” for every day. make a spreadsheet or graph. put down the WORST you felt that day (1 thru 10), what TIME that was; and then the BEST you felt that day, what time THAT was; and then estimate an AVERAGE of your mood throughout the day.

This will give you a much clearer picture of Your Moods Throughout the day. you already know you have good times and bad times throughout the day. mood changes from horrible to slightly better at various times. but it can be tricky knowing when you can expect what.  But this way, if you start feeling real bad, you have more evidence with which to say, THIS TOO SHALL PASS, I’m just as my relative minimum for the day.

Even use a Free Spreadsheet to log it if you want, and make a nice Graph of the Function.

Spreadsheet might be best and easiest. Because I KNOW you probably wanna Analyze this Data, because it’s about as relevant to your own life as it gets.

Alternately: check your mood at certain times every day, like 3 times a day. When you get up, middle of your day, and right before bed. that might be a little tryhard though, and also you’re focusing in on times, rather than on Best and Worst Moods, and those I think are the important things to rememb.

Anyway, say you feeeeeeeeeel like ending it all, then you notice it’s X o clock, and now you know that there’s a pattern there, so you can say, THIS TOO SHALL PASS, especially if you tend to Feeeeeel happier a few hours after that.

LUST is a Building Block of Love. Sometimes we slowly build up some quite signif love on top of a base of lust. And there’s nothign wrong with that, indeed, now I’m thinking lust is NECESSARY fro True Love to develop. Last wimmin I was in LOVE with, there was DEFINITELY a REAL portion of LUST in there. I mean I wanted her to SOMF All Day, Every Day, Till The End Of Time. But because I saw her semi regularly, and liked her personality as well as her body, and decided I was going to Make An Effort to Court Her. and as this effort grew and time passed, so was the Love I Molding in with the Lust. So not only did I want her to SOMF, I wanted ONLY her to SOMF, and For Ever, and also to do Massive Cuddling, and Marrying, and Growing Old, and Babies, and Handholding, and Summer Weekends At The Lake Cottage, and Winters Cuddling, and Movie Night, and Date Night, and Making Out, etc.

But that chapter is closed, that too has passed, though I still think about her sometimes OBVIOUSLY. But Thank GOD I don’t actually have to SEE her, hopefully that last time (2 months ago??) was THE last time.

Anyway. Love Does Include Lust. Perhaps the Lust is the source of the Craziness/Insanity of Love.

Love and Lust
hehehehehe I saw this in the suggested pics and just HAD to (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

So there’s a Woman I get along with Real Well and would prob be a good mother of my Chillunz, and a good Wife, however I have absolutely NO lust for her. However I would seriously consider Marriage and Children with her IF there were an agreement to get Muh Lust on Extramaritally. The gotcha is, what if one of those Extramartial Lusts turns into a True Love as with Girl7, ie becomes a wimmin I REALLY wanna WifeChilluns? Which Way is the Better way? WifeChilluns with a woman you get along with real well but No Lust, or, WifeChilluns with a Woman that’s The Whole Damn Package? Noting that with The Whole damn Package, it can be a lot harder to Get

* Force Yourself to Get Interested in Investment and Financial Planning so you can Save for the Long Term. Because if you’re Lucky Enough to have a JOb with a Pension, you prob won’t be Lucky Enough to actually GET that pension when you old, because the Plutocrats like it when you Die, and you have no legal protection against that. Your Pension is not guaranteed. The only thing that IS guaranteed is the Gold you bury in the backyard, assuming no-one steals that. pull a walter white with barrels of cash buried underground.

Put As Much Money as you can into your 401k if you have one. Real Good Employers will actually MATCH your contribution…….but that’s only if you’re a Top 2% Elite, went to HYPSM, and have a HYPSM Career Job, hahahaha, so, no need to even mention it here. If you had a decent job you wouldn’t BE a Loser!

If you

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ok.

* take a few minutes to Make A Spreadsheet like I described above. I went and did this. It Worked like a magic bullet. I made one google spreadsheet book, with three sheets.

1: MoodMonitor: Day, Date, Lowest, TimeLowest, Highest, TimeHighest, Overall, Comments

2: DailySched:Day Mon thru Sun,, date, 12 am thru 11pm, 1 hour per line, essentially a daily calendar, but more anal than Google Calendar, or maybe not. where needed, split into half hours.

3: Achievements: Day, Date, Task, Duration in minutes, enjoyment, difficult, achievement, comments. This is when you force yourself to do Responsible Person chores, errands, and Responsibilities. the stuff you should do, but always procrast on because you’re a lazy loser. homework, jobsearch, exercise, shopping, errands, cleaning, appointments. basically the idea is, you dread doing the stuff and put it off, but if you FORCE yourself to do it, it’s usually NOT as painful as you expect, AND you get a HUGE sense of accomplishment from actually doing the thing, and THAT is the pleasure or enjoyment you’re looking for. It comes AFTER, and offsets the sense of dread before. This is how Good Habits are Built, doing this kinda stuff every day. So you turn it into a spreadsheet, so now you have Tangible Physical Measurements and Data to Convince your Diseased Brain.

So now I have that. kinda a work in progress, just crapped it out as fast as possible, you can’t be a perfectionist with these spreadsheets, just start them. like that 3rd one, still not sure the terms to use / variables to measure / etc.

and then if you have a smartphone like all the other jerkoff degenerates, you can easily update this from the comfort of your bed or lazy chair.

* protip: watch JEOPARDY every day if you can. there is some real feelgood medicine right there. get real competitive with the people on the telly. shout out the answers. call them f4gg0ts and racist slurs. if you have any friends, watch jeopardy with them and compete with them too. it is a shame to forget abotu and not watch jeopardy, because it will improve your life and health. and it’s frighteningly easy to FORGET it’s even there. don’t forget to pick up the $500 bill on the sidewalk right in front of you!!!

schedule it in your Daily Activity Schedule, every day at 7:30 pm!!

* When you take your Pants off at the end of a Long Day, try Spraying Lysol into the Crotch/Buttocks/Thighs region to Freshen them up for the next time you wear them. Because you probably have less pants than shirts, and prob wear pants more inbetween washings, plus if you have a lot of pants, then that sucks for doing laundry because 1 pants = like 3 shirts. So this is a great Workaround to Freshen the pants inbetween wearings.

* Also do the same thing with your Shoes at the end of the day. Just a tiny spritz to kill the smelly bacteria.

* Lookup “fake name generator”, lord that is fun! It also conveniently links to a Fake Email Generator for every Fake Name. I used it to sign up for OKCupid and Adult Friend Finder using ridiculous fake names. Because you gotta Sign Up in order to view profiles on these sites. Anyway AFF is for all intents and purposes a PAY site, you have to PAY to view people’s full profiles! So that sucks. And on OKC you have to upload a picture to look at other people’s pictures. i guess you could upload a fake picture, but that’s not a recommendation, they can prob ban you for that.

anyway the fake email is not secure, anyone can look at it, and it gets deleted every 24 hours. it is good enough for clicking on the confirmation email to prove you’re not a robot, though.

not sure if this will work for facebook, cuz I think they do some stupid sh1t like needing a phone number.

yep the site autogenerates a Username and Password for your fake “identity” too! REAL convenient and easy! just make sure you save them in your browser so you don’t forget.

fri, 1146am, sept 27 2013

day off, scheduled to do a “godawful chore” for 1 hour right now, but I might do that later, gotta post a post at least ONCE a week!

#BreakingBadMarathon hahahaha

Yes, the entire SERIES deserves to be watched twice. 120 hours of Television Watching. Three Whole Fulltime Job Work Weeks. Probably enough to justify putting on your Resume as an Unpaid Internship (remembering it takes One Thousand Hours of Unpaid Internship to Prove Your Worthy of an Entry Level Fulltime $12 an Hour Job (assuming you also have your Educational Credentials.)).

“CREDENTIALISM”, there’s a tag/subject I should be using more. I fully believe it that people of average intelligence (100 IQ, maybe even 90, way dumber than US, is what I’m saying, we Neet Lazy Losers are prob closer to the neighborhood of 120!) can LEARN how to do MOST jobs with a little bit of training and time.

Perfect example: you shouldn’t need a HOSPITALITY DEGREE to work at a HOTEL DESK. You never USED to need to! Because you don’t NEED 4 years of College to learn how to serve customers at a Desk! A Grade school Dropout could learn, given a little bit of training, and some Time to get him over the Learning Curve! But NOW we have HOSPITALITY degrees to prove you really WANT to work in a HOTEL for your career. CREDENTIALISM. Too many people, too few JOBS.

credentialism

hehehe. I hear the h1 tags are good for the search engine.

Anyway. all the people might be right that Breaking Bad is the best show of all time. I have been Caught Up for quite a while and haven’t seen the older seasons in a LOOOONNNGGGG time, so those almost seem like a Different Show. Jane Dying, the first appearance of Gus Fring, Hank getting shot, the FLy in the lab episode, Walter first telling Skyler about his secret life, Skyler lying to Marie about the “gambling”, etc. Really complicated show, and things really do grow bit by bit. quite amazing. Walt seems so Innocent when he is a Small Time Meth Dealer, than what he is now. Walt really changes, while Jesse doesn’t seem to change as much, he always stays The Good Guy despite all the stuff that happens to him. He gets Crippling Depressed and Moody and Shuts Down, but IMHO he always stays the good guy.

And it’s fun watching older episodes even when you know where it’s all gonna end up. can’t say that for most movies or shows. so yeah. quite amazing. watch it. twice. guaranteed 120 hours of fun that will Uplift You.  Much better than Game Of Thrones, which is Depraved, Violent, Immoral, Degenerate Filth.

Heck. Over your lifetime, you might even be able to watch it THREE times.  For example, how does Jesse go from Jane to Andrea so quickly, is he just “transfering”, is it for real, but more importantly, why do we believe it’s real?

And let me emphasize how HILARIOUS the show it. Especially in the older seasons, before it got Super Serious and Major People started Dying. Not just Hilarious, but Better Written, More Hilarious, Funny Comedy than The Average Comedy Show! So, truly Superior Laffs! TOP Lel!!

ok. perfect example of something important. I shceduled the “godawful chore” for ONE measly hour, that I would go to the store and buy SHOES as QUICKLY as possible, the whole idea was to do it all, back and forth, buying the shoes, as FAST as f00king possible, so that the WHOLE task, driving and all, would take less than one hour. I still might do this later today. And then write it down in that Spreadsheet under the Achievements page. I know there would be:

A HUGE sense of satisfaction

it wouldn’t be AS BAD as I’ve built it up to be

The huge sense of Accomplishment would even outweigh what I’ve built it up to be in my Worst Nightmare!

Not to be narcissistic me me me me I I I I. I want you to apply these situations to yourself too, since I know you’ve prob faced the exact same thing.

If you’re looking for a few more hours of Nondrug fun, check out the Deep Web for a while. There is some RIDICULOUS stuff there. I shouldn’t say nondrug per se, because many people use it to buy lotsa drugs. But other ridiculous stuff: there’s this thing where you can buy a HIT MAN for $10,000 USD per Hit. Heh. Makes you think about the Value Of Human Life. They do say, no people under 16, and no “Top Ten” politicians.  (NOTE: I AM MORALLY AGAINST AND DO NOT RECOMMEND MURDER OR PUTTING OUT HITS!)

Or buying Counterfeit Money. 100000 dollars worth of 50 dollar bills for 5000, hehehe. Now, passing counterfeit bills is certainly not as morally bad as MURDER, though I still don’t recommend it!!! If you get really desperate though, it might be a good last resort. heh. probably less morally reprehensible than welfare, hahahaha.

but yeah. like breaking bad, the deep web is a really FUN and INTERESTING thing that will get you out of your own head for a while. Just don’t do anything illegal or immoral! I Officially Recommend that you NOT do anything illegal or immoral on the Deep Web!

ok. get shoes. some real people really swear by zappos.com. that might be worth a try.

Edit/Update: ok i am looking at zappos for the first time, and i am actually impressed. not bad. might actually take the plunge. seem like better shoes than they have elsewhere. almost too many choices though. def worth looking at.  $50 and under OF COURSE.  hope there is a fool proof way of measuring your own foot.

if you do a lot of walking, get some bare bones “walking” shoes and add some fancy dr scholls inserts to them.

for underemployment, get the cheapest shoes you can that look nice, then add fancy inserts to them.

all right, take care of yourselves, DON’t K yourselves, It Gets Better, hehehehe, no but it really can, just do your spreadsheets, don’t marry, stay in skool, hahahaha, being a Secretary involves so much more Skill & Education than it did 40 years ago, hahahaha, tell your family and friends you Just Don’t INterview Well, get some new clothes, but don’t spend more than One Hour, go out and buy One piece of new clothing As QUICKLY as you possibly can and tell me you don’t feeeeeeeeeeeel haaaaaaaaaaaaappier.