tues dec 3, 852 am

hello world.

tried going to bed again superearly, around 6:30pm , yet continued to stay awake till at least 9pm. fusterating. ideally would be asleep by 7, get muh albert einstein 10 hours o sleep. BUT it takes at least 2 days to get used to the sleep sched. of course on wed I will prob stay up WAY LATER than 6, might even stay up till midnite, to do Homework.

should start making t-shirts that say



















(stem is hard and business is easy, so just major in business)

when you are passive in college

make bad decisions in college

don’t talk to your advisor once a month every month

when you smoke w33d more than once a month

have a bad negative attitude

dont go to the counseling service included with tuition!!!!!

don’t see a shrink once every week if you’re doing bad

don’t see a shrink once a month when you’re doing GOOD

don’t do enough extracurriculars

don’t do enough resume builders when you are 18-21

think your future will just work out because you have any ol degree

don’t have a specific, detailed plan for Success from age 18 on

are unsure and just blindly coasting along

etc etc etc

drop the ball, go through the motions

quit school and come back when you have a plan from a STEM degree, not just finish a crap humanities degree

when you do a humanites OR social sciences degree OR “arts” degree, same thing

don’t take charge

are passive

are beta

are naive

worry too much about grills and not your Career

don’t go talk to that cute grill in yer dorm right now

wear a trench coat

are socially awkward

don’t get a good internship in Summer 1

don’t bang at least 3 gurls freshman year

have a bad freshman year and don’t do anything to turn that around

think what you do at age 18 will not have consequences when you’re 30 and 40 and 50 and 60 and 70 and 80

think things will magically end up ok and you will effortlessly get a boring office job

think you will have an ok job by age 30

think you will have sown your wild oats by age 30

think you will have found a nice gurlfran by age 30


(great TITLES in there)


Could make more than $9 an hour making those t-shirts eh buddy?

well after the first 2 years of No Profit, of $0 an hour.

Also I LUV my idea of A S club for guys who hate S Clubs, perhaps tailored to Lovelorn Betas who want The Gurlfran Experience. It wouldn’t look anything like an S club, the gurls wouldn’t look anything like S’ers.

It might look like a Teenage Boy’s Room or a College Student’s Room, yeah…

The girls would be young and cute and not slutty-looking, would wear jeans and “cute” clothes, would not wear make up

you’d pay them to sit on the couch and be NICE to you and cuddle with you, hand holding, ease you out of your spaghetti pockets anxiety

eventually they would do their version of “the lap dance” with their jeans or yoga pants, and eventually those would come off until the gurl was totes naked

there would be no alcohol served so they could do that

Obviously that whole session would be a little longer and more expensive than a typical lap dance, maybe 2X.

yeah, making out would go along well with that “gurlfran experience”, but I just don’t think that would fly in any semi-public atmosphere, where the gurl does this with 20 guys per shift.

there would be no poles or sleazy atmosphere. no main stage, no public dancing, the girls would just mingle throughout the “club” and be nice to you, that would be their sales pitch, just being nice. I would train them of course on how to deal with the socially anxious clientele: make the betas feel comfortable, tell them they don’t have to make small talk if they don’t want to, and then be nice to them.

It would be kinda a different business model than a traditional strip club, where a huge thing I hate is, they are disgusting cash sucking vampires. they send girls round to solicit dances, which you’re expected to get, but you’re also expected to be CONSTANTLY buying SUPER OVERPRICED DRINKS, and/or going up to the stage and throwing out dollar bills. Basically if you’re not spending at least $50 an hour, they will try to kick you out. you say no not right now to enough gurls and you will get The Stinkeye.

Wouldn’t have any of that in My Place!

MAYBE..HO HO HO… charge the guys $50 UP FRONT, and that buys them an hour of credits or whatever. Well that would be tricky, because the S Club minded person says, that’s a ripoff, I demand at least $200 an hour per customer!

Heh. there should be studies done, market research, to try to find out exactly how much the average s club customer spends. I BET it would be less than $50 an hour

But it would be such a radical departure from S Clubs, that you could NOT go into it with the S Club Owner Mentality. Again these are more Cuddle and GFE “clubs”, and not really “clubs.” Parlors? Restaurants? Specifically targeted to Feminized, Wimpy, Unmasculine Beta & Omega Male Virgins. Although the Cuddling WILL result in nakedness.

OR, at the very least, Underwears. OOOOOOOO. You could get the girls to expect less cash if they don’t take all their clothes off, right???? espec if they’re not tecnically “topless”?

I can’t beleive I’m just GIVING these ideas away!!!!

Now, College Gurls are already Sugar Babying themselves out to Rich Older Men, but I would also push for College Gurls to start their own side business of GFE “dates” for Omega Boys at their own college. Probably Well-To-Do Boys. But here, you’d basically pay the gurl $50-$200 an hour to hang out with you and be nice to you and look cute for you and hold and cuddle you and make-out.

But this might not be economically viable unless at the most privileged universities, where dorky males HAVE $200 an hour to spend on girls to hang out with them. Otherwise they gurls will just continue Sugar Babying for the Rich Old Men who DO have the money.

Or you could just pay A 30 year old Hooker to dress up like an 18 year old College Gurl, keep her clothes on, and playact GFE, hahahaha. Kinda a stumbling block, because she’ll still have the face and body of a 30 year old hooker.



nov 20 wed

still in shock. not even raging excited or happy. yesterday I was just exhausted and said f00k telling anybody, f00k crafting muh resignnation letter, imma just watch this hore movie and go to BED, and couldn’t even finish that, and was sound aslpee by 8 pm. NICE.

said I was gonna save all that till wed, would send out a resignation email to people by end of day wed. NOT LIKE I wasn’t giving Two Weeks Notice – more like THREE and a HALF weeks notice! I don’t think that can be frowned upon by anybody. Wrote a pretty good little letter too, very grateful and nice and thankful and non bridge burning, heh. It’s not like the people were BAD, the people were and are very nice and decent people. has gotten a little micromanagey lately due to new boss’s boss but doesn’t impugn the niceness of the people I work with. plus there is a lot of union drama, and health care law drama, budget drama, cuts cuts cuts for everyone and everything. Lean Times, grumbling. and I can’t possibly get the HOURS that a responsible bigboy wishes he could deserve.

heh will have to save that letter so I can use it again in two years when I resign from muh new job, hahahahahahaha.

i guess this is a logical Ending Point for this Blog, but I’m just getting STARTED here, baby. Now I hope to show You how, once you build up some MOmentum, you can then KEEP it going. So the next goal is to get with a Grill and tell you about that. Because muh new job is a Loser Job, it will prob not be an Attractive Grill, and thus I will complain about how godawful the Grill is, but you gotta do it, like EATING YOUR VEGGIES when you’re a kid and refuse to eat those goddam brussel sprouts.

anyway the whole job process only took 8 or 9 days, from first application to final hire.


nov 21 thurs

ok sent in muh “resignation” email yesterday afternoon with the plan to talk to the 2 people this monring. Must have said 100 Hail Marys while walking up. I can say 4 or 5 Hail Marys while doing a #1 in the bathroom. And went ahead and talked to both of those people and handled it pretty darn well if i do say so muhself, not to toot muh own horn. TOOT TOOT!

So I wrote a real nice and sympathetic letter saying sorry for making you have to find a new person, etc etc

 and the people were very nice when i talked to them in person. because they are very nice people THANK GOD! it has only been recently that somewhat external forces have been making the workplace a bit more stressful, and harder for people to be their nice selves, unfortunately.

*PROTIP: Say you would like to continue working there like once a month. Just to keep your hand in, not Burn Bridges. Might not be possible but won’t hurt to ASK.

* Also, if you haven’t gotten references from at least three people there, I mean Real LETTERS of reference you can save on your Drive and use FOREVER, DO IT NOW, you can always use that 1-2 years from now when you are trying to get out of your next job. YOU CAN NEVER HAVE TOO MANY LETTERS OF REFERENCE. MAGIC BULLET.

Anyway I fully intend to keep this blog going, I GOT to, because this is just the first step on a path. I still have a real bad attitude and see All Of Life as one big Many Headed HYDRA, with many Godawful Heads: Women, Jobs, Careers, College, College Career Cult, Internships, Marriage, Money, Debt, Cancer, Getting Older, Cars, Responsibilities, Trash Culture, Culture of Disposeability, Neetness, 30 Year Old Virgins, The Man Behind The Curtain, Boot Stamping On Your Face Forever, shall I go on, foreclosures, bankruptcy, gambling, drugs, alcohol, The Mainstream Media, Marxism, Young vs Old,  hahahahahahahaha.

So it’s a bretty weak argument for quitting the blog, because I am nowhere near being a Winner by ANY means. I just got a little good luck, and I want to keep it going. I suppose I won’t be an OFFICIAL winner until I have a Decent Career Job that is Stable and that is somewhat impressive to Intelligent MastersDegreeFags. And why do I need THEIR approval? Because their bullsh1t masters degree means they’re INTELLIGENT? Or their combination of the Masters Degree AND the commensurate good intelligent Career JOb they have, makes them a Winner, and I need the approval of Winners to BE a Winner????

At the same time, there are PLENTY of people who are Successful Impressive Career Job Winners with Masters Degrees who Aren’t “F4gs.” Heh. I don’t have a problem with say people who are 43 years old. 43 Might be my Favorite age for a Man. But I don’t like the people MY age because they are just starting to hit Mid Career Success, get married, have babies, really establish roots in their Succesful Grown Up Life, whereas I haven’t even STARTED this life yet. And I Gawk at 18 year old girls and say “OH YEAH. THAT’D BE FINE. YEP. OH YEAH.” I saw a 19 or 20 year old girl with short punky dykey hair, very nice pale skin, and ridiculously tight red pants that made her bulbous a55 look like a Tomato, they were so tight I’m not sure if they were tight pants or “leggings”, but that absolutely KILLED me. I wanted her to SOMF ALL DAY.

Yet being Way Older, AND a huge loser, I have no grounds to approach her. Meanwhile I saw some young men, no older than 19 or so, wearing Marines uniforms, no doubt On Leave for Thanksgiving, and was a little bit jealous, because they could easily pull Those Young Girls I have such Raging Lust for but can never have. Come on. Just one hour of Face Sitting would be just fine. And I thought Damn, I shoulda joined the Marines when I was their age, instead of becoming a Fat Old Loser who makes no more money than a 20 year old College Dropout.

Automatic Negative Thoughts! Very Destructive! Just Say No!

BUt that reminds me, here is one of my all time favourite Kids In the Hall Sketches:

Sweet Baby Jesus, they just don’t MAKE them like that anymore.

*Protip: watching that sketch WILL make you laff and put you in a better mood. Guaranteed. Use Liberally! Most Kids in the Hall is hilarious but this is best of the best right here. Wish I could figure out what that song is, cuz it SO belongs on a Commuting to Work Mix CD.

OK that’s all the old stuff for now. take care and show some appreciation for the loved ones in your life by buying them crimmus gifts. we have reached that age where it is ok to buy your male friends a chrimmus gift, as just a way of saying thank you, i appreciate you. again with my privilege!

And if you don’t have any friends, go to a Nerds Chrimmus Party and bring a whole bunch of beer and booze and snacks and food and get a few notecards with some stock Icebreakers and you WILL make new friends: Did ya do anything fun this weekend? Do you have any borthers or sisters? do you have any pets? any kids? How did you get into your job? How do you like your job? What’s your favorite tv show? what’s your favorite vidya game? have you traveled anywhere interesting? just don’t try to talk about politics or religion or race or judge people for dropping out of school. because school sucks, you’re a loser if you DON’T drop out, hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.


sunday, setp 29 2013, 155pm, day off, lets have a LIVE POST here for the first time in a long time. 1000 words tops just like the good old days.

Don’t mean to be narcissistic, this is more like a person standing up and sharing at the Lazy Losers Anonymous meeting. You hope others can learn from your experiences, or maybe YOU can learn from your experiences by Talking about them.

got the #BreakingBadMarathon going on here, 7 hours till the series finale, I’ll actually stay up late and watch the Talking Bad too. I think even if Walt Lives, Gilligan and Co will find a way to punish him, like he’s got nothing to live for: his family will die, or they won’t accept his money, etc, he’ll be doomed to wander the earth alone. or get arrested and die of cancer in prison alone. or shanked in prison. or shot to death 1000000 times by police, dea, nazis, AND his family all getting shots in. OR he dies AND they all die in a final shootout with him and his huge gun. any of those would be ok. just be sad to see prob The Best TV show Ever come to an end, they could have EASILY done one more season. Pretty exciting to be experiencing TV history, hehehehe.

But the point is, you should be experiencing some exciting history for yourself. One of my favorite bloggers sez, don’t get stuck in a Boring Life, go move to an Exciting City, so you can be around Energetic Exciting Young People, have an exciting social life and romantic life, maybe find a nice wife even.  (not that I recommend Legal Marriage, although I do support Monogamous Partnership and Having Lots of Children.)

Still thinking about my Love Vs Lust thing, and how the best Love is build from a foundation of Lust. Like you see the 18YOQT and IMMEDIATELY think HNNNNGGGGG!!!! I’d LOVE to have HER Sit On Muh Face ALL DAY! as opposed to, well, she’s a nice girl, and not even ugly, but I really DON’T want her to SOMF. That’s the struggle. If you get along with a Nice, Decent Woman, but you don’t have LUST for her, then why the hell SHOULDN’T you “cut your losses” and have Kids with her? ANd I do not have an answer for this.

Of course it is real hard to have children if you’re not making enough money!

Of course the solution is Multi-family, multi-generational, extended family houses. And I certainly don’t have a problem with THAT!

Is it more worthwhile to do something FUN, or to SLEEP, noting of course that sleep is INHERENTLY fun.

Like I was debating whether to NAP right NOW, or to watch #BreakingBadMarathon and do a little writing. Because I was having a kinda grim day and knew some writing might turn the ship around. So here I am.

How To Not Blow Off Your Friends

Well, I guess let them know the Price of Admission for You is that you never call, so they have to do all the calling, hahahahaha.

But Ideally you would push yourself to do a little MORE calling, and break your Bad Habit and replace it with a Good Habit.

Also let them know you are a Planner, and don’t mind planning something even a Week in Advance, rather than waiting till a couple days before a day and Seeing How You Both Feel.

Heh. I remember I was Courting A Grill and she refused to make plans with me because it wasn’t SPONTANEOUS enough. Heh. There were a couple Grills I Liked where it was a Bad Idea, a Bad Choice on my part. I should have told her to S my D right then and there, is that spontaneous enough. But I was desperate and In Love.

Anyway it’s perfectly ok to not like being spontaneous. It’s ok to think spontaneous sucks. And to want to make Solid Plans a week in advance. So what if you’re not in a Good Mood by the time the Day comes around. Put on your Damn Happy Face and try to enjoy the time with your Friend. do something nice for them like buy them dinner. Then neither of you will know or care that you’re in a bad mood. Unless you try to bring them down with your bad mood. Don’t do that!

And just go out for an hour or two, you don’t have to stay out partying all night, you can still be in bed by 9 or 10 o clock.

To get yourself to do Errands Better, force yourself to go to stores that are directly on the way to or from Underwork. For example, I stopped at the Supermarket Directly on the way home from Underwork, rather than go to my USUAL Supermarket, which is the complete opposite direction from Underwork. Even though this New Supermarket is a little more expensive. I considered that a “convenience charge” for being right on the way, and for getting me to actually Get The Errand Done.

* Buy a Big Bag of CANDY for yourself once in a while. something bite sized. Little chocolates or caramels or I myself am partial to Starbursts or Butterfingers or Nerds or Mike and Ike or Jolly Ranchers or Now and Later or Mambas or Sour Patch Kids

English: College student studies while eating ...
English: College student studies while eating Sour Patch Kids sour candies (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

or Skittles.  Something like that. I say, Start Out With Starbursts.

Obviously don’t do this ALL THE TIME because you will get FAT and also all your TEETH will fall out from the godawful sugar and HFCS, which is HORRIBLE for you. I’m talking more like a few little candies to help you celebrate on your Day Off, not stuffing your face with candy and ice cream all day every day. Like on Saturday Night or something, when you would REALLY like to have an 18YOQT SOYF or even just go on a Romantic Date with some Making Out and Cuddling, but you’re too old, loser, and omega to pull an 18YOQT to make you go HNNNGGG. Then on a day like that, watch your movie and eat a little candy. or take yourself out the movie theatre like I said in a previous post and really spend some money on yourself, getting soda and popcorn.

* The American Education System is Designed to KILL a child’s Intellectual Curiosity, to make them Hate Learning and Hate Skool, and fail at skool, and become losers who just want to smoke weed and play vidya and eat junk food all day, and become welfare parasites, or unemployable or underemployed losers with no power of any kind. And this Curiosity-Killing doesn’t stop with High School! College is Just As Bad!

* So use Youtube and Problem Solving Books as opposed to reading your godawful textbooks or listening to your godawful instructors. Get the Powerful STEM degree, checking eveyr month on JObs Numbers and Employability of Majors, so you can switch to a More POwerful STEM degree if necessary.  If you don’t want to think about this too much, Electrical Engin + Math Double major should get you a good Lower Middle Class Job and Wife.

* So you see an 18YOQT at College or Church and think, god damn, that would have made ALL the difference in the world, to have an 18yoqt to cuddle and SOMF, then I would have been the world’s best student in the world’s usefullest degree, and gotten the best lower middle class job ever, and maybe eventually have married one of those 18yoqts when I was 23 and On Top Of The World.

And MAYBE that’s accurate. I cannot deny the power of a man’s lust for 18yoqt’s! Damn, I still get those thoughts whenever I see an 18yoqt and I go HNNNGG and want them to SOMF! I think how good would THAT be, I would put up with a LOT to have some of THAT, I would pay a LOT of dues.

So yeah. A Man’s Lust for 18yoqts is a very, very powerful Force of Nature. It’s no surprise that Real ETernal Monogamous love can be built on top of that, or successful careers, etc.

But if you DON’T have that, and of course you don’t, none of us omega losers has anything close to that, we pull SIngle Mom SeaCows or more likely nothing at all, because we don’t LIKE single mom seacows, we like 18yoqts, but we’re too omega and old and fat and loser to pull 18yoqts! vicious circle!

SO my response to that is, uhh go volunteer at the soup kitchen to see some people who really have it bad, and get your sleep, take it one day at a time, talk to a college counselor and tell them, listen, I just want something to get me an upper working class fulltime job as quickly as possible because I HATE SCHOOL, don’t eat too much wheat or corn syrup or corn or soybeans or processed food or fast food or carbs, get your omega 3’s, get a light box or get some sun, get some exercise, get 30 mins of exercise a day, even if it’s “just” a brisk walk, a brisk walk is better than sitting around watching tv , don’t watch too much tv, if you HAVE to watch tv, make sure it’s something GOOD like breaking bad or jeopardy, turn the sound off on the unholy commercials, give thanks to the lord, thank god if you have a decent family, beg god for strength and help and a miracle, move to a safe City like Pittsburgh or Fargo or Boise or Eugene and get the cheapest place you can and finally get some 18YOQT action, well, maybe more like 25YO semi-QT action, but that’s GOOD ENOUGH, try some apple cider vinegar, don’t deny your animal instincts, but don’t be a nihilistic decadent hedonist either, eat a little bit of candy once in a while, get some delicious comfort food for lunch/dinner once in a while, but realize it will be 900000000 times easier to pull 25 yo qt’s if you’re NOT FAT, Schedule something A Week In Advance with Old Friends and then buy them dinner to show you appreciate them, I guess maybe try a damn Temp Agency because anecdotale evidence proves they can get you jobs at good companies and some of those jobs can turn into full time things (not sure if the temp agency would still take their 30% Cut or whatever at THAT time), set up spreadsheets and use numbers to quantify your Moodz over the days, quantify what you feeeeeel before and after doing Godawful Chores and Errands, Do as many errands on your route directly to and/or from Work as possible, try to find an Enjoyable Way to Get Out In The World With People, try to find a way to Enjoy and have fun with people, I know that sounds mind-boggling, because people are annoying and you enjoy yourself the most when those annoying d!ckheads are NOT around, but I guess the point there is to find people that are fun to hang out with, because the Healthy Human does need that, think of a time in your life when you WERE more social (checking muh privilege because I appreciate than many of you NEVER had that!), spritz lysol in the crotch of your pants, use to buy shoes as well as all sorts of other clothes from the comfort of home, good selection at decent prices, I really am quite impressed, and very well may take the plunge very soon, maybe save up and spend a little extra on GOOD shoes that will actually LAST a long time, rather than cheap pieces of chinese crap that fall apart in 1 year, don’t hate yourself if you’re a little racist once in a while, it’s natural and healthy for humans to be a little racist, it’s GOOD not bad like the godawful unholy tv sez, don’t watch too much tv, hell don’t watch ANY tv, perpare a personal Budget, look into Financial Investments like gold or land or oil, try your hand at farming and grow your own food and cook it and eat it and know that you literally made that from the ground up, all right, take care of yourselves and I will be back in a few days.


mon 8 12 13, 947am. well back on the morning schedule. get up at 5 am, get in at 7 am, this always takes some getting used to. took muh medz in the morn. tried to drink more water than coffee. bretty tired atm and looking forward to nap, hahaha. really slept quite poor last night, watching muh breaking bad, tossing and turning, worrying and thinking. YEP would have PREFERRED not to see that girl, or at least not heard all that news of her Raging Success in Life, Work, Skool, etc. That SUCKED. Bigtime.

Handled the actual event pretty well, but afterwards, god almighty, it has been worse than expected. much, much worse. will easily take a full week to bounce back, if not longer. i hope and pray I never have to see her again. absolutely harrowing. heh. like cancer coming back.

tuesday. little better, day by day. 5 am is tricky. ideally go to bed at 8 pm.

wednes. little better. way more than 1% better per day. Maybe 5%, hahaha. not bad. watch spongebob one hour per day.

use a firefox plugin called LEECHBLOCK to block/lockdown wordpress, twitter,, 4chan. finally got me working on muh project. hit hard by learning curve on project. very frustrating, leads to procrastinating. try not to.

friendzone is like CANCER. When you have True Love, it REALLY IS TRUE LUV. Just Say NO to frienzone. AND, when the true luv is rejected/doesn’t work, you have to treat it as the PERSON DYING and have the associated expected PERIOD OF MOURNING. Someone has DIED, so you MOURN. They are GONE and can NEVER come back. Your Love has DIED and you must NEVER see them again. Otherwise you’re in the Soul Cancer of the Friendzone. You gotta expect a few Hard Months of MOURNING A DEATH, in other words. NOT easy. VERY hard to focus on your daily work.

* Mix Up your resume Maybe, if the current one’s not working. Have a Greatest Hits of Bullet Points, with the Most impressive at the top, then in descending order, even if it’s not chronological per se. Like if you most impressive achievement was 10 years ago and then you sh4t the bed and it was all downhill after college, hahahahahaha.

* If your shy-but-Nice Coworker came up to you and asked you to please think about writing a Letter of Reference for them, I bet you would be FLATTERED and would be VERY HAPPY to do it for them! And you’d say, well, I don’t do this all the time, so I’ll just write something short and sweet and FEEL FREE to edit the wording a little bit, but you’re GOD DAM RIGHT I would be THRILLED to write a letter for you!

Well that’s the attitude you need to assume of OTHERS writing the letter for YOU, that THEY would be GOD DAMN THRILLED to write YOU a letter.

You imagine people are going to treat you so harsh – but when have YOU ever treated someone ELSE that harsh? Hardly ever! How would YOU react if someone were asking YOU to do something for THEM? You’d be HAPPY to help! So start imagining other people as HAPPY to help YOU, because this is closer to the truth than them brutally shutting you down! (Unless it’s a Grill you’re in True Love with, hahahaha. But that’s different. Here we’re talking about Professional, Education, Career, Work, Job sort of stuff, NOT True Love.)

Homework: Imagine your Coworker, who has basically the same job as you, has jsut asked you to write a letter for them, because they’re trying to move up in the world to an Upper Working Class Entry Level Full Time $9 an hour job. Write the short and sweet letter. And when it’s done, finally realize that you’ve basically written that letter for yourself.

Then give that letter to someone YOU want to write a letter for you, and be like, see, I’ve already started it off for you. Write something like that about me in your own words. Then put it in your Permanent Folder.

* If you have to get up early and so you naturally, understandably drink a Large Coffee early in the morning, then WAIT AT LEAST TWO HOURS before starting your next coffee, or else you will get jittery and nervous and angry AND feel like you have to diarrhea your pants the whole time. Wait THREE hours. You already HAD a good dose of caffeine. The reason you’re still Tired is because you got up ungodly early for WORK and probably didn’t get enough SLEEP and you NEED a LOT of sleep normally. Drink WATER instead. And I hope you are still Chugging a Huge glass of water the INSTANT you wake up in the morning. That helps too.

* For some reason, and it doesn’t make much sense, Negative Things can be much more powerful than positive things. We can MAGNIFY the negative things, even though we have by all accounts a GREAT LIFE, but one little thing wrong can ruin our lives. I call this the Anti-Resilience Gene. You’d think that To Survive, we would be the opposite way, have negative stuff roll off like water off a duck’s back, and magnify the positive. What Evolutionary Adaptive Value, in other words, does Magnifying every little negative thing have?

I don’t know. It don’t make no sense. And each person is different. Some Normalfags and Neverdepresseds CAN have negative stuff roll off. But not you or me! So the Life Lesson here, is to go out of your way to avoid negative things, heh heh. Well, more specifically, avoid Negative Movies, Music, Entertainment, Media, News, and People. Block it all out and just watch Spongebob. Don’t read about people dying alone in gutters, unemployable virgin losers; just watch spongebob.

I’m talking about NEGATIVE INFLUENCES. If something starts becoming a negative influence, like watching the Horrible News, or a Woman Who Rejects You, then REMOVE THE NEGATIVE INFLUENCE from your life. People, Places, and Things, hahahaha.

So what if Necessary, Mandatory Responsibilities like SKOOL and WERK and “CAREER” become Negative Influences?

If it’s SKOOL, that’s easy. Take A Break From Skool, because it’s not really Mandatory like WERK.

At work, just put on your smiley face and make everyone like you by buying them Pizza and Snacks semiregularly and kissing 4ss and being Nice and Friendly to everyone. Being Nice and Friendly isn’t a BAD thing anyhow!


Grateful Dead, “Cold Rain and Snow”, 1972.

Been listening to a similar 1972 CR&S, ie, it opens right up with equal parts force and chillness. Jumps right into that head nodding beat, while being altogether slower and…chiller than earlier, faster versions of the song.  Enables you to start your day LIKE A BOSS. Vocal harmonies are laughably cringeworthy as is often the case, but THE DEAD always gets an A for effort in that department.  Great song to get you started, going to WORK sort of song.

So “Successful” people WORK for AT LEAST 40 hours a week, and that’s the BARE MINIMUM, but you can still be a LOSER if you work ONLY 40 hours a week and then go to the BAR or hang out with your BUDDIES like a LOSER. NO, after you work your mandatory 40 hours, you HAVE to SHOW “AMBITION” by spending all your free time on SKOOL or MOAR WERK to ADVANCE YOUR CAREER, or else your Wife or Gurlfran will nag you, cheat on you, leave you, get real nasty. Heh heh heh. So 40 hours a week isn’t enough, you have to be a WORKAHOLIC.

Of course I reject this whole attitude! But do I have a better one?

Yeah it’s called just trying to get through one day at a time and to do your own bare minimum, even if that is less than 12 hours of work per day.  Even if you can “barely manage” 8, and then you feel all guilty and lazy about that. WHATEVER. Not like you got a NAG NAGGING you at home. Or at least I hope you don’t.

Again, my big magic bullet for being more productive sometimes, and at LEAST LOOKING a lot more productive, is to do my Homework Outside of the Home, so then it looks like you’re not just sitting in bed watching TV all day, hahahaha. Do your Homework at the Library, College, Office, or Cafe. And you WILL be noticeably more productive too, I guarantee it.

Baby Steps!

For example, one of my Pet Peeves about Part-Time Underemployment (other than the OBVIOUS) is that they very often, if not always, schedule you for less-than-8-hour-shifts. Like a 4 or 5 hour shift. For me it is REAL challenging to Switch Horses In Midstream – to go from Work to doing the Mandatory Minimum 4 hours of something Else Productive after that time. Especially if that something else is Homework or Unpaid Work. 8 hours of Paid work is obviously the Ideal. The Endgame. The Destination Career, hahaha.

It’s brilliant on the part of The Employing Plutocrats, hahaha. You’ll notice more and more jobs are Part Time now. Because I guess it costs less to have 2 part time people than 1 full time person, unless you have an Elite Job like Doctor, Lawyer, or STEMgineer, or Middle Middle Class Masters Degree Job. (and THAT your Wife can’t nag you too much about!)

So uh I guess my solution there is, do the best you can, don’t kill yourself, try to have a couple days a week where you go to the Cafe for 2 or 3 hours and Be Productive immediately before or after underwork, and don’t compare yourself to The Successful People Your Age. Goddam Normalfag Neverdepressed Successfuls, hahahaha.

And be GRATEFUL you don’t have a NAG Wife! That Grill you were in True Love with and wanted to Marry? She would been a NAG Wife, NAGGING you that you’re not AMBITIOUS or SUCCESSFUL enough, and you don’t need that. NOBODY needs that.

how ya like all those TAGS today, hahaha.

A “Great” Negative thought I had recently was: “It’s easier to BEAT CANCER than It is to Become Successful In Life, to become a Winner.”

“How true is that? And so what if it’s true?”

“This comparison is not doing anyone any favors. Talk about Apples and Oranges. That ridiculous comparison is DESIGNED to put Yourself in a Bad Mood!”

So just be grateful for your Family, Thank God You have a Good Family, thank god you DON’T have cancer, thank god you’re not blind or deaf or deformed. And if you DO have a Bad Family or are blind or deformed……then you have my sympathy because you have one HELL of an uphill battle. DEFINITELY find the cheapest shrink you can, go regularly, and take the cheapest Resilience Meds you can. Unless you are Successful enough to have a good enough job to pay for more than the cheapest shrink and the cheapest meds.



aug 9

“i want an easy low stress job where i dont have to work very hard”

WOW GREAT search query. I get the best, you can see. Yep I want that job too! I will also take a high-stress job where I get paid a lot, but don’t have to work very hard to GET hired, and could not easily get fired for underperforming.

So the idea is, whenever you get a negative thought, to challenge it, somehow, someway. for example:

“I will always be a huge loser, I will never get a good job”.  then you say, “what’s my proof of that? do i have a crystal ball where I can see with 100% certainty what will happen in the future.”

“No, but past behavior is a Robust Predictor of Future Behavior.”

“But Behaviour can be changed, no?”

“Sure, but the Odds are Against it!”

“But I can beat the odds!”

“That’s what gambling addicts say.”

“But I’m not really BETTING anything. Yeah. Suck on that, faggot!”

Of course you should probably not be calling yourself a faggot. But yeah, you can see how you have ARGUMENTS with YOURSELF, and you often get really Argumentative trying to PROVE to yourself what a huge hopeless loser you are!

Imagine if you could use that argumentative power to argue in your favor! To be your own best friend instead of your own worst enemy!

“But muh depression and low self-esteem makes perfect sense logically! There’s a reason they call it depressive realism! Because we see REALITY more clearly!”

Then I say, in this one case, it’s more HEALTHY to be DELUDED and NOT see reality.


heh haven’t had a picture in a long time.

So isn’t it interesting you may have developed great skill in arguing AGAINST any arguments in your favor? Good at arguing at WHY you’re such a huge loser? That can’t be good!

So I like what Omar Depression Hero sez: if you can’t come up with a convincing argument, then just say SOMETHING, ANYTHING positive, like “Thank God I can walk” is one he suggests. Thank God I don’t have CANCER. that kind of thing.

Because we are real good experts at coming up with EXCUSES at why we are huge losers.

OK. Hating Skool. WHY do you hate skool. How can we get you to stop hating skool. Whoa easy there, one question at a time. WHY do you hate skool?

Because it’s too expensive. Yes it IS too expensive. Ideally we would get Free College like they do in Sweden, although Sweden’s got its own set of problems I would not want either. So you can minimize the costs by doing at least half of your credits at Community College.

Because it doesn’t guarantee you an upper working class job. Nope it doesn’t, but you can do other things that WILL GUARANTEE yourself an UWC job, namely: 1. networking 2. extracurriculars. You do enough of those things and I GUARANTEE you will get an ok UWC job, if not a LMC job!

College is simply the “necessary but not sufficient” portion of that.

Because it’s hard as f00k when you’re at least 10 years older than the students. they are all full of energy, normalfag neverdepresseds, they get with “age appropriate” wimmin, aka prime of youth women, they are YOUNG, you wish you were 10 years younger, you’re a huge loser and you blew all the chances you had when you were their age.  you wish you were young again. you envy them for their youth.

Yeah this is an honestly rough and tough one! You have a right to be upset because there’s no easy fix to that one!

Some workarounds include: just AVOID the youngsters maybe. take as many online classes as possible. or how about this: sit in the VERY FIRST ROW, RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE INSTRUCTOR. That way you don’t have to LOOK at all the young kids who will advance in their careers faster.

And build a Support System of Counselors, Advisors, and Instructors. Talk to your instructor after class, make them remember you. Tell them your story. Beg them for help. Put your trust in them. Tell them you’ve been Struggling to get thru College it seems your entire life. You just want a Good Office Job so you can get married and have a family someday.

You hate college because the classes are hard as f00k. For a 4 credit class, that is like 4/130 of the way towards a degree, you have to be in class 8 hours a week, AND ALSO study/do HW at least 10 hours a week, for ONE class, AND you’ll have to pay like $4000, you could buy a CAR for that, and it’s only getting you 3% of the way towards A Degree, a Degree which doesn’t guarantee anything, see above.

So do the bare minimum to get a B+ in your classes, and siphon off some of that extra effort into schmoozing with the professor, and into doing extracurriculars, unless you’re trying to get into Ivy League Graduate School, then just be a huge overachiever workaholic on everything.

If you can’t Marry your One True Love, then the next best thing is just to have Decadent Nonmonogamous Sex with a String of 18 year old QTs.  Who knows, you might fall in love with one of them.

Listen to the Jazz Radio Station on a regular basis.

Do like Omar sez and drink a huge glass of water the SECOND you wake up. have it sitting right next to your bed, then CHUG the whole thing. Because you’ve been asleep for hours and so you WILL be dehydrated.

If you are age 30 or older, you are finally entitled to grow a Mustache if you want. but not a second before age 30.

Pray the ROSARY every day. That’s like 50 Hail Marys, 5 or 6 our fathers, it’s kind of a big deal, will take you about 45 minutes. Of straight up praying. every day. It couldn’t HURT!

Do Something That SCARES you Every Day. Conquer One Fear A Day. Get Used to Facing Your Fears rather than running away from them. Whether it’s approaching women, approaching your professors, networking with people, talking to people.

You can prepare a script for talking to your professors: Hi My Name Is Lazy Loser and I wanted to ask you about this Extra Credit Problem. BTW I’m Really Interested in your Research. Can you explain why you think Rabinowitz 2004 is only partially correct in his hypothesis? or I read your 2013 article in Indian Journal of Particle Physics where you say bla bla bla. Where do you think the research is going regarding this? What were your Undergrad years like? How did you get into Graduate School? Do you have any Networking Tips for a Shy Student? Were you ever shy? How did you Defeat it? (No, being SHY is not BAD.) How did you meet your Wife? What advice would you give to your Children who are Starting College? What advice would you give to someone who made 10 years of mistakes? What advice would you give to someone like me who has struggled with college for the past 20 years? Will you be my Mentor? Can I meet with you once a month? Can you write me a letter of recommendation for Jobs? For Grad Skool? For Life? Would you like to go to lunch sometime? Dinner? Get a DRINK? I’d like to hear your Life Story. Oh you think I’m CREEPY? What are you, a 22 year old GIRL? I thought you were a Masculine Scientist with a PhD! I’m a supposed CREEPER and I’m more Mature than You, Loser!

That kind of stuff. It will get easier the more you do it. Hopefully.

Don’t be a Niceguy to Women. Heck, be an 4sshole to Women, you’ll have more success with them. You will get more experience having S with Actually Attractive Women, you will become an Alpha Male, and Pretty Young QTs will distract you less from establishing your Career and Making Money. Because Money is More Important than Women. Women get old, ugly, and crazy, Money never does. heh. Plus the more money you have, the more young women you can pull. And if you can’t Marry your Perfect One True Love, then you might as well Bang a Neverending Series of Beautiful young 18 year old gurls.

Yes being somewhat facetious there hahaha.

Don’t ever buy White T-Shirts, buy Grey and Black T-Shirts. The white t-shirts lose their whiteness after like 2 washes. what a waste. Talking about when you actually have the energy to go out and buy clothes, which is not often.

If some girl is totally in love with you, but you are not in love with her because she’s not that Attractive to you, well don’t be a bastard, don’t sow Bad Karma, don’t put her in the Girl Friendzone, just be like Sorry Babe, we have to do No Contact. Believe me, it’s the best and only way, and I KNOW.

All right. Take care of yourselves and don’t report me!



sun july 14 2013

wow. just forced myself to write a new cover letter from scratch. The posting had Three “Desired Qualifications”, ie, things that will make you Seriously Callbackable, so I addressed each one of those specifically. THEN said I bring a certain je ne sais qua because I am that awesome. I am the most perfect candidate for the job over all the MIT gradz. Who, obviously, are too good for this job.

* but the main thing I wanted to write about today was a DREAM I had about the most recent Girl, Girl 7. I had my Official Rejection from Girl 7 in early October 2012, and swore it would take No Less Than Nine Months to Get Over Her. Well, that was just about right. Although maybe a YEAR would be even better. I certainly haven’t developed FEEEEEELINGS towards any other women, well, other than than HNNNNGGGGGG feeling I occasionally get for Young Prime Of Youth Girls!

In the dream I was meeting her out of the blue, a surprise chance meeting somewhere public. I tried to be pleasant and polite and charming and alpha, but I was still In Luv with her, still Butthurt about being rejected, trying not to show it. Adding to the Butthurt was that she was much more Successful than I. Now in real life, this is the case. She was a motivated, engaged, high-achieving student in a program that guarantees a Good Job for at least the Top 20% of Achievers in that program, which she certainly was. Good Lower Middle Class job at the Bachelors Degree Level. (Health Care field, won’t say more than that!) She was young, she clearly did everything right, and thus she reaped what she sowed. Got what she deserved. A Good Job immediately after doing Well and working hard in a Useful Degree.

So that adds to My Butthurt. That she was str8 up the kind of Hard Working Person and Good Student I always wanted to be, but I hate skool too much to do so. Plus I feeeeel way too old.  Anyway when I was her age and in skool I hated skool too much, then starting smoking too much w33d, not Overachieving, and performance slipping, hating everything. I didn’t just want HER, but I wanted her Healthy Mind, where she didn’t hate skool, and she did the right thing re skool, and now has a nice little lower middle class life, job security, making decent money at a young age, good stable respectable job right out of college, might go back for masters degree later, but doesn’t even really HAVE to!

The dream I pretty much already explained. I met her randomly, we talked, I was immediately feeling butthurt, and trying and failing to hide it, being all omega about her winning in life, me losing in life, and her rejecting me.

THANKFULLY that was about it, nothing extreme, no her getting Gangbanged in front of me. Dream ended pretty quickly. I USED to have TONS of VERY vivid dreams, even just like a year ago; now, hardly anything.

The point is, No Contact is Necessary. If I WERE to Real Life See Her again, that would be Ripping Open a Gaping Wound and the past 9 months would be Flushed Down The Crapper. Because when True Luv is THAT Real, it isn’t some fleeting thing that goes away in a few weeks or a few months. It’s FO LIFE. That’s when you KNOW it’s REAL. Thus, I must keep No Contact with her, FO LIFE.

Normalfags think this is creepy, omega, weird, obsessive, stalkery, scary, whatever. This Is What I Think True Love Is. You Go Literally CRAZY for the person. It is stronger than ANYTHING you’ve ever felt before. The idea of MARRYING them sounds GOOD. CRAZY In Luv.

So her, I totally wanted to Monogamously Date. Started as Infatuation, then the Infatuation LASTED months and months and months as I got to know her better. My mistake of course was obviously Taking Too Long, but I had an ok reason for that, which I won’t mention here. As soon as that reason disappeared, I more blatantly tried to Escalate, because I had already waited too long and couldn’t take it anymore, and needed some kind of answer, and boy did I get it!

Heh. At least I didn’t get FRIENDZONED, hahahaha.

TLDR: that dream sucked because it brought her back up after many months, but it didn’t suck as bad as it could have, and usually dreams only affect you only one day after you have them, so things will be fine starting tomorrow.

But yeah you know you were in LOVE with somebody when you have a DREAM about them 9 months after not seeing them. So continue not seeing them. No Contact is simply The Best Thing There Is. God Damn, I would be an even BIGGER loser if I were not in No Contact with her. Could you imagine. Me looking at her FACEBOOK for the next 10 YEARS, watching her Update her Career and her Relationships! I have a Fake Facebook that I use just to Log In to facebook, and I would use it just to look at her profile picture regularly; she was smart enough not to make anything else public. I couldn’t even imagine being REALLY on Facebook and having her as my Friend where I could actually SEE all those soul-crushing details!



* Also, if you can go to an ALL-MALE COLLEGE, DO IT. hahaha not too many of those. But you do NOT want to be DISTRACTED by the thought of WOMEN during your Make It Or Break It College Years. All it takes it One Wrong Woman and you will go CRAZY and flush your whole LIFE down the toilet, and you can’t even rightfully BLAME it on her, because it’s YOUR OWN fault to overreact so much…..but that doesn’t get your life back out of the toilet and your College Years Unruined!

* So they don’t have Tutors for the Hardest Classes, where you’d actually need the tutors the most. So whaddya do?

* BECOME STUDY BUDDIES WITH THE SMARTEST KID IN CLASS. Use HIM as your tutor. There’s always one kid who knows everything, has the highest grade, always answering questions, always studying, you know right away he’s gonna Succeed In Life. Real Good Work Ethic. So you GLOM ONTO HIM. Be like Hey Buddy Can I Go With You To The Library and we can study, No Homo? There you can do homework and study for tests and learn from him, emulate his habits, ask him questions about what led him to this point and what he’s gonna do in the future, and you can become his clone. More on that later. GREAT Idea. It doesn’t matter that there’s no tutor, you can Make Your Own Tutor with Smart Study Buddy!


Because they’re not hatefully angry at everything all the time, and can actually accomplish things in life.

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july 1 monday 2013

[reel fast movie review, skip if desired cuz doesn’t really Fit The Mission of this Blog:
Kanal By Andrzej Wajda. Uhhh 6.5/10. Started off good, got a little slow towards the end, not as gay and boring as you’d think a movie from 1957 would be hahahaha. deals with the warsaw uprising of 1944. I prepped myself by watching the extras FIRST, then the actual movie. extras were good, a 27 minute thing on the making of, this was a 2003 interview with Wajda, his asst director on the film, and a Famous Polish Film Scholar. Second was a 27 minute interview of Wajda talking to some kind of Polish Ambassador in 2004 who was involved with the uprising. to put it in context. The Old Guy’s opinion was that the Warsaw Uprising slowed both the Germans and the Russians and somehow kept the Russian Army from taking ALL of Berlin and not just East Berlin. Not sure how. Kinda confusing. But the bottom line of Recent Polish History is that Poland was taking it up the A55 from BOTH sides, Germany to the West and Russia to the East, and Poland probably got screwed worse than any other country in WW2. Anyway. Warsaw Uprising is the Polish Home Army “militarily” fighting the Germans trying to occupy Warsaw, but “politically” also fighting the Russians, who were right at the doorstep. The vistula River. Russians coulda jumped in and saved the day, saved the Poles from getting murdered by the Germans, but the Russians preferred to just sit there and “bleed the poles to death.” NOT sure if there was still a Russian-German Nonaggression Pact in 1944 like there was earlier in the war.]

kids taking calc 2 or 3 over the summer. sweet baby jesus. I hate them because I envy them, that they can do this without RAGING out. One of the TOP Things I Hate right now is Good Students. I Hate People Who Don’t HATE Everything like I do. I hate Students who can diligently do their 10 hours of Hard Math HW a day during the 1/6 of the year it’s actually NICE outside, because they’re Good Students with a Good Work Ethic, and I Hate them because I Envy Them for their Good Attitude and Work Ethic which I don’t have but I wish I had, so I hate them…well, I don’t really hate THEM, I ENVY them, and I hate that I am not like them.


* Heh. WHAT WOULD IT TAKE for me to Productively, Chillly do Calc 5 and Orgo 6 over the summer…..think about it…..yes a Nice Radiant QT Prime Of Youth 19 Year Old College Gurlfran to Make Out With after doing Stupid Problems for 10 hours a day, to be cute and 19 years old and say Oh Good For You, I knew you could do it, now let’s cuddle as I rub my 19 year old body over you and you exclusively, and next month we can slowly upgrade to the next level of intensity, because I’m a Nice Girl, I only do One Base Per Month, bla bla bla bla bla



I have determined that the best thing I can do regarding my HATE and ANGER towards SKOOL is to Beg For Mercy and Help from a College Counselor/Advisor. Make an appointment, show them my transcripts, say PLEASE can you HALP ME, I am really burning out here, what’s the quickest way for me to get an Upper Working Class 10$ an hour job already, I am sick of school, I need a little DIRECTION at least, can you PLEASE I BEG YOU give me a little direction, O GOD PLEASE HELP ME, I really HATE SKOOL at this point, but I’m SMART I SWEAR, just my lack of focus, work ethic, and my bad attitude and my hate and anger are really making it real HARD for me to use the good brain the lord gave me. Got the Brains, but the Feels get in the way. Got a lot of brains, but got a LOT of Feels too. TOO many feels. Oh Sweet Baby Jesus Hammercy On Me!

And maybe they can “connect the dots”, and say oh you’re real close to this this and this, so think about these 3 options, rather than the 9000000000 “options” out there right now.

*So, Brethren Losers, do yourself a favor and see your own College Counselor. Even if they ARE “Useless”, they can’t possibly be HURTFUL, especially if you’re at Rock Bottom right now as it is!









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* another thing that MIGHT help is Learning College Study / “Survival” Skills, like a Programmed Method for Taking Notes and Studying. Because you never really learned these things in high school, because high school was way easier, now college is way harder. well, not like psychology class, but like fooking organic chemisty and biochemistry and calculus and thermodynamics and statics and plastics and mechanics and stuff like that, where some psychotic 4sshole instructor shouldn’t have a job. Maybe take classes like these at the Community College if you can. Since those instructors don’t really Do Research, then Theoretically they need to be able To Teach. Theoretically. Although I can tell you a lot of them don’t know how to teach either. Anyway, there are tons of books on this type of stuff: “becoming a master student”, “how to study in college” by pauk, the Cornell Note Taking Method, the right vs the wrong way to do flashcards, etc.

So find the people who CAN help you (counselors maybe, tutors maybe) and talk to them and beg them for help because you’re at the end of your rope.

When they say maybe you should go to a shrink too, tell em YEAH YEAH, I’m going to a shrink, why don’t YOU go to a shrink, hahahahaha. No, they probably WON’T tell you to go to a shrink, and they DEF won’t tell you to K yourself like 4chan would. It’s their Masters Degree Lower Middle Class JOB to HELP YOU. And besides it’s paid for by the OBSCENELY GENOCIDALLY OVERPRICED TUITION. YOU are their BOSS. THEY are accountable to YOU, who pays their salary. MAKE THEM WORK FOR IT.

I guess don’t be super hostile to them, or super emo. Just gently let them know you’re Not In A Good Place right now, and you really need some Help Plox. And that aint no lie!

(I am trying to pump myself up to make an Appointment with a College Counselor, if you couldn’t tell)

And I would guess that it’s in These People’s Job Descriptions to be NICE. Nicer than some f4gg0t INSTRUCTOR I’m sure! Those Who Can’t DO, TEACH! (Unless they really WANT to Teach, then they may be good teachers I guess.) These Counselors Probably WANT to HELP you! Let them HELP you! Go to them and say, ” I’m kinda pretty much near the end of my rope here, I really need some Guidance. Help Me Determine My Next Step. ”

Anyway. Their Job is to Help You, so Make Them Do Their Job. I really HATED going to the Academic Counselor because I was STUBBORN and I was also SCARED. Don’t make the same mistake I did. I should have probably visited the counselor at least two times per semester. Got as MUCH outside help as I could, rather than as LITTLE.

* Being CONFUSED about where your LIFE is going is a BIG cause of ANGER. Maybe if you get a little HELP with this, you will be LESS ANGRY AND HATEFUL, and you already KNOW that will help you in all aspects of your life. Like LIFTING. or PRAYING. Less Anger/Hate will make you Better and Stronger and Smarter.

* Although if you follow My plan, you start the First Day of College with your Major Declared (Electrical, Mechanical, Computer, Biomedical, Chemical Engineering) and know what classes you’re gonna take and what profs you’re gonna stalk and what internships you’re gonna get, for every semester, and every summer, from day 1. THEN maybe you can get away with visiting the advisor once a semester, instead of once a MONTH, once a month would be ideal for lazy layabouts who don’t know what they’re doing and thus shouldn’t even be Away At College in the FIRST place.

* If you are Privileged Enough to be Away At A Big College, then Visit your Advisor once a month, every month, even if you think you don’t need to.

* Also, visit a Psychological Counselor / Shrink at least once a month, even if you don’t think you need to. Do it ANYWAY, to make sure you aren’t developing any bad habits, like anger or hatred or alcohol or drugs or laziness. It’s their job to keep you on track. To make you better and stronger. Heck if you don’t visit them now, you’ll just end up visiting them LATER, when you REALLY need it, once you’ve REALLY hit rock bottom, and you’re reading r9k and v9k and My Blog, and thinking about Ending It All because you’re a Huge Neet Loser Virgin who still wants to bang College Girls, but has even LESS of a chance now that you’re Creepy and Fat and Old. So Go On Spring Break like I said last post. The Ugliest of the Young Drunken State College girls will be hotter than the Average 35 year old Real World Bar Skanks With Kids. No Contest!

* Heh. Neet semi-wizards like us view Sex in a Very Big Picture Sense: Normalfags get sex. Women get sex. But we Beta, Omega, Wizard Virgins do NOT get Sex, or Cuddling, or Hugging, Or Handholding, Or GFs, or makeouts, or anything like that. So Women are essentially just Normalfags then. I know my Target Audience! I have good enough social skills to have S with a Drunk 5/10 Woman….BUT I HAVE IMPOSSIBLY HIGH STANDARDS, hahahaha. Besides, I HATE skool, careers, and normalfags too much to ever fully BE a normalfag. Normalfags don’t have this much HATE, and it’s ultimately my HATE that keeps me from Succeeding in Skool, Career, Women, and Life.

* So I suppose the goal is….. BECOME A NORMALFAG. A Happy, Healthy, Handholding, Gurlfran-having Normalfag, who is able to Set Skool and Career and Relship Goals and Reach Them without raging out or giving up.