WOMEN HAVE NO MORAL COMPASS AND ARE WIRED TO HATE OMEGA MEN

wed aug 9

so people used to drink like 1% alcohol beer because it was cleaner than water, the alcohol killed all the germs and viruses and bacteria and shit in the water, so it was actually safer to drink beer than water. and you stayed hydrated by drinking weak beer instead of water.

could you dump dirty water into beer and then the smallest amount of alcohol would kill all germs? i dont think it worked that way. like, you couldnt ADD shit. you could MAKE really watery beer and then THAT water would be ok.

whenever i read shit on /relships, im like, why are you even asking? just dump them. just dump them.

then i realize its because they actually CARE, they dont WANT to dump them, they want to save this relship, they are WILLING to MAKE AN EFFORT, they dont WANT to LOSE this person.

and it is painful when a person just wants to be DONE with you. they want to be done with you SO MUCH that they are ok with never talking to you or seeing you ever again. you might as well have DIED.

at least send your mom, or your BFF, or your new BF, or a Social Work Student, to be a messenger of the bad news and to say SORRY, I KNOW THIS SUCKS FOR YOU. or you can just send an email or text yourself which says that. sorry, i know this sucks for you, i dont mean to cause you this pain, but i cant do this anymore, i have to back out, sorry, the end.

how hard is it to send a TEXT saying THAT? it takes LESS THAN ONE MINUTE. to throw away a person without even taking LESS THAN ONE MINUTE to say something to them is just ridiculous hahaha. i would NEVER do it to anyone.

now i am on the outs with people but its completely different situation. like for an incorrigible addict who has been given countless chances by everyone in their life. that’s not what was happening with me and that woman. i felt i wasnt even being given ONE chance to Air The Grievances. Festivus hahahaahahaha.

i AGREE that at some point you can talk about it TOO MUCH and talking about it any more wont do you any good, you just need to END it.

i’m not sure when that point is. probably when one person is sick of TALKING about it and the other person is obviously not listening AT ALL. I think this is probably more than three times. use the old three strikes rule of thumb.

so yeah i dont feel i got three strikes. never even TALKED about it ONCE. SO THERE.

eyebrows. never understood the manicuring of eyebrows on women. i have about average eyebrows and i would be perfectly happy with a woman who had the exact same eyebrows as me. well i have one eyebrow hair that grows extremely long. not sure how that happened but i just trim that one single hair like every 3 months and that is good enough. basically i prefer a natural look to an artificial look, and everything women do to make themselves up looks so artificial to me! women of a certain age are NATURALLY beautiful! why do they want to fook it up by making it look ARTIFICIAL?

for a similar reason I don’t like makeup, lipstick, eye shadow, eyelash mascara, any of that shit. no thank you. YOU LOOK LIKE A HOOKER.

maybe the TINIEST bit of makeup to show that she is making an effort for you, her man, not to seduce a room full of rich men. of course she doesnt need to make an effort in the looks department, but showing the WILLINGNESS to DO SOMETHING for you shows loyalty and luv and good faith. the more you know. rather than someone who ignores you, avoids you, and takes you for granted. doesnt really luv you. wants to be done with you but is too craven to tell you in ANY way.

hire a damn Process Server hahahahahaha.  YOU GOT SERVED.

no i didnt hahahahaha. i would have preferred getting SERVED.

aaaaannnnnd bitcoin continues to go up. OH WELL. I DONT HAVE ANY MORE TO SELL.

I resent women because (and this is certainly not the ONLY reason) is because I would be SUCH a GOOD woman. I could be a better woman than most women. Men know what Men want. Men know how to be a better woman. Women have no idea what women want, or how to be a better man, so their opinions are stupid and worthless. men’s opinions are wise, meaningful, correct, and important. Men speak the truth, women speak bullshit.

but this is the way its ALWAYS been! dont hate a cat for being a cat! dont hate a dog for being a dog!

yeah but dogs and cats arent supposed to mate together!

but im just saying its always been CONCEALED and COVERT with women, they NEVER knew what REALLY goes on inside their body or minds, so why expect them to be “honest” about it? they can’t possibly BE honest!

i guess I just value HONESTY that much. and men DO.

i guess i’m just mad that men value honesty so much and women are naturally dishonest, incapable of honesty. if i didnt care about honesty so much, i wouldnt care about women being deceptive.

heh. well, what do women hate about men? they hate weak, needy, clingy men. and there are plenty of weak, clingy, needy men out there. i’ve been one myself.

i dunno. i just feel being weak, clingy, and needy is not as morally wrong as being DISHONEST. a cheater, scammer, liar, abandoner.

because im using mens morality not womens morality hahahahaha. for a MAN, YES it is pretty bad to be weak. or dishonest. for a WOMAN, for a MAN to be weak is the worst thing ever, and for a woman to be dishonest doesnt really matter. women get to get away with being CHILDREN.

i guess i also resent that too: men have to be RESPONSIBLE, women DONT. COME ON.

if i have to be responsible, i want muh women to be responsible too.

i struggle bigly with being responsible, but i know being responsible is the right thing to do.

whitesville west virgina, think i will move there hahahahahaha.

there were yellow flags and red flags with that woman, for example some silly stuff she believed…..but EVERY woman believes some silly stuff and has some yellow flags in that way. just be grateful she hasnt been with 60000 guys red flag. besides you can probably mold her towards less silly beliefs and make her a white warrioress bearing you many little white warriors. what could be better. and then when that woman leaves you like a ghost, you are devastated for at LEAST 2 years. it all makes sense.

hey. i KNOW i was important to her for a WHILE. like she genuinely liked me as a person, liked seeing me, liked spending time with me, i could TELL she wasnt FAKING it. so i guess i just wanted her to SHOW ANY of that at the end. like i’m sorry, i know this HURTS, sorry, i dont mean to throw you away like a piece of garbage because thats NOW how I think of you. you really DID mean something important to me, i just couldnt Do Those Feelings.

that’s all i was looking for hahaha. dont be SO goddamn destructive. try to apply a little soothing balm as you rain down fire and napalm and nukes. make any effort to at least do that.

dont let a woman name your children, they end up picking a STUPIDASS name like brooklyn or something. no. brooklyn is the name of a city, not a person. be a man and name your child something traditional and good like michael or mary or anne or elizabeth or john or james or richard or donald or adolf hahahahahaha. it’s not complicated. it’s not difficult.

how can you give birth to children but not know how to name them hahahaha. how can you give birth to children but also murder them and be horrible at raising them? why can’t men just get pregnant. they would probably do it better than women. we dont need women at all. women are a net loss hahahaha. just use women as brood mares, locked away from productive male society.  they grow children, give birth, and absolultely nothing else.

so what do you do with girls. you cant ABORT them because ABORTION IS MURDER.

yeah but women just arent WORTH as much as men hahahaha. they are LITERALLY inferior. their lives don’t MATTER as much hahahahahahaha.

no i am jk of course. but you see the slippery slope.

but really i mean come on. these women. they gotta start adding value. not just coasting on this being the bearers of children bullshit hahahahaha. actually be a worthwhile PERSON hahahaha.

JEALOUSY IS NATURAL AND NORMAL. Women will never understand this. they think jealousy is always bad and means they should dump you and that youre abusive and a horrible person and you should work to get rid of all jealous.

NO. JEALOUSY is a GOOD thing, because it WARNS you of BAD things: that the mother of your children is CHEATING on you.

Now, some people might be Overly Paranoid, and that’s not good, but if your GF is spending lots of time with her Male Friends, then YES you SHOULD get jealous! instead the women bitch about their jealous bf and then end up dumping him and getting with their male friends. because their ex bf had no good reason to be jealous then hahahahahaha.

i want terribly to sm0ke mj, but i dont want to be around st0ners, hang out with these degen idiots. i just want a big bag of mj all to myself, so that i can get blazed alone, in peace. no people around. that woman would have been the exception. i liked being around her, she didnt like being around me at the end. i was desperate to hang out with her and sm0ke mj with her, had a FANTASY of hanging out with her, smoking mj, cuddling, making out, her being nice and sweet to me, etc.

but i am also happy just sm0king weed by myself, other people make me nervous. just be by myself and listen to music or maybe exercise or something.

meh i dont care if emily youcis is a huge race traitor wh0re, she has done enough and put herself far enough out there that it pretty much cancels any past degeneracy. she has made real sacrifices and done real penance. she wouldnt do what she’s doing now if she wanted to go back to fooking blacks. she has woken up and changed. god for her.

i have no proof that she was fooking LOTS of blacks, but i assume that as an artsy, punk, drinking, MJ smoking, urban young gurl, singing in a punk band dressed like a hooker, foul mouth, yeah i mean i’m not NAIVE hahahahahaha.  she CLEARLY has a PAST.

but thru Becoming Who You Are, you can be Redeemed from any sin! its really kinda like accepting Christ as your personal saviour! but probably even better! with a lower Recidivism rate is what I’m saying. meaning lots of sluts will turn to Jeebus but still be gold digging, treacherous sluts at heart. maybe eventually destroy their beta cuck husband. but when a woman goes 1488 like this…..it would be really hard for her to turn back after that. i mean i guess sinead could, but she has no credibility anyway. a newcomer like emily youcis has more credibility that sinead, who has done nothing but attack good people. its very disappointing. she could have done a lot of good.

richard spencer is trying to hire one person for 12.5k a year hahahahaha. that’s about as much as Im making right now. and he wants this guy andrew joyce who probably is a good writer and has a graduate degree hahahahaha.

my point is, i simply couldnt just waltz in and get a 20k Alt Right Job, because there ARE no Alt Right Jobs! The one alt right job there is pays 12k a year and wants qualifications i dont have!

again, you would LITERALLY be a LOT better off taking calls in a tech support call center.  good god.

anyway i think it would be better if someone like emily said yeah i fooked negroes in the past, i am disgusted with this and would never do it again, rather than sinead avoiding talking about it, when she gets accused of being a mudshark all the time, and she probably was, but just wont address the issue. just say you did it, say you’re ashamed, say you understand your mistake, learned from it, and became a better person! we will forgive you! were not monsters!

not that theres been any mudslinging on emily. the alt right has been very gentlemanly to her and she hasnt done any sketchy shit either.

well she was just on the david duke show today, which is a good show, i just dont listen to it super often hahahaha. but he just had richard spencer on a few days ago, and he has andrew anglin on regularly. i have been down with david duke for YEARS. i dont like the plastic surgeries and the rumors of degeneracy, but the stuff he says is so solid, and I was glad he ran for senate, and is talking to the right people. keeps in touch with the young kids in the alt right. WN 2.0 hahahahaha.

i have listened to at least 20 episodes of his radio show hahaha and listened to at least 60% of the audiobook of “my awakening”, can heartily recommend. great book. great info on the JQ which I got in 2012 or 2013. Duke has been around for DECADES, before there WAS an alt right, and the best thing out there was mgtow. yikes. dark days. then you found stormfront and said, hmmm i think these guys are onto something, but theres gotta be a better way of doing this. this guy david duke is pretty solid, why arent there more people developing this line of thought? and now there ARE.

heh. i am an oldfag, back when i was getting into shit, MGTOW and MRA was the EDGIEST shit the internet had to offer. besides stormfront hahahaha. and i read a little bit of stormfront too.

but yeah boy am i glad the alt right happened, MGTOW was a damn dead end.

dec 29

so yeah. while I USED to identify as a MGTOW, i did have serious problems with it as I accepted my pretty natural desire to have a Wife and Children, to have a traditional monogamous white relship. pretty quickly i realized how jooish and unnatural it was for men and women to be at war with each other, to be enemies. this wasnt all womens fault. there was a more insidious force at work.

the family life was shitloads better than the mgtow single life. i couldnt believe how so many mgtows could not figure this out and were still either talking about how to bang sluts, or how to build robot women.

tarek and christina split. i bet it was her that is At Fault. To Blame. I never liked her hahahaha. i liked him a lot better even though he is half arab. plus he doesnt look or act semitic at all.  and their chidren were adorable. i bet she dumped him and he begged her to stay and make an effort to work it out baybeeeeee and now she is fooking new guys, probably WAYYYYY more nonwhite looking and acting than tarek.

right after he had that Cancer Scare! What a Horrible Bitch! but he seems too nice and she probably needs a man who can absolutely DOMINATE, if not abuse her. she would be more down for a more dominant arab man. tarek RESPECTS women too much. many women dont want to be RESPECTED hehehehe. then they go on reddit and tell women everything is abuse, loveisrespect.org. nope. you respect a woman, she will leave you for pedestalizing her. OR do something so horrible and disgusting to teach you a lesson about Pedestalizing. Take me off the pedestal! I’m gonna fook 10000000 negros right now!

going to buy new glasses. it is the biggest jooish ripoff since going to the dentist. going to the doctor hahahaha. go into these glasses places and they are full of Shark Women doing sleazy salesmen shit. absolutely disgusting. women shouldn’t be doing this. shit men shouldnt be doing this. no business should be run like an obvious jooish scam. capitalism doesn’t have to be so jooish and disgusting ahahahaha. purge the bergs and steins hahahaha.

americas best is the WORST. if it says 2 pairs of glasses for 70 bucks……..sheeeeeit. don’t tell me that 2 pairs of glasses for me is going to be 210 bucks. that is THREE TIMES MOAR. if someone comes in asking about the 2 for 70, do you really think they have a huge budget to buy the top shelf glasses and lenses? and us rubes don’t know that frames and lenses are two different things. 2 frames for 70 is bullshit when its like 140 for two sets of LENSES.

i would ask them, what are you looking to spend, 100 dollars, ok, well for that you can get this, for a teensy bit more you can get this, then you prob wont want to go much hgiher than that!

no frills, no add ons, no extras, no upselling, just bottom shelf, bargain basement, basic bitch everything.

2 pairs of glasses, out the door, with lenses, for 70 bucks. that is what i want. i don’t care about polycarbonate, or scratch protection (well, sorta i do), or antiglare coating, or transition lenses hehehehe. maybe if i had vision insurance, which only the top 1% do hahahahaha. or people like muh baby boomer family hehehe.

i thought getting a glasses shop job would be pretty chill, but after going to a few of these places, i can see that it would not be. on dec 29 the places were packed with people. maybe thats just normal for the holidays.

bitcoin falling finally.

GENTLY signalled interest in the MJ with the one person i can conceivably talk to about this. i thought he might have not registered the idea that next time he wants to go in, i’d like him to tell me so i can go in with him. he is generally good at reading signals but i still wasnt sure, besides, i am terrible at communicating stuff like this. and he is abstaining for the medium term for very legit reasons. but yeah yesterday i made it clear that when you decide to stop abstaining, please let me know ASAP. he clearly understood what I was saying. so that is good. Now I know not to be PUSHY.

in other words, ive done all i could there.

but yeah i was like damn how could i ever do what these women do. lie to people to sell them glasses. they deliberately make shit confusing and complicated to Upsell and Add On Shit, and have horribly misleading advertising. i hate this jooish shit and i hate that white women are stuck working in these jobs. i’d be like listen, you want the lowest price, i get it, well then you have to get this. i SHOULD HAVE studied the website for americas best before walking in there, just so i could tell them the things i DIDNT want.

well i ended up finding a pair for 70 dollars, including both frames AND lenses. that seemed reasonable to me. so just said ok ill take it. wanted to get out of there anyway. fookin glasses. the place was huge, had a ton of employees, and a ton of customers, and i thought, really, glasses? such big business? doesnt everybody have lasik or contacts?

i dont like honestly not terribly smart white women acting like jooish snake oil salesman. youre obviously tyring to confuse me with glasses jargon. dont do that. i should have taken 5 minutes to study glasses jargon before i left. but i shouldnt HAVE to in a nice huhwhyte country is what im saying. i guess i didnt realize the glasses industry was so thoroghly jood. i shouldnt be surprised though. health care, hospitals, doctors, dentists, medical, insurance, its all fooked and jooed. which is sad.

and when MJ is legal that will be jood too hahahaha.

tensions with israel at the moment. UN snubbing israel and obama/kerry saying yeah we snub israel too. trvmp saying just you wait bibi, just 3 more weeks and then me, your best buddy, me, will be in office, and you wont get this terrible treatment from the US. this was always gonna be the black pill about trvmp, was his super friendliness to israel, i guess we were just gonna not think about it until it was time to think about it. which is now nigh.

i mean i guess i support a state for joos as long as they get the damn joos out of the US. out of our media and culture and govt and business and education and everything. absolutely never gonna happen.

square pegs. mid 80s teen sitcom with teenage sarah jessica parker. she was a QT when she was young, fook this horse face nonsense! but it just never suits a woman to be a 40+ year old slut, so she brought that shame on herself!

i think she is jooish. doesnt stop 20 year old jooish gurls from being qt.

yeah i believe in REDEMPTION. and if i believe in redemption for myself, which i would LIKE to, then i have to believe in redemption for other people. namely, women, sluts, degenerates. if i can do it, they can do it. if they can do it, i can do it. and i like reading stories of actual redemption.

i dont think sinead is stupid. in fact i think she is attractive and its tech good she has a baby. she sometimes comes VERY CLOSE to making good points, and then totally crashes and burns, or attacks somebody great like millennial woes. so she is very frustrating and disappointing, because she has great potential. and of course she could be redeemed too. but my god she HATES the alt right. she views it as a totally gay compromised thing. calls it the alt k1k3.  i guess i should be happy that in 2016 there are qt white women who are ok on the JQ and not afraid to use the K word hahahaha. didnt have this even 4 years ago.

but yeah if kyle is her lover she should identify as his wife, and be like, im taken by my one man kyle, and he is the father of my baby. i luv him and will be loyal to him. and not have any ambivalence there.

so in short i dont trust her at all. i trust emily Y more than her.

wow what an insensitive cvnt. and she wants sympathy from reddit. i hope they crucify her hahaha. if she worked halg the day that her husbando worked, she’d be EXHAUSTED too. but now she wants to dump him because his job is exhausting him and she is annoyed by him being exhausted all the time. what a fooking bitch. he needs a woman who can have s ome damn sympathy for him.

basically with /relships, i upvote men and downvote women. and men who talk like women. women have nothing smart or good to say about relships. they have no idea how to have relships with men.

i think if i went into americas best and said listen. i see your sign for 2 for 69.95. that’s basically the type of value i want. I want the SHITTIES lenses AND the shittiest, cheapest frames, for less than 100 bucks TOTAL, out the DOOR. frames AND lenses, under 100 TOTAL. no deals, no add ons, no extras, no 2 pairs. no scratch protection, no anything protection, i am looking for the equivalent of no-fault shitty auto insurance. i would like to buy nicer glasses but i cant afford them.

reddit is gonna say there is nothing wrong with the sister being in JOOISH PORN and the man needs to GROW UP and GET OVER IT.

now i dont think you should be quick to pull the DEFOO trigger, and always be open to forgive and allow your family the chance to repent and redeem themselves…..but the sister is not moving in that direction at ALL, in fact, she is doubling down on the PORN. so the brother is RIGHT to be DEVASTATED and depressed about this. shit what if his WIFE decided this was an ok thing to do?

i was watching andy griffith and gomer pyle USMC and i was like, these quaint shows of a better time. that gomer pyle is a likable idiot. seeing that this stuff is STILL made by joos when you watch the crrrrrredits.

or this show “Square pegs”, which i had never heard of, but seemed pretty entertaining and well-written and funny. yep moar joos. which is not surprsing as this was the 80s. but joos in the 80s and esp the 60s didnt seem so god damn JOOISH as they do now. well except for that sneaky sneaky joo norman lear. i mean i used to watch all in the family regularly, and like the character archie bunker. i still kinda do!!!!

but yeah being JQ aware really helps you with shit like that. and reading between the lines to see this is more than just a good show. its more of a subversive and offensive show than you realize. you’re not SUPPOSED to……well i cant even say that youre not supposed to like archie. he’s the main damn character. i think you ARE supposed to like him, and realize YOU are just as horrible of a racist goy as he is, and then learn Lessons Of Tolerance just as Archie does. but archie truly says some hilarious shit. him and his wife edith are both great. and shitlib son in law meathead. total shitlib sjw leftist commie.

i WISH the show were written by alt right SHITLORDS rather than SJW Joos! honestly the alt right could bring the show back in this way, that’s a great idea. would be even kooler than a blatantly alt right king of the hill.

on the fatherland, muh boy no1 suggests that million dollar extreme/sam hyde is basically Entertainment/Comedy for Goys By Goys, comedy stripped of any horrible jooish influence. i mean i hope it is! we need our own CULTURE, stuff like music, movies, tv, stories. not just implicitly cool stuff like christopher nolan or something, but something that comes right out and says, this is who we are. we are not J’s. this work is 100% free from jooish influence. i would love that. cuz you can’t GET that in mainstream ANYTHING.

this is another benefit of black metal hahaha. it is very free of jooish influence. maybe thats why i like it so much hahahaha. was such a big boortzum fan for so long hahaha. really liking this saor/fuath hahahaha.

well because its impossible to make a tv show or movie without a bunch of Js getting involved. I like more solitary pursuits, more of a Auteur approach hahahaha. one man’s singular, unadulterated, unjood vision. much more practical to accomplish with music or books. and i dont like books hahahaha. well auteur movies are a good attempt too.

and certainly self made youtube vids. or 1488 podcasts hahaha.

havent really watched lots of MDE. dont know anythign about the other guys in MDE other than sam hyde. i guess there is an mde book now. i mean i respect and trust no1 so his recommendation is as good as any.

george feels responded to me and said thank you. so that was nice. have no idea if he is gonna fix the thing that i said he might want to fix hehehehe. well i did my part. i might give him another dnation next xmas hahahahaha.

when i get to the position he’s in….wait a minute i am actually OLDER than him hahahaha. AND he has a better job than me.  so when HE gets to the point I am in now, THEN he should start going to hookers and smokin MJ which is freely available in his damn town. just walk into the store just as easily as buying a bottle of booze. and he Gets To Do That too. I’m not even allowed to drink booze any more hahahahaha.

this is kinda sad. of course i would say take the “dream job.”

He has very low self-esteem and has mentioned several times that he may be depressed. Until recently, he would rant to me over text (hundreds of texts) about his insecurities, that he feels like trash, and that there’s a lot of expectations and societal pressures on him because he’s a man. Multiple times he’s told me he wanted to end his life. When I tried comforting him and dissuading him from it, it backfired and he lashed out against me, saying that there is no way I can empathize with people like him in the slightest. In subsequent meltdowns, I held back on comforting him out of not knowing what to say, and he said I lacked a moral compass and that women like me are biologically wired to hate men like him.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. well i know how this guy feelz, but the fact that she HASNT left him yet, CARES enough to ask reddit. but yeah. ive felt that exact feel. women HATE loser men more than men hate sluts. and they will throw you away like garbage. thing is, she hasn’t thrown HIM away like garbage, and i think if she DID dump him, she would make an effort to do it in a decent way.

yep you will be a virgin for the next 10 years, just be thankful you can even GET a job. also try not to get arrested for drugs or alcohol hahahaha

oh thats fine, nothing wrong with fooking 12 guys by the age of 18 hahahahaha.  sex is a conditional, relative, gray area thing. sometimes its serious, and sometimes its just casual fun!!!!!! yay!!!!!!!!

BE ASHAMED OF YOUR SLUT PAST. tell your bf yes im ashamed of what i did and who i was, and that shame is gonna keep me from doing that shit again. yes it is digusting i agree. instead when you tell him im not ashamed at all, whats wrong with that? uhhh yeah youre saying i have no shame about being a shameful slut hahahahaha.

because who knows when they are gonna get bored with sex with YOU and go easily find it with any of their 6000000000000000 male friends.

they SHOULD be ashamed of their slut past. that is the BEST way to make your new bf OK with your slut past. NOT say, no, i’m not ashamed of that gross degen disgusting shit I did!

you SHOULD be ashamed of disgusting things you did! not continue to unrepentantly insist these things ARENT disgusting! damn!

what ELSE is she not ashamed by but SHOULD be? cheating?

best to be with somebody who shares your sexual MORALITY – that sex is not some Fun Game to be played with any Sexy Boi. of course its hard finding a woman with that sexual morality! and if you do, they will not like you back and will reject you VERY HARSHLY hahahaha.

sheeeeeit you know what, she was EMOTIONALLY CHEATING on her original boifran. she wanted to fix things with him, but she was EMOTIONALLY CHEATING on him anyway. by becoming friends with ME. yeah i didnt realize this at the time, and not until recently, and its safe to say she NEVER realized it! because she was emotionally retarded!!!

 

ITS RIDICULOUSLY STUPID, BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS, EITHER DEAL WITH IT, OR BE FOREVERALONE.

aug 17

was watching new season of married at first sight, jeez. i dont generally like the first 5 episodes or so, thru the honeymoon. i prefer them at home when shit gets real. anyway i am most interested in the “blond” white woman (hard to call them “women” because they are not ADULTS, this is why we call them “GIRLS”, because they act like immature little children, 13 years old) and her hubby. 32 year old flight attendant and 35 year old whatever. account manager. he is handsome and charming and masculine but she doesnt like him because he smokes cigs “OCCASIONALLY” and sometimes gambles. she is butthurt on the HONEYMOON because he smoked cigs every day and she thought “this is what occasionally means? erry day?” and she got all distant and bitchy and stubborn. he felt that immediately. he spoke his mind very fully and perhaps “abrasively”, which meant she got more stubborn. but he had very good points, and she had none.

i felt she was not giving him a CHANCE.

both other couples were generally much “better”, but there were still some patterns: the man would be trying to communicate, and the woman would take something he said THE ENTIRELY WRONG WAY, GET TOTALLY BUTTHURT ABOUT IT, and then the man had to give her space while she continued to Brood and not really think any constructive thoughts about it, then grovel for an apology when he didnt really do anything wrong, and the women were looking for any possible reason to get mad at these nice men, and the man would say “I want to make this work, lets FIX this, I’m not going to walk away from this” while the woman would be like “idk. idk. idk if i can do this. i cant even. this isnt gonna work out. were too incompatible.”

basically being CHILDREN that have no interest in communicating, no interest in fixing conflicts, always overreacting, and never giving the man a damn CHANCE.

the MEN are good at communicating and handling conflict…..the women are TERRIBLE. and this is why the women are single at age 33, 34. because THEY fook up every relship theyve ever had by being huge overreacting bitches who have no desire to put in any effort. run away when the going gets tough, which they create by overreacting to some harmless little thing. then blame the guy and make him the bad guy. HE started it.

the show brings out muh woman hating tendencies hahaha.

ironically the ones who got along best were the ones who had secs within 2 days of meeting each other. that definitely created some sort of chemicals that made them want to be nice to each other. and even THEN she was STILL looking to pick a fight with him about some small remark he made, and she thought he was attacking HER. but then they had makeup secs and everything was ok…..for a while.

these women are a goddamn minesweeper minefield, ONE misstep and youre DONE. they are CHILDREN who LOOK for arguments, and then have NO ability to deal with those conflicts. and say the man said ok, ill change and do whatever you want, youre right, im wrong, she’d dump him then too for being a doormat.

obviously the solution is to put the woman in her place and just not take the bullshit at ALL.

anyone watching the show, even women, i dont see how they could say these men are at fault, or these women arent being RIDICULOUS.

even the masculine man doesnt know the proper way to put the woman in her place. cuz HE gets upset and frustrated…..which I can TOTALLY understand! he wants to fix a problem, and she is being stubborn and stupid! it IS frustrating! and women would say stupid shit like” GOD! why do you always want to FIX everything!” as if you shouldnt even TRY to improve problems in your rel, and the only right thing to do is run away and avoid and shut down.

i guess he should have just smiled and patted her on the head and said “thats nice, sweetie”, then fooked her HARD about 88 times in a row. then smoked cigarets right in bed after the secs hahahaha. just take TOTAL CONTROL of the situation with a Confident Smile on his face.

and this guy is generally pretty masculine, the most masculine guy on the show. way more masculine than me!

so i have to wonder, are all women really like this? is this one of those things where i have to say “yeah its STUPID, but thats just the way it is, so learn how to DEAL WITH IT, or stay a woman hating foreveralone virgin forever” ?

ITS STUPID, BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS, EITHER DEAL WITH IT, OR BE FOREVERALONE.

INCREDIBLY, ridiculously, EXTREMELY stupid. and yeah that IS frustrating, makes you lose your cool.

i can keep my cool with moderate levels of stupidity, but women are so EXTREME with it. i mean they can really push the buttons.

and then i think, well this woman has a MASTERS DEGREE, doesnt she need conflict resolution skills and communication skills for her masters level career as a social worker? instead she communicates like a damn 12 year old girl. thats what rustles me. how can you maintain a PROFESSIONAL CAREER with abysmal communication and people skills like these?

yeah i know social work is a joke, but you still have to have a masters degree and talk to people in tough situations! i mean in an ideal world, it WOULDNT be a joke. it sounds stressful as fook and i dont know how these STUPID DITZES HANDLE it!

they probably just parrot chipper cutesy HR speak to their clients. dont actually listen to them. a woman actually LISTENING to somebody? HELPING them SOLVE PROBLEMS? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! thats a good joke.

like she was never in LUV with some badboi who SMOKED. she would have begged him to stay and would have ate ashtrays of cig butts for him to stay. thats probably why shes so triggered by this guy now. you want to get MARRIED? you havent gotten over the OTHER guy!!!!! take a YEAR or TWO off from dating, relships, and yes FOOKING, and do some SERIOUS thinking and reflecting, so you can get over your past! like im doing! and yes it is hard and long struggle!

so yeah i am an INTERVIEW MACHINE. 2 interviews this week. 2 interviews NEXT week, in fact, on the very same DAY. that is a first. i have honestly never done that before. I guess I have not really paid my dues unless I have had two (OR MOAR!!!!!!!!!) interviews on the same day.

this guy i know who is very ambitious and powerful in his career had a THREE HOUR interview the other day. he took a half day at his Mid Level Career to do a three hour interview with an even higher level career. the type of guy that is looking for Corporate Sponsorship to do an MBA at a Top School, and to get into Global Stuff for Top World Companies. yes of course he’s younger than me and went to a less prestigious school than me hahahahahahaha. he just has a strong attitude and work ethic and is not a despairing virgin neet, but a strong healthy well adjusted White Man!

meanwhile my goal is just to get a 14 dah job at a place that doesnt drive me COMPLETELY MENTAL. i dont have those kind of long term goals! like i want to do this and that and that and this. no. i just want to SURVIVE in an entry level job that i dont ragequit, stay in it forever, and hopefully get promoted for muh good work, which i prob wont, because noone promotes anymore, you have to move to a diff company.

its like women will blame you for everything, make you the bad guy every time, so you have to be really good at saying NO YOURE WRONG, YOURE OVERREACTING, youre a BABY who cant communicate or listen or compromise or deal with things like an adult.

i admit that women are challenging and you have to learn how to deal with them, thats just the way it is, dont hate the player, hate the game hahaha.

but HOW MUCH IS TOO MUCH? HOW RETARDED CAN YOU BE?

and just seeing these ridiculuos women on TV for a reality show, i mean this is all spun by joos, this cant be REAL!!! and then seeing some of the same shit i saw in reality!!!! and said to my self geez i hope not all women are really like that!

like women are ALWAYS gonna blame you and get mad at you and if you really take their bullshit seriously, youll think you are the most terrible person ever! when you are not.

these “women” (“girls” really, this is why we call them girls, you dont get to be called a woman unless you are mature, like actually literally mature hahaha, and these 33 year old women act like foot stamping tantrum throwing 13 year old girls that were never put in line by their fathers.)

how do THEY make 40k, 50k a year? by bullshitting people, parroting bullshit, and never actually getting anything done. a woman solving a problem? let alone a complicated confusing problem? NO WAY.

heh women are like ingras and joos and babies all rolled up into one. god damn i h8 women hahahaha. i wish we didnt need them to reproduce. i wish we didnt get feelings for them. men are just much better PEOPLE.

but yeah. how can they WORK and be more SUCCESSFUL and make more MONEY than ME? they cant handle SHIT, let alone the Complicated Difficult Communication Conflict shit and People Problems in the work day.

their solution is to blame the other person and avoid them, those bad horrible people.

and this WORKS for them! they never have to change their shitty ways! they never have to grow up and learn to be adults!

i am very immature but i am way more mature than THIS!!!!!

its like the guy derek said, ok i left you alone to cool off but its clear you havent thought about this at all, because you’re giving me the SAME bullshit, can only repeat the same thing like a broken record, you are not willing to compromise or offer any solutions, you are just butthurt at me because i smoke 1 cigarette a day. COME ON. you gotta be a little flexible here, and not GIVE UP on me just because I smoke 1 cigarette a day. or 2. who CARES.

and if he said oh baby i will quit smoking for you, she would just disrespect him for being a doormat.

it was WEIRD because he was a handsome, charming man, I was surprised to see her being so bitchy to him, and he def was too. the gurl is a fookin basket case drama queen and no man is good enough for her, except for some long gone badboi from 10,12 years ago she never got over. enjoy your cats and growing old alone and childless and husbandless. and you dont even have a powerful career. damn. more likely shell just get knocked up by some arab or ingra who’s not afraid to use his pimp hand.  but she looks ok for 33 year old, very nice body.

but a sensible man who is not lonely or desperate will RUN NOT WALK when he QUICKLY sees how RDICULOUS she is! i am thinking handsome charming derek is tired of banging sluts and is getting desperate for a long term wife. well he got matched with a real dumpster fire here.

this “team of experts” are nothing more than conniving j’s looking to create drama.

but yeah i cant turn away from this stupid show.

because a big part of it is showing how Couples Handle Conflict. and so often they DONT, because the WOMAN is so immature, and overreacts and blames the man, the man wants to work on things, and the woman doesnt, is so stubborn, and never gives the man a fair chance.

http://nypost.com/2016/08/16/theres-trouble-in-paradise-on-married-at-first-sight/

no comments. even when nypost poses the huge question, is heather justified in being so upset over dereks smoking? NO OF COURSE NOT!!!!!!!

nick and sonia. i kinda like them. well, i like him. he is a lot like me, only way more handsome and successful. she is ok half the time and stupid the other half. she seems like she would be a good match for him…..but he’s moving too slow even for her! i guess shes not as much of a nice gurl as we thought. how many guys has she fooked after 1 date. and here she says she wants to do things differently and go slow. yet before the honeymoon is over, she’s butthurt at him for moving too slow! and they’ve known each other for like 5 days.

she wants to move slow, and 5 lousy days is still too slow for this slut hahahahaha.

and i probably like to move even slower than poor nicky boy. i mean i like to move WAYYYYY SLOOOWWWWW. I tried to point this out to women, and they were still surprised at how slow i moved, and still dumped me because of it. somewhat. that and they didnt want a real rel. just casual hangouts and casual secs.

http://www.intouchweekly.com/posts/heather-seidel-derek-schwartz-married-at-first-sight-drug-scandal-109728

this one suggests HES NOT SMOKING CIGARETTES, HES SMOKIN THE WACKY TABBACKY!!!!

and she thought that was the end of the world, and they end up getting divorced before the 6 weeks are up.

she got a dui in 2011. derek tries to show her how ridiculous she is by saying “thats like me saying you are an ‘alcoholic’ ” and that was a bad move, because even though we men understand what he’s getting at, women are gonna get bitchy and think he’s being immature by saying she’s literally an alcoholic, which is not what he’s saying. she’s not smart enough to understand his point, like this is how ridiculous you’re being.

but yeah the show is being dishonest joos by not telling us that he’s smokin MJ.

but it is honestly a stupid move for him to bring MJ in a plane to their honeymoon. or did he buy it there?

heh its funny how articles on vice have like 2 actual comments and 3 or 4 spam commenters. here is a big well known publication but no ones actually reading their shitty articles.

i was reading a review of the new forteresse album on vice noisey, they have this metalgrrrl kim kelly who IIRC, actually has decent taste in metal hahahaha.

this album which came out last month. her review was not very edifying but others have been saying this is a great album, totally great example of quebec black metal, they are quebec nationalists/separatists, there is some antiwhite vice phaggot in the comment saying they cant be separatists, white devils like them STOLE the land from the natives in the FIRST place, etc.

anyway i feel the LORD is guiding me to this album at this moment, on this day. the LORD guides me to weird albums and sometimes I just listen to them less than once and say NOPE this is not what I was hoping for. like that lyrinx album i listened to recently. totally underwhelming.

anyway i am making actual progress by having tons of interviews, 2 interviews in 1 day, getting less nervous during interviews, just racking them up like experience points, and one day i have to inevitably Level Up (get offer.)

seeing that super successful acquaintance of mine, i couldnt help but COMPARE myself to him and say god damn, im so far BEHIND him, he’s 4 years younger than me, i could have been just as successful as him if i hadn’t made those mistakes, now i can never get on this track, i dont have the drive and disclipline he does, he deserves a good woman, i dont, he is so much better than me, im jelly of him, hes such a winner and im such a loser, etc.

when in fact i HAVE been making SOME progress lately and I REALLY dont want to compare myself like that.

hes a good guy though, its just really disappointing hes a SWPL oven middle class progressive leftist bla bla. fookin atlantic reading, new york times reading, npr listening, bernie loving, you name it. yet he has a high-paying Corporate Career. But he is somewhat in the Creative end of that, rather than Financial or Engineering.

wow this forteresse sounds pretty good actually. but i am just listening to it on One Earbud while trying to do Job Applications hahahaha.

this time i got the earbuds that are kinda like earplugs, with the rubber tips that go deeper into your ears. kinda like them. ok 3 applications today. i can do better than that hahahah. gotta pay the dues. put in the reps hahaha.

are quebecois separatists also likely to be pro white?  how much is damn canada oppressing the quebec people hahahaha. well i dunno. maybe its like texas people wanting to secede. i can understand that. when your country has turned into ZOG that wants you and your family dead hahahaha. does forteresse know about ZOG hahahahaha.

or are they huge pussies that say HURRR DURRR WERE NOT EBIL RACISS, we luv mudslims and blacks and joos hahahaha.

their first album, the drums kinda sound like a drum machine. i do not really like that although the guitar sounds good. on the new album they def have a real drummer.

FOOK drum machines. just hire a god damn session drum, pay him some MJ and alcohol, or play the drums yourself. period. mikko aspa can do it, alex meilenwald can do it. IMHO better to have amateurish sounding drums than a damn MACHINE. did the classic BURZUM albums have a drum machine? HELL NO!!!!!

so the forteresse drummer is fiel and is in a ton of other bands including his own solo project.

just let the drummer know he is not a real part of the band and you will pay him to play the way you want him to play, ie, in service of the damn SONG, not like some flashy show stealer who is louder and flashier than everybody else. let him do that in his own band. thats why they call them session musicians hahahaha. they are your EMPLOYEE, but in a very friendly and laid back way. just play the way i tell you to play and i’ll give you MJ and booze and food and maybe some cash. and maybe your band and my band can play shows sometime. and by the way can you be a live drummer for my band too hahahaha. ill pay you for that too.

3.8 mile powerwalk, then shower, made some cigarets, in 10 minutes go to social event, maybe see 1 qt gurl worth beating the meat to hahahaha

1 think 500 will be a more accurate goal than 400 in terms of needing 500 applications to get a job. like 1 out of 23 applications gets an interview, and 1 out of 23 interviews get a job.

and i am only at 14 interviews so far. yeah it is good to get experience in interviewing itself. you DO get better. but yes it IS ridiculous that you need to do 23 interviews to get a job! they never had to do that in 1990! even my successful acquaintance didnt have to do that to get his first job after college! in fact he got that job with relatively little effort and described it as pretty easy and quick.

aug 18

rejected for office assistant II position about 7 weeks after applying, no interview of course, but the rejection letter was sent by an INTERN hahahaha. ie a 20 year old university slut. an intern in the city human resources dept. well to her credit the letter was written decently, and she is prob only making 10 bucks an hour. but yeah it sucks not even being called for an interview for a 28k job hahahaha.

woohoo, it is ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY of me sending The Final Email to That Woman.

well, yesterday technically. aug 17 2015 i sent the final email. yesterday was aug 17 2016 hahahaha.

somehow the calendar says 367 days today, but i think because 2016 was a leap year and had extra day in feb haha.

401 days since i last talked to her on july 14 2016. i like 400 days as a more round number than 365 days hehehe.

but yeah it doesnt SEEM like that long. i am getting OVER her, but it seems like i just saw her and talked to her a few MONTHS ago. the time really flew by i guess hahahaha. but not in a great way. still fookloads of pain. but the worst has passed.

over 9 months since i have looked at jooish porn filth. not bad uh!

well, technically i saw a few images a couple times, but i turned it off fairly quickly. one time was for research purposes, to determine whether the girl in this one vidya was evalion. (dont think it was.) another time, i stumbled onto some slut on tumblr. i think because she looked sorta like That Woman. i was actually trying to prove it wasnt LITERALLY that woman!  i thought it might actually BE her! not that that woman was at all the type to slut it up on tumblr, or in real life. she was very discreet about her slut life hahahahaha.

41 days since level 1 haircut and i am thinking about getting another hahahaha.

heh. the fact is, going into interviews is not nearly as stressful as every single god damn day on the actual job. under pressure to produce and fix things as fast as possible and you have no idea what is going on, while trying to bullshit to everyone around you that you DO know what you are doing. and your head is spinning and confused ALL DAY. at work, and when you come home. you NEED drugs to numb or stop your mind. you wake up in the middle of the night mind spinning and racing and confused. this sense of confusion all day every day really wears you down, and then trying to be ON and put up a False Front at Work. you become mentally and emotionally weak and confused. your wife loses all respect for you because you are acting like a scared baby animal. she leaves you and says fook you you weak little phaggot, you dont deserve a woman as good as me. i’ll go find a real man like tyrone biggums hahahaha. who isnt INSECURE and doesnt have all these ISSUES and isnt so CRAY CRAY. you say baby im just really stressed out about muh job, and she says so is everybody else. DEAL WITH IT or i will find a man who can.

and you think DAMN i must have been a HORRIBLE person to deserve this punishment. i bet JAIL would be better. at least there they are more honest and straightforward about raping you in the ass.

its not just dislike, but fear and terror and dread and anxiety. disliking is nothing. that sense of dread and fear is really what kills you. like a cornered baby animal without its family. lambs to the slaughter.

i can deal with simple dislike. that’s no problem at all compared to that fear and anxiety and dread and panic. again, like the end of mulholland drive, where she is sitting there, knowing something horrible is gonna happen soon, but not sure exactly what or when, then something unexpected and weird happens, she flips the fook out, cant stop screaming hysterically, and the automatic reflexive response is to frantically scramble to the nearest gun and K yourself!!!!!!

that kind of shit is what i REALLY dont like hahahaha. not just oh muh job sucks damn lmao.

its kinda like Chronic Panic. and then you cant think right at all.

and i fear EVERY real bigboy 28k job is gonna be like that. or at least every job for an actual COMPANY. like real companies that are struggling to either not go broke, or to GROW, and they PUSH everybody to their fookin limits of sanity hahahaha. and the managers have no idea whats going on, just that they need to PUSH everybody HARDER. MORE. BETTER. FASTER. BETTER. GROWTH. SCALE.

and when you get home, you dont just want MJ, you want a potent cocktail of MJ, booze, benzos, and opiates to just OBLITERATE yourself into a total zombie STUPOR. that is the only way you could really relax and unwind and decompress.

well the first 3 to 6 months of ANY job are gonna be like that as you learn the job!

i dunno. like with the college police IT job, i did not get that impression at all.

or even the nursing home payroll job.

now, at my last awful job, the company was struggling, they are still struggling, and its no surprise they closed our entire department. i predicted it while i was still there. CALLED IT like a year before it actually happened.

i should be studying for the interview tomorrow by Knowing their company inside and out!

it is a big multinational corporation hahaha. something everybody has heard of.

ok prepared muh study sheetz. interviewing with 3 men tomorrow. i hate these goddamn panels. but i have handled 5 person panels. normally there are 2 people.

this job has potential to get confusing, as a TECHNICIAN for an electronic devices company. shit yeah they could get technical. and they probably have senior technicians who get to know the shit better after 2, 3, years.

yeah this company does not look like good long term place. the health insurance is supposedly good, but it is run by tyrannical asshole azns who are totally out of touch with USA. the county job i am interviewing on monday, i am much more interested in the long term.

however, i am not in the habit of turning down job offers hahahaha. well, just the one, a post office CCA. i am thinking this electronics  job pays about the same, has good health care start right away. but anyway the company culture is supposedly very asian. and not in the good japanese way hahahaha. but in a less honorabru way. like they are clearly not attracting Top US Talent to make them seem like a really US-friendly country. weird stilted english language on their web site. their best people get out and go to better companies. the top management is a revolving door of asians. who bully their underlings and really dont have a good business sense or long term vision hehehe.

hooo boy. i always fear that its the Bad Jobs that will make me an offer.

one of the 3 guys tomorrow is one of the native asians that they send out to run facilities in foreign countries like the US hehehe.

well, tell them I am waiting to hear back from macomb county and that if offered that job, I would take it.

how good of engrish does the asian manager speak. prob not good. glassdoor stories of asian execs chattering and none of the gringo underlings know what they are saying.

well if im not super enthusiastic, they wont hire me anyway hahahahaha.

well this one guy i used to work with, and i really liked him, he was great. he was a new guy who got placed right next to me. naturally he had lots of questions because the training is horrible and everyone is confused all the time. I wanted to change that Culture, so I was happy to help him, and anybody I could. But he was also very SHARP, he was not a dumber person like some of the people there. he was masculine and handsome and charming and had great People Skills, and he handled phone calls like a BOSS even though he’d never had a job like that before. I instantly liked him and we got along well. within 2 or 3 months he had gotten a job with the company I am interviewing for tomorrow. he made it sound really awesome. I was sad when he left.

9 months later or so I saw him in the grocery store, he said send me a resume and I can make sure you get an interview, things are going good there. I got cold feet and never emailed him. but when I started putting effort into muh job search, I applied at his company regularly. so anyway I will mention his name tomorrow.

stories that the asian asshole bosses force you to DRINK when they go do asian karaoke after a 16 hour shift and like all high pressure asian businessmen, they get falling down drunk on saki or rice liquor. drink 20 drinks in 60 minutes until they vomit and pass out on the sidewalk hahahahaha. pass out in their car with vomit all over the interior of the car hahahaha.  these guys are the top managers of your department. they are your managers manager. your manager never gets promoted because he’s not asian, but he starts acting more asian because he takes shit from asians all day hahahaha. meaning, you btich and bully and belittle. all stick and no carrot hahahaha.

everyone is like khan from king of the hill but worse hahahaha.

well i guess i would rather work here than that post office job. try to survive a year. try to find MJ hookup if there are any Blacks there hahaha. make friends with shy lonely white people. but youre not supposed to befriend the outcasts, because then you become an outcast yourself right?

so become friends with the cool kids, pretend you are a cool kid. befriend the asians. do gangam style dance moves with them hahahahahahahahaha and bring them bottles of saki.

im not one of those pathetic whites who has some hardon for asians. fook asians hahahaha. they’re not cute o kawaii, they’re not interesting, they are ratty little yellow rat people hahahaha.  definition of crabs in a bucket. yeah but anime and samurais are kewl.

ok we can agree that the japanese are the best asians……..but these are not japanese, and i STILL dont have a HARDON for japan. NOT an otaku weeaboo. fook that. even the BEST of the asians do not interest me, beyond I have some desire to watch kurosawa or ozu films, i like some jap horror movies, and i liked mario and zelda games. thats IT.

i mean these particular asians are just a tiny step up from the CHINESE in my book hehehehe. i guess i have already doxxed myself hahahaha. now the asian crab people can fire me. good riddance hahahaha.

i mean i COULD just be unenthusiastic. say that I enjoy a democratic, non-hierarchical workplace where the local facility gets a lot of authority in the eyes of world HQ. or i could just turn down the job offer if i get it hahahaha. i mean i will probably stop applying here at any rate. be like i gotta take days off to interview at better places hahaha.

i mean how the hell do you keep taking half days off to go to interviews? what do you say? im going to a doctors appointment?

i mean my old workmate was looking to get out of our old work ASAP. he looks like he is happy to stay with this asian company. if its good enough for him its good enough for me.

he was in the military though. deals with pressure and people under pressure better than i do. what if he is a total degenerate though. who knows. shit. he was nicer to me than That Woman was at the end! He was a positive thing in my negative day of work! she was just another negative thing in the shit sandwich!

didnt realize you could just listen to the police scanner on a web site. listening to police scanner of nearby city that used to be white suburb but is gradually shifting towards nonwhite crime and lots of white trash and drugs too. so you listen to the police scanners to really put your finger on the pulse hahahaha. supposedly. but it doesnt make much sense. i cant understand a word they are saying. how can THEY understand each other? and these are white cops!

yeah ok i studied a decent amount of the bullshit which this particular division of the company does. car related electronics lets say. the asian manager can bust my balls and i can tell him i wipe my ass with zipperheads faces hahahaha. they wish they could be samurais like the nips but instead theyre little needle dicked alcoholics who beat their wives and children and lust over white women that choose deadbeats and ingras over them no matter how much money they make as businessmen. white men LUV asian women (i dont at all), but white women HATE asian men hahahaha. well thats good, i wish they hated black and arab men as much. fookin race traitors hahahaha.

 

WHAT DOESNT KILL THEM MAKES THEM STRONGER; WHAT DOESNT KILL US MAKES US WEAKER

may 1

heh. when you see people that are well-adjusted normalfags, they remind you of how Different and Weird you are. It’s not that they don’t WORK HARD, indeed they do, but the hard work doesn’t kill them the way it kills us.

What doesn’t kill them makes them stronger, what doesn’t kill us makes us weaker.

hehehehehe. nice.

so yeah. i can’t stop thinking, is globalization necessary? do we really have to accept it or die? what’s the best way to accept it? how do we survive in the global world? what if we don’t want to get masters degrees or be leftists?

but still, the MUCH more imporatnt question is, how do we push ourselves to WORK HARD and BE SUCCESSFUL? cuz everything follows from that: good job, good wimmin, nice life, nice neighborhood, can provide for your children and have them be as successful as you, etc. doesn’t mean you have to live in a million dollar mcmansion!

just need to instill the values of Work Hard and Never Give Up in your children.

Because I don’t want to Work Hard, and I have essentially Given Up.

how about you?

heh. obviously it is time for my 3.2 mile powerwalk. the negative thoughts are creepin.

may 2

well i took the pwalk but continued to have neg thoughts about the job, about letting new job slip away, how i’ll never have an opportunity that good, and what if i don’t get to go back to my current job, PLUS getting a layoff this long every year is SIMPLY UNACCEPTABLE, and not sustainable for an adult. all because i didn’t want to go thru the stress of learning a New Job???!?!?!?!?!?!

so then i took some nyquil at seven pm and slept it off. feel a teensy bit better today but not full of energy or anything. not particularly employable hehehe.

i guess the good news is that i can fake my way through practically any interview, with the help of my One Sheeter. always bring a One Sheeter with you to an interview, dress up nice, and talk like a smart person. write smartguy sentences on your one sheeter and just memorize and regurgitate, like reading a script.

we need to become like ninjas, like Covert Ops WARRIORS, whatever kind of Clandestine Warrior Imagery you like. Jedi. Black Ops. Navy Seals. Strong and Disciplined. for the cause of our our survival in Work and Wimmin. Yeah, Wimmin SUCK, but we do need them to mate, because the Long Term is Important, and Family is Important. That is kinda a First Principle of this Blog which is gonna turn away a lot of people who don’t agree, who think children and family are not important.

well, how can you not say the Long Term is not important? Most men do have an interest in the Long Term even if they don’t have an overt interest in having children.

also, most men have an interest in having S with cute young wimmin, even if they don’t have an overt interest in Getting Long Term Screwed by Wimmin.

you could prob get away with taking nyquil on a work night, if you took it the SECOND you clocked out. because nyquil stays in your system like 16 hours, and if you are groggy the next day at work, then you get fired for bad performance, or at least get scolded and abused, or have a nervous breakdown, if you’re not performing well because you must be mentally SHARP as a TACK, and nyquil will definitely slow you down.

it IS exhausting to try to be SHARP for a mere 40 hours a week! for the remaining hours of the week, you just want to shut your mind down with massive quantities of w33d!!!!!!

annihilate your mind with physical pleasures and stupefiers! unplug your brain and destroy your brain, kill your brain! give yourself your own homemade electroshock treatment to reboot your brain! or give yourself a lobotomy!

that kind of thing.

of course it may well be a dui offense to drive with an open bottle of nyquil in your car!

or theoretically fire up a big fat Bowl immediately upon getting into your car. but that of course is even more risky, and of course w33d will impact your ability to drive. but that commute time is essential, if it could be converted into Lobotomy Tiem, that would be ideal! so i am sure lots of people DO fire up a huge bowl the instant they get in their car. not officially recommending it though.

was thinking i could have been a good “Economics” major. yes, econ is a useless degree, but is it any more useless than “business administration?” I think econ is better! more intelligent! but who is more employable, biz admin or econ? given a Completely Average, NonElite University?

well, if you get an Econ and Math double major, or become a QUANT or Quantitative Economics (or is it Quantitative Finance???) then that is solid. money. very employable, very good, alpha career job, attractive wimmin.

if you have an older brother, pump him for a job. if you don’t, oh well. if you ARE the older brother, but you’re the loser, and your younger brother is the winner, then pump your younger brother for a job.

if you get a chance to have S with an unattractive wimmin, maybe just go ahead and TRY it, just to experience ANY kind of S with any nonhooker woman. you probably won’t LOVE it, but you might not HATE it as much as you think, and it might pave the way for S with more attractive wimmin later. and you won’t have to worry about regretting passing up the “opportunity”. it will be a character builder, a learning experience, something to talk and write about. so just do it. but don’t get sucked into dating her! that’s what you REALLY want to avoid!

LORDS OF LIES CELEBRATE DECADENCE AND DEGENERACY AS NORMAL

feb 2, 6.29 pm, sun, super bowl just started w0000t

i am more interested in the Commericials as a State Of Society Address, if you will = Decadence and Degeneracy. Hell in a handbasket.

of course I got muh bitcoin poker game going.  i promise to never bet more than $20 a month. I have already lost almost $16 since…. jan 25th. Heh. so I will mark up that up to january. see I bought .02 btc which was somewhat LESS than $20, because market value.  USD might be going downhill and BTC going uphill, but right now, USD is still more Stable than Bitcoin! meaning, better to think of bitcoins in terms of dollars than dollars in terms of bitcoins. dollars is the stronger currency as of right now, hehehehe.

so how much am i allowed to lose at the REAL brick and mortar casino, if I shoot my $20 a month budget at the online? Uhhh I only go to the nononline casino like once every 2 months at the MOST. i will build it into the budget if i need to.

poor philip seymour hoffman. I really liked his performance in the Master, big Lebowski, almost famous, still need to see Savages, oh god, Happiness he was great.  I guess he started doing lots of drugs and alcohol after he graduated from College, then went to Rehab at age 22 or 23 and got clean, then fell off the wagon again at age 45 or so, now dead of heroin at age 46. Wow. heard something about him snorting heroin or opiates, now he was found dead with a needle in his arm, prob heroin, def opiates.

ANNND now I am on the hottest streak I’ve ever at this game, I went from like 3.25 to 11.00 in UNDER TEN MINUTES. just winning decent pots with decent hands: QQ, AA, AK suited. was uncanny how many top ten hands I was being dealt, and then I was succeeding in converting them to cash. wow. just too fast. I don’t like that. because you can lose it all even faster. and yet gambling is like being in love with an 18 year old qt. because you can lose that in an instant too, hehehe.

so i have several options: 1. get with a new 18 year old QT, or 20, or up to 23 I guess. .. 2. try to rekindle with any one of girls 1 thru 7, because they will ALWAYS be rekindlable, even if they are old now. well at least 2 or 3 of them are married now; at least 2 of them are over 30 now; how many have kids now. none that I know for sure, but the 2 married ones wouldn’t be surprised to see kids soon after they become more established in the careers, maybe after the phd, after getting a sweet job at a Good COmpany, etc. COME ON.

orrrrr 3. just bang women left and right willy nilly, do whatever i want whenever i want, have a variety of young qt’s on call. yep that sounds like a plan man.

but what sounds like a better plan is getting a lower stress job. how about a laboratory assistant. math tutor. computer tutor. but these are not FT jobs. I never realised till recently that they weren’t!

Anyway. thinking that not only is getting married young good for women, it’s also good for MEN too. Like I coulda gotten married to any of those young women, girls 1 thru 7, and it probably would have turned out all right. but now I am just too old and bitter to Luv anyone else ever again, hahahaha.  but not actively hot bitter. more like cold bitter. ice cold. ice king. hot bitter, cold butthurt. heh now i am talking like a woman. DON’T TALK LIKE A WOMAN, they talk STUPID.

Heh just gimme a 20 yo QT with a low number and I will marry her and put some babies in her stomach.

WHENEVER I SAY “MARRY” FOR THE ENTIRE DURATION OF THIS BLOG, PAST AND FUTURE, I mean Nonlegally binding marry. EVERY TIME. ALL LEGALLY BINDING MARRIAGE IS BAD FOR MEN, AND A BAD IDEA FOR MEN, AND I DON’T RECOMMEND MEN DO IT. But you can still have a Special Monogamous Childbearing Loving Marriage-LIKE Rel with a Woman, I think that is Natural and Good.

It is just difficult to get all weak in the knees for a 35 year old CareerCvnt who has taken 900000 c0x and has lost the glow and radiance and innocence and charm and niceness of Youth. You can pump em and dump em sure, but no way do you want to marry them or have CHILDREN with them. And CHILDREN are the Way Of The Future. Without Children, you got nothin. when I see Career Yuppies, Especially Women, boasting about how they never want children, I Shake My Head. What is WRONG with This World when WOMEN don’t want to have CHILDREN?

And yet I don’t think that’s the majority of women. That’s not Normal Women YET. But the Lords of Lies and Media Elites are trying to make that abomination LOOK normal. Why have and love your Children when you have your CAREER to worship? I don’t understand how people can be such WORKAHOLICS. I don’t like Working and I like to spend as little time as possible doing it, the Bare Minimum.  I prefer blogging and internetsing and gambling and watching movies and eating food and sleeping and playing vidya and young women and powerwalking and saunaing and buying silver and bitcoin and prepping for doomsday and all that. but not working, and not PAYING to STUDY for WORK, or PAYING trying to GET Work.  F00k THAT.

FINDING YOUR TRIBE

dec 1 2013 sunday 311pm

ok vacation ending tomorrow, will prob slow down on posts then. been off for SIX straight days, can u believe that. it was great. wouldn’t mind one more day, hahahaha.

here’s what I DON’T like about Stefan Molyneux: he has too much of a hardon for “deFOOing” (separating from your Family Of Origin) and always blames people’s parents; AND he is a smug atheist. He says that even being an AGNOSTIC is Stupid and Untenable and Ignorant, and Agnostics are just as Stupid and Backward and Abusive and Broken and Poisoned as Religious people.

Aren’t there any Philosophers who are also Religious?

So I went back to my Go-To guy, who is less of a Philosopher and more of a Political Commentator. Real Down-To-Earth guy, and also he is personally religious.

Anyway, kinda looking for Religious people who defend their religion in a Smart Philosopher sort of way.

Then I read another one of my favorite guys, who is always full of profound, mind-blowing statements, and he said something like (paraphrase) it used to be, if a guy couldn’t find a job, he couldn’t get a girl, and then men were rioting in the streets. Nowadays, with Porn and Vidya Games and Meds, men waste their youths and lives jerking off and numbing their mind to the pain of not being able to get a job or a real girl.

Heh. Molyneux did say something good about “Finding Your Tribe.” And those two guys are definitely my tribe moreso than Molyneux and his family-hating fedora-wearing atheist edgy teens, hahahahahahahahaha. However, Molyneux’s advice here IS sound, you SHOULD find your tribe, even if your tribe is smug fedora wearing atheist leftists., hahaha. GOD have mercy on you if it is, though!

and my tribe is non-mainstream conservative religious/agnostic men I suppose, who keep an eye on The Big Picture. I would be participating with “My Tribe” by emailing these guys or participating in the comments sections of their pages. maybe doing an interview with them.

so yeah find your tribe as well. just don’t be in a big hurry to deFOO from your family. It is hard as hell being a parent, and impossible to be a perfect parent. As long as you don’t beat or rape your children or are blatantly, constantly verbally or emotionally abusive. Like it’s bad to call your kids a Worthless F4gg0t or You’ll Never Amount To Anything, Useless. And these people mate and have children while you, who know better, always get Dumped By Grills real Early on!

Yes there is a big controversy about Spanking. some say Spanking kills brain cells. Molyneux would probably tell you to deFOO if you were Spanked EVEN ONCE, hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. Well, I say you do need to discipline children and set limits for them, because they’re just too young to know any better. don’t beat the sh1t out of them, but a tiny little spank probably won’t kill them!

But yeah, I am no expert on parenting. But I do agree that parenting is ridiculously important, and there probably IS a way to parent your children so they become winners rather than huge lazy losers who can’t even pull the bare minimum in Work and Love, to use Freud‘s standard of Good Living. I don’t LOVE Freud but he had a great point there.

Certainly being a Loser at Love and a Loser at Work can make you feel like a Big Loser, and this is a TERRIBLE feeling!

try going to backpage dot com for your area, look for escort services, and then set it to GALLERY so you see a TON of pictures. You will be pleasantly surprised. Like, actually finding an Attractive Woman for $300 is a definite possibility.

Now, $300 is a lot of money, but it’s not beyond the pale, it’s way less than $1000 for example. You’ve spent $300 on stuff before, like booze or restaurants or car insurance or car repairs or college. you can spend $300 to have S with an attractive woman and end a 10 year drought, hahahahaha. OR 30 year.

Also, I’m not saying that all people who are married or in a monog rel, or like Careers, are stupid sheeple. If these things work well for them, they’d be stupid NOT to like them. But these things do not work for all of us, and at some point it behooves us to realize that, and to start setting our own standards for success.

Also, if you decided you’re more into Nonmonogamy than Monogamy atm, then you are still morally obligated to treat the women humanely! Do No Harm! Leave Em Better Than Ya Found Em!

Also. Real Men just trying to Make An Honest Living at Full Time Job Jobs and maybe have a Home and Family some day, need A Job Jobs Journalist tailored to them, telling them the Common Sense Truth About Jobs Today. No HR Women, No Bureau of Labor Stats, no Mainstream Media Talking Heads, No Internships, just Hard-Talking Common SEnse for Men In The Trenches: what kind of jobs to look for. How to look. Old-School Manly Men jobs that pay a decent wage without too much school or training. How to get training cheap. What to say in interviews. Like I’ve been hearing stuff I never would have dreamed of, like CLIMBERS or POTASH or Organ Tissue Transfer. Like they will train you to cut the cornea or tissues out of a dead corpse and you will make 200k a year with no college. Stuff you’ve never HEARD of before, that you will never hear about on CNN or Time Magazine or TV news or from HIgh school or college counselors, or your useless unemployment case worker.  So I wanna Report on those types of stories, those types of jobs. Oil Jobs in North Dakota. It might not be GLAMOROUS, but it’s better than MCD’s or WALMART, you get Full Time Hours, and you get SWEET Pay, and you don’t need to be a HIghly COmpetitive Ivy League Grad. You can start making and saving lots of money and never be in debt again. We do need a one-stop news source for Employment Truth sort of news. Secret Magic Bullet Jobs.

anyway. hopefully you can get a Fulltime Job soon and then start getting some sweet Friends With Benefits No Strings Attached action. because god forbid you get trapped into a monogamous relationship with a crazy, older, not-ridiculously-attractive woman, hahahahahaha. heh. trying to get you to finally bang a girl at least as hot as the girls in the pr0n you jerk-off to, hahaha, and you whine and say waaaaaaaaaaah I wish I could really DO that with a girl who looks THAT cute, waaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh. well you will. I can guarantee at least that much, with muh magic bullet system. Have Faith, My Buddies.

QT3.14 COLLEGE GURLFRAN, CUDDLING, GET A TEDDY BEAR

june 8, 2013 ufmll

* I think I would have hated school less IF:

* I had a big detailed plan-out-every-day-of-the-next-4-years PLAN so I knew EXACTLY what to do, and WHY I was doing it, and could then point to the exact long-term payoff of this short-term unpleasantness

* I had a QT3.14 GF who I could get some hot Prime Of Youth College Gurl Cuddling From Once A Stressful Week, to take the Edge off in a way that is much healthier than Alcohol Or Drugs.

* Note I did NOT say Decadent College Sex! Although Decadent College Sex is prob better for MEN than NO Cuddling AND NO Sex. the end goal here is to produce well-educated men who can become well-employed enough to Have Three Children. That’s the main goal here, the end game. Are you making enough money to support Three Children.

* But Why Three Children? Because that’s the Magic Number to Keep Your Race alive? And I promised I wouldn’t talk about RACE here!

* Well, ok, fine, I want to have three children, maybe you want to have one child or no children. Gotta get back to my Socrates again. Didn’t Socrates have children? He def had a wife!!!! heh. he had THREE children as a matter of fact!

* ok the endgame is to be a productive independent adult, debt-free, stablely consistently employed, who COULD realistically have children if You wanted.

june 9 2013

* try watching the show “arrested development” and have a big marathon where it takes over your life. I can’t quite determine if it’s filth yet.  It’s def not the filthiest, and it is very clever, and very funny.

* I should have personally started some kind of 30 day experiment myself at the beginning of june but I forgot. But what I’m gonna TRY to do is cut back my COFFEE drastically. Because I drink one big 20 ounce mug of coffee first thing in the morning while getting ready, usually a few chugs on top of that, THEN when I get to underwork I make 5 out of 12 cups in the carafe. heh.

* and this is a big improvement because I USED to make 10 out of 12.

* But since I am still a Big Loser with Absolutely No Energy who could sleep all day, and some people on Paleohacks.com say they’ve gotten good results from quitting coffee, and I’m at my Happiest during the “Summer”, and I’m on indefinite hiatus from Skool, ie, bretty low stress bro, thank GOD, so I will take this OPPORTUNITY to cut back the coffee even more.

* Ideally to one big 20 oz mug per DAY. or is my mug 16 oz. either way. 16 oz would be enough too.

* tell yourself whatever you need to to achieve your goal. like, coffee makes me feel good for x minutes, but then it makes me feel Tired and Crashed and Dead and No Energy and Anxious and Distracted and ADD for 2x minutes! The Costs outweigh the benefits by 200%!

* Ok so what about the Engin Students who also want a QT3.14 19 year old College Gurlfran, they tell them that would make all the Saturday Nights at 3 am in the Liberry doing Math Problems till they go blind worth it…..but they are too dorky and autismal and unmasculine to pull such a gurl, and SURE they’re angry and bitter and broken and whatever, but they put the HEAD DOWN AND POWER THRU as they say on “arrested development” and come of it all successful, gainfully employed engineers, cute QT college gurlfran be DAMNED! But don’t you think THEY would have liked some nice Hot College Gurlfran Waifu QT Cuddle Action TOO?

* Yes, more than likely!

* So after a personal setback / disappointment in like October 2012, I told myself I would allow myself to be Raging Angry for a Real Long Time, as part of the Healing Process, blabla. but by the end of June if I were still raging angry, then it’s time to think about fixing that. then I felt I wasn’t angry about THAT any more (Rejection from Woman, yikes), but that I was still raging angry about Everything In General, well namely Education and Career and Success, calling everybody F4gg0ts for example, perfect example of Anger. Not just a Two Minutes Hate at the beginning of the day, but a constant anger towards F4gg0ts who did the right thing; being angry at Skool and Careers, and angry at those who weren’t So Angry At Skool that they could succeed in skool and then career, whereas I HATE SKOOL with the intensity of 10000 suns, and then angry about that, and angry at the people who WEREN’T angry about it, calling them f4gg0ts and Human Garbage and etc.

*So uh just do one day at a time, exercise even if its just as little as walking, don’t eat bread, take your fish oil and vitamin d, get vitamin d from the sun,  maybe get an unpaid pre-internship for your unpaid internship and that will give you a sense of accomplishment about being closer to having a middle-class (upper working-class?) job, hahahahahahaha. and cut back on your coffee. maybe drinking half the coffee would make you half as angry, and that would be good, right?? and get 8 hours of sleep a night.

* And who cares if you don’t have a QT Gurlfran To Cuddle With Lovingly. QT Gurlfrans are for Weak F4gg0ts. You don’t NEED anybody. Except your family and friends. If you’re that much of a Cuddle Maniac, and I realize many of My Brethren ARE, then get a f00king stuffed animal. GET A TEDDY BEAR at 32 years old. Besides, Real People get all hot and sweaty like a furnace and they roll around and steal blankets and kick you.  You’re Overidealizing the decent 5 minutes of it and forgetting the crappy other 99% of it! But I can RELATE, I definitely used to be and may still be a Cuddle Freak. heh. SO Unmasculine!

* Cuddling is OVERRATED.