ACCEPT SCIENCE! OR BE FOREVERBUTTHURT

apr 23

had dream with that woman last night. kinda sucked. because she was leaving me, and i was both begging her PLEASE DONT LEAVE ME, AND being a passive aggressive scheming butthurt joo, trying to scam her into staying with me, AND butthurt lashing against her for being interested in other men and not me, AND butthurt lashing against those lucky tuffguy badboi men. dont remember specifics of how that was happening, but those were the obvious feels in the dream. i was not acting like a strong decent courageous moral hwyte man. and it sucks just feeling like a weak scheming weakling. and she was sighing and saying UGH and CLEARLY totally DISGUSTED with me and my weakness.

not a good confidence building dream hahahaha.

sunday. nice and sunny. doing my sunday routine of charging shit, trimming beard to level 2, playing some cards, will do powerwalk in a bit, try to get into bed by 8pm. after like a month of keeping stats, my sleep average is 8:30 a night. 8 and a half hours.

gaining weight. now up to a scale tipping 131 lbs hahahaah. simpyl because i am going over 1500 cals too much. hahaha. because on the weekends i drink tea with too much HONEY.

well for a few weeks I was eating llife savers candies. because eating 2 bags of life savers in 2 weeks will make you gain like 4 pounds. im only half joking.

well i was eating a bit too much ice cream too.

i just hate falling in luv with a nice innocent low number gurl, then she dumps you, your heart is insanely broken, then she very likely starts becoming a high number slut, blowing and fooking guys she just met. so even if she came back to you, she wouldnt be the same decent woman, but just a common slut, but you’re so sad, youd prob take her back anyway, because you havent found anyone better, and youre still pining, still having dreams about her.

but yeah. like those guys at daily stormer said, just being a little bit off, a little bit awkward, putting your hands in your pockets, and WOMEN and JOBS think you are a HUGE WEIRDO and dont want to hang out with you or hire you. let alone bang you, or pay you 28k a year!

you cant even pull 35 year old fat mudshark single moms! you cant even make 18k a year!

BLESSED ARE THE STRONG! THE MEEK WILL INHERIT NOTHING!

yeah well at least i dont watch porn hahaha. i dont want to watch porn hahaha. at least i dont drink. i dont really WANT to drink. at least i dont do MJ. but I really, really, really WANT to do MJ a LOT!!!!!! and thats bad.

i went into a home depot recently and was overwhelmed by just one aisle with all different types of screws, nuts, washers, brads, bolts, spikes, nails, and i was like, who UDNERSTANDS all of this shit? do stupid mexicans really understand all this? and if they do, doesnt that make them smarter and better than me? drug addicted construction workers who at best smoke MJ all day on the job (and after), and at worst, pop opioids all day? they can understand this complicated shit and do this job and I cant????

it was national ((((science)))) day on ((((earth day)))) yesterday and i saw this goy scientist on cspan. obviously a goy. but the activist shit he said was PURE JOO. he was so excited telling a story of a little gurl (prob PoC hahahaha) who luved sciecne. WOW I LUV SCIENCE and BACTERIA! BACTERIAS ARE SO KEWL! she was talking to a science grad student, prob an evil hwyte male. she said, do you study kool bacteria in there, and he responded, no not really, we have some bacteria, but they are really just to help enable protein activation or some phd science shit.

then the guy telling the story, i think tyler dewitt was his name, said, this is horrible, because it taught the little gurl that

  1. scientists are mean and grumpy
  2. science is CONFUSING and overwhelming
  3. MAYBE PEOPLE WHO LOOK LIKE YOU SHOULD STAY AWAY FROM SCIENCE.

at that point I was like fook this joo, how can you be so stupid. he seems like a totally sincere goy who sincerely believes the joo lies. i  turned it off quickly after and said, well he would have told a little BOY the same thing. plus I’m sure phd level science IS confusing and overwhelming, and he has a ton of work to do, therefore he is very stressed, therefore hes grumpy to everyone all the time, not just little gurls asking about science, but everyone all the time. hes grumpy to his gay PoC boifrands.

i wont deny that phd programs are a lot of WORK, and alot of the phd students like to be Workaholic Martyrs for that. nope i cant have a traditional relship now, im too busy working 100 hours a week on my phd program. i dont deny phd programs are TOO MUCH WORK than I could handle.

science isnt for people who look like you. get the ofok out of here joo liar. of course science is fun when you are in 3rd grade in 2017 and you CANT POSSIBLY FAIL and its a huge hugbox lovefest and all your marxist teachers who know nothign about science teach you how KOOL science is. and you arent under PRESSURE to solve confusing af problems or people will bitch at you about how stupid you are, at best, or, at worst, you will get fired for being an idiot, and then have to try to sell shit for a living like the rest of normie idiots, when you thought science was your golden ticket because you are an autist who cant get along with normies.

its not all fun and games and bacteria is kewl tee hee. its publish or perish on obscure shit where only 10 people in the world know or care what youre doing, and its sure not part of anything bigger and better, like curing cancer, which the joos do not ever WANT scientists to cure. because you find a cure, you K THE GOLDEN GOOSE.

but yeah i just dont like getting dreams about that woman, period. because its a way of SEEING her again. and in this dream, i was acting like a shameful coward, and she was acting like a mean bitch. at the very least, i wish i were acting like a strong man. i HATE being WEAK.

i also HATE thinking That Woman was just a damn slut like those guys at DS were talking about. who play innocent and then you bang them with just the tip bullshit.

its kind of jooish, but its also kinda brilliant. i can’t say its wholly jooish, any more than women are inherently kinda jooish, and it plays to that.

and it SUCKS that hwyte women are INHERENTLY JOOISH!!!!!!

thats why its MENS job to step in and physically STOP them from BEING jooish!

perhaps blackish would be better term. because theyre not as smart and clever and high iq as joos. joos or blacks, whatever it is, it SUCKS, and i wish Our Women werent like that, but they ARE, they always HAVE been, even before the world was jooed, so just ACCEPT it, or be FOREVER BUTTHURT.

what CAN make a woman become more mature is having children and being a good mother to them. BUT, in order to do that, she USUALLY needs a good husband. otherwise she just is a shitty single mother.

basically, a woman NEEDS a man to reach her full potential. a man does not really NEED a woman to reach HIS full potential. other than perhaps having a good mother will help him, and having a good wife will help him. but these things are not nearly as MANDATORY as having a good father and a good husband are for women.

That’s just the way women have EVOLVED.

Accept SCIENCE! or be FOREVERBUTTHURT.

ok 9mm rounds are probably the most common type of ammo. they basically sell for about 20 to 25 cents per round.

basically i was thinking about investing in ammo as a currency for when the shit hits the fan and ammo will be essentially very very valuable, like gold, but moreso. food, ammo, guns, alcohol will all be very valuable. well….you can make your own alcohol easily, cant you? very hard to make your own ammo easily. so this is why people are stocking up now. and i should too hahaha. just buy a few boxes of 9mm rounds.

yeah then what. when TSHTF and just have a few boxes of ammo. then some negros with guns will rob me of the ammo hahaha. kinda stupid to have ammo but no guns. i mean i SHOULD get a gun. just a 9mm pistol handgun would be fine to start with. they dont have this RIGHT in YUROP, which is truly a huge shame.

ill tell you whats triggering. 30 year old hwyte men making 60 grand a year who truly think gunz are evil and should be BANNED, and are disgusted by hwyte men with guns.

some men spend their whole lives associating with onyl terrible women and never meet a decent woman, so they think all women are like that hahaha.

hey ive met at least 3 decent women in my life!

but anyway if you get the gurl sucking your d on the first hour shes met you, well its physically IMPOSSIBLE to get put in the friendzone. therefore, aim for SOME kind of physical action, even if its just you groping their body, or making out, or encouraging them to just touch the tip. then you’ll NEVER get in the friendzone hahaha.

ive also been friends with women where they were decent people/friends, but they wouldnt really be decent gfs for me, because i knew too much abotu their  sordid past. it didnt make them bad people, but it ruled them out of GF Zone for me hahahaha. sorry sweetie, youve just been with TOO MANY GUYS.

now, i never had a hardcore conversation with them about how their number was too high for me to consider Dating them. that would just be cruel at that point. like them bluntly telling ME that they would never consider dating me because I was just too unmanly and weak! which was true!

SOOOOO……if joe stalin hated joos, how come we dont like him? because his USSR was thoroughly jooed and k’d tons of innocent hwytes. he might have hated Joos, but he was thoroughly controlled by joos.  i think that is the idea.

some say the ukraine nationalists are totally joo controlled, and basically in 2017, russia is much less jood than ukraine.

i dunno, just dont know!

basically, we want nice, decent, innocent white women who dont act like goddamn N3gr0s!!!!!!!!!!!

Our Beautiful Hwyte women have been turned into N3gr0 whores! by You KNow Who!!!!!!!

funny. women are physically beautiful, but they dont know how to appreciate that beauty. they are disgustingly good at shitting on that beauty. like joos boiling jesus christ in a cauldron of shit in hell in their talmud. women make a travesty out of their own beauty. and only a MAN can really appreciate the BEAUTY of anything – women, a beautiful sunset, a beautiful piece of music, etc.

i also figured women are very good chameleons. very good at pretending to be men, pretending to be jooz, pretending to be blacks. and when we make it COOL again, they will start “pretending” at that which they are naturally best suited for: being wives and mothers. but now they are having a hard time pretending that role.

its not just the jooz fault women are so fooking horrible. its MENS fault TOO. but lets just say 60% joos fault hahaha. but yeah, we, us, men, are at fault too. by being weak. but a lot of our own weakness comes from the joo too!

https://archive.org/stream/MienKampfAdolfHitlerTheStalagEdition/Mien%20Kampf%20-%20Adolf%20Hitler%20-%20The%20Stalag%20Edition

read the book every day hahahaha.

i just hate that i found such beauty in that woman, and who she was, yet she just gives herself away like cheap filth to filthy negros. was I THAT WRONG about her beauty? no, she was beautiful at that time. but she prob doesnt mind just totally profaning and blaspheming and destroying her own beauty, letting herself go from a beautiful woman to a pile of negro shit. shit yeah its HEARTBREAKING!

i mean im only thinking about it because i had that dream last night.

did a 2 mile powerwalk on BEAUTIFUL sunday day (which only MEN can appreciate the beauty, hahaha) and listened to taake nattestid and saor guardians. not bad!

oh yeah. when you live in a 90% white neighborhood (thank GOD) and you see a beater rusty car driving around the neighborhood with three 20 year old black men in it……well lets just say i frowned on that and i hope other people saw it and were willing to call the po po. shit yeah there should be profiling here, because these young thugs looked suspicious af, they obviously dont live here. my thought is they are cruising around the neighborhood looking for houses to break into, OR, probably more likely, they were going to play basketball at the public city park. this is super annoying and it brings in too many blacks in the spring and summer. really wish the city would just take the negroball hoops down. they can leave the tennis courts because hwytes occasionally use those. but it is very irritating to see 10 young blacks who clearly dont live in the neighborhood, using your neighborhood park.

to their credit, there hasnt been any notable crimes out of the blacks in memory. that is kind of miraculous. absolutely miraculous. well maybe blacks arent that bad after all, even real thuggish looking young ones who play basketball and have filthy mouths. theyre not even shooting or stabbing each other when 10 of them get together, or terrorizing the hwyte people at the park, or breaking into cars and houses.

see thats the thing. when a woman is a slut wh0re, it also says, i would be a POOR CHOICE as a wife and mother. i would be a shitty wife AND a shitty mother.

reeeeeeeee just because a woman Owns Her Own Sexuality like a Mature Adult doesnt mean she would be a Bad Mother reeeeeeeeeeee!!!! screech the feminists. the jooish feminists.

so then you have to mansplain why a person who takes the life creation process so LIGHTLY might also take innocent human lives a little too lightly.

cuz i was thinking, you know, beggars cant be choosers, i dont DESERVE a nonslut, i guess i would take a slut IF she were attractive AND loyal to me AND would be a good wife AND would be a good mother, then FINE I guess I could tolerate her having a Slut Phase where she took 20 dicks.

but then i realized how stupid that sounded. a woman with a slut phase who took 25 dicks probably WOULDNT be a great wife and WOULDNT be a great mother.

thats why we dont like it!

because it means they might be willing to stray from us for some strange coch, or that the baby we are raising is NOT OURS!!!! maybe she snuck off and fooked some other guy, just like she snuck off and fooked other guys in the past!!!!!!!

of COURSE women dont understand this, buecase women have NEVER understood the OBVIOUS. even DECENT women dont understand the obvious. women have not EVOLVED through SCIENCE! to understand the obviously. ACCEPT THE SCIENCE! OR BE FOREVERBUTTHURT!!!!!!

april 24

well i pulled the trigger. bought the manheim translation of MEIN K4MPF for 11.60 incl shipping. basically the best deal i can get on this book. would prefer stalag edition but its like 6 dollars more. and i hear the manheim translation is good enough.

the problem with this all women are whores mindset is, who the hell are you going to have babies with? you want a WH)RE for the mother of your children? i guess I am coming over to the idea of hwyte sharia, even tho I don’t luv the word, as basically a way of saying EXTREME PROBLEMS CALL FOR EXTREME SOLUTIONS. The Women Problem is WAY over the line, things are WAYYYYYY out of control there, so we NEED something extreme to fix it. you dont have to call it “sharia”, but it DOES have to be extreme, because wouldnt you agree that our women are EXTREMELY out of control. do you deny that? I didnt think so!

basically, we HAVE to have children with whores and then train the NEXT generation of girls to never become whores like their whore mothers, hahaha. it can be done! i’m optimistic! white pill!

the bad news is, you have a whore for a wife and your poor children have a whore for a mother. how to deal?

you train your whore wife to PRETEND to be a decent woman and to pretty much “fake it till you make it” as a decent woman trying to be a decent mother. but you basically would have to monitor youre wifes mothering skills much more than with an actual decent woman. more work for you, in other words. oh well. A MAN’S WORK IS NEVER DONE.

it just rustles me that you can never expect LOYALTY out of a woman because theyre simple not CAPABLE of it. its like THE RACISM OF LOW EXPECTATIONS that Well-Intentioned whites use on poor blacks. basically let them get away with shitty behavior, never hold them accountable.

well yes you would hold them accountable, by spanking them whenever they started to show disloyalty. spank them until they stop showing disloyalty. SPANKING IS NOT VIOLENCE!!!!!!!!! IM NOT ADVOCATING VIOLENCE!!!!!!!!

its basically very similar to the pro and anti spanking camps re disciplining kids. Same thing with WOMAN. Grown Women are the same as immature children who require DISCIPLINE. DISCIPLINE IS NOT VIOLENCE!!

maybe if they had been RAISED RIGHT, modern women wouldnt NEED so much discipline!

discipline via spanking would be a key part of My Hwyte “Sharia.” god damn u anglin hahahaha. such a stupid WORD. but hes absolutely right about the idea.

i wonder if they will send me the MK with the hugeass portrait of AH on the cover, hahahahahahaha. I HOPE SO!

EXTREME PROBLEMS CALL FOR EXTREME SOLUTIONS.

I will not use the word “desperate” to describe our extreme, but strong, proud, and not-desperate solutions.

with The Women Problem, we are essentially doing what they did when they sent juvenile delinquents to Military School.

Scared Straight Boot Camp.

We treat them like children because they ACT like children. That’s not a LOW expectation, thats a REAL RED PILL REALITY expectation. Women were designed by SCIENCE! to act like children.

Because…………uhhhhhhhhh this means they get pregnant as soon as possible and as often as possible. it’s ALMOST an r-selected strategy. it’s a lot less K-selected than white knights would hope.

BUT…..humans are a lot more likely to DIE in childbirth than a blatantly r-selected species like rats. a rat can have 100 babies and prob not die. if a human woman had 50 babies she would almost certainly die. even 20. human birth is a painful, complicated process where a lot can go wrong. not too long ago, many women did die during birth.

soooooo thats not helping my argument that its ok for women to be huge r selected sluts fooking everything that moves.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/the-mike-enoch-question-a-public-discussion/101414

anglin doing a somewhat official thing on the enoch question. i wish TRS had done an official thread on the enoch question! after time has passed, I am pretty ok with enoch, but i think TRS handled it very badly at the time. i wish enoch had been more forthcoming, like anglin has been about things in his life that could be used against hsi character, and address them BEFORE they became an issue. Anglin sums it up very nicely in his OP here. this is only on the BBS, not the main site.

QUOTE

TRS was advised with how to deal with the situation. I spoke personally with Sven within 24 hours of the doxing, and told him that Mike needed to come out and be 100% straighforward with people, to show a bit of vulnerability, to apologize for lying by omission, and say that he’s a human being and life is complicated and weird things happen and most times the right thing is not the easiest thing.

Instead of being straightforward, the TRS team engaged in a lot of weird cagey bullshit. They were first totally silent, then they told stupid lies like “oh well she’s only part J00ish and has no J00ish culture” even though she was a completely degenerate tranny promoting k—  – something straight out of a @MANNvsMACHINE cartoon.

Sven then did a show without Mike, and seemed to announce that Mike would be leaving the show.

Then Mike and Sven did a show with Rufus from Rebel Yell, where nothing at all was talked about. It was rambling, boring bullshit, where none of the concerns people have were addressed. Mike was attempting to be so cryptic that he made weird statements making it sound like he himself is a J00. This was really a kick in the face to loyal TRS fans, and resulted in a whole lot of anger.

On the TRS forum, massive numbers of long-time posters were banned for simply being angry and demanding the issue be addressed clearly.

When a regular TDS episode finally aired, there was again no direct statements about any of it, and another awkward statement where Mike seemed to be implying that he is J00ish (especially when it is taken out of context in a clip).

A lot, a lot of long-time TRS supporters felt abused, and I think it is fair to say they were abused. Technically, a guy who does a podcast and posts it on the internet doesn’t owe anything to the people who download and listen to that podcast. But in real human terms, a person who spends countless hours listening to a person talk believes that person is their friend. This is because our brains did not evolve to be capable of drawing a distinction between a disembodied radio voice of a stranger and someone sitting in our room (or at the gym, or in the car, or wherever we were listening) talking to us and an actual real life friend. People felt like they were betrayed by a personal friend, and you can see this in the many, many angry responses. In this sense, on a human level, Mike did owe his listeners something more than what he gave them.

END QUOTE

ok cant read more than 150 posts hahahaha. why havent i listened to anglins 90 min speech in london in like 2012:

he needs to get the sleeves of his jacket tailored but he should be giving speeches like this every day hahahaha. i think he could become really really good at it. it really is a skill you can get better at with practice.

HORREE SHEET, GR8 SPEECH ANDRE. even better than expected. he should totally do this every week. every day. hes a great writer and he writes a great speech too. sometimes he gets off on a tangent, but it doesnt really matter. its all good. when he speaks you can tell he is even smarter than you thought he was!

ideally I would like him giving AH-style fiery speeches of the already fiery stuff he writes about. he doesnt even talk about gassing the K’s in this speech, its quite restrained.

Yeah I know he goes on other peoples podcasts and shows pretty often. great. but I would love if he did his own podcast where he did most of the talking. or better, did events like spencer.

hahahahaha now i cant wait for my copy of MEIN KAMPF to arrive.

im surprised i never bought it before, just to seem EDGY. I totally did that sort of thing when I was young, bought stuff just because it was EDGY like marilyn manson or some shit. you young direct-to-altright 20 year olds have no idea what its like. to lose your youth wandering, lost in jooish edginess. not that MK is “jooish” edgyness. but it was def edgy. but in NO WAY was I ready to take AH and NS SERIOUSLY. It was more like yeaaahhhh worlds most evil man, genociding jooish children, badass evil black metal death metal mother fookerrrrrr rawwwwrrrrr metalllllllllll deathhhhhhh and destructionnnnnnnnn. get foookkedddd upppppp and genocide millions of pathetic, helpless victims, left to DIE! RANCID angel of DEATH, flying FREE!!!!! angel of death middle riff.wav

(not saying thats not a classic song!)

no idea that perhaps AH was in fact the greatest man since JESUS CHRIST, that maybe they didnt carry out the you-know-what as described, and that AH had the best plan for a happy, healthy hwyte society!!!!!!!!!

i accepted the jooish story that AH was an evil man…..but I also accepted a pretty jooish kind of nihilism and MORAL INVERSION that said that anything EVIL was KOOL and AWESOME!!!!!!

And 20 years later I ended up at, AH is Awesome again hahahahahaha. for all the RIGHT reasons this time.

heres a great business idea: find a way to transfer small amounts of bitcoin for no fee so that people could charge tiny fees and people could make tiny payments.

for example, pay me 25 cents in bitcoin to download this podcast. and then be able to easily send them 25 cents in bitcoin, with no fee.

as it is now, you cant even send 1 dollar BTC without paying god damn 60 cents fee.

meaning its really only worthwhile to send bitcoin at 5 dollars or above.

but its a lot easier to charge 25 cents for a podcast, than 5 dollars.

see what I’m getting at?

as the amount you send goes up, the amount (percentage) of fee goes DOWN. seemingly. I mean, at 1 dollar its 60 fooking percent, at 5 dollars its still like 10 percent, which is still way too damn high. the fees are too damn high with bitcoin.

anglin. at first I thought he was “low brow”. He might self-deprecatingly joke about himself being low brow. But I think he is actually smart af, possibly fooking genius autist levels. he could be a pure intellectual but he chooses not to, because he knows its not pure intellectuals that change the world, but MEN OF ACTION.

 

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mar 29

ok survived the day hahaha now i am reaching my crash time of 330 pm hehehe when REALLY  should be working till 5 pm if i start at 8 am. anything less is PATHETIC.

heh well you know whats MORE pathetic, is being a jobless NEET hahaha.

whats REALLY sad is 50 year old hwyte men who are jobless neets and so they sit in the library for 8 hours a day Applying For Jobs. honestly guys. it only takes 550 applications and 320 hours to Get A Job. in other words, you should stop seeing these men after 2 months because then they will have found a job. but they DONT. this is, i fear, because the jobs just arent there, also, 50 year old hwyte men are being DISCRIMINATED against hahaha

i was trying to find some leftist thing i saw today on the shitty leftist site medium.com written by a white marxist on why no, the white working class isn’t really dying off, and if it WERE, that wouldnt be so bad, would it? but i couldnt find it, and found a bunch of other shitty leftist articles instead and “threw up a little in my mouth”.

there is this popular leftist hipster brooklyn podcast called “chapo trap house” which i guess is what all the super cool leftist kids listen to now . i guess you could listen to it if you want to Know Your Enemy. well, you don’t. you already know they are pvssy wimpy unmasculine joos. wimpy white writers who say UGH. WHITE PEOPLE. and then cant bang slutty brooklyn white writer women because they are getting used as cvm dumpsters by masculine alt right chad nationalists hahahaha. that or negros hahaha.

there was an interview with one shitlib 28 year old harvard sociology phd student who does a shitlib magazine called “Current Affairs”, and he said, the thing the alt right does better than us is that they make themselves look COOL to weird outsider kids.

he’s not wrong!

hey i say thank GOD. back when I was young, the right was losing this battle, and leftist shit joos still looked COOL to rebellious teens. now the pendulum has swung the other way. im happy about that…..but nervous about when the pendulum is just gonna swing BACK again. we wont be on top forever, lads. trvmp will sell out and or only be one term. 4 short years. we’d better have a REAL movement established by then because our fooking RACE is DYING. we dont have any more time to lose.

everything you read that was written by a woman is crazy shit. don’t read stuff written by women because THE GOOD WOMEN DONT WRITE. I wish they did! they need to make themselves HEARD just to say not all women writers are like that! not all women are like women writers!

these degenerate leftist jooed journalist wimmin writing with filthy language about all the cox theyve taken and how evil trvmp is and how abortion is so great and diversity is so great and whites are so lame and virgin men are so bad. not all women are like this!!!!!!!

but the good ones don’t write articles that get hugely upvoted and shared!

you gotta really dig to find the article by a low-number woman who enjoys her traditional life!

i mean if youre reading VICE or MEDIUM  what the fook do you THINK youre gonna find.  and there are not really lots of women on the Alt Right. not that i WANT there to be. we are still figuring out womens role hahaha. well not really. stay in back and support us. give us children. dont start drama.

but maybe you can write articles, non dramatic articles, about the joys of a traditional life. that would be some good moral support and just let us know there are good women out there.

ok heres what im thinking. these WOMEN are such good voices for the marxist joo, with this horrible marxist jooish writing they do. its clear they are true believers in this crap. no one can speak marxist jooish bullshit better than a woman. they might arguably be better than MEN at it!

so do you think a women could be equally good at writing for Our Side?

I tried to think of a good female 1433 writer and couldnt. maybe savitri devi. i dunno.  i mean who is the female GLR? or the female andrew anglin for that matter? i mean i dont think we NEED one though. that isnt womens JOB. thats MENS job. i’m just basically asking women to write some moral support articles and say keep up the good fight lads, we’ll stand by you, even the betas and omegas who dont have a woman to literally stand by you.

im not even interested in other women. i’m semi interested in BANGING young beautiful women, but I’m more interested in just FORGETTING about THAT woman. because i still want HER. want her more than other women, i and i dont want that. i would love to want another woman like that. please GOD hahahaha. and just replace that woman always and forever. stop wanting her. just forget about her.

rational response: when some beautiful young gurl is being NICE to you and showing INTEREST in you, it will be REALLY EASY to FORGET about THAT woman and to get feelings for a new woman.

and yeah about the women writers, there should be a few more women writers writing moral support articles to support the men who are out there fighting. show some god damn gratitude, especially to the men who won’t get actual gratitude from an actual woman. these are still hwyte men too, and we need THEM just as much as we need women.

i guess i just want women to show more respect to Beetas and Omegas. they way they treat you like the scum of the earth, its like a healthy man treats a dirty whore. and being a Beeta simply isnt anywhere NEAR as morally deplorable as being a flthy whore. its not even necessarily inherently immoral to be a beeta male! but these women sure treat you like it sure IS!

but yeah hwyte men need to rise up and be strong and lead again. and then they will stop being beetas and women WILL show them gratitude and loyalty. but we have to SHOW STRENGTH first. strong horse. nobody likes a weak horse.

and i have certainly failed COMPLETELY at being a STRONG man. and yeah that is frustrating.

so yeah i would say maybe some YOUNG leftists and joos cant be held liable for literally wanting to genocide the white race. because most leftists are NAIVE and dont think its about hwyte genocide, its about making a Equal World where we can all live in Social Justice. We’re not trying to EXTERMINATE HWYTE people! you sound like a crazy person when you say that!

in fact maybe just a MINORITY of jooish leftists are NOT naive and ACTUALLY realize its about hwyte genocide.

so you dont charge them with genocide or first degree mvrder, you charge them with manslaughter and sentence them to getting the fook out of our country.

didnt mean to K hwytes? oh well, youre still K’ing whytes and now you must do the time.

and here i am, i dont even want women hahahaha, i just want one particular woman i havent seen or spoken to in almost 2 years hahahah. get over it!

actually even more i wish i had a work ethic like most normies. to work 20 hours a day for years just for a CHANCE at a 30k a year job.

hint: get a engin degree and you will have an easy time getting a 30k job. electrical, mechanical, chemical. you even get a CHOICE hahaha.

and you can totally do it by age 20 or maybe even 19. this is what we need to sell to young white boys. like, younger than 14. because we want them to start COLLEGE at age 14. have the engin degree at age 18. start making 40 grand at 18. be making 80 grand by 30. damn. establish 49 employee companies and hire only whyte men. by acreage in rural areas. have the wives do a hwyte homeschool network.

shit could do homeschool college as well. shits all online anyway.

but i do think a 16 year old boy taking brick and mortal college classes with 19 year old sluts is perfect.

well, perfect is getting married to your High School Age Sweetheart. the next best thing is being a “fun project” for a 19 or 20 year old slut when you are 16.

but where you gonna meet them in engin classes, also if gurls arent going to college and becoming sluts in the first place.

easy, you meet them through their fathers when they see you as a promising young man making good money at age 18 who is looking for a nice 17 year old gurl.

i am very interested in education, but i just want to throw the whole jooed system out and start over. is there a masters degree in THAT? are there jobs in THAT? in destroying the system and starting anew? hahahaha.

well DISRUPTION is a big thing in companies now hahahahaha.

DISRUPT THE JOO.

START UP THE ROTORS.

FIRE UP THE OVENS.

you will know them by their handiwork.

funny that we goys see only their wreckage but never them themselves. so you come to hate women and hate negros and hate nonwhites when really none of them deserve your hate. father forgive them for they know not what they do hahahaha.

well, def the women dont. and the negros. pretty sure the arabs know what they are doing.

so youre saying an arab is smarter than a white woman?

NO, i’m saying that all women are easily cowed and swayed. they are natural followers.

unfort i am a natural follower as well, never was big on leading.

really i dont want to go through the STRUGGLE of MEETING somebody, getting to KNOW someone, putting in the two years to actually get to know and trust them, it takes a long time, and i already had that FAMILIARITY and TRUST and KNOWLEDGE with That Woman.

but heres the thing. me Getting To Know her didnt feel like a goddamn STRUGGLE. it happened so NATURALLY. there was no effort or heavy lifting or forcing.

and that probably contributed to me falling in luv, feeling like this was a SIGN from GOD, that she was the ONE, because i expected so much STRUGGLING getting to know a woman, as I do now, and that didnt happen at ALL. the struggling came later, in trying to deal with The End. basically just trying to confirm that i was not a horrible traitor who had done a horribly immoral thing. i had to do all those mental gymnastics myself hahahaha.

hey i admit it i was no innocent. i deserve to be ashamed for some of it, and god damn was i ever. i was a coward weakling. it LOOKED bad. and the timing was bad. i KNEW she was having some family issues and was pretty stressed about that. in the long run that is what i will feel worst about. but i will get over it hahahaha. the fact that i “waited” until she was facing something outside of her control in her family, to “spring” this on her, when she was already super stressed out about that.

but again i dont think this is betrayal or treason or warranted treating me as such.

and it was no single joo who turned her father into a muh dick hwyte negro deadbeat, but through the partially-covert actions of many joos and many accomplice goys who didnt fully realize the type of degen fatherless muh dick culture they were creating.

does anyone GO INTO education with the idea that, welp, i can’t DO, so I might as well TEACH? I think most teachers would violent protest that old Pejorative saying “if you can’t do, teach.” but i would GO INTO teaching with that defeatist attitude hahaha.

also theres a popular idea that you need ot fail to succeed. well not if you fail so god damn much that you stop wanting to TRY, or your attempts become so half-baked and half-assed that they couldn’t possibly succeed.

also i wish you could fail in the workplace more. but you cant, or then you get fired for losing the company money. thats why people are perfectionists who are afraid of failure!

maybe my dream job would be working in a Dual Enrollment program at a comm college. so i could get 14 year olds into college and not a thoroghly jooed one. def would need a masters degree for this job though. and there are damn sure not a LOT of jobs in this field hahaha.  there would be FIERCE competition amongst a group of people with masters degree in Dual Enrollment College Administration.

ideally it would be in a more rural area so as to maximize the number of Hwytes i would serve and minimize the number of nonhwytes. i dont want to HURT any nonhwytes, I just want to HELP hwytes MORE. serve and strengthen my race.

i wouldnt have to worry about any J’s because they simply dont go to these working class colleges. period.

would i h8 joos less if i knew any working class joos? if I thought there WERE any working class joos? but there ARE! though def not the norm for them. those people hahahahaha.

no more than 25% of joos are working class. and that is a VERY generous number hahahaha. prob closer to 5%. source needed hahaaha.

insanely cute and nice 18 year old hwyte girl working at local arbys hahaha. seems like a literally nice sweet uncorrupted unjooed gurl. also is 100% undeniably hwyte. nothing questionable at all in this one. if i were hanging out wiht her and she was being NICE to me AND showing that she would be interested in Monog Dating…..i would forget That Woman ever existed!!!!!

but honestly this gulr is way out of my league. when i was 20 i might have judged her for working at ARBYS hahaha. now i dont care.  i say good for her. as long as she doesnt use it as a slippery slope to degeneracy or opioid epidemic or mudsharking. if she has a good father all will be fine.

because of her nice and innocent demeanor i would assume she does has a good father. but i shouldnt do that. because That Woman had a nice and innocent demeanor, not even demeanor, she was actually nice and innocent but she had a horrible father!

anyway, i prefer nice, innocent women to bitchy, slutty women hahahaha. what a concept.

but yeah. i do hate the idea that SHE WAS TOUGHER THAN ME. she, who i held in such high regard, outcompeting me on TOUGHNESS, a quality i hold in the highest regard.

yeah but if she was REALLY actually tougher than me, she would have just told me, sorry, we’re done, you’re not a BAD GUY and i dont hate you, but I just dont feel that way, the end. we had a good run while it lasted. then i prob would have had months less of pain hahaha. had a better experience. wouldnt be so butthurt about her being TOUGHER than me.

language is powerful hahaha. lets stop calling it the jooish QUESTION and start calling it the jooish PROBLEM. daily stormer does this hahaha. so did GLR.

by page 80 in “whyte power” GLR names the J and he doesnt stop naming them after that point hahaha.

its FUNNY how the pro legalization MJ degenerates which i probably am, seem to think that MJ does not affect your driving AT ALL. they completely dismiss that out of hand the way people dismiss nazis. this is disingenuous, bad faith, and jooish af. how can you say alcohol impairs your driving but gettig blazed af doesn’t??????!!!!!!

i just want to get blazed as fook! i’ll even try not to drive hahahaha.

yeah i dont think it damages your driving ability as much as alcohol. but to say it has no effect is ridiculous. you might as well do away with dui laws hahahaha. which i might not be against hahahaha. but without dui laws i might start drinking again after like 8 years. i actually probably would.

so that proves these laws are GOOD?

i mean its terrible drunk drivers K people.

so HOW terrible is it when people have 3 drinks and then drive?

yeah but i wasnt having 3 drinks and driving. what i was doing WAS terrible, law or not.

but it is stupid you can pass out drunk in the drivers SEAT of the car and get a DUI. i actually did that once hahahaha. slept it off in the front seat. didnt have the keys in. is that a critical thing?

anyway i fully admit to drinking too much. having a medium Drinking Problem. I did it and i am not proud of it!

mar 30

found this chrome extension called onetab which sends all your tabs to one single tab which contains a list of links. the idea is so they are not running and eating up your memory with 31 tabs of jooish pron hahahaha.

really simple concept. basically have a list of your most frequently used links and then click on them to load the page rather than have them open all the time. but i like anything that can Reduce Muh Memory Footprint hahaha. OneTab. you can easily add and remove links. not add duplicate links. its basically like history or bookmarks but your top 20 pages.

and then just open like 3 or 4 tabs at a time rather than 14 hahahaha.

its EMBARASSING  I havent used this or a similar app before (there are several to choose from, i only picked onetab because it had a lot of ratings) but the chrome extention “store” is hard to browse like a power user. cant get a good buy in very well. it doesnt share out very well hahahahahaha.  cant really deep dive into there and share it out. hard to get a good buy in.

https://www.one-tab.com

try it out nd make your comp 95 times faster hahaha

i would dnate a dollar to them if they were hwyte, but they dont even beg for dnations! so they MUST be hwyte hahaha.

if you do something useful, valuable, or important, you SHOULD get paid joobux for it.

everybody likes johnny cash but we could all stand to be more familiar with the song that gave him his name:

listen to something other than ring of fire, boy named sue or hurt hahaha.

when i was a young man i played the song at a party, hope it didnt sound too shitty because i was drunk af. it certainly didnt help me get any action hahaha. but its weird. its a very SOCIAL JUSTICE, MARXIST sort of message, but I still think its a good, meaningful, sincere song. i felt it spoke to me, and also explained my own penchant for the Gloomy which i had somewhat a reputation for, hahahaha, and often wore Black, prob still do.

and i do generally agree with the social justice message of the song, that some people just get a raw deal, get shat on, and dont deserve it, and we should have sympathy for them and try to help those less fortunate.

wish i had played the song well enough to get some makeout action though hahahaha. i probably could have, but i had oneitis on some dame who wasnt the least interested hahaha. she was an ok person but i should have just avoided her. that was impossible though, i saw her EVERY DAY without even TRYING and she hung out with my friends. SAVAGE.wav.

i should have immediately gone to the shrink, changed muh major to engin, stopped drinking cold turkey, saw the shrink 2 times a week, got a nice suit, and gone to the career center every day trying to get a 28k entry level engin job. but noooooooooo.

my weekend has begun hahaha. some MJ would be ideal. instead i ate a big dinner, too many calories, and had 1 benedryl, and now 1 valium, plan on 1 more valium, and 1 more ebendryl. try not to drink too much coffee to NULLIFY it.

damn this onetab is GREAT. why didnt i do this YEARS ago. if there are 2 things i am obsessed with……..hahahaha its joos and women hahahaha. i mean tabbed browsing and Memory Usage.

i thought of doing a black metal album with great songs and great lyrics that were pretty much very fashy, alt right, VVN, 14ee, not degenerate, not morally subversive but morally upright, and very JQ  JP aware, but i would not name the j00 until the very last word of the lyrics for the album, but make sly references throughout. but wouldnt be able to be accused of being anti-semitic until that last line of lyrics was brought up because it actually use the word Joo for the first and last time to unambiguously name what i was talking about.

but i cant write good lyrics and I sure as hell cant write good music!

well thats false. i’ve written both before! just not a lot. esp in comparison with the bad and shitty and worse than mediocre!

just an idea, had no intention of actually doing it myself haha.

heh took bendryl #2 a little early. just gonna skip valium #2 and replaced it with a Benedryl. will take Benedryl #3 right before bed.

this is better than drinking. it is technically better than MJ too…..but i dont really believe that because i desperately yearn for MJ.

old GLR sneakily avoided naming the J for the first 80 pages…..i think i just said this yesterday. anyway point is, he is going fullblast on them now, thats for sure. nicely describes them as parasites and tapeworms.

heh. those son of a btiches kicked me off the TRS discord because i didnt go through the formal extreme vetting process there hahahahahaha. not that i ever used it! but discord is a potentially good chat/meeting/voice system.  might be a good way for me to Actually Socialize with people. i guess i already do that at my job, by getting better at being friendly and talking to the people there.

i guess like once a month i feel like being social hahahaha and not a total loner weirdo. the rest of the time i just want to be alone doing MJ. it was different with that woman. i liked spending time with her. it gave some hard competition to being a loner haha. made me want to reconsider that path hahaha. now i am just mainly content being a loner again. not even terribly LONELY. when i was 20, 21, etc, back then i got a lot more LONELY at the thought of being/becoming a loner. now it doesnt bother me nearly as much.

but i still might like to be somewhat less of a loner. hang out with friends a LITTLE more, and DEFINITELY have a special waifu woman. i think its much better to have a special person like that, than to not. yuge value add there.  makes life without seem very bland and boring and disappointing by comparison.

14BB hehehehe 14ee which one looks better

i might have to go back and relisten to david dukes my awakening. i listened to a lot of the audio book a few years ago and really enjoyed it. would totally recommend it. learned a lot. first learned about the evil degenerate talmud hehehe.

you can probably find a pdf or txt file on the internet hehe but its really much better just to read an actual paper book.

so whats worse? MJ prohibition, or MJ being legalized in a way where there are really really really jooish laws and taxes and regulations where people are still strongly attracted by the Black Market because the Legal Market is such a Shitty Deal? or you can go to jail for using too much hahahaha.

i mean im still wondering about the DRINKING laws. i mean yeah SHOULDNT there be laws against drunk driving, and public drunkenness, Open Intox, Open Container laws, disorderly conduct, etc.

so shouldnt legal MJ similar have a bunch of stupid strict laws? or is it better to have it be Criminalized? i dont see how i could POSSIBLY be BETTER. and its much more likely to be legalized if you can give govt and jooz a way to PROFIT off it.

i mean it doesnt take a super crafty joo to see that a lot of MONEY can be made here. follow the money. so why dont they do it? because it takes THAT long for govt and legislation to MOVE?

but the SCOTUS made gay marriage legal OVERNIGHT. couldnt they make MJ legal overnight? not that they SHOULD, but COULDNT they, and if jooz run everything, why dont they want MJ to be legal? what is the thinking here. so this proves joos dont run the US. because MJ isnt legal NOW. hahahaha.

yeah but they make money off it being illegal too.  i guess the jooish business analysts ahve crunched the numbers and determined they make more money off it being illegal than it being legal. and all the degen potheads say look at colorado making a whopping 5 million dollars a year for EDUCATION oooo this is doing SO MUCH GOOD.

of course as a born again fascist, im not so sure legalizing drugs or even just MJ is a good idea after all!

and i fully admit its for my own selfish degeneracy. it would certainly be bad for society as a whole.

besides, how many HWYTE people are going to PRISON for MJ? not a lot.  i bet even fewer blacks are going to prison for MJ. LEO probably want to bust dealers of harder drugs and just dont care about softer drugs so much.

so who do the crooked cops sell the seized drugs to? back to the mexican cartels? probably hahahaha.

how much of seized drugs are illegally sold by crooked cops? 50% of the drugs? i cant believe cops are THAT crooked hhaha. i mean i thought the drugs were SUPPOSED to be DESTROYED.

i just cant go to my local police dept and be like ay bros want to sell me some drugs?

i would be MUCH better off going to random shady negros in the shady negro area of town.

i mean i would pay a shady arab doctor extra money to give me a Non Extremely Vetted recommendation for an MMJ card. you pay extra money so they can be extra shady and say here you go, here’s a MMJ card for your insomnia and anxiety hahahahaha and i will just check chronic pain on the state application. i mean i would pay much higher than the going rate for that extra shadiness. like dirty sluts willing to suck off the doctor for more opioid pills. i wouldnt suck anybody off ever though hahaha.

mar 31

have been overeating a lot without even trying lately. so, prob will gain a few pounds. not a huge deal, but obv want to keep eye on it. friday in lent is perfect time to try a Fast hahahaha. cut cals. drinking warm coffee with butter. this is acceptable hehehe.

you could just use a folder of bookmarks in chrome to do the same thing as this onetab extension.

trying something a little diff with muh day off. instead of shooting right off to errands, i am immed doing laundry right now. will do the errands when they are either drying or out of the dryer. almost abotu to put in dryer nao.

10:55 of sleep last nite compared to the usual 7 hahaha. this is how i bring the average up to 8:30 hehehehe.

ok put stuff into dryer. havent left yet obv. just sitting here drinking butter hahaha that i wish had MJ in it!

nobody ever told me that every conversation, every PART of a conversation, every INTERACTION, every word you say, is a COMPETITION or a STRUGGLE, where if YOU don’t say something INTERESTING, or FUNNY, or VALUABLE, or USEFUL to them, or PLEASING to them, then they think you are an IDIOT or an ASSHOLE or a WEAKLING or a JOO.  or a terrible person. a child molester or a traitor or a betrayer.

my least fav are being thought of as an IDIOT, or INCOMPETENT, or a Bad Person. A Morally Weak Coward or Liar or Joo. or an Inferior MAN –  an omega male. a Bootlicker who could only pull an Inferior Woman – if any woman at all.

it doesnt matter what other people think of you……but yes it does when you are trying to impress employers, colleagues, bosses, clients, women, friends! of COURSE you care about how they perceive you!!!!!! perception is reality hahahaha.

left another encouraging comment on a new george feels video just now. good for me hahahaha but also good for HIM. he is pushing in a  good direction and i want to encourage that and see more of it.

also i think he might be sympathetic to 14BB but not want to come out and say it. which is understandable. so i want to signal to him that yep this is a good way to be bro but im not such a loose cannon that i would ever blow your cover. like come on your channel saying HH, 1433, defoo the joo etc. cuz he puts his real face out there for the whole world to see. this is pretty much totally incompatible with espousing pro-hwite views.

ok finished laundry, out of dryer. even put clothes away. so, absoutely time to go do the errands. 1240pm.

i got to thinking, all of “mental illness” is inherently jooish. and jooish are inherently mentally ill!!!!!! mental illness is the Mental Joo, basically a mindvirus mindparasite burrowing into your mind and destroying it from within. whether its derpression or anxiety, or something more serious hehehe. so yeah im not saying its not real. it’s real as fook just as these destructive parasites are real!

my bold claim is to view your own “mental illness” as a little parasite JOO that is very literally trying to personally destroy YOU and your mind and your life, and its up to you and your trusted ones to grip it and rip it out forcefully and finally!!!!!

you dont want a little hand rubbing merchant in your mind, do you!!!!?????!!?????

George’s video on JUNG is very timely, seems like a SIgn from PROVIDENCE to me!

did some quick googling on this essay only to find its very controversial hahahahaha. ie joos used it to say jung was a nazi and supported AH. shit i hope he DID! all the more reason for me to read and luv JUNG!

and all the more reason to read the essay and all the more reason to be glad that george is looking at it. probably him dogwhistling again, and i fully appreciate it, and again, im not gonna blow his cover. but the neet virgin liberatardians arent calling him a natzee yet and i dont want to clue them in. but george doesnt need these people on his side anyway. but he doesnt need people calling him a natzee right now, or ever, so i’m not gonna help them do it. as i say, his Real Life Face is Doxed, so he doesn’t need anything BAD tied to that.  so i want to be real careful with what i say to him publicly. i mean i can email him for private talks. not that i would do that more than once every 2 months hahahaha.

tired of honey nut cheerios, switching over to peanut butter crunch hahahaha. yes i know cereal is terrible. well its not as bad as pizza or ice cream or cookies or pie hehe.

http://www.philosopher.eu/others-writings/essay-on-wotan-w-nietzsche-c-g-jung/

theres the actual jung essay full text, and not a damn dissertation on why it is a nazi thing. looks like kerry bolton wrote a good thing on counter currents. which, of course, are nazis hahahahahahahahahaha. no im kidding. dr greg is a good guy and he wrote me a nice thank you note for my insultingly small donation to CC.

anyway that full essay, not sure about that translation, and DEF the formatting is fooked, with words being joined together and such. proofread that shit!

i guess david lane started his wotanism based on that essay. Will Of The 4y4an People was what he said WOTAN stands for hahahaha. no complaints here. Lane was the creator of the 14W after all! great guy! should get HIS books!

https://archive.org/details/TheJewishStrategy

by Revilo P. Oliver. I should read this hehehehe

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/brad-pitt-losing-weight-and-his-mind-after-whore-wife-ruins-his-life/95662

i am now courageous enough to return to the bbs after i made a post about a week ago, then afraid to see if people had responded to me. i havent read the thread, but i think a few people upvoted me!

but yeah AA shares muh butthurt over women at the risk of being called MGTOWish. no we are not MGTOWs, but god damn are women SO jooed that is is DISGUSTING. you cant be blamed for hating them a little bit, even when you KNOW its the j’s who made them this way. you wish they could resist the J even just a LITTLE bit and not be completely horrible people hahahaha.

http://archive.is/PfIWU

archive of Andrew’s article hehehe

QUOTE

This narrative of “you aren’t good enough for women” being reinforced by men is absolute poison. Our race is only going to continue to exist if we fix gender relations, and so anyone who promotes this type of a narrative is a traitor to the race. Anyone who sides with feminism in any way is helping to destroy our race.
So please, don’t allow this to continue.

Do not be ashamed.

If somebody claims that someone else is having trouble with women because he’s not a good enough man, call him out for supporting the feminist agenda against white men.

Nevermind the Sluts – Talk to Your Brothers and Never, Ever, Ever Man-Shame

The other big, BIG issue: don’t feel like you have to pretend you’re not having any problems with women.

Everyone is having problems with women, but we have a cultural climate where it is like saying “I HAVE A TINY DICK” to talk about it.

In fact, many men will engage in the above mentioned “man-shaming” of other white males. This is absolutely disgusting, and it is inexcusable.

It only helps the sluts.   ” END

NEVER EVER EVER EVER MAN-SHAME.

AND NEVER EVER EVER EVER BE AFRAID TO SAVAGELY SLUT-SHAME.

THANK YOU ANDREW!!!!!

i wonder if his qt hwyte gf left him and now he is sad and angry.

well, he SHOULD be sad and angry, and that only makes what he writes here even MORE correct!!!!!

read this article 10 times every day and give him your money hahahaha.

women are just 16 year old gurls, of COURSE they are gonna dump you and BLAME YOU for it!

trying to red pill your woman is like trying to red pill your DOG (or cat.) don’t try to get the dog to understand. just be a strong leader and your dog will follow you in your fight against the J’s. don’t expect them to understand. THE TYRANNY OF HIGH EXPECTATIONS hahahahaha

so really by acting like a 14 year old gurl and blaming me, That Woman acted exactly like how you’d expect a woman to act. i was naive and didnt know how to handle it. oh well. at least now i think i learned a valuable lesson about women. always be dominant. never expect more responsibility or maturity or wisdom out of them than you’d expect out of a 14 year old gurl IT’S JUST THE WAY THEY ARE.

some men would say slapping a woman in the face is every effective, i dunno, i don’t think i would ever be comfortable with that. i do think SPANKING them would be VERY effective and I would LOVE the cahnce to test that hypothesis. i mean slapping them in the face just seems TOO savage, too nonwhite. hwyte men don’t NEED to slap their woman in the FACE.

shit, negros and semites will brutally PUNCH their women in the face and bludgeon their skulls with blunt objects!

i absolutely showed no dominance whatsoever. i mean i was at a low point hahaha.

it just also really bothers me that i have to COMPETE with these 14 year old gurls for JOBS, and they get masters degree and outperform me in the workplace, sometimes doing honestly tough jobs, and being TOUGHER than me. 14 year old gurls arent TOUGH and dont WORK very hard!!!!!

anyway. i just esp like it when AA writes about women. his haters say he is a woman hater. i say he’s prob just been hurt by too many jooified, degenerate women, just like many of us. i might SPECULATE that he has had a recent drama with a woman that has left him extra hurt! which is FINE! it happens to us all, and these struggles and heartbreak build TREMENDOUS character in a man!

come on. do you know how many WOMEN are MAN haters? most of them!

but yeah i especially like when AA says never ever ever shame any man for being beta or whatever.

ol uncle varg borders on doing this. well you’re just not MAN enough to DESERVE a woman.

i will always luv uncle varg, but I am closer to AA’s POV here. like god damn, these women really ARE garbage, and we have to stand in solidarity with our white Brothers. BROES BEFORE HOES!!!!!!!!

oh youre just mad about not Getting Any.

Well, YES! a little bit. part of that is my fault sure, but a big part is WOMEN being huge sluts! or Slags, as the brits call them.

slores, sluts, slags, skanks.

i will white-knight on occasion. i just dont want to do it too much. and i never want to manshame unless the man is really actually doing something jooish or negrish or sinful or bad or bad faith and not just being a white knight niceguy lickspittle woman-loving beta. dont SHAME him for being INNOCENT.

i bet he did just get dumped hahaha. well i would be there for AA if he needed a manfrand hahahaha. i am concerned that he doesnt do enough real life socializing.  i thought he was back in the US. he could totally find decent men to hang out with, he just has to get out there. like there are TRS and DS goys even in my area and if I tried, I could probably meet up with them. but i would worry about being rejected for being a loser. or that the person would be a tattooed felon type.

so….youre makign fun of me for being an idiot for betting when i had the nut flush? why is it dumb to bet when you have the nuts and are guaranteed to win???? are you supposed to call and hope the other guy bets? how the fook was it dumb of me to bet????? youre SURPRISED that I “ACTUALLY” Bet with the nuts? am I not understanding something here?

is it stupid to bet on QUADS too? am i supposed to slowplay these all the time? heh i have been playing poker very recreationally for like 5 years and it looks like i havent learned a god damn thing about actual strategy. feels bad man.

maybe the guy was just bantzing me. everyone likes to shoot their mouth off about how they are the smartest poker expert ever.

i am playing at a higher stakes table than i like because nobody is in the lower stakes one.

i mean i dont get nut flush very often. about as often as full house or quads ahhahahahahaa. but i do get quads more often than i thought i ever would.

anyway i hope anglin is hanging out wth people rather than just sitting alone doing daily stormer stuff. a person needs to be a little social and have some friends to do real life stuff with. says ME hahahaha. if he had a GF and she was his only real life person and she dumped him, that could be extra devastating. just speculating.

you could say its stupid to get into the cult of personality but i think it’s actually natural and healthy. you read anglin’s stuff for years, you start to feel more attached to him, like you sort of KNOW him, and that they are KIND of your buddy in that you sympathize with them, want the best for them, sometimes donate money to them, and wouldnt’ mind hanging out with them sometime. doesn’t mean you stalk them. but you do kinda wonder about their life story. their family and friends and them growing up. and enough of anglins story is out there to put together something of a picture.

he says he gets along with with his parents, so that is good.

he is very tight lipped about where he is living now, and i cant blame him, because jooz have been protesting outside his father’s office lately. jooz have called and confronted both his mother and his father. disgraceful.

i know he’s not REALLY my buddy, but i have the greatest respect for him and want the best for him. and that includes being happy in his social life and luv life. i dont want him to be a friendless foreveralone! I guess you could say I CARE about him!

but yeah i dont have any sick fantasies or delusions that he is my buddy or anything.

i just think that when a person puts themself out there like that, they can’t blame other people for getting a little bit attached to them. like mike enoch saying you dont know me, you’re not my buddy, i’m just a guy with a microphone, i’m not a leader. when you start to get FANS and people listening to your content regularly, then yeah to me thats a kind of social contract. you are SOMEWHAT responsible to your fans. i mean, you WANTED people to LISTEN to you, right? you cant just shit on your audience.

not that mike REALLY did that. well, he sorta said some of those things haha.

shit im not even sure what anglin’s position is on all this. maybe he would try to WEASEL about being “held to a higher standard just because i am the creator of daily stormer.”

heh. just saying if I were the creator of the daily stormer, i’d kinda EXPECT to be held to a higher standard than some autist troll in the comments!!!

 

 

 

sun nov 12

mar 27

yep here at 652 am, all dressed up, showered, ready to go, prob have one more explosive BM in 10 minutes, then go and have productive, powerful, valuable, value-adding, value-making day hahahaha.

hmm 7:15 of sleep last night, not great hahahahaha. see how the best laid plans go awry. went to bed at 8pm. numbers are point to near 9 hours of sleep needed. ok fine. deal with it.jpg. really SHOULD go to bed at 7:15 pm then but that would just look too weird.

checked email, calendar, before going to job here.

the story of the student who spent 12 hours working a 12 hour midnight shift in a machine shop then feel asleep the next morning because he was going to COLLEGE in the am and working 12 hours during the night. holy shit. i can barely work 6 hours of an easy job then do ANYthing afterwards, let alone go to a 3 hour college class in the morning hahahaha.

and i actually had a little energy today! not sure where that came from hahaha since i “only” got 7:15 of sleep last night.

normal people work 12 hour shifts at night from…. 8pm to 8am, making 10 dollars an hour, so they can take a class from 9am to 1pm that gets them 1% closer to becoming qualified to compete for 14 dollar an hour jobs hahahaha.

its amazing. i never knew that normies worked so HARD. i figured that the normal normie was LAZY like me. most people go for the path of LEAST RESISTANCE, right? its why so many people are so GROTESQUELY OBESE. because fatty food is cheap and unlimited, and people cant CONTROL THEMSELVES. so how can they control themselves to become damn WORKAHOLICS? but they cant control themselves not to become GROTESQUELY obese? something just doesnt make sense here!!!!!

ok maybe they save all their self control for work, so they dont have any left when it comes to eating. that MUST be how it works.

well then how come they arent PROFLIGATE drinkers or opioid poppers either?

because THE RULE IS, you have enough self control to keep you from being hopelessly addicting from All Things But ONE. Pick One. every person has ONE tragic flaw. not two, but one and only one hahahahaha.

sooo……..how come plenty of other people are opioid poppers AND huge losers who can’t work? thats TWO tragic flaws hahahahaha.

basically in order to be a normie successful adult so you can have an ok wife and take care of your children and make 30k a year, you have to be willing to work 12 hour midnight shifts and THEN go to SKOOL afterwards for YEARS until you get your degree and can then afford to have a wife and a family. if you’re not willing to work that HARD for that LONG, you dont deserve a family of your own hahahahahahahaha.

well whats WRONG with that?

well, other than that is my RULE for Why I can never get married and have children!

what else….

oh well i just never wanted to be a WORKAHOLIC, so that’s why im a huge loser now. all those drug bums sucking dick on the streets, the only reason they’re like that is not because they werent willing to WORK, but because they werent willing to be WORKAHOLICS.

i only want to work 40 hours a week and not an hour more, that is why i’m a HUGE LOSER AT LIFE. see, something doesnt add up hahahaha.

just remember. the qt nice perfect gurl you want to buy FLOWERS for, is just some more manly guys DIRTY BUTTSLUT. taking it up the ass from guys she just met at COLLEGE in a drunken orgy. and you want to be all nice and pedestally and white knight to THAT? a dirty BUTT SLUT??!?!?!!

oh but she’s special TO ME. yeah well to other men she is just a dirty butt slut literally taking it up the ass. you can’t undo that.

heh sorry i am watching a law and order SVU about College Raep Epidemic of innocent gurls getting GangReaped at Frat Parties by evil hwyte boys.

the hunting ground.mov

college sluts who get gang reaped then go to psych ward for 2 years end up becoming more successful in life than me hahahahaha. get out of the psych ward, go back to skool, get masters degree as a raep crisis counselor, MA.

oh god i really am horrible. no i dont think any gurl deserves to get raeped, even the ones who are literally asking for it. white men dont raep women ever, period, not even the dirtiest trashiest fatherless butt sluts.

you know what kind of men DO raep women? negros. joos. arabs. any hwyte man who raeps a woman is basically a race traitor.

goddamn. ate too much at dinner again.

also saw at least one beautiful hwyte young college gurl today, wearing jeans that I as her father would not let her wear. why do they have to wear pants that are SO TIGHT? i know we are not ARABS who need our women in BURKA DURKAS, but my god, I thought MODESTY was a hwyte virtue!

how about a nice long skirt? how about pants that DONT perfectly cling to your buttocks, legs, thighs, hips like a Second Skin???!?!?!?!!?! damn!

i just hate the thought of women i Luved going off and being dirty butt sluts. A woman should NEVER, EVER be a dirty butt slut, EVER. its not just some PHASE you go through when you are 18 to 21. NO. NEVER. EVER. EVER.

well its hard to believe i even GOT feelings for her (not really). i mean these “all women are dirty sluts” thoughts are nothing new for me, i’ve been thinking this way since i was like 13 hahahahahahahaha.

but the reason its not surprising i feel in luv with her was, she was YOUNG, she was HWYTE, she didnt have any KIDS, she was very NICE to me, and we were FRIENDS and built up some closeness, we KNEW each other.  also she was a Solid 7, Not Potatoey, Long Legs, very whyte skin, there were no real dealbreakers about her physically. like being a stumpy potato or nonwhyte or old or blatantly Haggishly Fugly is really it for me.

anyway this is dead horse shit. not even interesting.

well bitcoin coming back up again thank GOD.

i felt pretty good until I came home, THEN i felt like a lazy bum who didnt want to be a workaholic to survive. when i am Working On The Clock, i feel a LITTLE bit more normie. well unless I think, this doesnt COUNT, this is not a proper normie bigboy job. then yeah that  thought sucks too.

i guess ALL of it is technically WAY better than being a 100% jobless neet.

great TITS on that marishka hargitay, even if she is a manfaced lanternjaw manjaw. would totally bang.

and i dont mean to minimize the rest of her body by saying she has GREAT TITS. im sure she probably has a BRETTY GOOD ass as well!!!!

hehehe. this is what the LORD has destined for me, to be constantly AT WAR with women. yeah MOST of that is ON ME, i fully admit it……but SOME of it is on them. they dont HAVE to be so horrible. yeah its all da jooz fault. but god damn. cant they RESIST the jooing even a TINY bit? no! they LUV it! they LUV being negro whores!!!!!

not all women! some women, it DOES bother them on some deep level, and they say, there must be more to life than this. than being chad, tyrone, and achmed’s dirty butt slut on instagram and tinder.

even the women i knew in COLLEGE to be HUGE SLUTS werent as big of sluts as the Fictional Slut in my MIND, this horrible fantasy nightmare of the sluttiest slut who ever existed (but who really NEVER existed.) sure, plenty of women are slutty and gross, but not THIS slutty and gross.

if i could Literally make a CAREER out of slut shaming I would. I would WILLINGLY, EAGERLY get a MASTERS DEGREE in it.

What would YOU get a masters degree in?

well ok that one doesnt exist. what are my safety nets.

Joo Exposing. Eradicating Jooish Degeneracy.

nope sorry that one doesnt exist either.

becoming and UNbecoming a Neet Loser. i guess that one might exist, as a counselor, therapist, psychologist, social worker, shrink.

so THATS what I should become then? a SOCIAL WORKER??????? a COUNSELOR?

oh yeah. marriage and relationship counselor. that would also be good hahaha. man woman relshits i mean ships.

from a very unpozzed, hwyte, nonjooish perspective.

but all education/training/research in this fields is HEAVILY jooed, as is basically anything thats not a hard stem science. you literally CANNOT ESCAPE it if you want to get the degree and work in the field.

and plenty of people leave the field and become Customer Service Agents because that pays better and they have mouths to feed.

which you can totally do without a Masters Degree, even in Current Year.

Can’t say that will ALWAYS be the case though.

WHAT A WORLD that would be. in 2027, you wont even be able to get a job in a Customer Service Call Center unless you have a MASTERS DEGREE in Customer Service. HOLY FOOK.

oh sorry. you have a masters degree in customer service but not a masters degree in customer service in a phone call center, looks like YOUR masters degree was in face to face customer service.

right major, but wrong CONCENTRATION hahahaha.

shit think i drank too much coffee today. might not be able to sleep tonight even though i plan on going to bed at decent hour. damn.

you know who doesnt think every woman is a degenerate slut?

chad normies who have been with 1 woman every 2 years since age 18 who are average hard workers who get average bachelors degrees in business related stuff and average 35k a year jobs at age 22, get married by 28, have a kid by 30. raise their kids to not be racist like the terrible older generations. cant take the kids around their racist great-grandparents. smh. those uneducated racists just lived in different times and didnt know any better.

well can you prove to me it ISNT White Systemic Racism that causes all the social problems of The Blacks? you cant! just like YOU cant prove that its all because of their Race!

ok. so its impossible to prove a negative. you cant prove that this ISNT the case. so youre right. I CANT prove it ISNT whtie racism. you cant prove it isnt jooish racism hahahaha. i CAN prove it IS jooish racism! you cant prove it IS hwyte racism!

i clearly need to get back to muh GLR, i am going Nutty.

im just jelly of normie adults. i just want to BE one but its so god damn hard. such a god damn struggle. they WORKED harder than I did, but I think I STRUGGLED MORE than THEM.

too bad the Struggle wasn’t worth more WORK. hahahaha. then i would be making like 35k a year and married a nonslut.

thats the problem with struggling. its even more exhausting than work, but COUNTS for much LESS.  it gets you NOWHERE, AND it wears you out and makes you less likely to do the work that IS actually worth something.

damn.

sheeeeeeit. again ate wayyyyy too much today. god damn. really got to stop this.

so i thought that my interest in race was a part of my “dad phase”, where i wanted to have children but wasn’t man enough, so i will have children symbolically through My Race.

but then today i thought, well its more than just Having Children, it’s Relating To Women as well. the natural connection between men and women, which then leads to children. I dont have children but kinda want children, so i project that onto Race. I don’t have a waifu but I want a (hwyte) waifu….so I project that onto Race as well. these are both pretty big desires, so thus I am a HUGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEE racist. Which I proudly AM. I FOOKING LUV BEING HWYTE.

i mean its only logical. really our race is just a product of thousands of years of hwyte men and hwyte women getting together and having hwyte children!!!!!!! that is Race 101 right there!

ok. so i am obsessed with My Hwyte Race because I am obsessed with Women, with Children, with my own sense of Failure and needing something to cling to. SO WHAT. the only one that’s kinda BAD is that third one.

so….you’re saying if i HAD a woman, I wouldn’t CARE about RACE so much??!?!?!

who the fook am I arguing with here hahahahahaha. i mean this isnt even really fun, its just boring.

when i was in luv with that woman, i didn’t suddenly throw muh race under the bus. i was still very pro-hwyte.

the bottom line is, i’ve been pretty much blatantly pro-white since 2012, before this blog began, i was just more careful back then not to talk about it so blatantly, cuz it was still kinda new and scary.

you think young joos are consciously trying to genocide the goy? fook no! even as they get older i dont think this is ever their conscious goal….however ENDING RACISM certainly IS. and I would argue that there methods of ENDING RACISM are inherently harmful to hwytes.

basically, anti-racist is code for anti-white.

keep asking them questions, keep asking how and why, and eventually anti racists will just end up shaking their heads and saying something like, well look, its just karma, whites reap what they have sown. you cant oppress so many people for so long and not have a backlash, and i am willing to see my race pay the reparations now for all the evil shit they did in the past. i’m not that attached to my whiteness. i don’t care if my children and grandchildren are mixed race. i love diversity! i live and work with people of all races! i would totally marry and have kids with another race! i’m white and i freely admit whites have basically been the worst group of people in history and it’s only FAIR that whites PAY THE TOLL.

this is the sentiment you will find in white leftists and its sickening.

i never was coherent enough to question them to that logical conclusion but i have been present where essentially other people questioned them to that conclusion.

it sounds bad guys, but maybe those evil apartheid fascist boers in south africa just need to die off already. i don’t think racists like that could be helped. just lock them up away from everyone so they cant oppress anyone. they’ll never open their minds. they’ll never changed. they can’t be fixed. there’s so many Old White Racists like that. I cant bring my Grandparents Anywhere. they’re too old to learn. Sad! at least our younger generation knows better and can teach OUR children not to be RACIST.

GO FUCH YASELF.

I won’t teach my kids to be racist or not to be racist, and they will probably learn to be racist just by observing Life. And White Racist Systems Turning Blacks into Easily-Blamable Victims hahahaha.

hey two can play at this hidden wizard of oz behind the curtain bullshit.

so THEIR idea is bullshit of a hwyte man being behind the curtain, but MY idea of da jooz being behind the curtain is totally NOT bullshit?!?!?!

HALP ME GLR hahahahaha

its not the idea of someone being behind a curtain that’s bullshit hehehehe. that is totally not a bullshit metaphor, but a very useful and true one hahahaah.  really ive been into this metaphor for basically my whole life. regardless of political orientation. its just the idea of things not being what they seem. take the red pill hahaha.

am i just hyped up from drinking coffee all day? yeah probably a little.

am i excited from seeing that beautiful 20 year old hwyte gurl earlier today? well now that you mention it, she was very beautiful hahahahaha. but wasnt really thinking about that.

i was walking with an older man when that girl stepped in front of us. he certainly saw her too and maybe even got excited for a second. until he immediately realized that holy shit, he has a daughter who is almost that age. and all the men are gonna be ogling her. i can’t let them out of the house wearing jeans like that.

all this went through my mind in a matter of seconds after the girl appeared hahahaha.

i’ll allow the guy a second of excitement. but i would be disappointed in him if he didn’t immediately take the perspective of The Good Father. because he DOES have a daughter around that age and I DO think he is trying his damnedest to BE a good father! I like and respect the guy in other words.

he has several children in that age bracket. that college age bracket where SO MUCH SHIT can go SO WRONG. where it went so wrong for me. so naturally i am interested in seeing how he guides his children through that. will they become total fookups like me? or will they become successful middle class professionals like HIM?

it is fairly obvious hahahaha. he is guiding them to useful career paths, useful internships, and is probably aware if they have any Severe Emotional Issues hahahahaha.

mar 28
ok 645 am here , getting my morning stuff in hehehe. had weird dream. i was watching a “weird japanese movie” which was the frame for a very realistic story where it was basically me in the movie, fallling in luv with a Manic Pixie Dream Girl who was clearly damaged and disturbed and more than a little kinky and passionate. we enjoyed a passionate affair in a hotel for a few days then she had to leave and she was sad and I was heartbroken. I watched her leave and as she left, she began flirting with a sleazy mocha-skinned guy and smiling and flirting with him and got into a car with him. replaced me with this guy less than 30 mins after leaving me. wow. i was a complicated mix of emotions. yeah i shoulda known better to get mixed up with a MPDG cuz this was TEXTBOOK behavior, but i was lonely and the gurl was young, qt, and throwing herself at me.

also continues the theme of there being movies in my dreams that sometimes recur. often “lars von trier” movie is code for “extremely fooked up nightmare.” this movie was a “japanese” movie called “akira” that was really more of a degenerate jooish thing as a “edgy coming of age love secs story” than anything “japanese”, other than the japanese can ne extremely secsually degenerate, and i suppose that could be a jooish thing.

earlier in the dream i was with muh fam on The Super Rich side of town. we stopped at this extremely lavish hotel type luxury building with hebrew letters. i was like uhhh this is a jooish building, lets stay out of here, i dont care how nice it looks.

we went inside, it was very “nice” and luxurious and opulent. i didnt know if it would be filled with joos but that was my fear, and that they would try to take advantage and humiliate us goys. i was heavily on guard. there were actually some fairly normie looking touristy people like us. i couldnt tell what they were – joo or no joo hahahaha. i put them under heavy khazar/ashkenazi suspicion.

at some point this morphed into the above dream which also took place in a luxurious hotel i think.

7:05 hours of sleep even though i got to bed at proper correct time of 8 pm. just didnt fall asleep till 930 though. yeah prob did drink too much coffee during the day.

i always “like” to try to “FIGURE THINGS OUT” by THINKING about them a LOT, that i think i can think my way through things. but really i just end up OVERTHINKING everything and very often coming to a…..distorted, exagerrated, overly negative conclusion.

its not completely 180 off, maybe just 90 hahaha. so it bears some relation to the truth. mixing lies with the truth is the most effective and damaging kind of lie hahaha. it ruined muh life!

about to leave to go to job here. today would liek to again go to bed at 8 pm, drink less coffee, and DEFINITELY eat less food, ate WAY too much food yesterday and went like 500 calories over. DAMN. maybe do something productive at job. at least come across as charming and normie and nice and willing and able. try to take some phone calls and dispense some confident, authoritative advice: no, you cannot do this, and here’s why. no can do, you don’t have to like it, talk to our legal team, they’ll tell you the same thing, and frankly, they’re not even gonna waste their time calling you back. Good Bye.

later

funny its not the work day that kills me, like it did before. i am adjusting as well as i can to a very favorable environment! but the challenge begins when i get OUT and go HOME, just the STREAM of constant self recrimination of being a lazy loser bum, when you cant legitimately have those thoughts WHILE you are currently Working On The Clock, being productive, so therefore the solution is to be working 40 hours a week or 80 hours a week as opposed to….30 hours a week. workaholics who work 12 hour midnight shifts THEN go to college and stay INSANELY, workaholically BUSY.

https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/what-its-like-taking-a-grown-mans-virginity?utm_source=vicetwitterus

if they werent CREEPY HWYTE WOMEN HATERS, THEY WOULDNT BE VIRGINS WHEN THEY ARE 20+ YEARS OLD! SOMETHINGS CLEARLY WRONG WITH THESE WOMAN HATING NICEGUYTMS!!!! THINKING THEY ARE ENTITLED TO WOMENS BODIES!!!!!

what a BAD CREEPY MAN, he didnt tell you he was a virgin until AFTERWARDS hahahaha. like youd allow him to bang your n>900000 ass if you knew he was a creepy, broken VIRGIN beforehand!

this slut has taken the virginity of AT LEAST FOUR men who were 20+ year old virgins. multiple 30 year old virgins. wow.

well just keep in mind this is a horrible VICE WRITER.

http://archive.is/BkVWY

archive of shitty article. wheres the comments

no comments. damn. anyway these are actually shitty vice readers who are all huge sluts who dont thinkg anything is weird about having secs with a guy drunkenly you have just met. its normal to Blow your manager At Work.  and all the guys have Issues of course, and the women are just looking for a Quick Fook, not to help a guy with his Issues and be his first GF. let somebody else do that. hahahaha. except that never happens. maybe he bangs a few more dirty sluts.

so if i bang a dirty slut, am obligated to tell her beforehand that i havent banged a gurl in 13 years hahahaha? that i have only really banged 1 gurl a total of 2 times? i mean how much am I really supposed to TELL them? am i supposed to tell them all of that? i guess i can understand telling them youre a VIRGIN hahaha.

well ii guess i would say, i’m CLOSE to a virgin but i just want to add another notch to the belt today and youre it babe, just let me bang you and lets get this bullshit over with and hopefully i can find a better woman than you to have an actual rel with. so i hope you were jsut looking for a quick fook and nothing more hahahahaha.

ok done. got what im going to say next time i bang a slut. it’ll happen, i’m fairly confident, and it probably wont be pretty. it probably will be a dirty high number slut who is drunk. i dont know how old or good looking they will be. i am hoping for younger and qter. they will be somewhat crazy. crazier than me! but hopefully not too much.

wewlad. glad to get what im gonna say out of the way. now just gotta find a slut who is willing to bang a short old loser who hasnt banged a woman in many years and is ALMOST a virgin.

welp its still better than being a virgin. i think the majority of men lose their man virginity with dirty sluts rather than with a special GF qt high school sweetheart type gurl. so just be grateful if you can pull a good looking slut rather than a bad looking one. thankfully i did. unthankfully i never pulled a woman ever again hahahahaha. maybe because i wanted another qt gurl and didnt want a goddamn road hog. heh. well after that slut i swore ok im done with SLUTS, i want the NEXT gurl I bang to be a serious GF. that went over like a lead balloon. i actually lost a chance to bang another slut that i wish i had taken now. not like the slut would have had any trouble find a cock to fill her up. might as well have been me. good luck trying to find a man to commit to you now, ya used up skank hahaha. well at least she is super successful in life haha. probably associates with a lot of successful men as well. where she has to downplay what a huge whore she is hahahaha.

no i dont care. i just really thought i would ahve been able to pull another slut in 13 years! but in the real world, even SLUTS are hard for low-confidence omega men to pull! when i pulled those sluts before, i was in a weird college world, where automatically me being there meant i had potentially high status. but in the real world, where i have really low status, i cant even pull SLUTS.  until i raise my status. which i have been struggggggggling to do, with no success.

its hard to believe these WOMEN are actual PEOPLE! living human BEINGS like you and me!

well that makes me sound like a sociopath. yes i can believe they are human beings, but they just seem like different BREEDS, sort of liek the races seem like different BREEDS, which is a word GLR wisely, aptly, correctly uses in WP. that is a great way to think about races.

not sure if its a great way to think about men vs women though.

besides, GOD has made it my mission in life, my cross to bear, to be in constant conflict with women. with the final goal MAYBE being that i learn to stop being in conflict with them. who knows. maybe thats not the goal. maybe my cross to bear is to be in huge conflict with women for muh entire life. i am paying off some kind of debt. both for myself and for others.

its just fookin retarded to WANT something so badly. both women, and also to want to be a successful normie, but not being WILLING to do the WORK it takes to get there. the YEARS and YEARS of 17 hour days of work. 10000 hours to get good at something. 10000 hours to get good at your career, 10000 hours to get good at women. note:10000 hours is about….4 years of Full Time Work. Approx.

and i am totally butthurt at school and education not counting at all towards those necessary 20000 hours. mother fooking EIGHTEEN YEARS of school WASTED. 18 years of life! over half your life, blatantly wasted! thats worth getting butthurt about!

but not if the butthurt keeps you from fixing it and turning the ship around.

it doesnt take you 18 years to turn the ship around. ONLY EIGHT. hahahaha. 20000 hours.

in my homeschooling utopia, you would be an EXPERT, a masters-level EXPERT in THREE things by the time you were done with twelve years of school at 17 or 18. in other words, your could make a good living in TWO types of career, and have the Social Expertise to pull a Woman, reproduce, and the economic success to support your children.

basically, go to 16 year olds and tell them, do this or you’ll never meet a woman or move out on your own. you’ll die a lonely loser childless wifeless virgin who makes less than negros at walmart and mcd’s. get a stem degree or become an electrician. end of discussion. if you dont do those things, you’ll die a fat virgin basement dweller. you DO want to have secs with a QT gurl, don’t you? well you wont if you dont d one of thsese things. period. end of discussion. now get out there and get started. you can get started on your stem degree at age 16.

literally. there are plenty of kids in my working class nonelite normiezip who enroll in comm college at age 16, graduate high school at age 18, and associates degree as well, then fooking stem degree at age 20. damn. why didnt i do this? because I didnt really KNOW about it for one.

but thats not true! one of the kids in my AP history class took Calculus or Pre Engineering courses at the local College!

of course i thought he was a huge dork.

and unfortunately not a lot of our kids in my high school did that. they just loaded up on gay AP courses, which is NOT the way to go.

the way to go is take the easiest high school classes you can, take as few of them as you can, and Dual Enroll into Comm College as SOON as possible, age 14 if you can. dual enrollment its called. its a common thing in opioid epidemic flyover amerifat trump country hahahaha. and i didnt totally understand it until recently.

DUAL ENROLL YOUR KIDS WHEN THEY ARE 14. basically skip high school and go straight to college. public schools have agreements with the college so that the school district  ie taxpayers will pay for the college tuition.

also i wonder if its easier to pull 19 year old college sluts when you are a 15 year old “genius” hehehehe. that would be confidence building af! they think you are all qt and then they want to make you their little project. they are willing to spend time and effort on you and let you bang them at least 10 times. then you can pull a better woman once you are established. ideally something arranged with the girl’s father who is looking for suitable husbands for his virgin daughter. which you will totally be, as a 20 year old engineer making 45k a year hahahaha.

or you can get a Journalism degree and make 11k a year at age 30 and never be able to pull even the craziest, dirtiest slut for noncommittal secs. your choice hahahahaha.

if i could go back in time and present these stark terms to my younger self, i would love to do that. get 14 year old me to dual enroll in local college. i could even just take intro to bullshit classes. i would get college credit for them and they would be way easier than AP classes.  AP classes are a HUGE jooish screwjob. they were basically TWICE as hard as college classes, AND TWICE as long.  big mistake there. also i hated them so they killed muh will to learn and made me really hate skool hahaha. never understood why high school classes had to last like 8 or 9 fookin months, the whole skool year long. fookin gay as fook. i would have much rather taken college classes that were only HALF as gae as fook. and gotten credits that meant more in the adult world. also all this would have looked really good to employers.

well didnt my res look good for a while after i did graduate college? whats the date of expiration there? 1 year? WHATS THE RULE? i went to a prestigious enough college that i would think my “recent grad grace period” lasts a little longer. even if it did, i STILL blew it!

and i was drinking too much, and prob doing too much MJ.  i was def drinking too much tho. if i had to choose one or the other, i should have chosen MJ. it was alcohol that “made” me do all the really stupid regrettable stuff like drive drunk, act like an idiot in front of friends and women, etc. should have just sm0ked tons of MJ and signed up immediately for shrink at that time.  yeah i know the alcohol didnt MAKE me do anything. and i admit driving drunk is always retarded.

but is it really? if you never hurt anyone? hahahaha. real edgy libertarian argument here. its not a crime unless you hurt someone else.

western jooish capitalists were financing marxists and communists. karl marx financed by fels, soap magnate; bolsheviks financed by schiff, international bankster.

oh this is fake news. they werent really joos, they didnt really “finance” anything.

ok ate much less calories today. still too much but a big improvement over yesterday. also didnt drink as much coffee today. should be better prepared to go to bed at 8pm.

how bitcoin do today. up 0.2% ok thats fine. thats a lot ahahaha.

i wonder what GLR would have said about Cultural Marxism. well that its a disgusting disgrace, and that this long march through the institutions has resulted in a long march through the culture in general, leaving a wake of jooish destruction, emptiness, nihilism, rootlessness, dispossession, aimlessness, Morally Adrift, disillusionment, anomie, ennui, etc. hedonism, atheism, hopelessness, drugs, secs, DESPAIR, opioid epidemics, culture of death, culture of disposability, replaceability, use once then throw away, everythings expendable and replaceable and CHEAP.

but id say GLR would be hopping mad at how for example feminist and anitwhite shit is no longer the purview of collegephags, but basically everybody. its not just joos producing degenerate plays in fooking NYC and LA. its fooking girls in kansas fooking negros and fooking wichita kansas being jooed like every large city, not just the coastal ones.

i mean the goyim are in worse shape than they are in GLR’s day, in other words.

GLR was a fan of: J Edgar Hoover, FBI, Joe McCarthy, Douglas MacArthur, maybe Eisenhower, maybe Nixon, Batista, Kai-Shek. Gerald LK Smith.

he was not a fan of: FDR, Truman, JFK, probably LBJ. Alger Hiss. Felix Frankfurter, Castro, Chairman Mao Mao, Earl Warren, CIA

ok there were ALWAYS commie jooz in every city, not just joo york and la. but miami, atlanta, charleston, st louis, any big city. well what about fookin wichita. ok city. well if they can get to st louis they can get anywhere. denver. i cant imagine many live in wyoming tho hahahaha.

but i have to imagine the jooz of louisville 1920 werent as bad as the jooz of NYC 1920.

ok things are different now because there has been no soviet union for fookin 25 years. the idea of russian spies is ludicrous. but i argue that crooked jooz are still in power in many of the ex soviet countries. and the much bigger threat now is not hardcore red commies, but cultural marxists and swedish type socialists. kinder gentler version of communism. now you have Socialism. and the horrible Cultural Marxism, Diveristy, Multiculturalism, and Equality it works towards.

MORAL SUBVERSION. ALWAYS with the MORAL SUBVERSION. now just as much as ever before. probably even more. less overt communism, more socialism, more diversity, more fookin moral subversion.

you think i’m faking this? i wouldnt be spending so much time writing about it if i were a JOO SHILL or a phony faker poseur just interested in this for a few months like a damn woman bandwagon jumper!

what if i did a 23 and me and turned out to be 10% jooish.

i would NOT be happy about it. i would publicly recant it and try to eradicate it with a hwyte woman. but beforehand, i would be like, listen, i’m 10% jooish, so our children will be 5% jooish, but my goal is to get them 100% hwyte because i want to eradicate the joo out of ME but it cant be done. and i feel a little bad about making you race mix liek this. so just sign on the dotted line goy saying you waive your rights hahahaha.

yeah i would prob do that, esp if i were still 90% hwyte. would make more sense than me trying to mate with 100% joos!

or ideally i wouldnt mate at ALL…..and it looks like i am going that route anyway. damn.

 

 

 

ABG ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL

mar 8

sheeeeeeit. well i have cut muh cigaret smoking down by like 80% and dont really feel any cravings. so i am thankful for that.

OR AM I????

hhahahhahaha. maybe im not ACTUALLY thankful ENOUGH!

anyway. maybe i want to do MJ less because for a while i had moar privacy which would make WANTON use of MJ possible…..if i had any. that privacy is now gone, meaning even if i had some, it would be much more difficult to get out and use it. it could still be done, it would just be 3 times as hard.

i mean i would still do it. i would just do it less. MY POINT IS, I’M GRATEFUL that my DESIRE to use has decreased, in direct result of my OPPORTUNITY to use being limited. Since I know it’s less of a POSSIBILITY, i WANT it less.

anything that could make me WANT it less is a good thing. well, short of something thats even worse of course. like jerking off to porn 24/7. shit it would be better to just sm0ke mj.

ABG. ALWAYS BE GRATEFUL.

i would have told my younger self to never do MJ. never drink. dont go away to college. just stay at home, dont drink, dont do mj, do a stem degree, and if you dont want to do a stem degree, then do a business degree. use VIDYA if you want some form of drug to escape the “boredom” or despair.

humbling to think that VIDYA is a better alternative than Porn or Drugs or Alcohol.

but is drugs and alcohol worse than PORN? probably.

so MJ is worse than PORN?

YES.

hehehehe. damn. then how can i WANT it so bad?

i mean its apples and oranges really. its not worse than porn. it CAN be though. if you never watch porn and you always sm0ke mj. which would be the risk situation for me hahahaha. i mean i will never watch porn again. no desire to. i am DONE with that jooish filth. wish i could say the same about mj hahaha. but its not inherently jooish filth. it is pretty negrish tho hahahaha. nonwhite. arabs on hashish and such. africans and natives on MJ.

i played final fantasy 12 for 80 hours. those were 80 well spent hours. i dont regret doing it one bit. it was a great, fun, beautiful world. i would have spent those 80 hours better if i were job searching for a better job at the time. if i had spent that 80 hours in SKOOL, that would have been WORTHLESS. 80 hours of schoolwork will get you NOWHERE in life. 80 hours of schoolwork – reading, studying, homework, tests – gets you NOTHING. it gets you like 1 credit hour at best. 1/130th closer to a degree. 80 hours of job search will at least get you like 5 job interviews at least, and that’s worth something real.

but yeah its AMAZING what a WASTE of good time EDUCATION is. its LITERALLY just as bad as smokin WEED or looking at PORN. THAT is the true value of EDUCATION. isnt that DISGUSTING?

you might as well be working at WALMART. working at WALMART is a much better use of your time than EDUCATION.

its another totally jooish scam like porn, banks, loans, journalism.

so why dont i play vidya RIGHT NOW? why dont I just whip out the final fantasy and play it again? i’ve thought about it!

because i guess i would rather WRITE antijooish stuff to try to help a hwyte neet, than play 80 more hours of final fantasy.

i’ll tell you what i WOULD like to do, though. you can guess hahahaha. no not look at porn. have you even been reading what ive been saying. hahaha. i want to sm0ke w33d. everyday. right now. although somewhat less than i wanted to last week. thank GOD.

well you know what, wanting to sm0ke weed is a HELL of a lot better than wanting to be with that woman, or thinking about that woman. at least I have moved on from THAT.

is porn better than that woman?

in some ways……..yes? but still not worth it to use porn to try to get over her. i mean now we are just getting into philosophy 202 thought exercises. phil 101 would be like is abortion wrong. is being a slut wrong. is porn wrong. is cheating wrong. SUPER basic bitch stuff.

so lets say you get dumped because youre needy. i know im too needy and a big cause of women dumping me. but what if you rarely have a CHANCE to be needy….but when you do, you are? like you cant be needy unless they are somewhat considering dating you. which they very rarely are.

in other words, being that close to or have such a CONNECTION to someone is SO RARE, its almost NATURAL to become needy or overly attached. because its so damn RARE. it reminds you of what your life has been missing and now that you have a TASTE, youre instantly addicted. its like crack or heroin….but not nearly as easily available. not for YOU at least.

your key doesnt fit her lock. but many many other keys fit her lock. so you get butthurt about that too. whats so WRONG with YOUR key????? is it really THAT bad? its worse than negros and felons and cheaters and scumbags? apparently.

ANYWAY. thats old hat hahaha. who gives a shit. BITCHES BE BITCHES MAN. it doesnt mean youre WORSE than these negros, it just means they are better at Seducing Women than you are, and women are stupid as shit when it comes to seduction, they are even more stupid than a horny 16 year old boy wanting to look at porn. because nature wants these women to get pregnant NOW, so it makes them horny af, makes them sluts basically. they just have figured out (sort of) how not to get preggers. and if you do, nbd, just murder it. get it taken care of.

but youre goddamn right its frustrating they would pick sleazy negros over you. i cant blame you for being mad and butthurt and buttmad and bitter af.

again, there are some women who do not choose so poorly or recklessly. some women actually dislike negros and scumbags and cheaters and players and degenerates.

i mean this is basic bitch be masculine, be confident stuff. you can expect women to love confidence, but not to be able to discern good confidence from bad confidence. too much to ask. manage your expectations.

but yeah. every morning. before i go into my job, i say, god DAMN am I THANKFUL this is not my previous job. that I’m not dying of panic right now. that its so much of a chiller job. that i’m never gonna be in that situation where i have to answer that phone and i dont know what i;m doing or what to say. and the people around me are total professionals. i trust their judgment. i trust they know what they are doing. because they DO! they’re not bullshitting or telling me to bullshit!

i supposed i should use a clearer term because bullshit can mean at least 3 different things, including friendly banter or friendly exaggerations. usually when i say bullshit, i mean jooish lies to try to intentionally lie or hide something from somebody. not telling the full truth. being sneaky and jooish and dishonest and bad faith and….jooish! when you are trying to joo somebody!!!

its too late for me. but if i can just sm0ke w33d and watch hwyte people and hwyte children win, i will be happy enough i guess hahahaha. i will dnate money towards that end.

well when i see some hwyte people, especially younger, win at life, i sometimes get JEALOUS/ENVIOUS. and as i get older, everyone else gets younger hahaahahahaha.

 

http://archive.is/dkwM2

heh just be grateful you can make 25k as a 20 year old and just sm0ke tons of weed when you are not at work and grateful you have a job where you are not actively nervous and panicking the whole time and panicking about how you are going to SURVIVE one day at a time, every single day.

nobody said anything about sm0king tons of MJ hahahaha. that is one of the FIRST things i would have suggested.

yeah i havent ruled out that i might have ADD as well as despair and anxiety and bipolar. so you just take 4 different medz a day then hahahaha. go out drinking with your coworkers so you can become friends with them and they will stand up for you rather than throw you udner the bus. assuming you can still drink. i cannot so that does not help my working situation for when i have a REAL job like this guy ahahahaha.

wewlad i know that feel. being passive aggressive and needy and low confidence. its why i push all my friends away and will never have a gf hahahahahahahahahahaha

of course all the women on reddit with 600000000000 admirers are condescending and womansplaining to the poor guy hahahaha. oh yeah THIS is why i hate reddit hahahaha. cuz the women are so stupid.

they think they are SMART because theyre so successful in life with their 28k a year and all their relationship experience. how about you get monogamously married and have 3 children. instead of having your main goal in life being career and TRAVEL. its always TRAVEL TRAVEL TRAVEL TRAVEL with these women. red flag.

travel is fine, travel is good, but to make it a huge goal and talk about it more than family and children? not good. yeah i wouldnt mind traveling to a MJ legal place and just doing MJ hahahahaha. or i wouldnt mind traveling to yurop for 6 months. not gonna happen though and that thought doesnt eat me up inside.  but yeah i dont trust these wanderlust millennials who like to  travel so much. hints at being a ((( rootless cosmopolitan ))). no thank you. put down some roots. blood and soil.

ok closed reddit. too triggering with these modern women.

i get more excited about eating a tasty MEAL than i do about the idea of TRAVEL. i get WAY more excited about the idea that one day I might have a big bag brimming with mid grade indica budz.

again i dont hate travel. there are many places in the world, in the US, in my state, that I would like to see. its just not a huge priority. i mean shit. if im feeling adventurous i would go to this park 15 miles away which i havent gone to in 15 years. with a bunch of MJ for a fun day in the woods and trails and lake. would totally take a woman there if i had any interest in any woman hahahaha.  i should really go there myself but i REALLY have to PUSH myself to do things like that by myself.

or just go with a regular friend. but i have pushed them all away because i am too passive aggressive, aloof, never lift a finger hahahaha.

oh well at least i am not a jobless neet any more, dont have to do 28 interviews and 550 apps anymore, now i have an 11k a year job hahahahaha.

apparently youre supposed to get used to people never telling you good job for the work that you do. we millennials raised to want a prize just for showing up. entitlement hahahaha. well my response is, whats wrong with a little praise and encouragement. ALSO, I am VERY willing to GIVE that praise and encouragement to OTHER people because I KNOW it feels good to be complimented on your work! so i compliment other people just to be nice and make them feel good!!!!!! don’t other people do this? just being NICE to other people? you compliment them even if they aren’t #1.

i complimented people all the time at my last horrible job. they appreciated it and they tried to compliment me. i prob didnt get enough compliments from higher up but who cares about them, my loyalties were to my team, not my higher ups hahahahaha.

at current job, i am prob happy with the level of compliments. and i tell the other people good job just to be nice and a team player. maybe theyre doing a shitty job. but i really dont think they are.

i imagine its a lot less triggering to read the women of reddit when you have a stable rel with a woman who is loyal to you, luvs you, sucks you off, etc. then you can just chuckle at these neurotic catladies bitching about everything.

but if you dont have that with a woman, then you take what these other women are SAYING way too SERIOUSLY. you should NEVER take what a woman SAYS seriously.  well, not on reddit. if she is saying she just wants to be casual friends, yeah i guess you should take that seriously too. or when she is letting slip gems about how many guys shes fooked and she doesnt realize she’s showing her slut level.

basically dont let what women say on REDDIT trigger you. just let it go hahahaha. step away from the reddit. meditate on big green bags of w33d that you wish you had hahahahaha.

shit maybe look at some HOOKERS on the erotic review hahahahaha.

read the local newspaper and upvote all the racist or right wing comments. maybe meet up with these people and buy them drinks, see if they can get you a better paying job when you tell them how much you fooking LUV being HWYTE.

meditate on how fooking AWESOME it is to be HWYTE. no joke.

march 9

so its super early, 648 am, really i could sleep in another 20 to 30 minutes but i dont mind getting up early, checking email, writing here, having time to have a 3rd stomach churning coffee water p00p if i have to (and i fully intend to in about 10 mins) and look at weather and traffic and email and calendars for people. get

ok had to do that before 10 minutes hehehe

but yeah so this is my opportunity to pump myself up. do the best i can. that was a valuable reddit thread above on the young man who is trying to get used to the world of work. it is a very fundamental question. even the people who are fortunate and skilled and smart enough to be gainfully employed at 28k a year have great difficulty adjusting to it emotionally.

50% of people are failures at life hahahaha.

this is what education SHOULD do. it should prepare children with the skills for work, so that they are GUARANTEED a 28k a year job as soon as they get out of high school at age 18. or more like 16. and you dont graduate until you have that job. and there would also be classes in high school on How To Adult: how to buy a home, how to raise children, how to be emotionally stable for 50-100 hours of WORK a week, how to not do drugs. schools and education fail at all these outcomes (objectives?). i mean yeah this stuff is probably the responsibility of the parents anyway. but these are THE most important things!!!! so keep your kids out of school and teach them The Most Important Things yourself because schools are absolutely useless.

education should be noble and sacred but the joos have ruined it, used it as a weapon against the stupid goyim. horrific. a travesty. also, you shouldnt leave The Most Sacred Trust up to a class of Professional Strangers! yeah yeah yeah at least 50% of them are True Believers in Making A Difference in Kids Lives and thats great, BUT, they still get trained in marxism by marxists and their good intentions are pretty much ruined hahaha.

maybe That Woman was way out of my league, she was way too good for me, because she was not a single mother. i simply don’t DESERVE a woman who is NOT a single mother. let alone one under 30 AND hwyte AND somewhat attractive!! WAY out of my league!!!!

i mean i am pretty much done with women until i stumble upon the next one hahahaha or take the action to Get A Hooker. i mean i cant legit try to Date Women until I have a 28k job, thats the rule, right? and all those online dating women are just a Marginal, Nominal, Horrifically Tiny step from being Hookers themselves, just less honest hookers hahahaha. with a hooker you know what youre getting. a woman who takes cash to fook 50000000 men.

but yeah i had that uncomfortable thought as i came home from a very easy day of making 11k a year: SHE WAS WAYYYYY OUT OF MY LEAGUE. SHE WAS WAYYYYYY TOO GOOD FOR ME. How FOOLISH of me to even entertain the thought. a hwyte trash fatherless gurl who is not super smart hahaha. way out of my league just because she doesnt have kids. and she is a solid 7/10 hahaha.

was she really out of my league? on paper it sounds like yes. but she wasnt out of league to be muh frand. and really its amazing she hadnt become a single mom herself yet. maybe she has by now. it doesnt matter.

but yeah when they dump you in a nice way, it doesnt bother you so much that they are out out of your league. when they dump you in a ruff way, you think, wow, maybe they were APPALLED that I had the AUDACITY to think I was even CLOSE to their league.

lesson: always be nice when you dump someone. dump people the way you want to be dumped.

did i learn my lesson: of course i did. how many more times must i say it. just blurt everything out as soon as possible. tell the whole truth immediately. i mean i hate to think i was a LIAR. I wasnt HIDING the truth. i was just too COWARDLY to tell the full truth, that i was heavily hinting with the way i was acting. lying would be acting one way, then denying it. i never DENIED anything. i was never asked to confirm or deny anything. but yeah i was no innocent victim. i had a role in my own downfall hahaha.

start of the weekend. no mj available. took 1 benedryl immed on getting home. plan to take 2 valium thruout day. not 3. 2 valium and prob 1 more benedryl.

i dont think women should be banned from asking questions/OP’s on reddit. i just think they should be banned from ANSWERING them!

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/half-a-million-pussies-march-on-washington-demanding-president-trump-grab-them/79313

great article about women. go throw some shekels at anglin now that his tshirt sale is closed. good thing i bought one hahahaha.

My grandmother always said it should cost $5,000 for a marriage license , and $50 to get divorced. That way you will be absolutely sure that you are serious about it. sez guy on daily stormer bbs.

well, it already costs like 6000000000000000 to get married, but not for the license, but for the stupid bridezilla wedding. and then it costs 60000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 dollarydoos to get divorced hehehe. but i see the guys point and its a good one, i agree.

another great quote in the thread from oberstein:

”  xOberstein Jan 22  reply to: TaureanPolishAngel [he’s mansplaining to a young women how men and women are different]
Pretty much the same reason women are naturally hypergamous. It’s two sides of the same coin.

Men are lookers and initiators. They’re attracted to looks, and they have to consider as many women as possible to find one who they are interested in and who is interested in them. The men who are successful at relationships are those who are the most active in searching for a partner, and the best at wooing her. These men can’t just radically change their personality once they enter a relationship. They’re still going to find other women attractive – that’s not something they can just turn off. This is why men are considered polygamous, and why unprincipled men sometimes cheat.

Women are not active in finding relationships – while men are the lovers, women are the beloved. This is why you (presumably) wait for a man to ask you out, rather than asking him out yourself. Once a woman is in a relationship, she is devoted to her partner, because she has little experience in finding random men attractive or seriously considering strangers as potential partners. However, if another man enters her life who she finds more attractive than her current partner, she is likely to return his affections and cheat. This is why women are considered hypergamous.

Jealousy affects both men and women when their partner cheats, both because people want to be loved (obviously) and because having your partner cheat seriously damages your chance of reproducing. In fact, I’d argue that men go through much, much more pain than women if their partner cheats on them or breaks up with them. The suicide statistics don’t lie. http://i.imgur.com/irQtOYz.png4   ”

saor guardians. great album and gets even better with time hehehehe.

ate dinner, took one valium, drinking coffee and listening to saor guardians. great album.

ya know why i dont like women? because they’re not as MORAL as men, and I prefer moral people to less moral people. now i totally understand that women arent SUPPOSED to be as moral as men, they dont have to be. but i also dont think nature is FORCING women to be less moral than men. i mean it wouldn’t be UNNATURAL for women to be a little bit more moral. although as it is, it’s not unnatural for them not to be moral either. becuase they dont NEED to be, they never NEEDED to be. men NEED to be. so i just contradicted myself hahaha. but yeah even though women have less of a NEED to be moral, nothings STOPPING them from being more moral if they WANT.

i like more moral people better than less moral people, so i like men better than women hehehehe.

and believe i believe women COULD be more moral if they real WANTED to, i resent them for taking the Easy Way Out.

heh. setting clocks forward two days prior to daylight savings time simply because i can hahahaha. gives me more time to adjust haha.

well the women i DO actually know in real life seem pretty moral. again im going back to this FICTIONAL, IMAGINARY woman who doesnt really exist. it’s not even an accurate representation of That Woman although in my mind it kinda “looks” like her. but she wasnt super immoral or evil or jooish, she was just human hahahaha just like any of us.

jooish, thats a good word for immoral, hahaha. synonymous.

mansplaining is just explaining. womansplaining is not explaining at all, its just BULLSHITTING.

aphorisms, like nietzsche hahahaha.

schoepenhauer. was he any good?

weininger. was he a joo? if so, you know where he goes.

904 pm (really 804 but i am trying to train my mind) took second and last valium. will prob take benedryl in a few hours then go to bed.

a good day at the table today, doubled muh stack finally. i need to do this a lot more!

i wonder if i were in high school right now how easy it would be to get MJ.

when i was in high school it wasnt too hard to get MJ although i wasnt looking to buy too much ever.

when i went to college i wanted it much more. and it was PROBABLY even easier to get, but it seemed harder, because i had less friends in college than i did in high school, had a very hard time adjusting and making friends. i eventually made friends and then it was easier to get MJ, but things would still run dry more than youd expect. and you had very little choice. just buy super expensive high grade stuff or get nothing at all hahahaha. i wanted mid grade but couldnt find it. everything was super top shelf kind buds. wawawawawawa. nothing for more working class people. these were all super middle class uni kids. and many of them were decent, even great people.

although if i were younger and in high school or college right now…..i shouldnt be smoking mj because that was one of the big mistakes where i threw my youth away and became a failure at adulting now. was because i smoked too much mj back then. and alcohol, and porn, and being a weirdo, and not going to a shrink, and not taking meds, and being stubborn, and remaining in the useless college situation i was in, rather than going to a less middle class, closer to home uni and getting a degree in stem or business or machining. all those were factors, not just the mj.

heh. its like i dont have the energy or will or agency or initiative to ACT on what i’ve learned from all my mistakes and failures. i’ve learned the lessons but still DO NOTHING.

world womens day. fook off. what is this bullshit. first the womens march on washington, now world womens day, women stay home from work, etc. so stupid. its all just a gay ass jooish protest against glorious leader trvmpenfuhrer. they think hes literally hitler and wants to throw women and muslims in ovens. shit i wish he did hahahaha. well, not hwyte women hahaha. but publicly hanging traitors would be fine. would send a great message. its a little barbaric i guess. so you could put bags over their heads, and just let their hanging bodies hang there for a week. that would still get the point across.

i mean ideally women wouldnt go to work to begin with. and a family could survive on one income and men wouldnt have to compete against women for jobs in this grotesque abomination that is enough to turn me against capitalism hahahahaha. to see it as the other jooish side of the jooish coin of communism. just like the two sided joooish coin of marxism and zionism, you have the two sided jooish coin of communism and capitalism. DAMN.

so yeah just give me nationalism. hwyte nationalism.  with somewhat free trade optimised for the benefit of your hwyte citizens. hwyte fascism hahahaha.  and i would be a softie about hanging hwyte traitors. id hang a few though. the hardcore people would say not enough.

i dont even know if id hang illegal aliens hahaha. no i would literally catapult or airdrop them into their home countries. make them pay for it hahahah. shit i might even have our taxpayers pay for us, because it would benefit our country. just like The Wall. imho we dont need to make mexico pay for it. if you can get them to, FINE, but it’s still a good deal even if we have to pay for it. just build it quickly, dont put it off. people want to see this wall soon. i really hope he doesnt waffle on this wall and literally starts building it NOW. i dont care if its more of a see through grate or fence.  FINE. it makes sense, that you could see through and shoot through the wall. how about even just prisons have rows of barbed wire fences. that would be fine. throw up some cheap barbed wire fences. have manned guard posts every mile with people in there 24/7 with gunz hehehehe. yeah that would be expensive sure. but patriotic murkans would prob be willing to pay for it. would rather my tax dollars go to it than welfare bennies for illegals hahahahaha.

really i bet blacks are a bigger problem than illegals or muslims hahaha. well in some areas the illegals are about as big a problem as the blacks hahahaha. and the black question has been a tough one for many years because of course its connected to slavery. im not so stupid that i would deny that!

HA! watching watters world on fox news and he is interviewing people outisde the alamo and he talked to a metalhead wearing an inquisition shirt. he looked kinda latinx though hahahaha. almost certainly a degen but never saw an inquisition shirt on tv before hahaha. they are bretty kewl and there were rumors they were racis. ok they showed the guy again and he looked pretty white. inquisition is from south america america and im sure they are mixed mestizos, but i’d also say they are 75% white mestizos hahaha.  i would be willing to go to one of their concerts, i hear their concerts are GREAT.

mar 10

yep long post but my hands are tied. it is what it is what it is. because i already have 99 drafts and if i add one more, i get shut down. thats a wordpress rule. in fact im surprised they havent shut me down for my wrongthink.  even if you DONT talk about violence, and i dont, or crime, but you just talk about the JQ for long enough, and you will get shut down. you cant even talk about it. thats how you know its some serious shit hahahaha. so i thank god im a murkan, where at least i know im free. we have a lot more freedumz than other formerly hwyte nations like canada or uk or germany or aus.

the first song on this album is extremely catchy and popped in my head yesterday. this album came out in 1999 or 2000 and i remember it was a big deal. i was just starting to learn about black metal and death metal at that time and I remember when the album came out and i bought it on CD and everyone was like wow the great emperor finally came out with their follow up to the Groundbreaking Anthems album.

i suppose this IXE album sounds a bit dated today since black metal really didnt end up evolving this way and im kinda glad it didnt! ie overwrought symphonic stuff. but there are still some sweet riffs and fast blasts here.

and then emperor has become completely irrelevant and ihsahn still has plenty of die hard fans but he is certainly not Bleeding Edge any more. not that he has to be.

and then by 2001 i didnt really care about their final album hahaha.

they are not BAD, just….ITNE and Anthems were their best albums hahaha. maybe wrath of the tyrant too but im not familiar enough with that one haha.

in general, i am quite happy with the way black metal has been evolving the past 25 years or so hahaha and boy has it been evolving and i’m grateful that i can be happy about the direction its taking. both the throwback stuff, and the pagan stuff, and the artsy blackgaze alternative hipster stuff, the american stuff, the british stuff, the finnish stuff, the french stuff, the orthodox stuff, it’s all good!

http://archive.is/qpYAJ

hit piece on andrew anglin from columbus paper, feb 2017

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/the-atlantics-luke-obrien-launches-campaign-of-harassment-to-shut-down-speech-of-political-activist/90830

anglin tells of sleazy journos being sleaze joornos. they are the scum of the earth and the enemy of the people hehehe.

oh hay yesterday march 9 was the 99th birthday of george lincoln rockwell RIP.

http://archive.is/lYvw8

full text of “THIS TIME THE WORLD” his autobiog

http://laraj.ca/AGwiki/uploads/Fascism/America/George%20Lincoln%20Rockwell%20-%20This%20Time%20the%20World.pdf

pdf here made pretty by our lad zeiger, will prob get taken down hahaha

https://archive.org/stream/ThisTimeTheWorld/ThisTimeTheWorld_djvu.txt

i should buy a hard copy because this deserves to be proudly displayed on all hwyte men’s bookshelves hahahaha

i should have been reading and praising GLR for YEARS, its SAD ive only really started getting into him now. Sad! he was a giant. a LION of a man. without him, there would be no dr pierce, no david duke, no vvn, no 14 words, no dr greg, no weev, no andrew anglin, no trs. no me hahaha.

i mean this guy cuts right to the chase immediately and is just as timely as ever. on the first page, calling out the J and the WELTFEIND hahahaha. the twin evils of zionism and bolshevism. crush zionism. good lord. no rambling for pages and pages.

also he is just a good writer and not just a good speaker. he could and did write a good book that seems like it will be a pleasure to read.

even though he was tragically murdered FIFTY years ago, the stuff still reads like it was written TODAY.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/why-america-losing-its-cyberwar-stockpile-is-good-for-america/90756

mar 10 new article by weev writing for daily stormer. did not show up in muh google alerts for weev! maybe google is banning daily stormer from search results hehehe. i found it thru a link on a reddit that appears to be picking up where /r/altright left off when it was shut down.

heh. there are so many articles on daily stormer you cant even find them on the front page hehehe.

 

EVERYTHINGS DEGENERATE

jan 21

so yeah ive definitely made good progress in getting over That Woman relative to the posts that are publishing now, which i wrote in like june 2016 hehehe. i was still pretty butthurt one year out. one and a HALF years out, doing a lot better.

which is not surpirsing. ive always said, these type of things take MORE THAN A YEAR to get over. youre looking at 1.5 to two years MINIMUM. so adjust your damn expectations. move the goalposts hahahahahaha.

ITS BETTER TO TRY TO BE FUNNY AND FAIL HORRIBLY THAN TO NOT HAVE A SENSE OF HUMOR AT ALL.

in other words, its better to WANT to have a sense of humor, than to not have a sense of humor at all.

i totally appreciate the value of a sense of humor. even though i am not very funny, i am still miles ahead of those humorless assholes. j marxist antiwhites hahahaha.

https://twitter.com/AJoycePhD

andrew joyce, never heard of this guy until a few months ago when spencer mentioned him, i mean i haven’t really followed spencer til recently either. anyway the more phds we can get on our side, the better.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/local/social-issues/shes-54-white-rural-and-a-lifelong-republican-why-is-she-protesting-donald-trump/2017/01/21/6457ac02-df41-11e6-918c-99ede3c8cafa_story.html?tid=sm_tw&utm_term=.05c301a8ccca

oh gawd

this woman SHOULD vote for trump because shes white, rural, working class, but she converted from right to left nao because her working class conservative white family fell apart due to drugs and alcohol and white people might seem nice sometimes but deep down they’re scary abusive monsters, and just like your abusive white husband beat you, this is how whites feel about nonwhites and women, which you are, so join the womens march hahahaha.

those mean vile small minded people. like her white male customers who say degrading things about women and have confederate flags. oh god this article is so poorly written and patronizing but i dont think it wants to be patronizing, its just like a 20 year old gurl wrote it, rambles on for pages introducing the story, its shitty writing.

ok its a cucky white male phaggot mccoy who writes on Social Justice ISsues for WaPo. barffffffffff

white boys should NEVER grow up to do this for a career. thing is he’s in the top 10% of success for journalists. good paying full time job at one of the biggest papers. most shitlib journalists do this shit for free while they work at starbucks hahahaha.

anyway i can probably get over my disappointment with the enoch thing, i wont say bad shit about him, he’s done a lot of good, and he will probably continue to do more good.

well did my saturday weigh in and was at the lowest weight ever. much closer to muh goal than i thought i was.

‏@BillKristol tweetz
I’ll be unembarrassedly old-fashioned here: It is profoundly depressing and vulgar to hear an American president proclaim “America First.”

this isnt even a joke. jooish neocohen writes jooiest nocohenest cuckiest tweet ever. whats depressing and vulgar about it schlomo?

http://www.latimes.com/politics/la-na-pol-trump-america-first-20170120-story.html

oh sorry i didnt realize it was a reference to an antisemitic organization in the 30s heheheheheheh. well even better then. charles lindbergh is MAH N199A. GREAT goy there. actually im embarrassed i never heard of this.

so i’m sure trvmp wasnt referring to THAT. unless he was DOGWHISTLING again. i hope he was!!!!!!!!!!!!! but yeah i really should have heard of this org, i thought i was better at history and pro-hwyte history than that hahahaha. but i am super lazy.

sorry i wasnt educated enough to view it as a DEPLORABLE RACIST DOGWHISTLE. well now i like it EVEN MORE.

i could message THAT WOMAN and be like get me some MJ. that is all. i will have nothing to do with you. i’m just using you as a drvg dealer hahahaha. i dont give a shit how you and your family are doing. bring me the MJ, get fooked hard by me, then leave. I dont even remember your name.

i mean the plain fact was i DO/did care about how her and her family are doing! i DIDNT view her as a piece of meat.

but yeah i do want some MJ. yes i KNOW its degen. which is why if i had an influential podcast, i’d keep it in the closet.

but i flaunt it HERE? i mean i have two conflicting identities: the neet and the VVN. which one does MJ go more with?

so i cant have my cake and eat it too. I can’t denounce neetism, and encourage us to become hwyte hwarriors, and also proclaim that MJ is OK.  I Understand This Totally.

but its a way better vice than Pornography hahahahaha. or video games. or being a fat slob. or technically alcohol. although alcohol is the hwyter vice. but im a special snowflake because i already HAD an alcohol problem and vowed to never drink again until I am making 30k a year and have a nice whyte GF, prob never happen hahahaha.

https://thehappening.info/e01b49ba21336cb8269096683ca738f09d6e1c61

i know i dont like women but i do kinda like emily youkkkkkkkkkis, i hadnt listened to her moonman rap till today. she uses eminem “my name is” which is an ok song regardless for degen google noise hahaha. i almost forgot about moonman. i think he fits very well with where emily is now going. also she makes moonman more than just h8ing n3gr0s, she brings in tons of very welcome anti-J-ism and such hhehehe.

https://thehappening.info/cdb52fc651dea4fb653cc416e56ccc45e2c6a7d2

some funny stuff on this site, it seems generally alt rightish hehehehe.

emily gives a very uplifting story here

this sounds like a great new show. made by azzmador and ken, both of whom already have great creeeeedentials, great to get them together, and guess who they have on for their second episode. download this one goys.

ken used to do intersectional alt right which used to be on trs but i dont think it is anymore. either he pulled it or they shitcanned him because he wasn’t cupping mikes balls unquestioningly hahahahaha. he is a regular guest on fatherland which is where i first heard him. very good charismatic communicator.

anglin comes right out and gives his take on the enoch situation, and i didn’t expect to agree with him so much, and i was pleasantly surpirsed that he didnt treat enoch with kid gloves. i dont hate enoch, but just understand we are disappointed and let us be disappointed. other trs “leaders” should be a little disappointed to. i dont want to throw mike in the oven, i am very willing to listen to him in the future, but just let us be disappointed, and you should be a little more disappointed too. not pretend like nothing happened.

but all three of these guys are amazing. i first heard azzmador sometime in 2016, not sure where. either a talk he did with anglin or grandpa lampshade. (GL is also good.)

azzmador i think is Doxxed, he’ll tell you his real name. i forgot what it was. also great to hear him actually confronting antifa and calling them phaggots to their faces. he has real balls hahahaha. i respect that.

i thought ken might be a SCHOOLTEACHER which if he is, that’s awesome. we need more of ours in education. like i said in the last post.

but yeah anglin or ANY of these guys will probably not be welcomed back with open arms at TRS like the used to be. and they’re not even saying anything hostile. they are simply, like me, legit disappointed, and i worry that that will be enough for TRS to ban them. hasnt happened yet tho, i’m just speculating.

http://pastebin.com/87b2zTmP

heres a text of that great speech by the british guy at the beginning. i think this is national action. who themselves have their own controversy of are they legit or are they shills. i can say that speech is very hair raising and awesome though.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/emily-youcis-is-not-our-ally/79059/

oh jeez. i shouldnt have even. this is now turning into a hot topic on muh new fav forum.

ok thanks azzmador hahaha. great speech here.

HOLY SHIT that is the best thing i have heard in a while. that is going on the mixtape hahaha. share that with your friends and fam. i dont care if NA is jooish shills hahahaha but that is some great content. it almost brought a TEAR to my eye. just listen to this one seriously.

hmm that divisive emily youcis thread was REMOVED. whos CENSORING us hahahaha. although I prob disagree from the average DS person in that i am pretty willing to give emily the benefit of the doubt.

i guess national action was designated by the UK as a “TERRORIST ORGANIZATION” and the govt shut them down basically.

i vaguely remember hearing about that but it didnt really register. why didnt MW do a video on it? maybe he did hahahaha i havent watched every single MW video.  i was busy job searching and moping and bitching and whining hahahaha. so i miss some alt right news sometimes.

i get butthurt and sad when i think i never had the chance to talk about TRVMP with that woman. i will never know what she thought about TRVMP. i will never be able to use trvmp to open a deeper discussion with her about things like the alt right and the JQ and race and redpilling.

it would have been a great opportunity to see if we were really actually compatible or not. if she had shown herself as a vocal nevertrvmp, that might make things easier for me now. because then i wouldnt have this PEDESTALIZED FANTASY that I could have redpilled her into my redpilled waifu. i mean shit she could have become a vocal anti trump, and be all into the stupid jooish womens march that is going on now. I’LL NEVER KNOW.

the only thing i have to go on, and build my stupid fantasy on, is that she seemed somewhat open to redpilling. somewhat anti establishment. pro working class. not into white guilt. possibly open to the realities of black savagery. and i never got to spend quality time with her to discuss these topics in depth. really probe at her, and gently push her in the right direction hahaha. she liked stupid alex jones type conspiracies, which is really the best you can ask of a woman, because if they are already GTKRWN1433 before you meet them, they’re probably super fookin crazy like sinead hahahaha.  so being a basic bitch alex jones conspiritard is actually the IDEAL woman. and SHE WAS IT wawawawawawawawa. you could be like ok im glad youre open to non mainstream ideas. now let me teach you something a little less retarded than alex jones. you’ll like the education, believe me.

because i am a firm believer in educating your woman. just aim for a NICE woman and YOU can and should do the redpilling. and she was the perfect woman for that wawawawawawawa.

maybe she found a better stronger nobler man who eventually redpilled her into 1433 and made her his hwyte hwyfu wawawawawawa.

see i can always spin it in a way to maximize muh sad feels.

or maybe she became a n3gr0 fooking anti trvmp moron. see, either option is sad for me! there’s no possible option where i can be happy! because i dont have HER!

so best to try to forget about her and move on. which i am truly doing. it takes at LEAST a year and a half though. 18 full fookin months. and not a day less.

shit yeah thats a long time. thats just what i need.

its hard for me to understand people who need less time, often MUCH less time. i cant help judging them as “sociopaths” who “treat people as disposable garbage.” but maybe they’re not. maybe they just don’t need 18 months to get over a person.

fine. well then i am not compatible with their sociopathic disposable values then hahahahaha. i want a woman who needs 18 months to get over a man!!!!!!

this is what a white man apologizing and being genuinely remorseful looks and sounds like, and you dont need special empath skills to see it. and i got none of that from mike.

NOW, fascist lemming is going on record as fully denouncing enoch here, saying that he believes enoch is a J. I don’t really agree with that at the moment, but i respect the sincerity and good faith and general hwyteness i’m seeing here, and i wish mike had shown 1% of that when he was talking about his shit, and he didnt. that is to say, mike’s behavior IS a little jooey, and FL’s is 100% hwyte, and you know which type of behavior I prefer.

now i can’t say i have such a damn strong opinion on “joos did 911” , where FL says he cant take anyone seriously who DOESNT believe that joos did 911. ok. well i mean its possible. i haven’t studied that theory enough. believe me i dont doubt that the joos COULD have done 911! i just dont find it hard to believe that terrorist muslims did 911 either!

maybe mike acts so j00ey because he grew up on the east coast SURROUNDED by them .

jan 22

brand new mw video with a longass story by the man himself.  noice.

and he just spoke honestly from the get go. I wanted mike to do something like this. you dont even need to be “interrogated”. just talk honestly and directly to your audience.

and yeah i DO give mike a break for having sacrificed a lot and losing a lot. but that just seems like even more reason to be undoubtably honest.

http://www.metalireland.com/community/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=33432

ok it was the FORMER  BASS player of WINTEFYLLETH who made “controversial racist” remarks by coming out and saying he supported the 14 words. then wintefylleth cucked and kicked him out of the band. FOR SHAME!

and guess what, they STILL got called racists and evil nationalists because they are somewhat right wing and happy about being “HERITAGE” metal.

Lesson: DONT CUCK. almost makes me not want to listen to winterfylleth. hehehe.

ok im listening to them anyway, even though daily stormer would DISAVOW them or cucking hehehe.

but their music pairs really well with the wodensthrone style I’ve been craving.

heh i feel like varg vikernes. thinking that all these metal bands are stupid and degen. because they ARE!

and its pathetic and fedoraish that they are so butthurt and against christians, but they are almost equally butthurt against nationalism and ESPECIALLY racial pride. So that any metal band that shows interest in “heritage” gets accused of being a vile racist and nationalist, and then even MORE disappointing, the band then cucks in response, saying, no, i’m just celebrating muh english heritage, but i’m not nationalistic and certainly not RACIST.

what kind of fooked up jooed up society is it where BRITONS cannot be even the least bit critical of tens of thousands of muslims flooding their country? Pretty sure the main man of winterfylleth was slammed by the weak, disgusting, jooish Metal Press when he made an anti-muslim remark. Then he responded by talking about cultural marxism, political correctness, and how they were bad, which was good, and made a convoluted, incomprehensible statement about the (((((italian))))) gramsci and how he described the kind of cultural marxism happening. I can’t remember if gramsci was a technical J, but he was close enough. I do know he was a far leftist marxist. close enough!

they’re gonna accuse you of being a racist anyway chris naughton! might as well go all in and say i am proud of being a Hwyte European Englishman, like your banished bandmate did.

but i am a sucker for atmospheric, epic, heritage-celebrating, melodic black metal with blast beats, so now I’M cucking by listening to them hahahaha.

so if i accept them, and i think me accusing myself of cucking is just stupid purity spiralling, and yes i should be able to listen to them…..is that the same as me “CUCKING” for mike enoch? the mans sacrificed his LIFE for THE CAUSE!!!!!!!

if he did a vidya like MW did today, i would be perfectly happy. not saying MW did anything wrong though. just talking about the sincerity and honesty and straightforwardness he showed. or FL last night. it’s not hard to do, and it’s not hard for the audience to SEE. you can easily see it in their face and hear it in their voice. it’s not brain surgery. mike could have faced the camera and given an honest, impromptu talk and that would have been good enough.

it sucks that he lost everything, it’s almost harder to appreciate that because that loss is paired with the idea of him doing something questionable, which was not the case with MW. MW didnt have a joo wife hahahaha. he just got harshy doxed.

it’s not a problem that cant be overcome, but it IS a PROBLEM, and we just wanted you to directly treat it as one, and ADMIT it, mike. hehehehe.

yes, i am more prone to HERO WORSHIP and getting attached to PEOPLE than you SHOULD be. i dont really care, but it is kinda immature and it does mean i open myself up to more disappointment. and probably make me softer.

i mean i dont want to be such a Purity Spiraler that EVERYTHINGS degenerate and EVERYONES degenerate and I can’t enjoy ANYTHING because its too COMPROMISED. Can’t enjoy decent black metal because they aren’t nationalist enough. can’t enjoy music made by blacks. cant enjoy muh pad thai hahahahahahaha. yeah well no ones saying you cant enjoy pad thai and curry and general chows chikun hahahahaha.

BEING A NEET INCEL LOSER IS DEGENERATE AND THIS IS HOW WE BEAT IT AND BECOME WW’s

jan 7 2017

got to get used to writing 17 hahahahahahahahahaha i think i might have written 2016 at some point yesterday

absolutely ridiculously cold outside, like 10 degrees without wind chill. goal is to do errands today like i am making an effort to not be a lazy neet loser.

sheeeeit. if those people are doxed. its a very serious important issue. on one hand its an ACT OF WAR. it means your enemies want you DEAD. on the other hand, it could provoke The Sleeping Goy to go All In. and an anti-J march in montana could be less of a trolling tactic and more of an actual reality.

but im concerned about these peoples FAMILIES.

very interesting how MW has gone from being a depressed AF neet loser to becoming an Influential Leader. I am very glad for it! also that he is a very moderate, convincing voice…..but he himself is developing and growing and becoming more damn 1433 than people realize! and its awesome to see a smart, careful, very well-spoken, likable, reasonable man go from normie to 1433 in the space of 2 years or so! (i heard you can get banned from facebook for even just saying the number 14…….8………….7 hehehehehe

 

hi sir hello, yes I know YOU arent a 1433 WN, but to me as a SME in the subject area of hwyteness, I fell your emphasis on Scots and Celts speaks to our primordial hwyte soul. and i hate bands and music and shows, but i would make a bigly exception. For You. YOURE WELCOME for me buying a tshirt from you hahahahaha. now find a way to record a full concert with better sound quality. dont they have “soundboards”? how did grateful dead record all those shows with good quality where you could hear each instrument? then you mix it in with a BIT of an audience recording (like this) to get that in the thick of it high energy live sound.

I mean hey your albums sound good in the “studio”, you are more than capable of figuring out how to do a good live recording. I mean I dont think they were TRYING for a good recording here. they just wanted to play a good show, and they very much succeeded there, and some Rando in the Audience had the good idea of hey someone should record this. I just like when the band shares that idea, and makes a little effort. a little goes a long way here guys. make a LITTLE effort. dont lose sleep trying to create The Perfect Live Album at Great Expense.

just set up like microphones in good places and soundboards and mixers and shit. i dont know.  enlist an INTERN from university who is majoring in Music Production and be like, sheeeeit you should really pay ME for the privilege of this EXPERIENCE you can put on your RESUME. do a good job and maybe we’ll let you do this again for free.

he has a a somewhat fashy some richard spencer haircut. not sure if it would be an improvement for him to grow long metal hair. sure why not. if you can, you should.

i guess ghoul got doxed pretty brutally so he’s been cooling off. thankfully counter signal memes for fashy goys is still active and i am not seeing any doxing stuff on google other than rumors he was doxed, and he took down bone zone, where he blatantly showed his very handsome face.  which probably led to the doxing.

i mean its very important to have a 1433 ACADEMIC PHILOSOPHER PHD, so i don’t want him to jeopardize that.  to have him inside the university unsubverting it would be great.

so yeah you can get banned on fbook for typing the number 1400 and eighty eight. i have used the number so much here that i dont know if i could find and replace them all! but going forward i will try to type 1433. and how about VVN instead of double you enn. wait until its a bannable offense just to say the term alt right!

im glad we have 20 year old KIDS now who are into the Cause, the Movement, but i am a bit jealous of them having a head start, of them having their heads on right at a young age. they will actually get their stem degrees, get good careers, make decent money, at a young age, which will make their chances at finding a good woman SO MUCH BETTER. then by the time they are 30, they can be making 50 grand a year, be married for like 10 years, and have 3 children.

rather than be 30, make 13k a year, have no children, have not even casually been with a woman since age 22 hahahahahahahaha.

went to walmart. on a saturday. it was PACKED with all sorts of blacks and browns. arabs the browns we have around here. not so many mexicans at all. some shitty asians like laos and hmong and thai and vietnam and all that. but the arabs are by far the biggest and most numerous. probably doxing myself here. ive been to areas where there are tons of mexicans and thats no fun either. well theyre not even necessarily mexicans. they are the hondurans and salvadoreans even mexico doesnt want.

tons of blacks. i felt uncomfortable that this walmart was less than 4 miles from my home. it was like a damn nonwhite ghetto in there. some real bad people of walmart. it was enough to convince me to go to the other walmart in hopes that it would be whiter. and its true it was a saturday. the worst day to go to walmart or any retail store. worst of the worst.

but yeah they had real nice clothes in there. faded glory and george brand shirts, real nice. bought a george dress shirt and a gift card to give to fam. you need clothes, go to walmart. this is why i dont pull pvssy. because i think walmart is great fashion hahahahahahahaha.

yeah well fook women, they are like jooish n3gr0 infant r3t4rds. they are borderline not human hahahahahahahaha.

if they knew what an asshole i was, then i would probably get more positive attention from women!

but im not an asshole in the right way, i am filled with CREEPY woman hate rather than SEXY woman-disregard!

women dont like woman-haters, they like woman-disregarders and woman-disrespecters! hehehehe.

mint wont let you split transactions that are pending on a credit card. that is stupid!

why havent i commented on the black thugs torturing the white man on video. well im glad it seems to be sparking a race war and waking some whites up and making them say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, im gonna be a damn racist already, im gonna start using the N Word.

But I wonder. I KNOW there are WHITE shitlibs out there who will say “yeah this is bad, but…………….what do you expect? this is kinda inevitable, given all the injustice whites have done against blacks. whites brought this on themselves. they kinda deserved it. its sad it happened to this disabled guy, but….you reap what you sow. I’m surprised this doesnt happen more often. you dont just oppress a whole group of people for 200 years without a little blowback.  when you spend 250 years punching down, expect them to punch up once in a while. ”

that kind of shit. rather than saying HELL NO. THIS SHIT HAS GONE TOO FAR. THESE FOOKING 1NgR0S. maybe we can’t live together. maybe they CAN be racist against whites. maybe whites should be racist against them.

well honestly. i can only think of one or two, well maybe three hahaha whites who are so shitlibby that they might think something like that. shrug and say yeah its deplorable but what did you expect would happen when you keep oppressing blacks? this is just an unfocused attempt to get justice for the wrongs whites have done against blacks. and dont be so ignorant and racist that you pretend it isnt!!!!!!

i said i felt much more NORMIE when i was friends with that woman, that i could even BE friends with a young woman, but did i really feel that way? i think when i first became friends with her, i was like yeah, she’s ok, we get along pretty well, but she’s not in my inner circle or anything. it took a real long time for that. after 1.5 years she confessed i was in her inner circle. i guess i appreciated that and started to be more willing to let her pass thru muh own walls of isolation, alienation, solitude and loneliness hahaha hahahaha.

now i just feel like a neet weirdo. me and george feels. at least he was working full time and probably making about 28k a year plus benefits! and people are mocking him for going down to 30 hours! and im not even working 30 hours hahahahahahahahahahaha. george right now is a bigger winner than i am right now……..and i just made a HUGE step FORWARD!

oh uncle bern hahahaha still doing mgtow and red pill stuff in 2017. he’s not wrong though! honestly i am so OLD that this stuff speaks to me. i am an old fart like bern. I think the current generation of youngins is better than the old farts like me. we are seeing good ideas and values in the minds of our youth. there are probably even decent 20 year old WOMEN out there now. And unfort I am TOO OLD to be with them. when I was 20 it was such a jood, pozzed, degen, nihilistic, hedonistic, muh dick  time. there were fewer decent young women than there are today HAHAHAHAHAHA like these excuses?

so our young alt right hwytes probably WILL find waifus and have children, unless childless oldass neets like me hahahaha. butthurt about our lost youth and our foreveralone and the women of OUR generation were always garbage hahahaha. the women WAY before us, and the women JUST AFTER us were ok though. we were on the cusp. on the wrong side of it though. JUSSSSST missed the boat. and eternally butthurt about it.

basically us old bachelor mgtows will die childless and the new young alt right kids will have children young. which is great for the race. but i would have liked having a chance at all that too hahaha.

but i DID have a chance! i just BLEW it royally!

yeah i just wonder where the cutoff is. i thing george for example is old enough that he got the shit end of the stick. he’s in my weird in between generation in other words. but a kid who is 25 or especially 20 right now? definitely in the younger, better generation.

excuses excuses hahahaha.

school never prepared me to be a good worker drone because i cant even get a damn proper average job. by average i mean 26k a year. the average per capita income.

really half of the jackasses in georges comments DO have decent advice, and if he did these things, it would help him at least a little bit. stop drinking. start counting calories. start doing MJ. stop telling gurls their boifrans are lucky.  but yeah he reminds me of me because he thinks CODING is his ally hahahaha. coding and programming is bullshit. you basically need a masters in compsci to get an entry level job, the only other jobs are Tech Support, which will destroy you entirely.  now granted the entry level jobs pay at least 30k hahahahahaha but i dont want to get a masters in compsci to get there.

or the equivalent of that in knowledge and skills because you spend all your free time CODING for fun instead of blogging and playing Cards and doing Alt Right stuff hahahaha.

in other words i fully predic george will become disillusioned with CODING the same way I did hahaha.  after i took like 30 credits of compsci courses.

but i dont want to burst georges only bubble!

i bet in states wiht legal MJ, do they have like MJ bars, where you can actually smoke the MJ at the place while hanging out there, the same way you drink in a bar? and then wont cops be waiting outside these places at closing time to make 10 grand a pop off every intoxicated driver.

because you can smoke a couple big puffs and be completely BTFO’d, while you pretty much have to be drinking for HOURS to get completely shitfaced. taking one hit of strong MJ is like having a double shot of 150 proof alcohol.  well its not nearly as bad for your liver and body, but in terms of mental intoxication.

but yeah i am very sympathetic to george. but i can totally see how he is frustrating. shit if i were in HIS shoes I would be all set. have a 28k a year Boring Job. its not liek he doesnt make enough money to move out! live in colorado. work your boring job where you know what youre doing and it doesnt fill you with FEAR, then buy a bag of MJ on your way home, and sm0ke it in the beautiful forest near your home.

i dont think george has much anxiety. but he certainly has a decent amount of depression. i prob envy him for not having anxiety. envy anybody who doesnt have anxiety. but especially him because his severe despair and omega incel puts him closer to my level hahahaha

how many men are unambitious? half? less than half? a half of a half? some men are definitely obviously ambitious. and some are definitely not. i dont need to tell you which one of those i am. hahahaha. i have NEVER been ambitious, ever.

well bitcoin finally “crashed” about 2 days ago and in seems to be on a slight downward trend right now. good. i will need to buy a little more eventually.

http://archive.is/oNXP6

oh god this futrelle guy is still around. he is the worst. now he is, not surpirsingly, bitching about the alt right and andrew anglin. mein n3g3r AA. he is one of the best writers and propagandists out there. i have nothing but respect and admiration for him. i think he should do more podcasts and less writing……but all his writing is so damn good and powerful. i dont like reading…..but when i do, i read andrew anglin hahahahaha.  he will be forever in the top tier of muh alt right d’nations. i will give this man at least 20 dollarydoos a year for hopefully many years to come hahahaha. he is fooking AWESOME and I would LUV to meet him one day. I would totally take a picture with him and use it for muh facebook photo forever. if i ever got back on fb hahahaha. which i feel no desire to do so. have been off facebook for pretty much 1.5 years here. no big loss. so now i cant stalk and spy on women. good, that was stupid and bad and creepy hahahaha. it was not principled hwyte behavior. yeah yeah its not fair to the women but it wasnt fair to me either. no i didnt realy STALK them. but i still looked at womens profiles far more than i should have been. it aids you in building your horrible FANTASY. dont do that. youre just hurting yourself.

when i got feelings for That Woman I would gaze longingly at her pictures on FB and saw ohhh gawd shes so purttty i so want her to be muh gurlfran and waifu, yeah shes a little weird looking but shes so qt and purty tho, im so glad i can see that now, this is the gurl i want to be muh waifu, im all in nao.

stupid. should have deactivated facebook THEN.

HA. I could probably get banned just for saying andrew anglins NAME hahahaha.

heh. im just glad millennial woes is become more like andrew anglin. well, not really, but kind of sort of. he’s becoming more VVN!!! People might not feel so proud to wear their MW tshirts any more! me, i will be even MORE proud to wear it and signal to people, this is what i believe, ask me about VVN hahahaha.

daily stormer started in july 2013. cant believe its that young. well i mean he was doing other stuff before that.

sheeeeeeeeeeit, i started THIS blog in may 2013 hehehehe. this blog is older than the daily stormer. and believe me i have been doing other blogs for YEARS. dont want to say their names but i have had at least three other Big, Multi-Year blogs. books and books  and books and books worth of rambling writing. i am a prolific blogger and have been ever since at LEAST 2005.

my average blog was maybe 2 years long, which is pretty good. and this one is prob the longest. i have honed my craft perfectly hahahaha.

the other blogs i tried harder. i polished the writing. it wasnt all a goddamn sloppy rough draft. also i fought to separate the personal and the political. for a while i was either “apolitical” or basically a damn LEFTIST. i was still a gloomy gus though. and very neurotic. but at least i had a political awakening hahahaha. I am very happy and grateful about that. it wasnt enough to FIX me, but god damn was it a YUGE improvement.

over being a god damn shitlib, feminist, anti-white, antiracist. you can see why these people trigger me so much now! they remind me of the horrible person I used to be! hard to believe i was once much WEAKER hahahaha. but i was!

the previous blog to this, though, started to see my transformation. and i retired that because some real life people knew about it. i guess i wanted to use it to try to raise my real life social capital. get women basically. get women by being a Blogging Badboy. Jeeeeeez theres a great idea hahahaha.

but ultimately i ended up Concerning people with my increasingly racist beliefs. so i shut the blog down. well, i think its still out there. i certainly saved a copy of it hahahaha. there was a lot of good stuff there!

and this one, i have no intention to tell anyone real life. no intention. and also no intention to separate personal and political. just let it ALL hang out. my main concerns here are getting doxed, and also making the movement appear weak.

i mean i dont think i am a total dumpster fire the way sinead or evalion is. i think i have a PRETTY GOOD grip on a lot of the stuff. really i am similar personally to millennial woes. a guy who faced a lot of despair and failure and underachievement and gradually came over to the right, then the alt right. MW clearly has his neet past. So do I. I’m still kind of IN IT, and I have struggled with it MORE than MW.

well….technically he was unemployed for longer than I was hahahahahaha.

also he tries a lot harder with his Content.

Also he talks a lot less about personal stuff. And when he does, he often makes the videos private. but when he does talk about personal stuff, those are some of muh fav videos of his.

also he shows his face. i would never, ever, ever show my face. but i have great respect for people who do.

i have thought about using my voice though. that itself is a HUGE risk. just talking this shit out instead of WRITING it. I current have hours and hours of poorly recorded Voice Recordings I make when driving in the car. and some of those are pretty good. 10% of it hahahaha.

anyway im no newb at this stuff. i am a damn SME hahahaha.

but yeah i do NOT want people to think all alt right, and by that i mean 1433 VVN’s who are JPilled on the JQ, that we are all emotionally unstable omega incel neets. I want you to think we are all fashy handsome winners, making 100k at age 25 with our STEM graduate degrees, in topkek shape physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally. i mean shit. personal improvement is a key part of this whole program. and i have failed miserably at that.

but at the same time, studying this stuff and  accepting this stuff has made me a better person, at least relatively hahahahaha. and i would encourage it to neet incel losers. the white ones at least. and really racial nationalism would probably help neet losers of any race. i dont really care about anyone but hwytes though.

so yeah it helped me a lot, but i’ve still got a long way to go. also i would hate to be shunned by the movement i hold so dear, because i am an incel neet loser and have a blog that is all about being a neet incel loser.  a good 1433 VVN is NOT incel, neet or a loser in other words.

yeah well im not saying neet incle loser is GOOD! I’m saying its FOOKING HORRIBLE AND DEGENERATE AND THIS IS HOW WE BEAT IT AND BECOME STRONG, PROUD HWYTE HWARRIORS WITH NICE HWYTE WHYFUS AND 3 CHILDREN AND 30+k A YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

 

JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO COMPROMISE DOESNT MEAN YOU HAVE TO LIKE IT

jan 3 2017

first day back to little boy virgin job hahahaha. well, its INFINITELY better than not working. INFINITELY. LITERALLY.

also stopped by bakery before job and bought some donuts and pastries and eclairs and danishes and cookies and such. the bakery is well regarded and the sweets were indeed good and they open at 6:30 am. i will try to do this about…..once a month. spent 6 dollars. going every week would be tryhard. hard to do donuts at my last job because there were like 50 people in the office. it was best if you brought in 2 dozen donuts. kind of a big deal.  here, much smaller office. bringing in 6 donuts is more than enough. so its a cheap value added way to Buy Goodwill hahahahahahaha.

went to bed yesterday at 8 pm, i think that was just about right. might even do 730pm today. my body LITERALLY needs 9 hours of sleep a night. thats just how much the world takes out of me hahahaha. on the easiest day. actually it doesnt matter if i have an easy day or a hard day, i still need 9 hours regardless.  i could do a fooking triathalon or sit and neckbeard all day. doesnt matter. 9 hours. of sleep.  kinda weird. already Yawning at 420 pm hehehehe.

was talking to “client/customer” today and he asked me a very direct question about muh education, he was not being rude or even prying, this guy just likes to ask direct questions about things I don’t like to give direct answers to. like he was fishing for opinions about TRVMP and I wanted to appear impartial so I said my standard nonpartisan answer about interesting times, and polarized bla bla, he said he was pretty much pro-trump, i was with my colleague who is unfortunately anti-trump but I try to disregard that because she (naturally, a woman) is also very accomplished and smart and i respect her brain and actually quite like her. it would of course be better if she were pro trump. she doesn’t know im pro trump and i dont really want to let ANYBODY know hahahaha. keep my cover.

well i can just say i am a Political Moderate and Honestly Guys I Am A Centrist and don’t go in for real Leftist Stuff, however I don’t think we’ve had a good Republican Candidate since……..i dunno reagan. I would be a total Reagan Democrat guys.

when this is total BS, I am a Far Right Hwyte Nationalist and cant wait for TRVMP to build a 1488 foot high wall and deport all illegals immediately. its january 3rd, why are there still illegals and blacks? hahahaha. I want to travel to far-right meetups in my free time and do Roman Salutes hahaha.

of COURSHE you dont talk about THOSE things, and of course you soften it and say i’m a moderate, im a centrist, and be thankful i’m in a place where Centrists won’t get frowned upon as being Too Far Right!!!!!!

ANYWAY the direct guy hit me with that question, well regarding the Super High Prestige University I went to, and my one coworker was right there, and they probably didnt know about this, and im like, great, if i say i went to this prestigious middle class uni, then i look like i’m a HUGE LOSER because im making 13k a year here instead of being a fooking grad degree executive manager making 100k a year like everyone else in muh uni class hahahahaha. i am 9 times less successful than the people i went to school with.

but the guy i was talking to was very sympathetic, he wasn’t trying to be mean, and in fact, so will most people. most people arent looking for ways to attack me, they just like asking direct questions, which is something i DONT like doing to people, but i need to get better at it. anyway i spilled the spaghetti and stammered like a retarded subhuman hahaha.

but anyway i brought donuts and yeah people here like to stay in shape and aren’t huge fatasses believe it or not. these people with their masters degrees, they tend to be in better shape hahahaha. they watch what they eat, and go to the gym, and maintain a Normal Healthy Weight even into their 40s hahahaha. youhave to be really SMART to do this apparently. no you really DONT.

so i ate 2 of the ridiculous donuts. i mean there is some rich custard shit in there.

but overall i felt more confidence as the day went on, it was not severely damaged by that moment, and i dont think it SHOULD be.

but yeah its why i would not be a good salesman. because i dont make an electrifying first impression. it takes me a few weeks hahahaha. and many people dont have that LUXURY of TIME and MONEY to give you a few WEEKS to prove you arent an idiot.

but here they arent judging me like that! they werent even really judging me like that at the old place either.

QUOTE

Just talk to him. Unfortunately this is how my relationship ended. I became clingy, not because it’s my nature, but because a previous relationship crafted me to be. I became an insecure idiot and the whole situation brought on anxiety that I didn’t want.
Perhaps he has anxiety? Who knows.
One thing I wouldn’t recommend is texting him saying “Hey, I think we need space” or “We need a break”. I mean you can, but be prepared for a barrage of text messages. If he truly has relationship anxiety, then everything is out of good intentions, but it will overwhelm you and just cause the whole situation to spiral the hell out of control.
My advice. If he’s harmless and has no anger issues. Just TALK to him. Tell him it’s bugging you. Tell him you like your space, that it’s not personal and that you’re not breaking up with him, just that a human being needs time to themselves, that’s all. Sit down and have a talk. See if he really has anxiety because it sounds like he does. Assess that situation and then go from there. See if it’s something that you want to deal with.
People with anxiety don’t text you all the time because they’re clingy, it’s because you don’t reply (granted it can only be like 30 min) and they feel like they said something wrong. The constant need to be around you isn’t a lack of trust or anything either, it’s his need of wanting to know you’re still there. It’s a weird thing and most people hate it, but you need to talk to him, in person, about EVERYTHING before it gets worse for the both of you.
If he continues to act the same way after that, then ask for a break since he’s not willing to change.

END

good point reddit

well you can also be anxious that somebody will leave you for any moment without warning and do a 180 and leave you in the lurch hahahaha.

how about you just dump him by ghosting. that would solve your problem real quick.  show that creepy abuser evil person how evil, creepy, and abusive he is, maybe he can K himself, he really SHOULD!!!!! for being such a horrible person!

hehehe i pretty much had this situation. looks like i was a bona fide creep then hahaha. i still had to finish 1 year of college though. and she had to finish 1 more year of high school. and she had been with like 10 guys and had many bf’s, and i had been ith 0 gurls and had 0 gf’s.

she was secsually WAY more mature than i was, and relationship wise. she had slutted it up with many guys, and also had several monog LTRs. certainly experienced more of Life than I had.

i was pretty immature, i was only marginally more “mature” than she was.

and i never tried to manipulate or control or groom or control or isolate or abuse or bully her, and she lost interest in me and dumped me hahhahahaha.  no i didnt isolate and control her and then end up cheating on her hahahaha. she would have had to have hung out with me a lot more and use have much moar secs and be officially dating for me even to have a chance at manipulating her, hahahahahaha. not that i would.

hmmm 2300 calories today, almost 1000 over. unbelievable. not doing too good this year hahahaha. well, better to be working than to be losing weight i guess, so if gaining weight is the price i pay for Working, then i guess its worth it hahaha. not like i am banging any beotches anyway.

hey dont scold me, they’re the ones who bang on the first date. i think its fooking disgusting. but its what they want. what they like. i dont like it. i would prefer not to do it. but youhave to COMPROMISE in order to have relships, casual or not.

JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO COMPROMISE DOESNT MEAN YOU HAVE TO LIKE IT.

of COURSE ill do it. i havent had secs in 12 years, so if a gurl offers it, i’ll do it, because it might be ANOTHER 12 years before i get another chance. but it doesnt mean i cant resent her for giving it up too fast and not being an ideal pure waifu who waits 3 months before secs! treats the life creation process with the respect it deserves, and treat human life and the process that creates it with the utmost DIGNITY!!!!!

kinda stupid that btc keeps rising. and rising. shit im GLAD i got all out before this hahahaha. i dont TRUST somethign this unstable hahahaha.

jan 4

yep all ready to go here just killing time, reading email. went to bed early, but woke up at like 1:30 am and was awake for liek 80 minutes with stuffy nose, congestion, some worrying, tossing and turning, Thirsty (wanting water to drink.)

trying not to worry about constantly proving myself and impressing people. but in life you DO need to impress peopel. you dont get second chances. sure not with women! yeah well they gave me one chance with the interview for this job and that was good enough for them.

well you know my degree might have been worthless but it was actually related to my “passion” of helping neets with despair, anxiety, and relships. well ok thats like 4 careers there. gotta pick one. was thinking i would prob lean towards relships at this point. become a relship counselor.

trying to come up with believable excuses why i didnt get a masters degree like everyone else hahahaha. because i felt it was too expensive, not worth the ROI, and also i didn’t network too well in uni.

cuz if i say i was immature, and i was, well didnt I GET more mature in the next 10 years? NOT REALLY!!!! well why not?? because i couldnt get and keep a bigboy job hahahaha.

jan 4

1132 bitcoin? ARE YOU FOOKING KIDDING ME? i remember when it was 900 not 2 weeks ago.

so my main issue by far is having conversations with people without flipping out. not panicking, but always being slightly anxious about everything i say sounding stupid or wrong, even if its just small talk about families or something. even though i know these are nice people who want to be nice to me. so i disappoint them by not coming out of muh “shell.” and i want to come out of the shell but just having a hard time. so i try to show good will by smiling and forcing myself to talk even though it sounds AWKWARD and STUPID. I know there are worse things in life than feeling awkward. i have felt awkward nonstop for like the past 20 years hahahaha. its not a huge deal, its not near as bad as despair, which is not nearly as bad as dread/panic/fear/worry/anxiety.

DAB? in swearing in ceremony with paul ryan? wtf is dabbing? i thought it was VAPING MJ. Thats the only dabbing if ever heard of. wax or shatters or hash oil or really concentrated thc juice that you get blazed off one puff of the vaporizer. shit i dunno. i dont do that shit either. here i thought the kid was smoking drugs while his father was getting sworn into congress.

no turns out its just some negro dance move.

had 15 mL half dose of nyquil at around 3pm. will have some dayquil right before bed so i dont wake up in the damn middle of the night.

welp only managed to do 180 calories over today ehehehehe.

was in the office today and this younger rather attractive woman from related department was in. I noticed her immediately when i first saw her shortly after i first started. learned she was married and had at least one young child. well good for her. but she is def younger than me and def still very attractive hehehehehe. i wanted to learn more about her job and resume hahaha. today i learn she has an MBA hahahaha. prob not the kind of MBA you get from a top 10 business school, but the kind you get from phoenix hehehehehehe. still you can get a good middle class career job with that though.

basically life for everyone is HARD. on HARD MODE. you have to be TOUGH. i was pretty much SPOILED and had life put on EASY MODE for me. and i STILL fooked it up. and so now facing the real hard world, it seems even HARDER for me than it does for normies! I’m going into hard mode having grown up on easy mode!

but yeah i havent been in a position lately where i have to try to Justify, Argue, Defend, and Explain why i did not get a Graduate Degree. Because I’m Lazy. Because I’m Crazy! and you can’t say this kind of shit to coworkers or customers because that makes you look incompetent, stupid, etc. so, you just say….i didnt want to. cuz i didnt really WANT to. i’m allowed to say i didnt WANT to! cuz i didnt really want to. i just felt pressure and expectations like i was SUPPOSED to. similar to how i am feeling now. but those pressures aren’t necessarily all real, just me thinking what other people think!

i mean i cant just say its not worth it without showing myself as character flawed. if there daughter who is 9 years younger than me can get a masters degree right after undergrad and then quickly move from 70k job to 70k job with a masters degree, so can anyone, including me. i just wasnt willing to work hard enough!

GREAT GAME here, this guy is out with his GF and points to another girl and says t the gf, “see that gurl? GOALS.”  implying that gf needs to lose weight hahahaha.

SEE THAT GURL? GOALS.

omg that is the most alpha thing ever said. that gf is bending over and getting fooked hard tonight!

me with anybody and we see a successful middle class normie with a masters degree and they say to me, see that normie? GOALS. as if I never had goals.

well i really didnt tho hahahaha. i never wanted to WORK.

yeah well im going to WORK now hahahaha. i dont plan on missing a day ever. i get there early every day and leave late every day. i answer email after muh shift. i sometimes do work after muh shift from home. i have a pot of coffee almost all made by my official start time. i bought a tub of coffee. i bought some fancy pastries from a fancy bakery. i wear dress shoes and try to dress like a business casual normie. I try to write good emails hahahaha.

Furthermore, I am worried that someone who is so comfortable around guys to sleep with them on the first date cannot be trusted while we try to move our relationship forward.

YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS THANK YOU. this is what all the women who defend this shit sluttiness always fail to notice. if its SO EASY for her to do such a BIG thing with a total stranger, what other big things will be so easy for her to do? things that may hurt you or break your heart?

WHY IS SEX NOT A BIG DEAL FOR WOMEN??????

Apart from the fact that they can get preggers…..i mean….all the naked genitals! doesnt this SEEM like an intimate activity? did it ever OCCUR to them to feel HESITANT about this? yeah, when they were a virgin at age 14 or whatever.

GOALS.

hey im not even interested in meeting new women. (well, kinda i am hahaha. ) but im not serious about actually DOING it. im just trying to survive ONE DAY AT A TIME. also im not even worthy of being in a rel because IM NOT AN ADULT. IM TERRIBLE AT ADULTING. I AM A CHILD WHO CANT EVEN HANDLE WORKING 40 HOURS A WEEK hahahaha. THIS IS THE BARE MINIMUM OF NORMIE MATURE ADULTHOOD.