DESPAIR, WANTING TO SLEEP ALL DAY

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Heh.  what it all boils down to, is you have to be a WORKAHOLIC just to Survive Bare Minimum. You don’t get to sleep in, you don’t get to take a break, you don’t get to have A Social Life, you don’t get Movie Night or Date Night or Family Night, you don’t get to Sleep In on Weekends.

heh. on Day 1 of Forcing myself to Get Up Earlier so I can Get Things Done and force self to be better with Time Management. Meaning no more 8 or 9 hours of sleep. Cut it down to 7! Of course, Real Workaholics get only 5 tops. That’s what you gotta do. So just be tired and give shoddy work, half-ass work, rather than no work. what, is your boss gonna FIRE you? They might. So let them. Let yourself get thrown out on the STREETS. As long as you don’t DRINK, you can prob get a bed in a Homeless Shelter.

But your boss yells at you and puts pressure on your because of your shoddy work, your boss hates you and is looking to fire you and would NEVER recommend you for ANYTHING, he not-so-secretly wants you and your family to die in a gutter.

yeah. so how do you get a reference/recommendation from your boss if your boss hates you and thinks you are Pond Scum? I guess you do not. You get recommendations from the one person at work you actually get along with, even if they are not your Boss per se. It doesn’t even matter if it’s your boss. Get it from your Work Friend.

Cal Newport: Secrets of the Best College Students, or something. I can prob recommend this book.

So LinkedIn is GrownUp Career Adult Facebook. Does it Cheapen or Devalue You, Your Skills, and your Recommendations by having that sort of stuff “cheaply” available on LinkedIn? Like you have 10 endorsements for 10 skill, 10 little recommendation blurbs from your Work Friends.

What I’m saying is: LinkedIn Recommendation Blurbs CAN’T be worth as much, or devalue the value of, more traditional recommendation letters……can they??

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i forgot you can be tired AND angry. this is like the internet of your brain going down. No Connection to anything. Nothing makes sense. read words, they don’t mean anything. stupid mistakes multiply exponentially. you look REALLY stupid. so just push through to the end of the day and then go immediately to sleep. hopefully you don’t have any big obligations or deadlines to do after your day of Paid Work. Although you probably Should, because to Make It In Life, you have to be an Overachieving Workaholic who does work from 5 am to 2 am 7 days a week. and “only” 40 hours of that is Paid, if you’re Lucky.

BECAUSE THE WISE FARMER KNOWS THAT YOU DO NOT REAP AND SOW IN THE SAME DAY! YOU DO NOT REAP WHAT YOU SOW THAT VERY SAME DAY! IT TAKES A LONG TIME! MONTHS AND YEARS!

stayed up late to go to a concert, very tired the next day at Underjob. And this is going to bed at 1:30am and getting up at 7:30 am! This is Normal for Average Working Adults! This is ABOVE Average for Average Working Adults!

Drank one large strong coffee but did not want to drink any more because The Guts were acting up. Now just drinking water.

If I had an Extracurricular or anything Unpaid I would consider SHIRKING it just to take a 2 hour nap!

Anyway just wanted to say, a lot has changed in The Metal World since I was young. This was an Old School band who were around when I was young, I saw them several times when I was young, always great band, great times.

Anyway it’s not just a matter of Modern Hipsters now liking Metal, but also Metal in general being More Popular. There are Cute Young Girls at metal shows, wearing denim vests with patches (this is big metal style thing now) of bands that were considering pretty “true” or “underground” or “untrendy” 10 years ago. Of course “true” vs “false” is still a very hot button topic, and it all does smack of Hipster Tryhardism. Just saying that 10 years ago, there weren’t nearly so many Cute Young Girls at True Untrendy Death Metal Shows. Girls only like Trendy things. which is fine, that’s What Girls Are Like, I can accept that.

But yeah I was touched and moved by the Friendliness and Diversity and Openness. Not just Angry Young Hateful Failure Loser Troglodytes who want to Beat People Up! But Social, Friendly Men and Women who want to have a Good Social Time, a decent number of them probably have Good Jobs, they aren’t total Wastoid Losers in other words, despite their Long Hair and Tattoos. Metal was more of a Loser Outcast thing when I was young. Now the Young Metal Kids listen to their Old School Death Metal, get drunk on cheap beer, and get Tatts, but now they also have a Good Social Time with their friends, go to college, get unpaid internships, go to Grad School, get Good Lower Middle Class Jobs, get Gurlfrans and Wives and aren’t 30 year old Virgin Loser Omega Male Wizards like Your Author, hahahaha.

No I’m not a Wizard really, I WOULD get banned from Wizardchan if I Told The Full Truth: that I have FRIENDS, that I’m NOT a virgin (although, for a normalfag male, embarrassingly close to it!)

So in other words, the Metal Crowd seemed a lot more positive and I would have LOVED it if I were 18. But it reminded me of how Old I was, That Feel When you just can’t Get Into NEW things anymore, can’t fully enjoy new things or new people, you’re too far gone.

Though the very idea of a Cute Metal Gurlfran would have prob driven me crazy at the time. But now I would just find it too Weird. Do Not Want. But heck it’s hard to imagine really liking ANY Women after Girl 7! Too old for it! Too far gone! Can’t enjoy New Women!

So it’s funny how one can get in the Depths of Despair even when things are going WELL: got a nice Internship Offered to me on a Silver Platter, went to a fun Metal Show with a nice Audience, then I get tired from 6 full hours of sleep and get very crabby? See what just happened there! Maybe it was writing all this stuff that made me crabby! But yeah. perfect example of a ton of great things happening but you’re STILL in a Bad Mood. Also had an old great friend come in from out of town, had a nice delicious dinner, nice concert experience.  I Should be on Cloud 9 right now, despite being a Little Bit Sleepy!

But NOOOOOOOOOOO.

Makes you absolutely certain something is Fundamentally wrong with you, when you got all this good stuff going for you, but NOOOOOOOO. You can’t enjoy it.

Well, I guess, yes, something is wrong with you, but we can FIX it.

What would MAKE you enjoy it? Oh yeah: the Usual Excuse of: If the Last Girl You Were (Ever) In Luv With (And Will “Probably Be The Last Gurl You Ever Luv,” Cuz now you’re “Just Too Old and Tired and Jaded and Bitter”, now you’re just “DONE”) had successfully Become Your Gurlfran (for me that was “Girl 7”), and/or you had a Decent, Respectable, Lower Middle Class Masters Degree Job or Upper Working Class Bachelors Degree Job. Then you would enjoy everything. That would Fix you up just fine.

So yeah. really thinking about getting back on the Prozac/Paxil train; up from the 5 mg Weaning Dose, to the 20mg Normal Dose.

* oh here’s a great idea: maybe think of a “therapy group” or “group therapy” if you’ve never tried that before. It is not just DBSA and Emotions Anonymous. There is also Depressed Anonymous (heh heh), Lazy Losers Anonymous (heh), and you can also search PsychologyToday.com for local Therapy Groups which are Coordinated by a Mental Health Professional.

7 28 sunday

gotta dig deep today, but also don’t want to fight it.

so friday I was tired from getting “only” 6 hours of sleep, stayed in and watched movies all night. day off saturday, slept and slept and napped and dozed, got up, did some chores/errands, took a nap, had no energy, could only lay facedown and struggle to respond to texts, EVEN RESPONDING TO TEXTS takes a lot of energy, did not get my “wind” till about 7pm, dinner with friend, then movie with other friend, try not to be a negative nancy to muh franz.

good dinner, good movie, got home decent hour, like 12:30am, then sunday, day 2 off, slept till like 10 am, still tired, I figure that it takes me a good FOUR HOURS of being awake and being in a horrible, despairing, terrible, awful, downright scary mood, before that wears off. this is why I prefer to Work in the Morning. Then not so awful. I can be tired but at least be thankful I am being Minimally Useful, and that I am good enough at my Underjob that I can do it without a lot of effort or anxiety.

trying to get up at 8:45 am during the week and stick to a Time Management Schedule of: exercise, do Solid Work on my “Internship”, then go to my Underjob, then try not to stay up too late, so I can get good sleep and get up at 8:45 am the next day.

Reading 3 and will soon be 4 Books re Learning Skills and Knowledge applicable to “internship”, but not sure if I can “count” that as “internship” time because it’s not direct Work. That’s like the Homework you’re supposed to do outside of class.

Gotta keep reminding myself, Shoddy Work is better than No Work. Of course, doing shoddy work is frowned upon. But doing NO work is frowned upon even more.

but saturday was SCARY: having no energy all day, That Feel When, Friday Night, you Feel like you’d like to Sleep Twenty-Four Hours STRAIGHT. You procrastinate on Household errands and chores so you can sleep, take two naps, basically Nap Till Dinnertime, feels like a HANGOVER that lasts ALL DAY. The absolute best thing here is Being Scheduled For WORK, so then you can make money at least.

If you have to do “work from home” and actually get stuff done, it might be best to go to Starbucks or go to the Library, and stay there for at least four hours, and get something done there. when you have serious work on any sort of Sorta Serious Project, Four Hours is almost the Mimimum. Maybe Two. Because it takes at LEAST One Hour just to get the momentum rolling. Warm Up.

Well, just take it one day at a time, do some work rather than no work, maybe get back on 20 mg of SSRIs, don’t drink, don’t do drugs, pray, lift, walk, don’t stay out too late, be thankful for the good things. let go and let god, hahahahaha.

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HOW TO BECOME A NORMALF4G AND WHY YOU WOULD WANT TO

Because they’re not hatefully angry at everything all the time, and can actually accomplish things in life.

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july 1 monday 2013

[reel fast movie review, skip if desired cuz doesn’t really Fit The Mission of this Blog:
Kanal By Andrzej Wajda. Uhhh 6.5/10. Started off good, got a little slow towards the end, not as gay and boring as you’d think a movie from 1957 would be hahahaha. deals with the warsaw uprising of 1944. I prepped myself by watching the extras FIRST, then the actual movie. extras were good, a 27 minute thing on the making of, this was a 2003 interview with Wajda, his asst director on the film, and a Famous Polish Film Scholar. Second was a 27 minute interview of Wajda talking to some kind of Polish Ambassador in 2004 who was involved with the uprising. to put it in context. The Old Guy’s opinion was that the Warsaw Uprising slowed both the Germans and the Russians and somehow kept the Russian Army from taking ALL of Berlin and not just East Berlin. Not sure how. Kinda confusing. But the bottom line of Recent Polish History is that Poland was taking it up the A55 from BOTH sides, Germany to the West and Russia to the East, and Poland probably got screwed worse than any other country in WW2. Anyway. Warsaw Uprising is the Polish Home Army “militarily” fighting the Germans trying to occupy Warsaw, but “politically” also fighting the Russians, who were right at the doorstep. The vistula River. Russians coulda jumped in and saved the day, saved the Poles from getting murdered by the Germans, but the Russians preferred to just sit there and “bleed the poles to death.” NOT sure if there was still a Russian-German Nonaggression Pact in 1944 like there was earlier in the war.]

kids taking calc 2 or 3 over the summer. sweet baby jesus. I hate them because I envy them, that they can do this without RAGING out. One of the TOP Things I Hate right now is Good Students. I Hate People Who Don’t HATE Everything like I do. I hate Students who can diligently do their 10 hours of Hard Math HW a day during the 1/6 of the year it’s actually NICE outside, because they’re Good Students with a Good Work Ethic, and I Hate them because I Envy Them for their Good Attitude and Work Ethic which I don’t have but I wish I had, so I hate them…well, I don’t really hate THEM, I ENVY them, and I hate that I am not like them.

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* Heh. WHAT WOULD IT TAKE for me to Productively, Chillly do Calc 5 and Orgo 6 over the summer…..think about it…..yes a Nice Radiant QT Prime Of Youth 19 Year Old College Gurlfran to Make Out With after doing Stupid Problems for 10 hours a day, to be cute and 19 years old and say Oh Good For You, I knew you could do it, now let’s cuddle as I rub my 19 year old body over you and you exclusively, and next month we can slowly upgrade to the next level of intensity, because I’m a Nice Girl, I only do One Base Per Month, bla bla bla bla bla

* ^^^^IRON-CLAD PROOF OF ME BEING WORLD’S HUGEST WOMAN-HATER. OMG THIS MISOGYNIST HAS SUCH A CREEPY CONTROLLING ABUSIVE VIEW OF WOMEN, NO WONDER HE’S A KISSLESS VIRGIN

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I have determined that the best thing I can do regarding my HATE and ANGER towards SKOOL is to Beg For Mercy and Help from a College Counselor/Advisor. Make an appointment, show them my transcripts, say PLEASE can you HALP ME, I am really burning out here, what’s the quickest way for me to get an Upper Working Class 10$ an hour job already, I am sick of school, I need a little DIRECTION at least, can you PLEASE I BEG YOU give me a little direction, O GOD PLEASE HELP ME, I really HATE SKOOL at this point, but I’m SMART I SWEAR, just my lack of focus, work ethic, and my bad attitude and my hate and anger are really making it real HARD for me to use the good brain the lord gave me. Got the Brains, but the Feels get in the way. Got a lot of brains, but got a LOT of Feels too. TOO many feels. Oh Sweet Baby Jesus Hammercy On Me!

And maybe they can “connect the dots”, and say oh you’re real close to this this and this, so think about these 3 options, rather than the 9000000000 “options” out there right now.

*So, Brethren Losers, do yourself a favor and see your own College Counselor. Even if they ARE “Useless”, they can’t possibly be HURTFUL, especially if you’re at Rock Bottom right now as it is!
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* another thing that MIGHT help is Learning College Study / “Survival” Skills, like a Programmed Method for Taking Notes and Studying. Because you never really learned these things in high school, because high school was way easier, now college is way harder. well, not like psychology class, but like fooking organic chemisty and biochemistry and calculus and thermodynamics and statics and plastics and mechanics and stuff like that, where some psychotic 4sshole instructor shouldn’t have a job. Maybe take classes like these at the Community College if you can. Since those instructors don’t really Do Research, then Theoretically they need to be able To Teach. Theoretically. Although I can tell you a lot of them don’t know how to teach either. Anyway, there are tons of books on this type of stuff: “becoming a master student”, “how to study in college” by pauk, the Cornell Note Taking Method, the right vs the wrong way to do flashcards, etc.

So find the people who CAN help you (counselors maybe, tutors maybe) and talk to them and beg them for help because you’re at the end of your rope.

When they say maybe you should go to a shrink too, tell em YEAH YEAH, I’m going to a shrink, why don’t YOU go to a shrink, hahahahaha. No, they probably WON’T tell you to go to a shrink, and they DEF won’t tell you to K yourself like 4chan would. It’s their Masters Degree Lower Middle Class JOB to HELP YOU. And besides it’s paid for by the OBSCENELY GENOCIDALLY OVERPRICED TUITION. YOU are their BOSS. THEY are accountable to YOU, who pays their salary. MAKE THEM WORK FOR IT.

I guess don’t be super hostile to them, or super emo. Just gently let them know you’re Not In A Good Place right now, and you really need some Help Plox. And that aint no lie!

(I am trying to pump myself up to make an Appointment with a College Counselor, if you couldn’t tell)

And I would guess that it’s in These People’s Job Descriptions to be NICE. Nicer than some f4gg0t INSTRUCTOR I’m sure! Those Who Can’t DO, TEACH! (Unless they really WANT to Teach, then they may be good teachers I guess.) These Counselors Probably WANT to HELP you! Let them HELP you! Go to them and say, ” I’m kinda pretty much near the end of my rope here, I really need some Guidance. Help Me Determine My Next Step. ”

Anyway. Their Job is to Help You, so Make Them Do Their Job. I really HATED going to the Academic Counselor because I was STUBBORN and I was also SCARED. Don’t make the same mistake I did. I should have probably visited the counselor at least two times per semester. Got as MUCH outside help as I could, rather than as LITTLE.

* Being CONFUSED about where your LIFE is going is a BIG cause of ANGER. Maybe if you get a little HELP with this, you will be LESS ANGRY AND HATEFUL, and you already KNOW that will help you in all aspects of your life. Like LIFTING. or PRAYING. Less Anger/Hate will make you Better and Stronger and Smarter.

* Although if you follow My plan, you start the First Day of College with your Major Declared (Electrical, Mechanical, Computer, Biomedical, Chemical Engineering) and know what classes you’re gonna take and what profs you’re gonna stalk and what internships you’re gonna get, for every semester, and every summer, from day 1. THEN maybe you can get away with visiting the advisor once a semester, instead of once a MONTH, once a month would be ideal for lazy layabouts who don’t know what they’re doing and thus shouldn’t even be Away At College in the FIRST place.

* If you are Privileged Enough to be Away At A Big College, then Visit your Advisor once a month, every month, even if you think you don’t need to.

* Also, visit a Psychological Counselor / Shrink at least once a month, even if you don’t think you need to. Do it ANYWAY, to make sure you aren’t developing any bad habits, like anger or hatred or alcohol or drugs or laziness. It’s their job to keep you on track. To make you better and stronger. Heck if you don’t visit them now, you’ll just end up visiting them LATER, when you REALLY need it, once you’ve REALLY hit rock bottom, and you’re reading r9k and v9k and My Blog, and thinking about Ending It All because you’re a Huge Neet Loser Virgin who still wants to bang College Girls, but has even LESS of a chance now that you’re Creepy and Fat and Old. So Go On Spring Break like I said last post. The Ugliest of the Young Drunken State College girls will be hotter than the Average 35 year old Real World Bar Skanks With Kids. No Contest!

* Heh. Neet semi-wizards like us view Sex in a Very Big Picture Sense: Normalfags get sex. Women get sex. But we Beta, Omega, Wizard Virgins do NOT get Sex, or Cuddling, or Hugging, Or Handholding, Or GFs, or makeouts, or anything like that. So Women are essentially just Normalfags then. I know my Target Audience! I have good enough social skills to have S with a Drunk 5/10 Woman….BUT I HAVE IMPOSSIBLY HIGH STANDARDS, hahahaha. Besides, I HATE skool, careers, and normalfags too much to ever fully BE a normalfag. Normalfags don’t have this much HATE, and it’s ultimately my HATE that keeps me from Succeeding in Skool, Career, Women, and Life.

* So I suppose the goal is….. BECOME A NORMALFAG. A Happy, Healthy, Handholding, Gurlfran-having Normalfag, who is able to Set Skool and Career and Relship Goals and Reach Them without raging out or giving up.

SAVE YOUR MONEY AND WORK AT STARBUCKS WITHOUT A DEGREE

tuesday june 18 2013

* I was/am always jelly of people who found college easy, or the best time of their lives, or better than high school, or anything other than a horrific waste of time and money. I personally found college to be 9000000000 times worse than high school….although I worked harder and had a much better Good Habits-to-Bad Habits Ratio in high school. But even in terms of time, money, and effort, it would seem College easily Fails a Cost Benefit Analysis. You can spend as many years in College as you did in Grade School AND High School COMBINED, plus you’re PAYING for this, where you’re not necessarily “paying” (directly, explicitly) for pre-college education. And the Competition is much worse, and you’re playing for much bigger stakes: A Sweet $10 an hour Upper Working Class Fulltime Entry Level Job. You can’t just be Above Average like in High School. You need to take classes that are 9000000 times HARDER, 900000000000 times more EXPENSIVE, AND be in at LEAST the Top 20% of your class, to get that sweet prize, and if you’re not, you shouldn’t even BE there. 80% of Students should just Drop Out of College and STARVE THE BEAST. STARVE. THE. BEAST. Just be like F00k This Genocide, I’ll SAVE MY MONEY and WORK AT STARBUCKS WITHOUT A DEGREE.

* But my “advice” is certainly clouded by my own negative experience.

* I cannot stop thinking of Obese, Balding, 34-year old laid-off men in the Community College Library, taking Summer Classes, and studying in the library doing homework and school stuff or job search FROM OPEN TO CLOSE EVERY SINGLE DAY. THEY PRACTICALLY LIVE THERE.

* I think, well I certainly don’t have that kind of work ethic, I want to quit school every time I get through one hard class like Calc 2. Then I take the Summer Off and Rage Against College and also get lazy.

* I could only personally recommend taking stupidass easy filler prereqs classes like Management 101 or Psychology 101 over the summer. I took Management 101 and it was the easiest thing ever. Besides meeting for 4 hours every week, hahahaha. But no papers, a couple of multiple-choice exams which may have been Open Notes, the biggest thing was one power point presentation we had to make and present before the class.

* But how is a Mickey Mouse class like this gonna give you a Competitive Advantage to get that Sweet $10 an hour FT job?

* Heh. There is this stereotype of College Students As Procrastinators. At least there was in My College Days, and now my age is showing. I think if anything, College Kids these days are Better Workers, More Competitive, Better Students, Better Habits, not necessarily all stupid and lazy like some of us old farts say. But yeah in my day, things weren’t as Ruff Out There, so everybody PRocrastinated, myself included. Still Do. Can’t help but think I was a MUCH BIGGER procrastinator than average, so that’s why I became a MUCH BIGGER LOSER than average!

* So Don’t Procrastinate. Hehhehehe. Much easier said than done, amirite, not like flipping a switch. It’s like changing a bad attitude into a good attitude. Bad habits into good habits.

* Can’t get that Obese Balding 34 year old man out of my thoughts. You think HE has a Young QT3.14 College Gurlfran? Hell No! He’s LUCKY to pull 40 year old Single Momz with Neck Tattoos from Plenty of Fish! And who’s gonna hire him when companies can get sh1tloads of young, beautiful, 21 year old grads from More Prestigious Schools? SO why doesn’t he just Give Up Now, when all the Odds are against him? It may sound like I’m tearing this guy apart, but I ADMIRE him A LOT for his EXEMPLARY Work Ethic, Good Attitude, and Perseverance. I wish I could BE like him! WHo would hire him? I would hire him in a heartbeat! If I ever had a position of Hiring Power, hehehe.

* I make it sound worse than it is. If he keeps up with his Good Attitude and Good Work Ethic, he WILL eventually get a Sweet Upper Working Class Job. Because that attitude gives him the perseverance to keep Working Long Hours Day after day without giving up, and THAT”s what will eventually get him A Job.

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* So back to our fundamental question: how do we become that guy? How do we change our bad attitudes into a good attitude like his? You think HE never gets moments of doubt, where he wants to give up? You think he never wants to Run Home And Cry To Mama because he’s too old and fat and failure to Pull A Young College Age Gurlfran QT that are Literally SURROUNDING him every day at College? What’s HIS secret?

* Perhaps Religious Faith In God.

http://www.ourcatholicprayers.com/prayer-to-st-jude.html

http://www.stjudenovena.org/stjudeprayers.html

http://blog.shrineofstjude.org/category/post-a-prayer/unemployment/

http://blog.shrineofstjude.org/post/st-jude-prayer-for-depression/

Even if you are not Catholic or Christian I think these prayers could be useful. For Agnostics too! But certainly not for you INTELLECTUALLY SUPERIOR FEDORA WEARING ATHEISTS! COME BACK WHEN YOU’RE REALLY DESPERATE!

* Or maybe he jerks off to porn the entire time he is not at the college studying. Heh. There was a 4chan r9k thread a few days ago (didn’t save it!) saying that “No Fap” was BS Bunkum, that Porn DOESN’T Hurt your brain or Sex Life, that that Movement is headed by Scientific PARIAHS, and that all these Neckbeards that think they’re doing themselves a FAVOR by quitting Porn or Jerking Off for 30 days really AREN’T. And that the people who think Porn IS a problem really have ANOTHER UNDERLYING PROBLEM that MAKES them think that, a problem like Depression or Social Anxiety or Sexual Anxiety or Autism or NEET or Morally Lazy Loserness.

* I say f00k these f4gg0ts, who CARES if the Your Brain On Porn guy is a “PARIAH”, give it a try ANYWAY for 30 days. And if you “HAVE” to watch porn to get a “release”, then only do it once every THREE days, and try to watch something Vanilla.

* Jesus Christ, even say 12 years ago, Anal Sex was considered Kinda Fetishistic! And now it seems 90% of Porno Vidyas with a Young Cute Girl, ends up with her getting Viciously Reamed in the Ass at some point, just a matter of course! THIS is EXACTLY what I’m talking about! You think you’re gonna be VICIOUSLY REAMING your QT College Gurlfran Up the 4SS Every Night before Cuddling?

* In short, I lean more towards the Your Brain On Porn “PARIAHS” than the Fedora Atheist Scientist College f4gs who say “that’s not scientifically valid, you just need therapy, and taking a break from vicious asspounding porn won’t help you one bit.” f00k THEM.

DBSA, SUPPORT GROUPS, BAD ATTITUDE, BAD WORK ETHIC, COMEDY, ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY

* There is a group called DBSA Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance or something like that (search it), and they have Support Groups for Lazy Losers like us. I have been meaning to check it out for the past couple of years. Now I live in a Crap-Tier city, and we have like at least one meeting per month, so if you live in or near a crap tier city or better, you should have one too.

Online forums like DepressionForums and SocialAnxietyForums (I should Blogroll them) are GREAT, as are /adv and /r9k and /v9k, but I would be interested in what an actual Face To Face group would be like.

* You might be able to find one Nice Person There you could Bribe With A Pizza Party for an Entry Level Full Time $10 An Hour Job!!!

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There is also a group called EMOTIONS ANONYMOUS which uses the 12-step format.

What better group of people to Appeal To for an Entry Level Fulltime Job than people who are sorta like YOU! Lazy Losers who by some miracle and/or Good Old Fashioned Hard Work, pulled themselves UP FROM MORALLY LAZY LOSERNESS!

*”I object to you using the term Morally Lazy Losers to describe people suffering from a debilitating condition.”

Objection noted. I agree that it’s not FUN to SUFFER from Morally Lazy Loserness, hahahahahahahah!!!

I mix a slightly unorthodox way of Talking, in with my more orthodox Life Suggestions, to create my own approach to fix this problem, for you and me.

* “You’ve got such a sh1tty ATTITUDE, such a Bad Work Ethic, such an attitude of entitlement, you think you’re ENTITLED to an Entry Level Fulltime Job With Benefits, you think this is a HUMAN RIGHT, until you fix this BAD ATTITUDE and develop a good Work ethic, you will remain underemployed, and RIGHTFULLY SO!”

Interesting perspective, SIR. Part of this blog is to Help Myself and other Losers with BAD ATTITUDES like me, FIX our Bad Attitudes into Good Attitudes, so we can move from Underemployment into Full Employment. It’s just as easy as flicking on a light switch! MAKE THE CHOICE TO HAVE A GOOD ATTITUDE!!!

Hahahahahaha, I’m sure you hate these faggots too. AND RIGHTFULLY SO.

* Try Exploring your Ethnic/Genetic Heritage. Find out Where Your People Came From. You are the unique product of hundred/thousands of years of evolution and breeding. your ancestors came from somewhere. find out where that somewhere is. this is good way of belonging to a group, because it’s in your Genes. In your Blood. Nothing you do about it, so you might as well accept it and learn to ENJOY it.

* watch some movies using the language of Your People, read some books on the history of.

* find some stupid meme you find hilarious on 4chan and then research the pictures for an hour. for example right now I am in a Spurdo mood and thus anything spurdo makes me laff. see jokes, humor, comedy, positive feels.

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although i’ve been really analyzing comedy/humor lately, trying to discern positive humor from negative humor. this one might actually be negative humor. anything that makes fun of somebody, or is super sarcastic, or degenerate, or promoting decadence, perversion, nihilism, etc.

Note that this is THE VAST MAJORITY of “comedy” as seen in The Mainstream Poison Media!\

For EXAMPLE, I am trying to rationalize to myself my enjoyment of the Mainstream Poison TV Comedy, “American Dad.” From the decadent, perverted, degenerate mind of Seth Macfarlane. Mocking the traditional, conservative, family values I hold dear. The character Roger, a Perverted, Depraved Sex Addict Omnisexual Gambling Drinking Drugging Borderline Hedonist Narcissist Degenerate, I find him especially funny.

Am I not actually Poisoning my mind and soul by watching this trash? WHY do I REALLY find it funny? Well, it’s most certainly CLEVER. And I relate with Traditional, Masculine Family Man Stan, sort of like Hank in “King of the Hill.” (Mike Judge is a good go-to if you’re looking for intelligent, yet traditional and morality-minded, not completely degenerate, comedy.)

Another example: I used to really enjoy the George Lopez show because George was so clever and funny….but the Dysfunction Family aspect eventually started to grate on me, especially his Annoying Mother and how there’s no Moral Redemption there. IMHO Lopez is a decent guy but has been Poisoned by the Hollywood mentality….like much of Hollywood.

Heh heh. You can probably guess that Mel Gibson is my Favourite Hollywood Celebrity, exactly because he stands against that tide. So Mel Gibson, Mike Judge, and maybe George Lopez need to make a Comedy TV Show and establish their own Entertainment Media capital, outside of Hollywood.

Well, my justification then for watching “American Dad” is that it’s not AS depraved as “Family Guy”, MacFarlane’s Other Show, not as Annoying of a style (jump cuts, references) as Family Guy, MacFarlane’s actually an intelligent Humorist MAYBE, underneath all his bullcrap; and it makes me laff.

When I Stop Laffing, I’ll stop Watching.

Have been hypothesizing that to find Good Clean Humor, I might have to go back to the Old Days of TV/Movies, 1930s and such. Laurel and Hardy, 3 stooges kinda stuff maybe.

Heh. I don’t trust The New York Media Machine either. All Mainstream Media has The Poison innit, and the roots of this go way back. So I try to create my own Non Mainstream Comedy. Or the stuff you find on 4chan like Spurdo Sparde. Absolutely hilarious, absolutely not Mainstream TV (although definitely Mainstream Message Board, Mainstream Memes, etc), although alot of the time 4chan humor is OBVIOUSLY mean-spirited.

Just saying it gives Basement Dwelling Losers Like Us a Real Opportunity to contribute Comedy to the World, without Sucking D’s in the Entertainment Industry.

* One Last Tip: “NO COMMENT” isn’t just for people who don’t want to talk to reporters. AND Having the Power to Getting Up And Walking Out during a Job Interview Gone Horribly, Horribly Wrong also extends to You talking to people Talking about Your Failed Career and Total Lack Of Ambition and Career Goals, or any topic you don’t want to talk about for that matter: YOU DON’T HAVE TO TALK ABOUT ANYTHING YOU DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT, WITH ANYBODY! JUST SAY, “I DON’T WANT TO TALK ABOUT THAT. NO COMMENT.”

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INTRO pt 7: YOU NEED THERAPY, ENERGY DRINKS

may 19 2013

anyway this new blog really IS a good idea, the most useful feel related thing I’ve done in a while. It helps to write With A Purpose, Prompted, For A Reason, rather than Pure Venting All The Time. And when I write with the tone of Me Helping You, Advising You, it Helps me.

So give that a try. Start your OWN blog of you Helping Others.

On 4chan they only tell you two things: KILL YOURSELF or GO TO THERAPY. This is because they are internet tuff guys. They wouldn’t tell their Real Life Friends and Loved Ones this! If they had any!

So that is the tone I will take with you. Gentle, Kind, yet Firm push in the right direction.

Because Killing Yourself is weak and cowardly and terrible to those you leave behind; and going to therapy is not a cure-all; just like taking boatloads of Plutocrat Pills is not a cure-all. (though Therapy is probably better because it’s not Physically, Permanently Destroying Your Brain!)

I would say give therapy a TRY if you can get something convenient, close, and cheap. Sometimes you can go to a “Family Services” center and talk to a Clinical Social Worker or Clinical Counselor (Masters Not PhD or MD) for reasonable sliding-scale rates. closer to 30 bucks an hour rather than 100 bucks an hour. Having a Real Person you can Whine and Complain and Vent to for one hour every 2 weeks might be helpful. Call around, or have Your Mom call around if you’re too scared, hahahahaha.

Maybe try to find someone in line with your own personal values, worldview. For example, I might ask if they have a MAN who is fairly MASCULINE, or conservative/traditional, who is more Jungian than Freudian, who is big on Holistic and CBT rather than Pharmz.

Getting 8 hours OR MORE of SLEEP is VERY IMPORTANT. Every night. Monday Thru Sunday Thru Monday again. Now there’s this Sleep Hacking stuff, and the Ubersleep, where you take 6 20 minute naps over a 24 hour period, where your sleep matches up exactly with your REM cycle. This is super advanced and I would not recommend it right now. Save it for a few years from now when you have a good job and a good waifu and are in good shape.

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Some “Depressed” Lazy Loser Weakling Loser Omega Virgin Failures tend to sleep too little, others too much. you prob know which category you fall into. I personally was a Too MUCH type. Especially after quitting alcohol/drugs, Sleep became my new Escape Drug. I would make a great Heroin Addict. Don’t want to face life? Just sleep, sleep, sleep. It’s like being dead.

As soon as i would get a chance, I would lay down to take a nap. Napping became my favorite thing to do. Getting ready for my underjob at 5 am I would be very angry and couldn’t wait until X o clock when I was done and could come home and take a NAP.

Then I would drink a TON of coffee to force myself awake. That prob didn’t help.

So now I am cutting back on my coffee, quite successfully. The amount of coffee I was formerly drinking was not going to help my sleep schedule anyway.

But don’t stay out late, don’t drink. Try to get 8 hours. I like to tack on an extra hour for laying in bed Trying To Get To Sleep, because you can’t fall asleep immediately upon laying down. so, 9 hours. Say you have to get up at 5 am. That means you should get into bed, lights out, at EIGHT PM the previous night. Yep that sounds early because it is. DO IT ANYWAY.

Get thick curtains to darken your room if it’s summer and the sun is still out. Heh. During the winter when it gets dark at 4 pm you will just want to go to bed at 4 pm and sleep 13 hours a day.

Get all of your coffee drinking done early in the day. The half life of caffeine is like 6 hours, which means it takes forever to get out of your system. If you get up at 5 am and start drinking coffee which is understandable because THAT’S EARLY SON, try to be done drinking coffee for the day by…..9 am. DEFINITELY by noon. No lunch coffee, def no dinner coffee.

If you don’t feeeeeeel like exercising, and you rarely will, be thankful for the times that you DO, then just look at your Big Fat Gut and Awful Stretch Marks in the Mirror, grab it and jiggle it around a little, and say, just go out for a goddam WALK. WHY do you have this gut? because your diet is not good and because you don’t exercise enough.

But even at your weakest, you have the power, one day at a time, to choose not to eat or do unhealthy things. You can choose to do and eat healthy things one day at a time. Throw that piece of bread away. Eat only half of your fried chicken, hahahaha. Go for a 15 minute walk. Do 5 pushups. Babby Steps.

Also, THROW OUT ALL SODA POP. High Fructose Evil.

I am also very against DIET SODA POP. I am convinced the aspartame either causes CANCER (maybe not, but good enough reason to quit it!), or, that more likely, it fools your body into Wanting Sugar. I don’t like fooling my body, I like to think my body has been programmed to know what’s best for it.

So I quit Diet Soda and Switched to Regular Soda. Would buy 2 liters of My Fave Soda, Mountain Dew Code Red or Blue, and drink maybe the equivalent of one 12 oz can per day. That’s prob not too bad. Huge Soda Addicts will drink a liter or 2 per DAY. THAT’s bad.

Then I stopped buying it. Now I will drink a couple of sodas a week at the restaurant or bar, and that is good enough.

When you drink Regular Soda, you will want to drink LESS of it on the whole. So that 2 sodas a week is more than enough. And 2 sodas a week is not gonna make you fat and unhealthy!

ALSO, DO NOT DRINK RED BULL OR MONSTER OR ANY ENERGY DRINKS. THOSE ARE HORRRRRRIBLE. IF YOU FEEL THE NEED FOR ENERGY (and you prob will cause you feel drained of energy ALL THE TIME) and you feel you MUST have some kind of stimulant, DRINK COFFEE INSTEAD. NEVER DRINK ENERGY DRINKS. DRINK A POT OF COFFEE INSTEAD.

Don’t put SUGAR in your coffee, or cream. If you MUST put something in your coffee, put a little bit of Organic, Grass-Fed BUTTER in it. This is called “Bulletproof Coffee” and I have had great times experimenting with it. This does not mean put a whole stick of butter in with your morning coffee if you are also eating 10 pieces of buttered toast for breakfast. Remember what we said about BREAD. It’s prob about as bad as ENERGY DRINKS.

Next post I will talk more about SQUAT POOPING.