I, FAECOR, KING OF URANUS, FEEL A CHANGE OF WIND

may 2

https://phillyantifaDOTorg/nazi-who-flyered-in-west-philly-last-week-identified-as-mark-daniel-reardon-of-philadelphia/

this is FOOKING AWFUL. horrible jooish antifa doxed this 32 year old man and got him fired from his job. handsome nonfat hwyte man who jsut wants to meet a good woman already. started his pro whyte career only recently, on stormfront in 2016. and the doxing effort, shit how could they even PROVE its the SAME skinny guy.

but yeah he obviously tried to hide himself with that helmet. i dont think his opsec was THAT bad. i mean, its worse than mine! but not what i would call total shit.

but its not like this guy was a major bigly goy or anything. he just put up some pro-whyte fliers in philly and they called the cops about it.

well they can call FAECOR, SPAWN OF URANUS hahahahahaha

I, FAECOR, KING OF URANUS, FEEL A CHANGE OF WIND

-credit a guy on DS BBS. I cant find that “meme” anywhere else on the internet. search faecor uranus on google and DS is literally the first and really the ONLY real result. WELL MEMED, MUH LAD!!!!!

i mean that one is good enough to spread beyond a neo natzee hwyte supremist hate site hahahaha.

i wont say his name but you can look him up. OK its a user named PythonHaggard on DS and I mean him no harm, quite the opposite, to show him RESPECT and THANKS and GRATITUDE and HONOR for this DANK MAYMAY.

good soundtrack. couldnt remember who did it. who the f is brad fiedel hahahaha. hope hes not a joo. kinda a suspect name.  but if he is, he made a good piece of music. also T1 was by him as well.

sheeeeeit

https://www.walmart.com/ip/HoMedics-SoundSpa-Portable-Sound-Machine/2686012?wmlspartner=wlpa

took the plunge, bought this machine from target (same price, local pick up, did nt feel like going to walmart to pickup, went there today, and it was TEEMING with blacks and arabs. this black guy repeated the same thing to me in the parking lot. i couldnt tell if he was talking to me or he had a bluetooth in like all blacks always do. “OK, good idea, sounds good” I said to him, and continued walking with a purpose.

did not get AH MK book in today. the most important book ever written, by the most important person who ever lived.

http://www.slate.com/blogs/browbeat/2013/11/19/adjunct_professor_job_mobility_why_it_s_hard_for_contingent_faculty_to_find.html

i was somehow reading a goddamn slate page recently. but this is  actually a good reason why i do not want to get a masters degree. basically, so many people get masters degrees just to work PART TIME JOBS, by becoming PART TIME INSTRUCTORS at colleges, including any of the 6 gorillion online schools, make less than 30k a year, get no health care, no benefits, no nothing.

get a masters degree to become a part time employee.

i PROMISE you, even at bumfook county college, its VERY hard to get a FULL TIME faculty job unless you are a TRULY special snowflake, a shining star, and not just THINK you are one. but have a degree from a good school, be fairly young, not have any left turns or missteps.

whatever happened to Average Full Time Jobs for Average People?

THEY ARE DISAPPEARING.

yeah slate is TERRIBLE but this blog makes some good points. also this other related article I morbidly curiously clicked on:

http://www.slate.com/articles/news_and_politics/education/2013/11/death_of_duquesne_adjunct_margaret_mary_vojtko_what_really_happened_to_her.html

well not that one, but that is a decent horror story of why not to become an adjunct faculty, but heres the thing, those are 90% of the college teaching jobs available. if youre the type of TRASH whos applying to adjunct jobs, youre probably not gonna ever get a full time job anyway.

this attitude is fine regarding sluts aiming for alpha males, but not for average people just trying to make a damn LIVING.

http://www.slate.com/blogs/browbeat/2017/04/17/why_hannah_could_not_have_gotten_that_job_on_girls.html

ok this is the article i was looking for. basically to say that the Cushy FT Faculty Job Teaching The Internet 101 to Univ Students, is not a job that would have existed for 27 year old lena dunhams character, and certainly wouldnt have been won by a loser like her who i dont think even had a masters degree on the show!

people with masters degrees toil away their whole pathetic lives and never get as good of a job as that!

thats enough SLATE linking hahahaha. go troll them nonviolently hahahaha. fookin joos. they are right about the academic employment situation. ITS NOT WORF IT.

yet these true believes go on into their 70s working for pennies, eating dogfood, and believing black kids just need better education to overcome white systemic racism, and its a good thing that their fellow whites are shrinking. they’ve done enough damage. karma.

so in that sense im way ahead of these clowns hahahahaha.

I, FAECOR, KING OF URANUS, FEEL A CHANGE OF WIND hahahahaha.

honestly that is so good. it implanted itself in muh subconscious then came back a few weeks later and i was like where is that FROM. its FROM this random hilarious guy on daily stormer!!!!! he should really sell and license this and make shekels off his IP hahahaha i will give him 5 bucks for it hahaha.

welp managed to get under 1500 cals today. went to walmart and it was not great. like i already said. people of walmart is a real thing. this is what the country will look like in 20 years or less. majority nonwhite, and everybody, including the whites, are fat obnoxious disgusting trash.

how can you NOT go to walmart and be Racially Redpilled.

well you simply say, all the races equally look like trash. the white people dont look any better than the nonwhite people. is the proper response.

so yeah. i guess it wouldnt redpill bluepilled people. cuz they would just say that.

i guess the people who care about race will care about it, those who dont, wont.

hehehehe. no use trying to redpill other whites. theyre jsut members of my own race. just a way to try to save my own race which i care so much about.

so thats why we try to redpill people. to save our own damn race. even if you can “only” redpill ONE person in your whole life, its WORF IT.

i have not done that yet hehehehe.

dress code for alt right events: just dress NEAT, like a man who is gainfully employed enough to have a wife and children. wear nice clean clothes that fit. dont dress like a god damn virgin neet. dress like someone who can get a woman and a job. wear a damn suit and one that doesnt look like autistic neet shit. dress like the owner of the company. dress like a successful man. your boss’s boss. try not to be a fat slob. if I, a huge neet virgin loser, can dress OK, then so can you. you can get all the clothes at walmart hahahaha. get a blue suit. not a black suit, not a brown suit, just a damn navy blue suit. no fooking bow ties. get the suit tailored by a damn asian tailor so the coat and pants FIT. this is NOT complicated. this is not hard.

although I do forget there are plenty of total working class white men, with GFs and children, who are stupidl stubborn about “dressing up nice.” they bitch and moan when their wife makes them wear a button up collared shirt for a wedding.

i get it, its great to be THAT working class blue collar, IF you are making decent money. so use that money to buy one dress shirt, one pair of dress pants, one jacket, blue color, white shirt, a tie, maybe red, and a pair of dress shoes. and then wear that. if you need to brawl with commies, take the tie off and dont be afraid to buy another shirt hahahaha.

but some white men are SO blue collar they dont TRUST a man in a suit. dont trust these SUITS! whereas to normies like you and me, a guy in a suit says i am successful, I’m smart, I’m winning, follow me, I get women and money and power and influence.

i would agree with that. i would guess no more than 25% of even hardcore working class white guys would downright DISLIKE a guy just because he was wearing a SUIT.

look like a successful man who Owns a Company and has a Happy Family. look like a LEADER that people want to FOLLOW.  at least look like somebody responsible that someone would want to EMPLOY.

DRESS LIKE YOURE GOING TO A JOB INTERVIEW.

how hard is this? get your one job interview suit. how are you gainfully employed if you can’t do this?

when i was young I knew some whites that were THIS blue collar. wearing anything but a t shirt and jeans was considering preppy and phaggy. I would HOPE that as they became mature adults, they got rid of this silly prejudice. i mean you want to make money right? be a gainfully employed adult?

if i, as a total terrible adult neetish loser can lose weight, not be a fat slob, and have a few Nice Clothes to wear for Job Interviews and Weddings, so can ANY man. i mean its still not enough for me to get gainfully employed, but I believe it is enough for me to represent hwytes in public.

but I wouldnt let them know I was a huge neet!

i’m not REALLY a neet anyway. I was just saying this morning, yeah, im a loser, but AT LEAST IM NOT A NEET ANYMORE. THAT was 6 gorillion times WORSE. and its TRUE!

being a neet is WAY worse than being a HUGE loser! being a HUGE loser is a HUGE step UP!!!!! thats HOW goddamn BAD being a NEET is! i wouldnt wish it on my worst enemy! well, i would. I would wish it on the jooz as a way to utterly dstroy them hahahaha. the way it nearly destroyed ME.

 

new MW video on Sexual Morality hahahaha. were he endorses the Truth that Sex is a Sacred, Prudish thing for making babies, and you shouldnt treat it as degenerate, nihilistic, masturbatory, pornographic, jooish, casual pleasure. commenting on the recent bill nye video endorsing casual degen joo secs.

MY generation of older milliennials and gen xers, who grew up with bill nye, will probably applaud bill nye’s awful shit. the younger kids now are rightfully seeing this degeneracy for what it is, and say fook this jooish phaggot.

younger kids wanting to have kids, 30 year olds not wanting to have kids.

well, i dont really HANG OUT with many people even close to my age. maybe they DO want to have kids. i hope they do!

i dont HANG OUT with many people period, hahahaha. old or young.

but yeah i dont think this is necess peak degeneracy, i mean porn is just as bad and has been for years.

if you find a woman who likes the degen bill nye video, fook her until you are bored with her then dump her hahahahaha. because that is nto a woman worht marrying.

but yeah i partic luv MW’s secs vidyas hahahaha. no homo hahahaha.

may 3

sheeeeeeit i just got phished.  i checked spam, saw an email from a guy I knew, a really good guy, but I hadn’t talked to him in years, and it looked like his legit email address, asking to share a google doc. i was like hmm hes a great guy, besides, THIS CANT DO ANY HARM IF I JUST CLICK ON IT AND DONT INPUT ANY PASSWORDS!!!! I just want to see what this phish looks like!

it all looked like totally legit google shit. i checked the URLs. everything said secure, https, little green lock. my mistake was saying yes to something like “do you authorize GOOGLE DOCS to view your emails, address book”, then I clicked yes like an idiot. i guess at that point i was authorizing the hacker. then the screen stayed white, loading loading loading, and i guess at that time it was sending emails to everyone i had ever sent an email to. because in a minute, undeliverable emails started bouncing back.

sheeeeeeeeit.

i then immediately changed google password and was horrified at who it DIDNT bounce back from. i hope That Woman was not in there! i dont think she was, because i thought i deleted every trace of her. contacts, sent mail, received mail, everything. i should be ok there.

changed google password within 5 minutes but that was still enough time to send this shit out to people I havent talked to in 10 years hahahaha. how embarrassing.

DONT CLICK ON GOOGLE DOCS BOXES EVEN FROM PEOPLE YOU KNOW!

but, to be fair, the oiginal email did appear in SPAM. who CHECKS spam? I do hahahaha. checked spam, saw my old friends name, and that did it. oh why is HE in SPAM?

to top it all off, finally got The Most Important Book Ever Written and at LEAST the first 8 pages are missing. it starts on page 9 of chapter 1. there is PROBABLY an introduction as well.

although that introduction is PROBABLY anti AH and NSDAP hahahaha.

still, its disappointing to get a book with missing pages.

stupid embarrassing phish, hopefully no serious outcomes there, and a MK with missing pages, kind of a disappointing day!!!!!

although the email prob went to the x-BF of That Woman. him I got along with all right, I was friendly with him before I ever got any feelings for That Woman!! and initially I hoped that they would Work It Out and Get Married and I would have been perfectly fine with that.

He was very willing to let their relship end however. he was done fighting hehehe. he had already banged her 9000000000000000000000000000 times and spent 900000000000000000000 hours cuddling with her and being her First Everything, all the special moments and shared Hours, when she was 20 years old.

little bit envious of all that, but I still have a generally favorable opinion of him hahahahaha. he was very masculine and tough and thats prob why she loved him.

but it prob went to HIS spam folder.

also it doesnt put anythign in your sent mail folder. which is kinda good. but people can respond to the shitty email becuase it uses your real email address.

it basically goes through OAUTH which essentially authenticates you through google with the click of a button. do not need to enter password.

does that mean the hacker steals your actual password? a one way useless hash version of the pwd? how does oauth work? how the FOOK do i know.

and then i made some coffee and then the resevoir started flooding with hot water and coffee grounds. had to throw it all out, rinse everything out, then start again.  UNLUCKY DAY.

sheeeit. right now i could get a “like new” or “very good” copy of MK for about the same price. i think the one i got was “good.” “GOOD” apparently means “PAGES MISSING.” yes there is an introduction here. not that i need it, but its the principle of the matter!

its the plain all black cover version, making it look like the most serious and grim and evil book ever written hahahaha.

manheim translation, houghton mifflin publishers.

the book that started ww2. who are these jooish reviewers hahahahaha. idiots. liars.

https://blog.malwarebytes.com/cybercrime/2017/05/google-docs-app-spam-goes-phishing/

here’s EXACTLY what it was i got fooled by, article from today.

QUOTE Where this all goes wrong is on the next page, which is where the victim actually gives the app permission to access the account. Somehow, nobody at Google thought of preventing people from calling their apps “Google Docs”. END

YUPPPP.  thats what got me. that the malicious app was called GOOGLE DOCS.

i got the docscloud[.]download domain.

i should be all right bc i changed my password within 5 minutes, but its just embarrassing. also what if people contact me that i really dont want contacting me hahahaha.

computers are gay af. i mean i like the internet but if it were my job i would hate it. shit i dunno why this is happening, i dunno this will fix it, i dunno, i dunno who knows. you cant afford to talk to them, hahahahaha. just get a new computer. call google and tell them to reset your gmail hahahaha.

hister i think is the name nostradamus predicted for AH hehehe. oh this is actually a myth, hister actually refers to the danube river, which was like 100 miles from where hitler lived.

if i have to buy this darn book again, i will just spend the extra money to buy the stalag edition, and so should you hahaha.

im such a weirdo i CHECK MY SPAM FOLDER, almost every day. cuz im paranoid stuff will go in there that shouldnt. like emails from old friend who have been phished….or maybe that woman hahahaha.

mayeb she can get a job as full time professor of internet studies at faecor college and make 50k a year and sweet health care and pension hahaha.

if you give me instructions, i can do the thing myself.

but they HAVE TO BE CLEAR, COMPLETE INSTRUCTIONS.

and if ive NEVER DONE IT BEFORE, I WONT KNOW IF THEYRE COMPLETE OR IF PARTS ARE MISSING.

UNKNOWN UNKNOWNS.

hehehehe. thats not really in reference to anything current.

wow. 90k out of 150k goal raised for anglin. there are like 8 weeks left and this is just the first week. 90k. that is not bad.

i dnated about 15 dollars and might dnate 5 more hahahaha.

went for powerwalk, listened to music only. listened to some aggressive stuff. felt hwyte racial pride as well as hatred against muh racial enemies hehehehe.

heh how long would it take me to get a mechanical engineering degree if i took one class at a time. i mean i really hate school. high school, college, you name it. online, onground, it doesnt matter.

i just want an average job to be able to take care of a white wife and white children. it is an extraordinarily beuatiful thing, but it used to not be such an extraordinarily DIFFICULT thing!!!!!!

shitty thing is i have like 70 credits that would prob go to waste just because they are so old. and then i have a full degree before THAT which has been useless af!

NOBODY TOLD ME YOU HAD TO TAKE 330 CREDIT HOURS OF COLLEGE IN ORDER TO MAKE 30K A YEAR!!!!!!!

this is roughly 9 full years of college, summer classes included of course hahahaha.

you have to go to college longer than you went to elementary school just to get an average job and continue your race that a Baby Boomer could get with just high school.

we need 9 full years of education beyond baby boomers to make the same living they did hahahahaha. anti boomer thread. boomer hate.

https://www.fool.com/investing/2016/12/18/the-5-best-selling-handguns-in-america-all-have-1.aspx

i would like a pistol or handgun that has won the confidence of millions of hwyte murkans hahahaha. something completely middle of the road. not a cheap piece of chinese crap, but not a Luxury item either. not expensive, not super cheap.

i am thankful i live in the USA where at least i know im free, and can take this FREEDUM for GRANTED.

i mean its definitely a MASCULINE thing to do, to have a GUN. maybe that will make me more MANLY, which will in turn make me more attractive to women hahahaha. i should buy a gun just to pull sluts. sluts wont give me their cheap pvssy until i buy a gun hahahaha.

dont buy a gun just to get pvssy, buy a gun because its a damn good idea!

i mean i wish women were smart enough to give you some just because you own a copy of MEIN K4MPF and that makes you super badass and manly hahahahaha.

may 4

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/i-spank-my-wife/104042/2

great idea

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/dating-advice-the-key-to-good-relationships-is-cheating-on-your-boyfriends/104030

QUTE Not so long ago, women didn’t feel like they needed dating advice. After all, they just had to stand around somewhere until a man came to them and took care of everything for them.

All they had to worry about was serving him beer and cooking his food right so he didn’t dump their ungrateful asses. END

the short dark hairdd gurl holding the letter U is QT AF,  would want her not to be a slut so bad, just make and honest woman out of her. but you cant make a n honest woman out of a god damn cheating whore. she looks kinda like a gurl i sorta liked many years ago. the red haired gulr is qt too but not as much as the dark haired gurl. who does many disgusting degen things, so sad and disgusting. also i hope i dont get banned becase of that fat pig slob lezbobo though.

i bet that weak bearded orbiter is in luv with that gurl and she fooks SO many guys but she wont even cuddle with him cuz hes just a friend hahahahahaha.

classic comments in these threads, hope they never get deleted hahaha

but yeah. 50 lashes with a belt for being late to church is a little ridiculous. i would basically give them 20 at max with bare hand.

imho spanking is the best form of white “sharia.” SO simple, yet SO effective.

maybe its really NOT effective. that would SUCK. i imagine it to be this super effective magic bullet. i just cant see how it wouldnt be effective. i want to see a damn anecdote of it NOT being effective. i havent seen one yet. but only a minority of men are spanking their women and talking about it candidly as a great tool for Wife Management. these guys might not even fully udnerstand it as well as me, who has only had secs less than 5 times and who has never spanked a woman. had made out and cuddled with women for a lifetime total of 2 glorious unforgettable hours. i know that spanking is the final solution to the WQ

SPANKING IS THE FINAL SOLUTION TO THE WQ.

then of course i got regret: could SPANKING have fixed everything with that woman? if i had SPANKED her she wouldnt have broke muh heart, and we would have lived happily ever after?

tuff thoughts.

can you even spank someone you arent officially dating?

can you spank someone youve never fooked, cuddled with, or made out with?

i couldnt even get her alone to spank her. I would literally have to drag her behind a dumpster or into a car and essentially spank her in a semipublic place.

its not unheard of, and it was a desperate extreme situation. and that would have been an extreme solution. she needed at least 40 or 50 spanks, and you cant really do that in an unlockable restroom at the job site.

cant just go around the corner and spank you for the next 10 minutes straight.

also hard to spank somebody in a car, in a busy parking lot.

EXCUSES, EXCUSES, hahahaha.

spanking is a beautiful gift from GOD he gave us to lead women, just like secs is a beautiful gift from GOD he gave us to create children.

I can’t say it any plainer, folks.

i really dont think i’m going off the deep end with this spanking stuff. white “sharia” is kinda the deep end. but spanking and being a 1433 VVN is not the deep end hahahaha. its reasonable and moderate hahaha.

it shows how women are so fooked up that they WANT to be choked and beaten and tied up and thrown into a car trunk and cut with knifes and burnt with cig butts during secs. if they want any of that, they are fooked up, and many do. but wanting and liking spanking is perfectly healthy. if they got spanked more, they wouldnt have developed those perverted urges in the first place.

and you’re not weak for not wanting to punch a woman in the face during secs hahahahaha. you’re not weak for saying, wtf babe, thats fooked up, i’ll spank you, but i’m not gonna punch you in the face!

yes, youre right, that is fooked up, and no its not weak if you choose not to do it!

but you are weak to not spank the woman!

do you deserve to be left in the lurch? no i dont think so. no good faith man deserves that. but you need to LEARN.  YOU GON LEARN TODAY.

its so SIMPLE, thats part of the beauty.

its ok if you get off on it a BIT secsually, but its not INHERENTLY degenerate, jooish, or fetishistic. its a natural, wholesome way to Lead Your Wife. but you are totally entitled to get a LITTLE excited by it too.

you like it, SHE likes it, AND she behaves better, treats you better, doesnt break your heart, doesnt make a fool out of you. its a win win win win win.

https://suidlanders.org/our-emergency-plan/

some SA boers who want to prepare for eventual race war i guess. their leader is coming to minnesota to argue for a refugee camp in MN, which is prob the #1 state in the US for taking refugees. and antifa action is trying to org a counter rally to protest these hate hwyte fascists hahaha. i just dnated them 5 fecking dollars hahaha. and so should you. these poor boers are getting tortured and murdered in the most horrifying ways by blaq savages. plenty of images on the internet. horrifying, nightmarish, a living hell on earth.

Chateau Heartiste Maxim: Recall CH Maxim #[X]: A woman will hold a beta male endlessly accountable for the slightest infractions while promptly forgiving an alpha male the worst transgressions. END

he’s degen, but he’s also right, and he has great maxims. he just needs to fully Shame and Shun degeneracy.

i mean yeah, bang sluts, but dont ruin the few good women, and you should trying to find a good woman and have babies with her. and CH needs to focus a lot more on that. finding a good woman before she turns bad, and keeping her good with spankings.

the main thing is VETTING her before you marry her so you KNOW she’s a good (low-number, good father) woman.

LOW NUMBER, GOOD FATHER.

GOOD FATHER, LOW NUMBER! really is the better way to put it. because a good father is basically a cause of the low number.

and very few women with a low number dont have a good father. and i found one of them hahahaha. well shell have a high number soon enough wahhhh

you can go from low number to high number REALLLLLLY FAST. just blow right on by medium number. damn. smdh.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-4472758/Inside-America-s-worst-heroin-epidemic.html

i wont immed link the DS thread that linked this because i am thinking DS BBS threads have a 50% of being baleeted in the medium term, well before daily mail links!

id try some heron, fentanyl, pain pills etc, but i wouldnt want to do them regularly. i just want some god damn MJ!!!!!! thats all!!!!!!

thought about taking a valium, took a benedryl instead.

surprised the joos havent tried to shut down wesearchr for already raising nearly 100k for anglin. i mean all they have to do is go after the payment processor right? its not like wesearchr owns that! they have to go through a company right? i dunno!

probably not allowed to post pictures of the greatest man who ever existed and definitely not of that evil racist symbol hahahaha. but he had a great idea here HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

no i didnt come up with that meme, i WISH!!!! i did deface it though with the smiley faces.

c0ck holster for putin? more like c0ck holster for bibi hahahahaha be GREAT if he was putins c0c holster. then prez kushner wouldnt have gotten us into the mess. then there would be less kushner and way more bannon the cannon!!!!! who is probably on his way out altogether. SAD!!!!!!

i was walking behind 2 young black men today on my way out of a building, and they absolutely REEKED of MJ. It was the PERFECT chance to ax them, ayo hol up, all yall n199az got any w33d fo ya boi? where da w33d at mah n199a! and then tried to buy 20 dollars of MJ off them.

it probably would have WORKED and i would have had 10 dollars of shitty MJ right now!!!!!!!

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit.

the only reason black men get white women is that black men have NO fear, NO anxiety, so they can approach every single woman they see and not think twice about it.

it must be great not to have social anxiety, not to have any anxiety. blacks do not get anxiety, and for that i am a little jelly.

the guy who played AH in that movie downfall was pretty good. the whole movie was pretty good despite not being generally pro-AH, but you will never, ever, ever see that in a movie anyway. not until we win hahahaha. and im not talkng about trvmp the kushner kok holster!

https://www.wesearchr.com/discover#!mostRaised

heh the anglin thing is about to be the #1 most raised money ever on wesearchr and its still not listed as an “editors choice” hahahahahaha. again not expecting that, but i am thrilled to see it getting so much real support from people.

 

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april 5

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/women-running-5-dollar-tinder-scam-judenpresse-praises-them-as-heroes/96454

this guy eric striker i know ive liked some of his articles before. but this is a new low ahaha. i used to think my great business idea was to pay normie, non-hooker women to hang out with you and pretend to be interested in you. hangout hookers or hug hookers or cuddle hookers. pay 50 bucks for 15 minutes of cuddling, that kind of thing, to get kind of a GFE from a woman who was not an ACTUAL hooker.

so whats happening now is that normie, nonhooker, 20 year tinder slut college gurls are just saying send me 5 bucks and see what happens.

NOTHING. its actually pretty smart but TOTALLY jooish. of course men will pay for any hint of a woman and here we have a young attractive gurl who actually is taking advantage of that. she is getting hundreds of dollars a week from one slutty picture. DAMN.

you could probably also shake your CLOTHED tits and ass on camera and make a few hundred a week doing that. its kinda less slutty than actually fooking the guy or showing your tits. but it is very very very jooish and i wouldnt want a wife who did any of that shit.

im not even paying attention to the news. apparently trvmp is cucking and selling out to his joo kushner hahahah. and jooing over god emperor bannon. bannon kicked off security council. trvmp cucking to israel so they can use isis to take over syria and grab more land for israel hahaha.

i dont understand why israel just cant like take over a yuge part of syria right now and without the US’s involvement. i mean they are rich and they have bombz.

something about syrian gas attack, assad gassing children, and now trump needs to support israel in attacking assad and liberating syria or some shit

what if the US goes into syria and wipes out assad AND isis?  would that be ok? well i think actually assad is super dangerous because he is a legit threat to israel. kind of.

ok so russia is backing assad…..

israel is backing isis…..

US is on the fence….

iran….backing assad???

saudi arabia….backing isis??? because saudis are a joo puppet?? i cant remember hahahaha

so ivanka aka “yael” is totally jooed and her and kushner are manipulating daddy into war with russian and iran. that is the idea. and make shitloads of money off that war.

heh. well iran is pretty useless but it would be heartbreaking to go to war with RUSSIA. no more wars with whites. but i thought russia was jooed too?

there is a new guy on DS claiming to be a Washington Insider who worked to get Trvmp in, and is now feeling betrayed by stuff thats going on right now in that vein. nationalists like bannon on the way out, zionists and neocohens like kushner on the way up.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/bannon-kicked-off-national-security-council-wtf-is-this-shit/96768/

this story. some black pilling shit here hahaha. havent been wathcing news.

havent been reading GLR!

so this is trump softening and selling out to the joo basically, letting us all down. i guess its not surprising and we should enjoy the good times while they lasted. well we did!

so yeah i guess today was a big day. i have not watched any MSM yet, only read daily stormer forums and a lot of action on these stories. not really a bad way to get news hahaha althoguth this news does not sound good from here.

jordan is on the side of the joos.

so ww3 is going to be us, israel, jordan, saudi?, the joo N, the E Joo, vs syria, russia, china, iran?

and russia is going fly nukes into the US? i guess thats the plan hahahaha.

basically i am seeing shit TURNING for the first real time today. i mean i need to sleep on this a few nights like i do with anything thats even a medium deal.

so kushner is controlling trvmp thru daddys little gurl. yeah i mean it makes sense. i always knew that was gonna be a Chink in the Armour.  just wasnt sure how or when it would play out.

some people are full blown the end is near, you need to be prepping with food and ammo and gunz cuz there will be blood in the streets in the US

sheeeeeeeeit i guess i will be sorry for not being serious about prepping.

george feels having drama with some autistic tomboy weight lifting gurl he liked. then some stupid shit happened and she talked shit about him, he possibly talked shit about her, i dont care, im on georges side here hahaha. i am slowly raising my bet on him hahahaha.

pretty sure i am too old to be drafted into war for ZOG hahaha.

but i wont be able to defend muh fambly from negros and arabs when the power goes out for a month and people cant get gas or electric or food. so nonwhite mobs will roam the streets with gunz and we will need to protect our homes and families with gunz.

unless these are jooish anti-trump SHILLS trying to turn people against trump hahahaha with joo lies i mean i wouldnt be surpirsed by that either

whatever it is, i am certain the j’s are behind it. prove me fookin wrong.

some might think i am a J because I am so vehmently anti-j hahahaha. there’s really i can say to that except to tell you one of my best qualities is my GOOD FAITH. you can trust me to come in good faith and tell you what i believe is the truth. i might not be courageous to stand up for the truth though! but i come in good faith 99.99999999% of the time.

im not even RIGHT all of the time. but i will in good faith admit when i am wrong. shit i am wrong about 50% of things. and the other 50% of times, i just confused and Just Dont Know.

But I do know that I am right about these J’s. they have to go back.

Esp funny, since the vast majority of Actual Joos I’ve met in my life have been pretty much decent people. even the slutty leftist jooish women. they weren’t Evil People. I don’t THINK.

But the Joos as a WHOLE GROUP, have caused so much damage it cant be denied.

h0l0c0st denier? how about h0l0c0st TRUTH denier HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

most of the individual jooz i’ve met have been ok-to-pretty-darn-good people. but my problem is with the GROUP, not some individuals of the group, and their whole GROUP needs to go back. period. the good does not outweigh the bad.

they have turned our men into phaggots and our women into mudshark whores. they are a CANCER to our people. this has been going on for THOUSANDS of years in MANY different countries of goys.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/man-captures-images-of-jews-shape-shifting-in-and-out-of-their-white-disguise/96044

eric striker muh lad another great article hehehehe

THEY ADMIT IT THEMSELVES!!!! this is one thing that finally sold me. the PRETEND to be hwyte when they are apologizing for how evil and racist hwytes are, my fellow hwytes, you dont GET to tone police PoCs on the the systematic racism of police brutality……and then sooner or later, oy vey im jooish! and having pizza and wine for purim. oy vey! there are many atheist jews, its not just a religion! except when it is!

GLR is talking about this exact thing in WP on page 125 or so.  They are CONSTANTLY SHAPE SHIFTING and Shedding Skin whenever it suits them, between 3 main forms: a RELIGION, a RACE, and a NATION. we’re not this, we’re that! we’re not that, we’re this now!

you anti semite! you wouldnt say all catholics or all lutherans!

you anti semite! muh shoah, muh 6 gorillion!

the goddamn CHUTZPAH!!!!!!!!

HE CRIES OUT AS HE STRIKES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that eric striker article above points this out brilliantly. curating some tweets from wagner clemente soto. who was following ME back in 2011 when i had a semi-political, semi-racial twitter. i was proto-alt-right in 2011 hahahahahahahhahahahahaha.

my fellow hwytes, we all benefit from hwyte privilege, and heres why, and we dont get to tone police and we dont get to tell PoCs how to feel bla bla bla bla. ALWAYS a joo! well….not always. I’ve seen actual hwyte people who talk like this. damn THOSE are SAD!

april 6

hmm still watching this twin peaks pilot. this is confusing af. i watched all of twin peaks once, all the way thru, one episode after the other, like 13 years ago.

shit i forgot about the race mixing with sheriff truman and the chinee bitch who had race mixed prior with the superrich capitalist mr packard. why do these powerful white men fall for this gold digging chinee skank?

theres some other degenerate stuff like laura palmers secret life, but thats not GLORIFIED like this race mixing. and the chinee woman is portrayed as all WISE and SERIOUS and PROFOUND and DEEP and important and respected and respectable. to be fair, she does have a low energy demeanor and is not all shrill……but marrying a superrich wood baron? come on. its obvious.

but yeah there is so much going on here. i dont remember ANY of this.

also i dont think its really fair to say good clean SMALL TOWN GOYIM are  THIS degenerate. youre WRONG about that DAVID LYNCH. sometimes people just ARE squeaky clean. I guess dale cooper and sheriff truman represent that. fine. i mean i can tell lynch APPRECIATES that nondegenness. i just think he appreciates the degen a little too much!

so am I against the lesbian shit in mulholland dr, one of muh fav movies of all time?

man. i can live with ditching woody allen, but i would be SAD about having to ditch dave lynch.

I really hope he doesnt joo out with the NEW twin peaks. that is the biggest thing he’s done in 10 years and it might be the last thing he ever does because he is getting OLD. i hope it isnt totally jooed. im sure it will be a LITTLE jooed because the ORIGINAL was a little jooed in 1990.

ok. had a dream last night with THAT WOMAN. i was talking to her and trying to get her to pay attention to me but she was ignoring me. this kinda happened in real life too. i just really hated being ignored by her. i know how that sounds. makes me the bad guy who always NEEDS something. and yeah i WAS that a bit too much.

anyway in dream she turned around suddenly and snapped, “I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY hope you get the help you so desperately need for your ANXIETY ISSUES.” then turned immediately back around and resumed ignoring me.

that was interesting. it basically says, no i DONT really care, take your stupid ISSUES and leave me alone.

which i guess is prob what she WAS actually thinking.

at THAT time, I WAS filled with severe anxiety about everything! now, not so much, thank GOD. I’m doing OK with ANXIETY, thank GOD. but negative attitude is still RAAAAAAGING.

dream did not ruin day. her appearance was very very brief. nowhere NEAR as bad as the dream i had with her like 5 days ago.

but yeah lesson is, NEVER be passive agressive with women. they hate it, and you hate it too. just rip the band aid off and say what you wanna say and get it over with.

had fairly unproductive day.  because people aren’t expecting me to create/publish/deliver something every 20 minutes, i can get away with procrastinating on shit. tasks that i SHOULD BE doing, but i get STUCK like a deer in headlights and just start clicking tabs. I’m not even ENJOYING the procrastination. I WANT to be doing my task. it would HELP if somebody were ON MY ASS every 20 minutes saying, lemme see where you are at here. ok, this isn’t working, so you do this now.

when this is not how normie adults work! they are self-starting!

so now I gotta play CATCH UP over the weekend. and get to a point by monday that I feel  I SHOULD have gotten to today. and then some, as a show of good will. good faith. extra added value.

so yeah. i can see why ANYONE hate passive aggressive wimpy shit, and i only ever do it with women, not men, and i do it because i am SCARED to say whats REALLY on my mind. never again.

sucks to be so red pilled you cant even enjoy twin peaks any more! shit remember the MOVIE was een more degenerate! remember that david lynch is kinda a pervert that likes to show tits and ass!

so he’s always been kinda jooed, but its DISAPPOINTING because you know he’s a goy at heart.  and in many ways luvs his inner goy as he should. but he also needs to defoo the joo within, and i dont think he will, if he hasn’t by age 75 or however old he is. the new twin peaks will prob be jooed wtih plenty of tits, ass, and dark sleazy jooish degeneracy.

but it will DEF get lots of people talking about david lynch, prob the most they ever did since the LAST twin peaks 26 years ago. i mean REALLY. how many people saw inland empire, let alone people like me who saw it literally 10 times.

however there is no one else ever who has tapped into this Scary Dark place that Lynch has. it is very primordial and very very terrifying, i guess i like that sense of fear.

and joos live their lives that way and want us to too. to be thrown in that black jooish void of chaos, fear, terror, horror. perhaps lovecraft was also getting at this. and lovecraft def knew the deal with the J’s! could lynch maybe do a good lovecraft story? MAYBE. MAYBE. but i cant see lynch adapting other people (see dune) and i cant see lovecraft being made into a film. even a crazy lynch film.

but yeah. even in “squeaky clean” 1990 twin peaks, where 99.999999% of people are whyte except for the chinee and a few injuns, people dress like its 1950, they still all do degen shit like Cheating and Cocaine and Fornication.

High school kids that are 25 years old and cheating and fooking and doing coke! come on!

EVERYBODY is cheating on their husband or wife! I forgot about this aspect.

It’s nice that it shows women are dirty heartless bitches….but the men are no better! they are just as sleazy….and even STUPIDER.

COME ON DAVE!!!!!!

i mean its not like i didnt know what twin peaks WAS. and that it was like this 26 YEARS ago.

is The Subconscious Inherently Jooish? I don’t know. I don’t think so, even though a lot of jooish shit IS subconscious, like everything Freud talked about. your subconscious wants to fook your own mother. have your mother peg you with a strapon. jooish bullshit like that.

like your (((((((id)))))))) is at core, this jooish hideous thing ….. or at best, just a muh dick negro!

no theres a hwyte PERSPECTIVE on the subconscious, that you have this noble core, or maybe some kind of shared European Subconscious.

heh. i wish lynch would use his transcendental meditation to meditate more on THIS. on his hwyte soul. he obviously is getting into some very deep corners of the soul. just wish he could show more of the good hwyte parts.

so no I dont believe he is racially aware and I would love for him to be.

he’s always been one of muh favorite filmmakers. but so was woody allen. who ive since disavowed. i would not be so HAPPY about disavowing lynch because he’s far less jooish than allen.

another great example. harmony korine. he made two excellent movies, gummo and julien donkey boy. i have seen both many, many times. i guess you could say he is a more jooish form of lynch! when i was young i had no concept of korine being jooish. in fact, i bet he might not even be obsessed with his own jooishness!

but after you are redpilled, you cant help, why is this Actual Joo showing Goys in such pathetic, degenerate ways? the horrible destroyed, broken, twisted, jooed people of those two movies.

when you’re young you enjoy it because you were EDGY and i bet he felt the same way when he was young and MADE the movies!

i didnt keep up with his later stuff. i wanted to, but he was SO inactive and eventually i lost interest. “mister lonely” was ok but nothing classic.

i did watch some fassbinder on his recommendation, guess fassbinder was a big influence on him. and guess what, fassbinder is i THINK hwyte but he MIGHT AS WELL be J. wont lie, i liked some of his stuff though. i actually watched about 33% of berlin alexanderplatz and it was pretty good. i was only starting to get redpilled then. not sure how i would have viewed the nazi element of that movie.

oh shit he did that movie ali fear eats the soul which was totally degenerate: an old white woman falls in luv with a big black arab buck ali. i think he was a BERBER from MOROCCO.

or this other one where fassbinder essentially played himself, a degen phaggot hungry for c0ck.

see, fassbinder is nothing to GLORIFY.

and neither is korine. but i can’t deny that JDB, I watched that movie MANY times during my youth and it left a BIG impression. TOO big, probably.

i’ve more or less disavowed korine and doing so didnt disappoint me so much as if i had to disavow lynch, was what i was getting at.

but the location of twin peaks is GREAT. SUPER hwyte. you really want to BE there. i am looking at maps of washington state trying to find a town that is most like twin peaks.

interesting that lynch has made great work both in the Urban and more Rural settings. i of course thinks he needs to crush the urbanite parts of himself. less LA and more missoula montana man.

i hate to think that FILM ITSELF is INHERENTLY jooish……but it HAS been TAINTED by jooish influence since the VERY beginning.

i havent had much desire to watch tv or movies the past couple of YEARS. i just have shit on as background noise while i am neckbearding on internet. blogging about joos and failure and women. losing at poker. reading white power and 1489 stuff hahahah.

heh. took 1 benedryl and 1 valium already so…mind is getting cloudy and tired, cant BLOG too much hehe.

but yeah dont like that my WORK was compromised today because i was so scatterbrained and indecisive. i couldnt GET AWAY with this at a REAL job. i would be FIRED.

so now, for doing BAD today, i need to do an equal amount of GOOD, OFF the clock, to REPAY them, and to “save” myself and my job.

in the real world, you run ragged all day SLAMMED with work being super busy all day…..then you play CATCH UP at home and on weekends, doing MORE work so that you looks even more productive, and can me unreasonable standards and not get fired.

you dont get to relax and do things related to you or or family. you must nervously do MORE WORK to try to stop from getting sucked under in the undertow.

and you CERTAINLY dont get a whole day to SLACK OFF just clicking through a bunch of TABS and not really PRODUCING anything because youre just like well I DUNNO HOW TO DO THIS REALLY and now muh mind is going blank. maybe i should go on DISABILITY because MUH ISSUES have made me UNABLE TO WORK hahahahahahahaha.

there was one time IRL where that woman did turn and snap at me. i was whining like a beotch about a tuff day at the job hoping she would commiserate with me, that it was tuff for her to, and we could both bond over hating the job, and i sounded like a weak bitch, and she snapped LEAVE. PLEASE LEAVE. which was the most direct thing she ever said to me. i was shocked. i mean it totally makes sense, i totally understand why she did it.

and when our rel ended she essentially did the same thing but did not even say 2 words. but yeah that first time was like a prelude. i was hoping she would apologize for that but no i of course apologized LIKE A BITCH. STOP APOLOGIZING. NEVER APOLOGIZE. especially not out of weak desperation. i was in a pathetic, desperate, helpless, hopeless state. that is my excuse hahahaha. sometimes i GET really hopeless and desperate hahaha.

but yeah in that first snapping i was hoping for more sympathy, an apology, something that she was trying to see it from my side and not trying to be a bitch hahahaha. since i never got that, i feared she thought the worst of me when she really dumped me.

but yeah th edream wasnt that bad. i was much more frustrated by not being able to make any progress on my work. it was more like i was autistic because i couldnt visualize how the end product would look, so i could barely even muddle through on Just Doing Something until it Started To Look Like Something. i KNOW thats the best way to appoach this and I still didnt do it. was i scared? i was more distracted than SCARED. although i would have been just as unproductive if id been scared/anxious/nervous.

but yeah gonna sleep well tonight. still have 2 benedryls left to take haha. plenty of people at card table right now. too bad i am so tired. could literally go to sleep right now. it is start of muh weekend. muh longass nonnormie weekend.

well i CAN tell you that the MUSIC of twin peaks stands the test of time. great, great music. been listening to the soundtrack a lot in past few months, and i think there is some extra stuff in the actual show. and its all good. love every piece of music on there. no jooish bullshit. i had a surprising vision of Being In A Band and playing the “Mr Cool Theme” with them. this is the Cool Jazzy theme with the fingersnaps and what may be a marimba. i dont know what the official name of the song is.

but yeah all the boys are muh dick white negro jock chads fooking all the slutty staceys. except they are one upping the boys in evil, by getting some strange k0ch from pure evil satanic jooish outsiders from a primordial void hahaha. so yeah thats kind of nice seeing these evil women. but the men are degen and dumb. except for dale cooper. and sheriff truman except for his ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTING YELLOW FEVER. goddamn that always rustles and triggers me. i cant recall any other yellow fever in lynch’s stuff, or any race mixing for that matter.

i dunno. i just dont think it ROTS THE SOUL to watch a basically good goy playing with some jooish degen, as it does to watch some hand rubbing merchants actively crafting the most degen shit they can because it projects their filthy souls and destroys goys souls.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/for-the-sake-of-all-that-is-good-female-sexual-choice-must-be-suppressed/96932

interesting

breaking news, trump firing 50 tomohawk missiles at syrian air base RIGHT NOW, it has BEGUN, trvmp starting a WAR FOR JOOZ.

the missiles could be fake news tho hahahaha

joo don rickles dead at 90 today

i guess the tomahawk thing is on live tv news right now. just looking at twitter. will turn news on in about 30 minutes, watch 5 minutes, then got to sleep haha.

so…..just to be clear. i mean i would probably support US going in and bombing the shit out of ISIS. but how many normies understand he’s not bombing isis, he’s bombing assad, who isis is fighting against? so technically we on isis’s side here. and i guess israel would rather have isis in power than assad. not sure how or why assad has been such a Strong Bulwark against Israel.

Because assad has made alliances with China, Russia and Iran?????

bbbbut wont Trumps BASE be against this? trump supporters arent gonna like this any more than hillary supporters! i just dont get it!

apr 7

john thicc

i dont know why, i just found this meme funny. probably because this new black text word THICC is so ridiculous. you text a white mudshark slut DAYUM GURL DAT AZZ THICC  😂 😂 😂 💯💯💯

and then beautiful dumb 25 year ol white gurls with no children bend their thicc azz over for your BBC and let you fook them and give them their first of many sprog bastards ahahahahaha

spent like 15 minutes trying to refind that meme on daily stormer bbs hehehehe.

the great WEEV has been moved to make a video on it. havent watched it yet but I guess he’s saying something like i would say: lets give a few more days and see how this plays out, maybe its 4D chess hhahahaha, although it looks really bad right now, like trvmp is selling out. lets give him one chance hahahaha.

got like 10:30 of sleep which seems to be “normal” for nonwork nights as opposed to around 7 hours when i am getting up at 5am. which I do not complain about. 5am is a RESPECTABLE time to get up and makes me more normie, more winner, sheeeit i SHOULD get up at 5am on non work days just to make me a better, hwyter man! its a very hwyte, principled, ubermensch, hyperborean time to get up! its when hard working men of action, men with hwyte wives and families get up, at the latest!

actually REAL ubermensches get up at 3 am. THREE AM.

im not even really GETTING up at 5am. at 5am my alarm rings and I just watch tv news from 5 to 5:30 and drink coffee and try to not fall back asleep hahaha. the time passes REALLY quickly. nrmally 30 minutes do not pass this fast.

GOT to do some errands today. might do to walmart and buy new blue pants. really LUV their GEORGE 12 dollar pants. have 2 pair already and they are both awesome. figure why not buy 1 more.

the pants are damn near perfect. they look kind of underwhelming but then look and fit great when you put them on. absolutely no buyers remorse ever here. thank GOD. i am tempted to just stock up in case they stop making these pants, so i can have replacements when they wear out.

heh. cable tv watchathon right now. they have the orig twin peaks series. wonder if they have netflix movies. i wonder if they have the turin goddamn horse hahahahaha

hmm i could watch my other fav movie mulholland drive right now. do not have turin horse. not really surprised there.

i am doing laundry so not totally neckbearding.

debating whether to get haircut today. i SHOULD but I might not.

trump thing is weird. now the JY Slimes is reporting how “far right white nationalists and the alt right” are turning against trump because these far right racists are anti-war hahahaha.

funny when the FAR RIGHT are antiwar! hahahaha.

well i think they always HAVE been. its only EVER been NEOCOHENS who ever WANTED war! quite literally, jooz start all the wars in the world! well, in the modern world at least. since world war 1 at least hahaha.

like i said, trump supporters dont support this move, hillary and bernie supporters dont support this move. you have to ask, who DOES support it?

WHO, INDEED. TO ASK THE QUESTION IS TO ANSWER IT.

I guess that might redpill normies.

i mean NO ONE is saying this is a great idea. the best you get is, lets sleep on it a few days and see if it might play out well in the world of 4d chess. which it might. this is kind of where I am at. if it leads to a pattern of jooish trick after jooish trick, WHICH IT WELL MIGHT, then we can officially disavow trump and weep bitter tears of butthurt.

sheeit laundry is done.

ok folded and put away white t shirts. whites load hahahaha. there is actually a russian hwyte power band called whites load hahahahahahaha.

its possible the average normie amerifat might think syria is synonymous with isis, so that this attack is a good thing, because its an attack against isis. i agree that WOULD prob be a good thing!

but syria is NOT isis! syria is basically assad and HE is AGAINST isis! he is also pro-russia, pro-iran, and very anti-israel.

but arent ISIS anti-israel too?  i think they THREATEN israel much less than assad though.

but doesnt isis threaten us in the increasingly non-whitening West becuase ALL the terror attacks in the west are isis related?

assad supports syrian christians against slaughter by isis.

its safe to say all trump supporters want to see isis destroyed.

what if trump destroyed both assad AND isis?

would there then be a “power vacuum” which israel/US would then fight russia/iran over?

so in other words, assad is the only thing preventing WORLD WAR 3, and the US directly attacked him?

if i were smart enough to get into HARVARD i might UNDERSTAND all of this. i could just be a black and write #blacklivesmatter 100 times on my application essay and get into harvard hahahahha.

i should be more worried about me being Frozen and Unproductive at muh job. i might not be fired but i would def be Frowned Upon and Shunned and perhaps try to be Pressured to Quit hahahaha. but wouldnt they then give me GOOD references, because they want me OUT?

ok im gonna go to walmart, just walmart. i have a gift card anyway. its gonna be full of blacks and arabs though!

maybe i should try going to the “better” walmart?

i mean i HAVE to spend this WALMART gift card at specifically WALMART.

what would JOHN THICC do hahahaha that is the stupidest shit i have ever seen.

lets just fookin GO and get this over with. ok i did another mini chore. done. tried to do another mini chore involving a phone call, called them, they were out to damn lunch. a phone call about health care billing, hahahah talk about a lose lose situation. basically i am paying for a doctors office visit for what I think is In Full at the time of the visit, then I get a bill from the Health System 2 months later saying I owe MORE, like a Lot more. this happens every time, and every time I call the dr’s office and they “clear it up.” something about the communication between the doctors office and the health care System Billing Dept. I dont know whose fault it is. THEY probably dont know whos fault it is. i mean it looks unprofessional on both of them imho but as long as i can make one phone call and not have to pull teeth and speak to managers…shit its exactly the type of phone call I would HATE getting and HATE explaining…..because there IS no explanation! situations normal – all fooked up! that’s the explanation!

god almighty i would never want to work in medical billing, can you even imagine how jooish and horrible that is? jooish insurance companies and jooish hospitals all trying to joo poor patients as much as possible in ridiculously confusing, jooish ways, and who does the billing but single mom mudsharks and 80 IQ blacks when it would take 120 IQ just to understand the jooish complexities of this needlessly complex billing!

heh. get a masters degree in medical billing. that job might even be in demand. you might even make 18 bucks an hour with that one!

listen man i can do some calculus integrals and some CompSci 202 level coding, but i cant do basic bitch 11 dollar an hour medical billing and insurance questions! those are CONFUSING AF!!!!!!! the people taking those calls all day should be making at LEAST 18 dollars an hour, if not 20 hahaha.

call the doctors office, they said the billers werent in on fridays and to plz call back monday. HUH????? ok fine.

i have noticed a Pain Point for your business hahaha. I would solve it by having a Student Intern take billing phone calls on fridays for FREE hahahahaha. or, hire a negro or mudshark for 9 dollars an hour and have them be totally incompetent hahaha.

i just feel SORRY for these low level employees who arent TRAINED properly. there is a local political controversy where this elected official’s office is in total disarray, and all the new employees under them have no idea what they are doing. they are all young, poor, blacks making 11 dollars an hour, prob part time no benefits, and customers write to the local paper saying the Help Is Incompetent, nobody knows what they are doing, nobody is trained, what used to take you 5 minutes under the previous administration now takes an hour, its disgraceful.

i sympathize with the poor slobs on the frontlines trying to help people with their confusing questions! they are probably going to ask for a manager, but the manager is out to a looooooong lunch with crooked italian contractors getting drunk at the titty bar!

well at least italians are hwyte hahahahahahha. but these are the very sicilian nonwhyte arab looking italians always hhahaha. no thank you!

the sad thing is i know i applied for like 3 jobs in this department. it was prob a revolving door of people quitting or getting fired because the management is SO BAD it has become a PUBLIC SCANDAL in the local news.

well a lot of the people are unfirable, union tho.

its confusing. hire a 80 IQ negro to splain it to me for 9 dollars an hour hahaha.

see what i mean? TRAINING. I think even 80 iq people could do this if TRAINED properly. also, 120 people are still going to struggle if they dont have the correct INFORMATION to do the job. PLUS, its hard even for SMART people to answer Tuff Problems if they are being Pressured by Angry Assholes to work faster, do better.

they dont prepare you for this in skool or college and they should.

Hire ME. when you want it done fast AND done right. it doesnt matter what it is.

that is gonna be my new calling card. I do things fast AND right. everything.

ok got back from WALMART. i am happy to have accomplished something today. do one thing every day hahahaha. the place was absolutey FULL of blacks. some arabs but even more blacks. to the store managers credit, the store LOOKED just fine. clean and organized. got some great 12 dollar george pants, the best pants ever. again these pants are so good i should buy EXTRA. its HARD to find good pants let along GREAT pants. also found nice Faded Glory T Shirt with stripes on it. i like T shirts with some sort of design like stripes on it. this is remarkably hard to find.

did a first and bought the walmart brand BEEF. 80 20. i was wary but the beef looked all right. it was all in 2.25 pound packs for…. 6.94 each.  this is 3.08 per pound. not bad. with this I will make juicy 3 oz meatballs hahahaha and with those make THICC meatball burgers hahahaha.

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fookin BLAX hhahaha. BLACK MEMES are essentially what these are. emojis. ebonics in text form.

used up my gift card at walmart. place was so full of blacks. i survived but my god the customers. the people of walmart. made me want to try another walmart next time.

my usual store is a supermarket like walmart but its generally hwyter, definitely better PEOPLE there. going to the closest walmart is like going to baltimore or some shit hahahaha. i am thankful my immediate area and my local supermarket are largely still hwyte. i care about these things. i am racially aware hahahahah.

the other thing that sucks about walmart is that they dont have small hand baskets like i usually use. today they didnt even have the small pushcarts, just the large pushcarts. so i had to grab everything and hold it in muh bare bear arms hahahaha.

heh what the hell is the “deep state”. seeing this term being thrown around a lot. probably just means the jooz like kushner controlling trump hahahaha.

globalists. well i mean thats a good way to describe da jooz. so i am all for people talking about the evil globalists! i mean the term has gone mainstream!

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/an-extremely-unfortunate-turn-of-events/97362

anglin’s semi official statement on the syrian thing

http://www.dailystormer.com/duke-striker-on-the-jewish-elites-role-in-the-usa-drug-epidemic/

looks like eric striker who wrote that EXCELLENT article on the opioid epidemic and a number of other great articles on DS, has had a talk with david duke on his opioid article. who the hell is this striker, he has a lot of potential hehehe.

see some thing in local paper about high school in very hwyte semi rural redneck area and there is a young man with a 4.0 gpa who loves the high school auto repair/tech program and now he is gonna go to college to do an engineering degree in something diesel related. he seemed like a healthy happy normie. i was jelly of the young man who at age 17 says, i wanna do my career in DIESEL. design and build huge diesel engines. which there is huge money in this. repairing engines of 600000000000 dollar pieces of mining equipment which have huge diesel engines. huge machinery and engines normies cant even THINK of.

but he clearly got his interest in diesel from doing his high school auto tech program.

then i am jelly my high school didnt have an auto program because they were trying to prepare everyone for UNIVERSITY. then i think, if they had an auto program, would I have done it? if they HAD an hvac or auto or welding or electrician or cnc machining or some sort of trade program…..would I have done it????? its impossible to say.

this is possibly the best taake song and captures everything great about his style. it is very masculine and high energy. yet also grim. i cant rightfully call it “cold” cuz its very hot-blooded. also rather than repeating one riff 60000000 times like boortzum, he crams 6000000000 riffs into one song like technical death metal or something. BUTTTTTTTTT all those riffs flow PERFECTLY. the amount of air guitaring, air drumming i do throughout basically this whole song is insane. it only slows down in the last 30 seconds.

i will be obnoxiously calling for this song at the taake concert and hopefully will rustle hoest’s jimmies hahahahahahahaha.

so yeah i am happy about the walmart george 12 dollar pants. flat front, classic/normie fit, at that perfect intersection of looking fancy but not super fancy, and a cotton/polyester blend so they are both light and soft. best fooking pants ever.

https://www.walmart.com/ip/15024506?wmlspartner=wlpa

these are the pants, i’m 90% sure hahahaha. buy 4 pair right now and thank me later. i have gray, khaki, and now blue. i am tempted to get the black ones too.

WHAT WOULD JOHN THICC DO?

heh this is really a shit tier meme that wont ever take off, only i think its funny because its so goddamn bad.

also the faded glory striped tshirt is great. fooking great. this is why i like walmart. nice clothes for a nice price. i mean its way more expensive than the thrift store, but i rarely find anything good at the thrift store.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/11-year-old-boy-kills-self-after-gf-fakes-death-i-blame-single-motherhood/97270/

great comments hahahaha

every link i link is to daily stormer hahaha.  i am not anti TRS, i jsut am taking a temp break from them.

never do you find a dog that fires his owner because he wants to find a better owner. leaves his owner for seemingly greener pastures. i am trying to make a point about women hahahaha. dogs are loyal, women are not like dogs, women know no loyalty hahahaha and that sucks.

well they are loyal to brute strength arent they? i mean didnt we conclude that this all MADE SENSE? if YOU could get preggers wouldnt you stop being loyal to your PROTECTOR as soon as he showed he wasnt STRONG enough to protect you any more?

seeing all this stuff about “greater israel” which i guess is what israel wants to expand to, to basically go all the way to the persian gulf, take over large areas of syria, iraq, and saudia arabia, probably pick up a lot of oil in the process.

ever wonder why you never see an ISIS attack in israel??? hehehehehe.

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hahahaha

oh yeah. so lets say you go to normie degen high school. wouldnt you HAVE to see a few white mudshark slut girls, even if there were only 2 black kids in your school? they would certainly be banging white sluts.

in other words, maybe most (hwyte) men HAVE personally experienced mudhsharks, ie personally known women who have done it.

but were they CLOSE to them? did they really KNOW the women? did they CARE about them and WANT them? only to be brutally rejected for the mud? or were they just that dirty pathetic mudshark ho over there, it never really affected you on a deep level, never helped you become racially redpilled?

i mean i never met any mudsharks until i was like 25 years old simply because i didnt know many women. and if the few women i had met prior to that were fooking blacks…..well i just didnt KNOW about it.

i mean you gotta KNOW the women well enough to at least know WHO they are fooking. do you even know HALF the women you know that well?

oh shit so every women is a mudshark unless proven otherwise hahahaha guilty until proven innocent.

hahaha no but seriously, i would say innocent until proven guilty. and its not like i had to do cia shit with these women. they POST the shit on FACEBOOK!

yeah but im not on facebook anymore so how am i gonna do mudshark recon? well i figure just ask any women i get to know personally. jsut ask them. half the time they will be truthful. yeah ive been with blacks what it to you? you a racist or something? yes i am, now gtfo mudshark!

 

BEING A NEET INCEL LOSER IS DEGENERATE AND THIS IS HOW WE BEAT IT AND BECOME WW’s

jan 7 2017

got to get used to writing 17 hahahahahahahahahaha i think i might have written 2016 at some point yesterday

absolutely ridiculously cold outside, like 10 degrees without wind chill. goal is to do errands today like i am making an effort to not be a lazy neet loser.

sheeeeit. if those people are doxed. its a very serious important issue. on one hand its an ACT OF WAR. it means your enemies want you DEAD. on the other hand, it could provoke The Sleeping Goy to go All In. and an anti-J march in montana could be less of a trolling tactic and more of an actual reality.

but im concerned about these peoples FAMILIES.

very interesting how MW has gone from being a depressed AF neet loser to becoming an Influential Leader. I am very glad for it! also that he is a very moderate, convincing voice…..but he himself is developing and growing and becoming more damn 1433 than people realize! and its awesome to see a smart, careful, very well-spoken, likable, reasonable man go from normie to 1433 in the space of 2 years or so! (i heard you can get banned from facebook for even just saying the number 14…….8………….7 hehehehehe

 

hi sir hello, yes I know YOU arent a 1433 WN, but to me as a SME in the subject area of hwyteness, I fell your emphasis on Scots and Celts speaks to our primordial hwyte soul. and i hate bands and music and shows, but i would make a bigly exception. For You. YOURE WELCOME for me buying a tshirt from you hahahahaha. now find a way to record a full concert with better sound quality. dont they have “soundboards”? how did grateful dead record all those shows with good quality where you could hear each instrument? then you mix it in with a BIT of an audience recording (like this) to get that in the thick of it high energy live sound.

I mean hey your albums sound good in the “studio”, you are more than capable of figuring out how to do a good live recording. I mean I dont think they were TRYING for a good recording here. they just wanted to play a good show, and they very much succeeded there, and some Rando in the Audience had the good idea of hey someone should record this. I just like when the band shares that idea, and makes a little effort. a little goes a long way here guys. make a LITTLE effort. dont lose sleep trying to create The Perfect Live Album at Great Expense.

just set up like microphones in good places and soundboards and mixers and shit. i dont know.  enlist an INTERN from university who is majoring in Music Production and be like, sheeeeit you should really pay ME for the privilege of this EXPERIENCE you can put on your RESUME. do a good job and maybe we’ll let you do this again for free.

he has a a somewhat fashy some richard spencer haircut. not sure if it would be an improvement for him to grow long metal hair. sure why not. if you can, you should.

i guess ghoul got doxed pretty brutally so he’s been cooling off. thankfully counter signal memes for fashy goys is still active and i am not seeing any doxing stuff on google other than rumors he was doxed, and he took down bone zone, where he blatantly showed his very handsome face.  which probably led to the doxing.

i mean its very important to have a 1433 ACADEMIC PHILOSOPHER PHD, so i don’t want him to jeopardize that.  to have him inside the university unsubverting it would be great.

so yeah you can get banned on fbook for typing the number 1400 and eighty eight. i have used the number so much here that i dont know if i could find and replace them all! but going forward i will try to type 1433. and how about VVN instead of double you enn. wait until its a bannable offense just to say the term alt right!

im glad we have 20 year old KIDS now who are into the Cause, the Movement, but i am a bit jealous of them having a head start, of them having their heads on right at a young age. they will actually get their stem degrees, get good careers, make decent money, at a young age, which will make their chances at finding a good woman SO MUCH BETTER. then by the time they are 30, they can be making 50 grand a year, be married for like 10 years, and have 3 children.

rather than be 30, make 13k a year, have no children, have not even casually been with a woman since age 22 hahahahahahahaha.

went to walmart. on a saturday. it was PACKED with all sorts of blacks and browns. arabs the browns we have around here. not so many mexicans at all. some shitty asians like laos and hmong and thai and vietnam and all that. but the arabs are by far the biggest and most numerous. probably doxing myself here. ive been to areas where there are tons of mexicans and thats no fun either. well theyre not even necessarily mexicans. they are the hondurans and salvadoreans even mexico doesnt want.

tons of blacks. i felt uncomfortable that this walmart was less than 4 miles from my home. it was like a damn nonwhite ghetto in there. some real bad people of walmart. it was enough to convince me to go to the other walmart in hopes that it would be whiter. and its true it was a saturday. the worst day to go to walmart or any retail store. worst of the worst.

but yeah they had real nice clothes in there. faded glory and george brand shirts, real nice. bought a george dress shirt and a gift card to give to fam. you need clothes, go to walmart. this is why i dont pull pvssy. because i think walmart is great fashion hahahahahahahaha.

yeah well fook women, they are like jooish n3gr0 infant r3t4rds. they are borderline not human hahahahahahahaha.

if they knew what an asshole i was, then i would probably get more positive attention from women!

but im not an asshole in the right way, i am filled with CREEPY woman hate rather than SEXY woman-disregard!

women dont like woman-haters, they like woman-disregarders and woman-disrespecters! hehehehe.

mint wont let you split transactions that are pending on a credit card. that is stupid!

why havent i commented on the black thugs torturing the white man on video. well im glad it seems to be sparking a race war and waking some whites up and making them say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, im gonna be a damn racist already, im gonna start using the N Word.

But I wonder. I KNOW there are WHITE shitlibs out there who will say “yeah this is bad, but…………….what do you expect? this is kinda inevitable, given all the injustice whites have done against blacks. whites brought this on themselves. they kinda deserved it. its sad it happened to this disabled guy, but….you reap what you sow. I’m surprised this doesnt happen more often. you dont just oppress a whole group of people for 200 years without a little blowback.  when you spend 250 years punching down, expect them to punch up once in a while. ”

that kind of shit. rather than saying HELL NO. THIS SHIT HAS GONE TOO FAR. THESE FOOKING 1NgR0S. maybe we can’t live together. maybe they CAN be racist against whites. maybe whites should be racist against them.

well honestly. i can only think of one or two, well maybe three hahaha whites who are so shitlibby that they might think something like that. shrug and say yeah its deplorable but what did you expect would happen when you keep oppressing blacks? this is just an unfocused attempt to get justice for the wrongs whites have done against blacks. and dont be so ignorant and racist that you pretend it isnt!!!!!!

i said i felt much more NORMIE when i was friends with that woman, that i could even BE friends with a young woman, but did i really feel that way? i think when i first became friends with her, i was like yeah, she’s ok, we get along pretty well, but she’s not in my inner circle or anything. it took a real long time for that. after 1.5 years she confessed i was in her inner circle. i guess i appreciated that and started to be more willing to let her pass thru muh own walls of isolation, alienation, solitude and loneliness hahaha hahahaha.

now i just feel like a neet weirdo. me and george feels. at least he was working full time and probably making about 28k a year plus benefits! and people are mocking him for going down to 30 hours! and im not even working 30 hours hahahahahahahahahahaha. george right now is a bigger winner than i am right now……..and i just made a HUGE step FORWARD!

oh uncle bern hahahaha still doing mgtow and red pill stuff in 2017. he’s not wrong though! honestly i am so OLD that this stuff speaks to me. i am an old fart like bern. I think the current generation of youngins is better than the old farts like me. we are seeing good ideas and values in the minds of our youth. there are probably even decent 20 year old WOMEN out there now. And unfort I am TOO OLD to be with them. when I was 20 it was such a jood, pozzed, degen, nihilistic, hedonistic, muh dick  time. there were fewer decent young women than there are today HAHAHAHAHAHA like these excuses?

so our young alt right hwytes probably WILL find waifus and have children, unless childless oldass neets like me hahahaha. butthurt about our lost youth and our foreveralone and the women of OUR generation were always garbage hahahaha. the women WAY before us, and the women JUST AFTER us were ok though. we were on the cusp. on the wrong side of it though. JUSSSSST missed the boat. and eternally butthurt about it.

basically us old bachelor mgtows will die childless and the new young alt right kids will have children young. which is great for the race. but i would have liked having a chance at all that too hahaha.

but i DID have a chance! i just BLEW it royally!

yeah i just wonder where the cutoff is. i thing george for example is old enough that he got the shit end of the stick. he’s in my weird in between generation in other words. but a kid who is 25 or especially 20 right now? definitely in the younger, better generation.

excuses excuses hahahaha.

school never prepared me to be a good worker drone because i cant even get a damn proper average job. by average i mean 26k a year. the average per capita income.

really half of the jackasses in georges comments DO have decent advice, and if he did these things, it would help him at least a little bit. stop drinking. start counting calories. start doing MJ. stop telling gurls their boifrans are lucky.  but yeah he reminds me of me because he thinks CODING is his ally hahahaha. coding and programming is bullshit. you basically need a masters in compsci to get an entry level job, the only other jobs are Tech Support, which will destroy you entirely.  now granted the entry level jobs pay at least 30k hahahahahaha but i dont want to get a masters in compsci to get there.

or the equivalent of that in knowledge and skills because you spend all your free time CODING for fun instead of blogging and playing Cards and doing Alt Right stuff hahahaha.

in other words i fully predic george will become disillusioned with CODING the same way I did hahaha.  after i took like 30 credits of compsci courses.

but i dont want to burst georges only bubble!

i bet in states wiht legal MJ, do they have like MJ bars, where you can actually smoke the MJ at the place while hanging out there, the same way you drink in a bar? and then wont cops be waiting outside these places at closing time to make 10 grand a pop off every intoxicated driver.

because you can smoke a couple big puffs and be completely BTFO’d, while you pretty much have to be drinking for HOURS to get completely shitfaced. taking one hit of strong MJ is like having a double shot of 150 proof alcohol.  well its not nearly as bad for your liver and body, but in terms of mental intoxication.

but yeah i am very sympathetic to george. but i can totally see how he is frustrating. shit if i were in HIS shoes I would be all set. have a 28k a year Boring Job. its not liek he doesnt make enough money to move out! live in colorado. work your boring job where you know what youre doing and it doesnt fill you with FEAR, then buy a bag of MJ on your way home, and sm0ke it in the beautiful forest near your home.

i dont think george has much anxiety. but he certainly has a decent amount of depression. i prob envy him for not having anxiety. envy anybody who doesnt have anxiety. but especially him because his severe despair and omega incel puts him closer to my level hahahaha

how many men are unambitious? half? less than half? a half of a half? some men are definitely obviously ambitious. and some are definitely not. i dont need to tell you which one of those i am. hahahaha. i have NEVER been ambitious, ever.

well bitcoin finally “crashed” about 2 days ago and in seems to be on a slight downward trend right now. good. i will need to buy a little more eventually.

http://archive.is/oNXP6

oh god this futrelle guy is still around. he is the worst. now he is, not surpirsingly, bitching about the alt right and andrew anglin. mein n3g3r AA. he is one of the best writers and propagandists out there. i have nothing but respect and admiration for him. i think he should do more podcasts and less writing……but all his writing is so damn good and powerful. i dont like reading…..but when i do, i read andrew anglin hahahahaha.  he will be forever in the top tier of muh alt right d’nations. i will give this man at least 20 dollarydoos a year for hopefully many years to come hahahaha. he is fooking AWESOME and I would LUV to meet him one day. I would totally take a picture with him and use it for muh facebook photo forever. if i ever got back on fb hahahaha. which i feel no desire to do so. have been off facebook for pretty much 1.5 years here. no big loss. so now i cant stalk and spy on women. good, that was stupid and bad and creepy hahahaha. it was not principled hwyte behavior. yeah yeah its not fair to the women but it wasnt fair to me either. no i didnt realy STALK them. but i still looked at womens profiles far more than i should have been. it aids you in building your horrible FANTASY. dont do that. youre just hurting yourself.

when i got feelings for That Woman I would gaze longingly at her pictures on FB and saw ohhh gawd shes so purttty i so want her to be muh gurlfran and waifu, yeah shes a little weird looking but shes so qt and purty tho, im so glad i can see that now, this is the gurl i want to be muh waifu, im all in nao.

stupid. should have deactivated facebook THEN.

HA. I could probably get banned just for saying andrew anglins NAME hahahaha.

heh. im just glad millennial woes is become more like andrew anglin. well, not really, but kind of sort of. he’s becoming more VVN!!! People might not feel so proud to wear their MW tshirts any more! me, i will be even MORE proud to wear it and signal to people, this is what i believe, ask me about VVN hahahaha.

daily stormer started in july 2013. cant believe its that young. well i mean he was doing other stuff before that.

sheeeeeeeeeeit, i started THIS blog in may 2013 hehehehe. this blog is older than the daily stormer. and believe me i have been doing other blogs for YEARS. dont want to say their names but i have had at least three other Big, Multi-Year blogs. books and books  and books and books worth of rambling writing. i am a prolific blogger and have been ever since at LEAST 2005.

my average blog was maybe 2 years long, which is pretty good. and this one is prob the longest. i have honed my craft perfectly hahahaha.

the other blogs i tried harder. i polished the writing. it wasnt all a goddamn sloppy rough draft. also i fought to separate the personal and the political. for a while i was either “apolitical” or basically a damn LEFTIST. i was still a gloomy gus though. and very neurotic. but at least i had a political awakening hahahaha. I am very happy and grateful about that. it wasnt enough to FIX me, but god damn was it a YUGE improvement.

over being a god damn shitlib, feminist, anti-white, antiracist. you can see why these people trigger me so much now! they remind me of the horrible person I used to be! hard to believe i was once much WEAKER hahahaha. but i was!

the previous blog to this, though, started to see my transformation. and i retired that because some real life people knew about it. i guess i wanted to use it to try to raise my real life social capital. get women basically. get women by being a Blogging Badboy. Jeeeeeez theres a great idea hahahaha.

but ultimately i ended up Concerning people with my increasingly racist beliefs. so i shut the blog down. well, i think its still out there. i certainly saved a copy of it hahahaha. there was a lot of good stuff there!

and this one, i have no intention to tell anyone real life. no intention. and also no intention to separate personal and political. just let it ALL hang out. my main concerns here are getting doxed, and also making the movement appear weak.

i mean i dont think i am a total dumpster fire the way sinead or evalion is. i think i have a PRETTY GOOD grip on a lot of the stuff. really i am similar personally to millennial woes. a guy who faced a lot of despair and failure and underachievement and gradually came over to the right, then the alt right. MW clearly has his neet past. So do I. I’m still kind of IN IT, and I have struggled with it MORE than MW.

well….technically he was unemployed for longer than I was hahahahahaha.

also he tries a lot harder with his Content.

Also he talks a lot less about personal stuff. And when he does, he often makes the videos private. but when he does talk about personal stuff, those are some of muh fav videos of his.

also he shows his face. i would never, ever, ever show my face. but i have great respect for people who do.

i have thought about using my voice though. that itself is a HUGE risk. just talking this shit out instead of WRITING it. I current have hours and hours of poorly recorded Voice Recordings I make when driving in the car. and some of those are pretty good. 10% of it hahahaha.

anyway im no newb at this stuff. i am a damn SME hahahaha.

but yeah i do NOT want people to think all alt right, and by that i mean 1433 VVN’s who are JPilled on the JQ, that we are all emotionally unstable omega incel neets. I want you to think we are all fashy handsome winners, making 100k at age 25 with our STEM graduate degrees, in topkek shape physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally. i mean shit. personal improvement is a key part of this whole program. and i have failed miserably at that.

but at the same time, studying this stuff and  accepting this stuff has made me a better person, at least relatively hahahahaha. and i would encourage it to neet incel losers. the white ones at least. and really racial nationalism would probably help neet losers of any race. i dont really care about anyone but hwytes though.

so yeah it helped me a lot, but i’ve still got a long way to go. also i would hate to be shunned by the movement i hold so dear, because i am an incel neet loser and have a blog that is all about being a neet incel loser.  a good 1433 VVN is NOT incel, neet or a loser in other words.

yeah well im not saying neet incle loser is GOOD! I’m saying its FOOKING HORRIBLE AND DEGENERATE AND THIS IS HOW WE BEAT IT AND BECOME STRONG, PROUD HWYTE HWARRIORS WITH NICE HWYTE WHYFUS AND 3 CHILDREN AND 30+k A YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

 

JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO COMPROMISE DOESNT MEAN YOU HAVE TO LIKE IT

jan 3 2017

first day back to little boy virgin job hahahaha. well, its INFINITELY better than not working. INFINITELY. LITERALLY.

also stopped by bakery before job and bought some donuts and pastries and eclairs and danishes and cookies and such. the bakery is well regarded and the sweets were indeed good and they open at 6:30 am. i will try to do this about…..once a month. spent 6 dollars. going every week would be tryhard. hard to do donuts at my last job because there were like 50 people in the office. it was best if you brought in 2 dozen donuts. kind of a big deal.  here, much smaller office. bringing in 6 donuts is more than enough. so its a cheap value added way to Buy Goodwill hahahahahahaha.

went to bed yesterday at 8 pm, i think that was just about right. might even do 730pm today. my body LITERALLY needs 9 hours of sleep a night. thats just how much the world takes out of me hahahaha. on the easiest day. actually it doesnt matter if i have an easy day or a hard day, i still need 9 hours regardless.  i could do a fooking triathalon or sit and neckbeard all day. doesnt matter. 9 hours. of sleep.  kinda weird. already Yawning at 420 pm hehehehe.

was talking to “client/customer” today and he asked me a very direct question about muh education, he was not being rude or even prying, this guy just likes to ask direct questions about things I don’t like to give direct answers to. like he was fishing for opinions about TRVMP and I wanted to appear impartial so I said my standard nonpartisan answer about interesting times, and polarized bla bla, he said he was pretty much pro-trump, i was with my colleague who is unfortunately anti-trump but I try to disregard that because she (naturally, a woman) is also very accomplished and smart and i respect her brain and actually quite like her. it would of course be better if she were pro trump. she doesn’t know im pro trump and i dont really want to let ANYBODY know hahahaha. keep my cover.

well i can just say i am a Political Moderate and Honestly Guys I Am A Centrist and don’t go in for real Leftist Stuff, however I don’t think we’ve had a good Republican Candidate since……..i dunno reagan. I would be a total Reagan Democrat guys.

when this is total BS, I am a Far Right Hwyte Nationalist and cant wait for TRVMP to build a 1488 foot high wall and deport all illegals immediately. its january 3rd, why are there still illegals and blacks? hahahaha. I want to travel to far-right meetups in my free time and do Roman Salutes hahaha.

of COURSHE you dont talk about THOSE things, and of course you soften it and say i’m a moderate, im a centrist, and be thankful i’m in a place where Centrists won’t get frowned upon as being Too Far Right!!!!!!

ANYWAY the direct guy hit me with that question, well regarding the Super High Prestige University I went to, and my one coworker was right there, and they probably didnt know about this, and im like, great, if i say i went to this prestigious middle class uni, then i look like i’m a HUGE LOSER because im making 13k a year here instead of being a fooking grad degree executive manager making 100k a year like everyone else in muh uni class hahahahaha. i am 9 times less successful than the people i went to school with.

but the guy i was talking to was very sympathetic, he wasn’t trying to be mean, and in fact, so will most people. most people arent looking for ways to attack me, they just like asking direct questions, which is something i DONT like doing to people, but i need to get better at it. anyway i spilled the spaghetti and stammered like a retarded subhuman hahaha.

but anyway i brought donuts and yeah people here like to stay in shape and aren’t huge fatasses believe it or not. these people with their masters degrees, they tend to be in better shape hahahaha. they watch what they eat, and go to the gym, and maintain a Normal Healthy Weight even into their 40s hahahaha. youhave to be really SMART to do this apparently. no you really DONT.

so i ate 2 of the ridiculous donuts. i mean there is some rich custard shit in there.

but overall i felt more confidence as the day went on, it was not severely damaged by that moment, and i dont think it SHOULD be.

but yeah its why i would not be a good salesman. because i dont make an electrifying first impression. it takes me a few weeks hahahaha. and many people dont have that LUXURY of TIME and MONEY to give you a few WEEKS to prove you arent an idiot.

but here they arent judging me like that! they werent even really judging me like that at the old place either.

QUOTE

Just talk to him. Unfortunately this is how my relationship ended. I became clingy, not because it’s my nature, but because a previous relationship crafted me to be. I became an insecure idiot and the whole situation brought on anxiety that I didn’t want.
Perhaps he has anxiety? Who knows.
One thing I wouldn’t recommend is texting him saying “Hey, I think we need space” or “We need a break”. I mean you can, but be prepared for a barrage of text messages. If he truly has relationship anxiety, then everything is out of good intentions, but it will overwhelm you and just cause the whole situation to spiral the hell out of control.
My advice. If he’s harmless and has no anger issues. Just TALK to him. Tell him it’s bugging you. Tell him you like your space, that it’s not personal and that you’re not breaking up with him, just that a human being needs time to themselves, that’s all. Sit down and have a talk. See if he really has anxiety because it sounds like he does. Assess that situation and then go from there. See if it’s something that you want to deal with.
People with anxiety don’t text you all the time because they’re clingy, it’s because you don’t reply (granted it can only be like 30 min) and they feel like they said something wrong. The constant need to be around you isn’t a lack of trust or anything either, it’s his need of wanting to know you’re still there. It’s a weird thing and most people hate it, but you need to talk to him, in person, about EVERYTHING before it gets worse for the both of you.
If he continues to act the same way after that, then ask for a break since he’s not willing to change.

END

good point reddit

well you can also be anxious that somebody will leave you for any moment without warning and do a 180 and leave you in the lurch hahahaha.

how about you just dump him by ghosting. that would solve your problem real quick.  show that creepy abuser evil person how evil, creepy, and abusive he is, maybe he can K himself, he really SHOULD!!!!! for being such a horrible person!

hehehe i pretty much had this situation. looks like i was a bona fide creep then hahaha. i still had to finish 1 year of college though. and she had to finish 1 more year of high school. and she had been with like 10 guys and had many bf’s, and i had been ith 0 gurls and had 0 gf’s.

she was secsually WAY more mature than i was, and relationship wise. she had slutted it up with many guys, and also had several monog LTRs. certainly experienced more of Life than I had.

i was pretty immature, i was only marginally more “mature” than she was.

and i never tried to manipulate or control or groom or control or isolate or abuse or bully her, and she lost interest in me and dumped me hahhahahaha.  no i didnt isolate and control her and then end up cheating on her hahahaha. she would have had to have hung out with me a lot more and use have much moar secs and be officially dating for me even to have a chance at manipulating her, hahahahahaha. not that i would.

hmmm 2300 calories today, almost 1000 over. unbelievable. not doing too good this year hahahaha. well, better to be working than to be losing weight i guess, so if gaining weight is the price i pay for Working, then i guess its worth it hahaha. not like i am banging any beotches anyway.

hey dont scold me, they’re the ones who bang on the first date. i think its fooking disgusting. but its what they want. what they like. i dont like it. i would prefer not to do it. but youhave to COMPROMISE in order to have relships, casual or not.

JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO COMPROMISE DOESNT MEAN YOU HAVE TO LIKE IT.

of COURSE ill do it. i havent had secs in 12 years, so if a gurl offers it, i’ll do it, because it might be ANOTHER 12 years before i get another chance. but it doesnt mean i cant resent her for giving it up too fast and not being an ideal pure waifu who waits 3 months before secs! treats the life creation process with the respect it deserves, and treat human life and the process that creates it with the utmost DIGNITY!!!!!

kinda stupid that btc keeps rising. and rising. shit im GLAD i got all out before this hahahaha. i dont TRUST somethign this unstable hahahaha.

jan 4

yep all ready to go here just killing time, reading email. went to bed early, but woke up at like 1:30 am and was awake for liek 80 minutes with stuffy nose, congestion, some worrying, tossing and turning, Thirsty (wanting water to drink.)

trying not to worry about constantly proving myself and impressing people. but in life you DO need to impress peopel. you dont get second chances. sure not with women! yeah well they gave me one chance with the interview for this job and that was good enough for them.

well you know my degree might have been worthless but it was actually related to my “passion” of helping neets with despair, anxiety, and relships. well ok thats like 4 careers there. gotta pick one. was thinking i would prob lean towards relships at this point. become a relship counselor.

trying to come up with believable excuses why i didnt get a masters degree like everyone else hahahaha. because i felt it was too expensive, not worth the ROI, and also i didn’t network too well in uni.

cuz if i say i was immature, and i was, well didnt I GET more mature in the next 10 years? NOT REALLY!!!! well why not?? because i couldnt get and keep a bigboy job hahahaha.

jan 4

1132 bitcoin? ARE YOU FOOKING KIDDING ME? i remember when it was 900 not 2 weeks ago.

so my main issue by far is having conversations with people without flipping out. not panicking, but always being slightly anxious about everything i say sounding stupid or wrong, even if its just small talk about families or something. even though i know these are nice people who want to be nice to me. so i disappoint them by not coming out of muh “shell.” and i want to come out of the shell but just having a hard time. so i try to show good will by smiling and forcing myself to talk even though it sounds AWKWARD and STUPID. I know there are worse things in life than feeling awkward. i have felt awkward nonstop for like the past 20 years hahahaha. its not a huge deal, its not near as bad as despair, which is not nearly as bad as dread/panic/fear/worry/anxiety.

DAB? in swearing in ceremony with paul ryan? wtf is dabbing? i thought it was VAPING MJ. Thats the only dabbing if ever heard of. wax or shatters or hash oil or really concentrated thc juice that you get blazed off one puff of the vaporizer. shit i dunno. i dont do that shit either. here i thought the kid was smoking drugs while his father was getting sworn into congress.

no turns out its just some negro dance move.

had 15 mL half dose of nyquil at around 3pm. will have some dayquil right before bed so i dont wake up in the damn middle of the night.

welp only managed to do 180 calories over today ehehehehe.

was in the office today and this younger rather attractive woman from related department was in. I noticed her immediately when i first saw her shortly after i first started. learned she was married and had at least one young child. well good for her. but she is def younger than me and def still very attractive hehehehehe. i wanted to learn more about her job and resume hahaha. today i learn she has an MBA hahahaha. prob not the kind of MBA you get from a top 10 business school, but the kind you get from phoenix hehehehehehe. still you can get a good middle class career job with that though.

basically life for everyone is HARD. on HARD MODE. you have to be TOUGH. i was pretty much SPOILED and had life put on EASY MODE for me. and i STILL fooked it up. and so now facing the real hard world, it seems even HARDER for me than it does for normies! I’m going into hard mode having grown up on easy mode!

but yeah i havent been in a position lately where i have to try to Justify, Argue, Defend, and Explain why i did not get a Graduate Degree. Because I’m Lazy. Because I’m Crazy! and you can’t say this kind of shit to coworkers or customers because that makes you look incompetent, stupid, etc. so, you just say….i didnt want to. cuz i didnt really WANT to. i’m allowed to say i didnt WANT to! cuz i didnt really want to. i just felt pressure and expectations like i was SUPPOSED to. similar to how i am feeling now. but those pressures aren’t necessarily all real, just me thinking what other people think!

i mean i cant just say its not worth it without showing myself as character flawed. if there daughter who is 9 years younger than me can get a masters degree right after undergrad and then quickly move from 70k job to 70k job with a masters degree, so can anyone, including me. i just wasnt willing to work hard enough!

GREAT GAME here, this guy is out with his GF and points to another girl and says t the gf, “see that gurl? GOALS.”  implying that gf needs to lose weight hahahaha.

SEE THAT GURL? GOALS.

omg that is the most alpha thing ever said. that gf is bending over and getting fooked hard tonight!

me with anybody and we see a successful middle class normie with a masters degree and they say to me, see that normie? GOALS. as if I never had goals.

well i really didnt tho hahahaha. i never wanted to WORK.

yeah well im going to WORK now hahahaha. i dont plan on missing a day ever. i get there early every day and leave late every day. i answer email after muh shift. i sometimes do work after muh shift from home. i have a pot of coffee almost all made by my official start time. i bought a tub of coffee. i bought some fancy pastries from a fancy bakery. i wear dress shoes and try to dress like a business casual normie. I try to write good emails hahahaha.

Furthermore, I am worried that someone who is so comfortable around guys to sleep with them on the first date cannot be trusted while we try to move our relationship forward.

YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS THANK YOU. this is what all the women who defend this shit sluttiness always fail to notice. if its SO EASY for her to do such a BIG thing with a total stranger, what other big things will be so easy for her to do? things that may hurt you or break your heart?

WHY IS SEX NOT A BIG DEAL FOR WOMEN??????

Apart from the fact that they can get preggers…..i mean….all the naked genitals! doesnt this SEEM like an intimate activity? did it ever OCCUR to them to feel HESITANT about this? yeah, when they were a virgin at age 14 or whatever.

GOALS.

hey im not even interested in meeting new women. (well, kinda i am hahaha. ) but im not serious about actually DOING it. im just trying to survive ONE DAY AT A TIME. also im not even worthy of being in a rel because IM NOT AN ADULT. IM TERRIBLE AT ADULTING. I AM A CHILD WHO CANT EVEN HANDLE WORKING 40 HOURS A WEEK hahahaha. THIS IS THE BARE MINIMUM OF NORMIE MATURE ADULTHOOD.

 

MORE IMPOSTOR THAN DUNNING KRUGER

dec 5

WOW JUST WOW. heres a FIRST in mother fooking almost a year and a half, in fookin 16.5 almost 17 months to be exact, the famous first is that i went to a JOB today and earned MONAY. That much feelsgoodman but I also feel impostor syndrome, like i am a dumb weirdo and these people are giving me a chance but i am too slow on the uptake, im not taking that chance, i’m not ATTACKING it, and they will be disappointed in me.

the job itself seems SUPER LOW STRESS and everybody was chill and happy. I mean i have really hit the jackpot there. i should give some money to GOD right now for that. AND I know this woman that works there, i used to work with her 3+ years ago, she is a good person, saw her today.

there is technically a lot of stuff to learn but i didnt feel the PRESSURE to learn all this crazy shit FAST and EXPLAIN it to frustrated people who are gonna GRILL you on it. so its safe to say this job will be a LOT EASIER and a LOT LOWER STRESS than my previous job. which is awesome.

the people are nice and available for questions. HOLY SHIT.

on one hand i just want to survive one day at a time.

on the other hand, i want to ATTACK IT and SHOW INITIATIVE and PROVE MYSELF and EARN RESPECT.

i dont want to be a TIMID MILQUETOAST.

Like so one guy with a masters degree is helping the other guy with the masters degree with the software and I am watching and learning, and Im like these are successful people who are Good At Adulting, who have got masters degrees and Reaped The Benefits by having Good Career Jobs.

and here i am, a huge loser who cant get a job for 16 months sitting there trying to look smart and ask smart questions and act normal like i am a normie adult, when i am super far from being a normie adult.

i guess the thing is to “FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT” and really i will have to do a lot less of that here.

just remind myself this is NORMAL the FIRST DAY OF A DAMN JOB.

its been a while since i had the FIRST DAY OF A NEW JOB. it has been fookin THREE YEARS since that. well, 2.95 years hahaha.

transitions can be stressful even if the job is not stressful.

be mindful. let the thoughts float away. the judgments about muh self. just try to be nice to the people.

i mean i am ALWAYS nice but i am also Timid and I don’t want that.

also i can’t do much because there is a lot that is tied to my email/login stuff, and apparently the IT dept has a Policy where they cant get my account set up until after I have started my first day.  not before!

well i gave them 30 minutes of unpaid time today just to tie up some meeting stuff, like talking to the boss, etc.

the people here are very chill about getting there on time hahaha. i forgot about that. this workplace, ive worked at it before, from about 2009 to about 2013, and there were many many things i liked about it. and i am seeing that much of that, like the chill setting and the nice people, might carry over. and here i will have even LESS direct customer contact. but muh customers will be a generally higher level. masters degree people hehehehe.

yeah but there are some people in the dept that DONT have a masters degree.

i decided not to bring donuts on the VERY FIRST DAY becuase that would look TRYHARD, like i am DESPERATE to be liked and accepted. i can bring donuts another day. prob my last day of this week which is thursday.

i asked them about coffee. people like to drink coffee. great i said. i have some folgers at home i can bring in for everyone to use. there is a mr coffee for folgers and also a keurig machine. a goddam keurig. i guess its not THAT fancy. i mean im open to having a cup of keurig once in a while but i am a folgers man every day.

i wore dark blue dress slacks and a decent fitting Poplin/Oxford Dress Shirt, white with blue stripes. I looked pretty good. I made a half joke about how I could wear a tie if you think that would be good.

Wore black skechers shoes which are NICE but they are also too BIG. I shouldnt have bought them but this was over 3 years ago I bought these shoes. I actually wore them when i was working at this place the first time. jeez.  so this time i would go to WALMART and get some nice black shoes for reasonable price.

i mean i just gotta RELAX and be MINDFUL and not FREAK OUT. i mean theres NO REASON to freak out. everyone is NICE, they are not pushing weird shit on me, all this is OBVIOUSLY in my own head.

BATTLEMIND.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Battlemind

military toughness mental training. how to stay cool in COMBAT. I should really look into this. just learned this word today hehehe.

i am thinking of making like 10 hamburgers patties at once on a cookie sheet in the OVEN. then put the burgers in the freezer. then i can eat a Hamburger for a snack while i am at muh job, if i am not so nervous and spazz that I cannot even think of eating.

i mean it is a mental thing now. everyone there is nice, its just my own INSECURITY and Inferiority Complex that I’m fighting against.

and here i’ve been reading a ton of job related shit while at home. well i kinda wanted to. again just becoming more familiar with the field in general. i suppose it would be better ot study the exact stuff in particular, the software, well i sort of did.

should try to see if i can sync a google drive folder on the job computer. might be restricted tho. but i can get to the google drives website. cuz they are sharing google documents with my gmail address, ie they intentionally use google docs to share stuff. i mean why not.

shit i forgot to ask the boss about his phd program. and his kids. and his previous jobs. 99% sure he is a democrat and might be a progressive activist one. he is big on education and worked in Inner City schools and certainly believes that poor blacks kids are every bit as capable and smart as privileged huhwhyte kids. and he has had a successful career, plenty of respect, and a wife and 3 kids to encourage his Weltanschauung hahahaha. he clearly is doing things right!

credit Salty Seaman with his parody of Kyke cernovich’s “gorilla mindset” with “chimpanzee weltanschauung” hehehehe.

http://english.stackexchange.com/questions/17908/whats-the-difference-between-weltanschauung-and-worldview

fooking intellectuals just jerking each other off hahahaha.  see this is one reason i dont want a masters degree. or especially a phd. its all mental masturbation .

anyway the boss is a good guy. i just wish he were a Rightist instead of probably a Leftist.

Well I think HIS boss is more of a rightist than a leftist hahaha. he already has his phd hahaha. but from a less prestigious skool. one of those classic working career adult completes phd in their spare time much like a MBA or something. i mean thats a good accomplishment too. the guy is obviously a hard worker, very ambitious, persistent, tough, BATTLEMIND, all good qualities. this guy is VERY masculine and somewhat intimidates me. shit he was also my boss’s boss 3-4 years ago so yeah I sorta know him. he is everybodys boss.

ambitious people dont like unambitious people and vice versa, sez famous negroball coach nick saban. for me this is hauntingly true. ive never been ambitious although i could have been successful if i were, cuz i used to have a good brain. but never had the work ethic. so people that DO have a strong work ethic, i worry about them looking DOWN on me as a Lazy Bum who doesnt Wanna Work Hard. Theyre not wrong, but I dont think that makes me a horrible person hhahahahahaha. but this guy is very ambitious and i dont want him to look down on me, cuz i respect him and what he’s done. thats a big part of it too, you dont want people YOU respect to disrespect YOU. you think someone is a good role model, and they think you are a lazy bum.

well he doesnt think i am a lazy bum. i hear he thought pretty highly of me when i interviewed with him once for a FT job in 2014. i guess i actually can sound sort of smart in interviews. then once i get the job i sound like an idiot hahahahaha.

http://workplace.stackexchange.com/questions/80549/does-using-documentation-as-a-developer-make-me-look-unprofessional

heh. this guy is worried that looking stuff up makes him look dumb to his coworkers, because he doesnt automatically know it. never mind asking them dumb questions!

thankfully the responses are largely no, what you are doing is smart and good.

dec 6

everyone at the job is nice and there is no pressure, but i am putting a ton of pressure on myself to be smart and impressive and funny and likeable and normie and charismatic and fun and smart and a team player and a value adder and asking smart questions not dumb questions.

everyone is also super accomplished, basically everyone i work with or talk to has a masterz degree or a phd but they dont have a big head about it either. now i want masters degree people to know i am every bit as smart as they are…..but i dont want to get a masters degree. they are ambitious and career oriented so they were very motived to get an advanced degree. i am not. but i cant say that here. like yeah im just as smart as you, i just didnt want to work as hard. but they arent such workaholics that they arent nice, or are weird. everybody is nice and has families and children. sometimes i want to say “you know i only make 11 dollars an hour and dont have a masters degree in this field right? i mean im not an idiot and my undergrad was better than your undergrad hahahahaha but then i went off the reservation and became a loser after that point.

but everyone is very understanding and theyre like yeah i know thats a lot of stuff to be thrown at you.

it KINDA is, but not any more than i had before, plus the important part is, i dont have to answer phones all day and fix things for users of this software and explain it, while having nothing but the Documentation to assist me in that chore, and experts were very unavailable. here, the experts are just chilling out and you are sitting in a room right next to them with the phone only ringing once an hour! its SUCH a different environment, 180, i mean its 14880000000000180 times BETTER and more POSITIVE!!!!!!

Just some person with a masters degree in tech, whos an expert in these tools, who can answer any question I or the users have, explain everything, who WELCOME feedback and complaints and feature requests, dont just bark im busy read the documentation. its INSANE. no WONDER these people have masters degrees and years of experience, to have such good chill career jobs.

Basically everyone is a damn instructor too. all these people are teaching college classes on the damn side. To the point where I have to laugh sheepishly and say, now i’ve never actually taught a class before, because all these people have taught classes! They are all teachers!!!!!!

so yeah. much more of the impostor sydrome than the dunning kruger effect hahahaha.

i have been studying quite a bit when i get home, was going a training module today on a major piece of software.

Used the coffee maker today and one of our clients said that is some good coffee, reminds me of the maxwell house we used to drink at home when i was young. I said thank you thats the first pot o coffee ive ever made here hahahaha today is my second day.

he was an afro-american man with an MBA, very intelligent and well dressed hahahahahaha.

if most of the Black Men you met were like THAT, you might very well not be a racist, but be a damn pro-black, anti-white, anti-racist!!!!! no he was all right, i had no beef with him, clearly a Talented Tenth and would be welcome in my white nation hahahaha.

only working 6 hours a day which is perfect…..then come home and do some studying, and now i should go for a powerwalk, and thinking of bed at 8pm, i mean only 2 days in, of only 6 hour shifts, and i am feeling a crunch on my time in other words.  but i guess thats to be expected. will take a LITTLE getting used to.  so dont get NERVOUS or FREAK OUT about it. just ACCEPT IT. RADICAL ACCEPTANCE. DBT.

yassssssssssss rich spencer live at texas a&m, the skypes did not shut him down, its happening RIGHT NOW and there seems to be an enthusiastic crowd.

also some great uppity shitlibs. this is a Good School and is gonna get PhD level shitlibs and marxists.

yeah well spencer got into a phd program at duke, hahahaha.

shit i gotta go back and listen to this whole thing just to hear all the college leftists in detail and how he responds to them in detail. i missed the first hour of this.

but there needs to be a lot more of this, directly engaging and debating college shitlibs, uhhh because im not good at it hahahaha and really want to listen to someone who is confident and good at it.

TRS goys and univ shitlib marxist BLM together in the audience. NOICE. I gotta read more about this event. and the stuff that went on before, after, outside, nearby.

ebonic talking black female talking about whites doing genocide, youre building this country on the backs of black slaves.

i mean yeah you are gonna find the BEST (ie the worst, slimiest, most twisted) shitlibs at big, reputable univs like TAM, so yeah, more of this. lots more of this. YEAH BUDDY.

i wanna hear him and our side debate and argue with the other side, i dont hear it enough.

faggy philosophy student talking his love of logic and logicians from aristotle to russel, this is exactly what i want to hear, what i want spencer to BTFO, and which i cant handle, cuz i have no patience for hardcore logic hahahaha.

oh shit college “conservative” wanting to tell spencer he stands with the left to condemn spencers hateful rhetoric, how brave bantz spencer. RS is doing really well at this IMHO, needs to do this EVERY DAY. against even MORE hostile crowds.

http://boards.4chan.org/pol/thread/101841991/richard-spencer-at-texas-am-university

http://archive.is/iOEGP

https://twitter.com/search?f=tweets&vertical=news&q=richard%20spencer%20texas%20a%26m&src=refgoogle

http://www.dallasnews.com/news/texas/2016/12/06/protests-unity-event-texas-am-aim-drown-speech-alt-right-dallas-native-richard-spencer

2000 people PROTESTING him

whites with a phd in genetics asking how you determine white identity. god damn i hope that white guy is jooish. sadly he is probably an antiwhite white i fooking luv science! type shitlib. thankfully spencer is giving it right back to them, calling them fat idiots.

https://www.periscope.tv/w/1gqxvRrdNkqxB

i made muh first discord post to share this link i found in the 504um hahahahaha

http://time.com/4592947/students-protest-white-nationalist-richard-spencer-texas-am/?xid=tcoshare

time phagazine.

sheeeeit this is exciting. wish i could stay up late but i gotta get up early and act like a SMART PERSON. even with nice people in a slow environemtn, ideal people in an ideal setting, its still exhausting to put on the face and act like a smart capable normie for a paltry 6 hours!!!!!!!!!!!! i have NO IDEA how i survived at the other job. thank GOD this one is much better. mentally but not at all financially hahahaha.

 

WHAT GOOD DOES IT DO ME?

dec 3

https://www.youtube dot com/watch?v=C2hOJR0hIBY

this “woman” looks like a man, and should not be wearing something so unflattering, and looks part nonwhite, BUT she is appearing on redice, who are Legit Vetted Good Goys and worthy of support, talking about the evils and degeneracy of Jooish Pornography, so thats pretty cool. i just saw this, have not listened yet.

but with a great name like “PORNOGRAPHY: WEAPONIZED DEGENERACY” I got a DOUBLE BONER and downloaded it IMMEDIATELY for listening very soon on a powerwalk! they just should not have put “her” wearing that in the thumbnail. jeez she is so ugly in that picture it undermines all of our credibility hahahahaha. still anything about PORNOGRAPHY: WEAPONIZED DEGENERACY HAS to be a good talk, good lesson, good message.

 

really you should listen to the three hour mix three times a day hahahahahahaha

when we were young, once in a great while we would find a song that was so mind blowingly awesome that we made a “mix cd” of that one song on repeat for 74 minutes.  this one would definitely qualify! although I was not aware of it at that time unfort. Oh I knew about the movie but had no interest in it and had no knowledge of the music.

here is one of those songs hehehe. for some reason we gravitated to ridiculous 80s style “cock rock.”

i am shilling for red ice today. now i dont like how this guest woman dresses like a HOOKER with the eye makeup and earrings and showing the tits, but uh i will try to listen to this one as well. but yeah even though henrik and lana are All Right, sometimes they do have weirdass guests who are jooish or antiwhite hahahaha so just because somebody is ON red ice doesnt mean they are automatically good.

but yeah what red ice is doing, creating their own alt right, pro white media platform/network, is exactly what whites need to do. create a white, joo-free media. our own news, our own tv and radio, and of course podcasts are a great part of this, and its already happening, THANK GOD.

yeah i know red ice did weird alex jones conspiracy shit years ago, but i forgive them hahahaha.

henrik and lana just need to have 3+ children and hire some white men to do red ice.

i would become a sustaining member of red ice but their prices are too damn high hahahahaha.

65 euros a YEAR?  that is like 66 dollars a year. i would maybe do 20.

i mean they DESERVE it, i just cant/dont want to dnate that much!

i mean its more for ME than THEM, so i can FEEL GOOD about myself, and really i need all of THAT i can get!

there is this catholic church sorta near me that is geared towards polish people, and i hear that polish catholics are some of the most hardcore Based Catholics hahahaha. they are proud of their polish blood and dont have open arms for a bunch of screaming asians and mestizos and browns and arabs which you see in many cath churches. plus i have some polish blood and love poles. love them. would love a nice polish gurl for a qt 3.1488 waifu. poland is definitely a top tier european country.

problem is this place doesnt just have one polish mass a week, they have nothing BUT polish mass and EVERYTHING is in polish, church website, church bulletin/newsletter.

actually this is not a problem at all, this is a fookin BENEFIT. cuz it means they are traditional and old school as fook.

so i could just go there and be like

¯\_ツ_/¯   ¯\_ツ_/¯     ¯\_ツ_/¯     ¯\_ツ_/¯     ¯\_ツ_/¯       ¯\_ツ_/¯      ¯\_ツ_/¯

and say dzien dobry, jak sie maz (????), sto lat, dzienkuje, boze dobry, boze dobrze rzarzarzarza, ja nie movi polakiu, and then they would say oh look hes trying, how nice, then they could hook me up with their 19 year old virgin daughter who could teach me polakiu hahahaha and i could put babies in her for 14k a year hahahahaha.

sheeeeeeit those women are TOO GOOD for me!

乁(⏓ ͜つ⏓)ㄏ

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this fookin guy makes a huge raise when he flops a pair of 8s. glad i agressively went all in instead of thinking he had AA and folding! or 88 or 66 or 22 hehehe.

no thats not 7 dollars and 45 cents, thats .00745 btc, which is…. 5 dollars and 71 cents. YIKES. well the price of BTC has gone up pretty steadily since i started playing this shit like 2 years ago.

so yeah if i had any BALLS like a REAL MAN i would have gone to this polish church 11 fookin years ago!!!!!!!

fooking reddit relships and their different secs BEST FRIENDS. you shouldnt have a BEST FRIEND who is the opposite sex!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and IM the weirdo and sexist and hateful racist violent trump supporter for thinking this!!!!!!!

or IM weird because i think open relationships are shitty and bad. im being too judgmental and intolerant of peoples valid choice.

well to be fair, reddit says that MOST people

dec 4

 

i am gradually warming up to emily youcis. normally i am very very very very suspicious of women in the movement, but she doesnt seem TOO bad. plus i immediately get more sympathy for the women once they LOSE something like their job or their freedumz. and so she was recently fired by k1ke company aramark (i applied for office clerk job there, no response hahaha) after working for 7 years selling pistachios at the baseball stadium. fired for “social media” reasons.

yeah i mean maybe this was part of her plan and she’s prob not gonna go homeless or sucking dick for a place to stay (not that most women dont already do that anyway hahahahahahahahahaha)

anyway. so i am always judging women for being hookers and sluts and wh0res and promiscuous and degenerate, but in the end, do those things really impact me directly? why do i hate sluts so much? that woman wasn’t a slut! she hurt me through ways that did not involve sluttiness AT ALL!

yeah well in the PAST ive def been hurt by women who were into the slutty casual sex mindframe. also i just find it very distasteful and immoral and degen and a sign of the cultural and spiritual degen which we must fix in our people. and yes it represents something i WANT but cant seem to get, which is given away so freely to Everyone Else but I am fundamentally broken and unable to obtain.

and also i am judgmental against the things that that woman DID do, like avoiding shit like a coward, i dont like that either hahaha.

ok well here’s a good point: at least i never really became a beta orbiter friendzone!!! or if i did, it ended pretty damn quickly!

it kind of proves that i basically will not LET MYSELF become a pathetic supplicating beta orbiter. i eventually have to rip the bandaid off and be like, here’s the obvious truth which i can’t believe you’re not seeing. I CANT GO ON THIS WAY hahahaha.

going to church on sunday today instead of saturday. going to church that is probably better than the one i usu go to. less cucky and marxist and antitrvmp and leftwing. less cucking for DIVERSITY and UNITY and VIBRANCY and all that shit. shit no wonder that church is full of weird asians and this other church seems to have more whites. shit why dont i just go to this other church regularly. or go to that damn polish church. IT DOESNT MATTER that i dont speak polish. i could learn and besides them speaking polish is a YUGGGGGGGGGGGE value add!!!!!!! its a GREAT thing!

yep starting new 13k job tomorrow. kind of a big deal. nervous. dont want to screw it up. dont want to look like a WEIRD IDIOT. just want to do a good job. not just a good job, but a GREAT job and really impress everyone.

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit i should have been getting BOOKS related to my NEW FIELD the instant i knew i was hired, and devouring those books to get a good frame of reference, big picture view, maybe some small picture view too, reading the books The Director reads for his PhD, which is of course related to his masters degree and what he does now, The Department, what books are most relevant to this job and this department, thought leaders, bla bla. i quickly bought a book right now so that i could say i at least placed my order for the book before i started the job hahahaha but why i didnt do this 2 weeks ago so i could have had the books and started reading them by now…….hmm maybe i am not serious about making 13k a year with no benefits, maybe WALMART would be a better fit with my career skills.

dumped because he couldnt read the gurls stupid mind. i GUESS shes ENTITLED to dump him for whatever stupid reason she wants, but when the reason is THAT stupid, just candy coat it and dont GIVE an exact reason. i mean thats just a BAD REASON. just say I’m not compatible with you. it’s not you its me. that would be better than saying some stupid ass shit like that.

hehe i made the mistake of initially assuming the “best friend” OP of the gurl was another gurl. hehehe. sounds like he is deeply in luv with her and is in complete denial. but not looking at that, she still should not be Ghosting her friends.

i mean this guy is cringey and beta orbiter AF, and theres a very important lesson to learn there, but she still shouldnt be Ghosting him like a coward, throwing away 3 years of friendship, and getting her new bf to laugh at him and call him pathetic (which he is.)

dont be like this pvssy phaggot. but at least he is getting a CS degree so he might be making 30k a year by age 22. that is a pretty good move.  i mean its still risky because i worked with CS grads doing the exact same phone bullshit as me.

bonus points for OP having mad anxiety and panic attacks that feel like heart attacks and he is so confused hhahaha.

better when you are 21 than 31!

then reddit shreds this kid for being a sexist, creepy niceguy, which he kind of IS, but this ISNT the way to deal with that. you have to show some sympathy for these poor sad bastards. theyre not the bad horrible people you think they are !!!!!!!!

he doesnt need to “RESPECT” her wishes because they’re not respectable. just use the word ACCEPT. ACCEPT her stupid, unrespectable wishes, and let her get fooked by chad. the end.

grieve and have legitimate suffering because your friend of 3 years didnt give a DAMN about you as a human being. i feel your pain man. that sucks. this is the sympathy he’s not getting ANY of and he should.

anyway. i wish you COULD be Just Friends with a woman before Dating and Fooking and Relshiping them, because unless I am Friends with a Woman, i really just dont LIKE them. the way they approach Relships is degenerate and infuriating. I just dont like it. rustles the shit out of me.

I wish you COULD get to know a woman as a friend, be like this is a really good person and i like them, maybe I can try a deeper rel with them, i think they would make a decent GF or wife. i wonder if she will be willing to try that.

NOPE. NEVER WILL. thats what the friendzone is hahahaha. if you dont fook her like a n1993r within 2 days of meeting her, you dont have a chance with making her your GF or wife.

i just hate how the J’s are dumbing us down and jooing us down and morally corrupting us all down into n1993rs.

If you don’t like the word n1993rs, just call em animals. they are turning us all into filthy, dumb, dirty, disgusting ANIMALS.

I AM NOT AN ANIMAL!!!! I AM A HUMAN BEING!!!!!

anyway yeah this reddit niceguy hate is just way out of line. niceguys arent THAT bad. have some damn SYMPATHY for them. save some of that judgment for the women, who in many cases are being huge bitches to the niceguys.

but yeah this guy needs to stay away from this gurl, and there needs to be more blame directed at HER.

when you are begging and bribing somebody to hang out with you. it IS pathetic tho! but its SAD. he doesnt even REALIZE hes in LUV with her. at least I REALIZED that. and i STOPPED contacting her eventually. let her run off and fook animals.

and yeah it would help that guy to go to a shrink, but good lord dont tell him you are SUPER FOOKED UP and must see a shrink NOW if you have any chance of not being a horrible person. they hate these nice guys almost as much as they hate TRVMP or WHITE PEOPLE.

i was thinking in an ideal world, i would just get a dr to prescribe me Medical MJ for Despair and Anxiety, just like getting an RX for Citalopram and Valium. Which I have already gotten RX’s for.

so in an ideal world, despair and anxiety would be legal medical Qualified Conditions for MMJ.  but they arent.

anyway i was thinking, go to semi shady MMJ doctor and be like listen, so i dont have cancer or back pain like most of the people, but i dont want to bullshit you and say i have CARPAL TUNNEL pain when i really dont, but here’s something I REALLY DO HAVE, and have taken RX’s for YEARS to PROVE it, i know they arent TECHNICALLY conditions, but…..hey i’ll buy ya dinner right now, you’re pretty hungry from writing recommendations all day arent ya goy? bubby?

the thing is, i could say that my TREATMENT for OTHER CONDITIONS causes SPASMS, and then i could get MMJ for that. yeah but it doesnt. but i think citalopram causes spasms for some people hahahahaha.

basically the TREATMENT for something Unqualifying, gives me a Backdoor into Qualifying.

but not really, because this treatment doesnt cause spasms or severe pain!

https://www.reddit.com/r/altright/comments/5e7rbu/emily_youcis_animator_of_alfred_alfer_ama/

meh i guess i will approve of emily, she seems to be sincere. hope her animation bcomes less degenerate and she seems to be aware that by joining the alt right and becoming pro white, you kinda HAVE to hold yourself to a higher moral standard and actively purge the degeneracy from your own life.

but she’s only been into this for less than 6 months! i have been into this for like 6 years!!!!!!!

heh i dont really care as long as she is sincere and doesnt stop being pro white. she talks about losing friends and such and purging people. this is good.  purge the dead weight and bad influences from your life. Traditional Morality will alienate you from degenerate animalistic losers. you dont want them to be your friends anyway.

fine i will HUHWHYTE KNIGHT for emily even though shes probably taken MILES AND MILES of dick, prob even nonwhite (no real proof.) but i am willing to forgive, if there is TRUE repentance.

well i dont really like these super big bewbs gurls plus she will probably start to get very potato looking when she gets older. but at age 26 right now she is pretty qt, would hang out with hahahahahahahaha.

i mean better late than never amirite. im no saint myself. you know what they say, all saints have a past and all sinners have a future!

i went to this other church this morning and it was 100000000000000 times better than the one i usually go to. not only was it less boring and faster, there were a lot more whites, some qt young white women as well! i mean i already KNEW this for at LEAST a YEAR!!!!!

like the priest at my regular church, nice guy, good guy, but a pathetic cuck shitlib who is soooo shocked at the hate and racism and intolerance of the whitelash, and desperately wants to overcompensate and Reach Out to Mudslims to show them Not All White Christians are hateful rednecks.

whereas at the other church, no mention of this stuff, just a bunch of happy white people, including many under-40’s.

all the whites at my usual church are well over 40 hehehehe. plenty of nonwhites.

shit. starting NEW JOB tomorrow. have been doing laundry. planning on bringing 1 dozen donuts tom morning. ask people about their families. ask about what are good books for me to read about this field. i am already reading bla bla by bla bla. here’s some donuts. do you guys drink coffee? i can bring in some folgers, i have some extra folgers at home. sorry its not top shelf, but i can bring in a little top shelf closer to xmas. heres some donuts in the meantime. how many kids u got. where are they going to college? tell me about your graduate program. what do you think about the 14 words hahahaha. so how about that election hahahahaha.

can i take a tough phone call right now? what are the toughest problems you get in here from your “customers”? whats the best way to bullshit them and give them the runaround and say it cant be fixed, it is what it is, you dont have to like it hahahahaha jk i know we go above and beyond for our clients wink wink nudge nudge amirite?

besides, everybody knows that when “it is what it is” just wont cut it, you have to bring out it is what it IS what it is what it is. then that fixes everything. that explains everything. that gets angry people to say OH NOW I GET IT, im so sorry for being such a huge bitch. now that i realise that it is what it IS what it is!!!!! see before, i was thinking it IS what it is.

mother fooking phaggot cvntz hahahaha.

i was thinking i dont DESERVE a woman Without A Past, because IIIIII have a past myself!!!!!!!!!!!

ok fine, but i DO insist the woman is TRULY REPENTANT of her degenerate past! says I am ashamed of my past, i never want to have another abortion, or fook another nonwhite, or have any more casual sex!!!!!! its disgusting and here’s why! I REGRET doing all that.

rather than someone that says oh that makes me who i am, i’m not ashamed, i have no regrets.

GOOD PEOPLE HAVE REGRETS.

shit I have tons of regrets, tons of shame, tons of remorse and repentance for all the degenerate animal shit IVE done. so I DO want THAT much from muh formerly degenerate waifu hahahaha.

if you dont have regrets, I DONT WANT TO KNOW YOU hehehehe.

the bad shit youve done SHOULD be regretted.

muh dbt book says to try not to be judgmental. notice all the times you make a judgment throughout the day, bad OR good, and just let them float away like leaves on a stream.  just observe stuff mindfully and without judgment.

this struck me as kinda weird. i can see trying to stop your bad judgments, but the good ones too?

i mean i make 148800000000000000000000000000000000000000000 negative judgments a day. every damn person i see i judge them. i was sitting in church watching the nice white people coming back from communion and i was judging each and every one of them harshy: fatty. f4ggot. dirty dago. ugly. fat slob. pig. dog. disgusting animal. sissy. nice haircut phaggot. nice manbun phaggot. nice potato shaped body. your kids are brats. your wife is a slut. you have dyed hair, you must be a slut. how many cox you take. how many black guys. how many abortions. wow, fat AND a smoker, youre in great health, you no self discipline weakling.

i mean its truly ridiculous how many negative judgments i make about people, many many many times a day. so YEAH i AGREE, trying to be conscious of that and not doing that would be a GREAT step for me.

really i am nowhere NEAR as HATEFUL and judgmental when i am with actual real people. i always think the best of them.

but from a distance, when i am alone just thinking of people in the abstract, or people watching people from a distance, god damn, its a hugeass hatefest!!!!!!

no not violent hate, but still very bitter butthurt negative pessimistic cynical recrimination!

and WHAT DOES IT GET ME?

HOW DO I BENEFIT?

WHAT GOOD DOES IT DO ME?????

NOTHING!

at a more moderate level, it would have been a natural response to people who have hurt me in the past with slutty or immature or fat or ugly or irresponsible behavior.

but the healthy way for me to do that is to say, ok, here are some red flags to watch out for, but im not gonna look for those red flags in EVERYBODY, and im sure not gonna get MAD about it if they havent done anything to ME.

but yeah. its like my automatic reaction to seeing a person, is to have a NEGATIVE JUDGMENT about them. this is not good!

fat, ugly, slut, phaggot, degenerate. usually one of those. douchebag, asshole, bitch, weirdo, autist, spazz, moron.

i cant stop judging people hahahahaha.

STILL, i INSIST that its worse for women to go out there and let themselves be used as pieces of sex meat, that it is for pathetic omega virgins to jerk off to jooish porn. because in one you have essentially two people hurting each other, in the other, you have one loser hurting himself.

but dont get me wrong, porn is horrible and i am ASHAMED and REGRETFUL that i ever looked at it. well, that i looked at it so MUCH.

and tbh, i was only a little above average i think for American Men Of My Generation. Many men are much, much worse. i was nowhere NEAR a Porn Addict.

hmm sorta watching this movie the lost weekend, i mean i had watched this intently a few years ago, and i think after i stopped drinking as well, and had gained some Understanding of the Baffling Cunning “Disease”, and i still found the movie disappointing and corny, and for some reason it seems better now.

i mean ive been on the straight and narrow path here for the last damn 7 years basically. no booze, a little bit of MJ though. not enough imho hahahahahahaha. gradually became more Alt Right, more JQ, less degen, more principled, just a better person hahaha. although unfort more of a virgin neet loser too hahahaha.

well its been up and down tho. ebb and flow.

was driving home and saw this fat guy and his fat wife in my neighborhood who are always sitting in their backyard smoking cigarettes and being fat, and i thought wow, fat and smoking, good choice buddy, and then i thought ok i shouldnt JUDGE him, he very well could be a very very very nice kind man, very courageous, very strong. nobody is perfect, me neither, and so he just happens to be a fat smoker. nobodys perfect and what if he’s very very nice.

how often do i need to bring in donuts? i dont want to more than once every 2 weeks.

you gotta ask the right questions. what if i ask the WRONG questions? what if i ask DUMB questions???!!?!

so show them i am smart by quoting Big Thought Leaders in this Education Related Field. I read some education books right? hehehe yes the only education books i read were “dumbing us down” by gatto and “the unschooling handbook” by some woman.

both very anti establishment sort of stuff. but which may be considered moer establishment in 2016.

i mean i really SHOULD be more interested in the Field of muh job. which all I will say it is SOMEWHAT education related.

so yeah i think education is bullshit ahhahahahahhahahahaha. all education should be handled by parents.

yeah well what about college level stuff. the job im doing COULD ACTUALLY BE LEGIT USEFUL to a HUHWHYTE NATION as regards “homeschooling” college/grad level material to Learners. It’s GOOD because it can put you into direct contact with Experts and Instructors while minimizing the JOOISH DEGEN (((((COLLEGE EXPERIENCE))))), i will just say that.

MINIMIZING IT!

so yeah this is actually a REALLY good position to be in and i shoul dbe  MOAR grateful!

maybe i should bring bagels instead of donuts? i mean i will actually eat bagels later if people dont eat them all. its easier to save and eat bagels later than donuts.

now you could still use this technology to deliver jooish marxist frankfurt skool degeneracy and mindkilling soulkilling poison into the brains of students, but again, its just a TOOL, that can be used for good OR for bad.

if it helps even one white neet get a good paying job one day, then its worth it.

so in a way, i am working in support of my Dream Career by Helping White Neets.  UP FROM NEETNESS.

well, if they are doing education, technically they are not a neet then hahahahahaha. well how about neets who are only involved in education, because its a LOT easier to go to college than to Get A Job. you just pay shitloads of money (take out loans) and go to some shitty school hahahaha.

honestly just go to your local community college. i PROMISE you its not THAT shitty. better than fookin DEVRY. talk about fookin SKYPES.

besides, to get a good job, you cant just have book knowledge and do good in online college courses. you have to be good with PEOPLE. CUSTOMERS. you have to have MAD CHARISMA and not be autistic!

so how do all these autists get jobs?

uhh the ones that dont get stem degrees from good colleges DONT! they become neets!

so would i feel more comfortable lying to the MMJ doctor about Carpal Tunnel or Back Pain, or Lying about getting Spasms from the meds i take for muh Severe Despair?

great now the poor beta orbiter kid who was in love with his female friend was bullycided into removing his post. because hes such a HORRIBLE PERSON. good lord they hate these pathetic niceguys more than they hate Raepists. seriously. right now he is probably blaming the shit out of himself for being such a horrible person. and he wont let himself grieve properly for a relationship that “didnt exist.” yeah well if he knew her for THREE YEARS it DID exist, no matter how close she felt to HIM, no matter what these degenerate bullies on /relships say.

THAT KID IS BACK ON THE ESCALATOR!

there is ANOTHER post about an opposite secs best friend at the top of the relships hotlist!

GUESS WHAT /R/RELSHIPS, WHEN YOUR “BEST FRIEND” IS THE OPPOSITE SECS, RIDICULOUS DRAMA ENSUES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i guess you can be “friends,” but to identify as “best friends”? HELL NO.

sheeeeeeeeeit tuff times buddy. im sure reddit will say he is a horrible person for thinking he is entitled to something.

yep sad shit man. well at least you can do your JOB and shit you got a NEW JOB within 8 months of getting heartbreakingly dumped! so id say youre doing pretty well. just work 80 hours a week at your new job and smoke MJ the rest of the time. use MJ to bribe tinder wh0res into nihilistic secs hahahaha.

did i get jealous because they were leaving me, or did they leave me because i was getting jealous?

i think i kept my jealousy under wraps PRETTY DAMN WELL until it became clear they were pulling away from me, talking to other guys, and then i’d say i had a PRETTY GOOD REASON to get jealous hehehehe.

so yeah i dont eer push women away because i am “THE JEALOUS TYPE.”

heres a good quote from this one:

”   [–]PaHoua 4 points 49 minutes ago
If you’re the one broken up with, it is very likely you’ll take much longer to move on than the dumper. That person has already been “mourning” the loss of the relationship for a long time and when they finally came to terms with it is when they decided to commit to the action of dumping you.
Think of it like the five steps of grief: 1. Denial; 2. Bargaining; 3. Anger; 4. Depression; 5. Acceptance.
When she reached Acceptance, you weren’t even aware of what was to come. Then she dumped you. You moved into Denial.
This happened to me. I moved back and forth between all of the stages until I got into Acceptance. He was dating within weeks and probably earlier, whereas I remained in between stages for a couple of years.
It takes as long as it takes. That’s all anyone can tell you.     ”

wow a woman saying something very reasonable hahahahaha

 

ITS IMPOSSIBLE TO RESPECT SOMEBODYS DECISION TO TREAT YOU WITH DISRESPECT

 

oct 13

apparently got up way too early today for 9am test. strangely not pooping even though drinking coffee and have some food that should be ready to go hmmm.

i just hate angry customers demanding explanations that i dont have, demanding to speak to somebody else when i cant transfer them, and i dont have time to Figure Out their problem, and just have to tell them It Is What It Is, Live With It. There’s no tactful way to say this problem isnt serious enough to our company to waste time figuring it out.

when you are sitting there in the trenches desperately trying to bullshit people and survive to the end of another day in hell, the one thing that gives you hope and solace is the idea that the first thing you do when you get home is youre gonna prepare a yuuuuuuuuge spliff and smoke it and get hella blazed. that is your one saving grace. it really does help. without that, things really start to look hopeless.

did not get a ton of sleep last night hehehe .

aha well feel the BM coming now finally hahahaha. usually i dont have to wait!!!!

then i get mad at other people, like HOW DO YOU DEAL WITH THIS? HOW DO YOU HANDLE THIS? and they get mad at me cuz i am mad at them cuz they can so easily tell customers “i dunno, not my problem, deal with it, live with it, cant help you, it is what it is, goodbye.”

well, it is true that what i saw what PERHAPS the evidence of a company on the downfall. well, the company was having a Bad Year, Big Losses, and laid a ton of people off, including in our department. but was the shitty service we gave indicative of that, or was it always like that, even when times were Good and Growing? i mean you always want to save money and do more with less, and that means sweeping Small Problems under the rug.

its just hard being the person who has to tell the person youre sweeping THEIR problem under the rug.

very hard. what do you say?

idk just go with the flow lol  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

yeah well YOU stop listening to your degen music and TELL this person that. give them a damn good EXPLANATION WHY you are sweeping their problem under the rug.

and go suck negro dick some more. spread your legs for negros and make fookin shitsprogs with them.

i might not be in luv with negros, but i can at least admit they are humans hahahaha. they are living human beings and their innocent babies lives have some innate value and shouldnt be created WILLY NILLY. same with any nonwhite babies. I am a sucker for babies. all races babies are INNOCENT HUMAN LIVES that should not be treated like GARBAGE.

im not an idiot i SWEAR. Here, call my high school teacher from 20 years ago when I was a top 5% student and got all A’s.

ok took the test, it was EASY AS SHIT. basically copy an extremely simple table from this paper into excel, using sum formulas and multiplication formulas hahahaha. no index match or offsets or vlookups hehehehe.

and then use an adding machine with paper tape roll to add up a list of 20 numbers. i did not even understand. who uses adding machines.

i was nice to the lady and she was nice to me and i also saw a printout of the 30 people who took the written test a few weeks ago where i did horribly on the accounting questions, i told the lady yeah i didnt do so well on the accounting part, but i took accounting courses in College and got A’s I SWEAR, I could TOTALLY do that stuff again with the debits and credits and journal entries if I just did a little refresher, its not rocket science, its just you get rusty if you havent used it in a few years!!!!!! and she seemed understanding.

jeez. just when i thought trump was past this grab em by the pvssy shit, some more bad shit happens, namely, some b’s coming out saying he groped them. i guess i sort of thought this might happen, and now it is. i like how he is condemning the lugenpresse, because he knows this cant be proven, although youre a woman hater if you think a Victim Might Be Lying, especially if they put their name and face on video and say I, Ms Lyin Slutberg, say that trumps hands were like an octopus on me in 1980, and women dont make this shit up for political reasons hahahaha.

but yeah that is the prevailing idea, that women never lie. and trumps got to get women to believe women do lie, in order to get womens vote. of course women know women lie, but they will deny it to the point of voting against that bad bad man.

but yeah it is def hurting his poll numbers signif. i mean it does not look good folks.

but if he can handle this as well as he handled the pvssy tape, he has a chance.

heh i almost had a heart attack seeing this one cuz i actually thought it was That Woman doing an actual reddit post about ME hahahahahahaha. but its not. i am older than 29 anyway hahahahaha. also it sounds like she rejected him a little nicer because they were still talking afterwards. well…..not really. well, it sounds like she actually told him “im not interested,” and THEN he started asking Creepy Details about her Secs Life. well at least i did not do that! so i am less of a creep and better at respecting boundaries than this guy!

i mean i am fine being a woman hater but i DONT want to be a creep, i DO want to respect boundaries.

I was VERY, VERY, VERY distraught and upset, like this guy, but I think I did an OK job of respecting boundaries…..well just the idea of me getting feelings for her and asking her to hang out regularly was Trampling Her Boundaries!

yeah well she could have stopped saying YES WE WILL HANG OUT!!!!!!!!!! that KINDA got my hopes up!

but yeah i admit i was weak and cowardly and should have blurted everything out in november 2014. that is the lesson i learned, and if i ever get into this situation again, that is what i will do.

i didnt really manipulate our mutual friend to talk to her, but yeah maybe i did secretly hope that mutual friend would talk to that woman and be like hes really upset and you were kinda shitty to him hehehehehehehehe.

but yeah it gets to a point where you really dont have anything to TALK about. i learned pretty quickly that i didnt want to just TALK to her, i wanted a CHANCE with her. the time for TALKING was earlier. like yeah i wish you had dumped me with talking but if you come talk to me now, uhh yeah im still in luv with you, ill still be in luv with you 15 months later. i can accept you not wanting the rel, just tell me no. tell me no and tell me im not a piece of garbage hahahaha. just say aw im sorry youre a real sweet guy like all the other women who “FRIENDZONE” their male friends hahahahahaha and then lets take a little break because you cant be friends when theres one sided feelings, didnt you learn than by age 25 hahahaha.

i will pay for a dumping expert for you to dump me.

or have your mom dump me for you.

but yeah at the end of the day she was a nice person, a beautiful person, and i will never get over her or stop being in luv with her or find a better woman ahahahahahahaha.

this feels as bad as muh First Heartbreak! they say the first is by far the worst, but this one is by far the worst! the 5th or 6th heartbreak hehehehe. well because it was the most significant actual relship.

anyway yeah i guess i understand, if i were in her position i wold have a hard time dealing with me too.

i mean you really do need a professional for these types of things. well ok. i would have her go to my shrink, talk to my shrink for 30 minutes, then i would talk to the shrink for 30 minutes. do a couple of those sessions. and the shrink could relay everything in a mature manner. thats their JOB hahahaha.

yeah well many people are just horrible at their jobs and have no idea what they are doing hehehe.

i mean isnt this what QUALITY ASSURANCE does? makes sure stuff is objectively correct?

i mean i never experienced this before. i pretty much accepted the ITS OVER talk. well, i would try to win them back. didnt work. they would make out with you (and im sure str8 up Pity Fook you, because its just secs). but i was too pathetic to even PUSH for secs because im nervous about secs and am perfectly happy with making out.

anyway winning them back didnt work and i shouldnt have tried it.

well these were crazy middle class jooish college gurls! and That Woman was a nice white down to earth normal woman who was not a Huge Career Woman.

i was a little creepy, but was I SO creepy that I should be totally ashamed of myself? sometimes i am, sometimes im not, and im still not sure how ashamed i SHOULD be, in other words, not sure exactly How Creepy I was.

i mean i dont WANT to be creepy. because “creepers” dont get women ever. its synonymous with undesirable. i dont want to be undesirable. have such deep issues i could never be with a wimmin. i mean they have deep issues too, but it doesnt matter bc women are the supply, therefore i HAVE to not be creepy. it is my responsibility. my mission. i dont want to fail my mission.

heheh got up at 6 am, not a lot of sleep, in mood for nap now at 12 pm hahahaha.

anyway. muh life is in ruins and all i can think about is WOMEN. and this is not a new thing. i always cared more about women and the related drama, than making something of myself. this is one of muh hugest flaws.

cuz i was always way more interested in women than i was in Employment, Education, or Training hahahahahaha. all that stuff was boring at best and excruciating at worst.

yeah i shoud not be writing here, very tired hahahaha. i mean i SHOULD be furiously jobsearching but i dont do that so furiously. hey i did something job related today! and i am on the baby steps plan hahaha.

but i have been on the baby steps plan for YEARS. i need to start doing MORE than baby steps, a LOT more.

GROWN ASS MEN DONT GET ANYWHERE WITH BABY STEPS.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

teen doesnt want to go to college, caretaker says she needs college beause shes not the type to do well without college.

such an easy answer. let the damn kid take a damn gap year, maybe two. also its easy to get a job when you are a 18 year old gurl hahahahaha. take some business classes at the CC because the kid is vaguely interested in “Starting a business” with no plan. so take accounting classes at least, maybe econ, i dunno. def accounting cuz its an actual skill you can get paid for. i mean it hasnt really helped my career hahahaha.

everyones like o just have her get a FT job and pay you rent, which in theory is a great idea…..but what if she cant get an FT job? spends the entire gap year just applying to jobs, going to interviews, and not getting jobs? hehehehe.

which i highly doubt tho, cuz as an 18 year old gurl she could prob get hired at a 12 dollar an hour county job like i just got two rejections today for two such jobs! they either dont like muh gap andor they think i am overqualified andor they dont want to hire white males. they hire a lot of white females though hahahahaha.

anyway if the kid is not DRIVEN in real life, they wont be DRIVEN in college, and being a lazy slob in college is not gonna help them. then you become a huge failure like me hahahaha.

anyway i always knew i was too fooked up to have a rel with a woman, so i wasnt actively looking for one. i knew i had to fix myself first, and that would take YEARSSSSSSSSSSSS until i am 40 or so.

point is, i didnt go LOOKING for a woman when i “found” That Woman. Us becoming friends was the easiest, most natural, most spontaneous thing i had felt in a very long time. we just got along instantly. it just happened naturally af. i didnt LUV her at first. after 2 years of being solid friends, i fell in luv with her. and yet i still was too broken and damaged to be in a rel.

point is, i wasnt putting myself out there, i wasnt trying to FIND a GF in other words. she literally fell into muh life and we got along rather MIRACULOUSLY.

like i think about going on okcupid or something and practicing banging sluts, but i know im not even ready for that cuz muh life is a mess, cant take care of myself, cant be a adult, i gotta get that stuff fixed before i even THINK about women.

hehehehe. yep. get me to stop thinking about women hehehehe.

well thats a lot easier when you are working FT at a terrible job. THEN you just think about surviving one day at a time. you have no Libido, you cant even jerk off UNLESS You look at porno. and it becomes a joyless experience solely to attempt to relieve stress. destress. and it doesnt work nearly as well as smokin MJ.

or quickly crank one out thinking of the Office Young Slut that all the other lonely old guys want to bang too.

if you are lucky enough to GET a job. AND work with even ONE attractive young woman.

but attractive young women can be INCREDIBLY distracting.

well, you will probably be thinking of them ANYWAY even if you dont know or see any. kinda in that position right now. im always thinking of women, but i really dont interact that much with women, and my point is, i dont know ANY attractive young women! but i still think about the idea of them! all the time!

shit maybe send that 17 year old kid to a shrink (i am thinking of them more as a boy than a girl, because gurls shouldnt Go Away To College period.) just to get a damn “tune up” and make sure they dont have Depression or Anxiety or Bipolar. just get a check up, and if they have anything, they can start treating it when theyre young and before they get their whole life off track. maybe the kid is Depressed because they dont seem to have any drive or motivation hehehehe. also make sure they are NOT doing drugs or alcohol regularly. find a male mentor who is 5 years older. 9 at the very most.

if the mentors are too old, they wont know how the world works and their advice wont apply hahahahaha. theyll say go to college, thats your sure ticket to the middle class, hahahaha.

dont get a female mentor.

FEMALES CANT MENTOR.

well, maybe they can mentor children and women, IF they have children of their own.

well what about this guys wife who is a successful business owner.

ok fine, if they own a successful business, ill give them a pass.

and actual entrepreneurs WOULD be GREAT mentors for Teens. but good luck getting access to these privileged, valuable, expensive, very important people. their time is worth 100 bucks an hour just to talk to them on the phone. just go shadow a doctor or something. go shadow bill gates hahahaha.

but yeah going to college right after high school was a HORRIBLE idea for me, so yeah i was VERY interested in that topic.

wewlad finally gonna come in under muh daily calorie goal of 1200, instead of way way over.

ITS SO HARD TO DO EVEN 1 BABY STEP hahahahaha.

but yeah i get SO nervous at the idea of Facing Customers. it is TERRIFYING. like the kids at mcdonalds making 9 dollars an hour. i couldnt do what they do!

but the FACT is, at ONE time, i USED to do pretty high level, in depth, srs business customer service. having deep intense serious conversations.

so yeah i just want to answer all my haters who say i got involved with a woman before i was READY.  it just HAPPENED ok. i wasnt LOOKING for anything. you cant CHOOSE who you LUV.

on reddit some college educated career woman was doing a /sarcasm about sex being “the holy process by which babies are made” /s . i wanted to reach through the screen and punch her in the face for being such a fooking godless disgusting degenerate. THAT SHOULDNT BE SARCASM! THATS EXACTLY WHAT SECS IS!!!!!!!!!!

and i am honestly disappointed that ONLY religious people share my beliefs. I argue endlessly you dont HAVE to be religious, christian, etc to have my beliefs on Sexual Morality, that sex is a darn near holy, sacred, sublime process by which Human Life is created, so have some damn REVERENCE for it.

apparently only religious nuts think this, and everybody else doesn’t.

i am SORTA religious but I stubbornly insist you dont NEED to be to feel this way about secs. even a damn tree worshiping pagan would agree with me!

i was pleasantly surprised to see that there were soem gun owners on reddit. one rel question involved guns and plenty of gun owners responded. i expected everyone on reddit to be violently antigun, anyone who doesnt express only negative opinions about guns is an evil white cis racist hateful nazi kkk trump raeper. so i was glad to be proven wrong there.

everything is NOT OKAY with these women. 25 year old women making 50 grand a year write work emails about things being NOT OK. good god.  and we all have to bow down to the women and fix shit when they think something is NOT OK. no man would EVER use those words to describe anything, unless he is a total cuckold phaggot.

women are very conformist in the way they talk so colloquial idioms like “not ok” and “its a thing” and “its been a minute” and “creeper” and “netflix and chill” and LITERALLY and  just the littlest ways of speaking, the words, the stupid slang, they get really into that and it changes the way they TALK. and men just dont TALK like that, not nearly as much.

 

heh the anxiety reddit is sometimes pretty good, though not nearly as much comments as relshits.

 

yep

 

in this WOMANS defense, I would get anxious about 12-15 hour shifts too!

 

there is a despair reddit too but damn these people are pathetic. but there are some good questions like the above. not alot of answers though.

anyway i think my despair comes FROM muh anxiety which holds me back from taking risks and doing things and accomplishing Life Goals like getting a real job, maintaining the job, getting a rel, maintaining the rel, being an adult, etc.

also anxiety prevents a LOT of people from working. they have panic attacks and crying every day about their job. panicking every morning. panicking at lunch. being exhausted and destroyed at the end of every day.

some suggested that high CBD cannabis can help with anxiety but high THC can Aggravate anxiety? i dont doubt that. but I always think of it in terms of indica vs sativa, and this is NOT the same thing.

well then give me a high CBD indica hahahaha.

 

1 comment basically saying i dunno, nothing helps, try meds and maybe it will help you seem like a normie.

hehehehe. i know that feel.

but yeah. valid, good questions, with barely any responses. bretty disappointing reddit.

well i can at least be gratefu that muh anxiety and despair arent as bad as some of these people. like i can actually go on interviews, 23 of them hahahahaha. (but VERY doubtful about actually doing a job and surviving at it!!!!!!). also i dont get holy shit i must K myself sort of thoughts. more like wow i am a huge failure who has wasted my life and i will never be able to turn it around, but i dont really want to K myself! but i just feel hopeless about being able to become a real adult with an average job, and to get a halfway decent gf, ideally wife. ok FINE i will accept not having children. but i wont accept getting into a rel with a shitty woman out of pure desperation and loneliness. i would rather continue being alone. and just smoke MJ and maybe bang sluts like a degen. its not ideal but i wonder if some secs would make a man more confident which he can then use to do actually good, nondegen things. the ends jsutify the means. by any means necessary.

oct 14

https://www.eremedia.com/ere/why-you-cant-get-a-job-recruiting-explained-by-the-numbers/

yeah the page does exist, ive got it open right now. very discouraging article  written by evil hr person hahaha.

http://insights.dice.com/2014/09/16/recruitings-dirty-little-secrets/

ok ive had enough hahaha

basically i was looking for an Experts Opinion on low-level (data entry, general clerk, entry level admin asst, clerical asst, office clerk) get posted AGAIN and AGAIN and AGAIN and over and over and over every 3 or 4 weeks, basically the same position in the same location, and you apply 3 or 4 or 5 times until youre ike WTF is going on here, ive applied to this same job 4 times and still havent gotten called for a First Interview or even a Phone Screening, WTF is going on here. has their HR department blackballed me, or is this just not a real job? are they building a pool? there must be 10000 people in the pool by now!! are they trying to build a BETTER pool? its a 12 dollar an hour job! youre not gonna GET mark zuckerberg!!!!!! WHAT IS GOING ON here? looking for an article that explains this phenomenon, but cannot find.

i mean yeah im sure i could get flagged as “DESPERATE, WILL TAKE ANYTHING” in the ATS, which is only half true. I will only take anything that is less than 50% phones hahahahaha, i will take anything that wouldnt obviously drive me completely insane and do a panicquit hahahahaha.

im sure ive got that flag at the hospital where ive applied to 50 jobs. but i’m not applying to shit all over the hospital! i am applying to stuff in my ballpark of qualification!!!!!!!!!!

if there are men looking for the “GF experience”, are there women looking for the BF experience?

well, and im not SURE about this, but my THEORY is that women who get LONELY like this will just end up trying to convert their BFE (probably a Fook buddy or FWB) into an actual BF.

just basically slapping your fantasy image of the perfect GF/BF onto whatever attractive person lets you fook them. then you fook them and cuddle with them and be nice to them and start to want them as your GF even though you have no idea who they REALLY are. pretty much what happened with the first gurl i fooked.

its safe to say if you want the GFE, you want a GF, period.

(yeah this is kind of a NO SHIT SHERLOCK thing when you think about it for 1 second.) so you are at risk. you bang some slut and try to make it a GFE, and then probably end up getting stupid feelings too fast because what you REALLY want is a GF.

i mean its not really STUPID, its completely understandable.

when you search what appears to be specific requisition numbers on a big companys job site and you cant find the job. because i got an email alert saying apply for this job, but no LINK in the email, so i search the req number given in the email to make sure i find the exact job, and nothing. total incompetence by the HR of a YUGE successful company. shit why even post jobs, they can get top talent from top skools, why even open this shit to slobs like me.

less than 1 month to go and the pres campagins are now all about Secs Scandals. this is honestly kinda disappointing. not that secs scandals do not matter cuz they ARE an indicator of Morality, which is more important than anything hehehehe.

well i mean i will accept a president who has groped a few women, but is sincere about making america great again hahahahaha. i will not accept a pres who has groped and raeped a LOT of women and who wants to genocide my race hahahahahahaha.

so what if trump doesnt respect women? I dont respect women! well, the MAJORITY of women hahahahaha. SOME women are respectable. but not a lot.

although on a person to person level, social interactions, i treat everybody respectfully, even if the person may not really be respectable. i mean im not gonna FIX them by being an asshole to them. i dont like being an asshole to people anyway. its too much WORK, its too much STRESS, too much anxiety.

i wish there was a lot more discussion on the anxiety reddit. there is 10% of the talk as there is on the relships. but anxiety CAUSES SO much trouble with relships, with life in general. well, for men at least. women can still have anxiety and get Rels and Jobs because they are the supply. they are very much in demand. men will bend over backwards to Help Women. thats just the way it is. accept it. dont get MAD about it and complain that its UNFAIR. its really NOT, because women get pregnant. now it might be unfair that women arent AWARE of this, and its definitely infuriating. and it IS fair for you to get angry about that, hahahahahahahaha.

WE HAVE NO RECORD OF THAT.

another great it is what it is, not our problem, oh well, youre screwed, deal with it type statement you can give to your customers.

im not saying youre lying, but youre lying. we have no record of that. not because were incompetent.

so youre telling me that my wireless card is just gonna keep disconnecting every single day, and the only way to “FIX” it is to restart my computer 10 times a day, repeatedly run network troubleshooting 10 times a day, and just WAIT when i lose internet for 10 minutes at a time every day and have to tell my paying customers, sorry, you have to wait 10 more minutes before the computer can take your money. nope we cant give you a discount either because budget. gotta cut costs goy. no refunds, no exchanges, no discounts, no service, no guarantees, all sales are final.

some people hate sitting in TRAFFIC. but you know whats even WORSE? actually being at work and having to deal with those callers and customers and tasks! traffic is EASY!!!!! its a NO BRAINER!!!! you just sit there and wait and move verrrrrryyyyyy sloooooooooowly. you already know how to HANDLE it. you dont need to make 1000 flashcards and study every night on how to deal with heavy traffic. its simple, its not complicated, its a 1+1 math problem.

meanwhile every phone call is a fookin Calculus 5 story problem where they bitch at you to explain why on every step, and youre not doing this fast enough, and dont you know what youre doing, why cant i speak to someone who knows what theyre doing, nobody in your department ever knows what theyre doing! isnt this your JOB????

so yeah i hate that. it is very nerve wracking, anxiety provoking.

now, anxiety was not a big problem for me for a good long while, from like 2010 to 2013. i was working an easy job, handling that, i wasnt anxious and nervous. i was grumpy and angry and hateful sure, but not anxious. 2014, 2015 were huge anxiety years, carried over into 2016 as well.

but it was nice to go several full YEARS without as much anxiety. but then it comes back for YEARS again. damn.

We have no record of this. Please reboot your computer and wait 10 minutes before attempting to use your cash register or office computers. Discounts/refunds must be approved by CEO, or create a Cash Drawer Shortage so your manager can fire you for stealing. Hope This Helps!

was this because i was working at a failing company, and everybody knew it was failing? (except for people who just listened to music all day and said idk go with the flow lol idk) the customers, the managers, the nonmanagers, the field, the support, everybody with half a brain?

when your customer says, this is DISGRACEFUL service, and you say, yeah i agree, but there’s nothing i can do here. i am the manager. policies. ill get in trouble. we cant just give discounts away. our company will go out of business. and then it goes out of business anyway through a combination of giving away discounts, bad service, low quality, high prices.

whos supposed to be doing this, because i dont know how to do this. oh im supposed to be doing this? says who? let me speak to their manager. oh theyre not in. you have one manager for 5 locations. ok whos the acting manager. nobody. ok whos the smartest person there. oh he’s not in. WHO IS THE SMARTEST PERSON WHO IS THERE RIGHT NOW. hes in a meeting. ok, then who is the smartest who is in the building, who is not in a meeting, who can talk to me right now? nobody, were all on the phone with customers. i am literally the only person who can help you, and i dont know what im doing.

ok who has the most seniority/experience. oh this whole office/location is new. ive only been here a month and all the managers have only been here 2 weeks. NOBODY knows what theyre doing. so we call people for help, and THEY dont know what theyre doing.

sheeeeit times like this i need to get out of the house. i did apply for one job thank god, a military civ job. only took 16 minutes. well when you ONLY put 16 minutes or 15 minutes into a app, thats a good GUARANTEE that you will never get an interview! hahahahaha. you should be spending at LEAST an hour on every app, really fine tuning it to each job hahahaha.

anyway i have decided to go to the store today and get a white dress shirt that fits me a bit better than the one i usually wear for interviews, which is too big.

later

ok did that. felt the need to get out of house and DO something, not just complain in here, and force myself to apply for Jobs. and not “just” go for a walk, but DO something, anything i needed to do, like get a white dress shirt that fits better, or go buy laundry detergent for the home. going for a walk is fine, i need to lose weight (not really, but i do WANT to!) but i wanted to Baby Step Do Something today.

went to burlington for the shirt. we had a majority white town thank GOD but burlington in the middle of the afternoon is NOT majority white. there were a ton of blacks and especially arabs there. some asians.

the arabs in my town, you wouldnt have to worry about them joing ISIS, but they might be contenders for drug dealing and Raping White Gurls. but i dont think they are too islamic. they just speak arabic and haggle with cashiers at burlington and grope women and probably like to drink which is absolutely haram. smoke hookahs all day and watch soccer.

got some diet coke because i was curious to mix it with my coffee.

rejection emails that reference requisition numbers that DO NOT MATCH WITH the requisition numbers stated on the taleo site! it gives a 7 digit number, and all the req numbers i see are 6 digit! so i cant even match it up with a job on my spreadsheet for certain, because i recorded the 6 digit req number!!!!!! so i dont know which admin assistant job i was rejected for!

or you take 10 minutes to apply for a job (contingent (casual) job no less) and only when youre DONE does it tell you the job has expired. thanks NEWTON ATS.

wewlad. finally got in muh 3 apps for the day. so much shit is coming up expired. or i already applied to it but couldnt figure out if i had or not. felt like it took forever. much longer than the 42 minutes it should have taken hahahaha.  in fact it took 46 minutes hehehehehehe.

kirkland vodka. apparently critics say its better than gray goose and also way cheaper.

that basically all kirkland booze is high quality and reasonably priced.

i just thought that was kinda funny. as a guy who used to drink fooking near-bottom shelf canadian whiskey like canada house and rich and rare and royal canadian and CANADIAN HUNTER hahahaha. i couldnt even drink something good like VO or Crown Royal. once in a while i did canadian club hahahahaha.

Rich and Rare was probably the best quality for a low price, shameful booze, and candian hunter was the most BADASS……but not really the best quality. I cant not recommend the Rich And Rare though. got EPIC drunk off of that shit.

actually R&R was pricier than royal canadian.

i really dont know how i got into drinking steel reserve tho. BAD idea. i mean why not just drink lots of regular beer like miller lite. well, i did that too!

maybe get some kirkland weed hahahahahahahahahahaha. well im sure if they had some, it would be good.

i guess Kirkland Shirts are pretty good. not sure about pants hahaha. get some nice Kirkland Jeans hahahahaa.

10 thousand word post. this is definitely top 5% length folks.  just ridiculous.

get a kirkland wife hahahaha. kirkland mail order bride.

ya know i am not interested in a mail order bride at all. even a white one. maybe when i am 45 – 50 i will be hehehehe.

ok moved some of this long post to the previous post to match the lengths a little bettter.

i mean i just want to get a LOT of MJ right now. like a 4th or half ounce! like 100 dollars of MJ i would buy right now. i mean im thankful to have that kind of money, but thats what happens when you are a neet who didnt have a ton of expenses and saved most of their money when they were working.

are there any neets who ARENT virgins?

well probably. what i mean is there any neets who are getting secs from nonhookers at the time of their neetness? or even has a gf? neets with a gf? dont make me laugh hahahaha.

ate way too much at dinner again. went over limit of 1200 for the day.

now i CAN get all the way up to 1500 and not GAIN weight. ie 1500 is muh BMR. well i got to like 1450 today.

lesson: if your one Big Meal is a huge meal at a restaurant, that will put you well above 1200 unless you do a LOT of ezercise that day. like 500 calories at least. which some people can do in 30 minutes of running. not me. takes a solid hour of dam jogging.

sheeeeeeeeeeeit well i found the company THAT WOMAN works for and it is pretty damn close to muh house. well i saw a posting from the company on indeed and looked at it, then looked up the location of the company. it was about 2 or 3 miles from muh house.  thankfully i never go that way.

well i am now mad that she gets a job that is close to her home, closer than the last one. and that she can handle taking help desk calls.

well maybe she cant! maybe they put her on phones and she flipped the fook out because she’s not used to phones.

and it doesnt matter! it just sucks that i still think about her at all!

because i havent found a good REPLACEMENT for the positive stuff i got from her. namely a good connection with a decent woman, a real rel. its easy to have casual secs (well, not for me) but its HARD to have a real rel. real rels are inherently noncasual. they are long term. it is HARD to replace that shit.

and i am not happy at myself, that i looked up the exact location of the company. but i saw the company randomly on indeed, without searching for it, saw it was located in a city near mine which is a small city with nothing but machine shops (and i should really get a job at one of those, but then i might see her hahahahaha) and i was surprised that this type of company was in that city, THEN i looked up the exactly location, which, because it was in this small city, was OF COURSHE going to be close to me.

THEORETICALLY she could stop at the huge grocery store near here, to or from going to her job, and i could see her at the store, because this is the grocery store nearest to my home, and i go there regularly. was there today.

this is what happens 15 months after someone you never even fooked or dated dumps you hahahahaha.

sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit.

heh i applied to an Entry Level Data Entry job which ive applied to this same job 3 or 4 times. it just keeps appearing and appearing. i apply and apply. it gets hundreds of applicants every time. why keep opening it. very fishy. this time i totally forgot to change the name of the company from my previous cover letter. (i did change it the first time its mentioned, in the first paragraph, but forgot to do the second time, in the third paragraph.) sheeeeeeeeeeeeeit. now i am probably on a blacklist and should never apply to that job again. its disgraceful they even post the job so often. i am sure there si high turnover, lots of blacks. why cant they call me!!!!!!!!

yeah but i want a company that posts jobs rather than never posts jobs, right? even if they already HAVE all the candidates they could possibly need????

that feel when you get to 5 jobs in 1 day for the first time in a while because youve been getting discouraged and slowing down, then find out 1 of those is DEFINITELY disqualified because you made that stupid mistake.

thing is, they probably wouldnt even really care.

i hate that dumb blacks can get these jobs just because they dont have Anxiety HAHAHAHAHAHA no i am just partly kidding. its not because of Anxiety that i dont get these jobs, because i hide the anxiety FAIRLY well on interviews and fake my way as being MOSTLY normie with a normie level of interview anxiety. but it is very true that blacks have less anxiety than whites. its just the way they are wired. so they can aggressively grab women by the pvssy and impregnate as many women as possible in a total r selection strategy. and the women love it.