sat nov 25

april 11

welp a ridiculously slow day today, i dont deserve this, nobody deserves a job this easy ahhahahahaha. well im not making enough money to live or be an adult, so that is the price i pay for an easy stress free job.

but lately i was worried because i wasnt making progress on this project, it seemed to be like NAILING JELLO TO THE WALL, and it was not just frustrating but made me NERVOUS. like why is this affecting me. why dont i just power through with brute force. obviously i am thinking too much. i need to stop thinking and just start doing. after a full day of doing that, i felt bad and weak. like jeez i dont even deserve THIS job, i am damn near DISABLED, I will NEVER be a full adult, i should just get on SSI. gummint handouts. honest to god NEETBUX.

anyway the good news is that i made some progress there and feel i have started to get a handle on things. and really the main thing there was just less thinking, more doing, approaching things like a BEAST. like a TERMINATOR.

This is good Life Advice in general! dont get so damn EMOTIONAL. better to be less emotional than more emotional.

i guess you can start trying to be more emotional if you end up hurting other people like a sociopath.

i saw a nice column in dear annie or annies mailbox today, where there was a woman saying she felt guilty because she Threw A Man Away and Ghosted Him without a Word, because she was just too immature and cowardly to deal with the situation, and 3 years later, she realizes what a great guy he was, and how much she probably hurt him, and now she just wants to APOLOGIZE so she stops feeling like a horrible person, he didnt deserve to be dumped so harshly.

annie says its fine to apologize, just be VERY CLEAR about your expectations and dont lead him on.

i was just happy that there was a woman out there with a sense of guilt, who felt bad about throwing a guy away like a piece of garbage hahahaha. i wondered if it was really That Woman writing in hahaha. but no, she said she actually Dated the guy for Three Months hahahaha. so nope.

dating of course just means fooking. so while i never “dated” that woman for 3 whole months, i did KNOW her for 3 (approx) YEARS, which I think counts for SOMETHING, and these fooking women CHILDREN apparently think counts for NOTHING. you fook some chad once one night and means more than someone you knew for 10 years but never fooked. its all c0ch and cvnt with this negrobrained cvnts. all they KNOW is SECS SECS SECS hahaha.

OK I AM OVERREACTING AGAIN, JUST LIKE A WOMAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway. i was just ahppy to hear a woman out there felt bad about hurting a guy hehehe. have a damn CONSCIENCE hehehehe. i mean I WANT you to feel bad about hurting muh fee fees hahahaha.  feel a LITTLE bad. yeah im responsible for my own feelz but that still doesnt mean what you did was JUST FINE!

anyway. i was trying to find a copy of the article but cant haha.

ok here it is, its DEAR ABBY

http://www.uexpress.com/dearabby/2017/4/11/0/woman-who-fled-from-love-now

want to get the comments too:

https://pastebin.com/vgHgwAES

heh there is all the comments

hehehe well what if the guy HAS spent the last 3 years PINING hahahahaha

but yeah it IS probably stupid to say i luv u 3 months in.

but…..when you are banging a beautiful young gurl and she seems to like you……yeah i could see this happening to me hahaha. i would prob say it too hahaha. i thought i luved those gurls too.

damn. was doing really well at poker table then i LOST IT ALL. i am literally THE WORST, DUMBEST poker player EVER. i have learned NOTHING in like 4 years of playing. havent even got 1% better.

but anyway. yeah if That Woman contacted me 2 years later, i would still take her back, ive still been pining for her, and what is really sucky is that she would probably still be immature and stupid about it, like I feel so bad, I feel like a horrible person, I dont want to feel bad any more, I I I Me Me Me Me, when the thing to recognize is YOU didnt deserve this. i mean really she should make it about ME, not hear, make her motivations and expectations clear as abby says, and shes too stupid to do that, and she also prob wouldnt show the forethought that maybe I found a better woman, maybe I got married and had a family, and so she wants to word this very carefully so as not to disrupt my marriage. i dont think she would be smart enough to do any of this. yet im still pining for her, i would totally take her back, i havent found anyone better, i fear I’ll NEVER find anyone better, i would take her back, and then she would probably dump me again!!!!!!!!

and NO I never said those words to HER!!!!!! i felt it but I know you’re not allowed to say the words until youve been fooking the person monogamously for a year. which is damn near impossible hahahaha.

i read ALL the comments. heh. i suppose I will stop pining for her but it will take more than two years hehehe. and if she cant apologize within 2 years then fook her hahahahaha. like all the negros that have fooked her in the last 2 years.

stupid goddamn poker. was doing SUPER GOOD, which is RARE, now I LOST IT ALL and THEN some.

the ROI is about as good with a damn WOMAN. meaning, the costs huegly outweigh the benefits!

but im obviously not the typical man because i would LIKE that apology! and if SHE’s listening to THESE people, they would tell her leave him alone, he’s forgotten about you. but I havent! i would LUV to hear from her! SO MAYBE I SHOULD CONTACT HER and let her know that! hey just doing my now once a year CHECK IN to see if you want to apologize, maybe get married, have children, or are you not fat and used up and desperate enough yet?

i mean im no NICEGUY hahahaha. i fooking damn near H8 Women! hahaha.

hey cmon im seeing a damn shrink and taking meds. and i uhhhh am not getting involved with any other women until i get over this one. and become a full adult man. which will probably NEVER HAPPEN hahahaha.

so yeah. SHEd have to be a weirdo to apologize, and I”D have to be a weirdo to want it and accept it. well i know I am that kind of weirdo! and so if she apologizes that means she is the right kind of weirdo for me and we were meant to be together!

so obviously i NEED to be seeing a shrink! but i AM! but OBVIOUSLY its not ENOUGH! i either need to be going MORE, or going to a diff shrink, because its NOT WORKING!

heh. this is actually probably true hehehe.

well i spend more on shrink than on gas but less than on car insurance hehehehe. i really dont want to spend any more on shrink. i guess i am just in too much of COMFORT ZONE with muh shirnk and also am not courageous enough to talk about the most important topics.

april 12

pining for the fookin fjords hahaha.

had a positive good dream where i was basically a normie. i was a young man in univ and i was gonna become a successful normie, and i had a nice gf who was qt and nice. i was committed to her and she was committed to me. i was cuddling hardcore with her. we had been monog for a while and it was a long term thing. if this keeps going we might get married and have chirren. we had a good rel and i wasnt a supplicating omega either. i was confident and not constantly afraid of Losing Her. and I had faith that she was committed to me and wouldnt suddenly disappear one day.

the important thing was that it was a cmpletely fictional fantasy dream girl. it wasn’t THat Woman or any other woman I had ever met. It was probably a Composite Physically of several women I’ve met. but the important thing was, it was no one in particular. it was a young qt gurl with beautiful blond hair and white skin. possibly glasses, possibly tomboyISH.

but yeah. basically it was a SIGN that I COULD get over That Woman. if I met a young qt woman who cared about me, made an effort with me, then I could prob get feelings for her as I had feelz for this fantasy woman in muh dream. it doesnt HAVE to be THAT woman! That Woman is not The Final Woman Ever! so that was kinda reassuring. and nice to feel those feels for woman who was not that woman, and to get some reciprocation on it. to be committed to somebody who was actually interested and committed to me.  overally, pretty positive dream. felt good about it.

so anyway. i know not all women are stupid fookin children because i have personally met them! shit even SHE was better than the final painful end which will be the main thing I remember her by! but she was a decent person to, compromised by fear and weakness, as was I. usually, normally, i’m not such a damn big coward, but it was a bad day for me hahaha. let me have that much. yeah i am more cowardly in general than i would like but still.

I would have at least wrote a letter to selfishly appease the guilt and shame that was eating me inside hahahaha.

im just think about all this because of that stupid dear abigail letter yesterday, thats all.

shit you know she could even have another person act as messenger. her mother. our mutual friend. she could find out thru her if i am happily married or not, if i would be willing to read a letter from her or not. and she could get their Wise Mature Adult Counsel on how not to be an Idiot Child. you dont have to do it alone! you can get help from others! this isnt like WORK hahahahaha. you can get HELP from people who know better than you, so you can make a better decision, get a better outcome. shit you can pay a professional to help you or to do it for you.

shit i would have paid for the shrink FOR HER to dump me for her hahaha. would be way cheaper than me paying my shrink for 20 sessions to help me Deal With It hahahahaha.

they didnt mention that one about the neutral third party! although i think our third party is more biased in my favor hahahaha. as they should be hahahahaha.

where’s an Education Expert who is Notorious for being A Racist.

Who’s a Relationship Counselor who is notorious for being a racist.

who’s a Moral Philosopher….

who’s a sociologist, psychologist, policy expert, teacher, attorney, doctor, expert in their field, who does good Expert Level Research, and writes in a convincing way for a nonexpert audience, and is also a racist?

i was just thinking of the DNA biologist/geneticist Watson. won a nobel prize for discovering the DNA helix but was shamed and shunned for being just the slightest bit racist. also i think some brain IQ people like Gardner were kind of like this.

Lynn and Rushton are some “big names” i can think of of phds who studied the concept of race, determined it was real, and we called racist.

of course kevin macdonald.

and what do the haters do? they say these peoples works are not based on Good Science. Don’t listen to Watson, his Research Method was flawed, his statistics were shitty and do not support these conclusions.

Heh. I forgot greg johnson has a phd. david duke has a phd. but no one respects david duke’s phd.

what if he got it from harvard? then I bet they would respect it more!

I know watson was less racist than david DUKE. not that I care. i mean my point is, I want MORE scientists, researchers, phds, experts to be racists, and to be MORE racist!

or at least de-marxify Education and Psychology for a start. I would think seriously about a Masterz Degree in those fields if they werent totally jooed! but they ARE! you cant get a nonjooish education/training in those fields! you cant study a NONjooed theory and practice on how to educate people! its all about closing achievement gaps and uplifting browns. I DONT CARE ABOUT THAT STUFF.

And you know what if I actually came up with a theory and a Way to help Losers become Winners, I am PRETTY sure it would work across ALL races, even if I really only CARED about whites, even if race does matter in other things. im not so sure it would REALLY mattter with the people I was trying to help. neet omega losers. if nonwhites wanted to use it, go right ahead. i dont HATE nonwhites in that way, that I would DENY them something that might HELP them.

we are not LITERALLY throwing nonwhites into ovens and laughing with sadistic glee.

just the jooz hahahahahaha.

9.60$ buy of bitcoin every week.

GLR complained that in 1965 ish, only 20% of white goys went to college, while 80% of jooz went to college, therefore we needed to get more goys into college, or else the way it was going, the whites would end up working for the jooz.

well he wasnt wrong in that conclusion, but i don’t think he could have possibly seen how getting 90% of goys and 100% of jooz into college would have also produced a shitty situation of Credentialism and Useless Degrees and Student Debt Slavery.

also they didnt have as bad of student loans back then. and college was cheaper.

but then just today I heard a bunch of stories of MFA and even BFA students who all became successful. by age 25. some of them were black women. with a BFA only. but through hard work, persistence, motivation, they were able to be successful with a useless degree. much moreso than me. so therefore the problem was always ME, not “useless degrees.”

but it sucks that i cant even defend the race i luv. well, i can a little bit, from the most bad faith jooish attacks, but i cant WIN any people. I cant SELL muh race in that I could take a hwyte person who felt no real connect to their race, believes that race is a social construct, i dont have an ingroup, i dont care if my children are mixed race…..and convert them into someone that DOES have a preference for their own ingroup. someone that doesnt WANT to race mix any more. somebody that WANTS their children to be their own race and not mixed race.

and that i dnt have the rigor or the guts or the composure or the will or the strength to argue for my own race in the courtroom of life and say, here is the irrefutable evidence that Diversity Is Bad For Everyone, or here’s why we DONT need more Social Programs because They Just Wont Work because what works for whites doesnt work for blacks.

i cant argue ANY of this. or that if blacks were given the same OPPORTUNITIES as hwytes, then there WOULD be equality of outcome. but we still need to level the playing field MOAR.

the best I can do is donate a LITTLE money. I can’t even have CHILDREN.

also it only makes SENSE that Normies would connect my Strange Racial Fixation to my own Failure to Achieve. I’ve achieved NOTHING of my own, so I CLING to the achievements of my race.

So I’m a TERRIBLE rep for muh race in other words. have this LOSER represent you? and maybe if he werent such a lazy loser and had actually achieved something in life like decent normal people. other white racists have achieved something.  normies who have achieved decent careers and families arent huge flaming racists. all those nice white middle class professionals with their white children. raising them up to be nice antiracists and they grow up happy and successful and STILL marry whites.

well ive known a COUPLE people who race mixed though. i mean middle class professionals within 5 years of my age. but I think 80% of the masters degree middle class antiracist hwyte people are NOT gonna race mix, at least in terms of who they ultimately marry and have kids with.

well i guess my job might be to urge other neet virgin loser omegas that its ok to Luv Your Own Race. Period.  And usually thats enough to get you to stop wanting to Pay Reparations to the races your race oppressed back in the day hahahahahahaha.

and i also just get very frustrated that you cant question Whyte Privilege or the Reality of Systemic Structural Antiblack Racism without being called STUPID and IGNORANT and UNEDUCATED and UNINTELLIGENT and UNINTELLECTUAL.

that to become an EDUCATED INTELLECTUAL, you HAVE to believe in Radical Civil Rights and That Negrisi Coates-tier Reparations. to proudly say FOOK THAT BULLSHIT is MUTUALLY EXCLUSIVE with being an EDUCATED INTELLECTUAL. And for the longest time, and still sort of currently, I want to be an Educated Intellectual, or, more precisely, have Intelligent Successful Professionals recognize and respect my own Intelligent Professional Successful Intellect! Not think of you as a Dumb Racist and shake their heads and wonder how he got that way, i mean he DID go to college. this guy must have some SERIOUS mental issues.

obviously i never go around talking about what a racist I am! but to know that I AM a racist and if these people knew, they would think a LOT less of me. they might give me the benefit of the doubt for Really Seeming like a Loser now, because well he seems like a nice mild-mannered somewhat awkward but good natured guy……but if they found out I was a huge racist, all that benefit of the doubt would be gone.

i mean they’ll never find out because i’ll never tell them.

but its just the principle of the matter. i hate feeling like I couldnt stand up and defend my race IF I were called to do so. and that I feel completely unable to be an ambassador for my race. that reaching out to other whites and chipping away at their racial unawareness, is completely beyond me.

well, maybe some people are meant to be racially aware, and others unaware. and me evangelizing would be as obnoxious as goddamn jehovahs witnesses coming to your door.

i mean really i probably got to develop some kind of self confidence FIRST, BEFORE I can start trying to WIN other people to the cause hehehe.

i think i might go see the joo bob dylan this summer. he is coming on a day I could ostensibly go, and I have some income I can justfy spending. I do say kudos to this joo for playing like 300 shows a year at 75 years of age. also pretty sure he still puts on good shows too, has a good band basically.

oh goody, Richard Spencer making another college appearance on april 18 at Auburn. Pretty big name skool.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/german-woman-marrying-brother-of-christmas-attacker-after-contacting-him-following-the-attack/98700

heh stupid women

QUOTE  nb4 “J00s are responsible for the behavior of women” – that isn’t even true. J00s are responsible for the social and political factors that allowed women to behave like this, but women will always naturally make the most destructive decisions imaginable, in any given situation.

If you doubt that, try to get out of TV land for a moment and just think about the people around you. The women in your life, in your friends’ lives, the women you knew in school, the women you know from work – what are the overwhelming majority of them acting like? Are they making good decisions? END

interesting because whenever i find myself in a Women Hating thing, I say, its not their fault, its really JOOZ fault, dont hate women, hate the jooz that made them this way. and then Anglin says this hahahahaha.

welp….the women I actually know at the moment are making all right decisions. of course, these are the women I see at muh job and they are all 48, 53 years old. have children and did not frivorce their husbands.

i am sure all the women under 30 are making horrible decisions, but i dont really know any. i can nly speculate about sluts i see for 2 seconds. they dont LOOK like they make good decisions.

but hey the woman in this article is a fat slob who has 2 mud kids anyway.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/uk-polish-girl-killed-by-kebab-shop-boyfriend-for-cheating-on-him-with-other-paki/98702

“THERE ARE NO GOOD WOMEN” hehehehehehe.

you can take a “nice” polish girl, put her in degenerate londonstan, and she quickly becomes a huge mudshark degenerate.

another QUOTE from forum user: White women here and in Europe are totally degenerate, regardless of how much feminism they have been exposed to.
For a period of a few years I was a manic serial dater, sometimes staggering 3-4 dates in a single day.
I got to a point where I could get a girl’s life story out of her in less than an hour. What I would be specifically looking for is if they ever had an interracial relationship. I won’t go into the subtle process by which I led into that question but of the women I met at least 50-75% of the women had f00ked a negro.
These were White women from all kinds of socio-economic backgrounds and none of them were hard drug users.
It seemed like it was almost a rite of passage for the ones who had attended university or grad school.
It was just another thing to try, like some ethnic cuisine.
From these experiences I can unequivocally say I truly despise women. END

NICE hahahaha favorited. would like to hear his subtle process hehehe. i would like to do what he is doing. i dont know if he managed to eventually find a good wife. i hope he did. plenty of men on DS forum have. i mean you need to go thru a lot of chaff. this is what i need to start doing. its a numbers game.

and g0d what about the women who HADNT been to university. the more working class vs the middle class. fact is, mudsharks come in all classes. working, middle, educated, noneducated, it doesn’t matter.

QUOTE We should really invest in artificial wombs, women are no longer reliable to do the only f00king thing they should do
Or hire poor mud women to be surrogate mothers of high-quality White sperm and eggs. That’s the biological equivalent of an artificial womb. END (ive seen this idea before, that is INTERESTING af. how much of the nonwhite surrogates hormones would influence the development of the hwyte baby?

now go give anglin some shekels, he’s probably only got 2000 lousy dollars in his btc wallet hahahaha. it would be nice to meet Anglin some day but im not gonna stalk him. i dont want to stalk ANYBODY EVER. its not normal, its not right, its not hwyte. but he is one of muh fav people, i have kinda a mancrush, and yeah i do have some trust in him as a leader figure. i know he doesn’t go into public but i would like it if he did. i would like someone a little more extreme than spencer going public.

i also support giving dnations to matt Heimbach and traditionalist workers/youth.  they need to make that easier hehehe. and sell t-shirts.

meh. doing better today at cards than i was yesterday thats for sure. THANK GOD. yesterday i was way up, then lost it all. now i’m up again and just hope to keep it that way.

if a person doesn’t feel any CONNECTION to their race, they are prob more likely to race mix. so we should try to encourage a CONNECTION to our race.

now, women. is it TOO MUCH TO EXPECT? we said that women arent concerned with loyalty to the ingroup. they will just conform with whatever is STRONGEST, regardless of race. but maybe if their FATHER can instill a connection to her race, that would be good.

i feel a strong connection to muh race and say ABSOLUTELY NOT to the idea of race mixing. MAYBE I would BANG a nonwhite just because I am insanely DESPERATE. but never marry, have rel, or have children with.

also wouldnt it be pretty symbolic for me to bang a young arab moslem gurl hahahaha. be like RACE WAR NOW. occasionally you see a 20 year old moslem gurl that is not terrible looking. but damn they probably have really hairy arms and smell terrible. i mean its a slippery slope and i shouldnt even joke about desperation banging a nonwhite.

aprl 13

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/charging-bull-artist-calls-out-debauched-feminist-perversion-of-fearless-girl/98896

women are sadists who enjoy destroying and ruining things sadistically, destroying things, turning the positive into negative hahaha.

wow who broke anglins heart hahahaha.

no i totally sympathize. but i just want to repeat that the women I personally know in real life, who all happen to be above 45 years old, do not seem this bad at all. someone needs to white knight for the over 45 women hahaha. they arent that bad. but yeah. the under 45s need to be physically restrained.

so are they like kali? or shiva? whats the difference?

i also heard about this kalki, who is the destroyer of FILTH. thats a great one for me. I would be kalki then.

heh that might be the most woman hating thread yet. i am pumping muh fist and saying YUSS YUSS YASS after every woman hating post.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/worthless-marxist-whore-asks-is-it-time-to-deny-white-men-the-franchise/99009

hehehe probable joo in south africa sez its time to take away the vote from hwyte men in that country. pay your dues oppressors!

this is what RADICAL TRANSFORMATION looks like!!!!!

transformational leadership hehehehe.

well yeah i guess im looking to transform stuff to. meaning get the j’s out and put the hwyte man back in power hahahaha.

http://archive.is/lvijm

porn as a secret weapon by laksha darkmoon, i know ive seen this before, prob worth looking at, saw somebody on DS link it

ok looks pretty wise the JP hahahaha

https://www.darkmoonDOTme/2014/sex-plague-the-normalization-of-deviance-and-depravity-by-lasha-darkmoon/

ok this one looks pretty good too, i should start reading this site. if this is really a woman, they are pretty smart for a woman hahahaha.

 

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wed nov 22

april 8

ok made 3 oz meatballs with walmart 80 20 beef. the beef looked pretty good actually. hope it wasnt totally GMOd to hell. used regular hamburger buns with 2 of the 3 oz meatballs on them. essentially making a 6 oz burger or meatball sandwich. made 6 of these. put in freezer.

weev has been saying for years that you should teach your kids how to CODE. its more important than teaching them how to use a firearm. because the wars of the future will be fought with drones and robots and those with the best software, the best code, are gonna win, so learn how to code when you are YOUNG so you can be really really good when you are an adult.

this sounds sorta like coding academy for kids, coding summer camp for gurls, etc. of course weev is not about the social justice aspect of coding for GURLS, weev has a very good view on women.

but i am just butthurt because to get a 14 dollar an hour job coding, you have to be DAMN GOOD, you have to be in the top 10% of of coders. you better be an EXPERT in SEVERAL languages. i mean there is SO MUCH. you cant just learn a little, or even a lot. you need to learn a SUPER LOR and that is the BARE MINIMUM.  THEN you are at shit tier h1b indian chinese level. which is not good enough to get a job in the west. you are just replaceable by indians.  heh. i guess i wish i was more prepared for exactly HOW MUCH coding you need to be REALLY GOOD at, in order for the skill to be worth ANYTHING to you.

however, if i had started learning this stuff at age 5 or 6, maybe i wouldnt have hated it so much hahahha.

that was the problem with SKOOL and EDUCATION, is that it made me hate learning, hate knowledge, lose interest in everything, and not want to try or work, but just to obliterate my mind with drugs hahahahaha. i dont care about shit. nothing is interesting, everything is stupid and gay and pointless. who cares about any of this shit. how can i make money or get women with this shit. what is the payoff for knowing this stupid ass shit. id rather be jerking off to jooish porn and fookin up my mind with jooish drugs and jooish vidya games.

i was fooked up in the mind by the joo since like 7 years old hahahaha. hopeless. lost cause. bad seed. i shoulda just been born a joo. DAMN. THAT is a bad feel!

PORN is SO DESTRUCTIVE that it is the ONE THING the joos will give away FOR FREE.  i wish I had NEVER looked at porn. i think the first time i saw it, i was like 14 years old and looking at the sleazy “club” magazine, which was way more hardcore than playboy because the sluts would be bending over and showing their assholes and spread cvnts. and as a super horny 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22 year old, I thought it was the HOTTEST THING EVER. and the joo poisoned my brain and muh whole secs drive for 8 years of my young life!

i never thought at age 14 that this was a horrible jooish thing! i was like WOW this is the greatest hottest thing ever! damn i cant wait to jerk off to that tits and ass and pvssy 10 times a day! wow!

and i dont even think i was a porn ADDICT like some of the more unfortunate cases. i just think i was slightly above average. i think the average teen boy is horny af and wants to jerk off 10 times a day. that’s natural. thats NORMAL. that’s your body telling you to REPRODUCE.

hmm. well i was thinking that you make prostitutes or sluts or skanky milfs available for horny young teen boys. that would be much better than PORN. as ive said before, if a 15-16 year old boy can hook up with a 19-20 year old SLUT and just bang the shit out of her, i think that would be ideal. unless the boy falls in luv with her. which he well may! so why am I recommending this? is the reward worth the risk? theres a 50% chance he will fall in luv. but theres a 100% chance he will get the reward of confidence and masculinity around women, which will help him when it comes time for a real woman and not a practice gurl hahahahaha. so yeah reward outweighs risk. and of course you can have redpilled education for the boy on exactly why he shouldn’t fall in luv with the slut. and clear instructions on HOW not to.

clear fooking instructions. do this, this, and this.

john dewey is the biggest name in education. how jooed was dewey? probably pretty!

ok making a pot of tea instead of coffee for the first time in a while. putting some honey in it. honey is a miracle food hahahaha.

honey. chicken. cottage cheese. beef. butter. eggs. coffee. tea. i hear walnuts are supposed to be bretty good.

weev is not wrong. coding IS a very valuable skill. hwyte kids SHOULD learn it. but they cannot half ass it like i did. only take 2 classes of c++ and get up to Pointers and Polymorphism and Inheritance and be like IM DONE. FOOK THIS SHIT.

you need to get to pointers in like 1st grade and then just keep on truckin. so by the time you are 14 you have a bachelors in CS. this is what weev means when he says white kids must learn coding hahaha. and i agree with him!

well he might change his tune once he has kids. and he abolsultely SHOULD!

there are plenty of weev haters who think he is a Deep State Joo. oh just LOOK at him, he LOOKS like a joo, hes workign for the CIA. i dont think so. i could be wrong. if i am wrong, i will be very disappointed!

maybe i should get a c++ book and pick up where i left off haha. ummm i have a c# book! c# for dummies!

it just seems so hard to Bounce Back when you have Wasted Your Youth!

when i was young and jerking off to porn, i did not realize how jooish and wrong it was, but i did know that i wanted a special monog, trad, longterm rel with a woman, and i did not like sluts. but i was just SO HORNY that i couldnt resist the jooish temptation of porn. also i am one of the last generations that ever used actual porno magazines simply because we didnt have high speed internet, just dial up. heh. and of course i STILL managed to view some pron on it. remember saving pron on FLOPPY DISKS and eventually a CD ROM. good god. have mercy on us.

i became interested in bitches taking it up the ass, which certainly the INTERNET enabled that OBVIOUSLY JOOISH fetish. the most you saw in magazines were just the sluts showing their asshole. and that is jooish ENOUGH!

anyway enough of the walk down memory lane hahahahaha. gonna go for nice walk here outside, BEAUTIFUL day today.

anyway i just thought porn was a sin against the uncool christian god, and i was rebelling against that anyway. that porn being a sin was just as stupid as Premarital Secs being a sin.

premarital secs is doable (although still risky.) but if anything was ever INHERENTLY sinful, it is porn. you cant even joo a good excjuse for it hahahahahaha. other than you are young, extremely horny, and want to jerk off 10 times a day. i mean at that age you are basically a secs ADDICT anyway even WITHOUT the porn. but porn just makes it WORSE. just beat off 5 times a day WITHOUT porn. explain to your son or younger brother that the more he looks at this poison which was engineered by our Racial Enemies to destroy US, the less he is going to be able to talk to actual real women. you dont want to be a 30 year old virgin, do you? the less you look at of this propaganda poison, the sooner you’ll bang a realgurl!

i mean i ABSOLUTELY had a concept of Race by the time i was like 10 years old or younger because of The Blacks. However I had absolutely NO concept of jooz at that time. none whatsoever. and I’m sure the first time i did learn of joos, i thought it was Just Another RELIGION.

ok drank the whole pot of tea very quickly. 6 tea bags.

i am all about Powerful Phrases. since I have ADD  and millennials are proven to have an attention span less than a GOLDFISH (see time magazine) i can only understand brief soundbits. phrases. powerful phrases. give me one sentence on a flashcard that I can memorize and practice. a powerful sentence where each word is carefully placed to Get What You Want. Persuade and convince and Sell your audience on what you;re selling. because you always have to be selling something. very often it is your self. invest in me. pay me. hire me. dont fire me. spend time with me. be loyal to me. don’t leave me. have my children. dont cheat on me.

is this the same as begging and pleading? please do what I want? why can’t we ever want the same thing. why cant we be on the same team hahaha.

april 9

ok back to job tomorrow. today i want to do the “homework” of figuring out the best Process, the best Workflow, for this Project, so I can hit ground Running tomorrow, because I wasted like a whole day last week, which normal people would be FIRED for, and which proves i am a loser, inferior human being, a failure at life, cannot handle normie adult life, etc etc etc, will never make 27k a year, will never get a wife, never have children, etc

yeah well wife and children suck, they suck all your hard earned money! you dont want wife and children! just bang young sluts for the rest of your life and leave no legacy!

basically, because i have issues, i want to find a woman with issues, but not Too Many or the Wrong Kind of Issues, esp having too high of a number, being a mudshark, and being Borderline or Bipolar. but these are the most common issues women have!

so i was “lucky” enough to find a woman that had issues, but not the wrong kind of issues.  COME ON.

but it is true. a woman who is totally NORMIE would seem WAY out of my league. plus it would be OBVIOUS that she makes 4 times the money in her career. i mean at a certain age it just becomes NAIVE to IGNORE the money/success aspect.

heres an interesting idea: it is BETA/OMEGA/WEAK/REPULSIVE to perform cunnilingus on women. They immediately begin seeing you as a doormat wilting weak omega and start looking for ways to dump you, leave you, cheat on you, because what kind of strong, tough, protective man is gonna be down there munching the rug? its a sign of weakness and SUBMISSION. this is why its perfectly FINE for a woman to s your D, and you wouldn’t disagree THATS a sign of submission, no? so, its very likely to be a sign of submission when you munch the rug. and WOMEN HATE SUBMISSIVE MEN. they dont just dislike them. they HATE them. WOMEN are supposed to be submissive to MEN, not vice versa.

now, there are some men who hate munching rug and refuse to do it.

there are other men who LUVVVVV it.

there are some women who are ADAMANT about it. like its a DEALBREAKER if this guy wont munch muh rug.

as far as me, its something I am totally open to. in fact if I really like the gurl, I am very excited by the idea. in fact, the more I know and the more I like the woman, the more I am into the idea of rug munching.

but if its some brand new strange slut off the street, hell no, i dont want to get near that STANK BOX where 9000000000 guys have been! shes probably got a bunch of sperm swimming in there right now! EW! GROSS!

so theres the idea that if you munch rug TOO SOON, its viewed as submissive and disgusting by the woman. if you have a longterm rel, it’s probably safe for you to do once in a while and she wont lose any respect for you.

hard to say because I only did it once hahahahahahahaha. but i thoroughly enjoyed it! it didnt hurt that the gurl was qt as fook, solid 7.9, and 18 years old. the notion of licking an 18 year old gurl is a lot better than a 30 year old woman!

so yeah that was ALL GOOD, BELIEVE ME. I was happy to experience it, I wish i could have experienced a lot MORE of it, and I prob enjoyed it more than the actual PIV secs, because it felt like there was less pressure, it was less serious, I can be more confident about this.

but I wonder if it signalled to HER that I liked her too much and therefore  turned her off and she had to dump me? because at the time, I didn’t know her that long, because she was a SLUT who bangs guys within a week of first meeting them.

LIFE LESSON: dont risk it. dont get feelings for SLUTS, dont munch box on SLUTS, dont munch box until you have had a legit rel for a while, because its a SIGNAL of WEAKNESS AND SUBMISSION on your part, and will make the gurl DUMP you, so dont do it unless you WANT TO BE DUMPED. TOUGH MANLY MEN DONT MUNCH BOX.  until you have been like legit monog dating for……6 months. just estimating there.

this fookin guy mocks every move i make or dont make at the poker table. not betting enough. not betting correctly. betting out of position. how to lose with top pair. he tried to warn me, i didnt listen. i dont know how to read the cards, read the board, read other players. i am like a child who has no idea what im doing. i have no concept of the bare fundamentals. come take money from this FISH who doesnt know what he’s doing. whyd you do that. whyd you do that? are you an idiot or something? you CLEARLY dont understand how this game works.

it is VERY annoying and also confidence shaking because i am particlarly susceptible to having my confidence shaken that I dont UNDERSTAND the way things WORK. like yep this makes NO SENSE and I should JUST QUIT because its too confusing.

because i honestly dont know how smart i am. when I was 16, 17, I thought I was way smarter than normies. now I was like, wow, these normies know something I dont, they are smarter than me, I took an online IQ test that said I had 105 IQ and I thought I would be more near 120.

so when i run into Challenges, im like, hmm, maybe this is just too confusing for me to handle. i need an adult! but I am a grown ass man. but not REALLY! i am a pathetic excuse for a grown ass man! I am a manchild with SEVERELY arrested development!

and I HATE that. I just wish I was an official grown ass man.

yeah but MANY people are super immature hahahaha. some people NEVER grow up.

yeah but no one EVER RESPECTS those people.

anyway. so i dont think i made a big tactical mistake by slurping that sluts wh0re hole. at WORST, it was a SYMPTOM of my larger Submissive Supplicating Weakness that prevented her from having any loyalty to me. more importantly, she was a known quantity as a known slut, and her loyalty was diminished ANYWAY.

main point: use your D to establish DOMINANCE early on.

but yeah I remember being like, this is great, the girl cant get PREGNANT from this, I can actually fake my way a little easier at this, not so nervous, she seems to like it, this is hot as shit, maybe shes a slut but her 18 year old pvssy is pretty sweet nonetheless, i could do this EVERY DAY.

so yeah I dont blame myself or regret it one bit.

I do regret not POUNDING her more and not taking tons of pictures and vidyas hahahaha. I didnt take ANY.

ok i was grumpy and it was a sunday so i laid down to take a brief nap, that was not a bad idea

i gotta be careful with this rwriting, it has been even more negative than usual lately.  honestly just been avoiding it because its always bitching about women or about being a lsoer hahahaha. oh im just discovering this NOW ?!?!?!?! hahaha

but yeah the thought that you have been weak, less than a man, a weak little neet loser, failure at life, failure with women, cant reproduce, cant take care of your kids even if you could reproduce, just a failure at the Game Of Life in every way. bad feels man! and women and Employers rejecting you because they can see you are OBVIOUSLY a failure too! it’s not just you that can see it! the outside world CONFIRMS it! its not just you being HARD on yourself! you really DO suck that much at everything!

and then writing tons of stuff like this doesnt really help you pull yourself out of it.

if i ever have to dump a woman and i dont think i can handle it, i will pay a shrink 50 bucks to do it professionally. also i think i know the mechanics of how to do it. write them a nice letter saying i dont think they are a terrible person, but i dont feel the same way, sorry, the end. heres the number of a good shrink, heres some drugs to help you cope hahahaha.

apr 10

ok back to job monday. will really feel better once i KNOW WHAT IM DOING on this project, where I did succeed in making some progress today. basically by forcing myself through sheer force of will, not getting sidetracked, not getting autistic, really, just doing more of a halfass job hahaha rather than Analysis Paralysis hehehe.

foRcing shit onto kind of a messy spreadsheet rather than doing nothing at all.

so, feel a LITTLE bit better about that.

so this guy took his 17 year old daughter on vacation and let her drink alcohol and acted like that was normal hahaha. i was a little disappointed tbh hehehe. i just hope to GOD he gave her a curfew and said be back here by 10pm and dont fook any BOYS. he apparently let her hang out and talk to boys that were at the resort. i hope he took precautions to make sure she wasnt out FOOKING the boys.

so then i thought, is there ANY father out there who is OK with his daughter fooking boys? dont ALL fathers want their daughters to be a pure princess? that practically NO father is going to take a LAISSEZ FAIRE approach here and say, OH WELL, shes just gonna fook boys and theres nothing I can do about it?

I assumed that most fathers would not feel this way. most fathers would not be ok wth their daughters being casual secs sluts on vacation.

then i wondered if normie fathers had a forum on the internet where they talked about how to keep their daughters off the D.

like, do you let your 17 year old daughter drink on vacation, but make DAMN sure she comes back by 10 o clock?

i suppose if she wants to sneak off and fook a boy before 10 pm, then shes already a huge whore and theres nothing you can do.

i mean i trust this guy to be a good father. so i am studying his Fatherhood style. to make sure his son turns out not to be a Loser and his daughter turns out not to be a Slut.

Honestly. thats all people care about. is your daughter becoming a slut? is your son becoming a LOSER. or maybe its all I care about hahaha. well its true, I do care alot about that.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/to-ladies-concerning-andrew/98012

heh. there is a secret ladies club on DS then. well these women should realize, if you arent a dirty race mixing slut, the mean things AA is saying about women dont apply to you!!!!!

http://cyber.eserver.org/unabom.txt

unabomber manifesto hahahaha. recommended by anglin. not the first person to recommend this work! i really should read it. really he should just write a damn book from prison, or give interviews, or just make his own damn recordings. we would ALL be better served by listening to ted kaczynski rambling off the top of his head for 60 minutes than watching a damn shitty tv program.

i wonder. children might naturally rebel. but will they rebel LESS against the idea of RACE than they do the idea of RELIGION? I rebelled against Religion because I felt it was Unjust, Unfair, saying you couldnt jerk off to jooish porn, and that everything was a SIN. this did not go so well with my Adolescent Urges.

I wonder if Race would have seemed a more Natural thing for me to be schooled in. like, you are so horny because thats your body telling you to make hwyte babies. and that is a beautiful thing. and porn is horrible because look how it treats white women. shit even nonwhite women dont deserve to be treated like that. youre not going to go to HELL if you bang your high school sweetie. and if you keep looking at that porn you’ll never HAVE a high school sweetie.

and focus on your career because every drink you take and MJ you puff and opioid you take and pron you jerk off to, then another step you take AWAY from having a hwyte waifu and hwyte children, and being a miserable childless neet loser who has nothing to offer anyone. just a damn useless parasite.

Uncle A and the NSDAP probably had a good program for raising boys into decent young men.

shit i cant blame my religious upbringing! 90% of people who went to my religious school turned out all right.

I was def SPOILED too much between the ages of 17 and 21 or so. some hardcore Chinee shit like we are going to lock you in this room and you are not going to come out until you are an engineer making 50k a year might have worked. ITS FOR MY OWN GOOD!!!!

ok to be a successful adult you have to be able to bullshit and sell shit all day. some people have the gift of Blarney, you can see it as young as age 14, these extravert normies have a high verbal intelligence and are makign friends and influencing people from a very young age. they dont struggle so much with it. the italians are good at this hahahahahaha.

 

WHEN YOU WANT IT DONE FAST *AND* RIGHT

april 5

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/women-running-5-dollar-tinder-scam-judenpresse-praises-them-as-heroes/96454

this guy eric striker i know ive liked some of his articles before. but this is a new low ahaha. i used to think my great business idea was to pay normie, non-hooker women to hang out with you and pretend to be interested in you. hangout hookers or hug hookers or cuddle hookers. pay 50 bucks for 15 minutes of cuddling, that kind of thing, to get kind of a GFE from a woman who was not an ACTUAL hooker.

so whats happening now is that normie, nonhooker, 20 year tinder slut college gurls are just saying send me 5 bucks and see what happens.

NOTHING. its actually pretty smart but TOTALLY jooish. of course men will pay for any hint of a woman and here we have a young attractive gurl who actually is taking advantage of that. she is getting hundreds of dollars a week from one slutty picture. DAMN.

you could probably also shake your CLOTHED tits and ass on camera and make a few hundred a week doing that. its kinda less slutty than actually fooking the guy or showing your tits. but it is very very very jooish and i wouldnt want a wife who did any of that shit.

im not even paying attention to the news. apparently trvmp is cucking and selling out to his joo kushner hahahah. and jooing over god emperor bannon. bannon kicked off security council. trvmp cucking to israel so they can use isis to take over syria and grab more land for israel hahaha.

i dont understand why israel just cant like take over a yuge part of syria right now and without the US’s involvement. i mean they are rich and they have bombz.

something about syrian gas attack, assad gassing children, and now trump needs to support israel in attacking assad and liberating syria or some shit

what if the US goes into syria and wipes out assad AND isis?  would that be ok? well i think actually assad is super dangerous because he is a legit threat to israel. kind of.

ok so russia is backing assad…..

israel is backing isis…..

US is on the fence….

iran….backing assad???

saudi arabia….backing isis??? because saudis are a joo puppet?? i cant remember hahahaha

so ivanka aka “yael” is totally jooed and her and kushner are manipulating daddy into war with russian and iran. that is the idea. and make shitloads of money off that war.

heh. well iran is pretty useless but it would be heartbreaking to go to war with RUSSIA. no more wars with whites. but i thought russia was jooed too?

there is a new guy on DS claiming to be a Washington Insider who worked to get Trvmp in, and is now feeling betrayed by stuff thats going on right now in that vein. nationalists like bannon on the way out, zionists and neocohens like kushner on the way up.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/bannon-kicked-off-national-security-council-wtf-is-this-shit/96768/

this story. some black pilling shit here hahaha. havent been wathcing news.

havent been reading GLR!

so this is trump softening and selling out to the joo basically, letting us all down. i guess its not surprising and we should enjoy the good times while they lasted. well we did!

so yeah i guess today was a big day. i have not watched any MSM yet, only read daily stormer forums and a lot of action on these stories. not really a bad way to get news hahaha althoguth this news does not sound good from here.

jordan is on the side of the joos.

so ww3 is going to be us, israel, jordan, saudi?, the joo N, the E Joo, vs syria, russia, china, iran?

and russia is going fly nukes into the US? i guess thats the plan hahahaha.

basically i am seeing shit TURNING for the first real time today. i mean i need to sleep on this a few nights like i do with anything thats even a medium deal.

so kushner is controlling trvmp thru daddys little gurl. yeah i mean it makes sense. i always knew that was gonna be a Chink in the Armour.  just wasnt sure how or when it would play out.

some people are full blown the end is near, you need to be prepping with food and ammo and gunz cuz there will be blood in the streets in the US

sheeeeeeeeit i guess i will be sorry for not being serious about prepping.

george feels having drama with some autistic tomboy weight lifting gurl he liked. then some stupid shit happened and she talked shit about him, he possibly talked shit about her, i dont care, im on georges side here hahaha. i am slowly raising my bet on him hahahaha.

pretty sure i am too old to be drafted into war for ZOG hahaha.

but i wont be able to defend muh fambly from negros and arabs when the power goes out for a month and people cant get gas or electric or food. so nonwhite mobs will roam the streets with gunz and we will need to protect our homes and families with gunz.

unless these are jooish anti-trump SHILLS trying to turn people against trump hahahaha with joo lies i mean i wouldnt be surpirsed by that either

whatever it is, i am certain the j’s are behind it. prove me fookin wrong.

some might think i am a J because I am so vehmently anti-j hahahaha. there’s really i can say to that except to tell you one of my best qualities is my GOOD FAITH. you can trust me to come in good faith and tell you what i believe is the truth. i might not be courageous to stand up for the truth though! but i come in good faith 99.99999999% of the time.

im not even RIGHT all of the time. but i will in good faith admit when i am wrong. shit i am wrong about 50% of things. and the other 50% of times, i just confused and Just Dont Know.

But I do know that I am right about these J’s. they have to go back.

Esp funny, since the vast majority of Actual Joos I’ve met in my life have been pretty much decent people. even the slutty leftist jooish women. they weren’t Evil People. I don’t THINK.

But the Joos as a WHOLE GROUP, have caused so much damage it cant be denied.

h0l0c0st denier? how about h0l0c0st TRUTH denier HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

most of the individual jooz i’ve met have been ok-to-pretty-darn-good people. but my problem is with the GROUP, not some individuals of the group, and their whole GROUP needs to go back. period. the good does not outweigh the bad.

they have turned our men into phaggots and our women into mudshark whores. they are a CANCER to our people. this has been going on for THOUSANDS of years in MANY different countries of goys.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/man-captures-images-of-jews-shape-shifting-in-and-out-of-their-white-disguise/96044

eric striker muh lad another great article hehehehe

THEY ADMIT IT THEMSELVES!!!! this is one thing that finally sold me. the PRETEND to be hwyte when they are apologizing for how evil and racist hwytes are, my fellow hwytes, you dont GET to tone police PoCs on the the systematic racism of police brutality……and then sooner or later, oy vey im jooish! and having pizza and wine for purim. oy vey! there are many atheist jews, its not just a religion! except when it is!

GLR is talking about this exact thing in WP on page 125 or so.  They are CONSTANTLY SHAPE SHIFTING and Shedding Skin whenever it suits them, between 3 main forms: a RELIGION, a RACE, and a NATION. we’re not this, we’re that! we’re not that, we’re this now!

you anti semite! you wouldnt say all catholics or all lutherans!

you anti semite! muh shoah, muh 6 gorillion!

the goddamn CHUTZPAH!!!!!!!!

HE CRIES OUT AS HE STRIKES YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that eric striker article above points this out brilliantly. curating some tweets from wagner clemente soto. who was following ME back in 2011 when i had a semi-political, semi-racial twitter. i was proto-alt-right in 2011 hahahahahahahhahahahahaha.

my fellow hwytes, we all benefit from hwyte privilege, and heres why, and we dont get to tone police and we dont get to tell PoCs how to feel bla bla bla bla. ALWAYS a joo! well….not always. I’ve seen actual hwyte people who talk like this. damn THOSE are SAD!

april 6

hmm still watching this twin peaks pilot. this is confusing af. i watched all of twin peaks once, all the way thru, one episode after the other, like 13 years ago.

shit i forgot about the race mixing with sheriff truman and the chinee bitch who had race mixed prior with the superrich capitalist mr packard. why do these powerful white men fall for this gold digging chinee skank?

theres some other degenerate stuff like laura palmers secret life, but thats not GLORIFIED like this race mixing. and the chinee woman is portrayed as all WISE and SERIOUS and PROFOUND and DEEP and important and respected and respectable. to be fair, she does have a low energy demeanor and is not all shrill……but marrying a superrich wood baron? come on. its obvious.

but yeah there is so much going on here. i dont remember ANY of this.

also i dont think its really fair to say good clean SMALL TOWN GOYIM are  THIS degenerate. youre WRONG about that DAVID LYNCH. sometimes people just ARE squeaky clean. I guess dale cooper and sheriff truman represent that. fine. i mean i can tell lynch APPRECIATES that nondegenness. i just think he appreciates the degen a little too much!

so am I against the lesbian shit in mulholland dr, one of muh fav movies of all time?

man. i can live with ditching woody allen, but i would be SAD about having to ditch dave lynch.

I really hope he doesnt joo out with the NEW twin peaks. that is the biggest thing he’s done in 10 years and it might be the last thing he ever does because he is getting OLD. i hope it isnt totally jooed. im sure it will be a LITTLE jooed because the ORIGINAL was a little jooed in 1990.

ok. had a dream last night with THAT WOMAN. i was talking to her and trying to get her to pay attention to me but she was ignoring me. this kinda happened in real life too. i just really hated being ignored by her. i know how that sounds. makes me the bad guy who always NEEDS something. and yeah i WAS that a bit too much.

anyway in dream she turned around suddenly and snapped, “I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY hope you get the help you so desperately need for your ANXIETY ISSUES.” then turned immediately back around and resumed ignoring me.

that was interesting. it basically says, no i DONT really care, take your stupid ISSUES and leave me alone.

which i guess is prob what she WAS actually thinking.

at THAT time, I WAS filled with severe anxiety about everything! now, not so much, thank GOD. I’m doing OK with ANXIETY, thank GOD. but negative attitude is still RAAAAAAGING.

dream did not ruin day. her appearance was very very brief. nowhere NEAR as bad as the dream i had with her like 5 days ago.

but yeah lesson is, NEVER be passive agressive with women. they hate it, and you hate it too. just rip the band aid off and say what you wanna say and get it over with.

had fairly unproductive day.  because people aren’t expecting me to create/publish/deliver something every 20 minutes, i can get away with procrastinating on shit. tasks that i SHOULD BE doing, but i get STUCK like a deer in headlights and just start clicking tabs. I’m not even ENJOYING the procrastination. I WANT to be doing my task. it would HELP if somebody were ON MY ASS every 20 minutes saying, lemme see where you are at here. ok, this isn’t working, so you do this now.

when this is not how normie adults work! they are self-starting!

so now I gotta play CATCH UP over the weekend. and get to a point by monday that I feel  I SHOULD have gotten to today. and then some, as a show of good will. good faith. extra added value.

so yeah. i can see why ANYONE hate passive aggressive wimpy shit, and i only ever do it with women, not men, and i do it because i am SCARED to say whats REALLY on my mind. never again.

sucks to be so red pilled you cant even enjoy twin peaks any more! shit remember the MOVIE was een more degenerate! remember that david lynch is kinda a pervert that likes to show tits and ass!

so he’s always been kinda jooed, but its DISAPPOINTING because you know he’s a goy at heart.  and in many ways luvs his inner goy as he should. but he also needs to defoo the joo within, and i dont think he will, if he hasn’t by age 75 or however old he is. the new twin peaks will prob be jooed wtih plenty of tits, ass, and dark sleazy jooish degeneracy.

but it will DEF get lots of people talking about david lynch, prob the most they ever did since the LAST twin peaks 26 years ago. i mean REALLY. how many people saw inland empire, let alone people like me who saw it literally 10 times.

however there is no one else ever who has tapped into this Scary Dark place that Lynch has. it is very primordial and very very terrifying, i guess i like that sense of fear.

and joos live their lives that way and want us to too. to be thrown in that black jooish void of chaos, fear, terror, horror. perhaps lovecraft was also getting at this. and lovecraft def knew the deal with the J’s! could lynch maybe do a good lovecraft story? MAYBE. MAYBE. but i cant see lynch adapting other people (see dune) and i cant see lovecraft being made into a film. even a crazy lynch film.

but yeah. even in “squeaky clean” 1990 twin peaks, where 99.999999% of people are whyte except for the chinee and a few injuns, people dress like its 1950, they still all do degen shit like Cheating and Cocaine and Fornication.

High school kids that are 25 years old and cheating and fooking and doing coke! come on!

EVERYBODY is cheating on their husband or wife! I forgot about this aspect.

It’s nice that it shows women are dirty heartless bitches….but the men are no better! they are just as sleazy….and even STUPIDER.

COME ON DAVE!!!!!!

i mean its not like i didnt know what twin peaks WAS. and that it was like this 26 YEARS ago.

is The Subconscious Inherently Jooish? I don’t know. I don’t think so, even though a lot of jooish shit IS subconscious, like everything Freud talked about. your subconscious wants to fook your own mother. have your mother peg you with a strapon. jooish bullshit like that.

like your (((((((id)))))))) is at core, this jooish hideous thing ….. or at best, just a muh dick negro!

no theres a hwyte PERSPECTIVE on the subconscious, that you have this noble core, or maybe some kind of shared European Subconscious.

heh. i wish lynch would use his transcendental meditation to meditate more on THIS. on his hwyte soul. he obviously is getting into some very deep corners of the soul. just wish he could show more of the good hwyte parts.

so no I dont believe he is racially aware and I would love for him to be.

he’s always been one of muh favorite filmmakers. but so was woody allen. who ive since disavowed. i would not be so HAPPY about disavowing lynch because he’s far less jooish than allen.

another great example. harmony korine. he made two excellent movies, gummo and julien donkey boy. i have seen both many, many times. i guess you could say he is a more jooish form of lynch! when i was young i had no concept of korine being jooish. in fact, i bet he might not even be obsessed with his own jooishness!

but after you are redpilled, you cant help, why is this Actual Joo showing Goys in such pathetic, degenerate ways? the horrible destroyed, broken, twisted, jooed people of those two movies.

when you’re young you enjoy it because you were EDGY and i bet he felt the same way when he was young and MADE the movies!

i didnt keep up with his later stuff. i wanted to, but he was SO inactive and eventually i lost interest. “mister lonely” was ok but nothing classic.

i did watch some fassbinder on his recommendation, guess fassbinder was a big influence on him. and guess what, fassbinder is i THINK hwyte but he MIGHT AS WELL be J. wont lie, i liked some of his stuff though. i actually watched about 33% of berlin alexanderplatz and it was pretty good. i was only starting to get redpilled then. not sure how i would have viewed the nazi element of that movie.

oh shit he did that movie ali fear eats the soul which was totally degenerate: an old white woman falls in luv with a big black arab buck ali. i think he was a BERBER from MOROCCO.

or this other one where fassbinder essentially played himself, a degen phaggot hungry for c0ck.

see, fassbinder is nothing to GLORIFY.

and neither is korine. but i can’t deny that JDB, I watched that movie MANY times during my youth and it left a BIG impression. TOO big, probably.

i’ve more or less disavowed korine and doing so didnt disappoint me so much as if i had to disavow lynch, was what i was getting at.

but the location of twin peaks is GREAT. SUPER hwyte. you really want to BE there. i am looking at maps of washington state trying to find a town that is most like twin peaks.

interesting that lynch has made great work both in the Urban and more Rural settings. i of course thinks he needs to crush the urbanite parts of himself. less LA and more missoula montana man.

i hate to think that FILM ITSELF is INHERENTLY jooish……but it HAS been TAINTED by jooish influence since the VERY beginning.

i havent had much desire to watch tv or movies the past couple of YEARS. i just have shit on as background noise while i am neckbearding on internet. blogging about joos and failure and women. losing at poker. reading white power and 1489 stuff hahahah.

heh. took 1 benedryl and 1 valium already so…mind is getting cloudy and tired, cant BLOG too much hehe.

but yeah dont like that my WORK was compromised today because i was so scatterbrained and indecisive. i couldnt GET AWAY with this at a REAL job. i would be FIRED.

so now, for doing BAD today, i need to do an equal amount of GOOD, OFF the clock, to REPAY them, and to “save” myself and my job.

in the real world, you run ragged all day SLAMMED with work being super busy all day…..then you play CATCH UP at home and on weekends, doing MORE work so that you looks even more productive, and can me unreasonable standards and not get fired.

you dont get to relax and do things related to you or or family. you must nervously do MORE WORK to try to stop from getting sucked under in the undertow.

and you CERTAINLY dont get a whole day to SLACK OFF just clicking through a bunch of TABS and not really PRODUCING anything because youre just like well I DUNNO HOW TO DO THIS REALLY and now muh mind is going blank. maybe i should go on DISABILITY because MUH ISSUES have made me UNABLE TO WORK hahahahahahahaha.

there was one time IRL where that woman did turn and snap at me. i was whining like a beotch about a tuff day at the job hoping she would commiserate with me, that it was tuff for her to, and we could both bond over hating the job, and i sounded like a weak bitch, and she snapped LEAVE. PLEASE LEAVE. which was the most direct thing she ever said to me. i was shocked. i mean it totally makes sense, i totally understand why she did it.

and when our rel ended she essentially did the same thing but did not even say 2 words. but yeah that first time was like a prelude. i was hoping she would apologize for that but no i of course apologized LIKE A BITCH. STOP APOLOGIZING. NEVER APOLOGIZE. especially not out of weak desperation. i was in a pathetic, desperate, helpless, hopeless state. that is my excuse hahahaha. sometimes i GET really hopeless and desperate hahaha.

but yeah in that first snapping i was hoping for more sympathy, an apology, something that she was trying to see it from my side and not trying to be a bitch hahahaha. since i never got that, i feared she thought the worst of me when she really dumped me.

but yeah th edream wasnt that bad. i was much more frustrated by not being able to make any progress on my work. it was more like i was autistic because i couldnt visualize how the end product would look, so i could barely even muddle through on Just Doing Something until it Started To Look Like Something. i KNOW thats the best way to appoach this and I still didnt do it. was i scared? i was more distracted than SCARED. although i would have been just as unproductive if id been scared/anxious/nervous.

but yeah gonna sleep well tonight. still have 2 benedryls left to take haha. plenty of people at card table right now. too bad i am so tired. could literally go to sleep right now. it is start of muh weekend. muh longass nonnormie weekend.

well i CAN tell you that the MUSIC of twin peaks stands the test of time. great, great music. been listening to the soundtrack a lot in past few months, and i think there is some extra stuff in the actual show. and its all good. love every piece of music on there. no jooish bullshit. i had a surprising vision of Being In A Band and playing the “Mr Cool Theme” with them. this is the Cool Jazzy theme with the fingersnaps and what may be a marimba. i dont know what the official name of the song is.

but yeah all the boys are muh dick white negro jock chads fooking all the slutty staceys. except they are one upping the boys in evil, by getting some strange k0ch from pure evil satanic jooish outsiders from a primordial void hahaha. so yeah thats kind of nice seeing these evil women. but the men are degen and dumb. except for dale cooper. and sheriff truman except for his ABSOLUTELY DISGUSTING YELLOW FEVER. goddamn that always rustles and triggers me. i cant recall any other yellow fever in lynch’s stuff, or any race mixing for that matter.

i dunno. i just dont think it ROTS THE SOUL to watch a basically good goy playing with some jooish degen, as it does to watch some hand rubbing merchants actively crafting the most degen shit they can because it projects their filthy souls and destroys goys souls.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/for-the-sake-of-all-that-is-good-female-sexual-choice-must-be-suppressed/96932

interesting

breaking news, trump firing 50 tomohawk missiles at syrian air base RIGHT NOW, it has BEGUN, trvmp starting a WAR FOR JOOZ.

the missiles could be fake news tho hahahaha

joo don rickles dead at 90 today

i guess the tomahawk thing is on live tv news right now. just looking at twitter. will turn news on in about 30 minutes, watch 5 minutes, then got to sleep haha.

so…..just to be clear. i mean i would probably support US going in and bombing the shit out of ISIS. but how many normies understand he’s not bombing isis, he’s bombing assad, who isis is fighting against? so technically we on isis’s side here. and i guess israel would rather have isis in power than assad. not sure how or why assad has been such a Strong Bulwark against Israel.

Because assad has made alliances with China, Russia and Iran?????

bbbbut wont Trumps BASE be against this? trump supporters arent gonna like this any more than hillary supporters! i just dont get it!

apr 7

john thicc

i dont know why, i just found this meme funny. probably because this new black text word THICC is so ridiculous. you text a white mudshark slut DAYUM GURL DAT AZZ THICC  😂 😂 😂 💯💯💯

and then beautiful dumb 25 year ol white gurls with no children bend their thicc azz over for your BBC and let you fook them and give them their first of many sprog bastards ahahahahaha

spent like 15 minutes trying to refind that meme on daily stormer bbs hehehehe.

the great WEEV has been moved to make a video on it. havent watched it yet but I guess he’s saying something like i would say: lets give a few more days and see how this plays out, maybe its 4D chess hhahahaha, although it looks really bad right now, like trvmp is selling out. lets give him one chance hahahaha.

got like 10:30 of sleep which seems to be “normal” for nonwork nights as opposed to around 7 hours when i am getting up at 5am. which I do not complain about. 5am is a RESPECTABLE time to get up and makes me more normie, more winner, sheeeit i SHOULD get up at 5am on non work days just to make me a better, hwyter man! its a very hwyte, principled, ubermensch, hyperborean time to get up! its when hard working men of action, men with hwyte wives and families get up, at the latest!

actually REAL ubermensches get up at 3 am. THREE AM.

im not even really GETTING up at 5am. at 5am my alarm rings and I just watch tv news from 5 to 5:30 and drink coffee and try to not fall back asleep hahaha. the time passes REALLY quickly. nrmally 30 minutes do not pass this fast.

GOT to do some errands today. might do to walmart and buy new blue pants. really LUV their GEORGE 12 dollar pants. have 2 pair already and they are both awesome. figure why not buy 1 more.

the pants are damn near perfect. they look kind of underwhelming but then look and fit great when you put them on. absolutely no buyers remorse ever here. thank GOD. i am tempted to just stock up in case they stop making these pants, so i can have replacements when they wear out.

heh. cable tv watchathon right now. they have the orig twin peaks series. wonder if they have netflix movies. i wonder if they have the turin goddamn horse hahahahaha

hmm i could watch my other fav movie mulholland drive right now. do not have turin horse. not really surprised there.

i am doing laundry so not totally neckbearding.

debating whether to get haircut today. i SHOULD but I might not.

trump thing is weird. now the JY Slimes is reporting how “far right white nationalists and the alt right” are turning against trump because these far right racists are anti-war hahahaha.

funny when the FAR RIGHT are antiwar! hahahaha.

well i think they always HAVE been. its only EVER been NEOCOHENS who ever WANTED war! quite literally, jooz start all the wars in the world! well, in the modern world at least. since world war 1 at least hahaha.

like i said, trump supporters dont support this move, hillary and bernie supporters dont support this move. you have to ask, who DOES support it?

WHO, INDEED. TO ASK THE QUESTION IS TO ANSWER IT.

I guess that might redpill normies.

i mean NO ONE is saying this is a great idea. the best you get is, lets sleep on it a few days and see if it might play out well in the world of 4d chess. which it might. this is kind of where I am at. if it leads to a pattern of jooish trick after jooish trick, WHICH IT WELL MIGHT, then we can officially disavow trump and weep bitter tears of butthurt.

sheeit laundry is done.

ok folded and put away white t shirts. whites load hahahaha. there is actually a russian hwyte power band called whites load hahahahahahaha.

its possible the average normie amerifat might think syria is synonymous with isis, so that this attack is a good thing, because its an attack against isis. i agree that WOULD prob be a good thing!

but syria is NOT isis! syria is basically assad and HE is AGAINST isis! he is also pro-russia, pro-iran, and very anti-israel.

but arent ISIS anti-israel too?  i think they THREATEN israel much less than assad though.

but doesnt isis threaten us in the increasingly non-whitening West becuase ALL the terror attacks in the west are isis related?

assad supports syrian christians against slaughter by isis.

its safe to say all trump supporters want to see isis destroyed.

what if trump destroyed both assad AND isis?

would there then be a “power vacuum” which israel/US would then fight russia/iran over?

so in other words, assad is the only thing preventing WORLD WAR 3, and the US directly attacked him?

if i were smart enough to get into HARVARD i might UNDERSTAND all of this. i could just be a black and write #blacklivesmatter 100 times on my application essay and get into harvard hahahahha.

i should be more worried about me being Frozen and Unproductive at muh job. i might not be fired but i would def be Frowned Upon and Shunned and perhaps try to be Pressured to Quit hahahaha. but wouldnt they then give me GOOD references, because they want me OUT?

ok im gonna go to walmart, just walmart. i have a gift card anyway. its gonna be full of blacks and arabs though!

maybe i should try going to the “better” walmart?

i mean i HAVE to spend this WALMART gift card at specifically WALMART.

what would JOHN THICC do hahahaha that is the stupidest shit i have ever seen.

lets just fookin GO and get this over with. ok i did another mini chore. done. tried to do another mini chore involving a phone call, called them, they were out to damn lunch. a phone call about health care billing, hahahah talk about a lose lose situation. basically i am paying for a doctors office visit for what I think is In Full at the time of the visit, then I get a bill from the Health System 2 months later saying I owe MORE, like a Lot more. this happens every time, and every time I call the dr’s office and they “clear it up.” something about the communication between the doctors office and the health care System Billing Dept. I dont know whose fault it is. THEY probably dont know whos fault it is. i mean it looks unprofessional on both of them imho but as long as i can make one phone call and not have to pull teeth and speak to managers…shit its exactly the type of phone call I would HATE getting and HATE explaining…..because there IS no explanation! situations normal – all fooked up! that’s the explanation!

god almighty i would never want to work in medical billing, can you even imagine how jooish and horrible that is? jooish insurance companies and jooish hospitals all trying to joo poor patients as much as possible in ridiculously confusing, jooish ways, and who does the billing but single mom mudsharks and 80 IQ blacks when it would take 120 IQ just to understand the jooish complexities of this needlessly complex billing!

heh. get a masters degree in medical billing. that job might even be in demand. you might even make 18 bucks an hour with that one!

listen man i can do some calculus integrals and some CompSci 202 level coding, but i cant do basic bitch 11 dollar an hour medical billing and insurance questions! those are CONFUSING AF!!!!!!! the people taking those calls all day should be making at LEAST 18 dollars an hour, if not 20 hahaha.

call the doctors office, they said the billers werent in on fridays and to plz call back monday. HUH????? ok fine.

i have noticed a Pain Point for your business hahaha. I would solve it by having a Student Intern take billing phone calls on fridays for FREE hahahahaha. or, hire a negro or mudshark for 9 dollars an hour and have them be totally incompetent hahaha.

i just feel SORRY for these low level employees who arent TRAINED properly. there is a local political controversy where this elected official’s office is in total disarray, and all the new employees under them have no idea what they are doing. they are all young, poor, blacks making 11 dollars an hour, prob part time no benefits, and customers write to the local paper saying the Help Is Incompetent, nobody knows what they are doing, nobody is trained, what used to take you 5 minutes under the previous administration now takes an hour, its disgraceful.

i sympathize with the poor slobs on the frontlines trying to help people with their confusing questions! they are probably going to ask for a manager, but the manager is out to a looooooong lunch with crooked italian contractors getting drunk at the titty bar!

well at least italians are hwyte hahahahahahha. but these are the very sicilian nonwhyte arab looking italians always hhahaha. no thank you!

the sad thing is i know i applied for like 3 jobs in this department. it was prob a revolving door of people quitting or getting fired because the management is SO BAD it has become a PUBLIC SCANDAL in the local news.

well a lot of the people are unfirable, union tho.

its confusing. hire a 80 IQ negro to splain it to me for 9 dollars an hour hahaha.

see what i mean? TRAINING. I think even 80 iq people could do this if TRAINED properly. also, 120 people are still going to struggle if they dont have the correct INFORMATION to do the job. PLUS, its hard even for SMART people to answer Tuff Problems if they are being Pressured by Angry Assholes to work faster, do better.

they dont prepare you for this in skool or college and they should.

Hire ME. when you want it done fast AND done right. it doesnt matter what it is.

that is gonna be my new calling card. I do things fast AND right. everything.

ok got back from WALMART. i am happy to have accomplished something today. do one thing every day hahahaha. the place was absolutey FULL of blacks. some arabs but even more blacks. to the store managers credit, the store LOOKED just fine. clean and organized. got some great 12 dollar george pants, the best pants ever. again these pants are so good i should buy EXTRA. its HARD to find good pants let along GREAT pants. also found nice Faded Glory T Shirt with stripes on it. i like T shirts with some sort of design like stripes on it. this is remarkably hard to find.

did a first and bought the walmart brand BEEF. 80 20. i was wary but the beef looked all right. it was all in 2.25 pound packs for…. 6.94 each.  this is 3.08 per pound. not bad. with this I will make juicy 3 oz meatballs hahahaha and with those make THICC meatball burgers hahahaha.

😂  👌👌👌

fookin BLAX hhahaha. BLACK MEMES are essentially what these are. emojis. ebonics in text form.

used up my gift card at walmart. place was so full of blacks. i survived but my god the customers. the people of walmart. made me want to try another walmart next time.

my usual store is a supermarket like walmart but its generally hwyter, definitely better PEOPLE there. going to the closest walmart is like going to baltimore or some shit hahahaha. i am thankful my immediate area and my local supermarket are largely still hwyte. i care about these things. i am racially aware hahahahah.

the other thing that sucks about walmart is that they dont have small hand baskets like i usually use. today they didnt even have the small pushcarts, just the large pushcarts. so i had to grab everything and hold it in muh bare bear arms hahahaha.

heh what the hell is the “deep state”. seeing this term being thrown around a lot. probably just means the jooz like kushner controlling trump hahahaha.

globalists. well i mean thats a good way to describe da jooz. so i am all for people talking about the evil globalists! i mean the term has gone mainstream!

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/an-extremely-unfortunate-turn-of-events/97362

anglin’s semi official statement on the syrian thing

http://www.dailystormer.com/duke-striker-on-the-jewish-elites-role-in-the-usa-drug-epidemic/

looks like eric striker who wrote that EXCELLENT article on the opioid epidemic and a number of other great articles on DS, has had a talk with david duke on his opioid article. who the hell is this striker, he has a lot of potential hehehe.

see some thing in local paper about high school in very hwyte semi rural redneck area and there is a young man with a 4.0 gpa who loves the high school auto repair/tech program and now he is gonna go to college to do an engineering degree in something diesel related. he seemed like a healthy happy normie. i was jelly of the young man who at age 17 says, i wanna do my career in DIESEL. design and build huge diesel engines. which there is huge money in this. repairing engines of 600000000000 dollar pieces of mining equipment which have huge diesel engines. huge machinery and engines normies cant even THINK of.

but he clearly got his interest in diesel from doing his high school auto tech program.

then i am jelly my high school didnt have an auto program because they were trying to prepare everyone for UNIVERSITY. then i think, if they had an auto program, would I have done it? if they HAD an hvac or auto or welding or electrician or cnc machining or some sort of trade program…..would I have done it????? its impossible to say.

this is possibly the best taake song and captures everything great about his style. it is very masculine and high energy. yet also grim. i cant rightfully call it “cold” cuz its very hot-blooded. also rather than repeating one riff 60000000 times like boortzum, he crams 6000000000 riffs into one song like technical death metal or something. BUTTTTTTTTT all those riffs flow PERFECTLY. the amount of air guitaring, air drumming i do throughout basically this whole song is insane. it only slows down in the last 30 seconds.

i will be obnoxiously calling for this song at the taake concert and hopefully will rustle hoest’s jimmies hahahahahahahaha.

so yeah i am happy about the walmart george 12 dollar pants. flat front, classic/normie fit, at that perfect intersection of looking fancy but not super fancy, and a cotton/polyester blend so they are both light and soft. best fooking pants ever.

https://www.walmart.com/ip/15024506?wmlspartner=wlpa

these are the pants, i’m 90% sure hahahaha. buy 4 pair right now and thank me later. i have gray, khaki, and now blue. i am tempted to get the black ones too.

WHAT WOULD JOHN THICC DO?

heh this is really a shit tier meme that wont ever take off, only i think its funny because its so goddamn bad.

also the faded glory striped tshirt is great. fooking great. this is why i like walmart. nice clothes for a nice price. i mean its way more expensive than the thrift store, but i rarely find anything good at the thrift store.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/11-year-old-boy-kills-self-after-gf-fakes-death-i-blame-single-motherhood/97270/

great comments hahahaha

every link i link is to daily stormer hahaha.  i am not anti TRS, i jsut am taking a temp break from them.

never do you find a dog that fires his owner because he wants to find a better owner. leaves his owner for seemingly greener pastures. i am trying to make a point about women hahahaha. dogs are loyal, women are not like dogs, women know no loyalty hahahaha and that sucks.

well they are loyal to brute strength arent they? i mean didnt we conclude that this all MADE SENSE? if YOU could get preggers wouldnt you stop being loyal to your PROTECTOR as soon as he showed he wasnt STRONG enough to protect you any more?

seeing all this stuff about “greater israel” which i guess is what israel wants to expand to, to basically go all the way to the persian gulf, take over large areas of syria, iraq, and saudia arabia, probably pick up a lot of oil in the process.

ever wonder why you never see an ISIS attack in israel??? hehehehehe.

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hahahaha

oh yeah. so lets say you go to normie degen high school. wouldnt you HAVE to see a few white mudshark slut girls, even if there were only 2 black kids in your school? they would certainly be banging white sluts.

in other words, maybe most (hwyte) men HAVE personally experienced mudhsharks, ie personally known women who have done it.

but were they CLOSE to them? did they really KNOW the women? did they CARE about them and WANT them? only to be brutally rejected for the mud? or were they just that dirty pathetic mudshark ho over there, it never really affected you on a deep level, never helped you become racially redpilled?

i mean i never met any mudsharks until i was like 25 years old simply because i didnt know many women. and if the few women i had met prior to that were fooking blacks…..well i just didnt KNOW about it.

i mean you gotta KNOW the women well enough to at least know WHO they are fooking. do you even know HALF the women you know that well?

oh shit so every women is a mudshark unless proven otherwise hahahaha guilty until proven innocent.

hahaha no but seriously, i would say innocent until proven guilty. and its not like i had to do cia shit with these women. they POST the shit on FACEBOOK!

yeah but im not on facebook anymore so how am i gonna do mudshark recon? well i figure just ask any women i get to know personally. jsut ask them. half the time they will be truthful. yeah ive been with blacks what it to you? you a racist or something? yes i am, now gtfo mudshark!

 

THE WQ

apr 1

had a not fun dream which featurely That Woman prominently. there was this prostitution section at a mall or something where the hookers had little rooms and you could look at them before signing up. like a brothel or red light district i guess. to my horror i found her in there. being a hooker. she still looked great, except now she had some shitty tattoos on her nice white body where before she had none. i talked to her for a little bit but couldnt bring myself to “hire” her. i came back the next day and was more determined to “hire” her but i guess she wasnt in that day. i talked to one of her Clients who also really liked her, because she was the best fook ever, she did EVERYTHING and was so GIVING and enthusiastic.

i recall one image of her bending over with her beautiful long hair going over her beautiful white skin which was now covered in white trash tattoos and i was like welp those tattoos are a shame, but i still want her. i am not over her.

then i woke up at 5 am and was like welp that sucks. i still want her. i am not over her.

andrew anglin is right. women are like children. i bet if i contacted her NOW with enough confidence and charisma, i could meet up with her and bang her and ideally make her my waifu. i could play this game just right and live with her happily ever after. hopefulyl she doesnt have any shitty tattoos or any damn KIDS, and hasnt been with TOO many black guys in the past 2 years. i bet she still looks good and has nice hair and nice skin and nice legs.

i didnt want to go back to sleep because i felt i would go right back into that dream. but i also kinda wanted to “see her” again. but i knew this would bother me all day. so i laid awake and worried about it for a while and said welp ITS JUST A DREAM, yes it sucks, but it doesnt mean i’m not getting over her, or that i’m not 80% over her, in a few days, i’ll barely remember this, and NO i should NOT contact her, or look her up on the internet. fook no. do NOT do that.

then i got back to sleep pretty well, and no more dreams of her hahaha. thank god.

but yeah. just that lingering thought that if i came at her NOW like a totally super masculine tough guy, i could probably “win” her. and i was tempted to play that act. but i could only play that act for so long and then she would dump me and i would be heartbroken again.

and wa wa wa i will never WANT a woman as much as this again. and this kind of WANTING, yeah its “just” a chemical drug, but it totally effectively bonds people together, makes commitment possible, and ideally you want to MARRY and have CHILDREN with someone you get that chemical for…..and if you dont…..should you have children with them? i mean its clear many people do anyway.

well you can still be a good parent even if you dont like your wife hahahahaha. but your wife has to still be willing not to be a hostile bitch to you, esp in front of the children.

thankfully i got a few more hours of decent sleep and no more dreams about HER, that helped.

heh that darn article. maybe it got me thinking i could “win her back” after all thsi time, if I just came back as a total tough guy, and never let the mask slip. it would be risky, but its a risk worth taking right? i mean she is the last woman i will ever luv right? hahahahaha. what do i have to lose?

now in the light of day i can thankfully see, nope not a good idea. btu right after I woke up from that darn dream, yeah i was tempted. oh i’ll take her back even if she is a literal prostitute.  she has a spell on me.

then i thought it might be good to go to an actual hooker. shit go to a FEW.

yeah it is troubling the thought i should try to contact her, present a totally different face to her, act like i am a total tough guy, that would be a enough to fool her, and maybe i could fake it till i make it long enough for her to become loyal to me.

i mean i’m gonna have to do this with ANY woman ANYWAY, faking it till i make it as a masculine tough guy. not just her. but HER i have actual feelings for, i want to be with! she actually MEANS something to me!

rational response: if ANY young qt gurl is NICE to me and shows Sweet Feminine Warmth and Interest in me, I would very well get feelings for her TOO. basically she was acting in a way that ANY woman can act – sweet and nice and kind and friendly. that wasnt unique to HER. its just a huge TRIPLE WHAMMY to get that from a cute young hwyte gurl who is fairly secsually INNOCENT.  IE, a low-number woman.  and then she continues to be nice to you for a few years and you get to know her and you see she isnt a total destructive degen baby monster.

maybe the dream was just a grim, totally unfunny april fools joke. note: april fools jokes are SUPPOSED to be FUNNY. not morale-destroying hahaha.

sheeeit the mudshark thread on DS forum i replied to and was scared to look at for fear of people calling me a untermensch race traitor phaggot, well i learned i got at least 10 likes on my post, and also the thread was REMOVED so you cant even read it, prob cuz it got too controversial, but i HOPE they didnt attack the principled hwyte man who was trying to teach his mudshark white young female employee a valuable life lesson about not being a dirty mudshark. stop now before its too late. maybe he got attacked for being a WHITE KNIGHT and they MAN SHAMED him hahahaha. which would be bad and worthy of shutting down the thread.

read a book on how to train a very catlike dog. or better yet, how to train a CAT. then you will be able to TRAIN women.

anglin’s women thread is growing and growing. somebody posted the picture of him with his qt blonde GF. her hair his covering her face so she is not doxxed, but clearly she is attractive, and he is looking smug, rightfully so. i am suspicious that she is a trifling thot and dumped him and broke his heart! maybe he didnt TRAIN her well enough, maybe he didnt pick a righteous enough woman, but god damn, i just hate that men have to do 99% of the work and women only 1%, or else the man is a shameful loser. can’t women do 25% of the work? thats all I’m asking.

i dont EXPECT them to do 50% of the work or even 40%. but 25%??? COME ON. YOU CAN DO THAT MUCH. EVEN A 14 Year old gurl could do that much.

the danger here is that i am convincing myself to contact her. i cant come up wiht a good reason NOT to. i have nothign to lose. well, other than i will be devastated when she dumps me again . yeah but that will be my FAULT because women have no FAULT or RESPONSIBILITY ever. they one dump you if you let them get away with it and dont TRAIN them properly.

stupid god damn DREAM making me even THINK contacting HER is a remotely good idea. shit. fook. just wait a couple days and i will be back to “normal.” hehehe.

i say just try to bang women as quickly as possible, and when you do, YOU dump THEM, because you dont want a SLUT who bangs quickly as the mother of your children, you want a decent woman. but by all means bang her 500 times so you get more natural at being physical and confident with women. that can only HELP you in the long run. which is maybe why i need to meet casual sluts from okcupid, or hookers from the erotic review.

shit i desperately WANT another woman to REPLACE her and break this CURSE she has on me, and i worry this will never happen. well then I’ll just be cursed again, is that really any better? YES, because its NOT HER! the memory of HER is like an evil jooish parasite in muh brain! there was more bad than good and I wish I could FORGET IT ALL. even the good. because the GOOD WASNT WURF IT.

there was more bad than good and i wish i could forget the good. there was a decent amount of good though. but a fookton of bad.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/dear-men-who-wish-to-be-allies-to-women-12-things-you-need-to-know/95757

anyway there was a time wheni was having like 3 dreams about HER a week. but the shitty thing about this dream is that it proves i’m not fully over her, and that i could still totally RATIONALIZE the idea of contacting her. i WONT, but.

i mean shit. this was TRVE LUV. OF COURSE it takes a LONG time to get over. AT LEAST 2 YEARS.

BUt yeah i thought she CARED about me more. thats all hahaha. near the end it was like she didnt care at all. when things were good it seemed she CARED about me quite a bit. I don’t mind being Cared About by a Nice Person who I cared about too!

oh well its been over for 2 years and i hate all women nao hahaha its all part of THE PROCESS. TRUST THE PROCESS.  would LUV some MJ though. LUV LUV LUV.

i dont think i would have gotten the Luv Drug Chemical Oxytocins and Vasopressins and Dopamines and Endorphins if That Woman had not been ATTRACTIVE. if she were UGLY, i don’t think anything would have happened. i wish she had jsut been ugly! she had kinda a horse face but any man would have found her attractive, if perhaps “a bit plain.” but then again, a bit plain is my TYPE if there ever was one!!!

a little plain, but not UGLY.

and believe me, many women are on the ugly side of plain!

anyway. right or wrong (probably wrong hahaha) i had deep feelings for her and that was the truth. they were not logical, but they were REAL, and by GOD is it taking FOREVER for them to go away, because that is the reality of these feelings. that’s NORMAL.

it didnt matter that she didnt care about me, all that mattered was that she was young and purty and a halfway decent person and that we knew each other. i mean if i hadn’t KNOWN her for 3 years then she would just be like some random young qt gurl I didnt know.

anyway who cares. just hope i dont have a dream about her tonight.

i mean really this is just normal. normies go through this too. Only its maybe only 60% as painful hahaha. what do they do? they DRINK and bang SLUTS. i cant really do either of those.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/mudshark-and-retard-trolling-with-ya-main-goy-heilkek88/95052/16

this has the potential to get really good, the kid doesnt seem too sharp but he has some balls ahahaha. anyway you can just ask these sluts how many partners they have had. the 20 year old gurl said 4.

thats really not TOO bad!!!!! I mean I normally would allow a max of 2 by 20 for a marriageable gurl but a fat slut on POF, 4 by 20, damn I would have thought 8 to 10 by 20 at LEAST!

chris cantwell is doing a livestream in blackface pretending to be a black guy. his stock is going up in my market hahahaha. i guess he was banned from doing streams on youtube so now he is on this thing called ustream. looks like varg is going from youtube to this thing called vidme. hope that works out for him, i mean he’s entitled to make money from his vidyas, no reason not to!

sent a 5 dollar dnation to DAILY STORMER because i donate to him once every 3 months and apr 1 is the start of another 3 months.

there is like 4600 dollars in his wallet right now. hopefully that will keep DS going for a few more months hahahaha.

apr 2

no dreams about that woman last night thank GOD.

sunday. nice sunny day. went for powerwalk at 11am, try to go for another.  weird irritated and congested feeling in throat which not sure if “allergies” to possible pollen from the Coming Spring, or if it is a Wirus of some sort.

Doing Just Sunday Things namely charging everything that can be charged; triming beard down to level 2.

if you slap a woman open handed in the face like sean connery or steve mcqueen in the movies, that’s probably ok. but to fully beat the shit out of a woman, thats probably never ok ahahha. no closed hand, no prolonged beatings. just one light slap on the face, open hand. it’s more SYMBOLIC than anything. you arent trying to physically hurt her. again, I am much much more comfortable with spanking. there you dont have to be so gentle. you can make it hurt a little. how much long term damage is a spanking going to cause anyway. now i’m not talking about WHIPPING them with a cane or bullwhip with 20 severe lashes that would break the skin like the black slaves in the movies have horrible scars on their backs. I’m just talking about 10 good smacks with your open hand.

i fully intend to do this and I fully expect it to work WONDERS. if i could have spanked that woman it would have worked wonders. but we never even hung out. getting in a room alone with her for 5 minutes was too much to ask.

also you should never ever do any spanking or slapping in public. that is some negro bullshit. i mean unfortuantely there ARE white trash men who BEAT and ABUSE their women, and unfort these women are too fooked up to leave these men, because they dont realize all they really need is a spanking, not having their head smashed against the wall. god damn. you think sean connery or steve mcqueen did that shit hahaha. nope. the thought should HORRIFY you as it does me. just one mild slap on the face to cool her off when she is starting to get hysterical. its easier to do quickly and tactically than a spanking, which is a long formal procedure and ritual. very time intensive. slap first, spank later.

also if i had slapped that woman i dont think it would have helped. dont slap a woman until you have fooked her at least 10 times hahahaha.

maybe practice slapping her in the face while you are spanking her, if, like me, you are much more comfortable with the idea of spanking than slapping. i mean slapping just seems much closer to “ABUSE.” it’s really NOT if done the right way: just one time, open hand, not super hard, again, it’s a SYMBOLIC gesture.

but would it have really ever helped me? well i might have been able to spank the sluts from 12-13 years ago because they let me get Physical with them. but still it was damn near impossible to hang out with them, spend time with them. i spent barely any time with them, barely got to know them at all before i was dumped hahaha. so basically no, spanking or slapping wouldnt have been the magic bullet there, because i didnt even know them LONG enough to get AWAY with spanking them!

The Female Question. The Women Question. it is god damn important and a good gateway into 1433. better that it leads to 1433 than to mgtow! which it easily can!

basically even by traditional patriarchial 1433 standards, i’ve never “known” a women well enough to be able to slap her hahaha.

well i guess you would be more entitled to spank than slap a woman you were just “casually dating.” just start off incorporating it into the degen casual secs. then once she likes you enough to hang out with you once a week you can slowly start Sl4pping her if she mouths off hahahaha.

i am not advocating VIOLENCE, the slapping is NOT VIOLENT.

spanking is a great idea….but it never would have helped me! damn!

basically i am just needily begging to hang out until i get dumped hahahaha. meaning they dont want to hang out any more ever again hahaha.

so how the hell do you make women want to hang out with you? BE MASCULINE. BE TOUGH. BE A MAN. at least FAKE being a man, that’s good enough for Most Women anyway hahahaha. maybe focus on asian or black girls hahahahahahaha no i kid. dont do that.

but yeah spanking is great and i would luv to get a chance to use it, but you cant just use it on casual broads. i mean you got to have enough skill to pull a woman in the first place.

but yeah. you need something else to keep you STRONG than some loving waifu at home to cuddle you and build you up. if she is your Rock, then she is gonna LEAVE you because you are WEAK. dont show her that weak side. better for you to find some private spot and cry like a bitch alone. or maybe run home and cry to your mama. literally! crying in front of your male friends is not recommended. maybe your female friends? hahahahaha. if they are totally ugly in every way, maybe. how about a shrink, or better yet, a PRIEST.

heh there is a guy on DS who makes AA look like a white knight woman lover hahahaha. he is complaining about the “feminist mods” and pretty much asking to get banned. i guess they DO ban people from DS and also remove threads. they delete threads pretty regularly. why not just lock them? probably because there is some suggestion of violence and that ruins the whole thread. how about just delete those posts and lock the thread? because i guarantee some of those threads were decent. some of muh favorite threads eventually got deleted.

so yeah i guess if you are having tough times and feel stressed and weak…..DONT LET YOUR WOMAN SEE YOUR WEAKNESS OR SHE WILL LEAVE YOU. go cry to your:

  1. mother
  2. priest
  3. pay a shrink to listen to you cry
  4. find a private place and cry into a Teddy Bear ahahahahahahaha i’m not even joking.

whats the difference between a woman and a teddy bear? you can cry to a teddy bear and it wont LEAVE YOU hahahahahahaha.

then go lift some weights and only go back to your woman when you are prepared to put on your tough guy face and fook her hard.

i wish the women had more tolerance for weakness, but they JUST DONT, so ADAPT or GET DUMPED. There are other people and things you can show your weakness towards.

traditional catholics say that Adoration/Exposition of the Host is a magic bullet for them. that it turns lukewarm pvssies into crusading warriors for christ. basically getting up and going to church at 6 am before your Job and kneeling in front of the Host.  mother teresa said that if everybody did this for an hour a week it would end abortion.

yeah but this could be a self selection thing.  i mean lukewarm religious people arent going to go to church at 6 am to kneel and pray silently for an hour when its not even an official mass. i dunno.

now many people say that we should outlaw abortion for whites and keep it legal for blacks and nonwhites.

now in the US getting any kind of anti abortion law  would be YUGE and i dont think you could distinguish on race. in other words, i think a wholesale ban on all abortions for all races would be worth it ultimately just for the cultural anti-feminist change it would produce. that benefit would be worth all the nonwhite babies hahahaha. also i think they would find a way to do black market abortions anyway.

also have a few high profile cases where a woman who gets an abortion is convicted for MURDER.

basically reestablish the ideal that All Life Is Sacred and Worth Defending. this would make casual secs casual no more.  make people treat the secs act much more with the reverence befitting what it is: the process that creates new human life. the end.

or, as Anglin said “abortion is the crown jewel for feminism” or something similar. it basically is. take away abortion and you’ve taken away like 60% of feminism at least. the majority of feminism. jooish feminism. so yeah. i would take that gamble. ban abortion for all races. even though nonwhites proportionally get WAY more abortions. just HAVING it be LEGAL is VERY damaging to the MIND and SOUL of hwytes. knowing that its EVEN LEGAL is too damn much.

april 3

this guy puts it nicely QUOTE: ” It doesn’t matter, but probably. Our women need to be mercilessly shamed for merely being alone with them. Publishing it, broadcasting it, is just the same principle as f00king one, humiliating us. They know we can’t stand it. It’s why they do it. “Look, boys, this guy has a place in my social circle. He’s fly, he cool, he has my acceptance, where are you?” It’s how I look at it, now. ” END

from http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/anti-feminist-conservative-lauren-southern-bangs-based-black-conservative/96264/26

it implicitly says, you’re not cool enough to hang out with me, but this black guy is.

and this is probably a talented tenth, trump hat wearing, maga black guy! you STILL dont want them with qt white wimmin!

there is an argument that lauren southern is part J tho. i would not be shocked hahahaha.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/how-can-we-best-keep-our-daughters-and-our-sisters-from-engaging-in-miscegenation/96344

hope this one doesnt get deleted hahaha

i mean you shouldnt have to teach it, but i guess horny young teens. when i was 18 i would have banged an 18 year old nonwhite probably haha. joos and some indians can sometimes be bangable when they are 18 year old gurls hahaha. so if were a Horned Up white gurl wanting to get fooked by secsy BBC tyrone, well i would hope my father would Chain Me Up hahahaha.

i dont fookin know, i havent talked to a woman under 50 in 2 years, hahahahahahahaha. not even joking.

ok i am joking, i think i said good morning to a 35 year old woman recently.

but yeah i barely interact with women under 30, so i forget how easy they are to get all RUSTLED about.

like i say, if That Woman hadnt been YOUNG and GOOD LOOKING, I NEVER would have got feelz for her.

and then if the woman is NICE to you, GAME FOOKING OVER. GUARANTEED that you will fall in hopeless luv with her.

the end. next chapter.

it was INEVITABLE! the only SURPRISING thing is why I didnt happen SOONER. because I RESPECTED the boundaries of her relship with her original whyte boifran. which was right and proper and i don’t regret being whyte like that. her making ANY kind of new male friends WITHOUT breaking up with the boifran showed TERRIBLE JUDGMENT on her part. a good father would have said dont do that shit, thats some n3gr0 bullshit. slippery slope to being a dirty cheater or abortionist or mudshark.

maybe i should THANK the first gurl I knew who mudsharked because her mudsharking was probably a Racial Redpill for me! in other words, i might have not been so vehemently, viscerally against interracial fooking, until i EXPERIENCED the ugly side of it, simply by seeing a slut i sorta fancied, fooking a black guy! and seeing pictures of her smiling face next to him.

and then i was like FOOK THIS. there is NOTHING good about this. inter racial fooking is BAD.

and i CERTAINLY didnt need to go through that TWICE. and boy was the second time a million times worse! cuz i cared for the woman so much more, we were closer, it felt all the more insulting and disgusting to me. shit I already KNEW mudsharking was disgusting, i didnt need to see THIS! good lord I must have been HITLER in a previous life hahahaha.

i’ll bet half of white guys have never experienced a white girl rejecting them and then openly getting with a black guy. because if they HAD, then more guys would be RACIST hahahahaha.

but yeah. THAT WOMAN being a mudshark was just karmically CRUEL to me hahahaha. i already KNEW mudsharking was disgusting, and it didnt take a woman I cared a hella LOT about to teach me that lesson. when That Woman did it, it was just HEARTBREAKING.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/why-women-destroy-civilizations/3837/

nice quote from goy on that thread QUOTE ” The above quote from the video is why I stopped trying to understand how White women could be attracted to black men. They aren’t! They’re attracted to the rebellious, alpha male, image of black men that has been manufactured by J00ish media moguls. If White guys were portrayed in the same way, they would be considered just as desirable by these gullible, idiotic women who are glued to TV and Netflix.  ” END

NEVER FORGET. yeah i know this is all old, in response to black pigeons influential video from around that time.  although i guess it doesnt name the J at all. which is a bit naive and stupid. if you forget or dont know the J is behind this, then you just become a mgtow mra phagg0t.

i mean shit. women arent SMART enough to COORDINATE all this shit.

hmm there used to be a pretty good smart reasonable woman on DS. i think she left because the place became too unreasonable woman-hating hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

yeah yeah so i hate women because I am not a real man. but I am NOT a real, full man. so yes i DO admit that contributes to SOME of my woman-hate. BUT NOT ALL OF IT. another part of it is da J’s, and another part is the women themselves.

oh well almost 8 o clock bedtime hahaha.

april 4

i just dont know. its real easy to get cognitive distortions about women. you hear about one woman and you think ALL WOMEN are that bad. women are bad, dont get me wrong, but they might not be THAT bad.

for example, ask a gurl if she dates outside her race, perfectly valid question, because you shun and shame mudsharks. woman responds: IM NOT RACIST, but I just dont date black guys. Im not racist though.

don’t sperg out over her saying shes “not racist.” thats not important. NO WOMAN IS gonna say she IS racist, no normie PERSON would say this! only the top 10% of red pilled, JQ people would admit to being racist as being a GOOD thing, so dont EXPECT it out of people.

getting a woman to ADMIT that she has a PREFERENCE to NEVER date black guys, that is HUGE. might as well marry that woman.

now Dive Deeper hahaha. ask clarifying quetsions:

  1. have you EVER been with a black guy, and that’s where you’re getting that?
  2. so you’re saying you WOULD date like arabs and mexicans? what about a needle dicked little chinee man hahahalol rorororor!

in other words, most women say theyre not racist, THINK they are not racist, but they still Just Wont Date Black Guys, never have, never will, and this is fookin AWESOME.

just make sure that extends to arab guys too. i would THINK most women who disappear to dubai for a week for 50 grand to get SHIT ON, KINDA LOOK LIKE STRIPPER WHORES and NOT qt gurls next door.

there was that one female poster gafarlichtesmadchen or something like that who was pretty good and not just Good For A Woman, but an actual qualityposter. i think she was disgusted by DS’s anti-woman tone tho hahaha. sad! well i think AA is a lot like me in that he can work himself into a real anti-woman lather. i do the same thing. and then i need to tell myself, women arent really THAT bad, and THEN convince myself im not cucking or “white knighting.”

ok got some Robotussin here, i wanted something without acetominophen. i guess i could drink the whole bottle here and got Robotripping hahahaha. i mean its because i have a cough and kinda sore throat and coughing and congesting and otherwise would be taking 90000000 cough drops.

so thats a great point. you can ask the woman during your first volley of questions, do you date outside your race, and how many guys have you been with, and sometimes they will tell you flat out. im 20 years old and i have been with (fooked) 4 guys. not ideal, but better than expected!

TRIGGER WARNING HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i also like how the woman is a fat slob with a terrible shape and rolls of fat

who the hell makes something like this.

i would agree something this degenerate takes a ton of communication, but how many of these stupid women really communicate about it properly, oh the surplus of willingly cucked husbands who are like please communicate with me baybee about our cuck threesome and shes like no im just gonna fook this manly man

i wonder if she ever uses her lack of communication as part of the power thing. like fook NO im not gonna communicate with YOU you pathetic CUCK! ill just let chad fook me hard tho!

and the cuck puts up with it because hes that desperate hahahaha.

in a sick way, all of this DOES make SENSE.

but the main thing is that you get PLEASURE out of being HUMILIATED. i mean its basic masochism 101. and i cant think of anything more jooish. well actually masochism is very huhwhyte, to flagellate and sacrifice and hurt and K and self destruct yourself? while being a sadistic monster is pretty jooish. torture porn and all taht.

heh. cucked for a manlier man by a fat potato shaped slob. good job joe hahaha.

heh. if a woman is willing to do all the WORK of accomodating the Laborious Communication needed to “respectfully maintain boundaries and acknowledge humanity” in a Cuck Rel…….she should use that energy into remaining LOYAL to her ONE man.

obviously im misunderstanding something hahahaha.

no i am not at all. its not hard to understand. either you think a cuck fetish is reasonable, or you are like me and you think its

ABSOLUTELY DEGENERATE.

NO i dont think this is MOST women. this is like 5% of women at most. those that are both super degenerate and super edj00cated. readers of everydayfeminism dot com, huffbo, buzzfeed, salon, slate, joo york magazine, vice. chapo trap house hahahahahaha.

terrible leftist shitswine. they already suck a lot of dicks. the least they could do, while they are sucking so many dicks all the time, is to suck ours.

i mean all these young women are constantly FOOKING all the time having SO MUCH SECS, it means NOTHING to them, they might as WELL set aside 5 MINUTES A MONTH to give some up to an omega neet hahahahahahaha

woops im doing it again hahaha

plus im getting downright communistic about it. doling handouts to parasites.

i am wondering if Cottage Cheese might be a bit of a miracle food. of course get the richest kind you can. like 4% or 6%.

full of protein and not a ton of calories. way better tasting than shitty YOGURT. yogurt is gay af. gayer than a feminized western male hahaha.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Father_Brown_(2013_TV_series)

I am watching this TV show currently and I am struggling to find anything disgustingly jooish about it. it is a fun mystery show with a catholic priest as the main detective. based on stories by the famous catholic convert gk chesterton, who was probably a decent moral goy and didnt cuck to the joo too much. that would be disappointing.

there’s probably joos involved in this show and probably the religious aspect is toned down from the books. but the actor and the character are very likeable and the mysteries pretty gripping, decent writing, beautiful location in the english countryside. remove the urbanite hahaha.

i have seen like 14 episodes of this show and cant find anything to not recommend it. watch it to relax with your waifu. good clean fun. i dont think the actor who plays father brown is a joo.

surprisingly non pozzed for something to come out of Current Year BBC TV. damn.

honestly I can’t find anything degenerate about it. this from the guy who stopped watching tv and movies because they were too JOOISH.

i mean its not religious ENOUGH for being about a damn PRIEST but really. it is not bad at all.

sheeeeeeeeeit there is a man dressing in damn drag for like 20 minutes on episode 2 though. wtf. sad! i think there is a story reason for this though, like he is in a play. i havent been paying attention, reading daily stormer and typing about racewar and degeneracy and jooish lies and mudsharks hahahaha while waiting for a degenerate poker table to open up.

honestly ive seen at least 15 episodes and thi s is the most degen thing ive seen so far.

ok i think there is a plot element here. its a fugitive dressing as a woman in order to hide.

 

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mar 29

ok survived the day hahaha now i am reaching my crash time of 330 pm hehehe when REALLY  should be working till 5 pm if i start at 8 am. anything less is PATHETIC.

heh well you know whats MORE pathetic, is being a jobless NEET hahaha.

whats REALLY sad is 50 year old hwyte men who are jobless neets and so they sit in the library for 8 hours a day Applying For Jobs. honestly guys. it only takes 550 applications and 320 hours to Get A Job. in other words, you should stop seeing these men after 2 months because then they will have found a job. but they DONT. this is, i fear, because the jobs just arent there, also, 50 year old hwyte men are being DISCRIMINATED against hahaha

i was trying to find some leftist thing i saw today on the shitty leftist site medium.com written by a white marxist on why no, the white working class isn’t really dying off, and if it WERE, that wouldnt be so bad, would it? but i couldnt find it, and found a bunch of other shitty leftist articles instead and “threw up a little in my mouth”.

there is this popular leftist hipster brooklyn podcast called “chapo trap house” which i guess is what all the super cool leftist kids listen to now . i guess you could listen to it if you want to Know Your Enemy. well, you don’t. you already know they are pvssy wimpy unmasculine joos. wimpy white writers who say UGH. WHITE PEOPLE. and then cant bang slutty brooklyn white writer women because they are getting used as cvm dumpsters by masculine alt right chad nationalists hahahaha. that or negros hahaha.

there was an interview with one shitlib 28 year old harvard sociology phd student who does a shitlib magazine called “Current Affairs”, and he said, the thing the alt right does better than us is that they make themselves look COOL to weird outsider kids.

he’s not wrong!

hey i say thank GOD. back when I was young, the right was losing this battle, and leftist shit joos still looked COOL to rebellious teens. now the pendulum has swung the other way. im happy about that…..but nervous about when the pendulum is just gonna swing BACK again. we wont be on top forever, lads. trvmp will sell out and or only be one term. 4 short years. we’d better have a REAL movement established by then because our fooking RACE is DYING. we dont have any more time to lose.

everything you read that was written by a woman is crazy shit. don’t read stuff written by women because THE GOOD WOMEN DONT WRITE. I wish they did! they need to make themselves HEARD just to say not all women writers are like that! not all women are like women writers!

these degenerate leftist jooed journalist wimmin writing with filthy language about all the cox theyve taken and how evil trvmp is and how abortion is so great and diversity is so great and whites are so lame and virgin men are so bad. not all women are like this!!!!!!!

but the good ones don’t write articles that get hugely upvoted and shared!

you gotta really dig to find the article by a low-number woman who enjoys her traditional life!

i mean if youre reading VICE or MEDIUM  what the fook do you THINK youre gonna find.  and there are not really lots of women on the Alt Right. not that i WANT there to be. we are still figuring out womens role hahaha. well not really. stay in back and support us. give us children. dont start drama.

but maybe you can write articles, non dramatic articles, about the joys of a traditional life. that would be some good moral support and just let us know there are good women out there.

ok heres what im thinking. these WOMEN are such good voices for the marxist joo, with this horrible marxist jooish writing they do. its clear they are true believers in this crap. no one can speak marxist jooish bullshit better than a woman. they might arguably be better than MEN at it!

so do you think a women could be equally good at writing for Our Side?

I tried to think of a good female 1433 writer and couldnt. maybe savitri devi. i dunno.  i mean who is the female GLR? or the female andrew anglin for that matter? i mean i dont think we NEED one though. that isnt womens JOB. thats MENS job. i’m just basically asking women to write some moral support articles and say keep up the good fight lads, we’ll stand by you, even the betas and omegas who dont have a woman to literally stand by you.

im not even interested in other women. i’m semi interested in BANGING young beautiful women, but I’m more interested in just FORGETTING about THAT woman. because i still want HER. want her more than other women, i and i dont want that. i would love to want another woman like that. please GOD hahahaha. and just replace that woman always and forever. stop wanting her. just forget about her.

rational response: when some beautiful young gurl is being NICE to you and showing INTEREST in you, it will be REALLY EASY to FORGET about THAT woman and to get feelings for a new woman.

and yeah about the women writers, there should be a few more women writers writing moral support articles to support the men who are out there fighting. show some god damn gratitude, especially to the men who won’t get actual gratitude from an actual woman. these are still hwyte men too, and we need THEM just as much as we need women.

i guess i just want women to show more respect to Beetas and Omegas. they way they treat you like the scum of the earth, its like a healthy man treats a dirty whore. and being a Beeta simply isnt anywhere NEAR as morally deplorable as being a flthy whore. its not even necessarily inherently immoral to be a beeta male! but these women sure treat you like it sure IS!

but yeah hwyte men need to rise up and be strong and lead again. and then they will stop being beetas and women WILL show them gratitude and loyalty. but we have to SHOW STRENGTH first. strong horse. nobody likes a weak horse.

and i have certainly failed COMPLETELY at being a STRONG man. and yeah that is frustrating.

so yeah i would say maybe some YOUNG leftists and joos cant be held liable for literally wanting to genocide the white race. because most leftists are NAIVE and dont think its about hwyte genocide, its about making a Equal World where we can all live in Social Justice. We’re not trying to EXTERMINATE HWYTE people! you sound like a crazy person when you say that!

in fact maybe just a MINORITY of jooish leftists are NOT naive and ACTUALLY realize its about hwyte genocide.

so you dont charge them with genocide or first degree mvrder, you charge them with manslaughter and sentence them to getting the fook out of our country.

didnt mean to K hwytes? oh well, youre still K’ing whytes and now you must do the time.

and here i am, i dont even want women hahahaha, i just want one particular woman i havent seen or spoken to in almost 2 years hahahah. get over it!

actually even more i wish i had a work ethic like most normies. to work 20 hours a day for years just for a CHANCE at a 30k a year job.

hint: get a engin degree and you will have an easy time getting a 30k job. electrical, mechanical, chemical. you even get a CHOICE hahaha.

and you can totally do it by age 20 or maybe even 19. this is what we need to sell to young white boys. like, younger than 14. because we want them to start COLLEGE at age 14. have the engin degree at age 18. start making 40 grand at 18. be making 80 grand by 30. damn. establish 49 employee companies and hire only whyte men. by acreage in rural areas. have the wives do a hwyte homeschool network.

shit could do homeschool college as well. shits all online anyway.

but i do think a 16 year old boy taking brick and mortal college classes with 19 year old sluts is perfect.

well, perfect is getting married to your High School Age Sweetheart. the next best thing is being a “fun project” for a 19 or 20 year old slut when you are 16.

but where you gonna meet them in engin classes, also if gurls arent going to college and becoming sluts in the first place.

easy, you meet them through their fathers when they see you as a promising young man making good money at age 18 who is looking for a nice 17 year old gurl.

i am very interested in education, but i just want to throw the whole jooed system out and start over. is there a masters degree in THAT? are there jobs in THAT? in destroying the system and starting anew? hahahaha.

well DISRUPTION is a big thing in companies now hahahahaha.

DISRUPT THE JOO.

START UP THE ROTORS.

FIRE UP THE OVENS.

you will know them by their handiwork.

funny that we goys see only their wreckage but never them themselves. so you come to hate women and hate negros and hate nonwhites when really none of them deserve your hate. father forgive them for they know not what they do hahahaha.

well, def the women dont. and the negros. pretty sure the arabs know what they are doing.

so youre saying an arab is smarter than a white woman?

NO, i’m saying that all women are easily cowed and swayed. they are natural followers.

unfort i am a natural follower as well, never was big on leading.

really i dont want to go through the STRUGGLE of MEETING somebody, getting to KNOW someone, putting in the two years to actually get to know and trust them, it takes a long time, and i already had that FAMILIARITY and TRUST and KNOWLEDGE with That Woman.

but heres the thing. me Getting To Know her didnt feel like a goddamn STRUGGLE. it happened so NATURALLY. there was no effort or heavy lifting or forcing.

and that probably contributed to me falling in luv, feeling like this was a SIGN from GOD, that she was the ONE, because i expected so much STRUGGLING getting to know a woman, as I do now, and that didnt happen at ALL. the struggling came later, in trying to deal with The End. basically just trying to confirm that i was not a horrible traitor who had done a horribly immoral thing. i had to do all those mental gymnastics myself hahahaha.

hey i admit it i was no innocent. i deserve to be ashamed for some of it, and god damn was i ever. i was a coward weakling. it LOOKED bad. and the timing was bad. i KNEW she was having some family issues and was pretty stressed about that. in the long run that is what i will feel worst about. but i will get over it hahahaha. the fact that i “waited” until she was facing something outside of her control in her family, to “spring” this on her, when she was already super stressed out about that.

but again i dont think this is betrayal or treason or warranted treating me as such.

and it was no single joo who turned her father into a muh dick hwyte negro deadbeat, but through the partially-covert actions of many joos and many accomplice goys who didnt fully realize the type of degen fatherless muh dick culture they were creating.

does anyone GO INTO education with the idea that, welp, i can’t DO, so I might as well TEACH? I think most teachers would violent protest that old Pejorative saying “if you can’t do, teach.” but i would GO INTO teaching with that defeatist attitude hahaha.

also theres a popular idea that you need ot fail to succeed. well not if you fail so god damn much that you stop wanting to TRY, or your attempts become so half-baked and half-assed that they couldn’t possibly succeed.

also i wish you could fail in the workplace more. but you cant, or then you get fired for losing the company money. thats why people are perfectionists who are afraid of failure!

maybe my dream job would be working in a Dual Enrollment program at a comm college. so i could get 14 year olds into college and not a thoroghly jooed one. def would need a masters degree for this job though. and there are damn sure not a LOT of jobs in this field hahaha.  there would be FIERCE competition amongst a group of people with masters degree in Dual Enrollment College Administration.

ideally it would be in a more rural area so as to maximize the number of Hwytes i would serve and minimize the number of nonhwytes. i dont want to HURT any nonhwytes, I just want to HELP hwytes MORE. serve and strengthen my race.

i wouldnt have to worry about any J’s because they simply dont go to these working class colleges. period.

would i h8 joos less if i knew any working class joos? if I thought there WERE any working class joos? but there ARE! though def not the norm for them. those people hahahahaha.

no more than 25% of joos are working class. and that is a VERY generous number hahahaha. prob closer to 5%. source needed hahaaha.

insanely cute and nice 18 year old hwyte girl working at local arbys hahaha. seems like a literally nice sweet uncorrupted unjooed gurl. also is 100% undeniably hwyte. nothing questionable at all in this one. if i were hanging out wiht her and she was being NICE to me AND showing that she would be interested in Monog Dating…..i would forget That Woman ever existed!!!!!

but honestly this gulr is way out of my league. when i was 20 i might have judged her for working at ARBYS hahaha. now i dont care.  i say good for her. as long as she doesnt use it as a slippery slope to degeneracy or opioid epidemic or mudsharking. if she has a good father all will be fine.

because of her nice and innocent demeanor i would assume she does has a good father. but i shouldnt do that. because That Woman had a nice and innocent demeanor, not even demeanor, she was actually nice and innocent but she had a horrible father!

anyway, i prefer nice, innocent women to bitchy, slutty women hahahaha. what a concept.

but yeah. i do hate the idea that SHE WAS TOUGHER THAN ME. she, who i held in such high regard, outcompeting me on TOUGHNESS, a quality i hold in the highest regard.

yeah but if she was REALLY actually tougher than me, she would have just told me, sorry, we’re done, you’re not a BAD GUY and i dont hate you, but I just dont feel that way, the end. we had a good run while it lasted. then i prob would have had months less of pain hahaha. had a better experience. wouldnt be so butthurt about her being TOUGHER than me.

language is powerful hahaha. lets stop calling it the jooish QUESTION and start calling it the jooish PROBLEM. daily stormer does this hahaha. so did GLR.

by page 80 in “whyte power” GLR names the J and he doesnt stop naming them after that point hahaha.

its FUNNY how the pro legalization MJ degenerates which i probably am, seem to think that MJ does not affect your driving AT ALL. they completely dismiss that out of hand the way people dismiss nazis. this is disingenuous, bad faith, and jooish af. how can you say alcohol impairs your driving but gettig blazed af doesn’t??????!!!!!!

i just want to get blazed as fook! i’ll even try not to drive hahahaha.

yeah i dont think it damages your driving ability as much as alcohol. but to say it has no effect is ridiculous. you might as well do away with dui laws hahahaha. which i might not be against hahahaha. but without dui laws i might start drinking again after like 8 years. i actually probably would.

so that proves these laws are GOOD?

i mean its terrible drunk drivers K people.

so HOW terrible is it when people have 3 drinks and then drive?

yeah but i wasnt having 3 drinks and driving. what i was doing WAS terrible, law or not.

but it is stupid you can pass out drunk in the drivers SEAT of the car and get a DUI. i actually did that once hahahaha. slept it off in the front seat. didnt have the keys in. is that a critical thing?

anyway i fully admit to drinking too much. having a medium Drinking Problem. I did it and i am not proud of it!

mar 30

found this chrome extension called onetab which sends all your tabs to one single tab which contains a list of links. the idea is so they are not running and eating up your memory with 31 tabs of jooish pron hahahaha.

really simple concept. basically have a list of your most frequently used links and then click on them to load the page rather than have them open all the time. but i like anything that can Reduce Muh Memory Footprint hahaha. OneTab. you can easily add and remove links. not add duplicate links. its basically like history or bookmarks but your top 20 pages.

and then just open like 3 or 4 tabs at a time rather than 14 hahahaha.

its EMBARASSING  I havent used this or a similar app before (there are several to choose from, i only picked onetab because it had a lot of ratings) but the chrome extention “store” is hard to browse like a power user. cant get a good buy in very well. it doesnt share out very well hahahahahaha.  cant really deep dive into there and share it out. hard to get a good buy in.

https://www.one-tab.com

try it out nd make your comp 95 times faster hahaha

i would dnate a dollar to them if they were hwyte, but they dont even beg for dnations! so they MUST be hwyte hahaha.

if you do something useful, valuable, or important, you SHOULD get paid joobux for it.

everybody likes johnny cash but we could all stand to be more familiar with the song that gave him his name:

listen to something other than ring of fire, boy named sue or hurt hahaha.

when i was a young man i played the song at a party, hope it didnt sound too shitty because i was drunk af. it certainly didnt help me get any action hahaha. but its weird. its a very SOCIAL JUSTICE, MARXIST sort of message, but I still think its a good, meaningful, sincere song. i felt it spoke to me, and also explained my own penchant for the Gloomy which i had somewhat a reputation for, hahahaha, and often wore Black, prob still do.

and i do generally agree with the social justice message of the song, that some people just get a raw deal, get shat on, and dont deserve it, and we should have sympathy for them and try to help those less fortunate.

wish i had played the song well enough to get some makeout action though hahahaha. i probably could have, but i had oneitis on some dame who wasnt the least interested hahaha. she was an ok person but i should have just avoided her. that was impossible though, i saw her EVERY DAY without even TRYING and she hung out with my friends. SAVAGE.wav.

i should have immediately gone to the shrink, changed muh major to engin, stopped drinking cold turkey, saw the shrink 2 times a week, got a nice suit, and gone to the career center every day trying to get a 28k entry level engin job. but noooooooooo.

my weekend has begun hahaha. some MJ would be ideal. instead i ate a big dinner, too many calories, and had 1 benedryl, and now 1 valium, plan on 1 more valium, and 1 more ebendryl. try not to drink too much coffee to NULLIFY it.

damn this onetab is GREAT. why didnt i do this YEARS ago. if there are 2 things i am obsessed with……..hahahaha its joos and women hahahaha. i mean tabbed browsing and Memory Usage.

i thought of doing a black metal album with great songs and great lyrics that were pretty much very fashy, alt right, VVN, 14ee, not degenerate, not morally subversive but morally upright, and very JQ  JP aware, but i would not name the j00 until the very last word of the lyrics for the album, but make sly references throughout. but wouldnt be able to be accused of being anti-semitic until that last line of lyrics was brought up because it actually use the word Joo for the first and last time to unambiguously name what i was talking about.

but i cant write good lyrics and I sure as hell cant write good music!

well thats false. i’ve written both before! just not a lot. esp in comparison with the bad and shitty and worse than mediocre!

just an idea, had no intention of actually doing it myself haha.

heh took bendryl #2 a little early. just gonna skip valium #2 and replaced it with a Benedryl. will take Benedryl #3 right before bed.

this is better than drinking. it is technically better than MJ too…..but i dont really believe that because i desperately yearn for MJ.

old GLR sneakily avoided naming the J for the first 80 pages…..i think i just said this yesterday. anyway point is, he is going fullblast on them now, thats for sure. nicely describes them as parasites and tapeworms.

heh. those son of a btiches kicked me off the TRS discord because i didnt go through the formal extreme vetting process there hahahahahaha. not that i ever used it! but discord is a potentially good chat/meeting/voice system.  might be a good way for me to Actually Socialize with people. i guess i already do that at my job, by getting better at being friendly and talking to the people there.

i guess like once a month i feel like being social hahahaha and not a total loner weirdo. the rest of the time i just want to be alone doing MJ. it was different with that woman. i liked spending time with her. it gave some hard competition to being a loner haha. made me want to reconsider that path hahaha. now i am just mainly content being a loner again. not even terribly LONELY. when i was 20, 21, etc, back then i got a lot more LONELY at the thought of being/becoming a loner. now it doesnt bother me nearly as much.

but i still might like to be somewhat less of a loner. hang out with friends a LITTLE more, and DEFINITELY have a special waifu woman. i think its much better to have a special person like that, than to not. yuge value add there.  makes life without seem very bland and boring and disappointing by comparison.

14BB hehehehe 14ee which one looks better

i might have to go back and relisten to david dukes my awakening. i listened to a lot of the audio book a few years ago and really enjoyed it. would totally recommend it. learned a lot. first learned about the evil degenerate talmud hehehe.

you can probably find a pdf or txt file on the internet hehe but its really much better just to read an actual paper book.

so whats worse? MJ prohibition, or MJ being legalized in a way where there are really really really jooish laws and taxes and regulations where people are still strongly attracted by the Black Market because the Legal Market is such a Shitty Deal? or you can go to jail for using too much hahahaha.

i mean im still wondering about the DRINKING laws. i mean yeah SHOULDNT there be laws against drunk driving, and public drunkenness, Open Intox, Open Container laws, disorderly conduct, etc.

so shouldnt legal MJ similar have a bunch of stupid strict laws? or is it better to have it be Criminalized? i dont see how i could POSSIBLY be BETTER. and its much more likely to be legalized if you can give govt and jooz a way to PROFIT off it.

i mean it doesnt take a super crafty joo to see that a lot of MONEY can be made here. follow the money. so why dont they do it? because it takes THAT long for govt and legislation to MOVE?

but the SCOTUS made gay marriage legal OVERNIGHT. couldnt they make MJ legal overnight? not that they SHOULD, but COULDNT they, and if jooz run everything, why dont they want MJ to be legal? what is the thinking here. so this proves joos dont run the US. because MJ isnt legal NOW. hahahaha.

yeah but they make money off it being illegal too.  i guess the jooish business analysts ahve crunched the numbers and determined they make more money off it being illegal than it being legal. and all the degen potheads say look at colorado making a whopping 5 million dollars a year for EDUCATION oooo this is doing SO MUCH GOOD.

of course as a born again fascist, im not so sure legalizing drugs or even just MJ is a good idea after all!

and i fully admit its for my own selfish degeneracy. it would certainly be bad for society as a whole.

besides, how many HWYTE people are going to PRISON for MJ? not a lot.  i bet even fewer blacks are going to prison for MJ. LEO probably want to bust dealers of harder drugs and just dont care about softer drugs so much.

so who do the crooked cops sell the seized drugs to? back to the mexican cartels? probably hahahaha.

how much of seized drugs are illegally sold by crooked cops? 50% of the drugs? i cant believe cops are THAT crooked hhaha. i mean i thought the drugs were SUPPOSED to be DESTROYED.

i just cant go to my local police dept and be like ay bros want to sell me some drugs?

i would be MUCH better off going to random shady negros in the shady negro area of town.

i mean i would pay a shady arab doctor extra money to give me a Non Extremely Vetted recommendation for an MMJ card. you pay extra money so they can be extra shady and say here you go, here’s a MMJ card for your insomnia and anxiety hahahahaha and i will just check chronic pain on the state application. i mean i would pay much higher than the going rate for that extra shadiness. like dirty sluts willing to suck off the doctor for more opioid pills. i wouldnt suck anybody off ever though hahaha.

mar 31

have been overeating a lot without even trying lately. so, prob will gain a few pounds. not a huge deal, but obv want to keep eye on it. friday in lent is perfect time to try a Fast hahahaha. cut cals. drinking warm coffee with butter. this is acceptable hehehe.

you could just use a folder of bookmarks in chrome to do the same thing as this onetab extension.

trying something a little diff with muh day off. instead of shooting right off to errands, i am immed doing laundry right now. will do the errands when they are either drying or out of the dryer. almost abotu to put in dryer nao.

10:55 of sleep last nite compared to the usual 7 hahaha. this is how i bring the average up to 8:30 hehehehe.

ok put stuff into dryer. havent left yet obv. just sitting here drinking butter hahaha that i wish had MJ in it!

nobody ever told me that every conversation, every PART of a conversation, every INTERACTION, every word you say, is a COMPETITION or a STRUGGLE, where if YOU don’t say something INTERESTING, or FUNNY, or VALUABLE, or USEFUL to them, or PLEASING to them, then they think you are an IDIOT or an ASSHOLE or a WEAKLING or a JOO.  or a terrible person. a child molester or a traitor or a betrayer.

my least fav are being thought of as an IDIOT, or INCOMPETENT, or a Bad Person. A Morally Weak Coward or Liar or Joo. or an Inferior MAN –  an omega male. a Bootlicker who could only pull an Inferior Woman – if any woman at all.

it doesnt matter what other people think of you……but yes it does when you are trying to impress employers, colleagues, bosses, clients, women, friends! of COURSE you care about how they perceive you!!!!!! perception is reality hahahaha.

left another encouraging comment on a new george feels video just now. good for me hahahaha but also good for HIM. he is pushing in a  good direction and i want to encourage that and see more of it.

also i think he might be sympathetic to 14BB but not want to come out and say it. which is understandable. so i want to signal to him that yep this is a good way to be bro but im not such a loose cannon that i would ever blow your cover. like come on your channel saying HH, 1433, defoo the joo etc. cuz he puts his real face out there for the whole world to see. this is pretty much totally incompatible with espousing pro-hwite views.

ok finished laundry, out of dryer. even put clothes away. so, absoutely time to go do the errands. 1240pm.

i got to thinking, all of “mental illness” is inherently jooish. and jooish are inherently mentally ill!!!!!! mental illness is the Mental Joo, basically a mindvirus mindparasite burrowing into your mind and destroying it from within. whether its derpression or anxiety, or something more serious hehehe. so yeah im not saying its not real. it’s real as fook just as these destructive parasites are real!

my bold claim is to view your own “mental illness” as a little parasite JOO that is very literally trying to personally destroy YOU and your mind and your life, and its up to you and your trusted ones to grip it and rip it out forcefully and finally!!!!!

you dont want a little hand rubbing merchant in your mind, do you!!!!?????!!?????

George’s video on JUNG is very timely, seems like a SIgn from PROVIDENCE to me!

did some quick googling on this essay only to find its very controversial hahahahaha. ie joos used it to say jung was a nazi and supported AH. shit i hope he DID! all the more reason for me to read and luv JUNG!

and all the more reason to read the essay and all the more reason to be glad that george is looking at it. probably him dogwhistling again, and i fully appreciate it, and again, im not gonna blow his cover. but the neet virgin liberatardians arent calling him a natzee yet and i dont want to clue them in. but george doesnt need these people on his side anyway. but he doesnt need people calling him a natzee right now, or ever, so i’m not gonna help them do it. as i say, his Real Life Face is Doxed, so he doesn’t need anything BAD tied to that.  so i want to be real careful with what i say to him publicly. i mean i can email him for private talks. not that i would do that more than once every 2 months hahahaha.

tired of honey nut cheerios, switching over to peanut butter crunch hahahaha. yes i know cereal is terrible. well its not as bad as pizza or ice cream or cookies or pie hehe.

http://www.philosopher.eu/others-writings/essay-on-wotan-w-nietzsche-c-g-jung/

theres the actual jung essay full text, and not a damn dissertation on why it is a nazi thing. looks like kerry bolton wrote a good thing on counter currents. which, of course, are nazis hahahahahahahahahaha. no im kidding. dr greg is a good guy and he wrote me a nice thank you note for my insultingly small donation to CC.

anyway that full essay, not sure about that translation, and DEF the formatting is fooked, with words being joined together and such. proofread that shit!

i guess david lane started his wotanism based on that essay. Will Of The 4y4an People was what he said WOTAN stands for hahahaha. no complaints here. Lane was the creator of the 14W after all! great guy! should get HIS books!

https://archive.org/details/TheJewishStrategy

by Revilo P. Oliver. I should read this hehehehe

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/brad-pitt-losing-weight-and-his-mind-after-whore-wife-ruins-his-life/95662

i am now courageous enough to return to the bbs after i made a post about a week ago, then afraid to see if people had responded to me. i havent read the thread, but i think a few people upvoted me!

but yeah AA shares muh butthurt over women at the risk of being called MGTOWish. no we are not MGTOWs, but god damn are women SO jooed that is is DISGUSTING. you cant be blamed for hating them a little bit, even when you KNOW its the j’s who made them this way. you wish they could resist the J even just a LITTLE bit and not be completely horrible people hahahaha.

http://archive.is/PfIWU

archive of Andrew’s article hehehe

QUOTE

This narrative of “you aren’t good enough for women” being reinforced by men is absolute poison. Our race is only going to continue to exist if we fix gender relations, and so anyone who promotes this type of a narrative is a traitor to the race. Anyone who sides with feminism in any way is helping to destroy our race.
So please, don’t allow this to continue.

Do not be ashamed.

If somebody claims that someone else is having trouble with women because he’s not a good enough man, call him out for supporting the feminist agenda against white men.

Nevermind the Sluts – Talk to Your Brothers and Never, Ever, Ever Man-Shame

The other big, BIG issue: don’t feel like you have to pretend you’re not having any problems with women.

Everyone is having problems with women, but we have a cultural climate where it is like saying “I HAVE A TINY DICK” to talk about it.

In fact, many men will engage in the above mentioned “man-shaming” of other white males. This is absolutely disgusting, and it is inexcusable.

It only helps the sluts.   ” END

NEVER EVER EVER EVER MAN-SHAME.

AND NEVER EVER EVER EVER BE AFRAID TO SAVAGELY SLUT-SHAME.

THANK YOU ANDREW!!!!!

i wonder if his qt hwyte gf left him and now he is sad and angry.

well, he SHOULD be sad and angry, and that only makes what he writes here even MORE correct!!!!!

read this article 10 times every day and give him your money hahahaha.

women are just 16 year old gurls, of COURSE they are gonna dump you and BLAME YOU for it!

trying to red pill your woman is like trying to red pill your DOG (or cat.) don’t try to get the dog to understand. just be a strong leader and your dog will follow you in your fight against the J’s. don’t expect them to understand. THE TYRANNY OF HIGH EXPECTATIONS hahahahaha

so really by acting like a 14 year old gurl and blaming me, That Woman acted exactly like how you’d expect a woman to act. i was naive and didnt know how to handle it. oh well. at least now i think i learned a valuable lesson about women. always be dominant. never expect more responsibility or maturity or wisdom out of them than you’d expect out of a 14 year old gurl IT’S JUST THE WAY THEY ARE.

some men would say slapping a woman in the face is every effective, i dunno, i don’t think i would ever be comfortable with that. i do think SPANKING them would be VERY effective and I would LOVE the cahnce to test that hypothesis. i mean slapping them in the face just seems TOO savage, too nonwhite. hwyte men don’t NEED to slap their woman in the FACE.

shit, negros and semites will brutally PUNCH their women in the face and bludgeon their skulls with blunt objects!

i absolutely showed no dominance whatsoever. i mean i was at a low point hahaha.

it just also really bothers me that i have to COMPETE with these 14 year old gurls for JOBS, and they get masters degree and outperform me in the workplace, sometimes doing honestly tough jobs, and being TOUGHER than me. 14 year old gurls arent TOUGH and dont WORK very hard!!!!!

anyway. i just esp like it when AA writes about women. his haters say he is a woman hater. i say he’s prob just been hurt by too many jooified, degenerate women, just like many of us. i might SPECULATE that he has had a recent drama with a woman that has left him extra hurt! which is FINE! it happens to us all, and these struggles and heartbreak build TREMENDOUS character in a man!

come on. do you know how many WOMEN are MAN haters? most of them!

but yeah i especially like when AA says never ever ever shame any man for being beta or whatever.

ol uncle varg borders on doing this. well you’re just not MAN enough to DESERVE a woman.

i will always luv uncle varg, but I am closer to AA’s POV here. like god damn, these women really ARE garbage, and we have to stand in solidarity with our white Brothers. BROES BEFORE HOES!!!!!!!!

oh youre just mad about not Getting Any.

Well, YES! a little bit. part of that is my fault sure, but a big part is WOMEN being huge sluts! or Slags, as the brits call them.

slores, sluts, slags, skanks.

i will white-knight on occasion. i just dont want to do it too much. and i never want to manshame unless the man is really actually doing something jooish or negrish or sinful or bad or bad faith and not just being a white knight niceguy lickspittle woman-loving beta. dont SHAME him for being INNOCENT.

i bet he did just get dumped hahaha. well i would be there for AA if he needed a manfrand hahahaha. i am concerned that he doesnt do enough real life socializing.  i thought he was back in the US. he could totally find decent men to hang out with, he just has to get out there. like there are TRS and DS goys even in my area and if I tried, I could probably meet up with them. but i would worry about being rejected for being a loser. or that the person would be a tattooed felon type.

so….youre makign fun of me for being an idiot for betting when i had the nut flush? why is it dumb to bet when you have the nuts and are guaranteed to win???? are you supposed to call and hope the other guy bets? how the fook was it dumb of me to bet????? youre SURPRISED that I “ACTUALLY” Bet with the nuts? am I not understanding something here?

is it stupid to bet on QUADS too? am i supposed to slowplay these all the time? heh i have been playing poker very recreationally for like 5 years and it looks like i havent learned a god damn thing about actual strategy. feels bad man.

maybe the guy was just bantzing me. everyone likes to shoot their mouth off about how they are the smartest poker expert ever.

i am playing at a higher stakes table than i like because nobody is in the lower stakes one.

i mean i dont get nut flush very often. about as often as full house or quads ahhahahahahaa. but i do get quads more often than i thought i ever would.

anyway i hope anglin is hanging out wth people rather than just sitting alone doing daily stormer stuff. a person needs to be a little social and have some friends to do real life stuff with. says ME hahahaha. if he had a GF and she was his only real life person and she dumped him, that could be extra devastating. just speculating.

you could say its stupid to get into the cult of personality but i think it’s actually natural and healthy. you read anglin’s stuff for years, you start to feel more attached to him, like you sort of KNOW him, and that they are KIND of your buddy in that you sympathize with them, want the best for them, sometimes donate money to them, and wouldnt’ mind hanging out with them sometime. doesn’t mean you stalk them. but you do kinda wonder about their life story. their family and friends and them growing up. and enough of anglins story is out there to put together something of a picture.

he says he gets along with with his parents, so that is good.

he is very tight lipped about where he is living now, and i cant blame him, because jooz have been protesting outside his father’s office lately. jooz have called and confronted both his mother and his father. disgraceful.

i know he’s not REALLY my buddy, but i have the greatest respect for him and want the best for him. and that includes being happy in his social life and luv life. i dont want him to be a friendless foreveralone! I guess you could say I CARE about him!

but yeah i dont have any sick fantasies or delusions that he is my buddy or anything.

i just think that when a person puts themself out there like that, they can’t blame other people for getting a little bit attached to them. like mike enoch saying you dont know me, you’re not my buddy, i’m just a guy with a microphone, i’m not a leader. when you start to get FANS and people listening to your content regularly, then yeah to me thats a kind of social contract. you are SOMEWHAT responsible to your fans. i mean, you WANTED people to LISTEN to you, right? you cant just shit on your audience.

not that mike REALLY did that. well, he sorta said some of those things haha.

shit im not even sure what anglin’s position is on all this. maybe he would try to WEASEL about being “held to a higher standard just because i am the creator of daily stormer.”

heh. just saying if I were the creator of the daily stormer, i’d kinda EXPECT to be held to a higher standard than some autist troll in the comments!!!

 

 

 

sun nov 12

mar 27

yep here at 652 am, all dressed up, showered, ready to go, prob have one more explosive BM in 10 minutes, then go and have productive, powerful, valuable, value-adding, value-making day hahahaha.

hmm 7:15 of sleep last night, not great hahahahaha. see how the best laid plans go awry. went to bed at 8pm. numbers are point to near 9 hours of sleep needed. ok fine. deal with it.jpg. really SHOULD go to bed at 7:15 pm then but that would just look too weird.

checked email, calendar, before going to job here.

the story of the student who spent 12 hours working a 12 hour midnight shift in a machine shop then feel asleep the next morning because he was going to COLLEGE in the am and working 12 hours during the night. holy shit. i can barely work 6 hours of an easy job then do ANYthing afterwards, let alone go to a 3 hour college class in the morning hahahaha.

and i actually had a little energy today! not sure where that came from hahaha since i “only” got 7:15 of sleep last night.

normal people work 12 hour shifts at night from…. 8pm to 8am, making 10 dollars an hour, so they can take a class from 9am to 1pm that gets them 1% closer to becoming qualified to compete for 14 dollar an hour jobs hahahaha.

its amazing. i never knew that normies worked so HARD. i figured that the normal normie was LAZY like me. most people go for the path of LEAST RESISTANCE, right? its why so many people are so GROTESQUELY OBESE. because fatty food is cheap and unlimited, and people cant CONTROL THEMSELVES. so how can they control themselves to become damn WORKAHOLICS? but they cant control themselves not to become GROTESQUELY obese? something just doesnt make sense here!!!!!

ok maybe they save all their self control for work, so they dont have any left when it comes to eating. that MUST be how it works.

well then how come they arent PROFLIGATE drinkers or opioid poppers either?

because THE RULE IS, you have enough self control to keep you from being hopelessly addicting from All Things But ONE. Pick One. every person has ONE tragic flaw. not two, but one and only one hahahahaha.

sooo……..how come plenty of other people are opioid poppers AND huge losers who can’t work? thats TWO tragic flaws hahahahaha.

basically in order to be a normie successful adult so you can have an ok wife and take care of your children and make 30k a year, you have to be willing to work 12 hour midnight shifts and THEN go to SKOOL afterwards for YEARS until you get your degree and can then afford to have a wife and a family. if you’re not willing to work that HARD for that LONG, you dont deserve a family of your own hahahahahahahaha.

well whats WRONG with that?

well, other than that is my RULE for Why I can never get married and have children!

what else….

oh well i just never wanted to be a WORKAHOLIC, so that’s why im a huge loser now. all those drug bums sucking dick on the streets, the only reason they’re like that is not because they werent willing to WORK, but because they werent willing to be WORKAHOLICS.

i only want to work 40 hours a week and not an hour more, that is why i’m a HUGE LOSER AT LIFE. see, something doesnt add up hahahaha.

just remember. the qt nice perfect gurl you want to buy FLOWERS for, is just some more manly guys DIRTY BUTTSLUT. taking it up the ass from guys she just met at COLLEGE in a drunken orgy. and you want to be all nice and pedestally and white knight to THAT? a dirty BUTT SLUT??!?!?!!

oh but she’s special TO ME. yeah well to other men she is just a dirty butt slut literally taking it up the ass. you can’t undo that.

heh sorry i am watching a law and order SVU about College Raep Epidemic of innocent gurls getting GangReaped at Frat Parties by evil hwyte boys.

the hunting ground.mov

college sluts who get gang reaped then go to psych ward for 2 years end up becoming more successful in life than me hahahahaha. get out of the psych ward, go back to skool, get masters degree as a raep crisis counselor, MA.

oh god i really am horrible. no i dont think any gurl deserves to get raeped, even the ones who are literally asking for it. white men dont raep women ever, period, not even the dirtiest trashiest fatherless butt sluts.

you know what kind of men DO raep women? negros. joos. arabs. any hwyte man who raeps a woman is basically a race traitor.

goddamn. ate too much at dinner again.

also saw at least one beautiful hwyte young college gurl today, wearing jeans that I as her father would not let her wear. why do they have to wear pants that are SO TIGHT? i know we are not ARABS who need our women in BURKA DURKAS, but my god, I thought MODESTY was a hwyte virtue!

how about a nice long skirt? how about pants that DONT perfectly cling to your buttocks, legs, thighs, hips like a Second Skin???!?!?!?!!?! damn!

i just hate the thought of women i Luved going off and being dirty butt sluts. A woman should NEVER, EVER be a dirty butt slut, EVER. its not just some PHASE you go through when you are 18 to 21. NO. NEVER. EVER. EVER.

well its hard to believe i even GOT feelings for her (not really). i mean these “all women are dirty sluts” thoughts are nothing new for me, i’ve been thinking this way since i was like 13 hahahahahahahaha.

but the reason its not surprising i feel in luv with her was, she was YOUNG, she was HWYTE, she didnt have any KIDS, she was very NICE to me, and we were FRIENDS and built up some closeness, we KNEW each other.  also she was a Solid 7, Not Potatoey, Long Legs, very whyte skin, there were no real dealbreakers about her physically. like being a stumpy potato or nonwhyte or old or blatantly Haggishly Fugly is really it for me.

anyway this is dead horse shit. not even interesting.

well bitcoin coming back up again thank GOD.

i felt pretty good until I came home, THEN i felt like a lazy bum who didnt want to be a workaholic to survive. when i am Working On The Clock, i feel a LITTLE bit more normie. well unless I think, this doesnt COUNT, this is not a proper normie bigboy job. then yeah that  thought sucks too.

i guess ALL of it is technically WAY better than being a 100% jobless neet.

great TITS on that marishka hargitay, even if she is a manfaced lanternjaw manjaw. would totally bang.

and i dont mean to minimize the rest of her body by saying she has GREAT TITS. im sure she probably has a BRETTY GOOD ass as well!!!!

hehehe. this is what the LORD has destined for me, to be constantly AT WAR with women. yeah MOST of that is ON ME, i fully admit it……but SOME of it is on them. they dont HAVE to be so horrible. yeah its all da jooz fault. but god damn. cant they RESIST the jooing even a TINY bit? no! they LUV it! they LUV being negro whores!!!!!

not all women! some women, it DOES bother them on some deep level, and they say, there must be more to life than this. than being chad, tyrone, and achmed’s dirty butt slut on instagram and tinder.

even the women i knew in COLLEGE to be HUGE SLUTS werent as big of sluts as the Fictional Slut in my MIND, this horrible fantasy nightmare of the sluttiest slut who ever existed (but who really NEVER existed.) sure, plenty of women are slutty and gross, but not THIS slutty and gross.

if i could Literally make a CAREER out of slut shaming I would. I would WILLINGLY, EAGERLY get a MASTERS DEGREE in it.

What would YOU get a masters degree in?

well ok that one doesnt exist. what are my safety nets.

Joo Exposing. Eradicating Jooish Degeneracy.

nope sorry that one doesnt exist either.

becoming and UNbecoming a Neet Loser. i guess that one might exist, as a counselor, therapist, psychologist, social worker, shrink.

so THATS what I should become then? a SOCIAL WORKER??????? a COUNSELOR?

oh yeah. marriage and relationship counselor. that would also be good hahaha. man woman relshits i mean ships.

from a very unpozzed, hwyte, nonjooish perspective.

but all education/training/research in this fields is HEAVILY jooed, as is basically anything thats not a hard stem science. you literally CANNOT ESCAPE it if you want to get the degree and work in the field.

and plenty of people leave the field and become Customer Service Agents because that pays better and they have mouths to feed.

which you can totally do without a Masters Degree, even in Current Year.

Can’t say that will ALWAYS be the case though.

WHAT A WORLD that would be. in 2027, you wont even be able to get a job in a Customer Service Call Center unless you have a MASTERS DEGREE in Customer Service. HOLY FOOK.

oh sorry. you have a masters degree in customer service but not a masters degree in customer service in a phone call center, looks like YOUR masters degree was in face to face customer service.

right major, but wrong CONCENTRATION hahahaha.

shit think i drank too much coffee today. might not be able to sleep tonight even though i plan on going to bed at decent hour. damn.

you know who doesnt think every woman is a degenerate slut?

chad normies who have been with 1 woman every 2 years since age 18 who are average hard workers who get average bachelors degrees in business related stuff and average 35k a year jobs at age 22, get married by 28, have a kid by 30. raise their kids to not be racist like the terrible older generations. cant take the kids around their racist great-grandparents. smh. those uneducated racists just lived in different times and didnt know any better.

well can you prove to me it ISNT White Systemic Racism that causes all the social problems of The Blacks? you cant! just like YOU cant prove that its all because of their Race!

ok. so its impossible to prove a negative. you cant prove that this ISNT the case. so youre right. I CANT prove it ISNT whtie racism. you cant prove it isnt jooish racism hahahaha. i CAN prove it IS jooish racism! you cant prove it IS hwyte racism!

i clearly need to get back to muh GLR, i am going Nutty.

im just jelly of normie adults. i just want to BE one but its so god damn hard. such a god damn struggle. they WORKED harder than I did, but I think I STRUGGLED MORE than THEM.

too bad the Struggle wasn’t worth more WORK. hahahaha. then i would be making like 35k a year and married a nonslut.

thats the problem with struggling. its even more exhausting than work, but COUNTS for much LESS.  it gets you NOWHERE, AND it wears you out and makes you less likely to do the work that IS actually worth something.

damn.

sheeeeeeit. again ate wayyyyy too much today. god damn. really got to stop this.

so i thought that my interest in race was a part of my “dad phase”, where i wanted to have children but wasn’t man enough, so i will have children symbolically through My Race.

but then today i thought, well its more than just Having Children, it’s Relating To Women as well. the natural connection between men and women, which then leads to children. I dont have children but kinda want children, so i project that onto Race. I don’t have a waifu but I want a (hwyte) waifu….so I project that onto Race as well. these are both pretty big desires, so thus I am a HUGGGGGGGEEEEEEEEEE racist. Which I proudly AM. I FOOKING LUV BEING HWYTE.

i mean its only logical. really our race is just a product of thousands of years of hwyte men and hwyte women getting together and having hwyte children!!!!!!! that is Race 101 right there!

ok. so i am obsessed with My Hwyte Race because I am obsessed with Women, with Children, with my own sense of Failure and needing something to cling to. SO WHAT. the only one that’s kinda BAD is that third one.

so….you’re saying if i HAD a woman, I wouldn’t CARE about RACE so much??!?!?!

who the fook am I arguing with here hahahahahaha. i mean this isnt even really fun, its just boring.

when i was in luv with that woman, i didn’t suddenly throw muh race under the bus. i was still very pro-hwyte.

the bottom line is, i’ve been pretty much blatantly pro-white since 2012, before this blog began, i was just more careful back then not to talk about it so blatantly, cuz it was still kinda new and scary.

you think young joos are consciously trying to genocide the goy? fook no! even as they get older i dont think this is ever their conscious goal….however ENDING RACISM certainly IS. and I would argue that there methods of ENDING RACISM are inherently harmful to hwytes.

basically, anti-racist is code for anti-white.

keep asking them questions, keep asking how and why, and eventually anti racists will just end up shaking their heads and saying something like, well look, its just karma, whites reap what they have sown. you cant oppress so many people for so long and not have a backlash, and i am willing to see my race pay the reparations now for all the evil shit they did in the past. i’m not that attached to my whiteness. i don’t care if my children and grandchildren are mixed race. i love diversity! i live and work with people of all races! i would totally marry and have kids with another race! i’m white and i freely admit whites have basically been the worst group of people in history and it’s only FAIR that whites PAY THE TOLL.

this is the sentiment you will find in white leftists and its sickening.

i never was coherent enough to question them to that logical conclusion but i have been present where essentially other people questioned them to that conclusion.

it sounds bad guys, but maybe those evil apartheid fascist boers in south africa just need to die off already. i don’t think racists like that could be helped. just lock them up away from everyone so they cant oppress anyone. they’ll never open their minds. they’ll never changed. they can’t be fixed. there’s so many Old White Racists like that. I cant bring my Grandparents Anywhere. they’re too old to learn. Sad! at least our younger generation knows better and can teach OUR children not to be RACIST.

GO FUCH YASELF.

I won’t teach my kids to be racist or not to be racist, and they will probably learn to be racist just by observing Life. And White Racist Systems Turning Blacks into Easily-Blamable Victims hahahaha.

hey two can play at this hidden wizard of oz behind the curtain bullshit.

so THEIR idea is bullshit of a hwyte man being behind the curtain, but MY idea of da jooz being behind the curtain is totally NOT bullshit?!?!?!

HALP ME GLR hahahahaha

its not the idea of someone being behind a curtain that’s bullshit hehehehe. that is totally not a bullshit metaphor, but a very useful and true one hahahaah.  really ive been into this metaphor for basically my whole life. regardless of political orientation. its just the idea of things not being what they seem. take the red pill hahaha.

am i just hyped up from drinking coffee all day? yeah probably a little.

am i excited from seeing that beautiful 20 year old hwyte gurl earlier today? well now that you mention it, she was very beautiful hahahahaha. but wasnt really thinking about that.

i was walking with an older man when that girl stepped in front of us. he certainly saw her too and maybe even got excited for a second. until he immediately realized that holy shit, he has a daughter who is almost that age. and all the men are gonna be ogling her. i can’t let them out of the house wearing jeans like that.

all this went through my mind in a matter of seconds after the girl appeared hahahaha.

i’ll allow the guy a second of excitement. but i would be disappointed in him if he didn’t immediately take the perspective of The Good Father. because he DOES have a daughter around that age and I DO think he is trying his damnedest to BE a good father! I like and respect the guy in other words.

he has several children in that age bracket. that college age bracket where SO MUCH SHIT can go SO WRONG. where it went so wrong for me. so naturally i am interested in seeing how he guides his children through that. will they become total fookups like me? or will they become successful middle class professionals like HIM?

it is fairly obvious hahahaha. he is guiding them to useful career paths, useful internships, and is probably aware if they have any Severe Emotional Issues hahahahaha.

mar 28
ok 645 am here , getting my morning stuff in hehehe. had weird dream. i was watching a “weird japanese movie” which was the frame for a very realistic story where it was basically me in the movie, fallling in luv with a Manic Pixie Dream Girl who was clearly damaged and disturbed and more than a little kinky and passionate. we enjoyed a passionate affair in a hotel for a few days then she had to leave and she was sad and I was heartbroken. I watched her leave and as she left, she began flirting with a sleazy mocha-skinned guy and smiling and flirting with him and got into a car with him. replaced me with this guy less than 30 mins after leaving me. wow. i was a complicated mix of emotions. yeah i shoulda known better to get mixed up with a MPDG cuz this was TEXTBOOK behavior, but i was lonely and the gurl was young, qt, and throwing herself at me.

also continues the theme of there being movies in my dreams that sometimes recur. often “lars von trier” movie is code for “extremely fooked up nightmare.” this movie was a “japanese” movie called “akira” that was really more of a degenerate jooish thing as a “edgy coming of age love secs story” than anything “japanese”, other than the japanese can ne extremely secsually degenerate, and i suppose that could be a jooish thing.

earlier in the dream i was with muh fam on The Super Rich side of town. we stopped at this extremely lavish hotel type luxury building with hebrew letters. i was like uhhh this is a jooish building, lets stay out of here, i dont care how nice it looks.

we went inside, it was very “nice” and luxurious and opulent. i didnt know if it would be filled with joos but that was my fear, and that they would try to take advantage and humiliate us goys. i was heavily on guard. there were actually some fairly normie looking touristy people like us. i couldnt tell what they were – joo or no joo hahahaha. i put them under heavy khazar/ashkenazi suspicion.

at some point this morphed into the above dream which also took place in a luxurious hotel i think.

7:05 hours of sleep even though i got to bed at proper correct time of 8 pm. just didnt fall asleep till 930 though. yeah prob did drink too much coffee during the day.

i always “like” to try to “FIGURE THINGS OUT” by THINKING about them a LOT, that i think i can think my way through things. but really i just end up OVERTHINKING everything and very often coming to a…..distorted, exagerrated, overly negative conclusion.

its not completely 180 off, maybe just 90 hahaha. so it bears some relation to the truth. mixing lies with the truth is the most effective and damaging kind of lie hahaha. it ruined muh life!

about to leave to go to job here. today would liek to again go to bed at 8 pm, drink less coffee, and DEFINITELY eat less food, ate WAY too much food yesterday and went like 500 calories over. DAMN. maybe do something productive at job. at least come across as charming and normie and nice and willing and able. try to take some phone calls and dispense some confident, authoritative advice: no, you cannot do this, and here’s why. no can do, you don’t have to like it, talk to our legal team, they’ll tell you the same thing, and frankly, they’re not even gonna waste their time calling you back. Good Bye.

later

funny its not the work day that kills me, like it did before. i am adjusting as well as i can to a very favorable environment! but the challenge begins when i get OUT and go HOME, just the STREAM of constant self recrimination of being a lazy loser bum, when you cant legitimately have those thoughts WHILE you are currently Working On The Clock, being productive, so therefore the solution is to be working 40 hours a week or 80 hours a week as opposed to….30 hours a week. workaholics who work 12 hour midnight shifts THEN go to college and stay INSANELY, workaholically BUSY.

https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/what-its-like-taking-a-grown-mans-virginity?utm_source=vicetwitterus

if they werent CREEPY HWYTE WOMEN HATERS, THEY WOULDNT BE VIRGINS WHEN THEY ARE 20+ YEARS OLD! SOMETHINGS CLEARLY WRONG WITH THESE WOMAN HATING NICEGUYTMS!!!! THINKING THEY ARE ENTITLED TO WOMENS BODIES!!!!!

what a BAD CREEPY MAN, he didnt tell you he was a virgin until AFTERWARDS hahahaha. like youd allow him to bang your n>900000 ass if you knew he was a creepy, broken VIRGIN beforehand!

this slut has taken the virginity of AT LEAST FOUR men who were 20+ year old virgins. multiple 30 year old virgins. wow.

well just keep in mind this is a horrible VICE WRITER.

http://archive.is/BkVWY

archive of shitty article. wheres the comments

no comments. damn. anyway these are actually shitty vice readers who are all huge sluts who dont thinkg anything is weird about having secs with a guy drunkenly you have just met. its normal to Blow your manager At Work.  and all the guys have Issues of course, and the women are just looking for a Quick Fook, not to help a guy with his Issues and be his first GF. let somebody else do that. hahahaha. except that never happens. maybe he bangs a few more dirty sluts.

so if i bang a dirty slut, am obligated to tell her beforehand that i havent banged a gurl in 13 years hahahaha? that i have only really banged 1 gurl a total of 2 times? i mean how much am I really supposed to TELL them? am i supposed to tell them all of that? i guess i can understand telling them youre a VIRGIN hahaha.

well ii guess i would say, i’m CLOSE to a virgin but i just want to add another notch to the belt today and youre it babe, just let me bang you and lets get this bullshit over with and hopefully i can find a better woman than you to have an actual rel with. so i hope you were jsut looking for a quick fook and nothing more hahahahaha.

ok done. got what im going to say next time i bang a slut. it’ll happen, i’m fairly confident, and it probably wont be pretty. it probably will be a dirty high number slut who is drunk. i dont know how old or good looking they will be. i am hoping for younger and qter. they will be somewhat crazy. crazier than me! but hopefully not too much.

wewlad. glad to get what im gonna say out of the way. now just gotta find a slut who is willing to bang a short old loser who hasnt banged a woman in many years and is ALMOST a virgin.

welp its still better than being a virgin. i think the majority of men lose their man virginity with dirty sluts rather than with a special GF qt high school sweetheart type gurl. so just be grateful if you can pull a good looking slut rather than a bad looking one. thankfully i did. unthankfully i never pulled a woman ever again hahahahaha. maybe because i wanted another qt gurl and didnt want a goddamn road hog. heh. well after that slut i swore ok im done with SLUTS, i want the NEXT gurl I bang to be a serious GF. that went over like a lead balloon. i actually lost a chance to bang another slut that i wish i had taken now. not like the slut would have had any trouble find a cock to fill her up. might as well have been me. good luck trying to find a man to commit to you now, ya used up skank hahaha. well at least she is super successful in life haha. probably associates with a lot of successful men as well. where she has to downplay what a huge whore she is hahahaha.

no i dont care. i just really thought i would ahve been able to pull another slut in 13 years! but in the real world, even SLUTS are hard for low-confidence omega men to pull! when i pulled those sluts before, i was in a weird college world, where automatically me being there meant i had potentially high status. but in the real world, where i have really low status, i cant even pull SLUTS.  until i raise my status. which i have been struggggggggling to do, with no success.

its hard to believe these WOMEN are actual PEOPLE! living human BEINGS like you and me!

well that makes me sound like a sociopath. yes i can believe they are human beings, but they just seem like different BREEDS, sort of liek the races seem like different BREEDS, which is a word GLR wisely, aptly, correctly uses in WP. that is a great way to think about races.

not sure if its a great way to think about men vs women though.

besides, GOD has made it my mission in life, my cross to bear, to be in constant conflict with women. with the final goal MAYBE being that i learn to stop being in conflict with them. who knows. maybe thats not the goal. maybe my cross to bear is to be in huge conflict with women for muh entire life. i am paying off some kind of debt. both for myself and for others.

its just fookin retarded to WANT something so badly. both women, and also to want to be a successful normie, but not being WILLING to do the WORK it takes to get there. the YEARS and YEARS of 17 hour days of work. 10000 hours to get good at something. 10000 hours to get good at your career, 10000 hours to get good at women. note:10000 hours is about….4 years of Full Time Work. Approx.

and i am totally butthurt at school and education not counting at all towards those necessary 20000 hours. mother fooking EIGHTEEN YEARS of school WASTED. 18 years of life! over half your life, blatantly wasted! thats worth getting butthurt about!

but not if the butthurt keeps you from fixing it and turning the ship around.

it doesnt take you 18 years to turn the ship around. ONLY EIGHT. hahahaha. 20000 hours.

in my homeschooling utopia, you would be an EXPERT, a masters-level EXPERT in THREE things by the time you were done with twelve years of school at 17 or 18. in other words, your could make a good living in TWO types of career, and have the Social Expertise to pull a Woman, reproduce, and the economic success to support your children.

basically, go to 16 year olds and tell them, do this or you’ll never meet a woman or move out on your own. you’ll die a lonely loser childless wifeless virgin who makes less than negros at walmart and mcd’s. get a stem degree or become an electrician. end of discussion. if you dont do those things, you’ll die a fat virgin basement dweller. you DO want to have secs with a QT gurl, don’t you? well you wont if you dont d one of thsese things. period. end of discussion. now get out there and get started. you can get started on your stem degree at age 16.

literally. there are plenty of kids in my working class nonelite normiezip who enroll in comm college at age 16, graduate high school at age 18, and associates degree as well, then fooking stem degree at age 20. damn. why didnt i do this? because I didnt really KNOW about it for one.

but thats not true! one of the kids in my AP history class took Calculus or Pre Engineering courses at the local College!

of course i thought he was a huge dork.

and unfortunately not a lot of our kids in my high school did that. they just loaded up on gay AP courses, which is NOT the way to go.

the way to go is take the easiest high school classes you can, take as few of them as you can, and Dual Enroll into Comm College as SOON as possible, age 14 if you can. dual enrollment its called. its a common thing in opioid epidemic flyover amerifat trump country hahahaha. and i didnt totally understand it until recently.

DUAL ENROLL YOUR KIDS WHEN THEY ARE 14. basically skip high school and go straight to college. public schools have agreements with the college so that the school district  ie taxpayers will pay for the college tuition.

also i wonder if its easier to pull 19 year old college sluts when you are a 15 year old “genius” hehehehe. that would be confidence building af! they think you are all qt and then they want to make you their little project. they are willing to spend time and effort on you and let you bang them at least 10 times. then you can pull a better woman once you are established. ideally something arranged with the girl’s father who is looking for suitable husbands for his virgin daughter. which you will totally be, as a 20 year old engineer making 45k a year hahahaha.

or you can get a Journalism degree and make 11k a year at age 30 and never be able to pull even the craziest, dirtiest slut for noncommittal secs. your choice hahahahaha.

if i could go back in time and present these stark terms to my younger self, i would love to do that. get 14 year old me to dual enroll in local college. i could even just take intro to bullshit classes. i would get college credit for them and they would be way easier than AP classes.  AP classes are a HUGE jooish screwjob. they were basically TWICE as hard as college classes, AND TWICE as long.  big mistake there. also i hated them so they killed muh will to learn and made me really hate skool hahaha. never understood why high school classes had to last like 8 or 9 fookin months, the whole skool year long. fookin gay as fook. i would have much rather taken college classes that were only HALF as gae as fook. and gotten credits that meant more in the adult world. also all this would have looked really good to employers.

well didnt my res look good for a while after i did graduate college? whats the date of expiration there? 1 year? WHATS THE RULE? i went to a prestigious enough college that i would think my “recent grad grace period” lasts a little longer. even if it did, i STILL blew it!

and i was drinking too much, and prob doing too much MJ.  i was def drinking too much tho. if i had to choose one or the other, i should have chosen MJ. it was alcohol that “made” me do all the really stupid regrettable stuff like drive drunk, act like an idiot in front of friends and women, etc. should have just sm0ked tons of MJ and signed up immediately for shrink at that time.  yeah i know the alcohol didnt MAKE me do anything. and i admit driving drunk is always retarded.

but is it really? if you never hurt anyone? hahahaha. real edgy libertarian argument here. its not a crime unless you hurt someone else.

western jooish capitalists were financing marxists and communists. karl marx financed by fels, soap magnate; bolsheviks financed by schiff, international bankster.

oh this is fake news. they werent really joos, they didnt really “finance” anything.

ok ate much less calories today. still too much but a big improvement over yesterday. also didnt drink as much coffee today. should be better prepared to go to bed at 8pm.

how bitcoin do today. up 0.2% ok thats fine. thats a lot ahahaha.

i wonder what GLR would have said about Cultural Marxism. well that its a disgusting disgrace, and that this long march through the institutions has resulted in a long march through the culture in general, leaving a wake of jooish destruction, emptiness, nihilism, rootlessness, dispossession, aimlessness, Morally Adrift, disillusionment, anomie, ennui, etc. hedonism, atheism, hopelessness, drugs, secs, DESPAIR, opioid epidemics, culture of death, culture of disposability, replaceability, use once then throw away, everythings expendable and replaceable and CHEAP.

but id say GLR would be hopping mad at how for example feminist and anitwhite shit is no longer the purview of collegephags, but basically everybody. its not just joos producing degenerate plays in fooking NYC and LA. its fooking girls in kansas fooking negros and fooking wichita kansas being jooed like every large city, not just the coastal ones.

i mean the goyim are in worse shape than they are in GLR’s day, in other words.

GLR was a fan of: J Edgar Hoover, FBI, Joe McCarthy, Douglas MacArthur, maybe Eisenhower, maybe Nixon, Batista, Kai-Shek. Gerald LK Smith.

he was not a fan of: FDR, Truman, JFK, probably LBJ. Alger Hiss. Felix Frankfurter, Castro, Chairman Mao Mao, Earl Warren, CIA

ok there were ALWAYS commie jooz in every city, not just joo york and la. but miami, atlanta, charleston, st louis, any big city. well what about fookin wichita. ok city. well if they can get to st louis they can get anywhere. denver. i cant imagine many live in wyoming tho hahahaha.

but i have to imagine the jooz of louisville 1920 werent as bad as the jooz of NYC 1920.

ok things are different now because there has been no soviet union for fookin 25 years. the idea of russian spies is ludicrous. but i argue that crooked jooz are still in power in many of the ex soviet countries. and the much bigger threat now is not hardcore red commies, but cultural marxists and swedish type socialists. kinder gentler version of communism. now you have Socialism. and the horrible Cultural Marxism, Diveristy, Multiculturalism, and Equality it works towards.

MORAL SUBVERSION. ALWAYS with the MORAL SUBVERSION. now just as much as ever before. probably even more. less overt communism, more socialism, more diversity, more fookin moral subversion.

you think i’m faking this? i wouldnt be spending so much time writing about it if i were a JOO SHILL or a phony faker poseur just interested in this for a few months like a damn woman bandwagon jumper!

what if i did a 23 and me and turned out to be 10% jooish.

i would NOT be happy about it. i would publicly recant it and try to eradicate it with a hwyte woman. but beforehand, i would be like, listen, i’m 10% jooish, so our children will be 5% jooish, but my goal is to get them 100% hwyte because i want to eradicate the joo out of ME but it cant be done. and i feel a little bad about making you race mix liek this. so just sign on the dotted line goy saying you waive your rights hahahaha.

yeah i would prob do that, esp if i were still 90% hwyte. would make more sense than me trying to mate with 100% joos!

or ideally i wouldnt mate at ALL…..and it looks like i am going that route anyway. damn.

 

 

 

CHAD HOEST

mar 25

had dream about woman i like in  2007 or 8. she was very attractive and young but was a fatherless bipolar mudshark. good riddance. well shes been with the same mud guy now for like 2 years, thats not typical of muds fooking white gurls. shit im surprised shes capable of being with 1 man without dumping him for 2 years. i dont want the desperate thirsty man who is willing to settle for poor damaged me for the long term, better dump him.

anyway shes not a terrible person and in the dream she was being nice and interested in me, smiling at me, hanging out with me one on one, even grabbing muh d under the table. i was like well this is nice, cant wait to get you home and fook you like an animal several times in one night. i was totally enchanted just by her hanging out with me, looking at me, smiling and laughing and being flirty towards me. its not rocket science.

then i lost track of her and could not find her and was like OH SHIT that was a SURE THING and now I am gonna LOSE MUH CHANCE.

but yeah even if she is a crazy mudshark shes not a terrible person and i would have totally dated her and probably fallen in full luv with her if she had any interest in me. she was interested in being friendly with me for a few weeks, so that was enough for me! unfort she had a LOT of male friends and was always making new friends. VERY social. bad news. i was nothing special.  and i am sure i remember her a lot more than she remembers me, like 9 fookin years later. oh well. at least she looks older now.  but still totally bangable. and she is way more successful than me hahaha. and fooks negros. falls in LUV with negros. i mean thats pretty damning.

i dont need to say she was a huge slut ever since the age of 20 at least. becuase she was hahahaha.

and to think. many guys got to live out my dream of her being interested in them, then they got to fook her, then they probably got “too” interested in her, then she said UGH why are all these thirsty guys always falling in LUV with me, im not that luvable, then gave them the cold shoulder, fooked tons more guys, and only fell in luv with darkies, and still became way more successful than me hahahaha.

but yeah she’s not a terrible person. i wish her father were better to her and she had turned out better and had dated me hahahaha. then i never would have met That Woman.

you can probably get more than one oneitis in your life……but its way harder when you are older than 30 and looking at older women. it happens most readily when you are young and the women are young. then it happens maybe 3, 5 times and you better marry one of those gurls. doesnt help if they have no interest in you whatsoever hahaha.

anyway it was interesting to get a dream where a qt young gurl was being flirty with me and it felt good man, like do ALL NORMIES REALLY experience this in real life?

i actually experienced it with 2 women in my own life! 12 and 13 years ago hehehe. so i KNOW its real and not a myth.

i claim that its NOT weird to get attached to a person after you FOOK them, or even youve been making out with them. these things are supposed to generate bonding chemicals of oxytocin. so Thots who casually suck and fook, cant make oxytocin any more, cant get attached to any man. well except maybe THE MOST alpha, who already has His Choice of women throwing themselves at him.

also dont be captain save a child if the childs mother is a Ho and you are involved with her hahahaha. some men play captain save a ho and the ho has a young child that the white knight man gets attached to and wants to save the child along with the mother.

its ok to save the child, just ignore the mother tho. send the mother to a handmaids tale like breeding camp where she can breed white babies but not fook them up.

kinda shitty to have hwyte kids if youre just gonna fook them up. its very frustrating. you might ALMOST not have the kids at all if youre just gonna set them up to fail. but no abortions of hwyte babies. send the hwyte babies to a hwyte person who can take care of them. to a captain save a ho type man. give him a child to save instead. and he can continue to bang hos and thots. away from the childs eyes of course.

laid down cuz felt tired, didnt really Nap though. watching “mutiny on the bounty” with marlin brando from like 1961 and the hwytes are RACE MIXING like crazy with the tahitian THOTS. the captain should be condemning this race mixing abomination.

anyway point is, if some 20 year old girl with a healthy body is throwing herself at you, you conveniently forget about race. i probably even would too. but yeah i dont want to watch a movie from the 60s and see RAMPANT race mixing!

yeah yeah i get it, they are SAILORS, fine. i just smh when i see hwyte men getting YELLOW FEVER. pretty PATHETIC.

besides, what they dont say enough is that these gurls are huge sluts who treat EVERY guy like this. you think she’s gonna be faithful to YOU? or are you a degenerate who doesnt care if your woman is faithful? or hwyte?

well these men have been working hard like slaves on the sea and they are just looking for a little tenderness and now they are finally getting it. doesnt make race mixing RIGHT but i cant say id do differently in their position. id probably K muh self after 2 days on the SHIP!!!!!

like this guy chip gaines and his Triracial wife on the hit show fixer upper. he seems like a good man but seriously very very very GOOFY which probably made it harder for him to get a hwyte woman. so he gets with this….lets just call her asian woman. i know she is ASIAN, ARAB, and something else, maybe mexican. she is in good shape, very healthy weight, and has nice hair, and i would bang her too if i were a desperate thristy slave on board a ship. or right now, after 12 years of thirst hahahahaha. 12 years a thirsty slave.

but rather than pump and dump her, he fell in LUV with her and millions of people including me are watching the show. now thank god their kids look a lot whiter than she does and could prob PASS for whyte. shit you know i think the third race in her IS whyte. white, asian, and arab. i looked it up once hahahaa.

so that makes the kids 67% white. hmmmm. not quite good enough. POOR KIDS!!!! SAD!

only in a thoroughly jooed world would it make sense to have SECS with a person and NOT get ATTACHED to them.  this is EXACTLY how the joos DESTROY OUR race, by destroying the FAMILY, destroying CHILDREN, destroying relships between men and women, by saying that secs is casual and doesnt NECESSITATE ATTACHMENT.

every time you have casual secs, the J rubs his hands.

every time you don’t condemn casual secs, you murder your own race. just throw it into the oven.

LOVE YOUR RACE.

MJ has been less disappointing to me than WOMEN. BY FAR. the women always leave and break muh heart. the MJ, i pretty much know what I’m getting, and it works as intended. i use it to fulfill a similar role as women: to get warm fuzzies, a sense of romance and transcendence and The Sublime and The Beautiful.

and it more or less WORKED! its honestly an effective reinforcement. like a dog getting a treat. pavlovs dogs drooling for their treat. the only thing that can come close to TRAINING and CONDITIONING me like that is a Special QT young Woman who I Like, and its WAY easier to find MJ than to find a woman like THAT. even right now. when MJ is very slim pickins. likable women are even slimmer hahahaha.

they say romance books and bullshit like 50 shades of gray are porn for women, which i can see the point, but it misses a HUGE point of what pornography is. namely, 50 shades of gray is not even 1% as filthy, degenerate, destructive as the hardcore vidya porn for men, where real women are destroyed, degraded and abused to the delight of the jooz, where pathetic men who will never get a woman beat off to it bitterly.

in 50 shades of gray, real women arent being destroyed gaping their assholes for black bulls on camera. there’s just some fantasy of being seduced by a powerful manly man. nothing new there. so theres some very LIGHT fetishism. i’m surprised its not MORE jooish. and when it gets more jooish – like the degen filth produced to emasculate MEN – then i’ll get worried. until its used as a weapon to destroy people, you cant call it “pornography.” you can call it retarded, low brow jooish (((entertainment))) though!

how WOULD you make something like pornography for women though? basically, women can ALWAYS reproduce. i guess the more destructive thing would be entertainment that blatantly promotes casual secs, polyamory, polyandry, and even still, its not like women Dildo Themselves to Sex and The City or Cuckold Porno. and even if they did, they would still reproduce. but they would be ruined children for sure. not that many of them aren’t.

but yeah honestly i don’t think you CAN make something as bad for women as bad as actual porn has been for men. something like “GIRLS” by digusting pig lena dunham is the closest thing, and that is over and done with. women liked that show for 2 years at most. then it went out of favor and lena went too far even for the joos and people are like yeah shes a little weird. GIRLS was bad and promotes the worst kind of women, but its still not nearly as bad as porno for men.

yeah the worst thing for women would be much complex things than “just porno”: stuff like ABORTION and FEMINISM basically and everything related to that. it all contributes to the idea of sexual liberation, culture of casual sex, disposability of human life, etc etc.

outlaw pornography and outlaw abortion. this would go a good way to changing the culture. outlaw no fault divorce. oh but muh freedoms, there should be no laws, no gummint. no this is not a libertarian website hahahahaha. we believe in law and order, for the protection of the fascist nation and our fascist hwyte race. laws to keep out da jooz. theyve been kicked out of 200 countries. i wonder why. because goys hate the poor jooz. the poor innocent victims that never did anything to get banned from 200 countries in 2000 years.

i guess tinder would be like porn for women to. give them a platform to HAVE casual sex and to make their OWN porno pictures and videos with the guys they casually fook like sluts.

but yeah life is a COMPETITION. FIERCE competition. for women, and for jobs.

heh. its funny though. it was easier for me to get into a Highly Selective University than it was to get an 11k a year job. WAYYYYYY easier.  I applied to like 3 universities and got accepted to them all. no i did not apply to harvard, yale, princeton, stanford, MIT, i just wasnt interested, and i prob WOULDNT have gotten in.

it was easier for me to get into a Highly Selective University at age 17 that it was to Win the Hearts of Sluts and Mudsharks.

so yeah i guess i wasnt prepared for HOW competitive the world really was. kinda wish i had just gotten rejected from that uni! i only went there because it was Highly Selective and a Really Good Name, so if i go here, i will be SET FOR LIFE, even if I do average work in a useless degree. WRONG.

anyway back from sat afternoon church, ate some dinner, took powerwalk, and gonna actually be under calorie goal for once.

anyway i guess that dream about that OTHER woman was good because it wasnt about THAT woman. but it still doesnt prove i could have feelings for a brand new unknown woman.

well, logically, if it were a young, nice, attractive woman,  i probably could. if she were about 7/10 and about 25 years old (or younger!) but as i get older, this age standard gets harder and harder to reach. also them being willing to spend time with you (one on one, not just in groups), and respond to you, and be nice to you, that can cause you to have feelings too.

so yeah i COULD. but to pull a woman that YOUNG when I am not YOUNG…that seems unlikely.

logged into my runescape game for the first time in 3 years. it looked totally different.  i then logged into “old school” which looked familiar but it had set me all the way back to the beginning. sad! i remember the game being kinda fun. now its making me type the stupid password in and wont even let me paste the long unique password i have for security. you have to type in the password every time. might as well save it as password123.

funny that the women you never forget have forgotten you like their fathers have forgotten about them. and the guys these women can’t forget have in turn forgotten about THEM.

well you know i bet their fathers havent FORGOTTEN about them. they are just too COWARD to do the right thing.

come on. was i really THAT forgettable? i dont think so. i know my male friends remembered me.

taake does a CURE cover. this sounds like a potentially good idea. havent listened yet. this is from the cure “pornography” album which is very very bleak and dark and which i imagine would be anti pornography. i guess i would have to look at the lyrics of the album to determine why they called it that.

just trying to psych myself up for his boring concert so i get my 22 dollars worth hahahahahahaha no it should be pretty good. also prepping his most recent 2 albums “stridens hus” and “noregs vaapen” which i have not listened to. in 2008 i was actually aware of taake and thought he was pretty good so i was excited about his New Self Titled Album in 2008. It turned out being very boring and underwhelming so then i stopped being so ecxcited about taake. the end. then 9 years later he came to my town and i said what the heck ill go see him. shit i cant believe i first heard taake more than 9 years ago. it doesnt seem that long ago. i certainly haven’t “been a fan” for 9 years hahahahaha.

seems like most fans agree: his 2008 s/t album was boring and uninspired, his next album noregs vaapen was a strong comeback, then his next album stridens hus was kinda lackluster again. well he never makes an album longer than 45 minutes, thats good.

this unartig usually has decent recordings of NYC shows on youtube. hear taake does a good live show. he looks like he’s into it and is not so grim he can’t interact with the fans. but not so silly he cant be grim either. i think his whole thing is to recreate classic 90s black metal. back when dissection and emperor and darkthrone and burzum and mayhem were the coolest bands ever. i am kind of this era too, not being THAT much younger than hoest, so hipster blackgaze young kids black metal still seems a little weird to me, as im sure it does to him.

i dont understand those shitty pants he is wearing though. literally the worlds most falling apart jeans. there was a photograph taken once of his D hanging out of his terribly shredded pants hahahahaha. i would just get a new pair of pants already buddy. but glad to see he hasnt gotten all fat and is still in good shape in his Late Thirties.

in 2015 he had a huge hipster beard hahahaha but in 2016 he cut it to normie length hahahaha. but seriously his long beard looked good. i cant grow a long beard like this because muh beard hairs grow in weird directions whereas his beard grows straight down and out so he can grow it long.

if you see pictures of him not looking made up or trashy or drunk but attempting to look semi presentable, he is handsome as fook and could easily pull a 20 year old 8/10 waifu. JELLY. CHAD HOEST.

mar 26

yeah actually pretty excited about this. one could do a lot worse than taake. i SHOULD be a bigger fan. i was big on metal in 1999 and 2002 when he was releasing his first big albums. i just dont recall reading about them! 2005 hordaland came out just as i was making out with a grill for the last time hahahaha but i was tuned out of metal at that time, and for a few more years after. then i came back sometime around 2008 because i remember when the taake album came out and everyone was disappointed.

but yeah. i wonder if he likes sacramentum. probably. taake should be my favorite band because they tap right into that sweet spot before black metal got young and weird, and old and boring. and never attempted to “innovate” in the embarrassing ways older bands like satyricon did. the younger bands did a LOT better job of that, shit i totally respect bands like alcest or wolves in the throne room (do they really count as younger though?) well, repsect their MUSIC I should say haha. also saor, winterfylleth, wodensthrone, 10’s UK black metal is bretty kewl, but nothing really weird about it: it is just straight up pagan heathen atmospheric BM with no funny stuff. you could say similar about taake. its bretty atmospheric, quite melodic.  the funniest he gets is occasional “black and roll” and using a banjo once which got way too much attention. well it doesnt help that he brings the banjo on tour with him to play during that one song.

yeah i am officially excited. i will relisten to the old taake albums because i have forgotten large portions of them. i will listen to the newer albums i missed entirely. i listened to the cure song today, it was ok but yeah the vocals were a miss hahahaha. would have been better off just impersonating robert smith, who has a good voice.

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but yeah this is what i mean, chad hoest. very handsome. a total 8.8/10 man hahahahaha. he could literally be a male model.

but it is degenerate to get an upside down cross tattoo. but i can totally understand why. he was probably drunk and 18. when i was drunk and 18 i just drew an upside down cross on my arm with a marker hahahaha. he goes and gets a permanent tattoo on his chest. SMDH.

when he is good, he is really, really, really good. he taps into the pure essence of black metal, which really covers a YUGE range of emotions. its not just “cold” or “grim” but it certainly includes those things. sorrow and beauty and nostalgia and epic and pride and and yearning and anger and hatred and angst and even romance and even some hwyte racial pride in there (but i dont expect any creators to acknowledge or even realize that last one. it still comes through implicitly. you cant escape becoming who you are, goy, hahahahahaha.)

and taake covers ALL these bases rather than just being hateful or just being depressive or just being grim, and keeps the music very dynamic, epic, interesting, hot-blooded, passionate, earnest, sincere.

except when it doesnt, then it’s just as boring as all other boring black metal.  but taake hits some very strong highs.

also hoest is a very powerful singer and has a recognizable voice.

he hangs out with some degenerates, so i hope he is less degenerate than them. i guarantee he is more degen than i would like him to be tho. he prob drinks too much, prob bangs too many dirty sluts, def has too many degen tattoos, has gone to jail, probably for drunkenly, stupidly fighting another drunk white man. (speculation). he sort of “apologized” as much as he could for the svastica incident in germany 2007.

he is an obvious narcissist who has HIMSELF on ALL of his album covers hahaha.  well a man needs to have CONFIDENCE in himself and not be a meek depressive self-loather!

would like to see video of him recording the albums. does he actually play the drums? on older abums I know he got a guest drummer.

what is his opinion on iron maiden? probably positive but what if its neutral?

does he have any illegitimate children? i could see him being a deadbeat father who leaves his bastard children with their metal/bar slut mothers so he can go on tour and bang more metal sluts. just speculation hahahaha. if he has children, i HOPE he takes care of the children. kinda hard to do when you are on tour months at a time though! which is why you should do like garth brooks and retire from touring when your kids are young. you can still play a few shows a year.

do like varg. release a string of classic albums when you are very young, then shift the focus from music to having 6 or more children.  music is a young man’s game. especially metal and black metal.

in other words, hoest should have retired from black metal in 2006 after hordaland, settled down with a NICE gurl and started having babies. how about he could get a job as a Music Teacher and still play music with a Norwegian Folk Group. but no more hateful drunken metal. he’s a family man nao.

but that didnt happen.

and we still would have had those classic first 3 albums, and he could have had 5 kids before he was 40. win win. instead he is making hit or miss albums and getting drunk at age 39. talk about despair. judge judge judge hahahahahahahaha. at least he is traveling the world and banging women and still makes 50% good albums hahahaha and has fans and is leaving some kind of legacy hahaha.

i bet he could just retire to bjoergvin and find a nice gurl even now. there are still good women left, even in the us, even in degen norway and sweden.

but would i let my virgin daughter marry hoest?

well, i would test the shit out of him first! no more tattoos, no more drinking, no more tours, no more sluts, from now on you are going to be a husband and father! i mean either that sounds good to you or it doesnt. to me it sounds great, except for providing for that family.

could he really be a music teacher? could he really make enough money to live off that in NORWAY, where they take 60% of your income in taxes and gas is 10 dollars a gallon and it costs 10000 dollars to rent a shoebox apartment?

would he want to be a music teacher? would he be a good music teacher? uhhh i think he’d enjoy it more than being a Call Center Agent or a Lidl/Tesco slave. maybe he has terrible people skills though.

well, you cant bang dozens of women and have terrible people skills.

how do i know he’s banged dozens of women? you can just tell.

men who bang dozens of women, even if they are horrible sluts, have what it takes to be successful in other areas of life. raw confidence and toughness and masculinity. he just has to be WILLING to give up the degenerate, sensualist life of booze and sluts.

i guess if you’re actually GETTING the sluts, it could be hard to give up. for me, even getting SLUTS was a huge struggle. for CHAD HOEST, I bet its as easy as a woman getting a chad.

i should clearly write a fanfic of chad hoests alternate life, then give it to him at the concert. then he will uh oh this guy is right, i better start making babies. i am 39 years old and a handsome hwyte man. what am i doing with my life. shit you can go to southern france like varg if norway has become too ridiculous. i dont doubt that it has. go to poland. go to hungary. go to romania. its all good. we’re all hwyte here.

russia and ukraine are great, i just worry that da J’s have too much power there. in poland possibly too.  guess its gotta be better than NORWAY. in terms of the current norwegian gummint.

lets make norway great again hahahaha.

hey i dont blame chad hoest for descending into sensualist degeneracy, look at what his HOME is BECOMING!

my home is becoming similar. and i descended into hateful nihilism of black metal and the hedonist sensualism of drugs and, in the past, alcohol and pr0n. never had the luxury of real live grills like chad tho. i hear that can be real hard to give up. i just cant put myself in chad’s shoes. and chad cant put himself in mine.

hey im no better. i just want to be lazy and do MJ all the time. muh brain and muh WILL is BROKEN.

i have bitterness towards women because they cant just injure, its always INSULT UPON INJURY with these demons hahahahaha. they cant just reject you and say sorry, they have to reject you and be huge mudshark sluts afterwards. you cant have me but all these other guys sure can. im a dirty degen slut, but im still too good for YOU, ya meek neet wimpy sissy loser child.

i guess they arent intentionally trying to “rub it in your face” when they do slutty shit after rejecting you and you just happen to hear about it because you are borderline stalking them hahahahahaha. then thats your fault. well shit. i argue they should be being sluts ANYWAY. no woman NEEDS to be a slut. fook that shit. its BAD, there is no use for it ever. makes schlomo say GOOD GOYIM. because it DESTROYS the goy race. not IMMEDIATELY, but in the long term. even 50 lousy years can do a hell of a lot of damage. that’s not too long term. that’s less than one lifetime.

can lead the horse to water but cant make them drink. this is one of the most important true cliches ever. very relevant for me and very relevant for others too. including that woman. its all about WILL. so do you blame yourself for FAILING TO INSPIRE WILL????!!?!???

did you really lead them to the right water?

why arent they drinking?

why arent you SELLING the water good enough? aren’t you SKILLED enough to SELL this water?

i would say dont blame yourself too much. sometimes there really is nothing you can do. GOD has to get in there and even HE might not be able to do anything. THE FREE WILL. what a horrible, horrible thing!

i had all the opportunities to succeed but i would rather sm0ke MJ, drnk alcohol, look at porn, and take it easy. coast.

i put myself all in for her and said take me or leave me and she left me as sure as you can leave a person.

KARMA hahahaha.

no im really not a bad guy i SWEAR. i never want to do anybody wrong. i just hated working hard when the payoff would come in longer than 4 years hahahaha.

I DIDNT REALIZE WHAT A BIG MISTAKE I WAS MAKING! I WAS YOUNG AND IMMATURE!

the problem was the mistake wasnt just one big mistake, it was many little mistakes over like 4 years, that were not super visible to me, or to anyone around me. shit if my fam was convinced i was making a Big Mistake, they would have done something about it. but NO ONE KNEW what a big mistake i was making. thats what especially sucks. no one knew, no one could stop me. and if i could go back in time, i would damn sure stop myself.

average of 8:53 hours of sleep a night. DAMN. well, there it is. cant argue with the numbers hahahaha.

just trying to figure out the best time to go to bed when i get up at 5 am. apparently 8 pm hehehehe. OR EARLIER. 7:15 pm, because i take about 45 minutes to fall asleep after i get into bed.

i dont even know what would have been good for me. military, i prob would have private pyled.

i think just go to local comm college while continuing to work muh job i had at age 17. gotten into a machine apprentice thing. but i prob wouldnt even have THOUGHT of that. it took me till at least 28 to determine that that was a good idea.

i would have still been like college sucks, working sucks, everything sucks, just get the easiest degree there is and prepare for a life of sucking hahahaha. get used to it. deal with it. but maybe i would have been physically prevented from doing as much MJ and alcohol. not sure though. i STILL managed to do a lot of MJ and alcohol when i was home with the fam. quite a damn bit, now that i think of it. DAMN.

well, i would have stayed at the job i had until i found something better. it was a very easy job and i wuldnt just quit it. basically i had to leave it because muh college got in the way too much. ironic.

also i never would have gotten laid and never would have made out or cuddled with grills hahahaha. well i prob would have made out with grills but may well have never stopped being a V at age 21 like i did. i mean shit if were a 30 year old VIRGIN my confidence would be even LOWER. at least i can say oh yeah i stopped being a VIRGIN at a SOMEWHAT normie age.

hehehe whats def NOT normie is how i never had secs or GF or makeout or cuddles SINCE then hahahaha.

anyway, it really is impossible to say. maybe i would have just gone to another kollige and things would have turned out just as bad. maybe i would have stayed at home and gone to local college and things would have turned out just as bad hahahaha. I was BORN to become a neet failure nevergf 11k a year loser.

ok ok ok these are all horribly negative thoughts and i shouldnt even be THINKING THEM, let alone writing them down for all eternity as part of “MUH LIFE STORY” hahahaha.

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i would not recommend putting all your money into MJ stocks, youd be better buying BTC hahahaha.

i would say if you get crabby like that, just lay donw and take a NAP if you can. if its a weekend and you dnt have to WORK or STUDY WORK hahaha. i did that, got at least 30 minutes, factored that into my Big Data. by number is inching closer and closer to 9 hours a night!

if i get 1 minute less than 9 hours of sleep every night, i get SO CRABBY i CANNOT FUNCTION hahahahaha.

i am like john cusack in high fidelity. thinking of all these women in the past, oh maybe she was the one, maybe she was the one, i should try to reconnect from this grill from 15 years ago, etc etc. not that ive actually done this. but it has crossed my mind. like lets give it another chance. and they are probably not gonna do the Reaching Out here. but im 40 and still single, what have i got to lose by Reaching Out to these people 10, 20 years later. i wasnt the one who ended this. i would have stayed with you and let it run its course if you didnt Prematurely Dump Me!

did he DUMP any of the women in that movie?

in real life, men actually DO dump women. hard to believe but its true.  i’ve never done it and dont really WANT to hahahaha.

and what an ANNOYING JOO cusack was in that annoying jooish movie!!!!!!! that is not how proud hwyte men act! this is not a man who is worthy of any woman! never act anything like that! its amazing he had been with like 5 women in his life! and not 0! he should have been a virgin!

stupid fookin jooish movie. cant believe i watched it like 3 times. this is why you stop being a big music fan when you become an adult. music is not a serious time consuming interest of successful, respectable adults. its like smokin MJ. its immature, arrested development.

why do you think people who smoke MJ listen to so much MUSIC hahahaha.

oh god i just want to sm0ke MJ.

GLR did not become joo wise until age 32 hahaha. i was 30 at the oldest. more like 28 hehehehe.

some people say you should get rid of all drunk driving laws and should only prosecute people for drunk driving if there is an accident and somebody gets hurt and the person at fault is drunk.

but no just pulling people over and giving them a misdemeanor 10k DUI for having 8% BAC.  no waiting to nab people coming out of bars. no dui checkpoints.

INTERESTING.

ok 730 planning to go to bed around 8. its science. did absolutely nothing productive this weekend. took naps, played cards, wrote whining shit. well i did do 2 loads of laundry, trimmed beard, took powerwalk on saturday i think. got concert ticket for furst concert in almost 2 years. worked on Budget. worked on Sleep Spreadsheet. wrote a ton of stuff, 25% of it good. created another spreadsheet showing the current sizes of all types of clothes i wear. measurements, sizes. dress shirts, pants, suits, chest, neck, legs, waist, arms, shoes, coats, shorts, undershorts, sweatpants, anything and everything as of mar 26 2017.

prepared a bunch of sound files. podcasts and taake albums.

crunched some serious analytics. gathered some good data and crunched some good numbers.

was just disappointing on muh job search, which i dont even want to really DO shit till like july, and also on muh powerwalking. yeah i should have gone to the gym but oh well. also gained almost 2 pounds hehehehe.