YOUR FATHER MUST BE SO PROUD

apri 25

took a rare nap because i am doing a rare weeknight social game which will result in me getting not much sleep in prep of the Big Day of Job tomorrow. If I had a Normie job, i wouldnt even think of doing this, because being GRUMPY is the LEAST of your concerns when you dont sleep enough. its being ANXIOUS and PANICKING and feeling like you wont be able to stand the constant firing squad of people constantly watching you and measuring you and asking you questions and interrogating and interviewing you. grilling you.

like i dont know how any health care workers, esp nurses, do their jobs. i have great respect for nurses when they arent pill popping whores.

uhhh so being grumpy and tired is not my worry. my worry is being WEAK and running out of the room crying because I cant handle the pressure. its like taking a Big Final Exam without good sleep, because

EVERY DAY OF WORK IS LIKE A BIG FINAL EXAM.

Nobody told me! I just thought it was Boring Drudgery! Shit, I’d pay for boring drudgery, when its actually nerve-wracking tension!

but my current job is much different, very low stress, borderline boring even! and i say this isn’t a REAL job, because clearly real jobs JUST ARENT LIKE THIS. PLUS Im only making 11k a year and no benefits. its not a real job. it was never MEANT to be a real job. its MEANT for students who are working on their degree so in a few years they can get an entry level torture job for 28k a year and some health care.

you are constantly SELLING something to angry customers. even if what you’re “Selling” is the runaround and the bullshit jooish lies as to why your company thinks its too expensive to fix what the customer wants fixed. here’s why its not really broken goy.

as someone who genuinely wants to do a good job and actually help people, that kind of shit is VERY hard for me. especially when the shit is so confusing that i just dont KNOW. its very possible the shit is SO confusing that its NOT worth it for our company to fix their shit. soooo……can we escalate this to someone who knows how to handle it? do we have a Business Partner we can connect them with? What do I say to leave this person out in the cold? sorry, cant help you, it is what it is, next. no explanation because even i dont understand it, and you cant talk to my higher up who said shut it down, because he’s too busy saying shut it down to people like ME.  see, you get shut down, I’m actually getting shut down too, by him, now I’m shutting YOU down. thats all we do, we dont actually FIX things, hahahahaa.

i just hate it when every day has MORE pressure than a big exam, because you DONT understand the stuff, AND you have to explain it to angry people. why why why. i dont know why, i just know my higher ups said we cant. no you cant talk to him. because theyre too busy, and they will just tell you the same thing. you think youre gonna LIKE the explanation?

was this why our department was failing?

well, it was a symptom of a failing department, that was mismanaged, that was not given the time, money, training, and people it needed to BE successful. and hence we were shut down altogether, permanently. i’m curious what happened to the department afterwards. if anything they needed MORE people, not less!

well…..they needed MORE people during peak business times. just as importantly, they needed BETTER TRAINED people during these times.

its basically fight or flight all day long, every day. how the hell do people do this?

because they have kids to take care of and they dont have any real skills like being a nurse or a electrician and they have to make at least 30k a year to support their kids and they dont want to be a huge deadbeat and not support their kids. lots of single mothers there. sad!

and if i had just gotten a 2 year nursing degree at age 20, i could have been making good money at age 20 hahahaha. well hypotehtically. i never wanted to be a nurse because its stressful and thankless. i dont know how anyone wants to be a nurse except for the Money and the Job Security. but its not great money, theres not great job security, i guess its just kinda easy to get the shittiest of nursing jobs.

yet there are tons of gurls who really want to become nurses.

WHY DONT THEY JUST BECOME WIVES AND MOTHERS INSTEAD? you can  become a nurse when you are 45. literally. so many women are channeling this natural urge to be Nurturing, so they can help angry strangers for 60 hours a week to the benefit of jooish hospitals and health care companies and doctors and then become pill popping sluts, and shitty wives and mothers like nurse jackie hahaha.

so what then, have the wives stay home? you cant afford to do that goy? without a dual income you cant survive goy!

well you live in a shitty neighborhood with violent blacks and browns, that would save money and be a great place for your wife to stay at home with the kids hahaha.

no i say you go to the hwyte rural area like fatherland jim and the hwyte pride singlewide. go and do likewise, gents. his wife stays at home and i dont think he makes a TON of money.

so the trick is, you gotta commute 50 miles one way so you can live far away enough from your job in the city so you can have a nice safe hwyte home in the country. so be prepared to spend extra money on car, insurance. because you werent spending enough money on that stuff as it is, hhahahahaa.

so this was my FATE, my DOOM, my DESTINY, my MISSION from GOD, is that i live a completely un-normal life. that life itself is such a difficult struggle that i cannot even do the bare minimum of being an adult.

i mean its one thing to Not Be Normal. Who’s Normal, you say.

People who rise to the challenge of making 28k a year and living independently, even if in poverty. Being Working Poor and still paying your beels. THAT is normal.

so there was a “PROFESSIONAL CUDDLER” mentioned in parade magazine or AP Reuters news or something. it is definitely a thing now.

i started suggesting this about 2 years ago but as the far more unattractive name of “cuddle hookers” which I dont think would sell nearly as well. i dont know why I just didnt keep it simple and suggest str8 up professional cuddlers.

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/femail/article-4170962/Professional-cuddler-earns-17-000-snuggling-strangers.html

i mean i just didnt know what WORD to CALL it till recently. “PROFESSIONAL CUDDLER” seems to be the term people in the media are settling on.

wow that bitch is cray cray. she is NOT a touchy feely person, left her husband because she wanted to become a poly slut, then went to a cuddle party and discovered at age 37 she wants to become a professional cuddler and for 80 dollars an hour, but shes not really a cuddly person. wtf.

http://www.businessinsider.com/professional-cuddler-2014-7

platonic companionship service that offers professional snuggling

therapeutic, non-sexual, cuddle session with a certified professional cuddler.

alternative touch therapy

http://www.cuddleparty.com/

shit yeah i think its sad, because it means there is enough lonely ass fooking men that are so pathetic they cant convince a normal degen woman to cuddle them, so they have to pay for basic human contact. also that a man could get THAT autistic. its totally the atomizing effect of da jooz hahahaha.

i imagine if you are CUTE and YOUNG you will be in more demand than if you are a FAT SLOB of a woman.

just like with secs, its more fun to cuddle with an attractive woman than an unattractive woman.

at any rate i think this is still a market worth studying. also i wonder if some of the “cuddle parties” are actually FREE of charge, for weird cuddle nerds that actually like cuddling.

but why would you like cuddling with JUST ANYBODY? or with a LOT of people? or someone you just met?  really its just a lesser version of secs. I dont want to cuddle with strangers. well, maybe QT young 20 year old gurl strangers, hahaha. but what does it say when they gather up in parties to cuddle as many people as possible? that they are fooking NUTS. well DUH. were not looking to MARRY these sluts ahahha.

but like that article above says, the woman has to do a lot of Boundaries COnversations because a lot of the PTSD Veterans who havent touched a woman in 10 years, get ATTACHED and fall in LUV after cuddling with her for an hour.

actually 60 dollars an hour is not bad. i might actually do this if i can find an attractive woman.

so yeah. my big question, and ive wondered this for a while, is just laying there with your eyes closed and trying to sleep, does that have ANY benefit, does that Charge Your Batteries at All? i cant imagine it DRAINS you the same way being On during the Peak of your Day does.

but when i get ready in the morning, i have about 20 minutes of free time. i usually use this to lay down in bed, all dressed and ready to go, but just lay there and close my eyes for about 20 minutes. i dont actually want to go to sleep because i have to go to job. but I WANT TO THINK that this 20 minutes gives me a tiny boost and is almost like a 20 minute powernap, even though im not actually sleeping.

how accurate is that?

or what about if youre just having trouble sleeping at night. tossing and turning. one hour goes by. then another. then another. you worry because you are only getting 2 hours of sleep and you have to sell bullshit stories tomorrow to people.

i want to think that just TRYING to sleep has SOME of the effect of ACTUALLY sleeping.

citation needed hehehe.

like today i did my “pre nap”. i laid down for 2 hours but marked down only 1 hour of actual nappng. shit be lucky if it was actually 45 minutes! but I still hope that the nap i had will help me tonight and tomorrow.

no i will be ok tomorrow. its not like i have a job where i have to sell bullshit lies to people and push them off with bullshit excuses.

apr 26

ok survived the day with “only” 5 hours of sleep. i mean i have the easiest job in the world, its fooking stupid. i wish i could be more charming and interesting with the colleages. i mean i am NICE buy i am not very CHARMING. in the competitive world of Productive Enterprise where you always have to sell yourself and establish Competitive ADvantage. I mean the most INTERESTING thing about me are my HORRIBLE, NARROW MINDED, BIGOTED bigotry and racism! that I cant even DEFEND from SHITLIBS who believe in knapsack of privilege and Everybodys Equal! then raise your children and move your family to a nonwhite ghetto, captain save a thug hahahaha. oh whats that? you live in a 94th percentile charles murray superzip? hahahaha. yeah but there is plenty of diversity. indians and asians with masters degrees and phds. analysts and engineers.

wow actually doing good at poker table today, won 2 good hands and now i am up from buyin of 4 to…..8. and i do NOT want to lose it! at a higher stakes table than i like to be at. making my money from a loose aggressive player.

i probably linked this a few months ago and it deserves to be linked again.

i dont hate TRS, I dont think enoch is a j00, i just agree with anglin on pretty much everything he said about enoch and trs. they handled the situation TERRIBLY at the time, they still COULD fix it, it was STUPID how they banned so many people from the forum for simply asking questions about a serious issue. its not to late to apologize. its not too late to unban. i dont think mike himself is a joo at all. many people on stormer think he is, i think thats stupid. i dont mind if anglin links TRS. he should. i agree, TRS adds too much value to the movement and our RACE NOT to link them. i guess enoch still does great daily shoahs. i liked the 2 minutes he was speaking at the spencer speech. would love to see enoch do things himself and have heated arguments with college shitlibs for hours.

but ill always be a bit sour on how they handled the joo wife situation, meaning i wont be as RAVING of a fan of them, wont be as EAGER to gibs them SHEKELS, compared with how I EAGERLY gib shekels to anglin. i have a mancrush on him that hasnt been soured. i couldnt see anglin handling a situation like this. all they needed to do was be transparent and apologize and not act like they were HIDING something.

i KNOW they just made a mistake like humans very often do. but its still not too late to apologize for the mistake, and they havent done that, and it doesnt seem like they ever will! and I would be even MORE sour if they ban me from TRS forum just because I dont post, and took a break, and mainly lurk, and asked good faith questions on other sites, and wasnt THRILLED with how they handled it, AND I donated money directly to sven stating my username before all the doxings. it was right after sven was doxed and before mike was doxed. those doxings were very different because sven didnt have a joo wife. worse, i really liked sven and he was probably involved in a lot of the Unjust Bannings at the forum. I don’t blame him for not blabbing about the joo wife, i would be more butthurt at him for banning so many people and for not gently pushing mike to do more and say more and for letting him get off so…..easily. well. apart from losing his job, family, reputation, livelihood, hahahahaha.

it was a RIDICULOUS situation, it still is, MONTHS later. but mike is a great speaker and thinker and should totally do public events like spencer.

the lovefest i have now with anglin is like the lovefest i had for mike and sven before all the shit went down.

i still enjoy the fatherland and hope to hear no1 again.

just SHUTTING DOWN all discussion of an important topic is not super cool and I WISH the higher ups would understand that and mike would just suck it up for 1 hour and make a heartfelt statement. i mean, he’s lost EVERYTHING, what else does he have to lose? it makes so little sense its frustrating. cant even blame it on joos because i really dont think they are!!!

but yeah The Movement has ALWAYS had infighting and drama like this. ALWAYS. but this was the biggest deal for me, because TRS really changed the game for me, took the movement to the next level, brought it into the current year, became the full realization of VVN 2.0 we’ve all wanted.

yeah well thank GOD anglin is also doing that.

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/dear-women-boys-do-not-like-a-little-bit-more-booty-to-hold-at-night/101967

hehehe fatshaming.

i do like “a little bit more booty”, but I think I’m basically just agreeing with anglin anyway. i dont mind a Kinda Big Butt in that we know women naturally have Bigger Butts and Thighs and Hips than Men, and thats FINE. andrew is of course talking about FAT SLOBS, which IS a BIG problem. and they SHOULD be shamed.

QUOTE For instance, if you see an interracial couple, you can stop and say, enthusiastically “wow, you guys are such a cute couple,” she will almost certainly interpret this as you giving her exactly what she wants – social approval for her brave social justice act. So then, while she’s smiling, look the stupid bitch straight in the eyes and say

“your father must be so proud.”

Then, start laughing, and walk away.   END QUOTE

he gives a lot of clear, actionable advice for young men who dont know these very valuable Life Lessons. I recommend doing these things. classic. anglin clearly knows his shit about women. see laughing is best because it shows total superiority, and that you are not BUTTHURT about it. even though it is justified to be butthurt about hwyte gurls being mudsharks. but you can just LAUGH at it because you know you can pull a better hwyte woman who isnt a mudshark.

QUOTE

Women have exactly zero desire to be “respected” by men who view them as “equals” – women desire to be dominated by men who view them as property.

I want my boys to get laid, I want my boys to sire strong white children with beautiful white women. And I am teaching them to be the kind of men who get that job done.

My agenda is to save the white race by helping men to become men again, and I don’t give a f0ck about the tears of you pussy-worshiping cowards who have abandoned OUR WOMEN to their own fundamentally self-destructive natures by refusing to give them male guidance through the mechanism of public shaming.

You white knight cowards are the ones who are destroying OUR WOMEN by abdicating your masculine duty to put them in their place where they are safe and protected by men who dominate and own them, while at the same time claiming that any man who stands up and does his masculine duty is the bad guy.

White knights are worse than J00s – they are traitors.

END Q

what a great writer! if he made a fiery SPEECH like this, people would be talking about it for months, yet this is just one of 10 articles he writes a day and prob will be forgotten soon. he needs to be doing articles like this in SPEECH form. this would start a fooking RIOT with antifa, and made the good guys look irresistable to women.

i don’t 100% agree that “white knights are worse than joos,” but i think this is andrew being provocative. i mean white knights ARE bad. but i think most are just naive and andrew is trying to wake them up. Get MAD, you sons of bitches!!!!!

good quote from poster: Simple experience with women teaches you this. Women never feel guilt for something they do, only shame for getting caught. Every cheating woman ever feels this way. As long as their man doesn’t know, then there is no problem as far as they are concerned. The courts also recognize the inherently amoral nature of women.  END

shame vs guilt. guilt is much better because it means you actually have morals. since women naturally do NOT have morals, we NEED to SHAME them.

EXTREME PROBLEMS DEMAND EXTREME SOLUTIONS. (not violence hahahahahaha but total verbal public shaming)

so some of the guys kicked off of TRS started a new forum around that time called the purity spiral dot com, look it up hahaha. i signed up for it but havent really read it, heard there are good effortposts there. thats the only thing i dont like about DS BBS, is some of the people seem SO RETARDED and have a huge chip on their shoulder. cant even tolerate a tiny difference in opinion with their white bruders.

hehehe my copy of MEIN K4MPF cannot be delivered fast enough hahahaha.

also i should really get a firearm, i would just like a basic bitch handgun, that’s it.

ideally i should get a concealed carry license just to essentially get TRAINING on how to be a Good Goy With A Gun. Although I really like Open Carry because of the signal it sends: dont even TRY to start shit here, ya filthy animal.

but i have no training on how to properly use, own, maintain a firearm. I’ve fired a firearm no more than 25 times in muh whole life.

apr 27

welp one day at a time haha. decided to start getting up at 5:20 am instead of 5 now. because it CHARGES THE BATTERIES MORE and gives me MORE ENERGY, even if only MARGINALLY, to  sleep an extra 20 minutes than just to lay there are pretend to sleep. although i hop that pretending to sleep does charge batteries a LITTLE.

actually changing that to 530.

this does NOT mean i can stay UP 30 minutes later at night. no. it means i STILL should go to bed at 800 and try to just get more sleep. try to aim for 8 hours and 30 minutes EVERY night.

so basically i was butthurt that women are not MORAL and women are not LOYAL. why cant women be MORAL or LOYAL. they just get to get away with saying sorry thats not how we were born, we dont have it in us, so manage expectations!

and you get butthurt to think that ANY HUMAN BEING, man or woman, hwyte or nonwhyte, NOT be CAPABLE of being MORAL and LOYAL. you just need the WILL.

so which is? can we expect women to be moral and loyal, or is that really TOO MUCH for them?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/National_Socialist_Program#The_25-point_Program_of_the_NSDAP

big dnation drive for daily stormer today as weev posted official article on splc lawsuit on anglin, set up a wesearchr for anglin, just hope that doesnt get shut down and he actually gets the money. i just sent him 5 dollars in btc hahahahaha. big dnator hahaha. because if the wesearchr doesnt actually reach 150k, then he gets nothing. that would suck!

https://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/abortion-and-subsequent-break-up/102137

abortion story on BBS. dont kill your babies! i dont think this guy fully appreciates the gravity of it. but theres a great point about how the woman will resent you if you go along with the abortion. its a giant shit test to get you to say DONT KILL MY BABY.

everything about women is so bad. its stupid to want women. they are SO MUCH NOT WORF IT.

really i hate not being STRONG enough to HANDLE just a normal, average woman. It’s mens JOB to MANAGE their women, and I can’t handle that job. not tough enough. not MAN enough. gotta MAN UP!!

there are a few guys on DS BBS that are such woman haters that they think that if you dont support BEATING women you are a WHITE KNIGHT beta Cuck hahahaha. if you are just a reasonable guy like me and only want to spank women. and sometimes the woman beaters make great points about women. but dont call the men who dont agree with beating women white knights just because they dont want to PUNCH a woman in the FACE. i agree with the white knights: we are white men and should behave more honorably than that. we dont need to beat our women, we dont need “SHARIA” we dont need to call women Things or Property. YES, we need to be IN CHARGE and LEAD our women. be the BOSS of them. but it doesnt mean we OWN them. really. they are more like PETS than PROPERTY hahahahaha. you OWN them but you LUV them too. like your children.

believe me, if anyone is open to extreme woman hating its me. and even i cant be convinced to be as EXTREME as some of these guys. even though i agree that EXTREME PROBLEMS NEED EXTREME SOLUTIONS. we dont need to PUNCH women (unless its antifa gurl hahahaha).

but the “toxic” woman-beaters DO have a decent number of GOOD points about women! alot more that the broken clock is right 2 times a day! these guys are right at least 10 times a day! they shouldnt beat women though! or hate them THAT much!

but the WQ is a huge deal because it affects us ALL, DEEPLY, EVERY DAY. except for the lucky few that have a halfway decent rel with a halfway decent woman. and you gotta be way above average TOUGH and STRONG to pull that off. but as NS VVN’s, this is is what we strive towards hahahaha. being super tough and strong.

BLESSED ARE THE STRONG! THE MEEK SHALL INHERIT NOTHING!

hehehe ive repeated that several times.

well i got well below 1500 calories today, got about 1200. so that was good.

i just hate not being a normie and being so far gone and so weak and pathetic that i can never BECOME a normie!!!!!! :rage: :crying:

even if anglin loses this case, he’s not going to go to JAIL. at worst he will have to shut the stormer down. which would suck. but i think he would find  a way to SOMETHING after that. i mean its amazing he keeps the site up at all anyway!

could the govt seize his BITCOIN??

i mean we have heard stories of bitcoin being seized right? like dread pirate roberts and silk road and all that.

AWWWWW YEAAAAAHHHHHH

GEORGIE BOY IS BAAAAAACCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK

seems like more of the same, except now he has wiped out his subscribers and all his videos! which kinda sucks. i also hoped he would be gone for longer so he could have a REAL break and hopefully make a change.

saved his new email address hahaha.

now all the stupid haters will be back. i am the most bona fide, good faith, honest supporter of george there is.

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