THE DOXXENING

jan 11

basically it all boils down to:

DO THEY REGRET IT (Their degeneracy) ????

HAVE THEY CHANGED?

and thats all folks! very simple! Do they regret it, and have they changed. the end. and a woman whos only had one or two casual partners will regret it and change a lot more than a woman who has had 40 casual partners will have a Road To Damascus moment.

when you regret and change, you USUALLY do that EARLY in the “pattern.” it doesn’t become a pattern. its one and done.

YOU ONLY NEED ONE TO LEARN YOUR LESSON.

There was a great thread on TRS about this recently: how much past degeneracy is too much, and some of us have been degen, so we dont want to be huge hypocrites, and yes it is a fallen world, and yes our waifus will have a history……..

………but how much is too much?

and they came to basically the same conclusions I did above. can’t copy the thread because i would get banned hahahaha.

i mean, you can’t learn and change if you don’t regret something. and WANT to change. you wouldnt WANT or TRY to change if you DIDNT regret being a disgusting whore.

met attractive young woman in nearby department……but she is a damn ARAB. one of those fairly good-looking arab women. i mean not a 9/10 or anything, but def bangable for the desperate hahaha. but what if she was really really NICE and LOYAL to me and wanted to Date me? i mean when a woman does those things for you……i imagine it would be pretty persuasive. i have always wanted a woman who was willing to Go To Bat for me and not Leave Me In The Lurch hahahaha. willing to make a sacrifice for me. get some damn skin in the game. actually GIVE something. MAKE AN EFFORT. it does mean a lot.

So, do not get close to the arab gurl. very simple hahaha. find a nice huhwhyte gurl to get close to. easier said than done hahaha.

so many arabs. the 18, 20 year old kids are all damn arabs. scary. demographic replacement. and i want to be PARTICIPATING in my own replacement??!?!?!?!?! FOOK THAT SHIT!!!!!

14 WORDS!!!!!

so yeah im not worried about that. well i am more worried about never making enough money to have a wife and children.

i mean there will ALWAYS be dirty sluts to fook. pump and dump. if i never find a good waifu and have children, i would at least like to pump and dump degenerate sluts some of the time.

good comments here, everyone sees that george has despair and needs to go see a docker, but he is SO STUBBORN. i know how it is, i was the same exact way, REFUSED to see a doctor unti I was 25. he just refused for about 5 or 6 more years hahahahaha.

I can’t say it REALLY helped me, but it probably helped me a LITTLE, and it definitely didnt HURT me.  i was like fook this shit, i am willing to GAMBLE on drugs. give me some damn drugs already, im ALREADY permanently fooked up, i am willing to gamble, if this has ANY chance of helping me. and i think it did help a little. so it was worth it.

also curious why he wont try MJ. i mean that might not help him. its fair if he doesnt really like it. shit I dont really like it, if i have too MUCH of it, or I am AROUND people. I have to be by MYSELF, and preferably in complete isolation. hard to find the privacy needed to enjoy it. very hard.

alt lite sl00t lauren southern makes a video supporting millennial woes, thats kinda big, i thought they would condemn him for being a horrible racist.

MW himself appears in the comments

yeah im thinking he’s not gonna disappear forever.

dont show your damn tits so much ya damn n>5 sl00t hahahahaha. hey im just going through an anti women PHASE for the next 3 months, it’s only temporary, its only a PHASE.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

have some god damn sexual morality.

you know who DOESNT have sexual morality?

(((((((((((((( YOU KNOW WHO. ))))))))))))))

and the hwytes theyve poisoned of course.

REGRET YOUR MISTAKES. FEEL ASHAMED OF THEM, THEN CHANGE YOURSELF FOR THE BETTER. DONT DO THOSE SHITTY THINGS ANY MORE. AND DONT DO THE SHITTY THING 600000000000000 TIMES BEFORE YOU START TO FEEL BAD ABOUT IT. STOP SUCKING AND FOOKING SO MANY GUYS. DONT YOU THINK ITS GROSS HOW YOU HAVE GOD DAMN HERPES???!!?!?!??!!!! THATS NATURE TELLING YOU WHAT YOURE DOING IS DISGUSTNG AND WRONG!!!!!

heh. i just dont know how women can have secs with strangers. even IF theyve been brainwashed by schlomo. well theres peer pressure too. all their friends are doing it. and then college. i mean theyre already sluts in high school. this is why we homeschool hahaha.

ok women 2015 and 2012 went to degen public high schools and did not become sluts. so. theres that.

heh. i still want her. i mean i KNOW i can live without her, but i still want to hang out with her, dont care about hanging out with other women. but i dont KNOW any other women.

and if i cant get any women then i would like ot have some MJ.

but yeah i would totally bang the shit out of lauren southern, i am not above that whatsoever. just really manhandle that body. get real MANHANDSY.

heh. i wish high school had a military class, to get you psyched up to join the military when you were 18, so you did like PRACTICE military when you were 16, so boot camp wouldnt be so rough when you were 18.

well theres boy scouts. i should have done this but i was not a joiner. i thought the boy scouts were phaggots. i thought EVERYONE was phaggots. i had an even WORSE attitude than i had now! at least now i respect SOME authority! and actively reject degeneracy! well, some degeneracy. i still want to do MJ. but i KNOW its degen!

HOLY SHIT 7TH SON WAS DOXED!!!!!!!!

well i guess its not being spread as far and wide as i would expect

this only happened 4 or 5 days ago. holy shit. 7th son, full name, home address, family. holy shit this is ridiculous. also found a thing with ghoul’s real name, address, really personal stuff about his family.

i dont even get it. not even sure marxist antifa were behind this. something to do with something said on red ice? holy shit this is absolutely ridiuclous. wifes name, pictures of the kids, these SAVAGES.

Well 7th son is handling it as best as a man possibly could, just laughing about it, “owning it”, even posting a few pictures himself. i will prob never understand the Forum Drama that led to this. but i do wonder what 7th son’s fatal flaw was. how did they piece it all together. i mean i did see the livestream screenshot from last year in there. maybe that was what did it. and he is a musician in normie life so there are pictures of normie him.

just fookin crazy tho. but if hes not worried i’m not worried. he has been posting since the dox.

i mean shit at this rate k1ke enoch will prob get doxed. its just a matter of time. i hope he is preparing himself. im sure he is, he’s a smart guy.

i just dont want anyone’s career to suffer, or their families to suffer, to have people harrassing wives and children. but really. a couple of phaggy sjw’s protesting outside 7S’s house? his CHILDREN could beat their asses!!!!!!!!!

but yeah 7thS i am most concerned about, because he’s older and has children. he is even somewhat older than me hahahahahahaha. but not by a lot hahahaa. but he’s got a great attitude about it all. good for him.

shit what if i got doxed and fired from my 13k a year job hahahahaha.

jan 12

UNCLE BERN does a video on MILLENNIAL WOES, first time i think Bern has mentioned MW.  Come on Uncle Bern. Join the TRVE Alt-Right. Take the J Pill!!!!!

its great when you get rejected for an 13k a year part time job FOUR MONTHS after you first apply, AND they REPOST the position the SAME DAY. that’s saying we didnt find anyone in 4 months good enough for this 13k job, AND you’re not allow to apply again, we’re not interested in you, otherwise we would have called you for an interview.

i would have been a little more annoyed if i didnt already have the current job. which is a similar 13k a year job with the same large org.

https://heartiste.wordpress.com/2017/01/09/a-white-hot-fire-rises/

i have been reading heartiste for OVER TEN YEARS and he/they were always friendly to hwytes, and now that alt right and pro-hwyte is getting big, i am glad he continues to be very friendly to it, and see tons of 1433 in the comments.

wimmin tech ceo ladyboss leaning in with her professional advice

yep middle amerikkka racist workin class hwytes like me and MY PEOPLE vote against our interests because we DONT WANT TO SEE BROWN PEOPLE THRIVE.

what a jooish thing to say, amirite? what a fookin race traitor hahahahaha. bet her one kid grows up to be a phag druggie loser bipolar biracial trannie hahahahaha

i would be great at doxing people, i was talking to a “customer” today who is a really great guy, just a really great guy, and we share some interest in…..europeans and i should try to convert him to VVN hahahahaha. i found where he lives just using google and some things i knew about him from talking to him. this is what happens when your name is on the internet hahaha. he is totally doxed, it doesnt matter, he interacts with a ton of people and uses his real name. MOST people dont even know what doxing is because they have no reason to use a fake name ever!

but yeah this guy is so great i have to take some time to really let it sink in. getting a mancrush on this 70 year old man hahahaha. he has a masters degree but is super down to earth. well, so are all the people i work newjob with. they all have masters degrees and are very down to earth. i would try to be the same way if i had a masterz degree hahaha.

but yeah lets just say this guy is RIGHT in my demographic wheelhouse and if he were a 20 year old woman, i would marry him hahahaha.

heh. now that hwyte is KEWL again, and whyte men are KEWL again, and whyte gurls like whyte guys again, i wont be able to compete with the fresh crop of new young secsy whyte guys! why go for a 30+ year old neet loser VVN when you can go for a 20 year old alpha chad VVN who has tons of potential for a good career? i cant blame these women for picking superior men!

ok ok settle down

welp at this point more people are doxed than undoxed. seriously. except for….mike enoch. and…….i dunno. the “small time” podcast guys on TRS no one has heard about like the fatherland guys or fash the nation.

i dont want to be doxed probably just as much because of me whining about my pathetic virgin neet loserness, that is a lot more humiliating and embarrassing then me saying 1433 hywytes are awesome HOLY FOOK I LUV BEING HWYTE

holy-fook-i-love-being-white

i honestly do fam, it’s not complicated at all, thats all there is to it. but being hwyte is the best thing about me. really i am quite a low quality hwyte and can’t seem to pull myself out of it. i guess i have been low quality since…2002 or so. didnt really start CARING abotu that till 08 or 09.

i mean i wasnt HAPPY about it from 02 to 08 either, i was just drinkin tons and smokin tons to distract and numb and block out and stupefy and escape. i wasnt a happy go lucky degenerate. not a true full blown hedonist. because then i would have been 100% enjoying myself. but i wasn’t. i knew deep down what i was doing was WRONG. i was ashamed. so escape the shame by doing more shameful drinking.

met a black african from africa today with a phd in math. i still can’t even. why is he not making 300k a year with some…..i dunno , business, finance, research, analytics? instead he is teaching, not even high profile jobs, not even doing respectable research, he prob doesn’t like teaching, and his students definitely dont like HIM, and think he’s a bad teacher! god damn! how can you fook up a phd in MATH?

i’m sure he’s smart enough to have a good upper middle class job. this isnt even about him being a black african. it’s about him having a PHD in MATH and making less than 50k a year. period. that tells me that phd in math isnt a much of a magic bullet, write your own ticket sort of degree.

you still gotta have CHARISMA. and god bless him, he didn’t seem to have much of that. CHARISMA is really the most important thing in life. Charisma and hard work, even better.

and i never had either. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

call the waaaaaamberlamps hahahahaha.

but yeah if you have a grad degree AND charisma, you’ll prob do well. the guys i work with who have grad degrees, they also have charisma as well. they are pleasant to talk to, nice people, good people, good talkers, can hold a conversation. they are also fairly hard workers. they have been justly rewarded with good careers, good middle class lives, white wives, and white children. thank god. each man has MORE than two white children. fookin AWESOME. they didnt marry g00ks, and they picked good women who didnt dump them, and they live good, admirable lives. but i don’t think their masters degrees would have gotten them as far if they weren’t as charismatic. as CHARMING. the one guys wife is not ugly. havent seen the other guys wife, but i know she is first gen european. and not from a nonwhite euro country like albania or finland HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

no jk i luv the finns. i dont mean to compare them to the albs in any way.

this isnt like when they used to say irish and poles arent white. NOBODY says the albanians are white. NOBODY REALLY said poles werent white.

now i know in UK they dont like poles. play the EJ00 for that, dont blame poles. no more D&C, no more brother wars hahahaha.

so. what do you if you get doxed…..and no one really cares? seventh son got doxed and i had to make a concerted effort to even find the info. its not big on twitter or /r/altright or youtube. no one even really knows or cares who SS is! I mean I think he’s great. Theres a great example of GR8 CHARISMA. That guy is a CHARMER. That guy knows how to talk to people. I think he would be GREAT to socialize with.

but its totally different than the MW doxing. that is big news. all over the news and youtube. people who never spoke of MW are now speaking positively of him. people who never heard of him are now checking him out. absolutely none of that with SS. i guess this partially explains why he’s taking it very well, but i was kinda hoping for 6 million white normies to view TRS and say, yep i like this.

and i am super disgusted that, unlike with MW, the people that doxed SS aren’t even antifa, they are just edgy nihilist neet virgin forum geeks who will put FORUM DRAMA ahead of their own RACE. i literally cant even. there might even be a few who believe TRS is j00 shills. like if nutcases like sinead were good at computerz and doxing. like a god damn 50 foot baby with a flamethrower.  this is the absolute worst kind of punching to the right there is. this is absolute treason. even a child knows that doxing is wrong. unless you totally have a screw loose. there are other ways to prank somebody than doxing.

but if seventh son keeps calling himself seventh son or sven, and all of his fans keep calling him that, i mean we don’t even CARE what his real name is. to me and i’m sure to many others, he’ll always be 7th son, and MW will always be MW. no need for us to even SAY their real names. If I ever contacted them I would still address them as SS or MW unless they made a big announcement about wanting people to call them by their doxed normie name.

just like im sure people will still use guy fieri or vince vaughn pictures to make seventh son memes, even though his real face is out there.

but yeah if mike enoch lasts another 6 months undoxed i will be shocked. im sure he is preparing. well, i think he PROB has better opsec than SS.

really im just worried about ME getting doxed hahahaha. i mean i have no marketable skills that employers would say, meh we dont care if hes a NOTSEE, none of our clients care, and he’ll make us money.

FINALLY, i’ve been waiting a long time for a decent hand

2017-01-12-19_44_59-turmeric-0-02_0-04-no-limit-holdem-replay-14137137

and with my luck, i would lose with AA. and he had a damn good hand too. the second best hehehehe. i went all in with like 3 and won the pot of 6.09. so my stack was 6.09 after the win. not 12.18 hehehehe.

heh. i dont even want my poker name to be doxxed hehehe. and thats nowhere close to my real name and i dont even use it anywhere else.

but yeah the 8ch vs TRS thing, somebody said it was almost like the neet sperg virgins against the normie chads. beta uprising against the bully chads who just werent as nerdy on the computarz. and when you have that much omega butthurt, you dont care about lashing out and hurting people of your race. you just want to get revenge on the popular guys who get the gurlz. i would mention columbine but i dont even think those guys were lonely for waifus, i think they were just nihilist psychopath sociopaths, the type who like torturing animals.

now i’m SURE the g00k virgins like virginia tech and elliot rodger, yeah they hated and envied whytes, because they wanted to BE whyte so they could get whyte gurls. see the elliot rodger manifesto, which is nowhere NEAR as good as the breivik manifesto hahaha.

i come from an older generation where we were kids in the 90s and we were so nihilistic, we used to worship serial killers and marilyn manson. serial killers were automatically cool because they were crazy and sadistic and K’d people. we wouldn’t have bother makign a distinction between cho and rodger other than cho was Moar Badass because he had a higher Body Count. and evaluating the manifestos on their own merit was unheard of, a waste of time that could be better used playing vidya or beating off to pron or smokin MJ. Like I say, horrifying depths of degeneracy. but I’m ashamed of it, i regret it, and I never want to go back to it. i’ve repented and learned my lesson and never got that bad again.

but i still want to sm0ke mj hehe.

but i DONT want to look at porn, and i certainly dont want to glorify crazy nihilistic serial K’ers!!!!! Nowadays I glorify things that are WORTH being glorified: beauty, truth, morality, virtue, honesty, hard work, honestly, charisma, confidence, 14 words, folk, family, faith, blood and soil, honor, being a man of your word, doing the right thing. did i miss anything. prudence. temperance. moderation. self-control. stoicism. tradition. being a good husband and father. heritage. strength. perseverance. resilience. toughness. being a true blue cobber. bantzing cvnts and seppos with some ripper belter qualityposting.

all that shit. i got muh priorities straight at least hahahaha.

http://usa.polishhearts.com/en/

no need for degeneracy like tinder hehehehe

jan 13

heh i just dnated 6.16 to trs to show solidarity to sven getting doxed, and also to prove that i am not a infiltrator on the 504umz, cuz i never actually post there, and lurking looks suspicious.

You sent $6.16 USD to redacted
YOUR NOTE TO redacted

Hail Sven! Sorry about the insultingly tiny d’nation, but I already d’nate every week on LiberaPay, haha. Just wanted to score Good Boi Points for my forum persona @redacted so you know I’m not a damn traitor like the swine who doxxed you. (Plz don’t dox my normie name thx :DDDDDD) What those filthy animals did is absolutely disgusting, and I am sorry you and your family have to deal with that. I admire that you are dealing with it as well as a right true blue cobber can. It’s also comforting knowing that your young children could easily beat the shit out of the types of sissy, pantywaste antifa that would ever want to harass you IRL. I guarantee they are going after Mike E next, so hope he is planning accordingly. Anyway, keep up the great work, TRS is the greatest pro-hwyte organization in the past 70 years or so, haha. HAIL VICTORY! – redacted

heh. mainly it is to remove suspicion from me being a LURKER on the forums, since that makes it look like you are an infiltrator gaining intelligence, copying private shit, sending screenshots to enemies and doxers, etc. its easily the most exclusive, hard to get into forum ive ever been a part of hahahahaha.

http://goaskalice.columbia.edu/answered-questions/friends-partners-possible-0

i think ive linked this before but i get a newsletter from them every friday and this showed up innit.

they say to KYS you lyng traitor niceguy betrayer abuser, waiting in the wings, ulterior motives, entitled, false pretenses, whole friendship was built on a scheming jooish manipulating lie, hahahahaha.

no, hahahaha, they say NOTHING VENTURED, NOTHING GAINED, and to talk to the person about it. see i was RIGHT ahhaahahaha.

I WAS RIGHT. hahahaha. this is why you want a damn court of relship law. because you want to be proven RIGHT because you are being accused of being WRONG.

esp when right or wrong makes no difference in fixing the rel.

if you’re gonna be heartbroken REGARDLESS, you might as well be RIGHT. 

truer, wiser words were never spoken.

heh. i hope sven does not think i am a jooish infiltrator who is scheming to gain his trust by making a dnation. if i were REALLY a good goy i’d give a HUGE dnation. well what if i were a rich J hellbent on destroying TRS, and then giving them a HUGE dnation in bad faith. jeez.

well he or one of his goons can email me if they want to vet me.

grace kelly had series of affairs with married men before she married prince ranier at age 26? DEGENERATE. Supposedly it caused her guilt with her catholic upbringing.

WELL IT OBVIOUSLY DIDNT CAUSE ENOUGH GUILT OR SHAME OR REGRET, OTHERWISE SHE WOULDNT HAVE DONE IT MORE THAN ONCE.

my point is, all those wholesome (((((((entertainment celebrities )))))))) of the 1950s were STILL degenerates, even the goys. when you think of the 50s as a Much Better Time.  well in general yes it prob was, but not in ((((hollywood)))))

THERE ARE BETTER WAYS to figure out if you’d be “okay” with your friend secsually than having surprise secs with them and then avoiding talking about the complicated situation ever. how about you take some time, think about it deeply, talk to the person at length about it. not avoid them, then dart in, fook them, dart out, ocntinue avoiding, get his hopes up, then inevitably break his heart now that he’s totally all in, then you say nope sorry i fold. for decent women, the fooking means that they are going all in too. not that they are gonna fold immediaetly after. that is against the rules and should incur a fee.  give me certificates for 100 moar fooks, and buy me an ounce of MJ at least. AND MOVE THE FOOK OUT OF MUH HOUSE. STOP BEING MY ROOMMATE. HOLY SHIT. SHE LIVES WITH THE GUY AS a platonic friend roomate and THIS is how shes handling it. and he says uhhhh maybe i’m a little too old (25) to not know how to deal with this. and THIS is how she, the same age, is handling it!!!!! what a dumb bitch!!!!!!

heh. i like that /relships now keeps scores hidden for a while. why did they not do this before. because all the WOMEN who read that, all they do is PILE ON, and this might mitigate that.

these bitches are so willing to fook but they wont communicate. just because you squirt sperm in their body and make a new life doesnt mean they’re letting down their wall enough to actually talk to you about Your Relationship and How You Feel About Each Other.

you shouldn’t let someone squirt sperm in you and possibly create a new human being unless you’re willing to talk about all that, ya dumb B!!!!

he needs to find a better woman to have feelings for. she doesnt deserve him.

this could possibly also be a top 5% post and go in the best of list.

communication has NEVER been easy, but secs should NEVER be easier than Communication. You Know Who made it this way!

so yeah that bothers me:::

if having SECS is easier than COMMUNICATING, then WHAT ELSE is easier than communicating?

cheating on you? murdering your baby? fooking blacks? having casual secs with more than 10 people? coldly shooting someone in the head who is begging you to spare their life? (thinking “millers crossing” if the john turturro char were not a sneaky traitor joo, and did not deserve to die. most underrated COHEN brothers movie ever.) god damn.

TRVMP said buzzfeed is a “PILE OF GARBAGE.” He is absolutely right. I did a FIST PUMP when he said that.

heh. slept VERY soundly last night. went to bed little late, like 1 am, slept soundly till like 830 am, thought I would just stay up, but fell back asleep SOUNDLY until like 10:30 am, and i never sleep past 10 at the LATEST. because then you look like a REALLY lazy neet loser. but i felt i could have slept another hour. then had day off today, and literally almost fell asleep around 3 pm. i couldnt keep my eyes open. then ate dinner and took a benedryl in anticipation of sleeping moar tonight. and here i am.

so varg says its best to build your home out of stone. he talks a lot of shit but one thing i do trust him on is living off the grid and how to do shit like around the house and car and farming and family and shit like that. but i dont trust what he says about christians and the alt right hahahaha.

anyway i agree, you want some LAND in the country, and to build a home that lasts 100 years. doesnt fall apart, stays warm in the winter, and i guess stone is good for all this. is brick stone? is a chicken a bird?

THE JUICE AINT WORTH THE SQUEEZE hahahaha gotta start using that one more often.

wonder if MW got kicked off patreon yet….prob happen soon. before feb hhahahahha. nope he’s still on there.

 

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MARXIST HUNTER

this may be a logn one hehehe.

had funny dream that i was interviewing for a basically entry level 30k job with a car dealership. i did not want to be a salesperson or involved with sales. just back office tasks. i was talking to two slick salesmen types. i hadnt prepared very well and was trying to bullshit as best as i could, but these guys were obviously MASTERS OF BULLSHIT and had turned it into good careers for themselves.

i was getting exhausted and then finally it came to and end and i was like thank god, i cant wait to get out of here, and they were like yep we’ll see you in 30 mins for the next part of the interview. i was like huhhhhhh????

so then i did that and it was a group thing where we were taking a test or solving a problem or doing group work. got to see all the other candidates wearing their suits too. I was competing against a roomful of 30 candidates for a 30k a year job. and they all talked like more of a normie than me, less awkward.

then that task ended and i got immediate feedback from a bubbly young HR gurl. welp you did pretty good on this part, this task was actually measuring bla bla, here’s our rubric of what we were looking for, you scored an 88% hahahaha.

and i was like ok i guess thats good right. and they were like ok we’ll see you back here in 30 minutes for the next session.

basically we were gonna be there ALL DAY, at least 8 hours of tasks and sessions and mini interviews and tests, for all 30 candidates, and the “winner” would get the sweet 30k a year back office job at the car dealership.

I was quickly becoming like FOOK THIS SH!T, I thought it was just one 45 minute interview and then maybe they’d call me back for a second interview. not a whole day of shit. I’m leaving.

heh. sunday. took nyquil at 12pm in prep for going to BED at 730 to get up at 510 am for MONDAY.

had actual brief NAP on sunday afternoon. sunday afternoon is the ONLY time adults can get away with taking a NAP, and even then, its suspect. only lazy neet loser incel negros take NAPS. NAPS are about the most degenerate thing ever. hahahaha. no i jest. i LUV naps, would LUV to take one EVERY day, but there truly is an anti nap stigma in the adult world. you can get away with naps until you are like 25 hahahaha. yeah well i argue you need good sleep just as much if not more AFTER age 25. plus you’ll have more shit DRAINING you and MAKING you exhausted and you’ll constantly want a nap every minute of every day.

anyway i have done ok and have not taken naps in like 3 years. honestly, truly Adulting Adults DONT HAVE TIME TO TAKE NAPS. its called just going to sleep and then waking up the next day. that’s your nap. be Underslept, get up, go to your Job, drink an UNGODLY amount of coffee to get you thru the next 10 hours somehow, then PROMISE yourself you will go to bed early at night to catch up, rather than doing stupid shit like sm0kin MJ, or staying up late, or studying work shit because every day is like an exam. with the pressure level of the top 20% of a tetris game hahaha. i really like the tetris metaphor hahaha.

Yuquijiro Yocoh – Sakura Variations
John Williams, guitar
JCW 2 –

heard this song on the classical station and liked it, knew id heard it before but didnt know what it was, hoped it wasnt somehow jooish, it sounded “EASTERN”. turns out its by a jap. a nip. the joo fears the samurai hahahahaha. ok that is acceptable.

then i heard this song on the radio as well and i was as moved as i could be by hearing a new song for the first time. i found her voice and the lyrics very beautiful. and usually i ignore and hate all lyrics. and usually i dont like women singers because they are women hahahahahahahahaha.

i guess they have to have an IRISH thing going on, i like irish women.  this woman wasnt even born in ireland, but her parents were, and she luvs ireland, and lives there now, and sounds like she would have an irish accent.

anyway a woman with a good singing voice like this makes you think of how great women CAN be…..but so often they just throw that away. wilfully profane their sacred gifts hahahahaha.

women singing like this captures their natural beauty very well. reminds you of what women are good at. or supposedly good at. like being warm and gentle and loving in a way that only a woman can. but they choose to act like jooish n3gr0 infants instead hhahaha. but they can be so much more. they can make you a better man with their luv hahahahahaha.

then say dont put me on a pedestal creeper, and have casual secs and murder their babies, except for the black mudshark babies of course hahahahaha.

and i say yep definitely not pedestal worthy, ya filthy animal. good luck getting any woman on a pedestal again. then you hear a beautiful irish woman voice.

also pedestal vs fantasy. fantasy is bad, i think pedestal can sometimes be ok, provided its not a fantasy, provided she thinks similarly of you. fantasy is just a damn fictional lie in your mind only.

so yeah theres a ton of irish female singers. im sure this cathie ryan is somewhere in the second or third tier hahahahahaha.

DONT USE THE PHRASE LET THEM GO WHEN THEY DONT WANT TO GO. WHAT YOU MEAN TO SAY IS, YOU WANT TO DUMP THEM. YOU WANT TO THROW THEM AWAY, NOT LET THEM GO. DUMPING SOMEBODY WHEN THEY BEG YOU NOT TO DUMP THEM IS NOT WHAT LETTING SOMEBODY GO IS.

not really a big deal, it just shows how stupid women are, that they use such a wrong term for something that clearly isnt what it sounds like. letting somebody go is when THEY WANT to go, and you dont want them to LEAVE……but you let them leave. you let them go. you’re breaking your own heart, not theirs.

i believe the word you are looking for is throwing them away like a piece of garbage. not letting them go. hahahahahahaha.

nice hahahahaha

After a couple months, things started to get weird. She would sometimes get angry at me for no apparent reason and would just stop talking to me or started to push me away. I would insist her that we talked so that we could figure things out. After several tries she would agree to talk to me, but got really defensive. Every time, she would say something about me being bipolar or too clingy, or that I was too immature or being a child, and I always ended up taking the blame and apologizing for things I wasn’t sure I even did. The other problem I noticed with her is that she didn’t like talking things out. I’m a person who likes to talk and express things to fix problems, but she would say that that made her uncomfortablen and she preferred to just pretend nothing had happened and moved on.”

OH LORD

http://archive.is/9FGLk

archive this one. beautiful and tragic story. very close parrallels to my own story with that woamn, although that woman wasnt nearly as shitty as this woman, also she was not older. i was older hahah

thankfully the comments didnt say YOU CREEPY MONSTER K YOURSELF!!!!! they said, do yourself a favor and get the fook away from this USER!!!!

so what she a user? that woman? i think maybe she had a tiny part that was, and she just didnt realize it. and the larger part was she was just a genuinely good person. but this was part of her dark side. that she was capable of using people and throwing them away. well we all are really.

i appreciate her brutal honesty hahahaha. i would be similar to her husbando. except i dont want to do a philosophy thing cuz its too marxist. i was done with that desire by age 26 hahahaha. however i might be interested in a counseling MA and making an active effort to Not Be Marxist. which is all ((((THEORY)))) means. unfortunately. I have a BIG problem with that. hahahaah.

also he is able to get a decent normie job without a grad degree. and he has a gf who isnt chomping at the bit to LEAVE him. so yeah can’t REALLY relate to the situation.

also I knew YEARS ago that getting a grad degree to PROVE YOURE SMART is a HORRIBLE idea. but i totally udnerstand that. because you know people in your tier of smartness generally do get grad degrees. and you dont have one. so you look like either a failure, or an idiot, or lazy.

jan 9

whoa ate like 900 calories over due to fancy restaurant steak dinner LOL hahaha. first world problems hehehe. i gave thanks to GOD for that privilege. should have showed more thanks by not eating the whole damn 12 oz steak hahahaha. and REALLY did not need to have a pastry for dessert. this is EXACTLY how people gain weight and get FAT.

anyway. guy in reddit. why doesnt his gf just LEAVE him for being INSECURE? because she luvs him and wants to make an effort. good for her. but he can already make a living, and wants to get a grad degree in something useless just to prove he’s SMART? why doesnt she leave him? well because he CAN provide for them.

these people who brag about their 20 year old son studying Engineering at Big State Univ and getting an Internship with Top 20 Company, they dont brag to make you feel bad for being a loser who wasted your own time in Uni. They are legit proud of their children. You would be the same way. besides, you think they are gonna talk about their MJ addicted neet loser child? hahahaha. the child who is gonna turn out like you ? hahahaha no they wont talk about  them at ALL. if you ask about them they will use their grown up powers of Social Skills to smoothly change the subject to something else.  these people have been married for 25 years, have raised children, have talked to clients for 30 years. they can handle difficult conversations with ease. you lie and say you have great people skills and communication skills, these people actually DO and you would be wise to watch and learn. and i try folks, i promise you.  i try to learn all i can from the great example of these highly skileld people. i am grateful for the opportunity to even be around them. at my previous job we couldnt get NEAR a person who was GOOD at something because we would have eaten them alive like piranhas because we NEEDED Subject Matter Experts DESPERATELY. someone who ACTUALLY knew what they were doing!

a classroom of 100 students who desperately need a teacher!

100 crying babies who need their mommy!

well see when the baby cries in the middle of the night, you’re suppose to leave them, let them cry it out, to teach them they dont REALLY NEED their mommy, and they will LIVE, and then they dont cry any more.

didnt work like that at previous job. because its not all in your head. you have a person bitching at you about a problem they think YOU are supposed to fix. its not like a crying baby at ALL. where YOU are the crying baby. a baby will cry at everything and nothing.

http://www.dailyrecord.co.uk/news/scottish-news/meet-vile-vlogger-whose-racist-9586908

oh lord. those k1k3s did it. doxed millennial woes. welp i guessed his first name correctly hahahaha. but i never told anyone, and certainly not a journalist! this is that same scumbag that did a story on MW a few months ago. fooking cvnt.

i just sent him 5 GBP (6.25 USD) just because hahahaha. god damn these traitors. well, traitors assumes they were ever on our side to begin with. unfookin believable.  well, its actually not surprisingly.

GO DONATE MW SHEKELS NOW!!

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i think he will do all right, i just want him to not get scared away, to run from these parasites. i want him to stand up and say yeah now what you vermin. i will continue fighting with my real name.

so he might shut down his channel, but people are downloading and backing up all his videos. im not really worried about that. im more worried about him getting scared and just going into hiding. yes he should protect his family….but he should also not lay down for these subhumans.

heh. now im gonna get arrested because i sent him paypal right after he was doxed hehehehe. that or they wont let him have muh money.

jan 10

https://info.publicintelligence.net/AndersBehringBreivikManifesto.pdf

brevik manifesto, hear this is bretty good.

glancing thru it, it looks a lot better than i expected. lots of valuable stuff here. and well written. recommend it to your homeschool students. required reading hahaha. sheeeeeeit. i guess i was turned off by the idea of him K’ing kids. I thought it was SO misguided that i didn’t bother reading “the nonsensical ravings of a madman”. but these writings are anything but.

how many “kids” were there really, vs people over, say, 20?

these were full blown COMMUNISTS. it stands to reason a decent number of them were J’s.

he should have made some videos because its hard to read a 1500 page manifesto. but damn i think the majority of it might be worth reading.

similar thing with the journals of dylan roof.  he prob had some good stuff to say. they say he was a reader of daily stormer hahahaha. well i am a Sustaining D’nater to daily stormer hahahahaha.

breivik has vowed to SMASH MARXISM, esp cultural marxism. can’t say this is a bad goal at all.

see section 3.86 Sexual ethics/sexual morality in Western Europe has been destroyed by cultural Marxism and liberalism

BOIOIOIOIOIOING.

his sister had more than FORTY partners? he knows men who have been with THREE HUNDRED women?

dear lord

2017-01-10-16_51_34-andersbehringbreivikmanifesto-pdf

hehehehehehe (page 1172)

oh dear god how have i not seen this

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that is fookin AWESOME. oh my lord. how has that not become a YUGE MEME. i mean maybe it did and i missed it. but it should have been YUGE.

that LITERALLY made my day. Having a Decent day at the New Job, did pretty good at my main goal of Seeming Like A Normie Nonweirdo to muh coworkers and “clients”, introduced self to person in nearby department which ive been meaning to do for a few weeks, and then come home and find this. MARXIST HUNTER. fookin awesome. i have to say, today was a good day hahahahaha.

well apart from MY LAD MW getting doxed. that sucks. hope his family is ok and he is ok and that he comes back and doesnt RUN AWAY. but i bet he is getting some good donations. as he should!

kinda wish breivik had had 10 children. he said there should be a 3 years bachelors degree program in parenting. i cant say this is a bad idea hahahaha.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anders_Behring_Breivik

ok i guess he copypasted large amounts of the manifesto. well it still sounds good!

i wanted to see if he had a masters degree. does not seem he even has a bachelors degree hahaha. but he is working on one in prison. bachelors in poli sci hahahahaha. he has also “converted to notseeism” and “odinism” hehehehehehe.

NOT BAD!

MUH N!99A!!!

its ok to be a christian tho hahaha.

i dont like that he got plastic surgery on his face.

and i guess he is a narcissist. not surprising.

they gave him 21 years in prison. i mean he will be like 55 years old when he gets old. unless he dies in prison. well i saw some norwegian saying that the courts will prob make sure he stays in prison longer, for the rest of his life basically.

something about his crime was to increase visibility of his manifesto. uhhhh that failed miserably. i am the target audience of the manifesto and i didnt even look at it until like 5 years later!

he would have been even more effective making youtube vidyas and having 10 kids and raising them right.

they say he writes a lot in prison…but its not like we can READ the stuff!

but yeah supposedly he banged a lot of low-sexuality-morality sluts. i am so glad he uses these words hahahahaha.

but yeah he mentions some HIGH, negro like numbers for people he knows. his friends and family. people close to him. good looking hwhyte norwegians. all having 30, 40 partners like a damn n3gr0. its sad and disgusting.

even men having 300 or 700 partners, i can’t condone that! not to mention, i cant fathom the logistics. that’s like me literally BANGING just about every woman i’ve ever SEEN that is bangably attractive. imagine you’ve banged every attractive woman you’ve ever seen in your real life. how much WORK would that take? well it must not take that much for these men to bang 700 women. well, admittedly, those were the topkek men. normal men only bang 30 women hahahaha.

NORMIE MEN ONLY BANG 30 WOMEN hahahahaha.

i dunno i think i’d have a fun hour with ABB. just go to lunch and talk about cultural marxism, sexual morality, and race. he mentioned “GENOPHILIA” in the manifesto, ie, the love of your own race, which is ok for every race but whites.

heh. he’s not wrong. find myself saying this on every page of the 1433 page manifesto. actually 1518 pages hahahaha.

THIS FOOKIN GUY hahahaha.

wheres the MARXIST HUNTER tshirts???!?!?!?!?!

anyway. i think there will be a decent amount of Non Alt Right people esp in scotland, who heard about MW and have never heard him before, and will listen to his videos and say, hmmm he’s nowhere near as bad as this media is slandering him to be, these liars. how does he not have the right to say this. he’s a good boi, he dindu nuffin.

and i am cautiously optimistic that this might make woes stronger than he has ever been. this is gonna be a Good Gamechanger for him.

people are making support videos for him on youtube. it is becoming a huge story. probably get him thousands of new subs. he is gonna get promoted into an even higher tier hehehe. good for him. he deserves it. i luv MW hahaha.

You sent £5.00 GBP to Millennial Woes
YOUR NOTE TO Millennial Woes

quote GOOD LUCK MILLENNIAL WOES!!!!!!!! I honor your sacrifice and pray for your safety and that of your family. You have already made an immeasurable impact in securing the existence of our people. I hope you can give us an update on your situation ASAP. Weev could probably give lots of good advice in remaining safe and free outside of the UK. You’re an inspiration to me and many others. Please be safe and please try to update us (if it doesnt compromise your own safety!) Hope the media scumbags are not targeting your family in Scotland. GOD Bless you Lad!!!!

hahahaha i am SO GENEROUS hahahaha

is an EdD degree equal to a PhD? are there some EdD assholes who demand to be called “Dr” like some dickheads who happen to have a PhD? met a guy today and turns out he had a EdD but he was very down to earth. i did some stealth research while he was in the room and then discovered he had a EdD hehehehe.

and he’s not making 180k a year as a Dean or Superintendent somewhere? is there a GLUT of EdDs??? maybe.  and these people are all writers and poets. and just as unknown for their poetry as the BFA of Creative Writing working at starbucks or tech support hehehe.

besides if they were REAL poets they’d be drinking themselves to death and or have serious Psych problems that prevent them from making 26k a year or from getting a Masters or Doctorate degree hehehehe. prevents them from being anything but neet losers. you’re not TROUBLED enough, you have a DOCTORATE and make above average money and can afford the Bourgeois Luxury of CHILDREN.

POSSIBLE TOPKEK POAST HERE!!!!!!!!!

heh. now that MW is out of the closet as a hgue notzee, maybe he can record a chat with andrew anglin. ive never even heard either one mention the other. they are both manlets. maybe its the same guy hahahahahaha.

now the antifa are planning a protest of anglin’s father’s office near colombus OH. cant say i’m surprised. im surpirsed it didnt happen EARLIER, he’s posted this address publicly for YEARS, and his father willingly takes money. he could easily say, no son don’t put my address out there. and you know how he could force andrew to remove the address? just seize the money people are sending him. but he’s clearly not!

not even making andrew get a damn PO box!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

which he could easily pay for out of the donation money!

i would like anglin to do more real life stuff. he’s a great writer but i just assumed he was drifting in europe or asia. nope. in the past he was, but now he’s just hanging around damn ohio. who is he hanging out with? i think he honestly spends a lot of time by himself “just” writing and managing the site. its not like he doesnt have more than enough for a full time job there. im just selfish, i want more of a good thing, i like hearing his ridiculous ray liotta voice.

also woes talking to him would be good for both guys i think.

theres the idea that daily stormer is for high schoolers, TRS is for Uni Kidz. well we need both hahahaha. why not both.

so there might be an alt right, pro anglin counter protest in colombus when the antifa do their anti-anglin protest. will anglin show up? that would be nice. will the scumbags threaten his family? that would be disgusting. probably the only reason they havent done this protest earlier is because theyre LAZY. and dont bother googling anglins easily findable address until he pulls one of the biggest media stunts of his career so far.

he is brilliant at beating them at their own game, that is, outmanipulating them on the Media.

i made a witty remark at the job today that i thought was pretty funny and this colleague i respect chuckled at it. he has a masters degree and a career he likes and 3 white kids and a nice middle class life and is an all around good guy i respect. i was glad to produce some witty bantz that he enjoyed. can’t really share my joke because it would be kind of doxing unfort.

is this a turning point? are things starting to look up for your Humble Narrator? did something just CLICK in my eternal struggle to beat degenerate neetness? maybe!

but dont want to count muh chikuns. just be cautiously optimistic and give thanks to GOD.

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heh if i get enough days like this in close proxmity, i might even be able to lose muh neet virginity a with a filipino single mom slut whos been with 40 guys! hehehehehehe.

 

 

BEING A NEET INCEL LOSER IS DEGENERATE AND THIS IS HOW WE BEAT IT AND BECOME WW’s

jan 7 2017

got to get used to writing 17 hahahahahahahahahaha i think i might have written 2016 at some point yesterday

absolutely ridiculously cold outside, like 10 degrees without wind chill. goal is to do errands today like i am making an effort to not be a lazy neet loser.

sheeeeit. if those people are doxed. its a very serious important issue. on one hand its an ACT OF WAR. it means your enemies want you DEAD. on the other hand, it could provoke The Sleeping Goy to go All In. and an anti-J march in montana could be less of a trolling tactic and more of an actual reality.

but im concerned about these peoples FAMILIES.

very interesting how MW has gone from being a depressed AF neet loser to becoming an Influential Leader. I am very glad for it! also that he is a very moderate, convincing voice…..but he himself is developing and growing and becoming more damn 1433 than people realize! and its awesome to see a smart, careful, very well-spoken, likable, reasonable man go from normie to 1433 in the space of 2 years or so! (i heard you can get banned from facebook for even just saying the number 14…….8………….7 hehehehehe

 

hi sir hello, yes I know YOU arent a 1433 WN, but to me as a SME in the subject area of hwyteness, I fell your emphasis on Scots and Celts speaks to our primordial hwyte soul. and i hate bands and music and shows, but i would make a bigly exception. For You. YOURE WELCOME for me buying a tshirt from you hahahahaha. now find a way to record a full concert with better sound quality. dont they have “soundboards”? how did grateful dead record all those shows with good quality where you could hear each instrument? then you mix it in with a BIT of an audience recording (like this) to get that in the thick of it high energy live sound.

I mean hey your albums sound good in the “studio”, you are more than capable of figuring out how to do a good live recording. I mean I dont think they were TRYING for a good recording here. they just wanted to play a good show, and they very much succeeded there, and some Rando in the Audience had the good idea of hey someone should record this. I just like when the band shares that idea, and makes a little effort. a little goes a long way here guys. make a LITTLE effort. dont lose sleep trying to create The Perfect Live Album at Great Expense.

just set up like microphones in good places and soundboards and mixers and shit. i dont know.  enlist an INTERN from university who is majoring in Music Production and be like, sheeeeit you should really pay ME for the privilege of this EXPERIENCE you can put on your RESUME. do a good job and maybe we’ll let you do this again for free.

he has a a somewhat fashy some richard spencer haircut. not sure if it would be an improvement for him to grow long metal hair. sure why not. if you can, you should.

i guess ghoul got doxed pretty brutally so he’s been cooling off. thankfully counter signal memes for fashy goys is still active and i am not seeing any doxing stuff on google other than rumors he was doxed, and he took down bone zone, where he blatantly showed his very handsome face.  which probably led to the doxing.

i mean its very important to have a 1433 ACADEMIC PHILOSOPHER PHD, so i don’t want him to jeopardize that.  to have him inside the university unsubverting it would be great.

so yeah you can get banned on fbook for typing the number 1400 and eighty eight. i have used the number so much here that i dont know if i could find and replace them all! but going forward i will try to type 1433. and how about VVN instead of double you enn. wait until its a bannable offense just to say the term alt right!

im glad we have 20 year old KIDS now who are into the Cause, the Movement, but i am a bit jealous of them having a head start, of them having their heads on right at a young age. they will actually get their stem degrees, get good careers, make decent money, at a young age, which will make their chances at finding a good woman SO MUCH BETTER. then by the time they are 30, they can be making 50 grand a year, be married for like 10 years, and have 3 children.

rather than be 30, make 13k a year, have no children, have not even casually been with a woman since age 22 hahahahahahahaha.

went to walmart. on a saturday. it was PACKED with all sorts of blacks and browns. arabs the browns we have around here. not so many mexicans at all. some shitty asians like laos and hmong and thai and vietnam and all that. but the arabs are by far the biggest and most numerous. probably doxing myself here. ive been to areas where there are tons of mexicans and thats no fun either. well theyre not even necessarily mexicans. they are the hondurans and salvadoreans even mexico doesnt want.

tons of blacks. i felt uncomfortable that this walmart was less than 4 miles from my home. it was like a damn nonwhite ghetto in there. some real bad people of walmart. it was enough to convince me to go to the other walmart in hopes that it would be whiter. and its true it was a saturday. the worst day to go to walmart or any retail store. worst of the worst.

but yeah they had real nice clothes in there. faded glory and george brand shirts, real nice. bought a george dress shirt and a gift card to give to fam. you need clothes, go to walmart. this is why i dont pull pvssy. because i think walmart is great fashion hahahahahahahaha.

yeah well fook women, they are like jooish n3gr0 infant r3t4rds. they are borderline not human hahahahahahahaha.

if they knew what an asshole i was, then i would probably get more positive attention from women!

but im not an asshole in the right way, i am filled with CREEPY woman hate rather than SEXY woman-disregard!

women dont like woman-haters, they like woman-disregarders and woman-disrespecters! hehehehe.

mint wont let you split transactions that are pending on a credit card. that is stupid!

why havent i commented on the black thugs torturing the white man on video. well im glad it seems to be sparking a race war and waking some whites up and making them say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH, im gonna be a damn racist already, im gonna start using the N Word.

But I wonder. I KNOW there are WHITE shitlibs out there who will say “yeah this is bad, but…………….what do you expect? this is kinda inevitable, given all the injustice whites have done against blacks. whites brought this on themselves. they kinda deserved it. its sad it happened to this disabled guy, but….you reap what you sow. I’m surprised this doesnt happen more often. you dont just oppress a whole group of people for 200 years without a little blowback.  when you spend 250 years punching down, expect them to punch up once in a while. ”

that kind of shit. rather than saying HELL NO. THIS SHIT HAS GONE TOO FAR. THESE FOOKING 1NgR0S. maybe we can’t live together. maybe they CAN be racist against whites. maybe whites should be racist against them.

well honestly. i can only think of one or two, well maybe three hahaha whites who are so shitlibby that they might think something like that. shrug and say yeah its deplorable but what did you expect would happen when you keep oppressing blacks? this is just an unfocused attempt to get justice for the wrongs whites have done against blacks. and dont be so ignorant and racist that you pretend it isnt!!!!!!

i said i felt much more NORMIE when i was friends with that woman, that i could even BE friends with a young woman, but did i really feel that way? i think when i first became friends with her, i was like yeah, she’s ok, we get along pretty well, but she’s not in my inner circle or anything. it took a real long time for that. after 1.5 years she confessed i was in her inner circle. i guess i appreciated that and started to be more willing to let her pass thru muh own walls of isolation, alienation, solitude and loneliness hahaha hahahaha.

now i just feel like a neet weirdo. me and george feels. at least he was working full time and probably making about 28k a year plus benefits! and people are mocking him for going down to 30 hours! and im not even working 30 hours hahahahahahahahahahaha. george right now is a bigger winner than i am right now……..and i just made a HUGE step FORWARD!

oh uncle bern hahahaha still doing mgtow and red pill stuff in 2017. he’s not wrong though! honestly i am so OLD that this stuff speaks to me. i am an old fart like bern. I think the current generation of youngins is better than the old farts like me. we are seeing good ideas and values in the minds of our youth. there are probably even decent 20 year old WOMEN out there now. And unfort I am TOO OLD to be with them. when I was 20 it was such a jood, pozzed, degen, nihilistic, hedonistic, muh dick  time. there were fewer decent young women than there are today HAHAHAHAHAHA like these excuses?

so our young alt right hwytes probably WILL find waifus and have children, unless childless oldass neets like me hahahaha. butthurt about our lost youth and our foreveralone and the women of OUR generation were always garbage hahahaha. the women WAY before us, and the women JUST AFTER us were ok though. we were on the cusp. on the wrong side of it though. JUSSSSST missed the boat. and eternally butthurt about it.

basically us old bachelor mgtows will die childless and the new young alt right kids will have children young. which is great for the race. but i would have liked having a chance at all that too hahaha.

but i DID have a chance! i just BLEW it royally!

yeah i just wonder where the cutoff is. i thing george for example is old enough that he got the shit end of the stick. he’s in my weird in between generation in other words. but a kid who is 25 or especially 20 right now? definitely in the younger, better generation.

excuses excuses hahahaha.

school never prepared me to be a good worker drone because i cant even get a damn proper average job. by average i mean 26k a year. the average per capita income.

really half of the jackasses in georges comments DO have decent advice, and if he did these things, it would help him at least a little bit. stop drinking. start counting calories. start doing MJ. stop telling gurls their boifrans are lucky.  but yeah he reminds me of me because he thinks CODING is his ally hahahaha. coding and programming is bullshit. you basically need a masters in compsci to get an entry level job, the only other jobs are Tech Support, which will destroy you entirely.  now granted the entry level jobs pay at least 30k hahahahahaha but i dont want to get a masters in compsci to get there.

or the equivalent of that in knowledge and skills because you spend all your free time CODING for fun instead of blogging and playing Cards and doing Alt Right stuff hahahaha.

in other words i fully predic george will become disillusioned with CODING the same way I did hahaha.  after i took like 30 credits of compsci courses.

but i dont want to burst georges only bubble!

i bet in states wiht legal MJ, do they have like MJ bars, where you can actually smoke the MJ at the place while hanging out there, the same way you drink in a bar? and then wont cops be waiting outside these places at closing time to make 10 grand a pop off every intoxicated driver.

because you can smoke a couple big puffs and be completely BTFO’d, while you pretty much have to be drinking for HOURS to get completely shitfaced. taking one hit of strong MJ is like having a double shot of 150 proof alcohol.  well its not nearly as bad for your liver and body, but in terms of mental intoxication.

but yeah i am very sympathetic to george. but i can totally see how he is frustrating. shit if i were in HIS shoes I would be all set. have a 28k a year Boring Job. its not liek he doesnt make enough money to move out! live in colorado. work your boring job where you know what youre doing and it doesnt fill you with FEAR, then buy a bag of MJ on your way home, and sm0ke it in the beautiful forest near your home.

i dont think george has much anxiety. but he certainly has a decent amount of depression. i prob envy him for not having anxiety. envy anybody who doesnt have anxiety. but especially him because his severe despair and omega incel puts him closer to my level hahahaha

how many men are unambitious? half? less than half? a half of a half? some men are definitely obviously ambitious. and some are definitely not. i dont need to tell you which one of those i am. hahahaha. i have NEVER been ambitious, ever.

well bitcoin finally “crashed” about 2 days ago and in seems to be on a slight downward trend right now. good. i will need to buy a little more eventually.

http://archive.is/oNXP6

oh god this futrelle guy is still around. he is the worst. now he is, not surpirsingly, bitching about the alt right and andrew anglin. mein n3g3r AA. he is one of the best writers and propagandists out there. i have nothing but respect and admiration for him. i think he should do more podcasts and less writing……but all his writing is so damn good and powerful. i dont like reading…..but when i do, i read andrew anglin hahahahaha.  he will be forever in the top tier of muh alt right d’nations. i will give this man at least 20 dollarydoos a year for hopefully many years to come hahahaha. he is fooking AWESOME and I would LUV to meet him one day. I would totally take a picture with him and use it for muh facebook photo forever. if i ever got back on fb hahahaha. which i feel no desire to do so. have been off facebook for pretty much 1.5 years here. no big loss. so now i cant stalk and spy on women. good, that was stupid and bad and creepy hahahaha. it was not principled hwyte behavior. yeah yeah its not fair to the women but it wasnt fair to me either. no i didnt realy STALK them. but i still looked at womens profiles far more than i should have been. it aids you in building your horrible FANTASY. dont do that. youre just hurting yourself.

when i got feelings for That Woman I would gaze longingly at her pictures on FB and saw ohhh gawd shes so purttty i so want her to be muh gurlfran and waifu, yeah shes a little weird looking but shes so qt and purty tho, im so glad i can see that now, this is the gurl i want to be muh waifu, im all in nao.

stupid. should have deactivated facebook THEN.

HA. I could probably get banned just for saying andrew anglins NAME hahahaha.

heh. im just glad millennial woes is become more like andrew anglin. well, not really, but kind of sort of. he’s becoming more VVN!!! People might not feel so proud to wear their MW tshirts any more! me, i will be even MORE proud to wear it and signal to people, this is what i believe, ask me about VVN hahahaha.

daily stormer started in july 2013. cant believe its that young. well i mean he was doing other stuff before that.

sheeeeeeeeeeit, i started THIS blog in may 2013 hehehehe. this blog is older than the daily stormer. and believe me i have been doing other blogs for YEARS. dont want to say their names but i have had at least three other Big, Multi-Year blogs. books and books  and books and books worth of rambling writing. i am a prolific blogger and have been ever since at LEAST 2005.

my average blog was maybe 2 years long, which is pretty good. and this one is prob the longest. i have honed my craft perfectly hahahaha.

the other blogs i tried harder. i polished the writing. it wasnt all a goddamn sloppy rough draft. also i fought to separate the personal and the political. for a while i was either “apolitical” or basically a damn LEFTIST. i was still a gloomy gus though. and very neurotic. but at least i had a political awakening hahahaha. I am very happy and grateful about that. it wasnt enough to FIX me, but god damn was it a YUGE improvement.

over being a god damn shitlib, feminist, anti-white, antiracist. you can see why these people trigger me so much now! they remind me of the horrible person I used to be! hard to believe i was once much WEAKER hahahaha. but i was!

the previous blog to this, though, started to see my transformation. and i retired that because some real life people knew about it. i guess i wanted to use it to try to raise my real life social capital. get women basically. get women by being a Blogging Badboy. Jeeeeeez theres a great idea hahahaha.

but ultimately i ended up Concerning people with my increasingly racist beliefs. so i shut the blog down. well, i think its still out there. i certainly saved a copy of it hahahaha. there was a lot of good stuff there!

and this one, i have no intention to tell anyone real life. no intention. and also no intention to separate personal and political. just let it ALL hang out. my main concerns here are getting doxed, and also making the movement appear weak.

i mean i dont think i am a total dumpster fire the way sinead or evalion is. i think i have a PRETTY GOOD grip on a lot of the stuff. really i am similar personally to millennial woes. a guy who faced a lot of despair and failure and underachievement and gradually came over to the right, then the alt right. MW clearly has his neet past. So do I. I’m still kind of IN IT, and I have struggled with it MORE than MW.

well….technically he was unemployed for longer than I was hahahahahaha.

also he tries a lot harder with his Content.

Also he talks a lot less about personal stuff. And when he does, he often makes the videos private. but when he does talk about personal stuff, those are some of muh fav videos of his.

also he shows his face. i would never, ever, ever show my face. but i have great respect for people who do.

i have thought about using my voice though. that itself is a HUGE risk. just talking this shit out instead of WRITING it. I current have hours and hours of poorly recorded Voice Recordings I make when driving in the car. and some of those are pretty good. 10% of it hahahaha.

anyway im no newb at this stuff. i am a damn SME hahahaha.

but yeah i do NOT want people to think all alt right, and by that i mean 1433 VVN’s who are JPilled on the JQ, that we are all emotionally unstable omega incel neets. I want you to think we are all fashy handsome winners, making 100k at age 25 with our STEM graduate degrees, in topkek shape physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally. i mean shit. personal improvement is a key part of this whole program. and i have failed miserably at that.

but at the same time, studying this stuff and  accepting this stuff has made me a better person, at least relatively hahahahaha. and i would encourage it to neet incel losers. the white ones at least. and really racial nationalism would probably help neet losers of any race. i dont really care about anyone but hwytes though.

so yeah it helped me a lot, but i’ve still got a long way to go. also i would hate to be shunned by the movement i hold so dear, because i am an incel neet loser and have a blog that is all about being a neet incel loser.  a good 1433 VVN is NOT incel, neet or a loser in other words.

yeah well im not saying neet incle loser is GOOD! I’m saying its FOOKING HORRIBLE AND DEGENERATE AND THIS IS HOW WE BEAT IT AND BECOME STRONG, PROUD HWYTE HWARRIORS WITH NICE HWYTE WHYFUS AND 3 CHILDREN AND 30+k A YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

 

WE’RE GONNA NEED A BIGGER OVEN

dec 6 2017

i met and talked to a solid, 100%, no doubt about it J today. No doubt about it. He walked in and immediately I saw the Kippah on his head and had to do a double take. almost got a double boner. are you fooking KIDDING me? i havent seen a J in YEARS, except for this guy who sailed past me riding a bike on the walk/bike trail last winter, who had a beard and little jewish strings dangling from his clothes.

but here was an actual living breathing J with a Kippa coming in as a customer! wow thats exciting. Also he had a very J name. he went by a “nickname” that sounded kinda goyish, and i was thinking, hmm that name doesnt sound very J’ish, then i looked him up in the system when he left and saw that his actual first name was pretty J’ish and unamerican hahahahaha.

but he was nice and friendly and great Verbal Intelligence. Polite and Nice and Friendly and not an asshole or a degenerate. And then I thought, do I want to put this NICE OLD MAN INTO AN OVEN?????

of course not, I don’t want to put this nice old man into a damn OVEN.

BUT i dont know him personally. maybe he beats his wife and molests children at the JCC. but he was meeting with two GOYIM, myself and my Senior SME hahaha, and he was clearly not treating him like CATTLE, or me for that matter. like he clearly trusted the opinion and smarts and judgment of my colleague, who is indeed very smart and capable and professional, and you SHOULD trust him.

we were basically helping the J’ish man with his laptop which seemed to be a cheap old thing, and he was not very computer savvy, although he has at least a masters degree in MATH. only smart people do MATH. also he wasnt super autistic or awkward. he had good social skills in other words. better than me hahahahaha.

so there is a photo of little J kids on the computer, he mentions he has 10+ grandchildren, and my first thought was not, oh shit, he’s MULTIPLIYING and WE’RE GONNA NEED A BIGGER OVEN, but oh, isnt that nice, he has a nice large family. be fruitful and multply.

the most jooish thing about his personality was that i could see him potentially being Pushy and Demanding and Difficult. But he was nice to us.

but yeah he LOOKED pretty J’ish, with beady little eyes and a Kippa and a beard. I honestly didn’t study his nose too closely. i guess it wasnt a huge jooish hooknose.  nose was about average i guess.

so if he’s wearing a Yarmulke, that means he’s an orthodox joo? so he’s RELIGIOUS. i mean better than being super Crypto. just come right out be like I am totally a Joo, and a religious joo at that. i think i prefer that to the alternative!

but because he was nice to me, i didnt want him to look at me and somehow detect that I am a YUGE anti-J hahahahaha and wanted to put him in an oven, that his people is my LEAST favorite race by far.

but i had no hatred or even dislike for him as an individual. in fact he seemed downright LIKABLE.

see this is what they call the Good J. of COURSE J’s here and there can be GOOD. Good People. but as a WHOLE, they’ve done more harm than good. if they were all like THIS guy, that would be great.

so i had to mention that, because i can’t remember the last time i Experienced an actual live J. I might have talked to a J on the phone in my previous job. maybe. I took like 2000 phone calls there, i’m sure i did.

so yeah. what do his children do? certainly all doctors and lawyers and engineers and successful rich J’s. they probably make more money than him because he chose to go into teaching. so that takes a pretty selfless kind decent person right? well except for the administrators and school board people hahahahaha.  and old school full time tenured union teachers hahaha.

i basically meet very interesting people every day. i really am quite blessed. but yeah i dont know how to MAKE THE MOST out of this.  and I’m nowhere near as interesting as these people.

another guy, white guy for sure hahahaha, came in today. he was full of 6000000000000000 stories and jokes and anecdotes and he was actually pretty funny and colorful, but yeah he was a talker. he had a damn Ed.S. degree too and possibly even a PhD. he talked about College Rivalries. I of course did not mention that my college frowned upon his college, because what the hell did i do with my life? he went on to build an interesting career, get a million degrees, have 3 kids, and now his daughter was going to the same pretty good uni he did, doing a Smart STEM degree and getting a scholarship to study abroad in a good STEM country, at 19/20 years of age. doing everything right in other words.

he himself, not sure what his undergrad degree was, but POSSIBLY computer science. not bad. he talked about how he had a decent internship that kept him busy. this was in the early 80s. i didnt realize internships were a thing. sheeeeit he probably actually got PAID for it. then after he graduated he immediately stayed on an extra year and got a masters. not sure if that was the EdS or something else.

so he was highly educated but he did not work at some big company. he started his own company doing ummmm financialish services, nothing super high status though, and also doing a lot of teaching on the side.

point is, he kept busy working like 60 hours a week for the past 30 years hahahaha and still does.

he was definitely a colorful personality, not an autist, not awkward, certainly had plenty of self confidence. was able to get married, have 3 children, at least one of whom is gonna be super successful. so he did well with his legacy.

so i looked him up and found a damn self published BOOK he wrote and i am reading that in another tab right now. its actually pretty good and paints a more sympathetic picture of him as a more humble, thankful, and god-fearing man, while in person he was potentially abrasive and obnoxious and arrogant and overbearing. not to me though. i could not keep up with his bantz tho, it was fast and furious. hot and heavy. these 55 year olds have more energy than me.

but yeah i like reading about peoples lives because i am too awkward to ask them these things. but this is the type of guy who will tell you story after story of his life unsolicited.

and of course i am insecure about the fact that i personally dont have any stories to tell.

no interesting good stories i mean. i can tell you pathetic, cloying, desperate, sad, boring stories hahahahahaha. but nothing funny or interesting or neat. just boring and sad.

he comes across as much sweeter in the book, its actually quite touching. candidly discussing his own struggles with his weight and his marriage and him praying to GOD for help and strength when interviewing for jobs. like sheeeeeeit this guy has the same fears and insecurities i do. but he has persevered and accomplished shit, whereas i have not.

he did not seem too Godly in person but this comes across a LOT more in his book.

and its just kind of neat to meet a person who breezes in and out in a whirlwind of sometimes inappropriate stories and jokes, then find their BOOK on google and read about their deepest fears and hopes hahahahaha. i wish i could do it with more people!

ive sort of done it with myself…..except its ANONYMOUS whereas he puts his real name on it. thats how i FOUND it.

and this guy came from a working class background, very prob the first in his family to go to college, and he made a pretty good go of it. his book immediately gets into the value of Work and being a Productive Useful person and asking GOD for help and strength. its really quite good and will give me something to talk about with him if I see him again, which I may. i guess he could think its creepy that I read his BOOK. but he probably wont. he will probably cherish the chance to talk about himself more hahahahahahahaha.

i can totally appreciate meeting new people and hearing their STORIES. everyones got stories. even i’ve got stories. it’s not a great one but its a story!

basically my whole story is one of a long, painful, lazy, low-energy struggle to become a damn ADULT and stop being a lazy negro bitch child aka a spoiled neet loser omega virgin hahahaha.

well i read the whole preview. I could probably ask the guy to just send me a PDF of the whole book. he also has another book on teaching and another book which is the biography of it must be this coach he knows and is written pretty reverently. the guy is not a bad writer.

hehehe maybe i should go to the J guy and be like oh i am so humbled by what your people went through at the hands of my people, i am SO SORRY for The Sins Of The Past hahahahahahha, you have taught us SO MUCH about Tolerance and Forgiveness and The Human Condition.

and he would say, oh thank you for recognizing the struggles and tragedy of my people, you didnt do anything wrong, but we must be ever vigilant against racism and bigotry so something like ANUDDA SHOAH never happens again.

ORRRRRRR I could approach him and be like, hey schlomo, we’re having a sale on WAGNER hahahahahaha. WAGNER.  wink wink nudge nudge.

ORRRRRR i could be like, see this huge swastika on muh chest. you know what that means hymie. YOUR KIND IS NOT WELCOME HERE. NOT WELCOME.

or i could be like, listen schlomo, im on to you. im a bad goyim. the man that you fear. i know about boas. i know about…..kaganovich. and the holodomor. i know about the uss liberty. and jonathan pollard. 911 was an inside job. culture of critique is muh bible. i have a signed photograph kmac. and Uncle Adolf. I know the words to the horst wessel lied. I watch triumph of the will and chill every day. i am your worst nightmare bubbie. i know what you did to my lord and savior. i know what you write about him in your talmud. and the blessed virgin mary. youve been kicked out of 109 countries in the past 2000 years and you keep saying the problem isnt you. well i got news for you schlomo. its not us, its you. so you got a couple of good J’s like muh teacher buddy. well if more of you were like him, you wouldnt have to fook off back to your homeland. he will be on muh short list of J’s who are allowed to visit. not live. visit. so why am i so hateful? because you turned my men into phaggot negros and sissies, and muh women into negro whores, and muh country into a shitty sewer only the trvmpenfuhrer can save, thank GOD for him. and you killed christ, ya god damn christkillers. and you flooded murderous muslim savages into muh homeland. and you ruined education. you poison everything you put your hands on. its not even funny. everything is a disgusting perversion with you people. and you caused world war 1 and 2 and god knows what else with your goddamn rothschilds. and the federal reserve. and the media. good god. i cant even. i am literally shaking right now. hahahahahahaha.

education. so i guess vouchers and charter schools are bad, and public skools are good. that is what i am supposed to believe, as a Professional Educator. well really i believe that the current state of things for new teachers is horrible, and they should pay them more and hire more teachers rather than paying a 30 year old permanent sub 14 bucks an hour to babysit a room full of 40 screaming negros and then paying a RentACop 9 bucks an hour to physically restrain the physical ones, while paying 55 year old retirees a pension of 100k a year hahahaaha. hire some more young teachers. hire some moar rentacops. put half the students in Military 4 Kids. that would be a better use of Taxpayer Money. send juvenile delinquents to the military. give them gunz and tell them to protect the border. give them some cheating military slutz and a booze ration. sterilize the coloreds and give them 10 grand worth of purple drank in return.

heh. i could go for some purpa drank. assuming its just straight codeine hahahaha.

friday night. sleep in tomorrow. ideal day for some you know what. MJ. not even purpa drank. MJ would be just fine.

took me 2 minutes to find the home address of the J guy hahaha. not even TRYING folks. but he lives in a super J area of town where old skool J’s live or used to live before they moved further out to SuperBourge Upper Middle Class and lost their religion hahahaha. area with a lot of old school jooish senior housing, torah skools, yeshivas, yahudas, whatever. his daughter marrying a ultra orthodox joo from israel hehehehe.

all these names R’ Moishe Shekelstein. So I guess R’ means rabbi or rav? whats a “rav”? is this guy not only a succcessful education professional, but a RABBI as well? was i just face to face with a damn orthodox jooish RABBI today? I think i was hahahahahaha. can you believe it.

https://guardyoureyes.com/index.php

heh i am spending too much time on the jooish internet again. this site has resources to keep religious jooish men from looking at naughty sites and pictures. you can even get a “kosher phone.”

http://forward.com/news/358939/neo-nazis-set-date-for-armed-march-against-jews-in-montana/

heh. i was looking up this j00ish school, brought me to the infamous j00ish mag the forward, where the top article was on andrew anglins upcoming march in whitefish. AWESOME. THE ABSOLUTE MADMAN. I will give him ANOTHER 6.16 just for this hahahaha. WELL DONE LAD.

heh my new j00ish rabbi friend probably reads j00ish news like this and is probably only of the only people i could conceivably meet in real life who has therefore heard of richard spencer hahahahahaha. i should ask him if i see him again. hey ever heard of this goy spencer?

http://therightstuff.biz/2017/01/01/how-to-waifu/

oh dear god why dont i ever read the TRS regular site hehehehe

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/can-a-prostitute-ever-become-a-faithful-wife/74782

hehehehe

best 2 sites on the internet

jeezum crow. millennial woes possibly doxed. seventh son possibly doxed. this is INSANE. bulbasaur was definitely doxed. i thought i knew MW’s normie first name but i never told anyone of course. i saw seventh son’s sunglass wearing face once in a video that was quickly removed from youtube. but my god. give these good men your money.

https://www.salon.com/2015/12/22/white_men_must_be_stopped_the_very_future_of_the_planet_depends_on_it_partner/

most antiwhite article ever hehehe yes ive seen it before, its not new

well…….nothing official about MW so far. no names, no dox. wewlad. but rumor that he was approached by the lugenpress recently and may need to get out of UK. god damn. send him some money.

and PROBABLY seventh son will be all right.

but i have seen the official bulbasaur dox where they blatantly mention names and faces and towns. yeah but it doesnt PROVE its HIM.

but yeah major people getting doxed is a big deal. its tragic but it might Strengthen the movement. like if it fires people up to donate 14880000000000 dollars to MW and get 1488000000000 white men marching with him and throwing nonwhites out of the UK. it’s still not WORTH doing though. youre essentially MVRDERING a human being out of hostile aggression.

WHY CANT MORE WOMEN THINK SLVTTISHNESS IS AT LEAST A LITTLE BIT GROSS

jan 5 new current year

just getting ready for the day. 656 am. i could PROBABLY sleep in an extra 15 minutes. maybe i will eventually do that. but i like having this buffer of time to write a few sentences, check email, and, of course, go make explosive coffee water #2’s like i am about to do right now.

ok did that. i mean its really quick.

anyway yeah my main issue now, and i didnt really have this at the previous job because that job was so stressful and packed that we really never had a chance to talk about anything not job related, we were all just trying to survive day to day. but now that the pace is a little slower THANK GOD, i am pressuring myself to be more social and charismatic and normie.

i mean i will take this new problem ANY DAY over what I faced before. im not complaining haahahha. well i kind of am. but never forget, that in comparison, it is not even 1% as bad altogether. i get a 99% reduction in stress and panic and thats The End Of The Story.

spent like an hour responding to a Support Ticket today that in my previous job, would have been expected to knock out in 20, or better 10 minutes. it doesnt matter if you dont know the answer. find the answer and answer it within 10 minutes. I laboriously wrote an email like the sloth. included Too Much Information and Misinformation. and I probably didnt even need to do ANYTHING, because someone else would be in in the afternoon that knew a lot more about the topic. an SME. but i was determined to Do Something and Add Value and figure out how to use the ticket system better. So I took a shot at it and hopefully superiors say good for him to try this, rather than, oh shit what a stupid fookup, i wish we could fire him, but he’s in the union grrrrrr. he totally did this wrong. gave the person bad advice, poorly written, and used the program in more wrong ways than we could imagine hehehehe.

anyway i did ok i guess. give myself a little more crrrrredit hahaha. had a paltry two customers in today and tried to act like a nice normie to them. painfully awkward small talk. jeez. for a while, i used to be GOOD at this. at my previous job. after i talked to people ALL DARN DAY i got pretty good at small talk. wish the learning curve wasnt that rough. because i cant handle talking to people ALL DARN DAY….well, when its complicated complex shit. and what im doing now is nowhere near as complex. it can get complex, but there are SEVERAL SME’s with Masters Degrees just waiting to Yank the Case from me. Aint No Need to BEG like I did before!

the beotch in the comments is half good and half bad. she says that she is automatically suspicious of anyone who talks of a BEST friend who is opposite sexs,usu means you are in luv with them. i would tend to agree! i guess you can have normal acquaintance friends of the opposite secx, but once you upgrade them to BEST friends or really really really close top tier friends….you are at big risk of getting FEELINGS for them. because of the INTIMACY.

i hate how wimmin dont think SEX is INTIMATE. god damn fooking SAVAGES.

well at least got under in calories today.

would LUV some MJ hahahaha.

https://www.google.com/webhp?sourceid=chrome-instant&ion=1&espv=2&ie=UTF-8#q=small%20talk%20for%20socially%20awkward%20people

i dont HATE small talk. i totally understand the idea of and why small talk is important. i would like to be able to DO small talk! any stupid autist who says small talk is retarded…..well thats a very immature and stupid thing to say. small talk is the basis of everything. big talk. relationships. success. friends. luvers. showing that you have charisma and confidence and that you are a smart cool charming person and worth hanging out with. or you can faily miserably and show what a boring, awkward, desperate, pathetic omega neet virgin you are hahahahahaha. this is all accomplished on the battlefield of small talk. small talk is ridiculously important and big hahahaha. i totally get that.

so yeah i luv the idea of small talk. i hate trying to do it and failing at something so important.

well this job will def be another big step in getting over that woman. makes it more and more distant. but damn i wish i hadnt been so pathetic and stupid and Creepy. wish id been stronger and cooler and not so desperate and needy and clingy.

so apparently you cant just walk into a store and buy MJ in california nao.

i guess i could tell people that i am interested in Relships and read Relship Advice stories a lot. because I honestly DO! this is kinda weird but its prob my most normie interest. i mean, cant talk to people about WN1488, Alt Right, or Black Metal. talking about RELSHIPS sounds completely reasonable and normie next to all that. and I could work in some spin on how casual secs is degenerate and sinful and disgusting.

women can be awkward and it doesnt hurt them, they can still gets jobs and relships. men and women are probably about equally socially awkward, but theres DISPARATE IMPACT on the men.

anyway. re that woman. yeah now that i think about it, a series of long conversations probably wouldnt have done much good. what WOULD have done some good is me making a BRIEF statement EARLY, like: yep i’m starting to act weird and want to hang out all the time becuase i’m starting to get feelings for you. This is getting hard for me to deal with and I don’t mean to Ghost you, but just do me a solid and give me some time and space, because I dont think you feel the same way, and I need some space to get over my feelings for you. Sorry. Best Wishes in life. You are a good person and I don’t mean to dump you. But this is hard for me and it needs a lot of effort from me. Think of a time when you got feelings for a guy friend and he didn’t return them. It was challenging, wasn’t it. The end.”

even that’s a little too long. and then if she did have feelings, she could respond to that. hahahahaha. so yeah. clearly she thought i was the entitled nice guy and was dreading the dreadful conversation where i tried to BEG her to be with me and tell her why she was WRONG when she said she didnt want me. and she didnt want to put up with that.

i mean i was already BEGGING her to respond. why wouldnt i BEG her to reconsider or change her mind or pleeeeease luvvvvv me back. the torture of hours of me begging.

yeah well i didnt even get a chance. thats the point. maybe i would have been mature about it. but desperate luv compromises your maturity. shit.

but yeah. i coulda and SHOULD HAVE finished all this with one SHORT email in december 2014. rip the bandaid off. sorry babe but I like like you. i obv need to get over that because you dont return the feelings. so i have to take a break from this friendship. i dont want to leave you in the lurch so let me know if i can pay an early termination fee or something. reddit said this can hurt for the friend to get friend dumped, so tell me what i can do to make this easier for you. though i promise you its a LOT harder for ME hahahahahahaha because my heart is utterly broken now and I might fall off the wagon and start doing heron again and K myself hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha jk.

why would i even LOOK at tinder. its full of sluts who think casual sex is OK. fundamental incompatibility of Core Moral Values.

i want to meet women who think sluts are gross and being a slut is gross. i want to meet women who JUDGE sluts. negatively.

WHY DONT MORE PEOPLE JUDGE SLUTS NEGATIVELY. WHY DO SO MANY PEOPLE THINK SLUTTISHNESS IS OK. DAMN. WHY CANT MORE PEOPLE, ESP WOMEN, JUST THINK ITS AT LEAST A LITTLE BIT GROSS.

and why are these damn sluts such successful ADULTS. good normie ADULTS. good at college, good at career, people dont think theyre WEIRD, they LEARN shit and UNDERSTAND shit and can EXPLAIN shit. really get deep into blooms taxonomy of learning hahahaha. learn something deeply. you dont learn something until you can teach it to someone else. those who can’t do, teach HAHAHAHAHAHA.

some people say, dont do a masters degree unless you’re passionate and absolutely sure about it. dont half ass it, or use it as a stopgap because you dont know what else to do, you will waste too much money for too little return.

i tend to like this school of thought.

but then there the other side, which is like, we all need to pay our dues and do things that are tough and expensive and struggle in the medium term of 4 years or so, so things pay off 5, 10 years later. the day comes where you put away your childish toys, put on your big boy pants, and accept that you have to go to work for a living, and spent 80% of your waking hours doing things you dont really WANT to do, that you arent really PASSIONATE about, so you might as well maximize this by doing something that will pay off in the long run.

well, i had enough trouble going to college in a state of welp, i dont know what to do, but i got good grades in high school and i’m expected to go to college. so just pay your dues, get the extremely expensive piece of paper, and then you’ll be set.

but that was all lies hahahaha. so now the goalposts are moved? and i should go into GRADUATE school with the same mindset?

yeah but its a lot different getting into grad school than getting into undergrad. i did great in high school and got into a good undergrad without really much effort or maturity or planning. i did completely average in undergrad and could not see myself getting into an above average grad school without totally busting my ass in a go-getting, gung-ho, high-energy way that i have NEVER been.

and it doesnt seem WORF IT to pay shitloads of money to go to an average or below-average grad program, just to treat it as College 2.0 for when College is the New High School and Grad School is the new College and i hate the whole scam system anyway!

but in life you gotta SUCK IT UP and DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO!

and why dont NORMIES have such a god damn internal conflict about it? they just go ahead and work hard and GIT R DONE.

heh. i wish i had a Career Coach ever since I was 16, staying on my ass and saying you need to do this, you need to do that.

now some people, their families do that. the chinee high expectations father. you can become doctor or engineer. get your masters degree or youre out of the family. i didnt have that at all, i was SPOILED.

cuz i didnt WANT to do anything. i needed to be trained with the carrot and the stick. left to my own devices in College, i totally went astray. a strong guiding hand, a foot being put down, that prob would have helped me in the long run. classic first world problems of being first in the fam to go to college hehehe. and of course i didnt appreciate that privilege at all. damn.

if i had to go to college, should have gone to local uni and stayed at home so the fam could have kept me in line, from doing stupid shit like MJ and alcohol.

but i still did MJ and alcohol when i was at home! i just hid it really well. i either would have gotten a DUI much earlier (which prob would have been GOOD), and probably did a bit less MJ, which DEF would have been good. definitely would have seen less of those crazy women doing crazy shit, which would have been good.

i dunno. alternate realities and what ifs and all that. i mean i still went crazy over women when being at home.

but yeah. ive never liked SCHOOL, and ive never liked WORK, and doing EITHER is PULLING TEETH.

See those normies? GOALS.

Goals are important. Goals are A Thing. See what happens when you have goals? You should have goals. Get Goals. Goals. Just Achieve Them.

all of education is fooked up. from grade school to grad school. serious fundamental problems with ALL of it.

heh. there should be homeschool grad school.

but you dont NEED grad school!!!!

well grad school is just perfect for some people! they are total grad school nerds! they clearly belong there!

i couldnt see myself getting in just because i couldnt see myself getting convincing recommendations and statement of intent. uhhh i want to get into grad school because i cant get a 26k FT job with a bachelors degree, so i’m really just treating this as high school 3.0. i fookin hate school but this is the bare minimum for being lower middle class in 2000s.

I would MUCH RATHER Just Work A Job. An Entry Level, 25k a year job, than go to god damn grad school. not that i have a good shot at getting into grad school ANYWAY! I have a better chance at getting the 25k a year job! and weve seen how fooking ridiculously godforsakenly hard THAT is! maybe it IS easier getting into a masters degree at a shitty noname school! MBA at phoenix!

yeah but i dont WANT to do an MBA, i would rather do a masters in relationship and despair counseling. which is an inherently useless degree! catch 22 here. quite the dilemma. and i dont want to be a social worker working with welfare blacks for a contractor with the city of oakland or the city of ferguson or something.

although its funny. today one of my “customers” was a black guy with an mba and I tried to make small talk with him. he was much better at it than me, but i am at least trying to be nice folks, i swear. but i cant talk about sports or anything. i cant tell this black guy that i am a trump supporting hwyte nationalist racist hahahaha. i nervously mentioned my interest in “news and current events”, which is FAIR…..BUT WHAT IF PEOPLE TAKE THAT BAIT and try to get you talking about TRVMP??????

well shit, this guy could actually BE a trump supporter, he seems to be a rather moderate, conservative, white acting, oreo black. almost like he is now overcompensating to not talk like a black, he is very well spoken, great speaking voice. he even made jokes about the HR diversity sensitivity training we had to do about trannies and shit hahahahahaha. i laughed and said yeah I hear ya man. well we didnt talk specifically about trannies. or have a frank conversation on race hahahahahaha.

see i dont hate blacks hahahaha. i just had an awkward conversation with a grad school educated black man hahahaha.

also all these people have experience giving lectures and discussions in front of groups of people. they have done that hundreds of times. there is no possible argument that this is not a GREAT life skill.

i would be dropping the spaghetti all over the place. oh now im the TEACHER and my STUDENTS are gonna think im an IDIOT. i never wanted to be a teacher but now i want to be a teacher even LESS, hahahahaha.

shit i can barely be a STUDENT. I can barely be a 13k a year EMPLOYEE. I cant even be a bare minimum ADULT. hahahahaha. I fooked up on easy mode, cant even deal with NORMIE MODE, hahahahaha.

funny all this goddamn self doubt even though now i am damn WORKING and that is an INFINITE improvement over where i was 2 months ago. why not just be happy about that.

went all in with AA, guy beat me with full house. sheeeeeeit.

heh. wonder what that woman is doing with her life right now. i know she got a job similar to what we were doing. probably making similar or more money, maybe higher up, def lots of hours, def lot more money than me, def making literally TWICE the money I am making. well shell have plenty of money to spend on her black bastard then hahahahahahahahahahahaha wawawawawawawawawawawa im so sad and lonely and want her back and will never get over her, muh perfect waifu hhahahahaha.

yeah i am playing things up a bit. but for a long time thats how bad it was. bad shit. wouldnt wish on worst enemy.

i guess its worse when i am working alongside 20 year old kids and they are all going to college, yup working on muh engin degree or nursing degree or HR degree, and then they graduate and get a 28k a year job, while you remain at the kid student job. at least here i dont have any young kids beside me being a constant reminder of what an old failure i am hahahahahahaha.

JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO COMPROMISE DOESNT MEAN YOU HAVE TO LIKE IT

jan 3 2017

first day back to little boy virgin job hahahaha. well, its INFINITELY better than not working. INFINITELY. LITERALLY.

also stopped by bakery before job and bought some donuts and pastries and eclairs and danishes and cookies and such. the bakery is well regarded and the sweets were indeed good and they open at 6:30 am. i will try to do this about…..once a month. spent 6 dollars. going every week would be tryhard. hard to do donuts at my last job because there were like 50 people in the office. it was best if you brought in 2 dozen donuts. kind of a big deal.  here, much smaller office. bringing in 6 donuts is more than enough. so its a cheap value added way to Buy Goodwill hahahahahahaha.

went to bed yesterday at 8 pm, i think that was just about right. might even do 730pm today. my body LITERALLY needs 9 hours of sleep a night. thats just how much the world takes out of me hahahaha. on the easiest day. actually it doesnt matter if i have an easy day or a hard day, i still need 9 hours regardless.  i could do a fooking triathalon or sit and neckbeard all day. doesnt matter. 9 hours. of sleep.  kinda weird. already Yawning at 420 pm hehehehe.

was talking to “client/customer” today and he asked me a very direct question about muh education, he was not being rude or even prying, this guy just likes to ask direct questions about things I don’t like to give direct answers to. like he was fishing for opinions about TRVMP and I wanted to appear impartial so I said my standard nonpartisan answer about interesting times, and polarized bla bla, he said he was pretty much pro-trump, i was with my colleague who is unfortunately anti-trump but I try to disregard that because she (naturally, a woman) is also very accomplished and smart and i respect her brain and actually quite like her. it would of course be better if she were pro trump. she doesn’t know im pro trump and i dont really want to let ANYBODY know hahahaha. keep my cover.

well i can just say i am a Political Moderate and Honestly Guys I Am A Centrist and don’t go in for real Leftist Stuff, however I don’t think we’ve had a good Republican Candidate since……..i dunno reagan. I would be a total Reagan Democrat guys.

when this is total BS, I am a Far Right Hwyte Nationalist and cant wait for TRVMP to build a 1488 foot high wall and deport all illegals immediately. its january 3rd, why are there still illegals and blacks? hahahaha. I want to travel to far-right meetups in my free time and do Roman Salutes hahaha.

of COURSHE you dont talk about THOSE things, and of course you soften it and say i’m a moderate, im a centrist, and be thankful i’m in a place where Centrists won’t get frowned upon as being Too Far Right!!!!!!

ANYWAY the direct guy hit me with that question, well regarding the Super High Prestige University I went to, and my one coworker was right there, and they probably didnt know about this, and im like, great, if i say i went to this prestigious middle class uni, then i look like i’m a HUGE LOSER because im making 13k a year here instead of being a fooking grad degree executive manager making 100k a year like everyone else in muh uni class hahahahaha. i am 9 times less successful than the people i went to school with.

but the guy i was talking to was very sympathetic, he wasn’t trying to be mean, and in fact, so will most people. most people arent looking for ways to attack me, they just like asking direct questions, which is something i DONT like doing to people, but i need to get better at it. anyway i spilled the spaghetti and stammered like a retarded subhuman hahaha.

but anyway i brought donuts and yeah people here like to stay in shape and aren’t huge fatasses believe it or not. these people with their masters degrees, they tend to be in better shape hahahaha. they watch what they eat, and go to the gym, and maintain a Normal Healthy Weight even into their 40s hahahaha. youhave to be really SMART to do this apparently. no you really DONT.

so i ate 2 of the ridiculous donuts. i mean there is some rich custard shit in there.

but overall i felt more confidence as the day went on, it was not severely damaged by that moment, and i dont think it SHOULD be.

but yeah its why i would not be a good salesman. because i dont make an electrifying first impression. it takes me a few weeks hahahaha. and many people dont have that LUXURY of TIME and MONEY to give you a few WEEKS to prove you arent an idiot.

but here they arent judging me like that! they werent even really judging me like that at the old place either.

QUOTE

Just talk to him. Unfortunately this is how my relationship ended. I became clingy, not because it’s my nature, but because a previous relationship crafted me to be. I became an insecure idiot and the whole situation brought on anxiety that I didn’t want.
Perhaps he has anxiety? Who knows.
One thing I wouldn’t recommend is texting him saying “Hey, I think we need space” or “We need a break”. I mean you can, but be prepared for a barrage of text messages. If he truly has relationship anxiety, then everything is out of good intentions, but it will overwhelm you and just cause the whole situation to spiral the hell out of control.
My advice. If he’s harmless and has no anger issues. Just TALK to him. Tell him it’s bugging you. Tell him you like your space, that it’s not personal and that you’re not breaking up with him, just that a human being needs time to themselves, that’s all. Sit down and have a talk. See if he really has anxiety because it sounds like he does. Assess that situation and then go from there. See if it’s something that you want to deal with.
People with anxiety don’t text you all the time because they’re clingy, it’s because you don’t reply (granted it can only be like 30 min) and they feel like they said something wrong. The constant need to be around you isn’t a lack of trust or anything either, it’s his need of wanting to know you’re still there. It’s a weird thing and most people hate it, but you need to talk to him, in person, about EVERYTHING before it gets worse for the both of you.
If he continues to act the same way after that, then ask for a break since he’s not willing to change.

END

good point reddit

well you can also be anxious that somebody will leave you for any moment without warning and do a 180 and leave you in the lurch hahahaha.

how about you just dump him by ghosting. that would solve your problem real quick.  show that creepy abuser evil person how evil, creepy, and abusive he is, maybe he can K himself, he really SHOULD!!!!! for being such a horrible person!

hehehe i pretty much had this situation. looks like i was a bona fide creep then hahaha. i still had to finish 1 year of college though. and she had to finish 1 more year of high school. and she had been with like 10 guys and had many bf’s, and i had been ith 0 gurls and had 0 gf’s.

she was secsually WAY more mature than i was, and relationship wise. she had slutted it up with many guys, and also had several monog LTRs. certainly experienced more of Life than I had.

i was pretty immature, i was only marginally more “mature” than she was.

and i never tried to manipulate or control or groom or control or isolate or abuse or bully her, and she lost interest in me and dumped me hahhahahaha.  no i didnt isolate and control her and then end up cheating on her hahahaha. she would have had to have hung out with me a lot more and use have much moar secs and be officially dating for me even to have a chance at manipulating her, hahahahahaha. not that i would.

hmmm 2300 calories today, almost 1000 over. unbelievable. not doing too good this year hahahaha. well, better to be working than to be losing weight i guess, so if gaining weight is the price i pay for Working, then i guess its worth it hahaha. not like i am banging any beotches anyway.

hey dont scold me, they’re the ones who bang on the first date. i think its fooking disgusting. but its what they want. what they like. i dont like it. i would prefer not to do it. but youhave to COMPROMISE in order to have relships, casual or not.

JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE TO COMPROMISE DOESNT MEAN YOU HAVE TO LIKE IT.

of COURSE ill do it. i havent had secs in 12 years, so if a gurl offers it, i’ll do it, because it might be ANOTHER 12 years before i get another chance. but it doesnt mean i cant resent her for giving it up too fast and not being an ideal pure waifu who waits 3 months before secs! treats the life creation process with the respect it deserves, and treat human life and the process that creates it with the utmost DIGNITY!!!!!

kinda stupid that btc keeps rising. and rising. shit im GLAD i got all out before this hahahaha. i dont TRUST somethign this unstable hahahaha.

jan 4

yep all ready to go here just killing time, reading email. went to bed early, but woke up at like 1:30 am and was awake for liek 80 minutes with stuffy nose, congestion, some worrying, tossing and turning, Thirsty (wanting water to drink.)

trying not to worry about constantly proving myself and impressing people. but in life you DO need to impress peopel. you dont get second chances. sure not with women! yeah well they gave me one chance with the interview for this job and that was good enough for them.

well you know my degree might have been worthless but it was actually related to my “passion” of helping neets with despair, anxiety, and relships. well ok thats like 4 careers there. gotta pick one. was thinking i would prob lean towards relships at this point. become a relship counselor.

trying to come up with believable excuses why i didnt get a masters degree like everyone else hahahaha. because i felt it was too expensive, not worth the ROI, and also i didn’t network too well in uni.

cuz if i say i was immature, and i was, well didnt I GET more mature in the next 10 years? NOT REALLY!!!! well why not?? because i couldnt get and keep a bigboy job hahahaha.

jan 4

1132 bitcoin? ARE YOU FOOKING KIDDING ME? i remember when it was 900 not 2 weeks ago.

so my main issue by far is having conversations with people without flipping out. not panicking, but always being slightly anxious about everything i say sounding stupid or wrong, even if its just small talk about families or something. even though i know these are nice people who want to be nice to me. so i disappoint them by not coming out of muh “shell.” and i want to come out of the shell but just having a hard time. so i try to show good will by smiling and forcing myself to talk even though it sounds AWKWARD and STUPID. I know there are worse things in life than feeling awkward. i have felt awkward nonstop for like the past 20 years hahahaha. its not a huge deal, its not near as bad as despair, which is not nearly as bad as dread/panic/fear/worry/anxiety.

DAB? in swearing in ceremony with paul ryan? wtf is dabbing? i thought it was VAPING MJ. Thats the only dabbing if ever heard of. wax or shatters or hash oil or really concentrated thc juice that you get blazed off one puff of the vaporizer. shit i dunno. i dont do that shit either. here i thought the kid was smoking drugs while his father was getting sworn into congress.

no turns out its just some negro dance move.

had 15 mL half dose of nyquil at around 3pm. will have some dayquil right before bed so i dont wake up in the damn middle of the night.

welp only managed to do 180 calories over today ehehehehe.

was in the office today and this younger rather attractive woman from related department was in. I noticed her immediately when i first saw her shortly after i first started. learned she was married and had at least one young child. well good for her. but she is def younger than me and def still very attractive hehehehehe. i wanted to learn more about her job and resume hahaha. today i learn she has an MBA hahahaha. prob not the kind of MBA you get from a top 10 business school, but the kind you get from phoenix hehehehehehe. still you can get a good middle class career job with that though.

basically life for everyone is HARD. on HARD MODE. you have to be TOUGH. i was pretty much SPOILED and had life put on EASY MODE for me. and i STILL fooked it up. and so now facing the real hard world, it seems even HARDER for me than it does for normies! I’m going into hard mode having grown up on easy mode!

but yeah i havent been in a position lately where i have to try to Justify, Argue, Defend, and Explain why i did not get a Graduate Degree. Because I’m Lazy. Because I’m Crazy! and you can’t say this kind of shit to coworkers or customers because that makes you look incompetent, stupid, etc. so, you just say….i didnt want to. cuz i didnt really WANT to. i’m allowed to say i didnt WANT to! cuz i didnt really want to. i just felt pressure and expectations like i was SUPPOSED to. similar to how i am feeling now. but those pressures aren’t necessarily all real, just me thinking what other people think!

i mean i cant just say its not worth it without showing myself as character flawed. if there daughter who is 9 years younger than me can get a masters degree right after undergrad and then quickly move from 70k job to 70k job with a masters degree, so can anyone, including me. i just wasnt willing to work hard enough!

GREAT GAME here, this guy is out with his GF and points to another girl and says t the gf, “see that gurl? GOALS.”  implying that gf needs to lose weight hahahaha.

SEE THAT GURL? GOALS.

omg that is the most alpha thing ever said. that gf is bending over and getting fooked hard tonight!

me with anybody and we see a successful middle class normie with a masters degree and they say to me, see that normie? GOALS. as if I never had goals.

well i really didnt tho hahahaha. i never wanted to WORK.

yeah well im going to WORK now hahahaha. i dont plan on missing a day ever. i get there early every day and leave late every day. i answer email after muh shift. i sometimes do work after muh shift from home. i have a pot of coffee almost all made by my official start time. i bought a tub of coffee. i bought some fancy pastries from a fancy bakery. i wear dress shoes and try to dress like a business casual normie. I try to write good emails hahahaha.

Furthermore, I am worried that someone who is so comfortable around guys to sleep with them on the first date cannot be trusted while we try to move our relationship forward.

YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS THANK YOU. this is what all the women who defend this shit sluttiness always fail to notice. if its SO EASY for her to do such a BIG thing with a total stranger, what other big things will be so easy for her to do? things that may hurt you or break your heart?

WHY IS SEX NOT A BIG DEAL FOR WOMEN??????

Apart from the fact that they can get preggers…..i mean….all the naked genitals! doesnt this SEEM like an intimate activity? did it ever OCCUR to them to feel HESITANT about this? yeah, when they were a virgin at age 14 or whatever.

GOALS.

hey im not even interested in meeting new women. (well, kinda i am hahaha. ) but im not serious about actually DOING it. im just trying to survive ONE DAY AT A TIME. also im not even worthy of being in a rel because IM NOT AN ADULT. IM TERRIBLE AT ADULTING. I AM A CHILD WHO CANT EVEN HANDLE WORKING 40 HOURS A WEEK hahahaha. THIS IS THE BARE MINIMUM OF NORMIE MATURE ADULTHOOD.

 

HONEYMOON PERIOD IS NOT AN UNREASONABLE EXPECTATION

jan 2 new current year 2017

not sure how alt right this is….ok fairly alt right.

https://web.archive.org/web/20161023161647/http://derekthewolf.com/how-to-make-women-happy-again-by-embracing-nationalism/

only using archive because i dont want to leave a trackback, but i do support the theme of the author, seems like a good goy.

article found on emily youcis retweet

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just trying to embed a darn tweet hahaha

he has good thoughts, just doesnt name the J as the driving force behind cultural marxism

GEEEE I WONDER WHO COULD BE BEHIND THIS.

 

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hmmm not embedding the way i thought it would. anyway she was getting like 2500 shekels a month, like honest bigboy money, and then

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no room on jootreon for hate speech, youve violated community guidelines, your page has been removed. nothing about the 2500 dollars. at least one goy was already charged for his 200 dollar a month donation hahahahaha must be nice what does HE do for a living. anyway they better give her the final donations, unban her, or refund the money to the donators. how jooish would it be if patreon KEPT the 2500 dollars?

who made this decision? I WANT TO SPEAK TO A SUPERVISOR hahahaha. and being denied 2500 dollars (and more in the future!) is VERY good reason to speak to a Decision Maker, with a Name!!!!!!

Millennial Woes, YOURE NEXT!!!!!!

dont get me wrong, none of this is surprising in the least, i just thought it was ridic cuz it happened so quickly. i didnt even know who EY was until november. in december i decided hey what the heck, donate tiny amount to her monthly on patreon. january 2017 comes around, eager to see her get my first one feckin dolla dnation, and she is SHUT DOWN on jan 1.

was watching dr phil my fav show, and they had a 38 yo hwyte man who DIDNT WANT TO WORK. he lived with his 91 year old grandfather and made a little money selling car parts and fixing up engines. his sister was furious for his mooching and took him onto dr phil. unfort he did not seem very sympathetic. i missed the first half. i dont know how he helps his elderly grandfather or contributes or tries to offset the mooching.

basically my litmus test for My Alt Right is, how are you on the JQ. That is it. The Final Red Pill. The JQ really is Crossing the Rubicon. and there is no turning back. separates the men from the boys. just as you get a JDar, you get a JQDar to pick up on JPilled people are on the JQ. they either get it or dont get it yet. pretty sure I am one of the privileged few who do get it. of course some people are more “extreme” than me. or at least can argue better and give you more better faster Truthbombs, and would want representing your side in a debate. I am so not that guy hahahahaha. you do NOT want me representing anything in debate unfortunately. wish i were better at that shit but i just freeze up and feel stupid. let the J’s and the marxists walk all over me. does not feel good, man.

so now emily youcis knows my real normie name hahahaha. hope she understands I do NOT want to be doxed in the same way she has been.

i mean people, esp women, don’t understand that its rude to do Spoilers. Maybe they wont understand its more than rude to do Doxing….the ultimate Spoiler hahahahaha. whoops sorry for doxing you, i wasnt thinking.

hehehehe. no im not really worried tho.

greg johnson had a good article recently on the severe violation of doxing

http://www.counter-currents.com/2016/12/dealing-with-doxers/

how can people NOT understand this. how naive can you be. why be a shit stirrer. how can you be a so called WN and NOT understand that using a fake name is NOT cowardly or jooish…..ITS BECAUSE YOU DONT WANT YOUR LIFE PERMANENTLY RUINED, AND THATS A REASONABLE THING FOR ANYBODY.

This is exactly the type of thing a crazy person like sinead would not udnerstand. not that she is doxing WN people. kinda surprised she hasnt!!!!! no, she just shit talks them.

maybe even she instinctively understands that doxing someone is a BRIDGE TOO FAR.

but the comments in the greg article mention a certain CY woman who had a WN radio show back in the pre-alt-right days and she was a “shit stirrer” who called people cowards for not using their real names. i do remember her a little , she had some good content, but yeah i remember her being salty and mean and nasty and shit stirring and nasty to other pro-hwyte people! kinda like sinead. i can’t speak to specific evidence of her attempting to dox people.

women dont even KNOW HOW NOT TO dress like sluts anymore. so if you see a woman dressed like slut, that doesn’t mean she’s a slut. it just means the culture is so degenerate, she doesnt know how NOT to dress like a slut hahahahaha. in regards to super tight pants in public places.

this is just THE NEW NORMAL.

of course, she may well BE a slut hahahaha.

no more than 7 dicks by age 25. assume start taking dicks at age 18, then one per year.

i mean i would PREFER one dick for every TWO years, but you gotta COMPROMISE goy, you cant be so RIGID and JUDGMENTAL. COMPROMISE is the basis of all relationshits.

hey im willing to compromise baby. but lets just agree to agree that

HONEYMOON PERIOD IS NOT AN UNREASONABLE EXPECTATION

to restate the big point from last poast hahaha.

bitcoin still rising. 1027 nao. this is just ridiculous.

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gonna take some nyquil or benedryl EARLY today, like no later than 2pm, so i can get in bed by 8pm, have great sleep to get up tomorrow at 515 am and go back to New Job!

my challenge is talking to normies and seeming normie when i have no normie interests. i dont watch tv or movies anymore. those are great ways to talk to normies. its all alt right, JQ, WN, 14 words, neet cure for me. nothing i do is normie. maybe i should go back to the gym cuz that is pretty normie. i can lie and say i’ve been going to the gym. i was going to the gym very regularly so its not a yuge bigly lie.

uhhh cant talk about MJ on the job, but with some normies, yes.

can talk about general current events. ok good. thats another big normie thing. see im not so hopeless and tismal and neet.

pretend i still like movies. talk about muh fav movies.

can talk about drinking pleb tier coffee like folgers and maxwell house, columbian hahahahaha.

using mint to track your personal finances.

playing poker is a pretty normie thing I do actually. i mean bitcoin gambling poker is very weird, but they dont need to know that part!

i do like some tv shows like king of the hill and sometimes bobs burgers and sometimes this cucky neoconnish tim allen show…last man standing.

kinda suprised bjork sold out her song to candy crush saga. she always struck me as a TRVE ARTIST. i mean i dont really CARE. shes a talented hwyte hwoman who deserves to make money for her children. but she’s a degen. her husbando matthew barney is an even bigger degenerate, despite being a handsome montana born big goy. bjork fooked at least one black guy in the 90s. she might fook more black guys now that she is divorced from barney. she prob made more money than him, i mean he was even artsier than her. so why does she need to sell her music nao? well even joo leonard cohen was outjooed by his jooish manager who basically stole all of cohen’s well-deserved money. so cohen had to go “back to work” and i’m glad he did because it gave me the chance to see him live which was a great life moment.

never saw bjork live. id maybe pay 30 dollars to see her in a med sized theatre, good seats. not gonna happen. she could play a nice med theatre, but tickets would prob be expensive AF. really i just wanted her to go in the “gling-glo” direction which wasnt even a technical bjork album, but it was an awesome album.

YOURE WELCOME.

yeah bjork is a degen antiwhite feminist who might as well be a J hahahahahahaha. but she’s NOT. she will never be able to STOP being a hwyte woman.

her mother was a marxist activist and her father was a “union leader”. aka a marxist activist. yep. not much of a chance for the poor young girl not to become a commie weirdo hahahaha.

so sad when hwhytes become marxist communist activists.

so gab is the freeze peach (aka hate speech, bigoted, racism) alternative to twitter. there is a WN Facebook which is not taking off. there is LiberaPay which is supposedly a free speech version of patreon or paypal. but problem is, i’m sure all of these would have a problem with WN and JQ and pro hywte advocates. liberapay shut down andrew anglin, as has twitter and paypal. does it pass the anglin test hahahaha. even TRS (enoch) still has a twitter.

took nyquil, 90% dose, at about 1:30 pm. went for 2.6 mile powerwalk. came in, warmed up, and now at peak of nyquil hahahaha. you want to get the PEAK out of the way well BEFORE you go to bed, so the next day you arent super groggy. so thats my goal.

also in the entirety of 2016 i Bought No MJ. 2015 I sure did hehehehe.

i havent bought or been able to procure MJ in……..over 17 months. yet i am still obsessed with it. well, i did partake in some 4 months ago.

obviously i should look for a FREEZE PEACH version of wordpress because they could EASILY shut me down. terrible.

WHICH REMINDS ME, better back up this blog…..ok done.  export xml file of whole blog.

what about hwyte people who have lived in diverse, violent ghettos…..and are STILL antiracist, say shit like yeah I’ve lived in violent white ghettos and anyone who says you should be “racially redpilled” if you live around violent nonwhites, is full of shit. i lived around violent nonwhites all my life and I KNOW they weren’t violent becuase they were nonwhite, they were violent because there was no opportunity in life except for crime!

these people do exist.i have met them haha hahahaha. well not a shitload of them. i would guess MOST white antiwhites have never lived in the black or brown ghetto. BUT SOME HAVE. dont underestimate them. dont overestimate them either. i guess these would be the worst, because they are THAT willing to cling to delusions, even over their own physical safety, or their family’s. sacrifice your white children to prove that black violence is caused by white racism. the ultimate in virtue signalling.

not similar to my situation except for  was probably “making” her miserable hahahaha because i wanted her and she though this was disgusting.

hahahahah reddit is so non judgmental that they never suggest that a 17 yo gurl being POLY is ridiculous bullshit. i mean any woman being “POLY” is ridiculous , but it seems like clear bullshit when a 17 year old Self Identifies as Poly. Usually they need several solid years of being a cheating whore and College to even learn about Poly and rationalize it as a legitimate thing.

look at him making a damn sandwich out of it. I reap the benefits of her disgusting whore past in SPADES because that means she is really good at secs! but……i still feel creeped out by it. becuase im a horrible person to think you shouldnt fook 60 guys. even by age 35. oh sorry 31.

this guy could be trolling….but for what purpose? to what end? i dont think the gf is wrong at all. porn is gross and bad and you shouldnt like it. well she needs to take MORE of a moral stand against it and also recognize its JQ origins hahahahaha.

what hopefully emily y and women in the alt right realize is, there is a shitload of young men out there who want to get married and have real relships, and we are sick of being crapped on by women, women who want to have their cake and eat it too, who break mens hearts because the women just want to have casual rels, not serious ones. well, there are TONS of men in their twenties – YOUNG men, who want SERIOUS wife type relships. while women in their twenties only want casual relships. then when these women turn 30 and want a husband, they cant get one. because all the good men want to get married when they are in their 20s. and good women realize that. and they get married in their 20s as well. GOOD PEOPLE MARRY YOUNG.

but yeah dont be surprised when men dont want to marry single women in their 30s. 20s, yes. 30s, not so much. women USED to be ready for marriage at a younger age.

it may be getting to the point where the culture DOES change. where 25 year old women do want to get married and not be sluts. good thing i’ll be too old to benefit from that shift hahahaha. the joos literally stole muh YOUTH from me hehehehe.

when i was young all the women wanted to be degens. by the time the culture changes and women want to be nondegen, i will be old as shit. how can a 45 year old man Woo a 25 year old woman?

well, its not entirely UNHEARD OF. plus, if the young women become more nondegen, they might well become open to Creepily Older Men. Benefitting me, hahahahahaha.

somebody needs to go to r9k or /incel HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA actually its not that funny hehehehe.

yep nyquil at 1:30 pm, was nyquil tired a bit after that, planning to go lay down for bed at 8pm, is 742 nao, getting closer