1433 OVENBURGERS AT 616 DEGREES

dec 10

saor/arsaidh roots MIGHT use a drum machine because i can’t find the name of a session drummer, or a direct quote  confirming like “andy marshall played an actual physical live drum kit on this album and not a machine” hahahaha.

whatever the case, it still sounds pretty damn good, i am really enjoying this guys style. not that its too groundbreaking, but in a way it is in how it seems to use SCOTLAND as its major influence. and nothing seems FORCED or SHOEHORNED.

like on how the following albums aura and guardians they clearly say so and so played drums. austin lunn of panopticon played wildman keith moon james read drums on aura (he sounds pretty good here, attacks the drums very passionately, there is NO WAY this is a machine, but with “roots” its a lot more questionable, and i dont particularly love that.)

i will probably buy a damn 25 dollar SAOR shirt hahaha but want to wait until 2017 because i have been spending TOO MUCH DAMN MONEY.

took 1 benedryl yesterday at like 6:30 pm and didnt quite hit like nyquil, but i still slept the sleep of the dead. well i did wake up once and did not fall back asleep immediately…but i did fall back into a deep sleep until almost 10 am and still feel groggy hehehehe. just from 1 tiny nebedryl.

but i was thinking it would be ideal to take it during the “work week” so i dont stay up too late and get 5 hours of sleep hehehehe. more sleep is good but im like gotta study gotta study gotta study so i dont sound like an idiot. i feel like an idiot.

so take a benedryl or nyquil as SOON as i get home, maybe do a little sleep groggy studying, and go to bed early enough to get 8 hours and wake up at 5 am hahahaha. go to SLEEP at 9pm not 11pm.

making BURGERS in the OVEN so i can then FREEZE the burgers and have them during the Big Boy NonNeet Work Week hahahahahahaha. Third Pound Burgers of 5.3 oz each. make 5 burgers at once, freeze them, bring out one per day, as alternative to buying expensive and sodium filled Deli Meats like ham or salami and i just dont like sliced turkey hahahaha. give me a damn beefburger all day. NOT lean either hahahaha. eating fat filled beef is how i lost 35 pounds and now fit into size 32 pants like a boss. and achieved a bmi of…. 21.5.

some women would freak out if their bmi were that “high” hahaha and want it back to 18 hehehe.

hehehe i would totally take a women with bmi 21.5 hehehehehe.

ok had about 1.46 lbs of 80 20 beef. started making third pound 5.3 oz patties. made 4 of those and then a tiny one. took some out of each to make the Little One into 4 ounces. 5 patties now total. made them as flat as i could on the baking sheet. put lawrys and pepper and garlic flakes on. put in oven for about 20 minutes, no flipping. at this point they were done, brown on inside, about medium. puddle of grease in the pan, burgers sitting in fat. used tongs to gently squeeze most fat out of patties. but i LUV FAT, so i dont mind a Glaze Of Fat on the Patties. your BRAIN is MADE OF FAT hahahaha.

had bought lowest cal white buns i could find, 110 cals each. pro tip: maybe try looking for SLIDER buns. started picking bits out of the buns to kinda hollow them out. get about .8 of a bun, 88 calories hahaha. 1488 burgers hahahaha.

put the burgers into little ziploc baggies and put them in freezer. 2 i put buns in there with them. take burgers out the night before to thaw in refrigerator.

ate one of the burgers right there. it tasted fine, tasted good. OVENBURGERS. i guess that DOES make them truly 1488Burgers!

but yeah they tasted perfectly fine, not dry at all, i mean shit they might be BETTER than burgers on the grill.

sheeeeeeeit. so i got delivered to muh inbox, an ideal job at an ideal employer. something that would have given me double boner during the merciless job search, where i dropped everything and applied for it IMMEDIATELY. so those are STILL the types of jobs I should apply for!!!! AND I would have a better chance at getting it now that i have essentially Ended The Dreaded GAP.

THEORETICALLY I could get the 42k a year job (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) and then profusely apologize to the nice people at muh new 13k a year job (they are nice good people and i would feel guilty for disappointing them) and take them out to lunch. where i would spend no more than ………………. 75 dollars on the lunch hahahahaha.

actually they might be happy that i found a good paying FT job. I would be happy for a person in that position! its not like i’m DOING much anyway! I can’t believe they have the extra 13k laying around for what i am doing! for as low stress as the job is, i DESERVE to be making MINIMUM wage!!!!!!

trying to finish this damn body fortress whey protein. it has a lot of calories in it hahahaha so i dont take more than a quarter scoop at a time.

its an ok idea, and yeah it is less “costly” protein because you get an even higher calories to protein ratio in meat or cheese…..but those taste much better hahahahaha. also i would think damn POWDER would have LESS calories than it does.

in short, i would be better served by eating beef or chikun for muh protein.

i prefer fatty beef because i like Good Fats too and Huhwhyte Chicken Breast has no flavor. legs and thighs and wings are nice though.

maybe chikun breasts wrapped in bacon hahahaha.

also another good thing about muh New Job is that it will def help me Move On from That Woman. it is almost like the last key in the puzzle. well actually finding a New Woman would be the final, but a new job is also VERY YUGE and its just YUGEly positive and I THANK GOD for that.

did i mention that i think the hospital was going to say YES and OFFER me that job?

maybe the big picture lesson is that That Woman was NEVER a Good Fit for me at all anyway. Maybe I was even playing Captain Save A Ho. Not that she was a HO per se, but she kinda did have a troubled, unfortunate life. if i were being mean i would say Fatherless White Trash. but they had good qualities too: like she wasnt a high number SLUT, and i think most of her family had decent/ok morals, there was nothing really for me to SAVE her from, she was just kinda of a lower social class than me. but if anythign i felt she could SAVE ME by being Muh First Real GF and BOY would i have hit the JACKPOT there with such a nice sweet kind pretty and young low number gurl. she would be a GREAT gf for me. also she picks guys who dont show her enough luv. i would have showed her plenty of luv. but maybe she doesnt WANT a guy whos that NEEDY. and being show luv is a turnoff for her.

and in the LONG RUN, we were from TWO DIFFERENT WORLDS like romeo and juliet hahahaha. still at least romeo and juliet luved EACH OTHER and probably banged and cuddled a little bit hahahahaha.  unrequited luv is moar tragic than requited luv hahahaha. so yeah i would have liked a CHANCE. like just a few months of “dating” would have been nice.  who cares if we were from two different worlds. they arent THAT different. were both WHYTE. her immediate family wasnt too trashy. like neck tattoos, pain pills, alcoholics, all the men are violent or in jail.

but there was always trouble brewing on the distance. sure not her “immediate” family who lived in her house, but this relative is a pill popper and that relative is a drunk and bla bla is a pill popper on disability and etc. do i really want to merge myself with that troubled family?

again her immediate family was ok……but very close to that are some serious probs.

and even if her mother wasnt a degen drug addict………she still couldnt pick a good man! maybe she was a huge bitch who drove good men away, and she only wanted Deadbeat Men who would leave HER in the lurch! just BACK ASSWARDS with her relships! and do you think her daughter isn’t gonna pick up on that? maybe act the same way?

so in other words, i really DODGED A BULLET! I should be THANKING her for getting herself out of my life! NO GOOD could have come from that!

well thats not true. some good would have def come from it hahahaha.

but it WOULD HAVE ended. It wouldnt have lasted.

still, i would have liked to just try it and experience the GF Experience for a year, if i was just gonna get dumped anyway hahahaha.

i mean really her and her family were right on the fence. they could have gone either way. i wasnt looking to save anyone from abject degeneracy….but i kinda wanted to point people in the right direction who were right in the middle like that. COME WITH ME IF YOU WANT TO LIVE hahahaha.

i’d be like ok were gonna stop sm0king MJ so much. We’ll find a good winner man for your mother. we’ll do an intervention on your extended family members and if they dont clean up their act we will defoo them. we’ll do a little pygmalion on you and teach you the difference between your and you’re. we’ll (we meaning I hahaha) will implicitly steer you to some honest to god racial consciousness so that you’d never THINK of ever fooking another black cok. you will never WANT to go back!  that was a big problem with her, is that she was WAY too sympathetic to blacks…….but i think I honestly could have turned her, she showed promise for Red Pill thinking. I mean you’re SUPPOSED to MOLD women, and she showed decent potential for being molded. but she didnt want me to mold her i guess.

she wasnt so far gone in other words. like i say, she was right on the damn fence. i could have KEPT her from embarking on the road to ruin. and i guess she didnt want that.

i was also jealous of her because she could do MJ any time she wanted, and i had to depend on her for MJ. and when our rel was FAILING, i was jealous of everything she did because she didnt want to do it with ME.

and now I probably accuse her of being some huge degen MJhead doing 1 oz  every day, when she really wasnt! she might have not even been an every day user! i have NO PROOF!

so i shit talk her and say she is taking 9000 black dicks, or smokin MJ every day, etc, when she really isnt. just because im butthurt she didnt pick me.

WRONG, im butthurt because she didnt pick me, in the most disrespectful and cowardly way imaginable hahahaha.

well, when it came to Bad Influences, she usually chose wisely in dumping those people from her life, like drunks and druggies, who would then accuse her of being on a high horse, try to make her feel guilty, etc. and i would tell her don’t worry about them, they are just butthurt, besides, its totally legit to dump bad influences from your life.

and i hate that IIIIIII became one of those bad influences! I may be a loser, but im not as big of loser as pill poppers and drug addicts and degenerate womanizers and degenerate sluts and degen white trash!!!!!! and i hate being lumped in with people like that!

but she WASNT lumping me in with them, she was just running away from a tough situation. still, the end result was the same for me.

graveland has just released a rerecording album of old stuff, which is usually a bad idea, except alot of their old stuff had really bad production, and this is produced by the main man of MGLA, who is a really good producer who knows how to get a really good sound. and also graveland has a real drummer here. which was my second big problem with graveland.

i cant possibly diss graveland because they are the oldest most legendary polish BM band, rob darken is pro-white and racially woke, but their music was often boring, poorly produced, and used a damn drum machine. so its nice to see him fixing these issues.

and i guess this was recorded “live in the studio” which imho is the ideal way to record an album, no idea why you would record any other way IF you happen to have a live drummer…..which you should.

i guess he has softened and sold out a bit so he could play giant metal festivals and appreciate his nonwhite fans……but i guess i dont really care. he probably deserves to make a living from his music and i would give him the benefit of the doubt that he is pro-white and would not support muslims pouring into europe, for example. but yeah i also guess i would prefer he is more clear about saying such things, rather than “graveland has never been a political band, its a PAGAN band”

i guess mgla are sellouts because kim kelly and leftists and sjw’s like mgla hahahaha. well LOTS of people like mgla. call them racist for associating with mikko a. will probably call them racist for associating with racist graveland. but graveland is cucking on their “racism” to make jooshekels selling their music.

yeah but playing shows would be kinda FUN and why shouldnt you make money on it. i would just draw the line if darken APOLOGIZES for being white or makes blatant sjw talk. plus i like mgla, i like mgla’s production skills, and i like real drummers.

well….i forgot graveland DID have a real drummer in their early days, and he turned out to be a HUGE racist. (capricornus.) so that is kewl. however his work was not very compelling, and he became a huge alcoholic or drug addict and disappeared entirely. not cool. be a racist AND make good, good sounding music, with real drums hehehe.

yeah the drums sound really good on this recording. sigrunar is the drummer. never heard of him. hope he’s a pole. it would be kewl if it was the drummer from mgla, he is really really good.  but its not like theres only one good drummer in poland. the guy from furia is also really good. poles are capable of amazing greatness like any whites. which is why i hate sloppy, off-time, badly-produced drums! and i am really glad to see poles really Winning in black metal in the last few years. not to crap on the old polish stuff……but i kinda have to, because it is very difficult and unrewarding to listen to.  probably im just not KVLT enough ahahahhahahaa.

so sue me for wanting to be able to understand what i’m listening to. hey i like RAW NECRO KVLT productions. but theres good kvlt and theres bad kvlt. transilvanian hunger is a perfect production. it sounds just right.  something like…..i dunno…trying to think of old polish bm….ok veles “black hateful metal” is really hard to listen to.

now that mgla is getting so BIG, purists are starting to crap on them. actually the production on this graveland album does sound very…..mglaish. which imho is a great thing! even darken’s voice. it sounds great and passionate, whereas 20 years ago, he sounded like a damn croaking frog. (tho not nearly as bad as inquisition, oh my lord.)

not to crap on inquisition either. they have flirted with pro-white stuff too. not sure if they have cucked in response.

all the more reason we need Explicitly Alt Right Music. a black metal band could just be like, yep, i’m alt right, with all the racial stuff that entails.  and i think in the coming years, this is exactly whats gonna happen. and its prob gonna be with younger bands. kinda like how lots of young college kids are getting into the alt right. i think this is AWESOME.

not that older people cant get into the alt right. i sure did. i just wish i had it when I was young like these kids today do! they got LUCKY!

and it really makes you see how the Youth are NECESSARY for the success of any political movement. compare with a bunch of oldfags grumbling on stormfront or vnn or the older WN forums. its not BAD per se, but theres barely any young people, a lot of old people, and a lot of damn LOSERS. we need more WINNERS, and YOUNG people, and YOUNG WINNERS.

I know my place as an Old Loser. So I would fit in very well with stormfront or vnn hahaha. but i dont like being an old loser. i cant change being old, but i can slowly change being a loser. how about getting with a winning pro white team rather than a losing one. go with the strong horse.

if stormfront was really smart, they would get fully on board with TRS, send people over to talk, have don black Reach Out and publicly embrace trs. maybe it could have saved his darn son from becoming a damn sjw. that is sad.

the software used at the new job has a much more….professional dev team than at my old place, where everything was opaque and secret and out of date. here everything is up front, the knowledge base has a lot of pictures, it has a COMMENT SECTION where users can ask questions and request features and report bugs, rather than calling tech support, request a feature, and have it thrown into the memory hole because level 2 is not approving escalation and level 1 is thoroughly confused and flustered and the user can’t talk to people who actually know the program and have power to fix shit. no comments allowed. just a forum where angry users ask confused questions, and the company responds with please call tech support to start a ticket thank you is there anything else i can help you with.

when ideally a level 2 would call them ASAP, escalate a case to development ASAP, and tell the user yes we WILL fix this in 6 months hahahaha.

this new job software, users can talk to Company Level 3’s right on the knowledge base page, AND vote on new features, AND see updates where a feature request is ACTUALLY implemented a few months later! a company giving a real good faith effort to its users rather than trying to pawn them off on confused, underpaid, vastly undertrained level 1’s!!!!!!!! it just looks a lot more professional and ETHICAL.

I still dont understand the software as good as these experienced users making comments tho.

BUT I DONT HAVE TO TAKE CALLS FROM THEM ALL DAY!!!!!!

seeing detailed release notes of here’s what was fixed, here’s the new features, and here’s the original discussion where a user asked for this change. we didnt have anything CLOSE to that before. the users didnt even KNOW about the knowledge base / help articles, and sure couldn’t comment on them. even tech support couldnt comment on them. tech support knew less than the users.

is all tech support like that? i mean everybody is a NEWB at some point. and when youre a newb, you are less experienced than your callers. its what you do.

i dunno. i just never want to take tech support calls ever ever EVER again. maybe 1, 2 hours a day tops.

i dont really have to answer the phone, and i am sitting in the room all day with someone with a masters degree who is an expert in this software. an SME in all areas of this software, who i can simply say hay whats going on here? and they are not chained to their desk or working on 20 cases or trying to help 20 other level 1s. such a 180 degree difference. i wish i had never left for that other job. i learned some good skills and gained some confidence sure…….BUT THEN I LOST IT ALL, and now i am LESS CONFIDENT than EVER before. it was a NET LOSS. I regret ever doing it. the gains were heavily outweighed by the losses. i was in a 3 year rut.

lesson: NEVER take a job in a call center where you have to PULL TEETH to get help…..and you are gonna need help at least 20 times a day. your first line of help is a shitty knowledge base that explains nothing and makes no sense. sigggghhhhh ughhhhhhhhh did you even READ article 82047????? you didnt really read and understand it because you’re still asking me your stupid question, maybe you don’t FIT in this job. no maybe i fooking DONT.

when i was young i didnt understand that Khazar Milkers were a thing. Or that red hair is probably just as common in Joos as it is in Huhwhytes. So when i met a young qt jooish gurl with nice khazar milkers and red hair, i thought i hit the jackpot hahahahaha. found someone really special. WRONG hahahaha.

no im not butthurt about that woman…..any more hahahaha. but at that time 10 years ago i sure was! more like 11, 12 years. i thought i was losing someone of real value. WRONG. hahahaha.

no she wasnt technically a person of no value. but she didnt really WANT to be of value to ME, and she didnt value ME nearly as much as i valued HER. story of muh life with women hahahahaha.

also i’m done with joos hahahaha. NEVER AGAIN.

and its not because of HER…..its because of JOOS as a WHOLE.

you wanna be a good joo? go to 15r43l and STAY there. i cant expect a joo to repudiate being jooish. its just NOT POSSIBLE. itd be like me repudiating being huhwhyte!!!!!!

anyway, today, kids are learning at age 20 what i didn’t learn till age 30. what i wouldnt give to have those 10 years back! those really are the most IMPORTANT years of your life!!!!!

im talking about alt right stuff, especially JQ stuff. it was probably JQ that fully converted me to red pill, WN, alt right. probably the biggest, hardest, most important red pill there is. once you understand the JQ, everything else makes sense. the JQ separates the men from the boys. either you get it or you don’t. the good news is you can learn. i did. and thanks to the alt right, kids are learning now from a good young age!

a comment on an article saying “we had a panicked caller at the service desk today over a related issue, here’s what happened, we are expecting lots more calls on this.” from what sounded like an experienced , level 2 help desk guy. and he has the power to comment on knowledge base (KB) articles, which company software teams actually read and respond to.

THIS IS AMAZING! THIS SEEMS TOO GOOD TO BE TRUE! IM JUST WAITING FOR THE OTHER SHOE TO DROP!!!!!!!

rather than level 1 help desk people shouting into the abyss, CAN SOMEONE WHO KNOWS SOMETHING HELP THIS POOR WOMAN! I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING AND she deserves a good faith effort!

seems like a real KAIZEN sort of company hahahahaha. where the previous company most certainly was not. runarounds, excuses, buck passing, we dont have any record of that, call the service desk and start a ticket, it can be fixed, it will be fixed in a future update, just saying that to get them off the phone, with NO assurance from higher ups that YES this really IS a known issue and more importantly, we ARE going to fix it, i PROMISE!!!!!!

this shit is very important to me, and, i imagine, to the average end user. it’s VERY frustrating when its not important to level 2’s and above.

holy FOOK there is a section in the KB article called “FIXED BUGS” and clearly lists the bugs, with a paragraph called EXPLANATION. they give an EXPLANATION and CALL IT an explanation explicitly! here’s how you EXPLAIN this to callers who want an EXPLANATION!!!!!!!!!!!

now i dont work for this company, really no one who uses this software works for that company in-house. you buy access to the software, probably at a highass price. but its good to see they are taking their customers damn seriously, or at least appear to be!

maybe at the last company, we were all in house, the developers, the users, so thats why they felt they could get away with such shitty service. your callers werent the companys CUSTOMERS.

but this is FOOKING STUPID because they’re calling BECAUSE they are trying to serve paying customers, and the company’s in house software is preventing them from doing that! and believe me, many customers WALKED because of stupid shit like this!

the company was LEGIT FAILING. that’s why they had tons of layoffs, because they were losing money, because customers were walking, weren’t coming back! partially because of shit like this! shitty service! so they closed the place where i used to work and laid off all those good people who did HEROIC shit every day because they wanted to help these poor callers, but we were fighting against higher ups all the time! nope just give them the runaround, its too expensive to fix the problem. ignore it.

i’m glad to see the company failing because of this…….but i’m not happy to see all those good people lose their jobs. but the job sucked and they deserve better jobs. REALLY they should have laid off all the upper management and executives and given the level 1’s and prob level 2’s a raise and promoted the good ones to manager, and given them power to actually fix shit and take their callers seriously. to kaizen shit, constantly improve your software and systems, which needed SO MUCH IMPROVEMENT its not even funny.

nope just keep kickign the can down the road and slapping bandaids on a TOTAL CLUSTERFOOK.

so shit yeah i was disgruntled from that place hahahaha.

and i was butthurt at that woman because she wasnt. she was like oh well, whatever, its just a job, dont let it get to you, get out of my life entirely, i dont want you in my life any more.

losing a loved person is a big stressful life event. so is losing your job. so is being in a soul crushing stressful job. and i had all of that going on at once. so that i was in some form of extreme pain for  3 full years. the 3 year rut. i cant believe i am finally starting to get out of it. THANK GOD. yeah also being long term unemployed is very bad for your self respect, self esteem, confidence. 3 year fookin rut man. the past 3 years sucked balls. and i cant believe its finally coming to an end. FINALLY. THANK GOD.

FREE AT LAST, FREE AT LAST, THANK GOD ALMIGHTY, IM FREE AT LAST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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