INSULT TO INJURY / IF U HAVE TO ASK FOR RESPECT, YR DONE / NO SUCH THING AS A FEMALE NEET

0205

shit. definitely have some sort of cold or flu. warm and feverish; occasional cold sweats; feeling of being run over by a truck or a Piece of Garbage hhahaha. mind was RACING last night until 4 am, took some nyquil around 2 am. took more nyquil at 12 pm then went back to bed, avoiding coffee. think i drank too much coffee yesterday. weak wobbly legs. burning eyes. dont even have the energy to look at the internet. yet i said i would meet up with a friend, becuase it seems the right thing to do, plus i am horrible about initiating contact with him. hes no angel though, i have my reasons, namely him having a ridiculous, super disappointing Drinking Problem that will totally ruin his life, marriage, family, friends, relships. but i am too pussy to give him an ultimatum because i dont like ignoring and avoiding people when they reach out to me, or especially i dont want to TTALAPOG. there has been good times and bad times and you just dont do that to people youve known for almost 20 years. they can disappoint you sure, but you arent gonna TTALAPOG unless they SEVERELY BETRAY you, and you cant even imagine what that would entail. bang your gf hahahaha. ive never had a gf he could bang plus he respects me enough to never do that and god forbid i even get a gf that would cheat on me with my long time friends!

i was watching dr phil. he had a lot of great shit to say. i pretty much luv dr phil even if his show is Slippery Schlomo’s Lies. using a Big Goy 4 U as its handsome face.

today they had a white trash mother who had 5 children by 5 different men. WHATS WRONG WITH THAT? AS LONG AS IT WAS CONSENSUAL! SHE CAN DO WHATEVER SHE WANTS WITHOUT JUDGMENT!!!! the mothers mother was taking care of these neglected kids and it was a train wreck. i dont know know if all the children are white, but the 11 year old boy they talked to had a white arm hahahaha.  and it was tragic!!!! total white trash mother!

and another episode about Controlling Husbands. one guy had some good points about about the show selectively showing a doctored picture of their home. hmm standing up to schlomo i said, not bad goy. BUT within minutes it became clear he was Unhinged and was HIGHLY neurotic and not normal. paranoid, obsessive, compulsive, high tension, suspicious, on the edge, very keyed up and anxious and hyper, like he was having a nervous breakdown. i know that feel hahahaha. he tried to reduce his internal anxiety by controlling his wife, but it didnt work. he had to learn to SELF SOOTHE. similar story with the other husband on the show. he was CLEARLY anxious and derpressed about being out of work for YEARS on injury, so he tried to fix his anxiety by controlling his wife.

i thought, WOW, these women PUT UP WITH A LOT. I would have been DUMPED in a NEW YORK SECOND acting like that, not put up with it for YEARS. NOW, these were postwall women in their 40s, certainly not beautiful or anything, but still. they deserve respect too hahahahaha.

WILL YOU TRY THIS POGAM FOR 90 DAYS? dr phil says. and they get so hopeful and jiggle their Bingo Wings when the man says ok yeah i guess if its the only way to keep her from walking.

i was like SHIT. if i asked a woman to do a 90 day program to work on our rel, she would say fook you, 90 days, tahts way too much, thats 3 months! I could find 10 guys that are better than you in every way in that time! See ya!

in other words, these wives were very WILLING and LOVING and LOYAL to STAND BY their men during very bad times. and to fix problems that were 10 times worse than the problems Me and Her had.

also: what IF she is the type of gurl who thinks EVERYTHING IS ABUSE? some people thing everything is abuse, when its really not, its just normal pain or angst or conflict or struggle. its not abuse.

and then if the woman is really comitted to the man, she will stay with him even IF there is REAL abuse!

anyway….do i want to be with a woman who FALSELY ACCUSES me of ABUSE? she’s the type of crazy b who might do a FALSE RAEP ACCUSATION and ruin a mans life with a LIE!!!!! now THATS a horrible betrayal!

how many nervous breakdowns does a person have in their life hahahaha. how often shoud you have them.  i had one in 2001 and then again in 2015.

since then i had quit a lot of bad habits that led to my first “breakdown,” namely alcohol and MJ. but i am still lazy and anxious.

very hard to be PRODUCTIVE.

its like i cant even HANDLE a REgualr BIg boy job, it puts me on the verge of a nervous breakdown and then i have it, and the job and or the rel does not last hahaha.

i am CERTAIN that smoking a LOT of mj before age 25 make me a generally more anxious and despairing person. heavy MJ use increases anxierty AND despair even after you quit. it probably even changes you damn brain permanantly for the worse in those ways.

yet i thougt i knew it all, i believed the degeneracy that said the Herbal Joo is just Mind Expanding MEDICINE to help you RELAX and CHILL OUT.  so why do you get high anxiety and dread and guilt when you partake? then why are you more anxious afterwards, when its out of your system?

i ALWAYS had high anxiety and guilt and shame so its hard to say if i got worse.

also u

0206

one of russell crowes great grandmothers is maori. this makes russell crowe an OCTAROON!!!!! he is essentially 12.5% BLACK!  welp i never would have guessed. lesson: you can be “only” 87.5% white and basically be as good as 100% white in my book hahaha.

this is all because i am watching a beautiful mind on tv which is a decent movie and russell crowe is a decent actor.

heh. i would rather have paranoid schizo and be a successful respected phd mathematician, than have basic bitch anxiety, despair, and maybe one day bipolar, and be a huge frickin loser hahahaha. i mean he just got obsessed and got so good at superhard maths that that was his ticket to success. and top skools and gummint agencies came looking for him to give him well paid work. so he saw a few hallucinations. big deal. small price to pay. and an attractive white wife. though i dont trust that whore jennifer connelly hahahahaha. think she ever cheated on a bf or husbando?

and here i am confusing fiction with reality hahahaha. degenerate actors playing highly fictionalized versions of real people who are probably not as degenerate and certainly not nearly as good-looking.

Why Good People Ghost: The Rise Of A Dishonest Dating Culture

this person is a degenerate even as they start to recognize the degeneracy in the “current dating culture.” i guess its not bad enough to keep them from having Casual Sex with multiple people at the same time, just cuz thats NORMAL now.

heh. i couldnt sleep and thought my best hope would be maybe when i am 40 i could find like a 34 year old single mom with 2 kids already and then i might be able to convince her to have a child with me. but having two children with her would be rough. but her preexisting kids would not respect me and then they would prob also bully My child because its not their full sibling and its part of me, who they dont like. and if im not strong enough to overcome those influences, then my child will grow up to be a white trash loser. either a drug addict scumbag, or a neet virgin unable to mate with white girls.

yeah i dont like the word “ghosting.” there is the implication that you are “dating”, and only for a short time, and also that everything SEEMS to be going well.

here we were friends, for a long time, and it was clear things werent going well, and she just avoided and ignored and did silent treatment and no respond. “ghosting” doesnt quite describe it fully.

i hate when you cant pass a caller onto someone more knowledgable, so you have to essentially figure their shit out ON THE SPOT. in the space of several minutes, you have to go from not knowing to knowing, and explain it to them.

or lets say you have angry clients who are demanding a discount because you got the order wrong, or late, or damaged. then you say sorry about that, well get a replacement out in 30 to 60 days, no discounts, sorry, and you can get away with that because you are kind of a monopoly. you know your clients arent gonna find some other company who can do it for cheaper in a …… 3 state radius i dunno.

or they WANT an explanation but you cant give them an explanation because an explanation is really SUPERFLUOUS. they dont really NEED it, plus it costs MONEY to come up with one, so, its better for the company to not give an explanation.

i just hate looking stupid and unprofessional and then get angry at the company for saying this is ok.

nope i cant transfer you to a higher up. I cant even talk to the higher ups!

no one has time to confirm if youre doing your job right, only that youre meeting whatever stupid quality metrics. but as far as doing the actual technical procedures correctly….that is NOT measured. it would be impossible to measure other than having a higher up sit with you for at leat 8 hours and watch all the technical stuff you do. and its LAUGHABLE to suggest that a higher up should do this. they all have their OWN case loads, the stuff tier 1 couldnt figure out. they dont have TIME to TRAIN tier 1!!!!! NOBODY has time to train tier 1!!!!!!

i like to take pride in my work, and not Pass The Buck like a black, or try to Scam like a Schlomo. I want to treat people honestly and fairly and give them Good Service.

now when i say pass the buck, i mean transfering them before youve even attempted to solve the problem. However I think if you’ve been bashing your brains out for an hour trying to solve the problem and its clear that youre just doing trial and error, then you should be able to transfer it to someone else.

its like going to a math tutor for calculus 4, but that tutor has never taken calculus 4, let alone passed it with an A or a B. YOU have taken more calculus 4 than your tutor. So the tutor breaks out the same textbook you have, says WELP lets look at the old manual, then maybe checks a few OTHER textbooks, then checks google, and says WELP a lot, then finally WELP i THINK i might have gotten it, then gives you an answer that might be wrong, but neither he nor you can PROVE its wrong, then a week later you get your homework back and the instructor has put a big X on it, indicating that its wrong, but no indication WHY, so then you have to go back to the same stupid tutor again.

or when 3 or more departments bounce you back and forth because “we dont handle that, this other department does”………and some of the people who say that are correct….but at least one person is bullshitting. yes, your department DOES handle it. but they are too untrained or they dont have a knowledgable person available to ask, “hey does our department handle this?” so the fookin new guy just “errs on the side of caution” to get the person off the phone. becuase HE cant get better advice from anyone in HIS area.

i hate this kind of shit. its like the lunatics running the asylum. or a bunch of black warlords making up the rules as they go along. you see this kind of CHAOS and you wonder how the company can stay in business WITHOUT scamming people!!!!!!!!

no accountability. that kind of stuff bothers me. i dont mind being held accountable for my work as long as i can get reliable answers from my higher ups. tell me WHY this is happening so i can have an EXPLANATION for them. give me some kind of ETA, even a rough ESTIMATE.

or lets say you are at home depot and theres a tornado. some of the employees tell the customers to stand in the middle of the store. other employees try to corral the customers into like a warehouse or soemthing. other employees scream run outside! get out of the building as fast as you can!

and whats amazingly clear is that these employees have not been trained on tornado procedures.

shit like that just looks really really bad imho!

but at least now i understand WHY it happens. because its a COST.

maybe the training was reduced to a computer module or a something the employee has to sign off on. but because they are pressured to do the training module after they punch out, they go through it as fast as possible, click click click click without reading it, because theyre not getting paid for this, and they want to get home and smoke MJ hahahaha or work on their masters degree or pick their kids up from indoctrination and shove some macdonalds in their face.

so you have to be good at bullshitting and nobody teaches you how to bullshit, there are not even good articles on the INTERNET teaching you how to bullshit. its like its some kinda big SECRET.

i would say its about telling pretty lies, but lies you cant get caught it, and always trying to cover your ass, and telling them what they want to hear, but not making promises, while trying to keep their hopes up, and when in doubt, throw your higher ups under the bus (“i really went to bat for you sir, but those bastards higher up the food chain just arent gonna play ball, it is what it is”) AND realize what you can and cannot get away with, what corners you can and cannot cut.

SEE? this is fooking HORRIBLE! as an honest white person, i just want to do an honest job and not have to bullshit and cut corners, but also not look stupid or unprofessional. damn.

like shouldnt you acting like an untrained idiot reflect poorly on YOUR manager? yes it SHOULD, but it DOESNT if nobody can get AHOLD of your manager! that you would get WRITTEN UP if you gave your managers phone number to someone! shit you dont even know how to transer a caller to your managers VOICE MAIL, and neither do any of the people around you. so you just freak out and transfer the caller to the main line, and hope you dont get them again when your call ends.

and you yourself learned to be unaccountable because…..no one was accountable to you, they werent accountable for their work, why should YOU be accountable for your work? especially if you dont really know what youre doing? you can always claim ignorance! because everyone was ignorant in some ways!

basically you just DO shit until you got in trouble for it, then said oh im sorry i didnt know that was a thing. i dont do it again!

so yeah it should reflect poorly on your manager…….if your clients/customers could ever talk to your manager! managers dont have to take calls because THEY DONT WANT TO! you can tell the person whos complaining about you, that you will pass along their complaint to a manager, who will call them back if they want, but no promises.

WRONG ANSWER. i demand to speak to a manager.

really the best think you CAN do is change your voice and pretend to be a manager, or have your neighbor do it, but they probably wont have time.

0207

it was difficult to get used to the work but even more difficult to get used to the NATURE of the work. namely, an Inbound Tier 1 Call Center where you didnt have much freedom or autonomy to call someone back; you couldnt Have Someone Else call Them Back with an answer; you didnt have an Explanation or an Estimated Time for anything; you seemed poorly prepared because you WERE poorly prepared, unless you were crazy obsessed like me and went home after a long stupid day and went right back into the shit and STUDIED it on your free time!

come home, eat dinner, get blazed on the herbal j00, listen to some Bach or Beethoven or Religious Chanting, get on to company intranet and read your case notes and knowledge base and work email and shit. damn.

i liked being able to immerse myself in the stuff in a peaceful environment, with no phones ringing and nobody demanding answers now, and i could just study and understand and practice shit, and yeah i think the herbal j00 was helpful there in “defragmenting” my mind after a long day. though maybe it wasnt NECESSARY. but at that point i really enjoyed it and had no desire to stahp. i looked forward to it at the end of a tuff day. if i couldnt be with muh female friend and cuddle with her and yes i would secs her up as well, cuz theres nothing women hate more than a pussy sensitive man who likes cuddling but is nervous about fooking. so i would just get blazed and occasionally text her and she would text back and i would get my fix that way.

so its her fault for giving me my fix?

NO….but it did give me false hope that we would Hang Out Someday. Because Friendly Texting implies that Yes, We Will Hang Out Again Someday, not I Am Going To TUALAPOG / Abort / BTFO you.

in other words, she could have started avoiding/ignoring/blocking me THEN!! instead of responding to texts.

i dunno. you dont have to like someone back, to care about them and their lives, especially when you used to have a long term friendship. you used to be important to them and now you are not important at ALL. still i dont think thats a REASON to throw anyone away LAPOG. you say, welp i have lost interest in them, but they are still a decent human being, and we once had a good friendship, so, it would be WRONG to TTALAPOG, so im just gonna talk to them and tell them im done lol.

but nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. hahahahaha.

anyway. basically if someone wants an explanation and your higher ups dont have one and you cant figure it out, just tell them, im sorry, but there just is no explanation for this. and if they continue to push, tell them you’ll look into it and contact then yourself within 72 hours. and then go home and reserach the issue during your free time and email them then. or just blow them off and hope they forget it hahahahaha.

http://archive.is/3xQbc

they have a PERFECT relship except for the SECS, he has a bad habit of losing his Erection, and he is afraid she will dump him because he’s not improving quickly enough, even though their rel is prefect in every other way. just that hes not improving FAST enough for her liking. he knows if she dumps him he will be devastated, and i fully believe him! not really any good responses so far. i am tempted to say: if this is such a good rel, she would GIVE YOU A CHANCE.

like it should take 90 days to notice any kind of change but theyve only been “Dating” a “Few WEEKS.” and this slut is annoyed the SECS isnt as nonawkward as she thinks it should be. after a few weeks. and shes 18 and has been with a lot of guys. do you think she is gonna give him a chance for 90 days? fook no, she’s gonna dump him, and he’s gonna be devastated. he is already worried that the emotional devastation will affect his school performance. and yes it probably will. and this will then affect his career for the rest of his LIFE hahahahaha. he will get a worse GPA, not be able to get certain jobs, not be able to go to certain grad skools. fook no a 19 year old young man is not ready for this, i dont think you CAN be at that age.

this is why women should not go to college hahahaha. honestly they shouldnt hahahaha. they just become sluts anyway.  like this gurl. 18 years old and already ruined for life. and this young mans risking his entire life on a fickle, impatient 18 year old slut. what a shame.

heh i actually replied on reddit. my first reply hahahahahaha.

basically i told him she needs to be more understanding and give him time and not hang the threat of dumping him over his head. like THATS gonna help him perform better. plus this is the FIRST gurl he has ever been with. he is just getting used to secs. come on. give the guy a CHANCE. and if they are so GOOD, they will be able to communicate about this and work through it, rather than her saying “fix yourself FAST.” i said, how would YOU treat HER if SHE was the one with the secsual problem? you would prob bend over backwards to support her. is she doing that for you?

would you treat her like she is treating you now? prob NOT!

would I treat my female former friend the way she treated me? ABSOLUTELY NOT. OH GOD. I WOULD NEVER TREAT SOMEBODY LIKE THAT. TTALAPOG. NEVER.

oh noes, the TRS forum has been SHOAHED because of the troll raids on kristen howerton on twitter, the swpl therapist mommy blogger who brags about her two adopted black boys and has Creepy Suggestive pictures of them with her White Biological Daughters. and the husband is of course a family therapist and very cucky. so some TRS people and i assume general twitter shitlords jumped on and tried to shame the woman. there was a big trs thread which probably should have been not public hahahaha.  kind of suprising a mod did not move the thread to the private section, but the mods work and have lives, unlike the neets like me who read the forum all day.

i certainly did not TWEET anything, but i did like a bunch of posts in the trs thread hahahaha. maybe i will get banned from the forum.

i didnt think the harrassment was too bad, considering she was putting all these pictures out there publicly. and the trolls were just photoshopping in buckets of kfc or that sort of thing hahahaha.

http://parenting.blogs.nytimes.com/2016/02/05/when-a-public-family-is-publicly-attacked/?_r=0

wow the ny slimes actually had an article about it. whoa

https://archive.is/cjZDH

interview with a 58 year old virgin

https://archive.is/Z8cr9

ridiculous 8ch thread on male virgins wow how long can it get

http://archive.is/wlDVg

make women great again, women are degen crap, they need better role models hahahaha

i went on pol because trs got shut down and figured 8pol would be good place to go

0208

heh. weighed in at 159 pounds in the morning pre coffee, post morning Micturation hahahaha, in which you can easily get rid of like 1 lb of Water Weight. so this means my first goal is reached, hooray, i am no longer “overweight.” but on the very high end of normal. consumed less than 1200 calories yesterday and myfitnesspal told me this was not recommended, i am not eating enough, and will not show me my projected 5 week weight until i consumed 1200 calories hehehehe.

now you could consume 1300 calories and burn 1000 calories at the gym, it wont complain about that.

but i have been Ill with a fever or cold or something and have not been eating much or exercising, dont want to go to gym when sick. seem to be getting better tho.

now just gotta lose 19 more pounds hahahahahaha.

make it a goal to lose 14.88% of your body weight.

its not gonna help you get women unless youre tall, but it will help you get healthier and feel more confidence when you look at your no longer so fat body. might make it easier to get jobs and keep people from Bullying you at Work hahahahahahahahaha. Whose bullied more, fat people or nonfat people? i mean skinny nerds get bullied all the time. but so do fat losers.

i watched “married at first sight” and all the women suck. i mean the men arent great either, but theyre better than the women. its a common thing where the man will want to communicate, lets communicate and put an effort into solving this problem, but the woman would rather shut down, run away, not communicate, be mad, throw a tantrum, and the guy is understandably frustrated: he wants to fix this, and she is not willing in the least. how about a litle cooperation and willingness. nope.

so i say a good thing is to give them a spanking and then hopefully they respect you again.

its just a real shitty situation when the woman stops respecting you. you cant then go to her and beg plleeeeeaaasseeee respect me, ill do anything you want, what do i have to do for you to respect me? answer: nothing. its impossible. if you have to ask, you;ll NEVER get respect.

and when you see your beloved turning away from you, drifting away from you, you get scared and desperate and its real hard to stand up and be the hard man which is the only way youll get respect back!

heh. how do i get respect from my male friends. just by being myself, being a decent person. not brain surgery.

but this is NOT enough if you want to get respect from women. you gotta be a tough guy and a hardass too hahahaha. yeah well i dont respect women cuz they are sluts and mudsharks and too damn promiscuous! goes both ways bitches hahahahaha.

the disrespect was just a double whammy on top of the rejection though. insult to injury. you can injure me but please dont insult me on top of it. i really didnt deserve that. other sluts gave me more respect when they dumped me hahaha why couldnt you.

i dunno. i just hate getting disrespected. if i did something wrong i am usually the first to feel ashamed about it. even moreso than other people. so to get disrespect from them for a total overreaction, misjudgment, mistake, misunderstanding, is fooking infuriating.

but you cant make somebody respect you. or stop disrespecting you.

google gf doesnt respect me

hhehehehe the mainstream and womens media makes it look like this never happens. but it obviously happens a lot. men everywhere are being disrespected by women.

whose fault is it? the men for being shitty little pussies? or the women for gradually coming to take their men for granted? i mean they knew what they were getting into!

a guy like me will take all the responsibility and blame: well she doesnt respect me any more, it MUST have been something i DID, now let me fight to WIN BACK her respect.

when yeah i WAS being more of a pussy and women HATE and disrespect that……but i also think it can be a conscious choice too. like, i once respected this person, what did they REALLY DO to cause my respect to decrease?

is there really a good reason to disrespect this person or am i just overreacting?

i dunno. its just so stupid that women can be so childish and immature and wrong and they never have to answer for it. is that part of their natural Privileges from having the uterus? maybe. that they are shielded from any consequences of their immaturity. that may well hurt men, but doesnt hurt the women in the least.

i dunno. maybe. therefore  im not allowed to be upset.

well, i AM allowed to be upset, i was the one wrongly disrespected!

i just wish she face some damn KARMA for this. JUSTICE hahahahaha. justice for me hahahahaha. what goes around comes around. but when it comes to women being immature…..what goes around doesnt always come back around. they just keep being stupid idiots until they have at least 2 kids. women need at least 2 kids before they stop being children themselves. till then they can go around treating people like shit.

hell no its not right, and thats why mothers and fathers would raise their daughters not to treat people like shit!

just make a damn effort to not break hearts in the most devastating way possible. and this was someone i knew and trusted, who treated me badly. just a total mindfook but i am slowly become numb to it, which is really the best and only solution here, because there wont be any REAL closure.

closure ultimately comes from within, but SOME closure CAN come from the other person. they CAN help you in the process. indeed, that is the decent thing to do. help the person you’re dumping and heartbreaking, to get started on the path to closure. give them a little bit to start them off.

anyway i have been taking nyquil every night for about 5 nights so, that kinda numbs the mind as well. feeling better so want to get off that. just try the dayquil today.

but yeah dr phil would be a great independent tribunal, an arbiter if you will. i would bring her on and we would present our cases and dr phil would say ya know sweetie, you’re just acting like a spoiled child here, he deserves better treatment. we at the dr phil show side with him. now go apologize to him and ask him for forgiveness. also consider dating him too. a white man who actually cares about you and would fight to make things work with you.

http://archive.is/53KA7

daily reminder to find a good wife, how to do so amidst the sea of degen whores hahahaha

http://shrink4men.com/2011/04/18/are-you-an-abused-man-three-questions/

QUOTE  “My wife thinks I’m being abusive and controlling when I tell her her behavior is hurtful.” END

yeah that sucks. when a woman accuses YOU of being abusive when you are just trying to communicate and or stand up for yourself, and she gets all upset, and you think…….wait……maybe i AM really abusing her!

but youre not!

0209

im not asking to never be disappointed. just that you attempt to show a little human decency and common courtesy when disappointing me, try not to add insult to injury. show a SHRED of kindness. dont be the worst person you can be. dont COMPLETELY BTFO people you have known for YEARS without a single word.

plus it makes me feel even worse for liking her. like i never thought i could like someone again, and i took a leap of faith and opened muh heart miraculously, took a chance, decide someone is important enough to you to make sacrifices for, have chirren with…….and then they TUALAPOG. and you were thinking about spending your LIFE with them and having CHIRREN with them.

makes you think holy shit how could i be so WRONG about this person?

i thought I KNEW them!

hey i was no angel. i was not perfect. my communication skills left a lot to be desired. but the right thing to do when your real actual literal friend gets feelings for you is to say IM SORRY BUT I DONT HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU hehehe.

yeah its always complicated though, its never really a good situation.

why didnt I just TAKE THE HINT and stop pressing the issue? and just move on?

well because i was desperately hoping we would hang out at SOME point, and this was a person i USED to hang out with. its not like i NEVER hung otu with her. for a long time we would hang out semi regularly. and that sets a tone and expectation of semi regular hanging out.

shit yeah it would be a LOT DIFFERENT if i NEVER hung out with her ever. but thats not the case.

like for example when you know EARLY ON you are interested in the gurl, before you even really hang out with her.

but yeah its just weird when you already have an established thing, are already friends, have a history of hanging out, also they have some legit good reasons for space, you try to give it to them.

i dunno. yeah i guess i coulda just taken the hint, but this shit was different, because we had something already, we were already friends, we already hung out, that i think sets some expectations and such. i was WAY closer and friendlier with woman2015 than i was with woman2012. woman2o12 we were just friendly acquaintances. w2015, we were full blown friends. no doubt about it. that makes a big difference.

yeah i KNOW that by getting feelings I single handedly CHANGED the relationship without her consent. but i was trying to get her consent, or her input, or whatever.  you dont have to like me back but please be gentle when you break my heart, please make an attempt not to add insult to injury. how hard is this. say thanks for the good times and i wish you well. thts all.

im not entitled to anything, i just think because we had a 2-3 year friendship, that i had a reasonable expectation to a SHRED of mercy and kindness and courtesy and respect, thats all, nothing more, nothing less.

anyway. really gotta get over this. i have become a total neet loser. and she is a winner making tons of money and tons of white knights fawning over her, but she will prob screw it up by getting knocked up by a badboy and being too stupid to use a rubber, oh they feel weird, oh im just too stupid, and who cares about the stds from these sleazebags, im a sleazebag too. but shes not a neet loser hahahaha.

are there any female neets? i dont think so! they simply dont exist! and yeah thats a biological privilege i am not arguing with. i am not REALLY butthurt about that hahahaha.

i just wish women were kinder and more respectful to men. to ME hahahahaha. theres no biological reason they cant be more respectful to me hahahaha.

come on. doesnt matter if i “revoked our friendship on the spot”. i claim i didnt. if you claim i did, burden of proof is on you to prove why.

 

 

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