DO WOMEN HAVE ANY AGENCY WHATSOEVER

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Your BMI is: 26.0
Target weight range: 118.1 lbs – 159.6 lbs
YOU   26.0
Under Healthy Over Obese
B.M.I.
Body Mass Index less – 18.5      18.5 – 25.0      25.0 – 30.0       30.0 – more

Weight RangeRightarrow
118.1 lbs      159.6 lbs         191.6 lbs

make sense of that or youre fired. make sense of many weird looking things like that without help, training, or assitance, or youre fired.  hhaahahaha. also explain the shit to laymen. like yourself. but its your job to be in the know.

come on. people not as sharp (smart) as me get jobs, i was smarter than 68% of people at my last job, which required you to be PRETTY SMART just to SURVIVE in the wilderness, the baptism by fire. but more imporatnt than being smart is being COOL UNDER PRESSURE and CHILL and “go with the flow”…….which i am defnitely NOT, to my own peril and failure an despaire and misery hahahaha.

ok gotta go fatclub now

http://intervention-directory.com/

intervention is the best and only show of its kind but it still has glaring flaws imho, namely not long enough episodes, not enough attention to rehab and recovery and follow up. although they do keep track of the people and have like a 70% recovery rate which is pretty good. but some of us really want to know what happened to these interesting memorable people. this website is a “fan made” thing which appears to aim to catalog that information. sometimes the people who were in the episode leave comments or people who know them post updates.

that feel when you had a lot of potential but wasted it and you would fail the psych test to get into certain jobs like military, police, maybe fire, maybe nursing

yeah i also feel like ill never find a better woman. i mean she was young, nice, attractive, not a slut, no kids, no tattoos, chilled out, low number of men, no drug addiction, no raep or being abused. when i am ever gonna meet a woman this high quality ever again? her composite/overall score is super high hahaha. lots of good qualities. at first i thought she had too many family issues, but altogether, she really didnt.

oh well. i cant convince her to “take me back.”

because theres nothing to go back to. we NEVER HAD a rel in that way. we NEVER HAD that kind of rel, where she was heavily invested in me as a luver. nope. we were JUST FRIENDS. and i dont want to go back to JUST FRIENDS.  just wanted to be treated like a human being by someone i had serious feelings for.

but yeah it seems most women are MUCH more damaged than her: bastard kids, lots of partners, certifiably insane with cutting and eating disorders; raepd or molested by someone; abusive family. or maybe ive just been watching and reading INTERVENTION too much! not all people are like that!

nto that that makes them bad people, it just makes them undateable to me. but then again I am pretty undateable hahahaha.

yeah i gotta stop reading all these interventions. tragic terrible lives. doesnt make them bad people tho hahaha but i was watching and theres like a 25 year old heroin or meth addict with bastard babies and batshit crazy but she still may be somewhat attractive and then i think YEP she would be out of my league because shes ATTRACTIVE hahaahah.

but yeah i hate how muh confidence is at an all time low. just an absolute all time low. i was not a huge winner but i was the biggest winner id ever been in 10 years: FT job, making over 12 DAH, working with other men my age and older. this was a grown mans job.

i was close with a woman who met all muh high standards and we had a good decent rel….until i fell in luv with her.

i was doing a ridiculous and challenging job that pushed me to my limits every day, and very often rising to the challenge.

and now thats all gone. ALL of it. heh. i may never make 15 DAH ever again hahaha. it aint easy. you gotta work HARD for that money, and when i say work hard, i mean, its like somebody throwing something at you all day saying “THINK FAST!!!!” and then they throw you a snake, chainsaw, flaming torches, a 10000 pound weight, a bomb, an aborted fetus, a 10000000 dollar vase, a machete, a bottle of acid or the type of thing that will explode when you drop it. THINK FAST! CATCH THIS!!!!

all the while trying to communicate to the person that ITS OK, I KNOW WHAT IM DOING, when you are thinking GOOD LORD I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IM DOING! I CANT DO THIS! HOW AM I GONNA DO THIS? I HAVENT BEEN TRAINED FOR THIS! WHY WAS OUR TRAINING SO WOEFULLY INADEQUATE! PLEASE TRAIN US MORE!!!!!

yeah thats what i hated the most, was the unexpected nature, and the constant fooking confusing of I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT IS GOING ON OR WHAT TO DO HERE and then having to fake your way through this all the time.

BUT I DID IT!

old unsafe link to fatherland podcast, see sidebar for proper link. this is when i first discovered the fatherland 6 months ago. still listen to it very regularly.

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oh this is great. found this on TRS forum, hopefully they get promoted to front page of TRS. podcast on being an “alt right” father from alt right men who are actually married and have kids. and arent hateful neet virgins. they can probably advise on selecting a good wife too.

anyway the point i wanted to beat to death now was that we ACTUALLY GOT ALONG WITH EACH OTHER, and it hurts to lose that. it wasnt a going through the motions charade, like when your whole rel lasts 2 months. you can be nice to each other and have secs, but you cant really get along with eachother because you dont really KNOW a pesron in 2 months.

i KNEW her and GOT ALONG with her and there wasnt the stupidity and stress of secs to rush our rel through a Short Charade of a Rel, beginning middle end within 2 – 3 months. i hate that shit.

i should be watching more of sam hyde, of course hes on my radar.

i feel like i am defending myself before a court of women who would say well she did this FOR A REASON, you cant blame it all on HER, you were pushing her and she felt betrayed, so, it makes sense she would do this.

well first of all no women are really sitting in judgment of me on this, that court of women is all in my mind.

second, i didnt have expectations of her returning my luv. i predicted she wouldnt. i DID have an expectation that we could discuss this issue like adults who had a history of friendship and really knowing each other and getting along with eac other. so then we sit down, discuss it, and agree that she cannot do this, but end the rel with “no hard feelings.” or at least not a MAXIMUM of hard feelings.

she KNEW i was upset, i could have gone and Kd myself gods sakes. not that i ever SAID anythign like that. but she knew i was upset and didnt do anything to try to decrease that.

i dunno. i just dont want future women i deal with to DEFEND her, and act like I didnt try to empathize with her.

talk abotu getting ahead of yourself!

i would say, we had a good rel, we really got along well, then I developed feelings, and tried to talk about it with her, but unfortuantely she didnt want to talk and then just cut off the rel right then and there, and i was very hurt. period. the end.

also the idea of when you can feel the balance of power shifting. usually this comes with one person investing more, being more committed, having feelings the other person doesnt have, needing/loving the other person more. then the lose power, the other person has more power, and then they dont like that, and they leave you. hehehehe.

well if they are a woman. it seems men have less problem staying in a rel where the woman loves them more; the man will just keep them around rather than dump them.

837 calories for breakfast hahahaha. then a 705 calorie burning session at fatclub. the good news is i have no anxiety about going there.

the eternal question: should you have kids with a nonwhite nonslut who does share your values, vs a white slut who does not? for a man who is fairly race conscious and doesnt really WANT mixed kids, but white kids!

the obvious answer is none of the above. im not sure my white buddies are saying MAN UP AND WIFE THOSE HUWHYTE SLUTS!!!! they would say, none of the above, keep going till you find a white woman WORTH wifing up.

chip and joanna gaines. so i watch hgtv, so sue me. he’s white, SHE is obviously mixed but still bretty attractive. i would not turn dat ass down if she were giving it to me. but would i have little quadroon kids with her like he has?

One of her staff got back to me with “Joanna is 1/2 Korean, 1/4 Lebanese, and 1/4 German.” says yahoo hahahaha.

so, 1/4 white hahahaha. hmmm and i thought she might be as much as 1/2 white!

well some lebanese look sort of white i guess. or maybe BOTH of her parents were each korean mixes hahahaha. i can tell you that korea sounds like a horrible culture which warps the minds of its people who probably bring some of that mentality when they come to the US hahaha.

http://www.drlaura.com/

dr laura might be a good source of traditional, nondegenerate life advice.

http://www.drlaura.com/b/Am-I-Anti-Female/475.html

” Now, women have largely become “pigs.” Instead of embracing modesty, pride, values, and self-value, they parade around showing their bodies like Playboy bunnies, have sex before “hello,” shack up with men without marital commitment, make babies on their own (declaring that men/fathers aren’t necessary), use abortion as birth control, and don’t imagine feminine sweetness has any place in marriage and are bored with sex with their husbands but turn on to every other Tom, Dick, and Harry. That is why men have little respect for women these days.   ” NOICE

i was out “socializing” last night and some young woman made a remark like how come guys can be a manwhore and they think thats cool, but a woman gets with a lot of guys and shes a slut. it was a silver platter delivery for my moment to mansplain on my favorite topic. but the girl was kinda annoying and not super attractive, but young and white. i didnt get the vibe that she was actually a huge whore but who knows.

http://www.drlaura.com/b/Sex-as-a-Commodity/818.html

old forum post

heh that stefan molyneux culture of critique pic i was lookin for

watching a washington POST livestream of big trump rally in bernie sanders ville and see a guy saying the 14 words in teh chatbox lol. washington post. just a standard trump rally. seeing race realists representing. NOICE.

Men could impregnate 400+ women in the time it takes one woman to have one baby. and that is assuming only 2 women per day. anyway point is, thats why its so EGREGIOUS when a woman has casual sex

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i dunno. have always been insecure in muh masculinity, never felt like a real man, which has impacted everything. jobs and women and life.

questioning how much agency and responsibility and accountability women really have. basically this means it is all my fault for getting dumped, because i did not LEAD the woman they way i was SUPPOSED to. standing up to shit tests, putting the woman in her place, saying this is the way its gonna be, putting my foot down, leading, being a REAL MAN, not an indecisive pussy. i needed to be an anchor and use a STRONG HAND to guide her. so i lost her because i was weak and unmanly. and i cant blame her for not showing agency, because it was MY job to show agency. as the woman, she can only show agency if I show agency……and i did not.

well, i showed a LITTLE bit eventually. but it was too little too late.

google hugless virgin hahahaha

oh wow shit is getting real with these cologne rapefugee attacks.  apparently twitter is doing some admin backend shit to minimise the #rapefugee hashtag because its racist and yurop needs to welcome more #rapefugees in order to stop this rape crisis hehehehe.

things are getting pretty exciting politically/socially/culturally, the new current year is obviously the year of the “alt right”. this stuff is bigger than i have ever seen it and i have been following it for at least 5 or 6 years hahahaha.

anyway YEAH i should have been more manly and used my Patriarch Hand….but i still think she could have been a LITTLE better. it doesnt take THAT much agency to write an email. well i wrote LONG emails and LONG emails are WEIRRRRRDDDDD.

and i cant even write her off as a cheap loose fat slut with mud kids and bad tattoos and etc…..cuz shes not. she just doesnt know how to deal with men cuz she has no real father.

#rapefugees hahahahaha and white leftist feminists can look the other way when white women get raped, see the brown muslim rapeugees are just punching UP so its ok.

anyway it seems more and more than mgtow and mra stuff is just the flipside of feminists, and its so stupid to be divide and conquer against women.

think of it this way: it makes much more sense to be anti other races, than to be anti WOMEN. women are not your enemy, the people trying to destroy your race are the enemy. this is why i moved to racialism from “meninism.”  becuase i still want to luv women. so the beauty of the white wimmin does not perish from the earth hahaha.

but yeah i wish i had more than 1 female friend. i mean females are different but i dont know how different they are. i mean just the fact that i could get along with a woman so well. i didnt do anything special or play any kind of game. it just HAPPENED very very naturally. no roosh pick up stuff, no negs, no DHVs or PUA stuff. just normal non autistic becoming friends and getting to know u.

and i just dont like the SUPER DUPER patriachal thing where you absolve women of all their sins because they dont know what theyre doing, they dont have angecy, they are like puppies or infants.

yeah they are more emotional and many of them are STUNTED mentally at age 16 forever…..but i didnt think she was hahahahahaa. i did hold her to a higher standard cuz i honestly thought she was better than that.

ok fatclub time.

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