yeah shit is stupid hahaha. 123, 157 days. 140 median hahahaha. i have definitely made SOME progress. “fear” i am becoming generally woman hating, yes all women are like that, ie, they will just sell you out, leave you in the lurch, dump you, disappoint you. and i dont like womens actual innate female nature: hypergamous parasite opportunists always tyring to climb up, will dump you in an instant to get with a more successful man, leave you in the lurch, sell you out.
and you cant get mad at them for wanting resources and power. they need a mans help because they get pregnant and have to raise keeds. cant hate them for that!!!
well i say they could be NICER when they dump you. they may not like us beta men but they dont have to be so damn hateful and brutal to us! and if they find a man who is good enough for like 5 years and at least 1 kid…..dont dump him for someone marginally better!
i have heard that “old mgtows” from 10+ years ago still tolerate nonmarriage rels with women, on their own terms, ahve not closed the door to women.
but the New Mgtows are more extreme, are into shunning women altogether, and building artificial wombs, etc, because they are inherently opposed to Womens Eternal Nature: the dumping and hypergamy and leeching and destuctiveness to society and family basically.
how can someones human nature be so bad and destructive? so men create, women destroy? this does not sound “complementary” in the way we say men and women complement each other!
and then i thought well yeah because female nature has become completely unleashed, uncontrolled. it needs to be TAMED and kept inside pandoras box, and thats what a strong patriarchal society used to go. channel womens power into something that WAS productive and constructive. but you remove that and they become like crazy schizophrenic mass shooters spraying death everywhere hahahahahaha.
but get them married and children young, and they might turn out all right.
besides, woman2012 treated me all right when she dumped me hahahaha. and she was a traditional minded, conservative gurl with a good father who she was very close with. it matters hahahahah.
SHE was really the perfect woman, hahahaha. she was really TOO GOOD for me!
maybe she viewed ME as a father figure (woman2015 imean, aka that woman.) this actually makes a LOT of sense. i was 5-10 years older, i came across as very chill and wise yet also caring, would listen to her and give moral support to her, and also was not secretly in luv with her. or so she thought hahahaha. so when i did fall in luv with her, it was like your FATHER suddenly falling in luv with you, which would of courshe be weird and scary and betraying. so you just abandon and abort them hahahaha you are totally justified in doing that. no of chourshe youre not. you shouldnt do that to ANYONE. having Daddy Issues or Men Issues or Abuse Issues or Trust Issues will make it more likely for you to do things like this, and kidn of explain it……….but it doesnt make it RIGHT.
muh job was like a football game or some kind of sporting event. now i dont care about sports but just listen. the athletes spend more time PRACTICING and TRAINING than they do out on the field actually playing games. and even with two well trained teams, sometimes teams perform so bad or so well, that there are big winners and big losers who get blown the fook out. BTFO.
at job we would get blown out every day because we were eseentially all game, no practice. so you get destroyed every time you go out there. becuase you dont know what youre doing.
however your opponent isnt playing the same game and rejoicing when they defeat you. here, the “opponent” is you customers/clients/callers, and they WANT you to perform well, but you cant. you are untrained and unprepared and dont know what youre doing.
quite simply you need a lot more training, and more of a gradual ramping up for new people rather than throwing them in the deep end.
but that would involve Intensive Training, Slow Ramping, and Not Throwing a person in the deep end. all these things are very expensive and companies ahve found that they dont really need to do them. because the best, strongest employees will just figure it out.
well what about us weaklings who have a hard time in the deep end, and are thrashing and flailing attempting not to drown? well you figure out how to swim, or you drown. swim or sink.
well i know some women who have abortions feel guilt for years later. so maybe she will feel guilt for YEARS for Aborting Me hahahaha. well the big difference is, im not dead. she has the power to unabort me. unblock me. i made it VERY clear in my creepy wall of text tldr emails, that my door will always be open to her. meanwhile she slammed closed and locked and fortified her door closed against me. also its prob not good that my door ALWAYS remains open to her, but uhhh i was desperate and begging. and im no longer begging but i am desperate hahaha.
i like taking Scenic Drives ie not on the freeway. which is the antithesis of scenic.
heh. i hope she thinks of me and feels guilty whenever she sees the people at job i was friendly with. of course i dont really hang out with them any more. maybe they became friendly with her. i hope not hahahaha.
the fatclub hahahaha. there are some strange people. like the arab guy who always gets right next to me and talks on the phone loudly over the noise of the treadmill despite the sign that blatantly says dont talk on your phone here.
or another arab guy, i think its a different guy, who gets right next to me and makes weird noises and sings along with the arabic music in his headphones, loud enough so everyone around them can hear him.
hahahahaha youd think with the Rising Islamophobia (hahahaha) they would be more cautious. but no they have enough numbers to feel comfortable being annoying obnoxious arabs in public.
maybe it was albanian, i cant tell when they are singing. when they are just speaking, sure. also he looked more like an arab than an albanian.
then there is another arab looking young man who has some sort of Problem, either super autist or just plain Retarted, who makes shrill high pitched squealing noises really loud that sound like a little baby girl. at first i thought it was just an obnoxious child not being managed by their single momz (i dont think children are allowed in the fatclub thank god!), but the other day he got closer to me and i saw it was a young man with Obvious Problems in the Brain. also i think we was squealing “I LOVE U!!!!!” to random strangers. so i retrained myself that whenever he squealed, instead of getting annoyed, i was THANKFUL, and said to myself “THERE BUT FOR THE GRACE OF GOD GO I” hahahahaha
you HAVE to have thick skin and know how to deal with tough customers and how to swim when you are thrown in the deep end. but these all seem like unsurmountable challenges.
i have great respect and envy for waiters. i see 21 year old boys and girls running back and forth dealing with dickhead customers and i am like no way could i do any of that. i get confused just watching them. how do they do this. these are extremely valuable skills that should get them a better job later. and if i dont have those skills then how the hell am i supposed to get an ok job. i dont even want a good job but just an ok job hahahaha. 12DAH and low stress. its not like im ever gonna get a wife or children hahahaha.
just trying to replace a headlight bulb but the owners manual is shitty as fook. the people who built the car wrote a shitty manual. you need goddamn third party consultants to write a better manual.
i said that my job involved writing a manual for the manual so i knew how to do all the stupid procedures in our “manual” that were……..not well described to begin with. but this car manual is even worse.
it doesnt tell you how to remove the clear plastic headlight cover. at. all. looking at vidyas on youtube you discover you need an 11 mm socket wrech to get these little bolts off, AND remove the front bumper to get at a hidden third bolt. none of this is in the manual.
so thank god for youtube right?
but then i find another youtube video that SORT OF shows you know to replace the bulb without removing the bumper.
also i had thought about trying to pry off the cler plastic with a screwdriver. that would have been a bad idea but you dont know that at first! you just encounter resistance and you think, hmm do i just need to pop this off, OR if i really force it, is that going to fook it up and break it. yep its gonna break it.
when it seems the better way is to go in from behind the housing, than to come at it from the front. none of this is in the manual.
so right now im writing the manual for the manual so i ACTUALLY know how to do it. and thats what i found so frustrating about our job. but i guess i should have been thankful to have ANY manual at all! well, its true lots of stuff just was not in the manual at all. like it didnt even ATTEMPT to cover some issues.
anyway i dont like female nature. i dont like what women are. hypergamous parasites and destructive destroyers. degenerate rejectors, sellouts, traitors hahahahaha. day of the rope. you cant respect them, trust them, or like them; but you arent SUPPOSED to respect, trust, or like them. you are SUPPOSED to be powerful and manly enough to attract a woman and earn her loyalty, and also keep her in line. if youre not strong enough to keep a woman in line……..you dont deserve a woman!
so its very rare when i like a woman As A Person. almost never happens. and i liked HER as a person. a likeable woman? talk about rare. so she became extra special to me. to appreciate a woman as a decent person rather than a disgusting secs object that its unfortuante that you have to be attracted to but can never attain?
sure i sound like a woman hater but i dont really hate women they just annoy and disgust me by being sellout whores. and when i become friends with women they see that i am a decent non hateful person. it only really makes me angry and upset and mad and sad when women i like and care for disappoint me or hurt me.
SHE COULD HAVE BEEN NICER. JUST BE NICE. PLEASE DONT ABORT ME. PLEASE BE NICER TO ME.
playing super high stakes holdem now. about twelve times bigger than i would like to hahahaha because its the only table with any players. i got AA and raised preflop and was got no callers. be very lucky to break even on muh buyin here. the minimum buyin is twice the maximum buyin i usually like.
ok just lost mad money i and dont think i played a single hand all the way through.
going to urban dictionary and voting down all sex positive defintions of “slut” and upvoting all the contemptuous definitions meaning that being a slut is UNdesirable hahhahaa
yeah the big problem now is just the feeling of incompetence, like shit i cant DO anything. tell me to do something and i will get confused and stupid and cant figure it out and need too much help.
but this is false. at my job i needed some help but i didnt need TOO MUCH help. those people they laid off within 1 month hahahaha.
if you have to MANSPLAIN to a woman why being a slut is wrong and bad……..she’s never gonna get it. use her for short term secs and nothing more. use the thickest strongest condos you can get even if she begs for it raw dog. not only are these women horribly promiscuous but they are stupid and unsafe and have plenty of raw dog secs!
its like standard fookparty and gay psychos bug chasing who WANT to get “poz loads” and intentionally get AIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! they turn getting aids into a secsual fetish!!!!!!!! how fooked up can you be?????!!?!?!?!
so women are similarly fooked up by just giving their uterus away, FREQUENTLY, to SHADY men who probably have herpes at LEAST, AND not insisting on condos, so they vastly incrase the risk of getting preggers, and at LEAST getting herpes, etc. wtf??!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?!
so yeah if you have to mansplain some so common sense…….bitches be cray, avoid this woman, except for secs, assuming she will let you, the “THIRSTY BETA”, have any hahahaha.
dont hate the thirsty betas! we cant ALL be confident alphas and get secs!
i dunno. maybe pretend to be a SJW so you can bang a crazy slutty SJW gurl, and you will have enough disdain for their way of life so that you dont ever come across as desperate or thirsty or pedestalizing, therefore you can bang her as much as you want, until you get BORED of it. have you ever banged a girl so MUCH you got BORED of doing it? i didnt think so hahahaha. that is something on my bucket list for sure.
yeah that would boost up the confidence. if you can deal with a WOMAN, you can deal with the toughest customers, wiht the strangest situations, with confusion and uncertainty, act like a real man.
anyway it sucks to really like a woman, then they do something shitty to you, and you CANT like them any more. then you kind of hate them. then you kind of hate all women. until you find another one you like, who doesnt fooking leave you in the LURCH. and borderline damn BETRAY you hahahaha. she betrayed me a lot more than i betrayed HER!
did she think i was her father figure? maybe. and fathers dont fall in luv with their daughters. well i never saw her as my “daughter” figure. however i DEFINITELY felt my PROTECTOR urge come out for her. like i want to protect her from harm and pain and make her safe and happy. white knight, captain save a ho hahahaha.
normie sheeple get really excited about the new star wars movie. i just dont even care. i dont understand how this could be an important thing in anyones life.
world record speed clapping
but this guy on the clapper commercial has a better style imho even though hes slower
well, i mean a father protects his daughter, and a man protects his wife. every MAN has some sort of PROTECTIVE instinct towards women, especially daughters and wives.
if you get that instinct towards a woman, good sign you have real feelings to her. random women i could care less. go fook yourselves into oblivion. although i feel not great about white women throwing themselves away. i cant stop them. if i am in a position to, then….. i dunno. will i get feelings for any white woman i am close to? probably, if they are in their 20s, have no children, and are not shaped like a fat potato.
bonus points if they are 25 or under, are actually sort of cute in some way, and especially if they are not a slut, and think being a slut is bad.
honestly. yeah i know i am a huge loser beta but you didnt have to do THAT, you coulda been a little nicer. i was an even bigger loser beta with the previous woman and she was nicer to me.
maybe she thought i was Too Old to be interested in a young gurl like her?
well her main boifran was like 5 years older than her! maybe 6! and i wasnt THAT much older than HIM!!!!
so yeah. i dunno. i hate that its all my fault because i was a weak pussy and women Just Hate that. you have to be strong and dominant AT ALL TIMES. that would be NICE, but…….i didnt show THAT much weakness to her anyway. i was jsut caught off guard to see that she would be willing to flush our whole friendship down the toilet. i dont have a ton of experience being friends with women either. but when i do, i never fall in luv with them. this was totally new ground for me. but its not rocket science. just try to be nice and communicate. but not be weak. so i couldnt handle her shit tests?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!? no not really hahahahaha.
so i am gonna fall apart whenever some gurl gives me a SHIT TEST?
well she wasnt just Some Gurl to me! she was a friend i knew for 2 years!
when there is a woman in our political / social movement it is exciting for us “thirsty beta white knights” who both pedestalize and hate women hahahaha. so the rise of sinead mccarthy is kind of interesting. people verbally brutalize her for being a Flat Earther and a Coal Burner Mudshark and an Idiot. well flat earth is stupid and
i dont know if she responded to the coal burning rumor. there are pictures of her socializing with blacks and or hugging a black guy hahahahahaha well all white gurls have hugged a black guy. problem is they think secs is as casual as hugging hahahahahahaha.
here is the infamous MW xmas hangout which i was happy to be in the chat room with Big Guy 4U like sargon hahahaha. but other actually kewl people like pale hominid and wife with a purpose were in there too. maybe sinead mccarthy can get in on one of these hahahaha MW is doing 7 of them. he should do at least 1 a month imho.
anyway yeah is sinead really being put up as a waifu figure? how many of us are lonely loser virgins? some guy on TRS forum made the great point that when you have an actual 3d gf, it makes you less of a desperate “thirsty” white knight to other women cuz you actually have an actual woman in your life hahahahaha. i wonder what that feels like. prob pretty good hahahaha. confidence building.
yeah 2015 was definintely a good year for sinead, lots of attention, david duke, red ice, shiksa goddess, etc. she does have a white child so that is good. and yeah i would totally bang her even if she is old hahahahahahaha. no she is probably younger than me hahahaha. did she say she was 26? then everybody in the chat balked at that and said she looked older. oh well. i would still bang her. but how crazy is she. some say very. well if she were showering me with attention and warmth and secs and loyalty, i would probably fall under her spell hahahaha. wonder what her traditionalist white husband is like. how much he makes. he is probably a big masculine huge viking type hahahaha.makes 100k + a year as an engineering project manager then goes out and does Strongman shit hahahaha. NO im not claiming he actually does. just spitballing. and he’s probably well above 6 feet hahahaha. 6 foot 3 at LEAST. anyway yeah i like pale white nonfat girls with long purty hair.
just spending the holidays in MW’s livechats hahahaha not even really listening to the hangout, but watching the ridiculous chatbox
it is pretty exciting, really on the cutting edge here.
but yeah sucks being a jobless failure at life and quickly becoming a huge neet shutin hahahaha
cant become a real man, blba bla bla