FICTIONAL DR|_|GZ EXPERIMENT

sat oct26

stand up and share your story, distill ‘n’ deploy The Lesson Learned. interesting fun good times fri nite, hanging out with Super Old Skool Frand, type of situation you are real thankful for, them keeping in touch with you, then go out and have a nice grown up adult fun just sitting and talking and eating, simple pleasures are the best, not gonna invade his privacy much more beyond that, but yeah, that’s one thing that keeps me from being a true neet wizard and I am very glad for it, praise the lord and pass the ammunition.

the fun story for our purposes today was, we actually partook in some “W”, which I had not partaken in since about June 2012, although I talk about it ALL THE TIME as you’ve seen. I said yeah I’d be def interested in taking ONE Puff, and I indeed held true to that, which was smart, because from that ONE Puff I was BLAZED for at least 4 hours straight. Was already starting to get considerably anxious, paranoid, worried about everything, couldn’t think or speak straight. Well, I could just barely hold onto a Conversation, which is a marked improvement over what would have likely happened had I taken Two or more puffs, then speaking sentences would have been impossible, and that would add to the Social Anxiety, because you’re talking like a complete sperg spaghetti pockets wizard virgin loser.

And this is with one of muh oldest frandz who I have known for 20+ YEARS! Probably the safest person in the world to Partake with!

So you do need to Respect the Set and Setting. For Most Virgin Losers, it’s probably best to partake W ALONE.

One funny thing I noticed: I WAS excited to get into bed and listen to some music, because it Makes Music Better. But here I found I turned into the World’s Biggest Critic, and was always finding a way NOT to enjoy whatever I was listening to, barely making through an entire song, then saying “yep, not quite feelin it”. I think the only song I managed to listen all the way thru was “Brokedown Palace” by Grateful Dead, live of course, from the Brent Mydland era (great voice on him!!), and both the band and the crowd were having a GREAT night. I was very moved at how the audience was SO into it, erupting into joyous cheering after every single line JG sung. Of course, it IS That Kind of Song. I was cheering too!

Also I listened to one of my favourite speakers/vloggers, who I listen to almost every day for years, really puts me in a great mood, great guy, personal hero, but I wasn’t feeling him too much. Was hard to listen to 10 minute arguments and speeches and I kept finding stupid things to disagree with him about, and then felt ashamed about being “disappointed” in him, and also the shameful fear “o god, what if he’s actually a pathetic loser, and I LOVE this guy, what does that say about me, etc”

But the actual truth is, I probably just wasn’t in the mood for him at that time, strange as it sounds, cuz I’m always in the mood for him. I listened to another speaker and started getting into that a little more.

And then I wondered if maybe I weren’t more in a movie-watching mood than a music-listening mood or a talker-listening mood. It was furiously challenging finding the “right” thing to listen to.

And so these racing thoughts kept me much awake later than I usually am on that night. definitely under 5 hours of sleep for short day of underwork in morning.

Normally that would be debilitating but I actually feel Better Than Average right now. W has a “hangover” that is actually a GOOD Hangover, thus, not a Hangover at all, but which could rightfully be seen as one of the Positive Effects. A Benefit. Feelin Relaxed, Chill, Calm, Friendly, perhaps reaction time is a millisecond slower but I am still doing things extremely competently, giving outstanding service, being a BOSS, and also acting Smart not Stupid. Which is the constant fear during the initial rush: “O GOD I’M ACTING SO STUPID, I AM SO STUPID, O GOD”

So my official recommendation is alot like what I mentioned in an early post: once the rush first hits, it will prob last for about 4 hours. Use this time to work out like a madman: lifting and cardio. something Intensely Insane. Just utterly exhaust your body. And then your mind will prob STILL be racing. At that point, go into the Sauna for 45 minutes. drinking plenty of water of course. you might still be racing thoughts after that!

If at any time you know exactly what kinda music to listen to, then do it; if you find yourself being the world’s biggest critic, then shut it all down and Just Start Writing your racing thoughts. That’s what I should have done last night. write write write. have an intensely Insane Writing Workout, where you type real fast for an HOUR.

Or, MUCH more easily, get out your recorder and speak the thoughts and record them. You will prob talk more coherently when you are alone and feel free to say your actual thoughts, not even necessarily without judgement, but without the expectation of conversation. with the freedom to just give an hourlong speech of your 9000000000000000000000000000000000 racing thoughts.

So after an hour of THAT, you will DEF be starting to come off the rush, starting to chill out, entering that chill bob marley hippie zone everyone thinks of as the stereotype. At THAT point you can start listening to music, or watch a movie, or PLAY music, or read a book, or Jerk Off (Actually you can prob J3rk Off during the racing thoughts period.)

Cuz I wont lie, the Racing Thoughts Worrying Period lasted for Too Long. At least 4 or 5 hours. Off of ONE Puff. Granted I take the world’s hugest superpuffs, I mean this was like 3 or 4 puffs for the newb, it was ridiculously deep and long and voluminous, holding it in for as long as possible, etc.

Doing productive work during that time would prob get real hard. have the world’s worst add, always jumping around, pacing back and forth nervously, anxiety and worry and frustration that seems to last FOREVER, worrying that people will think you’re On Drugs, it’s really quite powerful.

so this is a common W experience for us anxious types. Normalfags don’t get that kind of rush, or if they do, they’re just laughing hysterically at everything. that WOULD be nice! because what we get is The Antithesis of Fun Funny Humorousness. 180.

It would be great to have a real creative talent and to be able to successful Do That On W, whether it’s playing music, or doing Math Equations, Scientific Innovation, Computer Coding O GOD. But At least we got Our Writing, so use that. You might wish you could play music, but at least you can still write or talk into a recorder. So Do It. Talk For An Hour. Because you won’t be able to PAY ATTENTION to a movie or listening to music.

Also I Luv Muh Frand Dearly but I think I might just be one of those people who Prefers to Partake Alone. Because even if you don’t NEED To Worry About Being Social Because You’re Fortunate Enough To Be Accepted Unconditionally…..you will still worry about it anyway, because you’ll be worrying about EVERYTHING. So just take all other people out of the equation entirely.

But I am pretty sure there was at least 30% Good Stuff mixed in with my 5 horus of Racing Worry thoughts. Stuff that I could def use later, be it insights into a person’s possible motives or personality, or just good Life Protips, Light Bulb Moments, New Creative Thoughts, Ideas on what to Research Next.

DISCLAIMER: I do not personally participate in Illegal Activities and I don’t encourage You to either. Don’t Do Drugs. Drugs are illegal and evil. More relevantly, As Morally Lazy Losers with Anxiety and Emotional Dysregulation, drugs can hurt Us more than they can hurt the average Healthy Happy Normalfag(tm).

 

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26YO REVERSE COWGRILLZ

wed oct 23

ok. tues went to bed at 8 pm or 8.20. BRETTY GOOD. Marked improvement over mon, bed at 10pm. Nope. NINE at the LATEST. But SEVEN would be IDEAL. Get up early, start underwork early, get out early, eat lunch, and here’s the challenging part, do a minimum quota of Homework for the day, take powerwalk, eat dinner, watch movie, go to bed, hopefully all by 8 pm, lights out. easier said than done, and does not leave room for errands! would have to cut out the movie. and I am a f00king movie EXPERT. movies are my LIFE.

thurs oct 24th

went to bed at decent time again, around 8:30 pm. still tired, did NOT get Muh Work done yesterday cuz I just HAD to watch a movie, and it turned out to be stupid as f00k. but I still went to underwork, had a nice Social Experience, did a Powerwalk, and got to bed at a decent hour. But was still tired this morn, really gotta shoot for 7 or 7:30. And now I will be under the gun today trying to catch up with Homework. Can finally rest at about 5 pm, will take powerwalk then, but then what? any more productivity? muh new errand chore project is to get a winter coat. I know kinda what I want: a sturdy, hooded, “WarmEST”  Carharrt style coat. Something to keep me warm on Powerwalks in subzero winter.  Will cost about $80. I am ok with that as long as it lasts at least 2 years. My last coat “was” $40 and lasted 2 years, but it is very cheaply made and I tore a hole in the outer body quite easily walking past a fence or something and now the white stuffing is visible like offal and you look like an unemployable virgin loser walking around like that. you look like a bum who doesn’t take pride in his appearance, so why should anyone else.

this is a fundamental theme for us losers, we generally dress very shabbily, like we don’t take pride in what we look like. Very important. Take Pride in what you look like. Not so much for What Others Think, but for how YOU think About Yourself.

This I Believe: Like Exercise, Good Sleep, Good Food, and Prozac, Good CLOTHES are a MAGIC BULLET for Morally Lazy Loserness. Also Lifting, Praying, 18yoqt SOYF, 21yoqtSOYF, 26yo Reverse Cowgirl, Good Career Job, Good Friends, Good Family, Good Neighborhood. These are all factors.

5.18pm – breathing sigh of relief, finished with my homework related task, where I have my weekly report with my “Coordinator.” This is a great thing, a great great thing, it just makes me nervous all day thursday. especially since I have been rushing through my homework lately, or falling behind. computer related stuff, basically trying to become an expert in a computer language and it is complicated and intimidating and a lot of material and easily to feeeeel lost and confused. don’t want to talk about that too much, don’t want my enemies to out me and end my one career opportunity, my one last chance at working class adult succcess.

heheh. been up for over 12 hours now. tomorrow day off, so I could go out and party, but I tired, want to go to bed early, just ate dinn, now writing, will go for powerwalk before sun sets at 6:45 i mean 6.35pm. , then watch movie, or movie length of tv shows, will be lucky to get 2 hours of that before falling fast asleep.

real notable thing of the day was lunch with co-workers. they work in diff department and are gainfully bigboy adult upper working class fully employed. I am friendly with the one guy, who is just a real friendly talkative guy, and he invited me, I was nervous about having to talk to the other guys, but I did ok I think, thank god.

and yesterday I had also gone out for lunch with a coworker from my dept who I am quite friendly with. Turning into a regular social butterfly!!!!

The LESSON LEARNED is: become friendly with people at your place of underwork, someone, ANYONE, find the friendliest person there and GO TO LUNCH WITH THEM.

1. Just Find The Friendliest Person There, and

2. go to lunch with them.

It doesn’t even MATTER if you don’t LIKE them. (I DO like the people I mentioned.) You will BEGIN to like them if they are truly friendly. The world NEEDS more friendly, nice people. But there still are some out there. Glom onto them clingily for dear life, hahahaha.

And I also got some fresh Protips for you today:

* Absolutely buy Long Underwear for the winter. Before age 25 or so I never used to do this. Now I don’t know how I survived the winters without them. Think about it. Nothing between your bare legs and freezing cold but a pair of PANTS? HELL NO! get some LAYERS in there! The only downside is that it can be expensive to buy 14 pairs of Long Pants Underwear Thermals. That’s like $135 right there. But you could make those last 2 if not 3 years. THEORETICALLY you CAN Rewear those if you’re desperate. or not wear them every single day. YES of COURSE you should wear proper underpants underneath them!!

* Along with Big Fat Poofy Gloves for the Winter, you should also buy Cheapo Thin gloves that you can actually do stuff with your hands, grab stuff and smoke a cig and use your phone or music player or drive the car. Because with big fat gloves you can’t do any of that, but your hands get cold too fast. So just buy a pair of thin girly gloves for $2 at walmart.

* Are BOOTS more comfortable and supportive on your feet than SHOES? Maybe. Get shoes that are more Bootlike and go higher up.

* If you have a favorite Blogger or Vlogger and they’re not a super celebrity, maybe one day write them a nice email and start a mini conversation with them. Certainly you will have plenty to say because you’ve been reading/listening to them for years and are interested in the same topics. Ask them if you can talk to them for 30 minutes on the phone for Career and Life Advice, and if they will write you a Letter Of Reference and let you use them as a Reference. And then write them a nice thank you letter. You will feel Real Cool, having an exchange with one of your Heroes / Role Models. Just don’t stalk them or write them super long emails regularly. Of COURSE they’re busy.

* So November is Mustache Month for Male Cancer, that’s kind of Cool, but I suggest you just start growing a Full Blown Full Beard instead, as mustaches are too hipster. (not that beards aren’t!) plus by november WINTER IS COMING and you have more than a valid excuse. I have this habit of having a Full Beard during the Winter and Clean Shaven during the Summer, the constrast is nice. Try it out yourself. If you can’t grow a great beard, just know it WILL get better year after year. Hopefully you will be able to grow decent something by age 30, hehehehe.

* Oh yeah I forgot. get a scarf. get a LONG scarf. like long thermal underwaerz I always refused to wear a scarf. thus my face froze. it is much easier to tolerate winter with gloves, scarf, long johnz. but for some reason i saw scarfs as unmasculine or faggy or weak. NOPE. just get a black scarf. it has to be LONG so it can actually wrap around your face and not fall off. I have a shorter, normal scarf and it always falls off, I totes awnt to get a new one.

 

JUST PAY NORMAL 21YOQTS TO MAKE A PR0N WITH U

to be published fri oct 25th:

sat oct 19th

switched from games.com to pokerstars. Now I play Real People for Play Money. And after about 1 week of that, I seem to be KILLIN IT. Starting out at Babby’s First Tables and turning my maximum 200 chip buy in into 600, 800, 1000. In other words, quite easily reaching my “daily quota” of Winning 211 Chips. If not 400! (211 chips a day would be roughly equivalent to having a NonLoser, Bigboy, Upper Working Class, Bachelors Degree Career Job.)

The humans bet a lot more aggressively than the computers I play at Games.com. I am more aggressive than the computers, the humans are more aggressive than me, and I think this works out very well for me. The humans bet like Idiots, thus they lose, and I gain.

tues oct 22th

Decorate your Room with pictures and artwork and texts that inspire you and remind you of how awesome you are. If you’re a total f00kup loser, you’ll decorate your room with pictures of dead bodies and serial killers and grim skeletonz and grim reaperz and nazis and death camps and torture chamberz and pictures of suicides and paint the walls black, and weird satanic and occult sh1t and Silent Hill and Marilyn Manzonz. . DON’T do this. You can have SOME weird stuff, like maybe a picture of your favourite black metal musician dressed up in black metal cosplay, but nothing too weird. Have pictures of people who inspire you, like Bill Gates or your favorite Teacher, or your FAMILY. I am also a big fan of putting inspirational words and texts and poems and phrases on the wall. Maybe stuff from your Journal, or This Blog, or other helpful blogs. Protips 4 Winning At Life staring at you as you wake up and go to bed, embedding their good lessons into your brain subconsciously. OH YEAH.

Quotes from Leaders like John Maxwell and Peter Drucker and Anthony Robbins and Matt Foley and Me, hahahaha.

Another thing: It would be worthwhile to have an actual DESK in your room, that you can do Homework and Studying and Paperwork and Reading and Computing, rather than using your Computer In Bed. A Mini Home Office if you will. Doesn’t need to be a HUGE desk.

I have a pretty big nice desk in the BASEMENT, but I refuse to go in the basement because it’s dungeony and fluorescent lighted and no outside light. Human Beings Need Natural, Outdoor Sunlight that can only come in through WINDOWS. Better to have a smaller desk by a WINDOW, than a Nice Big Desk in a Fluorescent Basement.

Experts Say you should not have your Home Office in your Bedroom, you should never do work in your bedroom, or watch TV, your bedroom should only be for Sleep and SECHS (now that’s decadent!!!), but I will grant a pass for having a small home office/desk in your room. Noting that your walls and room are decorated with fun, positive, inspirational, awesome things. And you don’t have to spend a lot of money to do so. Just print the pictures out on the printer at your underjob. Maybe save some money to print the top 10% of pictures in color.

I was reading a bunch of articles at lifehacks.org. it was really corny and cheesy, but I think if you sincerely follow that advice, you would be a HealthyHappyNormalfag(™). It seemed really girly and normalfag, I thought it was supposed to be kinda nerdy and dorky. Or maybe that’s ifehackER. or am I just making that up??

Maybe put an ad on Craigslist saying you are looking for Grills to Make a P0rn. That way you might get “normal”, “non-hooker” girls who think they’re not Crossing The Prostitute Rubicon (but of course they are.) Like the cute little 18yos you see at Skool, you could never pay them outright for S, however the EASY WORKAROUND there is simply to pay them for making a P0RN with you. Might have to pay a LITTLE more, but for Fresh, Clean, Young, Normal girls, it’s well worth it. Note: you do NOT have to actually release the P0rn, because it’s VERY understandable you wouldn’t want the whole world to see your body. However you could still put videos of the girl, with yourself edited out, on the internet. She’s EXPECTING you to! She’s consenting to Make A P0rn Video for the Internet that the whole world can see! In a way, that’s almost WORSE than one act of nonfilmed sex-for-cash!

FEAR THE HAMSTER! This is why I don’t get married to Women, and why you shouldn’t either.
And a judge can even Throw Out a Prenup, so a Prenup is no guarantee either! He can just say Nope Don’t Care, and then you have NO legal defense!

Since you’re approaching late twenties or early thirties, it’s entirely possible some of your frandz, if you are lucky enough to have any, will be having CHILLENZ pretty soon. If they do, then offer to come hang out with the baby and entertain the baby and be the Babby’s Cool Uncle. Mainly this is towards the end of having You just act like a Silly Retard, making silly faces and noises and amusing the infant. Being around for an hour for the fun stuff, and then leave the parents for the not fun stuff. So you can experience the innocence and curiosity and freshness of Pure Youth, back before the Big Bad World F00ks You Up, and you look at everything from a Pure Natural, Positive, Neverdepressed Perspective. You think everything is awesome, not that everything sucks! Sure you cry and get upset once in a while but usually get over that in a few minutes with the comfort of their Mummy or Daddy. Unless Mummy or Daddy are savages and abuse the poor innocent infant.

Know that like 49% of students who graduate MIT at like age 21 or 22…..are VIRGINS. I read that on an infographic on Lifehacks. The more Elite High-IQ the university, the less Sexually Active the Students! Cause they’re Awkward Men who do nothing but Study and Internships and don’t know how to Talk To Grillz! But damn if they aren’t huge winners for the rest of their lives, making 300k a year starting at age 21! You’d be a 21 year old virgin ALL DAY for THAT sweet tradeoff!

The real sad cases are the nerd sperg Neet Virgins who DON’T go to MIT, but drop out of Community College and live in the basement the rest of their pathetic lives.
Find some Chill Music you can listen to. For example, listening to Rocking Metal while I’m doing Homework makes it hard to focus, while Classical or Choir music is much better. or Jazz. Recently I discovered Trip Hop is also decent for this. Specifically Massive Attack. It’s hard to find something that is chill yet still has a beat yet is not so driving that it makes you want to move your body, but rather move your Mind and Get Mental WORK done, when all you want to do is Smoke w33d, bang 26yo’s Reverse Cowgirl Style,, eat General Chowz Chicken, Drink Code Red, Watch a Movie or Show, Play Cards, Smoke W33d some more, and Go To Sleep.

LEADERSHIP BS VS MANAGEMENT BS: HOW TO NOT BE BAD AT INTERVIEWS

tues oct 15th

If you are being Micromanaged at your Underjob and don’t appreciate it, all the more because you do a ridiculously good job, then write a brief story about it you can tell in an interview later. But specifically go out of your way to say that none of your previous employers did this, because you can’t speak poorly of prev employers. just say, hypoethetically, this is an example of poor management, and here’s what i would do instead. Because I’m a LEADER not a MANAGER. I don’t just do things right, I Do The Right Thing. I Inspire by Example.

Drink Tea / Iced Tea throughout the day instead of coffee all day if you have to stay up for like 36 hours straight to get all your werk done. Coffee is fine at the beginning and middle of the day, but too much too fast will dehydrate you and make you poop your pants. So have two coffee breaks, and rest of the day, drink strong tea.

If you don’t have time to use a Cigarette Machine to make Cigarettes, just buy Roll Your Own and Roll Each Cigarette as you “need” them. Like I’ve been too lazy to sit down and use the machine to make 20 cigs, but I would be willing to ROLL a cig, if I had some Papers.

Note: do NOT buy Zig Zag papers, because they turn brown easily and always look like you’re smokign a Huge Joint. It looks SO Bad.

Buy a bag of Bugler Tobacco, or even better, a huge bag of Pipe Tobacco, and just roll that.

This is all assuming you don’t smoke a LOT. For example, I am lucky to smoke 1 pack per week. less than 3 cigs per day. Usually just one.

Find your local friendly pawn shop and/or gold shop, and start out buying some SILVER there. Silver is like the Poor Man’s Gold. Be sure you check the Market Price before you get there. Right now the price was about $21 an ounce. So go and buy an ounce and see how much it is worth in a year. I remember around 2 years ago when silver was like $15 an ounce. Now it’s $22. Not Bad, uh???? Imagine if I had bought 10 ounces back then! 16 Ounces!

wed 16th

WOW, got home at 1 am, woke up at 453 am, in at 7am, now 752 am. DEF could not do this more than once every….3 weeks? 2 weeks? Anyway I showed largesse by doing a social call, the LESSON LEARNED, and there’s almost always a LESSON LEARNED, that’s the whole reason I tell STORIES, is that

* You should try to sacrifice your Sleep once in a while to Hang Out with your Friends especially if they are doing a fun event. Just to show you care. I was making a tradeoff of sacrificing a regular and beloved Social Event, because of Time Sched Changes, basically, wanting to get proper sleep for getting up Super Early in the AM. Super Early, like earlier than average even for normalfg successfuls with upper working class careerjobs.

CHECK YOUR FRIEND-HAVING PRIVILEGE, NON-WIZARD SCUM.

10 pm should not be up so late but had to do a min quota of hw, and it’s still 3 hours earlier than last night. HAD to lay down to check my nap having privilege today. Said I would do for 2 hours but knew full well it would be longer. ended up being 3 or 4 hours, not suprising. wasted a bunch of time listening to lifelover and joy division and playing around with the long awaited new version of f.lux: darkroom settings, “ember” brightness at night, really quite friendly on the eyes, even set it to slightly dimmer for during the day, with the hypoth that the comp screen is Just Too Damn Bright Even During The Day.

Lifelover is real kewl, and great for us Emo Feelz Types. Wish they coulda lasted longer. You might think they’re corny but I still find them very honest. Honest Angst here. Anger, Hatred, Sadness, all wrapped up in catchy melodies and painful vocals. Dark haunting bits as well. One of a kind sound, even if all their songs sound The Same, it’s a good sound, hehehe. Would have liked to see them years from now, but the guy died at age 25 or so. pretty simple concept, amazing no one else did it sooner. what is a good “lifelover ripoff band” that can continue that sorta thing. I think you COULD “rip them off” in a respectful way and add new things to that sound. so much potential. Dark Metal combined with Dark Pop essentially. struggle to find the perfect production though. real hard to do programmed drums and make them sound good. prefer the live drums on “dekadens.”

Use f.lux to protect your eyes from the bright computer screen.

new shoes are breaking in ok, might take 2 weeks or more for full break in.

Go to Youtube , type in leadership, and watch vidyas by leadership gurus talking about leadership. Leadership is the same thing as “Management” but uses different BS Buzzwords, and ATM IMHO the Leadership Buzzwords will work better in an Interview than Management Buzzwords. Sounds more Emotionally Intelligent for Today’s Sensitive Managers. Unless you’re interview for a Manager Job, then maybe use a combination of Management AND Leadership Buzzwords. But if you’re a Loser reading this blog, then f00k no, you’re not gonna be managing anybody, you are competing for a spot at the bottom of the barrel.

Buy a little Wahl trimmer so you can trim the annoying hair by your ears that starts to look real bad after a few months.

Again, I cannot emphasize enough, DO NOT BUY WHITE T-SHIRTS. When you’re in the socks and underwear aisle reaching for a pack of 3 white tshirts, JUST SAY NO, and look directly to the left or right, and buy the Black or Grey ones instead. Pref Grey. Because after like one washing, the white shirt will look all yellow and shabby, like you never shower or wash your clothes, and will be immediately obvious underneath your dress shirt.  White shirts looks dirty even when they’re clean.

Now, it might look unprofessional to wear a black tshirt under a white dress shirt, if you’re an Investment Banker who always needs to look his best. But, more than likely, that’s not you, and you can get away with wearing a nonwhite tshirt under your Work Shirt. This is an improvement even if you’re just a loser working at mcdonalds or ralphs. Although they might have a strict dress code against that.

fri oct 18th

ok done prepping muh series of 4 shorter posts. u should be seeing this on oct 24th. here are a few last minute protips. You can come up with new, useful Protips Erry Day. Erry Day should be a neverending stream of protips and lifehacks and cheat codes on how to win at life.  good idea after good idea.

Protip: go into spotify and into your starred list of 3000 songs. then order them by DATE ADDED and copy the songs from the past THREE MONTHS to a new list, and then play THAT new list on Random Shuffle. This will give you like a greatest hits of the past 3 months.

HOWEVER, it’s not fool proof. I GUESS an alternate approach would be to make a similar list from your History from the Past 3 months. Because if what if during the past 3 months you listened to a lot of nonstarred songs, OR songs that were starred longer than 3 months ago! Note: HISTORY is under “PLAY QUEUE.” Spotify really needs to HIRE ME to make them better. That’s my VALUE ADD.

GAMBLE AT THE UNHOLY CASINO OR GAMBLE AT THE REGULAR CASINO?

Heh. Now that you’ve made the big shift from 18yos to 21yos, you’re finding that 21 yos aren’t so easy to pull either. Interesting Learning Experience, uh? That’s because they’re still in the prime of youth. Women in the Late Twenties will be easier to pull than Gurls in the Early Twenties. A LOT easier. However, as soon as a Woman hits 30, then it’s tick tock, they get the Baby Rabies and the Marriage Rabies, so you have to be extra careful of really shady Entrapment Tactics. They don’t want to Party any more and have No Strings Attached Friends With Benefits like you do. Heck they might even PRETEND they want FWB just to Entrap you at that point.

So your new task is to find wimmin in that sweet spot of they’re definitely past the prime of youth, but the reality hasn’t dawned on them yet fully, so they still want to Party and Play, and will do FWB and NSA and give it up easy. Maybe ages 26, 27, 28 are what you’re looking for. Yes. 26-28.  PERFECT.

Once you use them as Training Wheels and Practice Girls, you can Improve your Game and start pulling 25yos, 24yos, 23yos, and you can see where this is going!!!

Because the sooner you Sow Your Wild Oats, the sooner you can move on with life. And some poor men never get this out of their system. So they never move on. And the GOAL is to move on, so you no longer have to be a decadent degenerate sex addict, can focus on other things, like Career and Family and Children and Religion.

If you MAKE $100 a day gambling, that’s $36,500 a year. 365 days a year, $100 a day. That does seem a bit challenging. Obviously a Good Gambler can do this, and more. Because they wouldn’t make Gambling Their Job if it were easier to make more money at a Nongambling Job. However, to the Beginning Gambler, $100 a day seems difficult. Because this is NET GAINING $100 every single day. Sitting Down with $500 and Leaving with $600 every single day, WITH NO NET LOSSES. “Just” to make 36.5k a year, and remember r9k determined that 37k a year was the cutoff for Being A Loser In Life. Roughly $18 an hour.

And obviously you don’t want to play 7 days a week, that’s no fun. Probably 4 days a week would be ideal. and with 2 weeks vacation a year. Or maybe a European style vacation of 4 weeks. So, 48 weeks times 4 days per week, that’s 192 days of work per year. eh but what about chrimmus and new years, that’s like 2 weeks. and thanksgiving. 1 week. round it up to 8 weeks of vacation a year. 44 weeks times 4.  = 176 days of work a year AHHHH that’s better. 37k per year divided by 176 days of work per year, = you gotta make $211 every day. heh. Sit down with $500, leave with $711. No Losses. To Not be A Loser In Life, AND to have quite a generous amount of Free Time, way more than the Average Gainfully Employed American Workaholic Normalfag.

Heh. So I play texas holdem no limit at games.com where they start you off with 500 chips. That’s what I’m basing this all off of. Can I start with 500 chips and leave with 711 chips.  And GOD FORBID I make ONE stupid big bet and lose ALL muh chips.

So it takes nerves of steel, really. It’s amazing You couldn’t apply those Nerves of Steel to Trade School and then make WAY more than 38 k a year! Or talk to 27 year old wimmin and get them to not SOYF, but you to give them a good rogering from behind. Because by that age, no way do you want them to sit on your face. No longer nice and fresh.

OK. I forgot that if you sit down with 1000 chips, you can use your Fat Stack to win more pots, and prob have an easier time getting your daily quota of 200. HOWEVER you still can’t lose any, because you’re dipping into “past winnings” and you can’t lose that.

So where am I getting this magical 500? Because that’s what games.com starts you off with.

So what if you choose to start every day with 1000 or 2000. I BET it would be a lot easier to win your daily quota then! Hmmmmmmmmmm.

Anyway. The take home point is, you can easily WIN OR LOSE your ENTIRE daily quota in ONE hand. So you streeeeeeeeeeeetch this out into Eight Hours of Very Conservative Play. When in doubt, FOLD.

It’s funny. cuz gambling can be EXTREMELY stressful and EXTREMELY frustrating….. But it seems less frustrating and stressful than Nongambling Work because the punishment or reward happens In Real Time. You can watch your money grow…or disappear.

I suppose you could do the same by having a little APP which shows you how much money you’re making per second at your job. That would be a great app, actually, keeping your employees motivated.

Note: but the gains can be tremendous. You could go from $500 to $1000 in one hand and not have to work for 4 more days.

and it’s thrilling. it makes you forget about the outside world, and that alone can be rewarding enough.

Or I have just got the Degenerate Gambler Bug in me, and things could get REAL bad if I let them. I used to drink too much too. Smoke too much w33d. And now….gamble too much? it fits.

Annnnnnd I just went from 540 chips to 411 chips. That kind of thing is real soul crushing. So in this case, I absolutely HAVE to win 89 chips AND the 211 ON TOP OF that. See how quickly you can dig yourself a huge hole? And I’m Real Conservative Player!!! Of course, in that hand my single opponent won like a 375 chip pot, much of that my chips. Now I could easily win the 300 chips I NEED in one hand, is all I’m sayin.

So What would you rather do with your life, Gamble at the Unholy Casino, or Gamble at the Regular Casino?

ok. back to 513 pretty quickly. i still can’t quit for the day, i GOT TO get to 711. But I would LIKE to quit, because now I’m glad to “break even”, I don’t want to GAMBLE any more!!!!!

(I’m not really gambling, with real money, of course.)

In other words, I cannot wholeheartedly RECOMMEND Gambling as a Career Choice, as much as I’d liek to be able to. But as College gets less and less attractive, Gambling will continue to get more and more attractive!!!

TALK LIKE A SMART PERSON

oct 13th or so:

OK, so you’re in the Bottom 1% of weird, awkward, neet, virgin, weak, omega, lazy Losers.  SOOOO different from all those normalfags, so fubared, so far gone, right? NOPE. While you ARE part of a Small, Select, Exclusive Group, the Cure is A Lot Simpler Than You Think. You Can Be Cured/Fixed. Very Possible. You just need a little help and guidance from someone in the know. Me. We WILL Implement these Simple Steps (Simple in theory, ie they can be comprehended by an 100 IQ Normalfag Idiot, but WILL take a bit of courage and forcing to actually DO.)

If you haven’t had a 21YOQT SOYF in a long time, well then maybe it’s time to Go Back To the Pick Up Artist Sex-Obsessed Stuff, because you’ve lost your edge, you’re getting rusty, and need to brush up on First Principles and Best Practices of How To Be Masculine and Pull 21YOQTs To Your Face.

“Little” stuff, like the dale carnegie, Daniel goleman, Emotional Intelligence, How To Talk To People, Social Skills kind of stuff, Back To Basics. because you need the basics, you’re not GETTING the basics. You SKIPPED the basics, but THESE basics you NEED. Go Back and do them. Git R Done. Or maybe you didn’t SKIP em per se, but it’s been so LONG since you did them, you got REAL RUSTY, it’s LIKE you skipped them.

What else. Well, I will Stand Up And Share that I FINALLY went and got those Shoes I’ve been whinging about for days and months and weeks and years. I did a fair amount of research on zappos.com to figure out what I wanted. A Comfortable Work/Duty Shoe for people who walk and stand a lot. Dansko Croc style shoes are very big sellers here, however a bit expensive. I figured the Skechers “WORK” brand was better priced. Then I went to Kohls and looked for Skechers Work. I was unimpressed by their selection next to zappos.com. Next time, hopefully in no less than two years, I will try DSW or payless or burlington and not kohls. Kohls is good for everything BUT shoes. There was a Skechers Shoe which was not the “work” sub-brand, but which looked 80% like the shoe I was looking at on zappos. So I grabbed it and GTFO.

They seem bretty good, prob need some breaking in. Went a Little Bigger than usual, as that was a theme I was seeing. your foot should have room to wiggle around inside the shoe. And I can attest that having snug-fitting shoes throughout the day produces very stinky feet and permanently stinky shoes. yes your foot expands throughout the day, especially while you’re wearing shoes. At first the shoes seemed really loose but after a few hours now they feel a lot better. Hopefully they don’t either fall apart or start smelling horrible in less than 2 years. even 1.5 years. Next time, try Zappos for real.

Also, you are probably not a big spender on clothes for yourself, but definitely try to go above and beyond for your SHOES. I was seriously looking at some $150 Ecco brand shoes. Yes you can get away with $20 Jeans and Pants and Shirts, and save your money for Good Shoes.

I still can’t say if these new shoes are worth the $58 I paid for them, also that is about $18 more than I usually pay for shoes.

FIRST WORLD PROBLEMS. CHECK YOUR PRIVILEGE, CIS SCUM.

If you are given a task at your underwork, and you think, no WAY could anybody else do this, they would TOTALLY screw this up, good thing the manager gave the task to ME, now did they do that purposely, and this is especially if the manager is not around. In this case YOU are the de facto manager. YEAH. That’s right. Now they might never explicitly say “I’m Leaving You In Charge.” or “While I’m Gone, You’re In Charge.” So you never make the connection. Maybe THEY never make the connection. But look at the reality of the situation. And be sure to PUT IT ON YOUR RES/CL: “I WAS ACTING MANAGER. I MANAGED PEOPLE AND PROJECTS.”

Sometimes there is Resume Gold just sitting there under the surface of your Seemingly Boring Deadend Underjob.

Say that you were “SINGULARLY ENTRUSTED WITH MANAGING/IMPLEMENTING/FOLLOWING THROUGH/ DELIVERING PROJECTS OF EXTRAORDINARY URGENCY/IMPORTANCE.” You got the Special Tasks because YOU ARE SPECIAL. So SAY so on your resume, so one day you can GET PAID the money you DESERVE.

What else. Oh yeah. If you’re whining “but I don’t waaaaaaant 21yoqt’s to SOMF, I WANT 18 yoqt’s to SOMF!!!! I Will Settle for nothing less than 18 yos! 21 yos aren’t good enough!”

Then You are beyond My help. Yes, you’re RIGHT, 18 yos ARE Cuter than 21 yo’s, but you have to at least meet me halfway here, and agree that 21 yos would still make you go HNNNNGGGGG and would get the job done. Besides, when’s the last time you had a 21 yo SOYF? That’s what I thought.

OK here’s yet another great Protip: If you are used to doing your Laundry on Sundays, try doing it on Saturdays. Or Mondays. plus or minus one day. I usually do laundry once every 2 weeks. On Sundays. but I would DREAD doing it, since sunday is my Day Off and I like being Extra Lazy on that day. So now I am trying doing it on Saturday, when I have to get up early for underwork. Usually I am so Lazy I take a nap right after underwork, but now in that time, I am gonna Stay Awake and Drink Coffee and try to Do Homework. And then it came to me: Why Not Do LAUNDRY during this time? So I popped it in.

NOW, the REAL challenge will be to actually DO HOMEWORK during this time. SInce I have an UNGODLY amount of stuff to do. not the type of thing you can finish in one 8 hour day, hehehehe. hrrrrmm.  maybe two serious 8 hour days.

ANOTHER PROTIP: Since you’re not allowed to put your IQ on your resume, just use big words and during the interview, TALK LIKE A SMART PERSON. You know how when you hear a dumb person talk, you can tell they’re dumb because they talk like a dumb person? So just make sure not to talk like that. Use proper english grammar and sprinkle in some big words. talk like A Professor. Watch CSPAN and talk like somebody on there. Make Hand Gestures as you use the Smart People Words so the people pay extra special attention that Your Smrt.

Yep. It’s all about showing and telling that you’re SMART, WITHOUT listing your High IQ. You wouldn’t think this would be so hard to do. So keep using the Big Smart Person GRE words. Who cares if you “sound like someone trying too hard to sound smart.” REALLY dumb people don’t even TRY to sound smart, they can’t even. If you TRY to SOUND smart, then you ARE QED smart enough to do 99.99999% of jobs, except for like the Smartest .00000001% of Medical Dockers, or The Smartest 1% of Math Professors Emeriti.

mond 14th, 830 am

did not get a lot of sleep, but feel uncharacteristically good. might be the new shoes. if you need new shoes, go out and treat yourself with a pair of GOOD new shoes. Will make you feel like a New Person for days and days, maybe even a week.

If you are bored of shaving with a Razor, then get an Electric Razor. Definitely easier and more fun, although no more than 20% faster. Certainly 50% or more less work/effort though.

I try to watch Joyce Meyer “Enjoying Everyday Life” from 6:20 am to 6:25 am every day on the Family ABC Channel. Today she said not to live in regret. You can be sorry and move on. Because regret steals your energy from fixing stuff RIGHT NOW.

Again, prob won’t become a Joyce Meyer Fanatic, because how much of a Bible Thumping MegaPreacher can a person take, but she does have some great ideas, and is well worth watching for 5 minutes a day.

 

21YOQTs SOYF IS A CATALYST THAT BUILDS POSITIVE MOMENTUM EXPONENTIALLY

fri 10 18 2013, 12 43 pm. what up muh frandz. because it sucks posting only once a week, I’m gonna take this 5000 word post and break it up into 4 posts and release them once every other day. roughly.

oct 8 923 pm

heh gotta get up nice and early tomorrow and then try to cram in as much homework as possible when done with underwork. not super looking forward.

protip: if the paxil is not working super good, switch to prozac. if the prozac is so so, try the paxil. or effexor or lexapro or zoloft. just rotate through the cheapo $4 walmart meds, OR maybe “Affordable Care” can actually give you a deal on Prescriptions, then make the most of that. there is a huge difference. hopefully.

wed oct 9, 7.29am

yep good thing I don’t have to take a big test today, or study for a big test, or write a paper, muh brain is not gonna work ALL DAY. gonna need another 14 hourer very soon! slacking on muh homework, dear lord. so lazy. so now the question is, take nap immed upon arriving home at 1230pm; OR go to bed for the night at 5:30 pm and get like 11 hours of sleep, easily doable…..or go bed at jeopardy time of 8pm, or, take nap, do homework, go to bed around 9 or 10pm. who knows.

so joyce meyer says sometimes we need to go through a process of purification and beautification before we are ready to take on the world. we already have the gifts and talents but we don’t have the character or strength or soul to maintain, if we were suddenly catapulted into success overnight, we would lose it all. so the raw talent is there, on loan from the lord, but we are not ready for prime time yet. we gotta let the lord strengthen us.

heh. i do like watching joyce meyer for a couple minutes at a time.

saturday 12th

EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE. By You Know Who. You’ve heard of the book, heard of the guy. Is it legit? Or is it BS Poison? I think it’s more legit than not. At least in a big picture sense. EI / EQ, in MY Opinion, is how you build Social Intelligence (Not Coincidentally, Goleman’s “sequel” to “Emotional Intelligence” is Entitled and All About “Social Intelligence”) , which is how you stop being Spaghetti Pockets and start Social Networking for Fun, Profit, Happiness, Luv. It was what human beings were designed by the DawkinsDarwinGod to do. (heh, heh.) Ipso fatso, if you are Socially Awkward Virgin, that IS unhealthy, there IS something wrong with you, but damned if we can’t fix it in a relatively straightforward manner.

Absolutely it has to do with the Atomization of Modern Life. Suburbs and Car Culture and Commuting and Nonextended families and even Nuclear Families being smashed, fissioned, atomized. Kids locked in their rooms studying all day to get into the best colleges, OR, on the Loser End, left home alone by their Partyin’ Single Momz to Watch TV, Play Shoot Em Up Vidya, and Eat Junk Food all day. Smoke Weed, Smoke Meth, drink Cheap Booze.

(Though I think a successful adult (over 25) is allowed to Smoke Weed ONCE every TWO WEEKS.)

(Because your BRAIN is not even fully developed by that age, so you should not be introducing intoxicants to it before it is done developing. Kinda funny though, that you brain is still PeakING while your BODY has already peaked and is starting to slightly go downhill.)

The College Scam, The Unholy Casino, The College Career Religious Cult, That Ponzi Scheme, well another way you could describe it is PAY TO WORK. You are PAYING TO WORK. More like Paying and paying and paying and paying and paying and paying and paying and paying and paying and paying for the Gambling Casino CHANCE to work one day 4 years in the future and finally START to make some of that money back………or Not At All, and you find that you wasted a lifetime of earning potential AND the 18-22 years, when your body is at its physical peak. LOSE LOSE LOSE LOSE LOSE, LOSER.

So that is why you should be VERY careful about college, and take blatant steps to avoid debt, to get Young QTs, and to Socially Network and Make Frandz in High Places so you can get a job. Colleges would be better if they stopped pretended to teach Academic Skills, and taught Hard Social Skills to Spaghetti Pocket Virgins.

BUT MAYBE my implication that 80% of Young Men are Spaghetti Pockets Virgins who are Failed By College is Flat Wrong. Maybe it’s just the Outliers, the Tiny Minority, 1% of College Men that turn out like that, and I’m only implying that because I AM part of that 1%, so that is Biasing My Own Perspective and Worldview. OK, Point Taken!

And that is true. The Average Young Man does have a Lot More Success and Pull a Lot Better QTs than I do/did, I AM THE 1%. However, I am also WRITING FOR An Audience Of That 1%.  YOU are the 1% too.  You too are getting No Tail, No Success, No Satisfaction.

So your next assignment is to Strengthen Yer Social Skills, re the Emotional and Social Intelligence. I know this is not the first time I’ve said this, and it wont be the last, and indeed I should be mentioning it a lot more, because it IS that important.

So Get Goleman’s books, watch his vidyas on youtube, and once you have a 21yo QT REALLY SITTING on your FACE, all your problems will be solved because you will be solving them like a BOSS, approaching everything in life like a BOSS, getting things DONE, solving PROBLEMS, doing more in a DAY than you’ve previously done in a YEAR. Just because of a little magic sitting on your face action, hehehehe. No, it’s not the SOYF that’s magic, it’s the Internal Change Within that Causes the SOYF, and then that’s a catalyst that builds Positive Momentum Exponentially. Like A Boss Masculine Confidence will lead to even more SOYF, and even more Life Success, that after a while you will say, WHOA WHOA, that’s ENOUGH, I’ve got more than I’ve ever asked for, and you’ll have to take a step back and say WHOA WHOA, SLOW DOWN GURLS, I NEED A BREAK FROM ALL YALL SITTING ON MUH FACE.

Not sure what will happen then, I’ll be sure to let you know. Maybe you take all that money you’ve made and go on a Spiritual Vacation. Backpacking Across Europe, hahahahahahaha. Write the Great Novel, now that you’ve been energized by the good experiences life has to offer.

next reasonable length post in 2 days.