SOCIAL SKILLS ARE SURVIVAL SKILLS

feb 2

start of The Weekend, just want to do MJ like a loser hehehe.

feels of inferiority that i am not ATTACKING my job as much as I SHOULD be, not showing as much initiative, not being CREATIVE enough, not taking charge enough. usually when i do this i am blowing things out of proportion. and i worry what they say about me when im not there, um im getting second thoughts about this new guy, he’s kind of underwhelming, i expected more, he can do better than this, what kind of damn mental problems must he have, i mean just look at the facts, how old is he again? damn. DAMN. and he obviously doesnt have strong communication skills like he said he did, everything he says is an awkward meaningless jumble of words.  im sure he doesnt have a gf. i wonder if he lives with his fam. PROBABLY. WOW. how did he ever let his life get so OFF TRACK?

that is the type of shit i worry about now hahahaha.

i just dont want the nice people to be disappointed in me because i am uhhh kinda underwhelming and dont have a yugely confident charismatic presence. i mean i try my best folks. its a day by day thing. i have only been there 2 months. is this normal hahahaha. its normal to feel like an impostor. it took at least 3-4 months before i stopped feeling like an impostor at muh old job.

heh some MJ would help take the edge off that time hehehe.

its just different. its the type of thing where people work on a bunch of medium and longer term projects, rather than very short term cases. and when i end up with Downtime, well hehehe i feel guilty, because other jobs, when you get Downtime, you dont sit there and study work related stuff, you get your HOURS CUT, you get SENT HOME EARLY, so youre not costing the company money.

well today i was given a project and it was sort of challenging but people were offering with ideas but i didnt want to BUG them, plus i had enough to get me started, so i continued down that path, presented my results at the end of the day before i left for the weekend, essentially showed some work of what i had been doing the past 3 hours hahaha. it involved me trying to figure out something i wasn’t really strong on. i just hope they werent disappointed in me in that they expected me to Totally Fix It by the end of the day. i mean im not given super urgent tasks at any rate.

i THINK its gonna be OK, but yeah. always doubts and insecurities in my MIND.

feb 3

day off.

got some walmart george 12 dollar pants, gray. classic fit, flat front. they fit perfectly and were not that horrible “modern fit” which “sits lower on the waist.” I HATE that shit. totally satisfied. would totally buy another pair, and i might do that next week to replace another pair of pants that has gotten too big for muh incredible shrinking body hahahaha. 32 waist hehehe but im sure its a little more, tape meaure says more like 33, but most companies run a little big thankfully.

struggled against satan today and WON. got up, day off, wanted to be productive and no idle, run errands, not immediately sit on the internet for hours. get something done early, first thing in the day. got good 9 hours of sleep. did not turn on tv or computer. intended to go get haircut and to walmart and other store. felt anxiety and doubt but pushed self to do all those things. got nice haircut, boost in confidence, good. wanted to get new shirt for job at walmart, maybe pants. ended up getting nice shirt and pants. the pants are awesome but the shirt is a little bigger than desired. ideally will return it next week.

got groceries as well and then came home and made food to last me the next 3-5 days. AND did 1 load of laundry AND made 30 cigarets while the food cooked.  listened to new fatherland while doing the food and cigs.

and now its 543 pm, starting to get dark, and playing some cards and listening to new moonsorrow album for the first time

not bad, no surprises here. but for me i need to be in the mood, and i havent been in the mood since this album came out months ago.

ideally i would have a ton of MJ and would be blazing it like MAD right now. and similarly yesterday. but i dont. i laughed when thinking of finding a shady character at walmart and seeing if i could buy 20 dollars of MJ from a random shady black or brown person. i did not have the balls.

also i brushed teeth which i sometimes “forget” to do on day off, which i shameful.

also trimmed beard to level 2, ideally do this once every 2 weeks. last did this 2 weeks ago.

ok want old school epic metal, should listen to this hehehe. i recall the first song being awesome. and it is. varg v’s fav bathory albvm. he makes a comment here and there are shitloads of people calling him a shallow minded disgusting racist nazi and quorthon would have hated him too.  metal antiracists are the worst. go read that j trash metalsucks dot com. i thought you people prided yourself on being tough and iconoclastic and nonconformist. the best way you can do this is be a racist hahahahahahaha. and you have idiots loving a Heritage Loving band then bitching about people who say muslims get out. oh no, you get out you terrible racist, quorthon would have wanted hordes of muslims taking over europe.

well, maybe he would have, we cant say, he has been dead for years. but yeah it grinds my gears to see metal degenerates be all like yeah stabbing somebody to death and burning churches is cool, but being a racist who loves the hwyte race is so ignorant and offensive.

and i hold these “heritage metal” people to a higher standard because being Proud Of Your Heritage is really not that far from being Proud of your RACE, and willing to DEFEND it against its ENEMIES. but so many of them just shit on the idea of that second part. just bend over and get fooked. literal cuckolds hehehehe. metalcucks. bunch of pron obsessed degenerates hahaha.

heh. gay milo making big news with riots at berkeley. the next damn day people are rioting in nyc for gay gayvin mcanus hahahaha. what would they do with a REAL racist like richard spencer hahahaha. speaking of i thought he was gonna do a big college tour. he needs to have more of those like his thing at texas AM. do shit like that every week.

so yeah. glad i got a lot accomplished today rather than just neckbearding on internet.

so my gameplan was to “PARTY” tonight by taking a valium, then a little later, taking a benedryl. this could potentially be dangerous, cuz mixing anything with benzos is risky hehehehe. so thats why im gonna wait at least an hour before taking the benedryl.

had dream, erotic dream, that i was banging this qt gurl i knew tangentially in kollige, and i regret not noticing and pursuing her more. i just forgot she was there. but i might have had a chance with her because she was really nice to me the few times i did see her. and she was super duper qt. so now i occasionally have dreams about her hahahahahaha. prob always will. better her than THAT woman.

in this dream we were in the room with another person, and the qt woman was THROWING herself at me, just jumping on me, wanted to get fooked hard NAO. i was like, uhh theres somebody else in here, lets get a room i mean, then ill be happy to fook you hard. eventually i just let myself get taken in having public secs like a degen, because how do you say no to a young qt gurl. you cant. but i was like hmmm i really dont like sluts, i was hoping she wasnt like this, and god damn shes gotta be bipolar. and how long is this gonna last. shes probably gonna dump me within a month. why cant she just be a nicer, less bipolar, less degen, less slutty gurl. but oh well i might as well enjoy this for the brief time it lasts. but its gonna suck when she loses interest in me quickly. and she is REALLY interested now. but thats nothing. shes gotten like this for lots of guys. im not the first and sure wont be the last. and THIS is not gonna last. its not gonna get any better than this. damn. i hoped she was a better woman than this, i kinda liked her, had a fictional pedestal fantasy of her.

listening to newest 2015 iron maiden album book of souls. never listened. bruce still sounds great. not sure how they will hold attention for NINETY fookin minutes. WAY too long. but it sounds good so far.

meh you know what i will come back to this one hehehehe.

so took the valium. see if that even works. it is old valium. but i have like 90 of them, might as well use them while i dont have any MJ. i guess its kicking in a little bit. barely noticeable. not like MJ where you DEFINITELY notice it. how is MJ going in MA and NV right now? i know in ME they dont even have retail stores. or in CA either. i dont think. it still takes a year to get that shit set up. weak hahahaha. they dont immediaetly turn into CO overnight.

But in fact, recreational sales don’t become legal until next year. (2018). in california. ok.

n Diego legalized recreational pot dispensaries on Tuesday and the city also opened up the possibility it will allow pot farms, manufacturing facilities and testing labs.

San Diego is the first local city to approve recreational marijuana sales since state voters approved Proposition 64 in November, and no other cities in the county have indicated they intend to follow suit.

jan 2017. ok so go to san diego if you want to buy MJ.

 

until recreational dispensaries set up shop, which Metro said could happen as early as March. nevada 2017. cuz i mean vegas is a popular tourist destination and plenty of cheap flights. probably cheaper to fly to vegas than to CO.

state legislators in December passed a law delaying the sale of recreational marijuana products in approved retail dispensaries until July 2018. MA

yep. winterfylleth. signed up for songkick just so i could get a notification if they tour in the US. hehehehe. listened to the whole 1 hour album. thats a long album and its a really good sign if i can sit through the whole damn thing.  just glad to really enjoy a new band.

anyway that dream. i ultimately dont like when women throw themselves at you like slutty bipolar nymphomaniacs because that means theres something wrong with THEM, and also theyre gonna lose interest in you REALLY quickly, and that is very jarring. i mean its only happened to me once but i never forgot it hahahaha. yes that gurl was bipolar confirmed and taking lithium before the age of 20.  heh. wish i had had more time to actually have a serious discussion with her about Bipolar and how she dealt with it. but that would involve her hanging out with me for an appreciable amount of time.

thats a good sign. is a woman willing to spend a decent amount of TIME with you or do they just want to fook and LEAVE ahhaahhhaaha. thats what i liked about That Woman is that she liked me enough as a person to want to hang out with me for hours. sometimes hahaha.

i mean come on. im really not THAT lame. i might be a little boring and an underachiever, but you could do a LOT worse than spending a nice solid 4 hour hangout session with me hahahaha. smoke some MJ, watch some youtube, talk about 1387, talk about JQ, talk about degeneracy, watch some TV and talk about how degen and J it is, play some games, watch jeopardy, play some mario kart, smoke some more MJ, cuddle up and watch the decalogue hahahaha, make some food, go get some food, go for a scenic drive, go for a scenic walk in the park, watch the sunset. sounds like a fookload of fun amiright? go to an ethnic club, where hopefully you dont dump me for an alphaer guy, go to an artsy fartsy movie, go to a concert, go to an 1433 meetup where hopefully you dont dump me for an alphaer guy, go to the gym together where hopefully you dont leave me for an alphaer or blacker guy, hahahahahahahahahaha.

im secure about that because i really CANT compete with other guys for women. so if im hanging out with a woman in public where there are other Willing Guys, of course i worry that she’s gonna get a wandering eye and lose interest in me for a Better guy. also because women have historically lost interest in me really quick and gotten with other guys who they liked more.  shit yeah that is a big blow to your confidence.

and really i havent had a women interested in me in that way, even the slightest short term one month interest, in like…..holy shit TWELVE fookin years hehehehe.

but it was nice having a woman be interested in me as even Just A Friend when that happened like 3 years ago. 3 years ago might have been the peak of muh friendship with that woman. and holy shit even that is a long time ago. it doesnt feel liek that long hehehehe.

heh was a REAL BOSS today and put on track time starts on two youtube vidyas for good albums where the uploader nor any other commenters were generous enough to do that. you know. where you can click on the time and jump right to any song on the album for full album videos. hopefully will get plenty of upboats and thank you comments hahahahahaha. cuz these degen metal fans dont even think of taking 3 minutes to do this. well i wasnt any better until today, i never did this till today.

took the benedryl several hours after the valium.

went and installed f.lux on the computer to soften the harsh bright light of the screen at night time. with my tons of ram it does not have any noticeable memory footprint hehe.

george brand. for the man who wants to dress professional but also wants to buy his professional clothes at WALMART hahahahahahahahaha.

 

 

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BULLET STATUS: DODGED

jan 28

so yeah ive been in my mind making all women into this evil jooish BOOGEYMAN, that all women are PORNOGRAPHIC, all women are as broken as the poor women IN porn, or, even worse, all women are as evil as the degenerate, EVIL joo PRODUCERS of porn. this is all patently WRONG but I automatically find myself thinking that way, and i gotta stop. use Ninja CBT to stop and correct these very pervasive automatic bad thoughts.

CERTAINLY watching porn for years contributed to my WRONG thoughts and feels here. and its GREAT that i stopped watching and developed a RIGHT revulsion to porn, BUT i then applied that same revulsion to normal average normie women, and THERE the revulsion becomes WRONG.

http://www.unz.com/isteve/slavoj-zizek-on-kevin-macdonalds-culture-of-critique/

steve sailer article, not a lot there, didnt want to read zizeks TLDR “summary”, mainly i wanted to know what “zizi” REALLY thinks, but zizi is kinda jooish in his pranksterism.

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/4742-lighter-fare-women-being-women

hehehehe 52 pages of women bashing i can get behind. read em and weep. I should really dnate to MPC hehe.

this is why women shouldnt vote hehehe

heh forgot to mention when i was at the grocery store yesterday i saw two somewhat attractive ie nonobese whyte women….and they had little mudshark babies. certainly not the first time ive seen mudshark babies at my local supermarket but yes it doesnt rankle. since both of these women were still youngish and bangablish, not morbidly obese disgusting landwhales, and the kids were very young, no older than 3. kinda feel sorry for the kids! but they will just identify as black and prob be less conflicted than a Hapa and just lead a stereotypical black existence, muh dick hehehehe.

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/8017-the-red-pill/

check this thread out too, MPC respondign to reddits infamous sub

signature of poster threep: QUOTE: “The Js are the most worthless of all men. They are lecherous, greedy, rapacious. They are perfidious murderers of Christ. They worship the Devil. Their religion is a sickness. The Js are the odious assassins of Christ and for killing God there is no expiation possible, no indulgence or pardon. Christians may never cease vengeance, and the J must live in servitude forever. God always hated the Js. It is essential that all Christians hate them.” – St John Chrysostom

not bad, hahahahahahaha.

QUOTE from “Cuddle Workshop Participant” (HAHAHAHAHA!!!) on the MPC women thread: They can say what they want, but women themselves feel guilty if they had sexual intercourse with more than two men in their lives. Of course, they are trying to attribute this feeling to the influence of patriarchy, but it obviously has nothing to do with it. Everyone knows that negative consequences of rampant sexual life are far worse for women than for men. Sexually transmitted diseases are more dangerous for women, the risk of pregnancy is always present, the possibility of rape and violence by equally broken partners is very high and let’s not forget the various mental disorders and the feeling of emotional emptiness that regularly follows superficial sexual encounters, etc. If the latter is often felt by men, how much more will it affect women who are by nature more emotional? Ladies, it’s time to reject this farce of a “life philosophy”, reject J lies and accept your true nature. END QUOTE

NOICE.

its worth NEVER FORGETTING that most average women WOULD feel proper SHAME towards casual sex, and that the most hardcore pro-casual sex women are FEMINISTS who are all INHERENTLY severely mentally damaged, and that most normal average women ARE NOT FEMINISTS. EVEN IF they think they are.

red pill thread is great. so glad i have matured where i can see that guys like MPC are Correct and guys like TRP are Wrong hahaha. Bullet Status: Dodged to quote the great That One Guy later in this thread ( http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/8017-the-red-pill/page__st__100#entry195832 )

this is probably the worst thing about porn, is that it makes omega men hate women and view all women as Transactional, Tit For Tat, Money Grubbing Succubi, All Relationships Are Essentially Prostitution…. when they are really not. but it totally makes sense that a man might begin his journey away from pron by reading TRP….but he will reach the wrong conclusions if he doesnt eventually move on TRP!

the only money grubbing succubi are the sleazy parasites MAKING the porn!!!!

but yeah it does all make perfect sense. you see women DOING this stuff and you think what kind of person DOES that? and then view normal woman as disgusting porno whores.

i would argue that even if you quit porn, which is great, but then became obsessed with TRP…..youve still lost. net negative.

so make sure when you quit porn, you dont replace one toxic mindset with another! TRP still has a pornified, jooified mindset! you can see the pain of these men fighting against the joo, but they think theyre fighting WOMEN!

moving right along from twin peaks sountrack to mulholland drive soundtrack, the excellent angelo badalamenti PBUH.

http://jackbaruth.com/?p=3529

normie guy with children shakes head at sleazy pick up artist

heh i definitely had a TRP phase, but i think i always felt that something was missing, this wasn’t the ideal, i have to move towards something better. i didnt want to live without women, i was interested in a wife and family.

well the good news is that i finally reached muh target weight, prob the lowest weight i have ever been since like age 21.

BMI 20.8. closer to underweight than overweight. hehehe. i can probably stop now. but why not stop at BMI 20 hehehe.  i mean i would accept a woman with BMI 21 hahahaha. i wonder what That Woman’s BMI was. no she was nowhere NEAR overweight, she just had a healthy amount of fat on her thighs and fat ass oh god shouldnt be thinking about this!!!!

if the J can brainwash me with his filth for years, then i can brainwash myself with antifilth!!!!!

pretty degen hahahaha. what exactly is the filmmaker, who has a really suspect name, trying to say? but i AM glad to see tonnes of comments saying put this absolute disgusting cuckold degeneracy in the oven where it belongs. dont think we would have seen so much of that sentiment 5 years ago. young men are waking up!

jan 29

sheeeeeit sunday. go back to muh job. see i dont want to be like a WOMAN or a MILLENNIAL. I want to take charge and show intiative and go above and beyond, but also my problem is getting stuck in a comfort zone and being AFRAID to move out of that. because i think im gonna bite off more than i can chew. but the happy reality is that its VERY unlikely im gonna be in a situation where i have to SELL or EXPLAIN something to someone where I can’t get some HELP if i need it. which was a HUGE problem in my last job, and is not a problem at ALL in this job, and i have to realize that THIS JOB IS NOT THAT LAST JOB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also my desire to do MJ. i have to tell myself thats not a HWYTE thing to do. ESPECIALLY the way I WANT to do it, doing MJ every day, that is a VERY NONHWYTE thing, very black or brown. so whenever i DONT do MJ, I am being moar hwyte and living up to my holy hwyte ideals. that is a GREAT thing!!!!!

wish they had more news on the recent march for life.

oboy these protests outside airports bc of exec order travel ban on muslims. great stuff.

went for yuge 2.2 mile powerwalk for the first time in a long time hehehe.  NEEDED to do that.

jan 31

QUOTE: Published on Jan 30, 2017
Young men, before they develop themselves with skills, life goals and a career, are vulnerable to developing obsessive fixations with women in order to allay their feelings of inadequacy. (This is why it’s so important to get young men into fulfilling careers as soon as possible, and why apprenticeships and guilds were such a good idea, and why it is catastrophic that female students now outnumber male students at university.) END

this fookin guy! doxed and living in exile, and he makes a rare vidya about WOMEN and getting feelings and ONEITIS for WOMEN. I agree with the above statement 14330000000000000000%. DAMN.

heh one woman hater in the comments says: Here are words of wisdom that an old mentor of mine taught me (and which I sadly ignored until it was somewhat too late): “ALWAYS treat a woman with contempt or they will treat YOU [with] contempt!”… END

shit i was a full MGTOW woman hater when i met THAT WOMAN, and fell in luv, and pedestalized, oneitis, etc. literally felt i would NEVER meet another woman like that, who made me feel that good, who i liked so much. and i haven’t! hahahahaha. but at least i am not in ridiculous pain any more. i got over her hehehehe. thank GOD.

but if i ever got those feelings again, boy that opens the door to some stupid shit, you get SO vulnerable. try not to be in a position so that if your rel with the woman turns to absolute SHIT, the rest of your life wont be ruined. just prepare for the rel with the woman to turn to TOTAL SHIT and then figure out your survival plan.

SOCIAL SKILLS ARE SURVIVAL SKILLS.

they arent just nice to have. they are absolutely necessary. you LITERALLY need to be VERY autistic to develop the technical skills to the point where you dont really need social skills. you probably arent that autistic……unfortunately. meaning its more valuable to develop your social skills over your technical skills. its still the hardest goddam thing in the world, though.

henrik and greg interact very well with each other. good conversation. i have probably gotten over the enoch thing. give him the benefit of the doubt. he’s done a lot of good, found himself in an IMPOSSIBLE situation, and also at the same time lost it all, had his life ruined, and i am bitching about his wife and him not doing good enough to dispel doubts. give the guy a break, he just lost everything.

now that woman, she could have done better hahahaha. i had a very different rel with her than i have with mike e. i dont have ANY rel with mike e hahahahaha.

feb 1

MPC is starting their own podcast. ITS ABOUT TIME. Pman announced it in december. WERE WAITINGGGGGG.

here is the guy Pman has been using as his avatar lately. review of the week. some kid, cant tell exactly how old he is, has 164k subscribers, and does reviews on food and drinks. lots of fast food. pretty hilarious. not sure if he is hwyte or J. he has very pale skin, very blue eyes, and unattached earlobes, but talks like a total Jooish autist. talks like an east coast J but palm trees in the background.

oh no, he kinda looks like that woman a little bit. she had a weird face like this. oh fook me hahahaha. i know she wasnt a J. i honestly dont know if this guy is a J. i only ask because he’s pretty J acting. or maybe he’s just a hwyte autist virgin!!!

i will give him the benefit of the doubt because he seems like a Gud Boi. and if MPC says hes all right, then he’s all right. looks like other people are curious to Dox him, because they are geniunely curious in him, as am I. theres a rumor his name is “John” but nothing substantial on a real name. also that he is around 22. anyway he must like his privacy and i cant blame him. he can have it! i just want good things for him. i dont want him to be living out of his car. or to be a J. or have a bad family. i want him to come out as Red Pilled and Alt Right hahahaha.

https://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/7673-reviewbrah-thread/page__st__80

MPC thread on him, aka REVIEWBRAH. i figure they will talk about the JQ somewhere in here, and if he is a J, they will make it clear here.

i mean he seems like a good boi. just a very young man. i wish him no harm. a few years ago i made a big deal out of reviewing a new burger king sandwich on a blog. i made a huge production out of it and it was pretty fun. i can totally understand why he does this and he does a great job of it. and he can obviously control himself well enough so that he can eat fast food every week and still be super skinny. good for him. i hope he finds a nife waifu.

for being autistic he actually doesnt TALK THAT autistically. he could PASS for a normie and get a gurlfran talking like that.

MPC in general likes him and doesnt think he’s a J. someone posted a pic that showed him with a catholic bishop, might just be someone who looks like him.

this is great. i mean you are amused and KIND OF making fun of the Sperg, but come out of it genuinely LIKING the guy and saying thats a good lil brah. his SINCERITY is NO SHTICK. i like that.

i guess he does talk about more than fast food. i mean i REALLY want him to talk about gurls and political stuff and morality. ethics. degeneracy. the JQ hehehehe.  neet outreach.

i always wondered who that guy in pman’s picture was and today i found out and it was awesome. thank GOD for this wonderful young man. i am already putting him on a pedestal.

i like the idea of a young man, uncorrupted, innocent even, who is on the right path, healthy life and attitude, is undistracted by degeneracy. i would let muh daughter marry him hehehe. i gotta watch his vids that arent food reviews. also he seems to be pretty confident in himself and not bothered by haters.

supposedly he called someone a f4g or a f4gg0t in his comments hehehe.

 

 

 

 

PRON IS WORSE THAN BEING A SL00T

jan 26

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/8227-why-pornography-is-bad-for-you/#entry190803

i might have linked this already, worth reading again hehe

found it in comments to this vid

wish weev had some cooler people with him and not those dumb women, but women luv weev for reasons i shouldnt’ need to mansplain. they would fly halfway across the world to have weevs babies. and i definitely want weev to have many hwyte babies.

heh i am much more attached and hero worshipping of weev than i am of for example mike enoch. if weev did something disappointing, i would be a lot more disappointed.

i mean im kinda disappointed he’s hanging out with this white slut losers hahahahaha.

had 7 minute conversation with adjacent department colleague. he is way too smart to be in his current job, which is a job i would like to have. but he is a big ideas man who would be very well suited for grad skool IMHO and he is thinking about it and sort of on the fence…..but he is light years ahead of me as far as having a good plan and talking a great game and doing his research, and READING BOOKS, working on a business plan, looking at schools, looking at programs, plus he is more charismatic than me and has a GF who is planning on going to med skool.

full version, without the silly music, of anti-pornography interview by ted bundy MERE HOURS before he was executed, linked early in that MPC thread

nofap is kinda ridiculous, i think the much more important thing is NOPORN. porn is INHERENTLY destructive and horrible, a LOT more than jerking off is. of course when you pair the two, a lot of people get it confused. no you can still jerk off, just dont look at porn. ever. again.

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/8227-why-pornography-is-bad-for-you/page__st__100#entry191105

been reading this whole thread. pman has a great effortpoast here.

anyway yeah i talked to this guy who is nice and charming and very smart, he is somewhat like me in that he is currently “underachieving”, but he’s underachieving way less than me because at least he’s above bare minimum, he is well positioned to go to grad school, he has a gf, and seems well adjusted. i should try to hang out with him socially hahahahaha. and while i agree with him on several important points such as a radical reimagining of Education, the destruction of the modern university as we know it, meaningless Credentialism etc, i am SURE he is much more leftist than me, and seeks to make everyone equal, etc. also uhhh i don’t think this guy is technically hwyte hahahahahahahaha. but he is nice and smart and i feel favorably to him.

so is me not disclosing my views, is that disingenuous, or is that Good Tactical Taqqiya? especially since i cant really argue my views well with smart people.

this guy really is a really good drummer, really fun to listen to him rawkkkkkk the fook out on those drums. PLENTY of superfast blasts as well as the more med paced ones. great drum SOUND as well. well done lad.

not sure how much i love the overall production, but the drums sound great and the mellow parts, maybe the heavy guitar is a little fuzzy. a minor quibble.

just exploding with high energy, impossible to believe this is just one guy. but yeah his energetic drumming is the foundation of all that. the rocking bass playing probably helps too. not that bass has any place in black metal hahahahaha. this might be my moment where i finally Get Into Panopticon. shit i even like the phaggy nonmetal parts. none of it sounds insincere. hey maybe all the people saying panopticon was good were on to something.

yasssss ive KNOWN about them/him for a long time, 5 years at least hahahaha.

he does really like those fast blast beats. good for him. i think i would play in a similar style as him if i could actually play drums. i am aiming for the same target as him. the same drumming muse motivates us hahaha.

jan 27

see i like that he does the fast beats over (under?) very melodic, catchy riffs that could just as well work with somewhat slower beats, so you can still totally understand the riff, rather than for example nile who have fast blasts and fast, meaningless, incomprehensible riffs that sound like total wankery. fun, passionate, happy wankery but still wankery.

anyway. day off here. was very tired last night and fell asleep easily. the big surprise was the greatness of the sleep that followed. long, solid sleep, but also filled with interesting dreams which i will try to remember.

one sort of confidence shaking one involved me meeting with muh boss’s boss, who is pretty much an official higher-up, and kind of an intimidating, no nonsense, masculine man who wants to get things done. not very surprising given his professional role. but obv i want him to like me. so he was having a brutally honest talk with me about My Fit with the Organization, how I can see everyone around me has masters degrees and are consummate professionals, so what do I really think about that, heavy implication that i obv dont have a masters degree and am underachieving as fook, i am now an older man, WHY ARE YOU HERE, why arent you doing MORE, and WHAT ARE YOUR CAREER GOALS. that was a direct question. tell me right here and now what you are trying to do with your life, what are your career goals, prove to me that you are a good fit with this team, impress me with your specific career goals. and i was caught off guard and started rambling nonsense, a bad answer, and he saw it immediately because he is very perceptive, and quickly shut it down. ok ok ok i see where you stand, let’s end this meeting now and let you go back to your underachievement. with the heavy implication that i was now marked as the underachieving loser slacker who would never be considered for promotion.

now the reality is, i will never be “promoted” per se, the best that could happen, and I guess that IS muh immediate career goal, is to do such a good job here and now, that IF a better position opened up, I would be the top choice for it. that is, i won’t ever be promoted in this position, i would have to apply and interview for a totally new job. in the sense of req codes and job classifications and unions. all our jobs are kinda strictly defined which certainly is related to The Union.

anyway if he ever had that discussion in real life, and he wouldn’t, if anything it would be my direct manager, who is personality is more….gentle but he still gets a lot of stuff done. I would tell him, I love muh job but obviously want something more substantial, i would love to have more responsibility (hours, money) in this department, i want to be the top candidate here. i’ve been on the fence about masters degree for ever and i think i have legit reasons for that. but your opinion is important and if you push me in that direction, that would help get me off the fence. i just dont want to pay 50 grand for a useless masters degree. would basically be what i would say.

what else. i was a young man living in a house much like how i did at that time, with a ton of other young students. common theme in muh dreams. i was sitting and talking with an “older” woman who was the mother of this gurl I fancied who lived in the house too. this was a real gurl I did once fancy. there was also a young man there who was the gurls brother. i never RL met the mother or the brother. they were talking disparagingly of the woman, that she was a very shallow, judgmental, bitchy young woman, that she only liked you if she could use you, she only liked cool, good-looking people, and treated you like garbage if you weren’t, and this is a bad way to be, and she better change her attitude.

in the dream i was kinda friends with the woman and was thinking wow that’s a little harsh, dont talk about muh waifu like that hahaha. i hope she’s not really like that. but this is her FAMILY saying this about her!

funny enough, i never saw that woman in the dream. in real life, she was a very young, very qt gurl who i was sorta friends with for a while. but she WAS kinda bitchy like that, and also a bipolar, crazy, mudshark slut doing flighty things and prob very good at Ghosting people or throwing them away. she didnt really throw me away, we just kinda drifted apart and really werent that close to begin with.

later in the dream i met with other young women in the house, who were trying to suss out how i felt about that woman. who i liked every though everyone else didnt. i was talking to a Good Looking, Light Skinned Black Gurl who was kinda friendly to me and was possibly open to me banging her. I would much prefer to Bang the other woman and I wasn’t in luv with Race Mixing….but this Black gurl was miraculously good-looking enough to tempt me. believe me that never happens with blacks hahahaha.

i basically tried to very softly state to her that I thought she was good looking, but also that I thought the other (hwyte) gurl was good looking too. I made some great bullshit statement about being 1% attracted to somebody. wish i could remember it. i am a fan of the female form and appreciate all kinds and flavors of female beauty. a good looking gurl is a good looking gurl. certainly you, as a good looking gurl, can appreciate that, hahahahaha.

thats about it. no real lessons in that one, other than yeah i should have listened to other people and not pedestalized that woman, because she was clearly not a great person. and she wasnt! i would have totally dated her though.

she could have been a better person if she had seriously seen a shrink and just kept her legs closed and just made a damn effort to be a better person.  but she had big daddy issues of course. SAD.

i mean i dont think she was that bad of a person. she was just heavily compromised and broken and even if i did date her, i know she would have dumped me quickly and it would have been yugely disappointing. she was very disappointing. because she could have been much much better. fairly smart, great looking hwyte gurl. i blame the father for abandoning her. and the mother, im sure, was at least a little crazy herself. mother married a pretty stable man early in the gurls life but it appeared the damage had already been done. to the mothers credit, she did pretty well with that guy and built a seemingly stable family.

http://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/8227-why-pornography-is-bad-for-you/page__st__180#entry213001

great comment here by millennial former p0rn freak who realized the error of his ways. this yuge thread just gets better and better. prob should permalink it. ok done.

QUOTE

The young man becomes insatiable by 21. Now there isn’t even a hint of affection in the scenes he watches. Love, healthy emotion, and even pleasure itself are passe. ……On it spirals, the curious young id, into French curls of perversion and decadence. Whips. Chains. Anger. Raw frustration. Rage. Hate. Sex is now hate to him. Sex is just ugly, contemptible, shameful: a grim continent of disgusting Freudian urges. Why fight it? Keep going. Keep looking. Keep clicking. There’s salvation, there’s absolution out there somewhere.

Until one day the young man, alone in his onanistic filth and fluid, learns the master lesson of human sexuality. If he is wise, his heart and intuition will lead him there. That lesson is as follows: the sexual impulse is perverted if it is aimed at pleasure alone. There is no greater cause of human heartache than chasing pleasure for pleasure’s sake. All the sexual impulses must be directed toward some higher purpose: strengthening a marital bond or forming a family. Any other avenue of sexuality hijacks the awesome power of your libido and makes a slave out of you.

I quit porn. I quit any kind of sexual titillation not involving a real, living woman I love and with whom I wish to raise a family.

I only wish I’d been given this prime directive more forcefully as a child.

END QUOTE

big march for life today in DC, almost forgot about this. they should have this at LEAST twice a year, ideally every week or day. i think its a good opportunity for pro-hwytes to be visible and active. get richard spencer at this thing hahaha. they are incorporating Gays For Life, which is not the best way to go imho. well….i dunno. on the fence about that. if it can help overturn roe v wade, then it would be good. and then we could focus on turning down the gay degeneracy. IMHO i think abortion is the bigger problem. that commonplace, feminist-related, straight-WOMAN-related degeneracy is a more pressing issue than gay degeneracy.

so  i dont read enough books hahahaha. i did an impulse buy of this book. i was looking at bowling alone, which is somewhat of a classic. then remembered when i talked to my intelligent colleague yesterday, he mentioned bowling alone as well, and said putnam did another book on education. i THINK he was talking about “our kids.” that would prob be more up my alley right now. almost bought that one, then read some critical reviews saying “coming apart” was better, on a sim topic, and less PC. plus i had heard about “coming apart” ever since it came out and I have respected murray ever since the bell curve which i bought like 5 years ago hahahaha. also its PAYDAY so this is muh gift to myself. plus it talks about HWYTES directly in the title. ok i’ll bite.

also i look for books where you can get a used hardcover book for a decent price. got a 60/40 shot here, not in your favor.

ok big task for the day is go to store. aiming to do that at 6pm.

just wanted to say for all i talk about pr0n, im not really tempted to watch it, and im greatful for that. but it ULTIMATELY wouldnt matter if i were tempted every single day, as long as 1. i realized it was bad, 2. AND i resisted the temptation.  so i would stand in moral solidarity with the men that are really STRUGGLING there, fighting the good fight. i am no better than them. if anything this shows you the temptation is only temporary. this too shall pass.

tbh im MUCHHHHHHH more tempted with MJ. i think about it ALL THE TIME, several times a day. if i HAD any, i WOULD be indulging in it every day.

in a way, being a habitual porn user is WORSE than a woman being a dirty slut. because she STILL doesnt watch PORN.

think about it. the pathetic foreveralone atomized virgin with 31 tabs of weird porn. cant talk to gurls. sees secs as jooish narcissistic pleasure only. with no idea how to relate to other people. at least the slut has better social skills! the slut isnt shutting herself away from people and hasnt stunted her ability to deal socially with the opposite secs!

in fact, in dealing with REAL HUMAN SECS rather than the fake illusion of porn, the woman has MUCH more occasion to view sex as a human act. because it isnt such a SOLITARY pursuit for her. the human, two-person nature of secs is MUCH harder for the slut to deny, than for the pathetic neet constantly jerking off to videos, by himself, never experiencing that with another living person.

so its probably HARDER to become a slut than to become a porno addict neet hehehe. because to become hard to Actual Human Interaction like that and STILL DO IT indicates a VERY poor moral character. i think its easier to fall into porn than to fall into sluttery in other words. porn is a MORE slippery slope.  cuz its JUST YOU. only you and the weird, twisted world you’re creating, no one else there to help pull you back from that abyss.

its easier to associate secs with Human Bonding when you are having actual secs with an actual person, in other words. so yeah the women that CAN do that I think are even WORSE off than the most hardened pathetic porno neets.

and if you “gave” these porno neets a real woman, that might be like a harsh wake up call to the Human Element of secs, which might get them to quit porn. but porn obviously DRAINS your Social Capital and Charisma and makes it much less likely you could get a real woman to consent to secs with you. so i guess the best solution is to spend decent money to get an attractive hooker. because hookers are still humans hehehehe. unlike porn. not saying those gurls arent humans either, because they are. they are probably the most pathetic of all. but no way the hardened porn jerker is gonna udnerstand that.

its just such a bad shitty thing and i cant believe more normie men dont realize it. they might not become daily, 31 tab porn addicts, but they still beat off to it once a week and think its harmless, fun, hot, sexy. thats bad enough!!!!!! even if they still havent been harmed enough so that they can’t pull human women.

like guys who have a GF they have regular secs with but STILL watch porn. i GUARANTEE the porn will EVENTUALLY cause a problem. and with good reason, because it IS a real problem.

anyway im just thankful i am not tempted by it and i have not watched it in well over a year. like 15 months maybe.

wish i could just as easily not want to smoke MJ. i dont know how im gonna do that. with porn i simply stopped watching it. MJ i havent even smoked in like 4 months but still think about it every day.

heh why havent i looked for an MPC thread on MJ. theres gotta be one.

oh right. because they either dont have a SEARCH function, or, more likely, i am too low-rep to use it or even see it. doesnt make much sense tho. i mean the forum is largely open to read to the public, why not make it searchable. can google do it?

https://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/7920-marijuana-not-even-once/

ok you CAN use site:mpcdot.com to search the site at google.

https://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/287-critiques-of-legalization/

first one is prob more relevant.

anyway. i think i ALWAYS had an IDEA that porn was somehow wrong. gross and ugly and not realistic. but i used it ANYWAY. but i dont think my heart ever became completely closed. i was aware it might be hurting my behavior with real women, but i did it anyway.

i didnt think it was a huge problem, because i didnt spend hours looking at it at a time. i didnt have 31 tabs open. but maybe i had 10 tabs open! and i used it most days! even if it was just 10 minutes, go to a trusted source, and rub one out. that was bad enough. thank god i never got to the point where i had huge hours-long porn marathons, just looking and looking and looking.

but damn if i didnt still graduate to weirder and weirder stuff anyway!

and i think it did make me hate women, because i thought that those real-life sluts had reduced their real-life sex to something crude and disgusting just like this porno!

and now that i’m fully aware of exactly how disgusting and wrong porn is, i STILL think real life sluts treat their real-life sex like this, which makes me have extreme contempt for them…….but they probably DONT, so i SHOULDNT hate them so much. they probably STILL feel some human connection.

when i was looking at porn, i KNEW it was lacking the human connection, and that the human connection was something I really WANTED. but i did it anyway because i was horny. just wanted to see some naked young girls fooking and doing increasing weird stuff. but i still wanted a gf and a rel and cuddles and luv. i knew that the porn was at the very least WEIRD and not realistic, but i guess i accepted it as an imperfect Substitute. its actually a hell of a lot less harmless than that. i certainly didnt realize how harmful it was.

even NOW i believe it still affects the way i view women! thats probably the worst long term harm its done to me. i wish i could undo it. i am cautiously optimistic More Years without porn will help here. but point is, even a year plus cannot completely undo it. its LONG TERM shit.

like you see a woman inadvertantly show cleavage while leaning over, and you think Automatic Negative Thoughts like that dirty slut. sex means nothing to her. she fooks guys and throws them away, the sociopath. and that is almost certainly not true. you are looking at reality COMPLETELY WRONG. heh. that is humbling and hard to accept.

A person’s success in life can usually be measured by the number of uncomfortable conversations he or she is willing to have.

signature of “marketing guru” on MPC who has a pciture of tim ferriss for his pic hahaha. looks like tim ferriss is the originator of the quote too hahahaha. well he’s kinda a BELLEND but i kinda like some of the things ferris says, and this is one of them

i read part of 4 hour work week in 2012 and kinda wish i hadnt gotten rid of the book, i think i purged it as “jooish degeneracy” but he’s not really jooish. he is a very successful hwyte man who despite being kinda sleazy has said some powerful things hehehe. has lessons to teach.

QUOTE from pman: But what really sets them apart is that they struggle to relate to other people, which comes across clearly online and must be glaringly apparent in real life. What’s also apparent is that porn consumers operate with a strikingly high level of baseline depression, which they use porn (among other things, probably) to combat.

end quote hehehe. like i say, great thread, good reason ive permalinked it in the sidebar. i hope the MJ thread can help quell my urge to do MJ hehehe. which as ive said is a MUCH bigger threat atm than porn. ive pretty much solved muh pron problem thank god (although still feel the long term residual effects!!!!) but at least I dont WANT it the same way i’ve CONSTANTLY WANTED MJ.

https://mpcdot.com/forums/topic/7920-marijuana-not-even-once/

lets link this one again hehehe. dis gon B gud.gif. this might even graduate to the sidebar.

well it is pretty gud. i should read this every time i want to smoke MJ. ie, erra day hahaha. just wish it was 28 pages like the porn thread instead of only 4 pages.

http://takimag.com/article/has_pot_become_a_hard_drug_gavin_mcinnes

gavin mccuck writes for takis which is a halfway decent “gateway to the alt right” site. hes actually a decent writer even if he is a weak cuck married to an asian joo with little mixed kids. terrible. sad. but this article sees him smokin modern MJ and getting a panic attack. and basically he is becoming more anti-MJ now that he sees how STRONG the stuff is.

whats worrisome is i would get panic attacks and paranoia and STILLLLL want to smoke it!!!!!

yeah pretty good thread, needs to be longer tho. and uhhh i still wanna smoke MJ. god damn it hehehehe.

i actually took a pretty much full dose of nyquil at 7pm after coming back from the store, did my Goal for the day thank god. then had nyquil. then drank some coffee because i wanted to play cards for a little. actually did ok today. left with more than i came in with. 4 to 6. that does not happen most of the time hahaha.

about to go to bed now. this is why i took the nyquil, so i could sleep long time when i did go to bed. guess i could have just taken it now hahaha. 1030pm.

saor aura album. pretty sure i like saor better than panopticon but its nice to hear panopticon drumming for saor on this album because he’s such a good drummer and he brings his great style and sound to this album.

 

 

 

 

 

SOME KIDS JUST DONT WANT TO LEARN

jan 23

sheeeeeit. got saor tshirt in mail today complete with handwriting by andy marshall on the mailing label hahahaha. i hope he wouldnt CUCK like winterfylleth did hahahahaha he probably would tho hahahahahahahahaha.

better hope i don’t send antifa to your home because you have pride in your country and your “HERITAGE”, ya NATIONALIST HAHAHAHA. no dont you worry lad, but there are some crazy people out there. good thing i am not crazy in that way.

of course im just being an asshole hehehe. isnt it good enough that the winterfylleth naughton guy takes a vocal stand against cultural marxist, and is anti-refugee, and declares his admiration for pat buchanan? pat buchanan is about as awesome as a normie can get. he would be a great president hahahaha. i cannot POSSIBLY talk shit about pat buchanan. he is one of the greats.

still not as outgoing and extraverted  on the job as i would like to be but oh well i am trying. im just not used to a positive working environment hehe. met another educator today who was another one of those true believers, and i mean this in the good way, as in a totally respectable person who is passionate and dedicated to the success of their students. now this person has taught in schools that would Redpill a normal person on race, but this person fought hard so that even poor black and brown students who come from families of murderers and felons and drug addicts, living out of cars, homeless, eventually become college grads and get good careers.

the type of person you wish all teachers were like.

so what is it? bad administrators? bad teachers? not enough good teachers like this?

she also talked about her own children who were doing very very very very very well in life. better at age 18 than i will ever do hehehe. in advanced math and science in high school, going to good universities, doing good stem degrees, good internships, getting 20 job offers before even graduating univ, hang out with good people who dont do drugs, are generally well adjusted hard workers without emotional problems or laziness, and will go on to make a lot of money and get a lot of respect. and the way she was describing it she wasnt BRAGGING….but its impossible to not be VERY proud of your kids when they are this successful.

but they also pay a lot of money to do this very highly regarded, very selective high school program. where all the kids become hugely successful.

and muh manager who i also have a lot of respect for, he has children which he has entrusted to the public school system, which i thought was kind of mediocre. but as it turns out, there is an elite track in this school district, with a STEM high school, where all the kids at that school become successful. of course he is trying to get his kids in there. i looked at the schools website and 95% of the kids seem hwyte hehehehe. NICE. i figured they would be 50% brown because there are tons of indians and arabs in the area who i assume would be VERY interested in having their kids grow up to become successful, rich doctors and engineers. remove wirus on your computer hehehehe.

something like 600 applicants, about 90 kids get in.

SO YOURE SAYING ITS EASIER that getting a 25k a year job with benefits hehehehe.

i can’t blame them for talking about their successful, promising kids. but i feel envious because i can’t compare with that. i used to be promising too, but peaked at age 17-18, then crashed as soon as i went to uni.

the difference is that i did not go to a hardcore STEM high school. i went to a well-regarded private high school, but i did not consider myself ENGAGED at all as teachers would put it. I resented all the homework, i thought school was STUPID, i just wanted to do what i needed to do, so i could play vidya or internet or stupid music or, very regrettably, Party with MJ and alcohol. at the time, i resented the school, thought it was lame. maybe i would have felt the same way at a special STEM high school.

or i would try to romance the qt geeky STEM gurls and get rejected and go crazy like i did anyway hahahaha.

but yeah at the time i didnt even know our school district HAD a school like that. looking at the generally mediocre school district, i wouldnt have thought it. i didnt even know the district HAD this school until a few years ago. shit probably the school didnt even EXIST when i was in high school 6000000000 years ago.

well, wikipedia says yes it did exist. damn. looks like i missed out!

i didnt like STEM though. I never really did. I guess I sorta liked shit like english and history, but i didn’t like the AP versions of those, too much work I thought. All the AP classes. I really didn’t like The Whole AP system. Although doing AP classes def helped me get into a good uni. not that THAT did me any good!

and then i hear stories of poor blacks living in cars, dont have clothes and shoes, taking care of their sister who is a heroin addict, father is in prison, mother is on disability and addicted to pain pills, and then they go to local college, do well, and get a good job.

meanwhile i was set up and nurtured for success, but became a huge failure. which makes me think this stuff is either born in you or its not. and i was just a bad seed.

and these talented tenth black kids, well theyre outliers, and that was born into them too. because if they went according to nurture, theyd be deadbeats and failures like their families. and all it took was one great teacher to jumpstart them to success.

i had a good family! i had decent teachers! i did very in high school despite not liking it and got into a good college. that was my peak. i didnt like college either, and did mediocre, and since then, have been less than mediocre my whole adult life.

would going to a stem high school have saved me?

i think it COULD have…..but thats still far from a sure thing. 50/50 it would have saved me.

what didnt i like about high school? that it gave too much homework and that I didnt know any gurls.

but that gurl part is ON ME! it was up to me to meet those gurls and practice The Art Of Seduction!

i had an added challenge because there weren’t any gurls at the school, but that didnt stop the majority of lads who went there from growing up well adjusted and successful! besides, its proven that Separated the Sexes leads to Better Education, because gurls are too distracting for young lads!

but i was ALL BUTTHURT about it.

also i didnt start showing any serious warning signs till i was in college. well i did have some yellow lights in high school. like i was already drinking and using MJ in high school. but it only became a bigger problem in college.

i had a weird friends group. they occasionally used alcohol or MJ, but they were good people. they weren’t huge douchebags or bullies. i dont necess think i was hanging out with the wrong crowd. maybe it wasnt the BEST crowd, because i wasn’t hanging out with the huge winner DORKS and NERDS who didnt do alcohol or MJ, who later all became successful engineers or accountants or lawyers or businessmen hehehe.

i cant say i was hanging out with the wrong crowd, because i cant crap on these people. they are good people. unfort they have a 50/50 track record for being successful in life. i had like 2 good friends, one became a sad pathetic loser, despite still being a good person, and the other became a decent, well-rounded winner normie, albeit not thru college.

so WHY do i always want to smoke MJ? whats the ROOT of my DESIRE? Its not that i want to do it MODERATELY, i want to do it ALL THE TIME. if i had some, i would be doing it EVERY DAY, not on weekends only like moderate people.

so the big question is, why do i want to get INTOXICATED on MJ EVERY DAY????????

that is the question.

and if im honest, that IS what I want! I KNOW moderation is the better, smarter, wiser choice, and what I SHOULD choose….but i dont want it! I want excess! but WHY?

because i want some sense of escape and relief from being a huge loser in life who had a LOT of potential at 17, but threw it all away to become a huge loser for the next 15+ years hahahahaha.

but i hear these people talking about their 10 year old, 13 year old, 15, 16, 18, 20, 21 year old children, and I can’t help but think, what if I had been one of these children? and then feel envious.

part of the problem was i did think i HAD a problem with MJ or alcohol, and i was very good at HIDING it from muh fam, and I ABSOLUTELY was not going to go to them for help, even though they were MORE than willing. it would take until I was like 25, 26 years old before I even STARTED Seeking Help.

I mean I’m glad I did, but I essentially LOST the years 18-26 and I am very very butthurt about that! those are some really bad years to lose!

the following years have been better….but they havent been a LOT better. all my progress has been VERY slow, with some bigass setbacks in there too (see 2015 and 2016 hehehe.) and in a way the past 3 years have been especially bad. they are getting better now and i’m thankful for that, i guess its still gonna take a few months for that really to sink in.

this one kid goes to YEAR ROUND elementary school. how good of a thing is this? at the time i would have HATED it. i wonder if it would have been good for me though. kept me out of trouble.

but even though my friends did some of the stuff the “bad kids” did, they really werent bad kids tho. the main problem was my horrible, shitty attitude, and believe me, i had that ever since elementary school!!!!!!

shit yeah education is interesting and important. maybe i would have been a good teacher hahahahahaha. too bad i cant teach or explain shit. or help people become winners when i am a huge loser hahahaha.

education is important but i always hated SCHOOL. its ALWAYS been like PULLING TEETH. elementary, high school, AND college. all of it. and grad skool seems the same way.

they have year round elementary but not year round middle or high schools. why not? i would think middle and high school is where it woul be even MORE important, cuz thats when kids really start to get off the tracks.

https://www.care.com/c/stories/3283/the-pros-and-cons-of-year-round-school/

HMM they STILL have the same amount of school days, like 180. sheeeeeeeeit. I thought they would get way more, and essentially be like 2 grades ahead, which would be AWESOME.

some kids JUST DONT WANT TO LEARN hehehehe. i was one of those kids hahahaha.

but thats kinda WRONG. I did want to learn, but i didnt want stupid hours of homework, and i wanted to learn more about…..shit i dont even know. something different than what i WAS learning. maybe learn about how to seduce women, how to be charismatic, how to negotiate, how to have great people skills, the art of the deal, learning obviously useful workplace skills. that i would have liked. maybe a class on movies. shit i liked movies back then. degenerate shit but maybe i could have learned about less degenerate movies.

like pulp fiction was the big edgy movie back then. i was like oh this has got to be the best movie of all time. i was butthurt because i wasnt allowed to see it.

it actually was a pretty good movie, but ALSO very degenerate, and tarantino needs to go in the oven NOW. that was his best movie and it just wasnt worth his whole shitty career.  plus i was too young to ward off the degeneracy in that movie anyway.

shit when i was young, i LOVED DEGENERACY. literally. blood, gore, violence, pornography, vulgarity, marilyn manson, 3edgy5me, i was such a stereotypical teen! anything that was BAD or EVIL , i LIKED!!!!!

I LIKED DEGENERACY inherently! i sought out the degenerate! I loved it! i honestly dont know HOW i became so degenerate by age 16! i had a good family!!!!!!!

again, thoughts of being a BAD SEED.

i was rebelling against muh good family and muh christian upbringing……but did i have to rebel SO GODDAM MUCH?!?!?!?!?! I wish I hadnt! why couldnt I just have rebelled a LITTLE?!?!?!?!?!

there was no reason for me to rebel THAT MUCH!!!!! breaking my poor familys HEART!!!!! i mean i very well could have been POSSESSED.

well i am paying it back now. shit i’ve been a loser longer than i’ve been a winner. well, part of the time i was a winner, i was a degenerate. i guess its only fair that i should suffer being a loser, while i’m also fighting against degeneracy.

but it would be soooo nice to be a nondegenerate winner!

well i am a bigger winner than i have been in 1.5 years at least hehehe. in a way i am a bigger winner than when i was working my previous job, cuz there i was going crazy. soul killing job and a soul killing situation with woman. now i have really a soul-growing job, and no shitty situation with any woman.

and then i criticize myself for not taking advantage ENOUGH of my grateful, soul-feeding job. im not being charismatic enough with the WONDERFUL people.

well i just get there early, leave a little late, and just try to be friendly and pleasant. thats honestly the best i can do.

and it bears repeating for the 60000000000000th time, that if you study Education in Uni or esp Graduate Skool…..its pozzed and marxist as FOOK. it is pure jooish communism. like SOCIOLOGY. which is a big thing that turns me off of studying education.

if you get a room full of education experts, you will not find any 1433 types hehehe. you probably wont even find any damn CENTRISTS.

jan 24

fooking academics who spell their name with no capital letters, like bell hooks. they are always a phd with strong interests in feminism. even moreso than the average phd!!!!

just found a teacher who is my age, and had a useless degree from a good shool, but immediately got a masters degree in the same useless field within 2 years of the undergrad, and then 8 years after that, completed the phd hehehehe. i could have been a phd for several years by now. that feel when you are that age hahahaha.

well i mean theoretically you could complete a phd by age 25. more like 27 though.

anyway i havent actually met her yet, maybe never will. i just looked her up because she looked young and attractive in her profile pic. welp she’s not THAT young, she’s MY age but she still looks very attractive. in a tiny pic no less. a Hawt Gurl doing a humanities PHD. kind of surprising. looks like she should be in a Sorostitutority instead, hehehehe.

took benedryl at 3pm, try to go to bed at 730 pm. it is 7pm and i am already sleepy.

doing ok on muh dieting hehehe but damn i can get to the 1500 cals SO EASILY hehehehe. doing way worse that i was this time last year. well i lost 35 pounds since then tho. so good for me haha.

jan 25

beavis and butthead. weve forgotten about them but in the 90s they were YUGE. and degenerate that I was, I thought they were awesome. i wasnt mature enough to understand the joke, the parody mike judge was doing.

also, i argue that MJ basically turns you INTO beavis and butthead. so dont do MJ, because these are the biggest idiot degenerates and its a shame that they are hwyte. damn. and its SAD there is hwyte trash who is actually like this. its sad that i thought it was COOL. its literally the least cool thing ever. its degenerate and disgusting.

of course ive known about jim goad for many years but never really read him or listened to him, but he is a pretty good speaker. i know he did some degenerate shit though. i wouldnt kick him out of muh group though. unless he was married to a nonwhite hahaha. i think he is bisexual hahaha. i wouldnt want to be married to him but he does a good conversation hahaha.

oh shit hes friends with gavin mcinnes, cant like him anymore hahahaha.

i guess cantwell is getting more racial hehehehe. he is not scared to talk about bl4x and jooz, bad news hehehehe. i just came for the weev hehehehe.  they are both talkative and play well off each other but if you added more people in there it would be too much. so just the two of them works very well.  gets into the JQ around 31 minutes.

i dunno, i think chris might be coming around! i subscribed to him again hahahaha. yeah i know he has a nonwhite gurlfran. but he was open about that. he prob wont marry her hahahaha.

 

 

EVERYTHINGS DEGENERATE

jan 21

so yeah ive definitely made good progress in getting over That Woman relative to the posts that are publishing now, which i wrote in like june 2016 hehehe. i was still pretty butthurt one year out. one and a HALF years out, doing a lot better.

which is not surpirsing. ive always said, these type of things take MORE THAN A YEAR to get over. youre looking at 1.5 to two years MINIMUM. so adjust your damn expectations. move the goalposts hahahahahaha.

ITS BETTER TO TRY TO BE FUNNY AND FAIL HORRIBLY THAN TO NOT HAVE A SENSE OF HUMOR AT ALL.

in other words, its better to WANT to have a sense of humor, than to not have a sense of humor at all.

i totally appreciate the value of a sense of humor. even though i am not very funny, i am still miles ahead of those humorless assholes. j marxist antiwhites hahahaha.

https://twitter.com/AJoycePhD

andrew joyce, never heard of this guy until a few months ago when spencer mentioned him, i mean i haven’t really followed spencer til recently either. anyway the more phds we can get on our side, the better.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/local/social-issues/shes-54-white-rural-and-a-lifelong-republican-why-is-she-protesting-donald-trump/2017/01/21/6457ac02-df41-11e6-918c-99ede3c8cafa_story.html?tid=sm_tw&utm_term=.05c301a8ccca

oh gawd

this woman SHOULD vote for trump because shes white, rural, working class, but she converted from right to left nao because her working class conservative white family fell apart due to drugs and alcohol and white people might seem nice sometimes but deep down they’re scary abusive monsters, and just like your abusive white husband beat you, this is how whites feel about nonwhites and women, which you are, so join the womens march hahahaha.

those mean vile small minded people. like her white male customers who say degrading things about women and have confederate flags. oh god this article is so poorly written and patronizing but i dont think it wants to be patronizing, its just like a 20 year old gurl wrote it, rambles on for pages introducing the story, its shitty writing.

ok its a cucky white male phaggot mccoy who writes on Social Justice ISsues for WaPo. barffffffffff

white boys should NEVER grow up to do this for a career. thing is he’s in the top 10% of success for journalists. good paying full time job at one of the biggest papers. most shitlib journalists do this shit for free while they work at starbucks hahahaha.

anyway i can probably get over my disappointment with the enoch thing, i wont say bad shit about him, he’s done a lot of good, and he will probably continue to do more good.

well did my saturday weigh in and was at the lowest weight ever. much closer to muh goal than i thought i was.

‏@BillKristol tweetz
I’ll be unembarrassedly old-fashioned here: It is profoundly depressing and vulgar to hear an American president proclaim “America First.”

this isnt even a joke. jooish neocohen writes jooiest nocohenest cuckiest tweet ever. whats depressing and vulgar about it schlomo?

http://www.latimes.com/politics/la-na-pol-trump-america-first-20170120-story.html

oh sorry i didnt realize it was a reference to an antisemitic organization in the 30s heheheheheheh. well even better then. charles lindbergh is MAH N199A. GREAT goy there. actually im embarrassed i never heard of this.

so i’m sure trvmp wasnt referring to THAT. unless he was DOGWHISTLING again. i hope he was!!!!!!!!!!!!! but yeah i really should have heard of this org, i thought i was better at history and pro-hwyte history than that hahahaha. but i am super lazy.

sorry i wasnt educated enough to view it as a DEPLORABLE RACIST DOGWHISTLE. well now i like it EVEN MORE.

i could message THAT WOMAN and be like get me some MJ. that is all. i will have nothing to do with you. i’m just using you as a drvg dealer hahahaha. i dont give a shit how you and your family are doing. bring me the MJ, get fooked hard by me, then leave. I dont even remember your name.

i mean the plain fact was i DO/did care about how her and her family are doing! i DIDNT view her as a piece of meat.

but yeah i do want some MJ. yes i KNOW its degen. which is why if i had an influential podcast, i’d keep it in the closet.

but i flaunt it HERE? i mean i have two conflicting identities: the neet and the VVN. which one does MJ go more with?

so i cant have my cake and eat it too. I can’t denounce neetism, and encourage us to become hwyte hwarriors, and also proclaim that MJ is OK.  I Understand This Totally.

but its a way better vice than Pornography hahahahaha. or video games. or being a fat slob. or technically alcohol. although alcohol is the hwyter vice. but im a special snowflake because i already HAD an alcohol problem and vowed to never drink again until I am making 30k a year and have a nice whyte GF, prob never happen hahahaha.

https://thehappening.info/e01b49ba21336cb8269096683ca738f09d6e1c61

i know i dont like women but i do kinda like emily youkkkkkkkkkis, i hadnt listened to her moonman rap till today. she uses eminem “my name is” which is an ok song regardless for degen google noise hahaha. i almost forgot about moonman. i think he fits very well with where emily is now going. also she makes moonman more than just h8ing n3gr0s, she brings in tons of very welcome anti-J-ism and such hhehehe.

https://thehappening.info/cdb52fc651dea4fb653cc416e56ccc45e2c6a7d2

some funny stuff on this site, it seems generally alt rightish hehehehe.

emily gives a very uplifting story here

this sounds like a great new show. made by azzmador and ken, both of whom already have great creeeeedentials, great to get them together, and guess who they have on for their second episode. download this one goys.

ken used to do intersectional alt right which used to be on trs but i dont think it is anymore. either he pulled it or they shitcanned him because he wasn’t cupping mikes balls unquestioningly hahahahaha. he is a regular guest on fatherland which is where i first heard him. very good charismatic communicator.

anglin comes right out and gives his take on the enoch situation, and i didn’t expect to agree with him so much, and i was pleasantly surpirsed that he didnt treat enoch with kid gloves. i dont hate enoch, but just understand we are disappointed and let us be disappointed. other trs “leaders” should be a little disappointed to. i dont want to throw mike in the oven, i am very willing to listen to him in the future, but just let us be disappointed, and you should be a little more disappointed too. not pretend like nothing happened.

but all three of these guys are amazing. i first heard azzmador sometime in 2016, not sure where. either a talk he did with anglin or grandpa lampshade. (GL is also good.)

azzmador i think is Doxxed, he’ll tell you his real name. i forgot what it was. also great to hear him actually confronting antifa and calling them phaggots to their faces. he has real balls hahahaha. i respect that.

i thought ken might be a SCHOOLTEACHER which if he is, that’s awesome. we need more of ours in education. like i said in the last post.

but yeah anglin or ANY of these guys will probably not be welcomed back with open arms at TRS like the used to be. and they’re not even saying anything hostile. they are simply, like me, legit disappointed, and i worry that that will be enough for TRS to ban them. hasnt happened yet tho, i’m just speculating.

http://pastebin.com/87b2zTmP

heres a text of that great speech by the british guy at the beginning. i think this is national action. who themselves have their own controversy of are they legit or are they shills. i can say that speech is very hair raising and awesome though.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/emily-youcis-is-not-our-ally/79059/

oh jeez. i shouldnt have even. this is now turning into a hot topic on muh new fav forum.

ok thanks azzmador hahaha. great speech here.

HOLY SHIT that is the best thing i have heard in a while. that is going on the mixtape hahaha. share that with your friends and fam. i dont care if NA is jooish shills hahahaha but that is some great content. it almost brought a TEAR to my eye. just listen to this one seriously.

hmm that divisive emily youcis thread was REMOVED. whos CENSORING us hahahaha. although I prob disagree from the average DS person in that i am pretty willing to give emily the benefit of the doubt.

i guess national action was designated by the UK as a “TERRORIST ORGANIZATION” and the govt shut them down basically.

i vaguely remember hearing about that but it didnt really register. why didnt MW do a video on it? maybe he did hahahaha i havent watched every single MW video.  i was busy job searching and moping and bitching and whining hahahaha. so i miss some alt right news sometimes.

i get butthurt and sad when i think i never had the chance to talk about TRVMP with that woman. i will never know what she thought about TRVMP. i will never be able to use trvmp to open a deeper discussion with her about things like the alt right and the JQ and race and redpilling.

it would have been a great opportunity to see if we were really actually compatible or not. if she had shown herself as a vocal nevertrvmp, that might make things easier for me now. because then i wouldnt have this PEDESTALIZED FANTASY that I could have redpilled her into my redpilled waifu. i mean shit she could have become a vocal anti trump, and be all into the stupid jooish womens march that is going on now. I’LL NEVER KNOW.

the only thing i have to go on, and build my stupid fantasy on, is that she seemed somewhat open to redpilling. somewhat anti establishment. pro working class. not into white guilt. possibly open to the realities of black savagery. and i never got to spend quality time with her to discuss these topics in depth. really probe at her, and gently push her in the right direction hahaha. she liked stupid alex jones type conspiracies, which is really the best you can ask of a woman, because if they are already GTKRWN1433 before you meet them, they’re probably super fookin crazy like sinead hahahaha.  so being a basic bitch alex jones conspiritard is actually the IDEAL woman. and SHE WAS IT wawawawawawawawa. you could be like ok im glad youre open to non mainstream ideas. now let me teach you something a little less retarded than alex jones. you’ll like the education, believe me.

because i am a firm believer in educating your woman. just aim for a NICE woman and YOU can and should do the redpilling. and she was the perfect woman for that wawawawawawawa.

maybe she found a better stronger nobler man who eventually redpilled her into 1433 and made her his hwyte hwyfu wawawawawawa.

see i can always spin it in a way to maximize muh sad feels.

or maybe she became a n3gr0 fooking anti trvmp moron. see, either option is sad for me! there’s no possible option where i can be happy! because i dont have HER!

so best to try to forget about her and move on. which i am truly doing. it takes at LEAST a year and a half though. 18 full fookin months. and not a day less.

shit yeah thats a long time. thats just what i need.

its hard for me to understand people who need less time, often MUCH less time. i cant help judging them as “sociopaths” who “treat people as disposable garbage.” but maybe they’re not. maybe they just don’t need 18 months to get over a person.

fine. well then i am not compatible with their sociopathic disposable values then hahahahaha. i want a woman who needs 18 months to get over a man!!!!!!

this is what a white man apologizing and being genuinely remorseful looks and sounds like, and you dont need special empath skills to see it. and i got none of that from mike.

NOW, fascist lemming is going on record as fully denouncing enoch here, saying that he believes enoch is a J. I don’t really agree with that at the moment, but i respect the sincerity and good faith and general hwyteness i’m seeing here, and i wish mike had shown 1% of that when he was talking about his shit, and he didnt. that is to say, mike’s behavior IS a little jooey, and FL’s is 100% hwyte, and you know which type of behavior I prefer.

now i can’t say i have such a damn strong opinion on “joos did 911” , where FL says he cant take anyone seriously who DOESNT believe that joos did 911. ok. well i mean its possible. i haven’t studied that theory enough. believe me i dont doubt that the joos COULD have done 911! i just dont find it hard to believe that terrorist muslims did 911 either!

maybe mike acts so j00ey because he grew up on the east coast SURROUNDED by them .

jan 22

brand new mw video with a longass story by the man himself.  noice.

and he just spoke honestly from the get go. I wanted mike to do something like this. you dont even need to be “interrogated”. just talk honestly and directly to your audience.

and yeah i DO give mike a break for having sacrificed a lot and losing a lot. but that just seems like even more reason to be undoubtably honest.

http://www.metalireland.com/community/viewtopic.php?f=1&t=33432

ok it was the FORMER  BASS player of WINTEFYLLETH who made “controversial racist” remarks by coming out and saying he supported the 14 words. then wintefylleth cucked and kicked him out of the band. FOR SHAME!

and guess what, they STILL got called racists and evil nationalists because they are somewhat right wing and happy about being “HERITAGE” metal.

Lesson: DONT CUCK. almost makes me not want to listen to winterfylleth. hehehe.

ok im listening to them anyway, even though daily stormer would DISAVOW them or cucking hehehe.

but their music pairs really well with the wodensthrone style I’ve been craving.

heh i feel like varg vikernes. thinking that all these metal bands are stupid and degen. because they ARE!

and its pathetic and fedoraish that they are so butthurt and against christians, but they are almost equally butthurt against nationalism and ESPECIALLY racial pride. So that any metal band that shows interest in “heritage” gets accused of being a vile racist and nationalist, and then even MORE disappointing, the band then cucks in response, saying, no, i’m just celebrating muh english heritage, but i’m not nationalistic and certainly not RACIST.

what kind of fooked up jooed up society is it where BRITONS cannot be even the least bit critical of tens of thousands of muslims flooding their country? Pretty sure the main man of winterfylleth was slammed by the weak, disgusting, jooish Metal Press when he made an anti-muslim remark. Then he responded by talking about cultural marxism, political correctness, and how they were bad, which was good, and made a convoluted, incomprehensible statement about the (((((italian))))) gramsci and how he described the kind of cultural marxism happening. I can’t remember if gramsci was a technical J, but he was close enough. I do know he was a far leftist marxist. close enough!

they’re gonna accuse you of being a racist anyway chris naughton! might as well go all in and say i am proud of being a Hwyte European Englishman, like your banished bandmate did.

but i am a sucker for atmospheric, epic, heritage-celebrating, melodic black metal with blast beats, so now I’M cucking by listening to them hahahaha.

so if i accept them, and i think me accusing myself of cucking is just stupid purity spiralling, and yes i should be able to listen to them…..is that the same as me “CUCKING” for mike enoch? the mans sacrificed his LIFE for THE CAUSE!!!!!!!

if he did a vidya like MW did today, i would be perfectly happy. not saying MW did anything wrong though. just talking about the sincerity and honesty and straightforwardness he showed. or FL last night. it’s not hard to do, and it’s not hard for the audience to SEE. you can easily see it in their face and hear it in their voice. it’s not brain surgery. mike could have faced the camera and given an honest, impromptu talk and that would have been good enough.

it sucks that he lost everything, it’s almost harder to appreciate that because that loss is paired with the idea of him doing something questionable, which was not the case with MW. MW didnt have a joo wife hahahaha. he just got harshy doxed.

it’s not a problem that cant be overcome, but it IS a PROBLEM, and we just wanted you to directly treat it as one, and ADMIT it, mike. hehehehe.

yes, i am more prone to HERO WORSHIP and getting attached to PEOPLE than you SHOULD be. i dont really care, but it is kinda immature and it does mean i open myself up to more disappointment. and probably make me softer.

i mean i dont want to be such a Purity Spiraler that EVERYTHINGS degenerate and EVERYONES degenerate and I can’t enjoy ANYTHING because its too COMPROMISED. Can’t enjoy decent black metal because they aren’t nationalist enough. can’t enjoy music made by blacks. cant enjoy muh pad thai hahahahahahaha. yeah well no ones saying you cant enjoy pad thai and curry and general chows chikun hahahahaha.

THE NARCISSIST WHO WAS AFRAID TO TALK ABOUT HIMSELF WITH REAL PEOPLE

jan 18

https://radio.therightstuff.biz/2017/01/18/rebel-shoah-fashy-struggle-session/

mike enoch gets interrogated wooooot

soundcloud comments dont seem to optimistic, suggest there are no really tough questions, that stuff is brushed off, and the first 5 minutes are not diving into tough questions like i would have liked. i do not have a great feeling tbh.

takes 36 minutes to start maybe getting good??? maybe 43.

heh i expected him to be more shaken up. honestly this is getting boring hehehehe.  uhhhh i was kinda hoping he would act like something happened. to take like 10 straight minutes talking about why its really not ok to marry j00s, or something. i dunno.

how about distraught from losing your family and your 100k job. I would be going CRAZY. Couldn’t even do a conversation with people. i dunno i guess i wanted him to be a little more emotional about it all, even if emotions are womanly.  strong men also have SOME emotions lebowski hahaha.

he doesnt sound like a man whos life has just been ruined.

i dunno. little disappointed. did not meet my expectations. didnt expect to listen to a 2 hour podcast for him to say “i am conflicted about this.” i mean he SHOULD be conflicted about this!

whoa many JCC’s around the nation target for some threats. now here’s some hot news!!!!!

i wanted him to put something personal out there. share something. i guess he doesnt HAVE to, we dont OWN him, i was just hoping for a lot more reassurance than I got. I am glad mike is not K’ing himself and not so worried that he can’t go on…..but what do you really have to SAY about your J wife? he said yeah she’s a J, hasn’t said 25%, 50%, or 100%. this stuff matters! does she have a really J lifestyle and ideology? has TRS’s anti-J’ish caused real problems with their marriage? it probably SHOULD!

i realize he’s not a LEADER, he certainly doesn’t see himself as a leader, and yeah that really comes across here. he may not be a LEADER, but his opinion carries some weight, and i wish he had a stronger opinion about this!  yeah this is “drama” but its also LEGIT drama!

if anything, Sven has stronger leadership qualities than Mike, and Sven is not really pushing Mike to talk about the tough stuff.

im not saying accuse mike as a betrayer, but also he should WANT to address people LEGITIMATE CONCERNS!!!!!!

ok he clarifies that he was notified today he was not welcome at his workplace anymore.

listened to 1:51 and nothing really jumped out at me. i wanted it to jump out. this is kinda a big deal.

so maybe the higher ups have lost a little credibility with me. maybe i will end up spending more time at DS than TRS hehehe. i mean TRS still has great podcasts though. the fatherland.

but man they ban people like crazy on that forum. i kinda like how DS forum is a lot more laid back re the banning. trolls talk mad shit and no one gets banned. i figure let the trolls talk shit, the rest of us will just ignore them. (AN IGNORE BUTTON WOULD BE NICE, THO hahahaha)

i dunno. just not what i really WANTED from mike i guess. but mike is not the leader of trs. and trs has plenty of people who would be more conflicted about their race mixing hahahaha. i just dont want to see a pattern of softening amongst the trs higher ups like sven, i dont want to be disappointed in him too.

WELL, THERES ALWAYS daily stormer at least hahahaha.

i guess i have become a bit less enthusiastic about donating shekels to TRS, where my enthusiasm for donating shekels to stormer has not waned one bit. that probably means something.

heh. i just wanted answers and resolution NOW and i guess im just gonna have to WAIT and see if mike gives anything better. i wish i had a better feeling about it.

i mean mike was never my number 1 favorite podcastfu anyway hahahaha. but he was part of my top tier! i didnt have all my eggs in that one basket tho, which i guess is good.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/entry/meet-10-women-who-rushed-to-get-an-iud-before-inauguration-day_us_587fa3dae4b0c147f0bc56f8

dear lord

i dont want to have children so i can benefit humanity by being a phd research scientist . well just close your legs ya science slut.

you need the hormones for your acne or whatever. how about stop slathering chemicals on your skin and use a very diluted mix of very light salicylic acid hehehehe. maybe lemon juice. maybe just plain water. maybe dove sensitive skin soap.

how about you just stop fooking guys and if you dont want to get preggers, dont have secs with guys when you are on the period!!!!!!

how about be a lot more careful about the secs you do have?

dont have secs for like 7 days around your period. have the guy pull out or wear a condo. have him put it in your degenerate ass hahahahaha.

jan 19

oh dear. i remember when this happened but never really read any follow up on what derek black is doing now. i guess he hasnt come back to VVN and writes shitty articles for the JY Slimes about how trump is a racist and he’s so glad he’s matured past that.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/national/the-white-flight-of-derek-black/2016/10/15/ed5f906a-8f3b-11e6-a6a3-d50061aa9fae_story.html?utm_term=.fc3b626816d0

theres the wapo one with a lot of tldr hahahaha. anyway he honestly seemed like a pretty smart kid from a young age, BEFORE he got to college. knew all the red pill stuff many of us only learn AFTER college. and then he was blue pilled by some jooish guy who invited him to a diversity dinner? that made his whole system come crumbling down? he still seems like a smart intelligent guy!!!! this is really weird shit.

i can understand distancing yourself from his father who might be a little corrupt. but distancing himself from the whole movement is insane. why didnt he just join up with some of the young alt right people? newer groups like daily stormer or TRS?

he used to mock the ideas of white privilege! how did going to a leftist college where they took “white privilege” seriously just totally change his mind where he did a total 180??????????

its implied that the antiwhites had better SCIENCE for why race is a social construct, and how IQ diffs can be explained by education and opportunity and all that. that convinced derek black. a seemingly smart young man. the SCIENCE and STATISTICS were more convincing to say that there was no white genocide hahahaha.

what i’m saying is, he’s smart enough to weigh the evidence of both sides. and smarter people than him have done so and concluded that Race Is Real. I just want to know what was REALLY the deciding factor.

Him trying to make friends? but he was pretty open about it before going to the college.

maybe he got a super antiwhite Jooish gurlfran while he was at the college, who made it her project to convert him. this seems more likely than the above. i mean he didnt sound like a friendless autistic virgin dying for acceptance like i was hahahahahaha.

or maybe it was “just” being his fathers son. his fathers whole life is VVN 1.0. i am thinking don black was a halfway decent father and wasnt really cramming it down dereks throat though. and it sounded like derek willingly got on board.

i would bet theres subconscious father rebellion going on here. and thats why he couldn’t “just” go to VVN 2.0, he had to throw the baby out with the bathwater.

it’s sad because he seemed like a smart guy and could have been valuable to the movement. despite looking like a huge jackass with his hair and style. i mean he looked like a fedora libertarian virgin hahaha.

what really happened here? you dont just get hit with antiwhite statistics from J’s in J00niversity and say wow i never considered that before, and then do a 180.

i mean i was an antiwhite shitlib in jooniversity, but i never put much EFFORT into it. i was just like rabble rabble white privilege hurr durr institutionalized racism hurr durr imperialistic white males punching down, because that was what everyone around me was parroting, and i wanted to make friends, and especially to make gurlfrans hahahaha. I didn’t put extracurricular effort in going to meetings, or doing activism, or writing articles, or reading howard zinn. Many of my peers certainly did. i would rather sm0ke MJ and be like fight the man, maaaaan. like a lebowski deadbeat. and when i did meet trve believer marxist activists, they kinda weirded me out. like these people are WAYYYYY too tryhard. I’m not LIKE THEM, AM I? and maybe THAT started me on really questioning my not-so-strongly-held “beliefs” that white men were oppressing everyone.

derek black did the exact opposite of what I did. it’s a great STORY. but a sad one. fooked up.

so yeah he would be the bigger traitor than mike enoch hahahahaha. but I really don’t like how enoch basically did not talk about the tough questions. left me with no confidence hahahaha. ok mike, you’re not a leader, we get it. maybe i will really stop viewing you as one after all this.  have a very fishy weird feeling about how he has handled all this so far. it just seems like too little. like that’s it?!?!?! that’s the best you can give us?!?!?! you can and should do better than that.

so yeah i wouldnt quite call him a dirty traitor like black hahaha. because i think mike is gonna continue to say Savage Stuff about Da J00z. but he has not removed the Seed Of Doubt in many people’s mind. And I’m MORE than willing to give him the BENEFIT of the doubt!

but he’s not addressing the ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM!!!!!!!

The rank and file of TRS forum are great people. i guess i identify with them more than the TRS higher-ups. this could very well be the start of distrust with the higher ups. stormer forum is less banhappy and i like that.

no im not aguing for more freedom or democracy or less fascism hahaha.

maybe im saying i am losing a little faith in the TRS higherups.

but who are the MODS of stormer forum? anglin and weev sure, and I am FINE with them! if thats the whole of “stormer leadership” i would be 100% happy with that. ….but are there others with the power to BAN?

dunno, just wanted the “higherups” (if not “leaders”) to take this a LITTLE more seriously and not treat people asking reasonable questions as spergs or shit stirrers. shit i thought i was a moderate pvssy compared to many others…..who have prob already been banned from TRS hehe.

and derek black. im just trying to distract myself from the enoch drama. theres just better ways for him to rebel against his father. maybe become a successful engineer who doesnt even write about race hehehe. or be somewhat moderate and normie rather than turn into a damn far leftist.

if youre gonna be FAR anything, be a far rightist hahahaha.

YES don black has some shady stuff going on with the “unrealized projects” and I hate to agree with the splc on this. but that is fishy and derek is right to be critical of it. but dont turn your back on your race man. not cool.  i mean you dont have to go -1433. just go to 0.

maybe he’s rebelling against don and he doesnt even realize it. don seems like a better father than william pierce but im sure its still intense growing up in VVN 1.0. if stormfront were smart they would engage more with stormer and TRS. like david duke has! funfact: don black married david duke’s ex-wife and created the new human life of derek black with her, hehehehehe.

i guess derek is on this thing now where he was like hwyte europeans were SAVAGES and they didnt invent shit, the MUSLIMS were doing all this shit like ALGEBRA while white barbarians were in caves. good lord.

i mean its a FAIR QUESTION as to WHY the muslims went from being SOMEWHAT scholastic and academic and scientific and intellectual in their golden age of algebra and math and architecture and all that……SO WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED in the meantime??!?!?!?!

theres a disqus thread on the first official shoah and everyone that isnt kissing mikes ass is being denounced as a renegade-tier moron. wow.

you dont need to divulge too many personal details…..but ADDRESS THE ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM. don’t pretend like thats NOTHING. and then call the people with understandable doubts and skepticism abotu that PURITY SPIRALERS. Come on. I am as SOFT and MODERATE and wishy washy as they come. but I just wanted a little better from him.

shit yeah I’m welcome to leave. there’s the door. yeah well right now i will take one step towards the door because theres still plenty of good stuff at TRS. and I am SURE mike will say plenty of good stuff in the future. but he didn’t do much to DISPEL THE SEED OF DOUBT.

believe me, im no PURITY SPIRALLER. I’ve dont degenerate shit. I am a huge neet loser virgin untermensch hahaha. mike makes 14 times the money i ever will. i just think i would shown more integrity in this situation, hahahahahahaha.

well wheres MY podcast? wheres my forum? wheres my influential Media Platform? thats what i thought hahahaha.

well i’ve had 3 other longass blogs that went nowhere hahaha but I HAVE been associated with pro-hwytes since 2012. I bought a grindy greggy book in 2012 and I got culture of critique in 2013 hehehe. i recognize this guy on stormer forums from comments on heartiste in like 2007 hahaha. he’s found his way over there and I can’t blame him! welcome!

yeah i mean i KNOW in j00 york and j00 jersey EVERYONE is at least 25% jooish hahahahahaha. and its really not the end of the world to be married to a part J. it’s how you talk about it with the damn hwyte nationalist group you started hahahahahahaha. i guess there is not gossip like “is TRS really actually “VVN” or are they gonna disavow or equivocate on that term?

I’m very comfortable with the label, just as I’m very comfortable with “alt-right”, and i admit this can cause confusion, because not everybody conflates alt right with VVN. MY BAD!!!!

But I kinda thought TRS of all people would openly self-identify as VVN.

well, i am more confident that they are pro-hwyte, and thats really good enough. i mean, i would happily take an 88% hwyte nation hahahaha. just no less. dont want to get into a purity spiral here hahaha.

hey at least im not fooking googles like some hwyte trash woman hahahahahaha.

i just hope the fatherland guys maintain their integrity. they MIGHT say more on the next episode. i mean i dont really EXPECT them to, its much less their place than it is mikes place. but i wonder: would they get kicked off TRS if they were too critical of mike? also, they are close with sven. and one of their hosts has essentially become a higherup himself, doing a lot of forum technical work. I’ve really liked this guy BOF and I hope he doesnt start “cucking” or “shilling” hahahahahahaha.

welp better pack muh bags for renetard express, toot toot. go eat a mile of sinead’s shit hahahahaha. heh. i will start my own 1433 media empire before i do that hahahaha. i will meet goys in real life before i do that hahaha.

derek black. this guy is saying all white trvmp voters are extreme VVN’s like stormfront. WRONG. they are just normie hwytes who have had enough. they dont HATE anybody. they arent EXTREMISTS. sheeeeit even many VVN’s dont HATE anybody. I dont HATE anybody. I just want an 88% hwyte country and i want the J’s to stop attacking and slandering and libeling and lying about hwytes, and i want whytes to stop apologizing for it and to be less damn SUICIDAL as a race.

jan 20

hahahaha stupid linkedin GURLS WHO CODE news item in muh feed and leave it to some arab to say LOOKIN BEAUTIFUL LADEEZ hahahaha which i’m not opposed to saying in principle, but you should be smart enough to know not to say on lindkin, but there are so many arab, streetshitter, and chinese trolls and sock and spam and fake accounts on linkedin making stupid comments everywhere. in the past ive seen SJWs take them to task on this is EXACTLY the kind of comment we DONT want to see, but now I think people just assume quite rightly that these people might be BOTS.

i just think its funny that they are nonwhite bots, often indians who themselves are writing code in sweatshops for a dollar a day. bet they wish they could code as good as these 16 year old black girls!

saw a guy today i first met several years ago. but this guy is just great. absolutely great. total mancrush on this guy. he is highly educated and very successful and very respected and also just one of the nicest, sweetest people you could ever meet. i mainly knew his son who was also a real nice, good, decent guy, but, very much like me, he had a hell of a hard time adulting. a lot of that was due to health issues, being born into a bad body, hahaha. so he has a much better excuse than him. but he was a great guy. his father is a great guy too, but way more successful. so i saw the father today and shook his hand heartily and said give my regards to your son, he’s a good guy, you’re a good guy, i’m happy to see you again, and i was. i was in the next room as he gave a presentation to other people with masters degrees and phds and his presentation/lecture was very high energy and interesting. lets just say he’s into educating and listening to him in this “classroom” it made it clear that he would probably be a VERY good educator, teaching, with students. i had never really heard him in this mode before, but big surprise, he’s great at that too.

give this guy an award! the rest of the day i was like holy shit, he is such a great guy, wow, what an awesome dude, was so nice to see him again.

(he completed his phd later in life, within the past 5 years, after he was already successful and had a good career and a nice family. I think I saw him shortly after that happened and congratulated him on it.)

great, great, great, great guy. he seemed to remember me even though i hadn’t seen him in…..over 3 years.

and i was like holy shit. i was in a GOOD MOOD for HOURS after that. I was like DAMN I gotta meet MORE people who are this awesome.

then i thought, well, that’s a little GREEDY. and what’s wrong with the people I already know? are they chopped liver?

but fact is, only 10% of people are in the top 10% of awesome like this guy is. not everybody can BE that awesome.

so i thought, it’s ridiculous to want to meet more people as awesome as him. first, theres not that many people that awesome, second, how am i worthy of knowing so many of them and having them hang out with me?

and then i thought, it would be LESS ridiculous for me to get married to this man so i can cup his balls all day and bask in his awesomeness. that would generally give me the same effect hahahahaha. being around one super duper awesome person all day every day.

and that’s greedy in another way, greedy and needy on one person. im just one man, find some other people to fill your needs. so yeah, having a Team of Many Awesome people would be best.

the trick is FINDING these people and IMPRESSING them so that they LIKE you.

How did I find this guy? I knew his son, who was/is a great guy, but not nearly as AWESOME in terms of being a successful adult. but this endeared me to the son in a different way. i could relate to the son being a “neet loser”, and I couldn’t RELATE to his father, but I had/have a huge mancrush on his father and see him as a great role model.

and it’s terribly mean to call the son a “neet loser” because he was SUCH a nice guy! probably got that from his father, who is SUCH a nice guy as well! so i can’t disparage the son, other to say that its SAD he’s not getting the great life he deserves for being such a nice man like his father.

anyway i looked up the father on linkedin today when i came home and requested a connection. chances are he wont even SEE it, but if he does, that would be nice.

the son doesn’t have linkedin. prob has facebook but i dont have facebook. i hope the son is doing well…….but i wouldnt be surprised if he wasnt. which is sad. he deserves better and is probably depressed af but doesnt even know it. so i didn’t want to push the father too much on this aspect. i just i hope your son is doing ok, he’s a great guy and deserves great things.

anyway im not alone in thinking the father is a great guy. he has LITERALLY touched hundreds of lives as an educator and i’m sure many of those people are cupping his balls as well. he deserves it.

there are sneaky J’s in this world, and sad things happening to good people, but there are also people who are just so god damn awesome you can’t believe they even EXIST, but they do. and if you can meet as many of those people in real life and spend as much time as possible with them……maybe one day you could BE that awesome. wow. what a thought.

the guy is AMAZING. he is an INSPIRATION. I mean every damn word. if it sounds like im gushing its because i am.

all people cant be this cool, unfortunately……….. but you can STILL recognize the awesomeness of regular average joes. i would like to be able to do that more. i just need an EXTREMELY awesome guy to break through my thick shell. but even less awesome people are still awesome enough.

im talking about hwyte people of course hahahahahaha. nonhwytes, i just dont really care about. i dont wish them any harm, but i’m not as concerned about recognizing their awesomeness.

(i guess if you are an educator dealing with a lot of black kids, you might get passionate about recognizing the awesomeness in each one of them. ok fine. in fact i think that’s a mark of an Awesome Educator. which this guy is. except he doesnt teach a ton of inner city black kids hahahahahha.)

but yeah. spend enough time with this guy and you will want to become a TEACHER hahahahahahaha. he’s one of those. one of those that probably ends up in many students “Muh Favorite Teachers Of All Time” lists. really blowing minds, melting hearts. good for them. we all need as much of that as we can get. but i think this can’t be taught in teachers college really. you have to be born with that spirit.

actually i might have some of that spirit! but i do NOT want to go to teachers college and be a damn teacher.

so yeah seeing him was a wake up call for me. that within every hwyte, there’s a spark of that same awesomeness. i might not see it right away. they might not see it right away. but I should FIND it and then SHOW them that I appreciate them for it. be a real cheerleader.

shit i wish i could cheerlead muh SELF in that way, but uhhhh never been able to do that in 30+ years.

it goes without saying this guy is charismatic af. you HAVE to be. it goes hand in hand with all that.

now muh new coworkers, ive said before they are all awesome in their own ways, and they are. i should try to appreciate them for that and to show them that appreciation…..so that they can recommend me for good jobs hahahahahahahaha. you need all the recommendations and references in life that you can GET. for jobs and Grad Skool hahahaha. not that i promise to ever GO to grad skool……but i also want to prove that I’m smart hahahaha. because that’s a legit reason to go to grad skool hahaha.

2 of muh coworkers are pretty charismatic guys, including muh direct manager. good role models, in other words, and i REALLY dont want to WASTE the OPPORTUNITY, the PRIVILEGE of getting to know these people.

this is what every young man needs………but im not a young man any more. i might be too old to really benefit from this stuff hehe. it IS especially valuable to have access to people like this when you are YOUNG.

it’s my HWYTE PRIVILEGE that i had access to types like this when i was young. but i was so fooked up, immature, and sissy anxious, that i AVOIDED people like this. AVOIDED NICE PEOPLE WHO COULD HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!

Well i’ve gotten better about not avoiding them any more hahaha.

and i just want to be good about being a NORMIE and having normie conversations with my good guy manager, for example. have normal conversations and over time build a real Relship, so that i can talk to him about his life and family and career, and even more importantly for muh narcissism, talk about my life and my career hehehehehe.

i’m a total narcissist who is AFRAID to talk about muh self with other people!

now thats a weird ass situation to be in.

because i am ashamed of how little i’ve achieved and how i’ve never had any real career goals.

who doesn’t have career goals?

LOSERS!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, no one’s a LOSER, but uhhhhh at this point its beyond the scope of an educator, you need a different kind of professional help, have you thought about seeing a shrink or a psychiatrist hahahahaha.

YASSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

So he was talked to this other woman who is currently doing a PHD in a marxist as hell field and is being advised by a marxist professor, and i was like oh great, im gonna have a field day listening to this woman’s lecture.

and yeah there was bullshit in there about hwyte privilege and closing the achievement gap with blacks……but at the same time, these people at least were still genuinely concerned with Just Helping Students Succeed.  Period. and I had to respect that. they weren’t k1kes rubbing their hands with how to keep evil whites down. they just sincerely want to help all students succeed. and i can totally respect that.

i just think they would have a much better go at that if they acknowledged the reality of racial differences.

however i might just agree with them on the class differences. like this woman was talking about the experience of growing up in an honestly shitty town, no one goes to college, let alone gets a phd, and she talks about stories of smart kids who just didnt get the right direction by their teachers. and i can totally sympathize with that . in a way i kinda feel like that.

but most of that is On Me, because I Actively AVOIDED the people who COULD direct, guide, advise, help me put my life on a good path. because i was afraid to Talk To Professors. I do regret that.

not just professors, but just successful middle class winner people in general.

i overheard them talking that middle class kids get more direction in thinking creatively, thinking outside of the box, while the working class kids are more like “just tell me what to do. am i doing this right? tell me what to do and i’ll do it. please.”

which was haunting for me, since I felt like that ALL THE TIME at muh old job, and still feel like that a little bit, generally. i said FOOK creativity, we need to GET THINGS DONE. RESULTS. what do i do to make this work now. creativity is a bourgeois, effete, phaggy luxury that real working people in the real world don’t have time form. creativity is NAIVE and SOFT and WEAK.

i honestly dont put high value on being creative. i would rather get things done. be charismatic, be good with people, do good strong work.

so, according to her, i definitely have more working class values than middle class. which i kinda already knew hahahaha. the whole story of my life has been torn between those two worlds, and failing in both of them.

i would talk to them all day about class. but just stfu about RACE hahahaha.

because i have ALWAYS identified with and support the working class……but i always had class/status anxiety about becoming middle class. using muh SMART BRAIN to go to COLLEGE and get a nice middle class CAREER and marry a woman who’s also “smart” enough to get a college degree and spell words correctly and not get Working Class Tattoos hahahaha.

because there’s parts of the working class I dont like, the white trash shit, but honestly i think those are WAY outweighed by the positives.

so here’s this woman talking about all this stuff and it was honestly very interesting. i wish they had recorded the lecture, or that i had tried to talk to the woman more before the lecture. but i didnt because i felt like a nervous idiot who didn’t know how to talk to phd’s. besides she was a commie antiwhite feminist.

technically yes……..  but i guess i agree with the antiwhite marxists when it comes to class. i am very very pro-working-class. i just dont want a marxist revolution. maybe i want a nonmarxist workers revolution? maybe. one with a huge racial component hahaha. white workers. NSDAP hahahaha.

would REALLY like to meet an awesome inspiring person like this who is closer to muh views on Race. hehehehe.

listen if i were in the position of these educators and had black students who were honestly smart and honestly working hard, no way would i brush them off or try to keep them down. i would want to help them succeed.

if i were ever in a position to really truly literally DISCRIMINATE against someone based on race alone, i would hope i wouldn’t do it. i really wouldnt WANT to be in that position.

i just HATE how these altruistic, noble, good motives got wrapped up with horrible jooish marxism!!!!!!!

like all these admirable educators are also damn democrats who parrot the benefits of diversity to their dying day. can’t we just take that shit out? you can STILL HELP STUDENTS, regardless of race!

like the woman was talking about a student who was smart, but got bad grades. the student wanted to be a lawyer, but because they were a working class person with bad grades, their teachers were like, uhhh you might want to become a paralegal instead. because to be a successful lawyer you need to get on the right PATH: good grades. good schools. and this student was smart enough to be capable of that, but they are guided to be a paralegal instead of a lawyer. that discussion particularly interested me. as a smart person who ultimately got mediocre grades and never ascended to the Successful Track……..BUT PROBABLY COULD HAVE.

and this teacher is concerned with being a good teacher who helps those kinds of students get to that track. and i totally admire that.

i just wish they didnt have to be goddamn diversity loving, trump hating, SJW marxists!!!!!!!! who are scared and sad about the bigotry and hate of white trump voters!!!!!

why cant you be a white trump voter who loves the white working class but ALSO wants to see all students succeed and get on the right path? so that would be my niche hehehehe.

of course LAW is a risky choice anyway. dont become a lawyer OR a paralegal. is what i would tell the student. do a damn trade instead. and i think this woman teacher i was listening to was very open to that idea as well. appreciated the value of trades and trade education/educators. and i am thankful to be around educators who understand that. rather than humanities professors in the ivory tower with soft pink bitchhands hahahaha.

but yeah to be a successful lawyer you should aim for top tier…..or not try at all. its the best or nothing. i mean that’s just how it is with law. i wish it weren’t!

and yeah i wish college weren’t so expensive. i dont even know who to blame anymore.

but i think pushing trades education is always a good idea.

like how about get rid of high schools in black neighborhoods and have them do trades education starting at age fooking 14. get paid working experience starting at age 14, so that they can get a decent paying job at age 18. rather than have these shitty public high schools of teachers babysitting savage, uneducable “Students”. take those students at a young age, 14 at the latest, and get them into military or trade school, before they have time to become savages. that would be my recommendation as a huhwhyte nationalist educator who wants the best for students of ALL races.

lets just move this post into the BEST OF right now hahahaha.

DONE.

i mean heres the thing. i might just AGREE WITH J MARXISTS on some aspects of Education and Socioeconomic Class.

and i dont want J Marxists to have a MONOPOLY on those ideas. I want VVN’s to be able to claim those ideas too.

heh. there was another educator there who has very good reviews from students and teaches a class in Religion. he is a huhwhyte goy who seems to be a Good Teacher. i didnt get to talk or listen to him at all. i mean i have fears that he is a diversity loving shitlib. now his specialty is RELIGION. handsome youngish guy who SHOULD have a wife and 3 young children. does he? i worry that he is a fedora atheist who teaches why religion is stupid and right wing. but why would he get a graduate degree in RELIGION?

but why wouldn’t he get a graduate degree in THEOLOGY or DIVINITY and become a PRIEST?

he seems like a smart guy who knows alot about religion, but would he be good to go to for actual SPIRITUAL GUIDANCE????

i should have asked him why didnt he become a PRIEST hahahaha. i think its because he’s really into ((((buddhism)))) hahahahaha.

no i dont think theres anything inherently wrong with that. ive known some great people who were heavily into buddhism. thinking of an old college friend who was a GREAT, classic, inspiring guy, and he got a grad degree in something buddhist related.

excuse me “professor” but why do you hate christians? are you varg vikernes or something hahahaha at least then we would agree that HOLY FOOK I LUV BEING HWYTE hahahaha.

they might not explicitly luv being hwyte, but if they have a whyte wife and hwyte children………then ITS ALL GOOD!!!!!!!!

and shit i really like the issues that ((((SOCIOLOGY))))) looks at, like race and culture and status and class and society and men and women…………..but i wish there were a hwyte-friendly version of sociology, because currently, its about THE WORST field there is. the absolutely fooking WORST. SAD.

i mean if there were a Hwyte Sociology, I would get a phd in THAT. but there isn’t. there wont be in my lifetime. and i dont have the charisma or awesomeness or influence to make one myself. lets be realistic here. i mean yeah i often underestimate myself, but not here.

its so frustrating. to have smart people talking about very interesting things…..but to take the worst possible perspective on it. except for a few points about wanting to help working class students, or working class people in general. THAT I agree with them on. NOTHING else. sheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeit.

and theres ABSOLUTELY NO WAY I could have a conversation with these masters and phd-level Educators and convince them that Hwytes are Awesome and plz drop this marxist white privilege bullshit. because I can’t argue, and I sure can’t argue against people who a large part of their jobs is arguing, in favor of shit I want to argue against. they would give me 6000000000 citations from other marxist phds why institutional racism is real and hwytes have a big debt they need to repay.  and i would give a few citations from RACIST, DISCREDITED sources like kmac and uh……cant say dr duke or dr pierce obviously. maybe could say rushton or bell curve or the DNA guy watson. but they already think these people are horrible racists!

uhhh well what about putnam. he was a shitlib who didnt like the conclusions he was reaching, that Too Much Diversity was Bad!

but i didnt even read the book!

supposedly kmac became gradually more redpilled as he did his research and wrote his books. he didn’t want to become a racist but by the third book (CofC), he had arrived, like it or not.

maybe just give copies of CoC to these people hahahaha. let them read it and say, this is hwyte supremacist bullshit thats no better than david duke hahahaha.

and i havent even read all of CoC myself!!!!!!!! its too try and dense hahahahaha.

and doing a phd in ANYTHING requires reading TONS of dry and dense stuff.

this will ALWAYS be inherent to ANY phd. its not going away. so yeah i am leaning away from the phd like i always was.

i mean i always wished i were better at arguing. ive never liked it because ive never been good at it. and certainly my lack of confidence doesnt help. you HAVE to be CONFIDENT to be a good arguer.

and to be a right wing ACADEMIC, you have to be confident and bold as fook. just couldnt do it. so i hate that The University has become so goddamn left wing. i dont need to tell you who to blame for that.

otherwise it might have been a good career path for a smart young man hahahaha.

and i’ve always been interested in this stuff more than any STEM or science, unfortunately. that would have made things a hell of a lot easier too.

so, what should a super right wing person DO for a career?

become a huge capitalist businessman like trump obviously hahahaha.

but i didnt really luv business classes. but if i had gotten a business bachelors degree, prob could have gotten an Entry Level Business Job hahahahahaha. but i would prob hate it because i dont like the way businesses are run. in very jooish, dishonest ways. fuzzy exterior at best, and rotten to the core. exploitin the workin class hahahahahaha. cutting corners and treating human beings as objects to make money.

and NOW i’m talking like a FAR LEFTIST!!!!!!!!!

but i swear. I’m really a far rightist but with strong pro-working class views. so i guess i should go cup matt heimbach’s balls HAHAHAHAHAHA.

no i like, respect, and admire heimbach and should read his stuff more. we need more men like that in the university.

or anglin or weev. or even k1ke enoch hahahaha.

but i also would like to have some role models who are Crazy Hwyte Supremists, but just total damn normies.

this is where that first guy comes in. he teaches in a field that is pretty Apolitical. and he would probably be the most open to listening to Right Wing stuff than the other Decent People I work with.

HOWEVER, I do want to take advantage of the fact that I work with decent people, with great careers, who are Kinda Leftist, but not Ragist Marxists like a Sociology PHD or something, thank GOD, and jsut have normal conversations with them, build Real Relationships with them, so I can Use Them as references and help muh own career, hahahaha. i mean i would buy them dinner in return, and give them good work. but it just involves me being charismatic on a daily basis.

and im not charismatic. i just try to be nice and friendly and smile and ask smart questions and show i’m smart and have initiative. but today i had a chance to make Good Witty Small Talk and I blew it and there was an awkward silence. I could have asked the guy about ANYTHING. movies, his family, his masters degree. but I choked. I mean later in the day I interacted with him and was friendly and smiled and made Good Eye Contact and said Have A Good Weekend so I think I did OK there.

but I want to do BETTER than OK!!!! I have a lot of lost time to make up for! I’m in a hole and have to dig my way out! OK isnt good enough!!!!!

OH YEAH. another reason this is a topkek post: had a dream last night with THAT WOMAN. She looked a little slutty and was acting a little slutty. which was rough because she never looked or acted slutty around me, and i LIKED THAT A LOT.  I wonder if she DID look slutty around me, if that would have made it EASIER in the long run, to shatter my pedestal fiction image of her. probably!

and maybe she DID act and dress slutty around other guys, guys she wanted to FOOK.  black guys hahahahahahaha.

anyway in the dream she was dating a hwyte guy, who was tougher and more badass than me. dressing and acting kinda secsy towards him. I was all butthurt and remember yelling at her: “N1993R FOOKER! you dirty degenerate N199ER LOVER!!! you god damn fooking wh0re!!!!” which really did not look good for me. at that point I look like the butthurt bad guy.

then she responded with hostility, not suprisingly. said no you’re wrong, see i’m not even WITH a black guy, i just needed a real man, not a little bitch like you. and i was acting like a little bitch.

and in real life, i was never that hostile or hateful towards her. i would never say that to her. i was a little angry and hostile, but i was more sad and disappointed and crushed. i still dont think she was a degenerate wh0re. i think she’s a good person who was in a tough situation and took the easy way out. we’ve all done it. i was a little disgusted at some things she was alleged to have done, but not to the extent i was in the dream!

i still view it more with sadness and disappointment, rather than hateful hositility.

not that i had NO anger towards her.

then later in the dream she started attacking me and “my team” of men with a sharp meat cleaver. turning into a horror movie villian who wanted to chop us up. And I brought it all upon myself by being a mean butthurt bitch to her. which then somehow justified her attacking me with a meat cleaver.

so i was humiliated that i lost control and appeared so weak and butthurt in front of her.

and in real life yeah this did sorta happen. i HATED appearing weak and needy and clingy to her. making her push me away. i pushed her away by needing her so much.

but i never said anything like n1993r lover hahahaha. i just said pleeeeaassseeee hang out with me i miss being frinedsssssss with you and she said stop it stop it stop it! leave me alone!

not my finest hour and yeah i am ashamed of being so weak.

so the dream brought alot of that back up. and showed her being Secsy, towards a tougher manlier man. another hwyte man. so i couldnt even bring Race into it hehehehe.

it was a pretty disturbing unpleasant dream! but thankfully it didnt ruin my day, I was over it about 2 hours later, and ultimately had a Pretty Good Day because of seeing That Awesome Guy. totally outweighed the cons of me being Awkward with the coworker and awkward with the other Professional Woman. i wasnt even awkward with her, i just focused on my task. and let other people chit chat with her.

but my job is so low stress, its NORMAL for people to chit chat! i TOTALLY could have left my “work” for 2 minutes to chit chat with her about Her Interests, some of which where 180 to my own, but others which were……360 hahahaha. right dead on.

but she’s a mature educator, i don’t think she is constantly judging people as WEIRD and AWKWARD. she wants the best for her students for gods sakes. she has probably learned NOT to be judgmental to people for being awkward.

i mean MOST people, they WONT judge you for being awkward, they wont even NOTICE IT, BECAUSE ITS ALL IN YOUR FOOKING HEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to make a pretty good day even better, theres this. oh GOD BLESS YOU LAD.

though i would have liked if he called them k1k3s rather than dinosaurs hahahaha.

see i wish mike had just been more like woes. at this point, i have more respect and faith and confidence in MW. I feel he is more honest, has more integrity. take the gay scandal. woes didnt blow it off and not talk about it. he made it perfectly clear that he did not support the gay agenda, that gayness was generally degenerate, and that he was glad to put his degen past in the past. he handled that VERY WELL so the people still bashing MW about it do indeed look like autistic shills. i wish mike had approached the JWife situation with similar openness.

i still technically support mike. he has done more good than i will EVER do. i’m just disappointed at how he handled this, which has lessened my faith in him a little. 10 to 20%. there was no such lessening of faith with MW.

heh i found george feels making a comment on another guys video where he HEAVILY suggests that he is JWise and that he listened to Dr Pierce in the god damn 1990s. WOW. i wish george would talk about this in his own videos. i think he will! i hope he does!!!! im being deliberately vague here because i dont want to push him before he’s ready. but i think he will be ready soon. i hope he keeps going down this road, it could help him, it helped me with similar problems. didnt fix them entirely, but it HELPED.

being part of something larger, and very very meaningful, and this holy thing is under attack. 1433 brothers hehehehe.

i listened to dr pierce in 2012 and it was pretty influential to me at that time. he had some GREAT content but his Activism was still VVN 1.0.  also i hear he wasnt the greatest father. SAD. but he could still redpill you on the JQ.

if anything it makes me want to talk to george more. i’ve messaged him briefly and gently encouraged him to look into this stuff…..and apparently he’s already pretty far in. GOOD! GREAT!!!

hopefully by the time this comes out in sept 2017 he will be moar forward about it.

wodensthrone curse – really good. think the second half is maybe stronger than the first! and thats always good. i was getting hair raising chills for like the last 10 minutes STRAIGHT. WELL DONE. i didnt think music could do that any more. that i couldnt get any joy or awe out of music. WODENSTHRONE.

good for george. good man. this increases my confidence in george. i was worried he was just gonna do the same thing for 5 years hahahaha. IMHO he needs to run with the racial stuff, but i wont push him to talk about it before he’s ready. i mean he is putting his actual FACE out there. and its more harmful to be doxxed for VVN than to be doxxed for neet loserness.

i am tempted to email him about this hahahaha but he might think i am a stalker. maybe i will email him in a couple months about it.

friday night, tom off, normally i would have been in bed 2 hours ago, now i am rocking out to WODENSTHRONE and really WRITING like an absolute madman. finally got some people at the card table to will do a little of that.

REALLY wish i had some MJ, AS DEGEN AS IT TRULY IS. that will be my damn VICE.  but on a night like this, i would stay up late, smokin MJ till 2 am hahahaha then crash to sleep a long solid unbroken dreamless refreshing sleep.

well the awesome guy accepted my linkedin invite same day and sent me a message asking for my email, i emailed him back with the info and Cupped The Cajones a little more, hahaha. unfortunately the sent email was formatted all weird so now he prob thinks i am an unemployable weirdo who needs more help than an Educator can provide, hahahahaha.

no i’ll buy him lunch if he wants, shit hes such a nice guy he would probably buy me lunch with his huge paycheck hahaha. i gently suggested to him he should write a book or do a youtube channel. shit maybe hes already written a book. probably a sizable minority of people we get have written books.

also today was inauguration day. did i mention that hahaha. trvmpenfuhrer is now no longer president elect, but full blown president. not bad. now watch him cuck for ZOG hahahahaha. but let us bitter fearful bigoted working class ammosexual trumpanzee hwytes have our brief moment of happiness hehehe.

i mean educated people treat you like youre IGNORANT if you say you dont believe nonwhites are OPPRESSED. period. oh you cant be SERIOUS. how can you not SEE the institutionalised racism! a person today was talking about “cultural capital” and yeah these sociology concepts are potentially useful, but they just take it to the wrongest conclusion.

i mean shit, maybe nonwhites ARE oppressed. but you wanna play that shitty game, you know who else is oppressed? HWYTES!!!! hahahaha. oppressed by J plutocrats and media masters and Globalist Banksters.

maybe my holy mission is to organize all goyim against the eternal international J hahaha. goyim here meaning whites and blacks and browns.

maybe i will get banned for even using the word g0yim hehehe. stupid g0yim. the G0YIM KNOW, SHUT IT DOWN!

what if i lived in the UK where they have no freedom of speech? dont tons of UK people use wordpress????

listen man i’m not inciting anything and i don’t HATE anybody. this is not a rabid hate channel hahahahaha. and these scumbags still went after MW. so glad he came back with his new video saying FOAD you scum.

 

THE DOXXENING II OR III

jan 16 2017

monday. dr rev mlk jr phd md pbuh edS SciD PC llc day. he was a joo-funded communist who beat and cheat on his wife with hookers. white hookers! he hated hwytes more than the average alt right 1433er like me “hates” nonwhites, and cheated and plagiarized his way to his fraudulent phd. and you know damn well who was behind it all! it’s like im making this stuff up, to be a neonotzee wet dream, but i’m not. that’s just the reality of it!

REALITY IS RACIST!!!!!

the sooner you accept that, the sooner you will come to know deep inner peace hehehehehe.

dark net markets. they are interesting as FOOK. i am amazed that there is so much on REDDIT about these “DNMs”. go on the clearnet reddit and yep we have a sale this week on oxycontin, big sale this week on Kind Budz and Fentanyl and Heron and C0c41ne.

so those could be LE people looking for people to nab.

so you look for the people with high good feedback ratings. it’s not like LE is running the markets or cooperating with the markets!

besides its prob a much more low hanging fruit and more beneficial to try to arrest actual drug dealers in your own communities. basically, blaq thugs selling heron and hard drugs and huge quantities. than to, at great expense, try to entrap small time nonviolent customers. probably costs a LOT of money.

so what am i really saying here. i cant even be thinking this hehehe. no im not gonna do anything stupid. but is it REALLY THAT stupid? a lot of people do a lot of really stupid things. like women being stupid sluts having secs with men they dont even know. hehehe. yeah well all that is perfectly legal.

i dont like it when women I treat as special, go ahead and act like stupid sluts, and do stupid slutty things, reveal them to be not so special, it really degrades them in my eyes and causes a ton of grief. i thought they were special! how could you do this? how could you BE LIKE THAT? i wanted to spend years cuddling with you and luving you and you wont even talk to me and let random scumbags fook you when to touch your body would have been a Transformative Religious Experience for me, maybe even Miraculously Fixed me from a Loser to a Winner. cant even talk to me and you give your bod and your time and your luv to Many Scumbags for Free.  THATS what hurts!

1:30 pm. took benedryl to prepare for early bedtime tonight.

totally rocking twin peaks sountrack. very chill, catchy, dark, and  beautiful.

worth poasting two posts in a row.  badalamenti is all good. also see mulholland drive soundtrack. excellent. glad that italian is still alive hahaha.

Mike Enoch doxed? who said his wife was a J? is TRS over with? wtf is fooking going on??!?!?!?!?!?!?!

forum is down. radio site is up, regular TRS site is up, enoch twitter is up.

http://therightstuff.biz/2017/01/16/the-dark-age/

check the comments here, got some doxing antifas arguing in their

oy vey. yep i guess enoch was doxed, his wife is a J, she works in a marxist J’ish career as a diversity officer, identifies as a J’ish leftist. Mike has a possibly J’ish russian name, not sure if he’s actually a J. Lies that Ghoul was a traitor and gave up some dox, but he didn’t, he was just spreading disinformation, yeah i don’t think ghoul is a traitor. shit i dont even think mike is a traitor, its just sad. i mean mike has gone on the record so many times and said such good stuff, even if he IS a J. I can’t imagine how he COULD be a J and say that stuff. his WIFE being a marxist J does however make total sense. like maybe he just cant ignore this bullshit any more because he sees it every day with his wife. and this is his outlet. (pure speculation here. just wondering what i would do as an increasing JQ VVN if my wife was a J marxist. I would be very conflicted hahahahahaha.) as I’m sure mike is. probably a divorce would be for the best. I guess he stepped down from TRS? WTF IS GOING ON!!???!?!?!?!?!?!?!

http://archive.is/pF1He

antifa shit site its going down, who also posted dox of ghoul and seventh son

http://www.salon.com/2017/01/16/cat-fight-on-the-alt-right-neo-nazi-podcaster-mike-enoch-quits-after-doxxers-reveal-his-wife-is-jewish/

mother fooking SALON article published TODAY

like counter countersignal says thanks ghoul for the tips on doxing enoch, i dont really think ghoul did that, they are just tyring to alienate ghoul from his friends and make him look like a traitor to them

GOD FOOKING DAMN. this is ugly, this is horrible, this is very possibly the end of TRS. Mike is very possibly gonna lose his very well paying job.

does he actually LIVE in manhattan? he works there.

I HOPE he can find another tech job, he probably can, prob wont be as well paying. i hope his “liberal new jersey family” doesnt disown him. i kinda hope his J wife divorces him, because IMHO he needs a fresh start from that. he can’t remain married to that. it’s bad for him hahahahaha.

the surname. some say it is a J bastardization of an orignally croatian name. some VVN’s think it was a fbi mossad shill operation all along, that J Mike was scamming us all.

i dont think so, i think he is perfectly sincere in his beliefs. he was an “AnCap” or “Libertarian” as recently as 2010 and prob was married by that time. ie, was not JQ pilled.

modest cashflow. come on. yeah im sure TRS got decent money, but mike didnt need that money personally. he was making shitloads of money. i trust he was putting that money back towards TRS.

I still support Mike, in other words. even if he comes out and admits, yes I am myself a J, I will say……well thank you for the great content, but yeah you know now you really have to leave.

http://bbs.dailystormer.com/t/heres-the-thing/77519

anglins statment

anyway i guess there was a TRS page from 2013 that had mikes normie normal email address in the source code.

some think weev should have noticed this as he was doing work for the site. i can’t say that’s a reasonable assumption. besides they had to go to archive.org cuz the page is not up any more.

so yeah i think mike is/was sincere, you could hear it in his voice, and he was no doubt very conflicted being married to the enemy like that. and maybe she was even an ok wife. which would make it harder for him to leave her. shit before I was JPilled I got feelings for a J gurl. what if i had MARRIED her? this is exactly what happened to mike.

so in short, i support mike, i don’t believe he is a TRAITOR, and I hope he is able to keep his job or find gainful new employment.

sheeeeeit this is BAD.

so now all the TRS people are refugeeing over to daily stormer. this will make daily stormer stronger which is good. but its just sad and disappointing. it does raise big questions about his trustworthiness. i mean his wife obviously KNEW what he was doing. apparently she came on a daily shoah in 2015 to do a alt right parody poem. so she gets to be the “honorary hwyte” because she essentially agrees with mike about the JQ?

maybe he felt hubris and didnt think he would ever be found out. maybe he was scared to come clean and admit the J wife thing early on, which probably is what he should have done. but he didnt plan to be become so BIG.

but having an Actively J Marxist Wife IS compromising as fook, even if she “LETS” him do sincerely pro-hwyte work!!! but maybe they both agreed to avoid and ignore the elephant in the room re their marriage? yeah probably.

but yeah he should have come out with this earlier. and honestly i dont think he can come back. i think he’s a good goy but he needs to get his personal life sorted out. there are problems there he is blatantly ignoring and he should not do that.

but yeah im not gonna crap on him and say he’s a traitor. but it is a pretty big lie of omission. SO MANY FEELS! I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT I FEEL! i will DEF have to sleep on this one, and he DEF needs to take a big break, maybe divorce his wife. at least they didnt have any children. find a nice white woman who isnt a municipal diversity commissar. you can do that mike, you make 200 grand a year hahahaha.

but he married her before he was JPilled. Like I say, I fell in luv with J gurls before I was JPilled too!!!! but I was like 20 and he was more like 30 at that time.

he is in a tight spot for sure. it could have happened to any of us. so i am very sympathetic to him. but it’s also hard, prob impossible, to be a huge alt right leader, like he is, and have this business going on. again i see it less as willful deception, as more like him being afraid to confront an uncomfortable truth. and i think he still would have PLENTY of valuable things to say about Being an alt right, JQ pilled man, trying to navigate the living contradiction of Sharing His Life with a Leftist J.

I bet being married to her actually HELPED him get JQ. shit she probably AGREES with a lot of the stuff! like yes I agree this is what J’s are doing.

but its such a unique situation. if you are a gay, then yeah it’s ok and right to keep that in the Closet. This, i don’t think you CAN or SHOULD keep it in the closet. it would prob be BETTER if he were gay! because who you marry DOES matter. and if its a sham marriage, then just end it.

but if he wants to be a public voice again, and I think he SHOULD, because he’s said and done so many good important valuable things, he also needs to be BRUTALLY, unflinchingly honest about this, and openly answer EVERY question.

there was a similar situation with this guy tanstaafl who had a J wife. but he is not nearly as influential as enoch, and he came forward about his J wife long ago.

david duke show for jan 16, mentions the enoch dox, starts at like 18 or 19 minutes. 19:10. real meat at 26:40. ummm hmmm not really. speaks in general about strategy. 31:45 here we go.

htxxxxxtp://mediaarchives.gsradio.net/dduke/011617.mp3

the idea that she is “only” 25% J. still wanna see some 23 and me here hahahaha.

mike enoch has done GREAT work. full stop. you cant undo that. he didnt do any of that in bad faith. he was sincere. this work is STILL great. you should STILL listen to it. it’s just SAD and disappointing what is happening in his life. but he HAS to address this. you can’t sweep this under the rug. just do like tanstaafl did, be open and honest for it. admit you fooked up and ask for forgiveness. and in mike’s statement, he kinda sorta did this. like i wont blame you if you hate me, if this makes you leave TRS. there’s nothing I can say that can explain this. It’s all true. I hope this movement and our race continues after this scandal.

so i want him to say more. but i think he’s still in shock too. lets give him some time. shit i need some time hahahaha. but im not mad at mike at all. i would love to have him back. but he HAS to DEAL with the J wife. it IS our business. it ISNT something that can be kept in the closet. he could maybe still stay married to her. just make an announcement every few months, by the way, i’m married to a J, and we dont plan on having any kids.

but he really SHOULD get a hwyte hwyfe and have hwyte kids!

this is what happens when you get married BEFORE your political and racial awakening hahahahahaha.

his allegedy employer saying as of jan 14 that he is not an employee of our company. not he was ever an employee or not, or he was fired, or anything that clarifies anything.

also we dont know for sure what his 25% J wife does for a career. most i could find is some dumb music blog from 2008 hahahaha. what is this trannie diversity civil rights career?

supposedly she posted something about some drag queens at a jooish drag show saying “as a J, I approve of this.”

because some 25% J’s honestly do identify as full J’s so they can get all the J cred, muh shoah, all that. hip and cool to be part of an oppressed class.

but its possible she became redpilled along with mike.

so i can’t really judge. i have sympathy for him, i will give them all the benefit of the doubt, but i would like him to come back, and in order to do that, he’s got a LOT of explaining to do.

a decent number of people came to alt right or VVN from Libertarian or AnCap stuff, Mike included. nothing wrong with that.

i wish i had been a lame libertarian rather than an even lamer leftist back in the day!

looking forward to what sven is going to say tomorrow. he tweeted that he would make an announcement prob on the 17th.

cuz there is the idea of, who else knew and was covering for him? and if she is “only” 25%, i could see them going, welllllllll, let’s just keep it a secret and hope nobody finds out. just make sure you dont get doxed.

so yeah, even if a bunch of Higher Ups knew, i dont think that destroys their credibility either.

her coming out and saying something might not hurt either. like i am 25% J, not a drop more, and I agree with muh husband’s JQ views. He is right about this JQ thing and dont you J’s try to deny it. i am now non punitively divorcing him so he can marry a 100% hwyte gurl. when i married him even I didnt realize what this all meant. neither did he.

that would be a good statement of good faith hahahaha. cuz i believe she probably is “one of the Good J’s.”

jan 17

https://radio.therightstuff.biz/2017/01/17/the-sorta-shoah-well-be-back-tomorrow/

2000 disqus comments on mike enoch hehehe

listened to the sorta shoah with sven. still not sure how i feel, MAYBE he should have been more apologetic about concealing mike’s secret. but my questions are, and mike should answer them, is 1. how J is the wife? 25% isnt HORRIBLE 2. what does she really DO for a living? diversity officer? looks like she is chief marketing officer for “JIMPACT” which is just basically a team building workforce training firm that puts on workshops on how to give better service and shit, and in there they talk about the benefits of diversity in the workplace, but it doesnt sound like serious shit where she is bringing section 8 housing into hwyte neighborhoods or anything.  3. how red pilled is the wife?

and also it sounds like they are separating and his marriage is now over. his family has disowned him. he has lost his job. i think he’s done MORE than enough penance. I would be happy to have him back. he didnt deserve any of that. at best, he should have mentioned something earlier, but he just felt pretty normal human cowardice in confronting an uncomfortable situation. im pretty much over this and dont see it as the end of the world. except for the very real consequences its had on mikes life. that sucks. and also yes i do think its for the best that they stop being married.

life is complicated and we are all cowardly in some way and there are some good joos and i am fully prepared to forgive mike, i prob would have done the same thing in his situation. im not saying its right, im saying its forgiveable. its a lot better than throwing people away like a piece of garbage or a woman being a slut hahahaha. might as well ban people because their GF’s are “former” sluts hahahahaha.

no its a little worse than that because of the JQ, and that is a very important Q haha. but he’s lost his job, he’s lost his wife, he’s lost his family, its like Job. none of that needed to happen. he coulda just said, heres the thing, i’m actually married to a joo, and im pretty conflicted about it, and things prob would have turned out all right.

well he mighta been doxxed anyway because that is what antifa do.

which itself doesnt make sense, because once someone is doxed, then they have nothing to lose and can devote themselves openly to fighting you.

i dunno. i just want mike to bounce back because i believe he is a good guy, and he has done a lot of great work, and i want him to continue doing this great work.

so that makes me a race traitor who is soft on principles. and a strong woman like sinead would be disgusted by my softness and weakness. hey nothing new there, women have been rejecting me for being weak all of my life hahaha.

but heres the thing. who’s done more good for the movement, mike or sinead. whos less of a crazy unstable nutcase.

so yeah. i stand with mike hahahahaha.

yes principles are important. yes we have to be willing to punish people who do wrong. but really. this seems almost like a minor thing compared to the ways that regular people regularly hurt each other. white women throwing white men away like garbage and giving away their uterus easily to thugs and nonwhites and having no respect for human life or the process which creates it. people cheating and hurting each other. people abusing people. abusing children. cheating. child p0rn0graphers. people throwing each other under the bus. mike hasnt done anything of this magnitude. its not like he was caught with child pr0n or something like that. or even having gay secs.

it would be different if he had mixed children with her. it would be different if she were 100% J. it would be different if he didn’t believe in VVN. it would be different if he were abusing someone. this doesnt seem any worse than david duke being a degenerate gambler and being a bastard to his wives. its nowhere near as bad as hal turner being an actual fedgov informer. come on.

and mike kinda does deserve special treatment because he’s Added Special Value. That’s worth something.

so yeah i am leaning heavily towards being fully forgiving of mike. i don’t personally feel betrayed. i am greatly looking forward to hearing what he has to say, which sven says will be released tomorrow.

he’s lost his damn FAMILY. the people who should be supporting him thru this tough time. to be disowned by your own mother and father. i hope its not that bad! and that at worst, they are only a little upset about him not being a shitlib like them. but i hope they still luv and support their SON.

to lose your family, super high-paying high-status job, and wife in one big public shaming scandal. it’s EASILY enough to cause a man to K himself!

heh we should be much more concerned with the degeneracy and sin and treachery WOMEN commit every day! cheating, lying, hurting, abusing!

well yeah i agree that women only get as bad as they are because MEN LET THEM get that bad. weak men cause terribly-behaved women.

but i dont believe we need to fully fix men 100% before we can start fixing women and holding them more accountable! we can fix BOTH at the same time!

https://www.counter-currents.com/2017/01/why-i-support-mike-enoch/

anyway. i dont participate in the bickering on the forums. i know enoch is not muh buddy or muh pal but I have listened to his ridiculous voice for many hours. couldnt help wonder who this guy IS. i guess he told real life people he trusted. there’s the argument that we dont OWN him and we arent ENTITLED to anything he doesnt want to share with us. ie, the fans.

and I find it hard to cast him out because i once had fee fees for a 100% Hebress. but i didnt marry her. but i would have willingly Dated her. if she didnt dump me after 6 dates and 2 bangs hahahaha.

he didnt molest a child, he didnt throw an innocent person under the bus, he didnt do a standard fook party, he didnt sell anyone out, he didnt lie about his beliefs, he was just SCARED to confront what his evolving beliefs were leading him to regarding his personal life, and possibly leaving someone he had committed to.

yeah it IS a dramatic soap opera of a story. would make a great movie or book hahahaha. and because he’s not doing something outright EVIL, it makes it all the more challenging.

i mean, race mixing really isnt as bad as murder or molesting children or cheating. but youre figuratively murdering your bloodline right?

and I am BRUTAL towards white women mudsharks. how could they DO something so DISGUSTING? where’s that same contempt and disgust towards Mike?

well because I think it IS more disgusting, the WF/BM, than a WM/JF. and WM/AF is more disgusting than WM/JF.

its probably due to how the ashkenazis are pretty “white seeming” nonwhites. I mean they LOOK pretty whyte, ffs. they look a lot whyter than an azn or a blaq. and when they look a little off, we have been schooled to say, OH THEYRE JUST RUSSIAN. THEYRE JUST EASTERN EUROPEAN. THEYRE JUST SLAVIC JOOS hahahahahaha. i mean think about how ridiculous that sounds. but thats how I used to think, and how many normies continue to think! you see joos as a religion and not really as a separate race!

and also the more aware you become of your own hwyteness, the less you want to mix that with others. shit when i was a 23 year old shitlib, i had nothing against race mixing, i said shit if i meet a nice brown gurl, i’d have no problem with that, some of them are very attractive.

and 20 year old women of ANY race are gonna be at their most attractive.

yes it DOES matter WHEN mike was redpilled!

a lot of the daily stormer people are quick to call him a traitor, put him in the oven. daily stormer is taking TRS “refugees” right now. will prob make DS stronger and thats a good thing. but i think some of them just never really heard of enoch until now.

so basically i am a too nice forgiving softie that is too willing to give people the benefit of the doubt hahaha.

anyway i just believe mike is a good guy who married a woman before he was redpilled on race, and that the horrendous fallout of this doxxing has been MORE than enough punishment for him, and he deserves forgiveness and acceptance by VVN’s. but i know plenty of people will forever view him as a traitor. such a ridiculous situation. damn.