july 21 2017

ok day off. friday 10;09 am. better make the most of it!

this might be more enjoyable than skrewdriver hehehe. as far as ian stuart stuff.

DUBAI PORTA POTTY holy shit that is as an interesting meme. and a great word with which to SHAME modern women. even if they havent DONE an actual Duba porta potty…..theyve probably done a cleveland steamer at least hahahaha.

well at the very least they have SEXTS, sexy photos of them. this is think is horrible. there shouldnt BE photos of anything sexy.

cave drawings of bewbs are different. there is something DIFFERENT about real women in real photos of real secs that makes a JOOISH MOCKERY of something sacred.

going through the skrewdriver albums chronologically until i find one that has an ok production. this might be the first hehehe.

only took 4 or 5 albums hahahaha.

ok went to store for grocery shopping, sent an actual handwritten note and tiny cash dnation to andrew anglins po box, came home, got official top quality Sunbathing in at 12pm sun, no clouds, 50 minutes, started sweating balls off, hot day, tons of sun, barely any clouds, so, prime time. listened to daily shoah with andrew anglin, was real good.

starting to get heat stroke hahahaha so i went inside. started some laundry. went to make some meatballs but the beef (80% lean, about 72 cals per ounce) was still not totally thawed. i tried not to get too angry or freaked out and said welp, i’ll just do this tomorrow then.

continued to Fast, will not eat food until dinner.

might make it real hard to do a ton of pushups though. well i guess i could do that after the huge dinner hehehe.

bought some baking soda and put a little bit of it in with the laundry.

yes you did you fooking old whore hahahaha. i remember this sciortino slutever whore from a few years ago. now she is 35 and wishing she got married years ago. too late hahahaha.

unfort i am in kinda the same position. and i didnt get to enjoy all the jooish pleasure secs like she has hahaha.

i never really wanted to bang lots of gurls and have lots of casual secs. even in the worst depths of muh degen, i always wanted a monog trad rel with a monog gf.  just wanted to state that for the 60000000000000th time hahaha.

even as i watched tons of porn and did tons of alcohol and mj, i never stopped wanting that traditional and decent ideal.

anyway will try not to write too much unproductive and negative stuff today.

how the hell long does it take 2 lbs of beef to defrost in the fridge. 2 days apparently.

wonder how long it will take for anglin to get shut down from Hatreon….or for hatreon to get shut down hahahaha.

heh. could you rub baking soda right on your sweaty skin to “freshen up”? use it like baby power almost?

i dont trust women but i almost DO trust them to be very interested in skin care hahahaha. well do i trust them to be RIGHT about sciencey stuff? not really hahaha.

well i didnt rub any on my skin really. just put like 1 tsp in a damn load of laundry.  that should be ok.

hahahahahahahaha nothing ironic about it at all!

did not put any return address on muh card to anglin hehehe. hope it gets there hehe.

i believe he will read my note. i fully believe he will take the 10 bucks hahahaha. i do not know if he will shake his head like “keep your pathetic pity money, if you can only afford to give 10 bucks, dont give anything at all.” i don’t think thats a very hwyte way to think hahahaha so i think he will accept it in the spirit it was given.

heh. that feel when you have day off and you slept 11 hours last night but STILL want to take a nap to “catch up” for all the days during the week you slept “only” for 6:30 hours.

now it is cloudy as hell outside but still hot.  glad i got some KWALITY sun earlier!

so skrewdriver has a song called “smash the IRA.” does this mean the IRA was commies? joos? i just assumed they were super nationalistic and that was good. i just dont know.  but if they were very nationalistic, skrewdriver would prob support them. maybe.

heh. i guess lauren southern was kicked off patreon? holy shit. surprised there isnt a huge thread on DS yet.

QUOTE (previously linked DS thread on postwall women, not southern hahahaha)

I know a few normie women like this. My sister is in her early thirties, and up until 5 years ago she & all her friends were single thot career women riding the c0ck carrosel, online dating, clubbing, getting wasted, etc.

Then all of a sudden the biological clocks started sounding their alarms & they all scrambled to settle on some beta male willing to pick up the scraps. Most are now married & managed to squeeze out a kid or two out of their decaying ovaries. But there is still one or two who didn’t get the message & are just like this bitch who wrote the article. My sister herself got married but the husband turned out to be a pill addict & still hasn’t succeeded in impregnating her, and she’s almost 35. The panic in her demeanor literally emanates from her pores.

I also have a female cousin who appeared to be a very successful corporate businesswoman, spending her freetime travelling the world & partying it up. 6 or 7 years ago it seemed she had it made. Now she’s over 40 & never managed to find a mate. When before our family get togethers consisted of all of us single people going out on the town to drink & party, now we’ve all settled down & have kids. She used to seem like someone who had it all, but now is revealed to be a dried up, bitter old lady with no future, still trying to live as though she’s 21. She lives in a luxury apartment with a small lap dog as a companion.

My sister in law is a thot who’s lived her life parasiting off of “sugar daddies” who paid for her every need. She is now 33 years old, has had 3 or 4 abortions, and losing her beauty despite fake boobs and a nice dye job. No man is interested in breeding with a washed up spoiled whore with no feminine skills whatsoever.

If you have women in your life you care about, it is imperative that they be shamed relentlessly about not doing their natural duty to have children. Not only will it benefit them, but it is simply intollerable having to endure family get togethers with a dried up bitter cat lady who hates you for having what they put off until it was too late.



anglin was talking about adornos authoritarian personality on the shoah.  great discussion. basically these joos said if you wanted to have a traditional family, you are an evil fascist, you must be destroyed for the good of society. when of course we need more people like traditional families FOR a good society.

heh. took clothes out of dryer, folded and put away. laid down cuz felt tired. this may also be because i have not eaten all day and feel kinda weak hehehe. then trimmed nails because i “never have the energy” to do this when i am getting ready for job in morning. did not take nap. just got back up after about 10 minutes.

all the weed smokers who post in comment threads about legalization….they SOUND like stupid retarded potheads. it weakens their already pretty weak argument. an autistic libertarian would make better arugments. that some permastoned pothead. it really does make you sound and look RETARDED.

which is why i dont like doing it around other people. just by myself.

heh pathetic. hard to believe guys like this are not incel neet virgins. they should be! this guy may make more money and get more women than me and i may be a huge loser…..but i am still a bigger winner than HIM!

hes probably a joo too.

and who the fook are these people that they even need to be verified. professional career twitter sjw journalists?

female tech journalists hahahaha

female tech entrepreneurs hahahahahahahahahaha

it never ends, it wont end until we Nonviolently Deport These People

and this is The Paper All Educated, Professional, Middle Class people read. and take very very seriously.

it makes me happy that Generation Zyklon might clearly see all these jooish lies for the jooish lies they are. like they said in the recent shoah with anglin:

what do you do if you are in the 9th grade RIGHT NOW in 2017. a fooking 14 year old. what do you have to look forward to. nothing. we need to start recruiting 14 year olds so by the time they are 24, holy shit they will be ready to kick serious ass.

listened to some of skrewdriver “after the fire” and while the guitar and drum sound is the best they’ve had up to that point, and ISD sounds pretty good and things are mixed ok, it suffers from almost and justice for all level basslessness. well, you can hear this timid, soft bass just barely. its like someone turned it down until you could barely hear it.

it was very frustrating. i have found something about the production of every skrewdriver album that is so off putting i can not ignore it.

then i listened to vapaudenristi and thought he’s succeeding at what skrewdriver is trying at. but i just wish he was speaking english!

and why am i putting such an emphasis on production? well i always have. but for example, i cant even recognize good songwriting if it has bad production!

oh well it is what it is.

my next plan is to listen to skrewdriver in the background as much as possible until one day it just CLICKS.

i mean its pretty much WORTH FORCING because ISD’s head and heart are in the right place, unlike 99% of musicians, who are total degenerates.

he had integrity and honor and balls.

bbbbut what if he got drunk all the time and banged dirty sluts and what if he had illegitimate bastards that he abandoned like a deadbeat?

well i dont know that he did!

so if there are all these shady brown immigrant doctors writing rx’s for opioids….certainly i could find a shady brown immigrant doctor who would write a rec for medical MJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!

on anglin shoah they said that fibromyalgia was a made up disease to get hwyte goys addicted to opiates.

hmm today i learned that the alpha bay, one of the biggest dark net markets, was shut down less than 2 weeks ago and its founder was arrested and soon after found dead in his cell, suspected suicide. DAMN.

july 22

not sunny at all today.

made 2oz meatballs in oven then made them into burgers with small thin buns hollowed out of all the carbs. two 2 oz meatballs per bun. one half a processed cheese single for each bun. ate one of the burgers. it was fine. i mean this was decent 80% beef hahaha nice and juicy. ade 8 total, put 7 in freezer to use over next month or so.

watching “the lion in winter” 1967. medieval england shit but its STILL joo produced and it STILL shows a ton of white gurls acting like titsluts. did white gurls really show their tits like such promiscuous sluts in the 1500s? yeah maybe to the ROYALTY as is potrayed in this movie….but you can still play it down and have them dress more modestly than maybe they actually did hahahaa. the joos have literally ruined EVERYTHING. you cant even enjoy “OLD” movies because movies have been ruined and jooed since the 50s. the movie industry was BUILT BY JOOS in the 20s and 30s.

kirk douglas was a 100% joo. this manly AF traditional john wayne type man was 100% jooish with the name Issur Danielovitch.

if KIRK DOUGLAS and PAUL NEWMAN are joos, who else? John Wayne? STEVE MCQUEEN???!!?!?! (no mcqueen was not. nor wayne. and yeah when you really look at them, douglas and newman do look kinda j00ey.)

and good goy actors like peter o toole and richard burton were HUGE DEGENERATE DRUNKS who basically acted like negros.

as someone who used to love movies and who wants to luv movies again, and who thought that Old Movies might be the way to go….this is all very disappointing.

lol at cost benefit analysis

of course i would bang her, shes not fat and she’s under 30 and i havent touched a woman in 12 years!

i also like how he calls her bitch every time he refers to the bitch. whore or cyka or KURWA would also be acceptable hahahaha. we must shame these sluts. women should get married as 16 year old virgins and thats the only way they  wont become shameful sluts.

women are this bad because we LET them GET this bad. we were AFRAID to CONTROL them. nonviolently hahahahahahahaha. i am not advocating violence. i am advocating nonviolent control and that women will VOLUNTARY SUBMIT to SUBMISSION and that we men need to Facilitate this!

i think touching baking soda even for a second causes your skin to peel off. they should really put a warning on the box.

but yeah it again all boils down to SALES. can you SELL yourself and your skills and CONVINCE people that you are awesome. and, if you are at Work, can you back that talk up with real skills.  or, are you jooish enough to throw the service people under the bus when they cant deliver on the unrealistic bullshit the sales dept promises in order to Close The Deal.

at least with women you dont need to back shit up. just lie lie lie. lie to these bitches hahahaha. not like at least 10 guys havent gotten to fook them using lies anyway!

all millennial women are garbage and would make terrible wives and mothers. and really most gen x women are too hehehe. you will find your best wife and mother material with gurls who are generation zyklon. marry a girl who is 16 in 2017.

women are horrible, but men let them get that way.

but not really you and me. we were never in the position to have influence over women anyway. i mean the boomer and gen x men didnt control THEIR women.

well, i had a FEW chances to influence women. and i blew it! they dumped me BECAUSE i didnt influence them enough!

but god damn it all happened SO FAST i had NO IDEA WHAT WAS GOING ON. it all happened in the blink of an eye. it really happened TOO FAST and i stand by that. it happened SO goddamn lightning fast I couldnt even think straight. by the time i realized i needed to control them…..they were long gone, fooking other guys.

however i think its a waste to let those millennal hwyte wombs go to waste.

but why make babies with a woman who would be a terrible wife and mother?

so you use them as brood mares to replenish the race, and then decent women could raise them. along with their own children.

so you can marry an 18 year old gen z gurl right now, get 5 children out of her, then take in 5 more hwyte children from the brood mares.

heh. i am as over That Woman as I will ever be and i am also in a woman hating phase. i have now decided to triple down on that and be the biggest and best woman hater ever!

never advocating violence. just advocating the traditional, patriarchal way.

sheeeeit. That Woman was MUCH BETTER than the average modern woman!

she would have been a good average woman back in the good old days.

waaaah ill never get over her, ill never find a better woman, ill always compare all women to her. ahhahaha.

oooooo he was a beta woman hater who posted regularly on roosh v forum hehehehe. he went to thailand to marry a “traditional woman” and did not like how mudslim refugees could get into canada and “breed like bedbugs” hahahaha. therefore, he is a huge douchebag. because he doesnt want foreign invaders to come in and breed like violent terrorist bedbugs. that makes HIM the bad guy.

it also bothers me that these guys go to thailand etc to get a traditional wife. just get a damn russian/eastern euro white wife.

gives a bad look to antifeminist men who want traditional women. all that is great. awesome. the race mixing is not. well this cazes guy could be a J. i just assume he was a hwyte quebecois guy. but he could well be a J. or a mix. i just dont know. he def was not popular with the hwyte canadian gurls!

but becoming a damn aznphile is not a solution to that!

hey i hate modern sluts EVEN MORE than this guy! but i have ZERO interest in asians or any nonwhites!

this guy needed to read less roosh and more daily stormer!

yet these guys will literally read roosh and pick up forums for 5 years and never move past that! like this guy!

i read roosh forum a little bit! its not bad! especially in dealing ith women and the women question! these guys know how to deal with women!

but their whole WELTANSCHAUUNG is degenerate.

and i am so glad to have moved on to a Regenerate Weltanschauung.

also its prob degen to make your living as a super libertarian dark net market owner hehehehe.  its really kind of a jooish thing to do. even if drugs should maybe be legal. and i cant even say that.

i mean its VERY POSSIBLE that legalization of mj is just another step on the semitic stairs of degeneracy along with gay marriage, abortion, feminism, divorce, porn, corn syrup, grrl power, college, marxism, trannies, etc!

i could probably learn to be happy Alone if i developed the power to bang sluts at-will, on-demand, have a stable of sluts, and also made a lot of money. but i would STILL want a traditional wife to have children with.

and my point is, we lowest SMV omegas CANT EVEN PULL DIRTY SLUTS. you can only pull dirty old ugly fat sluts. not young qt sluts! but fat mudshark women of walmart 40 year old sluts with a bunch of mutant shitsprogs!

i may be short and old but i am not fat or ugly! hahahaha.

i am slightly weird looking but i am really not BAD looking!

but this just proves women really dont care about looks as much as they care about you having a tough, masculine, strong, confident personality. and or a large build hehehe.

maybe if i were better at persuading and selling and convincing and arguing and influencing and negotiating, i wouldnt DISLIKE it so much hahaha.

if you pour enough money into ymca programs to help Inner City kids succeed at college and career, the kids who do these programs probably WILL succeed even though they are black. because it doesnt take a genius to do college or to do a career. even the average blacks are capable of it. but most of them wont. but most who do these programs will.

SO WHATS MY EXCUSE? that i didnt have a PROGRAM to GUIDE and DIRECT me?

hehehe kind of hahahahaha.

wow this is a first. this kinda speaks for itself. its the first actual VIDEO anyones ever seen of greg johnson…..and his face has been blurred out. INTERESTING.

i dont understand why he doesnt dox his face. his voice and name is already out there. he goes to events and THOUSANDS of people have seen his face knowing who he is.

i cant even SPECULATE on his motivations here because it will sound liek DRAMA.

its just so weird. he is such a smart guy, good writer, very persuasive, he made a hater out of a nice guy like me hahahaha. but he also needs to address the gay rumors and just show his face already and just proactively END any drama. there’s too much drama surrounding him and he probably has the power to end a lot of it.

theres very little drama surrounding anglin for example.

i would almost possibly be ok with him being gae if he openly announced it.

i mean we know his position on gays is kinda soft so people want to throw him in the bog already.

but honestly greg. you are almost there! just show your face already! i mean do you REALLY have a normie job? i thought he did for a while. i know he was actually a college instructor/prof for a while like 10-15 years ago but i dont think he is any more.

he looks like he could be fairly handsome. dressed nice. definitely huhwhyte. not fat. not jooish. nice hair.

gossipers speculate its because people at the GAE BAR would recognize him and then he would be PROVEN to be gae.

but i mean shit. right now there are haters saying hes done gae porn and hes banged teen boys and all sorts of SLANDER.

although im pretty sure anglin has said some mean things about him….but he’s also said mean things about anglin. i dont know who started it. probably greg hahahaha.

im just excited because this is the closest ive been to seeing gregs face hahaha.

this is some good stuff hehe


I married my husband when he was 45 and i was 25. Neither of us were pure but both of us had lived the prior 4-5 years completely celibate after having been in relationships where we were fornicating…unfortunately. i was looking to join a convent and he was actually looking to join a religious order of brothers….we both just wanted simplicity and wholesomeness. I thought ‘if i cant offer him virginity then i want to be able to offer him something.’ Of course, it was a sacrifice to think that i probably wont grow old with him by my side, because of the age difference, but i am so thankful for every moment with him. We have 2 beautiful children so far, thank God!
I am happy that i can offer him good meals, good company, myself, and a warm and welcome house….and he takes care of us financially. We rent a small but comfortable house.
And btw, he was unemployed when we decided to marry. I could tell the kind of man he was and i knew he would do whatever it took to care for our family….I was right! We have never gone hungry. Now he has been blessed with a very good job and we are actually saving some money. Everyones situation is different, but i cant advise you enough…to put yourself into the hands of Holy Mary and her spouse St. Joseph….i am certain they are the reason my husband and i found eachother.
I hope you find a good woman.
And by the way, dont look for a women with your views, just look for a woman with a good head on her shoulders, who isnt crazy.
You dont need a nazi.
P.s. if you told my husband 3 years ago that he would be married with 2 babies, he would never have believed it. Dont lose hope!

I really hate to white knight but believe me, as a girl that has only had sex in serious relationships you already are a unicorn.


and that is truly sad. we are not looking for a virgin who has never had secs. we are just ideally looking for a woman who has only had secs AS PART OF A RELSHIP. and even THAT is too much to ask. because the joos turned our men into phaggots who could not control our women, so by the time we were old enough to mate, 99% of our women were whores. blame the weak boomer men hahaha.

sven longshanks records an audiobook of benjamin garlands EXCELLENT series/book

but yeah basically EVERY woman has had secs outside of a relship. casual secs. probably with a nonwhite. so so so so disgusting these women are! but its truly not their fault, this is their nature. and i so wish it werent. but they just dont think these things are disgusting.

and i wish they did.

but they never will.

i wish women had been MADE better.

but they weren’t.

and i don’t have to LIKE them.

you’d be stupid TO like them.

they are not likable.

they are disgusting.

but they’re the best we have.

and its prob less degenerate than using artificial wombs.

even though men are better PARENTS than women. i would wager that children of single fathers turn out better than children of single mothers.

i just wish women didnt SUCK at EVERYTHING. that they werent so EASILY RUINED.

its like having another child to take care of, but worse, because they are more destructive and have been given too much power by the joos and by feminized men.

the real bad part is That Woman wasnt THAT bad so i will never find another young woman as good as her wawawawawawawawawawa

god damn casual secs having whores! bitches! sluts! cykas! kurwas! call them what they are! dont call them WOMEN when theyre nothing but a god damn WHORE!

oh anglin this is why i luv him. i wish andrew anglin was a woman so i could marry him hahaha.


Sadly, we’re not there yet. Probably, a lot of people are overly fixated on women and sex, and imagining that they’re going to find some perfect princess at some point. The fact is that you are not going to find any princesses, ever. I’m sorry. The best you are going to be able to do is find a skank that you can get control over. Period.

And while you’re looking for that, it isn’t a sin to have sex with random sluts. Again, that’s an uncomfortable thing to say, but it needs to be said, because guys are going crazy over this.

Yes, the casual sex culture is obviously completely degenerate, everyone knows this. I know it most of all. I am one of the world’s top knowers of that particular fact, I can promise you that.

However, the option of “no sex ever at all” is orders of magnitude worse than the “uncomfortable hook-up sex,” psychologically speaking. If you are not ever having sex at all, then you are going to develop a complex, and you are going to end up deranged. Fact.

Screwing leftist women and then publicly humiliating them and their entire belief system afterward is a great way to kill two birds with one stone.


but yeah i agree 100%. i have though but havent really propagandized the idea that strong 1433 men should publicly bang and shame leftist marxist sluts so that that get the shaming of having been fooked by a RACIST. hopefully with lots of shameful humiliating proof.

you wouldnt do this with innocent low number women who have never had secs outside of a rel. but these women are NOT that. not even close.




july 19


that neverending, disappointing, boring book hahaha.

well its good to FINISH WHAT YOU START.

and its good to say you read it, when you are a card carrying VVN who luvs AH.

but yeah it was overly long and boring and didnt really learn anything or have my eyes opened to anything. other than the book was a lot less evil and deranged and Mad than the joo press would have you believe.

goddamn sluts but this is what women our. we as MEN are FAILING in our RESPONSIBILITY to CONTROL these SLUTS and KEEP THEM IN LINE.

just because i dont know any young women to control is no excuse. i should be going out FINDING young women to control! hahahahaha.

podcast from 2015 with anglin and longshanks re women


but yeah really being a huge omega loser, i dont DESERVE a good women. i GUESS i can hate on basic average women for being such dirty sluts….but i can’t say i DESERVE any BETTER than a dirty slut! i mean they are very WEAK-WILLED women who cant keep their legs closed right? and i am a very WEAK WILLED MAN who can’t STRUGGLE and FIGHT and WORK and EARN anything of VALUE!!!!

i mean im just butthurt that i had a person of great value and lost them very dramatically.

ok fine.

also men are programmed by NATURE to WANT WOMEN.

but yeah it just SUCKS to think that THAT WOMAN was TOO GOOD FOR ME, even though she had fooked at least one black guy. what the hell do I expect? really i deserve an unattractive single mom who has been with MANY black guys. not a solid 25 year old 6.7/10! but rather maybe a 35 year old 5.5/10 is more my League!

yeah im probably not wrong that she WAS out of my league. but just because i didnt deserve to Be With her, DOESNT MEAN that I DESERVED to have muh heart brutally ripped out! she could have sent a person! she could have sent a beta orbiter to deliver the message!

shit if she had a father, maybe the father would have taken pity on me and been like listen. sorry about my daughter. she’s just a dumb gurl and doesnt know how to deal with shit. but this isnt looking good for you man. just give up on her and dont take this too personally.  you’ll find a woman someday. you’re not a bad guy and my daughter is a basket case. besides ive already arranged a marriage for her with andrew anglin hahahaha.

john mccain has brain cancer. well he almost certainly needs to retire but i cant really get HAPPY about a white man getting cancer even if he is technically a ZOG traitor hahaha.  so just retire and hope whoever replaces you is just a little bit better.

july 20

hmm chester bennington from linkin park K’d himself

imho this is more interesting than a rockstar dying of a drug overdose.

but he was probably into drugs. but he was also clearly in despair. and people in enough despair to K themselves, well thats interesting.  as someone who has a lot of despair.

surprise her husband is a whiny wimp. the woman probably cant be saved after writing such bullshit, but thousands of spankings would be a good start.

i mean honestly. did i say that i believed that Total Hwyte Sharia could be carried out by spanking alone? you have to do it right thought.

and i should be the salesmen selling and instructing peopel how to do it right. make spanking instructional videos hehehehe.

and really spend hours talking about and giving workshops on spanking. people NEED to do a lot of talking, thinking and doing if this INCREDIBLY VALUABLE TOOL. its way more than one weird trick to managing your woman.

but yeah it really is mens fault for letting women get out of line.

but that doesnt mean we cant shake our damn heads about how bad women have become.

and that doesnt mean we cant also blame the joos for pushing feminism and terrible (natural) women behavior.

hehehe. what is natural is not always good and WOMEN are the PRIME example of that.

but yeah hwyte men need to STOP joos and STOP women and men have stopped with this necessary STOPPING.



Nonviolently, and Nonillegally hahahahahahahahahaha.

maybe chester bennington k’d himself because he found out his wife did a dubai porta potty hahahahahahahahahahahaha no that is pure speculation. i have no proof whatsoever. i dont even know if his wife was hwyte. i am 95% sure he was hwyte though.  most people who K themselves are.

unfort had a dream last night with That Woman. she only appeared for a minute but i spent the rest of the dream looking for her in a large mazelike house. she invited me into the house and then disappeared and i like an idiot spent the rest of the dream trying to find her. there were a few other omega orbiters trying to do the same. lured into her web hahahaha. where they dont even get eaten by the spider, just waste their whole lives trying to find her again.

it didnt ruin my day thank GOD but its never good to have a dream about her. but she wasnt even that big of a bitch. she was actually a very nice gurl. would not intentionally hurt men like too many women would. welp give a few more years on the c0ck carousel, im sure she’ll get there.


hahahaha. i am the anti white knight. i go up to white knights and say DONT DEFEND HER!!!

sometimes what is natural is as beautiful and right and good and correct as anything could ever be. perfection, beauty, and truth. this is probably what leads us to the Natural Is Always Good Fallacy. because, many times, what is natural IS very very good.

but not all times. and the Nature State of WOMEN is probably the MOST important example of that we should NEVER FORGET.

ooops i was literally going to send andrew anglin a birthday card today but forgot. i can still totally send it tomorrow hehehehehe.  i mean this is literally the only site i read. also i always use literally literally, so dont bitch at me for talking like a bitch.

spanking how to videos would be great, but i would not use a real woman in them, because that would seem degenerate. i would use a pillow or some kind of simulator. otherwise it would seem too much like fetish jooish porn. the idea of a real woman allowing herself to be spanked for the world to see. it’s a PRIVATE and INTIMATE and in a way kind of HOLY RITUAL, somewhat similar to SEX ITSELF. it SHOULDNT be shared with the world, but should be kept behind closed doors with REVERENCE.


i mean you CAN have fun with it; you CAN get some sexual titillation out of it; but just dont TAKE PICTURES of it. just like you shouldnt take pictures of SECS.

i mean i dont think theres much to be demonstrated. just take the woman over your knee and smack her ass with your hand at least 14 times, maybe even 88 times. also a great time to drill propaganda slogans into her, or tell her shes been a BAD GIRL and she’s really disappointed daddy hahahahaha and daddy is not going to LET his girl have an ATTITUDE like a LITTLE BRAT.

oooh heres a question. should you bang the woman immediately after the spanking? man thats tough.

yes: it will reinforce the lesson and the both of you will be chomping at the bit anyway

no: it will reinforce the idea of spanking as a mainly secsual act, and not a sacred ritual of discipline and control; will make it seem like some jooish foreplay fetish, rather than a Standalone Important Ritual.

so i’d say dont bang them EVERY TIME after spanking. i mean they need to learn this isnt a kinky jooish sex fetish. it’s actually about disciplining, controlling, and MANAGING their behavior, FOR REAL. NO JOKE. not everything is about sex. a good father doesnt BANG his daughter after spanking her!

so yeah i’d say dont bang her more than half the times you spank.

this is really the type of stuff id talk about during the videos. the actual physical mechanics are pretty straightforward. just dont do anything too degenerate, like insert brutal dragon dildos in her ass or something. ITS NOT ABOUT SEX. you need to realize that too, and a lot of guys, especially porn watchers, WONT.



i of course mean its not about muh dick, hedonistic, jooish, pornified, getting off secs.

and yeah, right now, in this jooified, pornified world, most people DO associate spanking with SEXY SEX, (and NOT with the holy act of making more holy hwyte babies) so yeah, we have to BREAK that association by NOT banging the woman right after spanking.

one out of three times is ok tho hahahahaha.

yeah it sucks that women have no loyalty.

but did YOU have nearly as much race loyalty before YOU were racially awakened?

yeah but women just dont have ANY loyalty. race or otherwise. and yes it is disappointing. but this is just the way they are. dont hate a cat because it meows hahahaha. dont hate the cat because it K’s the mouse.


but yeah. fook that jooish PORNIFIED MINDSET that says everything needs to be about secs. or everything is SEXY. how can you connect everything to SEX. how can you REDUCE everything to ANIMALS FOOKING. in a hedonistic masturbatory way. like oh i wanna rub muh dick and GET OFF on THIS.

why wouldnt i want to take pictures of the secs. its SECSY and HAWT.

why WOULDNT i want to take the woman right off muh knee after spanking them and then fook them hard? they OBVIOUSLY WANT it. and its HAWT. im GETTING OFF on the idea of spanking them anyway?

well, i admit, a little bit of getting off on the spanking IS ok.

but, just like secs, that is not its PRIMARY FUNCTION. its a BYPRODUCT which, through the help of the joos and their pornified mindset, people have CONFUSED with the primary function.


but what the joos are doing with porn is preying on a NATURAL WEAKNESS while also MAKING A BLASPHEMOUS OBSCENE MOCKERY OF THE SACRED. PROFANING THE SACRED.

the natural weakness is that our animal brains can VERY EASILY focus on the byproduct of secs, ie pleasure, at the expense of the primary function, because the byproduct is so strong, intense, and immediate.

so the joos spring on that, say isnt this fun to get off like this, OH YEAH THATS SO HAWT, OH GAWD I WANNA GET OFF ON THAT.

its very similar to jooish profiteers grabbing shekels selling fatty fast food in abundance. this stuff is very tasty and delicious but too much will turn you into a fat slob.

secs is very pleasurable but forgetting its main purpose will turn you into a degenerate pervert with no self control. a sensualist. a hedonist. a negro. a woman. a CHILD who cant CONTROL themself. a FILTHY ANIMAL. more beast than man!

so thats muh beef with porn. and especially turning the sacred into a sick jooish mockery.

the closest thing to a Sublime Ineffable Religious Experience I ever felt was when i was in luv with a Woman. this wasnt inherently bad, but i SHOULD have been more careful about who I Gave Muh Heart Away to like that. not to sluts who treat secs like jooish hedonist pornography for fun only.

i have sort of moved on from that, to the idea of RACE being muh new religious, transcendent experience. and i think this is much healthier than falling in luv with the wrong women.

but yeah RACE also gets you thinking a lot of Secs as the way beautiful, sacred white lives are created, and the sacred, holy, beautiful thing that bonds a white man and a white woman together in monogamy to create a white family with many children, and perpetuate our beautiful, sacred race. and so you quite RIGHTLY see sex in that perspective as something holy and beautiful, and hate the joos all the more for making a mockery of it with porn. and sorta hate women for playing into that. and all the weak men who watch and ENJOY porn.

you HAVE to stop watching porn. this is non negotiable. it makes you THINK LIKE A JOO. we CANNOT have hwyte people thinking like joos.

heh. the good news is, its actually REALLY EASY to stop watching porn hahahaha. 6 gorillion times easier than finding a decent hwyte waifu! or finding a 30k a year job and selling selling selling yourself and your economic value!

its simple, its easy, its very actionable, its not complicated, its not confused, you JUST DO IT. STOP WATCHING PORN.

its not as complicated as getting a career or getting a woman. well, getting a woman is not complicated, you just BE MASCULINE and BE STRONG but for me the actually TALKING to them is complicated, because i dont really like talking period.  well, not to people at least. cuz you always say the wrong thing and sound awkward and stupid. they wont give you an hour to ramble on to finally make your point completely and perfectly. you will just look like an autistic idiot and be completely misunderstood.

i hate how that woman treated me like i wasnt special at all, and i thought she was very very very special to me. and in the final analysis, i was much more special than that, and she was much LESS special. i mean theres thousands of other women out there just as good/special as her.

whereas i really am kind of a unique special snowflake. how many proud hwyte men are in this area? a couple but not alot hahahaha.

i just hate how normies can be so successful. i guess what i am most jelly of is kids like my colleagues son. just a total normie chad who was handsome and charming and athletic and popular in high school, probably banged gurls in high school, who then gets a stem degree at a good school. i dont think hes an autist virgin supergenius in other words, socially inept and spends his weekends coding. just a total socially adjusted normie who gets a degree and a career associated with neet virgins. but normies do it to. any white man of average intelligence can do it, and that i’m sure he is! and this is the best way for our white men to be, and im jelly im not it hehehe.

in other words, you dont have to be a nerdy virgin in high school getting beat up by The Jocks, so you can become a successful engineer later in life. wait 20 years from now, when the Jocks are Working For the Nerds.

that whole Paradigm is getting outdated for Millennials and later. now you can be a Normie Chad Jock Popular Chad AND a successful engineer. and we should totally encourage this!

an alpha male in every possible way!

this is EXACTLY what we want our young hwyte men to be!

but what about our 30 year old loser hwyte men? who lost their way for a good 5 to 10 years?

i mean a 20 year old kid in a good school in a good stem program pretty much IS guaranteed a good job. even in 2017 and more people getting redpilled on college. welp this is basically the best way to DO college: go to a decent one, get in a good stem program, and make yourself competitive in that program with plenty of extracurriculars and internships and be in the top 10%. 20 year old horny young men really DO need some kind of mature adult male COACH COACHING them through all this. and ideally that coach would be the father. spanking his daughters and coaching his sons.

muh fam had the best intentions and luv but they did not really know how to do the coaching and discipline. i was literally spoiled hehehehe.

can you spank boys to discipline them?

probably. probably. probably a better punishment is Hard Manual Labor like Roofing. or spend a month working in a Restaurant or Call Center. wow that would really be SADISTIC though. its not about sadism. its about a just punishment and really training the child towards good behavior. punishing bad behavior, rewarding good behavior.

i guess part of that involves sort of knowing the weird jooish world your children will be growing up in and realizing it may not be the same as the world you grew up in. may be a hell of a lot more complicated to become a successful adult who can get a 30k a year job and a woman whos taken less than 10 cox.

in 1984, that was 13k a year to equal 30k a year in 2017 dollars.

i was a weird kid though. i kept my bad behavior very secret (drinking alcohol, MJ, watching porn, being a jooish nihilist idiot) and muh good behavior, up to the end of high school at least, was pretty open. like oh he’s a great HS student, he’ll go to a good college and probably be PRETTY successful in life.

Or, Flame out and Crash and Burn. Burn out totally. i would have preferred to Fade Away hahahahahahaha. i burnt out AND faded away hahahaha.

all for a few years of alcohol, MJ, and porn. and a few minutes of making out with gurls. that was the best part. and was not inherently degen like the other stuff i did.

i mean at age 18, 19, 20, 21, i needed the strong iron fist of discipline.

i suppose i h8 da jooz for convincing me and muh fam that all i needed was (((College))) and then I would be all right.

everyone struggles but i seem to struggle and not get anywhere hehehehe.

so i just sort of gave up and resigned myself to a very mediocre life. very neetish.

so of course im jelly of any 20 year old young man who IS well adjusted and who IS on a good path and being steered the right way and is not making any big mistakes.

but yeah again i WAS a HUGE weirdo and i could have easily found a way to fook any situation up.

military, i prob would have K’d self like private pyle.

i like to think i would have been good if i had just not gone away to college, but i could have easily ended up a neet anyway. maybe never completed any degree at all. but at least i wouldnt have the guilt of having had a great opportunity and totally screwing it up. also i prob would have stopped drinking a few years earlier, OR ended up dead or in jail due to drunken driving.

cuz even living with the fam, i found a way to drink too much. hiding booze and also getting raging drunk when i went out with friends.

dunno maybe it would have been easier to get a 25k job with the city or something as a young kid who was in the middle of a degree, rather than aiming for those jobs as 30 year old weirdo with a degree. it just LOOKS WEIRD, and APPEARANCES MATTER a HELL of a lot when its a MANAGER deciding whether or not to HIRE you, for which you DEPEND on them for your LIVING.

so yeah, what people think of you DOES matter, a LOT.

but i was such a stupid rebel, i wouldnt have listened to reason anyway. the only things i LIKED were total jooish degeneracy. i liked only EDGY things. degen drug addict nihilist musicians and rockstars. no redeeming values.

so i was doomed from the start. never outgrew the teen angst.

well thats not true. i def outgrew the degeneracy and nihilism and jooishness. but it seemed to late to really replace that with a successful life. well i mean replacing it with 1433 race obsession was a good, smart move. but you cant make 25k a year being a NEO NATZI!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok see i have just been on this train of thought for the past 2000 words of regret and this is NOT GOOD. i should just stop writing and stop thinking about this because its not getting me anywhere. its not FIXING anything. example of what NOT to do.

i guess you should really get a SALES job at age 16. because everything is sales. convincing employers to hire you. convincing them not to fire you. convincing them youre doing an awesome job. selling yourself. selling your services. arguing with clients and managers and convincing them you are right. and ideally actually being right. selling yourself to women and convincing them youre the toughest badass strongman to walk the face of the earth. everything is sales, persuasion, convincing, arguing.

and yeah i was never good at that. not when i was 15, not when i was 30. and some people are born better than others at it, but its something any average hwyte man can learn to do better. average hwyte men can totally be middle class successful men with good jobs and good wives. they just need to keep the eyes on the prize and not screw up and not go astray. not party too much, not be too degenerate, get good at talking to people and arguing with them, get really good at something that is worth something to the richers. and then be tough. be strong.

banging a hooker or better a slut by age 18 if you havent already had the ideal of banging a young decent girl who will be your young wife, would prob be a good thing and teach you a very valuable lesson about women. namely, they are all whores and dont be a damn white knight supplicating beta hahaha. unless you found a good one by that age, then go ahead and get married.

spend as much time with people who are currently, actively successful, and get right in there alongside them as they do the things they do well. see how they make money and respect and success. you will hopefully develop a taste for that respect and success.

i didnt really hang out with people that were really successful winners. just hung out with some young kids like me. most of them went on to be successful normies! but so much of my time socializing i was drunk and or on MJ and couldnt have a coherent, meaningful conversation with people about How To Build a Successful Life through Education, Experience, Career, Mentors, Role Models.

i sort of thought that muh drinking and MJ were kinda maybe a problem. i knew i was using them to escape or hide or numb something. namely to avoid dealing with Life Itself in all ways. other people didnt do this. they just drank with their friends to have a good time and party and then 90% of the time i did not see them, they were being good productive normies.

it was good that i had friends and hung out with them regularly…..but i needed to not be drunk or MJ every time i hung out with them!

and then i had muh MJ friends where getting ridiculously blazed on MJ was itself a central point of us hanging out. we had a lot of fun but we really werent doing anythign that would HELP us in the long term.

well he did all right, makes good money, got a white wife, has white baby, hopefully more white babies. never really knew his wife but she is white and they have been pretty solid for like 10 years so hope it stays that way and she doesnt woman out. the guy is pretty masculine so he should be ok.

but i could just use him as an excuse to keep doing MJ because he did more MJ than I ever will, yet is also way more successful with women and jobs! funny thing is, he was not a particularly strong salesman hehhehe.  but the brute strength and toughness was enough to build a decent life all while doing pounds of MJ hahahahaha.

i was butthurt i couldnt drink ANY alcohol or do ANY MJ without going off the deep end.

i can live with no more alcohol, though it would be nice to get drunk like a NORMIE every once in a while, party a little bit during the summer, etc. ok fine thats not meant for me. ok fine. the mj bothers me more because every day i think about it and want to use it.

what made me stop using alcohol was Real World Consequences for it. like, blatant, and not just Missed Opportunities “passive” stuff, opportunity cost, etc.

in other words, i would have to be ARRESTED for MJ in order to make up my mind to never use it again.

and i really dont want to be in that position. i mean i fully intend to do MJ again some day. in a way i definitely do NOT intend to do alcohol again. unless i get a decent job and a decent wife. that was pretty much my litmus test for ever being able to drink again. to be a successful, respectable, proud hywte male adult. i realize that may never happen.

sheeeeit if i were motivated like, damn i better become a succesful adult as quickly as possibly just so I can DRINK ASAP…..well then whatever it takes to get motivated and DO THAT would be good.  so either i really dont WANT to drink, or i dont want to work hard like a maniac. its really kind of both.


july 16

it just bothers me that women ALWAYS have the next guy LINED RIGHT UP. monkey branch, lilly pad, whatever you want to call it, there is NO downtime between cox. its like OH THANKS FOR AT LEAST NOT TECHNICALLY CHEATING ON ME and having the decency to dump me before you IMMEDIATELY started fooking another guy.

while it takes me THREE YEARS to get over YOU, you were fooking a new guy IMMEDIATELY and in 3 years probably fooked TEN more guys.

yeah i mean its MY problem that it takes me so long to get over women. i own that issue hahahaha. but it SHOULD take a DECENT amount of time to get over someone. AT LEAST one year. maybe not three, but at least one.

but NO, in that one year theyve fooked at least 3 more guys.

that alone should tell you that men and women are very very very different, and anyone who says they are NOT, are evil fooking nation and race wreckers who are trying to genocide your race.

because BELIEVING that men and women are the same will destroy your own life and make you a neet virgin with no legacy to leave.

so youre saying i should contact that woman after 2 years, and pretend to be a real tough man, spank the shit out of her, and then we can live happily ever after?

but imagine all the stupid and disgusting shit she’s done in the last 2 years!

and also showing no remorse for hurting me!

but women are NATURALLY INCAPABLE of feeling REMORSE!!!!!! so you cant ever WANT them to.

so should i try to WIN HER BACK because im OBVIOUSLY not going to find a BETTER woman?

but i never really HAD her to begin with!

well i sort of had her in the sense that she was nice to me and wanted to spend time with me.

but that was TOTAL FRIENDZONE! the SECOND she realized i was interested in Non Friendzone stuff, she could not have dumped me any faster and disappeared without a trace! obviously the very idea of us Dating, or Fooking, as its interpreted in the Female Negro Mind, was so utterly abominable to her.

sheeeeeit. she felt the same way about Dating ME, as I feel about HER fooking NEGROS. so disgusting there arent even words for it. talk about humble pie!

and honestly, thats female bullshit. because though i may be an omega male, she would be much better off dating me than dating a negro!

but women dont see it this way because thats not how NATURE designed them. they dont care about race mixing, they only care about BRUTE STRENGTH, and negros have more of it than a weak omega white male. the race doesnt matter at ALL to them. it’s MENS job to care about and preserve the race. NOT womens.

i just wish nature hadnt designed them SO childlike and SO negrolike. nature really could have tried a LITTLE damn harder hahahaha.

i guess it didnt HAVE to, because it designed men to go SO goddamn CRAZY over their feminine bodies. so again, its mens fault hahaha.

and then men make up this elaborate fantasy of luv and feminine charm to map over these feminine bodies and imagine that these women have beautiful personalities to match. they don’t. their personalities are like jooish negro brat children.

you’re not supposed to like it. you’re foolish if you DO like it.

and it also kinda annoys me to see young and successful men who dont have a negative view of women. you’d think if you were successful at life, you would have learned the TRUTH about women. but really, if you’re successful at life, then women will treat you better, and you’ll probably like them more. until they divorce you at age 38 and only THEN you become a mgtow hahahaha.

so you spank your wife and FORCE her to stay at home. FORCE her to spend time with your kids and homeschool them. after a few years of that she’ll never want to abandon your family like a hypergamous mercenary and she will loyally defend your family to the death, just the way a good woman should.

but having a CAREER and putting the kids in DAYCARE with blacks and browns is a recipe for disaster for your marriage, and your poor kids!


this is the price we have to pay for Reproduction. no one said it was gonna be EASY!

the good news is that after a few years of control, you can probably let up a little bit and leave them alone for a few hours without them causing too much damage.

and you can do all this through spanking, grounding, and taking away their phone. its not complicated! it just takes a strong will.

so maybe i should try it on that woman? because what really matters is how much i want the woman. i dont want any women except for her. she is the only woman i give a damn about hahaha. and it would be good for me to be actually COMMITTED to the mother of my children and muh wife……RIGHT?

or would it be better just to find a NEW woman to care about? almost certainly yes hehehehe. i have cared about 7 or 8 women in my life, chances are there will be 1 more.

bbbut she was a decent hwyte woman, she was TRAINABLE!!!! and she had a LOW NUMBER!! and she was sweet and feminine!

anyway. that is enough Obsessing about it for today. obsess about it no more than 10 minutes a day.

ok went for powerwalk.

QUOTE from stupid B linked last post

I know I can’t have Matthew back, and it hurts when I hear snippets of information about his life and how content he is. Fifteen years after I ended our relationship, he is happily married.

Read more:


good. im glad he is happily married, hopefully to a hwyte woman, hopefully with many whyte children, and would never take this bitch back no matter how much she begged him.

you need to start shaming women again, saying in a loud, clear voice, saying something direct and copyable that catches on. memes and propaganda. say


memorize this phrase and use it every day on a different woman.

this will make 10 guys seem like a high number when in 2017, its really not. but it should be. shit 3 should be a high number but we can start with 10 for now. because theres way too many average women who have been with 10+ guys and that is fooking disgusting.

one of the ways we can STOP women from becoming such disgusting whores is with SHAME, like publicly saying the things above. thats what they used to say and it kept women in line. back in the better days.

was feeling grumpy and low energy so laid down for almost 2 hours. prob didnt actually sleep for more than 20 minutes. but overall it was good. ws thinking too much about that woman and women though. i mean it really is a damn obsession.

oh well at least i dont act on it hahahhahaha.

ayyyyyyy this happened on july 14

i know hes been on at least once before but i didnt feel they were respecting him enough hahaha

no they werent disrespecting him but anglin is best one on one and there are always 3 or 4 people on the damn daily shoah. ideally it would be just anglin and enoch.

repeat it with me: this is our white patriarchy tool for getting OUR women back in line, and this is OUR RESPONSIBILITY:


just hit them hard verbally with this and maybe in 20 years the next generation will be better. i mean generation zyklon is already showing a lot of good potential. maybe when we are 50 we can marry a nice 18 year old gurl hahahahaha.


also, i can get top 10% grades in high school, prob top 30% grades in college, yet get 10% WORST in terms of Pay and Career Success, because i am not TOUGH or MANLY enough to DEAL WITH REAL LIFE. That sucks!

Time to join the LIFTWAFFE!!!!!!!!!!

i am happy that is now i thing. i just learned about it a few weeks ago. great name too.

we only want women because that is WHAT NATURE INTENDED. theres really no stopping it.

got the rational male book INSANELY fast. brand new. the print is pretty small. but this is a book i want to be long as possible because i need to learn about women hehehehe. learn what. that they are children who need to be controlled. he has a chapter called “children with dynamite” or something hahaha.

i flipped through it. saw something where he mentioned porn and did not instantly condemn it. uh oh hehehe. well honestly i wouldnt expect him to. this is not a VVN writer. you have to apply that filter yourself. but the context was he was talking about wives feeling too threatened by porn and thinking of it as cheating, where he is like, who cares, its no big deal. well i say it is kind of a big deal, just because its morally degenerate, nto because it threatens your supply of poosay hahahaha. well it might do that too!

well if a woman is REALLY committed to you, she’ll stay with you and beg you to stop watching porn. which you really should do. if she’s not committed to you, she’ll dump you before you ever get to that point.

when you wear your favorite dress shirt then suddenly you smell BO even though you’re not really sweating. and you conclude that its a smell that is semi-permanently in the shirt because youve worn the shirt regularly for 3 and a half years. and, unlike human men, which you can easily throw away like a piece of garbage and replace immediately with a new and better one, a good shirt is hard to find!

so then i felt uncomfortable getting within 3 feet of people who then might think i have a BO Problem, which i really don’t! well, not severely, like an arab, negro, indian, or italian hahahahahaha.

this is it. FINALLY made it to THE FINAL CHAPTER OF MK. Vol 2, Chap 15. The right to self defense or something.

you’d be better off just watching, listening, or reading AH speeches. there was nothing here i didnt already know, other than AH hated the hapsburgs and he wanted an alliance with britain and he considered france germany’s greatest enemy. apart from j’s hahahaha.

if any of my coworkers suddenly had strong BO, i would give them the BENEFIT OF THE DOUBT and say ITS PROBABLY IN THAT ONE SHIRT becuase they dont NORMALLY smell that bad, and ive lived long enough to know how smells can stay in shirts even AFTER washing and drying.

in other words, people probably arent judging me as The Smelly BO Guy, because i wouldnt judge THEM like that. i would be very likely to give them the benefit of the doubt and blame it on the shirt and not the person.

this is not something women would do hahahahahahahahaha.  this is a very masculine virtue hahaha. all virtues ARE masculine hahahaahaha.

no these are all 50+ year old post menopausal women. those type of women are all right, unless they dont have children, and all these women do thankfully.

guy on DS recommending skrewdriver song from “the white rider”

might try lysol on the armpits of shirt until i can get some baking soda from store on friday grocery store errand. theres a good thought haha.

did some reading of GLR WP and found it takes ABOUT 3 minutes to read one page out loud. takes ABOUT 3 minutes to read/listen to 1 page of MK out loud. interesting. figure it takes 3 minutes to read a page. period.

so a 500 page book will take you 1500 minutes to read. /60 = 25 hours. period.

got some nice sun today from about 250 pm to 340 pm.  actually succeeded in reddening my pale skin almost, even at this late hour.

that was very very welcome. hadnt done some Sunbathing in at least a week! its honestly hard to do if its cloudy!

so yeah the rational male is partially degenerate and me and anglin should write the 1433 hwyte mans guide to women and how to master them for their natural use of the 14 words, which the rational male does not talk about, HOWEVER, he does have a LOT of VERY good stuff in here.

for example, there is no such thing as “THE ONE.” no one woman is THE ONE. and of course thats exactly what i was thinking about THat Woman. She was THE ONE and I BLEW it.

when in reality she was just one of many “ones.” and really, any woman i get along with at ALL could also be one of those ones.

also, RM talks about stuff we already knew but need repeated over and over:


basically men are capable of loving deeper and BETTER than women. men are better lovers than women hahaha. period. and if you think ANY woman can luv YOU the way you luv HER, you are WRONG. they just arent BUILT that way.

but for a guy that likes to “connect the dots” as he says…..he stops connecting the dots ABOVE sex. he doesnt move on to race like any TRULY open minded thinker will hehehehe.

he thinks his marxist jooish professors were all blinded by The Luv Myth that they couldn’t apply their Hard Scientific Behaviorism to the idea of sex and women.

well that’s probably partially true. many men dont want to believe this carefully crafted joo lie. but the smartest hwyte men will recognize it as a joo lie. which keeps men powerless before women, who is in turn powerless before the j.

i cant crap on RM too much because there is solid gold here. that will help US with OUR 1433 goals. but i just want to turn these guys onto 1433 too. RM talks about the “MYTH” of the “lonely old man” but i have to think……how can you NOT be lonely without CHILDREN and GRANDCHILDREN? FOOK the stupid WOMEN, this is all about the CHILDREN!

i just wish we had a better vehicle for creating children than WOMEN. maybe artificial wombs ARE a good thing hahahaha. because good lord. the good lord above did such a HALF ASS NEGRO JOB when he made woman. and its kinda jooish to think we wouldn’t NOTICE.


vely ralge brack pirru hehehehehe.


and most men are so Under The Spell they dont really CARE. they know something is stupid about women, but they dont care, because what else are you supposed to FOOK and jerk off to porn of? go to a glory hole and fook other GUYS? thats even WORSE hehehehe. and it really is. id rather get divorce raeped by some bitch, than become a glory hold gay degen hahahahaha.



july 15

ok in 10 minutes the guy reads…. 3.3 pages of MK? 3.5 about. therefore it would take 33 hours to listen to the whole book. ok. and thats about as bad ADD i have, that it takes me 3 minutes to read 1 medium print page. basically the same as a guy reading aloud in a medium pace.

so, better to just listen to the guy with the nice voice reading the book!

ok so new plan. eat i serving of cottage cheese for breakfast (110 cals, 10 gr protein, low carbs) and then fast till dinner hehehe. this way you can drink tea (unsweetened) without puking hahahaha. cuz if you are like me, if you drink tea on an empty stomach , you get very nauseous and puke.

did a bunch of pushups yesterday, about 50, and dont feel sore today, so thats good. wanted to have a day where i did a lot of sets of pushups and see what happened. becuase pushups are the greatest and every man needs to do more of them. esp me!!!!!

cottage cheese is borderline superfood for me. highly recommended.

HATREON oy vey great name. home this doesnt turn out to be a bunch of ballless bitches like every other free speech patreon that came before it hahahaha.

hope there are no joos involved like that thing pax dickinson started, he seems ok but……..not really because he doesnt seem jq wise.

or that other one that is take 15% to start an alt right political party. um no hahaha.

ok went for powerwalk, 41 minutes, listened to: mk ch 14 v2 10 minutes of, mike enoch scandza 2017 speech, tkr azzmador 10 minutes. everything i break into 10 minute files.

somewhat fasting again today, saturday. nice summer day, not great for sunbathing, lots of big puffy clouds like there was yesterday, but still warm and nice and perfet for powerwalking.

semi fasting. if the mudslims can do it every day for a month so can i. i mean they are essentially just doing all their eating during an 8 hour window, which is not ridiculous at all. not drinking water is. but no one ever said mudslims werent ridiculous!

but yeah. the main reason you get fat is because you EAT TOO MUCH. and the easiest, quickest, most effective way to lose that weight is DONT EAT SO MUCH.

in other words, if you eat a lot and try to burn it off with exercise…..youre going to need SO MUCH EXERCISE.

and its even harder to stay thin as you get older because you need less and less food.

12.29 – bought “the rational male” book by rollo tomassi. july 15 2017. 280 pages, includes shipping and tax. need something to help me with the sluts hahahaha.

i mean i should read the blog too, and recommend it, and should link it in the sidebar, but i like having actual physical books.

ok i added rational male and heartiste to the sidebar. these sites will teach you how to deal with women, period. full stop. just don’t do anything degenerate, and if you do, probably not a big deal if it doesnt involve abortion or the much less likely option of you hurting an actually good woman.

well i dont agree with the somewhat implication that the guy jerking it to joo filth is a good man but you can see the larger point.

the best man here is prob the one who k’d himself hahahaha.

i mean there should be a 4th option, basically showing a stronk hwyte man with beautiful hwyte family. THAT is where the BEST men have gone. clearly the healthiest, best choice here, and it’s not even presented, because 1433 has not gotten to some of the manosphere yet. but its coming.

the second best option is k’ing yourself hahaha. the third best is vidya. and pr0n is by far the worst.

10 years ago the “best” thing you could do is become a fedora wearing hedonistic race mixing moral relativist atheist libertarian. so i do THANK GOD that we have a much healthier alternative now. that is, to become a 1433 VVN. yeah you technically always had that, but 10 years ago, there werent NEARLY as many young people or winners involved and it wasnt taken NEARLY as seriously!!!!!!

racially awake young hwyte men are even more dangerous than a n1994 with a liberry card hahahahahahaha.

so yeah really this is a GREAT time to be alive. the best time since 1934 hahahaha. or was it 33.

july 15. hmm today i think is the 2 year anniversary of TSHTF with That Woman. the day it all went down. well there were 2 related big events that took place like 3 days apart. and it was all around the middle of july.

so yeah. def made some progress. got a new job and that is huge. its not a serious job but its fooking hard enough for me to get an unserious job that i can survive and withstand. lost like 45 pounds. became an even more red blooded 1433 and even more of a woman hater. which is good. i need to learn the lesson of how to PUT WOMEN IN THEIR PLACE, and i certainly did not put her in her place, but let her basically dominate me! NEVER AGAIN!

oh yeah i stopped watching porn. that is huge. i think that was in like sept 2015. for a little while im like, welp jerking off to porno sluts is HELPING me GET OVER HER and get distance from HER.

and maybe it did. but if it did, the effect was negligible. besides sept 2015 is not too long after july 2015!!! meaning, i didnt need porn for that long even when i might be tempted to use it the most!

got a lot better at interviewing and job searching, doing 28 goddamn interviews and like 530 applications.

i got to start doing this again.

got a nice suit to wear to interviews and weddings hahahaha.

became a full blown daily stormer / anglin fanatic.

bought some very important 1433 books.

smoked very very very little mj. like 2 or 3 times in 2 years.

no alcohol of course.

the no porn is huge too. and i really dont intend to ever go back.

wish i could be as vehemently anti MJ as i am anti porn. like yep ive quit that forever and i dont ever want to go back and im not even tempted to go back!

but i am tempted by MJ every day.

forcing self to listen to first racial skrewdriver album “hail the new dawn” 1984. just force yourself to suffer through that godawful music with godawful production. skrewdriver. how horrible and boring amirite hahahaha. so bad you have to FORCE yourself to listen to it. like FORCING yourself to read MK hahahahahaha.

heh. i have forced myself to listen to skrewdriver before. never really liked it. maybe i need to be on MJ. maybe i should just read ISD’s lyrics becuase they are supposedly very good.

i mean there was no doubt or ambiguity about him being fully 1433. he was not afraid to use the term HWYTE POWER. or was it HWYTE PRIDE. one or the other.

i mean there is no reason why a guy like me, a hardcore self identified hwyte power 1433 guy, and looking to get into RAC, should NOT make a serious effort to Enjoy Skrewdriver, who practically INVENTED RAC and is pretty much the most beloved hwyte power musical group that ever existed. and in this world were infighting and drama and everybody hates everyone, ive never seen anybody hate on ISD. never ever. in that sense he stands along with AH, GLR, and WLP. and i guess Robert Jay Mathews. people luv him. wish he had recorded more speeches because the one RJM speech i did hear was average at best hahahaha. but i know he gave his life for The Movement and Our People.

listened to the first 10 or 12 minutes of the album. i listen to everything in 10 minute chunks because its all i can take. it was ok. not great production, but somewhat catchy songs and possibly good lyrics. sometimes the vocals sounded passionate and good, sometimes they sounded mumbly and underwhelming. i mean i would try to make muh delivery as passionate as possible here, like i were AH giving a 3 hour speech.

ok i mean he had a somewhat promising music career and THREW IT AWAY so he could take the band in a Racial direction. and he got a hakenkreuz tattoo.

(not against that website, just dont want attention haha)

yeah the lyrics check out. 8.8/10 hahahaha.  could stand some more naming the J but he does name them a couple times.

come on. im not crapping on ISD. just saying the music sounds a little…..rough hehehe. to someone who is as OBSESSED with good production as i am. i mean its SO important and i dont believe you need a big budget to get it. just a fooking obsessed maniac like myself. even in 1984. they had fookin tape recorders in 1984.

and you dont need a jooish record company to pay jooish producers to give you a good sound.

well i admit its easier for the average hwyte to afford a good production in 2017 than it was in 1984.

i mean music is just not a priority for me any more. but i used to be OBSESSED with it for the longest time. i dont really regret that, but i do wish i had listened to some different music in there. switched some stuff out for better stuff. listened to some more hwyte power stuff hahaha. it had a better message than nihilistic 90s stuff. or satanic black metal.

We Older Millennials / Young Gen Xers were really Caught In Between. Really were kinda Lost in searching for an identity.  i guess it finally came but it would have been great to have had an identity as a youth. youth culture hehehe. instead i was always an outsider looking to nihilistically escape. could not find a POSITIVE identity. well at least i have one now hahahaha. hwyte power!

wow like 800 calories today, like 700 below the limit. this was accomplished by: fasting until dinner, eating fairly low cal dinner focused on white chicken, getting some good powerwalking in.

honey. maybe not so much of a superfood as i once thought. it is FULL of sugar and carbs and calories. a dab is all right but using it regularly in your tea? not good! better to get used to drinking unsweetened tea. unsweetened everything.

also didnt mean to imply that dark chicken was bad. i luv dark chicken and its not bad for you. just dark people hahahahaha.

ive gotten totally used to drinking black coffee. totally used to not drinking any soda pop. so its very possible i could get used to drinking tea with no honey (or sugar).

i would recommend this, getting SUGAR out of your diet as much as humanly possible. you will lose noticeable weight just by cutting out sugar. its useless AF. and so many fat slobs are drinking 2 liters of soda a day. holy shit. i used to be very fond of soda myself. i still miss it sometimes. i enjoy a good mt dew and maybe should allow myself 1 can of mt dew a week. code red, voltage, luv the exotic flavors as well as the original.

and diet soda sucks.

dont eat bread, dont eat potatoes. or pizza hehehehe.

if you eat pizza you support jooish pedophiles hahaha.

not not really. i luv pizza, its delicious. but you gotta be careful with it!

gosh darn btc crashing right now

so i should sell…..????

the woman you are foolishly in luv with has eagerly sucked and fooked negro c0ck, shown more luv and loyalty and kindness to negros than to you, and has photos of her fooking negros and with negro jizz on her pretty face. keep reminding yourself of that next time you start thinking oh what a nice GF she would make.

this is just what women do. don’t blame them. its their nature. this is what nature intended. blame men for not controlling these women and getting the women married BEFORE the women could get into these degenerate, albeit natural states. nature can still be degenerate. or it can be regenerate.

besides, we dont live in a state of nature. our WORLD is increasingly unnatural. in the natural world, all the mulatto sprog mutant bastards would have died off and the mudsharks and whores would be rightfully shamed. and their bastard children wouldnt have survived. they wouldnt have survived. but in this sick jooish world, the govt and the society supports whores and mudsharks and cheaters and liars and the worst women you can imagine. are given a black check for their horrible behavior.


july 13

so this is some good antigae propaganda when your shitlib acquaintances say THEYRE NORMAL PEOPLE JUST LIKE US hehehehe

only anon.toing because i dont want my blog to be a damn trackback comment. the content of his blog is prob good. an ex-gay who had a real come to jesus moment and turned his life around.

every saint has a past and every sinner has a future hahahahaha.

so i wonder. these women with all these gay male friends, how degen are these gays? i knew a couple of gays that did not engage in this sort of stuff and were Normal People Like You And Me. and then i was like, wew, now that i know a real life gay person, i can see they arent degen bug chasing monsters having anonymous orgies every night in bath houses and truck stops and public mens rooms!

well i think i just got lucky and met the 40% or less portion of gays who dont do that stuff.

like the “MODERATE MUSLIMS” and “MODERATE WOMEN”, these “MODERATE GAYS” need to LOUDLY and VOCALLY DISTANCE themselves from the large number of extremists.

weev on the krypto report (azzmador) july 2017


MSM = Men who have Secs with Men hehehe. nice alternate word for gaes or phaggots or sodomites or perverts.

so coffee is a “diuretic” and drinking too much will dehydrate you. so what about tea?  i seem to Urinate even MORE when drinking TEA.

yeah the main thing that bothers me about Uncle M1kk0 is that he is very talented and smart, but he hangs out with degenerate artists, is too interested in degenerate art, and isnt repentant about it AT ALL.

none of us is perfect. we all have a past. but by god i admit that what i did in the past was WRONG and im ASHAMED of it and i hope ive REPENTED. nothing like that from him.

i mean just come out and call a spade a spade. call degeneracy degeneracy. unless you just dont want to STOP WATCHING PORN.

and i think PORN is inherently different and worse than drugs. porn is inherently jooish and involves degrading at least one other person. drugs are just an inanimate object and, consumed in MODERATION, really is not degrading at all.

july 14

ok. day off. up at 10 am. had mini social thing yesterday which was nice. had to cut back on these due to peoples work schedules which is good for their money making (my own not so much) and bad for my limited social activity.

today would like to do some Official Sunbathing because it is sunny. some clouds but not major.

1040 am. want to be productive hwyte man on day off. did 14 pushups hehehe intend to do some more throughout the day. pushup are the single best exercise you can do.

doing laundry, about 25 minute left on wash, then dry.

want to go to store after Sunbathing hehehe and get usual weekly grocery shopping done.

plan to listen to the weev and azzmador show during the sun bathing session. see link above hehehe.

its amazing how a person leaving can leave such a VOID in your life, when they are just off degrading themselves, as women often do, into being a disgusting negro fooking whore doing absolutely ungodly things. THIS person left a VOID? this VILE TRASH was meaningful enough to recognize their absence for even a SECOND?

bbbbbut she wasnt VILE TRASH.

no she wasnt but she is gone diddly one so….IT DOESNT MATTER.

but it DOES matter! to ME!

ok fine yes it DOES matter. but that doesnt change the outcome. She is Gone Diddly One and will NEVER come back. it’s kind of like Accepting The Finality Of Death.  BEcause thats what it is. She is Dead to Me and I am Dead To Her. The End Forever.

Yes that is intense and SHOULD take at LEAST a YEAR to get over. not immediately jumping into bed with your next BF On Deck.

these fooking IDIOTS.

but this is what nature intended. i just wish nature could have intended for them to be a LITTLE Better and Smarter. I mean come on. did they really HAVE to be so shitty? i dont think so.

but Thankfully nature also made them gullible, malleable, manipulable, so that we can TRAIN them and CONTROL them into something good. but thats not easy either. it takes a truly strong and bold alpha man to do that.  only 20% of men can do this hehehe.

but the good news is that you can train yourself to become one of those top 20%.

for someone who was consistently in the top 10% of School up until age 18, this seems totally doable.

but to someone who is consistently in the BOTTOM 10% of achievers and money makers and success AFTER age 21, it seems FOOKING IMPOSSIBLE.

and its just so weird and sad and devastating to have such a DRAMATIC change in a person during probably THE most important, formative period of your life. During the most important years of your life, the peak of your youth, you transform from a Top 10% Winner, to a Bottom 10% Loser. HOW THE FOOK DOES THAT HAPPEN? AND WHAT CAN YOU DO ABOUT IT????

LETS FIND OUT hahahahahaha.

i mean 3-4 years is a good chunk of time and a lot of little things happened and it was a snowball effect. at this point it is monday morning quarterbacking hahahahaha.

the more relevant question to me and people like me, is how do we FIX it.

yeah it IS important to know how it happens and how to PREVENT it….this would be hugely important for 15-16 year old boys.

but thats over half a lifetime ago hahahaha.

also want to trim beard to level 1 today.

maybe charge batteries of stuff like phone and etc.


yeah want to get a good number of pushups in today.

and some hardcore Fasting until Dinner hehehe which will prob be a bigass dinner.

and then ideally a nice long powerwalk after dinner. while puffing a footlong MJ hahahaha and listening to good music.

doing a bunch of audio/podcast prep right now hahaha. basically truncating, tempo, compressing, dividing into 10 minute chunks if needed. stuff like MW, georgie boy, mike enoch scandza speech, azzmador and weev, couple of older anglin with carolyn yeager interviews, the more recent weev videos i havent already watched.

still got 50 pages left to read of MK. its gonna happen and i am trying to read a few pages or listen to 10 minutes every day. it takes 130 minutes of audiobook to cover 50 pages. DAMN.

i mean its basically 35 hours to listen to the whole book. probably can read it quicker. or not.

every hour, do as many pushups as you can at that time. push yourself but try not to pull any muscles.

repeat every 3 days and then you will be strong and will be able to pull 6/10’s. bang them mercilessly, ungently, unnicely, and then you will be able to level up to 6.5/10s hahahahahaha

ok so today i am getting kinda serious with that once an hour thing. do 14 pushups, then 12, then 11, then 10, then 9 hahahaha.

also “fasting all day” until dinner so energy seems kinda low right now at around 3 pm. maybe attempt powernap. was moderately productive earlier at least. well. thats arguable. i was productive….but prob not enough. did some things, but not ENOUGH things.

oh well its better than a negro or a neckbeard or a neet hahaha.

2 hours later

well laid down and got a powernap in. laid down for like 1 hour and 20 minutes but certainly didnt sleep for more than 15. got up when Recorded Sales Call called.

anyway it totally helped. slightly higher energy, slightly less Hungry. before i was so low energy i didnt even want to Neckbeard on the Internet, playing cards, writing, reading .

ok ate huge dinner. it was delicious.

it takes 35 hours to read MK. you should really set aside at least 2 months to do it. is it worth it? honestly not really hahahaha. now im just doing it to finish what i started. but it is worth proudly displaying it on your home bookshelf. but actually reading it is not very fun. GLR’s WP is much much more fun. or david duke my awakening. i am happy and thankful to now own all 3 books. cant beleive it took me till 2017 to do that. but i didnt make any money in 2016 ehehehehe so i could not justify buying books or anything.

i would take online classes if i could only take one at a time, and they were at least 15 weeks long rather than accelerated ~8 week courses. and that they were under 100 dollars a credit hour. and that i could get an actually useful masters degree and reference letter from the professors saying how i am in the top 10% of the class and deserve a 30k a year job.

all the online classes ive seen are less than 10 weeks. even for a 3 credit class this is way too much.

also if you have a job, you have to study and do homework for your job so you can supplement your productivity and learn to do your work faster. you dont have time for SCHOOL. 40 hours of work a week takes ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING out of you. you cant even go grocery shopping, let alone do FAMILY stuff, raise CHILDREN, take care of your house, do HEALTH related stuff, do SOCIAL stuff, or go to SKOOL. all you can do is study work related stuff, do work from home, do MJ, and sleep, sweet sweet sleep.

ok that is more black pill than necessary hahaha. i dont do workstudy or homework at home any more. i leave the work at work hahahahaha. which i absolutely did not and COULD not do with muh last job.

caffeine does make you urinate but the water in coffee and tea does count for your hydration.



july 11


It is virtually impossible to find a woman who is a virgin after age 15 these days. I can say with little doubt that you have a .01% chance of ever marrying a woman who has not slept with or sucked on at least 3-5 guys before you. Society is entirely too corrupted and morals are entirely too inverted for you to find a virginal woman. Therefore, holding virginity up as the ultimate standard that women need to meet in order to be with you is going to result in you remaining alone for the rest of your life.

I have struggled with dealing with a woman’s sexual history many times before. When I was 18 it almost drove me to madness, and I practically wrecked a relationship I had with a beautiful, huge-tittied, blue eyed girl that was racially conscious and amenable to White Nationalism (she has since married and reproduced with some other White guy). I know what it’s like to obsess over how many dicks your girl has had in her mouth, believe me.

I would set the standard a little lower. Not a virgin? That’s fine, but have you ever done anything sexual whatsoever with a nonwhite (J00s included)? Have you ever taken it up the ass with anyone? Have you ever been pissed/shat on? Have you ever been DPed? If the girl answers “No” to all of those, I deem her a keeper. Even in this age of POZ, one should still be able to expect at least THAT degree of purity.

END QUOTE from DS, see link where it says 7h


I think that quote is very apropos to a happy valentines gay For You. hahaha.

i’m pretty much 100% agree with that guy. finding a virgin is impossible. we have to take some concessions. the only thing i would add is, how high of a number are you willing to go? i mean yeah, mudsharking, race mixing, ass blasting, all the things he mentions are all dealbreakers. but only 3 to 5 guys? i mean methinks he’s still being too demanding!

all women have taken it up the ass!

all women have well over 5 partners!

all women have race mixed at least once!

besides, i race mixed with a joo, so…..

so what. then i HAVE to permit that muh wife race mixes with one joo. big fookin deal. i can live with a woman fooking one joo boy, rather than fooking 10 negros or arabs.

mainly because joos are the most white looking nonwhite race. when i first met the joo slut i fooked, i thought she was white. she had pale white skin and like fooking blue or green eyes!

over the years i learned that yes some joos do look like this.

i mean this was the perfect example of ashkenazim mixed with a decent amount of white. i would have liked to see HER 23 and me!

im ecstatic i never had god forsaken mischling babies with her…..but i still didnt fook her as many times as i wanted. because i got dumped for being a needy, feelsy beta bitchboi who liked her too much. she wasn’t that likable to be liked THAT much. it was just the oxytocin. “just.” i mean this is totally NATURES WAY to help me bond to someone, and that “infatuation” could have TOTALLY been the start of a long term thing. i wanted it to be!

so yeah thats why i dont discount “infatuation.” NATURE INTENDS for infatuation to be the First Step To True Luv.

anyone who discounts infatuation is a slut who has taken too many cox, been infatuated too many times, burned out all their oxytocin, and can no longer become infatuated OR LUV anyone ever again, so they are just JELLY. THEY HATIN. on some level they know they will never feel those feels ever again.

they will always find some way to make you question, doubt, say, do i really want to accept this. like maybe shes only taken it up the ass from one guy…..but she was a crazy butt slut with him and he fooked her 5000000 times in the ass.

there will always be SOMETHING where you say, that is fooking DISGUSTING and DEGENERATE. am i REALLY willing to accept that in my wife, the mother of my children? then while you are debating it, she will dump you and then you will be devastated and think YASSS YASSS I AM WILLING TO TAKE THAT, NOW PLEASE JUST COME BACK, and she never will, and it will take you 3 years to get over her. then you will be a 40 year old man making 12k a year with no retirement, health care, anything hehehe.

well she was only with one or two black guys.

she only had one or two abortions.

she only made one or two sex tapes.

she only has one or two stupidass tattoos.

she only cheated on one or two guys.

she only totally devastated one or two guys.

i mean this is what women ARE and you cant be butthurt about it! you just have to find the needle in the haystack and then PHYSICALLY RESTRAIN her from….what? from doing WHAT NATURE INTENDED?

WEll, nature can intend one of two things. The natural path is a spectrum. on one end of that spectrum is total selfish negro bullshit, which women will NATURALLY gravitate to without supervision and direction.

when given direction, women will NATURALLY gravitate to the Healthy Natural Way Of Women: being loving, nurturing wives and mothers.

similarly, men can either be lazy, shiftless, muh dickin hedonistic fat negros stuffing their faces and lazing around all day, OR they can be proud, hard-working, masculine, tough men, good husbands and fathers.

both the good and the bad ways are natural.

i guess its comforting that there even IS a natural good way, and not just one way. natural bad hahahaha. so take solace in that white pill hahahahaha.

RAC influenced black metal?

really i just want something that is as high quality as vapaudenristi but with damn english lyrics. not sure if you can or should combine BM and RAC. i mean even MA doesnt do that in Vap, he just has a separate BM band hahahaha.

sniper is another rac band from finland which vap did a GREAT cover of. i guess sniper has maybe 50% of their albums in english and it is safe to say that they are an influence of vap.

juyl 12

mike e posts his 23 and me, shows 0.0% jooish. i didnt think he was anyway but i think its a good faith bona fide thing to do…..and not a moment too soon hehehe. i mean was that really SO HARD?

mike e at scandza forum.

did greg j not go to this? perhaps he was disinvited.

mike enoch, mill woes, and others gave speeches. looks like pretty good quality here. video and hopefully audio. no reason not to be. but 80% of the enoch speeches ive heard have been not great quality. which sucks because he is a great speaker. both in content and delivery. i wish anglin or weev did stuff like this. it does make a difference.

or maybe it only makes a difference to ME because i have a personal preference for Live Speeches.

yeah well there is also great Real Life Social Networking happening at these conferences.

nice hahaha

so now anglin is sort of commenting on the case and saying that he is living in nigeria hahahahahahahahahahaha. im guessing his lawyer said it was ok to lie about that because when this first happened anglin was not saying a single damn word. getting pretty excited for his day in court hahahaha.

ideally i would like to see him get up in front of the national news cameras every single day and make inflammatory, public anti-joo speeches in front of the courthouse until every person in the US knows who he is. and he becomes The Leader of the alt right, or the vvn movement, or whatever.

i would like to bang that gersh in a milf sort of way though. no not in a violent Raepey way, law enforcers, just saying she is a total 6.5/10 and that i deffo would bang. if given the consensual opportunity hahaha by the poor persecuted victim gersh.

i mean how do you like that SMUG look on her face in the damn CNN-produced video???!!?!?!?!

hey kid, theres a free xbox for you inside this oven, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA classic.

see i wish MA didnt do degenerate shit like this. this is from around oct 2016. well he’s not technically doing the painting.

its a ridiculous “art” piece where one side of the vinyl is MA’s noise project grunt, and the other side is a hand drawn painting by one of his artist buddies, and this artist demands that the submitted photo be a human face covered in male sperm, or female juices, and that the photo should be of the sender, or taken by the sender. then the artist paints a painting of the photo of the sperm covered face on side B of the vinyl.

i guess we are making the statement that “YOUR GF IS A GOD DAMN DIRTY PORNO WHORE” and all women are whores that are just as dirty and filthy as the porn produced by the joos.

yeah well i disagree. i dont agree at ALL that hwyte women are anywhere nearly as inherently degenerate as the porn that joos produce.

this is the type of thing i would have to have a long conversation with MA about. and also i probably could not convince him.

who’s that woman? is that MA’s GF? (i notice he has a ring on his finger.) i would not want to defile my GF like that. how would he respond to that statement? well, humans are inherently defiled. we are just defiled bags of flesh and its really no defilement at all to use our FACES as a JIZZ RAG. this is what nature intended. nature intended nothing.

so thats a little NIHILISTIC for me and i cannot support it at all, in fact, its downright JOOISH. this POWER ELECTRONICS shit is possibly the MOST jooish thing i have ever seen, even more than porn. it is like porn stripped of ANY ATTEMPT AT TITILLATION. and that’s probably the point. so maybe it IS making the implicit judgment that porn SHOULDNT be titilating?

so you just stare at ugly defilement and say IT IS WHAT IT IS?

no, in my Weltanschauung, you make an EXPLICIT CONDEMNATION of this. you DONT show it. you DO show and glorify pictures of hwyte wimmin in hwheat fields. that would be an acceptable painting MIKKO.

a guy with a nationalist RAC project SHOULD KNOW BETTER.

and i think that represents his MATURE adult side. whereas this power electronics is his EDGY IMMATURE ADOLESCENT side. but its also jooish, whether he knows it or not, and i’d really like him to put it permanently in the past.





thats the thing, is that i am TERRIBLE at SELLING things to people. convincing them to dump the old and get with the new. dump your old degenerate ideas and replace them with new, good, regenerate ideas.  stop even THINKING about faces covered in sperm and start thinking about having CHILDREN with your WIFE. if he had CHILDREN this would go a long way to fixing him IMHO.  he NEEDS to have CHILDREN.

bbbbbut what if he already DOES?

i would bet small money that he does not tho.

this is the closest thing i have to a Celeb Crush hahaha. well, i also have this for Anglin and Weev.

also the fact that MA still does shit like this in 2016 tells me that he is not a regular reader of daily stormer hahahaha. and he SHOULD be. or TRS. or stormfront. shit or richard spencers alt right dot com. shit how about counter currents. greg had kind of a scandal recently but counter currents is still classic. outside of greg’s drama, CC is GREAT reading.

i think he spends more time Creating and Working On Musical Art than reading stuff like that.

so i would advise him, less power electronics edgyness, and more vapaudenristi regeneracy. get into THAT mindset.

READ daily stormer hehehe. The Three Words hehehehe.


listen to me making podcasts where i narrate epic DS BBS threads HAHAHAHA.

sniper. the finnish rac band sniper appears to be a very catchy, fun, decently-produced hwyte power band hahahaha and a good band to continue with when wanting to branch out from vapaudenristi.

i mean sniper is very explicit about it. you have to be to call your album “HAIL THE HWYTE RACE” hahahahahaha. i mean there is nothing ambiguous about that, and i don’t want there to be!

its just weird to have someone who makes great nationalist music, but its hard to tell exactly what the lyrics say, but its hard to get a measurement of where he is on his journey exactly, because he still does shit no fully aware hwyte hwarrior would do. they wouldnt even THINK of ASSOCIATING themselves with degenerate Transgressive Art.

so i don’t understand the Power Electronics Aesthetic. and there is an aesthetic.

there’s something hwyte about it in the sense of it seems to be hwyte people showing What Happens When Whytes are Infected By Jooish Degeneracy, in the most Ugly, Painful, Starkest Way. Like here we are, suffering and dying of this moral, spiritual CANCER. isn’t this grim AF.

like, people who are so far in the depths of despair they dont even recognize that they are despairing. they just accept and observe the despair and say it is what it is.

i dont agree with this at all. will never understand it. don’t want to understand it. kind of like i will never understand or want to understand noise music. which, not coincidentally, overlaps hugely with power electronics. which is basically a subgenre of noise i guess.

there are way more productive things for whites to do with their time and energy. like blogging or playing vidya hahaha.

so women let themselves be treated like porn whores. NO SHIT. women can be manipulated into ANYTHING. you can take the virgin girl next door and videotape her prolapsing every orifice in her body while stabbing her own newborn baby to death over and over in the face with a stiletto heel. women will let themselves do the most defiled and EVIL shit.

theres no point in SHOWING it. you dont need to show it to know it. if anything, you should be promoting propaganda that encourages MEN to STOP women from going down this horrible evil road.

what GOOD does it do? even drugs and junk food serve a hedonistic good. wheres the reward system for Pure Degradation unless you are a true Sociopath?? I mean it makes more sense to make Amateur PORN out of Normie Girls with Jizz on their Faces – and tons of this IS made – than to make edgy outsider “art” out of it.

shit these outsider artists probably watch their share of actual pornography too.

well dont! STOP WATCHING PORN! and your edgy outsider art wont be so pornified!

i mean it doesnt even make sense to jerk off to this stuff the way peopel jerk off to porn. its as if the POINT is just to gaze at it and Savor The Degradation, not to be Actively Stroking Yourself tyring to Get Off on the Hottest Possible Video or picture. but to stroke your chin while stroking yourself slowly with no intention of even getting off.

i dont pretend to be an expert on it. it is very niche obscure esoteric shit and i probably DONT understand it. but i DO know that there’s never a good reason to show or look at pictures like this. there’s no excuse. not even for a normie masterbater. its specifically BY and FOR totally FOOKED UP PEOPLE.

and its NOT GOOD to be FOOKED UP. UNFOOK YOURSELF. dont make your identity about being a FOOKED UP FOOKUP. youre BETTER than that.

i mean you could almost compare to to TOTALLY taboo shit like incest, pedophilia, necrophilia, bestiality. and uhhhh im pretty sure some of that shit DOES get covered in power electronics.


i mean this isnt the end of the world that this one guy does some questionable degenerate things. WE ALL DO. im sure plenty of holier than thou hwyte hwarrior types have things they want to keep in the closet.

well hes not keeping it in the closet though.  and he doesnt Clearly Condemn Degeneracy how i would like him to.

i mean some of us still do degenerate shit but at least we KNOW its degenerate and hopefully feel GUILTY about it and try to Fix It!

or we dont, and think we’re a special snowflake and can get away with it because excuses. morally lazy hahahahaha.

for example, my desire to do MJ.

and then i say, doing MJ a few times a week is not NEARLY as degenerate as intentionally gazing into a nihilistic abyss of despair and degradation, and sociopathically enjoying degadation for degradations sake. i mean its kinda like a damn jooish sex fetish! like sadism or humiliation!

its INHERENTLY jooish to have any sort of FETISH! turning SEX into some weird fetish thing. porn does it, PE kinda does it. i dont think jerking off to Thoughts of you having Normal Secs with an attractive woman really does it.

i mean way to take something NATURAL and GOOD and turn it into something WEIRD and BAD. gee I WONDER WHO COULD BE BEHIND THIS.


sun feb 11

july 8

actually was invited to wedding for first time in almost 3 years. i was nervous because i have always been an acquaintance and never really a superfriend. in theory i dont mind the idea of meeting new people and i know most normies are generally nice, especially at something like this, but its still Stressful to be around a lot of people who are all talking to each other.

but it wasnt so bad, in fact it was good. but still i noticed how all the normies have a SENSE OF HUMOR and are CONSTANTLY JOKING with each other. the guy i was sitting next to, who i sort of knew, well he is also really funny and i like his jokes and i generally like him, largely because of his funny jokes and his good natured personality. but then i compare myself and think wow i wish i could be as funny as he is.

or this other guy i know who is also pretty funny but also a god damn true chad alpha male. i mean he absolutely has SLAYED the pvssy for over 10 years and still does. he is basically an alpha male and has the skills to pull basically every woman he wants. but he is also a great guy, not a douchebag or joo. he is very loyal to his friends and always tries to do the right thing.

but yeah i like him too and if i imitated him i would certainly have more success with women. he really should start a School For Incel KVs. He might have been a beta white knight briefly around 18, but he quickly learned how to deal with women VERY well.

i really should make an effort to get more friendly with him. i have technically known him for like 12 fooking years. real nice guy. but not nearly as nice with the ladies. and he shouldn’t be. niceness is not how you deal with women.

but i would LOVE to see him find a GOOD woman and get married and have many beautiful white children, simply because he would clearly make a GREAT father. and he is handsome and smart and charming and his children would be too.  but if he, who can have any woman he wants, can’t find a good woman, that is discouraging.

and he has medium and long term GFs as well as banging sluts. he was with some gurl for 2 years and i thought he might marry her but then that ended, she moved across the country, got an ambitious career, got married to some other guy. im not sure who dumped who there. with him its hard to tell because he has the power to get bored with women and has dumped his fair share of women.

there was a qt 24 year old woman at our table, i couldnt tell if she was dating this total niceguy beta who was sitting next to her. he seemed like a truly nice guy, and not in the bad way, but i knew this would be big trouble for their rel, if they indeed had a rel, because he was clearly not exerting ANY dominance over her. he was WAY too nice and sweet and meek to have a young qt GF. maybe a fat ugly slob.

now this gurl didnt seem like a huge whore. no tattoos, not obnoxious, not bitchy, not dressed like a whore. probably n<15 hahahahaha. maybe even <10 hahahaha.

yet my first thought was, wow, this guy is going to get eaten alive by her, even if she’s a decent woman, AND my charming alpha chad friend would be able to totally steal her from him if he wanted. then he would bang her 50 times and get bored with her and dump her hahahaha.

but overall the wedding was nice and good and fun, i am just making observations of people i like and respect and should try to hang out with more.

i had a hard time being witty because i have no sense of humor that doesnt involve gassing kykes and bullwhipping blacks and enslaving women and hwyte sharia raep gangs and women being awful rats, and really this type of humor understandably comes off as bitter and creepy to normies.

i took a valium before going to the church, and then a second valium while about 90 minutes into the reception. it worked all right.

a big win for me was when i went to the pub with a guy in between the wedding and reception and essentially just had a conversation with him for an hour one on one. now he did 80% of the talking at my probing questions about his exciting, top tier, alpha male, elite ubermensch career job where he has to be making at least 80k a year if not 100k and has ridiculous benefits. funny that you have to be in the top 5% elite for the company to Take Good Care of its employees in terms of health care, work life balance, time off, sick days, retirement, etc. that is a world i will never know.

but he is a really smart guy. but also insanely leftist. ive mentioned him before hahahaha.

what i learned is that i may not disagree with him so much on the idea that income inequality is a little ridiculous, and that real life global capitalism leads to wealth filtering up and up rather than benefitting society as a whole. we would just disagree on methods of “redistributing” income/profits and of course on race.  he would be like a bernie sanders socialist and i would be a histerian racial volkisch state nationalist socialist hehehehe.

but he knows his stuff really well on Econ and Statistics, which I appreciate. I mean I liked muh econ classes too. he just did a much more business major and is able to use his econ and stats and marketing knowledge on a daily basis as part of his career. i cant even explain a bell curve to a normie. but he sure can hahaha. in fact that was a topic we discussed.

so yeah that was a big achievement. just an hourlong conversation with a guy in a pub. i was started to get a little tired near the end of that though, even though i only did 15% of the talking. shit just LISTENING is pretty exhausting hahaha.

then at the reception i was able to Crowdsource all those social interactions and conversations, where basically all conversation is short term brief witty exchanges with the person next to. i have a hard time being witty to. So I am just Nice instead and laugh at their jokes and make lame follow ups on their jokes.

but at least i am fairly confident the people fairly like me and dont scorn me like when i scorn women in the abstract. shit when i meet women in real life im not scornful to them. shit probably if i WERE, they would be more secsy to me. you have to do it in the right way, not in a butthurt bitter way. ive seen people make that mistake too.

also my other big win was dancing at the wedding. i really dont dislike dancing that much even though i cant do it, i just go up and make a fool of myself with autistic, virginal spazzing.

but honestly people dont care, theyre not judging you on how shitty you are dancing, if anything, they’re really happy that other people are out there with them.

i guess i started doing this when i was a young man getting RAGING DRUNK at college parties, and the drunkenness helped. unfortunately i didnt do Dance Parties ENOUGH to actually get action out of them with muh drunken dancing.

the actual good news is that i can still be bold enough to do ridiculous dancing WITHOUT drinking. valium prob wouldnt hurt tho hahaha. i did take some valium.

actually got invited to a function tonight which i quickly agreed to going to. i will bring 10 dollars worth of beer for the others to hopefully drink.

went to store and got a bar of dr bronners natural vegan organic castile soap. i avoided it last week because dr bronner is an admitted joo. and there is super hippie “branding” on their label. but aesthetically i liked the label. and i liked the list of ingredients better than the j r watkins soap i got last time. i just got a small one. there were larger ones of the bronners i might get after i finish the other ones. obv i will use the larger watkins and the smaller bronners i have now. just saying i have a better feeling about the bronners. even though bronners is jooish as FOOK.

but he seems like a hippie dippie kind of hippie who is serious about using purely natural ingredients, which is exactly what i want in muh soap. unless those are all jooish lies. i mean the only way this could be a jooish scam is if the dr bronners soap is basically the same thing as dial.

should read some reviews. but they had good scents like lavender, tea tree, rose, peppermint. i got the tea tree.

check the amazon reviews. this is a large bottle of the liquid version. i just got a small bar.

amazon reviews seem pretty good.

july 10

tried the dr bronners joo soap and was very impressed. will buy again. just wish it wasnt so jooish.

but i kinda like “socially responsible” companies up to the point that they probably treat their employees well and dont try to screw their customers or employees. the hiring women and nonwhites, thats just stupid tho.  but if you can be successful enough to be a successful company, and then make a point about not maximizing jooish greed, thats good.

of course, companies like this are impossible to get a job with unless you have the most impressive of resumes with top college, extracurriculars, internships.

nobody ever told me that extracurriculars are even MORE important in COLLEGE than they were in HIGH SCHOOL!

in high school i knew i HAD to do a minimum of extracurriculars to get into college and to get into National Honor Society. those things were never questioned and i didnt really protest too much.

but once i got to college i never realized you HAD to do even MORE extracurriculars to get a JOB or grad skool.

how was i so stupid, naive, and immature not to realize that? because i was young, dumb, and full of jizz, and a young, dumb, stupid, naive, immature 18-21 year old!

also used the dr bronners soap on hair as i am now using Natural Soap as a Shampoo and staying away from jooish chemicoshampoos and sticking only to jooish natural soaps hahahaha.

i strongly recommend buying semi fancy “organic” or “natural” soaps as opposed to the more mainstream soaps.

this reichsmark is awesome. so glad i bought that. so worth it. i might buy a 5 reichsmark which has a higher silver content at 90% but it is at least 25 dollars if not 30. would just as rather buy an official currency coin (with silver of course) of poland. cuz i like poland and have blood there. but i also like AH and AH’s germany and wish they got along better with the poles. ideally a polish german reich would have been awesome. god damn that would have been great. so who was the asshole there. germany or poland. 625/690 pages into MK and he still hasnt talked at length about poland. he talks about how france is germanys natural enemy but hasnt said a damn thing about poland.

well even more ideally, a german polish russian block to fight against the degenerate globalised jooified west. but of course much of the east was jooified with gommunism for a very long time.

you can get jooed with jooish global capitalism or jooish global gommunism. your choice goy. actually not your choice at all.

i would recommend something more like a nonjooish, totally hwyte form of capitalism, where all employees were paid good wages, good benefits, and given a chance to buy ownership in the company, and as little was done “globally” as possible.